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<v Speaker 1>I drop into the cushy chair, peeling off the layers

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<v Speaker 1>of pretense with each word, letting the raw frustration bleed through.

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<v Speaker 1>It's just endless, you know, one disappointing man after another.

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<v Speaker 1>Each time it's like unwrapping a bad gift. Too eager,

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<v Speaker 1>too quick, or just not enough where it counts. I laugh,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's hollow, edged with bitterness. I mean, can you

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<v Speaker 1>believe it? They parade their desires like they're doing you

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<v Speaker 1>a favor, and their bodies. Some promise a marathon but

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<v Speaker 1>can barely manage a sprint. My voice grows harsher, the

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<v Speaker 1>words sharper, and let's not even talk about size. It's

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<v Speaker 1>like they think they can compensate for lack of skill

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<v Speaker 1>with sheer bravado. When it comes down to it, half

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<v Speaker 1>of them don't even know what to do with what

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<v Speaker 1>they've got. The room is thick with my confessions, each

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<v Speaker 1>one hanging heavier than the last. The therapist shifts in

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<v Speaker 1>his seat, his professional mask slipping as the tension builds.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, he starts, his voice strained, his gaze intense.

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<v Speaker 1>All this talk it's not just talk for me. It's

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<v Speaker 1>getting hard to just sit here. I stop caught off guard,

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<v Speaker 1>watching as he stands abruptly, the scrape of his chair

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<v Speaker 1>loud in the quiet room. There's a new energy between us,

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<v Speaker 1>something palpable and charged. He walks towards me, each step deliberate.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not like those men, you know. I can show

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<v Speaker 1>you if you let me. His voice is rough, almost desperate.

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<v Speaker 1>Before I can respond, he's there right in front of me,

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<v Speaker 1>unzipping his pants with unsteady hands. This, this is what

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<v Speaker 1>I want to give you, what they couldn't. My heart

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<v Speaker 1>races as he crosses a line I never thought he'd dare.

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<v Speaker 1>The room is quiet, just our heavy breathing filling the space.

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<v Speaker 1>I think to myself, the audacity of him. But he

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<v Speaker 1>is hot, such arrogance, because he knows it. Wow, he's big.

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<v Speaker 1>I pause to make him nervous, make him question himself,

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<v Speaker 1>to let him know I'm in control here, and because

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<v Speaker 1>this is completely nuts. For a moment, he freezes his

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<v Speaker 1>eyes wide, perhaps realizing the precipice where on the silence

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<v Speaker 1>stretches a taut thread ready to snap. Then slowly, a

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<v Speaker 1>smile curls the corners of my lips, dark and promising.

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<v Speaker 1>I lean forward, forward, the distance closing. As I take

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<v Speaker 1>the final step he dared not finish. The room blurs

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<v Speaker 1>around us, every sound muffled except for the sharp intake

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<v Speaker 1>of his breath. As I make my choice, pulling him

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<v Speaker 1>into the depths of my desires, the line isn't just crossed,

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<v Speaker 1>it's obliterated.