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<v Speaker 4>host journalist and author Dan Zufanski, Good Evening. In January

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<v Speaker 4>of nineteen ninety five, seventeen year old Vizette Martinez met

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<v Speaker 4>Grammy winning musician and record producer R Kelly at a

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<v Speaker 4>venture mall in Florida where he was performing. At first,

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<v Speaker 4>It's seemed that her hopes of becoming a professional singer

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<v Speaker 4>were about to come true when he offered to help

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<v Speaker 4>boost her career. However, this mentorship quickly turned into sexual grooming,

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<v Speaker 4>leading to years of physical, emotional, and sexual abuse. After

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<v Speaker 4>struggling to free herself of the relationship and rebuild on

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<v Speaker 4>her own Lyzette's successful new life far away from the

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<v Speaker 4>entertainment industry was interrupted in twenty seventeen by allegations against R.

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<v Speaker 4>Kelly by other women This led to her coming forward

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<v Speaker 4>to the authorities with their own history of abuse by

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<v Speaker 4>the Music Icon. In January twenty nineteen, she participated with

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<v Speaker 4>other survivors in a documentary series with Lifetime called Surviving R.

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<v Speaker 5>Kelly. It should have been a healing and left them

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<v Speaker 5>feeling abandoned and fearful for their lives. In August twenty

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<v Speaker 5>twenty one, Kelly went on trial in New York on

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<v Speaker 5>racketeering and sex trafficking charges, who was found guilt fee

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<v Speaker 5>of all charges. The book that we're featuring this evening

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<v Speaker 5>is Jane Doe number nine, How I Survived R. Kelly,

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<v Speaker 5>with my special guest, author, survivor and activist Lizette Martinez.

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<v Speaker 5>Welcome to the program, and thank you very much for

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<v Speaker 5>this interview. Lizette Martinez, Thank you, Hi, thank you for

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<v Speaker 5>having me. Thank you so much. This is a remarkable

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<v Speaker 5>book and a remarkable window into something that we just

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<v Speaker 5>we only think that we may understand. So congratulations on

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<v Speaker 5>this book. Before we even start, let's get to.

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<v Speaker 4>You.

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<v Speaker 5>Say. At seventeen, your family moves to Miami Beach and

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<v Speaker 5>you're a senior in high school. Tell us about your

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<v Speaker 5>best friend, Michelle, but more importantly, tell us about your

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<v Speaker 5>what kind of family you come from, and what's going

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<v Speaker 5>on at that time, and just tell us about your

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<v Speaker 5>background and your family's backgrounds.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, well, I'm from originally from New York. We're Puerto Ricans.

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<v Speaker 2>We moved to Miami Beach from Hollywood, so that was

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<v Speaker 2>like the third high school that I had gone to,

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<v Speaker 2>which was kind of tough. You know, it was moving

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<v Speaker 2>around a lot. Things weren't very stable at home. My

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<v Speaker 2>parents were very hard working but having a really rough time.

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<v Speaker 2>There was some situations going on at home. And I

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<v Speaker 2>only say this so that the readers and your listeners

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<v Speaker 2>can understand where my head space was at during that time.

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<v Speaker 2>There was a lot of commotion going on in the home,

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<v Speaker 2>but wonderful parents. They tried their best. We moved to

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<v Speaker 2>Miami from a big house in Hollywood till to a

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<v Speaker 2>little tiny studio where it was my brother, my younger brother,

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<v Speaker 2>my stepfather, and my mom and myself living in a

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<v Speaker 2>one room apartment. So I was really, you know, a

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<v Speaker 2>kid that was kind of like embarrassed. I couldn't bring

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<v Speaker 2>really friends over and I just really wanted to be

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<v Speaker 2>out of the house. Everyone was in each other's hair,

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<v Speaker 2>It was a typical you know, it was a typical family.

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<v Speaker 2>We we were happy. You know, my mom struggled a

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<v Speaker 2>bit with with alcohol and so sometimes there were fights

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<v Speaker 2>in the house. She's a phenomenal woman, but you know,

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<v Speaker 2>there were things going on that I really didn't want

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<v Speaker 2>to be around. My best friend Michelle. We've been friends

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<v Speaker 2>for since we were twelve years old, and she was

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<v Speaker 2>like a mother to me, and I tried to spend

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<v Speaker 2>as much time out of my house so I would always,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, hang out with her. When we were seventeen,

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<v Speaker 2>when I moved back to Miami and we were together again.

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<v Speaker 2>So it was a good time. Despite all that that

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<v Speaker 2>was going on, I had my best friend who was

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<v Speaker 2>very strong and still to this day very strong.

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<v Speaker 5>You talk about you were in high school, but you

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<v Speaker 5>talked a little bit later in the book. But I

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<v Speaker 5>think we should talk about it now in terms of

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<v Speaker 5>did you experience any abuse when you were young? Before

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<v Speaker 5>we talk about that abuse, or after we talk about

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<v Speaker 5>that abuse, we can talk about what your aspirations were,

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<v Speaker 5>what you had in mind for a career in your life.

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<v Speaker 2>Even as a yes, I mean I always love you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Linda rods Stamp Bette Midler Reata Franklin. I love music.

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<v Speaker 2>My dad is a lot and percussionist and so music,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I was always around music. His cousin was

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<v Speaker 2>a very famous drummer who played with Dizzy Gillespie and

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<v Speaker 2>all these jazz giants. And my mother was an Acro

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<v Speaker 2>Cuban dancer. So music was always around. And the arts,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, my uncle was an actor and and so

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<v Speaker 2>I had a lot of dreams. I really wanted to

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<v Speaker 2>be a performer. I wanted to be like Gloria Stefan,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, at that age, I just loved her so much,

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<v Speaker 2>and I had a great voice, and so I really

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<v Speaker 2>thought that I could make it. You know, I had

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of dreams. Despite all the turmoil and like

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<v Speaker 2>you said, the abuse and stuff that happened to me

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<v Speaker 2>at a young age, I saw myself being different. I

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<v Speaker 2>felt different. I felt that I could make it with

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<v Speaker 2>anything that I wanted to.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, right, what about that abuse when you were young?

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<v Speaker 5>What are these just to not dwell on these events,

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<v Speaker 5>but what are the kind of pivotal events that people

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<v Speaker 5>abused you when you were young?

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<v Speaker 2>You know, A close family friend when I was around

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<v Speaker 2>six or seven, and then it happened again with a babysitter,

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<v Speaker 2>and then it happened again with another family friend. So

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<v Speaker 2>I had already experienced some abuse there, sexual abuse, and

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<v Speaker 2>it marked me, you know, but I still was kind

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<v Speaker 2>of a happy kid despite that. You know, my mom

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<v Speaker 2>kind of like she knew, she knew what happened, and

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<v Speaker 2>she defended me. So I was okay, you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>thought I was okay.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah. Now it's January nineteen ninety five, like we say

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<v Speaker 5>in the introduction, and you're seventeen years old and you're

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<v Speaker 5>with your bestie Michelle, and you're at the said Adventure

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<v Speaker 5>mall in Florida. So who's there with you? And what

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<v Speaker 5>are you guys doing? And how's it come to be

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<v Speaker 5>that you even recognized R Kelly?

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<v Speaker 2>So it was just a typical day, you know, it

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<v Speaker 2>was January, so I think we had like a Pepperriri

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<v Speaker 2>that day. So I asked my mom to go to

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<v Speaker 2>the mall Aventeer Mall and aventurf Florida, which is Miami,

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<v Speaker 2>and she allowed me to and it was like four

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<v Speaker 2>of us and my bestie was actually working at a

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<v Speaker 2>clothing store, so we said, let's go visit Michelle and

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<v Speaker 2>that's what we did. And we're just walking around, just

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<v Speaker 2>teenage kids, you know, your windows, shopping and and then

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<v Speaker 2>I just see this this person with a with a

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<v Speaker 2>with a It was a very tall man, seven feet

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<v Speaker 2>I and and a bunch of other guys, so it

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<v Speaker 2>was like an entourage, and he looked very important. But

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<v Speaker 2>I had gone to and a concert a year before

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<v Speaker 2>of R. Kelly's because I was in a singing group,

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<v Speaker 2>an R and B group, and the manager wanted us

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<v Speaker 2>to go see Aliyah. Aliah never made it to the concert,

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<v Speaker 2>so that's how I knew of him. I recognized him

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<v Speaker 2>because we were very close to the stage and I

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<v Speaker 2>got a really good look at him. I wasn't really

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<v Speaker 2>a fan of that type of music. It was a

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<v Speaker 2>like really hypersexual and my parents wouldn't like that, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>so I didn't really care for it. But I he

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<v Speaker 2>was a giant already in the world of music, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>He was a great producer, and I loved Aliyah's music.

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<v Speaker 2>So I recognized him right away, and I said to

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<v Speaker 2>my friend, that's I think that's R. Kelly. That looks

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<v Speaker 2>like R Kelly.

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<v Speaker 5>That's R.

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<v Speaker 2>Kelly. And she said, why would you be at the

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<v Speaker 2>mall and I said, I just laughed. I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess he's at the mall. And he heard me

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<v Speaker 2>and turned around and came straight up to me and

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<v Speaker 2>gave me a big old hug and asked me my

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<v Speaker 2>a like first CUP was like, oh, how are you?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Robert, And then it was like how do you?

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<v Speaker 2>What school do you go to? You know, these questions,

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<v Speaker 2>and then we said goodbye, and he said he was

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<v Speaker 2>recording an album. I told him I was a singer

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<v Speaker 2>right away. I said I'm an inspiring singer and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>writing music. And he was like, oh, really, I'm working

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<v Speaker 2>at the studio. You know, maybe I can help you.

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<v Speaker 2>And I was like really, like son, you know, like

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<v Speaker 2>here it is. My dream's about to come true. And

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<v Speaker 2>he just said goodbye, and I said good aye, a

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<v Speaker 2>nice meeting you. And I kind of just left it

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<v Speaker 2>like that, and then his bodyguard returned like a few

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<v Speaker 2>minutes later with a piece of paper with his with

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<v Speaker 2>Robert's phone number on it and said, oh, R Kelly

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<v Speaker 2>would like you to call him. And I just took

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<v Speaker 2>the paper and I was just like shocked.

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<v Speaker 5>And when Michelle came out, m h, what did Michelle. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>what did Michelle have to say about this? What did

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<v Speaker 5>she advise?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, she she was uh, she said, what's going on?

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<v Speaker 2>And she came off out of work and I just

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<v Speaker 2>told her what happened and she goes, yeah, I saw,

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<v Speaker 2>and she says, maybe you should call him. This could

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<v Speaker 2>be your big break. You know, he helped Aliyah, And

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<v Speaker 2>that's really what we thought, you know, we just had

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<v Speaker 2>that in our minds, not realizing he was a creditor,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, at that point. So then we went to

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<v Speaker 2>meet him after a few hours later.

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<v Speaker 5>You talk about that. Let's tell our audience about that,

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<v Speaker 5>because it's just odd and it sets the stage for

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<v Speaker 5>how your relationship really is, despite what you might have

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<v Speaker 5>wanted it to be, but what it really is. So

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<v Speaker 5>he calls you and says to meet you at this

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<v Speaker 5>meet them at the Sports Authority. So tell us about this,

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<v Speaker 2>So we get ready, we get dressed, We have a

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<v Speaker 2>they were shopping there, which is near right across from

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't know what was happening. But you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>wanted to help my family more than anything. I also, like,

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<v Speaker 2>I really wanted to help my family get out of

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<v Speaker 2>like if I could make music and get a recording contract,

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<v Speaker 2>everyone's problems would be solved, you know. So I so

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<v Speaker 2>we went to meet him, and it was like a

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<v Speaker 2>bunch of guys and Aliah's uncle, Barry Hankerson was there.

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<v Speaker 2>So we felt like, you know, we knew about We

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<v Speaker 2>spoke about the rumors, Michelle and I about him and Aliyah,

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<v Speaker 2>but back then there was on social media. They put

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<v Speaker 2>us to sleep very quickly. You know, they put that

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<v Speaker 2>so that went away quickly, you know what I mean. So,

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<v Speaker 2>and I say this because when we when we sat down,

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<v Speaker 2>But that was the right question. I mean, she was right,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, And he said, don't believe everything you hear,

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<v Speaker 2>and then he introduced us to Barry as Aliah's uncle.

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<v Speaker 2>So we said, okay, well, I mean, why would her

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<v Speaker 2>uncle be with him managing him if he did that

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<v Speaker 2>to his knee? So that is the logic in my mind,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what I mean, like, why would anyone still be,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, working with this person if that was true.

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<v Speaker 2>So we just said okay, m hmm.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah. You know what I thought was just interesting and

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<v Speaker 5>fascinating and sort of just very cinematic, was you go

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<v Speaker 5>into this outback steakhouse. Again, not a super fancy place,

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<v Speaker 5>but you go in there and your friends from high

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<v Speaker 5>school are working in there and quizzing you on what

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<v Speaker 5>you're even doing in there. They can't believe the superstar

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, yeah, they couldn't believe it. Everyone was a big

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<v Speaker 2>deal and and yeah it was a simple restaurant, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and everyone was just like, what are you guys doing here?

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<v Speaker 2>And we're just like Michelle tells them shut up and

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<v Speaker 2>keeps walking. It's funny. I mean, the book is the

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<v Speaker 2>book is something else.

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<v Speaker 5>Right right now? He talks about going to the studio

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<v Speaker 5>right away. Do you guys go to the studio right away?

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<v Speaker 5>And if so, what happens? Tell us about that incredible.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, so we sat down and then I sang

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<v Speaker 2>for them and everyone clapped and Barry Hankerson said, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>you did so well and you're a really good singer.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's go to the studio, Robert said. So we head

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<v Speaker 2>to the studio, and I'm like, we're really going to

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<v Speaker 2>the studio, you know, like it just seems crazy and

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<v Speaker 2>so off the wall bizarre, like this is really happening.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I was so excited. But during the dinner,

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<v Speaker 2>I want them to know that he put his hand

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<v Speaker 2>on my on my leg, and that was kind of

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<v Speaker 2>like wet red flag a little bit. It brought me

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<v Speaker 2>back to like what had happened to me as a

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<v Speaker 2>child at that moment. But then I was like, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>just gonna you know, I just put his hand aside,

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<v Speaker 2>and he didn't, you know, he just stopped. So I

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<v Speaker 2>just felt like, Okay, let's just keep going and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>with my best friend and nothing's gonna happen to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's just see what happened.

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<v Speaker 5>Right.

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<v Speaker 2>So we get to the studio, right. So we get

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<v Speaker 2>to the studio and right away they separate Michelle and I.

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<v Speaker 2>They took her to another room where there was a

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<v Speaker 2>TV and pool tables her his cousin was talking to her.

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<v Speaker 2>And then Robert took me into the studio room and

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<v Speaker 2>he started playing music and then I started singing, and

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<v Speaker 2>then there was a kiss out of nowhere, which was

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't kiss back. I just froze, and then he said, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry, and and then he just went back to

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<v Speaker 2>his music stuff. And then I said, I think it's

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<v Speaker 2>time for me to go home. And Michelle came out

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<v Speaker 2>and she was very upset that she wasn't like, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>they rushed her away from me, right, And when we

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<v Speaker 2>got home, she said, I don't know about it. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>he's kind of creepy. And I hadn't even told her

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<v Speaker 2>about the hand or the kiss yet, and right, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so that was the beginning.

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<v Speaker 5>You say about the next day he calls and he

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<v Speaker 5>says I want you to come back, or he calls

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<v Speaker 5>you later and says I want you to come back tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 5>You got a swimsuit, you know how to swim, you

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<v Speaker 5>can teach me. And then of course you just bring

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<v Speaker 5>your swimsuit and he just watches you right, right, And his.

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<v Speaker 2>Thing was I don't swim, because first it was let

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<v Speaker 2>me teach you, and then it was I don't swim

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<v Speaker 2>because a friend of his had drowned when they were kids,

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<v Speaker 2>and so I I don't know. It was really really weird,

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<v Speaker 2>but it was a strange time, you know, thinking back

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<v Speaker 2>as an adult, he was just a total predator, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>but he was acting like he was juveil like a kid,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, so you kind of feel like you're with

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<v Speaker 2>hanging out with someone that you would be hanging out

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<v Speaker 2>from high school, like a high school senior. It's so weird,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, at times he's like a predator and then

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<v Speaker 2>the other times he's just like a kid. Which I

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<v Speaker 2>don't understand that he.

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<v Speaker 5>Knew you had a curfew, so he knew you were

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<v Speaker 5>in high school. He also you said, hey, I got

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<v Speaker 5>a curfew and I got to go. So what was

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<v Speaker 5>the situation in terms of letting your parents know about

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<v Speaker 5>this and how did he end up communicating with you

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<v Speaker 5>to be able to continue seeing you?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I spent like, well, there was one time where

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<v Speaker 2>he called right when I met him, Like you're saying,

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<v Speaker 2>at that time, he called my house. Well, we didn't

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<v Speaker 2>have a landline, we didn't we didn't have a phone line.

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<v Speaker 2>The woman that owned the house, that lived in the

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<v Speaker 2>other half of the house did and somehow, some way

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<v Speaker 2>he got the phone number. I don't even know how,

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<v Speaker 2>but he called and my parents, Yeah, it was because

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<v Speaker 2>I was never allowed to give the number out and

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<v Speaker 2>I would never I would just be in trouble, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>So he called and said to the woman, I would

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<v Speaker 2>like to be soilicette, and she said she cannot receive

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<v Speaker 2>phone calls here and hung up apparently, so I don't

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<v Speaker 2>know how he got that number. It's really weird. But

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<v Speaker 2>then he called Michelle's house and that's how I got

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<v Speaker 2>the information from him, or I got to speak to him,

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<v Speaker 2>because she would give me the messages at school. She

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<v Speaker 2>would beat me, and that's how we communicated. My parents

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<v Speaker 2>had no idea you know, what was going on whatsoever?

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<v Speaker 5>Mm hmm. When did you tell him that he needed

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<v Speaker 5>to talk to your parents to be able to really

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<v Speaker 5>be able to work with you? Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>Right away, right right away. We spoke about my parents

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<v Speaker 2>and his answer to me was, you know his during

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<v Speaker 2>the dinner. During the dinner we spoke about my parents,

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<v Speaker 2>where I said to him, you know, my parents are

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<v Speaker 2>very strict. They don't really like your kind of music,

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<v Speaker 2>and he said, well, your your parents, it's not for

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<v Speaker 2>your parents, And right then and there, I knew he

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<v Speaker 2>was like, that's going to be a weird meeting. But

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<v Speaker 2>you know, when we spoke about my parents and meeting

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<v Speaker 2>my parents, he would always say yeah, yeah, yeah, and

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<v Speaker 2>then put it off or say that my parents are

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<v Speaker 2>not going to understand him, that my friends are going

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<v Speaker 2>to be very jealous of me. So he was slowly

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<v Speaker 2>there grooming me to start letting people go in my

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<v Speaker 2>life or to become isolated. You know, he was isolating

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<v Speaker 2>me very early on.

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<v Speaker 5>Right when you're in the studio and you do offer

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<v Speaker 5>some input, thinking that you're collaborating or you're working together

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<v Speaker 5>or you're working on material, what kind of behavior does

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<v Speaker 5>he exhibit?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, he he doesn't read or write. And I didn't

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<v Speaker 2>know that. So I don't think any really, anyone really

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<v Speaker 2>knew that. I mean, we had an idea that something

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<v Speaker 2>was wrong, but because of the way he was formulating

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<v Speaker 2>his sentences and stuff, so he sang a line and

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<v Speaker 2>it made absolutely no sense. So I said, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>the engineer looked at me. Everyone looked at each other

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<v Speaker 2>like okay, and they looked scared. I didn't know why

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<v Speaker 2>they were afraid, you know, they looked like they were

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<v Speaker 2>afraid to say something. I mean, like really scared. So

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<v Speaker 2>I just said, well, this is the way you say it,

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<v Speaker 2>and this this is the proper way of thing. And

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<v Speaker 2>he just humiliated me, berated me, yelled at me, said oh,

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<v Speaker 2>are you trying to get some worlds? He's off of me.

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<v Speaker 2>And that was the first time that I saw that other,

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<v Speaker 2>real nasty side of him. And after he did that

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<v Speaker 2>to me, he later came back and to sit down

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<v Speaker 2>next to me. I mean, I was in tears. I

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<v Speaker 2>hid tochoose a bathroom and just get myself together because

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<v Speaker 2>I just felt so awful here. It is someone that

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<v Speaker 2>I want to mentor me and they're treating me like this.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, we were collaborating and that was about it,

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<v Speaker 2>you know. And so after that he sat down with

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<v Speaker 2>me and starts with the talking about his mother and

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<v Speaker 2>how she passed away and how close they were and

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<v Speaker 2>starts crying. So I think, like, if it's typical abuser,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, like daberat you, they humiliate you'll hit you,

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<v Speaker 2>they'll you know, emotionally abuse you, and then want sympathy.

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<v Speaker 2>And that's basically how that situation was, and I was

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<v Speaker 2>just like, you know, I kind of like I saw

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<v Speaker 2>these behaviors around me prior to meeting him, and it's

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<v Speaker 2>like a pattern in life. Start learning these behaviors and

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<v Speaker 2>start accepting them, because that's just the way you think

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<v Speaker 2>it is.

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<v Speaker 5>You also experience a couple times when you talk to

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<v Speaker 5>his cousin mac Or. There was a time when you

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<v Speaker 5>were in the studio and he was working with a

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<v Speaker 5>rapper and you just exchanged words. You just had a

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<v Speaker 5>brief conversation. What does he do when he takes you aside?

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<v Speaker 5>What does he have to say to you about it?

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<v Speaker 5>About this?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, he.

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<v Speaker 2>Did not like me to even look at another man

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<v Speaker 2>around him if we were sitting. I mean, it was

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<v Speaker 2>all men. I was not allowed to bring us altrin

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<v Speaker 2>with me, and so I just laughed at something and

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<v Speaker 2>he just took me out inside and just hit me

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<v Speaker 2>and just totally abused me and embarrassed me. In this.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, this dream that you have of being a

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<v Speaker 5>singing star. Now you meet R. Kelly, You're actually in

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<v Speaker 5>the studio, you are working with him on some material,

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<v Speaker 5>but this relationship is not consistent and so but at

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<v Speaker 5>the same time, you are seventeen years old. You're inexperienced

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<v Speaker 5>in relationships pretty well, and you're a virgin and this

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<v Speaker 5>man is twenty eight years old in terms of twenty

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<v Speaker 5>seventh for me. But yeah, in terms of in terms

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<v Speaker 5>of your experience, in terms of what you were looking

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<v Speaker 5>for in a relationship. You're yearning for love in a

420
00:25:16.200 --> 00:25:19.920
<v Speaker 5>dedicated relationship. What does R. Kelly give you.

421
00:25:21.960 --> 00:25:31.160
<v Speaker 2>A lot of manipulation, control, mental abuse, humiliation, And you

422
00:25:31.279 --> 00:25:36.200
<v Speaker 2>know this wasn't a relationship. This I was a young

423
00:25:36.319 --> 00:25:40.599
<v Speaker 2>girl who was, like you said, extremely inexperienced with a

424
00:25:40.640 --> 00:25:45.519
<v Speaker 2>lot of things, especially males, and I was a virgin

425
00:25:46.759 --> 00:25:52.359
<v Speaker 2>and he just set up my life and not in

426
00:25:52.480 --> 00:25:55.119
<v Speaker 2>a good way. I just was exposed to so many

427
00:25:55.240 --> 00:25:57.759
<v Speaker 2>things that I really shouldn't have been exposed to.

428
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<v Speaker 5>The thing is you have this where you go back

429
00:26:02.960 --> 00:26:08.319
<v Speaker 5>to Miami, your living conditions, even though you move, you

430
00:26:08.440 --> 00:26:11.480
<v Speaker 5>move in with your uncle, you your your aunt Carmen.

431
00:26:13.720 --> 00:26:14.119
<v Speaker 2>New York.

432
00:26:14.799 --> 00:26:17.200
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, but you do move to different locales and each

433
00:26:17.279 --> 00:26:19.359
<v Speaker 5>time he draws you back to he always wants you

434
00:26:19.440 --> 00:26:22.400
<v Speaker 5>to come back to Chicago. And you write that he

435
00:26:22.480 --> 00:26:25.680
<v Speaker 5>doesn't get you to come to as many homes. It's

436
00:26:25.759 --> 00:26:30.480
<v Speaker 5>to a hotel, room. No, what's the typical what's the

437
00:26:30.519 --> 00:26:34.400
<v Speaker 5>typical visit to Chicago? Despite what he says is going

438
00:26:34.480 --> 00:26:36.920
<v Speaker 5>to happen when you get to Chicago, what's the typical visit?

439
00:26:37.160 --> 00:26:41.000
<v Speaker 2>Like, so the typical visit was, you know, I turned eighteen,

440
00:26:41.119 --> 00:26:43.200
<v Speaker 2>and that's when I could start traveling. I guess in

441
00:26:43.319 --> 00:26:48.279
<v Speaker 2>his you know, legally I never traveled under age, but

442
00:26:48.400 --> 00:26:50.720
<v Speaker 2>once graduated, once I moved to New York City with

443
00:26:50.880 --> 00:26:54.359
<v Speaker 2>my aunt Carmen, I was able to do as I

444
00:26:54.599 --> 00:26:58.839
<v Speaker 2>you know, I wanted to and and still thinking that

445
00:26:58.920 --> 00:27:02.119
<v Speaker 2>we were going to keep continuing nuke working on music,

446
00:27:02.319 --> 00:27:06.359
<v Speaker 2>but it just turned into something like totally horrible, Like

447
00:27:06.480 --> 00:27:12.480
<v Speaker 2>you read a typical thing. Typical trip was I get there?

448
00:27:12.759 --> 00:27:13.039
<v Speaker 4>I was.

449
00:27:13.200 --> 00:27:14.880
<v Speaker 2>I thought he was going to be picking me up

450
00:27:15.160 --> 00:27:17.240
<v Speaker 2>or sn someone that I know to pick me up.

451
00:27:17.839 --> 00:27:23.640
<v Speaker 2>Instead there's a stranger there a car and you know,

452
00:27:23.799 --> 00:27:25.640
<v Speaker 2>when you're that age, you're like, oh wow, you're just

453
00:27:25.759 --> 00:27:28.680
<v Speaker 2>a limo. But I felt like, what is this? I

454
00:27:28.799 --> 00:27:33.559
<v Speaker 2>just didn't feel right, and it was I would check

455
00:27:33.640 --> 00:27:36.000
<v Speaker 2>into a hotel. I thought I was going to go

456
00:27:36.160 --> 00:27:41.279
<v Speaker 2>to the home, his apartment, the studio and you know,

457
00:27:41.559 --> 00:27:44.960
<v Speaker 2>be around him, and and it wasn't like that. I

458
00:27:45.160 --> 00:27:49.279
<v Speaker 2>was really like a sex lely. I mean literally, he

459
00:27:49.480 --> 00:27:52.519
<v Speaker 2>turned me into that. That's what it was. He would

460
00:27:52.559 --> 00:27:58.279
<v Speaker 2>come in, do what he did, abuse me, humiliate me

461
00:27:58.680 --> 00:28:03.519
<v Speaker 2>most times, drag me down a hallway, sometimes leave me

462
00:28:03.640 --> 00:28:07.559
<v Speaker 2>there without any credit card for food, stuck in a

463
00:28:07.640 --> 00:28:10.880
<v Speaker 2>hotel and just there for sex.

464
00:28:15.559 --> 00:28:21.279
<v Speaker 5>When you get the gumption to disagree with him, what

465
00:28:21.440 --> 00:28:23.880
<v Speaker 5>to say on the phone, when you don't answer his

466
00:28:24.000 --> 00:28:29.759
<v Speaker 5>calls or don't submit to his whims, how does he react?

467
00:28:32.119 --> 00:28:37.799
<v Speaker 2>He he would abandon me. He wouldn't. He would say, Okay,

468
00:28:37.880 --> 00:28:40.319
<v Speaker 2>you want to be like that, that's fine, and then

469
00:28:40.359 --> 00:28:43.480
<v Speaker 2>he would disappear again for like another week. One time

470
00:28:43.559 --> 00:28:46.920
<v Speaker 2>he came in and we had a big fight about him,

471
00:28:47.240 --> 00:28:50.400
<v Speaker 2>the car being downstairs, and me not knowing anything about him,

472
00:28:51.000 --> 00:28:54.359
<v Speaker 2>him not being communicating with me, me not being able

473
00:28:54.400 --> 00:28:56.759
<v Speaker 2>to leave the hotel. I'm just like a prisoner in there.

474
00:28:57.440 --> 00:29:00.880
<v Speaker 2>And he dragged he dragged me down the hallway. And

475
00:29:01.119 --> 00:29:05.920
<v Speaker 2>when security came upstairs, he was behind the door and

476
00:29:06.480 --> 00:29:08.240
<v Speaker 2>he was looking at me, and I could feel him

477
00:29:08.279 --> 00:29:10.279
<v Speaker 2>looking at me. I looked behind, I looked at him,

478
00:29:10.839 --> 00:29:13.000
<v Speaker 2>and he was just said, you better not say anything

479
00:29:13.240 --> 00:29:16.599
<v Speaker 2>like And the security guard said Are you okay? And

480
00:29:16.720 --> 00:29:18.759
<v Speaker 2>I said yes, And then he said I don't think

481
00:29:18.799 --> 00:29:21.759
<v Speaker 2>you're okay. Are you sure? And I said yes, I am,

482
00:29:21.880 --> 00:29:26.519
<v Speaker 2>and I just closed the door. Yeah, that's uh, that

483
00:29:26.680 --> 00:29:31.799
<v Speaker 2>was a horrible day. He was punishing me.

484
00:29:32.599 --> 00:29:37.039
<v Speaker 5>Mm hmm. Now what's the situation in terms of birth

485
00:29:37.119 --> 00:29:41.759
<v Speaker 5>control or condoms or protection or any kind of planning.

486
00:29:43.039 --> 00:29:49.599
<v Speaker 2>For There was never any protection. He doesn't believe in that.

487
00:29:51.640 --> 00:29:53.759
<v Speaker 2>He never used it, not the first time when I

488
00:29:53.880 --> 00:29:56.359
<v Speaker 2>was on the uh, when I when they gave me

489
00:29:56.440 --> 00:30:02.960
<v Speaker 2>alcohol and the sexual saw happened. So I ended up,

490
00:30:03.119 --> 00:30:09.400
<v Speaker 2>you know, having a being pregnant, and I had a

491
00:30:09.480 --> 00:30:14.319
<v Speaker 2>miscarriage by myself in the room, and he was nowhere

492
00:30:14.359 --> 00:30:16.240
<v Speaker 2>to be found. I mean, he clearly, he made it

493
00:30:16.400 --> 00:30:19.119
<v Speaker 2>very clear if you do that, you're going to ruin

494
00:30:19.200 --> 00:30:22.839
<v Speaker 2>your life. Then you're going to ruin your career. He

495
00:30:23.039 --> 00:30:27.920
<v Speaker 2>was not at all sympathetic after O before it was,

496
00:30:28.279 --> 00:30:31.000
<v Speaker 2>you know, my fault. And what he said was I

497
00:30:31.079 --> 00:30:35.240
<v Speaker 2>don't like girls that I don't like pregnant girls, and

498
00:30:35.359 --> 00:30:38.039
<v Speaker 2>I don't I don't like women that have children.

499
00:30:39.559 --> 00:30:43.759
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, incredible. He also said to you, you ruined your body,

500
00:30:44.440 --> 00:30:46.160
<v Speaker 5>so you could see what that mind was.

501
00:30:49.400 --> 00:30:53.799
<v Speaker 2>Definitely that's the number one terrible.

502
00:30:53.880 --> 00:30:57.960
<v Speaker 5>Now you saw, you saw his disregard for you as

503
00:30:58.160 --> 00:31:01.799
<v Speaker 5>as just as a human being, but even more so

504
00:31:02.119 --> 00:31:05.319
<v Speaker 5>in this sposedly this loving relationship. You loved him, He

505
00:31:05.440 --> 00:31:09.160
<v Speaker 5>told you he loved you. So do you learn your

506
00:31:09.240 --> 00:31:14.119
<v Speaker 5>lesson after this? Is this enough to separate you from him?

507
00:31:14.640 --> 00:31:18.839
<v Speaker 5>Or his grasp is is not there anymore? What happens?

508
00:31:21.039 --> 00:31:21.079
<v Speaker 4>No?

509
00:31:21.400 --> 00:31:23.880
<v Speaker 2>I always felt bad for him. I'm I'm an empass.

510
00:31:24.000 --> 00:31:26.920
<v Speaker 2>This is a disaster situation for an EmPATH. A person

511
00:31:27.000 --> 00:31:29.680
<v Speaker 2>who constantly can feel the other person, feels bad for them,

512
00:31:29.799 --> 00:31:33.039
<v Speaker 2>tries to understand them. You know, I just really tried

513
00:31:33.119 --> 00:31:36.680
<v Speaker 2>to understand him as a person and his abuse, sexual abuse.

514
00:31:36.759 --> 00:31:39.559
<v Speaker 2>We had that in common. So I always thought, maybe

515
00:31:39.640 --> 00:31:41.880
<v Speaker 2>you know, that's what it is, Maybe he just doesn't

516
00:31:41.920 --> 00:31:43.920
<v Speaker 2>know how to deal with it. And I just always

517
00:31:44.400 --> 00:31:47.319
<v Speaker 2>put him before myself. And I became someone that I

518
00:31:47.400 --> 00:31:49.680
<v Speaker 2>didn't even know, I didn't even recognize in the mirror.

519
00:31:49.839 --> 00:31:52.480
<v Speaker 2>I was went from a happy kid at a mall

520
00:31:53.319 --> 00:31:56.640
<v Speaker 2>to a sex slave in a hotel room and just

521
00:31:56.799 --> 00:32:00.799
<v Speaker 2>being rushed around here and there and by here and there,

522
00:32:00.960 --> 00:32:04.480
<v Speaker 2>and just give me sex, and give me an STV

523
00:32:04.799 --> 00:32:08.759
<v Speaker 2>and and and that's what he That's what he gave

524
00:32:08.880 --> 00:32:13.039
<v Speaker 2>to me. That's what he brought to the table. He

525
00:32:13.160 --> 00:32:16.680
<v Speaker 2>never brought any music or never kept any promises. You

526
00:32:16.920 --> 00:32:21.880
<v Speaker 2>just abused me, and I'm one of many. Unfortunately, you know,

527
00:32:22.000 --> 00:32:23.079
<v Speaker 2>I wish it would have stopped.

528
00:32:23.119 --> 00:32:27.559
<v Speaker 5>Then you talked about also, you talked also about the

529
00:32:27.680 --> 00:32:33.240
<v Speaker 5>opportunities that you declined. You had an agent couple that

530
00:32:33.359 --> 00:32:37.240
<v Speaker 5>was very interested and lined up a definitive meeting with Motown,

531
00:32:37.319 --> 00:32:41.319
<v Speaker 5>and they said that Motown was interested. What do you

532
00:32:41.440 --> 00:32:48.039
<v Speaker 5>do and why do you decline this opportunity? What makes

533
00:32:48.079 --> 00:32:48.359
<v Speaker 5>you do that?

534
00:32:48.599 --> 00:32:53.000
<v Speaker 2>Well, at this point, I was an abused woman, you know,

535
00:32:53.680 --> 00:32:57.680
<v Speaker 2>At this point I was depressed. He called and said

536
00:32:57.680 --> 00:33:00.400
<v Speaker 2>that he really needed me to come to Chicago. There

537
00:33:00.480 --> 00:33:03.079
<v Speaker 2>was something very serious going on. He was crying on

538
00:33:03.160 --> 00:33:08.279
<v Speaker 2>the phone. And I chose him. I chose him over

539
00:33:08.920 --> 00:33:12.319
<v Speaker 2>such an amazing opportunity. And I can't even tell you why.

540
00:33:12.559 --> 00:33:15.480
<v Speaker 2>All I can say is he had such a grasp

541
00:33:15.640 --> 00:33:20.119
<v Speaker 2>on me. And this happens to abuse women. You forget

542
00:33:20.160 --> 00:33:25.920
<v Speaker 2>about yourself. It's just so involved in this crazy, toxic

543
00:33:26.079 --> 00:33:30.160
<v Speaker 2>situation that you know, I don't even know how I

544
00:33:30.200 --> 00:33:32.880
<v Speaker 2>would have saying at that time, I was just so

545
00:33:33.640 --> 00:33:39.519
<v Speaker 2>so abused, so down and he was number one. He

546
00:33:39.720 --> 00:33:42.559
<v Speaker 2>made sure of it, and if he wasn't number one,

547
00:33:42.640 --> 00:33:43.559
<v Speaker 2>I would be punished.

548
00:33:47.160 --> 00:33:50.599
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<v Speaker 5>at talkspace dot com. Now, Lazette, you were talking about

571
00:35:18.920 --> 00:35:22.360
<v Speaker 5>where you were in your life at this time. He

572
00:35:22.440 --> 00:35:26.960
<v Speaker 5>had given you an STD, you had been pregnant, you miscarried,

573
00:35:27.559 --> 00:35:30.039
<v Speaker 5>and you were alone. When you miscarried, he left you

574
00:35:30.119 --> 00:35:36.400
<v Speaker 5>in that hotel room. Your intimate love life is not

575
00:35:36.880 --> 00:35:39.840
<v Speaker 5>so intimate, and it's not what you would regard as

576
00:35:39.880 --> 00:35:48.480
<v Speaker 5>a love life. What happens next in your life that

577
00:35:48.639 --> 00:35:51.159
<v Speaker 5>creates a big difference in your life.

578
00:35:54.440 --> 00:35:57.960
<v Speaker 2>Oh, when you're talking about when I got sick, Yes,

579
00:36:00.519 --> 00:36:04.000
<v Speaker 2>So we fast forward to coming back to Miami and

580
00:36:04.960 --> 00:36:08.760
<v Speaker 2>seeing him at a concert. We were kind of still,

581
00:36:08.920 --> 00:36:14.679
<v Speaker 2>you know, seeing each other, and I was very hurt

582
00:36:14.760 --> 00:36:19.519
<v Speaker 2>by him and that that whole pregnant sheet. I was

583
00:36:19.719 --> 00:36:24.039
<v Speaker 2>very very hurt. And anyway, so we went to the

584
00:36:24.440 --> 00:36:28.000
<v Speaker 2>I went to the concert with some friends and there

585
00:36:28.039 --> 00:36:31.000
<v Speaker 2>were girls in the audience that I could hear saying, Oh,

586
00:36:31.079 --> 00:36:32.840
<v Speaker 2>I was with him last night. Oh, I was with

587
00:36:32.960 --> 00:36:34.480
<v Speaker 2>him last night, or you know, it was like the

588
00:36:34.559 --> 00:36:40.920
<v Speaker 2>whole day of all these young young girls, and I

589
00:36:41.079 --> 00:36:48.320
<v Speaker 2>saw him. We spent time together after and but before that,

590
00:36:49.360 --> 00:36:53.159
<v Speaker 2>the day of the concert, when he he never showed

591
00:36:53.199 --> 00:36:57.800
<v Speaker 2>up to the hotel room. His manager put me in

592
00:36:57.840 --> 00:37:00.440
<v Speaker 2>a hotel room and said, and I said, this isn't

593
00:37:00.440 --> 00:37:03.280
<v Speaker 2>where I stayed last night, and he said, well, you're

594
00:37:03.280 --> 00:37:06.960
<v Speaker 2>gonna stay here tonight. And when I when I got

595
00:37:07.039 --> 00:37:11.079
<v Speaker 2>to the room, my girlfriend was with me and we heard, like,

596
00:37:11.320 --> 00:37:15.280
<v Speaker 2>you know, some commotion next door, like a party going on.

597
00:37:16.159 --> 00:37:17.760
<v Speaker 4>So she left.

598
00:37:18.280 --> 00:37:20.559
<v Speaker 2>She said, I have to go home, and I said,

599
00:37:20.599 --> 00:37:23.719
<v Speaker 2>no problem. So I hear this commotion going on girls

600
00:37:23.760 --> 00:37:26.559
<v Speaker 2>in the room, and I heard him clear his throat

601
00:37:26.719 --> 00:37:28.960
<v Speaker 2>and I knew this guy so well. It sounds so weird,

602
00:37:29.039 --> 00:37:31.039
<v Speaker 2>but I just knew, and I just had a feeling

603
00:37:31.119 --> 00:37:35.440
<v Speaker 2>in my gut that that was him. And I put

604
00:37:35.480 --> 00:37:38.239
<v Speaker 2>a cup to the door, to the to the wall

605
00:37:38.360 --> 00:37:40.360
<v Speaker 2>to try to hear what was going on before I

606
00:37:40.480 --> 00:37:43.159
<v Speaker 2>knock on the door because he would never answer his phone.

607
00:37:43.239 --> 00:37:46.519
<v Speaker 2>He was just you know, the same situation all over again.

608
00:37:47.559 --> 00:37:50.599
<v Speaker 2>And he comes out the room and I see him

609
00:37:51.039 --> 00:37:52.920
<v Speaker 2>coming out of the room and I see the girls

610
00:37:53.719 --> 00:37:57.000
<v Speaker 2>and his pants are down and he looked like totally

611
00:37:57.159 --> 00:38:02.000
<v Speaker 2>he was on cocaine and comes in the room and

612
00:38:02.079 --> 00:38:05.760
<v Speaker 2>starts yelling and staying and I'm crying, and he's saying

613
00:38:05.840 --> 00:38:09.719
<v Speaker 2>that I never choose his friend, I never choose him

614
00:38:09.760 --> 00:38:13.639
<v Speaker 2>over my friends, totally flipping it on me, saying that

615
00:38:15.719 --> 00:38:18.239
<v Speaker 2>that if I want, I could live to move to Chicago.

616
00:38:19.320 --> 00:38:23.079
<v Speaker 2>And I was just like, no, you know, I'm good,

617
00:38:23.440 --> 00:38:27.400
<v Speaker 2>and I left, and not too long after, a few

618
00:38:27.480 --> 00:38:30.400
<v Speaker 2>days later, I started feeling really sick. I was diagnosed

619
00:38:30.400 --> 00:38:34.000
<v Speaker 2>with mono nucleosis and I was told to stay in

620
00:38:34.079 --> 00:38:37.000
<v Speaker 2>the bed for about fifteen days because my white count

621
00:38:37.119 --> 00:38:40.719
<v Speaker 2>was very, very very very high. And I started to

622
00:38:40.760 --> 00:38:44.519
<v Speaker 2>feel better, and then not too long after that, a

623
00:38:44.559 --> 00:38:48.880
<v Speaker 2>few days my body started to become paralyzed and I

624
00:38:48.960 --> 00:38:53.039
<v Speaker 2>got Giambaret syndrome. And I spent three weeks or two weeks,

625
00:38:53.079 --> 00:38:56.639
<v Speaker 2>and then I see you and I almost lost my life,

626
00:38:57.440 --> 00:39:01.760
<v Speaker 2>and he called my my I called him to tell

627
00:39:01.840 --> 00:39:04.239
<v Speaker 2>him and he said, yeah, I'm not feeling well either.

628
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<v Speaker 2>I had that and You're gonna get better. And then

629
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<v Speaker 2>that was that was it, and I heard that he

630
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<v Speaker 2>had canceled some the concert dates. So I'm stick in

631
00:39:15.079 --> 00:39:19.360
<v Speaker 2>the hospital. He calls my dad's house and my step

632
00:39:19.599 --> 00:39:22.239
<v Speaker 2>sister says, where the hell are you? What the hell

633
00:39:22.280 --> 00:39:25.760
<v Speaker 2>are you doing? You know, my my sister's nearly dead

634
00:39:26.920 --> 00:39:29.119
<v Speaker 2>and he just sent a thousand dollars checks to my

635
00:39:30.000 --> 00:39:32.519
<v Speaker 2>my mom And that was his response.

636
00:39:34.159 --> 00:39:38.239
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, not much of a response even financially.

637
00:39:38.719 --> 00:39:41.039
<v Speaker 2>No, No, we didn't, we don't. We didn't care. You know,

638
00:39:41.239 --> 00:39:42.800
<v Speaker 2>who cares about a thousand dollars?

639
00:39:42.880 --> 00:39:43.119
<v Speaker 3>You know that.

640
00:39:43.199 --> 00:39:46.000
<v Speaker 2>The point is, like, you got me sick? You know?

641
00:39:48.639 --> 00:39:51.239
<v Speaker 5>Is there something he tells you in phone calls around

642
00:39:51.280 --> 00:39:55.440
<v Speaker 5>this time as well about upcoming things in the media.

643
00:39:57.840 --> 00:40:00.320
<v Speaker 2>Well, yeah, there was a call that I got where

644
00:40:00.400 --> 00:40:03.519
<v Speaker 2>he said he started. He was crying on the phone,

645
00:40:04.400 --> 00:40:07.679
<v Speaker 2>and he said that that I was going to hear

646
00:40:07.800 --> 00:40:11.960
<v Speaker 2>things and not to believe them, that they weren't true.

647
00:40:13.119 --> 00:40:14.960
<v Speaker 2>And I said, well, what do you mean, Like, what's

648
00:40:15.000 --> 00:40:15.519
<v Speaker 2>wrong with you?

649
00:40:15.679 --> 00:40:16.239
<v Speaker 5>What do you mean?

650
00:40:16.360 --> 00:40:20.519
<v Speaker 2>And he just wouldn't say it. He was just distraught,

651
00:40:20.840 --> 00:40:24.559
<v Speaker 2>like I've never seen him before, you know, as an

652
00:40:24.599 --> 00:40:27.280
<v Speaker 2>adult now and now understanding what was going on in

653
00:40:27.360 --> 00:40:31.440
<v Speaker 2>that time. It had to be the lawsuit from Tiffany

654
00:40:31.519 --> 00:40:37.400
<v Speaker 2>Hawkins or the other young lady after, you know, So

655
00:40:38.679 --> 00:40:41.360
<v Speaker 2>that's all right, I think that is he never really

656
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:44.559
<v Speaker 2>told me the details of why he was the way

657
00:40:44.639 --> 00:40:45.000
<v Speaker 2>he was.

658
00:40:48.159 --> 00:40:52.719
<v Speaker 5>Now, you try to build your new life and you're

659
00:40:52.800 --> 00:40:55.400
<v Speaker 5>living with your dad, but your stepmom is there and

660
00:40:55.440 --> 00:40:59.800
<v Speaker 5>it's a crowded house. But tell us what you do

661
00:41:00.719 --> 00:41:02.960
<v Speaker 5>to try to assert your life back.

662
00:41:05.519 --> 00:41:08.320
<v Speaker 2>I you know, I went through physical therapy because I

663
00:41:08.360 --> 00:41:12.360
<v Speaker 2>had to learn how to eat again, pick up a cup.

664
00:41:12.599 --> 00:41:15.280
<v Speaker 2>You know. My nervous system was shot. It was a

665
00:41:15.400 --> 00:41:17.800
<v Speaker 2>miracle that I was alive. I mean, they really told

666
00:41:17.840 --> 00:41:22.079
<v Speaker 2>my daddy should prepare for a funeral, you know. And after,

667
00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:24.440
<v Speaker 2>like you say, things weren't really going too well at

668
00:41:24.480 --> 00:41:26.519
<v Speaker 2>my dad's house and there was a lot of hormones

669
00:41:26.519 --> 00:41:31.400
<v Speaker 2>in there and too many girls. I decided to go

670
00:41:31.639 --> 00:41:34.760
<v Speaker 2>move to Miami and live with my grandmother and I

671
00:41:35.079 --> 00:41:37.639
<v Speaker 2>just got my life together, you know. I got a

672
00:41:37.760 --> 00:41:43.000
<v Speaker 2>job at the hospital and bought a little car and

673
00:41:43.719 --> 00:41:46.960
<v Speaker 2>got an apartment and just wanted to just forget about

674
00:41:47.000 --> 00:41:51.400
<v Speaker 2>the music business completely. My dreams were killed. They were dead,

675
00:41:52.320 --> 00:41:55.920
<v Speaker 2>but I wasn't dead, and I was alive, and that's

676
00:41:55.960 --> 00:41:58.639
<v Speaker 2>what kept me going. But I almost lost my life

677
00:41:59.039 --> 00:42:02.599
<v Speaker 2>over this, and that's not something that I was ready for,

678
00:42:02.960 --> 00:42:06.760
<v Speaker 2>nor that I want. Despite the depression and anxiety and

679
00:42:06.840 --> 00:42:10.000
<v Speaker 2>all the PTSD, you know, I knew that I still

680
00:42:10.079 --> 00:42:13.159
<v Speaker 2>had a purpose to continue on and I knew that

681
00:42:13.280 --> 00:42:15.280
<v Speaker 2>one day I was going to have to talk about this.

682
00:42:15.480 --> 00:42:17.920
<v Speaker 2>And that's why, you know, I just want to say this.

683
00:42:18.639 --> 00:42:21.719
<v Speaker 2>You know, people, a lot of the haters, Oh, why

684
00:42:21.760 --> 00:42:24.920
<v Speaker 2>didn't you come out sooner? Why why didn't you ref's

685
00:42:24.960 --> 00:42:27.119
<v Speaker 2>the case? Why didn't you sue him? Or why didn't

686
00:42:27.119 --> 00:42:28.719
<v Speaker 2>you go to the police. I just wanted to go

687
00:42:28.840 --> 00:42:31.280
<v Speaker 2>out with my life. You know, I was young, I

688
00:42:31.400 --> 00:42:35.320
<v Speaker 2>was afraid of him still, and it was never about

689
00:42:35.360 --> 00:42:38.000
<v Speaker 2>the money for me. It was about me making myself,

690
00:42:38.280 --> 00:42:42.679
<v Speaker 2>making something out of myself. And I got totally railroaded

691
00:42:42.880 --> 00:42:48.480
<v Speaker 2>and used and abused, and you know, I started, I

692
00:42:49.079 --> 00:42:52.000
<v Speaker 2>became assertive to know that it's either me or him.

693
00:42:52.639 --> 00:42:55.480
<v Speaker 2>Either he's gonna kill me. I'm going to kill me.

694
00:42:55.800 --> 00:42:57.880
<v Speaker 2>I don't know what's going to happen here. But it

695
00:42:58.000 --> 00:43:00.079
<v Speaker 2>was going down to the TECH. It was get in

696
00:43:00.199 --> 00:43:03.519
<v Speaker 2>really really dark places there, and I just knew. You know,

697
00:43:04.239 --> 00:43:07.480
<v Speaker 2>I'm a survivor. I survived sexual abuse as a child,

698
00:43:08.000 --> 00:43:11.039
<v Speaker 2>a young young child, like I'm a strong woman. Let's

699
00:43:11.119 --> 00:43:12.079
<v Speaker 2>just go keep going.

700
00:43:13.360 --> 00:43:17.760
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, you have twins, boy and a girl, and you

701
00:43:17.800 --> 00:43:20.039
<v Speaker 5>hook up with a guy you knew from before was Craig,

702
00:43:20.119 --> 00:43:22.280
<v Speaker 5>which was a nice guy, but then turns into a

703
00:43:22.320 --> 00:43:25.760
<v Speaker 5>guy that hits you. You talk about you getting your strength,

704
00:43:25.840 --> 00:43:29.440
<v Speaker 5>but also your sister shows up eight months pregnant. I

705
00:43:29.519 --> 00:43:32.360
<v Speaker 5>think this is an incredible scene in the book. What

706
00:43:32.480 --> 00:43:35.400
<v Speaker 5>does she tell Craig and where do you go?

707
00:43:38.320 --> 00:43:40.480
<v Speaker 2>Well, let's just you know, Craig was a guy that

708
00:43:40.519 --> 00:43:42.480
<v Speaker 2>I knew in high SPEC's just to sit a little

709
00:43:42.519 --> 00:43:44.480
<v Speaker 2>bit back on. Craig was a guy that I knew

710
00:43:44.760 --> 00:43:49.079
<v Speaker 2>that I knew in high school, and he always said

711
00:43:49.119 --> 00:43:51.440
<v Speaker 2>he loved me. And when I was with Robert, he

712
00:43:51.840 --> 00:43:56.639
<v Speaker 2>came to New York and said he that Robert did

713
00:43:56.719 --> 00:43:59.440
<v Speaker 2>not have the right intentions for me, that he wanted

714
00:43:59.480 --> 00:44:03.000
<v Speaker 2>to marry me, that he Craig wanted to marry me,

715
00:44:03.119 --> 00:44:05.719
<v Speaker 2>that he loved me, and he was always around.

716
00:44:06.079 --> 00:44:06.239
<v Speaker 5>You know.

717
00:44:06.360 --> 00:44:09.199
<v Speaker 2>After I got my life together, I met up with

718
00:44:09.320 --> 00:44:12.159
<v Speaker 2>him again and thought, Okay, he's that nice guy. You know,

719
00:44:12.320 --> 00:44:15.000
<v Speaker 2>he really cares about me, seems to be really nice,

720
00:44:15.079 --> 00:44:16.840
<v Speaker 2>and I know him from high school. We were buddies

721
00:44:16.880 --> 00:44:19.920
<v Speaker 2>in high school. So I gave him a chance, and

722
00:44:20.119 --> 00:44:22.239
<v Speaker 2>you know, I had these kids with him, and he

723
00:44:22.400 --> 00:44:27.400
<v Speaker 2>turned in to be another monster, a narcissist or an abuser,

724
00:44:27.760 --> 00:44:30.440
<v Speaker 2>like you can't believe. I mean, I've been through the ringer.

725
00:44:30.599 --> 00:44:32.599
<v Speaker 2>He put me on my knees, on my niece on

726
00:44:32.800 --> 00:44:36.280
<v Speaker 2>Rice as a punishment when I was eight months pregnant

727
00:44:37.400 --> 00:44:41.599
<v Speaker 2>with his twins. And you know, my sister came and

728
00:44:41.880 --> 00:44:43.559
<v Speaker 2>you know, she had a dream about me that I

729
00:44:43.719 --> 00:44:45.920
<v Speaker 2>was that I was walking around in a white dress,

730
00:44:45.960 --> 00:44:49.400
<v Speaker 2>that I was basically dead. And she came in and

731
00:44:49.880 --> 00:44:53.360
<v Speaker 2>basically told me, pack your stuff, we're leaving. And I

732
00:44:53.480 --> 00:44:55.480
<v Speaker 2>had a whole house and everything with my kids, and

733
00:44:55.559 --> 00:44:58.800
<v Speaker 2>I was just like, I'm leaving. And I left him

734
00:44:58.880 --> 00:45:02.199
<v Speaker 2>because I was really fearful for my life. And I

735
00:45:02.360 --> 00:45:04.559
<v Speaker 2>was so down on myself because I say, here you

736
00:45:04.679 --> 00:45:09.159
<v Speaker 2>go again, falling into the same trap. You know, but

737
00:45:09.760 --> 00:45:12.320
<v Speaker 2>this is this is what abused women go to. When

738
00:45:12.360 --> 00:45:14.719
<v Speaker 2>I want the listeners to understand that this becomes a

739
00:45:14.840 --> 00:45:17.920
<v Speaker 2>pattern in life. You know, I didn't get meant to

740
00:45:18.079 --> 00:45:21.400
<v Speaker 2>help help after the situation where Robert I should have.

741
00:45:22.119 --> 00:45:24.480
<v Speaker 2>I never healed from it. I'm still not heals from it.

742
00:45:24.679 --> 00:45:28.920
<v Speaker 2>I'm stronger, and you know, Craig's situation was one that

743
00:45:29.199 --> 00:45:31.320
<v Speaker 2>you know, once I left him, Yeah, I left him,

744
00:45:31.360 --> 00:45:35.000
<v Speaker 2>but I had two kids by him. It wasn't you know,

745
00:45:35.119 --> 00:45:38.519
<v Speaker 2>as cut and dry as Robert. So you know, my

746
00:45:38.639 --> 00:45:39.880
<v Speaker 2>sister saved my life.

747
00:45:41.320 --> 00:45:44.840
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, you right that I quote I'm a victim of

748
00:45:45.000 --> 00:45:48.320
<v Speaker 5>r Kelly. I met him in Florida as an underage kid.

749
00:45:49.119 --> 00:45:51.800
<v Speaker 5>And you say that that statement started an avalanche of

750
00:45:51.920 --> 00:45:56.360
<v Speaker 5>changes in your life. Tell us about you emailing BuzzFeed

751
00:45:57.159 --> 00:45:59.920
<v Speaker 5>and who who you talk to at BuzzFeed?

752
00:46:00.960 --> 00:46:01.199
<v Speaker 4>Sure?

753
00:46:01.360 --> 00:46:04.920
<v Speaker 2>So I yeah, So I had have always been following

754
00:46:05.000 --> 00:46:09.159
<v Speaker 2>this story, you know, this first trial, and I heard

755
00:46:09.239 --> 00:46:12.880
<v Speaker 2>of Jim deva goddess who was a music journalist, a

756
00:46:12.960 --> 00:46:16.400
<v Speaker 2>critic and a journalist, and he has a show called

757
00:46:16.440 --> 00:46:22.360
<v Speaker 2>Son Opinions and he's a professor, so I knew, I

758
00:46:22.440 --> 00:46:24.679
<v Speaker 2>knew of him and I and I had read his

759
00:46:24.800 --> 00:46:29.679
<v Speaker 2>story about the cult and about Johanda Pace, one of

760
00:46:29.719 --> 00:46:32.400
<v Speaker 2>the other young women that met Robert at doing the

761
00:46:32.440 --> 00:46:35.000
<v Speaker 2>first file, which she was fifteen or sixteen years old.

762
00:46:35.559 --> 00:46:37.559
<v Speaker 2>She's a Jane do in the in the in the

763
00:46:37.679 --> 00:46:40.360
<v Speaker 2>last child with this trial, which is hyway he was convicted.

764
00:46:42.800 --> 00:46:47.159
<v Speaker 2>So when I read these stories and BuzzFeed News. I

765
00:46:47.280 --> 00:46:49.719
<v Speaker 2>reached out to them from my job at Benny Hannah

766
00:46:50.320 --> 00:46:52.679
<v Speaker 2>and I said, I want to talk to Jim. And

767
00:46:52.840 --> 00:46:56.480
<v Speaker 2>when I spoke to Jim, he said to me, I've

768
00:46:56.519 --> 00:46:58.719
<v Speaker 2>been waiting for over twenty years to talk to you.

769
00:46:59.760 --> 00:47:02.440
<v Speaker 2>And I didn't know what he meant. And he said,

770
00:47:02.480 --> 00:47:05.639
<v Speaker 2>you're the girl from Miami and I said, yeah, I'm

771
00:47:05.679 --> 00:47:09.079
<v Speaker 2>the girl from Miami. And he said, well, Barry Hankerson

772
00:47:09.159 --> 00:47:12.280
<v Speaker 2>told me to find you when the first trial was happening,

773
00:47:12.400 --> 00:47:16.920
<v Speaker 2>because he knows he did a number on you. So

774
00:47:17.480 --> 00:47:22.280
<v Speaker 2>we spoke and he published my story and that was

775
00:47:22.719 --> 00:47:26.519
<v Speaker 2>just our crazy day. It was May eighteen, twenty eighteen.

776
00:47:28.639 --> 00:47:34.440
<v Speaker 2>I felt like so liberated. But then again, you know,

777
00:47:34.599 --> 00:47:38.480
<v Speaker 2>so many things started happening. I got of breaking in

778
00:47:38.599 --> 00:47:43.440
<v Speaker 2>my home, I had to move. They published where I worked,

779
00:47:43.679 --> 00:47:47.239
<v Speaker 2>so I was afraid to go to work. So many

780
00:47:47.360 --> 00:47:51.480
<v Speaker 2>things happened when I came out that have really not

781
00:47:51.639 --> 00:47:55.039
<v Speaker 2>been easy. And I also, you know, want to say,

782
00:47:55.159 --> 00:47:58.159
<v Speaker 2>like that's something that people don't understand, like when you

783
00:47:58.320 --> 00:48:02.519
<v Speaker 2>come out, like you're giving your life away. And I

784
00:48:02.679 --> 00:48:04.599
<v Speaker 2>gave it for the cause, you know what I mean,

785
00:48:04.679 --> 00:48:07.239
<v Speaker 2>Like I knew, like I said why didn't sue him

786
00:48:07.239 --> 00:48:09.360
<v Speaker 2>back then? I didn't want to sign an NBNA. I

787
00:48:09.360 --> 00:48:11.280
<v Speaker 2>didn't want to be silent because I knew this day

788
00:48:11.400 --> 00:48:14.079
<v Speaker 2>was going to come. I knew that Karmel was going

789
00:48:14.159 --> 00:48:15.280
<v Speaker 2>to catch up with Robert.

790
00:48:17.360 --> 00:48:20.119
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, let's this is an opportunity to stop for a

791
00:48:20.199 --> 00:48:21.480
<v Speaker 5>second for these messages.

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<v Speaker 5>Today. Now we talk about uh rob, but you also

812
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<v Speaker 5>talk about the media and after the BuzzFeed BuzzFeed says

813
00:49:32.639 --> 00:49:34.719
<v Speaker 5>they want to make a documentary now and tries to

814
00:49:34.760 --> 00:49:38.159
<v Speaker 5>get the funding or they communicate to you that they

815
00:49:38.159 --> 00:49:42.559
<v Speaker 5>are going to get the funding. Talk about BuzzFeed the documentary,

816
00:49:42.679 --> 00:49:44.960
<v Speaker 5>what they wanted to do, and then how you got

817
00:49:45.039 --> 00:49:49.360
<v Speaker 5>to the producers at Lifeline or Lifetime Pardon me?

818
00:49:50.360 --> 00:49:54.719
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, So I was sent a contrast over right away

819
00:49:55.079 --> 00:49:59.480
<v Speaker 2>to sign for a whuhu documentary that was going to

820
00:49:59.559 --> 00:50:03.239
<v Speaker 2>be produced by that was going to be the showrunner

821
00:50:03.320 --> 00:50:06.159
<v Speaker 2>was going to be a woman named Lyric Cabral And

822
00:50:06.320 --> 00:50:11.159
<v Speaker 2>she's an investigative journalist as well and documentarian.

823
00:50:11.320 --> 00:50:11.639
<v Speaker 4>And she.

824
00:50:16.280 --> 00:50:21.239
<v Speaker 2>She befriended me, but we didn't know that she was

825
00:50:21.320 --> 00:50:25.719
<v Speaker 2>like an investigative person. Where she her last film she

826
00:50:25.760 --> 00:50:28.639
<v Speaker 2>won an Emmy four was she was saying that she

827
00:50:28.840 --> 00:50:30.679
<v Speaker 2>was there for the person, you know, like I say,

828
00:50:30.719 --> 00:50:33.800
<v Speaker 2>she's here for me, but then it goes against me

829
00:50:34.159 --> 00:50:38.239
<v Speaker 2>in the in the during the movie, so or you know,

830
00:50:38.320 --> 00:50:40.440
<v Speaker 2>when the movie from Here is here, you go surprise,

831
00:50:40.920 --> 00:50:46.119
<v Speaker 2>you know. So she she was eventually fired off the

832
00:50:46.280 --> 00:50:51.599
<v Speaker 2>film because we had information from one of the fathers

833
00:50:51.800 --> 00:50:54.119
<v Speaker 2>of the young women that was still with Robert. That

834
00:50:54.280 --> 00:50:59.280
<v Speaker 2>was on Gail King interview if anyone watched that, Azrael Clary,

835
00:51:00.280 --> 00:51:04.519
<v Speaker 2>her father, you know, said the lyric is meeting with

836
00:51:04.719 --> 00:51:07.239
<v Speaker 2>Robert and that's very dangerous because we don't know what

837
00:51:07.400 --> 00:51:13.119
<v Speaker 2>information she's giving him to get the story. So she

838
00:51:13.360 --> 00:51:18.400
<v Speaker 2>was fired off the film. Yeah, So that was really

839
00:51:18.519 --> 00:51:21.519
<v Speaker 2>scary because she knew where I lived. She came to

840
00:51:21.639 --> 00:51:24.119
<v Speaker 2>my house in Los Angeles. And I'm not saying she's

841
00:51:24.159 --> 00:51:27.199
<v Speaker 2>a bad person. I never would say that, but it

842
00:51:27.360 --> 00:51:31.440
<v Speaker 2>was too many gray areas going on with Hulu and

843
00:51:32.000 --> 00:51:35.119
<v Speaker 2>and that whole project. It was very stressful as well

844
00:51:35.199 --> 00:51:39.760
<v Speaker 2>going through all of that. How I got with Lifetime

845
00:51:39.960 --> 00:51:44.440
<v Speaker 2>was after the BuzzFeed story. They contacted me because the Savages,

846
00:51:44.960 --> 00:51:49.480
<v Speaker 2>Joyful and Savage's parents found out about me, and they

847
00:51:49.920 --> 00:51:54.639
<v Speaker 2>apparently brought the projects to Lifetime and so they knew

848
00:51:54.679 --> 00:51:58.000
<v Speaker 2>of me and they called and asked if I sign on.

849
00:51:58.239 --> 00:52:00.719
<v Speaker 2>And you know, one thing I've regret is that I

850
00:52:00.760 --> 00:52:03.960
<v Speaker 2>didn't have legal representation. You have to. You know, you're

851
00:52:04.039 --> 00:52:06.440
<v Speaker 2>down for the cause. But at the end of the day,

852
00:52:06.480 --> 00:52:08.519
<v Speaker 2>this is a big They see this as a business.

853
00:52:09.239 --> 00:52:12.840
<v Speaker 2>It's a business to them. They profit off of survivors

854
00:52:13.079 --> 00:52:16.280
<v Speaker 2>and they leave you stranded. And that's really the truth.

855
00:52:16.400 --> 00:52:18.719
<v Speaker 2>And that's really why I wanted to wait and write

856
00:52:18.760 --> 00:52:21.039
<v Speaker 2>this book. You know, a lot of the young women

857
00:52:21.239 --> 00:52:24.719
<v Speaker 2>and that's fine. They wrote their books and they released

858
00:52:24.760 --> 00:52:28.599
<v Speaker 2>them right where the document documentary aired Lifetime. I didn't

859
00:52:28.639 --> 00:52:32.079
<v Speaker 2>do that because that wasn't my intention, but living through it,

860
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:35.519
<v Speaker 2>and I really wanted to expose Hollywood and what they

861
00:52:35.679 --> 00:52:38.679
<v Speaker 2>do and what they did to us and everything that

862
00:52:38.800 --> 00:52:41.079
<v Speaker 2>we gave up and everything that we had to go

863
00:52:41.239 --> 00:52:44.039
<v Speaker 2>through and all the hate and not protecting us online

864
00:52:44.159 --> 00:52:47.440
<v Speaker 2>with the protection stisiness and not having security when we

865
00:52:47.519 --> 00:52:50.360
<v Speaker 2>go to events where you know there's a gun threat

866
00:52:50.639 --> 00:52:53.000
<v Speaker 2>at a screening and we have to leave. I mean,

867
00:52:53.320 --> 00:52:57.000
<v Speaker 2>we went through hell and back hell, and that it's

868
00:52:57.039 --> 00:52:57.840
<v Speaker 2>still going through it.

869
00:52:59.639 --> 00:53:02.360
<v Speaker 5>You talk about a couple of things that demonstrate what

870
00:53:02.400 --> 00:53:05.960
<v Speaker 5>you're saying, illustrate clearly what you're saying. There was a

871
00:53:06.519 --> 00:53:10.280
<v Speaker 5>television interview where they told you to bring two outfits

872
00:53:11.000 --> 00:53:13.960
<v Speaker 5>what happens when you go there? What did they say

873
00:53:14.000 --> 00:53:15.920
<v Speaker 5>to you? And what in actuality happened.

874
00:53:17.480 --> 00:53:20.280
<v Speaker 2>So we were told to bring I was told to

875
00:53:20.320 --> 00:53:22.760
<v Speaker 2>bring two outfits. This is my second interview, by the way,

876
00:53:22.960 --> 00:53:26.840
<v Speaker 2>this is another eight hours of work. So to them,

877
00:53:26.920 --> 00:53:29.559
<v Speaker 2>you know, they call it work. I call it life

878
00:53:29.639 --> 00:53:36.440
<v Speaker 2>traumatized traumatizing situations. But so I had so they so

879
00:53:36.679 --> 00:53:39.960
<v Speaker 2>I had like a like a little black little dress,

880
00:53:41.280 --> 00:53:43.360
<v Speaker 2>and I said, I don't. They said, bring a black

881
00:53:44.000 --> 00:53:46.159
<v Speaker 2>and a white out Bring a black outfit. But I

882
00:53:46.199 --> 00:53:49.239
<v Speaker 2>had a white, a beautiful white outfit that was very conservative,

883
00:53:49.280 --> 00:53:53.280
<v Speaker 2>which I felt comfortable wearing on television, and they said, oh,

884
00:53:53.360 --> 00:53:55.440
<v Speaker 2>we're the black one. It was very short, and I

885
00:53:55.760 --> 00:53:58.519
<v Speaker 2>bought it with jeans. I had genes with me. They said, no,

886
00:53:58.639 --> 00:54:01.719
<v Speaker 2>we're just gonna shoot from a waste up. Don't worry

887
00:54:01.760 --> 00:54:04.960
<v Speaker 2>about it. When I saw myself on television, I could

888
00:54:05.039 --> 00:54:07.559
<v Speaker 2>not believe that they did that to me. My legs

889
00:54:07.599 --> 00:54:10.639
<v Speaker 2>were all out. I mean, it just looked so inappropriate,

890
00:54:11.440 --> 00:54:14.000
<v Speaker 2>and they made me feel so uncomfortable, like why would

891
00:54:14.000 --> 00:54:16.760
<v Speaker 2>you do that to a survivor crying on screen and

892
00:54:16.840 --> 00:54:20.679
<v Speaker 2>then show them like that, show me like that? And

893
00:54:21.119 --> 00:54:25.599
<v Speaker 2>they never even apologized for that. You know, they never

894
00:54:25.719 --> 00:54:28.280
<v Speaker 2>even said sorry. I hope after they read my book.

895
00:54:28.320 --> 00:54:33.440
<v Speaker 5>They do incredible and they also the film company or

896
00:54:33.519 --> 00:54:36.639
<v Speaker 5>the documentary company. They also advised you not to take

897
00:54:36.679 --> 00:54:41.000
<v Speaker 5>a job for this incredible opportunity, just to stand up

898
00:54:41.280 --> 00:54:42.000
<v Speaker 5>for this cause.

899
00:54:43.400 --> 00:54:48.079
<v Speaker 2>Correct, I left. I didn't take a job making a

900
00:54:48.119 --> 00:54:51.840
<v Speaker 2>lot of money in Elson's Window, California, because we were

901
00:54:51.880 --> 00:54:55.880
<v Speaker 2>supposed to start shooting and that was Hulu and then

902
00:54:55.920 --> 00:55:00.800
<v Speaker 2>the project was killed. So I started to clean houses

903
00:55:01.039 --> 00:55:02.960
<v Speaker 2>on the handy app. I mean, you go from a

904
00:55:03.039 --> 00:55:06.599
<v Speaker 2>person making like a really good salary, having a great

905
00:55:06.599 --> 00:55:11.079
<v Speaker 2>apartment in Avncero overlooking the water, to cleaning houses. And

906
00:55:11.159 --> 00:55:13.920
<v Speaker 2>there's nothing wrong with cleaning houses. I'm just talking about me.

907
00:55:14.920 --> 00:55:18.960
<v Speaker 2>How I went from one situation one to another so

908
00:55:19.880 --> 00:55:23.280
<v Speaker 2>rapidly and really not what I wanted to do with

909
00:55:23.400 --> 00:55:25.360
<v Speaker 2>not a career that I that I wanted to choose,

910
00:55:25.400 --> 00:55:28.079
<v Speaker 2>but I had to live. I mean, my face is

911
00:55:28.159 --> 00:55:32.239
<v Speaker 2>on a billboard for them for the Emmys, and I

912
00:55:32.320 --> 00:55:35.920
<v Speaker 2>can't even put gas in the car or buy a Hamburger.

913
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:40.079
<v Speaker 2>I mean, really, it's you know, and you don't want

914
00:55:40.119 --> 00:55:42.760
<v Speaker 2>to seem like it's about the money, but you put

915
00:55:42.800 --> 00:55:45.239
<v Speaker 2>me in a situation where I can't make any money

916
00:55:45.920 --> 00:55:50.199
<v Speaker 2>and no one really cared. I mean I even asked

917
00:55:50.239 --> 00:55:53.519
<v Speaker 2>them for a job. I can I help with survivors,

918
00:55:53.599 --> 00:55:56.280
<v Speaker 2>Can I be a person on set, or can I

919
00:55:56.400 --> 00:55:59.039
<v Speaker 2>get water? Whatever, I'll do anything. I just need a job,

920
00:55:59.840 --> 00:56:01.719
<v Speaker 2>and it was just like, oh, you know, we don't

921
00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:04.559
<v Speaker 2>really have any and it's fine, But I just want

922
00:56:04.599 --> 00:56:08.719
<v Speaker 2>the readers to understand my story and how coming out

923
00:56:08.800 --> 00:56:12.400
<v Speaker 2>impassed me in such a degree that I'm still struggling.

924
00:56:12.599 --> 00:56:15.119
<v Speaker 2>You know, I'm still trying to get back to where

925
00:56:15.159 --> 00:56:18.199
<v Speaker 2>I was. How many years later, three years later.

926
00:56:20.079 --> 00:56:23.719
<v Speaker 5>You demonstrate the techniques they use to be able to

927
00:56:23.840 --> 00:56:28.960
<v Speaker 5>befriend you and also stroke your egos so that they

928
00:56:29.119 --> 00:56:33.960
<v Speaker 5>understand your motivation and utilize that leverage that against you.

929
00:56:34.480 --> 00:56:36.559
<v Speaker 5>So the money they promise is never the money that

930
00:56:36.760 --> 00:56:39.960
<v Speaker 5>actually happens. And this is supposed to happen, scheduled shoot

931
00:56:40.000 --> 00:56:44.400
<v Speaker 5>but it's canceled, and all of these things that it

932
00:56:44.519 --> 00:56:48.440
<v Speaker 5>looks hopeful but then isn't. And so they have these

933
00:56:48.480 --> 00:56:51.960
<v Speaker 5>certain techniques to be able to convince you that they're

934
00:56:52.039 --> 00:56:54.119
<v Speaker 5>on your side, but in the end you don't see that.

935
00:56:54.800 --> 00:56:59.159
<v Speaker 5>The Lifetime docuseries Surviving R Kelly was about to premiere,

936
00:56:59.840 --> 00:57:02.400
<v Speaker 5>and it was supposed to be a panel, a conversation

937
00:57:02.559 --> 00:57:07.079
<v Speaker 5>panel that you were involved with. Five survivors plus the

938
00:57:07.239 --> 00:57:10.559
<v Speaker 5>Tamara or part of me Tarana Burke, founder of the

939
00:57:10.639 --> 00:57:15.639
<v Speaker 5>Me Too movement, and there was yourself, Kitty Jones, Johanda Pace,

940
00:57:16.079 --> 00:57:20.039
<v Speaker 5>Lisa Van Allen and as Santi McGee, all survivors seated

941
00:57:20.079 --> 00:57:24.079
<v Speaker 5>in the theater's front row. Tell us about the anticipation

942
00:57:24.239 --> 00:57:28.760
<v Speaker 5>of this and your presence there and what happens.

943
00:57:30.599 --> 00:57:32.400
<v Speaker 2>So we arrived in New York and we had to

944
00:57:32.519 --> 00:57:36.119
<v Speaker 2>do a lot of press that day. It was weird

945
00:57:36.239 --> 00:57:38.880
<v Speaker 2>because this is the first time that we're meeting. You know,

946
00:57:39.840 --> 00:57:41.760
<v Speaker 2>a lot of people thought that we knew each other,

947
00:57:41.880 --> 00:57:44.079
<v Speaker 2>and none of us knew each other before any of

948
00:57:44.159 --> 00:57:50.320
<v Speaker 2>this happened. So we get there and you know, everyone's

949
00:57:50.440 --> 00:57:53.599
<v Speaker 2>kind of like arguing and I don't I didn't get it,

950
00:57:53.679 --> 00:57:56.599
<v Speaker 2>but you know, I guess it's traumatic. You know, you're

951
00:57:56.679 --> 00:58:00.239
<v Speaker 2>like meeting someone that has the same type of war

952
00:58:00.360 --> 00:58:03.119
<v Speaker 2>you know, war wounds, you know, wounds that you're you're

953
00:58:03.159 --> 00:58:07.039
<v Speaker 2>walking around with, and there's you know, women and the competition.

954
00:58:07.360 --> 00:58:11.599
<v Speaker 2>And so we get to the premiere and We're just

955
00:58:11.679 --> 00:58:14.840
<v Speaker 2>sitting there and we're so nervous, and I'm holding onto

956
00:58:15.079 --> 00:58:18.639
<v Speaker 2>his ex wife's hands, she's holding my hand, and we're

957
00:58:18.719 --> 00:58:20.880
<v Speaker 2>just looking at each other like, well, it's really about

958
00:58:20.920 --> 00:58:26.800
<v Speaker 2>to happen. And as soon as the film starts playing,

959
00:58:27.599 --> 00:58:30.000
<v Speaker 2>you see my face, just see the other women, and

960
00:58:31.239 --> 00:58:34.480
<v Speaker 2>then it's gonna it's telling his story. And then the

961
00:58:34.599 --> 00:58:38.360
<v Speaker 2>cops come in and they're like, we have to evacuate now, immediately,

962
00:58:39.239 --> 00:58:42.760
<v Speaker 2>excuse me, And we didn't understand what was going on.

963
00:58:43.039 --> 00:58:49.000
<v Speaker 2>They rushed us into the into the vans, and it

964
00:58:49.159 --> 00:58:52.519
<v Speaker 2>was so scary because you don't know what's going to happen,

965
00:58:52.719 --> 00:58:55.239
<v Speaker 2>you know that. Then at that point it got really

966
00:58:55.360 --> 00:58:58.920
<v Speaker 2>real for me and for the others. We didn't have security.

967
00:58:59.000 --> 00:59:01.440
<v Speaker 2>We should have had secure yet all times with us,

968
00:59:02.000 --> 00:59:04.760
<v Speaker 2>that's another thing may drop the ball on, you know,

969
00:59:05.239 --> 00:59:08.920
<v Speaker 2>after at the hotel, still no security. The next day,

970
00:59:09.440 --> 00:59:13.199
<v Speaker 2>our names are on the cars outside, like, how does

971
00:59:13.280 --> 00:59:16.679
<v Speaker 2>that happen? How did you not protect survivors? You guys

972
00:59:16.719 --> 00:59:18.079
<v Speaker 2>are profiting off of us.

973
00:59:18.719 --> 00:59:21.280
<v Speaker 5>Who do you need security from? Though, that's the question

974
00:59:21.480 --> 00:59:24.159
<v Speaker 5>for maybe the audience, you know, we haven't filled that in.

975
00:59:24.320 --> 00:59:25.760
<v Speaker 5>Why would you need security?

976
00:59:25.840 --> 00:59:29.559
<v Speaker 2>What is happening because his it was found out and

977
00:59:29.719 --> 00:59:33.480
<v Speaker 2>the person that called in was his manager. Was the

978
00:59:33.599 --> 00:59:37.760
<v Speaker 2>fence indicted him. He got he called in that threat.

979
00:59:38.719 --> 00:59:41.639
<v Speaker 2>And also there was a young one of the survivors.

980
00:59:41.719 --> 00:59:44.360
<v Speaker 2>Her car was blown up. I had a break and

981
00:59:44.440 --> 00:59:50.400
<v Speaker 2>in my house. The other survivor, Miss Faith Rogers had

982
00:59:50.519 --> 00:59:53.760
<v Speaker 2>her whole family had to relocate. They were in San Antonio.

983
00:59:53.840 --> 00:59:57.239
<v Speaker 2>They had to move because of the threats, because of

984
00:59:57.400 --> 01:00:01.719
<v Speaker 2>all the craziness that we belie was coming from his camp.

985
01:00:02.719 --> 01:00:05.559
<v Speaker 2>And that takes me back to the situation with Hulu.

986
01:00:06.480 --> 01:00:09.320
<v Speaker 2>They knew where I lived. You have a woman who's

987
01:00:09.360 --> 01:00:11.159
<v Speaker 2>saying that she's my friend, but I don't really know

988
01:00:11.280 --> 01:00:15.599
<v Speaker 2>she's my friend because she's an investigative documentary maker who

989
01:00:15.679 --> 01:00:18.519
<v Speaker 2>could be giving secrets. We don't know. We couldn't trust

990
01:00:18.639 --> 01:00:20.760
<v Speaker 2>anyone at this point. We don't know who to trust.

991
01:00:21.559 --> 01:00:22.119
<v Speaker 5>That's right.

992
01:00:25.000 --> 01:00:25.119
<v Speaker 4>Now.

993
01:00:25.960 --> 01:00:28.000
<v Speaker 5>A little bit after this, you say, a few weeks

994
01:00:28.039 --> 01:00:32.639
<v Speaker 5>after this premiere fiasco, you you talked to a Gloria

995
01:00:32.840 --> 01:00:38.960
<v Speaker 5>Alred faithbook. Roger's mom Kelly calls, and so you set

996
01:00:39.039 --> 01:00:41.559
<v Speaker 5>up a meeting with Gloria Already tell us about this.

997
01:00:43.679 --> 01:00:46.000
<v Speaker 2>Well, I knew of Gloria because of who Gloria is,

998
01:00:46.159 --> 01:00:49.039
<v Speaker 2>and she's a wonderful woman and she has quite a

999
01:00:49.119 --> 01:00:52.840
<v Speaker 2>story herself. She's I've, you know, saw her fighting for

1000
01:00:52.960 --> 01:00:55.719
<v Speaker 2>women her entire life. And I watched the documentary on

1001
01:00:55.800 --> 01:00:59.559
<v Speaker 2>her that's on Netflix. It's very good, and I just

1002
01:00:59.679 --> 01:01:02.920
<v Speaker 2>trust her, and you know, missus Rogers is my very

1003
01:01:02.960 --> 01:01:06.079
<v Speaker 2>good friend. She's become like a second mom to me.

1004
01:01:06.400 --> 01:01:08.360
<v Speaker 2>And she said, why don't you go, why don't we

1005
01:01:08.440 --> 01:01:10.800
<v Speaker 2>go see her? And since I was in LA, I

1006
01:01:10.920 --> 01:01:13.920
<v Speaker 2>was the first one to go talk to Gloria. And

1007
01:01:15.159 --> 01:01:18.119
<v Speaker 2>it was very weird because I'm sitting in a conference

1008
01:01:18.199 --> 01:01:22.679
<v Speaker 2>room and I'm being recorded on a computer on a

1009
01:01:22.760 --> 01:01:25.960
<v Speaker 2>computer I'm not recorded, but I guess she's listening in

1010
01:01:27.679 --> 01:01:30.920
<v Speaker 2>being interviewed by her colleague. And then she comes in

1011
01:01:31.079 --> 01:01:34.400
<v Speaker 2>right away and we start talking and she says that

1012
01:01:34.519 --> 01:01:38.000
<v Speaker 2>she believes that we have a case and that she's

1013
01:01:38.039 --> 01:01:42.719
<v Speaker 2>going to send some demand letters to him. And we

1014
01:01:42.920 --> 01:01:46.360
<v Speaker 2>became friends after that, like we're friends to this day.

1015
01:01:47.679 --> 01:01:49.559
<v Speaker 2>It was nerve wracking. I didn't really want her to

1016
01:01:49.639 --> 01:01:52.480
<v Speaker 2>send the demand letter and I told her he's not

1017
01:01:52.719 --> 01:01:56.360
<v Speaker 2>going to do right by us, and she felt confident

1018
01:01:56.519 --> 01:02:02.039
<v Speaker 2>in that maybe he will, And there was a conversation

1019
01:02:02.199 --> 01:02:05.880
<v Speaker 2>about well, maybe if you know you don't do the documentary,

1020
01:02:06.079 --> 01:02:10.880
<v Speaker 2>he will. But for me, the documentary was important because

1021
01:02:11.559 --> 01:02:14.760
<v Speaker 2>despite all the nonsense that happened, I knew that he

1022
01:02:14.920 --> 01:02:18.320
<v Speaker 2>was going to be exposed, and an exposure that he

1023
01:02:18.559 --> 01:02:23.519
<v Speaker 2>can't run from. So I declined that and decided to

1024
01:02:24.000 --> 01:02:26.079
<v Speaker 2>let them air my interview.

1025
01:02:27.679 --> 01:02:35.039
<v Speaker 5>Right after this. This is successful, this docuseriies, isn't it,

1026
01:02:35.360 --> 01:02:41.400
<v Speaker 5>despite the misrepresentation in your mind, in all of your minds?

1027
01:02:41.480 --> 01:02:46.039
<v Speaker 5>But so what does Lifeline or Lifetime pardon me call

1028
01:02:46.159 --> 01:02:46.719
<v Speaker 5>again about?

1029
01:02:50.119 --> 01:02:54.599
<v Speaker 2>They call again about you mean the interviews or the

1030
01:02:54.679 --> 01:03:01.000
<v Speaker 2>second part? Yes, well, okay, so we after when it

1031
01:03:01.119 --> 01:03:04.480
<v Speaker 2>was about to air, we were summoned again to go

1032
01:03:04.840 --> 01:03:11.000
<v Speaker 2>to a lot of interviews and you know, once again

1033
01:03:11.079 --> 01:03:14.760
<v Speaker 2>that's the opening Pandora's box again. You know, you're reliving

1034
01:03:14.800 --> 01:03:19.039
<v Speaker 2>all of this again. And after that, the documentary did

1035
01:03:19.199 --> 01:03:22.960
<v Speaker 2>so well. They were nominated for an Emmy, We won

1036
01:03:23.000 --> 01:03:27.960
<v Speaker 2>an MTV Documentary Award, We won the Critics Choice Award,

1037
01:03:29.960 --> 01:03:33.400
<v Speaker 2>back to award. There was so many awards. We couldn't

1038
01:03:33.400 --> 01:03:36.519
<v Speaker 2>believe it. I really wasn't feeling the whole red carpeting.

1039
01:03:36.639 --> 01:03:40.960
<v Speaker 2>I didn't feel like I don't feel like I'm a celebrity.

1040
01:03:41.159 --> 01:03:43.760
<v Speaker 2>I just feel like I'm just a person who decided

1041
01:03:43.800 --> 01:03:49.519
<v Speaker 2>to tell on someone who's very powerful. Getting to those events,

1042
01:03:49.679 --> 01:03:54.199
<v Speaker 2>there was really no transportation. There was no sipe in

1043
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<v Speaker 2>for anything, I mean, any money for any type of

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01:03:59.800 --> 01:04:01.960
<v Speaker 2>go and you know, when you go into these things,

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01:04:02.000 --> 01:04:04.719
<v Speaker 2>you have to look a certain way. And I was

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01:04:04.880 --> 01:04:10.039
<v Speaker 2>cleaning home, so you know, I tried my best, but

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01:04:10.199 --> 01:04:13.000
<v Speaker 2>they really wanted to parade us. And that's what I

1048
01:04:13.119 --> 01:04:16.079
<v Speaker 2>got from that. We went to the Emmys and when

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01:04:16.119 --> 01:04:19.239
<v Speaker 2>they did not win, they just all got up and

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01:04:19.440 --> 01:04:24.760
<v Speaker 2>left us sitting there Jesus, all of yeah. And also

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01:04:24.840 --> 01:04:27.800
<v Speaker 2>at the Critics' Choice Awards, like none of the you know,

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01:04:27.920 --> 01:04:31.159
<v Speaker 2>the higher up, even Kim Hello, to shake anyone's hand

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01:04:31.199 --> 01:04:33.320
<v Speaker 2>and say hello or thank you for doing this, or

1054
01:04:33.719 --> 01:04:36.280
<v Speaker 2>it was just nothing. It was just so disrespectful.

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<v Speaker 5>You say that. In February twenty second, twenty nineteen, Robert

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01:04:41.199 --> 01:04:44.480
<v Speaker 5>Kelly turns himself in. At that time, you were a

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01:04:44.559 --> 01:04:51.880
<v Speaker 5>project manager at LA Forever twenty one. What happens after

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<v Speaker 5>this we talked about in the synopsis. And he goes

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<v Speaker 5>to trial, But what happens after he turns himself in

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<v Speaker 5>and charges.

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<v Speaker 2>Proceed I'm asked to meet with the Feds. So I

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01:05:09.599 --> 01:05:13.280
<v Speaker 2>went to New York City with Gloria and I had

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01:05:13.320 --> 01:05:18.920
<v Speaker 2>an interview with them that lasted many hours. I changed

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01:05:18.960 --> 01:05:24.719
<v Speaker 2>smoke like crazy, and I don't even smoke. It was

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01:05:24.920 --> 01:05:29.320
<v Speaker 2>really scary because there was no turning back in that

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01:05:29.800 --> 01:05:32.599
<v Speaker 2>I had to continue to stand in my truth and

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01:05:32.760 --> 01:05:38.920
<v Speaker 2>tell what really happened to me. And it was hard

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01:05:39.039 --> 01:05:46.960
<v Speaker 2>because you know, you're just I'm just so it's like

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01:05:47.039 --> 01:05:49.360
<v Speaker 2>a movie. It really is like a movie. Like I

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01:05:49.639 --> 01:05:52.440
<v Speaker 2>never thought this is gonna unfold like this the way

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01:05:52.480 --> 01:05:55.280
<v Speaker 2>it did. I didn't think that. I knew the documentary

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01:05:55.360 --> 01:05:57.639
<v Speaker 2>was going to hold him accountable, but I didn't know

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01:05:57.760 --> 01:06:00.559
<v Speaker 2>that it was going to be like this. I mean,

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01:06:00.679 --> 01:06:09.400
<v Speaker 2>he's facing forever in prison. It was a hard time

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<v Speaker 2>for me. I just leave it like that.

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<v Speaker 5>MM. Yeah, you say, you really wrap up a lot

1077
01:06:17.119 --> 01:06:19.840
<v Speaker 5>of the feelings about this, and you talk about that

1078
01:06:21.159 --> 01:06:26.719
<v Speaker 5>they basically resold your pain worldwide and you all became

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01:06:26.800 --> 01:06:30.119
<v Speaker 5>victims all over again with just new kinds of predators.

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<v Speaker 5>I thought that was really profound.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, definitely.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>The most disheartening thing was, you know, who does she

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01:06:39.880 --> 01:06:44.039
<v Speaker 2>think she is going after? A black man, and I'm like,

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01:06:45.199 --> 01:06:48.079
<v Speaker 2>I'll go after any man, I don't care who is

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01:06:48.480 --> 01:06:51.840
<v Speaker 2>if you're a predator, you know what I mean. But

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01:06:51.960 --> 01:06:54.880
<v Speaker 2>I got a lot of that and this white woman

1088
01:06:55.039 --> 01:06:59.559
<v Speaker 2>and I'm you know, I'm not white, I'm Puerto Rican.

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01:06:59.599 --> 01:07:01.840
<v Speaker 2>But what isn't matter, you know what I mean. Like

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01:07:02.480 --> 01:07:04.840
<v Speaker 2>I'm standing here telling you that somebody did this to

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01:07:04.960 --> 01:07:07.679
<v Speaker 2>me and you're not believing me. It's like it's like

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01:07:07.800 --> 01:07:11.320
<v Speaker 2>we're on trial. It's like we're on trial first until

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01:07:11.400 --> 01:07:15.599
<v Speaker 2>he's found not until he's found guilty. We're the guilty ones.

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01:07:16.159 --> 01:07:19.239
<v Speaker 2>That's really what it feels like, you know. And the

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01:07:19.719 --> 01:07:25.519
<v Speaker 2>fake pages on Facebook and Instagram. Kill Lizette, kill Azrael,

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01:07:25.880 --> 01:07:28.800
<v Speaker 2>kill Faith. I mean, these people don't stop. This is

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01:07:28.880 --> 01:07:32.280
<v Speaker 2>a NonStop thing, and you just are afraid to even

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01:07:32.360 --> 01:07:35.960
<v Speaker 2>go outside. I mean there was a period where I

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01:07:36.119 --> 01:07:38.119
<v Speaker 2>was just in the house and during the trial, I

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01:07:38.159 --> 01:07:42.440
<v Speaker 2>didn't want to go outside at all. I was completely depressed.

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01:07:43.320 --> 01:07:47.480
<v Speaker 2>And just like now if he's found guilty, who knows

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01:07:47.480 --> 01:07:49.079
<v Speaker 2>if they're going to go and try to kill us,

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01:07:49.199 --> 01:07:50.880
<v Speaker 2>Like you don't know, you know what I mean, because

1104
01:07:51.239 --> 01:07:53.440
<v Speaker 2>we have been through so much, Like we're all walking

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01:07:53.480 --> 01:07:55.639
<v Speaker 2>around with PTSD from.

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<v Speaker 5>This sure yeah yeah, yeah yeah, And no no offer

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01:08:01.679 --> 01:08:06.159
<v Speaker 5>for treatment, any kind of compensation anywhere from anyone and

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01:08:06.280 --> 01:08:09.679
<v Speaker 5>nowhere from anyone. And like you say, there's profits to

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01:08:09.760 --> 01:08:12.119
<v Speaker 5>go around, there's a lot of people going to profit

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01:08:12.199 --> 01:08:12.920
<v Speaker 5>off this misery.

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01:08:14.039 --> 01:08:18.399
<v Speaker 2>Absolutely, you know, all these YouTubers, they make a living

1112
01:08:18.439 --> 01:08:20.760
<v Speaker 2>off of this. It's every day day. I don't know

1113
01:08:20.760 --> 01:08:23.079
<v Speaker 2>if you've seen it day in and day out, the story.

1114
01:08:23.600 --> 01:08:28.279
<v Speaker 2>They go after us, they lie on us. You know,

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01:08:28.399 --> 01:08:32.039
<v Speaker 2>you have you know I talk about this, you know,

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01:08:32.199 --> 01:08:35.239
<v Speaker 2>the Time's Up situation that happened that's in the book

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01:08:36.039 --> 01:08:39.119
<v Speaker 2>where they wouldn't help us. And you start to question

1118
01:08:39.279 --> 01:08:41.960
<v Speaker 2>all of these nonprofits. I mean, who are you helping?

1119
01:08:42.319 --> 01:08:45.520
<v Speaker 2>We need help? You know, we need help, but we're

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01:08:45.560 --> 01:08:48.000
<v Speaker 2>not getting it. And that's something that needs to be

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01:08:48.079 --> 01:08:52.159
<v Speaker 2>brought to the table. And and really, you know, I

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01:08:52.319 --> 01:08:56.079
<v Speaker 2>think that things need to change in Hollywood as far

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01:08:56.279 --> 01:09:01.199
<v Speaker 2>as the rules. You know, with bags, if you're interviewing survivors,

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01:09:01.279 --> 01:09:05.479
<v Speaker 2>you need to have a real psychologist on site that

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01:09:05.560 --> 01:09:10.079
<v Speaker 2>deals with trauma to know to say the interview is over,

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01:09:10.600 --> 01:09:15.039
<v Speaker 2>she can't go anymore, stop pushing her. And that doesn't happen.

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01:09:15.840 --> 01:09:17.520
<v Speaker 2>You know, they want to do that to you. They

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01:09:17.640 --> 01:09:20.199
<v Speaker 2>want to see how where they can poke you. You know,

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01:09:20.560 --> 01:09:24.479
<v Speaker 2>when I was doing the second documentary, the second one,

1130
01:09:24.520 --> 01:09:29.960
<v Speaker 2>because I was in contract the second one, she said

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01:09:30.039 --> 01:09:32.520
<v Speaker 2>to me, and I just had been after like hours

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01:09:32.600 --> 01:09:35.720
<v Speaker 2>of crying, she said, what would you think your life

1133
01:09:35.760 --> 01:09:38.159
<v Speaker 2>would be if you hadn't walked in that mall? I

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01:09:38.239 --> 01:09:40.159
<v Speaker 2>mean I had a nervous I nearly had a nervous

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<v Speaker 2>breakdown on camera because it was just way too much,

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01:09:44.560 --> 01:09:45.159
<v Speaker 2>way too much.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, absolutely, absolutely yes. And you you do say at

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<v Speaker 5>the very end of this book, you say, people always

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<v Speaker 5>ask you, and I've always asked you, why did you

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01:09:57.359 --> 01:10:02.600
<v Speaker 5>stay before I let you go? Which you answer that

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01:10:02.680 --> 01:10:04.760
<v Speaker 5>so eloquently in this part of the book.

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<v Speaker 2>The end of the book, I'm going to answer the

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01:10:09.159 --> 01:10:12.199
<v Speaker 2>way I want to answer right now, because every day

1144
01:10:12.239 --> 01:10:16.239
<v Speaker 2>it's like it's changes in my mind. I kind of

1145
01:10:16.319 --> 01:10:20.840
<v Speaker 2>dissect why I stayed. You know, I just wanted to

1146
01:10:20.920 --> 01:10:26.279
<v Speaker 2>be somebody and I could. I was a wounded person,

1147
01:10:26.920 --> 01:10:28.760
<v Speaker 2>and I still am a wounded person. But I was

1148
01:10:28.840 --> 01:10:33.920
<v Speaker 2>a wounded kid, and he was a wounded person. And

1149
01:10:34.039 --> 01:10:36.520
<v Speaker 2>sometimes wounded people don't know how to let each other go,

1150
01:10:36.920 --> 01:10:40.520
<v Speaker 2>or they don't know how to say no, there's no boundaries.

1151
01:10:41.560 --> 01:10:44.439
<v Speaker 2>It's just a free for all and I lost myself.

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01:10:45.640 --> 01:10:47.680
<v Speaker 2>And that's the only explanation I have.

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<v Speaker 5>That says it all. I think, really does. I want

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01:10:56.319 --> 01:10:58.159
<v Speaker 5>to thank you so much for coming on and talking

1155
01:10:58.199 --> 01:11:01.760
<v Speaker 5>about Jane Doe number nine, How I Survived r Kelly.

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01:11:02.239 --> 01:11:03.920
<v Speaker 5>For those people that might want to take a look

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01:11:03.960 --> 01:11:05.520
<v Speaker 5>at this, I know this is a Wild Blue Press

1158
01:11:05.600 --> 01:11:08.840
<v Speaker 5>release and it's your release is just today, as a

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01:11:08.920 --> 01:11:13.000
<v Speaker 5>matter of fact, today, Yes, is there a Facebook page

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01:11:13.159 --> 01:11:15.880
<v Speaker 5>or somewhere where they might find out more information about

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01:11:15.880 --> 01:11:17.960
<v Speaker 5>this other than the Wild Blue Press page?

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01:11:19.159 --> 01:11:24.000
<v Speaker 2>They can't. It's well, it's on Amazons and it's actually

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01:11:24.119 --> 01:11:27.880
<v Speaker 2>number one and new releases of Survivor Burmaar today. It's

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01:11:27.920 --> 01:11:29.960
<v Speaker 2>been number one for a few days now, so I'm

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01:11:30.000 --> 01:11:32.119
<v Speaker 2>really proud of that. And you know, I want to

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01:11:32.159 --> 01:11:35.680
<v Speaker 2>thank Keela McGregor, who you know, helped me with this.

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01:11:35.960 --> 01:11:39.960
<v Speaker 2>She's an amazing, amazing woman and amazing writer. I mean,

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01:11:40.399 --> 01:11:42.720
<v Speaker 2>it was a collaborative effort, but I could never have

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01:11:42.800 --> 01:11:45.960
<v Speaker 2>done it without her. We worked two years on this

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01:11:46.199 --> 01:11:48.159
<v Speaker 2>and we really gave it our all and I really

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01:11:48.239 --> 01:11:50.960
<v Speaker 2>hope that people pick it up, give it as a gift.

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01:11:51.119 --> 01:11:54.039
<v Speaker 2>Anyone that's survived anything, or that's trying to survive something.

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01:11:54.079 --> 01:11:58.920
<v Speaker 2>I think this book would be really helpful. Absolutely, And

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01:11:59.760 --> 01:12:03.479
<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm on Instagram and it's I am Lisette Martinez

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01:12:03.880 --> 01:12:06.680
<v Speaker 2>and I post a lot about the book there, which

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01:12:06.800 --> 01:12:09.520
<v Speaker 2>we're going to do a page for the actual book

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01:12:10.319 --> 01:12:13.279
<v Speaker 2>probably tomorrow, but they can follow me there and find

1178
01:12:13.319 --> 01:12:16.800
<v Speaker 2>out more about it and my upcoming events. I have

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01:12:16.880 --> 01:12:20.520
<v Speaker 2>a nonprofit called Delia's House, which is dedicated to my

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01:12:20.560 --> 01:12:23.920
<v Speaker 2>grandmother and my sister and I started it and we're

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01:12:24.000 --> 01:12:26.479
<v Speaker 2>going to build a home for domestic violence victim and

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01:12:26.640 --> 01:12:31.439
<v Speaker 2>sexual assault violence a sexual assault victims in Puerto Rico,

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01:12:31.640 --> 01:12:35.359
<v Speaker 2>where we're from. You know, Puerto Rico is part of

1184
01:12:35.399 --> 01:12:38.920
<v Speaker 2>the United States, but you know it's a forgotten place

1185
01:12:39.239 --> 01:12:41.520
<v Speaker 2>and there's a lot of domestic violence going on there.

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01:12:41.560 --> 01:12:44.239
<v Speaker 2>It's this serious, serious issues. So I'm going to give

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01:12:44.279 --> 01:12:46.119
<v Speaker 2>my all to that. That's my next goal.

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01:12:47.600 --> 01:12:51.159
<v Speaker 5>Great, well, that's remarkable. It's a remarkable cause that you've

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01:12:51.199 --> 01:12:53.880
<v Speaker 5>taken up, and it is a remarkable book. Thank you

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01:12:54.000 --> 01:12:57.920
<v Speaker 5>so much, Martinez. Thank you Number nine How I Survive?

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01:12:58.039 --> 01:12:58.920
<v Speaker 2>Thank you, Thank you.

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01:12:59.079 --> 01:12:59.720
<v Speaker 5>You have a great night.

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<v Speaker 2>Thanks Regular YouTube by Pack
