Speaker 1: Get to know you a little bit better.
Speaker 2: Yeah, thanks for having me. This is cool, a cool welcome.
Speaker 3: I like that we do it big here, you know,
Speaker 3: and it's not everything's bigger in Texas because that's where
Speaker 3: I'm from. But you know, that's how we like to
Speaker 3: do things on Private Talk too.
Speaker 2: Love it.
Speaker 3: So Private Talk wants to get to know you a
Speaker 3: little bit more. Tell us about your background. How what's
Speaker 3: your have going on right now? Okay, I know all
Speaker 3: look at you see details.
Speaker 4: Yeah. So I'm originally from Germany, born and rased, so
Speaker 4: you may hear an accent when I speak. But I've
Speaker 4: been in America like nineteen years almost twenty now half time.
Speaker 1: How was that when you first, like your first experience?
Speaker 1: How was that?
Speaker 2: So?
Speaker 4: I was nineteen when me and my two sisters we
Speaker 4: were twin right, Yeah, I have a twin and then
Speaker 4: an older sister, and we were a singing group. So
Speaker 4: we were always singing together and our goal was to
Speaker 4: go to America and become superstars and you know, make
Speaker 4: it in the music industry. And so we just flew
Speaker 4: to New York in two thousand and two and we
Speaker 4: just kind of wanted to see, you know what it's
Speaker 4: like and it was such a big dream of ours.
Speaker 4: We never would have thought that we actually would end
Speaker 4: up getting signed, which we did, and you know, had
Speaker 4: a long journey of ups and downs in the music industry.
Speaker 4: Asked Black Butterfly, which was the group name, and then yeah, man,
Speaker 4: I just kind of got stuck in America. Always loved it,
Speaker 4: you know, loved the challenge, loved the talent as far
Speaker 4: as music and singers that's over here, because where we
Speaker 4: grew up in Germany is like it's a little different.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 4: We grew up feeling a little you know, not understood,
Speaker 4: and you know, the type of music that we liked,
Speaker 4: which is like the nineties R and B that influenced
Speaker 4: us a lot.
Speaker 2: We did that type of music was just not made
Speaker 2: over there.
Speaker 4: So yeah, we you know, did a lot as Black Butterfly,
Speaker 4: and then I somehow ended up going solo years later,
Speaker 4: you know, two record deals later, two failed record deals later,
Speaker 4: but I ended up going solo and I ended up
Speaker 4: doing reality TV, and you know, I ended up getting married,
Speaker 4: ended up having kids and now yeah, single mom of
Speaker 4: two girls.
Speaker 1: Awesome reality TV gift or curse both.
Speaker 2: I have to say.
Speaker 4: I always give that answer because it comes with good
Speaker 4: and bad. But for me, it's just like I try
Speaker 4: to focus on the good because you know, you can't
Speaker 4: turn big time and be like Okay. You know, sometimes
Speaker 4: I think like what what would be if I didn't
Speaker 4: do it?
Speaker 2: Where would I be?
Speaker 4: But then I'm like, I'm wasting time thinking about that
Speaker 4: because I did it. I have to deal with, you know,
Speaker 4: my decision, and I'm trying to focus on the good
Speaker 4: because do you miss it? I I don't, but recently
Speaker 4: I've started thinking about possibly, and you know, I've been
Speaker 4: in talks like here and there with people about going
Speaker 4: back to reality. But I needed a good break. So
Speaker 4: it's been five years since I left Love and Hip
Speaker 4: Hop and it was good. I needed that get away
Speaker 4: from it a little bit.
Speaker 1: Do you still watch Love and Hip Hop yourself?
Speaker 2: I don't, honestly away.
Speaker 4: Yes, The truth is I never watched it before or after.
Speaker 4: I only watched it because I was on this is yeah.
Speaker 3: I mean, I mean I get that I did that
Speaker 3: with you know, my own stuff, like I'm different, way different,
Speaker 3: but I was. You know, I used to be in
Speaker 3: the adult industry and I never watched it before I
Speaker 3: got into it. Who I just did it because that
Speaker 3: was how I expressed myself like artistically, like that's how
Speaker 3: I was my art.
Speaker 1: And then I watched maybe one of mine. I was like, no,
Speaker 1: I'm good.
Speaker 3: I was like, y'all like it, y'all keep it. I'm
Speaker 3: gonna like, I'm just gonna do it. And then I
Speaker 3: just looked through up that way. So very different elements
Speaker 3: and parallels, but and the same thing of the just
Speaker 3: you never know like what it is.
Speaker 4: I also couldn't watch an episode like more than once,
Speaker 4: Like when it aired, I would watch because there was
Speaker 4: always something that would be surprising or you know, I
Speaker 4: just needed to know how they edited.
Speaker 2: And like how it looks on TV. But I cannot rewatch.
Speaker 3: Rewatching is always like the cringe because it's like, you know,
Speaker 3: you're living your life and you're doing what's organic to you,
Speaker 3: and I think that that's what makes it more authentic.
Speaker 3: And everyone, you know things that's scripted, and I don't
Speaker 3: think it's scripted. Every detailed, but you know, scenario is
Speaker 3: obviously certain things, you know what I mean, but it's
Speaker 3: your real life, so it's like you can't not take
Speaker 3: that back just living in it. So I feel like
Speaker 3: when you watch it, it almost comes unethentic because you're like
Speaker 3: now you're like, oh my god, I look like this
Speaker 3: or oh I said that, or oh my god, like
Speaker 3: you second guess yourself. So much is good about because
Speaker 3: you can take you know, and evolve from that, and
Speaker 3: you want to see you because you don't really nobody's
Speaker 3: checks yourself, you know what I mean, except for you know,
Speaker 3: those few good friends as we have that you'll be like,
Speaker 3: oh yeah, fuck, I should watch what I say or
Speaker 3: how I say it or react to certain things because
Speaker 3: you know, we you know, we mess up.
Speaker 1: We're human, but you know what I mean.
Speaker 3: But the whole thing is you know, waking up and
Speaker 3: doing it again the next day and evolving from that.
Speaker 3: So I'm sure you know that has a bit of
Speaker 3: a growth thing too, but also mentally, I'm sure and
Speaker 3: just like for your family as well, like taking a
Speaker 3: step back is really important as well, because it's like
Speaker 3: you need to live and refocus on what's it important
Speaker 3: and taking it away from like the you know, keeping
Speaker 3: those secrets and being like this is mine, this is mine.
Speaker 3: So with all that being said, like you know, this
Speaker 3: gift and a curse kind of thing, so would you
Speaker 3: do your own new show or do something that if
Speaker 3: you hadn't had the child or opportunity to do it again.
Speaker 2: Yes, I would actually love my own show. Would be great.
Speaker 4: I've never had my own show, which is really all
Speaker 4: about me. I you know, I'm a really open person,
Speaker 4: so I don't mind, you know, my life be like,
Speaker 4: I display my life every day on social media anyway,
Speaker 4: and I really don't hold bag is. I'm not really
Speaker 4: even though I'm a little private like, but at the
Speaker 4: same time, I showcase, you know, I don't. I'm not
Speaker 4: afraid of showcasing.
Speaker 3: Yet, like what you have going on, like your you know,
Speaker 3: single mom and like, you know, doing all those things,
Speaker 3: which is important too. And I think that that's why
Speaker 3: it allows, you know, from the show as well, it
Speaker 3: gave you a platform to intensify that. So I think
Speaker 3: that you know, you are so comfortable and people should
Speaker 3: feel the same way because it's your everyday life.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm just like living my truth and whether it's
Speaker 4: good or bad, I'm not afraid to like show it
Speaker 4: or you know. So I would love my own show
Speaker 4: because that way, you know, I could actually you know.
Speaker 2: Show people who I really am.
Speaker 4: I always felt misunderstood on that show, and that's why
Speaker 4: I ended up writing my book The Other Woman, where
Speaker 4: I kind of like told my.
Speaker 2: Story out of my perspective because I just you.
Speaker 4: Know, sometimes you look at yourself and you're like, that's
Speaker 4: not really it looks way different than how it actually was,
Speaker 4: you know.
Speaker 1: So let's talk about that.
Speaker 3: You say, like, what's one thing that people misunderstood about you?
Speaker 4: Like that that I'm just they had this idea of
Speaker 4: who I was because of what was shown, and a
Speaker 4: side of me was that like they were just showing
Speaker 4: one side of me. There's so much more to who
Speaker 4: I am, and that I felt like, so people put this, Oh,
Speaker 4: she's you know, they had their idea of the person
Speaker 4: that I am. She's stupid, she's this, she's naive, she's
Speaker 4: always said she's always crying. I wasn't always crying, even
Speaker 4: during filming. I wasn't always being disappointed.
Speaker 2: It was just that's all they saw.
Speaker 1: You know, I wasn't that's what they focus on.
Speaker 4: Yeah, So there were other times where I was happy
Speaker 4: and I was you know, that was just not shown
Speaker 4: at all. So a lot of stuff was left out
Speaker 4: and that made me feel like, do.
Speaker 1: You think that what.
Speaker 3: That's what kind of gives you a voice and a
Speaker 3: power to be on your social media now that it's
Speaker 3: your own thing and you control that, you do that
Speaker 3: and like show.
Speaker 4: You totally and I feel like it's also at least hardback.
Speaker 4: The people that have followed me since then, they have
Speaker 4: seen and gotten to know who I really am, and
Speaker 4: I love it. That's why I'm so like, I love
Speaker 4: when people I guess so many messages.
Speaker 2: Like oh my god, you're really not like that and
Speaker 2: you're really not and.
Speaker 4: They don't even know me still, but they I feel
Speaker 4: like I'm showing them more of whoever really am because
Speaker 4: I'm always authentic on you know, my platforms and I
Speaker 4: always tell the truth and I feel like it shines
Speaker 4: through and it it shows.
Speaker 1: So that's awesome.
Speaker 3: That's I mean, that's a big accomplishment, you know what
Speaker 3: I mean, And stepping out on your own and just
Speaker 3: being living in your truth, you know, and showing like
Speaker 3: you know, sometimes are good days, sometimes are bad days,
Speaker 3: but it's it's life, and you know, it's just how
Speaker 3: you you know, react to situations and being the better part.
Speaker 4: So are you still doing music always? I don't think
Speaker 4: I will ever stop doing music.
Speaker 2: I'm so.
Speaker 4: My latest project was with my twin sister. Actually, we
Speaker 4: finally brought the group back together and did a Black
Speaker 4: Butterfly album in twenty twenty.
Speaker 1: We're gonna get an album number two.
Speaker 4: So I you know, right now, I'm trying to see
Speaker 4: what's next because I've been doing album after album after
Speaker 4: album as an independent artist, and you know, it's a lot.
Speaker 2: It's a lot of work.
Speaker 4: When you're not signed and you're doing everything yourself, it
Speaker 4: gets overwhelming and sometimes I'm.
Speaker 2: Like, Okay, I need a little break, But at the
Speaker 2: same time, I have the urge to be creative and
Speaker 2: put out music.
Speaker 1: Is this what I say, easier when your sisters are involved.
Speaker 4: I love doing stuff with especially my twin who is
Speaker 4: still like she loves when we're doing the group thing.
Speaker 4: I'm more like, I like doing my own thing, you know,
Speaker 4: playing instruments and stuff like that. So I like to
Speaker 4: write alone, and so sometimes it gets you know, during
Speaker 4: the process of writing the album I was little, we
Speaker 4: clashed a little because I was like in my own
Speaker 4: head and not letting her input get to me. And
Speaker 4: so but I love like my sisters, uh, my favorite
Speaker 4: people to work with, Like both of them. But yeah,
Speaker 4: we possibly may put out a song, another song, or
Speaker 4: maybe even another album or project or yeah.
Speaker 1: I'm going for album.
Speaker 2: We need another Black Butterfly album.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but yeah, I.
Speaker 3: Feel like, you know, people have been waiting. It's been
Speaker 3: a long time since it's been out there. But it's like,
Speaker 3: you know what I mean. Sometimes it's it's great to
Speaker 3: be and fly on your own, but it's also food
Speaker 3: sometimes to.
Speaker 1: Go back and like where it all began and like
Speaker 1: give us a.
Speaker 4: Number two true good idea and people actually love us
Speaker 4: together as twins so much.
Speaker 3: It's just one of those things that it's like, it's
Speaker 3: it's cool to see you don't see that sometimes, especially
Speaker 3: people are the bond and things like that. I feel
Speaker 3: like people gravitate to those like great energies, which is
Speaker 3: really great to have.
Speaker 1: Yeah, So what is your dating life like right now?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 4: Man, it's so hard for me to date as a
Speaker 4: mother of two little ones, and I'm just so I
Speaker 4: don't know, I don't I've become so picky, I want
Speaker 4: to say, but I feel like in a good way.
Speaker 2: I don't know. Maybe my standards are too high now
Speaker 2: after everything else.
Speaker 1: I ever say that it can't be too high.
Speaker 2: I really don't know what it is, but it's so
Speaker 2: difficult for me to like somebody because.
Speaker 3: So have you put yourself out there as far as
Speaker 3: like dating apps or is it like something because of
Speaker 3: like your you know your personality and you know entertainment.
Speaker 1: Is it harder to like get real authentic people.
Speaker 3: So it's like because I'm in the point where it's
Speaker 3: like dating apps not for me, Like it's just so
Speaker 3: not I'm old school, but like you know, and it's
Speaker 3: hard obviously because with COVID it's like you go to
Speaker 3: there's no dating.
Speaker 1: You don't want to I mean around people you don't
Speaker 1: know how to act.
Speaker 3: Sometimes you're like, oh, you know things that you wouldn't
Speaker 3: normally think about before, but mindfully so and so it's like,
Speaker 3: how do you mean where people organic?
Speaker 1: So it's like, how does that happen for you? So
Speaker 1: what's been that?
Speaker 2: Is like the question I always ask the.
Speaker 1: People sliding in your dms. I mean a.
Speaker 4: Little bit here and there, but most like ninety nine
Speaker 4: percent of that is just like first of all, if
Speaker 4: you slide in my DMS and you have a private profile,
Speaker 4: you're not going to get a response.
Speaker 3: I always want to like, m like, how do they
Speaker 3: think that you think I'm going to follow exactly? You know,
Speaker 3: you have a question to arrive after we followed the
Speaker 3: follow button, this hit if I really and then what
Speaker 3: if I have to unfollow you just because I have
Speaker 3: to exactly? Way feel like, you know, requested accepted thing is.
Speaker 2: Really I don't know.
Speaker 4: I haven't really made any real connections via like DMS
Speaker 4: or anything in dating apps.
Speaker 2: I always feel like somebody may know me on there.
Speaker 3: I don't know, or they think they're getting catfish at
Speaker 3: these times too, so that sometimes people they kick them off.
Speaker 1: And that's the other part. It's like I just want
Speaker 1: to let me live exactly.
Speaker 4: I like think organically meeting someone. And I also most
Speaker 4: people have dated in the past, I was friends with
Speaker 4: them first, so that's the way that I know how
Speaker 4: it normally goes for myself. I'm friends with somebody and
Speaker 4: then there's something else developed.
Speaker 1: You think you're soul made is someone you already.
Speaker 2: Know possibly, but I couldn't think of who.
Speaker 3: Sometimes, you know, that's why again organic, if I want
Speaker 3: to have in the right time, all those things, it'll
Speaker 3: all happen.
Speaker 1: So how is your co parenting with Peter it's good.
Speaker 4: It's actually our relationship is much better than ever, better
Speaker 4: than when we were together. It's just that he's not
Speaker 4: really around that much because you know, he doesn't live
Speaker 4: in California and he got eight other kids, and so
Speaker 4: it's always hard to get him to spend time.
Speaker 2: With the girls.
Speaker 4: We just actually went, like last weekend for Father's Day,
Speaker 4: I took the girls to see him. And it's great,
Speaker 4: you know, but it's just I picked somebody that has
Speaker 4: a lot on their plates to have kids with. So
Speaker 4: I tried to like, I really don't I take my
Speaker 4: own accountability because, like I chose to have kids with him,
Speaker 4: and I knew how he is, so I can't complain now,
Speaker 4: you know, I gotta deal with it.
Speaker 1: So do you watch his show Cheaters that he's hosted.
Speaker 4: Yes, I've seen a few episodes that do you feel
Speaker 4: about his host funny? I just can't stop laughing when
Speaker 4: I watch it, Like, I feel like he's a good
Speaker 4: host for it.
Speaker 1: Did you bet any money on his fight that he had?
Speaker 4: Man, I didn't bet money, but I did bet on him.
Speaker 4: I had my I really thought.
Speaker 2: He was gonna win. You I really really not see
Speaker 2: it come in there?
Speaker 3: You know we're always at his cheerleader though. I guess
Speaker 3: that's really cool though, to be a part, you know
Speaker 3: what I mean. He's a special part of your life,
Speaker 3: even though if it didn't work out or not, you know, yeah,
Speaker 3: things have, Sure they happen for reasons. You know, you
Speaker 3: have two beautiful blessings out of that, and you know
Speaker 3: you just take the good at the band.
Speaker 2: But totally, I don't know.
Speaker 3: I feel like if my exhusbin was in the ring
Speaker 3: trying to get punched and whatever, I wouldn't bet on him,
Speaker 3: and I know at all I would bet on the
Speaker 3: other side. I'm sorry, And I have an ex husband
Speaker 3: and I don't care if he's watching it, but I
Speaker 3: would not bet on him. No, But we have no children,
Speaker 3: so it's very different.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's very different.
Speaker 3: We don't have after we know, we separated, we didn't
Speaker 3: have that bond to work, you know, so you constantly
Speaker 3: come them in your life, so it's a little bit different.
Speaker 1: But I still I don't know, Like I don't know.
Speaker 1: I'm like, nah, a punch and I kidding.
Speaker 4: I'm just like I'm not mad at him anymore for anything, sure,
Speaker 4: completely forgiven.
Speaker 3: But you know, right, Okay, I get on a sports
Speaker 3: you know, it's not something you want to be bad
Speaker 3: to happen, but it's even nice to be like around
Speaker 3: sometimes not some sentence maybe maybe.
Speaker 1: You know, okay, right right makes sense?
Speaker 3: So is there anything during COVID that you learned that
Speaker 3: you didn't know prior to Hmmm?
Speaker 4: I mean I think like we all like just learned,
Speaker 4: like or really get to sit and take a moment
Speaker 4: and realize what really matters.
Speaker 3: I feel like it was everyone went with good and bad.
Speaker 3: I've have people on the couch and be like, you
Speaker 3: know how it's really great and then really bad, see
Speaker 3: me too, you know, that's why it's for race. It's
Speaker 3: like some people like really certain things or they learned
Speaker 3: something about their lives that they changed completely and did
Speaker 3: a different career or a different goal or things like that.
Speaker 1: But that's why we Like.
Speaker 4: One thing for me that was that was good was
Speaker 4: that I didn't feel like I'm missing out on everything anymore.
Speaker 4: No comas like because I always I remember before COVID,
Speaker 4: every day or like you know, all the time, I
Speaker 4: would be like people would invite me or you know,
Speaker 4: I would miss stuff I wouldn't be able to do
Speaker 4: so many things because of my kids and I can't
Speaker 4: be out all the time. And now when COVID happened,
Speaker 4: it was like, nothing's going on and I can still work.
Speaker 4: I work from home anyway. Nothing was like nothing really
Speaker 4: stopped for me, you know. I continued being creative and
Speaker 4: all of that stuff. And actually during twenty twenty, me
Speaker 4: and my sister were making the album, so it was
Speaker 4: we were actually extra creative and busy, and you know,
Speaker 4: we spent more time with the kids and it was great.
Speaker 2: I really did not, you know.
Speaker 4: And I also I'm somebody I don't need to always
Speaker 4: be around people.
Speaker 1: I like, even though you have the cuomo. Yeah, just
Speaker 1: like you want to be there, but don't.
Speaker 3: But trying to look at it from afar, that's about
Speaker 3: social media, you know what I mean, because you're there,
Speaker 3: but then sometimes you're like, man, I can you know
Speaker 3: that's what it either inspires you or just like, yeah,
Speaker 3: I'm just still taking ass in the house and stay
Speaker 3: righty exactly. So what can we expect from you? What
Speaker 3: do you have going on currently?
Speaker 4: Okay, so I do have actually another EP coming out
Speaker 4: with Life Jennings who is you know R and b
Speaker 4: artists that some people may know, and we worked on
Speaker 4: a project together, and we have a single coming out
Speaker 4: called Flawless Diamond that is I don't even have the date,
Speaker 4: but it's coming soon. And that is my main project
Speaker 4: for this year as far as music. But me and
Speaker 4: my sister are starting our fitness brand. My twins is
Speaker 4: six is coming to visit this summer from Germany. She
Speaker 4: moved back. But we're doing a lot of fitness stuff together.
Speaker 4: I'm also currently studying to become a yoga instructor.
Speaker 2: It's just a side thing.
Speaker 4: But besides is that, you know, still promoting my my
Speaker 4: music and my books and hopefully doing some shows finally
Speaker 4: again now that you know stuff is open.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've had I've actually.
Speaker 4: Done one in May, I want to say, and then
Speaker 4: I have some booking request that I got to sort out.
Speaker 2: But yeah, I can't wait to get back on stage.
Speaker 1: That's awesome.
Speaker 3: Yeah, so I see that you're you're competing in Miss
Speaker 3: Health and Fitness.
Speaker 2: I am, Oh my god, you asking me about that.
Speaker 4: This is like my last three days have been like
Speaker 4: I got to get into the Tap fifteen. So yeah,
Speaker 4: I just you know, I don't even know how it
Speaker 4: came about. I saw it somewhere, and I just decided
Speaker 4: to jump in and compete.
Speaker 3: And have you always been like really like focused on
Speaker 3: fitness and workout stuff? Is it something that new coming
Speaker 3: in with the last couple of years, Like how did
Speaker 3: that all that journey even come about? Because that's a
Speaker 3: big you know, obligation and really commitment to yourself and
Speaker 3: like something that.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I know people have I've always been like into
Speaker 4: like being fit and stuff, but not until after I
Speaker 4: had children, have I really like dove into it and
Speaker 4: really and actually I've been in better shape since after
Speaker 4: kids than before kids. It's like this thing I posted
Speaker 4: where like before kids and after kids, and I look
Speaker 4: better after kids.
Speaker 1: You're competing against yourself kind of thing.
Speaker 4: Yeah. I'm always very competitive against myself with that. And
Speaker 4: like even with my music, I don't put out anything
Speaker 4: that I don't think it's better than what I've done before.
Speaker 4: But yeah, with this fitness stuff, like the older I get,
Speaker 4: I feel like the more into being healthy, being fit
Speaker 4: and like looking, I feel like I look better every
Speaker 4: year too, So.
Speaker 1: Like fine wine to get better with.
Speaker 2: Yes, I don't mind one of those people.
Speaker 4: I don't mind getting older, even though I'm like literally
Speaker 4: pushing forty.
Speaker 1: That here I feel good.
Speaker 3: But that's what's important, you know what I mean, If
Speaker 3: you feel forty and you didn't feel or if it
Speaker 3: wasn't a bad place, whatever, it's different. But you you know,
Speaker 3: you seem like you're glowing. You seem very happy, you
Speaker 3: seem very grounded where you are in your life and
Speaker 3: where you know you come from or whatever.
Speaker 1: And you know you've gone through a lot.
Speaker 3: Of hard things, but you know, it seems like you've
Speaker 3: kind of come into your own and kind of like
Speaker 3: at your own truths.
Speaker 1: And that's important more and more every year.
Speaker 4: And the thing is too, like I come from the
Speaker 4: opposite because growing up as a teenager, I hated everything
Speaker 4: about me. I had no confidence. I you know, I
Speaker 4: was just I was literally a depressed teenager, like I
Speaker 4: didn't want to live because I did not like myself
Speaker 4: or anything about me.
Speaker 2: And now I've come to learn to love me.
Speaker 4: And it's like such a contrast, and it just feels
Speaker 4: so great and to know that it's possible.
Speaker 3: Now that's important though a lot of people, you know
Speaker 3: what I mean, women, you find that either either have
Speaker 3: it or you don't. But it's also something that it's
Speaker 3: like kind of grow into you know what I mean.
Speaker 3: There's people have self image issues, people have you know,
Speaker 3: family issues, or you know, all kinds of different things
Speaker 3: that kind of sometimes pull us down, and certain things
Speaker 3: when we should always be grounded, but we don't always
Speaker 3: know that, And so it's cool to like kind of
Speaker 3: see you just blossom into something really beautiful. Yeah.
Speaker 4: And the crazy part too, is that all my heartbreaks
Speaker 4: and the stuff that men have done to me contributed
Speaker 4: to me, you know, loving myself more for some reason
Speaker 4: because they didn't love me, I learned how to love
Speaker 4: me myself. So I always look back on all those
Speaker 4: failed relationships and I'm like, I'm actually thankful because without those,
Speaker 4: I wouldn't know how to love myself.
Speaker 3: You also said in an interview that your daughters made
Speaker 3: you a better person.
Speaker 1: Do you think that that contributes to that as well?
Speaker 2: Can you allow me to absolutely they definitely. Yeah.
Speaker 4: I Mean I was always the type of person that said, like,
Speaker 4: I don't know if I would do good with kids.
Speaker 2: I don't even know if I want kids. I'm so
Speaker 2: career driven.
Speaker 4: I'm so I'm the one in the family that had
Speaker 4: kids last, And I was like, I don't think I
Speaker 4: need kids, you know, And now I'm like, oh my god,
Speaker 4: if I would have never known what it's like, this
Speaker 4: is like the most amazing thing. And it's just made
Speaker 4: me go back to understanding that you know that the
Speaker 4: little things are just matters so much, and they they
Speaker 4: just make me a happier person, just you know, simply said,
Speaker 4: that's really what it is.
Speaker 3: Like loving yourself because you have two daughters and you
Speaker 3: feel like because you have them to look up to
Speaker 3: you to make you feel that way, they feel like
Speaker 3: that kind of you know process of that.
Speaker 4: Yes, totally, and they just the love that they give
Speaker 4: me like I've never felt that from anybody else, and
Speaker 4: it's so sweet. It's yeah, it's so sweet to also
Speaker 4: see like my oldest she is like just like when
Speaker 4: I like get into it with like with either one
Speaker 4: of them and I yell at one of them, the
Speaker 4: other one goes and consoles them the other one.
Speaker 2: It's and I look at.
Speaker 4: It and I'm like, oh, I made the sweetest to
Speaker 4: the girls.
Speaker 2: It's like so sweet to see.
Speaker 1: But how is it being a twin?
Speaker 2: It's great now. I hated it as a kid, hated it.
Speaker 4: I hated being a twin because you are not an individual,
Speaker 4: you are part of you know, always you are not
Speaker 4: looked at as a person. And then I hated it
Speaker 4: also because I was my twin sister was the one
Speaker 4: that always got the compliments and I didn't.
Speaker 2: That's part of why I ended up.
Speaker 4: You know, becoming you know, puberty hit and I you know,
Speaker 4: I was the one that was like the chubby one,
Speaker 4: and Germany is like, if you're not skinny, you're not beautiful.
Speaker 2: That's literally how you know, I grew up. And so
Speaker 2: my twin sister was the slim twin and I was
Speaker 2: the you know, I had like literally booths at fourteen fifteen, and.
Speaker 4: I was just, yeah, I was not happy with who
Speaker 4: he was. And so yeah, my twin sister again was
Speaker 4: the one that was always complimented. And now it's totally changed.
Speaker 4: I love having her and like somebody that just knows
Speaker 4: me so well and that I know understands me. I
Speaker 4: don't even have to really explain what's going on, like
Speaker 4: we know how the other one feels.
Speaker 1: It's like the lake, you just know, yes.
Speaker 2: It's great, man.
Speaker 4: And it's also you know, at the same time, like
Speaker 4: we've been living apart for ten years now, because all
Speaker 4: our lives until we were twenty seven twenty eight, we
Speaker 4: lived together, work together, did everything together, you know, I
Speaker 4: was dating. But then she moved back to Germany and
Speaker 4: it was like, I think it was really tough, tougher
Speaker 4: for her than me, because I was I wanted to
Speaker 4: have my own life and my own independence, independence in my.
Speaker 2: Own career, everything. But she she was still like she
Speaker 2: wanted to do this together, Like, you know.
Speaker 1: Did that have any conflict in like in your relationship.
Speaker 4: No, because she also even though she felt that way
Speaker 4: and I know it, she also understood where I'm at
Speaker 4: with it, and she wanted to let me be and
Speaker 4: do that. And so I felt like it brought her
Speaker 4: to a phase of like, you know, being depressed, like
Speaker 4: for a while when she moved back and had her son,
Speaker 4: and she really didn't know what to do with life
Speaker 4: because she felt like I kind of separated myself from
Speaker 4: her and being twins all our life together, doing everything together,
Speaker 4: all of a sudden, I didn't really want to do
Speaker 4: everything together.
Speaker 2: For her.
Speaker 4: It was really hard, I think, and we never really
Speaker 4: spoke about it, but I talked about it in my
Speaker 4: book because I could feel it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and I'm sure, like you know, being twins, you're
Speaker 3: you know, you're connected, and you know for you to general,
Speaker 3: just being connected with people in general, but then like
Speaker 3: having that internal connection where it's like you may don't
Speaker 3: have to talk about it, but you know, even just
Speaker 3: you speaking on it and your truth to it, you
Speaker 3: can maybe give some solitude and like comfort to her
Speaker 3: and knowing that the different side of it. Yeahcause those
Speaker 3: times sometimes when you internalize it as well, you sometimes
Speaker 3: forget that, Oh other people have feelings too, and it's
Speaker 3: not just like it's not just what I felt, but
Speaker 3: it's about both, you know, things going on at the
Speaker 3: same time. So do you have a music collaboration any
Speaker 3: artist that it could be dead or alive?
Speaker 1: What would it be?
Speaker 2: Oh my god?
Speaker 1: Who would it be?
Speaker 4: Oh my god, I should have I get this question
Speaker 4: so much and I never know who to say, but.
Speaker 2: Deader alive?
Speaker 1: I mean, I give you some time.
Speaker 2: Oh my god.
Speaker 4: I think I would have to pick one of the
Speaker 4: greats like Stevie Wonder, like you know, those are the
Speaker 4: people that are most influenced by. But obviously, like my
Speaker 4: my vocal vocally, my idol has always been Mariah Carey,
Speaker 4: even though I really don't really fancy her music now
Speaker 4: the nineties Mariah So I would love to sing with her,
Speaker 4: Stevie Wonder and you know some people that are current
Speaker 4: that I feel like I fit in, Somebody like Torri Kelly,
Speaker 4: Oh my god, just because I feel like she writes
Speaker 4: the way that I write and her guitar and stuff
Speaker 4: like that. So yeah, Robin, think is somebody I love.
Speaker 1: I like it. You've got lots.
Speaker 2: I like it.
Speaker 3: We're gonna see what the thing is about manifesting, not
Speaker 3: the ones that are you know, dead obviously, but the
Speaker 3: inspiration behind those people that are you know those things.
Speaker 3: Obviously I'm a big manifestor, and yeah, speaking it into
Speaker 3: existence and making those things happen.
Speaker 1: But yes, I like that.
Speaker 3: So you you tweeted I met my match last night
Speaker 3: in a dream and wanted to cry.
Speaker 1: It was everything.
Speaker 2: Any just sweet?
Speaker 1: Did you just describe your match man?
Speaker 4: Okay, it's a blur, but he was a white guy
Speaker 4: in the studio. He was I want to say engineer,
Speaker 4: but he was at the board, so he was something musical,
Speaker 4: like something musical about him.
Speaker 2: At least he was in the environment of you know,
Speaker 2: creating music, and it was a chemistry thing. It was
Speaker 2: a feeling.
Speaker 4: I don't even really remember what happened in the dream,
Speaker 4: but I just remembered that feeling that I had, and
Speaker 4: it was like the love at first sight thing that
Speaker 4: I never experienced in real life, but in that.
Speaker 2: Dream, I did experience it. And I woke up.
Speaker 4: I was I really wanted to cry. I was like,
Speaker 4: why can't this happen in real life?
Speaker 3: So could you not see like what this person or
Speaker 3: who he was as far as like what it looked
Speaker 3: like or someone that you maybe already know because.
Speaker 2: You know just the way he was he adored me.
Speaker 4: I always I never had a man that really like
Speaker 4: adored me. I always was more into the man than
Speaker 4: the man was into me. And I think that's why
Speaker 4: none of my relationships worked out, because I believe that
Speaker 4: Now I feel like I want somebody that is like
Speaker 4: so crazy about.
Speaker 1: Me nurture had you and be like and that's what it.
Speaker 2: Was in that dream. So you was just yeah, that's beautiful.
Speaker 1: Though.
Speaker 3: I feel like, you know, when those things happen, it's
Speaker 3: like spiritually, like it's like like blocking you know your
Speaker 3: thoughts or you know your your spirituality inside of you
Speaker 3: knowing that that's going to happen because you know you've
Speaker 3: gone through certain things in your life or whatever and
Speaker 3: that wasn't for you. But now it's like how you
Speaker 3: say your expectations, may they do you high, they're not
Speaker 3: because there is maybe someone.
Speaker 1: That will match you.
Speaker 3: It may not be now, it may not be like
Speaker 3: when you think it is, because that's when we least expected.
Speaker 3: As cliche as that sounds, but you know, it's a
Speaker 3: beautiful thing that you just have that in your like
Speaker 3: spirit to know that that is capable. Because if you
Speaker 3: know it's capable, then you know that it will come
Speaker 3: to you and it'll find you.
Speaker 2: I love it.
Speaker 1: It will find you. Yes, So please let us know.
Speaker 3: Your social media is where we can find your EP,
Speaker 3: all your things going on.
Speaker 1: Let us know.
Speaker 4: So social at Amina Butterfly, it's Butterfly with two d's
Speaker 4: b U D D A F L Y and I
Speaker 4: have about I have three full albums out there, all
Speaker 4: on Spotify and you know, Apple Music, iTunes and everywhere
Speaker 4: all streaming platforms have my albums and my EPs and yeah,
Speaker 4: and then I have a website, I am Amina dot
Speaker 4: com where everything is linked to.
Speaker 3: So that's right, private talk about I ago and follow
Speaker 3: all her things, support her because I just love what
Speaker 3: you have going on.
Speaker 1: I like the energy, I like all of these things.
Speaker 1: You also have two books that you did tell us
Speaker 1: about those.
Speaker 4: So The Other Woman was my first book, and that
Speaker 4: came about after Reality TV, and I just wanted to
Speaker 4: tell my story out of my perspective or the story
Speaker 4: that was told, but out of my perspective. And I
Speaker 4: just edit on a lot of things, like what we
Speaker 4: just talked about, my upbringings and you know, some things
Speaker 4: that just explain why I am the way I am,
Speaker 4: why I made the decisions that I made, and just
Speaker 4: for people that always had their like their opinion about me,
Speaker 4: I always encourage everybody read the book and then you
Speaker 4: can tell me how you feel about you know. So
Speaker 4: that's The Other Woman, and then my Dishes and more
Speaker 4: is my lifestyle thirty day guide to a better, healthier
Speaker 4: and happier you. Because after I got out of the
Speaker 4: heartbreak and I came to the other side, I feel
Speaker 4: like I just came out so much stronger and so
Speaker 4: much more powerful, so much more positive. And I just
Speaker 4: always get these questions from them, and how do you
Speaker 4: do it all? How you balance you know, your kids
Speaker 4: and you still do your music. How do you work
Speaker 4: out with kids? And they have all these questions about
Speaker 4: what I eat? And so I just decided to write
Speaker 4: all my recipes, my little regimens, my fitness routines.
Speaker 2: And you know how I got into yoga. I get
Speaker 2: the question every day.
Speaker 4: So I wrote everything in My Dishes and More. It's
Speaker 4: spelled m I Dishes and More. It's on Amazon and
Speaker 4: it's like a two hundred and eighty page they book
Speaker 4: with lots of amazing images me and my kids and
Speaker 4: just positive stuff. You know that women can follow if
Speaker 4: they want to feel better in their day to day.
Speaker 3: For sure, So what are some of your workout routine?
Speaker 4: So I really took the pressure of When I started
Speaker 4: taking the pressure of it, it became better because I
Speaker 4: used to before pressure explained that before kids, it's like,
Speaker 4: oh God, I have to run today. I have to
Speaker 4: run for thirty minutes. I have to do one hundred crunches.
Speaker 4: I have to do this I have you know, it
Speaker 4: was like too much pressure.
Speaker 3: Because of like life, society, like how society makes us
Speaker 3: feel like we're supposed to look, or because that's something
Speaker 3: that you already were not like doing, Like because I remember,
Speaker 3: like for me in my twenties, it was more like, oh,
Speaker 3: you're eating drinking, Okay, I gotta go to the gym.
Speaker 3: If I'm gonna do that, then I need to like
Speaker 3: do something or whatever. Then in my thirties, it's like
Speaker 3: I do it for health reasons. It's more like feeling
Speaker 3: better my anxiety and like you know, mental clarity. Yeah,
Speaker 3: so it's different. But back then you're just like, oh,
Speaker 3: I gotta look skinny. That exactly looks skinny exactly. That's
Speaker 3: what it used to be in my twenties, all about
Speaker 3: how I looked.
Speaker 2: I can't gain weight, you know. Now it's exactly what
Speaker 2: you said.
Speaker 4: It's about a whole you know, it's mental, Like I
Speaker 4: feel happier when I after I exhaust myself physically. So
Speaker 4: it's definitely a whole lifestyle. And I taking the pressure
Speaker 4: of what I mean is not beating myself up when
Speaker 4: I don't make it to the gym or when I
Speaker 4: just do yeah, and loving myself more and also when
Speaker 4: I eat a burger like not you know, be gentle
Speaker 4: with myself and say it's okay. You know, tomorrow I
Speaker 4: go back to my healthy stuff and just things like
Speaker 4: that or switching it up a lot. So I don't
Speaker 4: go hard and crazy hard in the gym every day.
Speaker 4: I don't sweat all the time. Sometimes I just do
Speaker 4: a little hike and you know, doing different things, not
Speaker 4: always sticking to the same thing. I know a lot
Speaker 4: of people that work out in phases. They go hard
Speaker 4: for a month, they get a trainer, they you know,
Speaker 4: do the you know, lose ten pounds, and then they
Speaker 4: go back to then go back to the you know,
Speaker 4: you have to find something that you actually start liking
Speaker 4: and that you can stick with.
Speaker 1: Is that why yoga came to you?
Speaker 2: Yoga?
Speaker 4: Yeah, definitely, that came to me. Oh gosh, it's now
Speaker 4: ten years ago something like that. But it's just the
Speaker 4: mental part of it. I never really looked at that aspect.
Speaker 4: It was all about just you know, not gaining weight.
Speaker 2: But now it's so much more than that.
Speaker 4: And yoga just has given me this ability to have
Speaker 4: this inner just calm, you know, yeah, peace and calm,
Speaker 4: And it's just such a superpo when nothing can get
Speaker 4: to you, like when you know, people can nobody can
Speaker 4: really make me get enraged.
Speaker 3: Like it's powerful though, I mean it really is, because
Speaker 3: it's one of those things like, it's like how I
Speaker 3: was talking about. It's how you react to situations. Everybody, like,
Speaker 3: you know, deals with and everyone has hardships. Everyone's good,
Speaker 3: you know, good times, bad times, all these things. But
Speaker 3: it's also how we you know, we react to one
Speaker 3: of those situations and really defies.
Speaker 1: You, you know, later on in life. But that's cool.
Speaker 2: I like that definitely.
Speaker 1: What is one subscription that you could not live without?
Speaker 2: Subscribed?
Speaker 4: Oh my god, I think now after the pandemic Amazon Prime,
Speaker 4: I feel like because I just use it all the time. Now, wait,
Speaker 4: maybe there's not't a having from music. It can be anything,
Speaker 4: because you know, there's from Netflix. There's also like you know,
Speaker 4: the iTunes, there's Yeah, I mean I have my Apples,
Speaker 4: my Apple subscription that I feel like I definitely don't
Speaker 4: want to give up now.
Speaker 1: But yeah, Disney, you know that's good.
Speaker 2: I'm not a show watcher, Like, I don't watch anything.
Speaker 4: I don't need none of that Netflix or you know,
Speaker 4: my kids do, they couldn't live without it.
Speaker 1: But for you, yeah, for me.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it would definitely be something like probably Apple Music
Speaker 4: or Amazon.
Speaker 2: Yeah, one of those two.
Speaker 1: One of those two. We'll take those. We'll take it
Speaker 1: we'll take it all right.
Speaker 3: So we're going to take a little bit of a
Speaker 3: break and then we're going to get to my favorite
Speaker 3: part called truth with Texas.
Speaker 1: Okay, let's do all right private talk.
Speaker 3: We are and we are ready for my favorite part
Speaker 3: is truth with Texas. We're gonna get to know you a.
Speaker 1: Little bit better. We're gonna play a little game. We've
Speaker 1: got four cards here.
Speaker 3: Each ace is a different each suit is a different question.
Speaker 1: Ok to know you better.
Speaker 2: Let's do it.
Speaker 1: Hearts romantic?
Speaker 2: All right, big?
Speaker 1: Would you consider yourself a romantic?
Speaker 2: Yeah? I do.
Speaker 4: I you know, it's hard. The reason why I hesitated
Speaker 4: is because I never had a room.
Speaker 2: I don't think I ever had a romantic man.
Speaker 3: But I feel like you said earlier, Sorry interrupt you,
Speaker 3: but you said, you're usually probably the one who's the giver.
Speaker 3: So you've probably been either the one who's been the
Speaker 3: romantic person doing things. So what romantic thing? What's the
Speaker 3: most romantic thing you've done for a partner?
Speaker 2: I mean, just like surprises, setting up stuff for Valentine's Day.
Speaker 3: You know, thought full and yeah, like it was kind
Speaker 3: of extravagant things.
Speaker 2: Yes, exactly.
Speaker 3: So we need a man out there private talk that's
Speaker 3: going to do those romantic things for her, because you
Speaker 3: need to be pleased yourself and not always be the pleaser.
Speaker 3: I have that problem myself because I always want to
Speaker 3: make someone feel good. Yep, but you know what, sometimes
Speaker 3: people need to make us feel good.
Speaker 4: Girls Like I always see all these like you know
Speaker 4: how you look on on the grounds coming bos. Yeah no,
Speaker 4: but all these couples posting what their man did for
Speaker 4: them on Valentine's and I look at it like I
Speaker 4: never had none of that ever.
Speaker 3: I haven't either, But you know what, it's coming coming
Speaker 3: to you because you manifest what you want. And again,
Speaker 3: don't ever say that you're you're boundary. What did you
Speaker 3: not your boundaries? You said your expectations were too high,
Speaker 3: because there's going to be someone who's going to check
Speaker 3: all those boxes. And it may not be like mister forever,
Speaker 3: but I'll be right now and then the next one
Speaker 3: will be like you know that, Yeah, a little bit
Speaker 3: more and more.
Speaker 1: I think are the biggest things.
Speaker 3: Like you just need to go out get out there more,
Speaker 3: which is hard to do because of the fact that
Speaker 3: you know, you said in your situation, in your you
Speaker 3: know position, you don't know if people are dating you
Speaker 3: or dating like you, you know which you know what
Speaker 3: that means for those things.
Speaker 1: But we're going to make it happen.
Speaker 2: I see it, all right?
Speaker 1: Do you like sex on the first date?
Speaker 4: I've done it, but but I feel like every time
Speaker 4: I did it, I regretted it.
Speaker 2: It's only happened a couple of times, I think, and I.
Speaker 4: Regretted it because I felt like after that they the
Speaker 4: type of guys that I did it with, they just
Speaker 4: didn't value not worthy.
Speaker 3: Favorite place to be kissed kitchen maybe not not like
Speaker 3: central place like your.
Speaker 4: Oh ah my body, Okay, probably someone like here, oh my,
Speaker 4: right here where your heart is?
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, I like it. That's where you put it.
Speaker 1: So you have like this is the target? Right? Actually no,
Speaker 1: but there like hey, go to the heart and go left?
Speaker 1: Maybe right? All right? Favorite romantic movie?
Speaker 2: Oh, oh my god? What's that favorite romantic movie? Damn?
Speaker 1: Lingerie?
Speaker 2: Or give me like some Oh, I'll let you think.
Speaker 1: About that one.
Speaker 3: So you don't like it on the spot, So let
Speaker 3: you gigure on that one. Lingerie or naked naked lights.
Speaker 1: On or off off. Booty shorts are a thong.
Speaker 2: Booty shorts.
Speaker 1: Sleep naked or with clothes naked. For player sex, it
Speaker 1: depends on the day.
Speaker 2: But I like play.
Speaker 3: I thought you're gonna say it depends on the guy.
Speaker 1: That does matter. It's a big PA component.
Speaker 3: All right, let's move on to the next hard See
Speaker 3: that's not so bad.
Speaker 1: We're warming up one.
Speaker 2: Okay, what is this one called?
Speaker 1: The club?
Speaker 2: German?
Speaker 1: The club is kinky question? Right? So what kinky question
Speaker 1: can we ask our private talk? Most number of times
Speaker 1: you've had sex in one day?
Speaker 4: I don't remember, but maybe I don't think more.
Speaker 2: Than three or four something like that.
Speaker 3: It was probably four, probably, Yeah, last dirty dream that
Speaker 3: you had, Oh my god, I mean you had a
Speaker 3: pretty vivid dream about it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, your prince trying coming for you.
Speaker 3: Okay, But I'm just saying I know that you have
Speaker 3: it in you, is what I'm telling you.
Speaker 1: Your dreams are vivid, girl, I know.
Speaker 4: You, you know, but I always wake up at the
Speaker 4: wrong moment.
Speaker 3: You're like, damn it. If I just wait a little longer,
Speaker 3: I know the outcome of this. I just never remember mine.
Speaker 2: I don't either. I mean that fully.
Speaker 3: Rough or sensual sex, sensual favorite sex toy.
Speaker 2: I don't know what it's called but I have it
Speaker 2: at home.
Speaker 4: It's like it's like a three things. Like it's like,
Speaker 4: I don't know what it's called.
Speaker 2: I really like, but it's out.
Speaker 3: Is it a clittoral simulator or is it inserted? So
Speaker 3: it's probably like one of those g spot things like
Speaker 3: or do you like put it on? Like?
Speaker 1: What is it?
Speaker 2: I have no idea what it's called. I know what
Speaker 2: it looks like.
Speaker 3: I should know this, but I don't because I didn't
Speaker 3: really like that one really, but I don't know if
Speaker 3: it's the same one.
Speaker 2: But you can give me a good one because I
Speaker 2: need some new one.
Speaker 1: I got you, I got you girl after the show.
Speaker 1: I got you. I got you. I've got my own
Speaker 1: sex toys that I have my face on. Oh okay, yes,
Speaker 1: I'm all they're not like mine, but you know they're mine.
Speaker 1: I'm like, don't. I don't want to scare you away
Speaker 1: from it, but yes, it'll be fun. It'll be fun.
Speaker 3: Do you and what do you enjoy watching your partner
Speaker 3: get off? Like if you were in the room, do
Speaker 3: would you like to do solo things? Or you just
Speaker 3: always like to participate?
Speaker 2: No? Not really? Lean up my thing.
Speaker 1: Natachi or dildo? I already know this answer because you said.
Speaker 2: You know, but hmmm, I like both both.
Speaker 1: Well, then we need something with both I do.
Speaker 2: I never had, that's that's that's tried it.
Speaker 1: Do you like being blindfolded during sex?
Speaker 2: Never happened to me, So I don't know. I would
Speaker 2: have to do to find.
Speaker 1: Out favorite time of day to have sex.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. I want to say morning, but I think
Speaker 2: I prefer in the nighttime.
Speaker 1: Like are you more freaky at nighttime?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 1: I like it. So I don't know.
Speaker 3: I feel like I like both, but I don't know
Speaker 3: if I feel like I had to pick one. I'm
Speaker 3: way more like in like energetic wise, Yeah, at night, yeah,
Speaker 3: in the morning.
Speaker 1: In the morning I like to have.
Speaker 3: Thank you. It's a different kind of like I'm not
Speaker 3: gonna like bust. We're gonna have great sex. Yeah, it's
Speaker 3: just a different but it's still gonna be good. Wrong,
Speaker 3: We're gonna go like you know, two three times first.
Speaker 3: You know that's just me. I'm just projecting, all right, Card.
Speaker 1: Diamond, So spicy question which we're all a little spicy.
Speaker 1: Hm hmmm. Celebrity hall pass.
Speaker 2: What's the hall past?
Speaker 3: Well, I guess in your situation, what is you have
Speaker 3: a celebrity, Like, well, I can't do that to you either.
Speaker 3: I'm not going to put you out there like this
Speaker 3: celebrity hall pass would be like if you were in
Speaker 3: a city in a relationship and then you have the
Speaker 3: one celebrity, then regardless of what happened and who you
Speaker 3: were with, it's like you.
Speaker 1: Get you get a pass for it. Like it doesn't consent,
Speaker 1: it considered for me. Yeah, for you.
Speaker 3: God, damn, mine needs to be like David Beckham all
Speaker 3: the time, because I was like, if I ever see
Speaker 3: this man I'm sitting on his face.
Speaker 2: Is definitely the rock.
Speaker 1: The rock? You like, what is it? What do you say?
Speaker 4: What you like?
Speaker 1: What the rock is?
Speaker 4: Even though I should pick someone not married, it's a
Speaker 4: hall pass, It's okay, the rock for sure?
Speaker 2: Oh my god.
Speaker 3: I mean like, yeah, what is your us move in
Speaker 3: the bedroom?
Speaker 1: Are you doing yoga over there in the bedroom?
Speaker 2: You know what? I don't know, Damn, those questions are good.
Speaker 1: I really don't I'm putting those thoughts in your head.
Speaker 4: I mean, like, I think I would like to say
Speaker 4: I incorporate my you know, fability.
Speaker 1: Sex position you would like to try.
Speaker 2: I don't really know what I haven't tried when I seem.
Speaker 3: But are you're completely off the limits in the bedroom
Speaker 3: that you're like absolutely not never trying, not doing.
Speaker 1: It or I've tried it before, h.
Speaker 2: Like p and on me.
Speaker 1: No golden showers for you? Have you had it happen?
Speaker 1: But I don't want to get happen. What if you
Speaker 1: were in the shower.
Speaker 2: Would you like that wouldn't be that bad.
Speaker 3: I just think the peeing on someone in a bed
Speaker 3: is just out of pocket, Like who's cleaning that up later?
Speaker 1: Like I don't even want to be in the hotel
Speaker 1: room because who's swear? Are you sleeping not next to me? No? Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's golden showers.
Speaker 3: I feel like are only supposed to happen in the shower, right,
Speaker 3: hence golden shower.
Speaker 2: I didn't even know that I peeed on.
Speaker 3: Someone said one time it was really exhilarating, Like I
Speaker 3: had a pee fetish for a really long time because
Speaker 3: it was like it made me feel like superwoman. I
Speaker 3: don't know why, but it was just because like but
Speaker 3: it wasn't like again in my bedroom. It was like
Speaker 3: always like well it first started because back when I
Speaker 3: was doing scenes and porn and so like afterwards, you
Speaker 3: take a shower after you're done a scene and all.
Speaker 1: The whole thing.
Speaker 3: And so this one guy he was he was like yeah.
Speaker 3: I was like, can I pee on your head? And
Speaker 3: he's like yeah. So I was like yeah. So I
Speaker 3: stood over him and I peed on him and it
Speaker 3: made me feel so alive. There's no TMI here private talk,
Speaker 3: but you know what I mean. But I don't know why.
Speaker 3: But then after that, I was like, I want to
Speaker 3: pee on people. Send the shower. I would pee on them.
Speaker 3: And then I forget who the one person who broke
Speaker 3: it And I was like, yeah, im a pin.
Speaker 1: He's like, no, you're not. I was like yeah.
Speaker 3: Then I got peace shy and it never came back.
Speaker 3: I can't pee anymore. I lost my peak powers.
Speaker 2: Whoa madness.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's different right here at private talking. You never
Speaker 3: know it's gonna come out in my mouth, the guests mouths.
Speaker 3: But I hope you're liking this episode. Make sure you
Speaker 3: subscribe and comment below. We've got a couple more questions
Speaker 3: for you. And you're doing great. I hope you're having
Speaker 3: fun doing it. It's you know, sometimes a little different sometimes.
Speaker 3: Have you ever called someone the wrong name?
Speaker 2: During sex, No, I haven't.
Speaker 1: Has someone ever called you the wrong name during sucks?
Speaker 2: Nope, never happened either.
Speaker 1: Have you ever done the Walk of Shame? Yeah, subscribe
Speaker 1: it to us.
Speaker 4: Wait, walk a shame? I am my understanding that, right.
Speaker 4: It's when you get up in the morning and.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and you're like in the clothes, like club clothes,
Speaker 3: like so it's really noticeable. Or you have like all
Speaker 3: your like makeup on and you're going to like a
Speaker 3: really uncomfortable place and walking through it and everyone knows
Speaker 3: that you've been partying.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that was probably one of my one night stand stories.
Speaker 1: I had a really great one and Bali.
Speaker 3: I had to ride a moped going home somewhere and
Speaker 3: not knowing if I was ever gonna make it there
Speaker 3: because I only have had a two one night stands
Speaker 3: in my whole life, which seems unexpected as I used
Speaker 3: to do porn. But you be surprised, you know, I'm
Speaker 3: very It's just not like that. Everyone's not not all
Speaker 3: free for all all. It's you know, it's actually a
Speaker 3: business and people you know, like doing and doing those places.
Speaker 3: But everywhere else when I travel whatever, I'm not really
Speaker 3: like that at all.
Speaker 1: So this one time I did, and it.
Speaker 3: Was I literally had to get in a moped and
Speaker 3: leave it. I'm and it's in the morning, and I'm
Speaker 3: in club clothes and there's all these little kids being
Speaker 3: walked to school. I was like, oh, yeah, can I
Speaker 3: just please find myself?
Speaker 1: But yeah, I made it. I made it back to.
Speaker 3: My hotel safe. Thanks, I'm still here. So yes, we're
Speaker 3: doing We're doing good.
Speaker 1: All right. Last one, we know what that is? A
Speaker 1: spade Private talk?
Speaker 3: All right, it's our naughty question, our favorite here at
Speaker 3: private talk. Let's see, what's your favorite place to have sex?
Speaker 3: Are you like a venturist person where it's like you
Speaker 3: like to be like outside kind of or partially like
Speaker 3: on balconies. Have you ever done anything like that or
Speaker 3: it's like just strictly like.
Speaker 1: In your home. I mean I had in the kitchen
Speaker 1: and the counter.
Speaker 4: I do like like adventurous stuff, but I haven't done
Speaker 4: it enough to be like, oh this.
Speaker 2: This is it.
Speaker 3: Your man is going to be the adventurous one for you.
Speaker 3: He's going to just be like he's going to take
Speaker 3: the reins and do it for you.
Speaker 2: You were speaking it into existence.
Speaker 3: Are you part of the male high club. What's that
Speaker 3: you've had sex on airplane?
Speaker 2: No? Oh, wow, that you teaching me?
Speaker 1: That's what's Texas is here for?
Speaker 3: Yes?
Speaker 2: No, but on a bus? On a bus yea from
Speaker 2: it was from Germany to Paris. He was like maybe sixteen.
Speaker 1: Or was it during the day or is it at night?
Speaker 2: It was dark, it was the evening evening time.
Speaker 1: I like, that's adventurous.
Speaker 4: The size matter, it does, and I learned that recently.
Speaker 1: Explain to private talk.
Speaker 2: I don't want to goe.
Speaker 1: Not details, but like, you know, what do you mean?
Speaker 1: Like why does it matter?
Speaker 4: I always thought it doesn't really matter that much? But
Speaker 4: once I had an experience did you have somebody?
Speaker 2: Really small?
Speaker 1: But were the feelings there though? And it just wasn't
Speaker 1: wasn't there?
Speaker 2: No, I was just so small and because.
Speaker 3: Like some people, I feel like you know, when you
Speaker 3: catch feelings for people, you know whatever, like it's like
Speaker 3: more you can deal with it.
Speaker 1: Yes, But was it like did you have did you
Speaker 1: like this person?
Speaker 3: I could, and then he was just like because I've
Speaker 3: been there too, and I'm just like, get off of
Speaker 3: me and this is work.
Speaker 4: I didn't like him until I realized that it was
Speaker 4: so small and it was part of the reason why.
Speaker 1: He was seeing long workout.
Speaker 2: Maybe maybe Oh.
Speaker 1: No, are we small penis shaming? We don't.
Speaker 4: Yeah, man, I can't believe that I'm actually saying it
Speaker 4: because I used to be the one like I would
Speaker 4: never not be with someone.
Speaker 1: But how small is small? Like it's like five?
Speaker 2: Like four?
Speaker 1: Three? I't I just.
Speaker 2: I don't even know. But it was just the smallest
Speaker 2: I ever had, and I could not know. I had
Speaker 2: to be.
Speaker 3: Like, did you abort the miss mission? You didn't even
Speaker 3: attempt it? Or you just didn't repeat offend?
Speaker 2: I didn't. I did. I did go, you know, we
Speaker 2: went all the way?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: You just afterwards I was not with it. I was
Speaker 2: turned off.
Speaker 1: I was Have you ever faked an orgasm? Yeah, yes,
Speaker 1: without a doubt, I have not, you know, not often,
Speaker 1: but it happened before. I liked that.
Speaker 3: All right. I think that you have successfully completed truth
Speaker 3: with Texas. I hope you guys like getting to know
Speaker 3: Miss Amina a little bit more.
Speaker 1: A little bit.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I haven't been asked these Is there any question
Speaker 3: that you have for me if I've put you in
Speaker 3: the hot seat? Have I since I, you know, gave
Speaker 3: you a little you know, we got to know all
Speaker 3: parts of you, which I love.
Speaker 2: I mean, I really I don't know and I had,
Speaker 2: I would have so many questions for you, just about
Speaker 2: you as a person, because he seems so now now
Speaker 2: I feel like we're getting to know each other exactly.
Speaker 3: That's why private talk I love is like in the beginning,
Speaker 3: I turn out to even when you guys like I
Speaker 3: turn out to ask many questions. I want to know
Speaker 3: you now and authentically. So I'm like but that at
Speaker 3: the end it's like we're.
Speaker 1: Friends, like I would know your whole story now.
Speaker 3: Yeah, we're gonna go and find men together. Because I'm single,
Speaker 3: I have a hard time dating. I think that it's
Speaker 3: awkward sometimes because of the environment that we're put into
Speaker 3: and you know again like you being from a reality
Speaker 3: and musician and having a high profile, like you know,
Speaker 3: relationship me that used being the adult industry and everyone
Speaker 3: thinks that I'm over sexualized. How do men respond to
Speaker 3: It's it's both, you know what I mean, I have
Speaker 3: the ones where for me, why I feel like it's
Speaker 3: a hard time, it's because I don't even know if
Speaker 3: they're dating Alexis Texas or they're dating me.
Speaker 1: So you know, and it's a part of who I am.
Speaker 3: But it's something that I you know, I you know,
Speaker 3: I have no shame into I enjoyed doing it. I
Speaker 3: you know, I no longer actively do it, but it's
Speaker 3: something that's always going to be part of my life
Speaker 3: and my brand, and so I have no shame about
Speaker 3: it at all. But it's also I feel like people
Speaker 3: misconstrue a lot about what the business is. And so,
Speaker 3: you know, anyone that's recently been in my life, you know,
Speaker 3: have been okay with it to a point, but I
Speaker 3: don't let people in my life like that as well.
Speaker 1: So again with the hard time, it's like