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I am here with a very special guest, 18 00:01:31.000 --> 00:01:36.239 you know, special as special gets mister Logan Canora's improper 19 00:01:36.280 --> 00:01:39.840 ascension Queen of Darkness, even though he's clearly a bloke, 20 00:01:40.079 --> 00:01:43.480 just you know, look at the fucking beard or hey, 21 00:01:43.560 --> 00:01:45.959 who knows it's it's twenty twenty five. If in twenty 22 00:01:46.000 --> 00:01:48.680 twenty four anything was possible, then who knows whatever the 23 00:01:48.680 --> 00:01:53.400 fuck is is possible? In twenty twenty five yas queens lay, 24 00:01:55.000 --> 00:01:56.920 So that should get the algorithm going. 25 00:02:00.640 --> 00:02:03.480 We're at in the algorithm today, boys. 26 00:02:03.239 --> 00:02:05.439 Oh yeah, and we're not even a minute in and 27 00:02:05.480 --> 00:02:08.520 we're already starting this ship. It has been a long 28 00:02:08.560 --> 00:02:13.520 weekends already and it's just got started. Anyway, Logan, bro, 29 00:02:13.719 --> 00:02:18.039 thank you for for coming on again. It's been a 30 00:02:18.080 --> 00:02:20.479 while since I h I had you on the show. 31 00:02:20.560 --> 00:02:23.199 I you know, I joined it in like one or 32 00:02:23.240 --> 00:02:27.039 two rituals of yours, you know, in the way that 33 00:02:27.120 --> 00:02:30.560 only you can do them. But I'm actually checking, like, 34 00:02:30.639 --> 00:02:32.240 when did I have you on this show? 35 00:02:32.639 --> 00:02:35.280 Oh dear, it's been it's been months. It's been a 36 00:02:35.360 --> 00:02:36.280 very long long time. 37 00:02:36.639 --> 00:02:39.159 Well let's just say you were still kind of skinny 38 00:02:39.280 --> 00:02:42.879 and beard bless back then, like a a whole different person. 39 00:02:42.919 --> 00:02:44.719 I mean, I totally believe you're you know, you're still 40 00:02:44.719 --> 00:02:46.879 the same one, but dude, you were a different fucking 41 00:02:46.879 --> 00:02:47.639 person back then. 42 00:02:48.599 --> 00:02:51.719 And it's been cuarly almost at the time. But then 43 00:02:51.759 --> 00:02:53.639 I found someone who adopted me insid are all to 44 00:02:53.639 --> 00:02:56.000 help out with some expenses and finances and stuff like that. 45 00:02:56.120 --> 00:02:58.479 So that was my saving grace and I'm just here 46 00:02:58.520 --> 00:03:01.280 to help out because I myself more as a support 47 00:03:01.360 --> 00:03:02.800 unit more than a leader per se. 48 00:03:02.840 --> 00:03:07.000 You know, yeah, no, totally. I'm just trying to find it. 49 00:03:07.039 --> 00:03:10.719 But I've done so many videos and so many podcasts 50 00:03:10.840 --> 00:03:13.680 it is all getting lost in the end of thread. 51 00:03:13.719 --> 00:03:16.840 But whenever I upload this, I'll just you know, luckily 52 00:03:16.879 --> 00:03:21.080 YouTube managed always manages to find these videos for me. 53 00:03:21.319 --> 00:03:24.639 But how you been, man, How you doing? What's what's 54 00:03:24.680 --> 00:03:25.840 been happening with you lately? 55 00:03:26.479 --> 00:03:29.479 Surviving and as I showed with you a little bit earlier, 56 00:03:29.759 --> 00:03:32.360 making music, making some how some DM and stuff like that, 57 00:03:32.400 --> 00:03:36.400 because I'm so bored with the feeds that I'm getting 58 00:03:37.080 --> 00:03:40.879 and always AI generated stuff. And I have zero musical talent, right, 59 00:03:41.639 --> 00:03:44.919 zero or musical talent. I have zero experience in producing 60 00:03:44.960 --> 00:03:47.439 and making music. But as you got to listen to this, 61 00:03:47.520 --> 00:03:49.360 one of the songs come and get it. I think 62 00:03:49.360 --> 00:03:51.080 it was that one, Yeah, and it. 63 00:03:50.960 --> 00:03:56.240 Was they listened to. You'd be crazy not to try. 64 00:03:56.719 --> 00:03:57.639 Yeah, that one, that one. 65 00:03:57.759 --> 00:04:01.199 Skip skip through that little listen to it. It's good man, 66 00:04:01.280 --> 00:04:03.800 it's good. I mean, you know, like I said when 67 00:04:03.840 --> 00:04:07.479 we before we started recording, leads needs a little a 68 00:04:07.479 --> 00:04:11.719 little mixing still, but hey, for someone who has never 69 00:04:11.719 --> 00:04:14.400 done it before and is just toying around with it. 70 00:04:14.400 --> 00:04:17.279 It's good, bro, That's what I'm all about because think 71 00:04:17.319 --> 00:04:19.240 about it like this, like I have a firm belief 72 00:04:19.279 --> 00:04:24.199 that sound influences matter, because how can something like noise essentially, 73 00:04:25.000 --> 00:04:28.680 how can noise invoke tears? True? 74 00:04:29.399 --> 00:04:32.199 I mean, that's that's going into the study of simatics, 75 00:04:32.959 --> 00:04:36.439 you know, how sound influences matter, and you know, like 76 00:04:36.480 --> 00:04:39.680 getting into the deep shit right away, it is possible 77 00:04:39.759 --> 00:04:45.639 to use sound for elevation purposes. There is this video 78 00:04:45.720 --> 00:04:48.639 floating around the internet. I just just saw it the 79 00:04:48.720 --> 00:04:52.839 other day. Again. I believe it was of some some 80 00:04:52.959 --> 00:04:57.680 Russian exhibit who has set up three pillars, three sound 81 00:04:57.800 --> 00:05:01.079 pillars with you know, like speakers at the bottom in 82 00:05:01.120 --> 00:05:04.759 its placed some rocks on top of it, and just 83 00:05:04.800 --> 00:05:09.759 by playing a certain frequency through those speakers, he manages 84 00:05:09.839 --> 00:05:16.480 to get those flock those So yeah, sound it does, 85 00:05:16.800 --> 00:05:17.879 it does a whole lot. 86 00:05:18.199 --> 00:05:18.399 You know. 87 00:05:18.680 --> 00:05:22.639 Yeah, it's just I mean, you could say it's just noise, 88 00:05:23.040 --> 00:05:27.839 is just sound, But if you play it in you know, patterns, 89 00:05:28.199 --> 00:05:32.839 some kind of pattern, it invokes emotion. 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Of course with fire Fay it's a whole different, 125 00:08:05.800 --> 00:08:08.199 different kind of ritual. Like that's the true you know, 126 00:08:08.439 --> 00:08:12.959 like you know with ritual you know, lighting insects may 127 00:08:13.240 --> 00:08:17.040 your altar and no not not bafome not not the. 128 00:08:18.480 --> 00:08:21.319 Yourt's. 129 00:08:21.800 --> 00:08:24.199 My mind's been known the occult lately. I just want 130 00:08:24.240 --> 00:08:28.639 to see Noratu all other day, so my my mind 131 00:08:28.720 --> 00:08:31.399 is on the occult. So I heard I heard baffle 132 00:08:31.439 --> 00:08:32.720 mate right away. 133 00:08:32.799 --> 00:08:35.480 Actually funny is believe it or not, I'm actually able 134 00:08:35.559 --> 00:08:36.559 to deal in double speak. 135 00:08:39.279 --> 00:08:42.279 Oh that doesn't surprise me that doesn't surprise me in 136 00:08:42.360 --> 00:08:46.559 the in the slightest, but. 137 00:08:46.559 --> 00:08:48.120 Yeah, when it comes down to it, it was like, 138 00:08:48.159 --> 00:08:49.759 the reason I do those rituals and the way that 139 00:08:49.799 --> 00:08:55.320 I do is because I've learned that imagery signs, symbols, sounds, 140 00:08:55.440 --> 00:08:57.440 and events that are being portrayed in the videos that 141 00:08:57.480 --> 00:09:00.120 I use and I and I supplement, I'm basically telling 142 00:09:00.120 --> 00:09:10.679 a narrative story. Yep. Because you're fine the playlist that 143 00:09:10.720 --> 00:09:13.240 I that I use and stuff like that, it's because 144 00:09:13.320 --> 00:09:16.840 I'm showing what I did to quote unquote improperly ascend. 145 00:09:17.840 --> 00:09:20.240 That's why I go by the name improper ascension, because 146 00:09:20.440 --> 00:09:22.720 I go by that because I figured out a way 147 00:09:22.919 --> 00:09:25.919 to glitch the ascension process, if you want to call 148 00:09:25.960 --> 00:09:29.440 it such, by developing my on Redmond routine. Essentially, I've 149 00:09:29.440 --> 00:09:32.759 been living the same day for thirty three years. 150 00:09:35.200 --> 00:09:43.879 So eternal groundhol day pretty much willingly. Willingly dude. 151 00:09:44.000 --> 00:09:49.559 That's the reason is I have this interesting concept that 152 00:09:49.759 --> 00:09:52.360 if you build something, it will stay until you continue 153 00:09:52.360 --> 00:09:54.639 building it, and no great work is finished until you 154 00:09:54.679 --> 00:09:57.440 give up. Nothing has ever completed, it's only given up. 155 00:09:57.519 --> 00:10:01.120 And with that notion, I'm basically thinking King, Okay, if 156 00:10:01.120 --> 00:10:04.080 the ether exists because back in the day, at least 157 00:10:04.080 --> 00:10:06.240 in the States, we used to have on the periodic table, 158 00:10:06.240 --> 00:10:09.159 it used to be something called the ether or the ether, right, 159 00:10:09.639 --> 00:10:12.000 that was actually an actual element that you could work 160 00:10:12.039 --> 00:10:16.600 with and harmonizing energies and frequencies, right like that. Well, 161 00:10:16.639 --> 00:10:18.360 what I've had a thought was, what if I were 162 00:10:18.399 --> 00:10:20.360 to do the same thing every single day and constantly 163 00:10:20.399 --> 00:10:22.799 build up mana in regards to a certain ritual that 164 00:10:22.840 --> 00:10:24.879 takes thirty three years to prepare ongoing. 165 00:10:28.360 --> 00:10:32.440 Okay, so you are reliving the same day over and 166 00:10:32.480 --> 00:10:37.320 over again, but ramping it up every cycle pretty. 167 00:10:37.080 --> 00:10:42.159 Much, so that extra charged to it. Because okay, if 168 00:10:42.200 --> 00:10:44.200 everything that we think, say or do sends out a 169 00:10:44.240 --> 00:10:48.720 signal out into the universe, right, what if you were 170 00:10:48.759 --> 00:10:51.799 to make that so fine tuned and so directed that 171 00:10:51.919 --> 00:10:54.480 your impact is not like a droplet of water into 172 00:10:54.480 --> 00:10:58.720 the ocean, It is the fucking ocean and you do 173 00:10:58.759 --> 00:11:02.600 that every day. 174 00:11:03.480 --> 00:11:06.240 I mean they you know, the saying is nothing nothing. 175 00:11:06.320 --> 00:11:10.519 That consistency is key. If you want to accomplish something, 176 00:11:11.080 --> 00:11:16.480 Consistency is key. Whether that be with musical practice, ritual practice, 177 00:11:16.639 --> 00:11:19.399 I don't know. In in in the gym, in the dojo, 178 00:11:19.559 --> 00:11:23.440 consistency is key if you want to get good at something. 179 00:11:23.559 --> 00:11:31.799 You know, consistency of rituals with your type of experiments, 180 00:11:32.639 --> 00:11:37.080 if you will, if you do them every day, and 181 00:11:37.200 --> 00:11:39.679 every day you you know, you do a little more. 182 00:11:39.799 --> 00:11:45.120 I mean you could call that progressive overload, even which 183 00:11:45.960 --> 00:11:48.759 is such such a basic thing, such a basic function. 184 00:11:49.000 --> 00:11:52.000 I love going to the gym, I love doing jiu jitsu, 185 00:11:52.159 --> 00:11:55.679 and especially for you know, all our our our Jim 186 00:11:55.679 --> 00:12:00.000 Bros and Jim Jim girls. 187 00:12:00.200 --> 00:12:01.360 You're there for moral support. 188 00:12:02.399 --> 00:12:05.960 Yeah, but you know, like progressive overload, every week you 189 00:12:06.000 --> 00:12:08.480 do a little more. Every week you lift a little more, 190 00:12:08.519 --> 00:12:11.080 you put a little more on the bar, and then 191 00:12:11.120 --> 00:12:13.519 by four weeks you're fucking lifting double. 192 00:12:14.480 --> 00:12:17.240 Mm if not triple. If you actually work on proper form, 193 00:12:17.240 --> 00:12:19.519 it's all about breathing and proper form. I used to 194 00:12:19.600 --> 00:12:21.279 go to the gym for about six hours a day 195 00:12:21.440 --> 00:12:22.519 back in the day. I'm not trying to get a 196 00:12:22.559 --> 00:12:23.120 marine Corps. 197 00:12:24.440 --> 00:12:27.960 That's too much, man, that's too much. Then you're just 198 00:12:29.440 --> 00:12:31.720 then you're just over exerting your body. I mean, I'm 199 00:12:31.799 --> 00:12:39.120 I'm I'm more of the and people are gonna gonna 200 00:12:39.120 --> 00:12:42.519 hate me for it. More of the Mike Menzer mindset. 201 00:12:42.639 --> 00:12:47.279 You know, forty five minutes should be plenty, you know, 202 00:12:47.759 --> 00:12:54.559 two sets max. I mean, I used to be one 203 00:12:54.559 --> 00:12:56.919 of those guys that you know, just goes and goes 204 00:12:56.960 --> 00:12:58.519 and goes and is in the gym for like an 205 00:12:58.559 --> 00:13:03.200 hour and a half, two fucking hour. And I I still, 206 00:13:03.360 --> 00:13:06.159 you know, do those workouts sometimes with a with a 207 00:13:06.159 --> 00:13:08.360 good body of mine loado bike. But when I work 208 00:13:08.399 --> 00:13:12.360 out with him, I'm just like, dude, you're doing too much. 209 00:13:12.600 --> 00:13:14.679 You know, you're going from this to that, and now 210 00:13:14.679 --> 00:13:16.480 we're doing this, and now we're doing that and all 211 00:13:16.519 --> 00:13:20.799 the like, all the same, not even pyramids sets, not 212 00:13:20.879 --> 00:13:23.919 even you know, going from heavy and then or you know, 213 00:13:24.000 --> 00:13:26.759 going light scanning it up, or starting heavy and scanning 214 00:13:26.840 --> 00:13:29.799 it down, like no, four sets of ten everything. 215 00:13:31.200 --> 00:13:34.960 Yeah, that's how you do it. It's a discussion. 216 00:13:35.000 --> 00:13:36.000 Par No, they're hype. 217 00:13:36.039 --> 00:13:39.559 Perhaps it's the ultimate endurance test. It's the ultimate I mean, 218 00:13:39.600 --> 00:13:41.039 I see regards. 219 00:13:40.480 --> 00:13:43.159 But that's but that's endurance. Then you get into the 220 00:13:43.159 --> 00:13:46.399 Then you get into endurance. Then you get into what 221 00:13:46.440 --> 00:13:48.440 are they what do they call it again, like more bodybuilding, 222 00:13:48.960 --> 00:13:54.919 bodybuilding territory, hypertrophy. That's that's hypertrophy that has little hypertrophy 223 00:13:55.000 --> 00:13:59.039 and endurance mostly because you know, after a certain amount 224 00:13:59.120 --> 00:14:01.519 of of sets and red your muscles are fucking burnt. 225 00:14:02.240 --> 00:14:05.720 So then to do more it's you know, you're only 226 00:14:05.840 --> 00:14:11.399 exerting more than they can, so you're damaging them too much. Then, 227 00:14:11.480 --> 00:14:15.279 you know, recovery takes longer anyway, Jim talk. 228 00:14:15.960 --> 00:14:17.840 Yeah, all right, you know when it comes when it 229 00:14:17.879 --> 00:14:19.480 comes down to it is like I've been living the 230 00:14:19.480 --> 00:14:21.360 same day every single day, and yeah, it kind of 231 00:14:21.360 --> 00:14:23.879 gets taxing and draining. But I view it as a 232 00:14:23.960 --> 00:14:27.960 kid to me eating or punching down a mountain with 233 00:14:28.039 --> 00:14:29.039 your fists only. 234 00:14:33.720 --> 00:14:40.440 I mean, eventually you'll you'll definitely book result again, you know, consistency. Yeah, 235 00:14:40.480 --> 00:14:44.840 it's gonna take take a hell of time. M but hey, 236 00:14:44.879 --> 00:14:47.879 you know, bid by bid, layer by layer, you'll, you know, 237 00:14:48.080 --> 00:14:50.120 you'll quite literally break down the mountain. 238 00:14:51.080 --> 00:14:54.399 It's like it's like, imagine someone who's such a fool 239 00:14:54.480 --> 00:14:56.960 like myself, and it's like, I don't like that mountain 240 00:14:57.000 --> 00:15:04.120 in the sunset. It offends me. I will rectify it. 241 00:15:00.080 --> 00:15:05.799 It's a hell of a task, it's a hell of 242 00:15:05.799 --> 00:15:08.159 a chore, but I mean, you know, you can do 243 00:15:08.200 --> 00:15:12.720 anything that you set your mind to. I'm quoting from everyone. 244 00:15:12.159 --> 00:15:15.399 Pretty much, but yeah, when it comes down to it, 245 00:15:15.399 --> 00:15:17.360 it's like I'm a motivated guy where I was like, 246 00:15:17.399 --> 00:15:19.399 I can't really do much as of late because I 247 00:15:19.440 --> 00:15:21.639 am as they call it disabled and stuff like that, 248 00:15:21.679 --> 00:15:24.879 mentally and stuff. Because you know, life, life gave me 249 00:15:24.919 --> 00:15:27.960 an interesting turn of events, but the events that happened 250 00:15:28.000 --> 00:15:30.840 to me forged me to have such an awareness of 251 00:15:30.879 --> 00:15:33.679 my environment because I don't know what reality is like 252 00:15:33.720 --> 00:15:38.720 this right, I can't see this, but objective reality, which 253 00:15:38.759 --> 00:15:40.440 is the cameras, tell me there's a wall back here. 254 00:15:40.440 --> 00:15:43.399 But when I turn away as I'm doing now, I 255 00:15:43.440 --> 00:15:46.120 don't see a wall here. There's nothing. 256 00:15:47.559 --> 00:15:51.360 That's interesting. It's kind of going into into game theory 257 00:15:51.519 --> 00:15:57.000 or the what is it the simulation theory? Simulation that's 258 00:15:57.039 --> 00:16:00.960 that's it. You know, if I can see it, is 259 00:16:01.000 --> 00:16:04.919 it still there? I mean, yeah, obviously it's still there. Yeah, 260 00:16:04.960 --> 00:16:06.919 but how do you know it's still there? You know, 261 00:16:07.080 --> 00:16:11.240 you you don't see it. Who knows? Maybe you like 262 00:16:11.480 --> 00:16:15.720 you manifest it over and over again because you have 263 00:16:15.799 --> 00:16:19.879 that expectation that if you go somewhere, if you walk 264 00:16:19.960 --> 00:16:25.159 into a room, you're expecting to see certain things either 265 00:16:25.279 --> 00:16:27.519 because you know they've always been there or because you 266 00:16:27.600 --> 00:16:32.559 place them there, so you know, who knows, Maybe they 267 00:16:32.600 --> 00:16:35.559 aren't there. And if you go like into way way 268 00:16:35.639 --> 00:16:38.679 scientific shit, you know, like then what is it like 269 00:16:38.960 --> 00:16:45.519 ninety nine point nine percent of everything is empty? Yeah, so, 270 00:16:46.279 --> 00:16:51.240 which is fucking crazy, Like we're we're physical beings, but 271 00:16:51.440 --> 00:16:55.399 we're not. Yeah, so yeah, you know who knows? Like, yeah, 272 00:16:55.440 --> 00:16:57.960 you see the wall behind you? I can, you know, 273 00:16:58.159 --> 00:17:03.360 through my computer screen, which is another dimension further. You 274 00:17:03.399 --> 00:17:07.960 could say I can see the wall behind you. But 275 00:17:08.319 --> 00:17:10.559 is that because there actually is a wall behind you 276 00:17:10.680 --> 00:17:12.880 or because I am or. 277 00:17:12.920 --> 00:17:14.720 Is it a painting that I set up behind me 278 00:17:14.759 --> 00:17:17.119 and I'm actually in an airport or something. 279 00:17:18.839 --> 00:17:21.960 That is one quiet fucking airport. Bro No, but that's 280 00:17:22.200 --> 00:17:24.640 that's that's a good one. I mean, your mind works 281 00:17:24.680 --> 00:17:29.319 in mysterious ways. I'll oh, yeah, I'll say to. 282 00:17:31.559 --> 00:17:33.920 Oh, I call myself the Matt Philosopher for a good reason, 283 00:17:34.000 --> 00:17:37.480 because I am insane. I am crazy because okay, as 284 00:17:37.480 --> 00:17:40.079 of late, right, I'll actually go and stop my breathing 285 00:17:40.799 --> 00:17:43.319 like on purpose, and then on that purpose I invoke 286 00:17:43.519 --> 00:17:46.079 the death state apparently, and I've been going into what 287 00:17:46.119 --> 00:17:49.640 I call these fuke states where okay, this is weird, 288 00:17:49.880 --> 00:17:52.640 my vision will turn into a circle, into a tunnel vision, 289 00:17:52.920 --> 00:17:55.880 and I'll start seeing visions. I'll start seeing myself in 290 00:17:55.920 --> 00:17:59.000 a hospital. I've literally held out my hand during I 291 00:17:59.000 --> 00:18:01.200 had these fuke states like that when it's still happening, 292 00:18:01.279 --> 00:18:04.079 these death state or whatever, and my hand was physically touched. 293 00:18:05.119 --> 00:18:07.519 But there's no one here. I'm in my room, but 294 00:18:07.559 --> 00:18:10.160 I'm having visions that simultaneously I'm in the hospital. 295 00:18:13.119 --> 00:18:15.799 But are you sure you were actually in your room? 296 00:18:15.799 --> 00:18:19.359 Because if you, you know, purposefully stop breathing and your 297 00:18:19.920 --> 00:18:24.720 your brain, no matter how damaged or wonderful either way 298 00:18:25.160 --> 00:18:31.160 it may be, it needs oxygen. It needs that oxygen supply. Yeah, 299 00:18:31.240 --> 00:18:34.720 so were you in Were you actually in your room 300 00:18:34.880 --> 00:18:39.000 or were you just expecting to still be in your room? 301 00:18:39.039 --> 00:18:44.039 And what's the hospital situation? The reality physical reality that 302 00:18:44.119 --> 00:18:46.640 you find yourself in. But because you were expecting to 303 00:18:46.680 --> 00:18:51.480 still be in your room, your dream state was actually 304 00:18:51.720 --> 00:18:52.279 in the room. 305 00:18:52.880 --> 00:18:54.839 Yeah, it makes me thinks that I'm literally in a 306 00:18:54.920 --> 00:18:59.960 cloma right now. Literally, I literally feel like I found 307 00:19:00.119 --> 00:19:02.599 to the point where I realized, hey, maybe from that 308 00:19:02.720 --> 00:19:06.319 time I did try to shuffle off the murder coil earlier, 309 00:19:06.359 --> 00:19:09.319 I should say, and I'll say, in that way, I succeeded, 310 00:19:09.839 --> 00:19:14.079 but I did end up in NICEU. I don't know 311 00:19:14.160 --> 00:19:16.480 if I even left the hospital. Is what I'm telling you. 312 00:19:18.160 --> 00:19:20.799 That is the level of my mental state. Because if 313 00:19:20.839 --> 00:19:24.160 I'm experiencing cognitive distance right now talking to my friend, 314 00:19:24.160 --> 00:19:27.640 which is you, and in a dimension called the internet, 315 00:19:27.759 --> 00:19:30.880 but I'm in my mind having a coma, you know 316 00:19:30.960 --> 00:19:33.359 what I mean, it's something that I don't know. 317 00:19:34.599 --> 00:19:41.920 I mean, coma dreams are a thing I believe just 318 00:19:41.960 --> 00:19:47.880 because you're you know, you're in total physical at least 319 00:19:47.920 --> 00:19:51.720 physical shutdown out of self preservation. 320 00:19:51.920 --> 00:19:52.440 It's a. 321 00:19:53.960 --> 00:20:00.200 It's a self ancient ancient lizard brain self preservation thing 322 00:20:00.279 --> 00:20:04.160 of the of the human body. If there is still 323 00:20:05.359 --> 00:20:11.079 brain activity, you know, if you're not literally brain debt, 324 00:20:11.200 --> 00:20:14.720 not just you know, like politician or celebrity debt. 325 00:20:14.960 --> 00:20:18.160 Yeah, there's no no thoughts, no thoughts, no neurons firing, 326 00:20:18.240 --> 00:20:22.400 no nothing, no data state, no nothing. Yeah. 327 00:20:22.440 --> 00:20:24.880 So if there is still brain activity, you know, if 328 00:20:24.880 --> 00:20:29.559 the brain is still functioning on some sort of a wave, 329 00:20:30.920 --> 00:20:36.039 you should still have the capacity to dream. I believe, 330 00:20:37.559 --> 00:20:40.519 and I do believe that coma dreams are a thing, 331 00:20:40.839 --> 00:20:44.759 and you know, who knows, Like, maybe that's something along 332 00:20:44.799 --> 00:20:48.279 the same lines of a of a near death experience. 333 00:20:49.039 --> 00:20:50.440 Maybe you had something like that. 334 00:20:51.319 --> 00:20:54.000 But what's weird is they've been increasing in frequency and agency, 335 00:20:54.039 --> 00:20:56.359 and this is a recent occurrence of mine where I 336 00:20:56.359 --> 00:20:58.480 would just be like laying in my bed, it feels 337 00:20:58.559 --> 00:21:01.519 like my tongue disappears or a swallowed my tongue, and 338 00:21:01.640 --> 00:21:04.319 next thing you know, I'm in this fuke state where 339 00:21:04.319 --> 00:21:07.640 I'm experiencing different realities compiled on one another. It's like, 340 00:21:08.000 --> 00:21:09.640 you know, you know, like how they had the stained 341 00:21:09.640 --> 00:21:13.200 glass paintings and stuff. How one layers is a whole 342 00:21:13.240 --> 00:21:16.039 thing and then on the next layer it's a whole 343 00:21:16.119 --> 00:21:17.920 nother thing that's after that, and you layer it on 344 00:21:18.000 --> 00:21:20.400 and you can see through that. Imagine seeing that, but 345 00:21:20.400 --> 00:21:26.200 it's kind of fragmented, like imagine a stack of pancakes, 346 00:21:26.720 --> 00:21:27.839 very good pancakes. 347 00:21:28.920 --> 00:21:32.640 Pancakes. Sorry, I'm hungry. 348 00:21:33.079 --> 00:21:36.240 I know me too. I'm missing really less today. So 349 00:21:36.279 --> 00:21:38.799 I'm just like, oh, this is terrible because one thing 350 00:21:38.799 --> 00:21:42.640 I'm realizing about myself. I don't like silence, I don't 351 00:21:42.720 --> 00:21:45.039 like I like noise and I need noise and I 352 00:21:45.039 --> 00:21:47.680 need to always be doing something because if I'm not 353 00:21:47.720 --> 00:21:49.720 doing something, it's like, man, I'm just wasting a weight 354 00:21:49.839 --> 00:21:53.200 just doing nothing. But what my what my quote unquote 355 00:21:53.240 --> 00:21:55.359 spiritual guides or my higher self is trying to tell me, 356 00:21:55.440 --> 00:21:58.359 is like I've done so much work, so much energy works, 357 00:21:58.359 --> 00:22:00.319 so much lay line work and doing with all these 358 00:22:00.359 --> 00:22:02.400 rituals stuff like logan take a break. 359 00:22:02.720 --> 00:22:10.000 I'm like, no, been there, man, been there. It's yeah, 360 00:22:10.079 --> 00:22:12.920 but I guess, you know, being being silent, being still 361 00:22:13.079 --> 00:22:17.880 sometimes can be a good thing, how unfucking natural it 362 00:22:18.119 --> 00:22:21.920 may feel. Yeah, it's just I mean I'm terrible at it. 363 00:22:21.960 --> 00:22:24.359 Two though, so you know I'm not the one too. 364 00:22:25.759 --> 00:22:28.480 I'm not the one to you know, to teach you know, 365 00:22:28.680 --> 00:22:31.920 being silent is you know, it's good for the human spirit. 366 00:22:32.079 --> 00:22:36.559 I mean I know it, like intelligently that it silence 367 00:22:36.599 --> 00:22:39.319 can be good sometimes, but I fucking suck at it too, bro. 368 00:22:39.799 --> 00:22:42.200 Right a right, But yeah, when it comes down to it, 369 00:22:42.200 --> 00:22:44.559 it's just like I am in the state right now 370 00:22:44.640 --> 00:22:47.079 where I'm trying to figure out like okay, like and 371 00:22:47.119 --> 00:22:49.240 also you know, ask me laugh all the Christians and 372 00:22:49.240 --> 00:22:51.039 stuff things that were in the end times. But me, 373 00:22:51.160 --> 00:22:53.039 being the occultist that I am, is like, this isn't 374 00:22:53.039 --> 00:22:54.920 the end times. It's still gonna be a tomorrow. 375 00:22:57.920 --> 00:23:02.200 It's the end of a cycle. Yeah, it's you know, 376 00:23:02.480 --> 00:23:07.599 we're at the i'd say at or near the tail 377 00:23:07.799 --> 00:23:13.400 ends of revelations of Ratna Rocker of the Kali Yuga, 378 00:23:13.920 --> 00:23:17.279 the Little Season, like you know, give it a name. 379 00:23:17.599 --> 00:23:20.680 But I actually spoke about that yesterday on air with 380 00:23:21.039 --> 00:23:24.319 Ben from on Jane Brain. You'd like him he is, 381 00:23:24.400 --> 00:23:29.000 and he is advance as advance knowledge but practical knowledge. 382 00:23:29.000 --> 00:23:31.319 He's a he's a good guy for oh shit, Like 383 00:23:31.359 --> 00:23:34.440 for the first twenty thirty minutes, I kind of struggle 384 00:23:34.519 --> 00:23:39.559 to hold my own because you know, are he has 385 00:23:39.640 --> 00:23:44.079 great knowledge, but like I'm operating on a different kind 386 00:23:44.079 --> 00:23:46.599 of level. But you know, he's awesome. So for everyone watching, 387 00:23:46.599 --> 00:23:50.640 everyone listening, do check out that one as well, or 388 00:23:50.759 --> 00:23:52.759 just you know, check out on Jane Brain in general, 389 00:23:52.839 --> 00:23:55.279 the Unchained Church, the Gods on the Spectrum, God on 390 00:23:55.359 --> 00:23:57.359 the Spectrum, you'd fit right in, actually. 391 00:23:57.480 --> 00:24:00.319 Right on telegram. Oh, I need to go get a 392 00:24:00.359 --> 00:24:03.200 new phone again because mine are dump So I yeah, 393 00:24:03.279 --> 00:24:04.400 technology is amazing. 394 00:24:04.720 --> 00:24:06.079 You need to stop breaking your shit. 395 00:24:06.119 --> 00:24:08.240 B yeah, I know, it's just I party too hard 396 00:24:08.279 --> 00:24:10.960 and when I party too hard, life happens. And it's 397 00:24:11.000 --> 00:24:13.599 like you describe and describe the ritual that you last 398 00:24:13.599 --> 00:24:16.440 attended to. They last remember how intense it was that like, 399 00:24:16.519 --> 00:24:17.880 what do you feel energetically? 400 00:24:20.960 --> 00:24:24.440 Well, as I mentioned before, I am getting used to 401 00:24:24.559 --> 00:24:27.839