WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.600 --> 00:00:07.320 Welcome to the I'm Still Fun Podcast with Fallon and Jenny. Hello. Okay, 2 00:00:07.519 --> 00:00:10.560 so we have a lot to talk about today. First 3 00:00:10.599 --> 00:00:12.080 of all, you know what it's funny. Someone was like, 4 00:00:12.119 --> 00:00:14.119 you didn't say you didn't talk about Hawaii at all 5 00:00:14.199 --> 00:00:16.719 last week, And I was like, well, I think we 6 00:00:16.839 --> 00:00:18.280 got caught up in other stuff. I mean I think 7 00:00:18.320 --> 00:00:19.960 I said I went, but I didn't really go break 8 00:00:20.160 --> 00:00:21.199 break it down too much. 9 00:00:21.199 --> 00:00:23.120 But we didn't talk about it much at all. But 10 00:00:23.160 --> 00:00:26.280 there was one thing I felt like, you reference. 11 00:00:26.079 --> 00:00:28.480 Well, someone asked what it was like to travel with kids, 12 00:00:28.480 --> 00:00:30.239 like how we decided to do it, But that was 13 00:00:30.239 --> 00:00:34.600 pretty much all I will say, just a quick recap. 14 00:00:35.320 --> 00:00:38.920 Went to Maui. We were there for a week. We 15 00:00:38.920 --> 00:00:43.079 say at the Fairmont. I picked the Fairmont because it 16 00:00:43.200 --> 00:00:46.119 is so impossible to find a hotel room for five people, 17 00:00:46.240 --> 00:00:47.640 I want to say, at a resort. I didn't want 18 00:00:47.640 --> 00:00:49.320 to do condos or airbnb because I wanted to be 19 00:00:49.359 --> 00:00:51.439 able to dine at the place or get cocktails at 20 00:00:51.439 --> 00:00:54.079 the pool kind of thing. So and we took my 21 00:00:54.159 --> 00:00:57.880 mom I first of all families of five, Oh my gosh, 22 00:00:58.039 --> 00:01:02.719 how or five or more? Because to basically have five 23 00:01:02.759 --> 00:01:05.480 people in a room at any resort I was looking 24 00:01:05.519 --> 00:01:07.719 at was it would make it go up to like 25 00:01:08.200 --> 00:01:11.519 thousands of dollars a night. It was insane. So the 26 00:01:11.560 --> 00:01:13.760 Fairmont had it where like they had a like I 27 00:01:13.760 --> 00:01:16.959 could do two queen beds in the bedroom and then 28 00:01:16.959 --> 00:01:18.840 the living room had to pull out couch. You could 29 00:01:18.920 --> 00:01:21.079 get like a cot or something too, or like a 30 00:01:21.159 --> 00:01:23.719 rollaway bed. But I was like, that'll do. It was 31 00:01:23.760 --> 00:01:28.000 still crazy expensive because it's Hawaii and you're on the beach, 32 00:01:28.040 --> 00:01:30.599 so I get it. But I would definitely recommend the Fairmont. 33 00:01:30.640 --> 00:01:33.040 It's like in Wileya. It's there's this cool path that 34 00:01:33.120 --> 00:01:35.799 goes and you walk you past like the Four Seasons 35 00:01:35.840 --> 00:01:39.640 where they filmed the White Lotus the Grand Wileya, which 36 00:01:39.719 --> 00:01:42.560 Jake thought looked like the really cool one. Again, would 37 00:01:42.599 --> 00:01:44.560 have chosen that, but I'm not spending three or four 38 00:01:44.560 --> 00:01:46.560 thousand dollars a night for a hotel, don't love my 39 00:01:46.560 --> 00:01:48.280 family that much, and also would not be able to 40 00:01:48.280 --> 00:01:51.159 afford to pay my mortgage or anything ever. Again, moving forward. 41 00:01:50.959 --> 00:01:53.200 Does your mom sleep on the cot thing? 42 00:01:53.879 --> 00:01:56.000 Yes? So I didn't know what to do and it 43 00:01:56.040 --> 00:01:57.879 was weird. I felt weird putting my mom on like 44 00:01:57.959 --> 00:02:01.200 the pull out bed. Yeah. She ended up hating the 45 00:02:00.760 --> 00:02:03.959 pull up ud not because it was uncomfortable. So my 46 00:02:04.040 --> 00:02:07.200 mom just had She's older, right, so she felt like 47 00:02:07.239 --> 00:02:09.840 she was like it was too soft, so it was 48 00:02:09.879 --> 00:02:12.240 hard for her to get up out of it. So 49 00:02:12.280 --> 00:02:13.960 she ended up just laying on the couch, which she 50 00:02:14.039 --> 00:02:16.919 claimed was comfortable. She didn't complain, but I didn't know 51 00:02:16.919 --> 00:02:19.360 how else to do it because we basically had Dylan 52 00:02:19.360 --> 00:02:21.080 and Olive in one bed and we were in another one, 53 00:02:21.080 --> 00:02:23.879 and I didn't really want to sleep with my mom. Yeah, 54 00:02:24.400 --> 00:02:28.520 and also all it was weird because like normally, if 55 00:02:28.520 --> 00:02:32.000 we had a different bed situation, Dylan would probably sleep 56 00:02:32.039 --> 00:02:36.240 on that, yeah, because he'd want his privacy anyway, That's 57 00:02:36.280 --> 00:02:38.120 just how it worked out. We did the road road 58 00:02:38.159 --> 00:02:43.319 to Hanna greatly recommend. We did the sunrise at Haleakala 59 00:02:43.479 --> 00:02:46.240 National Park was my favorite part of the trip and 60 00:02:46.960 --> 00:02:48.960 it was just lovely. We ended up we didn't have 61 00:02:48.960 --> 00:02:51.039 a planned We went to the Eao Valley because we 62 00:02:51.039 --> 00:02:52.800 were like, we can't sit around anymore, We're not beach 63 00:02:52.840 --> 00:02:57.199 people recommend that for sure, beautiful, But I put together 64 00:02:57.240 --> 00:02:59.240 a road to hannas like thing we did on my 65 00:02:59.280 --> 00:03:03.360 sub stack. I think it's called like Foullin Fines newsletter 66 00:03:03.439 --> 00:03:05.000 or something on substack. But I'm going to put one 67 00:03:05.000 --> 00:03:07.240 together of the overall trip. I just haven't you know 68 00:03:07.280 --> 00:03:09.840 what sucks about the iHeart website. We used to be 69 00:03:09.960 --> 00:03:13.479 told to put together blogs constantly, yep. And I have 70 00:03:13.680 --> 00:03:18.680 so many great trip blogs and they removed all the photos. Yep. 71 00:03:18.800 --> 00:03:20.240 They do it every few months. 72 00:03:20.360 --> 00:03:22.639 It's I'm guessing, you know, the server can only hold 73 00:03:22.680 --> 00:03:25.800 so much whatever, which is why it's a great thing. 74 00:03:25.840 --> 00:03:27.560 You actually have your blog, Jenny, so you can just 75 00:03:27.599 --> 00:03:28.960 you don't have to worry about it going away. But 76 00:03:29.000 --> 00:03:31.960 it is so lame on my end because I'm like, 77 00:03:32.000 --> 00:03:33.520 I have to go back. I'll try to recommend like 78 00:03:33.599 --> 00:03:36.719 our Paris Switzerland trip, which wasn't that long ago. Pictures 79 00:03:36.759 --> 00:03:38.879 are all gone yep, So I'm like, sorry here, you 80 00:03:39.479 --> 00:03:42.000 have to take my word for it. Yeah, but yeah, 81 00:03:42.599 --> 00:03:46.039 excuse me. We did get an email that I wanted 82 00:03:46.080 --> 00:03:49.319 to dive into, and it says, hey wanted to voice 83 00:03:49.319 --> 00:03:51.439 another thank you for being so open about some very 84 00:03:51.479 --> 00:03:54.680 taboo topics. In the last few episodes. We've heard about 85 00:03:54.719 --> 00:03:57.680 poopin in the pants from you and a brave listener, 86 00:03:57.719 --> 00:04:00.000 who wrote in about her own experience with tummy troubles 87 00:04:00.039 --> 00:04:02.120 that affect her everyday life and the ability to do 88 00:04:02.199 --> 00:04:05.080 activities that are easily taken for granted by those who 89 00:04:05.080 --> 00:04:07.800 are hashtag blessed enough to have as strong and healthy 90 00:04:09.159 --> 00:04:12.680 nether regions. I recently started physical therapy for my pelvic 91 00:04:12.719 --> 00:04:14.879 floor because over the past five years, I've had a 92 00:04:14.879 --> 00:04:18.079 handful of times where I peed my pants out of nowhere. 93 00:04:18.319 --> 00:04:22.319 Turns out, having a baby and later entering perimenopause will 94 00:04:22.920 --> 00:04:26.040 perimenopause all while or living in a culture that is 95 00:04:26.120 --> 00:04:28.360 terribly lacking when it comes to woman's health can yield 96 00:04:28.399 --> 00:04:31.439 some very embarrassing results. I now understand that I not 97 00:04:31.560 --> 00:04:34.399 only still have a very weak pelvic floor after pushing 98 00:04:34.800 --> 00:04:37.000 for four hours to give birth to my now thirteen 99 00:04:37.040 --> 00:04:40.079 year old son, but I've developed both an overactive bladder 100 00:04:40.199 --> 00:04:43.720 and stress incontinence, which is the thing where pressure makes 101 00:04:43.720 --> 00:04:46.120 you pee, So trampolines are out of the question. Hell, 102 00:04:46.240 --> 00:04:48.480 sometimes it feels like a brisk walk is out of 103 00:04:48.519 --> 00:04:51.240 the question. I definitely understand the fear of losing control 104 00:04:51.279 --> 00:04:53.800 while doing literally any activity, and it stresses me out 105 00:04:53.839 --> 00:04:57.040 every damn day. All to say, bodies are so complex 106 00:04:57.079 --> 00:04:59.959 and life is so unpredictable, and it's embarrassing and scary. 107 00:05:00.160 --> 00:05:02.000 We are not alone, and I don't want to be 108 00:05:02.040 --> 00:05:05.120 all toxic positivity, but I do think that practicing gratitude 109 00:05:05.199 --> 00:05:07.319 is important when it's so easy to just focus on 110 00:05:07.399 --> 00:05:10.560 negative stuff. So please share something about your bodies that 111 00:05:10.639 --> 00:05:13.680 you love. It could be form or function. For me, 112 00:05:14.120 --> 00:05:18.600 I have a beautiful clavicle, just great shoulder bones. I 113 00:05:18.639 --> 00:05:22.279 also have amazing eyebrows that are the perfect thickness and placement, 114 00:05:22.639 --> 00:05:26.519 no plucking or waxing needed. How about you, I love 115 00:05:26.560 --> 00:05:29.439 for your emails so much. Yeah, that's so fun. That 116 00:05:29.600 --> 00:05:31.480 is fun, Jenny ladies. 117 00:05:31.519 --> 00:05:34.920 First, Yeah, thank you. I would say that I am 118 00:05:35.600 --> 00:05:39.199 blessed mostly with an hour glass figure. Now do I 119 00:05:39.240 --> 00:05:42.079 work for it, yes, But I do have like the 120 00:05:42.160 --> 00:05:46.079 thinner waist and then the volumptuous curves, so I definitely 121 00:05:46.120 --> 00:05:48.360 am a fan of having that kind of body. But 122 00:05:48.399 --> 00:05:51.800 I would also say that I love my shoulders. I've 123 00:05:51.839 --> 00:05:53.680 worked out a lot over the years and I just 124 00:05:53.759 --> 00:05:57.360 really like having stronger shoulders. So I do like that too. 125 00:05:57.399 --> 00:05:58.240 But what about you? 126 00:05:58.519 --> 00:06:03.360 If I'm going physical, I will say I have a 127 00:06:03.399 --> 00:06:06.879 handful of things I like about myself. I like my hair. Yeah, 128 00:06:07.319 --> 00:06:10.319 I like my skin. I have good skin, so good. 129 00:06:10.639 --> 00:06:16.639 I like my nose shape, and I still do like 130 00:06:16.720 --> 00:06:21.319 the upper part of my stomach. I always joke that 131 00:06:21.360 --> 00:06:23.399 if I lost thirty pounds, I know I would have abs, 132 00:06:23.399 --> 00:06:26.360 but I do even without the thirty pound weight loss, 133 00:06:26.439 --> 00:06:29.560 I do have like some ab definition a little bit. 134 00:06:30.319 --> 00:06:33.240 The lower stomach is not my favorite anymore due to childbirth. 135 00:06:33.560 --> 00:06:35.439 Things are just looser down there, so I don't love it, 136 00:06:35.519 --> 00:06:39.199 but I'm trying to focus on the positive. So physically, 137 00:06:39.439 --> 00:06:41.680 those are some of my favorite things about myself. 138 00:06:41.800 --> 00:06:42.360 I love it. 139 00:06:43.639 --> 00:06:44.560 Thank you very much. 140 00:06:44.680 --> 00:06:46.600 We'll be right back to the podcast in just a second. 141 00:06:46.639 --> 00:06:49.800 But first, Easter is coming up, and I just made 142 00:06:49.839 --> 00:06:52.319 these really delightful easter bars. I didn't save any for you. 143 00:06:52.639 --> 00:06:54.800 I noticed, Yeah, well you were on a little vacation 144 00:06:54.920 --> 00:06:56.959 and you were having little delightful things on an island, 145 00:06:57.000 --> 00:06:57.600 so I felt like you. 146 00:06:57.600 --> 00:06:58.680 Would help you sleep at night. 147 00:06:58.759 --> 00:07:01.560 Jenny, Okay, Well, anyway, on the top of the bars, 148 00:07:01.720 --> 00:07:04.399 you sprinkle a little bit of like chocolate powder, and 149 00:07:04.439 --> 00:07:06.600 so I went and grabbed my cacal bliss out and 150 00:07:06.639 --> 00:07:09.319 I was like, I'm definitely using this because a it's healthy, 151 00:07:09.439 --> 00:07:11.680 be it's flavorful, and see, it works just as good 152 00:07:11.680 --> 00:07:14.680 as anything else. So I speckled it. 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I mean we even had 184 00:08:39.480 --> 00:08:44.960 Andrew on our podcast and on Friday on the Morning Show, 185 00:08:45.399 --> 00:08:48.639 you made a big announcement. So I'm gonna let you 186 00:08:49.120 --> 00:08:52.000 take it and share what you feel comfortable sharing and 187 00:08:52.080 --> 00:08:52.720 talking about. 188 00:08:53.080 --> 00:08:55.600 Yeah, I mean, if you didn't hear it on the 189 00:08:55.600 --> 00:08:59.279 Morning Show, Andrew and I broke up. It's been about 190 00:08:59.360 --> 00:09:04.720 a month this point, and you know, Fallin is pretty 191 00:09:04.799 --> 00:09:07.559 much the first person that knew anything that was going on, 192 00:09:08.320 --> 00:09:10.279 mostly because she was texting me and at one point 193 00:09:10.360 --> 00:09:12.320 she goes, do you hate me? And I'm like, I'm 194 00:09:12.360 --> 00:09:15.120 literally having the worst day of my life, like no, 195 00:09:15.200 --> 00:09:16.039 I'm so sorry. 196 00:09:16.080 --> 00:09:18.600 And so it was so I looked back at those 197 00:09:18.639 --> 00:09:21.960 text messages. It was me asking you something stupid yeah, 198 00:09:21.960 --> 00:09:23.600 that you didn't answer. I think you answer within a 199 00:09:23.639 --> 00:09:26.080 few hours. Then I asked another stupid thing, and then 200 00:09:26.200 --> 00:09:27.840 you didn't answer, and then I'm like, are you mad? 201 00:09:27.960 --> 00:09:30.279 It was like such a stupid and then you're like, no, 202 00:09:30.799 --> 00:09:33.720 fucking fallon. Sometimes people have other things going on. I 203 00:09:33.720 --> 00:09:37.279 remember being like, well, I'm an idiot, so yeah, I 204 00:09:37.279 --> 00:09:41.080 think you speak. That was so shocking though, because that's 205 00:09:41.120 --> 00:09:44.919 like the last thing ever I thought you would text me, 206 00:09:45.080 --> 00:09:46.200 probably for sure. 207 00:09:46.679 --> 00:09:51.039 So yeah, it's been about a month. He is mostly 208 00:09:51.120 --> 00:09:55.039 moved out of the house. I'm not going to dive 209 00:09:55.080 --> 00:09:58.840 into the details of anything because it's just it's personal 210 00:09:58.919 --> 00:10:01.840 and it just didn't end up working out for us. 211 00:10:02.519 --> 00:10:07.759 I am sad, clearly, I'm very sad. I think the hardest. 212 00:10:07.799 --> 00:10:11.120 I feel like I've gone through different waves, Like every 213 00:10:11.320 --> 00:10:14.840 week is something different. The first week was like, oh 214 00:10:14.879 --> 00:10:17.519 my god, I don't have this person to talk to 215 00:10:18.039 --> 00:10:20.960 and I miss this person being in my life every day, 216 00:10:21.679 --> 00:10:24.759 and then like the second week was like morning the 217 00:10:24.799 --> 00:10:26.679 future I thought I was going to have, and then 218 00:10:26.679 --> 00:10:28.879 the third week was like thinking of all the memories. 219 00:10:28.919 --> 00:10:29.080 You know. 220 00:10:29.159 --> 00:10:31.960 It's just it's been this wave of different things through 221 00:10:32.080 --> 00:10:37.440 the breakup, and each day is different. I have good 222 00:10:37.519 --> 00:10:41.360 days and then I have really awful days. And I've 223 00:10:41.399 --> 00:10:45.399 really been leaning into the people who I've found to 224 00:10:45.440 --> 00:10:47.440 be the most supportive. And I told Faalin this that 225 00:10:47.519 --> 00:10:51.399 she has been just the absolute best person to talk 226 00:10:51.600 --> 00:10:56.279 to throughout all of this because Fallen is not going 227 00:10:56.360 --> 00:10:59.960 to judge one way or another. She is going to 228 00:11:00.440 --> 00:11:03.320 like lay things out and she's going to listen, and 229 00:11:03.360 --> 00:11:07.879 she's going to give unbiased advice to an extent. So 230 00:11:07.919 --> 00:11:11.759 it's been very helpful because I think that certain people 231 00:11:12.200 --> 00:11:14.480 just don't give the greatest advice. So those aren't the 232 00:11:14.480 --> 00:11:16.159 people that I really always want to talk to, but 233 00:11:16.200 --> 00:11:19.399 they might be very close, like close relationship to me. Yeah, 234 00:11:19.440 --> 00:11:21.519 but it's hard because I don't want to hear what 235 00:11:21.559 --> 00:11:24.600 they have to say about things, you know, And Falon's 236 00:11:24.600 --> 00:11:27.399 just really been there for me. I mean, she dropped 237 00:11:27.399 --> 00:11:30.679 off like a basket one day of just goodies and 238 00:11:30.720 --> 00:11:34.080 stuff and it was very sweet. But yeah, it's just 239 00:11:34.240 --> 00:11:39.759 been a very life changing event, just because I mean, 240 00:11:42.000 --> 00:11:43.919 if you're listening right now, there's a good chance you 241 00:11:44.000 --> 00:11:45.960 listened to the episode he was on just a couple 242 00:11:45.919 --> 00:11:49.240 of months ago. And I'm kind of shocked that now 243 00:11:49.399 --> 00:11:54.360 this is where I'm at, But it is life, and 244 00:11:55.639 --> 00:11:58.759 you know, I am just like taking it day by day. 245 00:11:59.240 --> 00:12:04.279 And yeah, I mean I think one of the hardest 246 00:12:04.279 --> 00:12:07.080 things you go through it and break up. It's obviously 247 00:12:07.440 --> 00:12:10.000 mourning this past morning, this future you thought you were 248 00:12:10.000 --> 00:12:15.039 gonna have. But going from having this person in your 249 00:12:15.039 --> 00:12:19.559 life every single day to them now being a complete stranger, 250 00:12:20.960 --> 00:12:24.320 it's such a hard thing to describe if you've never 251 00:12:24.399 --> 00:12:27.320 experienced it. I've had friends who have been in relationships 252 00:12:27.320 --> 00:12:30.759 where you know, they were barely hanging out with their 253 00:12:30.799 --> 00:12:35.200 partner and then it just made sense that they things ended, 254 00:12:35.360 --> 00:12:38.159 And I would just say our relationship was a little 255 00:12:38.159 --> 00:12:40.480 bit different. I mean, we talked every single day, we 256 00:12:40.519 --> 00:12:43.200 sent each other bunny memes all the time, like all 257 00:12:43.240 --> 00:12:46.600 of that stuff. So it's very hard to have that 258 00:12:47.279 --> 00:12:52.639 and that consistent person to not having them at all, 259 00:12:52.720 --> 00:12:58.639 and then also just knowing nothing that's going on in 260 00:12:58.759 --> 00:13:01.120 their life when he's I've been in my life for 261 00:13:01.279 --> 00:13:03.720 over five years and not even just that, I mean 262 00:13:03.720 --> 00:13:08.519 we dated previously too, So yeah, that's what's been going 263 00:13:08.559 --> 00:13:11.879 on for the last like month. I pretty much have 264 00:13:12.360 --> 00:13:15.039 cried to fall in every single day before we recorded 265 00:13:15.039 --> 00:13:16.720 the podcast for the past month. 266 00:13:17.480 --> 00:13:19.720 And wait, and by the way, if you go back, 267 00:13:19.879 --> 00:13:23.399 you be highly impressed, not knowing that Jenny was going 268 00:13:23.440 --> 00:13:26.519 through this every single day, which is our every single week, 269 00:13:27.279 --> 00:13:31.720 and still maintaining composure and doing her job, which is 270 00:13:31.759 --> 00:13:34.799 not easy. What you said is so true. There's like 271 00:13:34.840 --> 00:13:38.000 this line and this Taylor Swift song that destroys me, 272 00:13:38.720 --> 00:13:41.639 and she it's so stupid to me to quote a 273 00:13:41.639 --> 00:13:43.279 Taylor Swift song right now, but she's like, oh, I 274 00:13:43.320 --> 00:13:46.200 love it. Please don't ever become a stranger who's laugh 275 00:13:46.320 --> 00:13:49.360 I would recognize anywhere. And I felt that's exactly kind 276 00:13:49.399 --> 00:13:54.360 of what you just described with Andrew, because as your friend, 277 00:13:54.919 --> 00:13:59.440 I I mean, I really like I loved you and 278 00:13:59.440 --> 00:14:03.080 Andrew to get I like that you were very well 279 00:14:03.240 --> 00:14:07.639 matched with like your interests and the things that made 280 00:14:07.720 --> 00:14:10.600 you laugh and like activities, and you know, I think 281 00:14:10.679 --> 00:14:13.840 a lot of people will ask like invasive questions because 282 00:14:13.840 --> 00:14:15.799 they're curious. And I don't think that makes you a 283 00:14:15.799 --> 00:14:18.600 bad person because you just want to know what happened. 284 00:14:18.639 --> 00:14:21.840 I mean, obviously I've gone through public breakups and people 285 00:14:21.879 --> 00:14:24.240 want to know. People make up things, and I think 286 00:14:24.399 --> 00:14:26.879 one thing we want to relay on this podcast is like, 287 00:14:27.639 --> 00:14:30.440 we don't hate Andrew. We don't want anyone to like 288 00:14:31.039 --> 00:14:32.679 go after Andrew kind of thing. 289 00:14:32.799 --> 00:14:33.759 Don't do any of that. 290 00:14:34.279 --> 00:14:37.159 Yeah, you can love Jenny without That's the thing, Like 291 00:14:37.240 --> 00:14:41.039 I was telling her earlier when at X and I 292 00:14:41.120 --> 00:14:43.559 broke up, I think a lot of my family tried 293 00:14:43.559 --> 00:14:47.080 to like trash certain things about him, and it frustrated 294 00:14:47.120 --> 00:14:49.039 me because I'm like, well, he's not a bad person, 295 00:14:49.440 --> 00:14:51.840 and I know they're just trying to like they're trying 296 00:14:51.879 --> 00:14:53.440 to make you feel better kind of thing, and they're 297 00:14:53.440 --> 00:14:55.039 trying to be like, oh, he was never good enough 298 00:14:55.039 --> 00:14:56.600 and he was trashed, you know, different things like that, 299 00:14:56.639 --> 00:14:59.120 and that didn't make me feel better in the moment. 300 00:15:00.720 --> 00:15:04.879 You've talked about how you guys dated before and you 301 00:15:04.960 --> 00:15:08.320 broke up and then you know, years went by and 302 00:15:08.360 --> 00:15:09.799 then you guys got back together and you guys have 303 00:15:09.879 --> 00:15:15.039 been together for like five is years now. Yeah, do 304 00:15:15.080 --> 00:15:19.759 you I mean, I saw you. It's funny, funny enough. 305 00:15:20.679 --> 00:15:23.000 I feel like you and I kind of reconnected, like 306 00:15:23.080 --> 00:15:27.519 the first time you guys broke up because Jenny was 307 00:15:27.559 --> 00:15:30.720 an intern on the morning show and then as interns do, 308 00:15:30.840 --> 00:15:32.480 they leave the internship and they go on to do 309 00:15:32.559 --> 00:15:34.440 other things. And then Jenny had reached out to have 310 00:15:34.519 --> 00:15:40.720 coffee with me, and I remember the first thing I 311 00:15:40.720 --> 00:15:43.200 noticed about you was you were very thin, yep, and 312 00:15:43.240 --> 00:15:46.679 I was like, probably inappropriate. I think I was like, 313 00:15:46.720 --> 00:15:49.799 are you okay? And you were like yeah, you really 314 00:15:49.840 --> 00:15:51.639 brushed over it because I did not know you and 315 00:15:51.639 --> 00:15:53.759 Andrew together at all. You were just like, I'm going 316 00:15:53.759 --> 00:15:55.559 through a breakup or whatever, but you wanted to get 317 00:15:55.600 --> 00:15:57.480 back into radio, and that was the point of the coffee. 318 00:15:57.559 --> 00:16:02.200 So you know, year go by, i'd heard very loosely 319 00:16:02.240 --> 00:16:04.120 about Andrew and then you know, you guys got back together. 320 00:16:04.159 --> 00:16:06.679 So I know, I only know this version of your relationship. 321 00:16:07.279 --> 00:16:13.440 And I will say, being a friend of someone who's 322 00:16:13.480 --> 00:16:16.759 going through something like this is your complimentary to me, 323 00:16:16.799 --> 00:16:19.840 which is crazy. I think, like it's like what else, 324 00:16:19.919 --> 00:16:21.919 what else would I do? I was a friend off, 325 00:16:21.960 --> 00:16:23.759 not just like be there for you. The number of 326 00:16:23.759 --> 00:16:28.480 times Jenny. Jenny has watched me cry over stupid shit endlessly. 327 00:16:28.559 --> 00:16:31.519 She's seen me cry, so of course I would return 328 00:16:31.600 --> 00:16:35.399 that to you always and forever. What I've said to 329 00:16:35.440 --> 00:16:39.600 Jenny is, I feel like it's not that the heartbreak 330 00:16:39.679 --> 00:16:43.320 is any less, but it shows like just you grow 331 00:16:43.360 --> 00:16:45.879 and you learn things, and I feel like how you've 332 00:16:46.279 --> 00:16:51.679 handled is in a very graceful way while still feeling 333 00:16:51.720 --> 00:16:56.200 your feelings. And also you've been you've been really trying 334 00:16:56.200 --> 00:16:59.360 to like not cover them up or ignore them or 335 00:16:59.480 --> 00:17:03.000 you I do identify them, look at kind of science 336 00:17:03.039 --> 00:17:05.960 into things you've spoke into a therapist. I think you're 337 00:17:05.960 --> 00:17:09.319 handling things in a very healthy, as healthy as you 338 00:17:09.359 --> 00:17:11.720 can way, which is all you can really do for 339 00:17:11.799 --> 00:17:14.680 yourself as you're like healing and trying to figure out 340 00:17:14.720 --> 00:17:15.519 this new life. 341 00:17:15.720 --> 00:17:20.839 Yeah, I mean it bless algorithms, because you know, you 342 00:17:21.519 --> 00:17:25.119 hit one heartbreak reel on Instagram and suddenly your entire 343 00:17:25.119 --> 00:17:28.640 algorithm is that. And I it's just like, I'm such 344 00:17:28.680 --> 00:17:33.160 a logical, analytical kind of thinker and an anxious human, 345 00:17:33.640 --> 00:17:37.119 so I have to know why, in a lot of situations, 346 00:17:37.400 --> 00:17:42.519 why do I feel honestly dead inside? Like why do 347 00:17:42.640 --> 00:17:45.400 I feel these things, you know, like I still have 348 00:17:45.480 --> 00:17:47.920 a really good life and I have friends and family 349 00:17:47.920 --> 00:17:51.680 and whatever. But it's just interesting because it's like, when 350 00:17:51.680 --> 00:17:55.079 you're tied to someone, you get these dopamine releases when 351 00:17:55.119 --> 00:17:57.799 you see them, so suddenly you don't. You go from 352 00:17:57.839 --> 00:17:59.799 seeing them every single day and talking to them every 353 00:17:59.880 --> 00:18:02.599 day to not seeing them at all, and your brain 354 00:18:02.759 --> 00:18:05.359 is just like, what the fuck is happening right now, 355 00:18:05.400 --> 00:18:10.079 Like it is not used to that, And so getting 356 00:18:10.119 --> 00:18:13.039 out of a breakup is hard on so many different matters, 357 00:18:13.720 --> 00:18:18.400 but it also scientifically, biologically it messes with you, it 358 00:18:18.480 --> 00:18:21.720 really does. It affects your dopamine release, it does all 359 00:18:21.759 --> 00:18:24.279 of these things. So you know, like if I'm having 360 00:18:24.319 --> 00:18:27.319 a really down day, I'm like, okay, Like my body 361 00:18:27.400 --> 00:18:31.279 is getting used to being alone again, literally, like my 362 00:18:31.400 --> 00:18:36.440 brain is trying to understand that. So you know, I've 363 00:18:36.519 --> 00:18:39.839 done like some research and I've tried to listen to 364 00:18:39.880 --> 00:18:43.119 some podcasts, but like, I don't really feel like podcasts 365 00:18:43.160 --> 00:18:44.680 have done a whole lot for me. 366 00:18:45.440 --> 00:18:49.599 Are there things that you have done or seen or 367 00:18:49.720 --> 00:18:53.559 heard that have helped you a tiny bit in the 368 00:18:53.599 --> 00:18:54.440 past month. 369 00:18:54.880 --> 00:18:58.400 So I will say the last time that him and 370 00:18:58.440 --> 00:19:01.799 I had broken up. I was like a mess and 371 00:19:01.839 --> 00:19:04.359 I was unhealth. I was so unhealthy. Back then, I 372 00:19:04.519 --> 00:19:08.079 was drinking and I was partying still, and that was 373 00:19:08.119 --> 00:19:11.279 like how I would find my happiness, was like going out. 374 00:19:11.279 --> 00:19:13.000 But I was very young back then and that was 375 00:19:13.039 --> 00:19:16.519 just like my lifestyle. And so this time around, drinking 376 00:19:16.640 --> 00:19:21.640 is not involved. I'm much more into fitness however, like 377 00:19:21.839 --> 00:19:24.160 I'm I'm going to be really real, like it's been 378 00:19:24.279 --> 00:19:28.759 hard to eat, like I have that sadness. So I 379 00:19:28.799 --> 00:19:31.599 haven't been working out working out, but I have been 380 00:19:31.640 --> 00:19:34.400 getting out and walking in a lot, and I think 381 00:19:34.440 --> 00:19:38.119 that that has been so helpful for me because being 382 00:19:38.160 --> 00:19:42.680 outside it really really changes my mental state. So I 383 00:19:42.720 --> 00:19:46.960 think that that's been good. I have been focusing on 384 00:19:47.079 --> 00:19:50.960 just to do lists that have piled up over the years, 385 00:19:51.119 --> 00:19:54.160 and I mean, I've had a lot of realizations in 386 00:19:54.160 --> 00:19:56.559 the last month too, of how I was living my 387 00:19:56.640 --> 00:19:59.839 life prior to being single again. I was living a 388 00:20:00.119 --> 00:20:06.079 life of work, come home, hang out, take an app 389 00:20:06.519 --> 00:20:10.079 hang out with Andrew, do maybe something at in the evening, 390 00:20:10.319 --> 00:20:12.279 not much of anything, maybe watch a TV show and 391 00:20:12.319 --> 00:20:16.240 go to bed. And I know that like that is 392 00:20:16.279 --> 00:20:19.839 not who I am deep down, Like I'm a social person. 393 00:20:20.000 --> 00:20:23.000 I'm an active person, and I feel like I just 394 00:20:23.079 --> 00:20:28.559 became so routine and boring with my days, and now 395 00:20:28.640 --> 00:20:31.960 I'm like diving into these things that I've been wanting 396 00:20:32.000 --> 00:20:34.640 to do, Like I'm working on house projects and stuff. 397 00:20:35.160 --> 00:20:38.400 So i feel like I'm trying to channel energy into 398 00:20:38.440 --> 00:20:40.720 things that I've been wanting to do, and I'm kind of, 399 00:20:41.880 --> 00:20:44.319 i don't know, like trying to get rid of this 400 00:20:44.400 --> 00:20:48.440 person who became so routine and honestly relied too much 401 00:20:48.480 --> 00:20:51.680