Speaker 1: Creativity is an addiction, unplugged because we will always say
yes to creativity, totally uncut because we all make mistakes.
So let's turn it into a tool. This is arrow unplugged. Hey, Sarah,
this is vocal dfrag. We do the vocal defragging while
on a transition walk through this beautiful forest here in
South Charlotte, North Carolina. Defragging is simple, but at the
same time, it's also very difficult. Ask somebody to ask
themselves a question and then question the answer, and they'll
look at you. They'll go what, Yeah, that inner person.
You've got all those voices inside your head and heart,
the ones that control every decision that you make. Let
them ask you some questions, give them an answer, and
then give them permission to ask you even more questions
on that answer that you gave them. Learning how to
defrag is breaking it down, learning to understand who you
are as a person. Defragging is also something that I
do with my written journals. It started in November of
twenty seventeen. The goal was to try to figure out
what's going on here? What, why am I falling apart?
What led to this? How did I get here? Where
am I going to go if I don't grow asking
the questions, questioning the answers. Like I said, it seems
so simple, but it's very difficult for a lot of
people because it means identifying with your truer self and
people you can tell. You can tell by selfies. You
can tell by the way that you do your lawn,
the way you cook your food, the way you put
makeup on. You can tell. Not everybody likes themselves, so
they try to hide behind the paint. I call that
a plastic candy coated bathroom merror. Smile, Oh, I know
when somebody is sharing that monkey. But you got to
ask the questions and then you question the answers, and
those answers are things you may not know and you
may not like, but you still learn from it. You
learn to grow forward. This is vocal de fright today.
Our subject is a pretty said, but it's tough. This
is what came to me in my daily writing. My
sickness is not what I put on paper, it's holding back.
Let that sink in for just a moment. Okay, Your
sickness is not what you put on paper, what you
put on social media, what you say in verbal, The
verbal conversations. Your sickness is not that. It's when you
hold back. That's where you're sick. Because we hold back
our inner feelings are going. But I wanted to I
wanted to say that, I really think you should know.
But something that sensor inside of you said no, no, no, no, no, no,
not going there. We're not going to cause any trouble today.
We're not going to speak the truth. Let them learn
on their own. How many times have you said it
and or heard it? Let them learn on their own.
They'll figure it out. You know. The thing is is
that life doesn't come with a book. It comes with teachers.
That's us. If somebody is doing something wrong and you
flat out know it, why are you holding back? With
your own heart, with compassion, the way that you hold
on to it, come up with a creative way to
help a person along. What you put on paper isn't
the sickness. It's when you're holding yourself back. What are
you doing that's forcing you to hold things back? Do
you like life the way that it is? Do you
enjoy the way that people treat you? What about all
the different things that you do on an everyday basis
that others aren't comfortable with are they holding back? And
if they are, what are they holding back? What would
you learn about yourself from somebody else if they just
started talking openly. But they don't because they don't want
to injure you. They don't want to judge you. They
don't want to do things with you that could knock
you off your path because we work so hard to
be on whatever path it is that we're walking. I'm
on this path here in South Charlotte, North Carolina, moving
through a group of trees. I've got living things around
me that the hawk is above me. There were deer
out in the front part of the forest this morning.
It's all around me. There are things moving around us.
But if they are holding things back, that hurts me
because what do they know about holding things back? What
does my dog know about holding things back? When she's
ready to go, she's ready to go, she doesn't hold back.
But as human beings, we don't move forward. We stop
and we hold back. The neighbors that are constantly borrowing
things from you, but you don't say anything, the idea
that your family could be better, but you don't say
anything to help make things up a little bit better.
You just accept things the way that they are. What
you put on paper isn't the sickness. It's holding back.
That's why I invite you to defrag. You're holding back
on yourself. You're keeping yourself from doing what it needs
to do in order to age. Well, oh my god,
he went that way. We're not getting older, Yeah we are.
What are you doing to prevent yourself from accepting you
as you? How often do you look at yourself in
that bathroom mirror or in that rear view mirror in
the car you don't like what you see? Why don't
hold back? Why just say it? Give yourself an opportunity
to be heard. Ask the questions, and then question the answers.
I'm thinking that's pretty fair, because if you ask the
questions and you think that question is unfair, if you
hold back on the answer, you're not being fair. Try
it some time, Ask the questions, question the answer is.
You don't have to call it d fragging. I do
that because it's just it's just a word that came
to me and I said, all right, I'm not going
to hold back high marol, and that's vocal deep rag