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<v Speaker 1>Christy Love my guest for the evening. You know exactly

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<v Speaker 1>where you can find her at CLCA sixty nine. Her

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<v Speaker 1>new podcast, in Bed with Christy Love is available now

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<v Speaker 1>on YouTube and anywhere you get podcasts. Links to all

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<v Speaker 1>of our social media in the episode description below. At

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<v Speaker 1>the bare minimum, folks follow these performers. It really helps

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<v Speaker 1>them out. And then when payday rolls around, boom, you

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<v Speaker 1>sign up for the good stuff. Also make sure you

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<v Speaker 1>like subscribe this and that. Christy. After a quick misstep

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<v Speaker 1>on my part, I want to apologize for that. Thank

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<v Speaker 1>you so much for coming on with me tonight.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, thank you. It's such a pleasure.

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<v Speaker 1>So first question, with all that you do, if you

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<v Speaker 1>had to sum it up, what do you consider your

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<v Speaker 1>job title to be, Because it's a lot yes.

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<v Speaker 2>Pastor, porn star and stand up comedian.

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<v Speaker 1>That is quite an eclectic mix, I believe.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, it's crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, talk me through then maybe let me try and

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<v Speaker 1>organize this in my mind. Talk me through how you

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<v Speaker 1>got the title comedian first, and then I'd like to

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<v Speaker 1>talk about how you got the title porn star first,

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<v Speaker 1>and then later on in the episode we'll get to

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<v Speaker 1>how you got the title pastor. So, how do you

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<v Speaker 1>consider yourself a comedian? Why do you consider yourself a comedian?

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<v Speaker 1>What kind of comedian?

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<v Speaker 2>M hmm, that's a great question. Well, I have gone

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<v Speaker 2>through so much pain and agony and trauma, so I

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<v Speaker 2>figure it's cheaper to go do comedy then spend money

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<v Speaker 2>on therapy. So with all the trials and trivilations that

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<v Speaker 2>have gone through, I guess in the last do you

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<v Speaker 2>have just pursued full I'm not full time, but just

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<v Speaker 2>pursued it. And I tried to do comedy a couple

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<v Speaker 2>times a week, whether it's performing or open mic.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, okay, that's fascinating because I read comedian there and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, okay, to what extent? So you're actually

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<v Speaker 1>going on stage in terms of this, You're not just

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<v Speaker 1>like a girl who's funny with your other girlfriends. You're like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a comedian. No, you are really doing comedy.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, yeah, yeah, I have done some really cool stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>I at least perform or get booked a few times

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<v Speaker 2>a month, and I'm still brand news, so it's not

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<v Speaker 2>as much as I would like. But I have a

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<v Speaker 2>comedy coach that I do coaching like once a week

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<v Speaker 2>and it's just so much fun. I in general, I

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<v Speaker 2>love to perform, So being a pastor, a porn star,

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<v Speaker 2>and standup comedian, we're all performing on stage all the time.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, if we had to sum it up into

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<v Speaker 1>one word, maybe that's what you or you are just

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<v Speaker 1>a performer like Y give you, give you a medium

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<v Speaker 1>or something to tackle. And it sounds like Christy's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>jump into that and learn it and if you show

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<v Speaker 1>interest in it, right.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, yes, absolutely, Okay, all.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, So then the big question is how did you

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<v Speaker 1>initially get into the adult entertainment industry. What was your

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<v Speaker 1>crossover from vanilla life into this world and was it positive?

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<v Speaker 2>Was it?

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<v Speaker 1>And I don't want you to harp on it if

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<v Speaker 1>it's negative, like I don't want to come at you

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<v Speaker 1>about it, But what was your trip into this?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Actually it's so hard to say without talking about

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<v Speaker 2>my faith because the order is pastor, born star and comedian.

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<v Speaker 2>But just to the honest truth, I was planning, church

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<v Speaker 2>planning and church Flanny wasn't making money. So I went

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<v Speaker 2>on Crank's list and I was scrolling through when I

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<v Speaker 2>found an ad that's it, hey work at home and

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<v Speaker 2>make some good money. I was like click what is

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<v Speaker 2>this about? And I was like, what is this? And

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<v Speaker 2>I remember just looking around this website and I was like, what,

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<v Speaker 2>There's all these women that are in lingerie or they're naked,

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm like, I don't know if I want to

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<v Speaker 2>do this. But at the time, it was so desperate,

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<v Speaker 2>and you know, financially, when you're in a position of desperation,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what you got to do. And so I

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<v Speaker 2>that was, I would say, my gateway to the adult industry.

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<v Speaker 2>And then eventually it's so hard to talk about it

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<v Speaker 2>without the faith, but I got caught trying to you know,

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<v Speaker 2>church plant at the same time and also webcamming. So

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<v Speaker 2>I shut down the church and then continued to get

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<v Speaker 2>into webcamming because hey, I still had to pay for

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<v Speaker 2>the room for a head, you know. And then from

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<v Speaker 2>there I just told my husband. I was like, hey, babe,

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<v Speaker 2>what do you think I want to get into full

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<v Speaker 2>time porn. We're not We're not in ministry anymore. And

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<v Speaker 2>at the time, you know, we had it pretty we

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<v Speaker 2>had a kinky relationship, and so I was like, what

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<v Speaker 2>do you think about being getting to full time porn

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<v Speaker 2>actually going into it, not just webcamming and that's kind

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<v Speaker 2>of the gateway, you know, of me. Like he was like,

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<v Speaker 2>whatever you want to do, I support you. So I

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<v Speaker 2>was folding my d and I was like, yeah, I

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<v Speaker 2>do want to do this.

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<v Speaker 1>This looks fun, this is this is again, this is

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<v Speaker 1>a completely judgment free zone. My my rule is my

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<v Speaker 1>rule is just don't be in a room with a

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<v Speaker 1>dog and you're good, okay. But but I have to

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<v Speaker 1>say this, doesn't it seem a bit drastic or a

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<v Speaker 1>bit real bot not like like polar shifting, Like wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>dairy queen hiring for managers maybe? Or like hot I

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<v Speaker 1>guess hot topic would probably put you in the same

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<v Speaker 1>kind of trouble. But it seems so drastic to go

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<v Speaker 1>church to I'm gonna do some kind of porn.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I know, that's a great question. So the reason

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<v Speaker 2>why I didn't go through that route, even though my

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<v Speaker 2>husband did, is because, I mean, we were so broke

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<v Speaker 2>at the time that our parents were paying. Let me

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<v Speaker 2>just explain how broke we were. His parents are paying

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<v Speaker 2>for a rent one one month, mine was another month,

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<v Speaker 2>and we're still trying to run this church. We could

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<v Speaker 2>not afford anything. They would even help out with groceries.

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<v Speaker 2>And so I could go through the process of trying

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<v Speaker 2>to be you know, we're at a grocery store or

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<v Speaker 2>you know, whatever other jobs are there. But the process

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<v Speaker 2>to go through that is you have to apply, you

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<v Speaker 2>wait until they call you. You then have to do

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<v Speaker 2>an interview, and when you do, you're competing against all

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<v Speaker 2>these people. Then you wait until they call you back

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<v Speaker 2>to see if you made it in the finals, and

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<v Speaker 2>then you just hope and pray that you just get booked.

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<v Speaker 2>You usually don't go through the process of hey, I

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<v Speaker 2>need a job, like right now, because if I don't

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<v Speaker 2>get a job right now, then my parents are gonna

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<v Speaker 2>have to pay for another month. So I need something now.

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<v Speaker 2>So well, Kim, provided I need a job right now, Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>just fill out this form, give me a couple hours

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<v Speaker 2>to verify you're eighteen and over, and boom you can

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<v Speaker 2>start working. Yes, great deal, all right.

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<v Speaker 1>So it was it was immediate then, But let me ask,

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<v Speaker 1>Let me ask this was there. Maybe you said your

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<v Speaker 1>relationship you had, you know, you had been a little

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I don't know what term you used. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to say freaky if that's not what you said.

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<v Speaker 2>But.

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<v Speaker 1>Non conventional. Let's say, let's put it that way. Did that?

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<v Speaker 1>And I know there's so many different branches and everything else,

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<v Speaker 1>But was this always a little bit in you, like

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<v Speaker 1>maybe like, yes, you have your religious side and you

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<v Speaker 1>believe in that and it's strong with you, but maybe

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<v Speaker 1>there's a little part where you're like, I am a

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<v Speaker 1>little hyper sexual and when this comes along, yes, I

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<v Speaker 1>can wait for the process over here and this and that,

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<v Speaker 1>this is pretty immediate. I can do this right now,

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<v Speaker 1>and I really don't mind doing it. Was that ever

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<v Speaker 1>a consideration for you that.

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<v Speaker 2>To be honestly truthful, No, I was not even a

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<v Speaker 2>kinky kind of person at all.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow.

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<v Speaker 2>What opened that side of me was actually webcamming and

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<v Speaker 2>the possibilities and all that stuff. So backtrack, I was,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I was molested and raped, you know, as

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<v Speaker 2>in my child and adolescents, and so every time I

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<v Speaker 2>had any type of sexual interaction in my mind, I

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<v Speaker 2>correlated that with pain, and so I wish I could say,

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<v Speaker 2>oh my god, I was just like this franky person.

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<v Speaker 2>But the truth is, my story is completely different. I

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<v Speaker 2>started webcamming, and you know, I did so well because

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<v Speaker 2>my god, this girl is like, she doesn't even know

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<v Speaker 2>what anything is, and that was so hot for all

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<v Speaker 2>these men seeing like this girl next door she doesn't

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<v Speaker 2>know what she's doing. So I did really well as

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<v Speaker 2>a webcam model, but I started to see a shift

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<v Speaker 2>go go plummet down and I ended up having like

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<v Speaker 2>a webcam mentor and she's like, you need to learn

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<v Speaker 2>to actually be authentically horny, and I was like, I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't know how to correlate, how to be that. I

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<v Speaker 2>was just acting all the time because I did not

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<v Speaker 2>enjoy it at all. I was just doing it for

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<v Speaker 2>the money at the time. And when I started discovering like, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>I had to learn to enjoy myself and my own body.

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<v Speaker 2>And when I started doing that, I started really enjoying

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<v Speaker 2>myself and then my husband, and then that open doors

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<v Speaker 2>of like kind of being a little bit more explorative,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, unconventional. So people say, oh, webcamming or you know,

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<v Speaker 2>don't work destroys people, and my story is like no,

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<v Speaker 2>it actually was so healing and it was very healthy

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<v Speaker 2>for me because it liberated all the past traumas that

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<v Speaker 2>I went through and shifted my mindsets to from being

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<v Speaker 2>this is painful, this is bad, and even religious, and

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<v Speaker 2>you know, religion tells you it's so bad, you're sinful,

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<v Speaker 2>You're it's like the preach like it's an unforgivable sin.

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<v Speaker 2>If you are in this industry, you're lost your salvation.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, it's like that's how they preach. And and

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<v Speaker 2>I realized, you know what it did the opposite for me.

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<v Speaker 2>It healed me. It healed me of my trauma. It

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<v Speaker 2>healed my relationship with my husband. So many men are

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<v Speaker 2>out there cheating on their wives, and I'm sorry to say,

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<v Speaker 2>because their wives are not, you know, being as sexual

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<v Speaker 2>as they should be. So of course a human being,

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<v Speaker 2>a human man is a horn like born horny. And

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<v Speaker 2>so they go out and they they need release some

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<v Speaker 2>other way if they're not being taken care of at home.

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<v Speaker 2>And I know that's gonna piss off a whole bunch

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<v Speaker 2>of women. But I talked to a whole bunch of

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<v Speaker 2>cheating men, and a lot of them say, hey, I

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<v Speaker 2>love my wives, but you know, after they had a baby,

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<v Speaker 2>she just she just stopped and he needed an outlet.

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<v Speaker 2>And so for me, I just felt like for my marriage,

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<v Speaker 2>it has we have so much trust. We It healed

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<v Speaker 2>me you know, we have so much love, our our

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<v Speaker 2>intimate life is so freaking amazing, you know, And uh,

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<v Speaker 2>I just I feel like for me it was overall

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<v Speaker 2>a healing thing. Now, what do I say everyone should

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<v Speaker 2>go through the adult industry. It's so healthy. I do

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<v Speaker 2>see a damaging part of it, And I believe that's

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<v Speaker 2>where people's journey and their own conviction everyone walks through

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<v Speaker 2>out how they should live. Right, Like some people they

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<v Speaker 1>at some point? Doesn't that make sense? And why should

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<v Speaker 2>that is here to fulfill me, that's when it becomes

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<v Speaker 2>me fill my whole, then whether your reason is the

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<v Speaker 2>But if you look at as this my motive is,

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<v Speaker 2>this is my business, You're going to look beyond like

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<v Speaker 2>how can I impact other people's lives out whether I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna My perspective is that if people talk crap about you,

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<v Speaker 2>it's not going to affect you. If people praise you,

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<v Speaker 2>it's not gonna affect you. If money comes in, it's

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<v Speaker 2>not gonna affect you. If money comes is a low season,

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<v Speaker 2>it's not gonna affect you. Because your your motive is

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<v Speaker 2>not about those things that are kind of controlling your life.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if I'm making sense.

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<v Speaker 1>That makes total That makes total sense to me. I've

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<v Speaker 1>and I couldn't figure out if it made sense or not.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like when you if you drive one hundred miles

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<v Speaker 1>an hour, Okay, there's an exhilaration and joy, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>but that can't be your only joy and exhilaration in life.

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<v Speaker 1>Because you got to turn off the highway at some

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<v Speaker 1>You're gonna have to drive twenty five. So make it

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<v Speaker 1>so you just enjoy the act of driving. If you're

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<v Speaker 1>enjoy the act of driving, and when it hits one hundred,

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<v Speaker 1>you can go, this is very nice. And when you're

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<v Speaker 1>enjoy this. That was kind of the analogy I was

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<v Speaker 1>putting together. If if you base your life on stats,

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<v Speaker 1>or on achievements, or on this and that, rather than

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<v Speaker 1>just putting in the work you feel like you are

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<v Speaker 1>capable of putting in, it can really only end. Bad

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<v Speaker 1>stats stop. At some point people drop off. You are

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<v Speaker 1>old not you somebody. You are old news at some point,

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<v Speaker 1>so you're gonna have to either reinvent or accept your

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<v Speaker 1>new position in this next tier down. I hate to

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<v Speaker 2>But right it's really yeah, yeah. And so I would

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<v Speaker 2>that comes up to me that says should I go

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<v Speaker 2>into it or not? I always say, what is your motive?

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<v Speaker 2>And make sure your motive is not is beyond yourself.

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<v Speaker 2>in general is like how can I impact at least

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<v Speaker 2>one time, full employee where she you know, I can pay,

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<v Speaker 2>her head, live a comfortable life. She's she's spoken to

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm like, I got to work my plucking ass

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<v Speaker 2>and so in everything we do, if your mindset is

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<v Speaker 2>Even in my fame, I'm like, Okay, I want to

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<v Speaker 2>matter who hates me, who loves me, how much money

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<v Speaker 2>I want to feel like giving up or being drained.

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<v Speaker 1>And that's what we have to fight every day, is

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<v Speaker 1>by That's what I fight every day, is am I

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<v Speaker 1>too drained to do this? And you have to go No,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not physically drained. Mentally, I can push myself into

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<v Speaker 1>want it to do. I'm glad I push myself to

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<v Speaker 1>do this. Let's talk about your podcast, in Bed with

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<v Speaker 1>Christy Love, available on YouTube and everywhere else. Right, if

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<v Speaker 1>you watch this episode, I'll say and leave a comment

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<v Speaker 1>everything else, head on over and subscribe. A lot of

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<v Speaker 1>people are starting podcasts. I started a podcast late. I

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<v Speaker 1>started covid is what we started with this, and I

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<v Speaker 1>But I've wanted to do podcasting since Joe Rogan episode

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<v Speaker 1>number thirty eight. He's on episode almost twenty five hundred now,

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<v Speaker 1>and back then I went, my friends are funny enough,

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<v Speaker 1>I can do this, and we never did. So let

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<v Speaker 1>me ask you, with everybody starting podcast now, what is

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<v Speaker 1>You're bringing Christy Love to it, which is a huge

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<v Speaker 1>bump right off the bat because you're an amazing person

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<v Speaker 1>with amazing stories. But are you doing what is the

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<v Speaker 1>mission of this podcast? What is your hope? Is it

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<v Speaker 1>kind of what you said there, to spread knowledge? Is

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<v Speaker 1>it to express yourself on a daily basis? Are you

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<v Speaker 2>People that we're human and I have been judged a lot,

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<v Speaker 2>and so I am giving out my story and I

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<v Speaker 2>am also interviewing very many people, a lot of people

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<v Speaker 2>most you know, obviously uplifting light, not showing the negative

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<v Speaker 2>into the real story of who they are. And so

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<v Speaker 2>much that's what my podcast is about. You hear my

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<v Speaker 1>Dubs and beautiful answer. Can I ask you a question

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<v Speaker 1>and you don't have to give any information? Is and

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<v Speaker 1>I did not know. Maybe I don't know. I ask

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<v Speaker 1>after the show, but I did not know that. But

419
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<v Speaker 1>if so, that makes me have so much even more respect,

420
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<v Speaker 1>Like I respected this person as a performer, and to

421
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<v Speaker 1>hear that that's one that's very strong and powerful. It's

422
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<v Speaker 1>also very sad, you know, in society at least.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, yeah, yeah, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, let's talk real quick about the content. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sorry to go from something so serious into this, but

426
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<v Speaker 1>I do a thing called stat check on here. We

427
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<v Speaker 1>use the Internet Adult Film Database. It is inaccurate, it

428
00:24:32.480 --> 00:24:35.359
<v Speaker 1>doesn't include all of your stuff. It's gonna be wrong,

429
00:24:35.920 --> 00:24:38.319
<v Speaker 1>but it's a nice little benchmark where we can go.

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<v Speaker 1>We recorded it on this day, and these were how

431
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<v Speaker 1>many scenes he had done and how many people he

432
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<v Speaker 1>had worked with in this and that at the time.

433
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<v Speaker 1>So for scenes, I have one hundred and ninety. For

434
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<v Speaker 1>male talent, you've worked with eighty seven. For female talent,

435
00:24:53.799 --> 00:24:57.400
<v Speaker 1>you've worked with fifty six. I only look at AVNS

436
00:24:57.440 --> 00:25:00.559
<v Speaker 1>because there's so many different award shows. But I kind

437
00:25:00.559 --> 00:25:04.359
<v Speaker 1>of just like to, you know, narrow it down. Three nominations,

438
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<v Speaker 1>no wins yet, right, correct keyword yet? Okay? I wanted

439
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<v Speaker 1>to go through a few of your scenes. So here's

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna show the audience as

441
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<v Speaker 1>much as I can, and I'm going to show you

442
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<v Speaker 1>as my background a couple of scenes. So the first

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<v Speaker 1>scene I have for you here is from Team Skeet.

444
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<v Speaker 1>This was you with Naomi Starr, Alana bloom A, Crystal Davis,

445
00:25:32.680 --> 00:25:38.599
<v Speaker 1>and the incredibly lucky David Lee that day. Apparently, when

446
00:25:38.839 --> 00:25:41.519
<v Speaker 1>you do a scene with multiple women and one guy,

447
00:25:42.160 --> 00:25:44.359
<v Speaker 1>do you ever get bored off to the side if

448
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<v Speaker 1>you're not tied into the action, Like I'm looking at

449
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<v Speaker 1>this picture here and you're all in the action here,

450
00:25:48.920 --> 00:25:51.400
<v Speaker 1>but at some point you're sitting at that table just

451
00:25:51.480 --> 00:25:53.720
<v Speaker 1>playing checkers or whatever it is you guys are doing.

452
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<v Speaker 1>What are you doing? If it's one of those scenes

453
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<v Speaker 1>where I'm not directly tied in, maybe the directors not going,

454
00:26:00.519 --> 00:26:02.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, hey, kiss her or mess around with her

455
00:26:02.599 --> 00:26:04.319
<v Speaker 1>this and that. Do you just kind of just sit

456
00:26:04.400 --> 00:26:08.000
<v Speaker 1>off there looking all beautiful naked and not doing anything.

457
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<v Speaker 2>Oh my gosh, I'm so desperately wanting to watch. That's

458
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<v Speaker 2>the truth, because sometimes, you know, we're forced to not

459
00:26:23.000 --> 00:26:26.839
<v Speaker 2>watch and act like, hey, nothing's going on. Right. I

460
00:26:26.839 --> 00:26:30.039
<v Speaker 2>guess apparently that's supposed to make this scene like hotter.

461
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<v Speaker 2>So that's what's going on in my mind.

462
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<v Speaker 1>Okay, okay, okay, I aboard it all.

463
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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, oh my god, I want to watch that.

464
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<v Speaker 1>The second clip, clip, video, screenshot, whatever you want to

465
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<v Speaker 1>call it. I have here from you is from kink. Now.

466
00:26:50.759 --> 00:26:53.799
<v Speaker 1>Did you have to be slowly talked into bondage and

467
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<v Speaker 1>kink playing or was that something you were kind of

468
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<v Speaker 1>excited to jump into. How did you work your way

469
00:26:58.440 --> 00:27:01.039
<v Speaker 1>up to that? Because and again, and if I'm overstepping here,

470
00:27:01.079 --> 00:27:02.599
<v Speaker 1>please let me know. With this stuff you said, it

471
00:27:02.640 --> 00:27:07.119
<v Speaker 1>almost feels like you gained your control back through webcamming,

472
00:27:07.519 --> 00:27:10.799
<v Speaker 1>but this is again another total loss of control. What

473
00:27:10.960 --> 00:27:13.319
<v Speaker 1>put you in a position to be well, positions the

474
00:27:13.400 --> 00:27:15.640
<v Speaker 1>wrong word to use there, But what put you in

475
00:27:15.720 --> 00:27:18.640
<v Speaker 1>the spot to be able to be comfortable with then

476
00:27:19.000 --> 00:27:21.599
<v Speaker 1>approaching those types of scenes and being willing to do them?

477
00:27:22.359 --> 00:27:27.880
<v Speaker 2>Mm hmmm. Actually webcamming really changed my mindset about everything,

478
00:27:29.680 --> 00:27:33.200
<v Speaker 2>so I when it comes to bondage and all that,

479
00:27:33.400 --> 00:27:38.480
<v Speaker 2>I actually my favorite fetish is BDSM And I say

480
00:27:38.599 --> 00:27:42.079
<v Speaker 2>I'm a I'm a switch naturally a sub, but I

481
00:27:42.200 --> 00:27:47.000
<v Speaker 2>prefer to be dominant. So being tied up and just

482
00:27:47.240 --> 00:27:52.880
<v Speaker 2>fully allowing someone to take it whatever they want feels

483
00:27:52.920 --> 00:27:57.519
<v Speaker 2>so freeing and refreshing for me, Like just to be like, okay,

484
00:27:57.599 --> 00:28:01.599
<v Speaker 2>I'm giving everything to you, to trust that you will

485
00:28:02.440 --> 00:28:06.240
<v Speaker 2>read my body well and that you will give me

486
00:28:06.359 --> 00:28:13.119
<v Speaker 2>full pleasure, and just having that ability really, what can

487
00:28:13.160 --> 00:28:15.079
<v Speaker 2>I say? It Just it's so freeing.

488
00:28:16.359 --> 00:28:19.640
<v Speaker 1>Did you did you know your limits already going into

489
00:28:19.640 --> 00:28:22.920
<v Speaker 1>shooting something like that or was it a process working

490
00:28:22.960 --> 00:28:25.319
<v Speaker 1>with the director saying I think I'd be comfortable with this.

491
00:28:25.400 --> 00:28:27.640
<v Speaker 1>Did you have to pull back at all while doing

492
00:28:27.680 --> 00:28:29.359
<v Speaker 1>any shoots? Yes?

493
00:28:29.680 --> 00:28:34.640
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, there was one shoot that I has traumatized me.

494
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<v Speaker 2>Oh man, so this you know one of he was

495
00:28:43.160 --> 00:28:49.839
<v Speaker 2>a like producer and the actor. He said, hey, do

496
00:28:49.920 --> 00:28:52.839
<v Speaker 2>you want to do you do needle play? And I

497
00:28:52.839 --> 00:28:54.960
<v Speaker 2>have never heard of needle play. I was like what

498
00:28:55.359 --> 00:28:59.720
<v Speaker 2>I was like, and in my mind was stupid me.

499
00:29:00.319 --> 00:29:02.519
<v Speaker 2>I didn't ask questions, but in my mind I thought

500
00:29:02.519 --> 00:29:06.559
<v Speaker 2>it was like occupuncture, and I thought, oh, you know,

501
00:29:06.720 --> 00:29:09.960
<v Speaker 2>that sounds pretty cool, you know, like I'm thinking occupuncture

502
00:29:10.000 --> 00:29:15.160
<v Speaker 2>all over my little tits and being fucked. I'm like, yeah,

503
00:29:15.279 --> 00:29:17.480
<v Speaker 2>I think I would be open to that but I

504
00:29:17.519 --> 00:29:20.880
<v Speaker 2>didn't ask what needle play was. I just assumed what

505
00:29:21.039 --> 00:29:24.960
<v Speaker 2>it was. So he says, well, before we do it

506
00:29:25.000 --> 00:29:29.240
<v Speaker 2>on camera, let's just give it a try. I'm like, okay.

507
00:29:29.799 --> 00:29:32.279
<v Speaker 2>So he grabs a needle. The whole time I'm thinking

508
00:29:32.319 --> 00:29:37.000
<v Speaker 2>it's occupuncture. He grabs my nipple, pulls my nipple, and

509
00:29:37.200 --> 00:29:43.799
<v Speaker 2>boom right through the the Yeah, the nipple right, and

510
00:29:44.440 --> 00:29:49.279
<v Speaker 2>I'm screaming because in my mind it wasn't what I

511
00:29:49.319 --> 00:29:49.920
<v Speaker 2>thought it was.

512
00:29:50.480 --> 00:29:52.559
<v Speaker 1>In your mind, you just got stabbed in the tit.

513
00:29:52.799 --> 00:29:54.680
<v Speaker 1>I mean, like, you know, if you were on the

514
00:29:54.680 --> 00:29:57.200
<v Speaker 1>street and that happened, that's a felony.

515
00:29:57.559 --> 00:30:01.720
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so I freak out. I said no, no, no, no, no,

516
00:30:01.759 --> 00:30:06.240
<v Speaker 2>I do not like this. So apparently I didn't know

517
00:30:06.279 --> 00:30:10.880
<v Speaker 2>that I was traumatized until after this scene because I

518
00:30:10.960 --> 00:30:14.119
<v Speaker 2>used to love my nipples being played with. Now I

519
00:30:14.319 --> 00:30:19.759
<v Speaker 2>don't touch there. I am like, I do not like

520
00:30:19.839 --> 00:30:22.640
<v Speaker 2>to be touched in my nipples. It hurts every time

521
00:30:22.720 --> 00:30:26.799
<v Speaker 2>someone even tries to touch it. It's very painful. And I

522
00:30:26.880 --> 00:30:31.039
<v Speaker 2>realize it's from that moment I haven't traumatized, and I

523
00:30:31.079 --> 00:30:33.720
<v Speaker 2>don't know to reprogram my mind.

524
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<v Speaker 1>Wow, geez oh, I couldn't even imagine that. Well, let

525
00:30:38.559 --> 00:30:40.720
<v Speaker 1>me ask you the inverse of that. Was there any

526
00:30:40.839 --> 00:30:45.319
<v Speaker 1>limit you set early on that you eventually not gave

527
00:30:45.359 --> 00:30:48.160
<v Speaker 1>in but decided to try a little bit and you

528
00:30:48.279 --> 00:30:49.839
<v Speaker 1>realized you liked it or no.

529
00:30:51.480 --> 00:30:59.039
<v Speaker 2>A lot. So I used to I have this rule

530
00:30:59.200 --> 00:31:03.799
<v Speaker 2>that if I only do what I enjoy as a sub,

531
00:31:03.839 --> 00:31:06.359
<v Speaker 2>that I will do to another sub when I'm domb

532
00:31:07.160 --> 00:31:13.160
<v Speaker 2>And so I had I had these submissives who wanted

533
00:31:13.200 --> 00:31:17.640
<v Speaker 2>me to verbally abuse them, and so I was like,

534
00:31:17.640 --> 00:31:20.000
<v Speaker 2>you know, let me give this to try. And so

535
00:31:20.319 --> 00:31:25.559
<v Speaker 2>I had these doms as a webcam model start to

536
00:31:25.799 --> 00:31:28.359
<v Speaker 2>verbally abuse me. And can I just say, I used

537
00:31:28.400 --> 00:31:31.839
<v Speaker 2>to be so sensitive. I will cry about everything you

538
00:31:31.880 --> 00:31:34.720
<v Speaker 2>say one one thing about me, you look at me wrong,

539
00:31:34.920 --> 00:31:38.039
<v Speaker 2>I will just take it so personal. I was so insecure,

540
00:31:38.839 --> 00:31:43.400
<v Speaker 2>I mean really really bad until I started doing a

541
00:31:43.480 --> 00:31:49.640
<v Speaker 2>verbal abuse in webcamming and shifted my mindset to taking

542
00:31:49.680 --> 00:31:54.720
<v Speaker 2>things personable to getting so horny. Yeah. So it worked

543
00:31:54.720 --> 00:31:58.880
<v Speaker 2>out perfectly because, as you know, time went and I

544
00:31:58.920 --> 00:32:01.799
<v Speaker 2>started growing in fame, and I go back to when

545
00:32:02.039 --> 00:32:05.039
<v Speaker 2>your people love you and people hate you, that when

546
00:32:05.079 --> 00:32:08.279
<v Speaker 2>people hate me and they talk crap about me, write articles,

547
00:32:08.880 --> 00:32:10.559
<v Speaker 2>all I do is grab my had tachi and.

548
00:32:15.359 --> 00:32:19.400
<v Speaker 1>I yeah, I just I'm definitely not a submissive in

549
00:32:19.440 --> 00:32:22.079
<v Speaker 1>my own life or with my wife or anything. But

550
00:32:22.400 --> 00:32:26.359
<v Speaker 1>I can't imagine just being mean to a woman. That's

551
00:32:26.519 --> 00:32:29.000
<v Speaker 1>all the you know, I still hold doors and call

552
00:32:29.079 --> 00:32:32.079
<v Speaker 1>people ma'am. I've almost called you mam on this episode.

553
00:32:32.119 --> 00:32:34.279
<v Speaker 1>You're younger than me. I just want to point that out.

554
00:32:34.720 --> 00:32:38.279
<v Speaker 1>But uh no, I'm glad. I'm glad you learned how

555
00:32:38.319 --> 00:32:40.720
<v Speaker 1>to process that because I'm still working on it. Because

556
00:32:40.759 --> 00:32:42.640
<v Speaker 1>I won't say a mean thing to want unless she

557
00:32:42.720 --> 00:32:45.039
<v Speaker 1>cuts me off in traffic. Then I'm out the window

558
00:32:45.279 --> 00:32:49.519
<v Speaker 1>screaming you need to learn how to drive, get off

559
00:32:49.559 --> 00:32:53.640
<v Speaker 1>the road. Shit like that. The third scene I have

560
00:32:53.839 --> 00:32:59.160
<v Speaker 1>for you here, now, this is a crazy one. Uh uh.

561
00:32:59.160 --> 00:33:01.880
<v Speaker 1>This is a scene from Girls' Way. Now. I've been

562
00:33:01.960 --> 00:33:04.759
<v Speaker 1>to water parks before, but I haven't seen anything quite

563
00:33:04.920 --> 00:33:08.160
<v Speaker 1>like this. You're a full on hydrant here. From what

564
00:33:08.279 --> 00:33:11.559
<v Speaker 1>I can tell, How did you did you learn how

565
00:33:11.559 --> 00:33:14.400
<v Speaker 1>to squirt while you were in porn? Or was that

566
00:33:14.519 --> 00:33:16.799
<v Speaker 1>something maybe you discovered in your life and then you

567
00:33:16.839 --> 00:33:18.640
<v Speaker 1>were like, hey, this is a skill I can bring

568
00:33:18.680 --> 00:33:19.240
<v Speaker 1>over to this.

569
00:33:20.799 --> 00:33:26.119
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, webcamming is my gateway. So I was on a website.

570
00:33:26.839 --> 00:33:30.480
<v Speaker 2>My first webcam site was flirt for Free, and I

571
00:33:30.599 --> 00:33:35.559
<v Speaker 2>noticed all the top models were squirters. And so my

572
00:33:35.680 --> 00:33:39.240
<v Speaker 2>story is, I said, hey, I went into my room

573
00:33:39.319 --> 00:33:42.279
<v Speaker 2>one day, my cam room, and I said, who wants

574
00:33:42.359 --> 00:33:46.039
<v Speaker 2>to teach me how to squirt? And one of the

575
00:33:46.119 --> 00:33:48.880
<v Speaker 2>viewers said, hey, I taught my wife how to squirt.

576
00:33:48.920 --> 00:33:52.400
<v Speaker 2>I could teach you. Said right on, okay, let's do this,

577
00:33:53.240 --> 00:33:56.680
<v Speaker 2>and so I just remember being in my cam room

578
00:33:56.880 --> 00:34:00.480
<v Speaker 2>and everyone was like cheering me on. I was in

579
00:34:00.720 --> 00:34:05.200
<v Speaker 2>anticipation and this viewer just kept guiding me what to do,

580
00:34:05.759 --> 00:34:07.640
<v Speaker 2>and I was scared that I was not going to

581
00:34:07.720 --> 00:34:10.840
<v Speaker 2>be able to do it. I've heard all these rumors

582
00:34:10.880 --> 00:34:13.880
<v Speaker 2>not everyone can squirt. I'm like, what if I can't

583
00:34:13.920 --> 00:34:18.559
<v Speaker 2>do it? So I just remember ten minutes going by,

584
00:34:18.880 --> 00:34:23.599
<v Speaker 2>fifteen Eventually twenty minutes went by, and finally I did

585
00:34:23.960 --> 00:34:28.639
<v Speaker 2>my first let's see, oh one footer, and the whole

586
00:34:28.719 --> 00:34:29.360
<v Speaker 2>room cheered.

587
00:34:32.480 --> 00:34:34.519
<v Speaker 1>And now that's a skill of yours. Now you can

588
00:34:34.599 --> 00:34:37.280
<v Speaker 1>replicate that skill and make it even better. Huh you're

589
00:34:37.320 --> 00:34:40.320
<v Speaker 1>thrown one hundred mile an hour fastballs now? Yes?

590
00:34:40.599 --> 00:34:44.639
<v Speaker 2>Yes, so you know I practice. When you're a webcam model,

591
00:34:44.679 --> 00:34:49.199
<v Speaker 2>you practice every day, several times a day, so I

592
00:34:49.239 --> 00:34:52.679
<v Speaker 2>got really really good at squirting and I can squirt

593
00:34:52.760 --> 00:34:55.480
<v Speaker 2>on command.

594
00:34:55.639 --> 00:35:00.639
<v Speaker 1>I'm not asking this as a uh, I'm not asking

595
00:35:00.639 --> 00:35:03.440
<v Speaker 1>this as a recommendation as much as I am just

596
00:35:03.559 --> 00:35:06.960
<v Speaker 1>wondering your subjective opinion. Girls that are getting into the

597
00:35:07.000 --> 00:35:09.719
<v Speaker 1>industry now that just jump right on of and again

598
00:35:09.760 --> 00:35:11.400
<v Speaker 1>you should have that, and you should have all your

599
00:35:11.440 --> 00:35:16.039
<v Speaker 1>channels set up and everything else. Would you recommend webcamming

600
00:35:16.360 --> 00:35:19.280
<v Speaker 1>at first so they can kind of get a sense

601
00:35:19.320 --> 00:35:24.599
<v Speaker 1>and comfort of what people are looking for their specific look,

602
00:35:24.679 --> 00:35:27.239
<v Speaker 1>what type of fetish or whatever else might you know

603
00:35:27.280 --> 00:35:29.800
<v Speaker 1>be associated with that. Do you think it's a good

604
00:35:29.880 --> 00:35:33.280
<v Speaker 1>like training camp for getting into more sex work later

605
00:35:33.320 --> 00:35:34.000
<v Speaker 1>on down the road.

606
00:35:34.559 --> 00:35:41.960
<v Speaker 2>Absolutely, because it's the safest one. You aren't interacting with anybody,

607
00:35:42.639 --> 00:35:45.159
<v Speaker 2>and if you don't like someone who's in your cam room,

608
00:35:45.159 --> 00:35:49.920
<v Speaker 2>you can just span them and you get to choose

609
00:35:49.960 --> 00:35:54.679
<v Speaker 2>your hours and you're your own boss. And so for me,

610
00:35:54.800 --> 00:35:58.320
<v Speaker 2>webcamming was one of those things that help me understand

611
00:35:58.559 --> 00:36:02.400
<v Speaker 2>every single fetish and I felt comfortable because I was

612
00:36:02.440 --> 00:36:07.280
<v Speaker 2>in my own safe room, rather than maybe you might

613
00:36:07.320 --> 00:36:09.960
<v Speaker 2>be talking to someone in person and you might get

614
00:36:10.000 --> 00:36:15.119
<v Speaker 2>creepy vibes or something. Unfortunately, some bad things could happen.

615
00:36:15.639 --> 00:36:19.400
<v Speaker 2>So for me, webcaming definitely helps me learn so much

616
00:36:19.559 --> 00:36:21.599
<v Speaker 2>and I felt safe at the same time.

617
00:36:21.760 --> 00:36:22.679
<v Speaker 1>Gotcha, gotcha.

618
00:36:22.719 --> 00:36:26.880
<v Speaker 2>And also I feel like as a newly AF girl,

619
00:36:28.599 --> 00:36:31.960
<v Speaker 2>if you don't have a fan base, you know, AF

620
00:36:32.039 --> 00:36:36.880
<v Speaker 2>doesn't promote you. So this is the best way to

621
00:36:36.880 --> 00:36:41.320
<v Speaker 2>be promoted because whatever site you choose will promote you

622
00:36:41.599 --> 00:36:44.920
<v Speaker 2>and bring fans to you. And that's a good start

623
00:36:45.039 --> 00:36:50.199
<v Speaker 2>to developing fans and also learning and making money at

624
00:36:50.239 --> 00:36:50.920
<v Speaker 2>the same time.

625
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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, makes sense, makes sense, all right. I want to

626
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<v Speaker 1>move into my part three here, so let me just

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<v Speaker 1>say I went to preschool to eighth grade, Catholic school, Communion,

628
00:37:04.760 --> 00:37:07.360
<v Speaker 1>all of that stuff. By the way, I didn't know

629
00:37:07.519 --> 00:37:12.360
<v Speaker 1>Catholics were disliked, or I didn't know Protestants were disliked

630
00:37:12.440 --> 00:37:16.599
<v Speaker 1>or Presbyterians or anything else. I just I was just like, oh,

631
00:37:16.599 --> 00:37:18.639
<v Speaker 1>we all believe in Jesus. That's fine, right.

632
00:37:19.119 --> 00:37:19.320
<v Speaker 2>You know.

633
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<v Speaker 1>Then you know, teen years hit and I move away

634
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<v Speaker 1>from it a little bit. You want to be the rebel,

635
00:37:25.760 --> 00:37:28.239
<v Speaker 1>you want to say, oh man, I'm an atheist. This

636
00:37:28.280 --> 00:37:30.599
<v Speaker 1>and that you hit later in life and you go,

637
00:37:30.760 --> 00:37:33.199
<v Speaker 1>you know what, I spent a lot of time fucking

638
00:37:33.320 --> 00:37:36.559
<v Speaker 1>pretending like I didn't believe in anything. And every time

639
00:37:36.599 --> 00:37:39.559
<v Speaker 1>someone got into a car accident, and every time when

640
00:37:39.599 --> 00:37:44.039
<v Speaker 1>my brother was in the hospital dying, I looked up

641
00:37:44.119 --> 00:37:48.639
<v Speaker 1>and I said, hey, help please, you know, And and

642
00:37:49.719 --> 00:37:51.639
<v Speaker 1>I hate to say this, and I will not I

643
00:37:51.639 --> 00:37:53.840
<v Speaker 1>won't make this political at all. And people can have

644
00:37:53.880 --> 00:37:57.840
<v Speaker 1>their own opinions and whatever it is. But and this

645
00:37:57.880 --> 00:38:00.440
<v Speaker 1>will be controversial. I'm sure I don't mean it to be.

646
00:38:01.679 --> 00:38:04.599
<v Speaker 1>Didn't believe political views, didn't agree with this, this and that.

647
00:38:05.199 --> 00:38:10.320
<v Speaker 1>But watching Charlie Kirk get killed this year again, you

648
00:38:10.360 --> 00:38:12.679
<v Speaker 1>can have your opinion about political views, this and that.

649
00:38:13.239 --> 00:38:15.840
<v Speaker 1>He was a man of God. And when that happened,

650
00:38:15.920 --> 00:38:18.320
<v Speaker 1>I watched that on Twitter about two hundred times that

651
00:38:18.440 --> 00:38:23.119
<v Speaker 1>day and I thought to myself, I really can't go

652
00:38:23.239 --> 00:38:27.719
<v Speaker 1>around thinking he's not going somewhere else after this, Like

653
00:38:27.800 --> 00:38:30.719
<v Speaker 1>I really I need to hope for for him and

654
00:38:30.760 --> 00:38:33.360
<v Speaker 1>for everyone else that goes through such tragedy and terrible

655
00:38:33.360 --> 00:38:36.280
<v Speaker 1>things in life that it's not just lights out, you know.

656
00:38:36.639 --> 00:38:40.119
<v Speaker 1>And it's always been in my head. So can I

657
00:38:40.159 --> 00:38:44.920
<v Speaker 1>ask you, how what is what's your brand of Christianity?

658
00:38:45.559 --> 00:38:47.880
<v Speaker 1>What would it be represented by him. What are some

659
00:38:47.960 --> 00:38:51.719
<v Speaker 1>of the core, most important morals of it? Because Catholic's

660
00:38:51.719 --> 00:38:54.159
<v Speaker 1>got all kinds of rules, and my thing's always been,

661
00:38:54.519 --> 00:38:56.639
<v Speaker 1>we're gonna hit him with the golden rule. Okay, I'm

662
00:38:56.639 --> 00:38:58.800
<v Speaker 1>gonna be respectful to you. I'm gonna hope you're gonna

663
00:38:58.800 --> 00:39:01.840
<v Speaker 1>be respectful to me. What are your tenants or what

664
00:39:01.920 --> 00:39:04.079
<v Speaker 1>do you base your faith on?

665
00:39:04.920 --> 00:39:10.440
<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm the greatest commandments, which is love God and

666
00:39:10.519 --> 00:39:17.239
<v Speaker 2>love people, sure at all and how people want to

667
00:39:17.239 --> 00:39:22.880
<v Speaker 2>elaborate on that is all theological. But I believe in

668
00:39:23.000 --> 00:39:28.920
<v Speaker 2>God's grace and I believe you know, as long as

669
00:39:28.960 --> 00:39:34.679
<v Speaker 2>you accept Christ, you know you're going you're going to Heaven.

670
00:39:35.079 --> 00:39:38.920
<v Speaker 2>That's That's where I'm at. And my job on this

671
00:39:39.039 --> 00:39:43.320
<v Speaker 2>earth is to love God and love people. And that

672
00:39:43.440 --> 00:39:46.840
<v Speaker 2>means no matter how messed up you are, no matter

673
00:39:47.320 --> 00:39:51.599
<v Speaker 2>if you're an adult worker, you're gay, lesbian, you're a murderer,

674
00:39:51.760 --> 00:39:57.840
<v Speaker 2>you're homeless, your drug addict, it doesn't matter. I'm just

675
00:39:57.880 --> 00:40:00.239
<v Speaker 2>going to love you where you're at, and that's where

676
00:40:00.280 --> 00:40:03.639
<v Speaker 2>I stand. And you know what, unfortunately, I don't see

677
00:40:03.639 --> 00:40:07.760
<v Speaker 2>that in the church. I feel like the unfortunately the

678
00:40:07.880 --> 00:40:12.320
<v Speaker 2>church is if you don't live by this. I'm not

679
00:40:12.400 --> 00:40:14.960
<v Speaker 2>going to love you where you're at. Sure, And I'm like,

680
00:40:16.199 --> 00:40:19.639
<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry, I believe differently, And I get so many

681
00:40:19.639 --> 00:40:25.559
<v Speaker 2>people who don't agree with me, but I I'm like,

682
00:40:25.639 --> 00:40:29.280
<v Speaker 2>you know what, it's okay to disagree and with each other,

683
00:40:29.320 --> 00:40:32.280
<v Speaker 2>but let's just love each other because at the end

684
00:40:32.320 --> 00:40:35.639
<v Speaker 2>of the day, where if you're a Christian, you know,

685
00:40:36.960 --> 00:40:38.679
<v Speaker 2>let's we're all going to the same place.

686
00:40:38.840 --> 00:40:41.960
<v Speaker 1>Sure, yeah, yeah, And I think that's kind of what

687
00:40:42.039 --> 00:40:45.280
<v Speaker 1>I got out of it too, is just let's, you know,

688
00:40:45.960 --> 00:40:49.559
<v Speaker 1>just try and be better people. And again with the Catholics,

689
00:40:49.599 --> 00:40:51.599
<v Speaker 1>there's all kinds of rules. You got to hit this

690
00:40:51.679 --> 00:40:53.480
<v Speaker 1>thing and do this and do that and whatever the

691
00:40:53.639 --> 00:40:57.559
<v Speaker 1>organized religion of it. My thought is always, you know,

692
00:40:57.800 --> 00:41:00.880
<v Speaker 1>if Hitler confessed before he died, I still don't think

693
00:41:00.920 --> 00:41:04.280
<v Speaker 1>he was making it to heaven. And if I don't confess,

694
00:41:04.360 --> 00:41:07.199
<v Speaker 1>but I lived my life really trying to be a

695
00:41:07.239 --> 00:41:10.000
<v Speaker 1>decent human being, really trying to take care of people,

696
00:41:10.119 --> 00:41:13.039
<v Speaker 1>not being malicious towards people. I think I'm good. I

697
00:41:13.559 --> 00:41:16.519
<v Speaker 1>think I'll get in as long as I keep working

698
00:41:16.559 --> 00:41:19.880
<v Speaker 1>forward towards that. So you kind of touched on it

699
00:41:19.920 --> 00:41:22.840
<v Speaker 1>there a little bit, but it makes sense, do you

700
00:41:23.719 --> 00:41:27.400
<v Speaker 1>not necessary? So okay, my question here was how do

701
00:41:27.440 --> 00:41:30.639
<v Speaker 1>you square it in your mind the contradiction from doing

702
00:41:30.719 --> 00:41:34.039
<v Speaker 1>adult film and also the church. But it almost sounds

703
00:41:34.079 --> 00:41:38.880
<v Speaker 1>like you're not a big fan of church establishment establishment

704
00:41:39.199 --> 00:41:42.000
<v Speaker 1>rather than just the religion and the faith itself. Is

705
00:41:42.039 --> 00:41:44.280
<v Speaker 1>that accurate or is that wrong? No?

706
00:41:44.400 --> 00:41:47.360
<v Speaker 2>I love the church. I mean I go to church

707
00:41:47.440 --> 00:41:52.400
<v Speaker 2>when I have time. I just feel like the mindsets

708
00:41:53.840 --> 00:41:57.519
<v Speaker 2>of most churches is that they live too much by

709
00:41:57.599 --> 00:42:02.199
<v Speaker 2>the law and when Jesus came and died on the cross,

710
00:42:02.280 --> 00:42:07.320
<v Speaker 2>where save through grace, it's you know, So that's where

711
00:42:07.320 --> 00:42:12.519
<v Speaker 2>I'm at. I feel like the move a big portion

712
00:42:12.639 --> 00:42:19.239
<v Speaker 2>of it is we've lost the grace that that you know,

713
00:42:19.440 --> 00:42:24.519
<v Speaker 2>is said in the Bible. So again, I don't hate

714
00:42:24.559 --> 00:42:27.400
<v Speaker 2>the church at all. I go to church myself when

715
00:42:27.400 --> 00:42:31.719
<v Speaker 2>I have time. Yeah. Is that the church?

716
00:42:32.079 --> 00:42:35.039
<v Speaker 1>Well, I don't necessarily mean the church as in the building.

717
00:42:35.159 --> 00:42:40.400
<v Speaker 1>I mean more the people in organized religions who maybe

718
00:42:42.400 --> 00:42:46.159
<v Speaker 1>lose sight of the main principles and worry more about

719
00:42:46.320 --> 00:42:50.559
<v Speaker 1>you know, when I see politicians involved with politics or

720
00:42:50.559 --> 00:42:53.599
<v Speaker 1>no I'm sorry, pastors or priests or anyone else involved

721
00:42:53.599 --> 00:42:56.960
<v Speaker 1>in politics or pushing for this, or kick this out

722
00:42:57.079 --> 00:42:59.159
<v Speaker 1>or do that. I almost want to say, like, go

723
00:42:59.480 --> 00:43:03.239
<v Speaker 1>back to what Jesus would recommend here. You know, Jesus

724
00:43:03.360 --> 00:43:07.400
<v Speaker 1>wasn't like we need rest all sex workers, and he

725
00:43:07.519 --> 00:43:10.639
<v Speaker 1>had Mary Magdalene and you know he cared for her

726
00:43:10.719 --> 00:43:13.960
<v Speaker 1>and everything else. So I just think what I meant

727
00:43:13.960 --> 00:43:16.480
<v Speaker 1>by that is not you don't like walking into a church.

728
00:43:16.559 --> 00:43:22.159
<v Speaker 1>I meant more, it's you have more faith in Jesus

729
00:43:22.599 --> 00:43:26.440
<v Speaker 1>and God himself rather than the rules and everything else

730
00:43:26.440 --> 00:43:30.360
<v Speaker 1>that might be set by man. In God's name, I

731
00:43:30.400 --> 00:43:34.119
<v Speaker 1>would say, is that accurate? Am I crazy? Maybe I'm crazy?

732
00:43:34.159 --> 00:43:34.920
<v Speaker 1>It's fine if I am.

733
00:43:35.039 --> 00:43:42.920
<v Speaker 2>Oh, no, no, I guess I honor the law, which

734
00:43:43.039 --> 00:43:45.639
<v Speaker 2>you know, that's where all the rules and regulations are,

735
00:43:47.719 --> 00:43:51.119
<v Speaker 2>and I understand them, and I understand that the law

736
00:43:51.199 --> 00:43:55.760
<v Speaker 2>is what helps us understand what sin is. But I

737
00:43:55.880 --> 00:43:59.119
<v Speaker 2>do also understand that Jesus came to fulfill the law.

738
00:43:59.199 --> 00:44:04.559
<v Speaker 2>So we don't I can't. I don't want to say

739
00:44:04.599 --> 00:44:08.719
<v Speaker 2>we don't we Well, our salvation is not canceled by

740
00:44:08.760 --> 00:44:13.400
<v Speaker 2>our actions, right, is what I mean? Do we should?

741
00:44:13.440 --> 00:44:17.840
<v Speaker 2>We still apply the law? Like and this is where

742
00:44:17.880 --> 00:44:23.400
<v Speaker 2>I say this, it's on everyone's on conviction and we

743
00:44:23.480 --> 00:44:28.039
<v Speaker 2>constantly are working out our salvation, and that salvation doesn't

744
00:44:28.079 --> 00:44:32.400
<v Speaker 2>look like well, if you mess up, you instantly lose

745
00:44:32.440 --> 00:44:36.320
<v Speaker 2>your salvation. Salvation to me, when the Bible talks about

746
00:44:36.320 --> 00:44:40.599
<v Speaker 2>that is it's more like you're in training to be

747
00:44:40.760 --> 00:44:44.079
<v Speaker 2>more like Christ, but you never actually lose your salvation,

748
00:44:44.440 --> 00:44:49.079
<v Speaker 2>gotcha until you you know? And and what I mean

749
00:44:49.119 --> 00:44:54.280
<v Speaker 2>by that is that every single Christian, every single person

750
00:44:54.320 --> 00:44:58.039
<v Speaker 2>on this planet, all has some type of struggle. One

751
00:44:58.079 --> 00:45:03.320
<v Speaker 2>person struggle might be sexual. Another person struggle might be overeating.

752
00:45:03.840 --> 00:45:09.599
<v Speaker 2>Another person's struggle could be I don't know, overworking. Another

753
00:45:09.599 --> 00:45:14.400
<v Speaker 2>person struggle could be unforgiveness with people that their family

754
00:45:14.800 --> 00:45:17.599
<v Speaker 2>did to them twenty years ago. That's considered also a sin.

755
00:45:18.079 --> 00:45:21.880
<v Speaker 2>But we're all working out our salvation to go through

756
00:45:21.920 --> 00:45:25.280
<v Speaker 2>the process of, Hey, I struggle with, oh, you know,

757
00:45:25.320 --> 00:45:27.760
<v Speaker 2>eating too much, so I'm going to go on a

758
00:45:27.800 --> 00:45:31.079
<v Speaker 2>diet plan. You're working out that. I don't know if

759
00:45:31.119 --> 00:45:31.880
<v Speaker 2>that kind of makes sense.

760
00:45:31.960 --> 00:45:34.079
<v Speaker 1>No, it does. It makes total sense to me. But

761
00:45:34.519 --> 00:45:36.519
<v Speaker 1>you are a porn star and the first two you

762
00:45:36.599 --> 00:45:39.760
<v Speaker 1>hit were sex addiction and then overeating, And I was like,

763
00:45:39.880 --> 00:45:41.159
<v Speaker 1>is she talking about me?

764
00:45:41.360 --> 00:45:41.559
<v Speaker 2>There?

765
00:45:41.920 --> 00:45:44.079
<v Speaker 1>No, I'm just kidding I'm fucking with you. I'm just kidding.

766
00:45:44.079 --> 00:45:45.119
<v Speaker 1>I'm just kidding. I'm just kidding.

767
00:45:46.119 --> 00:45:46.360
<v Speaker 2>I do.

768
00:45:46.599 --> 00:45:51.119
<v Speaker 1>Here's a question, though, has has any director or producer

769
00:45:51.920 --> 00:45:56.519
<v Speaker 1>ever tried to bring any kind of religious iconology into

770
00:45:56.639 --> 00:45:58.880
<v Speaker 1>any of your scenes. Dress you up like a nun,

771
00:45:59.079 --> 00:45:59.960
<v Speaker 1>do something like that.

772
00:46:01.360 --> 00:46:04.199
<v Speaker 2>Go ahead, yes, yeah, I just shot a scene too,

773
00:46:05.519 --> 00:46:08.039
<v Speaker 2>Oh my gosh, two months ago and I was like,

774
00:46:08.280 --> 00:46:10.159
<v Speaker 2>I told the director, I said, I'm so sorry, I

775
00:46:10.159 --> 00:46:16.119
<v Speaker 2>cannot do this part. And what it was the original

776
00:46:16.199 --> 00:46:20.800
<v Speaker 2>piece and I'm so glad. Actually these director and producers

777
00:46:20.800 --> 00:46:24.920
<v Speaker 2>were also Christian, and they they were like, it's okay,

778
00:46:24.960 --> 00:46:27.679
<v Speaker 2>you don't have to do this. But the scene was

779
00:46:27.840 --> 00:46:32.159
<v Speaker 2>I played a witch. And when I originally read the script,

780
00:46:32.280 --> 00:46:36.559
<v Speaker 2>I thought it was like like the neighbor Karen, Like

781
00:46:37.039 --> 00:46:42.320
<v Speaker 2>that's what I interpreted this this script, you know, and

782
00:46:42.400 --> 00:46:45.880
<v Speaker 2>they were just using the word rich witch rather than

783
00:46:48.440 --> 00:46:50.920
<v Speaker 2>I didn't realize it was a spiritual witch.

784
00:46:51.280 --> 00:46:52.480
<v Speaker 1>Sure, okay.

785
00:46:53.000 --> 00:46:58.000
<v Speaker 2>So I was like, okay, so I'm you know, it

786
00:46:58.119 --> 00:47:02.079
<v Speaker 2>was a scene where so the end of the scene

787
00:47:02.119 --> 00:47:04.239
<v Speaker 2>that I said I cannot do was they had a

788
00:47:04.320 --> 00:47:09.000
<v Speaker 2>voodoo doll and they said that I needed to play

789
00:47:09.039 --> 00:47:12.440
<v Speaker 2>with myself and put my comm on the voodoo doll

790
00:47:13.119 --> 00:47:20.199
<v Speaker 2>and make it whatever, like I'm casting some wicked spell

791
00:47:20.320 --> 00:47:25.199
<v Speaker 2>on these kids who decided to trespass in my neighbor

792
00:47:25.679 --> 00:47:29.039
<v Speaker 2>I mean, in my backyard to grab their baseball right

793
00:47:29.800 --> 00:47:30.840
<v Speaker 2>after I fucked them.

794
00:47:32.960 --> 00:47:35.360
<v Speaker 1>Quite the scene there, Quite the scene. So then what

795
00:47:35.679 --> 00:47:38.480
<v Speaker 1>were you able to I mean, were you just out

796
00:47:38.519 --> 00:47:40.400
<v Speaker 1>on that? Were they able to adjust and make it

797
00:47:40.440 --> 00:47:41.519
<v Speaker 1>more comfortable for you?

798
00:47:42.159 --> 00:47:46.719
<v Speaker 2>They adjusted to more of the interpretation of which as

799
00:47:46.760 --> 00:47:53.360
<v Speaker 2>an I'm like the neighbor Karen, rather than the spiritual

800
00:47:53.440 --> 00:47:55.920
<v Speaker 2>being of I'm going to cast a spell on you

801
00:47:55.960 --> 00:47:58.559
<v Speaker 2>and actually literally have a voodoo doll in my hands.

802
00:47:59.119 --> 00:48:01.400
<v Speaker 1>I do have. As this follow up though, was it

803
00:48:01.440 --> 00:48:04.559
<v Speaker 1>supposed to be a Halloween scene or something or was

804
00:48:04.599 --> 00:48:06.880
<v Speaker 1>it just a random Tuesday They're like, we need some

805
00:48:06.960 --> 00:48:09.320
<v Speaker 1>satanic stuff in here. Yeah.

806
00:48:10.039 --> 00:48:14.800
<v Speaker 2>See. The weird thing is I felt like the whoever

807
00:48:14.920 --> 00:48:18.159
<v Speaker 2>is the writer kind of did it mockingly on purpose,

808
00:48:18.440 --> 00:48:22.119
<v Speaker 2>because the director when I approached her and said, I

809
00:48:22.119 --> 00:48:24.840
<v Speaker 2>don't feel comfortable doing this little line. Can I just

810
00:48:24.960 --> 00:48:28.199
<v Speaker 2>take this out? And she's like, oh, that's weird because

811
00:48:28.199 --> 00:48:32.719
<v Speaker 2>they know you're a pastor, And that to me like

812
00:48:33.159 --> 00:48:35.079
<v Speaker 2>kind of stung me a little bit because it was

813
00:48:35.159 --> 00:48:38.239
<v Speaker 2>like I felt like, whoever is the writers kind of

814
00:48:38.320 --> 00:48:43.199
<v Speaker 2>wanted to push me my comfort level. It's one thing

815
00:48:43.199 --> 00:48:45.960
<v Speaker 2>where you write a script, but if you know who

816
00:48:46.039 --> 00:48:50.920
<v Speaker 2>the actor is, that's that's a different story.

817
00:48:51.679 --> 00:48:53.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. That again, I'll use the word that that almost

818
00:48:53.880 --> 00:48:56.199
<v Speaker 1>feels a little malicious, like I want to see her

819
00:48:56.239 --> 00:48:56.760
<v Speaker 1>say this.

820
00:48:58.239 --> 00:49:02.119
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Yeah, But I'm just so grateful because I just remember,

821
00:49:02.239 --> 00:49:06.599
<v Speaker 2>like my heart pounding, like, oh my God, like I

822
00:49:06.800 --> 00:49:09.440
<v Speaker 2>read this interpretation of this script wrong.

823
00:49:11.320 --> 00:49:13.440
<v Speaker 1>Last question I have for you here and then I

824
00:49:13.480 --> 00:49:17.199
<v Speaker 1>just want to one quick social media thing, But who

825
00:49:17.280 --> 00:49:21.079
<v Speaker 1>is more judgmental of the other side? Are the porn

826
00:49:21.159 --> 00:49:25.239
<v Speaker 1>people more against the religious side or the religious side

827
00:49:25.320 --> 00:49:27.840
<v Speaker 1>more against the porn Let me ask you, like in

828
00:49:27.880 --> 00:49:30.480
<v Speaker 1>your daily conversation, if you interact with anyone or talk

829
00:49:30.519 --> 00:49:33.880
<v Speaker 1>to anyone, and if it ever pops up, who is

830
00:49:33.920 --> 00:49:35.760
<v Speaker 1>more judgmental of the other.

831
00:49:36.840 --> 00:49:38.199
<v Speaker 2>The religious for sure?

832
00:49:38.519 --> 00:49:38.840
<v Speaker 1>Really?

833
00:49:39.199 --> 00:49:46.119
<v Speaker 2>Really, yes, yeah, there are much more. When everyone turned

834
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<v Speaker 2>against me, it was only the religious people, and I

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<v Speaker 2>went through this really really difficult time where my husband

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<v Speaker 2>ended up in prison, and the only people that show

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<v Speaker 2>no grace, no kindness was a religious people, And the

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<v Speaker 2>only people that reached out to me. Happened to be

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<v Speaker 2>adult workers that said, hey, are you okay? How are

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<v Speaker 2>you doing? And I you know that that hurt me.

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<v Speaker 2>But do I hate the religious people? Know? Because my

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<v Speaker 2>journey is I used to be one until I crossed

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<v Speaker 2>over and became an adult worker, and that's when I

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<v Speaker 2>learned to love people where they're at. And so also

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<v Speaker 2>my story is being a Christian and being also a

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<v Speaker 2>porn star. I realized, wow, now I'm learning to love

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<v Speaker 2>like Christ. He loves people where they're at. But before

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<v Speaker 2>I was an adult worker, I was one of those

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<v Speaker 2>religious people. And I feel like people are scared and

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<v Speaker 2>they judge when they don't know, and so I cannot.

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<v Speaker 2>For a while, I got angry, but I have to

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<v Speaker 2>remind myself I was one of them one time, and

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<v Speaker 2>so I need to show grace because they just don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>Christy Love my guest for the evening. You know exactly

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<v Speaker 1>where you can find her at CLCA six'. Nine her new,

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<v Speaker 1>podcast In bed With Christy love is available now on

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<v Speaker 1>YouTube and anywhere you get. Podcasts links to everything are

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<v Speaker 1>in the episode, description social media all the other fun.

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<v Speaker 1>Stuff head down there and check it. Out, christy thank

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<v Speaker 1>you so much for talking with me. Today it's such a.

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<v Speaker 1>Pleasure it was a pleasure to talk to you AND

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<v Speaker 1>i wish you nothing but success going.

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<v Speaker 2>Forward okay you Say. Lettie