WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.360 --> 00:00:06.440 Boundleish Authenticity Podcast. Thanks for tuning in to the Boundless 2 00:00:06.480 --> 00:00:10.039 Authenticity Podcast. Today, we are going to talk a little 3 00:00:10.039 --> 00:00:14.400 bit about secret space stuff because that's one of the 4 00:00:14.439 --> 00:00:17.519 things that you guys have requested to hear more about, 5 00:00:18.320 --> 00:00:22.079 and quite frankly, I'm very tickled by this topic as well. 6 00:00:22.640 --> 00:00:26.399 So I'm joined by Olivia James, who was born into 7 00:00:26.440 --> 00:00:31.359 the programs by a family of drug traffickers. Olivia was 8 00:00:31.559 --> 00:00:34.399 trauma trained in programs like MK Ultra, where her mind 9 00:00:34.439 --> 00:00:37.880 was split to create alters to use for missions on 10 00:00:37.960 --> 00:00:42.679 Earth and in space. She was used for espionage, cult beta, 11 00:00:43.079 --> 00:00:47.320 and corporate programs. Olivia's main focus is finding her memories, 12 00:00:47.479 --> 00:00:49.840 using them to heal her alters, and hoping that her 13 00:00:49.840 --> 00:00:54.640 memories can assist others. So, Olivia, how's it going good? 14 00:00:54.640 --> 00:00:57.560 Thank you for having me. I'm glad to have you on. 15 00:00:58.039 --> 00:01:00.759 I have not had anyone really talk talk too much 16 00:01:00.759 --> 00:01:03.960 about this topic before, but I know that you have 17 00:01:04.040 --> 00:01:09.120 a vast wealth of information on this topic that is 18 00:01:09.159 --> 00:01:11.120 going to probably hurt a lot of heads. 19 00:01:11.200 --> 00:01:12.719 So I'll just let you take it away here. It 20 00:01:12.760 --> 00:01:13.560 will okay? 21 00:01:13.920 --> 00:01:14.359 Yeah, how. 22 00:01:16.040 --> 00:01:16.920 Did I start? 23 00:01:16.959 --> 00:01:17.120 Yeah? 24 00:01:17.120 --> 00:01:19.519 How'd you figure that this was going on? In the 25 00:01:19.519 --> 00:01:20.120 first place. 26 00:01:22.280 --> 00:01:26.680 I figured it out because of a job. Actually, actually 27 00:01:27.480 --> 00:01:32.359 I had gotten a new job, and the job is 28 00:01:32.400 --> 00:01:34.920 what triggered everything in me because it was similar to 29 00:01:35.000 --> 00:01:36.640 a job I had done in the programs. And I 30 00:01:36.640 --> 00:01:39.599 didn't realize it, but I was getting triggers every day 31 00:01:39.719 --> 00:01:43.439 and extreme anxiety. I couldn't work, you know, and I 32 00:01:44.040 --> 00:01:46.519 didn't know something was wrong, but something was pushing me 33 00:01:46.599 --> 00:01:49.200 to figure out what was wrong. I was getting like 34 00:01:49.280 --> 00:01:53.239 these huge amounts of information and memories and I had 35 00:01:53.239 --> 00:01:56.120 no idea what it meant. And that's how I discovered 36 00:01:57.120 --> 00:01:59.680 just from getting conscious recalling. I decided to start with 37 00:02:00.120 --> 00:02:03.439 noosis hypnotic aggression to see what I could find, and 38 00:02:03.480 --> 00:02:06.640 it kind of blew everything open. It kind of blew 39 00:02:06.680 --> 00:02:09.000 my mind open to where I could get a lot 40 00:02:09.039 --> 00:02:13.159 of information and kind of activated or reactivated or helped 41 00:02:13.159 --> 00:02:15.639 me rediscover some of the things I could do, some 42 00:02:15.680 --> 00:02:19.199 of the abilities I have that I wasn't fully aware 43 00:02:19.240 --> 00:02:21.759 that I had. I mean, I had a paranormal life, 44 00:02:22.360 --> 00:02:24.479 you know, the whole time I've been alive, but I 45 00:02:24.560 --> 00:02:26.360 just didn't know where it came from. And now that 46 00:02:26.439 --> 00:02:30.080 I do, it's given me lots of freedom in order 47 00:02:30.120 --> 00:02:33.360 to expand on all these memories and help other people, hopefully. 48 00:02:33.680 --> 00:02:36.280 I do want to do a disclaimer that anything I 49 00:02:36.360 --> 00:02:40.280 say is based on my own personal experiences and my 50 00:02:40.319 --> 00:02:46.159 own personal perspective, soak right to believe what they want 51 00:02:46.199 --> 00:02:48.840 to believe. Everyone has their own belief and belief systems, 52 00:02:48.840 --> 00:02:51.719 their own experiences, and this is my truth. And that's 53 00:02:51.719 --> 00:02:53.639 why I express it the way I do. It's because 54 00:02:53.800 --> 00:02:57.439 it's directly from me, and nobody has to agree or disagree. 55 00:02:57.479 --> 00:02:58.560 It's totally your choice. 56 00:03:00.000 --> 00:03:00.520 I agree with you. 57 00:03:00.599 --> 00:03:04.680 I want to point out as well that if someone 58 00:03:04.759 --> 00:03:06.879 is having a hard time listening to what you're saying, 59 00:03:07.080 --> 00:03:10.960 listen anyway, because that points out somewhere inside of you 60 00:03:11.039 --> 00:03:13.280 that maybe you need to ask some questions or figure 61 00:03:13.280 --> 00:03:15.199 out for yourself why it is that you don't believe 62 00:03:15.240 --> 00:03:20.479 that people have their own, unique, individual experiences. And I'll 63 00:03:20.479 --> 00:03:22.400 tell you what You're not going to get anywhere in 64 00:03:22.439 --> 00:03:26.680 life if you don't start trying to understand other people differences. Yea, 65 00:03:26.719 --> 00:03:28.960 and bring you closer together and they can sure as 66 00:03:28.960 --> 00:03:29.759 he'll make you smarter. 67 00:03:32.479 --> 00:03:33.439 And I totally agree. 68 00:03:33.639 --> 00:03:35.879 Oh go ahead, sure, yeah, I was I was going 69 00:03:35.960 --> 00:03:38.520 to ask if you mind me asking you what job 70 00:03:38.560 --> 00:03:40.039 it is you were doing, just so that we have 71 00:03:40.120 --> 00:03:40.759 some context. 72 00:03:41.400 --> 00:03:45.719 I was doing something similar to a human resources type employment, 73 00:03:46.520 --> 00:03:48.759 working with people things like that. It was like a 74 00:03:48.840 --> 00:03:52.400 human resource office work, which that'll tie in. I'll start, 75 00:03:52.520 --> 00:03:54.120 let me start the story so I could tie that 76 00:03:54.159 --> 00:03:57.280 in because it's like what okay, so I always start off. 77 00:03:58.879 --> 00:04:00.680 I'm just going all the way back to saying that 78 00:04:00.719 --> 00:04:04.400 I had interesting parents. My father, he was from a 79 00:04:04.400 --> 00:04:09.280 small town and he was recruited very young for military intelligence, 80 00:04:09.360 --> 00:04:12.360 the ASA Army Security Agency when he was about eighteen 81 00:04:12.400 --> 00:04:16.279 years old and he got recruited for intelligence, so he 82 00:04:16.360 --> 00:04:19.399 was on the German and Russian border doing code breaking. 83 00:04:19.439 --> 00:04:21.839 He learned German very fast, so he was doing that 84 00:04:21.959 --> 00:04:24.759 kind of work at a very young age. When he 85 00:04:24.800 --> 00:04:26.600 came out of the military, he kind of was kind 86 00:04:26.600 --> 00:04:29.160 of floundering, not knowing which way to go, and he 87 00:04:29.240 --> 00:04:33.279 ended up getting involved with some we call them now cartels, 88 00:04:33.360 --> 00:04:35.839 but back in the sixties they didn't have that word yet. 89 00:04:35.839 --> 00:04:37.959 They it was kind of almost like a crime syndicate, 90 00:04:38.040 --> 00:04:40.519 is what they would you describe it as. So he 91 00:04:40.560 --> 00:04:44.160 started working with a lot of different, you know, different 92 00:04:44.199 --> 00:04:47.759 nefarious characters, getting involved into what he became like a 93 00:04:47.800 --> 00:04:50.720 really major drug trafficker in the sixties and seventies, and 94 00:04:50.800 --> 00:04:54.000 he was bringing large amounts of heroin across the border 95 00:04:54.399 --> 00:04:55.199 by bus. 96 00:04:54.959 --> 00:04:55.560 By car. 97 00:04:56.720 --> 00:04:58.920 He was a pilot too, you know, how to flyplane, 98 00:04:59.199 --> 00:05:02.319 but a lot of it. And the busting part was 99 00:05:02.680 --> 00:05:04.560 my mom actually helped him do that part. She was 100 00:05:04.680 --> 00:05:06.839 helping him embezzle the money that they were making. So 101 00:05:06.879 --> 00:05:08.279 they were making quite a bit of money at very 102 00:05:08.319 --> 00:05:11.439 young age. I'm talking these are like nineteen twenty years old, 103 00:05:11.920 --> 00:05:13.439 you know, doing this type of work, and I was 104 00:05:13.480 --> 00:05:17.560 just a baby, and so they were breaking in all 105 00:05:17.600 --> 00:05:19.600 this money and imagine you know that kind of money 106 00:05:19.639 --> 00:05:22.639 and you know, almost like just people out of their teens, 107 00:05:22.879 --> 00:05:24.800 you know, doing I mean, I know there were different 108 00:05:24.800 --> 00:05:27.199 times then, but it's still kind of hard to believe sometimes. 109 00:05:27.600 --> 00:05:32.199 But they were doing really well, and my father got 110 00:05:32.199 --> 00:05:35.519 addicted to his own product. And if anybody knows anything 111 00:05:35.560 --> 00:05:37.879 about the if you've done any research, does a lot 112 00:05:37.879 --> 00:05:40.519 of research out there about the drug trade in the 113 00:05:40.560 --> 00:05:43.879 sixties and seven, they see there is a lot of 114 00:05:44.560 --> 00:05:49.000 information about how certain three letter agencies were involved with that, 115 00:05:49.639 --> 00:05:51.639 and the same thing with him. He was involved with 116 00:05:51.680 --> 00:05:54.319 them because he was in military intelligence, and he came 117 00:05:54.319 --> 00:05:57.399 out and started working like as a middleman kind of 118 00:05:57.399 --> 00:06:00.600 between the groups. But what was the problem problem was 119 00:06:00.759 --> 00:06:04.199 is they can't you know, the behaviors that he was 120 00:06:04.240 --> 00:06:07.959 exhibiting when he was addicted, was missing drops, missing meetings, 121 00:06:08.040 --> 00:06:10.160 you know, not doing the same work that he was 122 00:06:10.199 --> 00:06:10.720 doing before. 123 00:06:10.720 --> 00:06:11.480 They can't have that. 124 00:06:11.519 --> 00:06:13.920 You know, that's that's a huge risk of huge liability 125 00:06:13.959 --> 00:06:18.360 to their whole you know, process, their program, everything that 126 00:06:18.360 --> 00:06:22.040 they were doing. So they tried to scare them and 127 00:06:22.560 --> 00:06:24.160 to scare them straight almost and it didn't you know, 128 00:06:24.160 --> 00:06:26.639 obviously it didn't work. They rated him once just to 129 00:06:26.680 --> 00:06:28.519 let them know, hey, you need a straighten up. This 130 00:06:28.639 --> 00:06:30.519 isn't you can't do this. You know this you got 131 00:06:30.519 --> 00:06:32.959 to straighten up. And it didn't work. And then so 132 00:06:33.000 --> 00:06:35.160 they ended up doing a big, huge raid, you know, 133 00:06:35.199 --> 00:06:37.879 the second time. They ended up you know, break crashing 134 00:06:37.920 --> 00:06:40.920 through the fence, beating them up, and you know, he 135 00:06:41.000 --> 00:06:43.560 ended up getting arrested, and he was looking at life 136 00:06:43.600 --> 00:06:44.759 in prison, really was. 137 00:06:45.160 --> 00:06:46.720 And there was a big, huge public trial. 138 00:06:46.839 --> 00:06:50.600 I remember, you know, seeing like pieces of some old 139 00:06:50.639 --> 00:06:53.759 news clippings where they were like artists renditions of him, 140 00:06:53.839 --> 00:06:57.160 like in the courtroom and things like that. So he 141 00:06:57.199 --> 00:06:58.920 went through this big, huge public trial. He had a 142 00:06:58.959 --> 00:07:02.319 big fancy lawyer every thing, and he was going to 143 00:07:02.319 --> 00:07:04.319 go to prison. And at the end of the trial, 144 00:07:04.560 --> 00:07:07.199 they literally just dropped everything and said, never mind, we 145 00:07:07.240 --> 00:07:09.639 have the wrong person. That's all they said. And then 146 00:07:09.680 --> 00:07:12.240 they gave him a local government job. So they gave 147 00:07:12.560 --> 00:07:16.160 somebody that was a known drug trafficker, heroin addict, they 148 00:07:16.160 --> 00:07:18.279 gave him a local government job and just dropped all 149 00:07:18.279 --> 00:07:23.120 the charges against him. So what I found out, and 150 00:07:23.800 --> 00:07:27.240 you know, in my different ways, you know, with recall, 151 00:07:27.399 --> 00:07:31.439 with remote viewing, with hypnotic regression, I was able to 152 00:07:31.439 --> 00:07:34.240 find out through my own father who's dead now, that 153 00:07:34.879 --> 00:07:37.439 the reason why he was able to get out of 154 00:07:37.480 --> 00:07:41.399 his situation so easily is because he signed me over. 155 00:07:42.199 --> 00:07:45.399 They wanted something in return to give him his life 156 00:07:45.439 --> 00:07:47.120 back and not have to go to prison for life, 157 00:07:47.639 --> 00:07:50.519 and he signed them and let them have me. Even 158 00:07:50.560 --> 00:07:52.720 as a little kid, I was already signed over to them, 159 00:07:52.800 --> 00:07:54.800 so that meant they could use me for whatever they wanted. 160 00:07:55.240 --> 00:07:58.279 And I always you know, it was his cowardice that 161 00:07:58.360 --> 00:08:00.839 created this life for me. You know, the life of 162 00:08:00.879 --> 00:08:03.279 trauma as a child was because of his cowardice, and 163 00:08:03.319 --> 00:08:05.639 he was afraid to go to prison, or maybe he 164 00:08:05.680 --> 00:08:08.759 felt like he sacrificed a lot, you know, sacrifice one 165 00:08:08.800 --> 00:08:13.399 to save the rest. Who knows, you know. Kind of 166 00:08:13.399 --> 00:08:15.560 what I'm thinking, though, is from what he tells me 167 00:08:15.639 --> 00:08:18.160 to as you know, in his spirit form, he said 168 00:08:18.160 --> 00:08:20.199 it was when he was on this earth, he just 169 00:08:20.839 --> 00:08:22.720 was different from what he is now because he had 170 00:08:23.199 --> 00:08:25.360 he had a different role to play, and he didn't 171 00:08:25.480 --> 00:08:28.040 really care about other people the way you know, maybe 172 00:08:28.040 --> 00:08:30.120 we had wanted him to, and me and him never 173 00:08:30.199 --> 00:08:32.120 were able to find common ground when he was alive. 174 00:08:32.159 --> 00:08:34.960 It just he always we always felt separate. You know, 175 00:08:35.000 --> 00:08:37.120 I couldn't get that connection with him. You know, he 176 00:08:37.159 --> 00:08:38.679 didn't really want to be around me and talk to 177 00:08:38.720 --> 00:08:40.720 me that much. And you know, in my sessions, I'm 178 00:08:40.759 --> 00:08:42.879 asking him, you know, why why did you do that? 179 00:08:43.279 --> 00:08:46.120 He'd be said, because looking at me, he felt disgusted, 180 00:08:46.480 --> 00:08:48.440 he said, it was disgusted by looking at me and 181 00:08:48.480 --> 00:08:50.639 what he you know, what they had created, you know, 182 00:08:51.360 --> 00:08:54.759 in those in kultra. You know, I was a disgusting 183 00:08:54.799 --> 00:08:56.399 thing for him to look at. He thought it was 184 00:08:56.440 --> 00:08:58.960 gross what they were doing to me. So in my mind, 185 00:08:59.000 --> 00:09:01.159 you know, he knew kind of a little that it 186 00:09:01.200 --> 00:09:05.159 wasn't Whatever they were doing to me was hurting me, 187 00:09:05.279 --> 00:09:07.879 but he didn't. He couldn't stop it, and he kind 188 00:09:07.919 --> 00:09:09.679 of felt like, I don't know if it was a 189 00:09:09.720 --> 00:09:11.799 little bit of guilt, but he really didn't show a 190 00:09:11.840 --> 00:09:14.039 lot of guilt, mainly just that he didn't want to 191 00:09:14.039 --> 00:09:16.080 be around somebody like that, you know. So that's why 192 00:09:16.120 --> 00:09:18.879 we couldn't. We never really found that common ground. But actually, 193 00:09:18.919 --> 00:09:21.159 now that he's dead, we actually have a better relationship 194 00:09:21.440 --> 00:09:23.120 when I you know, when I see him doing my 195 00:09:23.200 --> 00:09:25.759 sessions or talk to him, he's almost like a spirit 196 00:09:25.799 --> 00:09:27.600 guide now when he always comes to protect me and 197 00:09:27.639 --> 00:09:29.600 help me and you know, give me some guidance, which 198 00:09:29.600 --> 00:09:32.639 I really appreciate. We have an entirely different relationship now. 199 00:09:33.799 --> 00:09:37.039 So that's kind of how I got signed over. So 200 00:09:37.759 --> 00:09:41.279 in order to get into MK Ultra. Actually this happened. 201 00:09:42.600 --> 00:09:44.360 I want to say it was around six or seven, 202 00:09:44.919 --> 00:09:47.919 and it's very fuzzy and so and I always wanted 203 00:09:48.000 --> 00:09:50.559 to say, you know, it's very difficult to create a 204 00:09:50.600 --> 00:09:53.759 linear timeline when there's so many missing so many missing pieces, 205 00:09:53.799 --> 00:09:57.039 so much different technology for memory suppression. I don't want 206 00:09:57.039 --> 00:10:00.000 anybody to drive themselves crazy trying to find a linear timeline. 207 00:10:00.080 --> 00:10:03.159 It's not always possible. It's just not you know, if 208 00:10:03.159 --> 00:10:05.759 somebody can find a linear timeline, I think that's amazing, 209 00:10:05.840 --> 00:10:08.320 but it's not possible for everyone. I personally don't have 210 00:10:08.360 --> 00:10:12.799 a linear timeline for my experiences. So and I still 211 00:10:12.799 --> 00:10:15.120 would advise people if you're looking at trying to get 212 00:10:15.120 --> 00:10:17.519 your memories, don't, you know, don't focus too much on 213 00:10:17.559 --> 00:10:20.279 the linear timeline if if you can't get it, because 214 00:10:20.279 --> 00:10:22.559 that'll that'll keep you, that'll hold you back for a 215 00:10:22.559 --> 00:10:24.799 long time if you can't get it. But when I 216 00:10:24.799 --> 00:10:27.440 was about six or seven, I was taken to and 217 00:10:27.480 --> 00:10:29.200 I remember the only thing I remember is being taken 218 00:10:29.240 --> 00:10:31.399 in a black van with people. I didn't cry or 219 00:10:31.399 --> 00:10:33.600 did but even at that age, I didn't cry a lot, 220 00:10:33.639 --> 00:10:35.399 I didn't talk a lot. I wasn't very. 221 00:10:37.000 --> 00:10:38.159 Vocal, you know. 222 00:10:38.480 --> 00:10:40.559 I had a kind of a different, really shy, quiet 223 00:10:40.639 --> 00:10:43.440 kind of kid. And they took me to a psychiatric 224 00:10:43.480 --> 00:10:46.720 hospital on the East coast. And this hospital is it's 225 00:10:46.759 --> 00:10:50.600 no longer open anymore. So sometimes I look at pictures 226 00:10:50.600 --> 00:10:53.279 of it and online, you know, just because it's so 227 00:10:53.360 --> 00:10:57.600 weird to see it, like physically and so when I 228 00:10:57.639 --> 00:11:01.279 got there, there was a woman there. And it's really 229 00:11:01.320 --> 00:11:05.200 interesting that the programmer where I was at was a 230 00:11:05.240 --> 00:11:07.840 woman and she had two assistants. They were what we 231 00:11:07.840 --> 00:11:10.480 would pack in those days called orderlies or something like that. 232 00:11:10.480 --> 00:11:12.600 We would call them that. They're two males. And it 233 00:11:12.639 --> 00:11:14.919 was a woman, and she had white hair, and she 234 00:11:15.039 --> 00:11:16.559 kept her hair pinned up, you know, like in the 235 00:11:16.600 --> 00:11:21.879 seventies style. She always wore these really nice flowy pants suits. 236 00:11:22.360 --> 00:11:24.679 And you know, growing up the way I did with 237 00:11:24.679 --> 00:11:27.440 my parents, you know, as you know, very after he 238 00:11:27.639 --> 00:11:30.240 my parents lost everything. They were very poor, and we 239 00:11:30.320 --> 00:11:33.279 just kind of grew up very I always wanted to 240 00:11:33.279 --> 00:11:36.799 just stand weird. I don't know how else to explain it. 241 00:11:37.240 --> 00:11:40.000 So I wasn't around the type of person that she was. 242 00:11:40.080 --> 00:11:42.399 I was never around those types of people, you know, 243 00:11:42.480 --> 00:11:45.279 So to me, she looked very otherworldly. You know, I 244 00:11:45.360 --> 00:11:48.879 kind of looked at her like, I don't know, almost ethereal, 245 00:11:49.039 --> 00:11:51.639 Like she had this look. But it was really strange 246 00:11:51.679 --> 00:11:54.159 to see because she was the one that's ordinating all 247 00:11:54.200 --> 00:11:56.559 of the trauma, all of the you know, the training 248 00:11:56.600 --> 00:11:59.600 for monarch and things like that, and we had this 249 00:11:59.679 --> 00:12:02.000 special space. It was only me and another boy and 250 00:12:02.039 --> 00:12:04.320 his name was Jacob. So it was a very small 251 00:12:04.399 --> 00:12:06.720 kind of like experimental program from what I can gather, 252 00:12:07.559 --> 00:12:12.759 and she had, you know, certain baseline things that she 253 00:12:12.799 --> 00:12:15.679 wanted to attempt, and one of them was called singlepated dissociation. 254 00:12:16.960 --> 00:12:20.200 She wanted us to be able to, you know, feel 255 00:12:20.200 --> 00:12:22.559 that trauma. At the same time, they thought there was 256 00:12:22.559 --> 00:12:25.600 some type of power in being able to dissociate together, 257 00:12:25.960 --> 00:12:27.840 like if you can reach a certain state. They felt 258 00:12:27.840 --> 00:12:31.200 there were some kind of energetic you know, anomaly that 259 00:12:31.240 --> 00:12:34.559 could be created from that. You know. So what they 260 00:12:34.559 --> 00:12:38.840 would do is do this systematic, almost systematic type torture. 261 00:12:39.679 --> 00:12:42.919 So it was almost like a kid's program where they 262 00:12:42.960 --> 00:12:46.600 would it's almost like that basic behavior modification where you 263 00:12:46.600 --> 00:12:50.240 can hear a bell, because we would expect, you know, 264 00:12:50.360 --> 00:12:52.799 the agenda of the day to change every fifteen to 265 00:12:52.840 --> 00:12:55.759 twenty minutes. It's expected that, you know, there'd be some 266 00:12:55.919 --> 00:12:59.080 certain type of trauma of physical abuse. Then they would 267 00:12:59.159 --> 00:13:01.039 be nice to you first, or chain you to a 268 00:13:01.080 --> 00:13:05.720 different activity, maybe LSD implementation, they would do an electric 269 00:13:05.759 --> 00:13:09.559 shock therapy, you know, than sexual abuse. They would change 270 00:13:09.600 --> 00:13:12.960 it with that a lot of psychological and emotional abuse 271 00:13:13.000 --> 00:13:17.200 which is very harmful because you know, these people would 272 00:13:17.320 --> 00:13:20.399 you know, physically abuse you and then they would treat 273 00:13:20.440 --> 00:13:22.759 you like maybe give you an ice cream or something. 274 00:13:22.799 --> 00:13:25.120 But then they were also giving us, you know, food 275 00:13:25.159 --> 00:13:28.519 filled with filth and things like that, forcing us to 276 00:13:28.559 --> 00:13:32.039 try to eat that. And they wanted this. They wanted 277 00:13:32.080 --> 00:13:34.440 to break us down. They wanted to break our minds 278 00:13:34.559 --> 00:13:37.519 so much that it would just be empty and then 279 00:13:37.559 --> 00:13:41.200 they could rebuild it into what they wanted. And I 280 00:13:41.240 --> 00:13:44.240 think that, you know, they diagnose a lot of us, 281 00:13:44.559 --> 00:13:47.039 you know, survivors that went through MK Ultra, they say 282 00:13:47.039 --> 00:13:50.879 we have dissociative identity sorter. It's extremely way more complex 283 00:13:50.960 --> 00:13:53.559 than that. There's so much more involved than just one 284 00:13:53.600 --> 00:13:57.600 diagnosis saying that you have these different personalities alters. It's 285 00:13:57.639 --> 00:14:00.360 way more complex than they can even imagine. I've looked 286 00:14:00.399 --> 00:14:02.840 inside the mind. I've looked inside my own mind and 287 00:14:02.919 --> 00:14:06.440 saw there's worlds in there. There was worlds created by 288 00:14:06.440 --> 00:14:09.440 these altars on their own. It's very intense to see that. 289 00:14:10.559 --> 00:14:13.200 But they were creating, like I said, they were creating 290 00:14:13.279 --> 00:14:16.240 all these different altars by breaking down the mine. And 291 00:14:16.279 --> 00:14:18.360 they will build these pieces back up and try to 292 00:14:18.399 --> 00:14:21.759 like program them and a lot of it. And there 293 00:14:21.840 --> 00:14:23.399 was one other thing that they were doing that was 294 00:14:23.440 --> 00:14:28.440 really intense is the hypnosis. She had used hypnosis on 295 00:14:28.480 --> 00:14:30.840 both me and Jacob in her office. We're doing our 296 00:14:30.879 --> 00:14:34.240 sessions with her, and she was able to find things 297 00:14:34.279 --> 00:14:37.240 about us that were used for the programs in terms 298 00:14:37.279 --> 00:14:40.279 of like past lives and things like that. And that's 299 00:14:40.279 --> 00:14:43.679 how they saw that me and Jacob were special, is 300 00:14:43.720 --> 00:14:46.639 by looking at some of these past lives, not in 301 00:14:46.679 --> 00:14:49.320 the terms of special, more special than other people, special 302 00:14:49.360 --> 00:14:52.519 in the fact that they could use us. So that's 303 00:14:52.559 --> 00:14:54.720 the special They wanted to be able to use us 304 00:14:54.720 --> 00:14:58.679 for their own agendas. So I was going to talk 305 00:14:58.720 --> 00:15:00.519 about a little bit about those past lies on why 306 00:15:00.559 --> 00:15:04.840 they were so important, and that's this because this is 307 00:15:05.000 --> 00:15:07.320 why they thought they could use me for certain things. 308 00:15:07.360 --> 00:15:09.440 That's why I think these past lives are so important 309 00:15:09.639 --> 00:15:10.480 for them to see. 310 00:15:11.039 --> 00:15:12.759 I feel like you should go ahead and do that 311 00:15:12.840 --> 00:15:16.120 because I'm a hypnotherapist in case you didn't know that. 312 00:15:16.240 --> 00:15:20.480 So when you go through people's past lives, that's how 313 00:15:20.519 --> 00:15:23.639 a lot of this stuff gets triggered and they begin 314 00:15:23.759 --> 00:15:27.240 to describe things that don't sound like they're from any 315 00:15:27.320 --> 00:15:29.960 human timeline. And then you get into this kind of stuff. 316 00:15:30.000 --> 00:15:32.240 So I'll let you go into it because that's incredibly 317 00:15:32.279 --> 00:15:33.519 relevant how you got there. 318 00:15:34.000 --> 00:15:36.720 Yes, and I just want to I've used a lot 319 00:15:36.759 --> 00:15:41.360 of different hypno therapists, so and I've heard all the suggestions. 320 00:15:41.399 --> 00:15:44.399 I've heard all the statements of people saying that, well, 321 00:15:44.440 --> 00:15:47.960 you probably were with some hypno therapists that guided you. No, 322 00:15:48.159 --> 00:15:51.200 that's not the case. All my sessions were recorded, and 323 00:15:51.240 --> 00:15:54.559 I used about six different people. You know, people think 324 00:15:54.559 --> 00:15:57.200 that you can't, I can't do this every time with 325 00:15:57.279 --> 00:16:00.240 someone different. Yes, I can, and I did, and I 326 00:16:00.279 --> 00:16:02.600 proved it by you know, recording everything and all the 327 00:16:02.639 --> 00:16:05.399 information I have. The first time I went under hypnosis, 328 00:16:05.399 --> 00:16:07.399 I had no idea I could even do this. I 329 00:16:07.440 --> 00:16:11.159 was under per almost six hours, constantly, just constant flow 330 00:16:11.200 --> 00:16:13.919 of information because it needed to happen, and my body 331 00:16:13.960 --> 00:16:15.960 and my mind knew that it needed to happen. And 332 00:16:16.000 --> 00:16:19.399 that's how it came through, flowing like almost like a 333 00:16:20.200 --> 00:16:22.600 just you know, when you burst a damn and then 334 00:16:22.639 --> 00:16:24.919 it just all comes out. And that's what happened to me. 335 00:16:26.279 --> 00:16:28.559 So it gives to me. I feel like it gives 336 00:16:28.799 --> 00:16:33.720 even the people completing the hypnotherapy. It gives them validation 337 00:16:33.840 --> 00:16:36.080 and validity in my eyes, you know, of what they 338 00:16:36.120 --> 00:16:39.320 can do because I was able to reproduce that you 339 00:16:39.360 --> 00:16:42.200 know experience every single time was something different, somebody different. 340 00:16:42.240 --> 00:16:44.559 It didn't matter who it was. I was able to 341 00:16:44.559 --> 00:16:46.919 do it each time. So some of the lives that 342 00:16:47.759 --> 00:16:51.080 got these people, these groups interested in me in the 343 00:16:51.080 --> 00:16:54.919 first place is one of the lives. It was the 344 00:16:55.000 --> 00:16:58.600 fourteen hundreds and I was a widow and I had 345 00:16:58.639 --> 00:17:01.000 two children. My husband had died, so I'm kind of 346 00:17:01.279 --> 00:17:03.279 out there by myself, and I was making it. I was, 347 00:17:03.320 --> 00:17:05.559 you know, doing a lot of different things. You know, 348 00:17:05.759 --> 00:17:07.480 back in those days it was a lot different. So 349 00:17:07.759 --> 00:17:09.400 you know, it was mainly you know, making sure the 350 00:17:09.480 --> 00:17:11.960 kids had food and figuring out how to do that, 351 00:17:12.160 --> 00:17:15.119 you know, living on my own, and I had what 352 00:17:15.359 --> 00:17:17.680 I would I guess I would be what people would 353 00:17:17.680 --> 00:17:20.559 describe as a medium in those days. And so I 354 00:17:20.599 --> 00:17:24.119 was getting extra food by helping some of the villagers out, 355 00:17:24.160 --> 00:17:25.799 you know, being able to speak with some of their 356 00:17:26.079 --> 00:17:28.000 loved ones who had passed over. I felt like I 357 00:17:28.039 --> 00:17:29.960 was really helping people. I felt great about what I 358 00:17:30.000 --> 00:17:31.759 was doing. I didn't think I was doing anything wrong, 359 00:17:32.160 --> 00:17:34.079 and they would come and they would bring me vegetables 360 00:17:34.119 --> 00:17:36.599 and you know, things to eat. That's how we would 361 00:17:36.599 --> 00:17:38.839 barter for the service. So it was working out for 362 00:17:38.920 --> 00:17:43.519 me pretty well. And so the inquisition they came through 363 00:17:43.519 --> 00:17:48.759 that town and they came straight somebody told you know, 364 00:17:48.960 --> 00:17:51.880 about what I was doing, and it came straight to me, 365 00:17:52.359 --> 00:17:54.440 and they came to my house and punched me in 366 00:17:54.440 --> 00:17:56.640 the face, you know, beat me up, dragged me to 367 00:17:56.720 --> 00:17:59.400 a wagon where they took me to a dungeon and 368 00:17:59.559 --> 00:18:02.720 they tortured me there. They did everything they could to 369 00:18:02.759 --> 00:18:04.839 try to make me admit that I was, you know, 370 00:18:04.920 --> 00:18:08.400 conspiring with the devil or demons or whatever they were saying, 371 00:18:08.440 --> 00:18:11.400 and I wouldn't and because it wasn't true. No, I 372 00:18:11.400 --> 00:18:13.200 didn't even know what they're talking about. I was like, 373 00:18:13.200 --> 00:18:15.480 that's not how I lived my life. You know, whatever 374 00:18:15.519 --> 00:18:17.680 I could do, it was just something that was born 375 00:18:17.759 --> 00:18:19.759 in me. I didn't you know, acquire it. It was 376 00:18:19.799 --> 00:18:23.039 born within me. It was born with me, my ability. 377 00:18:24.640 --> 00:18:26.759 And they tried everything they could do and I just 378 00:18:26.759 --> 00:18:30.119 didn't crack. And I remember being tied up to a 379 00:18:30.200 --> 00:18:33.240 ceiling by my arms. So I was hanging from the 380 00:18:33.279 --> 00:18:35.839 ceiling of the dungeon by my arms, and you know, 381 00:18:35.920 --> 00:18:38.519 a lot of it was, you know, the different torches. 382 00:18:38.559 --> 00:18:40.960 I wasn't burned at the stake or anything like that. 383 00:18:41.039 --> 00:18:45.079 I actually died in that life from dehydration and dehydration 384 00:18:45.160 --> 00:18:48.119 and starvation because I wasn't eating or drinking anything. They 385 00:18:48.119 --> 00:18:51.880 were just doing that. And I remember my uncle who 386 00:18:51.920 --> 00:18:54.559 had my boys now, he brought them once just to 387 00:18:54.599 --> 00:18:56.880 see me before I died, and I hated that he 388 00:18:56.960 --> 00:18:59.200 did that because there was like a little window in 389 00:18:59.200 --> 00:19:00.920 the dungeon where they could look down and see me, 390 00:19:01.119 --> 00:19:03.799 and they peeked through and I must have looked horrible, 391 00:19:03.839 --> 00:19:06.519 hanging from a ceiling, like naked and dirty and like, 392 00:19:06.920 --> 00:19:09.759 you know, just just I don't know. I can't even 393 00:19:09.799 --> 00:19:12.039 imagine what kind of nightmares they had after that. But 394 00:19:12.079 --> 00:19:14.640 I ended up dying, and I was so angry. I 395 00:19:14.680 --> 00:19:16.880 was so angry at men in that life because I 396 00:19:16.880 --> 00:19:19.160 felt like, you know, they did this to us, and 397 00:19:19.200 --> 00:19:21.160 they did it to a lot of people in the village, 398 00:19:21.599 --> 00:19:23.559 and that kind of anger stayed with me. It was 399 00:19:23.599 --> 00:19:26.799 in me, and they felt the programs felt like we 400 00:19:26.839 --> 00:19:29.119 can use this, we can this is something that they 401 00:19:29.160 --> 00:19:32.519 could use. That anger that was the left inside at 402 00:19:32.519 --> 00:19:35.759 these men for what they did to me. So that 403 00:19:35.880 --> 00:19:37.839 was one of the luws that they wanted to use, 404 00:19:37.920 --> 00:19:41.440 and especially since I had a medium mediumistic abilities in 405 00:19:41.440 --> 00:19:43.920 that life as well. There was one other life and 406 00:19:44.119 --> 00:19:46.119 this one's a little controversial, but I still think it's 407 00:19:46.160 --> 00:19:48.640 important and it was important for me to see myself 408 00:19:48.680 --> 00:19:51.200 as something other than what I am now. And I 409 00:19:51.240 --> 00:19:53.079 consider myself, you know, I feel like I work hard, 410 00:19:53.160 --> 00:19:54.839 I try to help people. But in that life I 411 00:19:54.960 --> 00:19:58.759 was something what people would consider like a victimizer or 412 00:19:58.799 --> 00:20:02.119 a serial killer. And it was in the eighteen hundreds 413 00:20:02.160 --> 00:20:05.200 and I was a male and I had grown up 414 00:20:05.359 --> 00:20:07.559 by myself, you know, my parents had died very young, 415 00:20:07.599 --> 00:20:09.799 and I was a street kid. I grew up on 416 00:20:09.839 --> 00:20:13.720 the streets, like traveling everywhere. I traveled all over the country, 417 00:20:14.279 --> 00:20:16.920 and I ended up meeting another person like I had 418 00:20:17.000 --> 00:20:19.200 like a friend that he was like me. You know, 419 00:20:19.279 --> 00:20:22.480 we we both wanted to hurt people, and we kind 420 00:20:22.519 --> 00:20:25.880 of traveled together and did that and we would harm women. 421 00:20:25.960 --> 00:20:26.400 We would have. 422 00:20:28.400 --> 00:20:31.559 And you know, leave them wherever we found them. And 423 00:20:31.599 --> 00:20:33.880 we were doing that so much. We were and we 424 00:20:33.920 --> 00:20:36.720 would we weren't being caught because we were traveling so much. 425 00:20:37.039 --> 00:20:38.559 We would do that in the village and then go 426 00:20:38.599 --> 00:20:40.200 to the next village. And we went and went and 427 00:20:40.240 --> 00:20:42.720 did that for a really long time, and we got careless. 428 00:20:42.759 --> 00:20:45.759 We went to a new village and we had assaulted 429 00:20:45.799 --> 00:20:47.799 a woman, you know, right and left her out in 430 00:20:47.839 --> 00:20:50.559 the field. You know, in those days, it was it 431 00:20:50.599 --> 00:20:52.640 seemed like it had been easier for us to you know, 432 00:20:52.839 --> 00:20:56.559 complete this you know, evil thing. And we ended up 433 00:20:56.559 --> 00:20:58.200 going to a local pub and we were kind of 434 00:20:58.240 --> 00:21:01.680 like drinking with some of the villagers, and somebody found 435 00:21:01.680 --> 00:21:04.400 her and they automatically knew it was us, because there 436 00:21:04.400 --> 00:21:06.240 was no one else knew in the village. It was us, 437 00:21:06.279 --> 00:21:07.559 they knew, and we ran. 438 00:21:07.640 --> 00:21:08.119 We ran it. 439 00:21:08.279 --> 00:21:10.480 We thought we could get away. We ended up finding 440 00:21:10.799 --> 00:21:13.640 like an abandoned barn and we were hiding in there, 441 00:21:13.640 --> 00:21:15.240 and they knew we were in there, and instead of 442 00:21:15.319 --> 00:21:17.400 letting us out to you know, beat us up, they 443 00:21:17.799 --> 00:21:19.960 locked it and set it on fire. And I remember 444 00:21:19.960 --> 00:21:22.880 in that life just trying to crawl up, you know, 445 00:21:23.200 --> 00:21:25.720 crawl up the walls and get up into the rafters, 446 00:21:26.079 --> 00:21:28.000 you know, to get away from the heat. And we 447 00:21:28.079 --> 00:21:30.400 ended up dying like that, rightfully, So for what the 448 00:21:30.440 --> 00:21:32.839 crimes we were committing you know, we needed to be 449 00:21:33.240 --> 00:21:35.640 you know, over in that life. So that was another 450 00:21:36.319 --> 00:21:38.920 life where they saw that they could use that, you know, 451 00:21:39.319 --> 00:21:43.400 not just against me, but for other missions against other people. 452 00:21:43.720 --> 00:21:46.119 They knew that they could use that, you know, of 453 00:21:46.200 --> 00:21:50.720 who I had been before. So that was and there 454 00:21:50.799 --> 00:21:53.160 was also another life, and this one was really interesting. 455 00:21:53.200 --> 00:21:56.079 I thought this was coming from my very first session 456 00:21:56.119 --> 00:22:00.680 I ever did, and I saw myself and it was 457 00:22:00.759 --> 00:22:04.039 almost it looked like could have been something like ancient Egypt, 458 00:22:04.079 --> 00:22:06.319 something like that. And I was a mail done too, 459 00:22:06.440 --> 00:22:09.720 and there was thousands of us just walking, all of 460 00:22:09.799 --> 00:22:12.920 us people just walking and walking, and none of us 461 00:22:12.960 --> 00:22:16.160 really made eye contact. We didn't talk to each other, 462 00:22:16.440 --> 00:22:19.079 nothing like that. We were all walking around like what 463 00:22:19.119 --> 00:22:22.839 I would consider like automatons or like robotically just kept going. 464 00:22:23.279 --> 00:22:25.359 And if I looked very far in the distance, if 465 00:22:25.400 --> 00:22:28.000 I had looked at one of the pyramids, there was 466 00:22:28.079 --> 00:22:30.039 a being standing on top of the pyramid, and it 467 00:22:30.079 --> 00:22:32.319 looked like a giant dog. And we called them the 468 00:22:32.359 --> 00:22:35.440 dog people. We had a myth in our village that 469 00:22:35.559 --> 00:22:38.559 said that the dog people came down and killed our god, 470 00:22:38.720 --> 00:22:41.039 and that our god had been a crocodile, and we 471 00:22:41.119 --> 00:22:43.400 said that the dog people came down and killed him, 472 00:22:43.599 --> 00:22:46.799 and they had taken control and they were pushing us 473 00:22:46.839 --> 00:22:48.680 to do all this. And let me tell you, these 474 00:22:48.720 --> 00:22:53.519 beings were so strong in whatever technology and whatever abilities 475 00:22:53.559 --> 00:22:57.240 they had. It only took one of them to command 476 00:22:57.279 --> 00:23:00.000 thousands to continue walking and working. And they would make 477 00:23:00.160 --> 00:23:02.519 us work until we died. So you would just keep 478 00:23:02.519 --> 00:23:04.920 walking and moving sand. And they were building something called 479 00:23:04.960 --> 00:23:08.559 flash portals, and they wanted it done quickly, so they 480 00:23:08.559 --> 00:23:12.119 had us moving constantly, constantly moving and building in moving 481 00:23:12.200 --> 00:23:15.039 sand until you just died. And most of us would 482 00:23:15.079 --> 00:23:18.200 just die wherever we fell down. And I actually just 483 00:23:18.440 --> 00:23:20.519 lay down on the steps and died, and that's where 484 00:23:20.839 --> 00:23:24.440 that's where the last I sat. What I thought was 485 00:23:24.440 --> 00:23:27.640 interesting is when I was trying to scan the body 486 00:23:27.680 --> 00:23:30.000 of this dog person, I saw that in the inside 487 00:23:30.000 --> 00:23:33.160 of it, right around the solar plexus area, there was 488 00:23:33.240 --> 00:23:36.960 like this huge glob of black worms that was actually 489 00:23:38.039 --> 00:23:41.240 the dog person was a host for this kind of 490 00:23:41.359 --> 00:23:46.640 like I don't know, some type of extraterrestrial type sentient thing. 491 00:23:46.759 --> 00:23:48.799 I don't even know what it was, but I remember 492 00:23:48.839 --> 00:23:51.160 seeing it. So I thought it was interesting that this 493 00:23:51.279 --> 00:23:53.319 dog person was commanding us, and he thought he was 494 00:23:53.319 --> 00:23:56.480 in control, but something was in control of him, and 495 00:23:56.519 --> 00:24:00.680 he was very forward and aggressive with me like he could. 496 00:24:00.839 --> 00:24:03.759 Which is interesting that when you're under hypnosis or if 497 00:24:03.799 --> 00:24:06.000 you're in the deepest trance, you can go which I was. 498 00:24:06.680 --> 00:24:09.880 That the time dropped away. There was no time I 499 00:24:10.000 --> 00:24:12.480 was there. I could interact with this thing and it 500 00:24:12.519 --> 00:24:15.559 almost like it stepped through a portal almost and spoke 501 00:24:15.599 --> 00:24:17.720 to me, and the only thing it said was get 502 00:24:17.720 --> 00:24:22.799 back to work. You know, this interdimensional type being stepped 503 00:24:22.799 --> 00:24:25.960 through and instead of giving some really cool greeting like 504 00:24:26.000 --> 00:24:28.079 you would expect, it said to get back to work 505 00:24:28.119 --> 00:24:30.039 and showed me its staff and said get back to work. 506 00:24:30.200 --> 00:24:30.839 And that was it. 507 00:24:31.359 --> 00:24:34.599 So I remember being in that life that as a slave, 508 00:24:34.839 --> 00:24:38.400 I knew. My lesson kind of was that I knew 509 00:24:38.440 --> 00:24:41.119 what it was to be completely controlled, and in the 510 00:24:41.160 --> 00:24:43.920 eyes of these programmers, that was perfect for them to 511 00:24:43.960 --> 00:24:46.759 see that I could be someone that could be completely 512 00:24:46.799 --> 00:24:49.240 controlled based on that life that they knew that they 513 00:24:49.279 --> 00:24:52.400 could go down that road with me. And the other 514 00:24:52.480 --> 00:24:54.559 life that I thought was really important that they thought 515 00:24:54.599 --> 00:24:58.319 was important too is that. And when I'm looking at myself, 516 00:24:58.480 --> 00:25:01.160 I can't really see myself because I'm kind of like invisible. 517 00:25:01.440 --> 00:25:04.880 I'm like a red energy. And this was in ancient times, 518 00:25:05.200 --> 00:25:08.440 and I remember I was following somebody in a desert. 519 00:25:08.640 --> 00:25:11.160 You know, they can't see me, but I can see them, 520 00:25:11.519 --> 00:25:14.240 and I'm like, you know, playing around games with them, 521 00:25:14.359 --> 00:25:17.160 you know, walking up behind them, trying to whisper at them, 522 00:25:17.240 --> 00:25:19.400 and you know, almost like teasing him. I almost felt 523 00:25:19.440 --> 00:25:21.559 like it was so fun to do this, you know. 524 00:25:21.599 --> 00:25:24.079 And this person was terrified. He was out looking for 525 00:25:24.880 --> 00:25:27.279 one of the flock, his flock. One of the sheep 526 00:25:27.279 --> 00:25:28.640 had gotten away from it and he was trying to 527 00:25:28.640 --> 00:25:30.119 find it before I got too dark. And he was 528 00:25:30.759 --> 00:25:32.559 terrified that I was following him in the desert and 529 00:25:32.640 --> 00:25:34.920 he could hear me. He knew there was something wrong, 530 00:25:35.000 --> 00:25:37.480 and he was like terrified, and I thought it was funny. 531 00:25:38.000 --> 00:25:40.559 I thought it was so fun because that's kind of 532 00:25:40.559 --> 00:25:42.920 the life I lived. And back in those days, I 533 00:25:42.920 --> 00:25:45.079 would be considered what people would call it dark gin. 534 00:25:45.920 --> 00:25:48.200 So some people say dark entity. Some people have all 535 00:25:48.240 --> 00:25:51.319 these different ideas of what they think that those people were. 536 00:25:51.799 --> 00:25:54.920 All I know is that we were a race of 537 00:25:54.920 --> 00:25:58.640 beings and that we have like we had our own lives. 538 00:25:58.680 --> 00:26:02.000 We had our own hierarchy in terms of like, you know, 539 00:26:02.039 --> 00:26:04.680 who was on top, who was you know, you know, 540 00:26:04.720 --> 00:26:06.759 we have like we have a respect thing. You have 541 00:26:06.759 --> 00:26:09.119 supposed to show respect to your elders and things like that. 542 00:26:09.279 --> 00:26:12.480 So I guess we would consider And this is what 543 00:26:12.960 --> 00:26:15.279 the Gin says. I'm not saying that I believe this. 544 00:26:15.839 --> 00:26:18.519 Her name was Harlewin. I was named Harleowin. Then she 545 00:26:18.680 --> 00:26:22.519 says she was something of a trickster god. So she says, 546 00:26:22.599 --> 00:26:26.519 that's what the Gin were, tricksters. So I necessarily don't 547 00:26:26.559 --> 00:26:30.279 call myself that, but she does. So she was doing 548 00:26:30.359 --> 00:26:32.240 that was her whole life, and she didn't know she 549 00:26:32.319 --> 00:26:34.559 was evil. She even said that. She's like, I didn't 550 00:26:34.559 --> 00:26:38.200 know I was evil then because I chose this role 551 00:26:38.799 --> 00:26:41.000 and I came down here to help people. And we 552 00:26:41.119 --> 00:26:42.759 kind of asked her, who do you think you're helping 553 00:26:42.839 --> 00:26:45.839 by doing evil things and you know, and she said, 554 00:26:46.400 --> 00:26:49.880 they wanted an experience of darkness and I brought it 555 00:26:49.880 --> 00:26:52.240 to them. She said, that was the role I chose, 556 00:26:52.359 --> 00:26:54.839 is to bring that to these people. And they called me, 557 00:26:55.279 --> 00:26:57.319 and she really does think that they call her, and 558 00:26:57.359 --> 00:26:58.559 they did almost in a way. 559 00:26:58.599 --> 00:27:00.759 Some of them did. Some of it was the. 560 00:27:00.759 --> 00:27:04.359 Harlew and the Gin. She would start that process of 561 00:27:04.400 --> 00:27:07.200 oppression though, and you know, trying to tear them down 562 00:27:07.240 --> 00:27:10.200 little by little, scaring them and you know, doing things 563 00:27:10.279 --> 00:27:13.400 and you know, just to oppress them enough to where 564 00:27:13.480 --> 00:27:16.240 they would eventually just let her take over. And it 565 00:27:16.279 --> 00:27:18.680 happened a lot. They would the person would just give 566 00:27:18.759 --> 00:27:21.200 up and just say go ahead, and you know, they 567 00:27:21.279 --> 00:27:23.559 let her in and she would take over. And once 568 00:27:23.599 --> 00:27:26.000 she would take over, she would you know, do her 569 00:27:26.039 --> 00:27:28.839 process of trying to destroy their lives. However she can 570 00:27:29.039 --> 00:27:32.559 either make them hurt themselves other people, just totally obliterate 571 00:27:32.559 --> 00:27:35.480 their lives. And that was the role she plays. That 572 00:27:35.559 --> 00:27:40.200 was the role she chose in that time period. And 573 00:27:40.240 --> 00:27:42.039 then she went on to do something else, just like 574 00:27:42.079 --> 00:27:44.200 I'm here now. We went on to do something else. 575 00:27:44.640 --> 00:27:47.880 And I can't really apologize for it because I can't 576 00:27:47.920 --> 00:27:50.799 eliminate any of the past lives. I just that's If 577 00:27:50.839 --> 00:27:52.680 anybody knows how to do that, you can tell me. 578 00:27:52.759 --> 00:27:55.559 But I don't feel bad for that. It's not me now. 579 00:27:55.680 --> 00:27:58.960 You know, all these things are part of me still, 580 00:27:59.519 --> 00:28:02.839 and that's why I know about it, and it's to 581 00:28:02.880 --> 00:28:05.200 me it stays at the cellular level. From what I've 582 00:28:05.480 --> 00:28:08.960 learned through hypnosis is that a lot of these lives 583 00:28:08.960 --> 00:28:12.559 and these abilities stay at the cellular level, sometimes even 584 00:28:12.599 --> 00:28:15.160 in the spine. What I've learned some of it is 585 00:28:15.240 --> 00:28:18.039 resting in the spine. It's so interesting to even see that. 586 00:28:18.440 --> 00:28:20.920 And I also learned that a lot of psychabilities come 587 00:28:20.920 --> 00:28:23.559 from the stomach. We wouldn't expect that because, you know, 588 00:28:23.599 --> 00:28:25.440 we think a lot of it is built in the mind. 589 00:28:25.680 --> 00:28:27.599 I had no idea that a lot of some of 590 00:28:27.640 --> 00:28:31.079 the abilities that I have were initiate in the stomach, 591 00:28:31.720 --> 00:28:35.720 So that was really interesting. So those were some of 592 00:28:35.759 --> 00:28:41.799 the lives that were very important to those secret groups 593 00:28:41.799 --> 00:28:44.839 that were trying to get control. There's a lot of 594 00:28:44.880 --> 00:28:47.240 warring factions and that's what they're trying to do. So 595 00:28:47.319 --> 00:28:50.559 they thought they could use us for different programs. And 596 00:28:50.880 --> 00:28:52.559 I've found a lot of different past lives that I've 597 00:28:52.559 --> 00:28:54.279 wrote about in my books and things like that that 598 00:28:54.359 --> 00:28:57.720 I thought were interesting. But I think those were the 599 00:28:57.720 --> 00:28:59.720 most important that they wanted to use. They knew they 600 00:28:59.759 --> 00:29:03.400 could use me being what used to be a dark 601 00:29:03.559 --> 00:29:06.200 entity that was important to them. They had all these 602 00:29:06.200 --> 00:29:10.759 groups that they could use me for so the programmer, 603 00:29:10.799 --> 00:29:13.200 who I call missus w the woman with the white hair, 604 00:29:13.720 --> 00:29:16.359 she ended up sending me out. She'd almost like a 605 00:29:16.400 --> 00:29:19.839 referral program and what I call special sector. I was 606 00:29:19.839 --> 00:29:21.759 from a special sector and that says that in my 607 00:29:22.319 --> 00:29:25.440 file that I'm from special sector. So she sent me 608 00:29:25.640 --> 00:29:29.440 out to another person to be evaluated. And when I 609 00:29:29.480 --> 00:29:32.079 got to this man's office, I was there and he 610 00:29:32.200 --> 00:29:34.880 was there with two other people, and it was they 611 00:29:34.880 --> 00:29:36.759 were sitting on a little couch and it didn't look 612 00:29:36.799 --> 00:29:39.319 like a hospital. It looked more like a psychiatrist's office 613 00:29:39.319 --> 00:29:41.920 that they had like really neutral looking furniture things like that. 614 00:29:42.720 --> 00:29:46.240 And I was just sitting there and there was this 615 00:29:46.279 --> 00:29:48.039 couple there and they looked like they may have been twins. 616 00:29:48.079 --> 00:29:51.960 They were very light skinned, maybe had albino condition. I'm 617 00:29:51.960 --> 00:29:54.319 not quite sure. But the man when I saw him, 618 00:29:54.359 --> 00:29:57.039 his name was doctor Green, and he was very elderly, 619 00:29:57.119 --> 00:29:59.640 maybe like in his nineties, I couldn't even tell, very 620 00:29:59.680 --> 00:30:02.440 frail at that time, had like he was wearing little 621 00:30:02.440 --> 00:30:05.119 glasses and very much losing almost all of his hair. 622 00:30:05.240 --> 00:30:07.480 He was very skinny at that time. And I'm not 623 00:30:07.559 --> 00:30:09.720 quite sure, but a lot of people say that doctor 624 00:30:09.720 --> 00:30:13.240 Green is another name for Mangola. I'm not quite sure 625 00:30:13.279 --> 00:30:15.599 if that's real or not, because I only know him 626 00:30:15.599 --> 00:30:17.720 as doctor Green, and I do remember what he looks like, 627 00:30:17.720 --> 00:30:21.079 and it was very old at that time. But he 628 00:30:21.240 --> 00:30:24.440 instructed this these two people to do an exam on me. 629 00:30:25.319 --> 00:30:27.440 And they were doing kind of this weird thing where 630 00:30:27.480 --> 00:30:29.480 they asked me, you know, they were looking in my 631 00:30:29.559 --> 00:30:31.920 eyes and my ears, you know, in my you know, 632 00:30:32.440 --> 00:30:34.640 different places, and then they told me to open my 633 00:30:34.680 --> 00:30:37.559 mouth and say ah, and they both looked inside my mouth, 634 00:30:37.680 --> 00:30:39.720 down in my trying to look in my throat. And 635 00:30:39.720 --> 00:30:43.039 then they told Doctor Green they said yes, I said, 636 00:30:43.240 --> 00:30:45.079 They said, we found it. We can see the thing 637 00:30:45.119 --> 00:30:48.799 inside her. And so they took me into this program 638 00:30:48.839 --> 00:30:52.599 called Project Traveler and and it's tied to the occult. 639 00:30:52.640 --> 00:30:55.200 It's in a cult program that they wanted to experiment with. 640 00:30:56.759 --> 00:30:59.319 They were trying to make some of these I don't know, 641 00:30:59.359 --> 00:31:05.039 like paranormal, most supernatural and occult ideologies, or they wanted 642 00:31:05.079 --> 00:31:07.640 to make it measurable. They wanted to see if it 643 00:31:07.680 --> 00:31:11.640 had real energy output things like that. So that's when 644 00:31:11.680 --> 00:31:14.160 doctor Green started to you know, use me for a 645 00:31:14.200 --> 00:31:17.160 Project Traveler. So they were wrong though, because they thought 646 00:31:17.160 --> 00:31:20.559 I was possessed. They thought that I had an attachment, 647 00:31:21.200 --> 00:31:23.920 and they were looking for other possessed people to see 648 00:31:23.920 --> 00:31:26.480 if they could kind of like harness that energy and 649 00:31:26.480 --> 00:31:29.559 that power, because they thought there was power behind the 650 00:31:29.599 --> 00:31:31.519 dark side and they wanted to see what they could 651 00:31:31.599 --> 00:31:34.319 utilize it for. So when I got back to the 652 00:31:34.440 --> 00:31:38.519 psychiatric hospital, they did some experiments and they saw that 653 00:31:38.559 --> 00:31:41.680 I could go into these deep trances and let you know, 654 00:31:42.519 --> 00:31:44.960 different things take over my body. Since they thought I 655 00:31:45.000 --> 00:31:47.400 was already possessed. The reason they were wrong is because 656 00:31:47.440 --> 00:31:50.559 I wasn't possessed. It was just what I was. They 657 00:31:50.559 --> 00:31:53.319 saw Harlow and that gin part of me, you know, 658 00:31:53.400 --> 00:31:54.839 they thought that they could take it out. 659 00:31:54.839 --> 00:31:55.279 They can't. 660 00:31:55.279 --> 00:31:58.880 It was just who I will, in my in my being. 661 00:31:58.920 --> 00:32:02.359 I was just that thing. So they had one episode 662 00:32:02.359 --> 00:32:04.960 where they were doing like I don't know. They had 663 00:32:04.960 --> 00:32:06.759 me in this room and they were trying to do 664 00:32:06.799 --> 00:32:09.480 sensory deprivation and they didn't use water or anything. They 665 00:32:09.519 --> 00:32:11.039 just sat me in a chair in a dark room 666 00:32:11.079 --> 00:32:13.559 and they put blindfold over my eyes and then they 667 00:32:13.599 --> 00:32:15.640 hooked me up to an ivy and that went on 668 00:32:15.680 --> 00:32:17.880 for days, and they gave me no food, no water, 669 00:32:18.279 --> 00:32:21.920 you know, the just the ivy, no you know, contact. 670 00:32:21.920 --> 00:32:24.039 They didn't speak to me anything. They just had me 671 00:32:24.240 --> 00:32:27.839 let things you know, build up inside me, and I 672 00:32:27.920 --> 00:32:30.319 let that open up. And that's when I first learned 673 00:32:30.319 --> 00:32:33.279 I could do that. It's called spirit hosting. And actually 674 00:32:33.359 --> 00:32:35.680 it was a darker entity that told me that's what 675 00:32:35.720 --> 00:32:40.160 I was. They said, you're a spirit host and it's 676 00:32:40.440 --> 00:32:44.240 being able to open yourself up and letting this excuse me, 677 00:32:44.480 --> 00:32:47.960 letting this thing take over you your fully body, mind 678 00:32:48.039 --> 00:32:52.359 and spirit. I go into like a very relaxed kind 679 00:32:52.359 --> 00:32:56.440 of place and I don't get harmed by it physically, psychologically, 680 00:32:56.519 --> 00:32:59.359 or emotionally. And that's why it's an ability, because it 681 00:32:59.400 --> 00:33:01.319 can come, it can go, and I don't get harms 682 00:33:01.359 --> 00:33:04.240 by it in any way, which for them, it really 683 00:33:04.319 --> 00:33:07.119 is an ability because most people can't, you know, have 684 00:33:07.240 --> 00:33:09.960 a demon speak through them and have be normal after that. 685 00:33:10.039 --> 00:33:12.319 I can. 686 00:33:12.599 --> 00:33:15.240 So they were using that and they were measuring things 687 00:33:15.279 --> 00:33:18.680 like they would have me let something possess me and 688 00:33:18.680 --> 00:33:20.559 then they would make a measurement of it. They would 689 00:33:20.559 --> 00:33:23.720 do body systems checks like you know, blood pressure and 690 00:33:23.759 --> 00:33:25.319 you know, something similar to what they would do in 691 00:33:25.359 --> 00:33:27.519 the hospital. To check your levels and things like that, 692 00:33:27.880 --> 00:33:30.039 just to see if there was any type of energetic 693 00:33:30.039 --> 00:33:32.839 output at all. They were trying to make measurements, so 694 00:33:32.880 --> 00:33:34.759 that I thought that was really interesting that they did 695 00:33:34.759 --> 00:33:37.799 that for a long time. And I was really conflicted 696 00:33:38.000 --> 00:33:43.640 because they weren't giving me any food or anything. You know, 697 00:33:43.680 --> 00:33:47.200 they were pretty much torturing me, and you know, my 698 00:33:47.240 --> 00:33:49.519 whole life. You know, even now people are saying, you know, 699 00:33:49.559 --> 00:33:53.079 you can't trust you know, demons and entities, but the 700 00:33:53.200 --> 00:33:56.799 humans were torturing me constantly, and it was the demonic 701 00:33:56.960 --> 00:33:59.640 entities flowing in and out of my body that kept 702 00:33:59.640 --> 00:34:02.720 me a lot. They're the ones sustaining me while these 703 00:34:02.799 --> 00:34:05.119 other humans were torturing me. So as a child, you 704 00:34:05.160 --> 00:34:08.719 can find that very conflicting, like who are you supposed 705 00:34:08.760 --> 00:34:11.840 to trust? I'm supposed to be afraid and terrified of 706 00:34:11.920 --> 00:34:14.719 this group of you know, beings that no one can see, 707 00:34:14.880 --> 00:34:17.280 But then it's the humans that are physically and emotionally 708 00:34:17.360 --> 00:34:20.400 torturing me. That was really really very conflicting, and I 709 00:34:20.400 --> 00:34:22.840 think it's probably affected, you know, some of the work 710 00:34:22.880 --> 00:34:26.280 I do now that I'm able to open it up 711 00:34:26.280 --> 00:34:29.079 to everything and let everything have a chance to speak 712 00:34:29.159 --> 00:34:31.800 and then make no judgment on that. I just let 713 00:34:31.840 --> 00:34:34.559 it be neutral what it is. And then you know, 714 00:34:35.519 --> 00:34:37.400 I don't want to even make a judgment on what 715 00:34:37.440 --> 00:34:39.880 anything says or does. Is just different for me now. 716 00:34:41.480 --> 00:34:45.159 So we did that for a while, and like I said, 717 00:34:45.199 --> 00:34:49.000 me and Jacob ended it up. They considered us what 718 00:34:49.039 --> 00:34:51.920 they called prize pupils. That means we took to the 719 00:34:52.000 --> 00:34:54.679 abuse very well. We were able to do what they 720 00:34:54.719 --> 00:34:57.679 wanted to them, what they wanted us to do, and 721 00:34:57.719 --> 00:35:00.559 to be able to extreme dissociation. We were able to 722 00:35:00.599 --> 00:35:03.159 do that. We could leave our bodies to escape the pain. 723 00:35:03.559 --> 00:35:05.320 And that was actually the only time that we could 724 00:35:05.320 --> 00:35:07.400 be children is when we were left our bodies because 725 00:35:07.400 --> 00:35:09.960 they wouldn't let us lay together anything normally. It was 726 00:35:09.960 --> 00:35:12.880 always something to do with pain and suffering. So for 727 00:35:13.000 --> 00:35:15.000 us to be able to just dissociate and be able 728 00:35:15.039 --> 00:35:17.960 to have that time, that was what we had as children. 729 00:35:17.960 --> 00:35:22.360 That's it until we left that program, and I mean 730 00:35:22.440 --> 00:35:24.960 other things after that. There was a few things that 731 00:35:25.000 --> 00:35:27.599 happened in terms of like they did, like monarch training. 732 00:35:27.639 --> 00:35:29.280 I really don't talk about it too much. You know, 733 00:35:29.400 --> 00:35:31.480 the sexual part of what they were trying to train 734 00:35:31.599 --> 00:35:34.800 us for and they really couldn't use me a lot 735 00:35:34.880 --> 00:35:38.000 until I got older because they had a specific plan 736 00:35:38.079 --> 00:35:39.679 in mind for what they wanted me to do. 737 00:35:40.440 --> 00:35:41.599 But they did. 738 00:35:42.239 --> 00:35:45.559 When I was around thirteen, they had me doing additional 739 00:35:45.599 --> 00:35:50.199 training and the training was for what they wanted me 740 00:35:50.280 --> 00:35:52.920 to be is a personality profile when I got older. 741 00:35:53.519 --> 00:35:56.159 So they had a man chaperon me, and I remember 742 00:35:56.199 --> 00:35:58.039 the man he was. He had like a he was 743 00:35:58.119 --> 00:35:59.679 dressed really nicely in a suit. He had a nice 744 00:35:59.719 --> 00:36:02.639 little on, you know, and he was almost like a chaperone, 745 00:36:03.639 --> 00:36:06.239 and he really didn't talk to me or say anything. 746 00:36:06.360 --> 00:36:07.599 I just knew I had to go with him. I 747 00:36:07.639 --> 00:36:09.719 don't ask questions. That's how I was trained in the 748 00:36:09.800 --> 00:36:13.519 MK Ultra. You know, we're so extreme mind control. You're 749 00:36:13.519 --> 00:36:15.840 trained not to ask questions. You're trying to do exactly 750 00:36:15.880 --> 00:36:18.599 what you're told and always complete missions, you know, things 751 00:36:18.800 --> 00:36:21.639 like that. So he took me on a train and 752 00:36:21.760 --> 00:36:24.239 at the end of the train ride, we didn't we 753 00:36:24.239 --> 00:36:26.400 weren't on Earth anymore. We were actually on the Moon 754 00:36:26.880 --> 00:36:30.880 and to Level four Underground and Level four Underground is 755 00:36:30.880 --> 00:36:35.840 where they were conducting psionics. Psionics training and the class 756 00:36:35.840 --> 00:36:38.159 that I was going to it was more for adults 757 00:36:38.199 --> 00:36:40.719 and the instructor there. She was kind of a younger person. 758 00:36:40.840 --> 00:36:43.119 Everybody looked younger than they were, and I don't know why. 759 00:36:43.400 --> 00:36:46.079 Being on another planet, I'm not quite sure. Everybody always 760 00:36:46.079 --> 00:36:49.559 looked younger than they were, And so she didn't really 761 00:36:49.559 --> 00:36:51.239 want to deal with the kid. That wasn't her role, 762 00:36:51.280 --> 00:36:53.360 but they said she had to take me because I 763 00:36:53.400 --> 00:36:56.280 was from special sector, so there was no turning it down. 764 00:36:56.960 --> 00:37:01.199 So and she was very assertive and you know, kind 765 00:37:01.199 --> 00:37:03.559 of like dominating with me in terms of my tutelage 766 00:37:03.559 --> 00:37:05.360 and what she was trying to teach me. She wasn't 767 00:37:05.440 --> 00:37:07.960 very soft with me, but I can appreciate it now 768 00:37:08.000 --> 00:37:09.480 because I feel like she was trying to keep me 769 00:37:09.519 --> 00:37:12.639 alive based on how, you know, kind of strong she 770 00:37:12.719 --> 00:37:16.559 was with her teachings. And there was other people in 771 00:37:16.599 --> 00:37:19.000 the classroom. There was other adults, and I'm not quite 772 00:37:19.000 --> 00:37:20.519 sure what they can do with their abilities, So there 773 00:37:20.599 --> 00:37:23.239 was some kind of like telepaths, you know, animal communicators, 774 00:37:23.320 --> 00:37:24.880 things like that. I don't know if they were just 775 00:37:25.239 --> 00:37:28.400 experimenting or what with them, but mine was the ability 776 00:37:28.440 --> 00:37:30.199 they wanted me to have was actually going to be 777 00:37:30.320 --> 00:37:35.519 used in different espionage tactics and corporate espionage things like that. 778 00:37:37.199 --> 00:37:40.360 So she worked really hard with me. She taught me 779 00:37:40.400 --> 00:37:43.039 really well, and I always remember this one phrase she 780 00:37:43.119 --> 00:37:44.719 told me because she was trying to keep me alive. 781 00:37:44.840 --> 00:37:46.880 She said, it has to be you have to be 782 00:37:46.960 --> 00:37:49.719 this quick. It has to be one look in one word, 783 00:37:50.280 --> 00:37:52.119 and you have to know what these people are thinking. 784 00:37:52.199 --> 00:37:54.440 You have to know what they're about. She's saying, like, 785 00:37:54.480 --> 00:37:56.880 when I get into some a situation, I have to 786 00:37:56.920 --> 00:37:59.679 know immediately what these people about to keep myself alive. 787 00:38:00.239 --> 00:38:02.559 So she was very serious about that and learning for 788 00:38:02.639 --> 00:38:07.000 me to learn that technique. And once I got done 789 00:38:07.039 --> 00:38:09.480 with the training, I wasn't used to get From what 790 00:38:09.519 --> 00:38:11.719 I can remember, I wasn't really used a lot until 791 00:38:11.719 --> 00:38:14.400 I was about nineteen. Because of my physical appearance. I 792 00:38:14.480 --> 00:38:17.159 looked so much younger than I was. They needed my 793 00:38:17.639 --> 00:38:20.440 you know, kind of like my physical appearance to mature 794 00:38:20.480 --> 00:38:22.039 in a way for what they wanted me to do. 795 00:38:22.519 --> 00:38:24.159 And they wanted me to do a lot of beta 796 00:38:24.239 --> 00:38:27.880 work to start with, and a lot of corporate espionage. 797 00:38:27.920 --> 00:38:30.079 And that's to me, that's the most dangerous stuff, the 798 00:38:30.079 --> 00:38:33.039 corporate espionage. It was so dangerous, it was so scary 799 00:38:33.679 --> 00:38:38.039 the beta work they wanted me to. It's almost kind 800 00:38:38.039 --> 00:38:41.119 of like considered like a black Widow program. They want 801 00:38:41.159 --> 00:38:44.840 you to infiltrate someone's life. You're given a target, which 802 00:38:44.880 --> 00:38:49.320 we call a mark. You infiltrate that person's life, You monitor, 803 00:38:49.440 --> 00:38:53.199 you gather intelligence, and one of my altars actually has 804 00:38:53.440 --> 00:38:56.280 a photographic memory. I don't particularly Olivia doesn't have a 805 00:38:56.280 --> 00:38:59.320 photographic memory, but one of my altar does. So all 806 00:38:59.360 --> 00:39:01.559 I have to do is be around someone in that 807 00:39:02.159 --> 00:39:04.920 part of my mind is constantly recording whatever's going on. 808 00:39:05.400 --> 00:39:07.880 And once you're in a relationship with somebody or a 809 00:39:07.880 --> 00:39:11.079 fake relationship, you're able to gather that information quite quickly 810 00:39:11.079 --> 00:39:13.280 because they began to trust you and they just start 811 00:39:13.320 --> 00:39:16.079 speaking about whatever's going in their lives. And that's what 812 00:39:16.119 --> 00:39:18.000 we would do. We would cord the information and we 813 00:39:18.000 --> 00:39:22.039 were debriefed by hypnosis, so they would have to go 814 00:39:22.119 --> 00:39:23.920 deep in our mind to get that information that was 815 00:39:24.000 --> 00:39:27.320 kind of locked away from these missions. So that was 816 00:39:27.360 --> 00:39:30.159 the beta work that they wanted us to do. If 817 00:39:30.199 --> 00:39:33.320 there were other what we consider what I call outcomes, 818 00:39:33.480 --> 00:39:35.000 I don't want to go into too much debtail, but 819 00:39:35.039 --> 00:39:37.760 you can kind of guess what kind of stuff you 820 00:39:37.960 --> 00:39:40.639 would be an end to some of those relationships. Sometimes 821 00:39:40.679 --> 00:39:42.559 you would just leave the relationship like they told you 822 00:39:42.599 --> 00:39:45.679 to after you gathered the intelligence, or they would expect 823 00:39:45.679 --> 00:39:47.920 some other type of outcome, that's what they called it. 824 00:39:49.440 --> 00:39:51.360 So once I got done doing with that, I ended 825 00:39:51.440 --> 00:39:53.800 up doing that for a while and I got a 826 00:39:53.840 --> 00:39:57.559 promotion and because they said for a job well done. 827 00:39:57.719 --> 00:40:00.159 And I think I was around twenty nine, and I 828 00:40:00.239 --> 00:40:03.159 ended up going to Mars for a short time, about 829 00:40:03.159 --> 00:40:07.599 ten extra years. And when I was there, I was 830 00:40:07.679 --> 00:40:12.360 on the Mercreary Base. A McCreary base is located in 831 00:40:12.400 --> 00:40:16.960 the South Canal region of that planet. And the general 832 00:40:17.000 --> 00:40:19.480 that I worked under, his name was General Asher. I 833 00:40:19.679 --> 00:40:23.280 was specifically taken into the corporate sector, so I wasn't 834 00:40:23.320 --> 00:40:25.840 like in a big military mission. We were on the 835 00:40:25.880 --> 00:40:29.000 military base and I worked near a loading dock, but 836 00:40:29.400 --> 00:40:32.840 I wasn't taking part of those big military operations. I 837 00:40:33.000 --> 00:40:37.079 was the human resources. So any new recruits coming into 838 00:40:37.400 --> 00:40:40.400 the base, they would come see me in my office 839 00:40:40.639 --> 00:40:42.760 and I would use some of my abilities. I kind 840 00:40:42.760 --> 00:40:45.519 of consider it like a mild telepathy. I sometimes we 841 00:40:45.599 --> 00:40:49.239 call it energy reading things like that, but I would 842 00:40:49.239 --> 00:40:51.280 have them talk. I had like a battery of questions. 843 00:40:51.280 --> 00:40:53.599 I would ask them just to get them talking. Is 844 00:40:53.639 --> 00:40:56.719 how I read them. Just as soon as they're talking. 845 00:40:56.920 --> 00:40:59.159 It's almost like reading between the lines of everything they 846 00:40:59.199 --> 00:41:01.400 say in order to get get a proper assessment of 847 00:41:01.719 --> 00:41:03.719 who I think they are and what job I might 848 00:41:03.760 --> 00:41:07.400 think they might do well in. And I didn't really 849 00:41:07.400 --> 00:41:09.039 work with a lot of super soldiers. They were in 850 00:41:09.079 --> 00:41:11.880 special sector. I wasn't necessarily working for a special sector. 851 00:41:11.920 --> 00:41:14.280 I was just working for the basic you know, new 852 00:41:14.320 --> 00:41:19.440 recruits coming in. And back in the days, they back 853 00:41:19.440 --> 00:41:21.159 in the time that I was in mk Ultu and 854 00:41:21.199 --> 00:41:24.599 things like that, they were still utilizing like my lab 855 00:41:24.679 --> 00:41:28.400 like military production to get some of their recruits. And nowadays, 856 00:41:28.440 --> 00:41:30.079 like when I was still on the base, like in 857 00:41:30.119 --> 00:41:33.679 the early two thousands, they were getting voluntary recruits. So 858 00:41:33.719 --> 00:41:35.960 there were people coming straight out of the military telling 859 00:41:36.199 --> 00:41:38.440 you know, their family that they're going overseas or something, 860 00:41:38.480 --> 00:41:40.800 and they were going up to Mars for a small tour, 861 00:41:42.119 --> 00:41:44.320 and they were thinking they were going to be like 862 00:41:44.519 --> 00:41:47.679 starship troopers fighting aliens and things like that, and then 863 00:41:47.679 --> 00:41:49.559 when they got in my office, they found out they'd 864 00:41:49.559 --> 00:41:53.159 be working like, you know, regular jobs like we had 865 00:41:53.199 --> 00:41:57.239 an entertainment division. You know, there was mining, there was resources, 866 00:41:57.280 --> 00:41:59.400 water treatment, waste treatment, all that, and they would probably 867 00:41:59.400 --> 00:42:01.880 get a job doing that. So their dreams of being 868 00:42:01.920 --> 00:42:04.159 in some type of like movie did not come true 869 00:42:04.320 --> 00:42:07.800 on that base, you know, because anybody a super soldier 870 00:42:07.840 --> 00:42:10.440 would be going straight to special sector. If somebody did 871 00:42:10.440 --> 00:42:12.519 come in my office and I felt it using my 872 00:42:12.559 --> 00:42:15.679 abilities that they had some type of special ability themselves, 873 00:42:15.960 --> 00:42:17.920 they would definitely be referred out. I would have to 874 00:42:17.960 --> 00:42:20.440 send that recommendation up to General Asher so he could 875 00:42:20.480 --> 00:42:23.639 figure out, you know, what office they needed to be at. 876 00:42:25.119 --> 00:42:28.880 So I did that for a long time on Mars, 877 00:42:29.000 --> 00:42:32.320 and it was really lonely, like I don't remember. I know, 878 00:42:32.400 --> 00:42:36.679 I remember feeling not well the whole time that I 879 00:42:36.800 --> 00:42:39.199 was there, and there was a lot of isolation. I 880 00:42:39.239 --> 00:42:42.360 was enable to form connections with people, especially working for 881 00:42:42.440 --> 00:42:44.599 the corporate sector. Nobody wanted to be around me. I was, 882 00:42:44.920 --> 00:42:46.960 you know, it's almost like working for the man, So 883 00:42:47.599 --> 00:42:49.679 nobody wanted to interact with me, especially some of the 884 00:42:49.679 --> 00:42:52.599 other soldiers that just didn't have a good you know, 885 00:42:53.480 --> 00:42:55.639 what do you call it reputation. Also part of the 886 00:42:55.719 --> 00:42:58.920 job was to ensure that I made sure. I told 887 00:42:58.960 --> 00:43:01.760 the upper manager if there was anybody that came into 888 00:43:01.760 --> 00:43:03.920 my office that I thought would challenge the status quo, 889 00:43:04.199 --> 00:43:06.639 and they took that very seriously. You're not allowed to 890 00:43:06.679 --> 00:43:08.800 have your own opinion on anything. You have to follow 891 00:43:08.880 --> 00:43:12.599 exactly what they wanted you to, all the rules, everything. 892 00:43:14.079 --> 00:43:18.119 So I felt like I was kind of depressed. If 893 00:43:18.159 --> 00:43:20.480 I'm guessing what was wrong with me on Mars the 894 00:43:20.519 --> 00:43:22.000 whole time I was there is that I felt like 895 00:43:22.039 --> 00:43:25.119 I had depression, and we didn't have a word for depression, 896 00:43:25.280 --> 00:43:27.719 so I didn't know what was wrong with me. And 897 00:43:28.039 --> 00:43:30.000 also I was starting to have like kind of like 898 00:43:30.119 --> 00:43:34.639 bleed through memories of just another life, and I felt 899 00:43:34.679 --> 00:43:37.840 like something was wrong with me. On Mars, I knew 900 00:43:37.840 --> 00:43:39.559 something was wrong with me, and I couldn't figure out 901 00:43:39.599 --> 00:43:41.840 what it was. I was doing things like I wasn't 902 00:43:41.840 --> 00:43:44.960 doing the same job like I should have been like 903 00:43:45.119 --> 00:43:47.920 enable to, you know, do my job correctly. I had 904 00:43:47.960 --> 00:43:51.039 broken into the General's office and was looking through as files. 905 00:43:51.039 --> 00:43:52.440 I didn't even know what I was looking for, but 906 00:43:52.480 --> 00:43:56.159 I had no other ideas of what to do and 907 00:43:56.199 --> 00:43:56.840 how to solve this. 908 00:43:56.840 --> 00:43:57.719 Issue for myself. 909 00:43:57.960 --> 00:44:00.559 So I was everywhere looking and I end up getting 910 00:44:00.559 --> 00:44:04.000 demoded because I wasn't doing the same job anymore, and 911 00:44:04.039 --> 00:44:05.840 I ended up working, you know, the rest of the 912 00:44:05.880 --> 00:44:09.480 time there. Just I worked on a medical satellite station 913 00:44:09.559 --> 00:44:13.079 for a little bit that's near Saturn, and what they 914 00:44:13.119 --> 00:44:15.679 do on there, they're just doing augments and different type 915 00:44:15.719 --> 00:44:17.599 of surgeries. I was somebody that would come in the 916 00:44:17.679 --> 00:44:20.199 room before they completed a surgery or some type of 917 00:44:20.519 --> 00:44:24.599 medical training something, and I would just you know, almost 918 00:44:24.599 --> 00:44:26.320 like a medical social worker when I have them sign 919 00:44:26.360 --> 00:44:29.320 all the forms, because they take consent very seriously in 920 00:44:29.360 --> 00:44:33.199 those programs. There's people's signatures everywhere. I know that because 921 00:44:33.199 --> 00:44:35.599 I would have people sign things, especially when you leave, 922 00:44:35.599 --> 00:44:38.400 when you're retired, you sign a lot of forms. In 923 00:44:38.400 --> 00:44:40.599 one of the forms you sign you agree to be 924 00:44:40.639 --> 00:44:42.519 controlled and monitored for the rest of your life, no 925 00:44:42.559 --> 00:44:42.880 matter what. 926 00:44:43.559 --> 00:44:44.480 You know. There's people. 927 00:44:44.679 --> 00:44:46.559 I have my own signatures on that stuff, and I 928 00:44:46.599 --> 00:44:48.920 know other people have signatures on there. And I'm not 929 00:44:48.960 --> 00:44:51.159 saying that that it's right and that we had full 930 00:44:52.039 --> 00:44:54.360 ability to say that and give consent, because we didn't 931 00:44:54.400 --> 00:44:56.360 because we were almost like modern day slavery. You're not 932 00:44:56.400 --> 00:45:01.719 allowed to say anything back. But they say that those 933 00:45:01.800 --> 00:45:04.000 forms because of the way they're worded in terms of 934 00:45:04.360 --> 00:45:07.320 legal you know, legal language that they'll hold up in 935 00:45:07.360 --> 00:45:11.119 all courts, including galactic courts. That's what they say anyways, 936 00:45:11.119 --> 00:45:13.440 that those forms up there held up in everything in 937 00:45:13.440 --> 00:45:15.400 case anybody tried to take them at court. Well, look, 938 00:45:15.760 --> 00:45:17.440 you signed for this, you said we could do this. 939 00:45:17.519 --> 00:45:20.719 You said you even assigned to be terminated if you 940 00:45:20.760 --> 00:45:25.360 don't complete the task to their whatever they think is 941 00:45:25.400 --> 00:45:28.679 the best. You agreed to that you signed it saying Okay, 942 00:45:28.679 --> 00:45:31.320 I agreed to be terminated, and terminated doesn't mean losing 943 00:45:31.360 --> 00:45:34.840 a job, just you know, that's they mean something else 944 00:45:34.880 --> 00:45:37.360 when they say that. So the legal language is really 945 00:45:37.400 --> 00:45:39.840 important what they're using. So that's what I did up 946 00:45:39.920 --> 00:45:42.440 until I ended up leaving. In terms of retirement and 947 00:45:42.559 --> 00:45:45.440 retirement for us, we just from what I remember, it 948 00:45:45.440 --> 00:45:48.199 was a chemical retirement. And then they re aged. They 949 00:45:48.199 --> 00:45:51.079 read you, they age regress you, and they put you 950 00:45:51.119 --> 00:45:53.239 back in your crappy life. And that's what happened to me. 951 00:45:53.719 --> 00:45:55.880 I got age regressed to the time that they took 952 00:45:55.920 --> 00:45:57.840 me at and I went back to my crappy life. 953 00:45:58.480 --> 00:46:06.840 And that's where that kind of experience came from. 954 00:46:06.960 --> 00:46:12.000 Wow, there's so many questions that I could ask you, 955 00:46:12.039 --> 00:46:15.880 But I feel like we do a second part because 956 00:46:15.920 --> 00:46:19.599 a lot of it is just going to be like and. 957 00:46:19.559 --> 00:46:21.840 There's so much more. Yeah, there's so much more to 958 00:46:21.880 --> 00:46:24.480 go into. I do have a fun story though. I 959 00:46:24.519 --> 00:46:26.440 was going to add because I was like talking about 960 00:46:26.440 --> 00:46:28.559 it because it was so interesting. When I was on 961 00:46:28.679 --> 00:46:31.840 Myers and like I said, I had no friends. Everybody 962 00:46:31.840 --> 00:46:34.280 hated me, you know, nobody really wanted to be around me. 963 00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:37.840 I wasn't really that girl. And they were doing these 964 00:46:37.880 --> 00:46:40.360 exhibitions because, like I said, they have an entertainment division 965 00:46:40.719 --> 00:46:43.400 because there's nothing else to do. So people would pack it, 966 00:46:43.480 --> 00:46:45.119 you know, some of the civilians and even some of 967 00:46:45.159 --> 00:46:48.360 the soldiers and everybody. They would pack in the arenas 968 00:46:48.800 --> 00:46:52.000 you know, on the weekends or whatever, and they would 969 00:46:52.000 --> 00:46:55.719 be these exhibitions. It's almost like almost like modern Gladiator 970 00:46:55.800 --> 00:46:58.320 or UFC type stuff. So they had a lot of 971 00:46:58.320 --> 00:47:00.360 the girls, like you could. They would have us up 972 00:47:00.400 --> 00:47:02.280 like in dresses, cute little outfits, and they want you 973 00:47:02.320 --> 00:47:05.840 to sword fight to the death. And so I volunteered 974 00:47:05.840 --> 00:47:08.559 once because they said that if you volunteer, you know, 975 00:47:08.559 --> 00:47:10.960 I thought, I volunteered. People will have a different idea 976 00:47:11.000 --> 00:47:12.559 who they think I am. I might get a little 977 00:47:12.559 --> 00:47:14.800 bit of favor with people and people not treating like crap. 978 00:47:15.360 --> 00:47:17.440 So I ended up doing that quite a few times. 979 00:47:17.519 --> 00:47:19.719 And they give you a gift afterward, like a reward 980 00:47:19.760 --> 00:47:22.599 if you win, like either you and some of the 981 00:47:22.599 --> 00:47:24.760 other girls they are asking for like clothes and drewy, 982 00:47:24.800 --> 00:47:28.039 which means nothing means nothing on that planet. Nothing, no 983 00:47:28.599 --> 00:47:31.880 material stuff means anything there. So I asked for food. 984 00:47:32.039 --> 00:47:35.280 I wanted good food, and I asked there's something like 985 00:47:35.760 --> 00:47:37.880 a steak in a potato or something. That was my 986 00:47:37.960 --> 00:47:42.519 gift I wanted. And I remember I lost like three times, 987 00:47:42.519 --> 00:47:44.360 but then I won like two times. And I don't 988 00:47:44.360 --> 00:47:48.360 remember how when I lost, how I ended up alive 989 00:47:48.480 --> 00:47:50.039 and back in my bed the next day. I have 990 00:47:50.119 --> 00:47:52.719 no idea how that happened. I just remember having my 991 00:47:52.800 --> 00:47:55.639 throat slit from some sword and then I'd be okay 992 00:47:55.719 --> 00:47:57.599 the next day, and then my food wo'd be sitting 993 00:47:57.639 --> 00:47:58.039 next to me. 994 00:47:58.679 --> 00:47:59.280 So I did that. 995 00:47:59.400 --> 00:48:01.599 I really risk my life for a plate of food 996 00:48:02.280 --> 00:48:05.719 and it was like nothing. It was maybe I didn't 997 00:48:05.719 --> 00:48:07.679 really care that much because of my depression on Mars 998 00:48:07.679 --> 00:48:10.400 that I was just like, well if it happens. It happens, 999 00:48:10.400 --> 00:48:12.480 and you know, I went through life whatever. I thought 1000 00:48:12.480 --> 00:48:15.639 that was interesting though, that they have like a girl's 1001 00:48:15.679 --> 00:48:19.239 sword fighting to the death. You know, imagine, you know, 1002 00:48:19.280 --> 00:48:21.760 you're watching that on the weekend. They're having people's sword 1003 00:48:21.800 --> 00:48:25.280 fight to the death. Was really interesting, and there was 1004 00:48:25.280 --> 00:48:29.199 so much other stuff going on, like on Mars. What 1005 00:48:29.280 --> 00:48:33.360 I thought was interesting is that, you know, in personality profiling, 1006 00:48:33.679 --> 00:48:38.000 the people that are at the highest levels for sociopaths 1007 00:48:38.079 --> 00:48:43.039 and psychopaths, they're recruiting specifically people that are diagnosed as 1008 00:48:43.079 --> 00:48:46.760 sociopaths because they feel like those people make the best leaders, 1009 00:48:46.840 --> 00:48:49.360 because they can make the hard decisions, like if there's 1010 00:48:49.400 --> 00:48:52.280 a war, they'll probably win the war based on how 1011 00:48:52.320 --> 00:48:54.719 they behave. But that's also dangerous for a lot of 1012 00:48:54.800 --> 00:48:58.400 us that are working around them. We're literally working amongst 1013 00:48:58.519 --> 00:49:02.079 sociopaths and psychopaths every day, like in the office. You know, 1014 00:49:02.400 --> 00:49:05.000 people that I worked with their sociopaths and psychopaths, and 1015 00:49:05.039 --> 00:49:07.800 you just, you know, you're risking your life sometimes they 1016 00:49:08.000 --> 00:49:10.960 sometimes they would try to do things and you know, 1017 00:49:11.280 --> 00:49:13.360 and what I thought was interesting is you're not allowed 1018 00:49:13.360 --> 00:49:16.800 to fight back. In a couple of different groups, like 1019 00:49:16.840 --> 00:49:19.320 when I worked for a mercenary group called Krueger. They're 1020 00:49:19.360 --> 00:49:22.280 allowed to harm you. Your coworkers that are males, allowed 1021 00:49:22.280 --> 00:49:25.000 to harm you. You can't fight back, you can't complain, 1022 00:49:25.079 --> 00:49:27.559 you can't question. Same thing on Mars, I wasn't really 1023 00:49:27.559 --> 00:49:29.440 I didn't have that feeling that I could say anything. 1024 00:49:30.000 --> 00:49:32.559 And you know, sometimes something would happen and you can't 1025 00:49:32.559 --> 00:49:34.679 say anything about it. You just have to let it go. 1026 00:49:35.559 --> 00:49:40.960 So definitely a weird imbalance there. And I think it's 1027 00:49:41.039 --> 00:49:44.480 really interesting that people think they have an idea about women. 1028 00:49:44.960 --> 00:49:49.320 But the things I've seen women do, both good and bad, 1029 00:49:49.639 --> 00:49:53.039 in these programs would blow anybody's mind. It would totally 1030 00:49:53.119 --> 00:49:57.440 blow blow away what people think that we are. And 1031 00:49:57.880 --> 00:50:00.320 they don't have any idea. Nobody has any idea of 1032 00:50:00.360 --> 00:50:02.880 what women are capable of in any way because of 1033 00:50:02.960 --> 00:50:05.440 the things I've seen that people could do. It's really 1034 00:50:06.039 --> 00:50:08.599 it's really crazy to see, you know, even for myself, 1035 00:50:08.840 --> 00:50:11.440 you know, being who I am now and what I 1036 00:50:11.519 --> 00:50:13.239 used to be able to do, and then now I'm 1037 00:50:13.280 --> 00:50:15.000 here and I have to pretend all the time like 1038 00:50:15.000 --> 00:50:15.320 I'm a. 1039 00:50:15.239 --> 00:50:16.280 Weak little girl. 1040 00:50:16.559 --> 00:50:19.360 You know, it's really weird to even have that life 1041 00:50:19.599 --> 00:50:21.440 and try to pretend to be a normal life when 1042 00:50:21.480 --> 00:50:23.679 you know you can do you were able to do things, 1043 00:50:23.800 --> 00:50:26.199 you know, and it wasn't even a different life, you know. 1044 00:50:26.880 --> 00:50:28.280 So it's really strange. 1045 00:50:30.199 --> 00:50:30.559 Yeah. 1046 00:50:30.719 --> 00:50:31.880 Do you think that that's just. 1047 00:50:33.519 --> 00:50:36.239 How this planet is set up though, to keep women 1048 00:50:36.360 --> 00:50:40.519 in a particular, you know, atmosphere where they really can't 1049 00:50:40.559 --> 00:50:41.320 do much of anything. 1050 00:50:43.719 --> 00:50:45.639 I think all of the I think the same thing 1051 00:50:45.679 --> 00:50:47.960 for men though, you know, they're probably put into a 1052 00:50:48.000 --> 00:50:50.440 specific position where you know, we're all kind of locked 1053 00:50:50.480 --> 00:50:53.559 into this box in terms of what people over us 1054 00:50:53.840 --> 00:50:56.280 and how they want us to behave. And I know 1055 00:50:56.360 --> 00:50:58.920 it's not real because I know I've seen people do things. 1056 00:50:58.960 --> 00:51:02.480 You know. It's just I just I can't buy into it, 1057 00:51:02.519 --> 00:51:05.039 just because I've been able to see it myself firsthand 1058 00:51:05.039 --> 00:51:06.280 what people are capable of. 1059 00:51:06.920 --> 00:51:09.679 I believe you, because, you know, even just to referencing 1060 00:51:09.760 --> 00:51:12.199 some of my own past life experiences, I feel as 1061 00:51:12.239 --> 00:51:15.519 though maybe this planet is just set up in a 1062 00:51:15.519 --> 00:51:19.599 way that humans in general are extremely limited in their 1063 00:51:19.599 --> 00:51:21.239 capacity for a reason, you know. 1064 00:51:22.360 --> 00:51:25.280 Yeah, And I get it in a way, like imagine 1065 00:51:25.280 --> 00:51:27.639 if I was able to harness the power I had 1066 00:51:27.679 --> 00:51:29.519 when I was a gin, and if I could do 1067 00:51:29.559 --> 00:51:33.360 that now, you know, I guess they have to kind 1068 00:51:33.360 --> 00:51:34.000 of close. 1069 00:51:33.760 --> 00:51:35.639 It off, like you can't have everything. 1070 00:51:35.719 --> 00:51:37.440 You know, what kind of person would I be if 1071 00:51:37.440 --> 00:51:40.280 I was able to harness that, you know, and it 1072 00:51:40.320 --> 00:51:42.800 was I did want to say, like I thought it 1073 00:51:42.840 --> 00:51:45.400 was interesting when I was speaking to Harlewin, she told 1074 00:51:45.400 --> 00:51:48.760 me kind of about how, you know, because we think 1075 00:51:48.800 --> 00:51:53.239 that the demonic entities they are able to just come physically, 1076 00:51:53.639 --> 00:51:55.559 and you know, I don't see a lot of them 1077 00:51:55.559 --> 00:51:59.360 coming physically ever, because it's very difficult to create that 1078 00:51:59.400 --> 00:52:03.800 physical form. And also they don't like the reaction they 1079 00:52:03.800 --> 00:52:07.000 get when they come in their physical form because they 1080 00:52:07.239 --> 00:52:10.880 in their minds, these demonic entities think they're gods. They do. 1081 00:52:11.039 --> 00:52:13.400 They say they're gods. I'm not saying I believe that 1082 00:52:13.440 --> 00:52:15.840 they believe that they think they're gods because they've been 1083 00:52:15.880 --> 00:52:18.719 worshiped as gods for thousands of years in ancient since 1084 00:52:18.760 --> 00:52:21.480 ancient times, and that if they come here and if 1085 00:52:21.480 --> 00:52:23.960 one of their followers calls them, you know, they call 1086 00:52:23.960 --> 00:52:25.800 it a heart call. And then when somebody calls them, 1087 00:52:25.840 --> 00:52:28.000 because you do have to say, you do have to 1088 00:52:28.079 --> 00:52:30.199 let them in in order for them to evade your space. 1089 00:52:31.320 --> 00:52:34.119 So when they try to come physically to a follower, 1090 00:52:34.159 --> 00:52:36.639 and the follower doesn't have a good response because they're 1091 00:52:36.639 --> 00:52:40.760 not looking like some angelic being. They're coming in their 1092 00:52:40.800 --> 00:52:43.159 true forms, and that a person sees that and almost 1093 00:52:43.199 --> 00:52:45.599 gets They get a disgusted look and scared and fear. 1094 00:52:45.920 --> 00:52:48.119 That's not the reaction they want. They feel like they're gods, 1095 00:52:48.360 --> 00:52:50.719 so they don't always come as physical. They like to 1096 00:52:51.000 --> 00:52:54.480 travel as energy, and specifically we travel by the blood, 1097 00:52:55.000 --> 00:52:58.960 so a lot of entities would travel by the bloodstream. 1098 00:52:59.400 --> 00:52:59.760 That's why. 1099 00:53:00.039 --> 00:53:02.559 And I always called myself red energy. That's how I 1100 00:53:02.599 --> 00:53:05.440 saw myself, and I would travel by the blood and 1101 00:53:06.039 --> 00:53:09.519 get inside the blood stream. So it's different from from 1102 00:53:09.639 --> 00:53:11.360 the stuff I've seen. Is kind of different from what 1103 00:53:11.440 --> 00:53:14.320 obviously we've seen in movies and things like that, where 1104 00:53:14.480 --> 00:53:17.719 you know physical entities. These entities are just coming through physically. 1105 00:53:17.960 --> 00:53:21.239 They're traveling less energy and through the blood stream sometimes. 1106 00:53:22.119 --> 00:53:27.679 Yeah, well, you know, back to that whole idea about 1107 00:53:28.559 --> 00:53:31.800 limited abilities. It's kind of like the Superman thing, don't 1108 00:53:31.840 --> 00:53:34.840 you think where it's come to this planet. All of 1109 00:53:34.880 --> 00:53:36.840 a sudden you have powers because there's a yellow sun, 1110 00:53:37.039 --> 00:53:41.760 and then on you know, your own home planet, you're useless. Yeah, 1111 00:53:42.079 --> 00:53:42.719 I wonder, I. 1112 00:53:42.639 --> 00:53:43.679 Phil I felt that. 1113 00:53:43.840 --> 00:53:46.880 I felt that, Like I think maybe a lot of 1114 00:53:47.400 --> 00:53:49.639 women we feel like that if you were in the 1115 00:53:49.679 --> 00:53:52.719 programs because you had abilities, and now I'm here and 1116 00:53:52.760 --> 00:53:55.960 I have to just be a normal person. It's just 1117 00:53:56.159 --> 00:53:57.760 it's really conflicting. For me. 1118 00:53:57.800 --> 00:54:02.360 It's like, really weird. You know. I still get amazed, Yeah, 1119 00:54:02.400 --> 00:54:02.599 I can. 1120 00:54:02.760 --> 00:54:05.800 I still get amazed when I, you know, recording myself 1121 00:54:05.880 --> 00:54:08.280 doing the things that I'm doing, especially with spirit hosting. 1122 00:54:08.800 --> 00:54:13.039 I'm doing astral travel, remote viewing, remote influencing. That's all 1123 00:54:13.039 --> 00:54:15.880 difficult stuff that's not very easy stuff for the normal 1124 00:54:15.920 --> 00:54:19.159 person to do. And to see myself doing it is 1125 00:54:19.239 --> 00:54:22.320 like it always mind blows me every time I'm like 1126 00:54:22.440 --> 00:54:24.000 I wake, you know, I come out of the trance 1127 00:54:24.039 --> 00:54:25.719 and be like, I can't believe I just said that. 1128 00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:28.039 You know, stuff that I'm saying for like hours on end, 1129 00:54:28.079 --> 00:54:31.440 a constant flow of information. It's very interesting for me 1130 00:54:31.480 --> 00:54:34.079 to see that and be able to reproduce it over 1131 00:54:34.119 --> 00:54:35.639 and over the same process us. 1132 00:54:36.360 --> 00:54:37.159 I totally get that. 1133 00:54:37.239 --> 00:54:39.679 So how often are you continuing to do sessions and 1134 00:54:39.679 --> 00:54:41.599 stuff to uncover what else is in there? 1135 00:54:42.360 --> 00:54:47.840 I think I started I want to say twenty twenty twenty. 1136 00:54:47.840 --> 00:54:50.280 Maybe I started doing it in twenty twenty and so 1137 00:54:50.360 --> 00:54:52.880 it's about five years now, and now I've kind of 1138 00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:55.039 slowed down a little bit. I'll do it because now 1139 00:54:55.599 --> 00:54:59.039 it's getting a little bit risky because I've started to 1140 00:54:59.159 --> 00:55:01.840 use the ability I started about a year or two 1141 00:55:01.880 --> 00:55:06.000 ago to break into, you know, secret documents and bases 1142 00:55:06.119 --> 00:55:08.639 and other people's bases and things to try to get 1143 00:55:08.679 --> 00:55:11.960 information for the world. It's risky and they've kind of 1144 00:55:12.000 --> 00:55:15.320 caught onto that, especially with Project Oblivion coming out. They said, 1145 00:55:15.559 --> 00:55:17.320 there's no more of this. You guys can't keep doing 1146 00:55:17.320 --> 00:55:19.840 this stuff. So the last time I a couple of 1147 00:55:19.880 --> 00:55:22.559 times I had a session, I had a counter remote 1148 00:55:22.639 --> 00:55:27.199 viewing team from other agencies kind of infiltrate my session 1149 00:55:27.239 --> 00:55:29.360 to see what I'm doing. It's like when you when 1150 00:55:29.400 --> 00:55:31.840 I'm closing my eyes, I see it ionomically see a 1151 00:55:31.880 --> 00:55:34.480 set of eyes. That means somebody's looking at me while 1152 00:55:34.480 --> 00:55:37.639 I'm doing this. So now I'm starting to see that 1153 00:55:37.679 --> 00:55:40.079 where they're kind of caught on that I'm kind of 1154 00:55:40.079 --> 00:55:43.239 sneaking into places and I'm just I always say, like 1155 00:55:43.320 --> 00:55:45.320 I'm just a girl, I'm not a professional. 1156 00:55:45.679 --> 00:55:45.960 You know there. 1157 00:55:46.079 --> 00:55:48.119 You know, there's people out there on YouTube word that 1158 00:55:48.119 --> 00:55:51.119 are professional remote viewers and they're got coordinates and stuff. 1159 00:55:51.320 --> 00:55:54.039 I don't do that. It's just a natural ability, So 1160 00:55:54.159 --> 00:55:56.840 I don't follow that. It just comes to me, like 1161 00:55:56.920 --> 00:55:59.159 I always say that, it comes in a woosh because 1162 00:55:59.159 --> 00:56:02.840 it does. Whatever I'm connected to at the highest level 1163 00:56:02.840 --> 00:56:05.320 of my being starts and guides me to where I 1164 00:56:05.360 --> 00:56:07.440 need to go and has allowed me to do this. 1165 00:56:08.039 --> 00:56:10.800 You know, I'm not being stopped by anything except for 1166 00:56:10.880 --> 00:56:13.639 these new groups are trying to and it's not working. 1167 00:56:14.039 --> 00:56:16.760 But I got a feel them they're going to continue. 1168 00:56:17.280 --> 00:56:20.599 So I've met a couple of I say met, but 1169 00:56:21.159 --> 00:56:24.679 actually they're intruders. So I've met a couple of groups, 1170 00:56:24.679 --> 00:56:26.800 and the last couple of sessions I had some that 1171 00:56:26.880 --> 00:56:29.320 tried to I think one of them wanted to harm me, 1172 00:56:30.079 --> 00:56:32.039 and so I kind of stepped back a little. I'm 1173 00:56:32.039 --> 00:56:33.840 only doing it like every few months now. 1174 00:56:36.599 --> 00:56:41.280 Yeah, I have heard similar things from other people, And 1175 00:56:42.360 --> 00:56:45.840 I was wondering if during your hypnosis sessions, if you've 1176 00:56:45.840 --> 00:56:48.159 ever hit anything like a government cap or anything like 1177 00:56:48.199 --> 00:56:50.639 that where it was extremely difficult to get to a 1178 00:56:50.639 --> 00:56:52.440 certain level of information. 1179 00:56:53.480 --> 00:56:59.119 Yes, quite a few times to the base in Australia. Hi, yep. 1180 00:57:00.199 --> 00:57:00.480 Yeah. 1181 00:57:00.559 --> 00:57:02.360 As soon as I got close to that base, I 1182 00:57:02.360 --> 00:57:08.079 saw this huge eye huge. They have very serious monitoring 1183 00:57:08.480 --> 00:57:12.800 with their remote viewers. They have a really a strong 1184 00:57:12.920 --> 00:57:17.400 remote viewing remote viewing for their people. I felt like 1185 00:57:17.440 --> 00:57:20.119 they already saw me coming before and I literally felt 1186 00:57:20.119 --> 00:57:22.280 myself flying through the air trying to get to their base, 1187 00:57:22.360 --> 00:57:25.960 you know. And once I got inside, is a lockdown 1188 00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:28.280 in there, like it's locked down. I couldn't even get 1189 00:57:28.280 --> 00:57:30.719 into the room. And with my spirit energy, I couldn't 1190 00:57:30.719 --> 00:57:33.400 even get in the room. I saw these red lights 1191 00:57:33.480 --> 00:57:35.760 or red numbers over the door, so I had to 1192 00:57:35.760 --> 00:57:38.280 go fall through the floor and then come up in 1193 00:57:38.320 --> 00:57:41.480 the middle. And when I got inside that side of 1194 00:57:41.519 --> 00:57:44.159 the base, I wanted information. That's what I came for. 1195 00:57:44.440 --> 00:57:46.719 You know, I'm risking my life to get this information, 1196 00:57:46.800 --> 00:57:49.639 so I'm going to get it. So I used remote influencing. 1197 00:57:50.159 --> 00:57:52.400 And I don't feel bad about this. I know some 1198 00:57:52.440 --> 00:57:53.960 people get mad at me when I say I do 1199 00:57:54.039 --> 00:57:57.119 this remote influencing. People need to remember, these people are 1200 00:57:57.519 --> 00:58:01.320 kidnapping and abusing children for our whole lives. Do I 1201 00:58:01.360 --> 00:58:04.360 feel bad about kind of forcing them to give me information. No, 1202 00:58:04.400 --> 00:58:07.920 I'm sorry, I don't. So I found one person that 1203 00:58:08.000 --> 00:58:10.920 was kind of like unfocused. I needed to do remote influence. 1204 00:58:10.960 --> 00:58:13.440 I have to find somebody that's not totally focused. So 1205 00:58:13.480 --> 00:58:14.840 there was a girl there and she was kind of 1206 00:58:14.840 --> 00:58:17.119 off focused, thinking about her boyfriend and things like that. 1207 00:58:17.519 --> 00:58:18.119 So I pushed. 1208 00:58:18.199 --> 00:58:21.000 I just pushed, put my spirit hands on her shoulder 1209 00:58:21.679 --> 00:58:24.199 and kind of like got inside of her. So I'm 1210 00:58:24.320 --> 00:58:27.719 using her body almost like a possession. I'm using her. 1211 00:58:28.320 --> 00:58:31.280 So I start making her type and she starts typing things. 1212 00:58:31.320 --> 00:58:34.079 I'm trying to get information about projects, and there was 1213 00:58:34.079 --> 00:58:37.400 one that come up, like project Stranger. And so when 1214 00:58:37.400 --> 00:58:39.880 I finally I'm in there, I'm only in there for 1215 00:58:39.920 --> 00:58:42.239 a few seconds, it's not even very long, and maybe 1216 00:58:42.239 --> 00:58:46.199 a minute at the most, and this big, huge message, 1217 00:58:46.679 --> 00:58:49.679 you know, flashes on the screen of her computer and 1218 00:58:49.719 --> 00:58:50.639 I said break screen. 1219 00:58:51.039 --> 00:58:51.519 She flee. 1220 00:58:51.719 --> 00:58:53.800 She kind of like freaked out, and she like pushed 1221 00:58:53.800 --> 00:58:56.280 herself back up from the desk and like jumped up. 1222 00:58:56.400 --> 00:58:57.920 And as soon as she jumped up, I was kind 1223 00:58:57.920 --> 00:59:00.480 of like flown back out of her body. Like they 1224 00:59:01.239 --> 00:59:04.320 immediately knew that I was there. Somehow, I don't know 1225 00:59:04.360 --> 00:59:06.320 how that they could figure out she was being remote 1226 00:59:06.320 --> 00:59:09.719 influenced maybe the information she was reaching. They said break screen, 1227 00:59:09.760 --> 00:59:13.079 which means everything stop. So that was one time that 1228 00:59:13.639 --> 00:59:15.519 you know, I kind of I mean, I felt like 1229 00:59:15.519 --> 00:59:17.880 it was still successful because I was practicing, you know. 1230 00:59:18.000 --> 00:59:20.679 But that's the kind of stuff I've been trying to do, 1231 00:59:20.800 --> 00:59:22.800 and I've gotten quite a bit of information in terms 1232 00:59:22.840 --> 00:59:26.079 of like documents and some of the legal language on documents. 1233 00:59:26.079 --> 00:59:29.719 I'm able to find looking at my own I was 1234 00:59:29.760 --> 00:59:31.480 able to get my own I'm I was able to 1235 00:59:31.480 --> 00:59:33.920 get my own service number, a lot of information about 1236 00:59:33.960 --> 00:59:36.679 my service record, and you know, things like that. So 1237 00:59:36.719 --> 00:59:38.960 it's really interesting. There's a lot of information out there. 1238 00:59:38.960 --> 00:59:42.320 It's just you know, nobody's looking for I'm like the 1239 00:59:42.320 --> 00:59:45.519 only person trying to do this that is like known. 1240 00:59:45.719 --> 00:59:48.239 You know, there's I mean, obviously there's other secret groups 1241 00:59:48.280 --> 00:59:48.880 trying this, but. 1242 00:59:50.119 --> 00:59:54.400 I think they have some kind of energetic frequency monitoring 1243 00:59:54.480 --> 00:59:58.719 system where they can tell who it is at any time. 1244 00:59:59.519 --> 01:00:02.519 You know, you would think that, yeah, people like I 1245 01:00:02.519 --> 01:00:05.400 guess a person with just an average way of thinking 1246 01:00:05.519 --> 01:00:08.119 would not be going as far as to think that way. 1247 01:00:08.159 --> 01:00:12.480 They would think, Okay, I'm an invisible spirit, so I 1248 01:00:12.519 --> 01:00:14.519 can't be detected, you know. But I don't think that 1249 01:00:15.360 --> 01:00:18.199 people get that you as an individual, you have this 1250 01:00:19.199 --> 01:00:23.119 energetic footprint that follows you through all your past lives. 1251 01:00:22.920 --> 01:00:24.519 Right, Yeah, how they're able. 1252 01:00:24.239 --> 01:00:27.320 To Yeah, that's a good point. And I did see 1253 01:00:27.360 --> 01:00:29.960 one time where I broke into my own handler's house. 1254 01:00:30.480 --> 01:00:33.400 Because there's the handler divisions. They call it the after 1255 01:00:33.480 --> 01:00:37.159 cre program. Everybody who is in MK ultra you signed 1256 01:00:37.199 --> 01:00:40.039 forms to be monitored by the aftercare program and they 1257 01:00:40.079 --> 01:00:43.920 hide behind insurance companies at their front. I broke it 1258 01:00:43.960 --> 01:00:47.719 to my own handler's house using you know, remote viewing. 1259 01:00:48.000 --> 01:00:51.079 I use astral travel by location, you know, and spirit 1260 01:00:51.079 --> 01:00:53.559 hosting to do all this antilepathy I was using that day. 1261 01:00:53.800 --> 01:00:56.159 I brought everything I could do because I'm like, this 1262 01:00:56.320 --> 01:00:58.199 was serious. I need to meet this handler of mine. 1263 01:00:58.639 --> 01:01:01.199 And he was a total dick. And so I broke 1264 01:01:01.239 --> 01:01:04.599 into his house. And I want people to know I 1265 01:01:04.639 --> 01:01:07.280 didn't break into it physically. I used my spirit body, 1266 01:01:07.519 --> 01:01:09.599 just so they know I didn't break into it physically. 1267 01:01:09.760 --> 01:01:12.400 I broke in using my spirit body. So I found 1268 01:01:12.440 --> 01:01:14.679 him and he lived out I think in Rhode Island 1269 01:01:14.719 --> 01:01:17.119 something like that. And so I was in his house 1270 01:01:17.159 --> 01:01:19.440 and he had his office in his house, and these handlers, 1271 01:01:19.440 --> 01:01:21.119 they're not scary. I want people to think, don't be 1272 01:01:21.119 --> 01:01:23.280 afraid of these people. These are a bunch of nerds 1273 01:01:23.280 --> 01:01:25.519 sitting at a desk behind a chair. They use a 1274 01:01:25.559 --> 01:01:29.320 computer in a headset to tortures. These are not scary people. 1275 01:01:29.719 --> 01:01:33.000 There's nothing to be afraid of. And so he was 1276 01:01:33.039 --> 01:01:35.920 there and I came up behind him, and I like, 1277 01:01:36.000 --> 01:01:37.639 just like the girl I put, I try to put 1278 01:01:37.679 --> 01:01:40.159 my hands on his shoulder, just because I wanted to know. 1279 01:01:40.199 --> 01:01:42.199 And this dude, he has abilities. He knew, he knew, 1280 01:01:42.199 --> 01:01:44.159 he could feel me, he knew what I was doing. 1281 01:01:44.320 --> 01:01:46.480 So he starts typing on his computer because he wanted 1282 01:01:46.519 --> 01:01:48.960 to see what I was typing. And immediately he said 1283 01:01:48.960 --> 01:01:52.079 that asset is combative and that I was presenting with 1284 01:01:52.119 --> 01:01:55.079 ill intentions, and that he wrote that measures would need 1285 01:01:55.119 --> 01:01:57.159 to be taken and that it would be spleen and tremors. 1286 01:01:57.199 --> 01:01:59.519 That was the button he was going to push, you know, 1287 01:01:59.679 --> 01:02:02.639 and the recommendation he had to you know, because you know, 1288 01:02:02.639 --> 01:02:05.719 they target our health everything, so they're using all their machinery, 1289 01:02:05.760 --> 01:02:07.719 every technology they have, and they said that's what it 1290 01:02:07.719 --> 01:02:09.800 was going to happen. To me for trying this, And 1291 01:02:09.920 --> 01:02:11.920 I thought, what I thought was interesting is that this 1292 01:02:12.039 --> 01:02:15.280 was early on in my remote viewing sessions that I 1293 01:02:15.320 --> 01:02:17.719 saw a ghost, you know, in the back of his 1294 01:02:18.599 --> 01:02:21.199 room and it was his grandmother and she could see me. 1295 01:02:21.239 --> 01:02:23.800 Which I thought that was interesting is that I was 1296 01:02:23.880 --> 01:02:25.920 using the ghost to mention I didn't even know I 1297 01:02:25.960 --> 01:02:27.960 could do that. I was me and her could see 1298 01:02:27.960 --> 01:02:31.679 each other, Me and those he couldn't see either one 1299 01:02:31.679 --> 01:02:33.639 of us, but we could see each other. And I 1300 01:02:33.760 --> 01:02:36.920 was presenting as a remote viewer. So people, if you 1301 01:02:36.960 --> 01:02:40.760 ever see a shadow person, sometimes those are remote viewers. 1302 01:02:40.880 --> 01:02:44.239 Those aren't always spirits and ghosts. Sometimes those are remote viewers. 1303 01:02:44.440 --> 01:02:48.000 That's really interesting that I was presenting as like a 1304 01:02:48.000 --> 01:02:50.519 shadow person and she saw me and he knew. This 1305 01:02:50.519 --> 01:02:52.280 guy knew and we kind of went back and forth 1306 01:02:52.400 --> 01:02:55.280 arguing kind of thing for a while, you know, and 1307 01:02:55.840 --> 01:02:58.440 he just said, you know, pretty much, get out, stop 1308 01:02:58.480 --> 01:03:01.880 bothering me, loser, kind of like just you know, went 1309 01:03:01.920 --> 01:03:02.960 off on me kind of thing. 1310 01:03:03.079 --> 01:03:04.760 So, yeah, and I do. 1311 01:03:04.719 --> 01:03:06.079 That a lot. I get that a lot. When we 1312 01:03:06.119 --> 01:03:08.960 start getting into where we're talking to like the handler division. 1313 01:03:09.320 --> 01:03:13.159 They're very abusive in their language because they don't want 1314 01:03:13.199 --> 01:03:15.360 you to know who they are. They can't believe. They said, 1315 01:03:15.360 --> 01:03:17.920 how did you figure this out? How did you figure 1316 01:03:17.920 --> 01:03:20.480 it out? I'll just say I don't know. 1317 01:03:21.320 --> 01:03:21.800 I don't know. 1318 01:03:22.000 --> 01:03:25.000 I just figured it out. So it's surprising to a 1319 01:03:25.000 --> 01:03:26.760 lot of them when I'm able to do this kind 1320 01:03:26.800 --> 01:03:28.760 of thing. I'm like, you're the people the one that 1321 01:03:28.800 --> 01:03:31.719 trained me, so maybe should be asking yourselves why I'm able. 1322 01:03:31.480 --> 01:03:36.480 To do this. Yeah. Well, okay, so we'll have to 1323 01:03:36.519 --> 01:03:39.519 do this again because there's more things that I could 1324 01:03:39.599 --> 01:03:42.880 ask you about, you know, Project Traveler and the Spirit hosting. Oh, 1325 01:03:42.920 --> 01:03:45.920 there's tons all that stuff. So we'll have to do 1326 01:03:46.000 --> 01:03:51.360 several there's yeah, yeah, okay, Yeah, I'm excited. Yeah, yeah, okay, 1327 01:03:51.360 --> 01:03:56.280 Well thanks for being on Bonless Authenticity Podcast. If you want, 1328 01:03:56.320 --> 01:03:59.079 you can tell everyone where you can find your books 1329 01:03:59.079 --> 01:04:00.519 and where they can find you if they want to 1330 01:04:00.559 --> 01:04:01.360 talk to you, et cetera. 1331 01:04:02.679 --> 01:04:03.280 Yeah. 1332 01:04:03.360 --> 01:04:06.239 So I have two self published books around Amazon. The 1333 01:04:06.280 --> 01:04:08.960 first one is called gray Mouse Sex Space and Mind Control, 1334 01:04:09.199 --> 01:04:11.400 and the second book is called gray Mouse Purgatory, which 1335 01:04:11.400 --> 01:04:13.360 that one's my favorite. I have two blogs where I 1336 01:04:13.360 --> 01:04:16.679 put all my articles about my experiences on you know, weekly. 1337 01:04:16.719 --> 01:04:18.840 I have one on substack and one on medium. I'm 1338 01:04:18.840 --> 01:04:23.119 on TikTok, Twitter, x, Facebook, Instagram, you know all the 1339 01:04:23.119 --> 01:04:25.320 different spaces. You can message me there or you can 1340 01:04:25.360 --> 01:04:27.079 reach me by email. I put on my emails on 1341 01:04:27.119 --> 01:04:29.000 my socials too, in case you have a direct question. 1342 01:04:30.119 --> 01:04:33.239 All right, great, Olivia, thanks, thank you so much. 1343 01:04:33.800 --> 01:04:44.440 Okay, so you're listening to the Boundless Authenticity podcast where 1344 01:04:44.480 --> 01:04:49.320 we discuss everything related to the evolution of human consciousness. 1345 01:04:49.800 --> 01:04:52.800 That's very least be willing to understand that the United 1346 01:04:52.920 --> 01:04:57.559 States films bonkers, which are basically cities on your around 1347 01:04:57.760 --> 01:04:58.519 every three. 1348 01:04:58.400 --> 01:05:02.519 Months, aim you into your self conscious. 1349 01:05:02.599 --> 01:05:06.199 It is your lot in solution or creativity. 1350 01:05:05.679 --> 01:05:10.960 And imagination unchanged. So conscious sais and ego and reillcat 1351 01:05:11.159 --> 01:05:14.960 aold real large for their souls by how are cultures 1352 01:05:15.000 --> 01:05:17.599 and spectity cultures to the worm for your authority? 1353 01:05:17.639 --> 01:05:20.320 We live in a multidimensional reality, whether it comes through 1354 01:05:20.440 --> 01:05:24.719 estary information in the spiritual realms or the UFO people experiences, 1355 01:05:24.920 --> 01:05:27.920 or mainstream on the physics and through natreum science. Now 1356 01:05:28.039 --> 01:05:30.639 realizing that parallel dimensions probably is we're. 1357 01:05:30.519 --> 01:05:33.440 All spiritual means we're all having these human experiences. We've 1358 01:05:33.480 --> 01:05:35.599 heard that place over and over and over. But what 1359 01:05:35.920 --> 01:05:38.480 does that really mean? You know, all of the questions 1360 01:05:38.480 --> 01:05:42.119 of why we have these answers inside of our soul, 1361 01:05:42.239 --> 01:05:44.639 We're ultimately studying the nature of what it is to 1362 01:05:44.679 --> 01:05:48.039 be human. Would enable our psychology, how we think, our health. 1363 01:05:48.079 --> 01:05:50.719 That's why I love Bruce Lee's great quote all knowledge 1364 01:05:50.920 --> 01:05:52.519 is ultimately self knowledge.