WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.520 --> 00:00:05.799 Welcome to Shine Delusion Shine, the radical art of dreaming 2 00:00:05.960 --> 00:00:09.560 beyond boundaries. I am Vicki Todd, and together with doctor 3 00:00:09.640 --> 00:00:12.679 Pat we will learn to push the boundaries of our minds, 4 00:00:12.919 --> 00:00:16.320 to think delusionally, and create fertile ground for our big 5 00:00:16.440 --> 00:00:20.640 dreams to seed, grow, and manifest. Each episode, we will 6 00:00:20.679 --> 00:00:25.039 gain more ability to think delusionally and cultivate beyond boundaries, 7 00:00:25.120 --> 00:00:29.280 faith that we can accomplish dreams which seem unreachable. Shine 8 00:00:29.280 --> 00:00:33.679 Delusion Shine is a springboard to believing, dreaming and thinking 9 00:00:33.799 --> 00:00:37.479 beyond the ordinary, and a catalyst to living a more fulfilling, 10 00:00:37.759 --> 00:00:41.039 destiny driven life. You were born with dreams, gifts and 11 00:00:41.119 --> 00:00:43.719 talents you are meant to use to make this world brighter. 12 00:00:43.880 --> 00:00:48.159 Let your delusional dreams shine. It all starts now. 13 00:00:50.520 --> 00:00:52.719 Hey, everybody, I'm doctor Pat. I get to take this 14 00:00:52.799 --> 00:00:57.719 amazing journey with the most incredible Vicki Todd. For those 15 00:00:57.759 --> 00:01:01.039 of you out there, if you have a watch the show, 16 00:01:02.039 --> 00:01:04.879 or this is maybe your first time, you're gonna be 17 00:01:05.319 --> 00:01:08.319 You're gonna be amazed. Do you see the background in 18 00:01:08.640 --> 00:01:14.319 Vicky's video? This is Vicky. What she's able to do 19 00:01:14.959 --> 00:01:20.200 is take this beautiful ride of life and translated into 20 00:01:20.280 --> 00:01:26.480 amazing art today. This is so important dream liftoff. Now 21 00:01:26.519 --> 00:01:28.879 what now, let me tell you why this is important, 22 00:01:29.200 --> 00:01:34.079 because this particular day is especially important with what's happening 23 00:01:34.120 --> 00:01:37.040 with the solar flare and the planet Jupiter. As a 24 00:01:37.040 --> 00:01:39.239 matter of fact, later on tonight we're going to be 25 00:01:39.280 --> 00:01:43.159 talking about that. But when you take a look and 26 00:01:43.480 --> 00:01:46.799 you're looking at your own lif and you see what 27 00:01:47.000 --> 00:01:50.599 you have done, this amazing lift off. I don't care 28 00:01:50.680 --> 00:01:53.439 what it is. I don't care if you like to 29 00:01:53.519 --> 00:01:57.400 chop onions and that just turns you on. It's a 30 00:01:57.480 --> 00:01:59.959 lift off. Today. What Vicky's going to do is walk 31 00:02:00.120 --> 00:02:04.439 us through this. What's the deal. You've worked hard here, 32 00:02:04.480 --> 00:02:10.199 you are manifesting big, bold ideas. But now what, VICKI 33 00:02:11.120 --> 00:02:12.120 that's the big question. 34 00:02:12.439 --> 00:02:15.280 Now, that's the question today. 35 00:02:16.240 --> 00:02:18.719 You know, I consider myself a memoir artist, and so 36 00:02:19.120 --> 00:02:22.639 I'm doing this topic right now because I am living it, 37 00:02:22.719 --> 00:02:24.599 and so I wanted to share my experience because I'm 38 00:02:24.599 --> 00:02:27.400 sure that other people out there are feeling the same thing. 39 00:02:27.680 --> 00:02:30.240 So yeah, to start off, Yeah, to start off, I 40 00:02:30.240 --> 00:02:34.759 have really great news my book that I've been working on, 41 00:02:35.400 --> 00:02:38.719 yes for the past whole year and a few weeks 42 00:02:39.199 --> 00:02:41.919 is finally with my publisher and now with the editor. 43 00:02:42.080 --> 00:02:46.639 And so it is called Shine Happy Shine, A mystical 44 00:02:46.719 --> 00:02:51.240 memoir of art destiny and a tenacious mother daughter bond. 45 00:02:51.919 --> 00:02:54.639 And so I have a website for the book that 46 00:02:54.840 --> 00:02:59.400 is up and it's Shinehappy Shine dot com. And so 47 00:02:59.719 --> 00:03:02.960 you can see a synosis of the book. You can 48 00:03:03.000 --> 00:03:05.120 see my bio to learn a little bit more about me. 49 00:03:05.840 --> 00:03:10.159 And I have an art raffle that's happening to celebrate 50 00:03:11.080 --> 00:03:14.840 the publication, which isn't until fall twenty twenty six. I 51 00:03:14.840 --> 00:03:17.520 don't know exactly when yet. I'll know that probably in 52 00:03:17.560 --> 00:03:20.800 a couple of weeks. But here's the deal. If you 53 00:03:20.879 --> 00:03:24.360 go to the homepage and sign up for my email address, 54 00:03:25.080 --> 00:03:28.400 that will enter you into this art raffle. And so 55 00:03:29.039 --> 00:03:30.840 I have an art raffle tab in the menu that 56 00:03:30.879 --> 00:03:34.280 he can go to get more details. But I have 57 00:03:34.800 --> 00:03:37.479 thirty two of my paintings. This is the cover painting 58 00:03:37.520 --> 00:03:39.479 that will be on the cover of the book, and 59 00:03:39.520 --> 00:03:42.560 it has the animal ancestors symbols because sometimes. 60 00:03:42.280 --> 00:03:44.400 They show up humans, sometimes they show up animal. 61 00:03:44.960 --> 00:03:49.000 And I have a link to all of the paintings 62 00:03:49.039 --> 00:03:51.240 in the book, so you can preview them before the 63 00:03:51.240 --> 00:03:54.400 book comes out. And so what I'm offering is the 64 00:03:54.479 --> 00:03:57.120 day the book comes out in the fall, I'm gonna 65 00:03:57.199 --> 00:04:00.240 randomly select one of the emails in the email list, 66 00:04:00.840 --> 00:04:03.800 and you can choose which pay me you want to 67 00:04:03.840 --> 00:04:06.439 be made into an eight inch by ten inch full 68 00:04:06.479 --> 00:04:09.639 color fine art archival print, and I will have it 69 00:04:09.719 --> 00:04:12.520 made and send it to you. And so it is 70 00:04:12.599 --> 00:04:13.800 open and ready to go. 71 00:04:14.199 --> 00:04:17.680 Wow, exciting. Well, you know, part of that is being 72 00:04:17.720 --> 00:04:19.319 able to take that leap. And I know one of 73 00:04:19.319 --> 00:04:21.360 the things you're going to talk about today, and we 74 00:04:21.439 --> 00:04:23.879 don't know we do this, but we do. And that 75 00:04:24.040 --> 00:04:26.399 is we put on that old skin. We put on 76 00:04:26.439 --> 00:04:30.240 the skin we've already had, but we've already shed. But like, okay, 77 00:04:30.639 --> 00:04:33.319 I still like it. You know what It's like, It's that, 78 00:04:33.959 --> 00:04:36.439 oh my gosh, this is so perfect. We got two 79 00:04:36.519 --> 00:04:39.759 jackets sitting downstairs in the living room. I don't know 80 00:04:39.800 --> 00:04:43.120 what decade they're from, but they're sitting there because they're 81 00:04:43.240 --> 00:04:45.439 so hard to get rid of. But the reason they're 82 00:04:45.480 --> 00:04:48.199 in the living room is because it's time to move 83 00:04:48.240 --> 00:04:52.399 them on. But there is now the temptation. They're just 84 00:04:52.519 --> 00:04:57.519 sitting in the living room. Why because the temptation is 85 00:04:57.759 --> 00:05:00.920 I've shed them. There they are If I could just 86 00:05:01.000 --> 00:05:03.720 put that thing on just one more time, Victa, I know, 87 00:05:04.279 --> 00:05:05.839 I know, well, you. 88 00:05:05.800 --> 00:05:08.160 Know, with all this wonderful stuff going on, which is 89 00:05:08.399 --> 00:05:14.839 extremely exciting, of course my mind goes into reverse and says, well, 90 00:05:14.839 --> 00:05:17.680 wait a minute. You've you know, you've worked hard on 91 00:05:17.759 --> 00:05:19.959 a lot of things. You're one woman show, you had 92 00:05:20.000 --> 00:05:22.759 an art booth, that art Santa Fe. You know, you've 93 00:05:22.759 --> 00:05:25.240 been working on this book for over a year. Nothing 94 00:05:25.279 --> 00:05:29.439 has ever really taken off. You know, I did well, 95 00:05:29.800 --> 00:05:32.519 but it hasn't really taken off. So why do you 96 00:05:32.519 --> 00:05:34.959 think this is gonna be any different. You've wasted a 97 00:05:35.000 --> 00:05:38.319 whole year. Your editor's gonna hate it, and she's gonna 98 00:05:38.360 --> 00:05:41.399 want to change everything. And so I think it's just 99 00:05:41.560 --> 00:05:45.319 programmed in. Even though you're having these really exciting moments 100 00:05:45.839 --> 00:05:48.120 that you know, it's like a stop sign to say no, no, 101 00:05:48.160 --> 00:05:48.879 it's not gonna work. 102 00:05:48.920 --> 00:05:49.759 It's not gonna work. 103 00:05:50.360 --> 00:05:55.639 And I had to physically stop myself and say hold on. 104 00:05:57.040 --> 00:05:59.399 You know, we've talked about this before that that's just 105 00:05:59.480 --> 00:06:01.079 kind of how our brains are wired. 106 00:06:01.120 --> 00:06:02.439 It's wired toward the negative. 107 00:06:02.879 --> 00:06:05.720 And so you know, ninety five percent of our thoughts 108 00:06:05.720 --> 00:06:11.720 every day are the old, worn down thoughts that we've 109 00:06:11.759 --> 00:06:14.079 had day after day after day. And it's like this 110 00:06:14.199 --> 00:06:17.920 worn rut, this worn road in your brain. And seventy 111 00:06:18.120 --> 00:06:22.439 to eighty percent of that ninety five percent is negative sabotaging. 112 00:06:22.839 --> 00:06:25.279 You're never going to six seed type of thoughts. So 113 00:06:25.319 --> 00:06:28.959 that means all little five percent somewhere in our brain 114 00:06:29.000 --> 00:06:31.720 that we have to work to make a new road 115 00:06:31.920 --> 00:06:34.399 in our mind says yeah, you can do this. 116 00:06:34.480 --> 00:06:37.240 You've got this yay, delusional dreams, let's go. 117 00:06:37.839 --> 00:06:41.160 And so that's exactly what I had to do, was 118 00:06:41.199 --> 00:06:44.959 turned those around, you know, because my thoughts were saying, 119 00:06:45.040 --> 00:06:47.439 you know, you didn't have that many people in your audience. 120 00:06:47.519 --> 00:06:49.519 I had one really great day was twenty five to 121 00:06:49.560 --> 00:06:52.519 thirty people for my one woman show. One I literally 122 00:06:52.519 --> 00:06:54.600 had two people, and you know, of course I'm going 123 00:06:54.639 --> 00:06:56.839 to do the show to the best of my ability. 124 00:06:57.079 --> 00:06:59.160 But then I say, you know what, I had so 125 00:06:59.279 --> 00:07:03.839 many comments afterward, I recognize those people in your family, 126 00:07:03.879 --> 00:07:06.240 They're in my family. I had two women who are 127 00:07:06.240 --> 00:07:08.240 around the age of fifty, just like I was in 128 00:07:08.279 --> 00:07:11.680 the story that cried because it really struck a chord 129 00:07:11.680 --> 00:07:15.879 in them. With the art booth at Santa Fe. Okay, 130 00:07:15.920 --> 00:07:18.040 I didn't make any sales, but I really got my 131 00:07:18.160 --> 00:07:20.600 name out there and met a bunch of artists from 132 00:07:20.600 --> 00:07:24.480 around the country that you know, I can tap into. 133 00:07:25.560 --> 00:07:30.199 And so you have to work to say, I'm not 134 00:07:30.360 --> 00:07:32.040 falling into that negative rut. 135 00:07:32.079 --> 00:07:33.519 I'm not going to succumb to that. 136 00:07:33.839 --> 00:07:35.800 I'm going to create these new thoughts in my brain 137 00:07:36.240 --> 00:07:38.879 and say, yeah, this is good and I am to succeed. 138 00:07:39.439 --> 00:07:42.199 Yeah. What I love about that story is when I 139 00:07:42.240 --> 00:07:45.319 came up with the crustbusting concept, like even before I 140 00:07:45.360 --> 00:07:49.480 started a show, I started to do class. I was 141 00:07:49.519 --> 00:07:52.079 compelled to do a class, just like you. You were 142 00:07:52.120 --> 00:07:55.120 compelled to create. You were compelled to bring your message 143 00:07:55.160 --> 00:07:58.759 out there. And if I were have paid attention to 144 00:07:58.839 --> 00:08:04.160 the fact that one person showed up or this person 145 00:08:04.279 --> 00:08:07.199 showed up, if that would have been my go to, 146 00:08:07.360 --> 00:08:10.800 which it never was. I was so clearly crossbusting with 147 00:08:10.920 --> 00:08:13.839 the gift, and I brought that through in the show, 148 00:08:14.199 --> 00:08:19.519 and I would have stopped if I based my decision 149 00:08:19.759 --> 00:08:23.000 on the two people that showed up for the thirteen 150 00:08:23.000 --> 00:08:27.439 week class, which people. But that's what you're saying, you know, 151 00:08:27.560 --> 00:08:30.439 I think we are always set up to try things on. 152 00:08:30.680 --> 00:08:33.039 It's like shoes. To me, life is like a pair 153 00:08:33.080 --> 00:08:39.399 of shoes, right. You know, maybe you're somebody VICKI that 154 00:08:39.480 --> 00:08:43.039 can go online and pick the shoes and then your 155 00:08:43.240 --> 00:08:48.679 size and then But this is what we're talking about. 156 00:08:48.759 --> 00:08:52.960 We have to give our ideas time to breathe and grow. 157 00:08:53.600 --> 00:08:57.159 Remember that's what I talked about, solar flares and Jupiter. 158 00:09:00.120 --> 00:09:00.360 Yep. 159 00:09:00.840 --> 00:09:04.000 And something has happened within the past week that I 160 00:09:04.000 --> 00:09:07.759 can pile onto this. I got an email last week, 161 00:09:08.320 --> 00:09:11.799 just out of the blue, this crazy offer, and it's 162 00:09:11.799 --> 00:09:13.879 one of those I almost deleted, but then I thought, 163 00:09:13.919 --> 00:09:16.320 wait a minute, let's check this out. I had a meeting, 164 00:09:16.360 --> 00:09:19.200 a zoom meeting with a guy yesterday, and so my 165 00:09:19.360 --> 00:09:22.759 rational mind is saying this is too far fetched, this 166 00:09:22.799 --> 00:09:26.519 is crazy, don't do it. But then when I finally 167 00:09:26.519 --> 00:09:30.240 got quiet and I listened, what my spirit mind was 168 00:09:30.240 --> 00:09:32.919 telling me, what my heart, my intuition that's connected to 169 00:09:32.960 --> 00:09:37.799 my higher power was telling me, was trust. And last night, 170 00:09:37.840 --> 00:09:39.759 when I got in my bubble bath and you know, 171 00:09:40.000 --> 00:09:43.679 really got quiet and just really prayed about it, all 172 00:09:43.720 --> 00:09:47.120 I heard was trust it, because this is a link 173 00:09:47.200 --> 00:09:50.639 to your larger destiny. So I'm gonna think about it 174 00:09:50.720 --> 00:09:54.720 over the weekend. But it's that battle of the rational 175 00:09:54.799 --> 00:09:58.440 mind saying this is too good to be true versus 176 00:09:58.480 --> 00:10:01.200 something on the inside is saying no, this is It 177 00:10:01.200 --> 00:10:04.720 may sound crazy, but take that leap of faith. Try 178 00:10:04.759 --> 00:10:07.399 on those shoes, walk around in them and see if 179 00:10:07.440 --> 00:10:11.519 it works. And I have the distinct feeling that if 180 00:10:11.559 --> 00:10:13.960 I do take that leap of faith and try it, 181 00:10:14.360 --> 00:10:17.360 I think something supernatural is going to happen beyond what 182 00:10:17.399 --> 00:10:19.000 my rational eyes can see. 183 00:10:19.399 --> 00:10:21.159 And so I'm not going to say what it is yet. 184 00:10:21.720 --> 00:10:26.000 But it's been a real battle, and I really feel 185 00:10:26.039 --> 00:10:30.480 like God, the universe is asking me to come up higher. 186 00:10:30.879 --> 00:10:33.000 You were in a new season, you were at a 187 00:10:33.039 --> 00:10:36.480 new level, a new dimension. You have to change your 188 00:10:36.519 --> 00:10:39.679 thought patterns in order to move forward the way that 189 00:10:39.720 --> 00:10:43.639 you need to to make these dreams burst out. So 190 00:10:45.039 --> 00:10:47.799 it's very exciting, but it's scary at the same time. 191 00:10:48.200 --> 00:10:51.000 But also I think, look at my history. You know, 192 00:10:51.080 --> 00:10:54.120 God and I have a history of this. So in 193 00:10:54.200 --> 00:10:57.440 nineteen ninety eight, you know, in two months after I'd 194 00:10:57.480 --> 00:11:01.200 had that miscarriage and I hadn't worked in the industry 195 00:11:01.279 --> 00:11:03.440 for four and a half years, my master's degree was 196 00:11:03.480 --> 00:11:04.200 eight years old. 197 00:11:04.759 --> 00:11:05.799 It was the same thing. 198 00:11:06.159 --> 00:11:08.919 I got a random call from my dean at Texas 199 00:11:08.960 --> 00:11:12.159 Tech University, who I hadn't seen in the years, and 200 00:11:12.399 --> 00:11:14.399 he said, hey, I need someone to teach his public 201 00:11:14.440 --> 00:11:15.519 relations writing class. 202 00:11:16.519 --> 00:11:18.120 I remember you were a good writer. 203 00:11:18.639 --> 00:11:20.759 And by the way, I was advertising and never taking 204 00:11:20.799 --> 00:11:23.559 a PR class in my life. Do you want to 205 00:11:23.600 --> 00:11:27.000 do it? Oh, it starts tomorrow. And I took the 206 00:11:27.080 --> 00:11:29.360 chance and did it, and that led into a seventeen 207 00:11:29.440 --> 00:11:33.399 year professor career. Well fast forward to that seventeen years 208 00:11:33.440 --> 00:11:37.200 in twenty fifteen, the same feeling of you need to 209 00:11:37.279 --> 00:11:39.759 quit your tenure job to go be an artist. 210 00:11:40.039 --> 00:11:40.840 Do you have a plan? 211 00:11:41.200 --> 00:11:44.799 No, you don't, but do it anyway. And so this 212 00:11:44.879 --> 00:11:47.919 has the same feeling to it. And I feel like 213 00:11:48.039 --> 00:11:50.919 if I say no to this opportunity and close that door, 214 00:11:51.480 --> 00:11:54.559 I'm going to miss something. And so I don't have 215 00:11:54.600 --> 00:11:56.960 the list, I don't have the check check check of 216 00:11:57.000 --> 00:12:00.480 all the boxes to rationally say why or how it 217 00:12:00.480 --> 00:12:03.559 will work. But I just feel in my gut, so 218 00:12:04.039 --> 00:12:07.039 that whole thing of getting quiet, aligning with your higher 219 00:12:07.080 --> 00:12:13.679 power and listening, even if it sounds outrageously stupid, I'm 220 00:12:13.720 --> 00:12:16.000 gonna have to follow that because I've done it before 221 00:12:16.039 --> 00:12:16.840 and it's worked out. 222 00:12:17.399 --> 00:12:19.440 Yeah, And you know, part of this is, let's talk 223 00:12:19.480 --> 00:12:22.399 about it. What does the mind tend to do? Right? 224 00:12:23.759 --> 00:12:27.200 Percent of our thoughts come from or are subconscious, Right, 225 00:12:28.159 --> 00:12:31.279 But what does that even mean? Right here we are, 226 00:12:32.200 --> 00:12:34.399 You've got the new book, you've got a book cover, 227 00:12:35.039 --> 00:12:39.720 you're creating the giveaways. But you've been talking about this book. 228 00:12:40.000 --> 00:12:44.720 So that means what you've been talking it in. Yeah, 229 00:12:44.799 --> 00:12:48.000 that's what I mean. What I call talking it in 230 00:12:48.360 --> 00:12:52.159 is kind of like calling it in, but people don't 231 00:12:52.200 --> 00:12:55.600 realize they can actually talk it in. 232 00:12:56.679 --> 00:13:00.559 Yes, and this is a relatively new thing for me 233 00:13:00.960 --> 00:13:03.759 because you know, I would say things within my mind, 234 00:13:04.639 --> 00:13:07.480 but then I started hearing more and more messages or 235 00:13:07.519 --> 00:13:10.480 reading things. That know, you have to speak it out 236 00:13:10.519 --> 00:13:13.519 loud because when you speak these things out loud that 237 00:13:14.799 --> 00:13:18.559 you know, My editor, the publisher, they love my book. 238 00:13:18.639 --> 00:13:21.960 They think it's wildly creative with these ancestor bits. You know, 239 00:13:22.039 --> 00:13:24.240 all they see is beauty and brilliance when they read it. 240 00:13:24.279 --> 00:13:26.080 The audience is gonna love it. They're just gonna be 241 00:13:26.159 --> 00:13:29.000 drawn to that cover on the website or the bookshelf, 242 00:13:29.240 --> 00:13:31.440 and so I've started saying these. 243 00:13:31.240 --> 00:13:32.440 Things out loud. 244 00:13:33.120 --> 00:13:35.200 You know, I'm one of those people in the grocery store. 245 00:13:35.360 --> 00:13:37.519 If I think of something, I'll be talking to myself. 246 00:13:38.279 --> 00:13:40.759 So but you know, I believe in that, because I 247 00:13:40.759 --> 00:13:43.200 believe that the spirit world goes into action when you 248 00:13:43.279 --> 00:13:49.080 voice these positive, you know, manifesting things out loud. And 249 00:13:49.159 --> 00:13:53.080 so when I turned the book into my publisher and 250 00:13:53.120 --> 00:13:55.480 all these negative thoughts started coming up, she's gonna hate it, 251 00:13:55.480 --> 00:13:58.360 she's gonna want to change everything. I would just kind 252 00:13:58.399 --> 00:14:02.440 of okay, delete that. I'm going to reject that, and 253 00:14:02.480 --> 00:14:06.120 then out loud again, just keep repeating, repeating, repeating, over 254 00:14:06.159 --> 00:14:08.679 and over. She loves it. All she sees is beauty 255 00:14:08.679 --> 00:14:11.559 and brilliant. She thinks it's wildly creative. And I know 256 00:14:11.679 --> 00:14:14.200 that she had to say something to the editor. And 257 00:14:14.240 --> 00:14:17.399 I will give her a props because we were looking 258 00:14:17.399 --> 00:14:20.120 on the website who her editors were and there was 259 00:14:20.159 --> 00:14:22.399 a picture of this man and I thought, oh, I 260 00:14:22.399 --> 00:14:22.840 don't think. 261 00:14:22.759 --> 00:14:25.639 He's going to like this book very much. So she. 262 00:14:27.399 --> 00:14:29.360 Was going to go to this other editor who's a 263 00:14:29.519 --> 00:14:32.320 woman that she's used a lot, but she's unavailable, so 264 00:14:32.440 --> 00:14:35.279 she has searched out another female editor that she thinks 265 00:14:35.320 --> 00:14:38.440 will really, you know, get into my book, and so 266 00:14:38.519 --> 00:14:41.120 she emailed me yesterday and she said she's excited to 267 00:14:41.159 --> 00:14:41.879 read your book. 268 00:14:42.080 --> 00:14:45.200 And so then I thought, oh, so the publisher must have. 269 00:14:45.159 --> 00:14:47.639 Said something to the editor to make the editor excited, 270 00:14:47.679 --> 00:14:51.120 and that must be something positive. So quit freaking yourself 271 00:14:51.120 --> 00:14:52.919 out by saying, oh, everybody's gonna hate it. 272 00:14:54.440 --> 00:14:57.480 Yeah, I mean, look at what we're talking about, and 273 00:14:57.679 --> 00:15:01.360 you know we are we are We are really challenging 274 00:15:01.960 --> 00:15:06.120 ourselves and the population at large right now. Because what 275 00:15:06.200 --> 00:15:10.360 I mean by challenging it is what's your alternative? So 276 00:15:10.440 --> 00:15:13.039 what's your alternative to not do? In that? VICKI to 277 00:15:13.080 --> 00:15:13.519 give up? 278 00:15:13.840 --> 00:15:15.720 And then where are I going to be? Right? 279 00:15:16.120 --> 00:15:23.159 And we have some very interesting ways that and language 280 00:15:23.200 --> 00:15:28.679 we use that mean giving up. See, when you're desperate, 281 00:15:29.279 --> 00:15:31.879 you finally get to the point where you say, I surrender. 282 00:15:32.000 --> 00:15:35.960 I'm giving up now. In some cases that's good. If 283 00:15:36.000 --> 00:15:39.000 you want to become clean and sober, you got a surrender. 284 00:15:39.679 --> 00:15:42.919 But we're talking about a dream. So I want to 285 00:15:42.960 --> 00:15:49.600 ask you this clues signs, give me a sign. And 286 00:15:49.639 --> 00:15:54.799 this happened to me the other day on something I said, God, Universe, 287 00:15:54.840 --> 00:15:57.960 you're all up there, anybody working around over there hearing me? 288 00:15:58.120 --> 00:16:01.039 Right now? I need a sign or I'm not going 289 00:16:01.120 --> 00:16:06.600 to go forward. And it shows up, and I love this. 290 00:16:06.919 --> 00:16:10.080 Do you know? We even have silly commercials now not 291 00:16:10.159 --> 00:16:14.759 so silly. There's this woman sits at a computer and 292 00:16:14.799 --> 00:16:20.000 she's doing aura, she's doing meditations, affirmations. I see the 293 00:16:20.080 --> 00:16:23.480 money in my back. She's literally doing that. And then 294 00:16:23.600 --> 00:16:29.159 she picks up her phone and her paycheck was deposited early. 295 00:16:30.519 --> 00:16:34.840 See this is now reached mainstream television commercial acts. 296 00:16:35.440 --> 00:16:35.679 Yeah. 297 00:16:36.320 --> 00:16:39.360 Yeah, And I did exactly the same thing yesterday, because 298 00:16:39.399 --> 00:16:42.720 did you I was because you know, I got so 299 00:16:42.879 --> 00:16:45.240 excited about everything that's going on and talking to that 300 00:16:45.320 --> 00:16:48.320 man yesterday like whoa you know? And I knew as 301 00:16:48.320 --> 00:16:50.279 soon as I got off the zoom, I said to God, 302 00:16:50.399 --> 00:16:52.039 I said, I already know what you want me to do, 303 00:16:52.120 --> 00:16:54.840 and you're freaking me out. Well, then later the rational 304 00:16:54.840 --> 00:16:58.679 mind starts working and I said, you know what, I'm 305 00:16:58.679 --> 00:17:01.200 not sure about this, and if you don't say something 306 00:17:01.279 --> 00:17:04.400 to me that is positive that you know I need 307 00:17:04.440 --> 00:17:08.400 to go toward this, I'm going to reject it. So 308 00:17:08.640 --> 00:17:11.880 I just it's not an ultimatum necessarily, but just this 309 00:17:11.960 --> 00:17:14.240 is where I'm at, and I think that's totally fine 310 00:17:14.240 --> 00:17:17.559 to be vulnerable with your higher power and just say 311 00:17:17.599 --> 00:17:19.680 I'm a little confused right now. I don't get it. 312 00:17:19.960 --> 00:17:21.680 I'm just gonna sit here and this is what I'm 313 00:17:21.680 --> 00:17:25.279 gonna do until you give me the push. And to me, 314 00:17:25.480 --> 00:17:28.319 sometimes at push, it's not like a push where you 315 00:17:28.359 --> 00:17:30.759 know you're being pushed off a cliff. It's just a 316 00:17:30.880 --> 00:17:36.799 very gentle, little nudge. And I have been experiencing that, 317 00:17:36.960 --> 00:17:40.720 especially in the last week. You know, work on your bio, 318 00:17:40.960 --> 00:17:43.119 work on the synopsis, you know, just do this, just 319 00:17:43.160 --> 00:17:46.559 do that, And all of a sudden, yay. I didn't 320 00:17:46.559 --> 00:17:48.559 think I was going to have the website ready for today, 321 00:17:48.599 --> 00:17:50.240 and so it's ready. 322 00:17:50.640 --> 00:17:52.759 But what you spaid about signs. 323 00:17:53.039 --> 00:17:56.400 I had gotten This book long title is the World 324 00:17:56.440 --> 00:18:00.200 is Waiting for You. Embrace your Calling and manifest the 325 00:18:00.200 --> 00:18:03.880 God dream over your Life by Edwena Finley Dickerson. 326 00:18:04.200 --> 00:18:07.200 And she's yeah. 327 00:18:07.240 --> 00:18:10.359 She says something in there that really stuck with me 328 00:18:10.599 --> 00:18:14.599 about this topic because she said that God, the universe, 329 00:18:14.799 --> 00:18:18.200 whoever your higher power is, speaks to us and gives 330 00:18:18.200 --> 00:18:23.559 you a glimpse of your future reality through dreams, visions, signs, prophecies, 331 00:18:23.640 --> 00:18:26.799 or something that you're just really drawn to. And she 332 00:18:27.119 --> 00:18:30.200 basically looks at it like you're going to the movies. 333 00:18:30.279 --> 00:18:33.480 You see the coming attractions of movies that will come 334 00:18:33.799 --> 00:18:37.240 eventually somewhere in the future. And she said, this is 335 00:18:37.359 --> 00:18:40.640 a reality. It's in the spirit world, and you have 336 00:18:40.680 --> 00:18:42.640 to draw it in, you know, like you were saying, 337 00:18:42.759 --> 00:18:45.599 call it in, believe in it, let it take root, 338 00:18:46.000 --> 00:18:49.359 and speak that over yourself, prophesy that over yourself. And 339 00:18:49.440 --> 00:18:52.160 so I've always been into signs, and you know, oh, 340 00:18:52.200 --> 00:18:54.079 this was a really cool dream that you know, told 341 00:18:54.119 --> 00:18:56.319 me something. But I don't think I've ever let that 342 00:18:56.400 --> 00:18:59.799 down in my spirit so deeply that I'm like that 343 00:19:00.079 --> 00:19:03.960 to reality, right, And so I think moving forward, when 344 00:19:04.000 --> 00:19:07.400 I get those, I'm going to say, Okay, that's a glimpse. 345 00:19:07.440 --> 00:19:09.400 God has given me a glimpse of what my future 346 00:19:09.599 --> 00:19:15.079 is somewhere in the quantum future out there. And I've 347 00:19:15.119 --> 00:19:18.240 had a couple of dreams about really great book sales. 348 00:19:18.559 --> 00:19:22.480 I had this really cool dream separately that just it 349 00:19:22.559 --> 00:19:24.279 was kind of vague, but it gave me this really 350 00:19:24.799 --> 00:19:29.000 just feel good feeling about some sort of creative community 351 00:19:29.559 --> 00:19:32.160 that's coming out of the book, and so whether it's 352 00:19:32.599 --> 00:19:33.559 a stage. 353 00:19:33.200 --> 00:19:37.720 For performance or something on screen or film, I don't know. 354 00:19:37.960 --> 00:19:41.440 But that's one of my secret dreams is having this 355 00:19:41.759 --> 00:19:44.640 community and be able to work on these larger projects 356 00:19:44.680 --> 00:19:48.200 where it has to be beyond me and on the 357 00:19:48.599 --> 00:19:54.160 turned manuscript into my publisher, which is so vulnerable, you know, 358 00:19:54.359 --> 00:19:56.480 and whenever you write something or create something and give 359 00:19:56.519 --> 00:19:59.640 your baby over to somebody else, that is such a 360 00:19:59.720 --> 00:20:03.440 vult time. But I really wanted to tap into my mom, 361 00:20:03.559 --> 00:20:05.640 since you know, the whole story is about me and 362 00:20:05.680 --> 00:20:08.799 her and our relationship throughout, and that's why it's in 363 00:20:08.880 --> 00:20:13.400 the subtitle A Tenacious Mother Daughter bond, I said, you know, 364 00:20:13.640 --> 00:20:15.079 if you can just give me a sign, because I 365 00:20:15.079 --> 00:20:17.039 was hearing kind of vague things in my mind that 366 00:20:17.079 --> 00:20:19.920 she was saying. Well, that evening, i'd kind of forgotten 367 00:20:19.920 --> 00:20:22.240 about it, and I happened to look at my front door, 368 00:20:22.359 --> 00:20:25.400 and I thought, oh, is that a robin red breast, 369 00:20:25.440 --> 00:20:27.920 which I don't see very often here? And we have 370 00:20:28.000 --> 00:20:30.160 lots of pigeons and doves and a hawk or two 371 00:20:30.160 --> 00:20:32.799 every once in a while. And so I kind of 372 00:20:32.880 --> 00:20:34.680 quietly opened the door because it was on a fence. 373 00:20:34.720 --> 00:20:36.559 I saw my front door and the sun was going down, 374 00:20:36.599 --> 00:20:40.039 so I wanted to see, is that little tummy really read? Well, 375 00:20:40.079 --> 00:20:41.880 all of a sudden, another one flew up. A second 376 00:20:41.920 --> 00:20:43.720 one flew up and sat and they were both had 377 00:20:43.759 --> 00:20:48.240 these beautiful red breasts. And so that's one of her 378 00:20:48.279 --> 00:20:51.799 signs to me, is anything read? And I thought, okay, yeah, 379 00:20:51.839 --> 00:20:54.680 this is great. You know, we're both into it. She 380 00:20:54.759 --> 00:20:58.000 loves it, and that's a great sign. So I, you know, 381 00:20:58.119 --> 00:21:00.440 believe in those things. Believe in them and and take 382 00:21:00.559 --> 00:21:01.480 rive in your spirit. 383 00:21:02.000 --> 00:21:05.480 I absolutely agree with you. You know. I moved from 384 00:21:05.559 --> 00:21:07.720 one coast to the other. But when I was on 385 00:21:07.759 --> 00:21:10.880 the West coast, living in the Seattle area not too 386 00:21:10.920 --> 00:21:14.720 long ago, I attracted ravens. Now Linda would debate with me. 387 00:21:14.839 --> 00:21:17.599 She'd say they were crows. I said, Linda, they're the 388 00:21:17.640 --> 00:21:21.680 size of a turkey. That is not a crow. And okay, 389 00:21:21.720 --> 00:21:24.839 So I had this relationship. But then I move and 390 00:21:25.279 --> 00:21:29.400 ravens are not They're not like all over in the 391 00:21:29.480 --> 00:21:37.240 place like that. Yeah, except about two weeks ago I 392 00:21:37.279 --> 00:21:42.200 got this this over outside the window, little marching along 393 00:21:42.519 --> 00:21:48.759 and you could tell a raven they're bigger crows they're big, 394 00:21:49.079 --> 00:21:53.519 they're big clothes, or crows come with like geese. But 395 00:21:53.599 --> 00:21:56.880 here's this little raven and he's marching up and down. 396 00:21:57.240 --> 00:22:00.599 See because I needed a sign. Now, I wouldn't have 397 00:22:00.640 --> 00:22:03.279 gotten a cardinal if it was my mom. I would 398 00:22:03.319 --> 00:22:07.319 have gotten a cardinal if it was my mom. But 399 00:22:07.480 --> 00:22:13.319 let's talk about trusting, because when you call these things in, 400 00:22:14.039 --> 00:22:17.359 you better dang believe it. So let's talk about trusting 401 00:22:17.720 --> 00:22:21.759