WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.480 --> 00:00:08.039 Chapter fifty seven of Great Expectations. This is a LibriVox recording. 2 00:00:08.519 --> 00:00:11.839 All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more 3 00:00:11.839 --> 00:00:17.199 information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox dot org. This 4 00:00:17.359 --> 00:00:23.000 recording is by Mark Smith of Simpsonville, South Carolina. Great 5 00:00:23.039 --> 00:00:30.559 Expectations by Charles Dickens, chapter fifty seven. Now that I 6 00:00:30.679 --> 00:00:33.640 was left wholly to myself, I gave notice of my 7 00:00:33.759 --> 00:00:36.799 intention to quit the chambers in the Temple as soon 8 00:00:36.799 --> 00:00:40.320 as my tenancy could legally determine, and in the meanwhile 9 00:00:40.399 --> 00:00:43.600 to underlet them at once. I put bills up in 10 00:00:43.640 --> 00:00:47.200 the windows, for I was in debt and had scarcely 11 00:00:47.320 --> 00:00:50.600 any money, and began to be seriously alarmed by the 12 00:00:50.640 --> 00:00:54.119 state of my affairs. I ought rather to write that 13 00:00:54.200 --> 00:00:56.799 I should have been alarmed if I had had energy 14 00:00:56.840 --> 00:00:59.920 and concentration enough to help me to the clear person 15 00:01:00.000 --> 00:01:02.600 reception of any truth beyond the fact that I was 16 00:01:02.640 --> 00:01:07.280 falling very ill. The late stress upon me had enabled 17 00:01:07.280 --> 00:01:10.400 me to put off illness, but not to put it away. 18 00:01:11.200 --> 00:01:13.480 I knew that it was coming on me now, and 19 00:01:13.560 --> 00:01:16.439 I knew very little else, and was even careless as 20 00:01:16.480 --> 00:01:20.000 to that. For a day or two I lay on 21 00:01:20.040 --> 00:01:24.120 the sofa or on the floor anywhere, according as I 22 00:01:24.200 --> 00:01:28.159 happened to sink down with a heavy head and aching limbs, 23 00:01:28.599 --> 00:01:32.359 and no purpose and no power. Then there came one 24 00:01:32.480 --> 00:01:35.879 night which appeared of great duration, and which teemed with 25 00:01:36.079 --> 00:01:39.280 anxiety and horror. And when in the morning I tried 26 00:01:39.319 --> 00:01:41.239 to sit up in my bed and think of it, 27 00:01:41.680 --> 00:01:45.719 I found I could not do so. Whether I really 28 00:01:45.760 --> 00:01:48.120 had been down in guarding court in the dead of 29 00:01:48.159 --> 00:01:51.200 the night, groping about for the boat that I supposed 30 00:01:51.280 --> 00:01:54.319 to be there. Whether I had two or three times 31 00:01:54.359 --> 00:01:57.799 come to myself on the staircase with great terror, not 32 00:01:57.879 --> 00:02:00.760 knowing how I had got out of bed. Whether I 33 00:02:00.799 --> 00:02:04.200 had found myself lighting the lamp, possessed by the idea 34 00:02:04.280 --> 00:02:07.319 that he was coming up the stairs, and that the 35 00:02:07.439 --> 00:02:12.240 lights were blown out. Whether I had been inexpressibly harassed 36 00:02:12.280 --> 00:02:16.520 by the distracted talking, laughing and groaning of some one, 37 00:02:17.159 --> 00:02:19.599 and had half suspected those sounds to be of my 38 00:02:19.680 --> 00:02:23.479 own making. Whether there had been a closed iron furnace 39 00:02:23.520 --> 00:02:26.199 in a dark corner of the room, and a voice 40 00:02:26.240 --> 00:02:30.360 had called out over and over again that Miss Havisham 41 00:02:30.479 --> 00:02:34.719 was consuming within it. These were things that I tried 42 00:02:34.759 --> 00:02:38.719 to settle with myself and get into some order. As 43 00:02:38.759 --> 00:02:41.840 I lay that morning on my bed, but the vapor 44 00:02:41.879 --> 00:02:44.560 of a lime kiln would come between me and them, 45 00:02:44.919 --> 00:02:48.039 disordering them all. And it was through the vapor at 46 00:02:48.120 --> 00:02:52.039 last that I saw two men looking at me. What 47 00:02:52.199 --> 00:02:57.800 do you want? I asked, starting I don't know you well, sir, 48 00:02:58.800 --> 00:03:02.000 returned one of them down and touching me on the shoulder. 49 00:03:02.919 --> 00:03:06.120 This is a matter that you'll soon arrange, I dare say, 50 00:03:06.439 --> 00:03:12.400 But you're arrested. What is the debt? Hundred and twenty 51 00:03:12.400 --> 00:03:17.840 three pound fifteen six jewelers account? I think what is 52 00:03:17.879 --> 00:03:21.879 to be done? You had better come to my house, 53 00:03:22.280 --> 00:03:26.680 said the man. I keep a very nice house. I 54 00:03:26.800 --> 00:03:29.680 made some attempt to get up and dress myself. When 55 00:03:29.719 --> 00:03:32.240 I next attended to them, they were standing a little 56 00:03:32.280 --> 00:03:36.000 off from the bed, looking at me. I still lay there, 57 00:03:37.560 --> 00:03:41.439 you see my state, said I. I would come with 58 00:03:41.520 --> 00:03:45.919 you if I could, But indeed I'm quite unable. If 59 00:03:45.919 --> 00:03:48.120 you take me from here, I think I shall die 60 00:03:48.159 --> 00:03:52.680 by the way. Perhaps they replied, or argued the point, 61 00:03:53.240 --> 00:03:55.400 or tried to encourage me to believe that I was 62 00:03:55.479 --> 00:03:58.759 better than I thought, forasmuch as they hang in my 63 00:03:58.879 --> 00:04:02.520 memory by only this one slender thread. I don't know 64 00:04:02.599 --> 00:04:06.039 what they did, except that they forebore to remove me. 65 00:04:08.080 --> 00:04:10.840 That I had a fever and was avoided, That I 66 00:04:10.919 --> 00:04:15.120 suffered greatly, that I often lost my reason, that the 67 00:04:15.159 --> 00:04:20.279 time seemed interminable, That I confounded impossible existences with my 68 00:04:20.319 --> 00:04:23.399 own identity. That I was a brick in the house 69 00:04:23.519 --> 00:04:26.959 wall and yet entreating to be released from the giddy 70 00:04:27.000 --> 00:04:30.079 place where the builders had set me. That I was 71 00:04:30.120 --> 00:04:33.480 a steel beam of a vast engine, clashing and whirling 72 00:04:33.519 --> 00:04:36.920 over a gulf, and yet that I implored in my own 73 00:04:37.000 --> 00:04:40.360 person to have the engine stopped, and my part in 74 00:04:40.439 --> 00:04:44.439 it hammered off. That I passed through these phases of disease. 75 00:04:44.560 --> 00:04:47.480 I know of my own remembrance, and did in some 76 00:04:47.560 --> 00:04:51.399 sort know at the time that I sometimes struggled with 77 00:04:51.519 --> 00:04:55.079 real people in the belief that they were murderers, and 78 00:04:55.160 --> 00:04:57.879 that I would all at once comprehend that they meant 79 00:04:57.920 --> 00:05:01.199 to do me good, and would then sink, exhausted in 80 00:05:01.279 --> 00:05:04.759 their arms, and suffer them to lay me down. I 81 00:05:04.879 --> 00:05:09.839 also knew at the time, But above all, I knew 82 00:05:09.839 --> 00:05:13.639 that there was a constant tendency in all these people who, 83 00:05:13.720 --> 00:05:16.879 when I was very ill would present all kinds of 84 00:05:16.920 --> 00:05:21.279 extraordinary transformations of the human face, and would be much 85 00:05:21.480 --> 00:05:26.120 dilated in size. Above all, I say, I knew that 86 00:05:26.240 --> 00:05:29.800 there was an extraordinary tendency in all these people sooner 87 00:05:29.920 --> 00:05:36.000 or later to settle down into the likeness of Joe. 88 00:05:36.079 --> 00:05:38.639 After I had turned the worst point of my illness, 89 00:05:38.839 --> 00:05:42.360 I began to notice that while all its other features changed, 90 00:05:42.839 --> 00:05:47.439 this one consistent feature did not change. Whoever came about 91 00:05:47.480 --> 00:05:52.040 me still settled down into Joe. I opened my eyes 92 00:05:52.079 --> 00:05:54.680 in the night, and I saw in the great chair 93 00:05:54.720 --> 00:05:59.600 at the bedside Joe. I opened my eyes in the day, 94 00:06:00.160 --> 00:06:02.800 sitting on the window seat, smoking his pipe in the 95 00:06:02.839 --> 00:06:07.199 shaded open window, still I saw Joe. I asked for 96 00:06:07.279 --> 00:06:10.000 a cooling drink, and the dear hand that gave it 97 00:06:10.120 --> 00:06:15.079 me was Joe's. I sank back on my pillow after drinking, 98 00:06:15.439 --> 00:06:18.199 and the face that looked so hopefully and tenderly upon 99 00:06:18.279 --> 00:06:22.879 me was the face of Joe. At last. One day 100 00:06:22.920 --> 00:06:27.680 I took courage and said, is it Joe? And the 101 00:06:27.839 --> 00:06:35.079 dear old home voice answered, which it are, old Chap, Oh, Joe, 102 00:06:35.120 --> 00:06:38.680 you break my heart. Don't look angry at me, Joe, 103 00:06:39.439 --> 00:06:43.519 strike me, Joe, tell me of my ingratitude. Don't be 104 00:06:43.720 --> 00:06:47.399 so good to me. For Joe had actually laid his 105 00:06:47.480 --> 00:06:50.240 head down on the pillow at my side and put 106 00:06:50.240 --> 00:06:52.480 his arm round my neck in his joy that I 107 00:06:52.560 --> 00:06:58.000 knew him, which dear old Pip Old Chap said, Joe, 108 00:06:58.560 --> 00:07:01.759 you and me was ever French. And when you're well 109 00:07:01.879 --> 00:07:06.439 enough to go out for a ride, what larks? After 110 00:07:06.519 --> 00:07:09.680 which Joe withdrew to the window and stood with his 111 00:07:09.759 --> 00:07:13.680 back towards me, wiping his eyes. And as my extreme 112 00:07:13.759 --> 00:07:16.480 weakness prevented me from getting up and going to him, 113 00:07:16.920 --> 00:07:22.399 I lay there penitently whispering, Oh God, bless him, Oh God, 114 00:07:22.439 --> 00:07:27.800 bless this gentle Christian man. Joe's eyes were red when 115 00:07:27.800 --> 00:07:30.199 I next found him beside me, but I was holding 116 00:07:30.240 --> 00:07:35.959 his hand, and we both felt happy. How long, dear Joe, 117 00:07:36.240 --> 00:07:40.199 which you meander, say, Pip? How long has your illness lasted, 118 00:07:40.279 --> 00:07:45.920 dear old Jep, Yes, Joe, it's the end of May, Pip. 119 00:07:46.439 --> 00:07:51.160 Tomorrow is the first of June. And have you been 120 00:07:51.199 --> 00:07:56.319 here all that time? Dear Joe, pretty nigh old Jep, 121 00:07:57.079 --> 00:07:59.519 For as I says to Biddy, when the news of 122 00:07:59.560 --> 00:08:02.560 your being ill were brought by letter, which it were 123 00:08:02.600 --> 00:08:06.199 brought by the post and being formally single. He is 124 00:08:06.319 --> 00:08:09.839 now married, though underpaid for a deal of walking and 125 00:08:09.920 --> 00:08:13.319 shoe leather. But wealth were not an object on his part, 126 00:08:13.439 --> 00:08:16.639 and marriage were the great wish of his heart. It 127 00:08:16.759 --> 00:08:20.399 is so delightful to hear you, Joe, But I interrupt 128 00:08:20.439 --> 00:08:24.439 you in what you said to Biddy. Which it were 129 00:08:25.000 --> 00:08:29.000 said Joe, that how you might be amongst strangers, and 130 00:08:29.040 --> 00:08:32.639 that how you and me, having been ever friends, a 131 00:08:32.919 --> 00:08:37.639 visit at such a moment might not prove unacceptababble and 132 00:08:38.200 --> 00:08:42.159 Biddy her word were go to him without loss of time, 133 00:08:43.360 --> 00:08:48.039 that said Joe, summing up with his judicial air, were 134 00:08:48.080 --> 00:08:52.240 the word of Biddy. Go to him, Biddy say without 135 00:08:52.360 --> 00:08:56.440 loss of time. In short, I shouldn't greatly deceive you, 136 00:08:57.279 --> 00:09:01.440 Joe added, after a little grave reflection, if I represented 137 00:09:01.480 --> 00:09:04.039 to you that the word of that young woman were 138 00:09:04.559 --> 00:09:09.399 without a minute's loss of time. There Joe cut himself 139 00:09:09.480 --> 00:09:11.960 short and informed me that I was to be talked 140 00:09:11.960 --> 00:09:15.159 to in great moderation, and that I was to take 141 00:09:15.200 --> 00:09:19.000 a little nourishment at stated frequent times, whether I felt 142 00:09:19.039 --> 00:09:22.120 inclined for it or not, and that I was to 143 00:09:22.159 --> 00:09:25.840 submit myself to all his orders. So I kissed his 144 00:09:25.960 --> 00:09:29.440 hand and lay quiet while he proceeded to indict a 145 00:09:29.519 --> 00:09:34.240 note to Biddy with my love in it. Evidently Biddy 146 00:09:34.279 --> 00:09:37.799 had taught Joe to write. As I lay in bed 147 00:09:37.840 --> 00:09:40.720 looking at him, it made me, in my weak state, 148 00:09:41.320 --> 00:09:44.120 cry again with pleasure to see the pride with which 149 00:09:44.120 --> 00:09:48.919 he set about his letter. My bedstead, divested of its curtains, 150 00:09:49.200 --> 00:09:52.120 had been removed, with me upon it, into the sitting 151 00:09:52.200 --> 00:09:55.960 room as the ariiest and largest, and the carpet had 152 00:09:56.000 --> 00:09:59.039 been taken away, and the room kept always fresh and 153 00:09:59.080 --> 00:10:03.279 wholesome night in day, at my own writing table, pushed 154 00:10:03.279 --> 00:10:06.879 into a corner and cumbered with little bottles, Joe now 155 00:10:06.960 --> 00:10:10.399 sat down to his great work, first choosing a pen 156 00:10:10.559 --> 00:10:12.840 from the pen tray as if it were a chest 157 00:10:12.879 --> 00:10:16.639 of large tools, and tucking up his sleeves as if 158 00:10:16.679 --> 00:10:20.519 he were going to wheel the crowbar or sledgehammer. It 159 00:10:20.600 --> 00:10:23.360 was necessary for Joe to hold on heavily to the 160 00:10:23.399 --> 00:10:26.159 table with his left elbow, and to get his right 161 00:10:26.279 --> 00:10:30.159 leg well out behind him before he could begin, And 162 00:10:30.240 --> 00:10:34.440 when he did begin, he made every downstroke so slowly 163 00:10:35.320 --> 00:10:38.159 that it might have been six feet long, while at 164 00:10:38.159 --> 00:10:42.960 every upstroke I could hear his pens, spluttering extensively. He 165 00:10:43.000 --> 00:10:45.759 had a curious idea that the inkstand was on the 166 00:10:45.840 --> 00:10:49.240 side of him, where it was not, and constantly dipped 167 00:10:49.279 --> 00:10:53.240 his pen into space, and seemed quite satisfied with the result. 168 00:10:54.279 --> 00:10:58.320 Occasionally he was tripped up by some orthographical stumbling block, 169 00:10:58.960 --> 00:11:01.320 but on the whole he got on very well. Indeed, 170 00:11:01.799 --> 00:11:04.639 and when he had signed his name and had removed 171 00:11:04.639 --> 00:11:07.120 a finishing blot from the paper to the crown of 172 00:11:07.159 --> 00:11:10.519 his head with his two forefingers, he got up and 173 00:11:10.600 --> 00:11:14.000 hovered about the table, trying the effect of his performance 174 00:11:14.039 --> 00:11:17.679 from various points of view as it lay there, with 175 00:11:17.879 --> 00:11:23.840 unbounded satisfaction. Not to make Joe uneasy by talking too much. 176 00:11:24.120 --> 00:11:26.919 Even if I had been able to talk much, I 177 00:11:27.039 --> 00:11:31.440 deferred asking him about Miss Havisham until next day. He 178 00:11:31.519 --> 00:11:33.840 shook his head when I then asked him if she 179 00:11:33.960 --> 00:11:40.120 had recovered? Is she dead? Joe? Why? Y see, old chup, 180 00:11:40.679 --> 00:11:44.039 said Joe in a tone of remonstrance, and by way 181 00:11:44.039 --> 00:11:47.440 of getting at it by degrees. I wouldn't go so 182 00:11:47.639 --> 00:11:50.799 far as to say that, for that's a deal to say. 183 00:11:50.919 --> 00:11:57.360 But she ain't living, Joe, that's nigher where it is, 184 00:11:57.960 --> 00:12:04.720 said Joe. She ain't living, did she linger? Long? Joe, 185 00:12:05.080 --> 00:12:08.200 are to you was took ill pretty much about what 186 00:12:08.279 --> 00:12:11.559 you might call if you was put to it a week, 187 00:12:12.480 --> 00:12:15.519 said Joe, still determined on my account to come at 188 00:12:15.600 --> 00:12:20.080 everything by degrees. Dear Joe, have you heard what becomes 189 00:12:20.120 --> 00:12:25.200 of her property? Well, old Chap, said Joe. It do 190 00:12:25.320 --> 00:12:28.200 appear that she had settled the most of it, which 191 00:12:28.240 --> 00:12:31.279 I mean to say, tied it up a miss a stella. 192 00:12:32.159 --> 00:12:34.799 But she had rode out a cottages shell in her 193 00:12:34.879 --> 00:12:38.519 own hand a day or two afore the accident, leaving 194 00:12:38.559 --> 00:12:42.799 a cool four thousand to mister Matthew pocket. And why 195 00:12:42.840 --> 00:12:46.279 do you suppose, above all things Pip, she left that 196 00:12:46.399 --> 00:12:50.759 cool four thousand unto him because of Pip's account of him, 197 00:12:51.000 --> 00:12:54.440 the said Matthew. I am told by Biddy that ere 198 00:12:54.519 --> 00:12:58.559 the writing, said Joe, repeating the legal term, as if 199 00:12:58.600 --> 00:13:02.720 it did him infinite good account of him, the said Matthew, 200 00:13:03.399 --> 00:13:08.039 And a cool four thousand Pip. I never discovered from 201 00:13:08.039 --> 00:13:12.399 whom Joe derived the conventional temperature of the four thousand pounds, 202 00:13:13.440 --> 00:13:15.759 but it appeared to make the sum of money more 203 00:13:15.840 --> 00:13:18.840 to him, and he had a manifest relish in insisting 204 00:13:18.919 --> 00:13:23.080 on its being cool. This account gave me great joy, 205 00:13:23.240 --> 00:13:26.000 as it perfected the only good thing I had done. 206 00:13:26.600 --> 00:13:28.759 I asked Joe whether he had heard if any of 207 00:13:28.799 --> 00:13:33.960 the other relations had any legacies. Miss Sarah said Joe, 208 00:13:34.559 --> 00:13:39.039 she have twenty five pound perennium forred buy pills on 209 00:13:39.120 --> 00:13:44.639 account of being bilious. Miss Georgiana she have twenty pound down. 210 00:13:45.480 --> 00:13:49.879 Missus n what's the name of them? While beasts with Hump's, 211 00:13:49.879 --> 00:13:55.519 Old Chap Camels, said I, wondering why he could possibly 212 00:13:55.559 --> 00:14:00.759 want to know. Joe nodded missus Camel's, by which I 213 00:14:00.840 --> 00:14:05.559 presently understood he meant Camilla, she have five pounds for 214 00:14:05.720 --> 00:14:08.240 to buy rush lights to put her in spirits when 215 00:14:08.279 --> 00:14:11.960 she wake up in the night. The accuracy of these 216 00:14:12.000 --> 00:14:15.480 recitals was sufficiently obvious to me to give me great 217 00:14:15.519 --> 00:14:20.759 confidence in Joe's information. And now, said Joe, you ain't 218 00:14:20.759 --> 00:14:24.039 that strong yet, old Chap that you can take him more, 219 00:14:24.240 --> 00:14:28.399 nor one additional shovelful to day, old orlick. He's been 220 00:14:28.480 --> 00:14:34.720 a bustin' open, a dwellin' house. Who's said, I not 221 00:14:35.080 --> 00:14:38.960 I grant you, but what his manners is given to blusterus, 222 00:14:39.000 --> 00:14:44.679 said Joe, apologetically still on englishmen's houses as castle and 223 00:14:44.840 --> 00:14:48.320 castles must not be busted except when done in war time. 224 00:14:49.080 --> 00:14:52.159 And whatsomever the feelings on his part? He were a 225 00:14:52.240 --> 00:14:56.919 corn and seedsman in his heart. Is it Pomblchuk's house 226 00:14:56.960 --> 00:15:00.679 that has been broken into? Then that si it, Pip, 227 00:15:01.240 --> 00:15:04.440 said Joe. And they took his till, and they took 228 00:15:04.440 --> 00:15:07.960 his cash box, and they drinked his wine, and they 229 00:15:08.000 --> 00:15:11.279 partook of his whittles, and they slapped his face, and 230 00:15:11.360 --> 00:15:13.960 they pulled his nose, and they tied him up to 231 00:15:14.039 --> 00:15:17.559 his bedpost, and they give him a dozen and they 232 00:15:17.600 --> 00:15:20.600 stuffed his mouth full of flowering annuals to prevent his 233 00:15:20.720 --> 00:15:24.480 crying out. But he knowed dorlc and Orle's in the 234 00:15:24.480 --> 00:15:30.120 county jail. By these approaches we arrived at unrestricted conversation. 235 00:15:30.879 --> 00:15:33.639 I was slow to gain strength, but I did slowly 236 00:15:33.720 --> 00:15:37.000 and surely become less weak. And Joe stayed with me, 237 00:15:37.320 --> 00:15:40.960 and I fancied I was little Pip again, for the 238 00:15:41.000 --> 00:15:44.399 tenderness of Joe was so beautifully proportioned to my need 239 00:15:44.799 --> 00:15:47.480 that I was like a child in his hands. He 240 00:15:47.519 --> 00:15:50.039 would sit and talk to me in the old confidence 241 00:15:50.399 --> 00:15:54.200 and with the old simplicity, and in the old, unassertive, 242 00:15:54.279 --> 00:15:57.639 protecting way, so that I would half believe that all 243 00:15:57.720 --> 00:16:01.000 my life since the days of the old kid was 244 00:16:01.080 --> 00:16:04.039 one of the mental troubles of the fever that was gone. 245 00:16:04.759 --> 00:16:07.840 He did everything for me except the household work, for 246 00:16:07.960 --> 00:16:11.360 which he had engaged a very decent woman, after paying 247 00:16:11.399 --> 00:16:15.000 off the laundress on his first arrival, which I do 248 00:16:15.120 --> 00:16:18.840 assure you, Pip, he would often say, in explanation of 249 00:16:18.879 --> 00:16:21.919 that liberty, I found her a tap in the spare 250 00:16:22.000 --> 00:16:25.200 bed like a cask of beer, and drawn off the 251 00:16:25.240 --> 00:16:28.440 feathers in a bucket for sale, which she would have 252 00:16:28.519 --> 00:16:31.279 tapped your next, and drawed it off with you a 253 00:16:31.360 --> 00:16:33.960 layin on it, and was then a carrying away the 254 00:16:34.039 --> 00:16:37.919 coals gradually in the soup tureen, and vegetable dishes, and 255 00:16:38.000 --> 00:16:42.879 the wine and spirits in your wellington boots. We looked 256 00:16:42.919 --> 00:16:45.120 forward to the day when I should go out for 257 00:16:45.159 --> 00:16:47.639 a ride, as we had once looked forward to the 258 00:16:47.679 --> 00:16:51.320 day of my apprenticeship. And when the day came and 259 00:16:51.399 --> 00:16:54.840 an open carriage was got into the lane, Joe wrapped 260 00:16:54.879 --> 00:16:58.039 me up, took me in his arms, carried me down 261 00:16:58.080 --> 00:17:00.960 to it, and put me in. If I were still 262 00:17:01.039 --> 00:17:04.960 the small, helpless creature to whom he had so abundantly 263 00:17:05.000 --> 00:17:08.680 given the wealth of his great nature. And Joe got 264 00:17:08.680 --> 00:17:12.119 in beside me, and we drove away together into the country, 265 00:17:12.480 --> 00:17:15.480 where the rich summer growth was already on the trees 266 00:17:15.519 --> 00:17:18.960 and on the grass, and sweet summer sands filled all 267 00:17:19.039 --> 00:17:22.839 the air. The day happened to be Sunday, And when 268 00:17:22.839 --> 00:17:26.160 I looked on the loveliness around me and thought how 269 00:17:26.160 --> 00:17:29.240 it had grown and changed, and how the little wild 270 00:17:29.279 --> 00:17:32.079 flowers had been forming, and the voices of the birds 271 00:17:32.119 --> 00:17:35.799 had been strengthening by day and by night, under the 272 00:17:35.839 --> 00:17:39.880 sun and under the stars. While poor I lay burning 273 00:17:39.920 --> 00:17:43.680 and tossing on my bed, the mere remembrance of having 274 00:17:43.759 --> 00:17:47.160 burned and tossed there came like a check upon my peace. 275 00:17:48.240 --> 00:17:50.799 But when I heard the Sunday bells and looked around 276 00:17:50.839 --> 00:17:54.000 a little more upon the outspread beauty, I felt that 277 00:17:54.079 --> 00:17:57.359 I was not nearly thankful enough, that I was too 278 00:17:57.400 --> 00:18:00.680 weak yet to be even that laid my head on 279 00:18:00.759 --> 00:18:03.640 Joe's shoulder, as I had laid it long ago, when 280 00:18:03.640 --> 00:18:05.759 he had taken me to the fair or where not, 281 00:18:06.440 --> 00:18:10.400 And it was too much for my young senses. More 282 00:18:10.440 --> 00:18:13.599 composure came to me after a while, and we talked 283 00:18:13.640 --> 00:18:16.359 as we used to talk lying on the grass at 284 00:18:16.400 --> 00:18:20.920 the old Battery. There was no change whatever in Joe. 285 00:18:21.000 --> 00:18:24.359 Exactly what he had been in my eyes then He was, 286 00:18:24.440 --> 00:18:28.359 in my eyes still just as simply faithful and is 287 00:18:28.480 --> 00:18:33.119 simply right. When we got back again, and he lifted 288 00:18:33.160 --> 00:18:37.240 me out and carried me so easily across the court 289 00:18:37.319 --> 00:18:40.839 and up the stairs, I thought of that eventful Christmas 290 00:18:40.960 --> 00:18:44.599 day when he had carried me over the marshes. We 291 00:18:44.680 --> 00:18:47.880 had not yet made any allusion to my change of fortune, 292 00:18:48.440 --> 00:18:50.720 nor did I know how much of my late history 293 00:18:50.759 --> 00:18:54.920 he was acquainted with. I was so doubtful of myself now, 294 00:18:55.119 --> 00:18:58.000 and put so much trust in him, that I could 295 00:18:58.000 --> 00:19:00.960 not satisfy myself whether I ought to refer to it 296 00:19:01.000 --> 00:19:05.880 when he did not, Have you heard, Joe? I asked 297 00:19:05.920 --> 00:19:09.559 him that evening, upon further consideration, as he smoked his 298 00:19:09.640 --> 00:19:15.119 pipe at the window. Who my patron was? I heard, 299 00:19:15.720 --> 00:19:19.680 returned Joe, As it were not Miss Havisham old Chap. 300 00:19:20.799 --> 00:19:25.720 Did you hear who it was? Joe? Well? I heard, 301 00:19:25.799 --> 00:19:28.720 as it were a person? What sent the person? What 302 00:19:28.920 --> 00:19:33.279 give you the banknotes? At the Jolly bargeman, Pip. So 303 00:19:33.440 --> 00:19:40.960 it was astonishing, said Joe in the placidest way. Did 304 00:19:41.000 --> 00:19:45.240 you hear that he was dead? Joe? I presently asked, 305 00:19:45.240 --> 00:19:51.759 with increasing diffidence, which him has sent the bank notes? Pip. Yes, 306 00:19:53.440 --> 00:19:57.839 I think, said Joe, after meditating a long time and 307 00:19:57.880 --> 00:20:02.240 looking rather evasively at the windows, as I did hear 308 00:20:02.440 --> 00:20:05.400 tell that how he were something or other? In a 309 00:20:05.480 --> 00:20:10.000 general way? In that direction? Did you hear anything of 310 00:20:10.000 --> 00:20:16.920 his circumstances, Joe, not particular, Pip, but if you would 311 00:20:17.000 --> 00:20:20.960 like to hear Joe, I was beginning when Joe got 312 00:20:21.039 --> 00:20:25.279 up and came to my sofa. Look you here, old Chap, 313 00:20:25.759 --> 00:20:29.559 said Joe, bending over me. Ever, the best of friends, 314 00:20:29.640 --> 00:20:35.640 ain't us? Pip. I was ashamed to answer him. We'rey good, then, 315 00:20:36.319 --> 00:20:39.880 said Joe. As if I had answered, that's all right, 316 00:20:40.000 --> 00:20:44.720 that's agreed upon. Then why go into subjects, old Chap, which, 317 00:20:44.759 --> 00:20:49.359 as betwixt two such, must be forever unnecessary? There are 318 00:20:49.440 --> 00:20:55.440 subjects enough this betwixt two such without unnecessary ones. Lord, 319 00:20:55.640 --> 00:20:58.759 to think of your poor sister and her rampages. And 320 00:20:58.880 --> 00:21:05.039 don't you remember toler I do? Indeed, Joe, looky here, 321 00:21:05.079 --> 00:21:08.680 old Chup, said Joe, I've done what I could to 322 00:21:08.759 --> 00:21:12.440 keep you antickler in asunders, but my power was not 323 00:21:12.559 --> 00:21:16.640 always fully equal to my inclinations. For when your poor 324 00:21:16.720 --> 00:21:19.559 sister had a mind to drop into you, it were 325 00:21:19.599 --> 00:21:23.880 not so much, said Joe, in his favorite argumentative way. 326 00:21:24.880 --> 00:21:27.960 That you dropped into me too if I put myself 327 00:21:27.960 --> 00:21:31.319 in opposition to her, But that she dropped into you 328 00:21:31.480 --> 00:21:35.680 always heavier for it. I noticed that it ain't a 329 00:21:35.720 --> 00:21:38.640 grab at a man's whisker, nor yet a shake or two 330 00:21:38.680 --> 00:21:41.799 of a man, to which your sister was quite welcome. 331 00:21:42.400 --> 00:21:44.480 That it put a man off from getting a little 332 00:21:44.599 --> 00:21:47.960 child out of punishment. But when that little child is 333 00:21:48.079 --> 00:21:51.799 dropped into heavier for that grab a whisker or shaken, 334 00:21:52.119 --> 00:21:55.640 then that man naturally up and says to himself, where 335 00:21:55.759 --> 00:21:59.000 is the good as you are a doing? I grant you. 336 00:21:59.079 --> 00:22:02.240 I see the harm, said the man, But I don't 337 00:22:02.279 --> 00:22:06.240 see the good. I call upon you, sir, therefore, to 338 00:22:06.359 --> 00:22:12.160 point out the good, the man says, I observed. As 339 00:22:12.240 --> 00:22:17.200 Joe waited for me to speak, the man says, Joe assented. 340 00:22:17.799 --> 00:22:24.799 Is he right, that man, Dear Joe, He is always right? Well, 341 00:22:24.839 --> 00:22:29.920 old Chap, said Joe. Then abide by your words. If 342 00:22:29.960 --> 00:22:33.799 he's always right, which in general he's more likely wrong, 343 00:22:34.440 --> 00:22:38.319 he's right when he says this. Supposing ever you kept 344 00:22:38.359 --> 00:22:41.440 any little matter to yourself when you was a little child, 345 00:22:42.039 --> 00:22:45.400 you kept it mostly because you knowed as j Gargery's 346 00:22:45.440 --> 00:22:48.599 power to part you and Tickler in sunders were not 347 00:22:48.720 --> 00:22:54.119 fully equal to his inclinations. Therefore, I think no more 348 00:22:54.160 --> 00:22:57.359 of it as betwixt two such, and do not let 349 00:22:57.480 --> 00:23:02.279 us pass remarks upon unnecessary subject. Biddy give herself a 350 00:23:02.440 --> 00:23:06.160 deal of trouble with me before I left, for I 351 00:23:06.200 --> 00:23:10.079 am almost awful dull, as I should view it in 352 00:23:10.160 --> 00:23:13.519 this light, and viewing it in this light, as I 353 00:23:13.559 --> 00:23:17.960 should so put it, both of which said Joe, quite 354 00:23:18.119 --> 00:23:23.000 charmed with his logical arrangement being done. Now this to you, 355 00:23:23.119 --> 00:23:28.119 a true friend, say, namely, you mustn't go a overdoing 356 00:23:28.200 --> 00:23:31.039 on it. But you must have your supper and your 357 00:23:31.119 --> 00:23:35.400 wine and water, and you must be put betwixt the sheets. 358 00:23:36.519 --> 00:23:40.440 The delicacy with which Joe dismissed this theme, and the 359 00:23:40.519 --> 00:23:43.920 sweet tact and kindness with which Biddy, who with her 360 00:23:43.960 --> 00:23:47.680 woman's wit had found me out so soon, had prepared 361 00:23:47.759 --> 00:23:51.039 him for it, made a deep impression on my mind. 362 00:23:51.799 --> 00:23:54.519 But whether Joe knew how poor I was, and how 363 00:23:54.559 --> 00:23:58.720 my great expectations had all dissolved like our own martial 364 00:23:58.759 --> 00:24:04.119 mists before the sun. I could not understand another thing 365 00:24:04.200 --> 00:24:06.759 in Joe that I could not understand when it first 366 00:24:06.799 --> 00:24:10.559 began to develop itself, but which I soon arrived at 367 00:24:10.880 --> 00:24:16.039 a sorrowful comprehension of. Was this. As I became stronger 368 00:24:16.079 --> 00:24:19.039 and better, Joe became a little less easy with me 369 00:24:20.200 --> 00:24:24.279 in my weakness, an entire dependence on him. The dear 370 00:24:24.359 --> 00:24:27.519 fellow had fallen into the old tone and called me 371 00:24:27.599 --> 00:24:32.039 by the old names, the dear old pip old chap 372 00:24:32.279 --> 00:24:36.039 that now were music in my ears. I too had 373 00:24:36.079 --> 00:24:39.599 fallen into the old ways, only happy and thankful that 374 00:24:39.680 --> 00:24:44.599 he let me. But imperceptibly, though I held by them fast, 375 00:24:45.279 --> 00:24:49.000 Joe's hold upon them began to slacken. And whereas I 376 00:24:49.119 --> 00:24:53.279 wondered at this at first, I soon began to understand 377 00:24:53.359 --> 00:24:56.000 that the cause of it was in me, and that 378 00:24:56.079 --> 00:25:00.839 the fault of it was all mine. Ah, Had I 379 00:25:00.880 --> 00:25:04.119 given Joe no reason to doubt my constancy and to 380 00:25:04.160 --> 00:25:06.759 think that, in prosperity I should grow cold to him 381 00:25:06.759 --> 00:25:10.440 and cast him off? Had I given Joe's innocent heart 382 00:25:10.519 --> 00:25:14.240 no cause to feel instinctively that as I got stronger, 383 00:25:14.680 --> 00:25:17.440 his hold upon me would be weaker, and that he 384 00:25:17.519 --> 00:25:19.880 had better loosen it in time and let me go 385 00:25:20.440 --> 00:25:24.920 before I plucked myself away. It was on the third 386 00:25:25.000 --> 00:25:27.359 or fourth occasion of my going out walking in the 387 00:25:27.400 --> 00:25:31.119 Temple gardens, leading on Joe's arm, that I saw this 388 00:25:31.279 --> 00:25:34.799 change in him very plainly. We had been sitting in 389 00:25:34.839 --> 00:25:38.079 the bright, warm sunlight looking at the river, and I 390 00:25:38.240 --> 00:25:42.240 chanced to say, as we got up, see Joe, I 391 00:25:42.319 --> 00:25:46.000 can walk quite strongly. Now you shall see me walk 392 00:25:46.119 --> 00:25:51.920 back by myself. Which do not overdo it, pip, said Joe. 393 00:25:52.400 --> 00:25:55.160 But I shall be happy for to see ye, able, sir. 394 00:25:57.240 --> 00:26:01.319 The last word grated on me, But how could I remonstrate? 395 00:26:02.160 --> 00:26:04.599 I walked no further than the gate of the gardens, 396 00:26:04.640 --> 00:26:07.440 and then pretended to be weaker than I was, and 397 00:26:07.519 --> 00:26:10.680 asked Joe for his arm. Joe gave it me, but 398 00:26:10.839 --> 00:26:15.720 was thoughtful. I, for my part, was thoughtful too, for 399 00:26:16.279 --> 00:26:19.279 how best to check this growing change in Joe was 400 00:26:19.359 --> 00:26:23.559 a great perplexity to my remorseful thoughts that I was 401 00:26:23.599 --> 00:26:26.880