WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.560 --> 00:00:01.919 Get to know you a little bit better. 2 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:05.040 Yeah, thanks for having me. This is cool, a cool welcome. 3 00:00:05.120 --> 00:00:08.000 I like that we do it big here, you know, 4 00:00:07.799 --> 00:00:09.960 and it's not everything's bigger in Texas because that's where 5 00:00:10.000 --> 00:00:11.560 I'm from. But you know, that's how we like to 6 00:00:11.560 --> 00:00:12.800 do things on Private Talk too. 7 00:00:13.199 --> 00:00:13.599 Love it. 8 00:00:13.679 --> 00:00:15.439 So Private Talk wants to get to know you a 9 00:00:15.439 --> 00:00:18.199 little bit more. Tell us about your background. How what's 10 00:00:18.199 --> 00:00:20.399 your have going on right now? Okay, I know all 11 00:00:20.480 --> 00:00:21.600 look at you see details. 12 00:00:21.760 --> 00:00:25.160 Yeah. So I'm originally from Germany, born and rased, so 13 00:00:25.280 --> 00:00:28.399 you may hear an accent when I speak. But I've 14 00:00:28.399 --> 00:00:31.679 been in America like nineteen years almost twenty now half time. 15 00:00:31.679 --> 00:00:33.719 How was that when you first, like your first experience? 16 00:00:33.759 --> 00:00:34.240 How was that? 17 00:00:34.359 --> 00:00:34.479 So? 18 00:00:34.640 --> 00:00:37.359 I was nineteen when me and my two sisters we 19 00:00:37.359 --> 00:00:39.399 were twin right, Yeah, I have a twin and then 20 00:00:39.399 --> 00:00:41.640 an older sister, and we were a singing group. So 21 00:00:41.679 --> 00:00:44.399 we were always singing together and our goal was to 22 00:00:44.439 --> 00:00:46.880 go to America and become superstars and you know, make 23 00:00:46.920 --> 00:00:48.880 it in the music industry. And so we just flew 24 00:00:48.880 --> 00:00:52.000 to New York in two thousand and two and we 25 00:00:52.200 --> 00:00:54.240 just kind of wanted to see, you know what it's 26 00:00:54.359 --> 00:00:56.679 like and it was such a big dream of ours. 27 00:00:56.759 --> 00:00:58.960 We never would have thought that we actually would end 28 00:00:59.039 --> 00:01:01.240 up getting signed, which we did, and you know, had 29 00:01:01.240 --> 00:01:03.640 a long journey of ups and downs in the music industry. 30 00:01:04.159 --> 00:01:08.519 Asked Black Butterfly, which was the group name, and then yeah, man, 31 00:01:08.640 --> 00:01:11.840 I just kind of got stuck in America. Always loved it, 32 00:01:11.959 --> 00:01:14.760 you know, loved the challenge, loved the talent as far 33 00:01:14.760 --> 00:01:17.560 as music and singers that's over here, because where we 34 00:01:17.599 --> 00:01:20.840 grew up in Germany is like it's a little different. 35 00:01:20.920 --> 00:01:21.120 You know. 36 00:01:21.200 --> 00:01:23.959 We grew up feeling a little you know, not understood, 37 00:01:24.120 --> 00:01:25.840 and you know, the type of music that we liked, 38 00:01:25.840 --> 00:01:28.120 which is like the nineties R and B that influenced 39 00:01:28.200 --> 00:01:28.560 us a lot. 40 00:01:28.640 --> 00:01:30.920 We did that type of music was just not made 41 00:01:31.079 --> 00:01:31.519 over there. 42 00:01:31.599 --> 00:01:34.760 So yeah, we you know, did a lot as Black Butterfly, 43 00:01:34.879 --> 00:01:38.159 and then I somehow ended up going solo years later, 44 00:01:38.280 --> 00:01:42.079 you know, two record deals later, two failed record deals later, 45 00:01:42.159 --> 00:01:44.640 but I ended up going solo and I ended up 46 00:01:44.640 --> 00:01:47.840 doing reality TV, and you know, I ended up getting married, 47 00:01:47.959 --> 00:01:51.959 ended up having kids and now yeah, single mom of 48 00:01:52.000 --> 00:01:52.840 two girls. 49 00:01:53.319 --> 00:01:57.120 Awesome reality TV gift or curse both. 50 00:01:57.480 --> 00:01:58.239 I have to say. 51 00:01:58.319 --> 00:02:02.120 I always give that answer because it comes with good 52 00:02:02.120 --> 00:02:05.480 and bad. But for me, it's just like I try 53 00:02:05.519 --> 00:02:08.400 to focus on the good because you know, you can't 54 00:02:08.439 --> 00:02:12.520 turn big time and be like Okay. You know, sometimes 55 00:02:12.560 --> 00:02:14.479 I think like what what would be if I didn't 56 00:02:14.520 --> 00:02:14.840 do it? 57 00:02:15.000 --> 00:02:15.759 Where would I be? 58 00:02:17.039 --> 00:02:19.960 But then I'm like, I'm wasting time thinking about that 59 00:02:19.960 --> 00:02:21.800 because I did it. I have to deal with, you know, 60 00:02:21.879 --> 00:02:24.039 my decision, and I'm trying to focus on the good 61 00:02:24.080 --> 00:02:28.639 because do you miss it? I I don't, but recently 62 00:02:28.680 --> 00:02:31.400 I've started thinking about possibly, and you know, I've been 63 00:02:31.400 --> 00:02:33.719 in talks like here and there with people about going 64 00:02:33.759 --> 00:02:37.039 back to reality. But I needed a good break. So 65 00:02:37.039 --> 00:02:39.120 it's been five years since I left Love and Hip 66 00:02:39.159 --> 00:02:42.120 Hop and it was good. I needed that get away 67 00:02:42.120 --> 00:02:42.800 from it a little bit. 68 00:02:42.840 --> 00:02:44.520 Do you still watch Love and Hip Hop yourself? 69 00:02:44.639 --> 00:02:47.759 I don't, honestly away. 70 00:02:48.280 --> 00:02:50.960 Yes, The truth is I never watched it before or after. 71 00:02:51.360 --> 00:02:54.120 I only watched it because I was on this is yeah. 72 00:02:54.240 --> 00:02:56.360 I mean, I mean I get that I did that 73 00:02:56.439 --> 00:02:59.800 with you know, my own stuff, like I'm different, way different, 74 00:03:00.479 --> 00:03:01.479 but I was. You know, I used to be in 75 00:03:01.479 --> 00:03:03.520 the adult industry and I never watched it before I 76 00:03:03.520 --> 00:03:05.319 got into it. Who I just did it because that 77 00:03:05.360 --> 00:03:07.960 was how I expressed myself like artistically, like that's how 78 00:03:07.960 --> 00:03:08.879 I was my art. 79 00:03:09.520 --> 00:03:11.479 And then I watched maybe one of mine. I was like, no, 80 00:03:11.560 --> 00:03:11.960 I'm good. 81 00:03:12.000 --> 00:03:13.759 I was like, y'all like it, y'all keep it. I'm 82 00:03:13.759 --> 00:03:15.439 gonna like, I'm just gonna do it. And then I 83 00:03:15.520 --> 00:03:17.919 just looked through up that way. So very different elements 84 00:03:17.919 --> 00:03:20.159 and parallels, but and the same thing of the just 85 00:03:20.479 --> 00:03:21.639 you never know like what it is. 86 00:03:21.680 --> 00:03:24.319 I also couldn't watch an episode like more than once, 87 00:03:24.400 --> 00:03:26.680 Like when it aired, I would watch because there was 88 00:03:26.719 --> 00:03:28.960 always something that would be surprising or you know, I 89 00:03:29.000 --> 00:03:30.560 just needed to know how they edited. 90 00:03:30.360 --> 00:03:34.039 And like how it looks on TV. But I cannot rewatch. 91 00:03:34.919 --> 00:03:37.360 Rewatching is always like the cringe because it's like, you know, 92 00:03:37.400 --> 00:03:40.120 you're living your life and you're doing what's organic to you, 93 00:03:40.159 --> 00:03:41.719 and I think that that's what makes it more authentic. 94 00:03:41.960 --> 00:03:43.599 And everyone, you know things that's scripted, and I don't 95 00:03:43.599 --> 00:03:46.759 think it's scripted. Every detailed, but you know, scenario is 96 00:03:46.800 --> 00:03:48.280 obviously certain things, you know what I mean, but it's 97 00:03:48.319 --> 00:03:50.479 your real life, so it's like you can't not take 98 00:03:50.520 --> 00:03:52.159 that back just living in it. So I feel like 99 00:03:52.319 --> 00:03:54.680 when you watch it, it almost comes unethentic because you're like 100 00:03:54.759 --> 00:03:56.240 now you're like, oh my god, I look like this 101 00:03:56.319 --> 00:03:58.039 or oh I said that, or oh my god, like 102 00:03:58.080 --> 00:04:01.080 you second guess yourself. So much is good about because 103 00:04:01.080 --> 00:04:02.639 you can take you know, and evolve from that, and 104 00:04:02.639 --> 00:04:04.319 you want to see you because you don't really nobody's 105 00:04:04.400 --> 00:04:06.479 checks yourself, you know what I mean, except for you know, 106 00:04:06.479 --> 00:04:08.240 those few good friends as we have that you'll be like, 107 00:04:08.280 --> 00:04:10.840 oh yeah, fuck, I should watch what I say or 108 00:04:10.879 --> 00:04:13.039 how I say it or react to certain things because 109 00:04:13.280 --> 00:04:14.960 you know, we you know, we mess up. 110 00:04:14.960 --> 00:04:16.399 We're human, but you know what I mean. 111 00:04:16.439 --> 00:04:17.800 But the whole thing is you know, waking up and 112 00:04:17.839 --> 00:04:20.199 doing it again the next day and evolving from that. 113 00:04:20.319 --> 00:04:21.839 So I'm sure you know that has a bit of 114 00:04:21.879 --> 00:04:24.759 a growth thing too, but also mentally, I'm sure and 115 00:04:24.839 --> 00:04:26.480 just like for your family as well, like taking a 116 00:04:26.480 --> 00:04:28.759 step back is really important as well, because it's like 117 00:04:29.040 --> 00:04:32.079 you need to live and refocus on what's it important 118 00:04:32.240 --> 00:04:34.240 and taking it away from like the you know, keeping 119 00:04:34.240 --> 00:04:37.160 those secrets and being like this is mine, this is mine. 120 00:04:37.240 --> 00:04:38.600 So with all that being said, like you know, this 121 00:04:38.720 --> 00:04:40.519 gift and a curse kind of thing, so would you 122 00:04:40.560 --> 00:04:42.680 do your own new show or do something that if 123 00:04:42.680 --> 00:04:44.920 you hadn't had the child or opportunity to do it again. 124 00:04:45.360 --> 00:04:48.439 Yes, I would actually love my own show. Would be great. 125 00:04:48.480 --> 00:04:50.439 I've never had my own show, which is really all 126 00:04:50.480 --> 00:04:53.199 about me. I you know, I'm a really open person, 127 00:04:53.240 --> 00:04:55.920 so I don't mind, you know, my life be like, 128 00:04:56.000 --> 00:04:58.759 I display my life every day on social media anyway, 129 00:04:58.800 --> 00:05:01.519 and I really don't hold bag is. I'm not really 130 00:05:02.040 --> 00:05:04.319 even though I'm a little private like, but at the 131 00:05:04.360 --> 00:05:07.439 same time, I showcase, you know, I don't. I'm not 132 00:05:07.600 --> 00:05:09.079 afraid of showcasing. 133 00:05:08.600 --> 00:05:10.759 Yet, like what you have going on, like your you know, 134 00:05:10.959 --> 00:05:13.120 single mom and like, you know, doing all those things, 135 00:05:13.120 --> 00:05:15.279 which is important too. And I think that that's why 136 00:05:15.279 --> 00:05:16.920 it allows, you know, from the show as well, it 137 00:05:16.920 --> 00:05:20.040 gave you a platform to intensify that. So I think 138 00:05:20.079 --> 00:05:22.600 that you know, you are so comfortable and people should 139 00:05:22.600 --> 00:05:24.959 feel the same way because it's your everyday life. 140 00:05:25.079 --> 00:05:27.160 Yeah, I'm just like living my truth and whether it's 141 00:05:27.160 --> 00:05:29.120 good or bad, I'm not afraid to like show it 142 00:05:29.199 --> 00:05:33.079 or you know. So I would love my own show 143 00:05:33.120 --> 00:05:36.240 because that way, you know, I could actually you know. 144 00:05:36.439 --> 00:05:37.560 Show people who I really am. 145 00:05:37.600 --> 00:05:40.680 I always felt misunderstood on that show, and that's why 146 00:05:40.720 --> 00:05:43.279 I ended up writing my book The Other Woman, where 147 00:05:43.319 --> 00:05:44.560 I kind of like told my. 148 00:05:44.560 --> 00:05:47.279 Story out of my perspective because I just you. 149 00:05:47.240 --> 00:05:51.360 Know, sometimes you look at yourself and you're like, that's 150 00:05:51.399 --> 00:05:54.800 not really it looks way different than how it actually was, 151 00:05:55.040 --> 00:05:55.319 you know. 152 00:05:55.279 --> 00:05:56.240 So let's talk about that. 153 00:05:56.360 --> 00:05:59.560 You say, like, what's one thing that people misunderstood about you? 154 00:05:59.600 --> 00:06:02.399 Like that that I'm just they had this idea of 155 00:06:02.439 --> 00:06:05.800 who I was because of what was shown, and a 156 00:06:05.879 --> 00:06:08.199 side of me was that like they were just showing 157 00:06:08.279 --> 00:06:10.399 one side of me. There's so much more to who 158 00:06:10.439 --> 00:06:14.439 I am, and that I felt like, so people put this, Oh, 159 00:06:14.480 --> 00:06:17.680 she's you know, they had their idea of the person 160 00:06:17.720 --> 00:06:20.240 that I am. She's stupid, she's this, she's naive, she's 161 00:06:20.399 --> 00:06:23.240 always said she's always crying. I wasn't always crying, even 162 00:06:23.319 --> 00:06:26.800 during filming. I wasn't always being disappointed. 163 00:06:26.839 --> 00:06:28.360 It was just that's all they saw. 164 00:06:28.279 --> 00:06:30.160 You know, I wasn't that's what they focus on. 165 00:06:30.399 --> 00:06:33.439 Yeah, So there were other times where I was happy 166 00:06:33.480 --> 00:06:36.040 and I was you know, that was just not shown 167 00:06:36.120 --> 00:06:38.319 at all. So a lot of stuff was left out 168 00:06:38.399 --> 00:06:40.160 and that made me feel like, do. 169 00:06:40.120 --> 00:06:40.639 You think that what. 170 00:06:40.759 --> 00:06:42.240 That's what kind of gives you a voice and a 171 00:06:42.279 --> 00:06:44.319 power to be on your social media now that it's 172 00:06:44.399 --> 00:06:46.720 your own thing and you control that, you do that 173 00:06:46.839 --> 00:06:47.639 and like show. 174 00:06:48.160 --> 00:06:51.879 You totally and I feel like it's also at least hardback. 175 00:06:52.000 --> 00:06:54.519 The people that have followed me since then, they have 176 00:06:54.680 --> 00:06:57.560 seen and gotten to know who I really am, and 177 00:06:57.600 --> 00:07:00.240 I love it. That's why I'm so like, I love 178 00:07:00.279 --> 00:07:02.319 when people I guess so many messages. 179 00:07:01.920 --> 00:07:04.120 Like oh my god, you're really not like that and 180 00:07:04.120 --> 00:07:04.879 you're really not and. 181 00:07:04.839 --> 00:07:08.040 They don't even know me still, but they I feel 182 00:07:08.040 --> 00:07:10.959 like I'm showing them more of whoever really am because 183 00:07:11.000 --> 00:07:14.399 I'm always authentic on you know, my platforms and I 184 00:07:14.439 --> 00:07:16.639 always tell the truth and I feel like it shines 185 00:07:16.680 --> 00:07:17.839 through and it it shows. 186 00:07:18.199 --> 00:07:19.319 So that's awesome. 187 00:07:19.399 --> 00:07:21.040 That's I mean, that's a big accomplishment, you know what 188 00:07:21.040 --> 00:07:22.639 I mean, And stepping out on your own and just 189 00:07:22.680 --> 00:07:24.959 being living in your truth, you know, and showing like 190 00:07:25.000 --> 00:07:27.680 you know, sometimes are good days, sometimes are bad days, 191 00:07:27.680 --> 00:07:29.959 but it's it's life, and you know, it's just how 192 00:07:30.000 --> 00:07:33.279 you you know, react to situations and being the better part. 193 00:07:33.759 --> 00:07:36.639 So are you still doing music always? I don't think 194 00:07:36.680 --> 00:07:38.360 I will ever stop doing music. 195 00:07:38.480 --> 00:07:38.759 I'm so. 196 00:07:39.279 --> 00:07:42.040 My latest project was with my twin sister. Actually, we 197 00:07:42.120 --> 00:07:44.680 finally brought the group back together and did a Black 198 00:07:44.680 --> 00:07:46.600 Butterfly album in twenty twenty. 199 00:07:46.720 --> 00:07:48.040 We're gonna get an album number two. 200 00:07:48.639 --> 00:07:50.560 So I you know, right now, I'm trying to see 201 00:07:50.560 --> 00:07:53.319 what's next because I've been doing album after album after 202 00:07:53.399 --> 00:07:57.319 album as an independent artist, and you know, it's a lot. 203 00:07:57.439 --> 00:07:58.399 It's a lot of work. 204 00:07:58.399 --> 00:08:01.399 When you're not signed and you're doing everything yourself, it 205 00:08:01.399 --> 00:08:03.160 gets overwhelming and sometimes I'm. 206 00:08:02.959 --> 00:08:06.120 Like, Okay, I need a little break, But at the 207 00:08:06.160 --> 00:08:08.480 same time, I have the urge to be creative and 208 00:08:08.519 --> 00:08:09.240 put out music. 209 00:08:09.319 --> 00:08:11.800 Is this what I say, easier when your sisters are involved. 210 00:08:12.439 --> 00:08:15.360 I love doing stuff with especially my twin who is 211 00:08:15.399 --> 00:08:18.279 still like she loves when we're doing the group thing. 212 00:08:18.720 --> 00:08:20.879 I'm more like, I like doing my own thing, you know, 213 00:08:21.000 --> 00:08:23.639 playing instruments and stuff like that. So I like to 214 00:08:23.680 --> 00:08:27.439 write alone, and so sometimes it gets you know, during 215 00:08:27.480 --> 00:08:30.000 the process of writing the album I was little, we 216 00:08:30.040 --> 00:08:31.759 clashed a little because I was like in my own 217 00:08:31.800 --> 00:08:34.200 head and not letting her input get to me. And 218 00:08:34.679 --> 00:08:38.200 so but I love like my sisters, uh, my favorite 219 00:08:38.200 --> 00:08:40.639 people to work with, Like both of them. But yeah, 220 00:08:40.960 --> 00:08:43.759 we possibly may put out a song, another song, or 221 00:08:44.159 --> 00:08:46.759 maybe even another album or project or yeah. 222 00:08:46.600 --> 00:08:47.440 I'm going for album. 223 00:08:48.200 --> 00:08:50.639 We need another Black Butterfly album. 224 00:08:50.759 --> 00:08:51.679 Yeah, but yeah, I. 225 00:08:51.639 --> 00:08:53.679 Feel like, you know, people have been waiting. It's been 226 00:08:53.720 --> 00:08:55.559 a long time since it's been out there. But it's like, 227 00:08:55.600 --> 00:08:57.639 you know what I mean. Sometimes it's it's great to 228 00:08:57.679 --> 00:08:59.679 be and fly on your own, but it's also food 229 00:08:59.720 --> 00:09:00.320 sometimes to. 230 00:09:00.279 --> 00:09:02.000 Go back and like where it all began and like 231 00:09:02.000 --> 00:09:02.399 give us a. 232 00:09:02.399 --> 00:09:05.440 Number two true good idea and people actually love us 233 00:09:05.480 --> 00:09:07.360 together as twins so much. 234 00:09:07.440 --> 00:09:08.840 It's just one of those things that it's like, it's 235 00:09:08.919 --> 00:09:11.039 it's cool to see you don't see that sometimes, especially 236 00:09:11.120 --> 00:09:13.000 people are the bond and things like that. I feel 237 00:09:13.000 --> 00:09:15.759 like people gravitate to those like great energies, which is 238 00:09:15.759 --> 00:09:16.559 really great to have. 239 00:09:17.240 --> 00:09:19.720 Yeah, So what is your dating life like right now? 240 00:09:20.759 --> 00:09:20.960 Oh? 241 00:09:21.039 --> 00:09:23.399 Man, it's so hard for me to date as a 242 00:09:23.440 --> 00:09:27.320 mother of two little ones, and I'm just so I 243 00:09:27.320 --> 00:09:29.519 don't know, I don't I've become so picky, I want 244 00:09:29.519 --> 00:09:32.720 to say, but I feel like in a good way. 245 00:09:33.120 --> 00:09:35.360 I don't know. Maybe my standards are too high now 246 00:09:35.440 --> 00:09:36.399 after everything else. 247 00:09:36.440 --> 00:09:38.480 I ever say that it can't be too high. 248 00:09:38.720 --> 00:09:40.279 I really don't know what it is, but it's so 249 00:09:40.320 --> 00:09:42.840 difficult for me to like somebody because. 250 00:09:42.600 --> 00:09:44.519 So have you put yourself out there as far as 251 00:09:44.519 --> 00:09:46.399 like dating apps or is it like something because of 252 00:09:46.480 --> 00:09:50.159 like your you know your personality and you know entertainment. 253 00:09:49.720 --> 00:09:52.559 Is it harder to like get real authentic people. 254 00:09:52.679 --> 00:09:54.799 So it's like because I'm in the point where it's 255 00:09:54.799 --> 00:09:57.480 like dating apps not for me, Like it's just so 256 00:09:57.960 --> 00:10:01.000 not I'm old school, but like you know, and it's 257 00:10:01.000 --> 00:10:03.039 hard obviously because with COVID it's like you go to 258 00:10:03.399 --> 00:10:03.960 there's no dating. 259 00:10:04.000 --> 00:10:05.480 You don't want to I mean around people you don't 260 00:10:05.519 --> 00:10:06.000 know how to act. 261 00:10:06.039 --> 00:10:07.919 Sometimes you're like, oh, you know things that you wouldn't 262 00:10:07.919 --> 00:10:10.759 normally think about before, but mindfully so and so it's like, 263 00:10:11.399 --> 00:10:12.919 how do you mean where people organic? 264 00:10:12.960 --> 00:10:14.720 So it's like, how does that happen for you? So 265 00:10:15.000 --> 00:10:16.120 what's been that? 266 00:10:16.320 --> 00:10:18.000 Is like the question I always ask the. 267 00:10:17.960 --> 00:10:20.039 People sliding in your dms. I mean a. 268 00:10:20.000 --> 00:10:23.000 Little bit here and there, but most like ninety nine 269 00:10:23.080 --> 00:10:26.480 percent of that is just like first of all, if 270 00:10:26.480 --> 00:10:29.759 you slide in my DMS and you have a private profile, 271 00:10:29.960 --> 00:10:31.399 you're not going to get a response. 272 00:10:31.440 --> 00:10:32.919 I always want to like, m like, how do they 273 00:10:32.919 --> 00:10:35.080 think that you think I'm going to follow exactly? You know, 274 00:10:36.200 --> 00:10:38.240 you have a question to arrive after we followed the 275 00:10:38.360 --> 00:10:40.080 follow button, this hit if I really and then what 276 00:10:40.120 --> 00:10:41.919 if I have to unfollow you just because I have 277 00:10:41.960 --> 00:10:45.519 to exactly? Way feel like, you know, requested accepted thing is. 278 00:10:45.879 --> 00:10:46.559 Really I don't know. 279 00:10:46.600 --> 00:10:49.480 I haven't really made any real connections via like DMS 280 00:10:49.559 --> 00:10:50.720 or anything in dating apps. 281 00:10:51.039 --> 00:10:53.919 I always feel like somebody may know me on there. 282 00:10:54.399 --> 00:10:56.320 I don't know, or they think they're getting catfish at 283 00:10:56.320 --> 00:10:58.399 these times too, so that sometimes people they kick them off. 284 00:10:58.399 --> 00:10:59.840 And that's the other part. It's like I just want 285 00:10:59.840 --> 00:11:01.440 to let me live exactly. 286 00:11:01.519 --> 00:11:04.600 I like think organically meeting someone. And I also most 287 00:11:04.639 --> 00:11:06.679 people have dated in the past, I was friends with 288 00:11:06.720 --> 00:11:08.879 them first, so that's the way that I know how 289 00:11:08.919 --> 00:11:12.200 it normally goes for myself. I'm friends with somebody and 290 00:11:12.240 --> 00:11:13.720 then there's something else developed. 291 00:11:13.799 --> 00:11:15.600 You think you're soul made is someone you already. 292 00:11:15.399 --> 00:11:18.840 Know possibly, but I couldn't think of who. 293 00:11:20.240 --> 00:11:22.240 Sometimes, you know, that's why again organic, if I want 294 00:11:22.240 --> 00:11:25.480 to have in the right time, all those things, it'll 295 00:11:25.519 --> 00:11:26.039 all happen. 296 00:11:26.879 --> 00:11:31.200 So how is your co parenting with Peter it's good. 297 00:11:31.320 --> 00:11:36.360 It's actually our relationship is much better than ever, better 298 00:11:36.399 --> 00:11:40.120 than when we were together. It's just that he's not 299 00:11:40.200 --> 00:11:42.679 really around that much because you know, he doesn't live 300 00:11:42.679 --> 00:11:46.960 in California and he got eight other kids, and so 301 00:11:47.000 --> 00:11:49.559 it's always hard to get him to spend time. 302 00:11:49.320 --> 00:11:50.120 With the girls. 303 00:11:50.159 --> 00:11:53.080 We just actually went, like last weekend for Father's Day, 304 00:11:53.159 --> 00:11:57.120 I took the girls to see him. And it's great, 305 00:11:57.279 --> 00:12:01.840 you know, but it's just I picked somebody that has 306 00:12:01.879 --> 00:12:04.440 a lot on their plates to have kids with. So 307 00:12:04.720 --> 00:12:07.039 I tried to like, I really don't I take my 308 00:12:07.120 --> 00:12:09.759 own accountability because, like I chose to have kids with him, 309 00:12:09.759 --> 00:12:13.200 and I knew how he is, so I can't complain now, 310 00:12:13.360 --> 00:12:14.679 you know, I gotta deal with it. 311 00:12:14.799 --> 00:12:17.679 So do you watch his show Cheaters that he's hosted. 312 00:12:17.759 --> 00:12:20.639 Yes, I've seen a few episodes that do you feel 313 00:12:20.639 --> 00:12:24.399 about his host funny? I just can't stop laughing when 314 00:12:24.440 --> 00:12:26.279 I watch it, Like, I feel like he's a good 315 00:12:26.279 --> 00:12:26.799 host for it. 316 00:12:27.519 --> 00:12:29.759 Did you bet any money on his fight that he had? 317 00:12:29.960 --> 00:12:32.080 Man, I didn't bet money, but I did bet on him. 318 00:12:32.120 --> 00:12:33.960 I had my I really thought. 319 00:12:33.720 --> 00:12:37.039 He was gonna win. You I really really not see 320 00:12:37.039 --> 00:12:37.720 it come in there? 321 00:12:37.840 --> 00:12:39.840 You know we're always at his cheerleader though. I guess 322 00:12:39.960 --> 00:12:41.440 that's really cool though, to be a part, you know 323 00:12:41.440 --> 00:12:43.039 what I mean. He's a special part of your life, 324 00:12:43.039 --> 00:12:44.840 even though if it didn't work out or not, you know, yeah, 325 00:12:44.840 --> 00:12:46.919 things have, Sure they happen for reasons. You know, you 326 00:12:46.960 --> 00:12:48.919 have two beautiful blessings out of that, and you know 327 00:12:49.039 --> 00:12:50.279 you just take the good at the band. 328 00:12:50.320 --> 00:12:51.399 But totally, I don't know. 329 00:12:51.480 --> 00:12:53.440 I feel like if my exhusbin was in the ring 330 00:12:53.480 --> 00:12:55.600 trying to get punched and whatever, I wouldn't bet on him, 331 00:12:55.759 --> 00:12:58.159 and I know at all I would bet on the 332 00:12:58.200 --> 00:13:00.919 other side. I'm sorry, And I have an ex husband 333 00:13:00.919 --> 00:13:02.200 and I don't care if he's watching it, but I 334 00:13:02.240 --> 00:13:04.639 would not bet on him. No, But we have no children, 335 00:13:04.679 --> 00:13:05.559 so it's very different. 336 00:13:05.759 --> 00:13:06.679 Yeah, it's very different. 337 00:13:06.679 --> 00:13:08.519 We don't have after we know, we separated, we didn't 338 00:13:08.519 --> 00:13:10.799 have that bond to work, you know, so you constantly 339 00:13:10.840 --> 00:13:12.320 come them in your life, so it's a little bit different. 340 00:13:12.559 --> 00:13:14.360 But I still I don't know, Like I don't know. 341 00:13:14.440 --> 00:13:16.559 I'm like, nah, a punch and I kidding. 342 00:13:17.720 --> 00:13:20.759 I'm just like I'm not mad at him anymore for anything, sure, 343 00:13:20.879 --> 00:13:22.120 completely forgiven. 344 00:13:21.759 --> 00:13:25.039 But you know, right, Okay, I get on a sports 345 00:13:25.080 --> 00:13:26.600 you know, it's not something you want to be bad 346 00:13:26.639 --> 00:13:28.679 to happen, but it's even nice to be like around 347 00:13:28.759 --> 00:13:32.159 sometimes not some sentence maybe maybe. 348 00:13:31.879 --> 00:13:34.039 You know, okay, right right makes sense? 349 00:13:34.120 --> 00:13:36.559 So is there anything during COVID that you learned that 350 00:13:36.600 --> 00:13:39.039 you didn't know prior to Hmmm? 351 00:13:42.600 --> 00:13:45.159 I mean I think like we all like just learned, 352 00:13:45.480 --> 00:13:49.080 like or really get to sit and take a moment 353 00:13:49.120 --> 00:13:50.559 and realize what really matters. 354 00:13:50.879 --> 00:13:52.480 I feel like it was everyone went with good and bad. 355 00:13:52.519 --> 00:13:53.799 I've have people on the couch and be like, you 356 00:13:53.799 --> 00:13:57.159 know how it's really great and then really bad, see 357 00:13:57.240 --> 00:13:58.960 me too, you know, that's why it's for race. It's 358 00:13:58.960 --> 00:14:01.320 like some people like really certain things or they learned 359 00:14:01.320 --> 00:14:03.399 something about their lives that they changed completely and did 360 00:14:03.399 --> 00:14:06.039 a different career or a different goal or things like that. 361 00:14:06.840 --> 00:14:09.240 But that's why we Like. 362 00:14:09.320 --> 00:14:12.399 One thing for me that was that was good was 363 00:14:12.480 --> 00:14:15.080 that I didn't feel like I'm missing out on everything anymore. 364 00:14:15.480 --> 00:14:20.279 No comas like because I always I remember before COVID, 365 00:14:20.919 --> 00:14:23.120 every day or like you know, all the time, I 366 00:14:23.120 --> 00:14:25.679 would be like people would invite me or you know, 367 00:14:25.759 --> 00:14:28.240 I would miss stuff I wouldn't be able to do 368 00:14:28.320 --> 00:14:30.080 so many things because of my kids and I can't 369 00:14:30.120 --> 00:14:32.799 be out all the time. And now when COVID happened, 370 00:14:32.840 --> 00:14:35.799 it was like, nothing's going on and I can still work. 371 00:14:36.000 --> 00:14:39.639 I work from home anyway. Nothing was like nothing really 372 00:14:39.639 --> 00:14:42.600 stopped for me, you know. I continued being creative and 373 00:14:42.679 --> 00:14:45.679 all of that stuff. And actually during twenty twenty, me 374 00:14:45.679 --> 00:14:47.320 and my sister were making the album, so it was 375 00:14:47.360 --> 00:14:51.120 we were actually extra creative and busy, and you know, 376 00:14:51.240 --> 00:14:54.200 we spent more time with the kids and it was great. 377 00:14:54.480 --> 00:14:56.120 I really did not, you know. 378 00:14:56.159 --> 00:14:59.200 And I also I'm somebody I don't need to always 379 00:14:59.240 --> 00:14:59.919 be around people. 380 00:15:00.159 --> 00:15:03.679 I like, even though you have the cuomo. Yeah, just 381 00:15:03.879 --> 00:15:05.480 like you want to be there, but don't. 382 00:15:05.480 --> 00:15:07.519 But trying to look at it from afar, that's about 383 00:15:07.559 --> 00:15:09.919 social media, you know what I mean, because you're there, 384 00:15:10.000 --> 00:15:12.080 but then sometimes you're like, man, I can you know 385 00:15:12.200 --> 00:15:14.639 that's what it either inspires you or just like, yeah, 386 00:15:15.240 --> 00:15:17.440 I'm just still taking ass in the house and stay 387 00:15:17.519 --> 00:15:21.480 righty exactly. So what can we expect from you? What 388 00:15:21.480 --> 00:15:22.960 do you have going on currently? 389 00:15:23.039 --> 00:15:27.080 Okay, so I do have actually another EP coming out 390 00:15:27.120 --> 00:15:28.919 with Life Jennings who is you know R and b 391 00:15:29.039 --> 00:15:31.639 artists that some people may know, and we worked on 392 00:15:31.679 --> 00:15:34.679 a project together, and we have a single coming out 393 00:15:34.679 --> 00:15:38.360 called Flawless Diamond that is I don't even have the date, 394 00:15:38.399 --> 00:15:41.840 but it's coming soon. And that is my main project 395 00:15:41.879 --> 00:15:43.720 for this year as far as music. But me and 396 00:15:43.759 --> 00:15:46.559 my sister are starting our fitness brand. My twins is 397 00:15:46.559 --> 00:15:48.919 six is coming to visit this summer from Germany. She 398 00:15:49.000 --> 00:15:51.960 moved back. But we're doing a lot of fitness stuff together. 399 00:15:52.399 --> 00:15:56.840 I'm also currently studying to become a yoga instructor. 400 00:15:57.159 --> 00:15:58.320 It's just a side thing. 401 00:15:59.320 --> 00:16:02.080