Speaker 1: All right, welcome to another episode that I feel create. Uh,
we're gonna wake it up though, we're gonna wake it up.
Speaker 2: We're gonna wake it up. My kids woke me up
at four thirty to day.
Speaker 1: The thing about kids, bro, they have no regard to
how the night went before, even though they caused the
night before. Regardless, if they stay up late, if they
want to run around scream all day that they'll ruin
your whole day. Go to sleep, wake up, and then
it's a clean slate. So every morning, every fucking morning,
I'm in here with my brothers DJ AKA Mike Haney.
He ain't got no Mike, and that's good. I'm in
here with my brother Harry.
Speaker 2: What's up, bro, Yo, what's good? Wake it up? Bro?
I'm up man, I'm up up here, I'm here, I'm here.
Speaker 1: And we have two guests. They got too, that's Edema
and Vania, a demon. Say how you say how to
the people?
Speaker 3: Hello? People?
Speaker 2: Yeah? How you doing today?
Speaker 3: I'm doing wonderful.
Speaker 1: I like how you. I like how you how you
got your hair done to the shape of your head?
Speaker 3: Thank you?
Speaker 2: I really fuck with that, thank you, because a lot
of people do not do that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't know about them.
Speaker 2: You know what some motherfuckers that and the lashes is
two tong.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I got some orange and blacket.
Speaker 2: See that's the niggas, don't. I can't just bro I'm
just falling.
Speaker 3: You know what your thoughts is.
Speaker 1: I'm just falling, motherfucker. I said, I saw a girl
that I like with our lashes. I thought that bitch
had cancer. I don't like it, don't because don't they
look like.
Speaker 2: But that's probably because she wore last year so much
that when she's pull them off and take the real last.
Speaker 3: The same way. I hope I don't beat that bitch.
Speaker 2: You're bugs flying on her face. She ain't got no defenses.
Speaker 3: Noning, Okay, all she got is her nose hairs.
Speaker 2: Bless you ever seen a girl with long nose hair, period? No,
I don't think I've never looked close enough. Now that
you just said that, I'm about to start looking for those.
I don't think I've ever thought to even look at that.
Speaker 4: Now.
Speaker 2: You don't put that in my head down. I saw
a trans. I saw a trans yesterday at Target, and
it was a girl going into a boy and she
had small titties, but she had a full beard, she
was built like a pepper.
Speaker 5: Ah, So how do you know that it was a
girl going to a boy and not a boy going
to the girl and already has top surgery? I never know,
So like when they be like call me, they them,
I'd be like, all right.
Speaker 2: That motherfucking beard looked like it was rented.
Speaker 3: I'm done.
Speaker 2: The way that she was walking looked like it was ready.
She was ready. I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't even know when you started dressing the genders differently,
Like when if if you still got a we wi
and you want to be identified as a girl, why
how how I'm supposed to know if you're walking around
with a beard we wei and titties.
Speaker 2: Okay, Yeah, I was about to say, I don't. I
think I just use very broad words like I won't
say ma'am or sir. I'll just be like, hey, yeah,
nothing after that, nothing, Because I dealt with that at Target.
I had to hire one and I wasn't even about
to bother asking what they preferred, so I just kept
it very simple.
Speaker 1: Shout out to my cousin. She gay and uh and
we're close. We're close. So when I be asking her
questions about being gay. She'd be like, why are you
asking me this stuff? I'm like, who the fuck else
I'm I supposed to ask? I'm trying. I'm trying to
be I'm trying to be respectful, and I'm trying to
be knowledgeable about your situation and what you go through.
And how can I not make you feel uncomfortable by
making jokes?
Speaker 2: Or you're just making jokes because she were Jordan Shorts.
Speaker 5: You gotta make jokes. So did you make jokes with
everybody else?
Speaker 2: So I don't make jokes about your sexuality though.
Speaker 5: Well not about their sexuality individuality. But you know, like
my oldest nephew was gay, okay, and you know in
the room he's twenty seven.
Speaker 2: Okay.
Speaker 6: Most gay men have a sense of fashion.
Speaker 5: And I do stand up comedy and I told him,
you have no sense of fashionnefyt.
Speaker 6: I was like, so what's the point?
Speaker 1: Yeah, you're just getting fucked. That's crazy, that's just a crime.
That's not the top. Are you just a free Yeah?
Speaker 2: He just fucking He was a comedian.
Speaker 6: Y'all do a little hodgepodge of things.
Speaker 1: Wow, that's nice that that hodgepodge just showed your age
because what the fuck is that?
Speaker 2: How?
Speaker 1: How how is it being in Indianapolis? And both of
you got followings bigger than all of ours, So how
in Indianapolis? Like people notice me when I go places
and my ship ain't nowhere near like that. Y'all go
places and motherfuckers, but like you're so and you're so
and so if you get noticed.
Speaker 4: I didn't been that since I worked at Georgetown Market.
I done got a couple of people that come in
there and they're like, I follow you, and I'm like.
Speaker 3: Are you doing?
Speaker 4: They like, yeah, look it up, I'm looking at And
I probably didn't even follow him back.
Speaker 3: But it's so many people, and you'd be surprised.
Speaker 4: I just be like, hell, I don't even go and
think think about the social media, you know, I'll be
forgetting when people come up to me. But you got
some people who will side out of your ass like
you ain't nobody, no for real, for really, Yeah, the
mother fucker don't even want to respect you or even
talk to you.
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's weird.
Speaker 3: It is. That's Indianapolis. Though.
Speaker 2: To me a lot of people probably see y'all too
and know who y'are and don't say anything. Yeah, like
I've seen Vania, right, I've seen you before after DJ
just showed me a video he did for you, and
I of course recognized you, but I wasn't. I feel
like that's kind of fanning out and not necessary, like, hey,
my partner did your video. That's it didn't Yeah, it.
Speaker 6: Didn't feel like I am an approachable person in general.
Speaker 5: People probably wouldn't say that though I don't look necessarily
real friendly in real life. But I've been in the airport,
like I went to uh Puerto Rico and somebody was
like silver Fox and I stopped it around, like what.
Speaker 3: The fuck they talking to? They talk to me?
Speaker 5: I mean because I go by silber Fox sometimes and
I was like, Hi.
Speaker 1: Why why I'll be acting shot though I don't I.
Speaker 5: Be on their bullshit and I okay, it was never
an intention for me to build a following. I've posted, Yeah,
I be like when I first started working out, it
was a reminder for myself to motivate myself, right okay,
And so sometimes you got to laugh to keep from crying,
and so I would post it that I thought was
funny or that I was just like, Wow, this is dumb.
I can't believe but I don't got this fat and
everything clapping when I'm trying to work out, And you
realize how many other people think that way, you know,
And it's still weird to me that people technically know
me that don't know me, because they'll say hey, Vanya
and not be like, I don't know Vanya. But I
don't correct them because that lets me know that I
don't know them in real life.
Speaker 2: So you separate your internet personality from the real youth
in a way or no.
Speaker 6: No, I'm me. I just be on that. I mean,
I'd be sitting around bullshitting in real life.
Speaker 5: But I'm not a linear person, and I think with
the Internet, people expect you to be linear, and so
because of that, people are always like you should talk more.
Speaker 6: I hate my voice?
Speaker 3: Why most Yeah, most.
Speaker 1: Women hate their voice. I record women for a living,
and everybody I don't like my voice. I tell the
motherfucker he whisper in my ear.
Speaker 2: Talking about the first time y'all heard y'allselves talk like
through a recording or something. Is that how you? Because
I didn't know I sounded how I sound until I
started doing this, and I was like, I never you
never really what you hear in your head is not
what everybody else hears.
Speaker 6: I heard a recording of me and I thought it
was an old white lady, and I.
Speaker 2: Can hear that. I can hear that. What would her
name be?
Speaker 5: People used to when I used to answer the phone people,
I'll be like, hello, thank you for calling whatever, whatever
this is Vinia.
Speaker 6: They'd be like, hey, Denise, I'm okay, okay.
Speaker 1: People are weird. People are weird. Yeah, I think I
think a lot of women don't. Like when I lived
in Atlanta and in Hawaii, I missed black women from
Indianapolis saying when you just talk to a girl you like,
and she was like, I went to I want to
target to that, And I missed that. I missed just
that little piece. And I don't think a lot of
because I listened to audio all day every day. I
don't think black women, especially black women from here, realized
that the dialect that y'all have is.
Speaker 2: Niggas like it. I want.
Speaker 1: I wouldn't have dated anybody that's not from here because
I don't like the way they talk.
Speaker 6: Somebody told me I had an accent. I was like,
what the fuck is it?
Speaker 2: You do have an accent?
Speaker 3: That's the same overhead n me.
Speaker 4: No, no, no, I mean I can definitely, you know,
switch it up though, you know, if I want to
get into a different crowd, I'm gonna definitely switch it
up for him.
Speaker 2: Everything you're part of that busy crowd. No, you ain't
fo boosy.
Speaker 4: I did fucking boosy that one song walked out side. Look,
I'm tired of this man.
Speaker 2: So who you listen to?
Speaker 3: I listened to a lot of motivational affirmation on me.
Speaker 2: When you listen when you was young, Now.
Speaker 3: You know, I listened to that. Everything a little ratchet.
Speaker 2: He was a little ratchet.
Speaker 3: I mean, everybody had that moment in there.
Speaker 4: Ye came, I was, I had some young thug heir
rich On KWin What.
Speaker 2: Why she is thirty three?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Okay, you said when you was young and he was like.
Speaker 2: Rich On early twenties.
Speaker 3: That is all right. I tell you you couldn't nobody
stop that at that moment.
Speaker 1: Man, they did rest in peace. How do y'all feel
about all the black men that are dying? When y'all
when it comes to entertainment, Because when we was younger,
it was just easy e Tupac and Biggie and that
was and Tupac and Biggie was the only two that
was close. But he was like years before that, and
now it's like every six months, every three months.
Speaker 6: Like the black men in general.
Speaker 5: I want you to take better care of yourselves, your health,
your mental My brother had an aneurysm, and when he
passed away, people assumed that he died from violence. And
because of that, when you see things in the news,
people always assume the worst. Oh, they were on drugs,
and I'm like, you know, it's not always that. Sometimes
it's high blood pressure, especially for black men. Sometimes it's stress,
which is high blood pressure exactly. Sometimes it's stress that
leads to drug abuse or substance abuse of some sort.
Speaker 6: And it's sad because these men are young.
Speaker 1: The problem is is that I think that at least
my generation, we didn't grow up with emotionally responsible or
physically responsible men around. Like niggas was drinking hennessy, niggas
was drinking malt liquor you feel me, old English type
shit like like it wasn't really like a thing to
be healthy. And then I think life was just fucking
niggas all which ways, but proper and I think that
the only thing that we the only thing that black
men seem to pass on this anger. We talked about
that last time, Like, I don't think that. Like when
I ride my bike, I don't see other black men
riding unless they're old as fuck. I'm going to MO
nine and I see old black men riding. I don't
see men my age or people my age.
Speaker 6: The Black Men Run club, I don't run, So no, there's.
Speaker 5: Black men bike. I follow a guy that's in black
Men Bike. I follow several men that are you know,
black men run and I love to see it. However,
before I started working out, that wasn't something that came
across my timeline.
Speaker 6: For sure, if you're interested in it, you'll see it.
Speaker 5: But if you're not, those are not things that are
going to, you know, be on your radar to even notice.
Speaker 2: Is that a good thing or a bad thing.
Speaker 6: It's bad.
Speaker 4: It is because every sense I've typed up pixie cuts.
Speaker 3: That's all I see you. All my for you is
all pixies, and I want everyone.
Speaker 2: Your algorithm is definitely going to give you what you want.
Speaker 5: Yeah, keep I'm looking for And it just gives the
assumption that black people in general, are not healthy, that
black women don't go to the gym, that you know,
black men only passed down anger or they you know,
aren't sufficient fibers and ship like that. When that's the
furthest thing from the truth, because I know at this age,
you know a black man that's a good father.
Speaker 1: But I don't know many black men that got working
out from their father. They got they got it from
being playing sports. So like I feel like the thirty
eight and down maybe your agent down. I feel like
if they played sports or football or basketball, then they
created a routine to start working out. But I don't
really be seeing old black men work out like I
see a lot of old white men.
Speaker 3: Working out thirty eighth Street, LA.
Speaker 2: I actually can agree with that because even my dad
was an athlete growing up, but like once my dad
started laying, he did not work out. And like I
still work out consistently and now my son, you know,
I trained him and all that, but like, yeah, I
didn't get working out, like going to the gym, running
lifting weights for my dad at all. He was athlete.
His basketball career was way better than mine was. So
it's I that is that could be a true statement.
Speaker 5: Did he utilize that basketball career for health or was
he utilizing it as a platform too. It was go
to school or go to college, get a better job,
to socialize. So we have to look at the reason,
you know, why that older generation was Invola.
Speaker 2: It was definitely an outlet to and that's why when
it was finished, it was finished. It was like he
was kind of, what's life going to do now? And
that's one thing I will say that I made sure
I didn't do. When I was done playing in college,
I was at that crossroad with like, damn, what's next?
But I knew it would be something versus trying to
figure it out forever type thing.
Speaker 5: But you know, as black people, we're not raised to
think about that. We're raised we need to make it
through today.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you can't.
Speaker 6: Worry about tomorrow because you don't even know if you're
gonna make it.
Speaker 5: And when we think about health, you think about things
like life insurance, the longevity of those things. But today
as black people, you know, my mom is not that old.
My mom is sixty three and she didn't graduate from
high school. She didn't know anything about, you know, saving money,
She didn't know anything about working out. She knew about work. Yeah,
she knew about raising her kids. She knew about you know,
being that right hand to her husband.
Speaker 3: That was it.
Speaker 5: And even as a grown woman, I ask her, you know,
what dreams did you have? Like, I didn't have none
of I just want to raise my kids. I just
wanted to be married.
Speaker 1: Niggas didn't have band with the dream. Yeah, they didn't
really have a band. Like when I'd be thinking, I'm like, man,
y'all ain't had an internet. So if y'all, if y'all lost,
y'all job, y'all had to go to the paper, y'all
had to It wasn't no I'm about to get out
here and start a baking company and just you know,
I mean get on social media and you know, handing
the fist type shit. So a lot of the times
I'd be like really feeling bad for them because their world.
Speaker 2: Was their world.
Speaker 1: There was no algorithm chance of showing you something completely different.
And then now when you grow up and you have
all these aspirations, they'd be so scared to have you
fly out and try some new ship because they never
even seen it or even even thought about that ship.
My cousin was talking to his mom the other day Sunday,
and he was like, yeah, I don't just want to work.
I want to I want to travel this, this and that.
And she was like, son, you got to go somewhere.
He just came back from Mexico. He said, you want
to keep doing it. She was like, son, I've never
been to Mexico until I was fifty. So the fact
that you're going now, you already surpassed. You already surpassed
you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: She ain't.
Speaker 1: They ain't going on motherfucking vacation when they were thirty three.
They had to take care of kids.
Speaker 2: Bro. Bro. My parents literally, I tell people all the time.
I can count on one hand probably how many times
my parents went out to like a bar or a club.
Like they legit worked and we're parents. That was it.
There was no extracurricular, extracurricular weekend parties, none of that.
Speaker 3: They literally went to work and we're parents.
Speaker 2: That was it. So it's definitely a generational change when
it comes to that. And sometimes I don't know if
it's a good or bad thing, honestly, because sometimes I
look up and I feel like people in there, you know,
mid thirties late thirties or even early forties aren't focused
on the parenting enough.
Speaker 3: Sometimes, Yeah, I feel that they too worried about traveling, yeah,
or going to the book.
Speaker 2: I'm like, how are you out every weekend? And you
got kids?
Speaker 3: I'd be thinking the same day.
Speaker 2: I don't have Saturday night movie nights as a family.
Speaker 1: I just be wanting to know how women be fucking
these niggas with all these kids.
Speaker 2: Listen, listen because why are you doing that? Cause because why?
Because why he not with his.
Speaker 6: Kids exactly what he gonna do with you?
Speaker 1: They look but they look like him. They look like him.
They got the same DNA as him. He want to
see the motherfuckers once a week. What do you think
you're about to get?
Speaker 5: So you know, I said, my brother passed away in
twenty one. I don't have any biological children, but I
have custody of my nephew.
Speaker 6: So when I got him, he was.
Speaker 2: He looked like that brother.
Speaker 3: Yeah, damn.
Speaker 5: My brother has four kids, so I'm sorry for your
lost thank you. He's the youngest of the four, and
I got a trash ass baby mama, so I'm a
baby daddy down. But anyway, that's another story. For another day.
Speaker 3: You're father, You're a baby marvel you hear me.
Speaker 5: So the idea of having to change my entire life
overnight without I didn't get no baby shower and you know, gifts,
I get shit I got. I got a kid that
was grieving while fighting my own grief and took a
lot of strength it did, but also trying to readjust
my entire life because I come and go as I please,
I do what I want. My house was not child friendly.
I wanted to be rich Auntie always on vacation. Oh no,
that's right, Okay, you still are though.
Speaker 3: Listen.
Speaker 5: I just took my first trip with my family and
the child, and I forgot that the child was with
me like that I was the responsible kid for the kid,
and I was like, oh shit, and he's just like hey, Auntie, and.
Speaker 3: I'm like, oh, oh, Auntie.
Speaker 6: Man. We went to Boston.
Speaker 5: The older kids my brother's older kids, like I took
them to Mexico, right, but they were My niece was
graduating in high school, my oldest nephew was graduating college
and in the middle when nothing was in middle school
or something like that. But I'm fun, Auntie, So it's different.
You know they were in Mexico.
Speaker 6: They're like, can we drink?
Speaker 5: I'm like, yeah, Now this little one when he's like seventeen,
I'm gonna be like, hell no, you can't drink.
Speaker 3: Now.
Speaker 6: It's like I'm a mom.
Speaker 5: And it's it's a little bit different because I still
sometimes want to be fun. He got in trouble at
school yesterday talking and I'm like, why every morning we
do our affirmations, we say, you know, stay seated, be quiet,
do what you're supposed to do, okay, and you get
to school clowning all day.
Speaker 6: Teacher gotta call me now you're quiet?
Speaker 3: Now you quiet?
Speaker 6: You ain't got nothing to say.
Speaker 3: You didne did all that at school?
Speaker 5: You want to explain to me what you've been in
class doing. And you know, I can't really talk like
I want to talk because the teacher got me on
speakerphone and be like, hey, listen, listen, quit playing with me.
You up here acting crazy that.
Speaker 2: Quit playing with me and scare mother fucker straight. Yeah,
quit playing with me.
Speaker 3: I don't scare my three year old.
Speaker 2: Oh you got to kick them, fary kick.
Speaker 6: You gotta pinch him right up here under that little.
Speaker 1: Once I started pinching my son. Anytime I motherfucking measure something,
he start to, yeah, I need you to, and I'll
be trying to and I'll be trying to tell my wife, like,
look when you say shut the fuck up, regardless of
what language you use to say shut the fuck up.
He needs to understand to shut the fuck up, because
once he leaves this house and somebody tells him to
shut the fuck up, it's usually a cop, a teacher,
some type of authority authority figure and if they if
he doesn't understand to listen, then his ass gonna be
kneeled down to the motherfucking ground with motherfucking people around him.
And I don't think that enough people understand. Like my
wife was like, he's the My wife and her sister
they daddy was nice and they don't got no brothers,
so they they they didn't get whoopings because they wasn't bad.
Speaker 2: They probably didn't see much aggressive and then see none
of that aggressive pants.
Speaker 1: So here I come. This nigga is running up and downstairs.
I'm like, you can't do that, not only because your
safety is in jeopardy, but your little sisters who are
too are going to try to do that and if
they fall, I'm gonna fuck you up. So I'm like,
you have to stop, and then he just lie. I'm like, bro,
they want him to be a kid. And I said, okay,
maybe maybe the audience can tell me if I'm tripping.
When the fuck are you supposed to start teaching young
children how to be respectful period? Because life, if you
let your if you let your kid get away with
bullshit until he five, you don't have five years of
being trash. He's gonna be a clown ass nigga. And
only until I had a son did I realize how
pivotal these early years of their life really are. Like
my son, he was soon as learned how to walk.
We got a big ass plant. He walked to the plant.
He was sleepy. I know that niggas get I know
half the niggas in jail are in jail because they
were sleepy. But the nigga went to the fuck. The
nigga went to the plant. He didn't take and that.
He went to the plant. I said, do not put
your hand in that plant. He looked at me, looked
at the plant, looked at his mama, looked at the plant,
walked away and grab dragged his hand after mother I said,
oh okay, oh okay, And he only do bad ship
when he's fucking sleepy, you don't do if he's fully rested.
He's the greatest kid. But I feel like a lot
of the times, kids, especially black boys, grow up with
motherfuckers letting them just get away with shit.
Speaker 4: What about mixed breed kids, though, my son, they're all crazy.
My son is African American. They're all crazy, literally, so
he's like the African and I'm American.
Speaker 3: His dad's African.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know, just talking about light skin and
black and white, black and white, black.
Speaker 1: And white skin. It's about black and white. They're crazy.
I made the same. I ain't at the same mixed person.
Speaker 4: Yet he was got African and black, they would be
you know what I'm saying, co incide together?
Speaker 2: No, no, no, no, the same. He definitely had to nip
shit in the butter, like I had to get my
son together real bad at about three months ago because
he uh, you know, you know, a little box bag
or the boxes chips that come like eighteen slop bags,
they just be randomly coming up missing, and he swear
up and down and don't begin like, all right, so
a couple months ago, you know, I'm just in his
room kind of seeing how he's keeping it together. I
open his top drawer. It's about forty five empty chip bag.
Speaker 3: Oh my god.
Speaker 2: So he already trembling as he see me. Look since
so I just I just start taking him out, dropping
him on the floor, and I'm just looking at him.
He like, oh shit. So I didn't even physically do
much to at this time because I'm like, Okay, this
is a bigger problem that I don't even think he understands.
Number one, you've been lying about eating them. Yeah. Number two,
you think you're sneaky trying to hide your ship, and
you ain't even getting rid of evidence, like you don't
want to take the trash out, so you should be
smart enough to know, I mean gravity and stuff I'm
in here. And number three, I was like, if you
think you can get away with shit like this now
at ten, in two or three years, you gonna think
you can have a gun in here, drugs kind of shit.
So I had a very serious what were you disappointed about?
Just the fact that if you want chips and you ask,
you disappointed at the wrong thing. No, but the wrong
thing because it is a forty I'm about the most
at ten years old.
Speaker 1: What was with the back of chips in there? What
was the most disappointed things? Soon as you open to
what you say.
Speaker 2: I'm disappointed in the fact that you've been doing this
ship for this long and I think I think, I think,
I think me I would have been like, you don't
know how to steal better than this at tea, No,
I would have That's what I'd have been working, Like, Nigga,
you're a bad criminal, like you're i'ma have to come
and get you soon. Take the trash out. So if
you know you got bags up here, I don't pay,
I don't watch you take out the trash stuff in
your pocket, feel walking off steal. I'm like, you're not
even a good criminal teteal. But it was I had
to make him understand, like don't you ever think you're
gonna get shipped by me? Like that's what We're gonna
have to figure this out right now because Nigga'm gonna
catch you sooner or later. And you're, like I said,
you're clearly not good at the sneaky ship. So if
you want to just eat the chips, you can ask
ten times and you might get ten those or maybe
on the ninth one, I might be like, go ahead,
you better off doing that than trying this ship, because
now I'm checking your ship every day. I just let
my son eat all the chips and then he gonna
come back and be like, can we have some chips? No?
You only get eighteen bags a month. Thirteen.
Speaker 1: That's the way to you keep asking me for I
want to I went to cotch It and got some
jelly beans. This nigga, you don't keep smacking the bag.
I'm looking at the back. Hey, this is it until
the first Yeah, it's the seventeenth. You better chill out.
You're like, I can't get no more.
Speaker 2: No, you can't.
Speaker 1: But I think a lot of even even in that,
just teaching the responsibility of oh, you don't have endless supply.
Speaker 2: Of this ship.
Speaker 6: Yeah, and just because it's there, it don't mean I
mean you eat it right then?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Not eat it all. Make your stomach hurt, because I
have to teach you the response. I have to teach
you the consequences of some of the things that you
swear you want, because I don't want you thinking that
I'm a bad. I'm just mean because I can be mean,
because I need to be mean sometimes. But I don't
want you think I'm saying no because i'm being mean. No,
I'm trying to spare your asshole. Yeah, I had to
his older sister, my daughter, she had to get a
root corn.
Speaker 2: Now because you don't brush your teeth consistently enough, and
ain't the price for it? I tell you'll make sure
you brush your teeth.
Speaker 4: That's clear.
Speaker 2: Now you waking up crying in pain. You gotta go
to the dentist and get a damn to surgery. This
is what happened when you don't listen.
Speaker 1: So what's the big It's difficulties you'll run into being
mothers and entrepreneurs are fun, auntie entrepreneur.
Speaker 4: It's probably time management. I mean, probably haven't enough. Like
you know, you get up, get the kids started at school.
You still got to have time for yourself to figure
out what your day gonna be like. You gotta set
the moods. You got to set your day. And then
leaving from your job, your work, whatever you got going on,
you could have had a hect the gas day. You
come home, you still got the kids, you still got
the food, you still got, laundry, still got you still
got to hear the bickering back and forth, you know
what I mean. And I think not trying to say dads,
but y'all literally y'all have it really good sometimes because
the kids don't want you, They want mama.
Speaker 2: You just that's that's that's bad on the dad part.
Speaker 4: No, I'm saying most of the time, if a kid
is sick and the mama is sick, they don't want
daddy to take care of them. They still want mama
because mama gonna be exactly that that maybe.
Speaker 2: I'm a bitch.
Speaker 3: Then you have daughters though, right.
Speaker 1: I got daughters in the sun. My daughters want daddy
to daddy, they want me to hold me, come come
to Yeah. Boys, my son he only go to his
mama when he wants when he trying to get away.
Speaker 6: With some ship, exactly.
Speaker 2: Definitely.
Speaker 6: The others are much more forgiving. Yeah, and they know
we can get over.
Speaker 5: Unfortunately, because I've seen a lot of men that were
raised by mothers that cannot stand on their own because
they look for women to always be forgiving, he always
be accommodated.
Speaker 2: Let's speak on that. Let's speak on that let's speak,
because that got us fucked up. Listen, I'm harsh. Always
women got us fucked up. Black black women got us.
Speaker 5: And I'm gonna tell you what though, as a black woman,
if I had sons and I was raising them today,
I'm in fear of the police. I'm in fear when
they go to school and they're labeled as bad children,
if they have anxiety or if they have depression, they
don't get grace right. So I want to save my
black son. I want him to know that he can
come to me with his problems, with his issues, with
his stress, with his sorrows.
Speaker 1: We often, we often talk about people being emotionally intelligent. Today,
I saw a picture when I was like eight nine,
and I don't remember this picture. I don't remember taking
this picture obviously, but it was me and my sister
and my cousin and my son does this thing that
when he's anxious, he starts to grab stuff or grab whatever.
And I was doing it and I looked exactly like
my son in the picture, and I'm like, damn, I
was uncomfortable in this picture. And my mom was like, no,
you wasn't. And then I just left it at that
like you never even learned. No, you didn't even And
that's cool because you might not have been emotionally intelligent enough.
She had me when she was young, so I'm not
that's not on her. But even still, you still ain't learned.
So if you can't identify that in your son, then
you can't date. Because you can't identify that in a man.
You don't know what he's said, when he depressed, when
he's anxious, when he got a lot on his mind.
You can't identify that. And I think I think a
lot of people don't understand that there was a system
in place that that wanted to take the black man
out of the house because they understood the value of
the value of the black man. So I'm gonna take
this nigga out of the house, and I'm gonna make
it to where black women have incentives to keep him
out of the house. And then I'm gonna throw cracking there,
and then i throw rap music in there, and then
I'm gonna throw gold teeth in there, and then I'm
gonna throw all these things in this pot. And then
these black boys are gonna grow up and women are
going to pacify them. And then when they get of
age and they want to date the women that are
being raised by women that are now hustlers, that are
now motherfucking scammers, that are now motherfucking shooting, Like you
got all these Black women that got all this entrepreneurial
spirit because they mama came in the house from work, cooked,
wash clothes.
Speaker 2: All this is just name. Black women are watching their
mama do that day in day out, day in day out.
Speaker 1: One thing they didn't watch their mama do is love
a nigga, Trust a nigga, hold a nigga, big up
a nigga. So now they don't know how to do
none of this shit. And now they're trying to date
and they trying to find a nigga, and they don't
realize that they got a big up a nigga. Care
for a nigga. I can't be mancho every day, especially
when I never had the hope teaching me how to
be mancho. So a lot of the shit that I'm
going through in life, I don't have anybody that I
can ask for help. And then when I come to
my woman, I'm afraid because I don't want you thinking
that I can't share this stip and I don't want
you thinking that I'm a bitch ass nigga Da da
da da da dah. So a lot of the times
black men don't even say what's wrong, because what's wrong
is I don't even know if I'm going in the
right direction. And I don't want you to think that
I'm not man enough for you when I'm just lost
because I don't get that grace as a man my son.
I tell my wife all the time, I wish that
I had the same grace that you give my son.
I wish that when you frustrated with me, you talk
to me the same way you talk to our son,
because you talk to me like and I'm not saying
that my wife is a bee word. I'm saying that
she don't consider me being still that young little boy
Eric that don't know I might be seeing as the
grown man. And I'm post to know this shit.
Speaker 5: But I'm gonna tell you on the flip side of
that is my parents were married for twenty seven years
before they got divorced, so I grew up in a
household with both parents.
Speaker 3: Both my parents.
Speaker 5: Worked, both my parents cooked, did they shared auto, you know,
house should responsibilities and shit. So when I became an
adult and old enough to date, I expected that to
always be how it was, and I was naive to
the fact that a lot of people are not raised
out of love. They raised at a survival, and they
not raised out of love, They raised out a survival.
Speaker 2: It's different.
Speaker 5: That was a bar, no, straight up, because you know,
when you try to communicate with people, and I pride
myself on being a good communicator now when I was young,
not so much when I was twenty five and had
an abusive boyfriend, not so much. Now at forty three
years old, I'm asking, did I offend you? Did I
do something? Is there something that I can do to
help you? And I'm very specific. But what I found
is a lot of black men cannot respond to that,
and instead they shut down and they think that I
am pointing a finger and I'm just trying to understand
so I can recognize what I'm missing. If I'm looking
at the men and say, ooh, I want that one
and he's going through something and can't deal with life
and I miss that, explain to me what I missed
so I don't repeat that same mistake in the next meeting.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think that's really important. I'm more like I
read the room. I grew up with a survival type
of love growing up. You know, my family, it was
not the richest and we listen the poorest, but what
we did have Willi's love. So me growing up, I
just thought I would have a daughter forever and I
had two sons. So my tenure, oh he was ten
at the time. But like I was working at the
job for eight years, four years. I stayed there on
second shift, and I kept on saying, hey, I gotta
get on first. I gotta get on first. So I
made it go like by the fifth year, I better
get on the fucking first shift or I'm leaving this place.
So I tell them that I get on first shift.
Stayed there for four and a half years. I leave
at my eighth year. Almost I was making like thirty
dollars an hour, but I was missing time out of
my son's life. When like June third, I said that
was my last day. July to fourth, my son got
shot on like just some dumb senseless violence shit on Jely,
like over there on Arlington on July fourth, they had
a kid event. It was an eight year old, a
ten year old kid that got shot.
Speaker 3: That was my son.
Speaker 4: I got shot, So I'm like, damn, I'm thinking shit,
before that happened, he was getting bullied, but I was
reading when y'all say emotions and all that, I'm reading him.
I'm like, what's going on? How you feeling? So we
start doing affirmations every day. So before that time led
up to being shot, it was like, in my heart,
I'm thinking I lost my son. But in my mind,
I'm like, hell, I know he too strong for that,
Like we didn't already been through this. That bully shit
wasn't nothing. So by the time I get there, I'm
like one hundred percent real ass mom. So I'm like,
did you think he was gonna die?
Speaker 2: He was like no, I'm like.
Speaker 4: Good because the bullet went through his legging out, so
I'm like he just only had like a blood transfusion.
But after that, it was like I had took a
leap of faith though I didn't know that my son
was gonna get shot. I don't fear gun violence because
it's all around us. I don't fear anything for our
black men because it's people like us that want better
for these black men. But in the same time, do
black men want better for theyself' that's the bottom part though,
you know, like we can unlearn to relearn, we gotta
break the cycle so we can start a new one,
you know what I mean.
Speaker 3: So it's like what we all been through.
Speaker 4: I could have been on food sins, I could have
did all the same shit that I seen my mama do,
but instead I set a go for myself, like, hey, look,
I'm gonna be so different. I'm gonna do something better.
My daddy was a crackhead. When I met him, he
was in jail. I told him, if you want to
be in my life. It was like I was thirteen.
I'm like, if you want to be in my life,
you need to change your life. So he got off drugs.
He moved through us. Only that was my first time
I ever traveled in my life. My mama never traveled.
My stepdad never traveled. So it was like he hell,
he never travel unless he was going to jail. But
other than that, for real, Other than that, I'm like,
go to Arizona so I can have somewhere to travel.
But it was really me seeing life for the better
picture than what I seen was around me, the violence
I grew up with it.
Speaker 3: I lived in Brightwood. You feel me. Everybody get killed
every day, That's what it was.
Speaker 4: Then I lost my brother on like twenty sixteen in December,
and I had lost my my sister in twenty fifteen
and my dad in twenty fifteen. So going through all
that and still pushing forward, it was like I felt
like it was a test though, Like shit is here
to defeat you, but you have to have a strong
gas mind to be undefeated. Like nothing can touch you,
nothing can stop you.
Speaker 1: Let me add to that though, Yeah, when you get online, Yeah,
there is a lot of black woman environment shit all
day every day to help black women overcome whatever mental obstacles.
They're going through fitness obstacles, and they got cheap wigs.
Now you look people they got. It's so much. It's
so much ship that make black women feel and look good.
We don't have no black boy rock.
Speaker 6: Whose responsibility is it?
Speaker 2: Who's I don't know whose responsibility is?
Speaker 5: Looking forward? It's out there, it's out there. But as
a black man or a black boy, if you desire change,
you have to be this.
Speaker 1: Y'all still sleep, No hold on, you're still sleep. They're
still an agenda at play there are still there are
there are there are there are jobs that only how
to hire black women, regardless of if if the black
man is suitable for the job or not. And it's
I feel like I feel like we think it's better,
but behind behind the glass, I feel like there are
still strings being pulled because there is a divide. There
is a there's a huge divibe amongst black men and
black women. And I'm not saying that it's I'm not
saying that it's not my responsibility for Black Boy Rock,
But I'm just saying there is a woman. There is
a feminist movement going on.
Speaker 2: So you think the rise of the black woman is
causing the fall of the black man in a.
Speaker 1: Way, I wouldn't say that it's the I wouldn't say
or it's just well, I think this, I think this.
I don't think that black women. I don't think that
black women or women in general. Let's take it off
of black women. You put a black woman on top
of the mountain and you give her all of these
things that women never had. Like I said last time,
we have to reevaluate the purpose of the man. If
you give the woman everything the man was supposed to
bring to the table. So now, if you're making one
hundred and free thousand dollars a year, why you need
him to make that? If you're doing all of this,
why you need him to do that? And I think
that women have this power now and now they're looking
at us to say, we need you to have the
same amount of power or more or more, even though
the society is not going to you know what I'm saying,
Like it's just some women, it's a lot of women.
Speaker 4: I mean probably a lot of women. You surround yourself
because our conscious mind is what we attract.
Speaker 2: So I'm mary, I'm not I'm talking about just in Internet,
like I feel you.
Speaker 4: But that's Internet. It's center turning purposes only. So that's
what we're gonna see on that right. But like on
my end, I mean out of I was with my
first son father for like twelve years. Whatever he lacked,
I make sure I stayed there to teach him. So
then the next woman he gets, he's able to be
able to understand that, Hey, look it didn't work with us,
so this is how we're gonna fix it. Well, my
husband right now, he's African, so it's like we got
a culture barrier. So it takes a lot of patience
and understanding to be able to understand. You speak French,
I don't, but I understand that whatever is comfortable for you,
I have to make sure it's comfortable for me too.
But it's like the first three years was rocky because hell,
how you was raised.
Speaker 3: I was not raised. And we can't listen to you.
Speaker 4: Feel me some good music and vibe together. I got
to listen to that African shit and I'm vibing with
it too, though it's given me more.
Speaker 1: Public Okay, but you know, you know what you said
that is the most underrated. You said two things, patience
and understanding. Yeah, the fact that like me, me and
Perry had this conversation when uh a little billion and
then was when they left he was we was talking
about how we from the were from the trenches and
we not like the niggas that surround us in the trenches.
We don't do none of the things that they did
in those environments. We had to learn how to communicate
to these niggas that I come in peace.
Speaker 2: I don't want.
Speaker 1: And it's patience and understand it. And I feel like
women nowadays have a lot more patience than say, when
they were back it was against the wall back and
you know, back when when it was just survival mode.
I think now that I think that we were still surviving,
but we surviving together. It's no, it's no longer my
back is the wall. Move move out the way. It's
it's a come over here and let's and let's put
our backs together opposed to But I feel like a
lot of people do not understand, like we said last time,
that it's.
Speaker 2: A team thing.
Speaker 6: You don't want men to understand that it's not in
every woman.
Speaker 3: It's not a writer.
Speaker 2: And that goes to what I said last week about
the value your system. If you value this man or
the man values this woman, then you're going to have
that patience. You don't know it don't take some time.
Speaker 5: But also as a woman, I've been there, and I've
been the writer for somebody who was not deserving. And
it's a discernment that we all have to learn. Definitely
how long it's too long, It depends on the person
in the situation. Because I'm gonna tell you what I
was with a man for from sixteen to twenty four
and then got back together from twenty eight to thirty
twenty eight to thirty.
Speaker 6: I realized this is not the person for me because.
Speaker 5: Who I was before, the gullible, the naive, the I'm
gonna give you my whole check. I'm gonna pay all
the bills. This nigga barely kept a job, but in
my mind, I'm like, I see it, Ea, I like him. No,
he was in the National Guard. He was in the
National Guard. He was working like he hit a spot
where the spot it was.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm sorry, I don't want to cut you off,
but I want to see what it's like to be
a bum ass nigga, to be taken care of for
at least six months.
Speaker 5: He wasn't a bomb ass nigga when I met him, though, Okay,
I'm sorry. Niggas who have the pipe, Yeah, that's what
That's why they provide the service.
Speaker 3: That's it.
Speaker 4: That's what I'm telling my sister. She stayed with a
bomb ass. He was Puerto Rican. He looked at he
showed it. She's got her ass beat because it was
the pipe.
Speaker 2: It was.
Speaker 3: I would never be dicnatized for no nigga. That's just
me now.
Speaker 5: But he's been the same mind. I'm sorry that men
have an eater, right, would you marry her?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 6: But she's gonna suck the skin off that dick, and
you're gonna be like, I'm gonna give a little.
Speaker 2: Ship.
Speaker 3: No, not all men.
Speaker 1: I see what you're getting, that she can suck the
meat off this motherfucker. But if it's a ring around
that tub, you guys, I don't know. I don't take
you serious, but exactly, but.
Speaker 2: Women, but women and nigga won't have a place to
a nigga won't have a place to stay, and what
they can save and with that motherfucking dick out and
and the girls. I think I want to expose myself.
Speaker 3: I think, I think people, I think I think women.
Speaker 4: They we fall for the potential exact But once you
get rid of that potential, once you get rid of potential,
and you see.
Speaker 3: What the purpose and what your your your mission is
with this person.
Speaker 4: If it don't align to me, like we on two
different waves here, you know what I'm saying, Like you
then probably gave me some. It's good, but after two
weeks and you ain't dish it with your life, you
gotta go.
Speaker 2: Weeks.
Speaker 3: No, I'm just saying now, Listen, listener, understanding. I'm to
give you a week to go find a job. That
next week you better have an interview. That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: That's not happening.
Speaker 3: Work today, paid today. Hello, shit, y'all.
Speaker 2: Y'all was just talking about patients and understanding.
Speaker 4: We were talking about we were talking about grown men
because I was always told this. My daddy said, it's
a nigga fervery bitch and a woman for every man.
Your real father, my crack. He was clean though after
after he told he was.
Speaker 2: He when did you tell you? When did he tell
you that straight way? That's a bar? I got to
get what was the what's he said?
Speaker 4: At the time my father passed cancer though, But at
the time he had told me when I was dating anybody,
he was like, just remember, it's a nigga fervery bitch
and a woman for every man. It's a lot of
niggas out here looking for bitches or women. And then
it's a lot of women out here looking for niggas,
but they really need a man. So it's like, you
got the qualities and the things, that's different. But really
it's really the self value though, you know what I'm saying,
a lot of people that don't value ship but the
material stuff. They don't value nothing but the likes, the looks,
all that. That's all they gonna get out if it
is just so hard.
Speaker 1: So you said something earlier in regards to understanding what
you needed out of out of this person. You said
something along those lines, and we said it before.
Speaker 2: I don't. I just don't think that people know what
they know. That's not what I'm talking about.
Speaker 1: You said that, you said black men need to something
along the lines of want better for themselves.
Speaker 2: I don't think that.
Speaker 6: You can want it.
Speaker 3: How do you get it?
Speaker 2: That?
Speaker 1: And I don't even think that black men understand the
power that's within like that, and they and they, and
if you look around and you see on the news
then getting killed every other week on the news, or
every week that look like you same age as you,
or they on drugs, or women that you are around
speaking badly of them sometimes that it can't affect the
way that you view your importance. I agree with that
period so to to so to to try to think
about the sky as the limit, it's like shit, bro,
I'm I never even heard black women. I never heard
black women speak life into me like that. And I
think that now in y'all talking about affirmations, I'm realizing
that I never really nigga. I ain't even I ain't
hear that I was handsome until I was thirty.
Speaker 5: And you know, I have to tell my nephew every day,
you're smart, you're handsome, You're kind, kind to yourself, kind
to others, consider it considered of yourself.
Speaker 1: A lot of the times, the only thing that black
men here constantly is you stupid. Like whatever it is
being said when you get a whooping, that's those that
shit is what you hear more often than not.
Speaker 5: He called somebody stupid or something stupid, and supposedly says
stupid ass.
Speaker 6: I'm not really sure yet.
Speaker 5: At school yesterday and I'm like, where are you hearing
stupid at because I talk like that right, And I
was more upset than he's calling something or someone stupid
than him singing ass. I cussed a lot, but I
don't cuss at home. I don't cussing for my parents,
and I don't cussing.
Speaker 3: From the show.
Speaker 2: I cuss him from everything, but I don't.
Speaker 5: Now my favorite word is fucked. But you know, in
every every variation there are. But I am mindful of
that and respectful of people, you know what I mean.
So for him to say something or somebody is stupid.
Speaker 2: I was up.
Speaker 5: I'm like, I need to know where you heard this.
Somebody's saying this to you, you know, where are you
getting this? Because we can't have that.
Speaker 2: I really like the fact that my son copied me,
copies me on how I speak to my wife and
my daughter's hey babies, Hey ladies, yea look good today, like,
and I'm like, damn. The reason why niggas is only
calling women bitches is because the only time they ever
heard men or rap songs. Yeah, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: Whoever, whoever that that black lady was that didn't want
rap to be a thing, she was right a little
bit in regards to how she wanted to censor because
it plays a it plays a different role in the
psyche of black boys and girls, you know, like, yeah,
less sexy red just be all over the internet. I
can't stand that, but that's what I'm saying, Like, we
just we're just gonna My son.
Speaker 3: Can't even stand that. He twelve, so yeah, he don't
like I don't know, like I.
Speaker 4: Always hear who you surround yourself around, that's who you
would be in five years, you know what I'm saying.
So like surrounding as black men, black women, It don't
matter what you are with race. If you surrounding yourself
around the gun, violence, drugs, all that bullshit, that's what
you're gonna keep on seeing around you, you know what
I'm saying. But if you surrounding yourself around with yourself,
but you pouring into yourself positive things, You're poring into
yourself a lot of things that you want to see
come to futation from yourself.
Speaker 3: It's like that's what you surround yourself.
Speaker 4: That's why when we were speaking about, you know, the
music from back then, like I knew back then when
I was listening to that rap shit, I was really
you know what I'm saying, probably a little raunchy ghetto
had gold teeth talking.
Speaker 1: Like really you gotta belt with your name on it? Yeah,
it's okay, on fucking wrap my wife Jordan's every pair.
Speaker 3: Nah, I didn't have the amazing thing.
Speaker 2: What shoo did you wear Melissa's.
Speaker 3: No, honestly, I didn't have. I didn't.
Speaker 4: I was literally probably all jelly be I was probably
a bum. They didn't know though. A lot of people
they didn't know that because I'm I had a great attitude.
I had roaches at home, I had I didn't have.
I mean, it was bad, but it was good because
I knew my family loved me. I knew my mom
was doing the best.
Speaker 1: The roaches don't. The roaches don't seem as bad when
your environment in the house is like they just live
here too.
Speaker 3: They bring nobody over. Hello. I'm just I'm going crazy
for me.
Speaker 6: My childhood was opposite because we didn't have money, but
we didn't.
Speaker 5: People assumed that we did because if they heard me
speak and like, I sound proper now, but then I
was super proper, and people just assumed, like, oh, your
parents got money.
Speaker 6: Your parents are there, y'all like the Cosby Show.
Speaker 3: That's what they thought. Like crazy, my brother shared a bedroom.
Speaker 2: That's crazy that people assume that people with both parents
were rich.
Speaker 5: Yeah, my dad was a hustler. My dad was out
here getting it. And we used to move a lot
because your dad in the service, I said, no, he
was a common So like we moved state to state
to state. We moved every year in elementary school, we
moved like every other year, like middle school, high school,
and when we moved back to Indiana, they tried to
keep us in the same district because we had no friends.
And so again when we talk about people knowing, it's
so weird to me because I've always been the quiet one.
I've always just kind of minded my business, and now
I feel like I still mind my own business.
Speaker 6: I don't know why the fuck these people watch me.
I really ain't that funny.
Speaker 5: I mean, I'm a little funny, but I mean, and again,
you know, when you look at physical appearance, you know,
physical ass is ass. I get it, you know, But
I try to drop a little knowledge every now and again.
You know, I don't want to just always, which is
again people thinking you're linear. Oh you got titties today, ass,
that's all you want here for. I like to draw
people in and now come on in and sit on
my black let's have a conversation.
Speaker 6: I want you to be better.
Speaker 5: I want you to learn something. So anytime you meet me,
I want you to leave better. I don't want to
damage anybody.
Speaker 7: I want to go back to the affirmations that you
was talking about. So you said you never had anybody
speak affirmations into you no nigga, not even as a kid. No,
you feel like that would have made you a better
man if you did.
Speaker 2: No nigga.
Speaker 1: Because my environment didn't look like what they whatever they
was telling me, whatever I I was, it wasn't that
people were speaking bad things.
Speaker 2: And to me, I just think that we were kids.
Speaker 1: We were a byproduct that we were there while they
were still trying to figure it out. So kind of
like when you said that you went on a trip
and you was like, oh shit, my nephew. I feel
like a lot of parents be like, oh shit, I
was supposed to speak life until my kid this whole time,
or I was supposed to teach my kid these habits
this whole time, or I was supposed to And I
think that now my auntie realizes that because she has
a grandson and she's like, oh so every time I
see her, she'd be like, oh, my handsome son, and
she'd be like, oh, my handsome grandson should call my
son and her grandson. But I don't think that when
we were growing up, it was got a haircut and
oh you handsome, or you don't know what you don't know.
But I'm thinking like shit, Well, y'all telling niggas that
they was handsome. You know what I'm saying Because I
was telling my wife, like I cut my hair, and
then she'd be like, two days later, did you cut
your hair? And I'd be like, if you walked in
this motherfucking house with your with your ends clipped and
I never said anything, you would have thought I was
fucking another bitch. If if if if I didn't notice
that you had on new shoes or something like that,
you would have thought. But I feel like a lot
of the times women just think that men do not
need that.
Speaker 5: You know what's funny is in the other day. I
posted something the other day about you know, it was
a repost. You know, black men deserve love. Black men
deserve you know, emotional support, and you know, to be
told that they're great and that they're needed.
Speaker 6: And I had so many black men in back me
time about this is a lie.
Speaker 5: Well, I don't know what kind of black women you
deal with, but I am the black woman that I
try to do those things. They said that black men
aren't supported, that black men aren't needed, that black men
aren't love, that black men that.
Speaker 2: They aren't that they are not they are not and
as a collective.
Speaker 6: As a collective, yes, but what I I said, I
have to be the change.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's the same. Right.
Speaker 5: If I'm putting it out, I'm not playing it like
I mean that ship, you know what I mean. And
when people say you're a strong black woman, know the
fuck I have not, nigga. I don't want to take
no trash. I do it because I have to. You know,
I don't want to go home to an empty home
every day, but I do it because I have to.
When I bought my house, and it was like, oh, okay,
well you bought a house and it's a good investment, but.
Speaker 2: Cut the grass.
Speaker 5: When we take the service part out right, take the
service part out of a partner, the things that you
physically can do.
Speaker 6: There's no love in my home.
Speaker 2: It's just me.
Speaker 6: I desire a man.
Speaker 4: Now.
Speaker 5: I get approached by more white men than I do
black men, you know, the black because I feel like
a lot of times black men that approach me are
doing so in a sexual manner, and it's an immediate
turn off. I know I got tits and ask and
I know you want to have sex with me. That's natural, okay, right,
I don't know what they want the same thing, but
they willing to invest in, so they're really they will.
Speaker 2: What do you mean by that?
Speaker 4: But yeah, I mean I feel like everybody you encounter
with this, you will either an investment or they investment.
If you can gain conversation, if you're gonna gain a
negative energy anything, like I think everything that surrounded us
is an investment. Like I feel like my husband invested
in me, and I invested in him. He works on cars,
he does a lot, he's an engineer. I learned how
to work on cars, so he think he could speed
up his process. So I invested in learning that, and
then he invested in my nail business so I can
make money also, so we both business entrepreneurs. But he
still work a job. I still work a job. So
it's like it's an investment. And then you've got people
who just be together just to be together, and a
shit else going on with no problem, none or everybody's
afraid to grow, like unlearn to relearn, that's my whole thing.
Like he forty eight, I'm thirty three, So it's like
that age gap. It's like he got to unlearn a
lot of shit just so he can relearn it, and
I have to relearn some stuff and unlearn some stuff too,
So it's like really a hand in hand thing if
you're willing. But like I didn't try to talk to
a white person and they just you just can run
over a white man.
Speaker 6: I just don't want them walking me in the closet
to me they're sexual company.
Speaker 2: Behind this black man.
Speaker 4: You can run over too, I mean yeah, but in
the same sense the white man, he gonna give you
patience and grace. That black man, once you figure out
you're trying to run over here, gonna go upside your
mop on your head.
Speaker 2: If the white man might kill you, okay, definitely dam
eat your coochie and then eat your lig we're talking about.
Speaker 5: It gets weird because even when I was growing up,
my friends, my very best friends, be like, you'ren marry
white man.
Speaker 1: I'm like no, but I mean I don't like that,
because why the fuck you saying some stupid ass ship
like that. I will go out and they be like, oh,
you ain't you you don't date black girls?
Speaker 2: Huh.
Speaker 1: I'm like, why because I have an opinion? Or why
because I have a dry sense of humor, Like you
don't think black women watch Seinfeld at all. You don't
think that they understand common sense, Like I just didn't.
I didn't like black women saying, Oh, you're gonna date
or marry a white woman?
Speaker 2: What's wrong with that? Though? I mean, you can't help
you follow you, it is something wrong with it.
Speaker 1: You're trying to you're trying to throw shots because you
think that you think that my personality personality is just
not suitable for a black black one.
Speaker 6: That's what I get a lot.
Speaker 4: I probably that's probably why I'm with African because a
lot of black men used to say, oh girl, you
don't do ship. You know, you don't be outside.
Speaker 3: Right, but like around house, like an it's a good thing.
Speaker 5: And so you can't meet anybody if I'm still single,
exact where do I go to even meet anybody of substance?
Speaker 2: Your d ms? No? There? You better? You better host
the motherfucking one. They didn't get a dating show.
Speaker 6: They send in dicks and no money.
Speaker 2: What's the worst, what's the worst? What's the worst? You
ever get? Up? Man? What these niggas were saying?
Speaker 5: Listen, So now I've graduated, right, So people send me
unsolicited pictures all the time, and so I'm going to
counter that by saying, listen, you want me to be
impressed by this, I'm not send me the video with
the sound on, with some action on.
Speaker 6: It could have good lighting, so at least then I
can judge it.
Speaker 2: I want.
Speaker 6: You want to hear bulls.
Speaker 5: Shouldn't send me these pictures, you you know, okay with
the angles, that's all get out of my face.
Speaker 2: The words they just send a dick.
Speaker 3: They just in a dick.
Speaker 5: And I have a business, you know, email and a
business phone number right listed business. I will they will
send it to business, and you know, I'll reply back
and say, hey, there's a man that monitors this account.
I'm lying, but you know, because I want to know
what type of shit are you on to send your
penis to a complete perfect shoundering. You don't even have
any confirmation that this is truly my phone number.
Speaker 4: Don't care either they doing it. I probably got a
whole bunch of like I want to have conversations, and
it never ends. It's like just oh god, paragraphs of
oh my god, you just so all that.
Speaker 1: I'm like, this is what I told your asked earlier
about me not wanting to open up. That can of
worms of people talking to me, because why do you think.
Speaker 3: You can talk to me?
Speaker 6: But you know, I try to be polite.
Speaker 2: That's the problem. I'm not probably I'm about to start
blocking motherfuckers. I don't. I don't block three people this
morning before nine o'clock, before before before eight, because I
was up at four thirty. I was.
Speaker 1: I just opened up Snap and I was like, you
know what, I no longer want to hear from you.
You you you, because I do a Eurotic podcast called
Black Widow. And I think the problem is that I
keep forgetting that these holes are fans of mine. Yeah,
so I'm trying to be polite, and then now they
talking to me and going left, they ain't never really
even going left. The problem is like, look, I'm married.
If you want to fuck me, then understand that I'm married,
and be and and and go about it the right way.
Because even because even because even if even you talking
to me, it's gonna get me fucked up. Okay, So
if you if you want to keep the conversation limited,
use code words. And then I asked my wife, can
I have permission to fuck you? But you trying to
hold conversations to get.
Speaker 2: To know me. I don't know how I'm I don't
want to know. I don't want to know, you bitch.
Speaker 5: Yeah, but that's what because people want to make it
what it is. Yeah, Like, I'm just trying to be
a kind person about it, and you want to tell
me about your whole I'm just trying to be kind.
Speaker 2: Motherfuckers tould be like, because you're motherfuckers, see your page
and be like, oh, I like your nail business. You'll
be like, I like your nail pictures. You'll be like, oh,
thank you so much, and then they'll go into.
Speaker 3: The whole day what you're doing today?
Speaker 2: They good?
Speaker 4: How I have to delete that ship like I'm like,
and then I have to tell some people like this
is for interturning purposes only. I just hope you have
a great Day's the philtery down again, Hudson. I love
black men, and some of the responses that I receive
you as a man want me to be a black
man hater.
Speaker 3: I'm not.
Speaker 6: I want you to be kind. I want you to heal,
but you couldn't do it here.
Speaker 1: Motherfuckers want you to be evil. They want you to
be evil like their mama. That's what they want niggas
want to fuck their moms.
Speaker 2: That's the problem.
Speaker 6: They only sndrome carry it.
Speaker 2: I used to. I used to.
Speaker 1: I grew up in Hallville and I used to love
fucking hood rats some because that was the polite girls
will be too quiet, and then the hood rats they
in your face.
Speaker 2: They want to wrestle, they want to be aggressive. But
I did.
Speaker 1: I felt like I was an ugly duckling because they
didn't recognize the love that I was trying to give
them like that, I want to talk, I want to
write notes something about.
Speaker 2: You can't do that with a hood right now.
Speaker 4: You can.
Speaker 2: No, you can't because my wife is my wife. My
wife is a hood rash. She was just a gerbil.
There's different. But back to the right.
Speaker 1: They didn't recognize the love that I was given because
they daddy never wrote the notes. Good morning, I love y'all,
see you later. So don't they don't understand this, nigga.
Speaker 2: Saw that's because you're supposed to do that. I'm aggress' aggressive.
I'm too aggressive for the polite girls.
Speaker 5: So that that's funny though, because people will tell me
that I'm polite, but they will also tell me I'm aggressive,
Like that you know, my personality demands attention and not.
Speaker 2: Be like your personality demands respect.
Speaker 5: They gotta be a ballan, But I just be mint
of my business. I'm a kind person, but I don't
pillow talk. So if you're asking me how I suckdict
at your business, because you ain't gonna never experience it, right,
I'm not that kind of woman.
Speaker 6: I'm not gonna get on here and say ooh I do,
X Y and Z.
Speaker 5: Y'all don't need to know right right, but just know
that whatever man I have it satisfied and even if
I don't have no more, he will always come back
if I did.
Speaker 6: That's that's I mean, that's how you know.
Speaker 3: That's how you know.
Speaker 4: If you know, you know, it's a lot of people
out there that still wish they could have, would have,
should have with that one chick that they didn't.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I had to block. I had to block down
because I don't I don't. I had to block ain't.
Speaker 4: No.
Speaker 2: If you're in the past, in the past, well I
don't know.
Speaker 3: But what if you cross paths again, like damn that
bit from the past.
Speaker 2: Hello, how you doing? And I don't hustle backwards.
Speaker 5: I don't hustle backwards. But I got one to hustle for.
I got one that if I call you better what
it is?
Speaker 3: You know what you know?
Speaker 6: And I'm gonna tell you what because I'm not I
don't get crazy, but I can be right and so.
Speaker 2: Proper person.
Speaker 3: I've only get real. It gets serious, real.
Speaker 5: Serious because they know I'm an cut a niggas. But
I've only been crazy for two niggas like it just
got stories right because them is the ones that you
really carry you, you don't care about if your bitch
ain't never got crazy about you with you, with you really, yeah,
I did.
Speaker 3: It's probably the crazy making.
Speaker 2: Me re evaluate all the motherfuckers I.
Speaker 5: Used to if they got I got one and still
like we we polite in passing, Hey, what's up?
Speaker 3: What's good?
Speaker 2: You know?
Speaker 5: Keep it moving, no conversation. But I'm gonna tell you what.
If that nigga call me or I'll call him, it
is what it is. I acted ignorant. I snatched the
door off the hinges.
Speaker 4: I had one eye to cry. I took empty trash
and put it in front of his house. So when
you get out the car, you gotta get out his
car to go to his house because I put in
the drive's crazy.
Speaker 3: But it wasn't. I wasn't violent.
Speaker 6: I wasn't violent.
Speaker 3: I wasn't that trash my trash and leaving it in
front of your house. Get yours over here.
Speaker 2: You know, if I ripped the door off this motherfucker,
I'm going.
Speaker 7: To wash shouting police after I fuck you crazy fifteen dollars.
Speaker 3: This was a commercial building. Oh ship, kick that damn thing.
Speaker 5: I snatched that my fucker off. And this is the
thing that I don't like what helped after that. I
don't like what happened after that. So I didn't talk
to him for a while. After that, that nigga was
mad and I was like, I don't give back. You
deserve that ship. But then it I was mad for
probably six months and then you had to call him back.
I mean, we didn't even really talk about it.
Speaker 3: It was just like it happened on a whimsical I'm
on the way.
Speaker 2: That's because sometimes you gotta pop out.
Speaker 5: And show me exactly because because I'm a nice girl,
I'm an light.
Speaker 6: I consider it and I want to help.
Speaker 1: I like, I like, I like when a woman I
think that I'm trash and then she goes out and
realized that I wasn't trash. The niggas that she keep
coming across is way worse than me. And she was like, well, damn,
I guess.
Speaker 6: It's the circus. I call the niggas pass niggas.
Speaker 2: What did we be saying? Girl, give me that, girl
give me that.
Speaker 5: This is a fucking clown my best friend. I'd be like, ship,
you know, I went and join the circus again.
Speaker 3: She'd be like, keep your.
Speaker 6: Red nose a wig in a car, and I was.
Speaker 3: I said, I leave that wig in the car because
I ain't got nothing. I'm crazy.
Speaker 5: But when I had when he gives me the respect
that I'm desire, but because I'm passive for the most part,
it's like.
Speaker 3: Oh, she' you know what? But then what are you
talking about it? When I pop out the.
Speaker 5: Show niggas and it's like, why do you want me
to behave this way? I don't want to be like
these bitches.
Speaker 7: Like I am scared. I would like the fucker come
in here and knock this door off. I'm calling the police.
Speaker 3: He probably should. That day, I was on.
Speaker 2: Everything because ma'am everybody, but.
Speaker 5: I don't act like that normally, right, So that day
I just learned something new about you. That day, shit
was up. But my boy had to tell me, bitch,
you box for real, You're gonna go to jail.
Speaker 4: Yeah, certain people bring out certain things though, you know
what I'm saying. So it's like that's something that's why
I don't.
Speaker 2: I had a.
Speaker 5: Conversation with that nigga, This bitch I had a problem with.
I went to her place to be. I was in
there clowning like and then and then I was embarrassed
after you climbed, I claimed.
Speaker 3: I was embarrassed. Put on the whole show.
Speaker 6: Boy ready to go to jail.
Speaker 4: Me and that nigga after I did the trash, so
we damned near boxed it out. He came busted in
the house. He was crazy though, and I'm like, you
know what, I had to pay that nigga to get.
Speaker 2: Out of my life.
Speaker 3: No, listen. That was after that. After that we made up.
Speaker 4: We was cool after that, but it was like I
didn't want to be as woman no more because I
was tired of the crazy shit, and I'm like, bro,
you gotta get your life together. So I was trying
to help him. We lived together, and then we I
was like in fabtruy, I'm like, hey, bro, you're gonna
go move back into your house. I'm gonna pay your
first month's rent so you can move back in there.
Speaker 2: Now, who you know? Where you? Who are you giving
this pussy to? Who? That's what I say.
Speaker 3: That's the same.
Speaker 2: Now I'm not going to get my life together. Yeah,
what did Webb say?
Speaker 3: Listen?
Speaker 2: Give me that listen.
Speaker 4: No, it was look, it was that was it for him.
I pay Look, I pay him nine hundred dollars. He
used to just get ship face drunk and I couldn't
deal with that ship. So I'm like, get your ass out,
you off.
Speaker 3: I bought them all. Hell yeah, I will buy a
nigga good bye.
Speaker 6: If you out there are listening, ain't little change off.
Speaker 3: He's starting at nine hundred.
Speaker 2: That's the fucker.
Speaker 3: We went to the casino.
Speaker 4: I helped this nigga win at the casino eleven hundred.
He like, that's what made me have to give him
a nine because I was telling him before we went there, like, hey,
I pay you to go back into your house.
Speaker 3: He's going, no, fuck you.
Speaker 4: And then all of a sudden, we get to the
casino he hit. The first thing he said is now,
can I buy some I was like, hell no.
Speaker 3: He was like, give me that Mo fucking hundred. I'm like,
this is not the place. This is not the place
I need to give you this money. You fucked up.
Guess what we got in a car.
Speaker 4: He gonna cry when you get in the car. He
had no more fucking money after this casino. He threw
that Mo fucking Wallace so fast. I'm like, you're still
going to your new house. That's your nigga, Like when
you got out, he had to get out the fucking
my life.
Speaker 1: What's the what's the Have you ever had an experience
where y'all was fucking with a nigga and y'all just knew, like,
I shouldn't be fucking with you. Rather it be because
of the sex, rather it be because it was somebody's
X or something like that.
Speaker 2: Have you ever had an experience where you like, I
know I should not be fucking with you.
Speaker 5: Yeah, my clown ass nigga. She said, though, it's because
it's like we we were never in a relationship. We
was just cool and nigga just kind of evolved. But
it's been like so many years that you'd be like, well,
but then I realized that he's a clown ass niggas.
I would never want him to be by man, Definitely,
I think I.
Speaker 2: Think that's just like a good time.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I think a lot of people when they ask about
friends with benefits, I never really heard the story about
when the benefits stops. Well, nah, I don't hear that,
but it just goes on. You just do not understand
how much time and energy you give them.
Speaker 2: Motherfucker.
Speaker 1: Let's say, y'all, fuck, once a month, they got hols,
you got hoes, and then it becomes twice a month.
And then you look up and I'm like, then we've
been fucking with each other for like five years we've
been and I ain't never get I ain't never gave
you know, a birthday gift.
Speaker 2: I don't even know your favorite teller. I'm like, God,
I'm like, what the fuck?
Speaker 1: But then then after that five years, Look, I didn't
talk about on the last part because I didn't want
to be judged.
Speaker 2: I got time today. Don't on that fifth year, don't
fucking start liking me and asking me like, why the
fuck are you asking me to this?
Speaker 3: Nigga?
Speaker 6: Hit me a message and was like, you all right?
Speaker 3: And I was like, we don't why we don't ask
these questions?
Speaker 2: Keep it A and B.
Speaker 3: I was like, what's wrong? He was like, I was just,
you know, checking on you.
Speaker 6: I'm like, it's two ways and it's feelings.
Speaker 1: Why are you making me feel See? The difference between
men and women is that I've never dealt with this,
or maybe I could attest to this, but women, they'll
make you feel bad for not retaining micro. I only
see you, bitch between twelve and three for eleven and three.
So you asking me about your favorite movie, your favorite color,
your favorite dish, your favorite I don't fucking know, Pam.
I do know that you like your ass smacked this way.
I do know you're like a pussy eight this way,
but all of this others, I don't fucking I don't know.
Speaker 3: Fuck.
Speaker 5: So, there's an expectation right for certain whatever role, whatever
your role is, And so I tried to I was
kicking it with one guy right and like we were dating,
but then it I felt like it wasn't really gonna
be nothing. So I'm like, hey, you know you just
want to fuck And he was offended. This niggasa that
don't talk to me like that. And I'm like, what
you mean, Like, obviously a relationship is not gonna work.
And I don't like to have sex with multiple people.
I don't want to you know what I mean, be
out here whatever. And he was truly offended by it.
And I said, because listen, you don't need to meet
my family. We don't need to hang out. I don't
care about your day. I'm not like, no, I don't
get about none of that. I'm gonna say what I'm
gonna say, what's up? What's good?
Speaker 6: You know what that means? Your equipment, do the job
and get the fucking tripod.
Speaker 2: And but I think a lot of the times when
it comes down to that, like I wish that why
we gotta do this song and dance? Why do we even?
Speaker 1: And I'll be asking motherfucker's like, yo, why do you
feel like you got to have a relationship with everybody
that you fucked? Because sometimes you just want to bust
it up and you're not in the space to have
a relationship. I'm on the phone with this dumb broad
and she's telling me about, Oh, I was minding my business.
I was staying out the way I was on my
fitness ship and then here come this nigga big in
this game, and then he knocked me off my square.
I said, then, why didn't you just fuck him and
just leave him alone? Why if you know that you
can't do two things at once, if you can't get
your life together and fuck somebody, then you should not
be fucking nobody while you're trying to get your life together.
Don't blame Keith, because your pussy runs directly to your
brain and it's making you make dumb decisions.
Speaker 5: This is the problem, though, When you were in that mode,
you have to fuck the person that you don't really like,
like that you fucking somebody that you like, you like
At this.
Speaker 3: Point, I've been thinking about you, Okay, I've been thinking
about you.
Speaker 2: That's why. That's why most friends will benefits and you
gotta be ugly. I can't look over at you and
be like, I see a future with you because if
she's because if she pretty, if she pretty, and that
pussy good, and we just friends with benefits, I'm gonna
start feeling like motherfucking Marcus from motherfucking Boomerang, Like what
the fuck? Why are you using me? Like this because
because I'm eating your pussy slow protisseri. This is I'm
going I'm going crazy. I'm trying to show you something home.
You gotta be. I have to not see potential in you.
If I see potentially you and that cout you good. Yeah.
Speaker 7: I had a situation like that. Swere to god. It
started off strictly fucking, starting to like me too much.
You don't take me out on the date, you know,
do X, Y and Z. It did not start like that.
Speaker 2: Man. You cannot go halfway in fucking and then starting
trying to do ship ship.
Speaker 1: So look, I said that. I said this on the pod.
I said that when I want to visit my mom. Recently,
me and my brother was talking about a girl that
I was fucking with in college, and I said, I
think I did her wrong. So I reached out to
her and I said I apologized. So were texting, nothing sexual,
nothing like that. But she texted me one night and
was like, I got a question, why didn't you What
was it about me that you didn't didn't want to
be my man? I said, because we started off friends
with benefits. I said it, and I meant the regardless.
If I needed to sleep on your couch now, and
you let me regardless if we regardless of whatever happened,
we set these ground rules and then you went about
it in the awkward way and then you started doing
shit out of spite. And now I don't trust you,
and I would never trust you enough to be your man,
but I trust you enough to fuck you with a condom.
Speaker 2: Mo I do that.
Speaker 1: But I think that a lot of the times women.
I think a lot of the times people think that, oh,
I'm good enough to change your mind, and no, my
mind is my mind.
Speaker 2: And it's made up.
Speaker 1: And if you're being honest, shit, wasn't slapping like that,
because if you had a lot of the times like
if I like a girl, I like this girl and
I try to change her mind, I done made the
bitch breakfast, have pancakes, bacon, eggs, all type of orange juice,
and shit, dick on the table, mouth on it.
Speaker 2: I'm giving her the works. And she was like, no
matter what you do, yeah, no matter what you do.
And I was like, I appreciated that because that was
the first time that I've ever been in that situation
to where she was like, it just.
Speaker 3: Ain't gonna work.
Speaker 5: I had a nigga like that I fucked for years
and I was just like, he had to grow on
and she called me. I was like, grow I don't
want the man. She's like, but I know he would
do right for you.
Speaker 2: Can you just And I was like, no, no, what
what does she want?
Speaker 5: He was mad at her and they was having problems
at home, and she thought that if I was back
nice to him that it would fix it.
Speaker 2: You should have charged her, Yes, I could do that,
a consultation fee. This is what you need to do
for that nigga to act.
Speaker 3: No, but it wasn't that.
Speaker 6: She felt like, if I was back involved with him,
you'd be happy to be happy with her.
Speaker 2: If he was cheating with her, the thing should be
back happy.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 5: That And I'm like, I'm nothing. I don't, I mean,
I don't. I mean he told the chick that she
couldn't cut her hair. I buzzed my ship off. I
don't give a fuck. I had a whole black power,
my fucking mini afro and ship like I'm out here,
I'm gonna do.
Speaker 2: That's it a fucking sponge and just knocking their foods off.
How do y'all deal with control issues? From a man.
Speaker 5: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 2: For control issue, it is, I don't what kind of control.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's when you.
Speaker 2: Control, just overbearing.
Speaker 3: Just I don't do I don't don't.
Speaker 2: You can't do that where you going follow you every
five minutes where you at.
Speaker 4: We won't be together because that showed me you insecure
with something in your damn self to me, like if
you if you know what kind of woman I am,
and you know what I provide, how I stamp, how
you know what I'm saying my self worth, then I
feel like if you got all that ship going on,
I had dealt with somebody before like that, and it
just grinds my gears because I could be having an
excellent day. They like, send me a picture. They're like, damn,
you just exposing.
Speaker 3: Everything, ain't you. I'm like, damn, this is my my
fucking body. I aren't exposing ship. Ain't no nipples out,
ain't no right.
Speaker 2: This is just me.
Speaker 4: If I work out and I love how I look,
I feel like as a woman we should embrace it.
It's people that's bigger than me that love who they
are and they were some more whatever, and I be
looking at them like damn, I want to be like
that I want to have that confidence.
Speaker 3: No, I'm not here sure now of that confidence.
Speaker 2: Is the type of a friend to be like you
know you No, No, I want my I want my
friends to feel bad. I'm running ten miles every other day.
I'm I'm trying to live here so I can go
ride seventeen. I want people to feel bad about well,
I don't.
Speaker 3: It didn't work out.
Speaker 1: But look, are we if we're friends? If we're friends, right,
and we and we're not in school no more, And
so the likelihood of meeting PEP people just randomly is
far in between as we started creating content. Unless he
brings two motherfuckers in here and now we're cool, that's
very far in between because it probably won't happen again.
So now I gotta deal with the fact that my
friends don't think working out is cool. I mean, I
gotta go to your funeral sooner because you don't. Yeah,
like I'm thinking about the long term, I'm not necessarily
thinking about the physique.
Speaker 2: If we're gonna try to be here until we sixty
five seventy, then you gotta start changing some shit up and.
Speaker 4: To the Georgetown market. I'm plant based, so I've been
plant based in September last year, we didn't do that
ass food.
Speaker 2: Now I just stay on the.
Speaker 5: That's okay, that's fucked too. This stuff now, I'm going
to get both with the men with insecurities. When I
was younger, I was very thin, always tall, but very thin,
so I wore what I thought looked nice on me.
And the guy that I dated again from sixteen to
you know, basically thirty, had those insecurities and he'd be like,
take that shit off. He'll be like, oh, you look
good at first, and then it got progressively like controlling, Well,
why you're wearing that?
Speaker 6: You need to change.
Speaker 5: I'd be like, okay, because I'm accommodating, you know, I'm
not a confrontational person like that. And I would just
be like okay, you know, no big deal whatever till
that just started getting worse. And then the first time
that nigga hit me, I was like, wait a minute, okay,
we're doing this.
Speaker 3: Yeah, And I'm gonna tell you what, what is it?
Speaker 2: What do you what goes to your mind as a
woman when the nigga.
Speaker 5: Hits you for the first listen, I felt like I
was in a dream because I was like this nigga
just hit me.
Speaker 3: I felt like a doll. When that nigga first hit me,
I was like, I was one hundred pounds. I was like,
straight up, I was.
Speaker 5: His grandmothers was in the driveway. We was in my
car and this is when we have snatched out radios.
That niggas hit me. I was like, no, ship, this
nigga snatched the face off my radio, jumped out the
cars through that motherfucker actually bent it doing across the yard.
Speaker 6: His granny was like no, no, no, stop on the
car to my fucking days.
Speaker 2: Like what happened?
Speaker 3: Why did Why did he put his hands on you
because of what you had on?
Speaker 5: Because niggas is angry, because he was angry aby down
to so he had insecurities. You know, he had gotten
out of the guard. He couldn't find a job, he
couldn't find a bus to stay. He you know, he
had a lot of ship like came home and ship
just kind of blew up. And my like I told you,
my parents was married for twenty seven years. When my
senior year of high school, I found out my dad
was smoking crack. I said, was you recreationally smoking it
this whole time? And we just didn't realize it because
he always worked, you know whatever, but you know, hanging
around white people at this job and shit, you know
white people can.
Speaker 2: Do say smoke, crack, What do you mean?
Speaker 3: I mean the pipe?
Speaker 2: The pipe? Okay, yeah, cause somebody called somebody called a
person that does coke a crackhead.
Speaker 4: I said that who the motherfucker who I paid to
get out of my left that was a coke head.
And when I called him adulfe and crackhead, he damned
to try to break my neck.
Speaker 3: They seriously when it came to the crack and I
don't show up.
Speaker 2: I just held.
Speaker 3: Exactly. I had a damn ner beat him with the
boot like. Ship was serious though, but like I think, I'm.
Speaker 5: Gonna tell you, after the first time he hit me
though he it wasn't like just continuous. After that, I
let the nigga move in with me.
Speaker 3: Damn after that, like some sense in you listen.
Speaker 5: When I said you I was in that mother seeing stars,
I was like to do Okay, that ship was good
for about six months after that, that nigga started rocking
my ship.
Speaker 6: And then once like I was.
Speaker 5: Yes and I had two jobs and I was going
to school this nigga wasn't doing ship but driving around
and my mother fucking pontiacs some fire not even good dack.
Speaker 3: He beating the ship out of her, now, yeah, and
giving her a beating. That's it.
Speaker 5: And so I like one day I woke up and
I was just like, I'm I'm too embarrassed to tell anybody, right,
because everybody's like, you're a strong person and you're resilient,
you're this year that, and I was, and so who
can I tell because people would never expect me to
be in a situation.
Speaker 2: If I tell them, then they're gonna be like, damn,
the person who I thought you was, you ain't even
that believe you.
Speaker 6: They would not have believed so my apparents.
Speaker 2: Because they think they look at her as a strong
jo who you thought wouldn't gonna believe you.
Speaker 3: They would have been like, what would you do? Or
why'd you stay? Why did you stay? Would you do?
Speaker 5: And I'm like, I didn't do ship. Literally I came
the nigga just came in the house and was like, question, do.
Speaker 2: Y'all like make this stallion? Does she annoy y'all?
Speaker 5: I don't really with none of the I'm just talking
about her that she annoys me. I feel like she
is a young person and she has a lot of
growing to do.
Speaker 3: But she a stallion. Ain't that a man? Yes, it is, okay,
because she could she be tranced.
Speaker 1: Okay, you tripping, but you're right, I have. But I
just asked that because when she got shot in the foot.
When she got shot in the foot, I didn't believe her.
I was like, no, that she lying. And then my homegirl,
who was in a domestic relationship, she was like, that's
the problem with men right there. As soon as somebody
say something, y'all don't believe him. I said, even if
it doesn't make sense. She was like, what do you mean?
I said, nigga, If I stub my toe, I'm not
walking period. If I hit my toe too hard on
the motherfucking edged the bed, I'm not walking for the
rest of the day.
Speaker 6: Broke my foot that was out here, Okay.
Speaker 3: I don't know how. I just said that to my
husband the other day.
Speaker 4: Like with a man's power and strength, once you get
a back ache, or once you get an ache or
you sick, it's like your whole life is over.
Speaker 2: You know what?
Speaker 3: As a woman, Why.
Speaker 1: Because monthly, y'all have something that reminds y'all that y'all
are human as a man. If you have something that's
preventing you from standing up straight, you feel like you're
about to die because you finally feel, you finally feel,
and you don't feel invincible no more. You're reminded that
you are here that nigga, you get hurt, you can die.
And I think that, and back to the health thing,
I think a lot of the times when niggas feel pain,
they think they're about to die because what is this
it's opposed to and then you go to the doctor.
Speaker 2: No, no, no.
Speaker 1: I had back pain for a year. I went to
the doctor. They didn't know what the fuck was going on.
And then one day I just woke up at three
in the morning, went to the gym. Two weeks later,
no pain, no nothing. And I'm telling you, they gave
me all types of pills, this, this and that and
that they could have affected my health. So I'm thinking
if a man was in this back against the wall
type of situation and he and his pain and he
goes to the doctor and they can't figure it out,
nigga might think you about to die, Like for real, man,
But y'all got y'all cramps, y'all gotta go to work.
Still got y'all they dealing with it.
Speaker 4: Y'all got y'all yeah, but we got to push that
even more to take care of the man too. That's
what I was saying, Like, y'all could be going through
a mental or physical breakdown, and then the woman she
could be going through the same thing, but y'all won't
know she's going through it because she's gonna put on
this fasage that everything is okay.
Speaker 3: I want to make sure you're healed.
Speaker 2: But y'all grew up and seeing a woman, even if.
Speaker 6: You will expect other women to take care of the woman.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm, you exactly.
Speaker 6: So I couldn't even call my mom.
Speaker 5: I getting my ass kicked because my mama gonna be like, girl,
you ain't never seen your dad hit me?
Speaker 3: Why that's me? My mama?
Speaker 4: When I call her, it was over, She's like, what
I dressed up one day? Real pretty like, well, that's it?
Speaker 3: She like, what's it?
Speaker 4: I'm like shit, They was like you look amazing. I'm
like I'm glad I look like what I've been through.
They're like, what the fuck you've been through. I'm like,
I've been getting my ass beat. I'm about to get evicted.
Look out hell and bro clues. They're like, whoa, you
didn't carry that shit? Well, my mother was pissed.
Speaker 3: My mama was.
Speaker 6: My mother came and sign on nigga and my mother
is five three.
Speaker 1: I don't want my daughters to ever feel like that.
I want them as soon as a nigga cough at
you all, we're going to get that whistle.
Speaker 4: If my daddy was alive, she that nigga wouldn't stay
a chance. Even if my brother was, he would never
stood a chance. But going through something that I never
heal from, I think like that healing part when it
comes to spending that time with yourself to regain who
you are after you've lost yourself with somebody, that is
very important. I mean, you sometimes create a life that
you probably thought you would never live based off of
the people.
Speaker 3: That you involve yourself with. You can you can involve
yourself with people who's gonna uplift you all the time.
Speaker 4: You can involve yourself with people that's gonna just bring
you down, Like motherfucker be saying, like y'all know that
song by Slim Thug with Joe All standing on it.
Speaker 3: Okay, we know you don't like somebody you said.
Speaker 2: That knows the song with Slim Thug and.
Speaker 4: It's called Church though, And he was saying that you
got to soar with eagles. You can't be sitting around
with birds if you want to soar with eagles, like
he says, look at your friends, that's who you are
in five years. Like that song, it literally tell us
that if we keep on going through the same shit,
we not breaking a cycle. We gonna keep on finding
them sane people that's gonna either bring us down or
take us down.
Speaker 5: And you know, I lack the self awareness. I lacked
self confidence, and unfortunately I don't. People don't expect that.
They're like, oh, you're so confident, you're this year that,
And I'm like, I'm not.
Speaker 1: I'm that saying here, what do y'all do on them
days when y'all wake up and it's not one hundred
percent in there?
Speaker 6: You're gonna get what I got.
Speaker 4: I go on to marryl and I tell myself, I
love myself ten times. I brush my teeth with the
opposite hand. I'm left handed and I take ten good
deep breaths and I keep on going after that.
Speaker 3: I need to do that.
Speaker 2: Who the fuck are you Jesus Christ? Who knew that
you can grew up with roaches and turn out this.
Speaker 3: Right here?
Speaker 2: You know you don't like positive people?
Speaker 4: If I swear that is so true, because growing up
I was just around like negative you know what I'm saying,
So me having to be a positive Like when you
said you spoke proper my sister, and I'm like, you
do not need to speak like that.
Speaker 3: You need to stop talking like that.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, I think our family at the first
people to clip our wings. I've been called I've been asshole,
arrogance since I can remember, and I'm just like, the
last time somebody called me that the last two times
my mom was once and then my cousin. My mom
had a saxophonist for a birthday. He had this long
ass list of songs that you know. So my dumb,
drunk ass cousin gonna be like, can you take a quest?
And I said that literally makes no fucking sense, because
how the fuck is he gonna know this song that
you just randomly?
Speaker 2: Can you play? Right? No, he has a listen, you
gotta be a smart ass.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, Okay, now that I'm older, I realized
that I gotta start setting some boundaries. If you don't
want these palls put on you, then don't call me out,
especially with my kids in here, because I'm not gonna
call you no drunk bitch even though you are right.
So that's what I'm saying. Like, I'm like, yo, why
some women not all think that it's okay to call
a man an asshole because of them not understanding his
sense of humor or his forwardness or whatever. But I
can't turn around and call you a bitch because you
being for it or you being this. And I think
that a lot of the times black, I gotta stop
saying Black. Well, black women don't understand humor outside of Martin.
Speaker 3: I don't even I didn't even watch Martin, but.
Speaker 1: I'm talking about that. I'm talking about that slapstick, that
that nigga comedy. A lot of women do not understand
anything outside of that. So anytime somebody brings a different
type of humor or different I find different things funny
they felt they feel because why why are you talking
to me like that?
Speaker 2: What? Like type ship.
Speaker 5: People will be like, what's your favorite movie, and I'm like, oh, brother,
there and they'd be like what, I'm like as funny
as fuck, Like you gotta watch it.
Speaker 3: It's just clarious. If you don't know, I don't even
know what the fuck that is.
Speaker 2: What is like, that's a great movie. That's one of
the highest grossing movies ever.
Speaker 4: The way that I have here backlash mama, everybody like,
fuck that two hour movie.
Speaker 2: I'm like, so to most black people never seen Color Purple.
Speaker 3: And I love that movie.
Speaker 4: But I used to carry around the fucking why do
Fools Fall in Love? On the VHS though that was
that was my ship, and I'm like, can we put
this in your VCR? They like, hell, no, girl, what
are you doing with that movie? Asked Yeah, I mean yeah,
like Color Purple? Asked I think that was the beginning.
We're start teaching people about lesbian and it was just
in decoded because you.
Speaker 3: Know, sug and whooping.
Speaker 1: You know, I just think that motherfuckers get a WHOOPI Goldberg,
WHOOPI Goldberg, and Oprah passes all these movies, they y'all
because Beloved was asked too, like yeah, what.
Speaker 4: About the Tyler Perry ship though, how he bringing black
people like I mean, I heard a lot of backlash
about that too, with Tyler Perry bringing the black community down.
Speaker 1: I think that black people don't like seeing It's kind
of like seeing them true selves. You don't need to
be acting, don't be don't be showing these people that
are whatever the saying is is. Don't be showing out
in front of these people. They don't want the trauma
to be broadcasted like that. There's an audience for it.
And I think that a lot of people ignore that
there is a specific audience for this shit because every
time the nigga posts some shit on Netflix or et
watch that.
Speaker 3: I never watched it.
Speaker 5: So when I started doing comedy, I went to it
was predominantly white people, right, And I know that I
have a.
Speaker 6: Strange sense of humor.
Speaker 5: I'm kind of morbid a little bit sometimes, and things
like that white people ate that shit up. The first
time that the first time I did, uh, you know,
majority black audience, I was nervous. I had never been
nervous before. But black people are not gonna give y'all
ass no charity laughs. Okay, So I was scared because
I was like man, I'm not really fun I never
really thought I was funny. I'd just be up there
talking my shit. But it was just like I was
nervous because I'm like, you know, black people are gonna
judge me. They're gonna judge how I'm dressed, They're gonna
judge how I stand, They're gonna judge my edges, what
you're saying everything.
Speaker 2: They gonna look at you. Are you black?
Speaker 3: There you go, yeah, that's as soon as you say
something like gonna black, she's not black.
Speaker 5: So the thing is, when I would do these shows,
almost every white male comedian would get up there and
do one of those. And so I remember I was
so pissed off one day that I got up to
do my set and I said, you know, I really
want to know where are you meeting these black people,
because I don't know any black women that behaved that way.
I don't know any black women that are walking around
hitting a scalpery even when I visited the hood, but
I visited mom like that might be one out of
one hundred. But even the hook, even the hoods had coops,
you know what I'm saying, They had some kind of coofs.
Speaker 2: I think.
Speaker 1: I think the first time, the first time I saw
activity like that is when I moved to Atlanta, and
I didn't see it from women.
Speaker 2: I saw it from gay men.
Speaker 6: Exactly, who are are you emulating?
Speaker 2: My wife asked, the shit, It's like, who the fuck
are they even? Because it's not they're not acting like women,
because women don't act like that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, they take it to a whole other level.
Speaker 2: I saw a gay bomb the first day I was
in Atlanta. The nigga had his shirt and his shirt.
Speaker 3: Like gonna show up.
Speaker 2: I was very interesting, not interested, very interesting. I just
my mom.
Speaker 7: When I was growing up, my mom had best friends
that was like gay, and the gay guys back then
are totally different than the gay. Oh yeah, it gay me.
And back then you didn't even know they was gay
unless they told you they was gay.
Speaker 5: He would have been one the hairdresser and that, like
it was just an unspoken thing, like you knew he
was gay. This nigga in here doing hair, but he's
still dressed as a man.
Speaker 3: The first sound you sound like girl.
Speaker 1: My mom went to school with Jesse Powell, really and
when that song came out, I found he gay.
Speaker 2: You know that, right, I said, what.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's my favorite song too, But you will never know.
Speaker 4: No, but the motherfucker I would ever know who was
the dude that sings the song and said I'm a
man now. You know what I'm talking about in the church.
It's a it's a is he it's a man, but
he sounds like a woman. And he say, I'm a man.
Speaker 3: Now in a song.
Speaker 2: But like you know, it's the old school.
Speaker 3: It's an old school song. And he's singing.
Speaker 2: I'll be sure, no, sure, no, he's not sure.
Speaker 3: What's is? Damn No, I'm for real. He is singing.
He starts singing, and in the background he say, I'm
a man now. But this whole time I was I'm
thinking it was a woman, and I never really there
you get I won that. Yeah, that's the song. That's
the song, the song that was crazy. I don't know what.
Speaker 2: Y'all got life sucked up.
Speaker 3: Time sitting.
Speaker 2: I think who was playing at your dad, your stepdaddy?
Speaker 3: No, no, the elder bars, elder, bar, there you go, bar,
there you go.
Speaker 4: My mama played it, and I would I never paid
attention to Maniga.
Speaker 2: It was.
Speaker 3: I'm like, who the fuck is this woman? She was like,
that's a man.
Speaker 2: I'm like, what our old school singers sound.
Speaker 3: Like they had that they did, but that was normal.
Speaker 6: So I think I thought Tim's was a man. And
to my dad was like, no, that's a woman.
Speaker 4: My husband was like that's he was like, look at her,
that's a woman. I'm like, yeah, she built like a
staging for real, big motherfucker.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 6: I thought she was so much taller, she's my height.
Speaker 5: Really yeah, And I said, I wonder if that's how
my fuckers be looking at me, like that's a big bitch.
Probably what got I went out Saturday. I had on
some five minu chills. Probably every short man climbed that tree.
Speaker 3: Hello, I bet they were. They drink that water. This
tree is not for.
Speaker 2: Should have said, I snatched doors off and run. Yeah.
Speaker 6: And I told I told this little man. I was like, sorry, listen,
all that's true.
Speaker 3: I had, little man, I will bench press you.
Speaker 7: You was there when I told yeah, you caught a
little that guy in the room doing comedy. I said, damn,
And he felt small. He had to get back mask
a little bit with.
Speaker 3: No bas in your voice. Let your balls drop, deer.
Speaker 1: This has been this was more entertaining than I thought
it would be. I ain't gonna fo I hate recording
with people.
Speaker 3: We know you told us that if you do, this
is true.
Speaker 2: Because you know why, because people think that they are
fucking celebrities bro.
Speaker 1: Like they have this this or like the best thing
in the world type ship. You know how you said
that you don't know, you said. You just post what
you post and then it just comes pause. Some people,
some people, I think that they are talented because that happens.
So I've been looking at women. I'm like, you know,
they're following you because they want to fuck. Yeah, okay,
you're like whatever.
Speaker 5: People get so mad that I don't have only fans
what I want to want. I'm on here in a bikini.
I work out. I did bodybuilding. All the poses I
didn't even give. I said I didn't even give. I'll
post posted skinny. I'll posted when I was muscular. You
trying to see I've got okay little to work video
on here when I because I used to teach poldings
and classes.
Speaker 3: Too, and you wonder why they think what you can
do on all listen.
Speaker 5: I am an accountant. I used to work for the
I R. S. I am a nerd account for me
wanting to fuck. That's fine because I'm not naive to
that exactly. I'm not naive to that. But I'm not
doing on only fans because I have a career. I
have a real job, and I'm not discrediting or discounting
only fans.
Speaker 3: Get it, how you live.
Speaker 6: I'm just not gonna be pussy popping on the head stick.
Speaker 2: I'm not out of money. Six six billion.
Speaker 3: Every time I think about it, I'd be like, I'll
just be, but I don't want to live with that.
Speaker 1: Mother fucking will be the one example where they make
all these videos and don't make no money.
Speaker 6: Not here, some bitches.
Speaker 3: He can't do it right.
Speaker 4: And I was like, I ain't no all that for nothing,
nothing for twenty dollars everybody three years paying five hundred
you hear.
Speaker 2: Me, three dollars? Crazy?
Speaker 3: Yeah, Threads, the whole Threads is now ship.
Speaker 4: They can go on there and pop some koochies like
I'm saying, like yeah, Twitter and thrests, but Threads, if
you got it in your.
Speaker 3: Man, I'm gonna say, whatever monetization you can get.
Speaker 2: Paid from three you can post porn on Threads, man.
Speaker 3: I mean, I'll be saying, bitches, that's my post. I'm sorry.
Speaker 5: I don't know you could post porn on anything. You can,
like I get flagged for. You know, some of my
model pictures, like the chocolate shoot, they flag of my
ship all the time, and I said, it's somebody on
here literally much ass. You know what's crazy is I
normally I never turned around in my pictures.
Speaker 2: It's too much. We got.
Speaker 3: Then dropped you.
Speaker 2: I've seen I've seen the girl pull the her bikini
to where the list was. Mother.
Speaker 4: I have seen a chick on Instagram put a deal
though inside her swimming suit and she got prince and
she just popping like this with it in there.
Speaker 3: Take the damn deal though out.
Speaker 1: Honestly, I've seen the girl with the motherfucking sheer skirt
on and her pussy lips.
Speaker 2: You can see it. I haven't seen nothing. Does y'all
see this?
Speaker 6: That was a challenge. I don't know none of this everything.
Speaker 3: To see her, it was a challenge. And I'm like,
and y'all here trying to send to me, I don't know.
Speaker 6: I got it's my little chocolate.
Speaker 3: That was Instagram me.
Speaker 4: Yes A for just saying sometimes I picked my booty
up and jiggle it like it was a post.
Speaker 3: Isn't doing that?
Speaker 6: I'll do that. I'm gotta make sure it's still you know,
still there, firm but juicy.
Speaker 2: Exactly, I say Instagram, right, yeah, definitely exactly.
Speaker 1: You know I got the videos now or the pictures now?
Where on the videos now where it's maybe like six
seconds of nothing but like a millisecond of them being naked.
Speaker 5: Yeah, And it's like a game because you got to
be able to stop it to do the screenshot.
Speaker 3: I ain't on that ship. Yeah, really, looking is.
Speaker 2: Different because of Black Widow. Yeah, my shit, real different.
Speaker 6: I don't know why I'll be seeing ship like that.
Speaker 3: It's really probably pixies and some motivational ship.
Speaker 5: I get a lot of workout stuff, I get some accounting,
a lot of Excel tips.
Speaker 2: But you know it only pops up because that's what
you're looking at you right.
Speaker 3: Yeah, on your Google if you ever on Google.
Speaker 5: But why do I be getting all the dicks and
stuff like Google? Which Google didn't?
Speaker 3: What you be on porn?
Speaker 4: You be on that born It's somebody in that ralgorithm
that's Instagram be on there listen guessing that they know
you sing Instagram.
Speaker 5: No, no, like my my algorithm, like, I mean, it
be prints in there. But you know, fitness people sometimes
really go left and they.
Speaker 4: You know, oh my goodness, Yeah, I'm past the fitness
part when it comes to the left and the right
and just I'll just be like, you know, anything they
do and it gets a little out of control.
Speaker 5: Now, Ship, it's like, wow, okay, that's what we're doing.
That's not even a real fucking workout muscles at all.
You're gonna hurt your damn self.
Speaker 3: That's that's pretty much it.
Speaker 2: Well, I do appreciate you pulling up today. Man, this
has been This has been fun. Man, this has been
really really fun, really fun. How you feel about that, Mike,
It's funny, as I just say, uh, it was.
Speaker 7: It's crazy because this is my first time meeting a demon, Yeah,
my first time. She had followed the I created podcast
page and immediately I went to her profile.
Speaker 2: Was cute because you don't because I know he's not
Like if.
Speaker 1: It wasn't, I'm saying, I click on pages that if
you got a pretty picture, yeah, I'm but if you don't.
Speaker 7: Yeah, And it was like it wasn't, like, oh damn
she cute, let me highlight her. It was more like, damn,
I want to see what she about. And then I
seen it she did nails, and then I was like okay.
And then I watched a couple of her videos. I'm like, oh, damn,
she's a whole light out here. And I was like
hm hmm, okay, and then I was talking to you.
We got on the pot, Vania.
Speaker 2: Uh. We have been talking about getting you on, I
think recently, right on the pot just a day. Y'all
missing out on too much.
Speaker 6: When I was doing like fitness heavy when I was competing.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yea, yeah, yeah, yeah, because I've done some of
her videos. Y'all missing out on. Y'all missing out on
We'll talk about it when we cut the camera off.
Y'all just missing out on so many opportunities and and
and and until you meet.
Speaker 1: It's one thing to be on the pod with somebody
who does pods, versus I want to start a pod
and didn't having to figure all of this ship out
because I know some people that started the pod and
I was giving them all the game and they just
was they listen and then and then it ted it off.
But the fact that the fact that people have followings
and they don't be like you did any of y'all
watch Atlanta, the episode where paper Boy and the girl
she wanted to faker relationship type ship and he was like,
I'm not about to do all of that, and she
was like why. I mean, it's mutually beneficial. I think
a lot of the times people don't think about collab
in that way. Hey you got six months, Yeah you got,
you got, you gotta you got a day a week
for six months, because it could drastically change the income
that comes to our business, the visibility to come to
our pages, because we can sit down for an hour
and a half, come out with ten clips, and then
now we could post every single day, all day for
the next week, for the next week, and still and
we still gotta We still have to record next week
and this for six months. Now you've got brand opportunities
because the following match the likes and this and this
and that. A lot of people do not understand that.
But it takes somebody like Mike to be social because
I'm not, and then me to get in the room
and say, this is how this works. Do you have
the capacity to do it? And a lot of the
times people don't like the forward and it's kind of like, hey,
do you want to fuck? I don't want to be
with you, but this is what it can be. And
a lot of the times when it comes to pot
when it comes to videos, when it comes to shit
like that, a lot of the people, especially here, they
don't really understand that you got to look a certain way,
you got to talk a certain way.
Speaker 2: It got to be produced. And I keep telling Mike
the shit got to be intentional, and you talk about
intention a lot like it has to be gold setting.
Then everybody around you got to be on the same
accord and it can't be a lot of people don't
like me because I'm too aggressive with it. Hey man,
this is I love doing this shit out of call it.
I don't think it's aggressive. It's just passion. Yeah, you don't.
Speaker 7: But a lot of people that he that he may
be speaking to or speaking about like, they will say
that about him.
Speaker 2: Perfection, he's just too much. Perfection exists, Perfection can exist.
It's just passion. He's passionate about this shit right now.
Speaker 1: It could be perfect to you right now, and as
soon as you put it out, you can hear something different,
then the next one. It could be perfect again until
you hear it and learn something perfection exists. I think
a lot of the times we tell people that, oh,
it ain't got to be perfect. You ain't even trying
to get close.
Speaker 5: And that's part of my problem because when I got
on social media again, it was never my intention to
have a following, you never my intention to do anything
with it.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 5: I started training people because I had a passion for it,
and then I realized how many people really y out
here bullshitting, So I was like, fuck this, I'm not
doing that. When I saw life insurance, I had a
passion for it. I had a passion for financial education.
You realize that people the services that they pay for,
they don't really value it, like that they want you
to give them shit for free, but then they don't
use it, you know what I mean. And so once
I started getting a following, and it was like, Okay,
what am I supposed to do with it? Because I
just be out here bullshitting and they're like, put out
a calendar, do that, and then I'm like, what the
fuck gonna look at this calendar? But then I get
people constantly asking me about it. Calendars, I did, calendars,
t shirts, various merch. Even when I do my stand up,
they like, you ain't got no merch, and I'm like, nah,
but people asked me for that's the.
Speaker 1: And that's the community thing I think for me. For me,
I seen it when I started doing a pot in
twenty fifteen and with ignorant philosophy, and then when I
started getting into these rooms, I realized that the sitting
around and talking wasn't going to be enough for me.
Speaker 2: It wasn't fulfilling. So then I started writing script and
then I started getting into different rooms, and then I
started to realize that it wasn't about the talking and
it wasn't about the scripts. It was about they trying
to sell ad space and do you have enough following
for me to sell ad space? And now that I
understand that, it's like, okay, I can put a show
together based off of what everybody trying to accomplish. The
problem is is that when you sit niggas down and
ask them because I asked a demon guy, yo, what
how can this benefit you? Or what?
Speaker 1: And has she had this question last week? She would
have came today with a different answer than you know
what I mean. Just but it's like, okay, if you
if y'all know, y'all don't know me from a campaign,
then now when you listen to she'd be like, oh ship,
Now when I say, okay, what do what? How can
we use this to benefit y'all and benefit at at
the same time, because y'all need pictures, y'all need videos,
y'all need content, y'all need all of the ship. And
I think a lot of the times people be like,
you need me more than I need you. Yeah, but
the ship that the ship that you need me for
is a lot. It's valuable. You gotta pay for have
to pass for me. You know what I'm saying. You
gotta pay for this ship somehow another. And I think
that's why I like, uh rocking with Mike so much,
is because Mike is a hustler. I'm a homebody. I'm
a creator and I'm not I don't really like being
social like that because I just feel everything Pause. But
this pot off, this part, like this episode has shown
me like I have grown Pause, and I have learned
how to communicate with people, meeting them instantly.
Speaker 3: And you wonderful and you know about affirmation.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, you know powerful all that good ship.
Speaker 3: I don't know how mine started.
Speaker 4: Actually I had really I had bad skin, and I
started making my own face products. And then when I
started making my own face products, it was like all right,
people like let me buy it, let me buy it.
I'm selling some here and there. Then all of a sudden,
it was like, okay, if they are in tune with
what I'm doing here, then how else. I'm just a
positive motivational person. That's literally every day all my life.
I try to look at the good not the bad,
you know, I try to turn everything around. So like
every morning my stories, I would always post like greatness
is coming, the process is necessary.
Speaker 3: Like I did that probably for three six months straight.
Speaker 4: And I take pieces of songs and I literally post
a positive part of that song because I listened to
affirmation motivational songs. So like a lot of people out
here that you said, a lot of men don't know
that they're important. So they got a real that says
I love you black man. Every time I see that,
I posted in our attacks and friends that I do know,
so they know that they loved.
Speaker 2: You know, and somebody needed that.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And it'd be a lot of people that comment
on some positive shit like you know what. I look
forward to these messages every day and I thank you.
And it was somebody that was making a huge amount
of donations you feel me last year just me being positive.
I never had to send no picture, never had to
do nothing. It was just like, I want to just
support you on what you got going on.
Speaker 2: And I was, I was.
Speaker 5: I was intimidated by it. They would be like, can
I see you lunch? Can I can I send you
some money?
Speaker 3: I'd be like, nah, for what?
Speaker 2: Yeah, because they trying to feed to the wagon.
Speaker 3: But yeah, they playing her own wagons.
Speaker 5: That's what I'm dragging and that's why I would be like,
I don't need shit, I'm good over here.
Speaker 6: Like what do you want from me.
Speaker 3: Too? Yeah?
Speaker 4: I was.
Speaker 5: So I was very apprehensive about accepting those things. And
my mom was like, you're missing your blessing. But because
now I've been I'm not a social person either. I'm
not an extrovert, but people assume that I am doing comedy.
Was a challenge for myself because when I say I
am an accountant, I mean pocket protector.
Speaker 6: Have my thick gas.
Speaker 5: Glasses and briefcase and shit, like that's truly who I
am at part, and so exactly so when I tell
people like this was a challenge to myself to be
more open, to be more approachable, and so even on
the Internet, I forget that people are looking at it.
Speaker 2: I do too.
Speaker 5: I just be in my own world and so a
lot of things that I post are to help me.
I'm trying to try to help myself.
Speaker 4: But it really start here though, like once you start
seeing that you was having audience, right, you like, shit,
you don't even know how you got the audience really,
or how you keeping them, because some people get followings
and then people unfollowed. Some people get followings, and then
people get their page took and down. Like I literally,
I'm grateful for the followings that I have. I'm grateful
for the income that I make. But every day I
used to tell myself, since I worked at a job
that was making thirty dollars, I'm like, damn, I want
to make money in my sleep. Yeah this is before
I left, So as I start waking up every day
like damn, how can I make money in my sleep?
I bought that book, the three sixty nine book, and
it was just a minute ye.
Speaker 3: Old with it. No, not that that was the song.
Speaker 4: But I had bought this book and I had started
writing everything like I went to a nail school.
Speaker 3: Finished.
Speaker 6: I'm like, shit, I went you did. Now that's what
I'm talking about, Paja things.
Speaker 3: That's what it means. I Didne did a hodge of
Paja things.
Speaker 4: So it's like just having that mindset that you already
got it and that it's already yours, and you set
in a goal literally and you're not doubting the goal
that you said, and you know what I'm saying, and
you like literally you putting that into yourself every single day,
like all right, this week, we're going to get five
k more.
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 4: I started off like I was really crazy, but Steve
Harvey said, if you get a book and you write
down five hundred things in that book, it could be anything.
Once you get to two hundred and seventy five, those
two hundred and seventy five is gonna come off that
book without even seeing it, without even noticing that it's off.
I had started that, left that damn job, next thing,
you know everything, I'm like, I need to get a
hundred K. When I got to a hundred K. I
couldn't even believe I was at a hundred K because
I wasn't even looking at the followers no more. Every
time somebody like, what's your Instagram, I'm like, this Instagram
don't even like, I don't even need.
Speaker 3: The damn you got followed.
Speaker 4: It ain't even that big to me. But I'm so
thankful that you see that it's something that you want
to do too. But every day I was doing that
looking at people, looking at their content to build me
up to have the same type of motive and drive
to do the same.
Speaker 2: For sure, I'm definitely gonna produce y'all because it bad.
Somebody just told me they was like, you need to
stop trying to do ship, just do it. No need
to become who you want to become.
Speaker 3: That's it. That's true.
Speaker 1: Like if if me me asking y'all about some ship,
no won't work for you. No, no, no, it is, Hey,
I got this opposed to me coming to y'all with
an idea and not getting your email a number and
then not sending y'all a PDF or how it's supposed
to work. That's who I am. I need to become that, hey,
this is going to be beneficial for this, this, this,
this and this. All I need from this, this, this,
this and this and this that we could do this this,
this is this opposed to opposed to opposed to being like,
oh I got an idea. Okay, nigga, everybody got ideas.
Speaker 2: What's that? But the fact that you ain't sat down
and try to like, don't don't just type of Microsoft
word up like that's that's what I can't forget a picture,
you know what I'm saying. Get this fun?
Speaker 5: Yeah, this is why I reach out to people like
Mike because I lack creativity.
Speaker 6: I don't I don't have it in me.
Speaker 2: So when people got he barely got it.
Speaker 3: That's why he got him. He actually.
Speaker 6: What I don't know, utilize your resource.
Speaker 3: All the time.
Speaker 7: We've been cool for a while, but we actually like
becoming friends. That's probably happens just top of the year
this year. That's good because you just sometimes you gotta.
Speaker 2: Be like because you.
Speaker 3: You just gotta be like, you just gotta be like
we'all are thank y'all for.
Speaker 1: Listening to this episode. I am Eric Dizzy. This is
Mike Haney a KA mister h d himself a demon.
Speaker 3: Hello, goodbye mss V.
Speaker 2: Can I tell you that you call me?
Speaker 3: V all? Got one a silber five.
Speaker 4: I got one more thing though before we get out
of here, and that's it, shut out. If you can't
find a nice person, it's easy to be one and
like that's really simple.
Speaker 3: Though not for you.
Speaker 4: I don't know because that's just my kids said. Though
a nice person one. Yeah, that's it, Like, that's that's
really saying.
Speaker 2: If you can't find a bad bitch, b.
Speaker 3: One who beat that beat the bad bitch?
Speaker 2: What's your Instagram handles? They're not gonna follow it. I'm
gonna just put it in the likes.
Speaker 1: That never works. That never works. People be doing that.
I'm like, bro, I'm not about I'm not about to
sit here and try to rewind the ship. No, put
it to where I can click it.
Speaker 3: Okay, that's cool, Yeah for sure.
Speaker 2: But y'all, y'all are light. Both of y'all are.
Speaker 6: I appreciate you.
Speaker 2: She's just dark as fuck.
Speaker 3: Wow, I mean color wise.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I wasn't even talking about the color ship.
Speaker 3: I don't see no darkness, so I only see lights
and I got pretty skin.
Speaker 2: So could you talk shit? Getting back you feel me.
Speaker 3: We got mo.
Speaker 2: See.
Speaker 1: And this is why I like working out, because my
next line is going to say, let's take off our
cloves and looks.
Speaker 3: Completely. And y'all, when I got thumb, that's what I got.
Speaker 2: At the gates. Y'all next week, bro, that was fun.
Speaker 3: Spanish, Spanish,