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<v Speaker 1>The biggest, like most dramatic shift in your life, right,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, the kind of transformation that usually gets its

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<v Speaker 1>own sweeping orchestral music in a movie montage. We're totally

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<v Speaker 1>conditioned to believe that this is when we change. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and those massive fires exactly. We think our identity is

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<v Speaker 1>forged in these really high stakes moments. But what if

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<v Speaker 1>the person you are right now wasn't built in those

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<v Speaker 1>cinematic moments at all.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a pretty wild thought, it really is.

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<v Speaker 1>We are taking a deep dive today into some really

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<v Speaker 1>fascinating source material, a piece called the Chooser, building identity

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<v Speaker 1>through quiet decisions, and the mission today is to completely

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<v Speaker 1>reframe how you think about who you are.

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<v Speaker 2>Because you really do hold far more power over your

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<v Speaker 2>own nervous system than you probably think.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, let's unpack this. The underlying premise here just fundamentally

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<v Speaker 1>upends human development, I mean how we usually think about

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<v Speaker 1>it anyway. Right, Yeah, it suggests identity isn't built in

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<v Speaker 1>grand declarations. It's built in like the ordinary hours in

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<v Speaker 1>a kitchen or a random conversation, in these tiny private

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<v Speaker 1>fractions of a second, when an automatic habit is about

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<v Speaker 1>to run and you.

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<v Speaker 2>Just you just pause, Yes, you pause, and that pause

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<v Speaker 2>that is the mechanical foundation of everything we call personality. Wow,

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<v Speaker 2>because we are looking at a framework here that directly

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<v Speaker 2>maps onto the mechanics of neuroplasticity. We aren't dealing in,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, abstract philosophy about finding yourself right.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not a self help cliche, no.

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<v Speaker 3>Not at all.

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<v Speaker 2>This is the actual measurable neuroscience of how your brain

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<v Speaker 2>logs those microscopic moments of hesitation and how it literally

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<v Speaker 2>uses them to physically rewrite the neural circuitry of who

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<v Speaker 2>you are.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So to really get to the bottom of how

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<v Speaker 1>we build that circuitry, we first have to demolish this

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<v Speaker 1>universal myth about what identity actually is. Oh, absolutely, because

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<v Speaker 1>society treats identity like a permanent possession, like it's a

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<v Speaker 1>fixed set of traits. You hear people say, Oh, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just an anxious person, or I lack discipline, I'm.

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<v Speaker 2>Someone who always loses my temper. Yeah right.

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<v Speaker 1>We say these things as if they are bio logical constants,

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<v Speaker 1>like having brown eyes or being six feet tall.

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<v Speaker 2>And it's a very compelling illusion because it feels entirely

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<v Speaker 2>true to our daily experience. I mean it does, right,

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<v Speaker 2>The anxious person really does feel that baseline of anxiety consistently.

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<v Speaker 2>The person who loses their temper experiences that explosive reactivity.

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<v Speaker 3>All the time.

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<v Speaker 1>So the patterns are real.

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<v Speaker 2>The patterns are undeniably real, but society completely misidentifies the

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<v Speaker 2>nature of those patterns. What's fascinating here is that those

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<v Speaker 2>behavioral loops, they are not your permanent core identity. Wait,

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<v Speaker 2>really no, they are simply the accumulated evidence of your

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<v Speaker 2>past choices, and your nervous system has just organized that

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<v Speaker 2>evidence into a coherent, highly efficient story.

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<v Speaker 1>So these are past choices that were mostly made on autopilot,

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<v Speaker 1>right exactly. We're talking about reactions that happen before conscious

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<v Speaker 1>thought even enters the picture.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, most of those past choices were executed completely automatically,

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<v Speaker 2>without what the source material calls the chooser.

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<v Speaker 1>Being active, the chooser being your conscious deliberate itself.

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<v Speaker 3>Right.

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<v Speaker 2>So, over years and decades, your nervous system takes all

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<v Speaker 2>those automatic reactions, bundles them up, and hands you a summary. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>so when you say I am an undisciplined person, you're

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<v Speaker 2>essentially just reading back a historical ledger of what your

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<v Speaker 2>automatic habits did in the past. Wow, it's a lagging indicator.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a narrative, not a life sentence.

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<v Speaker 1>I love that. So identity isn't this this carved stone

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<v Speaker 1>statue that we carry around on our backs forever. It's

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<v Speaker 1>more like a live streaming document that the brain is

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<v Speaker 1>constantly editing in real time.

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<v Speaker 3>That is a perfect way to put it.

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<v Speaker 1>But let me push back on this a little bit. Sure,

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<v Speaker 1>because if my brain is just this highly adaptable, constantly

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<v Speaker 1>updating document, why does it feel so incredibly frustratingly hard

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<v Speaker 1>to change who we are?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 3>That's the million dollar question.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, I mean, if I can just update the document,

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<v Speaker 1>why does breaking a habit feel like trying to move

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<v Speaker 1>a mountain?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, the friction you're feeling there isn't the permanence of

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<v Speaker 2>your identity. It's the physical density of your neural pathway. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>your brain is essentially an energy conservation machine. It loves efficiency.

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<v Speaker 1>It wants to take the easiest road always.

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<v Speaker 2>The automatic pathways running those habits you want to change,

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<v Speaker 2>they've been fired millions of times. They are heavily milinated

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<v Speaker 2>super highways where electricity just travels with zero resistance.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's effortless to do the bad habit exactly.

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<v Speaker 2>So when the chooser steps in, you're basically asking your

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<v Speaker 2>brain to divert rushing water from a deep ancient river

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<v Speaker 2>canyon into a completely dry ditch.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wow, Yeah, that sounds exhausting.

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<v Speaker 2>It requires an immense amount of conscious dam building and

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<v Speaker 2>metabolic energy to force the flow of electricity down that

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<v Speaker 2>new path.

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<v Speaker 1>And we usually try to force that water into the

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<v Speaker 1>new ditch by setting these massive life altering goals, which

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<v Speaker 1>brings us to the trap of how we usually attempt

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<v Speaker 1>to change ourselves well setting, Because if the brain requires continuous,

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<v Speaker 1>real time evidence to update our identity like we're talking about,

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<v Speaker 1>then goal based change is structurally doomed from the star.

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<v Speaker 3>It really is.

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<v Speaker 1>You see this everywhere. The classic example is the January

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<v Speaker 1>first fitness resolution.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh of course, you.

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<v Speaker 1>Know, you buy the expensive running shoes, You lock yourself

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<v Speaker 1>into that twelve month gym contract, You go intensely hard.

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<v Speaker 3>For three weeks, and by mid February these.

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<v Speaker 1>Shoes are just sitting in the back of the closet. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and the membership just becomes this monthly guilt trip on

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<v Speaker 1>your bank statement.

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<v Speaker 2>So true, and the problem with The goal based approach

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<v Speaker 2>becomes glaringly obvious when you look at the temporal mechanics

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<v Speaker 2>of the brain.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, temporal mechanics, break that down for me.

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<v Speaker 3>Sure.

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<v Speaker 2>So, goal based change anchors your motivation to a very

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<v Speaker 2>specific question, which is what do I want to achieve?

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<v Speaker 2>And by its very definition, a goal is external to you,

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<v Speaker 2>and it exists entirely in the future.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a finish line, exactly. And the problem with the

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<v Speaker 1>finish line is that once you cross it, the race

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<v Speaker 1>is over.

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<v Speaker 2>Or if you realize you're too far behind to win,

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<v Speaker 2>you just walk off the track entirely.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, why even keep running?

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<v Speaker 2>Exactly? Because the goal is in the future. The moment

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<v Speaker 2>you either achieve it or abandon it, the dopamine driven

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<v Speaker 2>motivation completely collapses.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh man, that makes so much sense.

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<v Speaker 2>Think about someone whose sole goal is to lose ten

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<v Speaker 2>pounds for a high school reunion. Sure, the reunion happens,

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<v Speaker 2>the weekend passes, and suddenly there is zero neurological incentive

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<v Speaker 2>to go for a run on Monday morning.

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<v Speaker 1>The reason for doing it is just gone.

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<v Speaker 2>The behavior loses its anchor. Identity by contrast, is internal

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<v Speaker 2>and present. It's not a destination you arrive at. It's

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<v Speaker 2>an ongoing description of the hardware you are operating Right now.

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<v Speaker 1>I see the distinction. So if I want to be

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<v Speaker 1>a healthy person, I shouldn't be obsessing over the external

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<v Speaker 1>metric of losing ten pounds.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh not at all.

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<v Speaker 1>The primary question running in the background shouldn't be what

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<v Speaker 1>do I want to achieve? It should be who am

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<v Speaker 1>I becoming?

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, because a person who operates from the identity of

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<v Speaker 2>someone who makes healthy choices, They don't fail motivation collapse

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<v Speaker 2>after thirty days, right, They don't stop when they hit

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<v Speaker 2>a target weight because the choice isn't a strained effort

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<v Speaker 2>toward an external state anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>It's just who they are.

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<v Speaker 2>It is simply an expression of their current reality. The

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<v Speaker 2>choices continue because they are a reflection of that newly

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<v Speaker 2>updated self referential network.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, but this brings up a huge question. If our

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<v Speaker 1>identity requires this real time evidence to update, how do

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<v Speaker 1>we actually give the brain that data?

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<v Speaker 3>Right? How do you make the swish?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? How do we convince the nervous system to rewrite

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<v Speaker 1>the ledger? Well, here's where it gets really interesting. The

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<v Speaker 1>source material references a brilliant framework from the habit researcher

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<v Speaker 1>James Clear.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, yes, the voting concept exactly.

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<v Speaker 1>He says, every single action you take is a vote

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<v Speaker 1>for the type of person you wish to become.

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<v Speaker 2>And the concept of a vote maps perfectly onto how

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<v Speaker 2>synaptic weights shift in the brain. How so well, a

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<v Speaker 2>single vote doesn't guarantee an election victory, right right, And

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<v Speaker 2>a single behavioral choice doesn't permanently alter your personality overnight.

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<v Speaker 2>But the steady accumulation of those votes, that is what

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<v Speaker 2>shifts a balance of power within your neural networks.

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<v Speaker 1>And these aren't votes cast on some grand stage with

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<v Speaker 1>an audience cheering you on.

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<v Speaker 3>No, not.

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<v Speaker 1>Usually they're cast in total obscurity. Like think about the

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<v Speaker 1>craving that hits at eleven o'clock at night. You are

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<v Speaker 1>completely alone in the.

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<v Speaker 3>Kitchen steering into the fridge.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, There is no audience, nobody is keeping a record

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<v Speaker 1>of what you eat. But you pause and you make

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<v Speaker 1>the choice to close the fridge and walk away. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>the chooser was present, a vote was cast.

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<v Speaker 2>Or consider the interpersonal moments you know, yeah, you're in

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<v Speaker 2>a highly tense conversation with your partner or a colleague.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, I've been there.

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<v Speaker 2>We all have the familiar urge to snap back with

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<v Speaker 2>a sharp, defensive comment just rises up.

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<v Speaker 1>You can feel it in your chest.

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<v Speaker 2>You really can. But instead you just pause. You take

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<v Speaker 2>a single breath before responding.

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<v Speaker 1>And nobody praises you for that breath exactly.

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<v Speaker 2>The conversation just moves on, but internally, a huge deposit

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<v Speaker 2>was made into a new neural pathway.

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<v Speaker 1>It's the same thing with like the unhelpful, highly reactive

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<v Speaker 1>text message you furiously type out, oh yeah, and then

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<v Speaker 1>you delete it instead of hitting send. It's a secret

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<v Speaker 1>ballot for your nervous system. Nobody knows you showed restraint,

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<v Speaker 1>because nobody even knew you were tempted in the first place.

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<v Speaker 2>But you hearing this right now might be thinking, sure,

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<v Speaker 2>a deep breath or a delete attack sounds nice, but

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<v Speaker 2>that isn't going to fix my explosive anger or my

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<v Speaker 2>deep seated anxiety.

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<v Speaker 1>It sounds too small.

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<v Speaker 3>It does, But what you.

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<v Speaker 2>Have to realize is that neurologically, that single breath isn't

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<v Speaker 2>just a psychological pause, it's an actual chemical circuit breaker.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wow.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>When you interrupt that automatic sequence, you are actively preventing

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<v Speaker 2>the release of the neurotransmitters that reinforce the old habit loop.

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<v Speaker 1>So you're literally starving the old habit exactly.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, your nervous system is constantly counting those votes, tabulating

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<v Speaker 2>the micro evidence of who you are right now.

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<v Speaker 1>There's something incredibly liberating about this mechanism too, because the

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<v Speaker 1>evidence has to come first. You do not need to

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<v Speaker 1>genuinely believe the new identity before you start casting those votes.

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<v Speaker 2>Belief follows the evidence, not the other way around. Right,

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<v Speaker 2>You don't need to feel like a deeply calm, zen

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<v Speaker 1>Which is such a relief.

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<v Speaker 3>It really is.

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<v Speaker 2>You don't need to feel like a highly disciplined athlete

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<v Speaker 2>to resist the craving at eleven PM. You just have

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<v Speaker 2>to execute the physical action of the chooser.

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<v Speaker 1>You just cast the vote.

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<v Speaker 2>Just cast the vote. Once you act, the brain updates

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<v Speaker 2>the file. The self referential network adjusts its narrative based

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<v Speaker 1>You act first, and the belief catches up later.

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<v Speaker 3>Precisely, I mean, we.

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<v Speaker 1>Have to deal with the reality of being human here.

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<v Speaker 1>We are going to cast the wrong vote. It's completely inevitable,

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<v Speaker 1>one hundred percent. So what happens when the chooser is awake?

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<v Speaker 1>You're totally conscious of the moment, you know what you

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<v Speaker 3>You lose the battle.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you eat the thing, you send the incredibly angry text,

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<v Speaker 1>You totally lose your temper.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, this raises an important question because the fallout from

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<v Speaker 1>The crushing weight of self criticism. The internal monologue kicks

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<v Speaker 1>in immediately. I knew better, I'm trying to change, and

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<v Speaker 1>it still failed. I will never be different. This is

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<v Speaker 3>It's brutal.

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<v Speaker 1>But let me play Devil's advocate here for a second.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, go for It isn't.

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<v Speaker 1>Self criticism, just a harsh form of accountability. Like if

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<v Speaker 1>I don't beat myself up for eating the cake at

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<v Speaker 1>gonna think it's perfectly acceptable to do it again tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 3>That's what we all think.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, doesn't the brain require that intense negative reinforcement to

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<v Speaker 2>That is the assumption most of us operate under, but

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<v Speaker 2>it completely misunderstands the biology of learning and behavioral change. Really, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>when you intensely criticize yourself, your brain precedes a threat.

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<v Speaker 2>It does not distinguish between a physical predator and your

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my gosh. So it treats me yelling at myself

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<v Speaker 1>like a tiger in the room.

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<v Speaker 3>Exactly so.

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<v Speaker 2>It triggers an immediate cortisol spike and activates the threat response.

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<v Speaker 1>Which means we are dealing with an amygdala hijack.

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<v Speaker 2>Precisely the opposite of what you want. The threat response

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<v Speaker 2>triggers the limbic system, which overrides your prefrontal cortex.

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<v Speaker 1>And the prefrontal cortex is the good part, right, yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, The prefrontal cortex is the seed of the chooser.

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<v Speaker 2>It's where your impulse control, your future planning, and your

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<v Speaker 3>Lift.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait, so by beating yourself up in the name of accountability,

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<v Speaker 2>you are literally shutting down the exact part of the

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<v Speaker 1>That is wild.

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<v Speaker 3>You induce a state.

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<v Speaker 2>Of cognitive narrowing, forcing your nervous system back into its

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<v Speaker 2>most deep, ingrained, privitive survival pathways. Self criticism doesn't build accountability,

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<v Speaker 2>It actively destroys your neurological capacity for conscious choice in

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<v Speaker 1>So by trying to whip ourselves into shape, we are

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<v Speaker 1>literally handing the steering wheel right back to the autopilot

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<v Speaker 3>That is exactly what we're doing.

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<v Speaker 1>Unbelievable. Okay, So if we can't beat ourselves up, but

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<v Speaker 1>we also shouldn't just, you know, blissfully ignore the fact

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<v Speaker 1>that we messed up. What is the protocol for failure?

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<v Speaker 2>The protocol is neutral observation. Neutral observation, you look at

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<v Speaker 2>the failure purely as incoming data. You say to yourself, Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>the automatic response won that round. The chooser was present,

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<v Speaker 2>but the habit ran anyway, so no judgment. You strip

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<v Speaker 2>away the moral judgment completely. You treat the failure simply

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<v Speaker 1>And once you've observed it neutrally, you move to the

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<v Speaker 1>critical next step. You ask yourself, what would the chooser

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<v Speaker 2>But you don't ask get as a stressful white knuckle

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<v Speaker 2>promise to never fail again. You ask it to trigger

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<v Speaker 1>This blew my mind when I read it.

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<v Speaker 3>It's amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>It is literally a fire drill for the brain because

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<v Speaker 1>the brain relies on the exact same motor planning neural networks,

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<v Speaker 2>That is the profound power of mental rehearsal. When you

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<v Speaker 2>take a moment after a failure to calmly and vividly

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<v Speaker 2>imagine yourself making the better choice next time, the neurons

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<v Speaker 1>That feels like a cheat code.

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<v Speaker 2>It kind of is y. Your brain begins generating myolin,

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<v Speaker 2>which is the fatty sheet that wraps around neural pathways

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<v Speaker 1>So even if you lose the battle in the physical world,

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<v Speaker 1>by mentally rehearsing the right choice afterward, you are still

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, exactly.

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<v Speaker 1>The deposit into the new neural pathway might be slightly

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<v Speaker 1>it is fundamentally altering the synaptic weights the chooser can

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<v Speaker 1>still practice. In the wreckage of a bad habit.

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<v Speaker 2>You are continuing to lay the groundwork for that new

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<v Speaker 2>with your neurobiology instead of fighting against it. I love

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<v Speaker 2>that you use the failure as a prompt to fire

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<v Speaker 2>the correct sequence. It is truly the only way to

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<v Speaker 1>So what does this all mean for us walking around

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<v Speaker 1>our daily lives. When we pull all these biological and

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<v Speaker 1>psychological threads together, we realize that strong decisions, the ones

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<v Speaker 3>Not at all.

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<v Speaker 1>A strong decision is simply a conscious one. It's the

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<v Speaker 1>tiny agonizing pause before the anger takes over. It's the

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<v Speaker 1>half second of noticing before the harsh words leave your mouth.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and these quiet decisions aren't easy. In fact, fighting

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<v Speaker 2>the momentum of an ancient river canyon is profoundly difficult.

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<v Speaker 2>But they are strong because they are deliberately chosen and.

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<v Speaker 1>If you can consistently accumulate those tiny quiet choices, the

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<v Speaker 1>transformation will happen, the way it always does in human development. Slowly,

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<v Speaker 1>then suddenly you will wake up one day, look back

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<v Speaker 1>at the pattern of your recent choices and recognize someone

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<v Speaker 1>you didn't used to be. You'll recognize an identity that

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<v Speaker 3>You're actually in control.

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<v Speaker 1>You have to respect the weight of the quiet choices

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<v Speaker 1>you've already been making. You know, you may have made

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<v Speaker 1>them imperfectly and inconsistently, but if they were genuine, your

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<v Speaker 1>nervous system was logging the data. You are guiding the

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<v Speaker 1>machinery now, not just being driven by it.

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<v Speaker 2>It is a quiet internal revolution, which leads us with

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<v Speaker 2>one final thing for you to ponder today.

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<v Speaker 1>We just walked through the mechanics of how the brain

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<v Speaker 1>genuinely logs your vivid mental rehearsals as neural votes, and

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<v Speaker 1>we know that your identity is nothing more than the

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<v Speaker 1>accumulated evidence of all those past But so simply pausing

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<v Speaker 1>right now wherever you are to intensely and vividly imagine

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<v Speaker 1>the person you want to choose to be tomorrow be

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<v Speaker 1>Until next time, keep casting those quiet votes.