WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.400 --> 00:00:03.560 And today on After Talk, we have Abigail Mac with us. 2 00:00:06.080 --> 00:00:10.679 Yay, it's so official. You know that Audie brought all the. 3 00:00:10.679 --> 00:00:12.960 Audience here just for you since you graced us with 4 00:00:13.080 --> 00:00:14.880 your presence here on the Private Talk couch. 5 00:00:15.039 --> 00:00:18.320 I feel nervous now, so people watching, do you just 6 00:00:18.359 --> 00:00:18.920 swatch it? 7 00:00:19.120 --> 00:00:20.879 I thought you're just nervous because my big booty was 8 00:00:20.879 --> 00:00:22.719 in the room. But you know, I see where your 9 00:00:22.760 --> 00:00:23.760 head's at now, Amigail. 10 00:00:23.879 --> 00:00:25.839 Yeah, well you know where I want my head to 11 00:00:25.879 --> 00:00:26.120 be at. 12 00:00:26.160 --> 00:00:27.839 But we'll talk about I mean, I have smothered you 13 00:00:27.920 --> 00:00:30.760 before Private Talk because that's another subject we'll talk about later. 14 00:00:30.800 --> 00:00:33.679 But I definitely have smothered her. She definitely passed the 15 00:00:33.719 --> 00:00:35.679 three second test. I don't know if it was anthing 16 00:00:35.719 --> 00:00:37.200 longer than that, but I know back in the day, 17 00:00:37.439 --> 00:00:40.560 I definitely would see how long you could go without, 18 00:00:40.679 --> 00:00:42.679 you know, suffocating, because we don't want to hurt anybody 19 00:00:42.719 --> 00:00:45.000 with the big booty. You just want to lightly hurt. 20 00:00:45.039 --> 00:00:47.200 I mean I like to suffocate, suffocating. 21 00:00:47.280 --> 00:00:49.799 I can for a very long for a very long time. 22 00:00:50.320 --> 00:00:53.039 I like that. All right, Miss Abigail Mac, thank you 23 00:00:53.079 --> 00:00:55.920 for coming on the Private Talk couch. Tell us all 24 00:00:55.960 --> 00:00:58.240 about what you've been up to during COVID. It's been 25 00:00:58.280 --> 00:01:01.240 a year now. It has been crazy times in the world. 26 00:01:01.640 --> 00:01:02.600 What have you been doing. 27 00:01:03.799 --> 00:01:06.079 Well, For about two weeks, I just cried and sat 28 00:01:06.120 --> 00:01:09.280 in my house and did nothing. But I got over 29 00:01:09.319 --> 00:01:12.120 that and I've just been focusing. I feel like what 30 00:01:12.239 --> 00:01:15.599 COVID did for me is really just allowed me to 31 00:01:15.680 --> 00:01:18.239 focus on what I wanted to do with my life 32 00:01:18.280 --> 00:01:21.719 and with my career, because I still was doing scenes, 33 00:01:21.799 --> 00:01:23.799 not a lot of scenes, but I would go on 34 00:01:23.840 --> 00:01:27.120 set for people that I wanted to fuck, or just 35 00:01:27.200 --> 00:01:29.719 companies like, oh that sounds fun. I'll you're just selective, 36 00:01:30.000 --> 00:01:33.280 very selective of like the companies I worked with and 37 00:01:33.319 --> 00:01:36.359 the people that I worked with as well. But I 38 00:01:36.359 --> 00:01:39.200 don't know, it's really opened my eyes because now I 39 00:01:39.239 --> 00:01:41.599 just shoot content for myself and for my own site, 40 00:01:42.359 --> 00:01:48.439 and it's been like this extremely liberating experience going well, 41 00:01:48.519 --> 00:01:50.560 there's this whole other side of life. Like I was 42 00:01:50.599 --> 00:01:53.599 shooting content my first year in the industry, but it 43 00:01:53.599 --> 00:01:56.359 was so different. It was like the website based situation 44 00:01:56.519 --> 00:01:59.159 back then, and so I feel like COVID is opened 45 00:01:59.159 --> 00:02:01.599 my eyes, like I'm going to just go live my 46 00:02:01.640 --> 00:02:02.680 life a little bit different. 47 00:02:02.719 --> 00:02:04.799 Now like almost like why haven't I been doing this 48 00:02:04.879 --> 00:02:07.439 all along? Or kind of more of an awakening thing 49 00:02:07.480 --> 00:02:10.159 of like, wow, I don't have to consume my life 50 00:02:10.159 --> 00:02:11.840 with porn twenty four seven. 51 00:02:12.120 --> 00:02:15.039 Yeah, it kind of has made me jaded because I 52 00:02:15.080 --> 00:02:18.960 was like, why wasn't only fans around when I first 53 00:02:18.960 --> 00:02:21.719 got in the industry, Like this wasn't around. You could 54 00:02:21.719 --> 00:02:24.159 do a website, you could feature dance, and you could 55 00:02:24.159 --> 00:02:25.719 do scenes is pretty much. 56 00:02:25.639 --> 00:02:28.639 What you could do with the whole craziness of OnlyFans, 57 00:02:28.680 --> 00:02:30.879 you know, being really more popular even though it was 58 00:02:31.080 --> 00:02:34.319 out before covid had started. Were you kind of jealous 59 00:02:34.360 --> 00:02:36.400 or reseentful that some of these girls and with platforms 60 00:02:36.400 --> 00:02:38.319 on as big as yourself now is like able to 61 00:02:38.360 --> 00:02:40.280 be like make all this money where it's like you 62 00:02:40.280 --> 00:02:42.360 put on all this time. How did you feel about that? 63 00:02:43.000 --> 00:02:45.280 I feel like for the new girls, I was like 64 00:02:45.439 --> 00:02:47.840 what I was doing, I'm like, don't give your shit 65 00:02:47.919 --> 00:02:49.840 away to other people. I'm like, you can make so 66 00:02:49.960 --> 00:02:52.560 much money. And the girls that I knew that were 67 00:02:52.599 --> 00:02:55.520 a little bit newer than I was, like a year 68 00:02:55.560 --> 00:02:58.479 or two in, I'm like, listen, don't go to set like. 69 00:02:59.080 --> 00:03:00.680 You're in the background. 70 00:03:00.680 --> 00:03:01.680 You're like, don't do it. 71 00:03:01.759 --> 00:03:04.240 I was like, I'm like, your agent is wrong. You 72 00:03:04.280 --> 00:03:07.000 can make so much fucking money, like this can be 73 00:03:07.199 --> 00:03:09.439 like if you get in this industry, you have to 74 00:03:09.520 --> 00:03:11.879 know that afterwards, like you're not gonna really be able 75 00:03:11.879 --> 00:03:13.479 to do a lot. Doesn't even matter if you're in 76 00:03:13.479 --> 00:03:15.599 for a year, people are gonna recognize you. There's so 77 00:03:15.639 --> 00:03:17.919 many things that you won't be able to do. Make 78 00:03:18.000 --> 00:03:20.800 this your end all, make this your retirement, you know, 79 00:03:20.879 --> 00:03:22.639 like if you're gonna do it, go all in. So 80 00:03:22.680 --> 00:03:24.759 I'm always like, this is how you can make more money. 81 00:03:24.840 --> 00:03:26.840 Like so you were kind of like coaching them in 82 00:03:26.879 --> 00:03:28.919 a sense. So it was like no jealousy in a sense, 83 00:03:28.919 --> 00:03:30.919 You're like, hey, let's be a part of this team 84 00:03:30.960 --> 00:03:32.639 and let's do it this way, because you know, I 85 00:03:32.680 --> 00:03:35.080 feel like a lot of times with girls, I wouldn't 86 00:03:35.080 --> 00:03:36.240 say I was jealous. 87 00:03:35.919 --> 00:03:37.400 By any means, but I was a little bit. 88 00:03:37.840 --> 00:03:39.439 I don't even know if offended was the right word, 89 00:03:39.680 --> 00:03:42.319 but it was more like, oh, like you said, that 90 00:03:42.360 --> 00:03:43.800 wasn't around when we had it. So it was like 91 00:03:43.840 --> 00:03:45.879 you put in so much time, you do all these things, 92 00:03:45.879 --> 00:03:48.080 and all it's like it came too easily. To some people, 93 00:03:48.319 --> 00:03:50.400 but then more talking to people on the couch and 94 00:03:50.439 --> 00:03:52.280 like in seeing their you know, different lanes and not 95 00:03:52.319 --> 00:03:54.719 even in being important having OnlyFans. It was like it 96 00:03:54.800 --> 00:03:57.240 was cool to see the liberation through each artist in 97 00:03:57.240 --> 00:03:59.639 their own way because everyone has their lane and everybody 98 00:03:59.680 --> 00:04:01.840 can do our own only fans and be completely different 99 00:04:02.039 --> 00:04:03.879 and make money and all of us win. So I 100 00:04:03.879 --> 00:04:05.560 feel like that's been the cool thing for me to 101 00:04:05.599 --> 00:04:08.159 sit and talk to people about the transition if maybe 102 00:04:08.159 --> 00:04:10.240 we were doing it before and kind of like where 103 00:04:10.280 --> 00:04:12.599 you're at now with it and actually like what it's 104 00:04:12.680 --> 00:04:14.840 made you be able to do without, you know, with 105 00:04:14.879 --> 00:04:18.079 all these platforms like OnlyFans and fan centros and all 106 00:04:18.079 --> 00:04:20.680 these other things. You know, we kind of were kind 107 00:04:20.680 --> 00:04:22.399 of backed in the you know, in a hard place, 108 00:04:22.399 --> 00:04:24.319 in a corner in a sense, because it's like people 109 00:04:24.319 --> 00:04:26.800 thought like, oh, you should be having a jet, you should. 110 00:04:26.480 --> 00:04:27.800 Be doing plying private. 111 00:04:27.839 --> 00:04:30.160 I'm like, I wish, but you know, you don't, you know, 112 00:04:30.199 --> 00:04:32.279 as much good as much as the money was really 113 00:04:32.279 --> 00:04:36.120 good that we were making, we weren't making crazy that much. 114 00:04:36.240 --> 00:04:38.399 You know, when you put in perspective now, it only fans, 115 00:04:38.480 --> 00:04:41.240 you know, gives us whatever it's definitely not compared at all, 116 00:04:41.480 --> 00:04:43.839 you know. And it was like the industry where the 117 00:04:43.879 --> 00:04:46.439 big names, you know, the evil Angels and the elegant 118 00:04:46.480 --> 00:04:49.279 Angels and brassers and all these people, those were the 119 00:04:49.279 --> 00:04:50.639 ones who were making the money. 120 00:04:50.759 --> 00:04:52.240 And now it's kind of like flipped. 121 00:04:52.600 --> 00:04:55.199 So it's like, oh, this is what you've been doing 122 00:04:55.240 --> 00:04:56.759 to me all along, and so now it's kind of 123 00:04:56.759 --> 00:04:58.360 like you said, and very liberating to the point where 124 00:04:58.360 --> 00:05:00.160 it's like I can work when I want to, I 125 00:05:00.199 --> 00:05:02.360 make my own schedule, I can put the content that 126 00:05:02.399 --> 00:05:04.399 I want to work with the people that I want 127 00:05:04.439 --> 00:05:06.120 to and it's kind of all mine. 128 00:05:06.360 --> 00:05:09.720 Yes, And I really like that you said I can 129 00:05:09.800 --> 00:05:12.439 do what I want to because I do feel like, well, 130 00:05:12.600 --> 00:05:14.560 I had a great time in the industry. I'm still 131 00:05:14.560 --> 00:05:17.839 in the industry, but there were some things and I'm like, ugh, 132 00:05:17.879 --> 00:05:19.319 this isn't really like my style. 133 00:05:19.600 --> 00:05:23.040 I guess, like like as far as genres of like hardcore. 134 00:05:22.639 --> 00:05:25.000 Scenes or what do you mean by that, playing a 135 00:05:25.040 --> 00:05:26.120 ditzy nurse. 136 00:05:26.120 --> 00:05:28.839 Or you know, that's like a typical cliche of like 137 00:05:28.920 --> 00:05:30.920 oh I'm a blonde and I'm this, or oh, I'm 138 00:05:30.920 --> 00:05:32.480 a brunette and I'm a smart one. 139 00:05:32.399 --> 00:05:34.399 Or like this, like the typical where. 140 00:05:34.240 --> 00:05:36.560 It became like cheesy as fine, and there's a time 141 00:05:36.600 --> 00:05:38.279 and a place, and I still like to be cheesy 142 00:05:38.319 --> 00:05:38.839 at times. 143 00:05:38.920 --> 00:05:42.160 But you know, I see you in your TikTok videos. 144 00:05:42.199 --> 00:05:43.360 I told you I'm not a part of it, but 145 00:05:43.399 --> 00:05:45.480 I definitely follow you, so I see I see it 146 00:05:45.560 --> 00:05:46.199 going down with them. 147 00:05:46.240 --> 00:05:48.560 I think when it came to sex, how I was 148 00:05:48.600 --> 00:05:51.319 feeling a little bit is I went in, I'm like, 149 00:05:51.360 --> 00:05:55.079 this isn't fun anymore. I'm not having fun and now 150 00:05:55.240 --> 00:05:57.360 doing your own content, or at least doing my own 151 00:05:57.399 --> 00:06:00.120 content like I'm having so much fun. 152 00:06:00.240 --> 00:06:01.800 So why did you stop having fun? 153 00:06:01.839 --> 00:06:03.759 Do you think because of the cheesiness or because you 154 00:06:03.839 --> 00:06:06.079 just didn't get to do what you wanted to do. 155 00:06:06.120 --> 00:06:08.279 You know, I actually figured this out and I was 156 00:06:08.319 --> 00:06:11.600 talking to my man recently about this. I wasn't having 157 00:06:11.639 --> 00:06:14.920 fun because I wasn't having orgasms. I wasn't having real 158 00:06:15.079 --> 00:06:16.000 orgasms on set. 159 00:06:16.079 --> 00:06:16.879 But you hacked it. 160 00:06:17.199 --> 00:06:19.600 Yes, one hundred percent. If if someone says that they 161 00:06:19.600 --> 00:06:22.279 have an orgasm in every other scenes, they're lying. 162 00:06:22.279 --> 00:06:23.319 I'm an eighty percenter. 163 00:06:23.360 --> 00:06:25.120 Well the time when I was doing it, because I 164 00:06:25.160 --> 00:06:26.959 feel like and I get what you're saying. Because at 165 00:06:27.000 --> 00:06:29.319 the same time too, it's like not that you're robotic, 166 00:06:29.399 --> 00:06:32.240 but it becomes the thing that it's very like. It's 167 00:06:32.279 --> 00:06:34.800 so I don't know, it's perpetually like it's the same 168 00:06:34.800 --> 00:06:35.560 thing over and over again. 169 00:06:35.600 --> 00:06:37.360 It's redundant, you know what I mean. So it's like 170 00:06:37.600 --> 00:06:38.199 you don't. 171 00:06:38.160 --> 00:06:40.720 There's no like spiciness, like if you were in a 172 00:06:40.720 --> 00:06:42.879 relationship to say, it's just dull. There's nothing like there's 173 00:06:42.879 --> 00:06:45.319 no substance to it. But for me, I felt like, 174 00:06:45.399 --> 00:06:47.040 if I'm going to go and set and I'm gonna 175 00:06:47.040 --> 00:06:48.839 fuck and people are gonna see it, I'm going to 176 00:06:48.920 --> 00:06:50.920 get off because if not, I feel like I'm being used, 177 00:06:50.959 --> 00:06:52.519 Like I'm just a whole for you to fuck and 178 00:06:52.560 --> 00:06:54.720 in your enjoyment, which is cool sometimes if I want 179 00:06:54.720 --> 00:06:56.480 it to be, but for me, I'm like, I like 180 00:06:56.519 --> 00:06:57.720 to fuck and I want to come. 181 00:06:58.759 --> 00:07:01.279 It's always you know, I'm very s yes means, but. 182 00:07:01.480 --> 00:07:03.360 I am selfish too, but it is harder for me 183 00:07:03.439 --> 00:07:06.480 to come, especially with men, because I am more into women. 184 00:07:06.639 --> 00:07:08.639 So I would have an easier time when I was 185 00:07:08.720 --> 00:07:12.600 doing a lesbian scene just because I was very into it. 186 00:07:12.680 --> 00:07:14.279 Were you more in your head because you have a 187 00:07:14.319 --> 00:07:16.920 partner at home or with being with men, or what 188 00:07:16.959 --> 00:07:19.879 made you think that because you were just kind of working, 189 00:07:19.959 --> 00:07:22.439 like because you've become Abigail Mac now are you thinking 190 00:07:22.480 --> 00:07:24.199 because like I have to be the best scene at 191 00:07:24.199 --> 00:07:27.480 this thing? Like what made you feel so not having 192 00:07:27.519 --> 00:07:28.720 fun anymore in those scenes? 193 00:07:29.199 --> 00:07:33.680 I think it was just that there's a lot of 194 00:07:33.720 --> 00:07:37.839 performers that can't let go. And this is what I've 195 00:07:37.959 --> 00:07:41.800 kind of seen. I have worked with a few people 196 00:07:41.920 --> 00:07:44.639 where it's like, no, the camera isn't there, Let's just 197 00:07:44.720 --> 00:07:46.839 fuck like you're saying, like that is how I like 198 00:07:46.920 --> 00:07:50.399 to perform, Like let's make each other feel as good 199 00:07:50.399 --> 00:07:52.720 as fact, like it's not there. Yeah, but a lot 200 00:07:52.720 --> 00:07:55.199 of people can't do that, and a lot of male 201 00:07:55.279 --> 00:07:58.399 performers in this industry today they can't do that. They 202 00:07:58.439 --> 00:08:02.319 can't let go of their performers. Side to where even 203 00:08:02.399 --> 00:08:04.199 I've done scenes where it's like, oh, you guys, do 204 00:08:04.240 --> 00:08:06.240 what you want, don't worry about opening up. And I 205 00:08:06.319 --> 00:08:09.160 had this happen recently where I'm like, I want you 206 00:08:09.279 --> 00:08:11.040 to eat me out. I'm going to tell you exactly 207 00:08:11.079 --> 00:08:13.199 what I want, you know, and I would do it, 208 00:08:13.480 --> 00:08:15.360 but then they would open up for the camera. I'm 209 00:08:15.360 --> 00:08:19.079 like no, like and I would try to grab and shit, yes, 210 00:08:19.160 --> 00:08:22.639 but it's it's hard because so many people can't let go. 211 00:08:22.959 --> 00:08:24.879 And for me, yeah, I have a partner at home, 212 00:08:25.120 --> 00:08:28.600 But he's more like, did you have an orgasm today? 213 00:08:28.639 --> 00:08:28.920 Did you have? 214 00:08:29.120 --> 00:08:30.759 He wants you that, he wants you to go and have. 215 00:08:30.920 --> 00:08:32.600 He wants me to go and have a great time. 216 00:08:32.759 --> 00:08:34.240 He doesn't want me to go and be like, oh, 217 00:08:34.320 --> 00:08:36.720 it wasn't that great. He would rather me go and 218 00:08:36.720 --> 00:08:39.799 like have a wonderful experience and then come back. And 219 00:08:39.840 --> 00:08:42.200 I feel like a lot of times I wasn't getting that, 220 00:08:42.600 --> 00:08:45.440 not that it wasn't fun, it's just like I wasn't 221 00:08:45.440 --> 00:08:46.039 getting off. 222 00:08:46.080 --> 00:08:47.480 But it gets to the point, I guess in the 223 00:08:47.519 --> 00:08:49.759 sense where it's like it becomes work. Yeah, and you know, 224 00:08:49.840 --> 00:08:51.960 even though we are you know, important, and you know 225 00:08:52.000 --> 00:08:54.440 we are sex workers, you know, in that sense, it's 226 00:08:54.440 --> 00:08:57.279 still like it's it's still your body. You'll forget that 227 00:08:57.320 --> 00:08:59.600 you're human. People forget that you have feelings. People think, 228 00:08:59.639 --> 00:09:02.120 forget that at what you're doing and seeing, you actually 229 00:09:02.120 --> 00:09:03.840 have to feel that those things feel like you know 230 00:09:03.840 --> 00:09:05.879 what I mean. So it's like, put it humanizes us 231 00:09:05.919 --> 00:09:07.840 in a little bit more so, I mean I respect 232 00:09:07.840 --> 00:09:09.440 that that. For me, I feel like when I got 233 00:09:09.480 --> 00:09:11.480 into the business, I was the same way. I was like, 234 00:09:11.919 --> 00:09:13.639 I don't want to do this anymore. And if I'm 235 00:09:13.679 --> 00:09:15.159 not having fun, then I don't want to do it. Chuse, 236 00:09:15.200 --> 00:09:16.879 what's the point. And you know, I went through my 237 00:09:16.919 --> 00:09:19.240 phases of you know, not working with girls, then working 238 00:09:19.240 --> 00:09:21.440 with girls, and then experiencing in that sense, and that's 239 00:09:21.480 --> 00:09:24.440 kind of where I found where the whole thing that 240 00:09:24.480 --> 00:09:28.080 you say about people can't let go of that there's 241 00:09:28.080 --> 00:09:29.519 a camera there, you know what I mean. Because in 242 00:09:29.600 --> 00:09:31.960 a lot of girls, which I became actually more picky 243 00:09:32.000 --> 00:09:34.000 with the girls I was with, was because a lot 244 00:09:34.039 --> 00:09:37.080 of girls in porn who do lesbian porn don't like girls. 245 00:09:37.759 --> 00:09:39.480 And for me, I'm like, I know I eat good 246 00:09:39.519 --> 00:09:41.559 pussy and i know I'm gonna fucking make you come, 247 00:09:41.639 --> 00:09:43.279 so I'm not gonna give it to you, like to 248 00:09:43.320 --> 00:09:48.039 someone who's just like, ugh, like that's boring for everybody involved, 249 00:09:48.080 --> 00:09:50.039 you know what I mean. So I never understood, but 250 00:09:50.080 --> 00:09:52.039 I do get things. People do things for money, and 251 00:09:52.080 --> 00:09:54.320 you know it's enticing and you know, you maybe want 252 00:09:54.320 --> 00:09:56.559 to explore and maybe everybody's you know, different with each 253 00:09:56.720 --> 00:10:00.240 individual partner. But you have to have fun, yes, you 254 00:10:00.279 --> 00:10:03.519 have to you know, create sexual, like, energetic like moments 255 00:10:03.559 --> 00:10:05.480 that that's what makes you know it captivating for your 256 00:10:05.519 --> 00:10:07.240 audience and when people make one to go and see 257 00:10:07.240 --> 00:10:10.120 Abigail doing all kinds of things. Yeah, so what can 258 00:10:10.120 --> 00:10:11.960 we find on your only fans that you're doing a 259 00:10:12.000 --> 00:10:12.799 little bit different now? 260 00:10:13.200 --> 00:10:16.000 I feel like what I'm doing different now is I'm 261 00:10:16.080 --> 00:10:19.360 letting people into my life of we're a real couple. 262 00:10:19.559 --> 00:10:21.919 You know, me and my man have been together thirteen years, 263 00:10:22.320 --> 00:10:25.080 were married, and I'm like, you get to see me 264 00:10:25.279 --> 00:10:29.399 looking at him and not forgetting about the camera, like 265 00:10:29.440 --> 00:10:32.080 even like y'all are fucking on there. Yeah we're fucking. 266 00:10:32.159 --> 00:10:34.320 Okay, Yeah, you're like, yeah, we're fucking. 267 00:10:34.159 --> 00:10:37.879 And it's so great because now I remember, like we 268 00:10:37.879 --> 00:10:39.720 were at a hotel recently. I'm like, hey, maybe we 269 00:10:39.720 --> 00:10:42.200 should shoot something really quick, like if it doesn't work out, 270 00:10:42.200 --> 00:10:44.519 it doesn't work out, let's put up the camera. And 271 00:10:44.600 --> 00:10:48.519 I remember I came in like five minutes like an 272 00:10:48.600 --> 00:10:52.559 earth shattering orgasm, Like God, this never fucking happens. This 273 00:10:52.679 --> 00:10:56.039 never happens on set, like it has happened before, but yeah, 274 00:10:56.080 --> 00:10:56.679 not a lot. 275 00:10:56.919 --> 00:10:59.519 Do you think it's because it was like more intimate 276 00:10:59.559 --> 00:11:00.360 with between the two of you. 277 00:11:00.799 --> 00:11:02.120 It was just like it's real. 278 00:11:02.279 --> 00:11:05.039 It's so intimate, it's so real, and he knows how 279 00:11:05.080 --> 00:11:07.559 I like to be fucked, like he knows how to 280 00:11:07.559 --> 00:11:08.159 make me come. 281 00:11:08.480 --> 00:11:10.240 He knows how better he's been married to him. You know, 282 00:11:10.320 --> 00:11:11.759 I better get it done. 283 00:11:11.840 --> 00:11:12.679 And it's just like. 284 00:11:12.840 --> 00:11:16.919 It's such a great experience because when you're having such 285 00:11:17.200 --> 00:11:20.240 pleasure and enjoyment, it's not work anymore. 286 00:11:20.279 --> 00:11:22.759 And you can tell, yes, you can tell. 287 00:11:22.799 --> 00:11:24.759 So now you get to see me like I'll be 288 00:11:24.759 --> 00:11:26.679 slugging a stick and you start laughing and make a joke, 289 00:11:26.879 --> 00:11:29.120 you know what you mean. It's just like so real 290 00:11:29.360 --> 00:11:31.919 and so effortless and so fun and that's what I 291 00:11:31.960 --> 00:11:32.480 like to shoot. 292 00:11:32.519 --> 00:11:34.440 But that's cool because I feel like getting having to 293 00:11:34.840 --> 00:11:36.919 having known you and through the industry and seeing you 294 00:11:37.000 --> 00:11:39.080 kind of like find find your voice and find your 295 00:11:39.120 --> 00:11:41.559 like quirkiness, and you're very funny and like to do 296 00:11:41.639 --> 00:11:43.720 humorous things. I feel like it's kind of played out, 297 00:11:43.879 --> 00:11:45.559 you know, through the years, and I feel like maybe 298 00:11:45.559 --> 00:11:48.000 that's what makes you separates you that your friend, your 299 00:11:48.039 --> 00:11:50.720 fans like, so it's like they like your connection with him. 300 00:11:50.720 --> 00:11:52.720 They like to see that you're playful, they like to 301 00:11:52.720 --> 00:11:54.639 see all these like funny moments that it's not just 302 00:11:54.679 --> 00:11:56.399 so serious that you have a big dick in your 303 00:11:56.399 --> 00:11:58.360 mouth and like, hey, we know what's gonna happen, you 304 00:11:58.360 --> 00:12:00.240 know what I mean. So I think that that's it 305 00:12:00.240 --> 00:12:02.799 brings something different to the table that not a lot 306 00:12:02.840 --> 00:12:03.600 of people can do. 307 00:12:03.720 --> 00:12:06.000 And I feel like with social media and all. 308 00:12:05.840 --> 00:12:08.159 This stuff that people have access to us, I feel 309 00:12:08.159 --> 00:12:11.000 like what sets people apart from yourself and other people 310 00:12:11.159 --> 00:12:14.039 is that you have a personality and people can clearly 311 00:12:14.080 --> 00:12:16.200 see that once you put a camera on and people 312 00:12:16.200 --> 00:12:17.600 can you know, you're not just texting, you know what 313 00:12:17.600 --> 00:12:19.879 I mean. Some people just tweet or they don't post anythings, 314 00:12:20.200 --> 00:12:22.840 and but with you, you can see your genuine personality, 315 00:12:22.879 --> 00:12:25.000 like that's who you are. And I think that's what 316 00:12:25.120 --> 00:12:27.240 kind of made why you've been so successful in the business, 317 00:12:27.279 --> 00:12:29.039 is because you could tell that you really like what 318 00:12:29.080 --> 00:12:33.759 you're doing and you're a sexual person. So good job, Oh. 319 00:12:33.519 --> 00:12:38.720 Thank you, yeah, so shy, so nervous. 320 00:12:38.759 --> 00:12:39.519 I don't think I know this. 321 00:12:39.559 --> 00:12:39.919 Side of you. 322 00:12:41.039 --> 00:12:41.320 Really. 323 00:12:41.960 --> 00:12:44.919 I'm just thinking because when I first got in the industry, 324 00:12:45.120 --> 00:12:49.399 I'm like just kind of like compressing what you're saying, decompressing, compressing. 325 00:12:51.279 --> 00:12:53.279 When I first got in, everybody's like, oh, act like 326 00:12:53.320 --> 00:12:55.840 a whore, you know, like be like, ah, I wan't 327 00:12:55.879 --> 00:12:57.799 fucking dick, I need to get fucked and horny all 328 00:12:57.840 --> 00:13:01.559 the time. I've never been like that. Yeah, Like you know, yes, 329 00:13:01.600 --> 00:13:04.679 I am horny sometimes I'm not other times, but you're. 330 00:13:04.559 --> 00:13:06.159 Just not one of those people who are like, oh, 331 00:13:06.240 --> 00:13:07.679 let me just give it to me. I just want 332 00:13:07.679 --> 00:13:09.200 to all you know what I mean. And that's but 333 00:13:09.240 --> 00:13:11.720 that's what's great about it, you know what I mean, 334 00:13:11.799 --> 00:13:17.799 Like not every girl has everybody's horniness is so uniquely different. Yes, 335 00:13:17.879 --> 00:13:20.080 And that's why I feel like it comes off so corny, 336 00:13:20.120 --> 00:13:23.159 like we were saying before, when it's so overplayed, because 337 00:13:23.200 --> 00:13:25.519 it's like I can do that when the camera comes on, 338 00:13:25.559 --> 00:13:28.000 and I will. But it's like if I'm at a party, 339 00:13:28.039 --> 00:13:29.600 if I'm like this, I'm not gonna be like, oh 340 00:13:29.600 --> 00:13:31.559 my god, I just want to get sucked by everybody here. 341 00:13:31.840 --> 00:13:34.120 Like I never got along with people that were like that. 342 00:13:34.159 --> 00:13:36.240 N I shouldn't say get along, but I never really 343 00:13:36.600 --> 00:13:38.600 related to that kind of level and That's why I 344 00:13:38.639 --> 00:13:40.519 feel like, you know, certain people stood out to me 345 00:13:40.559 --> 00:13:42.360 a little bit more in certain places because I was like, oh, 346 00:13:42.399 --> 00:13:44.799 you're real. You know what I mean. It's it's authentic, 347 00:13:45.039 --> 00:13:47.960 and that's really hard to find in any entertainment business. 348 00:13:48.039 --> 00:13:48.679 Is authentic. 349 00:13:48.919 --> 00:13:50.679 Yes, that's what I want to be. I just want 350 00:13:50.720 --> 00:13:52.519 to be my authentic self because I'm just not. 351 00:13:52.480 --> 00:13:55.720 A person on an unapologetically you. 352 00:13:56.000 --> 00:13:59.120 Yes, I don't want to act like anybody else because 353 00:13:59.120 --> 00:14:01.480 that will really mess with your mind when you play 354 00:14:01.480 --> 00:14:03.279 a part for way too long. 355 00:14:03.080 --> 00:14:06.039 Because then you don't really realize when that part ends 356 00:14:06.080 --> 00:14:07.159 and when you have to begin. 357 00:14:07.519 --> 00:14:09.399 You don't even know who you are anymore. And I 358 00:14:09.399 --> 00:14:11.519 think a lot of us have experienced in the industry 359 00:14:11.600 --> 00:14:12.879 like who the fuck am I? 360 00:14:13.240 --> 00:14:14.919 So do you think that you've had that kind of 361 00:14:15.320 --> 00:14:17.679 realization and where you're at, especially with COVID going on 362 00:14:17.720 --> 00:14:19.440 and having to be a little bit more in your head, 363 00:14:19.480 --> 00:14:22.159 maybe a little bit more fans telling you you're just 364 00:14:22.240 --> 00:14:25.720 more aware of things. Is there like a level where 365 00:14:25.720 --> 00:14:29.919 you're like, where does Abigail mac end? And where does where? 366 00:14:30.000 --> 00:14:31.879 Or do I fully begin? Yeah? 367 00:14:31.960 --> 00:14:35.600 I think that with COVID because a few years ago 368 00:14:35.639 --> 00:14:38.279 it was kind of like I'm not acting anymore, like 369 00:14:38.320 --> 00:14:41.200 I'm just going to be myself, Like I can't play 370 00:14:41.240 --> 00:14:45.679 this role, I guess. And then with COVID it was 371 00:14:45.759 --> 00:14:49.519 more like not even the business side or the sexual 372 00:14:49.559 --> 00:14:52.279 side of me. With COVID, I was like, well, what 373 00:14:52.440 --> 00:14:55.080 are my interests? Like if I'm not working, what do 374 00:14:55.159 --> 00:14:57.559 I want to do? What do I want to be 375 00:14:57.600 --> 00:14:59.840 doing when I'm forty? What do I want to be 376 00:14:59.840 --> 00:15:01.840 doing when I'm fifty. That's what COVID did to me. 377 00:15:01.879 --> 00:15:04.080 I'm like, what am I going to do in the future? 378 00:15:04.120 --> 00:15:06.360 What do I really want? Because I've always been building 379 00:15:06.399 --> 00:15:09.519 and have goals to certain things just to have them 380 00:15:09.559 --> 00:15:11.559 because I feel like it's good for my mental state. 381 00:15:12.000 --> 00:15:15.519 But COVID was like, do I want to learn different languages? 382 00:15:15.759 --> 00:15:17.720 Do I want to learn to play an instrument? Do 383 00:15:17.759 --> 00:15:20.039 I want to live in different places? I don't know. 384 00:15:20.120 --> 00:15:22.360 We need to so tell us. You're a private talk 385 00:15:22.399 --> 00:15:24.200 after dark? What do you want to do? What do 386 00:15:24.240 --> 00:15:26.799 you see yourself doing? Is there new activities, new hobbies 387 00:15:26.799 --> 00:15:29.159 you've gotten into during all this like realization time? 388 00:15:30.559 --> 00:15:33.960 Pretty much what I have been doing is buying real estate. 389 00:15:34.720 --> 00:15:35.320 That's awesome. 390 00:15:35.480 --> 00:15:37.440 And then what I want to do is I just 391 00:15:37.480 --> 00:15:40.519 want to travel. Like I realize that I'm not the 392 00:15:40.600 --> 00:15:44.320 kind of person that establishes roots in a particular area 393 00:15:45.000 --> 00:15:49.200 that without new experiences, I don't enjoy life as much. 394 00:15:49.759 --> 00:15:52.240 And so I want to go one place and live 395 00:15:52.279 --> 00:15:54.039 there for two or three months, and then I want 396 00:15:54.080 --> 00:15:56.480 to pick up a bag and go somewhere else and 397 00:15:56.519 --> 00:15:58.600 then go somewhere else, Like I want to live that 398 00:15:58.679 --> 00:16:01.600 life for a while. I don't know, but I want 399 00:16:01.600 --> 00:16:02.639 to do that for a while. 400 00:16:02.879 --> 00:16:04.600 I mean, I think that that's a great, you know, 401 00:16:04.679 --> 00:16:06.759