WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.200 --> 00:00:03.560 For coming on Private Talk. Introduce yourself to my Private 2 00:00:03.560 --> 00:00:06.200 talk listeners. Let's get to know you a little bit more. 3 00:00:06.519 --> 00:00:08.160 Is this a private talk? So I want you to 4 00:00:08.199 --> 00:00:10.359 feel as comfortable as you can. I want to become 5 00:00:10.400 --> 00:00:11.640 beastards by the time this sends. 6 00:00:11.759 --> 00:00:12.320 Hey, I liked that. 7 00:00:12.480 --> 00:00:12.880 I liked that. 8 00:00:13.919 --> 00:00:16.960 Well. My name is Siam from Brooklyn, bed star, artist, actor, 9 00:00:17.879 --> 00:00:19.239 TV reality star. 10 00:00:19.519 --> 00:00:20.480 Amongst other things. 11 00:00:21.039 --> 00:00:21.519 I like that. 12 00:00:21.640 --> 00:00:22.440 Do you just have it all? 13 00:00:22.519 --> 00:00:23.239 This? Say? 14 00:00:23.320 --> 00:00:26.399 Reality star? Where did you start? Does that where you 15 00:00:26.399 --> 00:00:28.280 started from? You started with music? I feel like music 16 00:00:28.359 --> 00:00:30.640 is your your your bread and music. 17 00:00:30.679 --> 00:00:34.000 I've been doing music since I was eight years old. Okay, yeah, 18 00:00:34.240 --> 00:00:36.159 so over twenty years in the music industry. 19 00:00:36.560 --> 00:00:39.520 So you coming from Brooklyn, the big you know big 20 00:00:39.560 --> 00:00:42.439 area is who are your influences? 21 00:00:42.640 --> 00:00:45.359 Well from ill from Befastives in Brooklyn or from Rosebell Projects. 22 00:00:45.359 --> 00:00:47.960 So I'm from where jay Z came from. 23 00:00:48.039 --> 00:00:50.000 Yeah, do you have a favorite or how can you 24 00:00:50.039 --> 00:00:50.960 really choose a favorite? 25 00:00:51.200 --> 00:00:53.799 Not just any anything from my part of the hood, 26 00:00:53.880 --> 00:00:54.039 you know. 27 00:00:54.079 --> 00:00:56.920 I mean, I'm all for it, but jay Z for sure, 28 00:00:57.039 --> 00:00:58.960 jay Z Biggie type of cats. 29 00:00:59.000 --> 00:00:59.920 I love big l too. 30 00:01:00.079 --> 00:01:03.240 He was from Uptown, Okay, so you. 31 00:01:03.240 --> 00:01:06.239 Would currently live in law How is that big of 32 00:01:06.319 --> 00:01:08.519 a change to coming from New York and having all 33 00:01:08.560 --> 00:01:10.200 of that hip hop culture and then coming you know, 34 00:01:10.640 --> 00:01:11.439 West Coast. 35 00:01:11.879 --> 00:01:12.760 I mean West Coast. 36 00:01:12.760 --> 00:01:14.959 West Coast definitely has some hip hop culture to it. 37 00:01:15.959 --> 00:01:18.519 Leaving New York to come to l A was a 38 00:01:18.519 --> 00:01:20.879 no brainer when it came to my career and making 39 00:01:20.879 --> 00:01:22.959 the right decisions for what I needed to. 40 00:01:23.120 --> 00:01:25.480 But there's no place like Brooklyn. There's no place like home. 41 00:01:26.359 --> 00:01:27.920 No place like home, that's right? 42 00:01:28.599 --> 00:01:30.840 So who else were your bigger music inspirations that would 43 00:01:30.840 --> 00:01:31.959 forget from where you're from? 44 00:01:32.000 --> 00:01:32.840 But do you hear who are you? 45 00:01:32.879 --> 00:01:32.959 Like? 46 00:01:33.000 --> 00:01:35.200 Your favorites? Mister Elliott? 47 00:01:35.599 --> 00:01:37.239 The Boss? A lot of people don't know who even 48 00:01:37.239 --> 00:01:41.120 know who the Boss is or was? Is female MC 49 00:01:41.280 --> 00:01:42.799 from back back in the days. I used to get 50 00:01:42.799 --> 00:01:46.680 a lot of comparisons to her. Yeah, people like that. 51 00:01:46.799 --> 00:01:51.079 Any any any influences that I feel like I feel 52 00:01:51.159 --> 00:01:54.040 like paved the way and hip hop for female mcs. 53 00:01:54.400 --> 00:01:56.879 So you signed with Tank? How did you meet him? 54 00:01:56.920 --> 00:01:58.599 How did you? How did that even come apart from 55 00:01:58.640 --> 00:02:01.920 going from you know, going early on starting music, now 56 00:02:01.959 --> 00:02:03.280 you get signed by somebody? 57 00:02:03.599 --> 00:02:06.640 How is that change and transition? When I was signing 58 00:02:06.640 --> 00:02:09.680 to him. It was, it was, it was, it was 59 00:02:09.719 --> 00:02:10.280 a beautiful thing. 60 00:02:10.280 --> 00:02:11.800 When I first got signed him, I was you know, 61 00:02:11.960 --> 00:02:14.919 I was a wet nosed kid from the hood, from 62 00:02:14.919 --> 00:02:19.120 the projects, still selling drugs, you know, but I still 63 00:02:19.159 --> 00:02:20.080 had my head in the game. 64 00:02:20.319 --> 00:02:21.960 I was always in the music industry. 65 00:02:22.000 --> 00:02:24.280 So it's not that when I signed him that I 66 00:02:24.319 --> 00:02:26.879 became something, because prior to him, I was already something. 67 00:02:26.960 --> 00:02:30.080 It's just I needed that that extra, Okay, and then 68 00:02:30.120 --> 00:02:31.879 moving to La was was a part of that. 69 00:02:32.280 --> 00:02:33.800 I like that you always have to you know, your big, 70 00:02:33.960 --> 00:02:34.560 biggest fan. 71 00:02:34.800 --> 00:02:36.560 You just have to have a platform to get your 72 00:02:36.599 --> 00:02:38.879 music out there and like really be pushed the way 73 00:02:38.879 --> 00:02:41.080 that you should be. Yeah. So what current projects do 74 00:02:41.120 --> 00:02:42.120 you have right now? 75 00:02:42.879 --> 00:02:49.240 I'm actually working on my new project called Still. It's 76 00:02:49.280 --> 00:02:50.960 it's near and dear to me. I just lost my 77 00:02:51.000 --> 00:02:53.599 mom in June, So this is like to pick me 78 00:02:53.719 --> 00:02:56.759 up project after dealing with such a terrible you know 79 00:02:56.800 --> 00:03:00.319 what I'm saying, death, uh, and being able to move forward. Yeah. 80 00:03:00.479 --> 00:03:03.479 So this album is going and it's not even going 81 00:03:03.560 --> 00:03:05.120 to be like an emotional album. 82 00:03:05.199 --> 00:03:08.759 It's just about me and and you know, letting it 83 00:03:08.800 --> 00:03:09.080 all go. 84 00:03:09.319 --> 00:03:12.439 You're heavy like emotions and like showing who you are. Yeah. 85 00:03:12.439 --> 00:03:16.000 I mean, I've always been a very vulnerable, transparent artist 86 00:03:16.520 --> 00:03:18.960 with anything that I speak on, be it my mental health, 87 00:03:19.000 --> 00:03:21.800 be it my childhood, anything that I go through on 88 00:03:21.840 --> 00:03:22.680 a daily basis. 89 00:03:22.840 --> 00:03:24.560 Do you have a release date for that? Where can 90 00:03:24.639 --> 00:03:26.000 we find that when it comes out? 91 00:03:26.120 --> 00:03:27.039 Or you're not yet? 92 00:03:27.039 --> 00:03:28.280 The release date is coming soon? 93 00:03:28.360 --> 00:03:30.840 With everything, like the rest of my music, you can 94 00:03:30.840 --> 00:03:32.280 find on every streaming platform. 95 00:03:33.280 --> 00:03:35.759 Can you plug your your Instagram? Your social media is 96 00:03:36.360 --> 00:03:38.199 how do you want to know? 97 00:03:38.879 --> 00:03:42.759 My Instagram is s I y A, that's how you 98 00:03:42.759 --> 00:03:43.680 find me on everything? 99 00:03:43.759 --> 00:03:44.199 Honestly? 100 00:03:44.319 --> 00:03:45.599 Yeah? Nice? 101 00:03:45.800 --> 00:03:47.560 So reality? 102 00:03:47.599 --> 00:03:51.159 Sorry, so what reality TV shows did you do? 103 00:03:51.159 --> 00:03:55.280 Do you love reality? Do you continuously do it? Right now? 104 00:03:56.360 --> 00:03:58.159 I had a reality show for three years called Sister 105 00:03:58.280 --> 00:04:00.159 to Hip Hop. It was about me and four the 106 00:04:00.159 --> 00:04:03.199 female mcs. T I was behind it, him and Crystal 107 00:04:03.240 --> 00:04:06.639 Brege was on the network Oxygen. It was one of 108 00:04:06.680 --> 00:04:10.639 the biggest shows well actually one of the biggest reality 109 00:04:10.639 --> 00:04:19.319 television shows back then, which actually okay, yeah. 110 00:04:19.240 --> 00:04:21.879 You gotta you know, you gotta give an appreciation appreciation. 111 00:04:22.759 --> 00:04:26.879 It was a very very empowering reality show about female mcs, 112 00:04:27.160 --> 00:04:30.879 just about strong women who are MC's and not being 113 00:04:30.879 --> 00:04:34.639 put into a lane or you know. So, Yeah, shout 114 00:04:34.639 --> 00:04:36.839 out to TII and Crystal Brago and the whole Oxygen 115 00:04:36.879 --> 00:04:39.600 fifty one Minds family for giving us that platform. In 116 00:04:39.600 --> 00:04:42.040 the lasted three years, I became the breakout start office, 117 00:04:42.040 --> 00:04:44.480 So it was a blessing breakout start. What did you 118 00:04:44.800 --> 00:04:45.519 do after that? 119 00:04:47.000 --> 00:04:47.399 Movies? 120 00:04:48.600 --> 00:04:49.560 After that? My movie? 121 00:04:49.639 --> 00:04:51.279 How many movies have you been in? What Can I? 122 00:04:51.399 --> 00:04:52.040 What Can I See? 123 00:04:52.040 --> 00:04:55.560 You? Man deuces the line the first person that came out. 124 00:04:55.560 --> 00:04:57.800 That was my latest movie. I have a new movie 125 00:04:57.800 --> 00:05:00.000 coming out this year. I'm not exactly sure, but it's 126 00:05:00.120 --> 00:05:02.800 the top of this year called Follow Me. I'm one 127 00:05:02.800 --> 00:05:06.480 of the main characters in that. Yeah, from top to bottom, 128 00:05:06.519 --> 00:05:08.000 So I'm super excited about that. 129 00:05:08.120 --> 00:05:08.639 How was that? 130 00:05:08.720 --> 00:05:10.839 Did you always know that you wanted to do acting 131 00:05:10.920 --> 00:05:12.600 or did it kind of just fall into place and 132 00:05:12.600 --> 00:05:13.920 it just kind of happened organically? 133 00:05:14.040 --> 00:05:16.439 Like I actually had no clue that I was even 134 00:05:16.600 --> 00:05:20.240 capable of acting. Shout out to Jamie Fox and Lorentz Tate. 135 00:05:20.240 --> 00:05:22.519 I used to always be at Jamie fox house and 136 00:05:22.800 --> 00:05:26.759 Lorenz Tate and his brothers frequented and come to find 137 00:05:26.759 --> 00:05:28.560 out he was courting me from when you used to 138 00:05:28.600 --> 00:05:31.199 see me at Jamie's and he gave it. He gave 139 00:05:31.240 --> 00:05:34.160 a he gave the call and said he had a role. 140 00:05:34.439 --> 00:05:36.480 What it was really meant for a dude. He was like, Yo, 141 00:05:36.519 --> 00:05:38.399 we would love to try it out with you. So 142 00:05:38.600 --> 00:05:40.720 I did. I went in. I killed it. Shout out 143 00:05:40.720 --> 00:05:43.240 to him, Shout out the flavor Unit. Queen Latifa. She's 144 00:05:43.279 --> 00:05:45.079 the one who released it, and it was. It was 145 00:05:45.120 --> 00:05:47.120 the biggest thing on Netflix when it when it came out, 146 00:05:47.160 --> 00:05:49.040 I think it was like six months number one movie. 147 00:05:49.199 --> 00:05:52.160 That's amazing. Yeah, that's cool. That's cool to be like 148 00:05:52.199 --> 00:05:54.319 something that you didn't even know that was, you know, 149 00:05:54.720 --> 00:05:56.759 in your repertoire of things, and just to like pull 150 00:05:56.800 --> 00:05:59.240 out that like creative things, because I mean you're creative 151 00:05:59.240 --> 00:06:02.560 obviously from you know, young and doing music and doing that. 152 00:06:02.600 --> 00:06:04.240 So I always feel like how it's fascinating because you 153 00:06:04.240 --> 00:06:05.319 never know where those. 154 00:06:05.639 --> 00:06:08.279 You know, all those steps take you. Yeah, you honestly don't. 155 00:06:08.319 --> 00:06:10.959 But I think, like you just said, being a creative, 156 00:06:11.040 --> 00:06:13.279 we could put us in any room and we can 157 00:06:13.360 --> 00:06:16.600 figure it out, or it's just a natural thing. Yeah. 158 00:06:16.720 --> 00:06:17.560 No, I like that. 159 00:06:17.639 --> 00:06:19.959 Creative mindsets always, you know, you never know what you're 160 00:06:19.959 --> 00:06:22.399 gonna get. That's why private talk. I want to know 161 00:06:22.519 --> 00:06:24.839 all these creative things that she's kind of going on 162 00:06:24.959 --> 00:06:25.319 in there. 163 00:06:26.120 --> 00:06:27.279 So what do you have? 164 00:06:27.399 --> 00:06:29.480 You know, you've went to the reality thing you did that, 165 00:06:29.519 --> 00:06:32.319 you know the young MC. You seem really inspirational to like, 166 00:06:32.399 --> 00:06:34.079 you know, the youth, and like giving back to what 167 00:06:34.160 --> 00:06:36.120 kind of like advice do you have for someone young 168 00:06:36.160 --> 00:06:37.079 coming up in the game. 169 00:06:38.360 --> 00:06:38.920 I try to. 170 00:06:39.240 --> 00:06:42.120 That's what's crazy because I definitely try to be impactful 171 00:06:42.199 --> 00:06:45.040 as far as that goes with young EMCs, not just 172 00:06:45.120 --> 00:06:48.439 young female mcs, or just even humans in general. Like 173 00:06:48.519 --> 00:06:51.240 I feel like they need more people that not necessarily 174 00:06:51.319 --> 00:06:53.399 that they can idolize, but that they could relate to. 175 00:06:53.480 --> 00:06:55.360 I don't want anybody to idolize me. I want them 176 00:06:55.399 --> 00:06:57.000 to feel like they could relate to me, that. 177 00:06:56.959 --> 00:06:59.199 They can have a conversation with me, or that I 178 00:06:59.240 --> 00:07:02.279 can be someone to help them in a situation via 179 00:07:02.319 --> 00:07:06.079 my music, via my social media platform. Let people know 180 00:07:06.120 --> 00:07:08.079 that I'm still touchable, you know what I'm saying. I 181 00:07:08.079 --> 00:07:09.839 feel like a lot of artists don't do that the 182 00:07:09.879 --> 00:07:12.959 way they should. I'm a mental health advocate, I'm an 183 00:07:13.000 --> 00:07:19.160 LGBTQ advocate, yeah, a long list of things that I Hey, 184 00:07:19.720 --> 00:07:20.240 I like it. 185 00:07:20.279 --> 00:07:21.560 You have to you know that's good though. 186 00:07:21.600 --> 00:07:23.920 You're getting knowledge and it's not just being some people 187 00:07:24.000 --> 00:07:25.959 just you know, support it, but just being having the 188 00:07:25.959 --> 00:07:28.160 platform that you've had, and you know, having coming on 189 00:07:28.160 --> 00:07:30.319 shows like this and you know, your social media platforms 190 00:07:30.360 --> 00:07:32.680 and your music. It gives you know that power back 191 00:07:32.720 --> 00:07:34.839 behind people that maybe not have had a void with 192 00:07:34.920 --> 00:07:37.560 certain things like that, especially with the LGBT community. How 193 00:07:37.600 --> 00:07:39.160 do you feel like that being in the music world 194 00:07:39.199 --> 00:07:41.800 has kind of had either a help in your in 195 00:07:41.839 --> 00:07:43.480 your career or kind of a downfall. 196 00:07:43.519 --> 00:07:45.079 Do you think that it's played either way, It's always 197 00:07:45.120 --> 00:07:47.240 helped my career. Like I said, I've been in the 198 00:07:47.279 --> 00:07:49.600 music industry over twenty years. So when I tell you 199 00:07:49.639 --> 00:07:53.120 I've been openly gay m seeing since I was like twelve, 200 00:07:53.480 --> 00:07:56.839 like literally, and there's a lot of music industry cats 201 00:07:56.839 --> 00:07:58.720 that can vouch for that and say that that say 202 00:07:58.800 --> 00:08:01.360 of what she's literally been one of the first female 203 00:08:01.439 --> 00:08:04.079 mcs that were openly gay and really lived that life. 204 00:08:04.800 --> 00:08:07.000 So you've always done from early on, Oh I was, Yeah, 205 00:08:07.000 --> 00:08:08.079 I was born this way for sure. 206 00:08:08.120 --> 00:08:09.199 Like I've never even been with. 207 00:08:09.160 --> 00:08:13.360 A dude, No, no desire at all. I like that 208 00:08:13.879 --> 00:08:15.079 you live in your truth, you know what I mean. 209 00:08:15.120 --> 00:08:17.000 And from early on, like did your you know, your 210 00:08:17.279 --> 00:08:19.160 your family and your parents, like how did they take that? 211 00:08:19.279 --> 00:08:20.480 Did they you know? 212 00:08:20.759 --> 00:08:22.600 Did it just kept naturally coming in that kind of 213 00:08:22.639 --> 00:08:24.399 sense being from you know, Brooklyn. 214 00:08:24.000 --> 00:08:27.399 And to be honest with you, I've always been a 215 00:08:27.399 --> 00:08:30.839 little thug. So my family, my family. 216 00:08:30.639 --> 00:08:31.279 Knew what was up. 217 00:08:31.720 --> 00:08:34.320 They were just waiting for me to say. My mom 218 00:08:34.360 --> 00:08:37.039 had just passed in June. She was my parents. It 219 00:08:37.120 --> 00:08:39.240 was actually my grandmother, but she was my mother and father. 220 00:08:39.399 --> 00:08:41.600 So coming out to her, Yeah, coming out to her 221 00:08:41.720 --> 00:08:44.480 was easy, Like she was just like, well, I was. 222 00:08:44.480 --> 00:08:46.360 Waiting on you, like I love you regardless, you know 223 00:08:46.360 --> 00:08:46.799 what I'm saying. 224 00:08:46.840 --> 00:08:51.440 And yeah, I'm actually grateful to have experienced that with 225 00:08:51.480 --> 00:08:53.639 her because I know, I know and have had a 226 00:08:53.720 --> 00:08:57.639 lot of friends who were shunned by their family because 227 00:08:57.679 --> 00:08:58.720 they're of their sexuality. 228 00:08:58.720 --> 00:09:01.080 So yeah, because you don't know exactly at that young age, 229 00:09:01.080 --> 00:09:03.759 and that's what's beautiful thing to be able to be 230 00:09:04.039 --> 00:09:06.080 and live in your own and your truth and not 231 00:09:06.120 --> 00:09:09.039 having someone you know, maybe not too stern or that's 232 00:09:09.120 --> 00:09:10.360 or not whatever. So I feel like that has a 233 00:09:10.360 --> 00:09:13.039 big impact of how people really kind of embraced who 234 00:09:13.039 --> 00:09:15.840 they are. So that's a big appli to you of 235 00:09:15.919 --> 00:09:17.480 knowing that for so young, that's not a lot of 236 00:09:17.480 --> 00:09:18.039 people have that. 237 00:09:18.080 --> 00:09:19.000 So I think that's really great. 238 00:09:19.039 --> 00:09:21.200 How you use your voice now and let people feel 239 00:09:21.200 --> 00:09:23.279 that comfortability in you, your music and your work. 240 00:09:23.960 --> 00:09:25.759 It's I mean, it can be a scary thing also 241 00:09:25.840 --> 00:09:28.080 sometimes having the power to be the voice for those 242 00:09:28.120 --> 00:09:31.399 who don't have one. There was this young woman who 243 00:09:31.399 --> 00:09:33.919 reached out to me for the Middle East. Had to 244 00:09:33.960 --> 00:09:35.919 be I think like fifteen or something like that. She 245 00:09:36.000 --> 00:09:38.279 knew she was gay, she knows. I mean, I don't 246 00:09:38.320 --> 00:09:39.919 even know where she's at in life right now, but 247 00:09:39.960 --> 00:09:42.000 she reached out to me with the fear of coming 248 00:09:42.039 --> 00:09:44.399 out because out there they'll kill you. And you know 249 00:09:44.600 --> 00:09:47.000 they they about that life. Yeah, you know, the legend 250 00:09:47.080 --> 00:09:48.720 is yeah. So she reached out to me and she 251 00:09:48.799 --> 00:09:51.360 was extremely fearful for her life, and she asked me 252 00:09:51.440 --> 00:09:53.759 for advice. And as much as I wanted to tell 253 00:09:53.799 --> 00:09:55.600 her to just live her truth and be who she 254 00:09:55.639 --> 00:09:58.480 wants to be, in the back of my mind, we 255 00:09:58.559 --> 00:10:00.360 have a certain type of freedom in a Marria good 256 00:10:00.360 --> 00:10:03.440 that she doesn't have, So I was very fearful and 257 00:10:03.919 --> 00:10:06.600 very cautious with my words when I did respond to her. 258 00:10:07.120 --> 00:10:09.240 And I don't know what happened to her or but 259 00:10:09.279 --> 00:10:11.360 I just pray she's okay, what did you What did 260 00:10:11.360 --> 00:10:14.960 you say? And your message everything? I pretty much just 261 00:10:14.960 --> 00:10:16.399 said to you, like you know, you're. 262 00:10:16.240 --> 00:10:18.639 Just telling her that both sides, like basically, you know 263 00:10:18.759 --> 00:10:21.320 this is you know, if you do certain things, there 264 00:10:21.399 --> 00:10:24.480 is repercussions, unfortunately, because if out of anybody's control or not. 265 00:10:24.879 --> 00:10:26.600 I mean, and it's and it's said that that's the 266 00:10:26.600 --> 00:10:27.080 way it is. 267 00:10:27.120 --> 00:10:29.120 Like when I did a show an instant bull turkey, 268 00:10:29.159 --> 00:10:32.200 like even going out there before I did, like I was. 269 00:10:32.200 --> 00:10:35.120 Worn, like you know, a place like that, being. 270 00:10:34.919 --> 00:10:37.039 Who you are and living your tooth sometimes people will 271 00:10:37.080 --> 00:10:39.720 take an extreme offense to it. But I went out there, 272 00:10:39.720 --> 00:10:42.519 and you know, a person like me, if I'm gonna 273 00:10:42.559 --> 00:10:43.840 go out that way, at least I'm gonna go out 274 00:10:43.960 --> 00:10:45.480 the way that I know I am. 275 00:10:45.879 --> 00:10:47.840 Is there any places that you have not been gotten 276 00:10:47.919 --> 00:10:48.679 work because of that? 277 00:10:50.600 --> 00:10:51.600 No, not yet, honestly. 278 00:10:51.639 --> 00:10:54.519 And I have a huge fan base across across the oceans. 279 00:10:55.039 --> 00:10:58.200 UH Africa is definitely waiting for me to come so 280 00:10:58.240 --> 00:11:01.960 it's like I'm gonna take my gay. We're gonna get it, 281 00:11:02.000 --> 00:11:03.960 you know what I mean. Yeah, at the end of 282 00:11:03.960 --> 00:11:06.799 the day, I feel like the needle has moved forward 283 00:11:06.879 --> 00:11:09.639 a lot as far as you know, people being comfortable 284 00:11:09.639 --> 00:11:11.720 with other people's sexuality. And at the end of the day, 285 00:11:11.759 --> 00:11:15.120 like if I'm someone that's I'm just human. If I 286 00:11:15.120 --> 00:11:17.279 sit down next to you, I'm not yelling I'm gay 287 00:11:17.360 --> 00:11:20.159 and I fuck your daughter like I mean, I will, 288 00:11:20.879 --> 00:11:25.440 you know. But it's like, you know, like I'm just 289 00:11:25.519 --> 00:11:28.039 I'm living my truth. Let me do that, and you 290 00:11:28.159 --> 00:11:30.879 do you and either we could coexist or we can't. 291 00:11:30.879 --> 00:11:31.679 But I'm not gonna. 292 00:11:32.080 --> 00:11:35.840 I'm not gonna make myself feel uncomfortable to accommodate someone else. 293 00:11:36.120 --> 00:11:38.120 I love that though, because I mean, you can't. And 294 00:11:38.200 --> 00:11:40.360 nowadays it's like you can only be who you are, 295 00:11:40.440 --> 00:11:42.679 and when you don't do that, then you take away 296 00:11:42.679 --> 00:11:43.960 from your own happiness. 297 00:11:44.080 --> 00:11:48.159 Absolutely, I refuse to take away from you know, I've 298 00:11:48.159 --> 00:11:50.600 worked extremely hard to become the woman that I am 299 00:11:50.679 --> 00:11:53.559 as far as my happiness and my sanity. 300 00:11:54.000 --> 00:11:56.320 So you talk about like you know, you're having anxiety 301 00:11:56.320 --> 00:11:58.519 and things like that, what kind of you know, measures 302 00:11:58.559 --> 00:12:00.159 do you take, and you said you're an advocate for 303 00:12:00.519 --> 00:12:02.480 that as well, Like do you what kind of advice 304 00:12:02.519 --> 00:12:03.960 do you give and how do you come with that? 305 00:12:04.039 --> 00:12:08.279 Ooh yeah, that's always like what kind of advice do 306 00:12:08.320 --> 00:12:10.919 you give? When you are someone who suffers from I 307 00:12:10.919 --> 00:12:15.039 suffer from severe anxiety and depression. My anxiety tends to 308 00:12:15.039 --> 00:12:17.600 spiral out of control and I fall into deep depression 309 00:12:18.399 --> 00:12:20.159 when I have no reason to be depressed at all 310 00:12:20.200 --> 00:12:22.440 sometimes or you know, sometimes I am going through life 311 00:12:22.440 --> 00:12:24.840 shit like right now, I'm still healing, I'm grieving. It's 312 00:12:24.840 --> 00:12:27.159 only been about to be eight months since I lost 313 00:12:27.200 --> 00:12:30.279 my parent, so it's like fuck. But at the same time, 314 00:12:30.399 --> 00:12:33.120 like when you do live with anxiety on a daily basis, 315 00:12:33.240 --> 00:12:35.320 it's either you push forward or this shit will swallow 316 00:12:35.320 --> 00:12:37.480 you whole and it doesn't give a fuck about you. 317 00:12:37.879 --> 00:12:39.519 And there's people in the world who. 318 00:12:39.320 --> 00:12:41.360 Don't give a fuck about your anxiety or your mental 319 00:12:41.360 --> 00:12:45.320 health problems because they don't understand it. So I know, 320 00:12:45.440 --> 00:12:47.759 I just tell people to like, you gotta breathe, you 321 00:12:47.759 --> 00:12:50.360 gotta push through it, and you gotta like, for one, 322 00:12:50.399 --> 00:12:52.759 you gotta believe in yourself that you're stronger than that shit, 323 00:12:53.399 --> 00:12:56.399 like it's something that it can't kill you. Only you 324 00:12:56.440 --> 00:13:00.519 can kill yourself. But that's just mental one hundred ten percent, 325 00:13:00.639 --> 00:13:03.000 like it's your own thoughts working against. 326 00:13:02.720 --> 00:13:04.519 You, and it's not easy, you know, And that's I 327 00:13:04.519 --> 00:13:07.279 think the biggest thing anybody can do, or we all 328 00:13:07.360 --> 00:13:09.639 can do, is just as about you know, acknowledge is power. 329 00:13:09.679 --> 00:13:11.200 And just the more we talk about it, the more 330 00:13:11.240 --> 00:13:13.399 that people I feel like it's not as taboou as 331 00:13:13.440 --> 00:13:15.000 it once was where we couldn't do And I think 332 00:13:15.039 --> 00:13:17.320 that's why it was such a stigma of like no 333 00:13:17.360 --> 00:13:20.320 one talked about those bad things, especially not really. 334 00:13:19.799 --> 00:13:22.120 In the black and brown households. I mean, shit, growing up, 335 00:13:22.120 --> 00:13:24.200 if you had an issue, snap out of it. Hey 336 00:13:24.240 --> 00:13:26.879 you good, ain't nothing wrong with you. But really, like nigga, 337 00:13:26.919 --> 00:13:27.879 yeah something's wrong with me? 338 00:13:28.000 --> 00:13:31.639 Yeah, and I might the time, you know, you tipping 339 00:13:31.759 --> 00:13:34.240 up like yeah, all those like those harsh words and 340 00:13:34.279 --> 00:13:34.799 things like that. 341 00:13:34.840 --> 00:13:37.000 But sometimes that will push you to do things that 342 00:13:37.080 --> 00:13:39.440 you wouldn't normally have done, you know what I'm saying. 343 00:13:39.519 --> 00:13:42.840 So I'm yeah, I'm extremely happy that now it's a 344 00:13:42.960 --> 00:13:45.159 it's a it's a it's a conversation that's being had 345 00:13:45.200 --> 00:13:49.000 on couches and in houses and on platforms and you know, 346 00:13:49.120 --> 00:13:52.200 but it's also a thin line between is someone using 347 00:13:52.240 --> 00:13:54.679 it as leverage for their career? 348 00:13:55.039 --> 00:13:55.720 You know what I'm saying. 349 00:13:55.919 --> 00:13:57.960 I agree because I feel like people do use it 350 00:13:58.000 --> 00:13:59.120 as a crutch or they don't. 351 00:13:59.360 --> 00:14:01.480 They make it seem for. 352 00:14:01.480 --> 00:14:03.279 The people who really have it, it seems it's less 353 00:14:03.279 --> 00:14:05.519 wider down because with people who make amplify it when 354 00:14:05.559 --> 00:14:07.320 it don't really mean that solution. And that's why I 355 00:14:07.320 --> 00:14:11.240 feel like that was why, because such not believable thing, 356 00:14:11.279 --> 00:14:13.360 because it's like it's not something like a cut that 357 00:14:13.399 --> 00:14:15.000 you can see or believe it doesn't hurt, you know, 358 00:14:15.000 --> 00:14:17.759 I mean, everybody hurts differently, so it's hard to really 359 00:14:18.039 --> 00:14:20.120 identify with that unless you've really been through it and 360 00:14:20.120 --> 00:14:20.840 struggle with that. 361 00:14:20.960 --> 00:14:25.240 Yeah, it's definitely something that it's buriers in its boundaries 362 00:14:25.279 --> 00:14:27.720 and it's it's it's you know, it's surface or it's 363 00:14:27.759 --> 00:14:30.960 not even with sometimes people. I don't know how true 364 00:14:31.000 --> 00:14:33.360 the statement was, but I heard somebody, Well, I had 365 00:14:33.360 --> 00:14:36.279 a conversation with someone who works for the suicide Prevention hotline, 366 00:14:36.519 --> 00:14:40.000 and they expressed to me that Logic never even donated 367 00:14:40.000 --> 00:14:43.480 a penny to the suicide prevention line after he made 368 00:14:43.519 --> 00:14:46.080 the suicide song. So it's like, dude, like, did you 369 00:14:46.240 --> 00:14:48.919 make this song to leverage or you know what I'm saying, 370 00:14:48.919 --> 00:14:50.279 like what was was your cause? 371 00:14:50.399 --> 00:14:53.080 Like you're not putting something behind what you're really like 372 00:14:53.120 --> 00:14:53.639 put your. 373 00:14:53.720 --> 00:14:54.720 And that was a big record. 374 00:14:55.159 --> 00:14:58.039 Yeah, you know what I'm saying, Like, so you know, 375 00:14:58.399 --> 00:15:01.639 I really hope he did tribute versus what I was 376 00:15:01.639 --> 00:15:04.720 told by someone who works visuals Aventure, but who knows 377 00:15:05.559 --> 00:15:08.600 never know what people are doing these days. 378 00:15:08.360 --> 00:15:11.879 It's you don't ever know. So what is going on 379 00:15:12.000 --> 00:15:13.759 with your relationship status wise? 380 00:15:13.960 --> 00:15:17.399 Are you single? Are you dating? Are you have a roster? 381 00:15:17.879 --> 00:15:19.440 What's going on. 382 00:15:19.360 --> 00:15:22.159 With what's crazy is is? 383 00:15:22.240 --> 00:15:22.519 Uh? 384 00:15:22.720 --> 00:15:26.600 It actually took me a while too. It took me 385 00:15:26.639 --> 00:15:28.600 a while to get to into a space where I 386 00:15:28.639 --> 00:15:32.720 felt like I wasn't being selfish with my emotions because 387 00:15:32.919 --> 00:15:36.840 when you lose someone, you can become dependent on another human, 388 00:15:37.519 --> 00:15:39.759 you know, because you're grieving and like you feel lost 389 00:15:39.840 --> 00:15:40.399 and empty. 390 00:15:40.679 --> 00:15:41.960 And I didn't want to be that person. 391 00:15:42.000 --> 00:15:44.879 I didn't want to put me onto someone else or 392 00:15:44.919 --> 00:15:48.559 project how I feel. Yeah, so I strayed away from 393 00:15:48.600 --> 00:15:53.000 it for a while. Currently, yes, I am involved with 394 00:15:53.080 --> 00:15:56.039 someone with you know, we're at a great space in 395 00:15:56.080 --> 00:15:58.480 each other's lives because she can relate to what I'm 396 00:15:58.480 --> 00:16:01.679 going through. She just lost someone to So yeah, So 397 00:16:01.759 --> 00:16:04.399 how do you navigate a relationship in the entertainment world? 398 00:16:04.480 --> 00:16:06.840 Do you, you know, deal with people sliding in your d 399 00:16:07.039 --> 00:16:08.360 MS slide? 400 00:16:12.120 --> 00:16:14.919 How did that? How did that DM happen? She slid in? 401 00:16:15.639 --> 00:16:16.200