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<v Speaker 1>Hello, I'm Megan and I'm Danielle, and welcome to our

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<v Speaker 1>podcast Off the Trails, where we will be sharing stories

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<v Speaker 1>of mystery and misadventure that all take place in the outdoors.

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<v Speaker 2>In this week will Megan's turn to share a story

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<v Speaker 2>with us.

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<v Speaker 3>Good afternoon today.

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<v Speaker 1>Good afternoon, it is a rainy Sunday. It is kind

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<v Speaker 1>of a nice day, though it looks pretty bad out.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, I guess my good day is probably different

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<v Speaker 3>than a lot of other people's nice weather day.

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<v Speaker 1>You love the gloom the gloom day? All right. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think we really have any business other than

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<v Speaker 1>I know we posted it on Instagram, but just for

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<v Speaker 1>any listeners who don't follow us on there, this episode

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<v Speaker 1>is coming out on Monday, December eleventh, and then we

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<v Speaker 1>will have the last twenty twenty three episode coming out

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<v Speaker 1>on Monday December eighteenth, and then we will be taking

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<v Speaker 1>the week off for Christmas, and we'll be back on Monday,

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<v Speaker 1>January first.

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<v Speaker 3>That's right, twenty twenty four, right around the corner.

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<v Speaker 1>I know, it's crazy, it's crazy that we're already coming

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<v Speaker 1>to the end of twenty twenty three, but that's our schedule,

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<v Speaker 1>so everyone knows and Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>All right, Well I am excited for today's story.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, this one, I will say this one was a

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<v Speaker 1>lot not that any of them aren't, but the sort

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<v Speaker 1>of the topic of this one is a bit heavy. Again,

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<v Speaker 1>not that many of them aren't, but I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>you'll understand why as it unfolds. But I definitely found

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<v Speaker 1>myself tearing up sometimes just because it just kind of

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<v Speaker 1>hits you, right, Certain stories just sort of hit you,

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<v Speaker 1>and this and I got it a little emotional.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's what I was gonna say. I think sometimes

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<v Speaker 3>obviously a lot of the topics and stories we read

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<v Speaker 3>and talk about and share, they're they're heavy, but for

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<v Speaker 3>whatever reason, certain ones just hit you harder than others,

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<v Speaker 3>for whatever reason. And I don't always know which ones

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<v Speaker 3>are going to be those super sad ones or the

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<v Speaker 3>ones that like stick with you longer than others exactly.

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<v Speaker 1>And you wouldn't really expect that because this one is

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<v Speaker 1>a survival so it's supposed to be everything is great,

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<v Speaker 1>everything's good.

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<v Speaker 3>But so it's interesting though, because other people have said

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<v Speaker 3>that the survival stories sometimes are harder for them to

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<v Speaker 3>listen to. I think because maybe in part we do

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<v Speaker 3>go into some more details that usually with a death episode,

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<v Speaker 3>we discuss more high level, but with some of the

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<v Speaker 3>survival stories, obviously we have the gory details as told

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<v Speaker 3>by the person firsthand. So maybe that's in part why

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<v Speaker 3>they're sometimes a little bit harder to digest.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, Yeah, it's or you know, with survival ones,

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<v Speaker 1>we none of us who are listening can relate to

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<v Speaker 1>the death episodes or the disappearance episodes. However, with survival ones,

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<v Speaker 1>there's someone that's still able to tell a story, and

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<v Speaker 1>maybe sometimes parts of those stories are too relatable.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's fair.

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<v Speaker 1>So I guess without further ado, are you ready?

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<v Speaker 3>I am ready?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay. I want to start this off with a disclaimer

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<v Speaker 1>because this story contains content about suicide, and if you're

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<v Speaker 1>thinking about suicide, are worried about a friend or loved one,

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<v Speaker 1>or with like emotional support, The nine to eight to

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<v Speaker 1>eight Lifeline network is available twenty four to seven across

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<v Speaker 1>the United States. When Pam Bales, a volunteer with New

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<v Speaker 1>Hampshire's pemical was Wassit Search and Rescue Team, planned a

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<v Speaker 1>solo recreational hike up Mount Washington in twenty ten, she

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<v Speaker 1>had never suspected it would become the most unforgettable rescue

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<v Speaker 1>of her career, one that would cement her legacy and

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<v Speaker 1>search and rescue for years to come. And I just

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<v Speaker 1>want to ask, because I always do ask you, have

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<v Speaker 1>you does this sound familiar to you? Yet?

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<v Speaker 3>Not yet?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay? At the time of the event we're covering today,

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<v Speaker 1>Pam was living in Thornton, a town in the White

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<v Speaker 1>Mountains of New Hampshire. Here, she was a volunteer with

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<v Speaker 1>the local Search and Rescue agency for thirteen years. But

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<v Speaker 1>Pam hadn't always lived in New Hampshire. Pam's mother was

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<v Speaker 1>from Newton, Massachusetts, where she would take excursions up to

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<v Speaker 1>the White Mountains to go hiking. When Pam was born,

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<v Speaker 1>they were living in California, but relocated to New Hampshire

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<v Speaker 1>while Pam was still a child. Her mother was a

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<v Speaker 1>secretary for the Appalachian Mountain Club, and Pam followed in

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<v Speaker 1>her mother's footsteps with an abiding love for the mountains.

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<v Speaker 1>She would spend as much time there as possible. It

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<v Speaker 1>was later in life when a friend suggested that with

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<v Speaker 1>her nursing background, which we don't really have a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of detail about her nursing background, just that she had

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<v Speaker 1>it so, combining that and her love for hiking, that

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<v Speaker 1>she should consider volunteering with the Search and Rescue Team

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<v Speaker 1>in the White Mountains. And Pam thought it was a

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<v Speaker 1>great idea and she found her calling. But it was

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<v Speaker 1>on the fateful day of October seventeenth, twenty ten, when

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<v Speaker 1>Pam would unexpectedly put all her skills to the test.

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<v Speaker 1>Pam had been looking for a weather window to practice

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<v Speaker 1>a training hike in the area her SAR team operated in.

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<v Speaker 1>She wanted them to practice with heavier packs on a

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<v Speaker 1>more steep and challenging route, and she thought Mount Washington

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<v Speaker 1>would be a great way to engage and refine these skills.

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<v Speaker 1>So she was sort of doing a dry run of

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<v Speaker 1>this so that she could come back to her team

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<v Speaker 1>and be like, guys, let's do this. This would be great,

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<v Speaker 1>a great training exercise for Okay.

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<v Speaker 3>So, so Pam was going to take the route herself

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<v Speaker 3>and then, assuming that made sense, to take the full

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<v Speaker 3>team another time.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And it certainly implied that and even clearly stated

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<v Speaker 1>I should say that she was familiar with this mountain

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<v Speaker 1>and this hiking route. Okay, but she just wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>do it again and essentially just come back to her

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<v Speaker 1>team and be like, Yeah, let's do this. I think

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<v Speaker 1>this would be really beneficial for us. Okay, So a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit about Mount Washington, and I know we've already

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<v Speaker 1>discussed it in an earlier episode, but just some bare

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<v Speaker 1>bones facts about it. Standing at six thousand, two hundred

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<v Speaker 1>and eighty eight feet, it is the highest peak in

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<v Speaker 1>the northeastern United States and is located in the Presidential

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<v Speaker 1>Range of the White Mountains of New Hampshire. It is

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<v Speaker 1>considered to have the world's worst weather as a result

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<v Speaker 1>of three separate weather systems that converge over the top

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<v Speaker 1>of it. The lowest temperature ever recorded is negative fifty

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<v Speaker 1>degrees fahrenheit and the strongest wind reported is two hundred

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<v Speaker 1>and thirty one miles per hour on April twelfth, nineteen

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<v Speaker 1>thirty four. Mount Washington sees approximately two hundred and eighty

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<v Speaker 1>thousand visitors per year, and there have been one hundred

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<v Speaker 1>and six one reported deaths since eighteen forty nine. Back

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<v Speaker 1>to October seventeenth. The forecast for the higher elevation that

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<v Speaker 1>day was as follows. In the clouds with a slight

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<v Speaker 1>chance of showers, highs in the upper twenties, wind chills

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<v Speaker 1>zero to ten wins northwest at fifty to seventy miles

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<v Speaker 1>an hour, increasing to sixty to eighty with higher gusts,

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<v Speaker 1>and it was described as full on winter at the

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<v Speaker 1>summit by the Mount Washington Observatory.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I would also classify that as full on winter.

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<v Speaker 3>That's no joke.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And obviously one of the big misconceptions about this mountain,

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<v Speaker 1>if you're not familiar with it, is that at the

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<v Speaker 1>base where we're all just living about here, at the

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<v Speaker 1>same elevation as the base, it seems pretty mild, and

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<v Speaker 1>the higher us end it, that weather can change drastically

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<v Speaker 1>and you can very quickly find yourself unprepared.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, absolutely. The weather is it's almost like a

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<v Speaker 3>different a different continent. Like you start making your way

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<v Speaker 3>up the mountain and the weather is completely different. And

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<v Speaker 3>I think even driving through the mountains on either side,

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<v Speaker 3>the weather can be completely different. And then you're getting

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<v Speaker 3>through like Franconia Notch or one of the other notches

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<v Speaker 3>up in the mountains and it's completely different. So you

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<v Speaker 3>really have to take that into consideration that, yeah, this

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<v Speaker 3>is what the forecast is, but it's probably not accurate

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<v Speaker 3>for the top of Mount Washington or along the along

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<v Speaker 3>the route.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, exactly like you know, you could be local to

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<v Speaker 1>it and be like, oh, this looks like a great

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<v Speaker 1>day for a and sure it is at the base right.

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<v Speaker 1>Pam parked at the trail head that morning and set

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<v Speaker 1>out on what she planned to be a nine mile

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<v Speaker 1>loop that would take approximately six hours. Her root would

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<v Speaker 1>take her up the Jewel Trail, which runs along the

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<v Speaker 1>west side of the mountain, and that would bring her

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<v Speaker 1>to Gulf Side Trail, which would take her up to

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<v Speaker 1>the summit. On her way back down, she would take

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<v Speaker 1>Crawford Path down to the Lakes of the Clouds Hut,

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<v Speaker 1>down Amanusic Ravine Trail, and back to the parking lot,

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<v Speaker 1>which would make it a loop instead of going out

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<v Speaker 1>and back on just the Jewel Trail. Okay, And given

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<v Speaker 1>her experience and knowledge of the mountains and knowing the

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<v Speaker 1>erratic weather of Mount Washington, she had a backup plan,

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<v Speaker 1>as everyone should. If the conditions become too risky. She

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<v Speaker 1>would either turn around on the Jewel Trail and get

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<v Speaker 1>back to her car from there, or she would cross

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<v Speaker 1>west Side Trail, which was at about fifty six hundred

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<v Speaker 1>feet elevation, and that would bring her own over to

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<v Speaker 1>Crawford Path, which would then bring her to Aminusik Ravine

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<v Speaker 1>Trail and back to the parking lot. So essentially, instead

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<v Speaker 1>of getting all the way up to the summit, she'd

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<v Speaker 1>be able to cut across a little bit lower on

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<v Speaker 1>the west side trail. And her practice was always to

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<v Speaker 1>leave a detailed itinerary on her dashboard as well as

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<v Speaker 1>a copy with two of her teammates from the Pemica

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<v Speaker 3>So that's actually really smart to leave her itinerary in her.

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<v Speaker 1>Car, right, I thought of that too. I thought that

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<v Speaker 1>was a really good takeaway.

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<v Speaker 3>Because obviously, you know, she told people where she was going,

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<v Speaker 3>and ideally, if somebody doesn't return, your person, whoever you're told,

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<v Speaker 3>is going to report you missing. But if your car

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<v Speaker 3>is there overnight or for a couple of days, having

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<v Speaker 3>that information on your dashboard for someone who's just peeking

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<v Speaker 3>inside your car, that's really helpful.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, because of course there's going to be a little

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<v Speaker 1>bit of a lag from what you're doing in real

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<v Speaker 1>time to someone off site figuring out where you're at

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<v Speaker 1>in relation to where you're supposed to be at, Like

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<v Speaker 1>based on your itinerary, but someone like who is also

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<v Speaker 1>in the parking lot, you know, someone goes up and

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<v Speaker 1>comes down and says that car is still here. And

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't see anyone, and they could just walk over

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<v Speaker 1>to it. And if they saw the itinerary and there

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<v Speaker 1>was a red flag just as a result of it

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<v Speaker 1>being like I'm supposed to be back at four pm

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<v Speaker 1>and it's six pm and you know they're not back,

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<v Speaker 1>that might be enough to tip them off to contact

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<v Speaker 1>you know, local police or local rangers or anyone who

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<v Speaker 1>could look further into it.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's smart.

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<v Speaker 1>So though there was snow at the trailhead, the sun

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<v Speaker 1>was shining and the air was mild. Pam made a

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<v Speaker 1>point to bring extra layers of clith, knowing how drastically

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<v Speaker 1>different the weather at the base is from the summit.

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<v Speaker 1>At this point, she was wearing a sports spra and

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<v Speaker 1>hiking pants, and she had noticed pretty early on that

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<v Speaker 1>the Cog Railway, which usually brings passengers all the way

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<v Speaker 3>I'm sorry, can I enter it for a second go

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<v Speaker 3>for it. What timer year was this October? I can't remember.

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<v Speaker 1>October seventeenth, Okay, So them turning around at Jacob's ladder

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<v Speaker 1>So the beginning of the hike was overall pretty pleasant

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<v Speaker 1>and uneventful, as she suspected it would be. Her first

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<v Speaker 1>around eight thirty am. And there are a few selfies

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<v Speaker 1>those with the episode. Ok And it's really kind of

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<v Speaker 1>interesting to see how she starts based on her attire

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<v Speaker 1>and the sky and you know, the background and foreground,

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<v Speaker 1>There doesn't seem to be the same sunlight as seen

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<v Speaker 1>degrees fahrenheit and fog with fifty mile an hour winds.

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<v Speaker 1>But Pam wasn't deterred quite yet, as she was familiar

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<v Speaker 1>she could still see her own hands in front of

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<v Speaker 1>her face, she'd be able to safely navigate the route.

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<v Speaker 1>Swap that word, I don't know why I do that?

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<v Speaker 1>Why do I change how I say it? She'd be

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<v Speaker 1>able to safely navigate the root in inclement weather, but

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<v Speaker 1>she also knew when to call it quits and turn

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<v Speaker 1>around if the conditions became too risky, which she really

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<v Speaker 1>seemed to stress that and wanted to reiterate that the

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<v Speaker 1>summit can wait, Your height can wait. If there is

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<v Speaker 1>anything that's making you uncomfortable about it, or it's starting

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<v Speaker 1>to seem sketchy, or you're looking higher off the mountain

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<v Speaker 1>and that weather is not looking great, just turn around,

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<v Speaker 1>turn around, come back another day.

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<v Speaker 3>It's not worth it, absolutely, it's literally not worth your life.

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<v Speaker 3>And maybe someday we can get my friend Britt to

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<v Speaker 3>share her Mount Washington story, because she did end up

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<v Speaker 3>turning around on a day that the weather was just

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<v Speaker 3>not safe. So she did have to make that decision

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<v Speaker 3>that she's like, you know what, I'm not gonna sum

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<v Speaker 3>it today and it's gonna have to be another day.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And of course it sucks because you plan for it.

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<v Speaker 1>You there's a lot of preparation that goes into it.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, even if you have to go as far

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<v Speaker 1>as to take a day off work or or whatever

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<v Speaker 1>you're you're rearranging to make this happen, it's still not

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<v Speaker 1>worth the risk if anything is telling you not to

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<v Speaker 1>go forward with it. And I would actually be very

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<v Speaker 1>interested having Britt on for an episode because I know

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<v Speaker 1>she's an avid hiker and she's done like I know,

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<v Speaker 1>she's done all the four thousand footers right mm hm

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<v Speaker 1>she has, So I bet she'd have a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>really good stories and some you know, helpful tips for

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<v Speaker 1>people hiking. And she's very familiar with the White Mountain,

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<v Speaker 1>so you know, I think that'd be a great idea. Absolutely,

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<v Speaker 1>are you listening, Britt, we're volunteering.

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<v Speaker 3>You right when you hear this, let me know.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Ten thirty am, Pam had gotten above tree line

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<v Speaker 1>and was closing in on the junction of Jewel Trail

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<v Speaker 1>and Gulf Side Trail, and I'm going to be mentioning

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<v Speaker 1>a few trails and their relation to each other and

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<v Speaker 1>on the mountain, and I know, listening to it it

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<v Speaker 1>might not make sense, But I do have a visual

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<v Speaker 1>that I'll be posting with the episode. Like visual aids

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<v Speaker 1>helped me a lot, Like you could explain something to

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<v Speaker 1>me all day and I can't figure it out, but

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<v Speaker 1>we will have like a map that kind of helps

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<v Speaker 1>lay out these areas that we'll be talking about. So

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<v Speaker 1>at ten thirty am, Pam had gotten above tree line

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<v Speaker 1>and was closing in on the junction of Jewel Trail

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<v Speaker 1>and Gulf Side Trail. At this point, she had added

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<v Speaker 1>a jacket, goggles, and heavier mittens to protect herself from

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<v Speaker 1>the harsher weather, which included dense fog and high winds.

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<v Speaker 1>She was contemplating ending her hike early and following her

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<v Speaker 1>Plan B to get back down on the mountain safely

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<v Speaker 1>for going the summit. On this hike. The extreme weather

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<v Speaker 1>and limited visibility told Pam that pushing for the summit

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<v Speaker 1>was not worth the risk. But it was also around

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<v Speaker 1>this time that she noticed a set of footprints in

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<v Speaker 1>the snow, and though she had seen them along her hike,

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<v Speaker 1>she hadn't previously thought much of them, given this was

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<v Speaker 1>a public trail on a popular mountain, so it's not

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<v Speaker 1>unreasonable to see other tracks. But as she took a

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<v Speaker 1>closer look at them, she realized that these ones were different.

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<v Speaker 1>They weren't hiking boots, but they looked like sneaker prints

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<v Speaker 1>with no signs of traction, and that someone wildly unprepared

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<v Speaker 1>for this mountain was on this mountain and in this weather.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think that just goes to show her search

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<v Speaker 1>and rescue brain always being on, because just looking at footprints,

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<v Speaker 1>she's like assessing them. She's like, Okay, hold on, I've

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<v Speaker 1>seen the singular set of prints. I haven't seen any

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<v Speaker 1>coming back down. Haven't come across this person. And wait

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<v Speaker 1>a second, there's no traction, there's no tread, there's sneakers.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, just think about when you're if you're wearing

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<v Speaker 3>sneakers in a couple inches of snow, your feet get

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<v Speaker 3>wet almost immediately.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and this is not like easy terrain either. No,

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<v Speaker 1>So that immediately raised a unalarm for her. She's like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>that's not good. That's not someone's being very irresponsible here.

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<v Speaker 1>So it was now around eleven am and Pam, even

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<v Speaker 1>with all the proper gear and layers, was getting cold

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<v Speaker 1>and knew that attempting to summit just wouldn't be safe.

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<v Speaker 1>And it was at this point that I believe Pam

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<v Speaker 1>is along the Gulf Side Trail, which runs parallel with

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<v Speaker 1>Mount Clay Loop. She's above the Jewel and Gulf Side junction,

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<v Speaker 1>but she's below the Gulf Side and West Side junction.

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<v Speaker 1>She decided to add even more layers, putting an additional

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<v Speaker 1>She was sitting by a cairn, which is a stack

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<v Speaker 1>of rocks, and she decided to make her way back

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<v Speaker 1>down the mountain via west Side Trail. The clouds and

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<v Speaker 1>dealing with sleep too. The only thing keeping her on

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<v Speaker 1>the trail though, was the footprints, like something just wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>right about them, and she just couldn't let it go,

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<v Speaker 1>and she was focusing on trying to get to the

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<v Speaker 1>next cairn so that she knew that she was still

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<v Speaker 1>on trail and headed in the right direction. When she

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<v Speaker 1>noticed the tracks took a hard left off trail, and

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<v Speaker 1>concerned with this person's misdirection, the harsh weather conditions, the

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<v Speaker 1>impending darkness, and heading toward an area called the Great Gulf,

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<v Speaker 1>Pam started yelling for the person and continuing to yell

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<v Speaker 1>and blow her whistle. Pam was hoping to hear someone

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<v Speaker 1>call back out to her, but she didn't. She was

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<v Speaker 1>about point three miles from the Jeweling Gulf Side junction

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<v Speaker 1>and one mile from the Gulf Side and West Side junction,

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<v Speaker 1>either of which would take her back to safety. But

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<v Speaker 1>someone was out here and she wasn't letting that go.

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<v Speaker 1>She shifted her direction and started walking toward the uncertainty

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<v Speaker 1>of the tracks ahead, which were heading in the direction

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<v Speaker 1>of an exposed ridge line overlooking the Great Gulf. Winds

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<v Speaker 1>were fifty miles an hour at this point, and she

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<v Speaker 1>had on micro spikes, but unpacked wind swept snow between

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<v Speaker 1>boulders created a risk for stepping too hard and sustaining

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<v Speaker 1>a foot injury, an injury she could not afford if

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<v Speaker 1>she wanted to get back down the mountain safely. Pam

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<v Speaker 1>followed the tracks for about twenty to thirty more yards

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<v Speaker 1>when she saw a man sitting between some boulders off

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<v Speaker 1>Clay Loop Trail. Pam approached and greeted him, caught off

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<v Speaker 1>guard by what she had stumbled upon. A man wearing

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<v Speaker 1>tennis shoes. Shorts I did see, someone said shorts. One

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<v Speaker 1>article said shorts, and one said like light pants either way,

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<v Speaker 1>not mountain attire, not the right pants, not the right pants,

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<v Speaker 1>not the right bottoms, regardless of which one. It was

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<v Speaker 1>a light jacket and fingerless gloves, because fingerless gloves are

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<v Speaker 1>you know, as long as your palms are warm, you're

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<v Speaker 1>no worries about your fingers.

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<v Speaker 3>The fingerless gloves are so strange to me because when

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<v Speaker 3>I'm outside, it's not my palms that are ever getting cold.

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<v Speaker 1>Really, yeah, your palms are fine. Your little fingers that

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<v Speaker 1>are cold.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I don't get it. Even right now as we're talking,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm now like holding my like my faux cold fingers.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. I can see you just like clutching them and

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<v Speaker 1>like warming them up, rubbing them against each other. Though

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<v Speaker 1>he looked at her, he didn't speak to her, and

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<v Speaker 1>there was like a sheen to his face indicating a

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<v Speaker 1>lack of blood circulation, and his clothes were frozen. The

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<v Speaker 1>jacket like the windbreaker he had on was crunching because

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<v Speaker 1>it had a layer of ice on it, and so

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<v Speaker 1>anytime he moved any small movement, it was just crunching

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<v Speaker 1>because it was just frozen over. He was severely hypothermic,

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<v Speaker 1>and it was at this moment that Pam knew this

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<v Speaker 1>had just become a rescue mission. Pam recalled that her

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<v Speaker 1>chief had always told her Star Team, never put yourself

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<v Speaker 1>in a situation that you could also become a victim. Luckily,

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<v Speaker 1>though she had extra clothes in her pack, she kept

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<v Speaker 1>his cold and wet clothing and dress him in her

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<v Speaker 1>extra clothes that were dry and more suitable for the

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<v Speaker 1>cold weather. And although he wasn't helping her, he wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>resisting her efforts either. She had tried talking to him,

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<v Speaker 1>finding out who he was and what he was doing there,

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<v Speaker 1>but he just like wouldn't respond to her. And the

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<v Speaker 1>first person that sort of came to mind was her friend,

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<v Speaker 1>and I believe also one of her fellow volunteers, this

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<v Speaker 1>man named John, And so she just started calling this

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<v Speaker 1>man John, and so she just started addressing him. She's like, John,

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<v Speaker 1>what are we doing? Here, we gotta go like you

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<v Speaker 1>are hypothermic. This is very dangerous. We need to get

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<v Speaker 3>It's funny that when you said that, she started calling

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<v Speaker 3>for somebody and using her whistle. I was thinking, how

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<v Speaker 3>it must be so strange. She'd be calling for somebody

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<v Speaker 3>who it is a specific person that you're looking for,

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<v Speaker 3>but you don't know who they are.

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<v Speaker 1>So how do you address them?

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<v Speaker 3>Right? Are you just yelling hello? Like what? I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know what I would use to call for

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<v Speaker 3>this unknown person? Right?

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<v Speaker 1>This person that you know is here, but you don't

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<v Speaker 1>know the first thing about them. You don't know if

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<v Speaker 1>you're calling for a man or a woman, or like

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<v Speaker 1>the name to refer to them by, Like yeah, So

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<v Speaker 1>she's just like John, you're John. Okay, all right, John,

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<v Speaker 1>let's do this. So she started talking to him in

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<v Speaker 1>what would mostly be a one sided conversation, and with

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<v Speaker 1>the new clothes on, she put him in a bivvy sack, which,

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<v Speaker 1>weather proof fabric that is used to provide shelter, usually

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<v Speaker 1>assume to hopefully, you know, use some of her body

422
00:25:47.720 --> 00:25:52.480
<v Speaker 1>heat to thaw him out, if you will, And she

423
00:25:52.640 --> 00:25:56.920
<v Speaker 1>had some little heating pads that she was trying to

424
00:25:57.119 --> 00:26:00.599
<v Speaker 1>strategically place on him as well, just to try and

425
00:26:01.440 --> 00:26:03.680
<v Speaker 1>get him as warm as possible and as quickly as

426
00:26:03.720 --> 00:26:09.680
<v Speaker 1>possible while they're still exposed to these really bad elements.

427
00:26:11.359 --> 00:26:14.440
<v Speaker 1>The weather was continuing to get worse. The wind was stronger,

428
00:26:14.519 --> 00:26:17.079
<v Speaker 1>and they could not stay where they were by that boulder.

429
00:26:18.440 --> 00:26:22.680
<v Speaker 1>So about an hour after finding John, changing him and

430
00:26:22.720 --> 00:26:25.680
<v Speaker 1>trying to warm him up, she slowly started to liven

431
00:26:25.759 --> 00:26:29.200
<v Speaker 1>him up a bit. Though he was still mostly despondent,

432
00:26:29.519 --> 00:26:31.400
<v Speaker 1>he at least seemed a bit more aware of his

433
00:26:31.480 --> 00:26:34.920
<v Speaker 1>surroundings in what was going on, but he still wasn't

434
00:26:34.960 --> 00:26:38.720
<v Speaker 1>saying anything to her. She urged him to get up

435
00:26:38.759 --> 00:26:42.039
<v Speaker 1>and told him they needed to start moving. He was slow,

436
00:26:42.160 --> 00:26:45.680
<v Speaker 1>but he did start following her, as reluctant as he

437
00:26:45.799 --> 00:26:50.960
<v Speaker 1>may have seemed to do so. Now Pam had to

438
00:26:50.960 --> 00:26:53.799
<v Speaker 1>get them back down the mountain, and she was working

439
00:26:53.799 --> 00:26:57.440
<v Speaker 1>against wind and displaced snow as a result of the

440
00:26:57.480 --> 00:27:01.559
<v Speaker 1>strong winds, and if it did start snowing, they risked

441
00:27:01.599 --> 00:27:06.640
<v Speaker 1>losing the trail, so with low visibility, Pam was no

442
00:27:06.720 --> 00:27:09.039
<v Speaker 1>longer able to see her own footprints from coming to

443
00:27:09.079 --> 00:27:12.799
<v Speaker 1>find John, but she was able to see the prints

444
00:27:12.799 --> 00:27:15.440
<v Speaker 1>from her poles, from her trekking poles. So they just

445
00:27:16.480 --> 00:27:19.079
<v Speaker 1>had just these tiny like pinholes in the snow and

446
00:27:19.119 --> 00:27:23.839
<v Speaker 1>she saw those through her goggles like and was able

447
00:27:23.880 --> 00:27:26.960
<v Speaker 1>to follow those, which is really impressive, Pam.

448
00:27:27.119 --> 00:27:29.839
<v Speaker 3>I am envious of your eyesight.

449
00:27:30.599 --> 00:27:35.240
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, like this, this woman is incredible. So John was

450
00:27:35.319 --> 00:27:38.920
<v Speaker 1>keeping behind Pam and he was moving slowly, but at

451
00:27:38.960 --> 00:27:42.759
<v Speaker 1>least he was moving, and they were, you know, trudging ahead.

452
00:27:43.640 --> 00:27:45.880
<v Speaker 1>But when they got back to the junction of Gulf

453
00:27:45.920 --> 00:27:49.559
<v Speaker 1>Side Trail and Jewel Trail around two pm, with only

454
00:27:50.240 --> 00:27:53.279
<v Speaker 1>like three more hours of sunlight, he just shut down.

455
00:27:54.200 --> 00:27:56.160
<v Speaker 1>He I don't know if he stumbled in the snow

456
00:27:56.440 --> 00:28:00.119
<v Speaker 1>or intentionally fell in the snow, but he just fell

457
00:28:00.160 --> 00:28:02.440
<v Speaker 1>and stayed there. And he's like, leave, just go leave

458
00:28:02.480 --> 00:28:06.319
<v Speaker 1>me here, go go you go, and She's like absolutely not,

459
00:28:06.680 --> 00:28:10.319
<v Speaker 1>get up and let's go, John, I'm not doing this,

460
00:28:10.920 --> 00:28:13.720
<v Speaker 1>and she it was really sweet. She was almost like

461
00:28:14.680 --> 00:28:19.279
<v Speaker 1>lecturing him, like I need you to keep going, we

462
00:28:19.319 --> 00:28:21.720
<v Speaker 1>need to get we both need to get down, and

463
00:28:22.880 --> 00:28:26.920
<v Speaker 1>he sort of just begrudgingly got back up. I just

464
00:28:27.000 --> 00:28:27.680
<v Speaker 1>picture like.

465
00:28:28.559 --> 00:28:33.559
<v Speaker 3>Picture like a toddler kind of having a meltdown, right exactly,

466
00:28:33.680 --> 00:28:37.359
<v Speaker 3>And You're like, I don't think so, John up, now,

467
00:28:37.519 --> 00:28:38.079
<v Speaker 3>let's go.

468
00:28:39.359 --> 00:28:43.519
<v Speaker 1>So he did get back up, and he started following her.

469
00:28:44.160 --> 00:28:47.119
<v Speaker 1>And to keep herself focused and to try to keep

470
00:28:47.160 --> 00:28:50.039
<v Speaker 1>John's attention, because it's not like he was keeping a

471
00:28:50.079 --> 00:28:54.279
<v Speaker 1>conversation with her or anything, she started singing Elvis songs.

472
00:28:54.880 --> 00:28:55.519
<v Speaker 3>I mean, why not.

473
00:28:56.160 --> 00:29:00.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, So she was singing for herself fan for him,

474
00:29:01.559 --> 00:29:04.920
<v Speaker 1>and she used her headlamp to stay on the trail

475
00:29:05.039 --> 00:29:08.200
<v Speaker 1>because the trees, like the canopy was just kind of

476
00:29:08.240 --> 00:29:11.400
<v Speaker 1>too thick to allow a whole lot of sunlight. Any

477
00:29:11.480 --> 00:29:14.440
<v Speaker 1>little bit of sunlight there was was not breaking through

478
00:29:14.480 --> 00:29:19.000
<v Speaker 1>those trees. So now she's also fighting against, you know,

479
00:29:19.079 --> 00:29:24.200
<v Speaker 1>kind of this darkness. She reassured John that he was

480
00:29:24.240 --> 00:29:28.440
<v Speaker 1>doing great, and she just continued singing. She was concerned

481
00:29:28.440 --> 00:29:32.799
<v Speaker 1>by the snow coverage that was potentially hiding those boulders underneath,

482
00:29:33.519 --> 00:29:38.279
<v Speaker 1>and he didn't have appropriate footwear for that track, and

483
00:29:38.480 --> 00:29:41.119
<v Speaker 1>even that doesn't always save someone from injury as a

484
00:29:41.160 --> 00:29:44.599
<v Speaker 1>result of misstepping with the best of hiking boots. So

485
00:29:44.680 --> 00:29:47.480
<v Speaker 1>what she would do, is which I think is again

486
00:29:47.599 --> 00:29:53.119
<v Speaker 1>just like Pam's incredible. Again, So she was risking you

487
00:29:53.160 --> 00:29:57.720
<v Speaker 1>know these you know, kind of stepping through the snow

488
00:29:57.920 --> 00:30:01.319
<v Speaker 1>into what could have been boulders underneath the snow, but

489
00:30:01.359 --> 00:30:03.720
<v Speaker 1>she was stomping into it to sort of pack it

490
00:30:03.799 --> 00:30:07.279
<v Speaker 1>down to give him a safer placement for each of

491
00:30:07.319 --> 00:30:12.119
<v Speaker 1>his steps. I could not imagine what was going through like,

492
00:30:12.720 --> 00:30:15.640
<v Speaker 1>you know, her mind while she's trying to stay focused

493
00:30:15.680 --> 00:30:18.160
<v Speaker 1>on not only getting herself down, but getting this man

494
00:30:18.240 --> 00:30:20.920
<v Speaker 1>down who doesn't seem like he really wants to cooperate

495
00:30:20.960 --> 00:30:23.599
<v Speaker 1>with her, right, and she doesn't know what's going on.

496
00:30:25.599 --> 00:30:29.400
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's tough, where he's like literally has already said

497
00:30:29.480 --> 00:30:31.079
<v Speaker 3>like don't worry about it.

498
00:30:31.079 --> 00:30:36.559
<v Speaker 1>Just leave me here, right, And her main focus is

499
00:30:36.640 --> 00:30:39.720
<v Speaker 1>just like I don't think this guy realizes how dangerous

500
00:30:39.759 --> 00:30:45.200
<v Speaker 1>it is here. And yeah, so I can't imagine just

501
00:30:47.480 --> 00:30:50.960
<v Speaker 1>what was going on during this whole thing while also

502
00:30:51.039 --> 00:30:53.720
<v Speaker 1>combating the weather and just the descent down the mountain,

503
00:30:53.759 --> 00:30:57.759
<v Speaker 1>which is you know, challenging in its own right. Eventually,

504
00:30:57.799 --> 00:31:00.359
<v Speaker 1>they did make their way to more solid ground and

505
00:31:00.480 --> 00:31:03.480
<v Speaker 1>below tree line, which is at about forty four hundred feet,

506
00:31:04.519 --> 00:31:07.400
<v Speaker 1>though still being mostly quiet, John seemed to start giving

507
00:31:07.480 --> 00:31:10.880
<v Speaker 1>little bits of information. He had borrowed a car. He

508
00:31:10.960 --> 00:31:14.200
<v Speaker 1>wanted to go on a last hike before the big season,

509
00:31:16.079 --> 00:31:17.640
<v Speaker 1>for the big season. What does that mean?

510
00:31:18.359 --> 00:31:21.240
<v Speaker 3>I don't know, big big winter.

511
00:31:21.599 --> 00:31:23.920
<v Speaker 1>Didn't Yeah? Did I like forget a word there?

512
00:31:24.319 --> 00:31:27.160
<v Speaker 3>I kind of like, it's the big season, the big season.

513
00:31:28.039 --> 00:31:32.680
<v Speaker 1>Okay. Well, Pam asked why he was so unprepared regarding

514
00:31:32.680 --> 00:31:34.240
<v Speaker 1>the weather in his gear, and he just sort of

515
00:31:34.240 --> 00:31:38.200
<v Speaker 1>shrugged her off. And at this point they have about

516
00:31:38.200 --> 00:31:39.160
<v Speaker 1>three miles left.

517
00:31:39.839 --> 00:31:42.400
<v Speaker 3>Excuse me, sir, why are you unprepared?

518
00:31:43.240 --> 00:31:46.960
<v Speaker 1>Right? And he's like, huh whoops. Yeah, so just very

519
00:31:47.000 --> 00:31:51.279
<v Speaker 1>dismissive of her and her concerns for him and her

520
00:31:51.359 --> 00:31:54.480
<v Speaker 1>questions for him, and yeah, he was just like ah,

521
00:31:56.039 --> 00:31:58.400
<v Speaker 1>not really giving her a whole lot to work with.

522
00:31:59.160 --> 00:32:02.000
<v Speaker 1>So around six p they finally got back to the

523
00:32:02.000 --> 00:32:06.799
<v Speaker 1>parking lot, which was otherwise empty. Pam and John's descent

524
00:32:06.880 --> 00:32:09.960
<v Speaker 1>should have taken approximately two hours, but it took them

525
00:32:10.000 --> 00:32:13.880
<v Speaker 1>closer to six hours. Back at John's car, Pam noticed

526
00:32:13.920 --> 00:32:17.960
<v Speaker 1>it was empty of any supplies you would expect someone

527
00:32:18.000 --> 00:32:21.079
<v Speaker 1>to have either on their person or in their vehicle

528
00:32:21.640 --> 00:32:25.000
<v Speaker 1>for a hike like that. So there was no sustenance, like,

529
00:32:25.039 --> 00:32:30.559
<v Speaker 1>no food, no water, He didn't have dry clothes or

530
00:32:31.160 --> 00:32:34.039
<v Speaker 1>anything of the like. And she's like, why is the

531
00:32:34.039 --> 00:32:37.359
<v Speaker 1>car empty? Why did you go up there in just

532
00:32:37.799 --> 00:32:42.880
<v Speaker 1>very light attire? Like what are you doing? So what

533
00:32:42.920 --> 00:32:46.440
<v Speaker 1>she did was she actually took his clothes and put them,

534
00:32:46.880 --> 00:32:49.799
<v Speaker 1>I believe, like on the car heater to try to

535
00:32:49.839 --> 00:32:54.240
<v Speaker 1>warm them up. And while his clothes were drying, she

536
00:32:54.319 --> 00:32:59.319
<v Speaker 1>gave him some food from her own supply, and you know,

537
00:32:59.359 --> 00:33:02.519
<v Speaker 1>after the after his clothes dried, she took hers back,

538
00:33:02.599 --> 00:33:05.799
<v Speaker 1>he changed back into his, and she's like, okay, you know,

539
00:33:05.880 --> 00:33:08.920
<v Speaker 1>like we both got to get home, like, please drive safe.

540
00:33:09.279 --> 00:33:11.920
<v Speaker 1>She wished him well, and he just sort of dismissively

541
00:33:12.079 --> 00:33:16.440
<v Speaker 1>thanked her and drove off. So Pam was in a

542
00:33:16.440 --> 00:33:19.640
<v Speaker 1>bit of disbelief as to what just happened. As the

543
00:33:19.680 --> 00:33:22.200
<v Speaker 1>adrenaline of the whole day started to wear off, and

544
00:33:22.319 --> 00:33:25.240
<v Speaker 1>Pam sort of like was starting to try to process

545
00:33:25.279 --> 00:33:29.599
<v Speaker 1>it all, she asked no one in particular, what the

546
00:33:29.640 --> 00:33:32.640
<v Speaker 1>fuck just happened? She said that out loud to an

547
00:33:32.640 --> 00:33:35.480
<v Speaker 1>empty parking lot. And this woman is like the cutest,

548
00:33:35.640 --> 00:33:40.240
<v Speaker 1>sweetest woman who you can tell. She's someone who barely

549
00:33:40.279 --> 00:33:42.640
<v Speaker 1>swears but when she does, she's like, oh, I shouldn't.

550
00:33:42.319 --> 00:33:46.599
<v Speaker 3>Have said that, but I think that is exactly what

551
00:33:46.640 --> 00:33:50.039
<v Speaker 3>I've been thinking this whole time. That, right, this person

552
00:33:50.119 --> 00:33:55.400
<v Speaker 3>was just I mean, I know that hypothermia and the

553
00:33:55.440 --> 00:33:59.799
<v Speaker 3>cold can impact your cognitive.

554
00:33:59.319 --> 00:34:02.680
<v Speaker 1>Processing, it can disorient you, right, So I.

555
00:34:02.640 --> 00:34:07.559
<v Speaker 3>Can understand beginning where he's not conversing with her, very

556
00:34:08.559 --> 00:34:11.199
<v Speaker 3>short answers, you know, doesn't really have an answer for

557
00:34:11.280 --> 00:34:14.000
<v Speaker 3>things like I can. I can see that. But at

558
00:34:14.000 --> 00:34:16.920
<v Speaker 3>the point when you get back to the car and

559
00:34:18.039 --> 00:34:23.320
<v Speaker 3>this woman has literally brought you down safely, you wore

560
00:34:23.360 --> 00:34:27.039
<v Speaker 3>her clothes, she's given you food, water, whatever, and then

561
00:34:27.039 --> 00:34:28.920
<v Speaker 3>you're just like, hey, cool, thanks.

562
00:34:29.599 --> 00:34:34.039
<v Speaker 1>Right, And as you said, you've been thinking, and even

563
00:34:34.280 --> 00:34:38.119
<v Speaker 1>her self, who's she's you know, she's like, what the

564
00:34:38.159 --> 00:34:42.440
<v Speaker 1>fuck was that? And she would continue asking herself this

565
00:34:42.519 --> 00:34:45.920
<v Speaker 1>for a week. So when Pam got home that night,

566
00:34:46.000 --> 00:34:49.159
<v Speaker 1>she emailed her friend John and she was just detailing

567
00:34:49.239 --> 00:34:54.280
<v Speaker 1>the entire surreal situation and the day's events, and as

568
00:34:54.320 --> 00:34:57.920
<v Speaker 1>her colleagues caught wind of it, she was just inundated

569
00:34:57.920 --> 00:35:00.800
<v Speaker 1>with questions from them asking like whoa like did you

570
00:35:01.000 --> 00:35:04.000
<v Speaker 1>were you prepared for that? Like what kind of like

571
00:35:04.159 --> 00:35:08.119
<v Speaker 1>takeaways could you give us, like what did you take

572
00:35:08.119 --> 00:35:09.760
<v Speaker 1>from that that like we could maybe learn from in

573
00:35:09.760 --> 00:35:12.719
<v Speaker 1>case like we come across this again, like someone who

574
00:35:13.280 --> 00:35:17.599
<v Speaker 1>you know isn't really talking to you. They're he's he's

575
00:35:17.679 --> 00:35:21.760
<v Speaker 1>not cooperative, but I suppose he's compliant with her efforts.

576
00:35:21.920 --> 00:35:24.519
<v Speaker 1>So it was just such a strange situation to navigate

577
00:35:24.519 --> 00:35:29.360
<v Speaker 1>because I would assume that, you know, up to this point,

578
00:35:29.519 --> 00:35:32.199
<v Speaker 1>you would think like ten out of ten people that

579
00:35:32.280 --> 00:35:37.440
<v Speaker 1>you're rescuing are just so grateful for it, and they

580
00:35:37.480 --> 00:35:40.360
<v Speaker 1>couldn't get down the mountain fast enough with you, And

581
00:35:41.880 --> 00:35:45.199
<v Speaker 1>you know, this was a completely different situation for her

582
00:35:45.199 --> 00:35:48.920
<v Speaker 1>and different experience and reaction to the rescue.

583
00:35:49.000 --> 00:35:53.320
<v Speaker 3>He did not the way you have described it. He

584
00:35:53.559 --> 00:36:00.480
<v Speaker 3>was like disinterested in being rescued, all right, right, He

585
00:36:00.599 --> 00:36:03.280
<v Speaker 3>was like, ugh, I guess I'm not really into it,

586
00:36:03.320 --> 00:36:03.719
<v Speaker 3>but I.

587
00:36:03.639 --> 00:36:09.039
<v Speaker 1>Guess exactly exactly right. And while Pam may have been

588
00:36:09.079 --> 00:36:12.840
<v Speaker 1>prepared herself and was able to successfully assist someone down

589
00:36:12.880 --> 00:36:17.320
<v Speaker 1>the mountain, one question just really bothered her. Why was

590
00:36:17.400 --> 00:36:21.079
<v Speaker 1>John up there in the first place, and what would

591
00:36:21.199 --> 00:36:26.079
<v Speaker 1>lead someone to put themselves in a situation like that. Okay, honestly,

592
00:36:26.119 --> 00:36:27.920
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to stop right there. Because I'm already getting

593
00:36:27.920 --> 00:36:33.159
<v Speaker 1>teary eyed. I'm really about to cry. So the Sunday

594
00:36:33.159 --> 00:36:36.519
<v Speaker 1>following the rescue, Pam would get her answer, and it

595
00:36:36.599 --> 00:36:39.719
<v Speaker 1>was nothing she could have prepared herself for. The team

596
00:36:40.000 --> 00:36:43.599
<v Speaker 1>received an email from their chief Alan Clark stating he

597
00:36:43.639 --> 00:36:50.199
<v Speaker 1>received a letter postmarked from Portland, Maine, and at this point,

598
00:36:50.599 --> 00:36:55.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to have Andrew read the letter because I've

599
00:36:55.880 --> 00:36:59.760
<v Speaker 1>been sort of trying to brace myself to be able

600
00:36:59.760 --> 00:37:03.480
<v Speaker 1>to get through it, but I'm already getting a little

601
00:37:03.480 --> 00:37:06.920
<v Speaker 1>teary eyed. It just like, no way, I can't do it.

602
00:37:06.920 --> 00:37:09.559
<v Speaker 1>And I know, right I'll just I know I'm going

603
00:37:09.639 --> 00:37:11.800
<v Speaker 1>to start crying if I tried to. I can already

604
00:37:11.800 --> 00:37:15.000
<v Speaker 1>feel my voice getting shaky. So he's going to come

605
00:37:15.000 --> 00:37:16.719
<v Speaker 1>in and read the read the letter.

606
00:37:17.480 --> 00:37:19.199
<v Speaker 3>It's almost like having a voice actor.

607
00:37:19.800 --> 00:37:21.960
<v Speaker 1>It is, and I suppose it's fitting. It's a man

608
00:37:22.039 --> 00:37:25.039
<v Speaker 1>reading a letter from a man. Sorry for doing this

609
00:37:25.079 --> 00:37:27.360
<v Speaker 1>to you. I'm like just getting reallyd.

610
00:37:28.920 --> 00:37:31.480
<v Speaker 4>I hope this reaches the right group of rescuers. This

611
00:37:31.519 --> 00:37:35.519
<v Speaker 4>is hard to do, but must try. Part of my therapy.

612
00:37:35.800 --> 00:37:38.639
<v Speaker 4>I want to remain anonymous, but I was called John

613
00:37:39.320 --> 00:37:44.239
<v Speaker 4>on Sunday, October seventeenth, I went my favorite trail jewel

614
00:37:44.400 --> 00:37:47.400
<v Speaker 4>to end my life, whether it was to be bad,

615
00:37:48.199 --> 00:37:50.639
<v Speaker 4>thought no one else would be there. I was just

616
00:37:50.639 --> 00:37:53.960
<v Speaker 4>to go quickly. Next thing I knew, this lady was

617
00:37:54.000 --> 00:37:59.199
<v Speaker 4>talking to me, changing my clothes, talking to me, giving

618
00:37:59.280 --> 00:38:03.400
<v Speaker 4>me food, talking to me, making me warmer. And she

619
00:38:03.519 --> 00:38:06.719
<v Speaker 4>just kept talking and calling me John, and I let her.

620
00:38:07.280 --> 00:38:11.159
<v Speaker 4>Finally learned her name was Pam. Conditions were horrible, and

621
00:38:11.199 --> 00:38:14.800
<v Speaker 4>I said to leave me get going, but she wouldn't

622
00:38:15.280 --> 00:38:19.039
<v Speaker 4>got me up, had me stay right behind her, still talking.

623
00:38:20.159 --> 00:38:23.880
<v Speaker 4>I followed, but I did think about running off. She

624
00:38:23.880 --> 00:38:26.719
<v Speaker 4>couldn't see me. I only wanted to take my life,

625
00:38:26.920 --> 00:38:30.280
<v Speaker 4>not anybody else's, and I think she would have tried

626
00:38:30.280 --> 00:38:36.559
<v Speaker 4>to find me the entire time. She treated him with care, compassion, authority, confidence,

627
00:38:37.079 --> 00:38:41.079
<v Speaker 4>and the impression that I mattered. With all that that's

628
00:38:41.119 --> 00:38:44.199
<v Speaker 4>been going wrong in my life. I didn't matter to me,

629
00:38:45.119 --> 00:38:48.320
<v Speaker 4>but I did to Pam. She probably thought I was

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<v Speaker 4>the stupidest hiker, dressed like I was. But I was

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<v Speaker 4>never put down in any way chewed out. Yes, in

632
00:38:55.159 --> 00:38:58.320
<v Speaker 4>a kind of way. Maybe I wasn't meant to die,

633
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<v Speaker 4>yet I somehow still mattered in life. I became very

634
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<v Speaker 4>embarrassed later never really thanked her properly. But if she

635
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<v Speaker 4>is an example of your organization and professionalism, you must

636
00:39:13.360 --> 00:39:17.079
<v Speaker 4>be the best group around. Please accept a small offer

637
00:39:17.119 --> 00:39:21.119
<v Speaker 4>of appreciation for her effort to save me way beyond

638
00:39:21.199 --> 00:39:24.400
<v Speaker 4>the limits of safety. No, did not seem to be

639
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<v Speaker 4>in her mind. I'm getting help with my mental needs.

640
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<v Speaker 4>They will also help me find a job, and I

641
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<v Speaker 4>have temporary housing. I have a new direction thanks to

642
00:39:34.039 --> 00:39:37.119
<v Speaker 4>the wonderful people like yourselves. I got your name from

643
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<v Speaker 4>her pack patch bumper sticker. My deepest thanks John.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, thank you Andrew for bailing me out.

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<v Speaker 3>I phone a friend. Yeah that is very emotional.

646
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<v Speaker 1>Yes, yes, it's a tough one. It's yeah. So it

647
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<v Speaker 1>took Pam three times to get through the letter as

648
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<v Speaker 1>she was too overcome with emotion while reading it, which

649
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<v Speaker 1>I'm not even part of that situation. But I get it, Pam,

650
00:40:08.239 --> 00:40:13.880
<v Speaker 1>because same. Up until receiving the letter, she had no

651
00:40:13.960 --> 00:40:17.599
<v Speaker 1>idea the circumstances surrounding John, and she just assumed he

652
00:40:17.719 --> 00:40:21.920
<v Speaker 1>was an irresponsible hiker, and the whole time she was

653
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:27.440
<v Speaker 1>unaware that he was attempting suicide, actively attempting suicide right

654
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<v Speaker 1>in front of her. And she had no idea and

655
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<v Speaker 1>all she cared about was his safety and well being.

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<v Speaker 1>And it's a lot. So a gentleman named Ty Gagney

657
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<v Speaker 1>who is a CEO of a New Hampshire insurance company

658
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<v Speaker 1>and a volunteer for the Andrewscoggin Valley Search and Rescue,

659
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<v Speaker 1>and he's an author. He wrote a book about one

660
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<v Speaker 1>of the rescue missions he was on. But he sort

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<v Speaker 1>of summed it up perfectly. So I would like to

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<v Speaker 1>share a direct quote from him. Let me try not

663
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<v Speaker 1>to cry, Okay at some point. Actually, Nope, I can't

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<v Speaker 1>do it. I'm far too emotional for the story and

665
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<v Speaker 1>as a person in general. So Andrew's also going to

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<v Speaker 1>read this quote.

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<v Speaker 4>At some point in our lives, each of us has

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<v Speaker 4>found ourselves walking with a sense of helplessness along a

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<v Speaker 4>ridgeline through a personal storm, alone, devoid of a sense

670
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<v Speaker 4>of emotional warmth and safety, smothered by the darkness of

671
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<v Speaker 4>our own emotions. We sought that place just off trail,

672
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<v Speaker 4>where we hope to find some way to break free

673
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<v Speaker 4>of our struggles and strife. Sadly, tragically, some do follow through.

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<v Speaker 4>Many are able to quietly self rescue. Others, like John

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<v Speaker 4>are rescued by others like Pam Bales. The most valuable

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<v Speaker 4>lesson I've learned through this powerful story is to be

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<v Speaker 4>more mindful of caring for myself and seeking out rescuers

678
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<v Speaker 4>when sometimes I find myself on the ridgeline, and to

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<v Speaker 4>be more like Pam Bales when I sense that those

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<v Speaker 4>tracks I see ahead in the snow, regardless of who

681
00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:18.000
<v Speaker 4>may have made them, appear to be heading deeper into

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<v Speaker 4>the storm.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you again, Andrew So. The essay titled Emotional Rescue

684
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<v Speaker 1>was first published in the summer fall twenty eighteen issue

685
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<v Speaker 1>of Appalachia Journal, and news of the harrowing rescue quickly

686
00:42:37.519 --> 00:42:40.679
<v Speaker 1>spread across the country. Pam and John's story would be

687
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<v Speaker 1>adapted into a twenty twenty two film titled Infinite Storm,

688
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<v Speaker 1>starring Naomi Watts as Pam. Pam never heard from John again,

689
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<v Speaker 1>but that doesn't lessen the impact he had on her.

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<v Speaker 1>Pam feels that John is a survivor no matter what,

691
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<v Speaker 1>and she just likes to think that he's he's still

692
00:43:00.519 --> 00:43:04.760
<v Speaker 1>around and doing well. She also said that anytime that

693
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<v Speaker 1>she has gone up to Mount Clay, she would sit

694
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<v Speaker 1>and talk to him and check in on him to

695
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<v Speaker 1>see how he's doing. He also well his story and

696
00:43:15.239 --> 00:43:19.400
<v Speaker 1>this whole ordeal brought more awareness to her team as well,

697
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<v Speaker 1>and it opened the door for them to ask and

698
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<v Speaker 1>figure out how to handle those types of situations if

699
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<v Speaker 1>they ever came across it themselves. It's obviously such a

700
00:43:30.039 --> 00:43:37.800
<v Speaker 1>fragile situation, and Pam handled it incredibly, especially not even

701
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<v Speaker 1>realizing the circumstances.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, right, because the train or they train not people

703
00:43:46.199 --> 00:43:51.039
<v Speaker 3>in general, but they train for, you know, technical rescues.

704
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<v Speaker 3>Someone's had an injury or a fall or bad weather,

705
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<v Speaker 3>but they're not necessarily prepared for a emotional and technical

706
00:44:06.400 --> 00:44:13.039
<v Speaker 3>rescue where this person is in a state where mentally,

707
00:44:13.079 --> 00:44:17.360
<v Speaker 3>emotionally they're not in a good place and physically they're

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<v Speaker 3>in a very bad place.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, exactly. So, as you said, the technical rescue in

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<v Speaker 1>and of itself, it poses its own challenges and risks

711
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<v Speaker 1>for her to not only be trying to get herself

712
00:44:31.320 --> 00:44:35.639
<v Speaker 1>down safely, but now someone else down safely. And then

713
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<v Speaker 1>on top of that, unbeknownst to her at the time,

714
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<v Speaker 1>there's this mental, psychological, emotional rescue that's also taking place.

715
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<v Speaker 1>And this was just I think such a poignant story

716
00:44:53.880 --> 00:44:59.679
<v Speaker 1>to share and it was. It was you know, emotional

717
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<v Speaker 1>to read and research and write and obviously share because

718
00:45:04.239 --> 00:45:10.400
<v Speaker 1>I had to be helped out twice. But yeah, so

719
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<v Speaker 1>that that is the story of Pam Bales and the

720
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<v Speaker 1>rescue of John.

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<v Speaker 3>I love that they both had such a huge impact

722
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<v Speaker 3>on one another's lives going forward. You know, if we're

723
00:45:28.840 --> 00:45:35.679
<v Speaker 3>to assume that John, you know, survived and is doing

724
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<v Speaker 3>well long term, obviously Pam literally saved his life, yes,

725
00:45:43.199 --> 00:45:46.960
<v Speaker 3>but it sounds like John also had a huge impact

726
00:45:47.039 --> 00:45:51.719
<v Speaker 3>on Pam's life. Even though you gave the disclaimer before

727
00:45:51.760 --> 00:45:54.800
<v Speaker 3>you got into the story that you know this was

728
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<v Speaker 3>going to touch on topic of suicide. I had kind

729
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<v Speaker 3>of already forgot and that and just taking the story

730
00:46:03.239 --> 00:46:08.400
<v Speaker 3>at face value. As you're sharing it and you know,

731
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<v Speaker 3>telling it through Pam's point of view, I was thinking, Wow,

732
00:46:14.360 --> 00:46:17.639
<v Speaker 3>this person's just unprepared, Like why are they not dressed properly,

733
00:46:17.679 --> 00:46:21.079
<v Speaker 3>Why are they not wearing some type of waterproof shoes

734
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<v Speaker 3>like all of these things, And yeah, you're taking in

735
00:46:25.960 --> 00:46:30.039
<v Speaker 3>that face value, You're not. It's not human nature to

736
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<v Speaker 3>assume that that person put themselves in that terrible situation

737
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<v Speaker 3>intentionally to end their life. That's not it it goes

738
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<v Speaker 3>against you in nature to even.

739
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<v Speaker 1>Default to that assumption, right, right, yeah, And I think

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<v Speaker 1>it was also very I mean, him writing that letter

741
00:46:54.199 --> 00:46:56.920
<v Speaker 1>was huge of him to do, and I imagined that

742
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<v Speaker 1>took well. Pam also mentioned she said it was just

743
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<v Speaker 1>very brave of him, and it would it must have

744
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<v Speaker 1>taken a lot for him to write that out and

745
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<v Speaker 1>send it. And I did read in one source that

746
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<v Speaker 1>there was a donation included in the letter, but obviously

747
00:47:12.199 --> 00:47:19.320
<v Speaker 1>the letter is really what's important here, and definitely so yeah,

748
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<v Speaker 1>and I found it interesting that in his letter he

749
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<v Speaker 1>even acknowledges that He's like, I wanted to kill myself,

750
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<v Speaker 1>I didn't want to kill anyone else, and this woman

751
00:47:30.440 --> 00:47:33.280
<v Speaker 1>was not giving up on me, and so I knew

752
00:47:33.320 --> 00:47:37.360
<v Speaker 1>that if I don't follow her now, I'm risking her

753
00:47:37.440 --> 00:47:40.639
<v Speaker 1>life too, And that's not what I'm trying to do here,

754
00:47:41.599 --> 00:47:42.639
<v Speaker 1>right at the.

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<v Speaker 3>Very least, in that moment, Pam being responsible for him

756
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<v Speaker 3>in return made him feel responsible for her. So even

757
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<v Speaker 3>though in the moment he did not care what happened

758
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<v Speaker 3>to himself, he felt a sense of responsibility because Pam

759
00:48:01.239 --> 00:48:05.360
<v Speaker 3>cared for him, and he had to return that, you know,

760
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<v Speaker 3>he returned that and ultimately saved his own life.

761
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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, exactly, Like as much as she was focused on

762
00:48:14.800 --> 00:48:18.559
<v Speaker 1>his safety because she's like I, even though you know,

763
00:48:18.639 --> 00:48:20.760
<v Speaker 1>she needed to get back safely as well. But she

764
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<v Speaker 1>was prepared, She had the right layers on, she had

765
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<v Speaker 1>the right gear on her person. So she's looking at,

766
00:48:27.920 --> 00:48:31.440
<v Speaker 1>you know this, what appears to be a very irresponsible person,

767
00:48:31.599 --> 00:48:34.480
<v Speaker 1>a very ill prepared person, and his safety was really

768
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<v Speaker 1>her priority at that point, And little did she know

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<v Speaker 1>that at that same time, the only safety he cared

770
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<v Speaker 1>about was hers, because if she wasn't up there with him,

771
00:48:44.199 --> 00:48:46.440
<v Speaker 1>he had no regard for his own life or well

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<v Speaker 1>being or safety. And so for them to not realize

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00:48:50.159 --> 00:48:55.880
<v Speaker 1>you know that, Yeah, it's just a yeah, it's a

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00:48:58.239 --> 00:48:59.960
<v Speaker 1>very heavy story.

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<v Speaker 3>Definitely, But I also think a takeaway is that, again,

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<v Speaker 3>we never know what other people are going through, what

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<v Speaker 3>other people are dealing with, and sometimes just a even

778
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<v Speaker 3>semi positive interaction or comment or gesture can be a

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<v Speaker 3>defining moment in somebody's day or potentially even somebody's life,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, depending on what they're going through. So just

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<v Speaker 3>a reminder to be kind out there.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you know, any gesture, small or large, you really

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<v Speaker 1>have no way of knowing the impact it has on

784
00:49:41.079 --> 00:49:44.639
<v Speaker 1>someone else's life. So I think that is ultimately, as

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<v Speaker 1>you said, just really the big takeaway from this, And

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<v Speaker 1>just to reinforce this, if you are thinking about suicide,

787
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<v Speaker 1>or you are worried about a friend or a loved one,

788
00:49:57.840 --> 00:50:01.639
<v Speaker 1>or would like emotional support nine to eight eight. Lifeline

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<v Speaker 1>network is available twenty four to seven across the United States.

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<v Speaker 3>Great information, and I had never heard that story, so

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<v Speaker 3>I'm so glad that you shared it.

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<v Speaker 1>You're very welcome.

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<v Speaker 3>All right, until next week, everybody.

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<v Speaker 1>and try our best to cross reference reliable sources to

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<v Speaker 1>present the most accurate information we can. Please reach out

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