1 00:00:15,599 --> 00:00:17,719 Speaker 1: Christy Love my guest for the evening. You know exactly 2 00:00:17,760 --> 00:00:21,640 where you can find her at CLCA sixty nine. Her 3 00:00:21,640 --> 00:00:24,760 new podcast, in Bed with Christy Love is available now 4 00:00:24,800 --> 00:00:28,079 on YouTube and anywhere you get podcasts. Links to all 5 00:00:28,079 --> 00:00:30,480 of our social media in the episode description below. At 6 00:00:30,480 --> 00:00:34,280 the bare minimum, folks follow these performers. It really helps 7 00:00:34,320 --> 00:00:36,840 them out. And then when payday rolls around, boom, you 8 00:00:36,880 --> 00:00:39,359 sign up for the good stuff. Also make sure you 9 00:00:39,479 --> 00:00:42,960 like subscribe this and that. Christy. After a quick misstep 10 00:00:43,000 --> 00:00:46,799 on my part, I want to apologize for that. Thank 11 00:00:46,799 --> 00:00:48,359 you so much for coming on with me tonight. 12 00:00:48,960 --> 00:00:50,880 Speaker 2: Yes, thank you. It's such a pleasure. 13 00:00:51,560 --> 00:00:53,960 Speaker 1: So first question, with all that you do, if you 14 00:00:54,079 --> 00:00:56,479 had to sum it up, what do you consider your 15 00:00:56,600 --> 00:00:59,960 job title to be, Because it's a lot yes. 16 00:01:00,439 --> 00:01:02,840 Speaker 2: Pastor, porn star and stand up comedian. 17 00:01:04,040 --> 00:01:07,159 Speaker 1: That is quite an eclectic mix, I believe. 18 00:01:07,200 --> 00:01:10,120 Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, it's crazy. 19 00:01:11,200 --> 00:01:15,400 Speaker 1: Well, talk me through then maybe let me try and 20 00:01:15,560 --> 00:01:18,280 organize this in my mind. Talk me through how you 21 00:01:18,879 --> 00:01:22,280 got the title comedian first, and then I'd like to 22 00:01:22,280 --> 00:01:25,200 talk about how you got the title porn star first, 23 00:01:25,519 --> 00:01:27,599 and then later on in the episode we'll get to 24 00:01:28,239 --> 00:01:31,159 how you got the title pastor. So, how do you 25 00:01:31,239 --> 00:01:34,079 consider yourself a comedian? Why do you consider yourself a comedian? 26 00:01:34,120 --> 00:01:35,280 What kind of comedian? 27 00:01:35,719 --> 00:01:40,400 Speaker 2: M hmm, that's a great question. Well, I have gone 28 00:01:40,439 --> 00:01:44,920 through so much pain and agony and trauma, so I 29 00:01:44,959 --> 00:01:49,359 figure it's cheaper to go do comedy then spend money 30 00:01:49,359 --> 00:01:56,439 on therapy. So with all the trials and trivilations that 31 00:01:56,480 --> 00:02:00,159 have gone through, I guess in the last do you 32 00:02:00,359 --> 00:02:03,120 have just pursued full I'm not full time, but just 33 00:02:03,239 --> 00:02:07,640 pursued it. And I tried to do comedy a couple 34 00:02:07,719 --> 00:02:11,520 times a week, whether it's performing or open mic. 35 00:02:12,800 --> 00:02:17,240 Speaker 1: Now, okay, that's fascinating because I read comedian there and 36 00:02:17,280 --> 00:02:19,719 I was like, okay, to what extent? So you're actually 37 00:02:19,719 --> 00:02:22,439 going on stage in terms of this, You're not just 38 00:02:22,479 --> 00:02:24,879 like a girl who's funny with your other girlfriends. You're like, 39 00:02:24,919 --> 00:02:28,039 I'm a comedian. No, you are really doing comedy. 40 00:02:28,680 --> 00:02:34,039 Speaker 2: Yes, yeah, yeah, I have done some really cool stuff. 41 00:02:34,639 --> 00:02:37,080 I at least perform or get booked a few times 42 00:02:37,120 --> 00:02:39,479 a month, and I'm still brand news, so it's not 43 00:02:39,520 --> 00:02:42,199 as much as I would like. But I have a 44 00:02:42,240 --> 00:02:46,560 comedy coach that I do coaching like once a week 45 00:02:46,680 --> 00:02:49,599 and it's just so much fun. I in general, I 46 00:02:49,759 --> 00:02:52,719 love to perform, So being a pastor, a porn star, 47 00:02:52,840 --> 00:02:56,159 and standup comedian, we're all performing on stage all the time. 48 00:02:56,719 --> 00:02:58,599 Speaker 1: You know, if we had to sum it up into 49 00:02:58,599 --> 00:03:00,680 one word, maybe that's what you or you are just 50 00:03:00,719 --> 00:03:04,919 a performer like Y give you, give you a medium 51 00:03:05,080 --> 00:03:07,599 or something to tackle. And it sounds like Christy's gonna 52 00:03:07,800 --> 00:03:10,560 jump into that and learn it and if you show 53 00:03:10,599 --> 00:03:11,639 interest in it, right. 54 00:03:12,120 --> 00:03:14,520 Speaker 2: Yes, yes, absolutely, Okay, all. 55 00:03:14,560 --> 00:03:18,479 Speaker 1: Right, So then the big question is how did you 56 00:03:18,560 --> 00:03:22,000 initially get into the adult entertainment industry. What was your 57 00:03:22,240 --> 00:03:28,120 crossover from vanilla life into this world and was it positive? 58 00:03:28,400 --> 00:03:28,719 Speaker 2: Was it? 59 00:03:28,879 --> 00:03:30,400 Speaker 1: And I don't want you to harp on it if 60 00:03:30,400 --> 00:03:32,599 it's negative, like I don't want to come at you 61 00:03:32,639 --> 00:03:34,879 about it, But what was your trip into this? 62 00:03:36,000 --> 00:03:41,960 Speaker 2: Yeah? Actually it's so hard to say without talking about 63 00:03:41,960 --> 00:03:47,120 my faith because the order is pastor, born star and comedian. 64 00:03:47,560 --> 00:03:51,560 But just to the honest truth, I was planning, church 65 00:03:51,560 --> 00:03:54,879 planning and church Flanny wasn't making money. So I went 66 00:03:54,919 --> 00:03:58,840 on Crank's list and I was scrolling through when I 67 00:03:58,879 --> 00:04:00,879 found an ad that's it, hey work at home and 68 00:04:00,960 --> 00:04:03,479 make some good money. I was like click what is 69 00:04:03,520 --> 00:04:07,439 this about? And I was like, what is this? And 70 00:04:07,759 --> 00:04:11,360 I remember just looking around this website and I was like, what, 71 00:04:12,080 --> 00:04:16,680 There's all these women that are in lingerie or they're naked, 72 00:04:17,399 --> 00:04:19,040 and I'm like, I don't know if I want to 73 00:04:19,040 --> 00:04:21,800 do this. But at the time, it was so desperate, 74 00:04:22,279 --> 00:04:25,319 and you know, financially, when you're in a position of desperation, 75 00:04:26,000 --> 00:04:30,040 you know what you got to do. And so I 76 00:04:30,600 --> 00:04:34,439 that was, I would say, my gateway to the adult industry. 77 00:04:34,839 --> 00:04:40,720 And then eventually it's so hard to talk about it 78 00:04:41,079 --> 00:04:46,319 without the faith, but I got caught trying to you know, 79 00:04:46,399 --> 00:04:50,160 church plant at the same time and also webcamming. So 80 00:04:50,240 --> 00:04:56,079 I shut down the church and then continued to get 81 00:04:56,120 --> 00:04:59,680 into webcamming because hey, I still had to pay for 82 00:04:59,720 --> 00:05:02,680 the room for a head, you know. And then from 83 00:05:02,720 --> 00:05:05,839 there I just told my husband. I was like, hey, babe, 84 00:05:05,879 --> 00:05:07,680 what do you think I want to get into full 85 00:05:07,680 --> 00:05:12,120 time porn. We're not We're not in ministry anymore. And 86 00:05:12,639 --> 00:05:14,720 at the time, you know, we had it pretty we 87 00:05:14,800 --> 00:05:18,160 had a kinky relationship, and so I was like, what 88 00:05:18,160 --> 00:05:20,759 do you think about being getting to full time porn 89 00:05:20,800 --> 00:05:24,160 actually going into it, not just webcamming and that's kind 90 00:05:24,160 --> 00:05:27,600 of the gateway, you know, of me. Like he was like, 91 00:05:27,639 --> 00:05:30,480 whatever you want to do, I support you. So I 92 00:05:30,519 --> 00:05:32,120 was folding my d and I was like, yeah, I 93 00:05:32,240 --> 00:05:33,040 do want to do this. 94 00:05:33,040 --> 00:05:36,920 Speaker 1: This looks fun, this is this is again, this is 95 00:05:36,959 --> 00:05:40,360 a completely judgment free zone. My my rule is my 96 00:05:40,519 --> 00:05:42,279 rule is just don't be in a room with a 97 00:05:42,319 --> 00:05:45,720 dog and you're good, okay. But but I have to 98 00:05:45,759 --> 00:05:49,279 say this, doesn't it seem a bit drastic or a 99 00:05:49,319 --> 00:05:53,800 bit real bot not like like polar shifting, Like wasn't 100 00:05:54,000 --> 00:05:57,759 dairy queen hiring for managers maybe? Or like hot I 101 00:05:57,759 --> 00:05:59,560 guess hot topic would probably put you in the same 102 00:05:59,639 --> 00:06:03,000 kind of trouble. But it seems so drastic to go 103 00:06:03,279 --> 00:06:05,920 church to I'm gonna do some kind of porn. 104 00:06:07,240 --> 00:06:10,199 Speaker 2: Yeah, I know, that's a great question. So the reason 105 00:06:10,279 --> 00:06:14,120 why I didn't go through that route, even though my 106 00:06:14,279 --> 00:06:18,639 husband did, is because, I mean, we were so broke 107 00:06:18,720 --> 00:06:21,639 at the time that our parents were paying. Let me 108 00:06:21,759 --> 00:06:24,399 just explain how broke we were. His parents are paying 109 00:06:24,399 --> 00:06:28,079 for a rent one one month, mine was another month, 110 00:06:28,399 --> 00:06:30,959 and we're still trying to run this church. We could 111 00:06:30,959 --> 00:06:33,879 not afford anything. They would even help out with groceries. 112 00:06:34,319 --> 00:06:37,839 And so I could go through the process of trying 113 00:06:37,879 --> 00:06:41,680 to be you know, we're at a grocery store or 114 00:06:41,959 --> 00:06:46,480 you know, whatever other jobs are there. But the process 115 00:06:46,600 --> 00:06:49,399 to go through that is you have to apply, you 116 00:06:49,439 --> 00:06:53,560 wait until they call you. You then have to do 117 00:06:53,639 --> 00:06:56,920 an interview, and when you do, you're competing against all 118 00:06:56,959 --> 00:06:59,519 these people. Then you wait until they call you back 119 00:06:59,519 --> 00:07:01,519 to see if you made it in the finals, and 120 00:07:01,560 --> 00:07:04,000 then you just hope and pray that you just get booked. 121 00:07:04,360 --> 00:07:07,519 You usually don't go through the process of hey, I 122 00:07:07,560 --> 00:07:10,680 need a job, like right now, because if I don't 123 00:07:10,680 --> 00:07:13,839 get a job right now, then my parents are gonna 124 00:07:13,839 --> 00:07:16,959 have to pay for another month. So I need something now. 125 00:07:17,560 --> 00:07:21,639 So well, Kim, provided I need a job right now, Okay, 126 00:07:21,720 --> 00:07:23,879 just fill out this form, give me a couple hours 127 00:07:23,879 --> 00:07:26,199 to verify you're eighteen and over, and boom you can 128 00:07:26,279 --> 00:07:29,959 start working. Yes, great deal, all right. 129 00:07:29,839 --> 00:07:32,639 Speaker 1: So it was it was immediate then, But let me ask, 130 00:07:32,800 --> 00:07:36,560 Let me ask this was there. Maybe you said your 131 00:07:36,560 --> 00:07:38,680 relationship you had, you know, you had been a little 132 00:07:39,040 --> 00:07:41,079 you know, I don't know what term you used. I 133 00:07:41,120 --> 00:07:43,439 don't want to say freaky if that's not what you said. 134 00:07:43,240 --> 00:07:43,399 Speaker 2: But. 135 00:07:45,079 --> 00:07:50,040 Speaker 1: Non conventional. Let's say, let's put it that way. Did that? 136 00:07:50,240 --> 00:07:52,600 And I know there's so many different branches and everything else, 137 00:07:52,639 --> 00:07:56,560 But was this always a little bit in you, like 138 00:07:56,839 --> 00:07:59,319 maybe like, yes, you have your religious side and you 139 00:07:59,360 --> 00:08:01,920 believe in that and it's strong with you, but maybe 140 00:08:01,920 --> 00:08:03,759 there's a little part where you're like, I am a 141 00:08:03,879 --> 00:08:06,920 little hyper sexual and when this comes along, yes, I 142 00:08:06,920 --> 00:08:09,000 can wait for the process over here and this and that, 143 00:08:09,480 --> 00:08:12,360 this is pretty immediate. I can do this right now, 144 00:08:12,399 --> 00:08:15,000 and I really don't mind doing it. Was that ever 145 00:08:15,040 --> 00:08:16,439 a consideration for you that. 146 00:08:18,319 --> 00:08:21,199 Speaker 2: To be honestly truthful, No, I was not even a 147 00:08:21,279 --> 00:08:22,800 kinky kind of person at all. 148 00:08:22,959 --> 00:08:23,360 Speaker 1: Wow. 149 00:08:24,519 --> 00:08:28,240 Speaker 2: What opened that side of me was actually webcamming and 150 00:08:28,879 --> 00:08:34,279 the possibilities and all that stuff. So backtrack, I was, 151 00:08:34,519 --> 00:08:38,120 you know, I was molested and raped, you know, as 152 00:08:38,440 --> 00:08:43,720 in my child and adolescents, and so every time I 153 00:08:43,759 --> 00:08:47,639 had any type of sexual interaction in my mind, I 154 00:08:47,759 --> 00:08:52,240 correlated that with pain, and so I wish I could say, 155 00:08:52,240 --> 00:08:54,320 oh my god, I was just like this franky person. 156 00:08:54,399 --> 00:08:57,440 But the truth is, my story is completely different. I 157 00:08:57,480 --> 00:09:02,240 started webcamming, and you know, I did so well because 158 00:09:02,240 --> 00:09:04,639 people saw how innocent I was. They were like, oh 159 00:09:04,720 --> 00:09:07,120 my god, this girl is like, she doesn't even know 160 00:09:07,120 --> 00:09:10,039 what anything is, and that was so hot for all 161 00:09:10,039 --> 00:09:13,320 these men seeing like this girl next door she doesn't 162 00:09:13,320 --> 00:09:15,919 know what she's doing. So I did really well as 163 00:09:15,919 --> 00:09:18,360 a webcam model, but I started to see a shift 164 00:09:18,399 --> 00:09:22,080 go go plummet down and I ended up having like 165 00:09:22,120 --> 00:09:25,360 a webcam mentor and she's like, you need to learn 166 00:09:25,440 --> 00:09:30,080 to actually be authentically horny, and I was like, I 167 00:09:30,080 --> 00:09:32,559 didn't know how to correlate, how to be that. I 168 00:09:32,600 --> 00:09:35,559 was just acting all the time because I did not 169 00:09:35,919 --> 00:09:39,039 enjoy it at all. I was just doing it for 170 00:09:39,080 --> 00:09:44,039 the money at the time. And when I started discovering like, okay, 171 00:09:44,120 --> 00:09:46,759 I had to learn to enjoy myself and my own body. 172 00:09:47,200 --> 00:09:51,000 And when I started doing that, I started really enjoying 173 00:09:51,000 --> 00:09:54,600 myself and then my husband, and then that open doors 174 00:09:54,639 --> 00:09:57,960 of like kind of being a little bit more explorative, 175 00:09:58,080 --> 00:10:02,919 you know, unconventional. So people say, oh, webcamming or you know, 176 00:10:03,000 --> 00:10:06,000 don't work destroys people, and my story is like no, 177 00:10:06,080 --> 00:10:09,639 it actually was so healing and it was very healthy 178 00:10:09,720 --> 00:10:13,639 for me because it liberated all the past traumas that 179 00:10:13,799 --> 00:10:18,639 I went through and shifted my mindsets to from being 180 00:10:18,799 --> 00:10:22,240 this is painful, this is bad, and even religious, and 181 00:10:22,279 --> 00:10:25,559 you know, religion tells you it's so bad, you're sinful, 182 00:10:25,679 --> 00:10:29,440 You're it's like the preach like it's an unforgivable sin. 183 00:10:29,480 --> 00:10:32,919 If you are in this industry, you're lost your salvation. 184 00:10:33,240 --> 00:10:36,919 You know, it's like that's how they preach. And and 185 00:10:37,000 --> 00:10:39,320 I realized, you know what it did the opposite for me. 186 00:10:39,799 --> 00:10:42,559 It healed me. It healed me of my trauma. It 187 00:10:42,960 --> 00:10:45,639 healed my relationship with my husband. So many men are 188 00:10:45,679 --> 00:10:48,799 out there cheating on their wives, and I'm sorry to say, 189 00:10:48,840 --> 00:10:54,080 because their wives are not, you know, being as sexual 190 00:10:54,080 --> 00:10:57,159 as they should be. So of course a human being, 191 00:10:57,200 --> 00:11:00,679 a human man is a horn like born horny. And 192 00:11:00,720 --> 00:11:03,720 so they go out and they they need release some 193 00:11:03,879 --> 00:11:08,240 other way if they're not being taken care of at home. 194 00:11:08,279 --> 00:11:10,159 And I know that's gonna piss off a whole bunch 195 00:11:10,159 --> 00:11:12,600 of women. But I talked to a whole bunch of 196 00:11:12,960 --> 00:11:15,039 cheating men, and a lot of them say, hey, I 197 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:18,799 love my wives, but you know, after they had a baby, 198 00:11:18,879 --> 00:11:22,519 she just she just stopped and he needed an outlet. 199 00:11:23,200 --> 00:11:27,240 And so for me, I just felt like for my marriage, 200 00:11:27,399 --> 00:11:31,720 it has we have so much trust. We It healed 201 00:11:31,720 --> 00:11:34,919 me you know, we have so much love, our our 202 00:11:34,919 --> 00:11:41,279 intimate life is so freaking amazing, you know, And uh, 203 00:11:41,440 --> 00:11:43,279 I just I feel like for me it was overall 204 00:11:43,320 --> 00:11:46,919 a healing thing. Now, what do I say everyone should 205 00:11:46,960 --> 00:11:50,480 go through the adult industry. It's so healthy. I do 206 00:11:50,519 --> 00:11:54,600 see a damaging part of it, And I believe that's 207 00:11:54,639 --> 00:11:58,720 where people's journey and their own conviction everyone walks through 208 00:11:59,200 --> 00:12:03,639 out how they should live. Right, Like some people they 209 00:12:03,679 --> 00:12:07,000 shouldn't drink alcohol because they're addictive to they have an 210 00:12:07,000 --> 00:12:11,200 addictive personality. There's people out there who can drink a 211 00:12:11,200 --> 00:12:15,320 glass of wine and they're totally fine. So I feel 212 00:12:15,360 --> 00:12:19,840 like everyone has their own convictions and what is healthy 213 00:12:19,879 --> 00:12:22,440 for them and what is not. And I know that 214 00:12:22,639 --> 00:12:25,279 many people might look at me and be like, dude, 215 00:12:25,320 --> 00:12:28,679 I've never heard that adult or could heal someone never 216 00:12:28,720 --> 00:12:32,799 heard that story. But for my reality, that's the honest truth. 217 00:12:33,159 --> 00:12:35,080 Speaker 1: Well, you know who says that is people who've never 218 00:12:35,120 --> 00:12:37,799 done adult work. You know a lot of people tell 219 00:12:37,879 --> 00:12:41,200 you all the shame you should feel, or the anger 220 00:12:41,279 --> 00:12:43,840 you should feel, or this and that, having never walked 221 00:12:43,840 --> 00:12:47,600 in your shoes. So I would say, as long as 222 00:12:47,600 --> 00:12:50,240 it's not destructive to other people, whatever you can do 223 00:12:50,320 --> 00:12:53,440 in life to heal yourself from such trauma you had 224 00:12:53,519 --> 00:12:56,759 at some point? Doesn't that make sense? And why should 225 00:12:56,960 --> 00:12:59,600 not that you do obviously, But why should anybody in 226 00:12:59,639 --> 00:13:02,639 life worry about the judgment of other people who, at 227 00:13:02,679 --> 00:13:05,399 the end of the day, aren't the ones given the 228 00:13:05,440 --> 00:13:08,879 responsibility of make you feel happy, make you feel human again? 229 00:13:09,480 --> 00:13:09,759 Speaker 2: You know? 230 00:13:11,240 --> 00:13:17,799 Speaker 1: But but but I will say this, what piece of 231 00:13:17,840 --> 00:13:21,559 it can you give any piece of advice to any 232 00:13:21,639 --> 00:13:24,039 newer performer? I have a lot of newer performers that 233 00:13:24,080 --> 00:13:26,559 listen to the show and and check it out because 234 00:13:26,559 --> 00:13:28,399 they want to come on eventually, And this and that 235 00:13:29,000 --> 00:13:30,720 is there any advice you can give to any younger 236 00:13:30,759 --> 00:13:33,840 girls getting into it how to know if it is right? 237 00:13:34,000 --> 00:13:37,399 And again that is completely subjective to different people. But 238 00:13:37,559 --> 00:13:41,200 for you, did it click at some point? Like you said, 239 00:13:41,200 --> 00:13:43,279 you went in scared, You went in a little unsure 240 00:13:43,320 --> 00:13:46,200 of what to do, and then eventually it clicked. What 241 00:13:46,279 --> 00:13:48,159 was that? Was it a scene that you did where 242 00:13:48,159 --> 00:13:50,480 you went this just felt right? Was it something you 243 00:13:50,519 --> 00:13:53,519 did while camming where you just went that's it? 244 00:13:53,600 --> 00:13:53,960 Speaker 2: This? 245 00:13:53,960 --> 00:13:55,960 Speaker 1: This is how this is how I feel horny. Now, 246 00:13:56,000 --> 00:13:57,960 this is how I feel aroused. 247 00:13:59,200 --> 00:14:03,639 Speaker 2: Yeah, I think that if you treat this as a 248 00:14:03,679 --> 00:14:06,799 business and you don't treat it as this is something 249 00:14:06,840 --> 00:14:10,960 that is here to fulfill me, that's when it becomes 250 00:14:11,000 --> 00:14:15,240 healthy or unhealthy, just like any under entertainment or in 251 00:14:16,360 --> 00:14:20,120 any social media influencer. And what I mean by this 252 00:14:20,320 --> 00:14:24,480 is that I'm going to give an example because I 253 00:14:24,519 --> 00:14:27,039 see this also in a lot of social media influencers. 254 00:14:27,519 --> 00:14:31,320 Like there was this woman who had millions and millions 255 00:14:31,360 --> 00:14:34,200 of followers and she's so famous. She was a big 256 00:14:34,240 --> 00:14:38,200 time TikToker, and everywhere we would go, everyone would stop 257 00:14:38,240 --> 00:14:39,799 and be like, oh my god, I can't believe it's you, 258 00:14:39,960 --> 00:14:42,720 right because she was so big, but she dealt with 259 00:14:42,759 --> 00:14:46,159 a lot of mental issues and she started spiraling, spiraling 260 00:14:46,200 --> 00:14:50,559 down even further because her validation was the praise from people. 261 00:14:51,039 --> 00:14:53,799 That's what made her confident. That's what made her feel 262 00:14:55,480 --> 00:15:00,799 uh whole, Yes, yeah, whole. But see, I will say 263 00:15:00,840 --> 00:15:05,559 that is a very very bad reason to become a 264 00:15:05,559 --> 00:15:09,240 social media influencer. And the reason why is because when 265 00:15:09,279 --> 00:15:11,799 people praise you, you're like, hey, I'm on top of 266 00:15:11,840 --> 00:15:15,320 the roof. But let me tell you, when not everyone's 267 00:15:15,320 --> 00:15:17,840 gonna like you, there's gonna be people out there who 268 00:15:17,879 --> 00:15:20,879 are gonna hate you, that are gonna bash you. They're gonna, 269 00:15:21,120 --> 00:15:25,440 you know, do TikTok videos about you, and you know, 270 00:15:25,679 --> 00:15:28,840 talk crap and make up crap and try to stalk you. 271 00:15:29,320 --> 00:15:35,120 And so it brought down her mentality so low. And 272 00:15:35,200 --> 00:15:37,919 you see a lot of people that they and sometimes 273 00:15:38,000 --> 00:15:40,360 it's so bad they that they even end their life 274 00:15:40,360 --> 00:15:44,000 because they cannot handle the pressure. And so, whether you're 275 00:15:44,000 --> 00:15:50,039 an adults worker, you're a famous uh social media influencer, 276 00:15:50,399 --> 00:15:55,320 if your motive is for let me fulfill myself, let 277 00:15:55,360 --> 00:16:01,279 me fill my whole, then whether your reason is the 278 00:16:01,360 --> 00:16:05,240 affirmation of people, whether it's money, whatever it is, is 279 00:16:05,320 --> 00:16:09,120 going to control you and will be pretty much your god. 280 00:16:09,440 --> 00:16:12,159 But if you look at as this my motive is, 281 00:16:12,360 --> 00:16:15,600 this is my business, You're going to look beyond like 282 00:16:15,720 --> 00:16:18,720 how can I impact other people's lives out whether I'm 283 00:16:18,759 --> 00:16:23,600 gonna My perspective is that if people talk crap about you, 284 00:16:23,799 --> 00:16:25,679 it's not going to affect you. If people praise you, 285 00:16:25,759 --> 00:16:28,279 it's not gonna affect you. If money comes in, it's 286 00:16:28,320 --> 00:16:32,200 not gonna affect you. If money comes is a low season, 287 00:16:32,200 --> 00:16:34,960 it's not gonna affect you. Because your your motive is 288 00:16:35,000 --> 00:16:38,759 not about those things that are kind of controlling your life. 289 00:16:38,759 --> 00:16:40,120 I don't know if I'm making sense. 290 00:16:40,399 --> 00:16:42,480 Speaker 1: That makes total That makes total sense to me. I've 291 00:16:42,480 --> 00:16:45,120 been playing around with this stupid analogy in my head 292 00:16:45,440 --> 00:16:47,279 and I couldn't figure out if it made sense or not. 293 00:16:47,600 --> 00:16:50,519 It's like when you if you drive one hundred miles 294 00:16:50,559 --> 00:16:54,039 an hour, Okay, there's an exhilaration and joy, you know, 295 00:16:54,600 --> 00:16:57,960 but that can't be your only joy and exhilaration in life. 296 00:16:58,000 --> 00:16:59,720 Because you got to turn off the highway at some 297 00:16:59,759 --> 00:17:02,960 point point right, you have to go a residential road. 298 00:17:02,960 --> 00:17:05,799 You're gonna have to drive twenty five. So make it 299 00:17:05,960 --> 00:17:09,400 so you just enjoy the act of driving. If you're 300 00:17:09,440 --> 00:17:11,759 able to make it so, you enjoy it. In this analogy, 301 00:17:12,240 --> 00:17:14,279 enjoy the act of driving, and when it hits one hundred, 302 00:17:14,440 --> 00:17:17,079 you can go, this is very nice. And when you're 303 00:17:17,119 --> 00:17:19,839 doing twenty five, you go, this is nice too. I 304 00:17:19,960 --> 00:17:22,680 enjoy this. That was kind of the analogy I was 305 00:17:22,680 --> 00:17:26,440 putting together. If if you base your life on stats, 306 00:17:26,599 --> 00:17:29,440 or on achievements, or on this and that, rather than 307 00:17:29,599 --> 00:17:33,119 just putting in the work you feel like you are 308 00:17:33,200 --> 00:17:36,279 capable of putting in, it can really only end. Bad 309 00:17:36,480 --> 00:17:39,640 stats stop. At some point people drop off. You are 310 00:17:39,720 --> 00:17:43,200 old not you somebody. You are old news at some point, 311 00:17:43,359 --> 00:17:46,400 so you're gonna have to either reinvent or accept your 312 00:17:46,400 --> 00:17:50,240 new position in this next tier down. I hate to 313 00:17:50,240 --> 00:17:51,640 say that, I don't mean it like that. 314 00:17:51,599 --> 00:17:55,400 Speaker 2: But right it's really yeah, yeah. And so I would 315 00:17:55,480 --> 00:17:58,839 say to any new person, and even every new person 316 00:17:58,880 --> 00:18:00,880 that comes up to me that says should I go 317 00:18:00,920 --> 00:18:03,240 into it or not? I always say, what is your motive? 318 00:18:03,599 --> 00:18:06,559 And make sure your motive is not is beyond yourself. 319 00:18:06,920 --> 00:18:09,720 So when it comes to business, it's like, my motive 320 00:18:09,720 --> 00:18:12,000 in general is like how can I impact at least 321 00:18:12,079 --> 00:18:15,000 one person a day? And so like right now as 322 00:18:15,119 --> 00:18:18,599 an entrepreneur, as a businesswoman, I'm like, I'm trying to 323 00:18:18,640 --> 00:18:22,119 make money, and my goal is I want me hopefully 324 00:18:22,160 --> 00:18:24,640 this year that I want to be able to have 325 00:18:24,880 --> 00:18:29,519 one time, full employee where she you know, I can pay, 326 00:18:29,920 --> 00:18:32,039 I'm able to help her pay for the roof over 327 00:18:32,079 --> 00:18:35,799 her head, live a comfortable life. She's she's spoken to 328 00:18:35,839 --> 00:18:38,000 me that she hopes to one day go back to college, 329 00:18:38,359 --> 00:18:40,519 and I'm like, I got to work my plucking ass 330 00:18:40,559 --> 00:18:42,759 off so that not only for me, but I can 331 00:18:42,759 --> 00:18:45,400 be a blessing to her and her life and her future, 332 00:18:45,920 --> 00:18:49,799 and so in everything we do, if your mindset is 333 00:18:50,079 --> 00:18:52,400 what can I do for others with what I got? 334 00:18:52,519 --> 00:18:56,000 Even in my fame, I'm like, Okay, I want to 335 00:18:56,000 --> 00:18:59,680 today maybe go on live and hopefully speak some word 336 00:18:59,720 --> 00:19:02,599 of encouragement to someone. And it's like, Lord, if you're 337 00:19:02,640 --> 00:19:05,880 gonna elevate me, elevate me so I can impact more 338 00:19:05,880 --> 00:19:09,359 people's lives. And if I have that mindset, it doesn't 339 00:19:09,400 --> 00:19:12,920 matter who hates me, who loves me, how much money 340 00:19:12,920 --> 00:19:15,400 comes in, how much money you know. Obviously, yeah we 341 00:19:15,440 --> 00:19:18,799 do get affected at times, but I make sure that 342 00:19:19,160 --> 00:19:21,640 my motive. If I as long as I focus on 343 00:19:21,680 --> 00:19:24,720 my motive and my reason, I can stay strong. I 344 00:19:24,759 --> 00:19:28,839 could keep persevering and I can keep running after and 345 00:19:28,960 --> 00:19:31,519 I want to feel like giving up or being drained. 346 00:19:32,519 --> 00:19:34,559 Speaker 1: And that's what we have to fight every day, is 347 00:19:34,839 --> 00:19:37,000 by That's what I fight every day, is am I 348 00:19:37,039 --> 00:19:39,480 too drained to do this? And you have to go No, 349 00:19:39,759 --> 00:19:43,519 I'm not physically drained. Mentally, I can push myself into 350 00:19:43,519 --> 00:19:45,720 it and figure out and then you start doing it 351 00:19:45,759 --> 00:19:47,559 and you feel joy. You go, this is what I 352 00:19:47,599 --> 00:19:49,359 want it to do. I'm glad I push myself to 353 00:19:49,400 --> 00:19:52,279 do this. Let's talk about your podcast, in Bed with 354 00:19:52,400 --> 00:19:56,519 Christy Love, available on YouTube and everywhere else. Right, if 355 00:19:56,599 --> 00:19:59,839 you watch this episode, I'll say and leave a comment 356 00:20:00,039 --> 00:20:02,880 everything else, head on over and subscribe. A lot of 357 00:20:02,880 --> 00:20:06,720 people are starting podcasts. I started a podcast late. I 358 00:20:06,759 --> 00:20:09,200 started covid is what we started with this, and I 359 00:20:09,240 --> 00:20:11,480 originally had a co host and I decided to keep going. 360 00:20:11,599 --> 00:20:16,440 But I've wanted to do podcasting since Joe Rogan episode 361 00:20:16,519 --> 00:20:20,599 number thirty eight. He's on episode almost twenty five hundred now, 362 00:20:20,680 --> 00:20:23,240 and back then I went, my friends are funny enough, 363 00:20:23,319 --> 00:20:26,759 I can do this, and we never did. So let 364 00:20:26,799 --> 00:20:30,079 me ask you, with everybody starting podcast now, what is 365 00:20:30,200 --> 00:20:33,640 going to set yours apart? What are you bringing to 366 00:20:33,920 --> 00:20:35,839 You're bringing Christy Love to it, which is a huge 367 00:20:35,839 --> 00:20:38,440 bump right off the bat because you're an amazing person 368 00:20:38,480 --> 00:20:41,920 with amazing stories. But are you doing what is the 369 00:20:41,960 --> 00:20:45,240 mission of this podcast? What is your hope? Is it 370 00:20:45,359 --> 00:20:47,920 kind of what you said there, to spread knowledge? Is 371 00:20:47,960 --> 00:20:50,960 it to express yourself on a daily basis? Are you 372 00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:55,799 tackling like done daily news type topics? What is in 373 00:20:55,839 --> 00:20:58,759 Bed with Christy Love going to be to show. 374 00:20:58,599 --> 00:21:06,279 Speaker 2: People that we're human and I have been judged a lot, 375 00:21:07,079 --> 00:21:10,039 and so I am giving out my story and I 376 00:21:11,279 --> 00:21:15,119 am also interviewing very many people, a lot of people 377 00:21:15,200 --> 00:21:20,599 from adult you know, sex workers to comedians to politicians 378 00:21:20,680 --> 00:21:27,319 to actors, and I want people to see these people 379 00:21:28,440 --> 00:21:33,599 and know that they're human side. It's kind of like 380 00:21:33,680 --> 00:21:37,680 I love this show The Boys like Warfront. It's like, 381 00:21:37,720 --> 00:21:41,160 you see these superheroes, You're like, oh my god, Homelander 382 00:21:41,279 --> 00:21:45,000 is so amazing, but then when you watch this show, 383 00:21:45,039 --> 00:21:52,240 you're like, oh, this man is a wacko. There's something 384 00:21:52,319 --> 00:21:55,039 behind him. But not just saying that, but in the 385 00:21:55,279 --> 00:21:58,000 I love that show because there shows the humanity of 386 00:21:58,039 --> 00:22:01,319 these superheroes. And for me, I'm doing it in the 387 00:22:01,359 --> 00:22:05,000 most you know, obviously uplifting light, not showing the negative 388 00:22:05,039 --> 00:22:08,079 side of people. But I want people to say, hey, 389 00:22:08,559 --> 00:22:10,960 we can look at someone and we can see them 390 00:22:11,079 --> 00:22:15,640 two sides of the story, but let me dig deeper 391 00:22:15,720 --> 00:22:18,279 into the real story of who they are. And so 392 00:22:18,440 --> 00:22:22,920 for example, I remember I was in ABNS and my 393 00:22:24,240 --> 00:22:28,720 makeup artist told me the story that she was doing 394 00:22:28,880 --> 00:22:32,480 this Talents makeup and all of a sudden, she took 395 00:22:32,519 --> 00:22:36,119 off her wig, and my makeup artist was done like whoa, 396 00:22:36,200 --> 00:22:41,880 you're completely bald, Like what the heck? And then she 397 00:22:42,519 --> 00:22:45,519 uh the talent goes up to her and says, yeah, 398 00:22:45,559 --> 00:22:49,440 I do porn to pay off my leukemia treatments. And 399 00:22:49,519 --> 00:22:52,680 so that hit me so hard. And after she told 400 00:22:52,680 --> 00:22:55,799 me that story, I mean it dug deep because I 401 00:22:55,839 --> 00:22:59,839 knew how many people judge people and they only know 402 00:23:00,119 --> 00:23:04,039 one side of the story. But if they heard the humanity, 403 00:23:04,079 --> 00:23:07,000 if they heard the other side of the story, maybe 404 00:23:07,039 --> 00:23:09,359 we could have a little bit more grace on people 405 00:23:09,759 --> 00:23:14,039 instead of instantly judge and hate people. And so pretty 406 00:23:14,119 --> 00:23:17,240 much that's what my podcast is about. You hear my 407 00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:20,920 story and my humanity side and the struggles I've had 408 00:23:20,920 --> 00:23:24,680 to go through. And I am humbled in privileged to 409 00:23:24,720 --> 00:23:29,839 be able to bring out stories of people who are 410 00:23:29,960 --> 00:23:33,759 famous or people who have been judged. And I want 411 00:23:33,799 --> 00:23:36,960 to show you here's another side of this story. 412 00:23:37,279 --> 00:23:40,720 Speaker 1: Dubs and beautiful answer. Can I ask you a question 413 00:23:40,960 --> 00:23:44,559 and you don't have to give any information? Is and 414 00:23:44,640 --> 00:23:50,279 this is was that person an Asian porn star? Yes, 415 00:23:50,759 --> 00:23:52,759 I think I know who you're talking about, because I 416 00:23:52,759 --> 00:23:54,799 think I saw some scenes where the wig came off. 417 00:23:54,920 --> 00:23:57,000 I did not know. Maybe I don't know. I ask 418 00:23:57,119 --> 00:24:01,079 after the show, but I did not know that. But 419 00:24:01,559 --> 00:24:04,799 if so, that makes me have so much even more respect, 420 00:24:04,839 --> 00:24:06,920 Like I respected this person as a performer, and to 421 00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:11,559 hear that that's one that's very strong and powerful. It's 422 00:24:11,559 --> 00:24:14,920 also very sad, you know, in society at least. 423 00:24:14,799 --> 00:24:17,920 Speaker 2: You know, yeah, yeah, you know. 424 00:24:19,400 --> 00:24:22,160 Speaker 1: All right, let's talk real quick about the content. I'm 425 00:24:22,160 --> 00:24:24,440 sorry to go from something so serious into this, but 426 00:24:26,839 --> 00:24:28,599 I do a thing called stat check on here. We 427 00:24:28,720 --> 00:24:32,400 use the Internet Adult Film Database. It is inaccurate, it 428 00:24:32,480 --> 00:24:35,359 doesn't include all of your stuff. It's gonna be wrong, 429 00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:38,319 but it's a nice little benchmark where we can go. 430 00:24:38,680 --> 00:24:41,759 We recorded it on this day, and these were how 431 00:24:41,759 --> 00:24:43,599 many scenes he had done and how many people he 432 00:24:43,640 --> 00:24:45,200 had worked with in this and that at the time. 433 00:24:45,279 --> 00:24:49,559 So for scenes, I have one hundred and ninety. For 434 00:24:49,799 --> 00:24:53,759 male talent, you've worked with eighty seven. For female talent, 435 00:24:53,799 --> 00:24:57,400 you've worked with fifty six. I only look at AVNS 436 00:24:57,440 --> 00:25:00,559 because there's so many different award shows. But I kind 437 00:25:00,559 --> 00:25:04,359 of just like to, you know, narrow it down. Three nominations, 438 00:25:04,680 --> 00:25:10,880 no wins yet, right, correct keyword yet? Okay? I wanted 439 00:25:10,920 --> 00:25:12,559 to go through a few of your scenes. So here's 440 00:25:12,559 --> 00:25:14,359 what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna show the audience as 441 00:25:14,440 --> 00:25:17,039 much as I can, and I'm going to show you 442 00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:20,680 as my background a couple of scenes. So the first 443 00:25:20,680 --> 00:25:27,720 scene I have for you here is from Team Skeet. 444 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:32,599 This was you with Naomi Starr, Alana bloom A, Crystal Davis, 445 00:25:32,680 --> 00:25:38,599 and the incredibly lucky David Lee that day. Apparently, when 446 00:25:38,839 --> 00:25:41,519 you do a scene with multiple women and one guy, 447 00:25:42,160 --> 00:25:44,359 do you ever get bored off to the side if 448 00:25:44,359 --> 00:25:46,920 you're not tied into the action, Like I'm looking at 449 00:25:46,920 --> 00:25:48,880 this picture here and you're all in the action here, 450 00:25:48,920 --> 00:25:51,400 but at some point you're sitting at that table just 451 00:25:51,480 --> 00:25:53,720 playing checkers or whatever it is you guys are doing. 452 00:25:54,440 --> 00:25:56,799 What are you doing? If it's one of those scenes 453 00:25:56,839 --> 00:26:00,319 where I'm not directly tied in, maybe the directors not going, 454 00:26:00,519 --> 00:26:02,480 you know, hey, kiss her or mess around with her 455 00:26:02,599 --> 00:26:04,319 this and that. Do you just kind of just sit 456 00:26:04,400 --> 00:26:08,000 off there looking all beautiful naked and not doing anything. 457 00:26:09,160 --> 00:26:17,839 Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, I'm so desperately wanting to watch. That's 458 00:26:17,880 --> 00:26:22,480 the truth, because sometimes, you know, we're forced to not 459 00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:26,839 watch and act like, hey, nothing's going on. Right. I 460 00:26:26,839 --> 00:26:30,039 guess apparently that's supposed to make this scene like hotter. 461 00:26:30,880 --> 00:26:34,200 So that's what's going on in my mind. 462 00:26:34,519 --> 00:26:37,519 Speaker 1: Okay, okay, okay, I aboard it all. 463 00:26:37,559 --> 00:26:39,839 Speaker 2: I'm like, oh my god, I want to watch that. 464 00:26:42,400 --> 00:26:45,440 Speaker 1: The second clip, clip, video, screenshot, whatever you want to 465 00:26:45,480 --> 00:26:49,119 call it. I have here from you is from kink. Now. 466 00:26:50,759 --> 00:26:53,799 Did you have to be slowly talked into bondage and 467 00:26:53,880 --> 00:26:56,200 kink playing or was that something you were kind of 468 00:26:56,240 --> 00:26:58,400 excited to jump into. How did you work your way 469 00:26:58,440 --> 00:27:01,039 up to that? Because and again, and if I'm overstepping here, 470 00:27:01,079 --> 00:27:02,599 please let me know. With this stuff you said, it 471 00:27:02,640 --> 00:27:07,119 almost feels like you gained your control back through webcamming, 472 00:27:07,519 --> 00:27:10,799 but this is again another total loss of control. What 473 00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:13,319 put you in a position to be well, positions the 474 00:27:13,400 --> 00:27:15,640 wrong word to use there, But what put you in 475 00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:18,640 the spot to be able to be comfortable with then 476 00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:21,599 approaching those types of scenes and being willing to do them? 477 00:27:22,359 --> 00:27:27,880 Speaker 2: Mm hmmm. Actually webcamming really changed my mindset about everything, 478 00:27:29,680 --> 00:27:33,200 so I when it comes to bondage and all that, 479 00:27:33,400 --> 00:27:38,480 I actually my favorite fetish is BDSM And I say 480 00:27:38,599 --> 00:27:42,079 I'm a I'm a switch naturally a sub, but I 481 00:27:42,200 --> 00:27:47,000 prefer to be dominant. So being tied up and just 482 00:27:47,240 --> 00:27:52,880 fully allowing someone to take it whatever they want feels 483 00:27:52,920 --> 00:27:57,519 so freeing and refreshing for me, Like just to be like, okay, 484 00:27:57,599 --> 00:28:01,599 I'm giving everything to you, to trust that you will 485 00:28:02,440 --> 00:28:06,240 read my body well and that you will give me 486 00:28:06,359 --> 00:28:13,119 full pleasure, and just having that ability really, what can 487 00:28:13,160 --> 00:28:15,079 I say? It Just it's so freeing. 488 00:28:16,359 --> 00:28:19,640 Speaker 1: Did you did you know your limits already going into 489 00:28:19,640 --> 00:28:22,920 shooting something like that or was it a process working 490 00:28:22,960 --> 00:28:25,319 with the director saying I think I'd be comfortable with this. 491 00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:27,640 Did you have to pull back at all while doing 492 00:28:27,680 --> 00:28:29,359 any shoots? Yes? 493 00:28:29,680 --> 00:28:34,640 Speaker 2: Yeah, there was one shoot that I has traumatized me. 494 00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:43,119 Oh man, so this you know one of he was 495 00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:49,839 a like producer and the actor. He said, hey, do 496 00:28:49,920 --> 00:28:52,839 you want to do you do needle play? And I 497 00:28:52,839 --> 00:28:54,960 have never heard of needle play. I was like what 498 00:28:55,359 --> 00:28:59,720 I was like, and in my mind was stupid me. 499 00:29:00,319 --> 00:29:02,519 I didn't ask questions, but in my mind I thought 500 00:29:02,519 --> 00:29:06,559 it was like occupuncture, and I thought, oh, you know, 501 00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:09,960 that sounds pretty cool, you know, like I'm thinking occupuncture 502 00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:15,160 all over my little tits and being fucked. I'm like, yeah, 503 00:29:15,279 --> 00:29:17,480 I think I would be open to that but I 504 00:29:17,519 --> 00:29:20,880 didn't ask what needle play was. I just assumed what 505 00:29:21,039 --> 00:29:24,960 it was. So he says, well, before we do it 506 00:29:25,000 --> 00:29:29,240 on camera, let's just give it a try. I'm like, okay. 507 00:29:29,799 --> 00:29:32,279 So he grabs a needle. The whole time I'm thinking 508 00:29:32,319 --> 00:29:37,000 it's occupuncture. He grabs my nipple, pulls my nipple, and 509 00:29:37,200 --> 00:29:43,799 boom right through the the Yeah, the nipple right, and 510 00:29:44,440 --> 00:29:49,279 I'm screaming because in my mind it wasn't what I 511 00:29:49,319 --> 00:29:49,920 thought it was. 512 00:29:50,480 --> 00:29:52,559 Speaker 1: In your mind, you just got stabbed in the tit. 513 00:29:52,799 --> 00:29:54,680 I mean, like, you know, if you were on the 514 00:29:54,680 --> 00:29:57,200 street and that happened, that's a felony. 515 00:29:57,559 --> 00:30:01,720 Speaker 2: Yeah, so I freak out. I said no, no, no, no, no, 516 00:30:01,759 --> 00:30:06,240 I do not like this. So apparently I didn't know 517 00:30:06,279 --> 00:30:10,880 that I was traumatized until after this scene because I 518 00:30:10,960 --> 00:30:14,119 used to love my nipples being played with. Now I 519 00:30:14,319 --> 00:30:19,759 don't touch there. I am like, I do not like 520 00:30:19,839 --> 00:30:22,640 to be touched in my nipples. It hurts every time 521 00:30:22,720 --> 00:30:26,799 someone even tries to touch it. It's very painful. And I 522 00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:31,039 realize it's from that moment I haven't traumatized, and I 523 00:30:31,079 --> 00:30:33,720 don't know to reprogram my mind. 524 00:30:33,920 --> 00:30:38,480 Speaker 1: Wow, geez oh, I couldn't even imagine that. Well, let 525 00:30:38,559 --> 00:30:40,720 me ask you the inverse of that. Was there any 526 00:30:40,839 --> 00:30:45,319 limit you set early on that you eventually not gave 527 00:30:45,359 --> 00:30:48,160 in but decided to try a little bit and you 528 00:30:48,279 --> 00:30:49,839 realized you liked it or no. 529 00:30:51,480 --> 00:30:59,039 Speaker 2: A lot. So I used to I have this rule 530 00:30:59,200 --> 00:31:03,799 that if I only do what I enjoy as a sub, 531 00:31:03,839 --> 00:31:06,359 that I will do to another sub when I'm domb 532 00:31:07,160 --> 00:31:13,160 And so I had I had these submissives who wanted 533 00:31:13,200 --> 00:31:17,640 me to verbally abuse them, and so I was like, 534 00:31:17,640 --> 00:31:20,000 you know, let me give this to try. And so 535 00:31:20,319 --> 00:31:25,559 I had these doms as a webcam model start to 536 00:31:25,799 --> 00:31:28,359 verbally abuse me. And can I just say, I used 537 00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:31,839 to be so sensitive. I will cry about everything you 538 00:31:31,880 --> 00:31:34,720 say one one thing about me, you look at me wrong, 539 00:31:34,920 --> 00:31:38,039 I will just take it so personal. I was so insecure, 540 00:31:38,839 --> 00:31:43,400 I mean really really bad until I started doing a 541 00:31:43,480 --> 00:31:49,640 verbal abuse in webcamming and shifted my mindset to taking 542 00:31:49,680 --> 00:31:54,720 things personable to getting so horny. Yeah. So it worked 543 00:31:54,720 --> 00:31:58,880 out perfectly because, as you know, time went and I 544 00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:01,799 started growing in fame, and I go back to when 545 00:32:02,039 --> 00:32:05,039 your people love you and people hate you, that when 546 00:32:05,079 --> 00:32:08,279 people hate me and they talk crap about me, write articles, 547 00:32:08,880 --> 00:32:10,559 all I do is grab my had tachi and. 548 00:32:15,359 --> 00:32:19,400 Speaker 1: I yeah, I just I'm definitely not a submissive in 549 00:32:19,440 --> 00:32:22,079 my own life or with my wife or anything. But 550 00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:26,359 I can't imagine just being mean to a woman. That's 551 00:32:26,519 --> 00:32:29,000 all the you know, I still hold doors and call 552 00:32:29,079 --> 00:32:32,079 people ma'am. I've almost called you mam on this episode. 553 00:32:32,119 --> 00:32:34,279 You're younger than me. I just want to point that out. 554 00:32:34,720 --> 00:32:38,279 But uh no, I'm glad. I'm glad you learned how 555 00:32:38,319 --> 00:32:40,720 to process that because I'm still working on it. Because 556 00:32:40,759 --> 00:32:42,640 I won't say a mean thing to want unless she 557 00:32:42,720 --> 00:32:45,039 cuts me off in traffic. Then I'm out the window 558 00:32:45,279 --> 00:32:49,519 screaming you need to learn how to drive, get off 559 00:32:49,559 --> 00:32:53,640 the road. Shit like that. The third scene I have 560 00:32:53,839 --> 00:32:59,160 for you here, now, this is a crazy one. Uh uh. 561 00:32:59,160 --> 00:33:01,880 This is a scene from Girls' Way. Now. I've been 562 00:33:01,960 --> 00:33:04,759 to water parks before, but I haven't seen anything quite 563 00:33:04,920 --> 00:33:08,160 like this. You're a full on hydrant here. From what 564 00:33:08,279 --> 00:33:11,559 I can tell, How did you did you learn how 565 00:33:11,559 --> 00:33:14,400 to squirt while you were in porn? Or was that 566 00:33:14,519 --> 00:33:16,799 something maybe you discovered in your life and then you 567 00:33:16,839 --> 00:33:18,640 were like, hey, this is a skill I can bring 568 00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:19,240 over to this. 569 00:33:20,799 --> 00:33:26,119 Speaker 2: Yeah, webcamming is my gateway. So I was on a website. 570 00:33:26,839 --> 00:33:30,480 My first webcam site was flirt for Free, and I 571 00:33:30,599 --> 00:33:35,559 noticed all the top models were squirters. And so my 572 00:33:35,680 --> 00:33:39,240 story is, I said, hey, I went into my room 573 00:33:39,319 --> 00:33:42,279 one day, my cam room, and I said, who wants 574 00:33:42,359 --> 00:33:46,039 to teach me how to squirt? And one of the 575 00:33:46,119 --> 00:33:48,880 viewers said, hey, I taught my wife how to squirt. 576 00:33:48,920 --> 00:33:52,400 I could teach you. Said right on, okay, let's do this, 577 00:33:53,240 --> 00:33:56,680 and so I just remember being in my cam room 578 00:33:56,880 --> 00:34:00,480 and everyone was like cheering me on. I was in 579 00:34:00,720 --> 00:34:05,200 anticipation and this viewer just kept guiding me what to do, 580 00:34:05,759 --> 00:34:07,640 and I was scared that I was not going to 581 00:34:07,720 --> 00:34:10,840 be able to do it. I've heard all these rumors 582 00:34:10,880 --> 00:34:13,880 not everyone can squirt. I'm like, what if I can't 583 00:34:13,920 --> 00:34:18,559 do it? So I just remember ten minutes going by, 584 00:34:18,880 --> 00:34:23,599 fifteen Eventually twenty minutes went by, and finally I did 585 00:34:23,960 --> 00:34:28,639 my first let's see, oh one footer, and the whole 586 00:34:28,719 --> 00:34:29,360 room cheered. 587 00:34:32,480 --> 00:34:34,519 Speaker 1: And now that's a skill of yours. Now you can 588 00:34:34,599 --> 00:34:37,280 replicate that skill and make it even better. Huh you're 589 00:34:37,320 --> 00:34:40,320 thrown one hundred mile an hour fastballs now? Yes? 590 00:34:40,599 --> 00:34:44,639 Speaker 2: Yes, so you know I practice. When you're a webcam model, 591 00:34:44,679 --> 00:34:49,199 you practice every day, several times a day, so I 592 00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:52,679 got really really good at squirting and I can squirt 593 00:34:52,760 --> 00:34:55,480 on command. 594 00:34:55,639 --> 00:35:00,639 Speaker 1: I'm not asking this as a uh, I'm not asking 595 00:35:00,639 --> 00:35:03,440 this as a recommendation as much as I am just 596 00:35:03,559 --> 00:35:06,960 wondering your subjective opinion. Girls that are getting into the 597 00:35:07,000 --> 00:35:09,719 industry now that just jump right on of and again 598 00:35:09,760 --> 00:35:11,400 you should have that, and you should have all your 599 00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:16,039 channels set up and everything else. Would you recommend webcamming 600 00:35:16,360 --> 00:35:19,280 at first so they can kind of get a sense 601 00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:24,599 and comfort of what people are looking for their specific look, 602 00:35:24,679 --> 00:35:27,239 what type of fetish or whatever else might you know 603 00:35:27,280 --> 00:35:29,800 be associated with that. Do you think it's a good 604 00:35:29,880 --> 00:35:33,280 like training camp for getting into more sex work later 605 00:35:33,320 --> 00:35:34,000 on down the road. 606 00:35:34,559 --> 00:35:41,960 Speaker 2: Absolutely, because it's the safest one. You aren't interacting with anybody, 607 00:35:42,639 --> 00:35:45,159 and if you don't like someone who's in your cam room, 608 00:35:45,159 --> 00:35:49,920 you can just span them and you get to choose 609 00:35:49,960 --> 00:35:54,679 your hours and you're your own boss. And so for me, 610 00:35:54,800 --> 00:35:58,320 webcamming was one of those things that help me understand 611 00:35:58,559 --> 00:36:02,400 every single fetish and I felt comfortable because I was 612 00:36:02,440 --> 00:36:07,280 in my own safe room, rather than maybe you might 613 00:36:07,320 --> 00:36:09,960 be talking to someone in person and you might get 614 00:36:10,000 --> 00:36:15,119 creepy vibes or something. Unfortunately, some bad things could happen. 615 00:36:15,639 --> 00:36:19,400 So for me, webcaming definitely helps me learn so much 616 00:36:19,559 --> 00:36:21,599 and I felt safe at the same time. 617 00:36:21,760 --> 00:36:22,679 Speaker 1: Gotcha, gotcha. 618 00:36:22,719 --> 00:36:26,880 Speaker 2: And also I feel like as a newly AF girl, 619 00:36:28,599 --> 00:36:31,960 if you don't have a fan base, you know, AF 620 00:36:32,039 --> 00:36:36,880 doesn't promote you. So this is the best way to 621 00:36:36,880 --> 00:36:41,320 be promoted because whatever site you choose will promote you 622 00:36:41,599 --> 00:36:44,920 and bring fans to you. And that's a good start 623 00:36:45,039 --> 00:36:50,199 to developing fans and also learning and making money at 624 00:36:50,239 --> 00:36:50,920 the same time. 625 00:36:51,199 --> 00:36:54,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, makes sense, makes sense, all right. I want to 626 00:36:54,920 --> 00:36:58,320 move into my part three here, so let me just 627 00:36:58,320 --> 00:37:04,480 say I went to preschool to eighth grade, Catholic school, Communion, 628 00:37:04,760 --> 00:37:07,360 all of that stuff. By the way, I didn't know 629 00:37:07,519 --> 00:37:12,360 Catholics were disliked, or I didn't know Protestants were disliked 630 00:37:12,440 --> 00:37:16,599 or Presbyterians or anything else. I just I was just like, oh, 631 00:37:16,599 --> 00:37:18,639 we all believe in Jesus. That's fine, right. 632 00:37:19,119 --> 00:37:19,320 Speaker 2: You know. 633 00:37:20,840 --> 00:37:23,519 Speaker 1: Then you know, teen years hit and I move away 634 00:37:23,599 --> 00:37:25,639 from it a little bit. You want to be the rebel, 635 00:37:25,760 --> 00:37:28,239 you want to say, oh man, I'm an atheist. This 636 00:37:28,280 --> 00:37:30,599 and that you hit later in life and you go, 637 00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:33,199 you know what, I spent a lot of time fucking 638 00:37:33,320 --> 00:37:36,559 pretending like I didn't believe in anything. And every time 639 00:37:36,599 --> 00:37:39,559 someone got into a car accident, and every time when 640 00:37:39,599 --> 00:37:44,039 my brother was in the hospital dying, I looked up 641 00:37:44,119 --> 00:37:48,639 and I said, hey, help please, you know, And and 642 00:37:49,719 --> 00:37:51,639 I hate to say this, and I will not I 643 00:37:51,639 --> 00:37:53,840 won't make this political at all. And people can have 644 00:37:53,880 --> 00:37:57,840 their own opinions and whatever it is. But and this 645 00:37:57,880 --> 00:38:00,440 will be controversial. I'm sure I don't mean it to be. 646 00:38:01,679 --> 00:38:04,599 Didn't believe political views, didn't agree with this, this and that. 647 00:38:05,199 --> 00:38:10,320 But watching Charlie Kirk get killed this year again, you 648 00:38:10,360 --> 00:38:12,679 can have your opinion about political views, this and that. 649 00:38:13,239 --> 00:38:15,840 He was a man of God. And when that happened, 650 00:38:15,920 --> 00:38:18,320 I watched that on Twitter about two hundred times that 651 00:38:18,440 --> 00:38:23,119 day and I thought to myself, I really can't go 652 00:38:23,239 --> 00:38:27,719 around thinking he's not going somewhere else after this, Like 653 00:38:27,800 --> 00:38:30,719 I really I need to hope for for him and 654 00:38:30,760 --> 00:38:33,360 for everyone else that goes through such tragedy and terrible 655 00:38:33,360 --> 00:38:36,280 things in life that it's not just lights out, you know. 656 00:38:36,639 --> 00:38:40,119 And it's always been in my head. So can I 657 00:38:40,159 --> 00:38:44,920 ask you, how what is what's your brand of Christianity? 658 00:38:45,559 --> 00:38:47,880 What would it be represented by him. What are some 659 00:38:47,960 --> 00:38:51,719 of the core, most important morals of it? Because Catholic's 660 00:38:51,719 --> 00:38:54,159 got all kinds of rules, and my thing's always been, 661 00:38:54,519 --> 00:38:56,639 we're gonna hit him with the golden rule. Okay, I'm 662 00:38:56,639 --> 00:38:58,800 gonna be respectful to you. I'm gonna hope you're gonna 663 00:38:58,800 --> 00:39:01,840 be respectful to me. What are your tenants or what 664 00:39:01,920 --> 00:39:04,079 do you base your faith on? 665 00:39:04,920 --> 00:39:10,440 Speaker 2: Mm hmm the greatest commandments, which is love God and 666 00:39:10,519 --> 00:39:17,239 love people, sure at all and how people want to 667 00:39:17,239 --> 00:39:22,880 elaborate on that is all theological. But I believe in 668 00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:28,920 God's grace and I believe you know, as long as 669 00:39:28,960 --> 00:39:34,679 you accept Christ, you know you're going you're going to Heaven. 670 00:39:35,079 --> 00:39:38,920 That's That's where I'm at. And my job on this 671 00:39:39,039 --> 00:39:43,320 earth is to love God and love people. And that 672 00:39:43,440 --> 00:39:46,840 means no matter how messed up you are, no matter 673 00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:51,599 if you're an adult worker, you're gay, lesbian, you're a murderer, 674 00:39:51,760 --> 00:39:57,840 you're homeless, your drug addict, it doesn't matter. I'm just 675 00:39:57,880 --> 00:40:00,239 going to love you where you're at, and that's where 676 00:40:00,280 --> 00:40:03,639 I stand. And you know what, unfortunately, I don't see 677 00:40:03,639 --> 00:40:07,760 that in the church. I feel like the unfortunately the 678 00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:12,320 church is if you don't live by this. I'm not 679 00:40:12,400 --> 00:40:14,960 going to love you where you're at. Sure, And I'm like, 680 00:40:16,199 --> 00:40:19,639 I'm sorry, I believe differently, And I get so many 681 00:40:19,639 --> 00:40:25,559 people who don't agree with me, but I I'm like, 682 00:40:25,639 --> 00:40:29,280 you know what, it's okay to disagree and with each other, 683 00:40:29,320 --> 00:40:32,280 but let's just love each other because at the end 684 00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:35,639 of the day, where if you're a Christian, you know, 685 00:40:36,960 --> 00:40:38,679 let's we're all going to the same place. 686 00:40:38,840 --> 00:40:41,960 Speaker 1: Sure, yeah, yeah, And I think that's kind of what 687 00:40:42,039 --> 00:40:45,280 I got out of it too, is just let's, you know, 688 00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:49,559 just try and be better people. And again with the Catholics, 689 00:40:49,599 --> 00:40:51,599 there's all kinds of rules. You got to hit this 690 00:40:51,679 --> 00:40:53,480 thing and do this and do that and whatever the 691 00:40:53,639 --> 00:40:57,559 organized religion of it. My thought is always, you know, 692 00:40:57,800 --> 00:41:00,880 if Hitler confessed before he died, I still don't think 693 00:41:00,920 --> 00:41:04,280 he was making it to heaven. And if I don't confess, 694 00:41:04,360 --> 00:41:07,199 but I lived my life really trying to be a 695 00:41:07,239 --> 00:41:10,000 decent human being, really trying to take care of people, 696 00:41:10,119 --> 00:41:13,039 not being malicious towards people. I think I'm good. I 697 00:41:13,559 --> 00:41:16,519 think I'll get in as long as I keep working 698 00:41:16,559 --> 00:41:19,880 forward towards that. So you kind of touched on it 699 00:41:19,920 --> 00:41:22,840 there a little bit, but it makes sense, do you 700 00:41:23,719 --> 00:41:27,400 not necessary? So okay, my question here was how do 701 00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:30,639 you square it in your mind the contradiction from doing 702 00:41:30,719 --> 00:41:34,039 adult film and also the church. But it almost sounds 703 00:41:34,079 --> 00:41:38,880 like you're not a big fan of church establishment establishment 704 00:41:39,199 --> 00:41:42,000 rather than just the religion and the faith itself. Is 705 00:41:42,039 --> 00:41:44,280 that accurate or is that wrong? No? 706 00:41:44,400 --> 00:41:47,360 Speaker 2: I love the church. I mean I go to church 707 00:41:47,440 --> 00:41:52,400 when I have time. I just feel like the mindsets 708 00:41:53,840 --> 00:41:57,519 of most churches is that they live too much by 709 00:41:57,599 --> 00:42:02,199 the law and when Jesus came and died on the cross, 710 00:42:02,280 --> 00:42:07,320 where save through grace, it's you know, So that's where 711 00:42:07,320 --> 00:42:12,519 I'm at. I feel like the move a big portion 712 00:42:12,639 --> 00:42:19,239 of it is we've lost the grace that that you know, 713 00:42:19,440 --> 00:42:24,519 is said in the Bible. So again, I don't hate 714 00:42:24,559 --> 00:42:27,400 the church at all. I go to church myself when 715 00:42:27,400 --> 00:42:31,719 I have time. Yeah. Is that the church? 716 00:42:32,079 --> 00:42:35,039 Speaker 1: Well, I don't necessarily mean the church as in the building. 717 00:42:35,159 --> 00:42:40,400 I mean more the people in organized religions who maybe 718 00:42:42,400 --> 00:42:46,159 lose sight of the main principles and worry more about 719 00:42:46,320 --> 00:42:50,559 you know, when I see politicians involved with politics or 720 00:42:50,559 --> 00:42:53,599 no I'm sorry, pastors or priests or anyone else involved 721 00:42:53,599 --> 00:42:56,960 in politics or pushing for this, or kick this out 722 00:42:57,079 --> 00:42:59,159 or do that. I almost want to say, like, go 723 00:42:59,480 --> 00:43:03,239 back to what Jesus would recommend here. You know, Jesus 724 00:43:03,360 --> 00:43:07,400 wasn't like we need rest all sex workers, and he 725 00:43:07,519 --> 00:43:10,639 had Mary Magdalene and you know he cared for her 726 00:43:10,719 --> 00:43:13,960 and everything else. So I just think what I meant 727 00:43:13,960 --> 00:43:16,480 by that is not you don't like walking into a church. 728 00:43:16,559 --> 00:43:22,159 I meant more, it's you have more faith in Jesus 729 00:43:22,599 --> 00:43:26,440 and God himself rather than the rules and everything else 730 00:43:26,440 --> 00:43:30,360 that might be set by man. In God's name, I 731 00:43:30,400 --> 00:43:34,119 would say, is that accurate? Am I crazy? Maybe I'm crazy? 732 00:43:34,159 --> 00:43:34,920 It's fine if I am. 733 00:43:35,039 --> 00:43:42,920 Speaker 2: Oh, no, no, I guess I honor the law, which 734 00:43:43,039 --> 00:43:45,639 you know, that's where all the rules and regulations are, 735 00:43:47,719 --> 00:43:51,119 and I understand them, and I understand that the law 736 00:43:51,199 --> 00:43:55,760 is what helps us understand what sin is. But I 737 00:43:55,880 --> 00:43:59,119 do also understand that Jesus came to fulfill the law. 738 00:43:59,199 --> 00:44:04,559 So we don't I can't. I don't want to say 739 00:44:04,599 --> 00:44:08,719 we don't we Well, our salvation is not canceled by 740 00:44:08,760 --> 00:44:13,400 our actions, right, is what I mean? Do we should? 741 00:44:13,440 --> 00:44:17,840 We still apply the law? Like and this is where 742 00:44:17,880 --> 00:44:23,400 I say this, it's on everyone's on conviction and we 743 00:44:23,480 --> 00:44:28,039 constantly are working out our salvation, and that salvation doesn't 744 00:44:28,079 --> 00:44:32,400 look like well, if you mess up, you instantly lose 745 00:44:32,440 --> 00:44:36,320 your salvation. Salvation to me, when the Bible talks about 746 00:44:36,320 --> 00:44:40,599 that is it's more like you're in training to be 747 00:44:40,760 --> 00:44:44,079 more like Christ, but you never actually lose your salvation, 748 00:44:44,440 --> 00:44:49,079 gotcha until you you know? And and what I mean 749 00:44:49,119 --> 00:44:54,280 by that is that every single Christian, every single person 750 00:44:54,320 --> 00:44:58,039 on this planet, all has some type of struggle. One 751 00:44:58,079 --> 00:45:03,320 person struggle might be sexual. Another person struggle might be overeating. 752 00:45:03,840 --> 00:45:09,599 Another person's struggle could be I don't know, overworking. Another 753 00:45:09,599 --> 00:45:14,400 person struggle could be unforgiveness with people that their family 754 00:45:14,800 --> 00:45:17,599 did to them twenty years ago. That's considered also a sin. 755 00:45:18,079 --> 00:45:21,880 But we're all working out our salvation to go through 756 00:45:21,920 --> 00:45:25,280 the process of, Hey, I struggle with, oh, you know, 757 00:45:25,320 --> 00:45:27,760 eating too much, so I'm going to go on a 758 00:45:27,800 --> 00:45:31,079 diet plan. You're working out that. I don't know if 759 00:45:31,119 --> 00:45:31,880 that kind of makes sense. 760 00:45:31,960 --> 00:45:34,079 Speaker 1: No, it does. It makes total sense to me. But 761 00:45:34,519 --> 00:45:36,519 you are a porn star and the first two you 762 00:45:36,599 --> 00:45:39,760 hit were sex addiction and then overeating, And I was like, 763 00:45:39,880 --> 00:45:41,159 is she talking about me? 764 00:45:41,360 --> 00:45:41,559 Speaker 2: There? 765 00:45:41,920 --> 00:45:44,079 Speaker 1: No, I'm just kidding I'm fucking with you. I'm just kidding. 766 00:45:44,079 --> 00:45:45,119 I'm just kidding. I'm just kidding. 767 00:45:46,119 --> 00:45:46,360 Speaker 2: I do. 768 00:45:46,599 --> 00:45:51,119 Speaker 1: Here's a question, though, has has any director or producer 769 00:45:51,920 --> 00:45:56,519 ever tried to bring any kind of religious iconology into 770 00:45:56,639 --> 00:45:58,880 any of your scenes. Dress you up like a nun, 771 00:45:59,079 --> 00:45:59,960 do something like that. 772 00:46:01,360 --> 00:46:04,199 Speaker 2: Go ahead, yes, yeah, I just shot a scene too, 773 00:46:05,519 --> 00:46:08,039 Oh my gosh, two months ago and I was like, 774 00:46:08,280 --> 00:46:10,159 I told the director, I said, I'm so sorry, I 775 00:46:10,159 --> 00:46:16,119 cannot do this part. And what it was the original 776 00:46:16,199 --> 00:46:20,800 piece and I'm so glad. Actually these director and producers 777 00:46:20,800 --> 00:46:24,920 were also Christian, and they they were like, it's okay, 778 00:46:24,960 --> 00:46:27,679 you don't have to do this. But the scene was 779 00:46:27,840 --> 00:46:32,159 I played a witch. And when I originally read the script, 780 00:46:32,280 --> 00:46:36,559 I thought it was like like the neighbor Karen, Like 781 00:46:37,039 --> 00:46:42,320 that's what I interpreted this this script, you know, and 782 00:46:42,400 --> 00:46:45,880 they were just using the word rich witch rather than 783 00:46:48,440 --> 00:46:50,920 I didn't realize it was a spiritual witch. 784 00:46:51,280 --> 00:46:52,480 Speaker 1: Sure, okay. 785 00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:58,000 Speaker 2: So I was like, okay, so I'm you know, it 786 00:46:58,119 --> 00:47:02,079 was a scene where so the end of the scene 787 00:47:02,119 --> 00:47:04,239 that I said I cannot do was they had a 788 00:47:04,320 --> 00:47:09,000 voodoo doll and they said that I needed to play 789 00:47:09,039 --> 00:47:12,440 with myself and put my comm on the voodoo doll 790 00:47:13,119 --> 00:47:20,199 and make it whatever, like I'm casting some wicked spell 791 00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:25,199 on these kids who decided to trespass in my neighbor 792 00:47:25,679 --> 00:47:29,039 I mean, in my backyard to grab their baseball right 793 00:47:29,800 --> 00:47:30,840 after I fucked them. 794 00:47:32,960 --> 00:47:35,360 Speaker 1: Quite the scene there, Quite the scene. So then what 795 00:47:35,679 --> 00:47:38,480 were you able to I mean, were you just out 796 00:47:38,519 --> 00:47:40,400 on that? Were they able to adjust and make it 797 00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:41,519 more comfortable for you? 798 00:47:42,159 --> 00:47:46,719 Speaker 2: They adjusted to more of the interpretation of which as 799 00:47:46,760 --> 00:47:53,360 an I'm like the neighbor Karen, rather than the spiritual 800 00:47:53,440 --> 00:47:55,920 being of I'm going to cast a spell on you 801 00:47:55,960 --> 00:47:58,559 and actually literally have a voodoo doll in my hands. 802 00:47:59,119 --> 00:48:01,400 Speaker 1: I do have. As this follow up though, was it 803 00:48:01,440 --> 00:48:04,559 supposed to be a Halloween scene or something or was 804 00:48:04,599 --> 00:48:06,880 it just a random Tuesday They're like, we need some 805 00:48:06,960 --> 00:48:09,320 satanic stuff in here. Yeah. 806 00:48:10,039 --> 00:48:14,800 Speaker 2: See. The weird thing is I felt like the whoever 807 00:48:14,920 --> 00:48:18,159 is the writer kind of did it mockingly on purpose, 808 00:48:18,440 --> 00:48:22,119 because the director when I approached her and said, I 809 00:48:22,119 --> 00:48:24,840 don't feel comfortable doing this little line. Can I just 810 00:48:24,960 --> 00:48:28,199 take this out? And she's like, oh, that's weird because 811 00:48:28,199 --> 00:48:32,719 they know you're a pastor, And that to me like 812 00:48:33,159 --> 00:48:35,079 kind of stung me a little bit because it was 813 00:48:35,159 --> 00:48:38,239 like I felt like, whoever is the writers kind of 814 00:48:38,320 --> 00:48:43,199 wanted to push me my comfort level. It's one thing 815 00:48:43,199 --> 00:48:45,960 where you write a script, but if you know who 816 00:48:46,039 --> 00:48:50,920 the actor is, that's that's a different story. 817 00:48:51,679 --> 00:48:53,880 Speaker 1: Yeah. That again, I'll use the word that that almost 818 00:48:53,880 --> 00:48:56,199 feels a little malicious, like I want to see her 819 00:48:56,239 --> 00:48:56,760 say this. 820 00:48:58,239 --> 00:49:02,119 Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, But I'm just so grateful because I just remember, 821 00:49:02,239 --> 00:49:06,599 like my heart pounding, like, oh my God, like I 822 00:49:06,800 --> 00:49:09,440 read this interpretation of this script wrong. 823 00:49:11,320 --> 00:49:13,440 Speaker 1: Last question I have for you here and then I 824 00:49:13,480 --> 00:49:17,199 just want to one quick social media thing, But who 825 00:49:17,280 --> 00:49:21,079 is more judgmental of the other side? Are the porn 826 00:49:21,159 --> 00:49:25,239 people more against the religious side or the religious side 827 00:49:25,320 --> 00:49:27,840 more against the porn Let me ask you, like in 828 00:49:27,880 --> 00:49:30,480 your daily conversation, if you interact with anyone or talk 829 00:49:30,519 --> 00:49:33,880 to anyone, and if it ever pops up, who is 830 00:49:33,920 --> 00:49:35,760 more judgmental of the other. 831 00:49:36,840 --> 00:49:38,199 Speaker 2: The religious for sure? 832 00:49:38,519 --> 00:49:38,840 Speaker 1: Really? 833 00:49:39,199 --> 00:49:46,119 Speaker 2: Really, yes, yeah, there are much more. When everyone turned 834 00:49:46,119 --> 00:49:51,159 against me, it was only the religious people, and I 835 00:49:51,239 --> 00:49:55,360 went through this really really difficult time where my husband 836 00:49:55,440 --> 00:50:01,559 ended up in prison, and the only people that show 837 00:50:01,679 --> 00:50:07,280 no grace, no kindness was a religious people, And the 838 00:50:07,280 --> 00:50:09,920 only people that reached out to me. Happened to be 839 00:50:11,079 --> 00:50:14,880 adult workers that said, hey, are you okay? How are 840 00:50:14,920 --> 00:50:19,199 you doing? And I you know that that hurt me. 841 00:50:19,960 --> 00:50:23,840 But do I hate the religious people? Know? Because my 842 00:50:23,960 --> 00:50:27,039 journey is I used to be one until I crossed 843 00:50:27,039 --> 00:50:30,000 over and became an adult worker, and that's when I 844 00:50:30,159 --> 00:50:33,199 learned to love people where they're at. And so also 845 00:50:33,320 --> 00:50:37,840 my story is being a Christian and being also a 846 00:50:37,880 --> 00:50:41,760 porn star. I realized, wow, now I'm learning to love 847 00:50:41,840 --> 00:50:45,119 like Christ. He loves people where they're at. But before 848 00:50:45,159 --> 00:50:48,400 I was an adult worker, I was one of those 849 00:50:48,440 --> 00:50:53,360 religious people. And I feel like people are scared and 850 00:50:53,400 --> 00:50:57,639 they judge when they don't know, and so I cannot. 851 00:50:58,280 --> 00:51:01,400 For a while, I got angry, but I have to 852 00:51:01,440 --> 00:51:05,559 remind myself I was one of them one time, and 853 00:51:05,639 --> 00:51:08,800 so I need to show grace because they just don't know. 854 00:51:10,360 --> 00:51:13,199 Speaker 1: Christy Love my guest for the evening. You know exactly 855 00:51:13,239 --> 00:51:17,480 where you can find her at CLCA six'. Nine her new, 856 00:51:17,519 --> 00:51:20,440 podcast In bed With Christy love is available now on 857 00:51:20,480 --> 00:51:24,400 YouTube and anywhere you get. Podcasts links to everything are 858 00:51:24,440 --> 00:51:27,599 in the episode, description social media all the other fun. 859 00:51:27,679 --> 00:51:31,400 Stuff head down there and check it. Out, christy thank 860 00:51:31,440 --> 00:51:34,559 you so much for talking with me. Today it's such a. 861 00:51:34,599 --> 00:51:37,159 Pleasure it was a pleasure to talk to you AND 862 00:51:37,559 --> 00:51:39,280 i wish you nothing but success going. 863 00:51:39,320 --> 00:51:41,480 Speaker 2: Forward okay you Say. Lettie