Speaker 1: Lux be a VI eight tonight was a bit vagasy
Speaker 1: brat pack. I'm a brat really.
Speaker 2: Think I think you're thinking of the rat tag. But
Speaker 2: for you.
Speaker 3: Rat tag.
Speaker 1: You know, when I realized who we were speaking to today,
Speaker 1: I just had Vegas in my head for some reason,
Speaker 1: I have that song.
Speaker 3: Why Why would you have that stuck in your head?
Speaker 1: I don't know, why would I jews?
Speaker 4: Maybe because it sounds a lot like the va we're
Speaker 4: talking to today. Because we're talking to Lux today, you're.
Speaker 1: Duck Gonna looks Prince, which is like one name looks
Speaker 1: just checks slick.
Speaker 2: Let's tell our Clitticiens a little bit about Lux, shall
Speaker 2: we so. Lux has been a Quinn Audio creator for
Speaker 2: over two years. As an anonymous creator, he loves to
Speaker 2: think of himself as an international man of mystery.
Speaker 4: Known for stirring his coffee with the same fingers he
Speaker 4: uses to coax magic from his guitar and other things hint, hint,
Speaker 4: and for producing what his listeners generously call growls.
Speaker 1: Loux is not afraid to try new things or to
Speaker 1: experiment and see what happens. Chaos is his best friend, music,
Speaker 1: his confidante, tacos, his favorite.
Speaker 4: Meal, Okay, I have to say, and I really hate
Speaker 4: playing favorites. This might be the best bio we have
Speaker 4: ever got from.
Speaker 2: A pretty good bio.
Speaker 4: It's so fun and I love it.
Speaker 2: This bio is Muibian right.
Speaker 1: First off, I'm not ambidient extress, but tacos favorite mail?
Speaker 1: Do you know what? I genuinely don't think I've ever
Speaker 1: had a taco. If I don't know, I haven't, I've
Speaker 1: never had a taco.
Speaker 4: I had a taco earlier today in honor of Lux. Yes,
Speaker 4: of course, of course you got to prepare. That's for
Speaker 4: science as well. You know, we've done a really good
Speaker 4: job not making a joke about tacos right now.
Speaker 2: Yeah, we are doing it right. We're saving it for Lux.
Speaker 4: Yeah, we're just God, the professionalism is just amazing, isn't it.
Speaker 1: Should we bring them in and talk talk all things taco.
Speaker 2: Come on in, luck, We're welcome.
Speaker 1: Looks, how are you?
Speaker 5: I am good? You know? It is a fine Tuesday? Correct?
Speaker 5: Is I had to look it up?
Speaker 2: Look?
Speaker 3: Is it.
Speaker 1: Time?
Speaker 2: Do you do this full time?
Speaker 3: Looks?
Speaker 5: No? I do not? Okay, Yeah, I'm actually on like
Speaker 5: a break. I have a kind of an extended lunch break. Oh,
Speaker 5: so I have a full time job that is not this,
Speaker 5: and I do this when I make time to do this,
Speaker 5: because obviously this is so much more fun and I
Speaker 5: absolutely wanted to talk to you, so I said, yeah,
Speaker 5: let's let's do this now. But yeah, no, this is
Speaker 5: not this. This is not my full time job. I
Speaker 5: wish it was. Hopefully we'll get there someday soon.
Speaker 1: But yeah, well, we are very happy that you have
Speaker 1: taken time out of your lunch to spend your time
Speaker 1: with us.
Speaker 5: Oh thank you.
Speaker 2: You know what's really fun, Lucks is we like to
Speaker 2: start off warming up our guests with a little game.
Speaker 5: Yes, that's the intimidating part.
Speaker 2: This is going to be so up your street. You
Speaker 2: have nothing to worry about here.
Speaker 5: I wanted to go to hit me with I have
Speaker 5: no idea.
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, well here we go. So we'll tell you
Speaker 2: about the game what it is, and then we will
Speaker 2: ask for your consent because that's important, and then we'll
Speaker 2: dive in and you will wow us with your knowledge.
Speaker 5: You will.
Speaker 2: It's gonna be so happy with yours. What the game is? Okay,
Speaker 2: So the game is called Taco about Trivia. Oh god,
Speaker 2: So we're going to ask you some trivia questions about tacos. Okay,
Speaker 2: I mean they're your favorite food according to your bio.
Speaker 5: You know, yes, and it's Taco Tuesday, so yeah, let's
Speaker 5: go for it.
Speaker 1: What it is.
Speaker 2: You realize that? Okay, here we go, see how much
Speaker 2: you really love tacos.
Speaker 5: I'm still scared.
Speaker 3: Wait did we ask you for your consent? Actually?
Speaker 2: Did we?
Speaker 1: I don't know?
Speaker 2: Did you want to play?
Speaker 5: Yes? I do. I'm terrified, shaken in my boots.
Speaker 2: Okay, so the first question, yes, what are the two
Speaker 2: most common taco shell types?
Speaker 5: Taco shell types like the corn tortilla taco shell? Mm hmmm, yeah, you're.
Speaker 2: Ever getting more specific than you need to.
Speaker 5: Well, you know that's it's like there's there's like the
Speaker 5: hard taco shell, and there's like there's a soft tortilla,
Speaker 5: like what I call the original taco, which is like
Speaker 5: the the like the mini tortillas when you come like two,
Speaker 5: you know, like you have two of them so that
Speaker 5: if you spill out of the first one, you can
Speaker 5: use the second tortilla to eat whatever fell out of
Speaker 5: the first one, so you don't miss out on all
Speaker 5: that goodness.
Speaker 3: Scale Yes, you got it.
Speaker 2: Hard and soft is all we were looking for, and
Speaker 2: you just you can use your knowledge. That sounds like.
Speaker 1: And I'm looking at the next answer as well, and
Speaker 1: once again, yeah, calm down.
Speaker 3: That road, all right.
Speaker 4: Next one, what meat is used in a carnitas taco?
Speaker 1: That's I told you these were going to be right
Speaker 1: too easy for tack Lover.
Speaker 2: I don't like to ailiate our guests like you do
Speaker 2: with I like to set stuff for success.
Speaker 5: The whole time, I was like, I'm wondering what they're
Speaker 5: going to do for this game thing because I'm listening
Speaker 5: to your other episodes and I'm like, oh no, like.
Speaker 1: Because nine times out of ten I do the game.
Speaker 1: I kind of have a brain that doesn't do this
Speaker 1: type of game.
Speaker 2: So I did this game, yes, because I don't like
Speaker 2: humuli guests.
Speaker 1: So this is this is where any type of pronunciation
Speaker 1: goes out the window. Didn't learn Spanish or anything, So
Speaker 1: here we go. What does our pasta postal mean in English?
Speaker 1: What does our pastor mean in English?
Speaker 5: Shepherd style? Yeah, I'm like, it's not pastor.
Speaker 1: How do you pronounce it? Then it's pasta?
Speaker 3: Alright, I mean that's what you said.
Speaker 1: I think if we rewound this. But that's exactly what
Speaker 1: I said.
Speaker 5: That's all right right.
Speaker 2: What fruit is traditionally served on l pastor tacos?
Speaker 5: Oh? Man, See this is where you got me because
Speaker 5: I don't normally I don't normally get them. I don't know.
Speaker 1: Yeah, we've got a hint.
Speaker 3: You need a hint.
Speaker 4: Okay sometimes. Actually I'm gonna say this tastes delicious on pizza.
Speaker 5: Pineapple.
Speaker 1: See you and pizza. I was signing. If you turn
Speaker 1: it upside down, you can swing on you can swing
Speaker 1: on it.
Speaker 5: See. I love pineapple and pizza, so that's the first
Speaker 5: thing I thought of too.
Speaker 3: It's my favorite.
Speaker 5: So yeah, see, and this divides people like immediately, so immediately.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm already questioning my friendship with jewels.
Speaker 2: I have to know because I do love pineapple and
Speaker 2: I've never had it on pizza, So, like, what else
Speaker 2: is on the pizza that you have it on jewels?
Speaker 4: So traditionally people do ham. I'm not a huge ham person,
Speaker 4: so I do pineapple because I love sweet and savory together.
Speaker 2: So pineapple on like a plain cheese pizza.
Speaker 3: With pepperoni in a side of ranch.
Speaker 5: I've never done the ranch part, but I'm going to
Speaker 5: have to try that.
Speaker 4: Yes, little crispy crust, absolute perfection again, all right? Next one,
Speaker 4: what type of fish is most commonly used in Baja
Speaker 4: style fish tacos?
Speaker 5: Oh? I don't actually know, but I love them. I
Speaker 5: love them. What is it? Is it? Tilapia is a goldfish?
Speaker 2: That's a problem with goldfish.
Speaker 1: Three lessons whitefish and if you turn it round the
Speaker 1: opposite way, it's another va that end in rapture.
Speaker 3: It's really good smudgie. Yeah. The other example could be
Speaker 3: mahi mahi as well.
Speaker 1: Yes, you didn't know what that was. I thought that
Speaker 1: was a cocktail.
Speaker 2: That's my type type.
Speaker 1: It doesn't taste the same, right, Next one, what's the
Speaker 1: difference between a taco dorado dorado and a regular taco?
Speaker 5: It's like dorado?
Speaker 2: What does that mean?
Speaker 5: It's like roasted. It's like it's like, I don't I
Speaker 5: don't know how to describe. It's just like a roasted toasted,
Speaker 5: like more of a burnt.
Speaker 2: Yes, yes, okay, oh okay. What animal does barbacoa traditionally
Speaker 2: come from in Central Mexico.
Speaker 5: Traditionally come from? Uh? Is it a goat? Lamb?
Speaker 2: It's a cow, specifically the head which.
Speaker 5: Is it's the one I don't get. It's the one
Speaker 5: I avoid. I avoid that one I avoid, I avoid
Speaker 5: the tongue one. No, I'm gonna I'm gonna stick to
Speaker 5: the stuff that I am. I prefer to, I prefer
Speaker 5: to look at.
Speaker 4: Well, I didn't know until now that barbaricola was that
Speaker 4: because I love Barbicoa.
Speaker 3: So probably gonna think about it a little bit.
Speaker 5: Totally not that, not that at all though.
Speaker 4: Well mine from Chipotless probably probably not probably whatever. All right,
Speaker 4: what does trump trompo refer to in taco culture?
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I love that you just right away, I'm blanking.
Speaker 3: I know that's the best part because I.
Speaker 5: Know the word Spanish that the word trompo is is
Speaker 5: a top? Is what the top like the spin the top?
Speaker 5: You know? Okay, so is it? Is it the thing
Speaker 5: that that the meat is like on turning while they're yeah, okay, good, yes.
Speaker 3: Yes, I got really excited. You got that.
Speaker 4: It is the spinning vertical spit used to cook al
Speaker 4: pastor meat.
Speaker 2: You can trust yourself more.
Speaker 5: Man, I think I do. I came in here super nervous,
Speaker 5: to be honest, I'm like the most like shy person
Speaker 5: like in real life.
Speaker 1: Oh, we're sorry, and to come to the three of us.
Speaker 5: But lu but lux is very different. Yes, what's the.
Speaker 1: Of the radishes? Often served alongside tacos to eat them
Speaker 1: and to be fair, I think you're right, right, he's right.
Speaker 1: How can they be that it's a radish?
Speaker 5: They're amazing because they're just like.
Speaker 2: Not because they don't taste like it.
Speaker 3: They don't taste like anything.
Speaker 2: So there are pelicleans that they add crunch and freshness
Speaker 2: between bites.
Speaker 5: They don't taste like anything to type of onion really,
Speaker 5: but I think they're really pungent. They're like really strong,
Speaker 5: almost kind of spicy.
Speaker 1: Here can't we use them as onions? Radishes?
Speaker 2: We thinking of something else.
Speaker 3: I just pick a radish out of my salad. I'm like,
Speaker 3: get out of here.
Speaker 2: They don't taste like anything. You know what, it's probably
Speaker 2: the ship produce we have in New England.
Speaker 4: It probably is for nine day yes, yeah, happening from
Speaker 4: like the local market. It probably be super flavorful or something.
Speaker 2: It's pungent.
Speaker 5: They can be. They can be very strong, like to
Speaker 5: the point where it will make you tear up. If
Speaker 5: you have a really strong one. You can also bake
Speaker 5: them I might bake a radish. It tastes sweet, really,
Speaker 5: but I just don't believe.
Speaker 2: I can't believe they have flavor.
Speaker 3: I know. That's why I was like, they tastes like nothing.
Speaker 5: There was just a crunch, no wonder. The question was like,
Speaker 5: what's the purpose of them?
Speaker 3: Right?
Speaker 5: It tastes like.
Speaker 3: Palate cleanser.
Speaker 5: Well done, it must be good. Yes, you get it survived, Yes.
Speaker 4: And now onto the imp of the game. I'm just
Speaker 4: all right, you're like, am my internet just went out?
Speaker 3: Sorry?
Speaker 1: God?
Speaker 2: Who?
Speaker 1: So what was your life like before audio?
Speaker 5: Was like what, I guess my life was what it
Speaker 5: is when I'm not doing this. That's just the nature
Speaker 5: of the thing. Yeah, no, it's it's it's kind of funny.
Speaker 5: I don't think anyone. So I'm an anonymous audio creator
Speaker 5: first of all. So people don't know in my normal
Speaker 5: everyday life that I do this. I don't tell them.
Speaker 5: These are like two separate worlds for me. So yeah,
Speaker 5: I guess the main thing that's different is I get
Speaker 5: to have fun and get into character and write scripts
Speaker 5: and edit things and make sounds and uh, you know,
Speaker 5: promote stuff. And I have a you know, small Patreon
Speaker 5: community that that is really just cheering me on most
Speaker 5: of the time, and and we're just having fun. So
Speaker 5: I think that's the big thing. And and the time
Speaker 5: that I put into this. Obviously, I have to make
Speaker 5: time in my in my life for this particular thing,
Speaker 5: and that was very daunting at first because I was
Speaker 5: I was just thinking, like how, how my how am
Speaker 5: I supposed to do this with everything else I've got
Speaker 5: going on. So it's a nice it's a nice creative
Speaker 5: outlet for me to get out there and be lucks.
Speaker 2: So when do you do it? Like late at night
Speaker 2: early mornings.
Speaker 5: Yes, most of the time, it happens late at night
Speaker 5: probably for me, anywhere anywhere between nine and ten pm
Speaker 5: is when I'm recording, and sometimes I will edit up
Speaker 5: until maybe midnight when I have to submit audios every week.
Speaker 5: And at first it was just it was a lot
Speaker 5: because I was learning everything. So I remember staying up
Speaker 5: till maybe like two in the morning, three in the
Speaker 5: morning editing things in order to submit them because I've
Speaker 5: got work the next morning and I don't have time
Speaker 5: to do it then, you know, But I've I've learned
Speaker 5: a lot. I've learned a lot, I gotten a lot
Speaker 5: faster quicker at the whole process. And I've learned, you know,
Speaker 5: the times of day, or I've learned to read myself
Speaker 5: because I I've what I've realized is I don't I
Speaker 5: release things on a consistent basis on Quinn, but I
Speaker 5: don't produce them like in that in that I don't
Speaker 5: know how I say it, like every week, like I'm
Speaker 5: not as creative every single week, And there are there
Speaker 5: are weeks when I'm just like, oh, yeah, let's do this.
Speaker 5: I could do two three different things and and set
Speaker 5: myself up so that I don't show up to the
Speaker 5: booth with a script or whatever, and I'm just like,
Speaker 5: I'm just not feeling it, Like I'm just exhausted, I'm tired,
Speaker 5: and I don't want to do it because I think
Speaker 5: that's that's one of the pitfalls where you start getting
Speaker 5: into burnout, the burnout phase of things. So I've just
Speaker 5: really learned to kind of read myself and take better
Speaker 5: care of myself over over the last few years, just
Speaker 5: to recognize the rhythms of creativity that I that I
Speaker 5: have myself in honor.
Speaker 4: Are you are you like naturally a night owl or not?
Speaker 4: Like having to record that late was that something you
Speaker 4: had to get used to or you just used to
Speaker 4: being up late anyway.
Speaker 3: Like me, I go to bed at eight o'clock.
Speaker 5: So I'm so that is early really.
Speaker 3: Social, like my social battery.
Speaker 4: Time I go to bed, I tell every I'm going
Speaker 4: to bed, and that means like, leave jewels alone.
Speaker 3: Now she's done for the day.
Speaker 5: Yeah. I uh so I've always been a night owl. Yeah,
Speaker 5: that's always just been me. It's it's had to change
Speaker 5: over time because obviously I have like a regular daytime
Speaker 5: job and I got to be there, you know, in
Speaker 5: the morning or whatever. So I can't. I can't be
Speaker 5: that a night owl that I know that I am,
Speaker 5: so I have to just really manage my energy and time.
Speaker 5: But also, you know, I am an introvert, so being
Speaker 5: by myself and working on things on my own is
Speaker 5: kind of fun and kind of energizing. So I think
Speaker 5: that's why it's worked. That's why I can I can
Speaker 5: do this late at night because I'm like, I'm tired
Speaker 5: of dealing with all the other things that I do,
Speaker 5: and I get to just like sit in my little
Speaker 5: booth and pretend to be something else for a little bit,
Speaker 5: you know. And yeah, and edit that and and be
Speaker 5: and be creative and just be with myself in that process.
Speaker 1: So how did you find the world.
Speaker 5: I used to listen to a lot of audio erotica.
Speaker 5: I guess I have a thing for like voices and sound.
Speaker 5: And I stumbled across literrotica like many years ago, and
Speaker 5: I just started listening and I was just kind of
Speaker 5: mesmerized by all of it, like this is all happening
Speaker 5: just in my ears. No one knows I'm listening to this,
Speaker 5: and it's it was fun at first and just like
Speaker 5: out of curiosity, and then I started realizing, oh, this
Speaker 5: is kind of interesting because I kind of I'm listening
Speaker 5: to people say things that are very sometimes I make
Speaker 5: you feel things, and I guess I wasn't expecting that,
Speaker 5: you know, at first, I was just curious about listening
Speaker 5: to I don't know, this sort of taboo thing that
Speaker 5: like I didn't want anyone to know I was listening
Speaker 5: to it. But you know, I listened to people do
Speaker 5: scripts and they're writing their own stories and getting creative
Speaker 5: or even funny, and I was like, oh, wow, this
Speaker 5: is really cool. Eventually, you know, there was a bunch
Speaker 5: of like male voices too, and I was like I'm
Speaker 5: curious to know what they are doing and like how
Speaker 5: does this work? And I listened to a few and
Speaker 5: it was like, Okay, this is weird. Like I don't
Speaker 5: I don't know about this. This is weird. After a while,
Speaker 5: I was like, I feel like I could probably do this.
Speaker 5: I didn't immediately jump into it. I think a few
Speaker 5: years back, like during COVID and everything, I was looking
Speaker 5: into possibly doing audio book narration, and so I recorded
Speaker 5: a few samples of audio put it out there to
Speaker 5: see if I would get anything back. And like the
Speaker 5: only offers I got back were for like narrating like
Speaker 5: audio erotica stuff, and I was like, that's weird. I
Speaker 5: don't think I want to do that, Like I got
Speaker 5: to put my name on that, and like that's I
Speaker 5: don't know if I want to do that yet. And
Speaker 5: I think Quinn had started right around at the same time,
Speaker 5: and I had looked at their application stuff because I
Speaker 5: was curious, and yeah, it was kind of like over
Speaker 5: the years, it's just kind of like this thing that
Speaker 5: was snowballing, and eventually at some point I just decided, Hey,
Speaker 5: I'm just gonna try this out and make sort of
Speaker 5: these spicy audio things and see what happens. And eventually
Speaker 5: I landed in TikTok and Instagram back then, and I
Speaker 5: connected with a few people, a scriptwriter and Alice and
Speaker 5: we did a little collab and then I had another
Speaker 5: scriptwriter that wanted to work with me and I did
Speaker 5: I just script by them, and it ended up being
Speaker 5: the script phil that I used as my audition for Quinn.
Speaker 5: So I applied and I submitted that and they liked
Speaker 5: it and they were like, come on board, like we
Speaker 5: want you. So it happened. It seemed to happen very quickly,
Speaker 5: but it was this thing that had been snowballing for
Speaker 5: years for me, and so when I finally got there,
Speaker 5: I was just kind of shocked that I got in,
Speaker 5: and I was scared because I'm like, these guys are
Speaker 5: like they're they're big, they're like big names, and like
Speaker 5: everyone's talking to them. They're they're they're amazing, and they
Speaker 5: put out so much content. And it took me about
Speaker 5: a month to do that that script bill because I
Speaker 5: had like audio editing stuff that I needed to learn
Speaker 5: to do. I had like music I had to find
Speaker 5: on Beyonce things. I remember spending like three days trying
Speaker 5: to figure out how to make it sound like when
Speaker 5: you go inside a room when music's playing outside and
Speaker 5: you close the door and it's just a muffled sound.
Speaker 5: How the hell do I do this? And I was
Speaker 5: working on like free software, and I had like a
Speaker 5: beat up MIC, and I managed to pull it off.
Speaker 5: But then but then I realized that took me a month.
Speaker 5: I don't think audio in a week, are you serious? So,
Speaker 5: you know, it was it was a wild ride to
Speaker 5: get to that point. I had had a little bit
Speaker 5: of experience working at a small radio station when I
Speaker 5: was in college, and I, you know, I knew the
Speaker 5: basics of like audio reinforcement and recording, but it's it's
Speaker 5: it had been a while, and and software is has
Speaker 5: changed so much and like everything, so I just had
Speaker 5: a lot to learn in a very short amount of time,
Speaker 5: and just so much imposter syndrome at the beginning. So yeah,
Speaker 5: it was it was. I looking back, I'm like, I
Speaker 5: can't believe I'm still here. I can't believe I made
Speaker 5: it here. This is all It's been a lot. I'm
Speaker 5: I'm I'm excited about it and I love it, But
Speaker 5: it was it was really daunting at first, where.
Speaker 1: Where did the name come from? When you did Quinn
Speaker 1: name you or would you always always looks.
Speaker 5: My name was Pollux. I was that that was the
Speaker 5: original name. I went with uh v A Pollux or
Speaker 5: Pollux dot v A Pollux is one of the stars
Speaker 5: in the Gemini constellation. I'm a Gemini and so I
Speaker 5: just you know, trying to figure out, like what name
Speaker 5: I could use, and I ended up, Okay, I think
Speaker 5: I identify with this. This is kind of cool. I could
Speaker 5: I could do Pollucks, but it just felt too long.
Speaker 5: And also when I picked it, I didn't realize how
Speaker 5: far I would get. Yeah, I was like, I don't
Speaker 5: like how that sounds. That's because then people started saying
Speaker 5: it and I'm like, oh, no, like that doesn't sound
Speaker 5: I don't like that. I think we need to shorten it.
Speaker 5: Maybe we can do LUs. And and then we went
Speaker 5: with Lux, and I just I like the idea of lux,
Speaker 5: and you know, it means light and and just I
Speaker 5: I just level everything about it. So I stuck with it.
Speaker 5: And when I went on to Quinn, I just I
Speaker 5: told them, yeah, let's just let's just do Lux. And
Speaker 5: that's when it really solidified.
Speaker 2: I love the name. I mean it's I think it's
Speaker 2: I mean, it's beautiful for those reasons you said, light,
Speaker 2: et cetera. And it's also just like when I think
Speaker 2: of lux like luxurious, lucky kind of lux it's it's
Speaker 2: very rich and soft and warm and cozy, and like
Speaker 2: your audio is really fitting that very yeah, very inviting,
Speaker 2: and so yeah, yeah, all forms of luck it fits you.
Speaker 1: I think that's yeah, I know, psy Pollocks. I mean
Speaker 1: it's very British.
Speaker 4: Yeah, sorry, yeah, I was just going to ask you
Speaker 4: to pronounce it for me, because to me, it would say.
Speaker 4: I was like, it's not just going to say it
Speaker 4: and it's going to sound like balls.
Speaker 6: When in the end it was it was it was
Speaker 6: a good idea, and I was like, it's a it's
Speaker 6: just short, one syllable, three letters and yeah.
Speaker 5: I so how.
Speaker 3: Would you say?
Speaker 2: Luck that this work kind of allows you to express
Speaker 2: yourself in ways that maybe otherwise you hadn't been able to.
Speaker 5: I think one of the biggest things about this whole endeavor,
Speaker 5: I think for me is just being able to freely
Speaker 5: speak about sex. Yeah, just talking about sex. I grew
Speaker 5: up in a very sort of traditional religious household, and
Speaker 5: so sex was just out of the question. It was
Speaker 5: the thing you didn't do until you got married, and
Speaker 5: it it I don't think I realized how it affected
Speaker 5: me as a as an individual, and the negative connotations
Speaker 5: surrounding sex or even talking about sex, and how that
Speaker 5: felt repressed for me. So I would have never believed
Speaker 5: anyone if they told me that I would be doing this,
Speaker 5: Like I would be like, you're out of your mind,
Speaker 5: Like I don't know what you're like, what are you saying?
Speaker 5: Because it's just been so it's so different, and it's
Speaker 5: opened me up and it's made me reflect on things
Speaker 5: in my own life and I've been able to sort
Speaker 5: of make peace with things like religious trauma or things
Speaker 5: that happened in my past that shouldn't have happened, and
Speaker 5: just I don't know, I feel like I've discovered this
Speaker 5: whole other side of being a human being. Yeah, and
Speaker 5: it's it's been incredible and it's been I'm really grateful
Speaker 5: for the experience. My partner I and I, Lady Lux
Speaker 5: and I, we talk a lot about, you know, things,
Speaker 5: and she'll she'll bring up things like, yeah, like you
Speaker 5: should never be able to like freely talk about some
Speaker 5: of the things we now talk about just and it's
Speaker 5: and it's normal, and we've had sort of this, We've
Speaker 5: gone into this habit of just talking about sex in
Speaker 5: a way that is very just like eye opening and
Speaker 5: and free, and I just I just feel so much
Speaker 5: lighter about so many things and accepting, you know, accepting myself,
Speaker 5: accepting where I'm at. And I didn't expect so much
Speaker 5: healing to come from this.
Speaker 2: Yeah, none of us did us did, Yes.
Speaker 5: So I'm just like, what is like what? So, Yeah,
Speaker 5: it's it's it's definitely changed me in in in a
Speaker 5: lot of ways, and it continues to be something that
Speaker 5: is transformative.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, Yeah, I think that's the perfect word for there.
Speaker 2: It is transformative. And you don't realize how heavy the
Speaker 2: burden was that you were carrying until it was lifted,
Speaker 2: you know, like the religious trauma and the and the
Speaker 2: Yeah that heavy.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's like it's like I didn't know it was
Speaker 5: I was in it. Like it's like I don't know,
Speaker 5: it's like weird to describe. It's like like this is
Speaker 5: like you're in a cloud and you don't know you're
Speaker 5: in a cloud and it clears up and you can
Speaker 5: finally see and you're like, wait, I was in that
Speaker 5: thing for so long? Yes, and yeah, so yes.
Speaker 2: Yeah, we totally get it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, we've all we've all been there.
Speaker 4: And when you start, you know, seeing that you're like this,
Speaker 4: I'm dealing with like learned shame, and then all of
Speaker 4: a sudden you aren't feeling that anymore, and it just.
Speaker 3: Like you said, later is such a perfect word for it.
Speaker 5: There's shame and the guilt and the yeah it's brutal. Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Now you're in communities that are predominantly women. What's the
Speaker 1: difference between how you were traditionally brought up in regards
Speaker 1: to a man's role and who you are as a man,
Speaker 1: to how you feel now after being surrounded.
Speaker 5: I grew up in a very macho, like, very very
Speaker 5: rigid gender norms and just this idea that as a
Speaker 5: man you do not express emotion, especially not like boys
Speaker 5: don't cry kind of thing. And so in addition to
Speaker 5: the religious traditionalism, there was also this like you're a
Speaker 5: man and you need to act like one and you
Speaker 5: need to suck it up and just you know, like
Speaker 5: that's that's what you do. I have always been a
Speaker 5: very emotional person, but what that caused in me was
Speaker 5: the inability to even recognize what I was feeling and
Speaker 5: just repressing so much of it. So coming into this
Speaker 5: space and being able to begin to explore and allow
Speaker 5: this sort of emotional awareness to develop and grow and
Speaker 5: to the point where I can really express it has
Speaker 5: been really amazing. I know that you know, as an
Speaker 5: anonymous creator, obviously you don't see me, but like that
Speaker 5: made it a little easier at first to be able
Speaker 5: to show those emotions and to express those emotions in
Speaker 5: audio that I wasn't able to do that before. And
Speaker 5: obviously that kind of bleeds into the rest of my
Speaker 5: life because I'm like, oh, I am able to do this.
Speaker 5: I am able to begin to recognize the things that
Speaker 5: I'm feeling and to communicate them. And in terms of
Speaker 5: like community. The one thing that I am grateful for
Speaker 5: growing up was that, you know, I grew up. I
Speaker 5: grew up with sisters, so I knew how the world
Speaker 5: was different for them compared to me. There was like
Speaker 5: the double standards and everything, and I grew up observing
Speaker 5: it and being close to them and talking to them.
Speaker 5: I always sort of knew I was I wasn't really
Speaker 5: quite fitting the typical male like like ideal for the
Speaker 5: you know, the environment I grew up in, so I
Speaker 5: always felt insecure about about things. But being now in
Speaker 5: in this community, I think I've just learned to listen
Speaker 5: and to kind of see and learn about women's experiences
Speaker 5: through what they share and they talk about and with
Speaker 5: my partner and there's just there's just so much to learn.
Speaker 5: And I have just learned so much about what women
Speaker 5: have to deal with on a daily basis that growing
Speaker 5: up a male, I didn't realize, Oh, I never had
Speaker 5: to think about those things. I never had to think about,
Speaker 5: you know, whether or not someone was looking at me
Speaker 5: a certain way, or was thinking about doing something, you know,
Speaker 5: like behind my back, or like simply just like you know,
Speaker 5: asking you to smile, like like you know, it's like
Speaker 5: I've become so disappointed with so much, so many things,
Speaker 5: so many things in society that have just never been challenged,
Speaker 5: and things that are protected that shouldn't be protected versus
Speaker 5: the people who should be and it's just there's so
Speaker 5: much there. But I've just always been an open minded person,
Speaker 5: and that means that I've also been open minded to
Speaker 5: the fact that maybe I don't know all things, you know,
Speaker 5: and there's space to learn, and I have learned. I've
Speaker 5: learned so much. I've I feel like I'm not the
Speaker 5: same person I was when I started this, Like I'm wow,
Speaker 5: I'm different. I feel it. I feel it even in
Speaker 5: like the way that I approach the mic on a
Speaker 5: weekly basis when I'm thinking about what I'm going to do,
Speaker 5: it is if I can say it is. It has
Speaker 5: become this thing that is almost I'm very passionate about
Speaker 5: the things that I do. And there's almost like there's
Speaker 5: almost a spiritual aspect to yeah to creativity for me,
Speaker 5: and I'm connecting to something and I'm channeling it. I've
Speaker 5: been more aware. I've become more aware of the feelings
Speaker 5: and the things that people are going that are experiencing
Speaker 5: around me. And in a lot of ways, I feel
Speaker 5: like I kind of just kind of hone in to
Speaker 5: sort of this almost like collective cloud of like feeling
Speaker 5: and I and I try to work from there. I
Speaker 5: think my best work comes from those moments. I don't
Speaker 5: always get it right, but I do have sort of
Speaker 5: this desire I guess to speak to like the core
Speaker 5: of what we may be feeling electively. I don't always
Speaker 5: do it, but I feel like I do tend to
Speaker 5: like gravitate towards that approach, and I think that's why.
Speaker 5: I think that's why I've made it this far, because
Speaker 5: I always want to do something that's meaningful, and sometimes
Speaker 5: it's fun to just be spicy and be hilarious, of course,
Speaker 5: wild and silly, and that's cool, that's really creative. But
Speaker 5: I think that really drives me is that that idea
Speaker 5: that I could actually speak to something that really matters,
Speaker 5: that is going to be impactful beyond the entertainment aspect
Speaker 5: of audio erotica. And I feel like that's really me
Speaker 5: and it's been it's been interesting. It's led me to
Speaker 5: feel scripts that tell stories that are very different, and
Speaker 5: sometimes I'm like doing it, I'm like, do I really
Speaker 5: want to do this because it's just like it's almost
Speaker 5: kind of sad and I don't know if like this
Speaker 5: even belongs in this space. And so I've taken, you know,
Speaker 5: I've taken some sort of creative risks, and I've just
Speaker 5: learned to kind of trust my gut on these things
Speaker 5: and just know that, you know, not not everyone's gonna
Speaker 5: love everything I do, and that's that's okay. That's part
Speaker 5: of being creative. But but yeah, just just doing those
Speaker 5: new things or different things or things that maybe are
Speaker 5: unexpected in this space are is kind of in my niche.
Speaker 5: That's if I can, if I can say that, do.
Speaker 1: You find the conversations you're having with your male friends
Speaker 1: now you've said you've you know, you think you're you've
Speaker 1: changed to be a completely different person now or to
Speaker 1: a different person now than you work back? Then, do
Speaker 1: you find the conversations you have with your male friends
Speaker 1: now are more rounded or still more traditional?
Speaker 5: Yes, it's it's been. I mean they've noticed the change.
Speaker 5: And I think partly the changes due to me working
Speaker 5: on myself so consistently as well. Mental health has always
Speaker 5: been a really big thing for me. It is something
Speaker 5: that I've struggled with and I've been consistently like working
Speaker 5: through things with a therapist for all long time now
Speaker 5: and working out a lot of these things that you know,
Speaker 5: we're sources of guilt and shame growing up, and you know,
Speaker 5: I'm doing this now and it's like, how is it
Speaker 5: moving me forward? How is it changing me? But my
Speaker 5: male friends they were already a little different because I
Speaker 5: was already a little different then I feel like I
Speaker 5: feel like the conversations we have are very they become
Speaker 5: more open in terms of sex because guys never talk
Speaker 5: about like sex in a way that women talk about sex.
Speaker 5: They're not as as open about their sex lives. It's
Speaker 5: it's a it's a real like vulnerable feeling. I think
Speaker 5: for for a lot of guys to talk to other
Speaker 5: men about their sex lives, like oh, something weird happening
Speaker 5: with their partner or like those are not things they
Speaker 5: typically share, but you know, now with my with my
Speaker 5: close friends, like we will we will talk about those things.
Speaker 5: We will talk about like you know, how how are
Speaker 5: you dealing like with intimacy and like how do you
Speaker 5: feel about you know, the like how do you feel
Speaker 5: about your sex life? Like what are some of the
Speaker 5: things that maybe you've like repressed because like I've repressed
Speaker 5: so much here like that's so weird, or like what
Speaker 5: do you think about you know, how how can we
Speaker 5: be better at listening at like protecting because it almost
Speaker 5: feels like there's so much stuff happening, There's so many
Speaker 5: bad things in the world, Like how how do we
Speaker 5: how do we counter that in a way that is
Speaker 5: that is helpful because sometimes it does feel like there's
Speaker 5: so few of us that actually care. So it's it's gotten,
Speaker 5: it's gotten to that. And I think that having a
Speaker 5: partner has really helped throughout the process of this and
Speaker 5: the conversations that I have with her are you know,
Speaker 5: like some things I just don't even know about. Like
Speaker 5: she brought up the whole thing with this website I'm
Speaker 5: sure you've heard about, and I had, I had no idea.
Speaker 5: I was like what, She's like, yeah, like I'm sure,
Speaker 5: I'm like I have what are you talking about right now?
Speaker 5: She's like everyone's talking about like I don't know what like,
Speaker 5: and it came as such a shock to me. Yeah,
Speaker 5: and it's just like, okay, how do we I mean
Speaker 5: I think growing up, I would see, you know, like
Speaker 5: as like maybe a teenager or even younger, like the
Speaker 5: way that boys talked about girls and like the things
Speaker 5: that they would say about them behind their back, and
Speaker 5: I would feel uncomfortable. I didn't exactly know what to
Speaker 5: do about it or how, you know, Like I was
Speaker 5: also trying to fit in and like I was always
Speaker 5: kind of like this the weird kid, and so like
Speaker 5: it was just weird, Like I already felt at that
Speaker 5: point like something's wrong and I don't know how to
Speaker 5: deal with it. I don't know who to talk to
Speaker 5: about it. And now it's like, oh no, like I
Speaker 5: just I just need to be like, you know, like
Speaker 5: how would I react if this was like my partner,
Speaker 5: Like like it's just like anger, Like this's just all
Speaker 5: this anger that would come out, And it's like how
Speaker 5: do we how do we confront and how do we
Speaker 5: talk to people about things that we see that are
Speaker 5: they're just not good? How do we bring it up?
Speaker 5: How do we confront them in a way that doesn't
Speaker 5: just like have them ignore us and continue to do
Speaker 5: whatever the you know the hell they are doing. How
Speaker 5: do we actually make them see like this is not okay.
Speaker 5: So it's it's a continuing conversation that I continue to
Speaker 5: have with with a lady Lux and with my with
Speaker 5: my friends, and it's something that it's like every time
Speaker 5: that we talk about it, I'm like I uncover something
Speaker 5: else and I'm like, Yeah, that shouldn't have happened. That
Speaker 5: shouldn't happen. That shouldn't have happened to you when you
Speaker 5: were that age. That shouldn't have happened to me. When
Speaker 5: I was that age, like, and there's so many things
Speaker 5: that I just like, we were just having a conversation today, like, oh,
Speaker 5: like I was just telling her, like something that happened
Speaker 5: to me when I was like much younger, and she's like, yeah,
Speaker 5: that shouldn't have happened. I'm like, you know, what's weird.
Speaker 5: I never thought of that. That never crossed my mind.
Speaker 5: And there's so many of those things, and you know, like,
Speaker 5: how how are we setting up the world in society
Speaker 5: for those that come after us, for those that are
Speaker 5: younger that us, for those that are actually growing up
Speaker 5: right now. Yeah, I feel I feel a certain sense
Speaker 5: of responsibility to do better.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's a tall order to try to to try
Speaker 2: to do better because it's it can really feel like
Speaker 2: you're swimming upstream a lot of the time. But it's
Speaker 2: worth I guess it's worth swimming continuing.
Speaker 1: You know, lots of small conversations can lead to big change.
Speaker 3: That's exactly.
Speaker 1: You've got to have the conversations. It doesn't matter how
Speaker 1: small the conversation is, just it can lead to something
Speaker 1: a lot bigger. So keep having the conversations, looks, keep
Speaker 1: having them.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean, even the fact that you and Lady
Speaker 4: Lux talked about that, and because she told you about
Speaker 4: the website, you now it was on your radar, so
Speaker 4: it could be on the radar for your other male friends.
Speaker 4: Because let me tell you, I don't know one woman
Speaker 4: who hasn't heard about that article even but my husband
Speaker 4: hadn't heard about it either.
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's that's the weird thing about it too. It's
Speaker 5: such a big news. How did I not know it
Speaker 5: had been a few days by then? And and and
Speaker 5: granted I don't spend as much time on social media
Speaker 5: as like other people might, and but like it just
Speaker 5: hit me and I was just like I couldn't believe her,
Speaker 5: Like I was like, what are you? Like, are you serious?
Speaker 5: Like this is like an actual thing, and it just
Speaker 5: it made me scared. Yeah, it made me scared. And
Speaker 5: then it made me just like angry because I feel
Speaker 5: like there's it's just been a barrage of things too
Speaker 5: much at one time. You know, it's a content everything
Speaker 5: is falling apart, and like I think for me, everything
Speaker 5: has just been sort of deconstructed. Yea, And yes, you
Speaker 5: know it started with you know, these these really traditional
Speaker 5: beliefs I held at one point and and that that
Speaker 5: you know, I kind of broke through that and now
Speaker 5: it's like I just feel I was telling her today,
Speaker 5: I just feel like everything, like all of these things
Speaker 5: that we've taken for granted about how society works and
Speaker 5: and just everything is gone. I don't know what's why.
Speaker 5: I feel like I can't trust anyone, and I just
Speaker 5: I feel like maybe I'm just starting to beginning to understand,
Speaker 5: to begin to understand the world, and I don't like it.
Speaker 5: I just don't like it. How can I bring good
Speaker 5: things to the world? And how can I bring good
Speaker 5: things to people who are nearby? Like like what people
Speaker 5: I actually interact with every day, because everyone's going through
Speaker 5: this at the same time. And really, the the real
Speaker 5: effect I have is in the people that I see
Speaker 5: every day, the people that I talk to every day,
Speaker 5: like the people who live next door to me. How
Speaker 5: how can we how can we bring good to the
Speaker 5: world despite so much crap that that we deal with
Speaker 5: on every and on every day basis. So that's been
Speaker 5: sort of my focus, and I try to bring that
Speaker 5: into the space of audio erotica, which sometimes it's weird
Speaker 5: because it's like are you erotica? It's like supposed to
Speaker 5: be really spicy and exciting, and then sometimes it's like, well,
Speaker 5: here I am reading we need the Pooh on Patreon
Speaker 5: because you know it's really soothing, and maybe like doing
Speaker 5: some like sleep aid stuff and like maybe just having
Speaker 5: fun because just I've realized just that being creative is
Speaker 5: sort of a rebellion for me against all the shit
Speaker 5: that I got deal with, because there have been weeks
Speaker 5: when I'm just like I can't I can't sit down
Speaker 5: and be creative right now, Like I feel so so
Speaker 5: much like like what's the point.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think that's a really uncommon feeling, but I mean,
Speaker 2: what's so amazing? This is gonna sound funny, but like
Speaker 2: I know when you said, like you feel like you're
Speaker 2: seeing the world with clear eyes and it pisses you off. Right,
Speaker 2: So that's a great place to be in because that's
Speaker 2: where change begins, right when you when you step out
Speaker 2: from behind the cloud or the blindness or the whatever
Speaker 2: it might be, and you see things and it's like, shit,
Speaker 2: this is something. Shit's really wrong here. It's just it's
Speaker 2: real refreshing to hear. I mean you can just hear
Speaker 2: it every everything that you're saying that you know you're
Speaker 2: you're doing the work on yourself. You're doing the work
Speaker 2: like Smudge said with like having a small conversations lead
Speaker 2: to big change. It's like the more we can do
Speaker 2: for ourselves that we then impact our partners and our
Speaker 2: communities and our and it just keeps growing out and out.
Speaker 2: That when when the world feels like it does now,
Speaker 2: that's all we can do is like it feels like
Speaker 2: joy is resistant, you know, creativity as resistance, all those
Speaker 2: kinds of things. So I think I'm god. I mean,
Speaker 2: I'm really hopeful for the path you're on and hope more.
Speaker 5: Men for.
Speaker 1: It's keeping conversations going, and it's giving us these spaces
Speaker 1: and safe spaces to talk openly about things that we
Speaker 1: haven't been able to for centuries, to be honest. So
Speaker 1: you know, audio erotica may seem such a small stepping
Speaker 1: stone to change, but it's bigger than you think.
Speaker 5: No, I agree. I don't think that there are very
Speaker 5: many spaces that allow for men to really sit with
Speaker 5: the like what what is the experience of women? How
Speaker 5: do women experience Like I was telling my partner this
Speaker 5: the other day, I was like, I don't I've never
Speaker 5: sat down to think about what are their first thoughts,
Speaker 5: Like if I walk into the room being aware of
Speaker 5: the way I move and the way I talk and
Speaker 5: the way I say things and the way I treat
Speaker 5: people like I I'm much more aware of those things
Speaker 5: now than I was before. Before I'd never thought of
Speaker 5: those things. I never thought, oh, she might actually perceive
Speaker 5: me as like maybe maybe it's a threat or maybe
Speaker 5: like the way I speak or the way I move,
Speaker 5: Like I don't know what people's experiences have been in
Speaker 5: their past, and I I have such I've had such
Speaker 5: a great like privilege to not have to worry, like
Speaker 5: I don't worry about someone coming in the room, Like
Speaker 5: I don't feel threatened. I don't feel like scared. I've
Speaker 5: never thought like they're looking at me a certain way.
Speaker 5: I'd never thought like there's so many things that now
Speaker 5: I consider that I never thought of before, And I'm
Speaker 5: just like wow. I remember when, like growing up, it
Speaker 5: was like, oh, consent is a thing like you can
Speaker 5: ask and if they say yes and they're they're enthusiastic
Speaker 5: about it, then it's then it's then it's yes, you know,
Speaker 5: like no means no. For me, it was it was
Speaker 5: just this thing that it made sense to me, but
Speaker 5: I realized for a lot of people it just they
Speaker 5: never really saw it in a way that might have
Speaker 5: might that could be sexy, that could just be part
Speaker 5: of the entire but the part of the experience that
Speaker 5: could enhance the experience, uh, you know, instead of like
Speaker 5: this thing of like, oh, it's going to kill the vibe,
Speaker 5: you know, like what are we gonna do? I'm like, well,
Speaker 5: if you're worried about that, then fuck you dude. Like
Speaker 5: it's like it's like if you're not in amfortable, then
Speaker 5: why the Yeah, it's like why are you doing it?
Speaker 5: So yeah, I think all those things are really important,
Speaker 5: and I think it's opened It's opened a conversation up,
Speaker 5: and for me it's been it's been interesting because also
Speaker 5: it's allowed me to open that conversation up with other
Speaker 5: men that I interact with that I am friends with,
Speaker 5: because sometimes they're curious about it, like you know what, so,
Speaker 5: like you're still doing that thing? Like you know, it's
Speaker 5: like yeah, because I told a few of them and
Speaker 5: and it's like so, so like are you still are
Speaker 5: you still doing that? Like yeah, Like they're like, so, so,
Speaker 5: what's it? What's it like? Like you know, how do
Speaker 5: you feel like, is it is it weird? Like and
Speaker 5: I'm like, no, dude, Like it's so different than than
Speaker 5: what you probably imagined. Like there, it's there's so much
Speaker 5: to it, and there's so there's so much positive to
Speaker 5: it that that you just I don't think you could imagine.
Speaker 5: So I tell them about about things, the things that
Speaker 5: I'm learning and things that i'm I'm working through and
Speaker 5: things that I'm you know, experiencing, and it's it's fun
Speaker 5: and some of them get it, some of them some
Speaker 5: of them maybe kind of don't because they're just not
Speaker 5: in I don't know.
Speaker 3: Exactly exactly.
Speaker 5: I had one of my friends he was like, yeah,
Speaker 5: you know so and said I was asking about you.
Speaker 5: They were like, yeah, is he still out there being
Speaker 5: a porn star? And I'm like, no, that is that
Speaker 5: is not what that is. That is not it. Yeah,
Speaker 5: there's a big difference between those two things.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's really cool that you like get the how
Speaker 2: like you said, how healing the space is because it
Speaker 2: really is. For we hear that all the time in
Speaker 2: the communities that we're in a lot. So you know,
Speaker 2: some some people we speak to the like oh you know, yeah,
Speaker 2: I just make spicy videos or audios and that I'm like,
Speaker 2: you have no idea. We're around hundreds of women in
Speaker 2: these communities talking about the impact that these audiences have on.
Speaker 5: And the truth is, we don't actually know on our end,
Speaker 5: you know, we do know that has an impact, we
Speaker 5: don't know exactly what that impact is. But I think
Speaker 5: I think we're we're we're glad to know that that
Speaker 5: it is being experienced is a positive thing and it
Speaker 5: is healing. And sometimes it's just hearing something that you've
Speaker 5: maybe always needed to hear but you never even knew
Speaker 5: you you needed it, and it's like it comes through
Speaker 5: and or even you know. For me, what's been interesting
Speaker 5: is feeling scripts and noticing how, for example, like arguments
Speaker 5: are written are like or like apologizing for something, and
Speaker 5: I'm like, oh, oh okay, that's that. That's actually really helpful,
Speaker 5: and like like I'm learning from the scripts, I'm learning
Speaker 5: how these dynamics, and so I'm also learning as I'm
Speaker 5: performing things. I'm like, oh, okay, like this is good,
Speaker 5: or maybe something is familiar, like maybe I've had a
Speaker 5: conversation like that before and it's like, oh, this went
Speaker 5: a completely different way and I can see how. I
Speaker 5: can see how and why and how people perceive things differently.
Speaker 5: And I guess that's another thing that's kind of nerve
Speaker 5: wrecking about doing voice acting work, is like, you know,
Speaker 5: when you write something, someone might read it and they
Speaker 5: perceive it based on their lived experience. They come with
Speaker 5: their lived experience to the script or the story, and
Speaker 5: like they interpret it through their own eyes, through their
Speaker 5: own experience, and sometimes it's completely different. Like I came
Speaker 5: at it and I was just completely having fun. It
Speaker 5: was just something that maybe I normally say, and I
Speaker 5: just said it, and you might experience it a certain
Speaker 5: way because of the things that you've experienced through your life,
Speaker 5: and maybe you're open to that particular emotion in a
Speaker 5: safe space where it's like it's just you and your
Speaker 5: headphones and you hear it and you take it in,
Speaker 5: rather than having someone you know immediately in front of
Speaker 5: you or someone you're actually in a relationship with and
Speaker 5: you hear these things. And yeah, So there's just so
Speaker 5: much what I like to call magic that happens between
Speaker 5: me at the mic and a listener with their headphones
Speaker 5: in their context.
Speaker 1: So how do you know when an audio is done
Speaker 1: is there a certain feeling you're chasing when it's completed.
Speaker 1: That's what she said.
Speaker 5: It's hard, it's done. No work's done here. It's difficult
Speaker 5: to know because I almost always are I basically never
Speaker 5: feel like something's done. I get to the point where
Speaker 5: I submit an audio because I think this is good.
Speaker 5: Is it perfect?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 5: But do I have more time? Absolutely not, And I
Speaker 5: need to hit that submit button and I and I
Speaker 5: submit it and then I kind of cringe and I'm like, oh, Okay,
Speaker 5: there it goes, and like I just hope, I hope
Speaker 5: it gets approved. I hope they don't send it back
Speaker 5: for edits. It's it's difficult to know. Especially I think
Speaker 5: that writing my own scripts has gotten me into it's
Speaker 5: It's made me challenge my own perfectionism because I'm like,
Speaker 5: it can't it can't always be the perfect as I
Speaker 5: imagine it to be. It's going to be a little different.
Speaker 5: I also do some where it's just completely improvised, and
Speaker 5: then those I think, I think it's just when I
Speaker 5: feel it, and then I feel it, I feel it
Speaker 5: and I know and it's done. Those are probably the
Speaker 5: easiest in that sense, but once I submit it, I
Speaker 5: think the imposter syndrome is so much higher for completely
Speaker 5: improv stuff than that. I'm just like, oh my god,
Speaker 5: I can't believe I just submitted that. So yeah, it's
Speaker 5: it's I guess, I don't. It depends on the project,
Speaker 5: and it just depends on where I'm at mentally and
Speaker 5: in the space.
Speaker 3: Yeah, how about your style?
Speaker 4: Has that kind of evolved at all since you've been
Speaker 4: doing this now two plus years.
Speaker 5: I don't know. I've always been sort of very chaotic, uh,
Speaker 5: And I like to try different things and do different things.
Speaker 5: Not all my audios are the same type. I like
Speaker 5: to jump around, I think style wise, I don't know.
Speaker 5: I think the main thing that's changed is maybe the
Speaker 5: novelty of it. It's it's not as new to me anymore.
Speaker 5: I was like this excited puppy when I first got in,
Speaker 5: and now I don't think of it the same way.
Speaker 5: It's still it's still exciting. It's just it's just a
Speaker 5: different kind. It's like a different kind of love for
Speaker 5: the work. I think my approach has been to focus
Speaker 5: more on the work. You know. I started on like
Speaker 5: TikTok and like Instagram, and so I realized that at
Speaker 5: some point like these things are taking more time away
Speaker 5: from me and my energy that I want to put
Speaker 5: into creating these things and actually putting the work out
Speaker 5: and like growing. And so I've actually sort of just
Speaker 5: reduced my my media presence, my social media presence to
Speaker 5: just TikTok and Patreon, and I use the rest of
Speaker 5: the time to actually unplug's. That's become sort of something
Speaker 5: that I've I've gotten an habit of I've gotten a
Speaker 5: habit of picking up a book and just reading, and
Speaker 5: I don't want to be out with my phone. I
Speaker 5: just want to just sit down and not do ten
Speaker 5: things at the same time because I'm so like everywhere,
Speaker 5: so scatterbrained, and so I've learned to like I need
Speaker 5: to sit down and go outside and not have anything
Speaker 5: playing and allow my brain to be creative in ways
Speaker 5: that maybe have nothing to do with audio erotica, so
Speaker 5: that when I get into it, like I'm fresh and
Speaker 5: I'm refreshed and I can jump into things. Another thing
Speaker 5: with social media I had to back off from it
Speaker 5: was just there's so much shit online and it's like
Speaker 5: and like I can't open up my phone and just
Speaker 5: be hit with things. It's almost like they've taken away
Speaker 5: our ability to choose what we want to see and
Speaker 5: what we expose ourselves to, and they're just like throwing
Speaker 5: things at us, and it's like no, no, I can't
Speaker 5: do that anymore. I also want to stay informed. So
Speaker 5: it's like this weird like balance I have to strike.
Speaker 5: But I know myself and I know how sensitive I
Speaker 5: am to things, and I don't want that to carry
Speaker 5: into my work because I want my work to be
Speaker 5: something that is positive, and I want to be able
Speaker 5: to get into the booth and be like be here,
Speaker 5: be present, because this these are the things that I
Speaker 5: can actually control.
Speaker 2: It is always a a conundrum of like, you know,
Speaker 2: I don't want to bury my head in the sand,
Speaker 2: but listen, we couldn't bury our heads in the sand
Speaker 2: if we tried these days, Like it's just we're always
Speaker 2: gonna find out. I'm gonna because I mean I hadn't.
Speaker 2: It's been years since I've watched the news. I just
Speaker 2: don't because I'm the same. I'm way too sensitive. I'm
Speaker 2: like I am a sensitive sponge. It's incredibly empathetic, and
Speaker 2: it's it's a heavy road to carry, and so I
Speaker 2: have to just protect my piece and I'm gonna find
Speaker 2: out what's going on, of course, But like you said,
Speaker 2: look when you when you go in the booth and create,
Speaker 2: Like I believe when any artist creates anything, whether it's
Speaker 2: an audio in here, whether it's a book that they
Speaker 2: write or piece of music, the energy with which you
Speaker 2: create that is also communicated to the end user. So
Speaker 2: I can appreciate wanting to go into the booth with
Speaker 2: energy that's not toxic from social media. Yeah, and more clear,
Speaker 2: because that's that's gonna come across the audio.
Speaker 1: You know, agreed, What's one thing after this time? You
Speaker 1: wish people understood about the space or you.
Speaker 5: I saw recently a post someone wrote something I don't
Speaker 5: remember where I saw it, something about celebrities exist in
Speaker 5: a space that isn't real. There's this weird space that
Speaker 5: people put you on, like a pedestal or something, because
Speaker 5: you know, you're a creator or some sort or you're
Speaker 5: in a particular platform and all of a sudden, there's
Speaker 5: like this aura around you. I guess I just I
Speaker 5: just like people to realize that, Like we're human. I
Speaker 5: think that's that's the biggest thing for me. Like we're human,
Speaker 5: we have feelings, we are not like these super human
Speaker 5: people or these celebrities, Like we deal with shit day
Speaker 5: in and day out. We do so much other things
Speaker 5: that are just like you. Everyone is. I think, you know,
Speaker 5: everyone has like this intrinsic value. But like, I don't
Speaker 5: want to be put on a pedestal because it's it's
Speaker 5: just not good. It's just not good for us as vas.
Speaker 5: It's not good for listeners or the audiences to put
Speaker 5: us in a certain pedestal. I grew up being put
Speaker 5: on a pedestal, and I just do not want it
Speaker 5: as well. So we I appreciate, you know, anonymity, and
Speaker 5: I appreciate the respect that I've received from the community,
Speaker 5: and I want to also give that respect as well
Speaker 5: to my audience who have been very generous in supporting
Speaker 5: me and just you know, listening and being fun. You know,
Speaker 5: like if I were just saying, I say it a
Speaker 5: lot like take care of yourselves, because you know, I
Speaker 5: know a lot of us are constantly online, and it's
Speaker 5: like it's so easy to ignore the things that you
Speaker 5: actually do need in your life and I don't know,
Speaker 5: fill it up with other things that take up your time.
Speaker 5: I have become very aware of that in my own life,
Speaker 5: and so I just I guess I just want to
Speaker 5: share that with people. I've always just wanted to be
Speaker 5: a source of inspiration and a source of something good
Speaker 5: in the world. And what we each of us does
Speaker 5: affects other people that we might not even know. And
Speaker 5: so I think that's helped me to commit myself to
Speaker 5: like improving me. I think if we if we want
Speaker 5: to change things, you got to change ourselves. And mm hmmm,
Speaker 5: that's sometimes the most the hardest thing to do, right, Like.
Speaker 2: It's the hardest thing to do so different.
Speaker 5: So for those of you who are working on yourselves,
Speaker 5: more power to you, you.
Speaker 3: Know, do keep going, keep going with different.
Speaker 1: Some of us like pine up on our pizzasn't a wrong.
Speaker 4: Yeah, you know, I feel like we're tied because luck
Speaker 4: and I think that's good.
Speaker 3: But Kas has never had that.
Speaker 2: You've never had that totally on too, though, Like I'm
Speaker 2: I'm in for it.
Speaker 3: Well next time you okay, oh my.
Speaker 4: God, I'm so nervous, just gonna slipper or some money
Speaker 4: to say the wrong thing.
Speaker 2: You'll see, Like here we are on Tuesday, Like this
Speaker 2: is you guys, didn't think you were getting a therapy
Speaker 2: Tuesday today, right, and here here comes Lux in to
Speaker 2: save to therapy.
Speaker 1: Kaza goes to therapy every Tuesday.
Speaker 2: They get excited because after my therapy session, I will
Speaker 2: leave them a voicemail with a debrief of what I
Speaker 2: learned that day. So now I didn't know how much
Speaker 2: they've come to rely on it. Yes, we have fucking therapists.
Speaker 4: A voice note, it will be like, that's not you're
Speaker 4: talking about therapy.
Speaker 3: Get out of here.
Speaker 1: We had hairdresser Tuesday the week and I was like,
Speaker 1: what the hell was going on? That's not what I it's.
Speaker 2: You guys should chip in from my se Then lux
Speaker 2: came in and saved the day because I didn't. We
Speaker 2: didn't have therapy Tuesday today, But yes we did. Thank
Speaker 2: you Loox.
Speaker 1: Therapy Tuesday, tack Tuesday. It's fine. It was meant to be.
Speaker 5: Sometimes I'm afraid that I give to card flash.
Speaker 1: That's how my brain works. Look, that was just a nave, genuinely.
Speaker 2: Okay to Oh my god, this is like I could
Speaker 2: talk like this all day long. Hey, so the listener
Speaker 2: questions first, Before we get to the questions, we had
Speaker 2: someone who submitted a comment that we're going to share.
Speaker 2: So this is from La Nuna. Luna won't be asked
Speaker 2: a question. She said, he reads poetry the way it's
Speaker 2: meant to be read, with sincerity, emotion, and vulnerability, and
Speaker 2: I love that I can feel all of that in
Speaker 2: his other audios too. I also appreciate that he doesn't
Speaker 2: go too over the top with them. They're mostly grounded,
Speaker 2: slice of life scenarios that feel honest and real. I
Speaker 2: never fully lose the awareness that they're scripted, but I
Speaker 2: can still easily and comfortably place myself in those scenes
Speaker 2: and forget the world for a few minutes. There's beauty
Speaker 2: and quiet moments and everyday routines, and he really seems
Speaker 2: to understand that.
Speaker 3: So well, mm hmmm, beautiful.
Speaker 5: It's very nice.
Speaker 2: But really take that in like I think, I think
Speaker 2: it really encapsulates your audio.
Speaker 4: Your work.
Speaker 5: That's yeah, yeah, that's absolutely thank you, Thank you.
Speaker 3: All right.
Speaker 4: Our first question is from Kylie. Were you surprised at
Speaker 4: the reactions to you using Spanish in your audios?
Speaker 5: I didn't. I didn't know. I didn't know how people
Speaker 5: would react to it. I I feel like I took
Speaker 5: a creative risk to use Spanish in my audios. I
Speaker 5: think the first time that I used Spanish in an audio,
Speaker 5: I think it was a full Spanish audio. I was
Speaker 5: scared shitless. I didn't know what would happen, but yeah,
Speaker 5: I was. I was very surprised by the reception and
Speaker 5: the just a general feedback that I got from people.
Speaker 5: I feel like a lot of people felt seen and
Speaker 5: that was really incredible. And it was also for me
Speaker 5: a moment of learning to accept that side of myself.
Speaker 5: Not that I necessarily rejected it, but I mean I
Speaker 5: am I am a son of immigrants in the United States,
Speaker 5: and growing up, Spanish was just not something you wanted
Speaker 5: to speak in public or at school or you know.
Speaker 5: It was There's a certain warmth to it because it
Speaker 5: comes from the sense of home, but also it's something
Speaker 5: that is looked down upon elsewhere. So just doing that,
Speaker 5: I wanted to do it because I knew that there
Speaker 5: would be people who would feel seen by it, but
Speaker 5: I also didn't I was scared because I was like,
Speaker 5: I don't know if I'm going to do this well
Speaker 5: because I've never listened to Spanish audio. Eeronica, Like, there's
Speaker 5: certain things I don't know how to say, Like you
Speaker 5: know how to portray, but Yeah, it was really exciting
Speaker 5: and I was really like it was really nerve wrecking,
Speaker 5: but to see the feedback and the reception felt very
Speaker 5: almost kind of healing, like this is also part of
Speaker 5: who I am and it's good.
Speaker 1: And Yeah, We've got a couple of questions about guitar,
Speaker 1: so I'm gonna put them both in one. So from
Speaker 1: Missus p Zoo and from Real Ali Cat. So Missus says,
Speaker 1: have you thought about playing more guitar in your audios?
Speaker 1: And Real Ali Kat says, what's your favorite song to
Speaker 1: perform on the guitar?
Speaker 5: Okay, So I have thought about playing guitar in an
Speaker 5: audio and that might be happening pretty soon. I have
Speaker 5: a project I'm working on that will include guitar playing.
Speaker 5: My favorite thing to play on the guitar. I like
Speaker 5: to just sort of improvise on the guitar, and I
Speaker 5: think this is what's maybe different. Guitar has always been
Speaker 5: sort of a self soothing thing for me, and I
Speaker 5: think I realized that recently. But I've been playing guitar
Speaker 5: for a very very long time, since I was like thirteen,
Speaker 5: twelve thirteen. I don't know, for me, playing guitar feels
Speaker 5: It's like it's self soothing because I get to kind
Speaker 5: of just get into a flow state where I'm not
Speaker 5: thinking about things. I'm feeling things. And as someone who
Speaker 5: kind of always repressed emotions, to be able to express
Speaker 5: it in that way was just helpful. And there's also
Speaker 5: something very soothing about feeling like that, the vibration of
Speaker 5: the instrument on your body. Those are just things that
Speaker 5: I liked, and those that's what makes it my favorite
Speaker 5: thing to do. So I don't have a particular thing
Speaker 5: that I always play. I like to play things, but
Speaker 5: I don't often go out of my way to learn
Speaker 5: something new, like a popular song or anything like that.
Speaker 5: To perform, it's usually just me sitting with the guitar
Speaker 5: or like feeling just the sound. Sometimes I'll just sit
Speaker 5: in the room, like with the lights off, like at night,
Speaker 5: and just like play in the dark. Like that's kind
Speaker 5: of what I like to do. I did play in
Speaker 5: a few bands and I got that experience too, But
Speaker 5: my favorite and absolute favorite thing to do is is
Speaker 5: like shut the lights off, just shut the mind down
Speaker 5: and just like focus on sound. That's that's what I
Speaker 5: thought I would be doing. I thought I would become
Speaker 5: a musician. I thought this is what I was gonna do.
Speaker 5: I didn't think I would be doing like audio erotica stuff,
Speaker 5: but I realized there there's sort of a crossover of like,
Speaker 5: you know, like really focusing on the emotion of things
Speaker 5: and allowing myself to flow in that.
Speaker 2: So, yeah, that's well.
Speaker 1: If I could put in a guitar request for you,
Speaker 1: seven Spanish een jels by Woody Nelson.
Speaker 2: Specific it's one of my favorite.
Speaker 1: It's one of my favorite guitar when I hear the
Speaker 1: guitar because it's got that Spanish fine country five no
Speaker 1: no Spanish and country type five.
Speaker 5: Yeah, Spanish angels.
Speaker 2: I mean, we haven't seeing a lot of your guitar
Speaker 2: TikTok slately. We were saying before you arrived that it
Speaker 2: was like all of a sudden. Maybe it's not all
Speaker 2: of a sudden, but like we're seeing more of you
Speaker 2: on social media, posting more in general on social media.
Speaker 5: I'm posting more on TikTok.
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, because I'm like, we're seeing more about off.
Speaker 2: It's just because it was the guitar that found its
Speaker 2: way to me.
Speaker 3: Lots of FIP, which was it right, right, that's so funny.
Speaker 5: Exactly which one was it. I think that I've changed
Speaker 5: my approach towards social media. I think TikTok itself is
Speaker 5: just a really different beast, and I just wanted it
Speaker 5: to be something positive. Music to me is it's kind
Speaker 5: of just a big light to me, like in my life.
Speaker 5: So I just I'm like, yeah, this is still kind
Speaker 5: of shock in all people because I'm an erotic voice actor,
Speaker 5: but you're not even hearing my voice. I'm just like
Speaker 5: playing guitar. I'm just gonna I'm just gonna play guitar
Speaker 5: for you, Like that's essentially what I'm doing. I'm gonna
Speaker 5: show up on your scream, I'm gonna play a tar
Speaker 5: for you, and I just play. And it's also because
Speaker 5: it's not something that I don't think a lot of
Speaker 5: people knew that I did. It's one of these funny
Speaker 5: things about me that I don't immediately share with people
Speaker 5: that I play guitar. I think a lady Lex didn't
Speaker 5: know I played guitar to like a long time after
Speaker 5: she like we met, and it was just something that
Speaker 5: I didn't want to like lead with and I just
Speaker 5: decided I'm just gonna try this out. I think she
Speaker 5: was in the room when I started playing, and I
Speaker 5: was like, I think I'm going to record this, and
Speaker 5: she's like, yeah, go for it, and I just hit
Speaker 5: record and that the room was a little dark so
Speaker 5: you could just barely see me, and I'm I'm literally
Speaker 5: just playing around like I didn't get into a performance
Speaker 5: mode or anything. I just and even like the video
Speaker 5: is a little dark, you just see my hand. I
Speaker 5: didn't know how people would react to that.
Speaker 6: You do now.
Speaker 5: And now I'm like, oh, okay, this is this could
Speaker 5: be a thing, like I could just continue doing this
Speaker 5: and I and and the reactions and comments and everything,
Speaker 5: I'm like, wow, I didn't think people will react this
Speaker 5: way because this isn't this isn't audio erotica related at all.
Speaker 1: Women, not everything is all about exactly.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean yeah.
Speaker 3: But but it looks really.
Speaker 2: Nice and it's clear. I mean it's so clear. It's
Speaker 2: so clear that you you play guitar so well. You
Speaker 2: could tell just by the way that you play like
Speaker 2: he's this is not someone who sucks around with guitar
Speaker 2: like he plays. You could just really tell.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you don't play guitar, like well, you speak Spanish
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna throw this in because somebody, somebody, somebody
Speaker 1: sent in a question in Spanish, and I think each
Speaker 1: one of us should say it in our own like whatever,
Speaker 1: and if you understand it, and if you understand any
Speaker 1: of it from any of us, so we'll each say
Speaker 1: it what it's written down. I got clue, and then
Speaker 1: you can see which one you understand.
Speaker 2: Oh okay, great, all right? Tiennis planiado a Tiennis planniados
Speaker 2: audios and Espaniel Quin.
Speaker 4: Jules tienna is plannado as ser mass adios and Espaniel Quin.
Speaker 3: That's gonna win.
Speaker 1: Smudge, Tiens planiado hayeser mass audios on Espano para quin.
Speaker 5: That was That was the best one.
Speaker 1: Thank you.
Speaker 5: I knew.
Speaker 1: Had that hit that brit.
Speaker 3: There you go, you got it.
Speaker 2: Let me Do you have mm hmm plans mm hmmm
Speaker 2: something more ado?
Speaker 5: You guys got it? Yeah? Uh. I don't have uh
Speaker 5: like a script rate to go or anything, but I
Speaker 5: do plan to do more audios in Spanish for Quinn.
Speaker 5: I don't know that I'll do a full Spanish audio
Speaker 5: because I I do want my audience to understand, so
Speaker 5: I think bi lingual audios is my way to go.
Speaker 5: I'm not ruling out full Spanish audience in the future,
Speaker 5: but I don't have any plans to do one there yet.
Speaker 5: I want to be as genuine as possible, and I
Speaker 5: think the last bilingual ones that I've done are the
Speaker 5: most genuine to me because it's my lived experience. Bilingual
Speaker 5: communication with a partner in my context in the US
Speaker 5: is where I'm at, and it's the most genuine to me,
Speaker 5: So that's that's why.
Speaker 1: But yeah, I mean, yeah, as you can see, I
Speaker 1: mean all three of us were basically fluent.
Speaker 5: Yes, exactly, changes from place to place, exactly.
Speaker 3: There's a dialect.
Speaker 1: There's a tiny pocket in spin understood what I said.
Speaker 2: No, there's not in your audio, CLO is that how
Speaker 2: you pronounced it? That was a beautiful use of the
Speaker 2: built because even the parts of it where you're speaking Spanish,
Speaker 2: you know what's happening in the scene, even without being
Speaker 2: able to translate the words. So that was really yeah,
Speaker 2: And that was a powerful audio anyway, like Jesus so
Speaker 2: powerful the statement of the world, you know.
Speaker 5: Thanks, Yeah, that was yeah, yeah, that was I didn't
Speaker 5: know how people would react to that one either, but
Speaker 5: I felt it was needed. I just needed something that
Speaker 5: I also needed to do. But yeah, I think that
Speaker 5: that is the bilingual context that I'm most comfortable in.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. Yeah, And I guess we kind of like
Speaker 2: spoken code. Like, So for listeners who haven't heard that
Speaker 2: audio yet, could you just give like a quick snippet
Speaker 2: about what the plot, what it's about.
Speaker 5: Yeah. I think it was released in June of last year.
Speaker 5: I don't quite remember, but we were experiencing some really,
Speaker 5: some really tough times. It was sort of the first
Speaker 5: time that ICE was out there picking people up from
Speaker 5: different places. It's just a completely different way of enforcing policies,
Speaker 5: I guess. And I didn't want to make something that
Speaker 5: was outright political. I wanted to make something that was
Speaker 5: very human and it was really it was really difficult
Speaker 5: for me to get into the creative headspace at that time,
Speaker 5: and I think that what helped me get there was
Speaker 5: just thinking, I'm just going to tell a story of
Speaker 5: things that we are actually experiencing and how people, real life,
Speaker 5: every day people are experiencing it, and how it's affecting
Speaker 5: our lives. Because like it or not, it's happening, and
Speaker 5: it's happening to us, and it's happening in our communities,
Speaker 5: and I just want to invite you to walk in
Speaker 5: our shoes for about twenty minutes. And that was that
Speaker 5: because I didn't know how else to express it. I
Speaker 5: think that there is power in people being able to
Speaker 5: understand the experiences of others, even if it's not their
Speaker 5: own lived experience. I didn't want to take the route
Speaker 5: of arguing against something or just yelling and screaming about something.
Speaker 5: I wanted to have you walk in our shoes. And
Speaker 5: so the story just surrounds a couple who are having
Speaker 5: these conversations that like everyday normal people that I knew
Speaker 5: were having, including myself, of like, hey, you know, so
Speaker 5: and so is really scared about this, and it's really
Speaker 5: they're really anxious about it, and they're afraid to leave
Speaker 5: their home even though they are they're fine, like they
Speaker 5: shouldn't be worried or scared about this happening to them,
Speaker 5: but there's just so much fear and uncertainty around it.
Speaker 5: And you know, my partner in the audio asking me like, hey,
Speaker 5: like are you carrying your documentation with you? And I'm like,
Speaker 5: why the fuck do I need to carry documentation? Like
Speaker 5: I don't need to, Like I don't need to worry
Speaker 5: about this at all, and yet here we are worrying
Speaker 5: about it and and it's affecting us. And so that's
Speaker 5: that's where it came from. But I also wanted to
Speaker 5: have that aspect of I guess for me, my culture
Speaker 5: is very like we can get through anything, and there's
Speaker 5: this aspect of we can we can joke about things,
Speaker 5: and we can have fun even in these moments of
Speaker 5: a complete uncertainty. And so that that's what that audio
Speaker 5: kind of invites the listener into. And as it progresses,
Speaker 5: it it goes from like this nervous, anxious state to
Speaker 5: more of like, Okay, we're just gonna have time together
Speaker 5: and have fun and we're gonna get sexy with each
Speaker 5: other and like whatever, you know. And then I ended
Speaker 5: on a note of again kind of bringing it back
Speaker 5: to reality. There's a there's a there's a knock at
Speaker 5: the door, and then all of a sudden, we're back
Speaker 5: to where we were at at the beginning. And it's
Speaker 5: just like I felt that I really needed to do that,
Speaker 5: And again, I didn't know how it would be received.
Speaker 5: I didn't know. I just don't know, you know, because
Speaker 5: it's such a divisive issue. I don't think it should be,
Speaker 5: but it is.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 5: Yeah, so and also it's like does it does it
Speaker 5: even belong in audio erotica again? You know? And I
Speaker 5: feel like I continue to find ways to I just
Speaker 5: want to be real. Yeah, And I guess that's that
Speaker 5: was the best way to do it for me, And
Speaker 5: it was also the best way to kind of kick
Speaker 5: my creative mind back in the gear, because I really
Speaker 5: did feel this sense of not safe and you kind
Speaker 5: of have to be in a safe headspace to be
Speaker 5: able to create. And that's not something that's completely gone
Speaker 5: for me, but it. I guess we've learned to deal
Speaker 5: with it, to manage the anxieties and fears that maybe
Speaker 5: we grew up as kids and thinking like, oh my god, gosh,
Speaker 5: I'm going to get home from school one day, my
Speaker 5: parents are not going to be there. Those things that
Speaker 5: we sort of outgrew and we became adults, and now
Speaker 5: we see it happening to others. It still kind of
Speaker 5: triggers this like fear. But uh, I think that's another
Speaker 5: reason why I've sort of focused on here, like here
Speaker 5: with myself here at home, here with like my actual
Speaker 5: like neighbor, like my neighborhood, my community, you know, the
Speaker 5: people who I actually talk to, And so you know,
Speaker 5: I don't say what I do or or what I'm
Speaker 5: working on on like the internet or social media or whatever,
Speaker 5: like I don't you know, I want to. I guess,
Speaker 5: lead with action, and lead with love, and lead with understanding,
Speaker 5: and lead with this openness to change and to understanding
Speaker 5: other people and to understanding that people on both sides
Speaker 5: are human and that honoring that is It's something that
Speaker 5: requires a certain sense of courage and strength. And yeah,
Speaker 5: there's there's a lot. I don't talk about this very
Speaker 5: often because it does reach very deep into who I
Speaker 5: am as a person, and I think that myself, as
Speaker 5: many others are, I hope hopeful still that that good
Speaker 5: can happen and that humans can remember that we are
Speaker 5: all on the same planet at the same time, and
Speaker 5: that we are sharing this world together. And it's like
Speaker 5: watching the Artemis Mission and then them, you know, like
Speaker 5: shooting off to the moon and whatever. Like the most
Speaker 5: impressive thing for me was being able to look back
Speaker 5: on Earth and being like, we're all on this thing together,
Speaker 5: We're all experiencing tragic things. Why can't we just look
Speaker 5: beyond ourselves and yes, and just why, you know, and
Speaker 5: I want to continue to be optimistic and sometimes that's
Speaker 5: really difficult to do, but I do see the value
Speaker 5: in that. And I think that creativity is a rebellion
Speaker 5: against this dystopian hopelessness that is so pervasive. And I
Speaker 5: don't want to I don't want to add more to that.
Speaker 5: I don't want to add any more toxicity to the
Speaker 5: It's just so much like, let's just not do that anymore.
Speaker 5: And I want to do something that is going to
Speaker 5: be healing, and obviously that begins with me and then words.
Speaker 5: So that's that's I don't even remember what the question was, but.
Speaker 1: Yeah, well, to be fair, we normally ask our you know, guests,
Speaker 1: a final question about what is sexual freedom? But to
Speaker 1: be fair, like happy that we've just talked about general
Speaker 1: freedom and I think that covered in its entirety for me.
Speaker 1: How about you?
Speaker 2: Yeah, thank you for the really thoughtful work you put
Speaker 2: out there. It matters and it hits, so thanks, yeah, thanks,
Speaker 2: thanks for the internality behind it.
Speaker 1: It's been a journey, oh my god, really amazing one,
Speaker 1: an amazing conversation.
Speaker 3: So amazing, Oh my gosh.
Speaker 1: We went everywhere I love it.
Speaker 3: I love it.
Speaker 1: It's been a genuine pleasure and thank you so much
Speaker 1: for your honesty, your vulnerability.
Speaker 5: Thanks for having me, thanks for inviting me.
Speaker 2: Oh thanks for accepting the invitations. But really, such such
Speaker 2: a pleasure. You have a Patreon, I know because I'm
Speaker 2: in it. Can you share a little bit about what
Speaker 2: goes on in there so people know what is what
Speaker 2: waits them?
Speaker 5: Yeah, so the Patreon. Honestly, it's like I'm inviting you
Speaker 5: to my living room where I come in and hang
Speaker 5: out with you guys, and I create stuff that maybe
Speaker 5: is not necessarily stuff that you would to hear on Quinn.
Speaker 5: I do have like the group chat that's on there.
Speaker 5: You don't have to actually be in the group chat.
Speaker 5: You can choose to be on it or not, and
Speaker 5: that's totally fine. But I do share updates on like, Hey,
Speaker 5: I'm working on this audio for this week, and like,
Speaker 5: what do you guys think about this? I think for
Speaker 5: let me take care of you. I did ask you know,
Speaker 5: what are some like I like to have some like
Speaker 5: audience or listener feedback, Like what are some of the
Speaker 5: things that you would feel are really comforting that could
Speaker 5: be an audio erotica, and I just kind of took
Speaker 5: some of those ideas and ran with them. I read
Speaker 5: safer work things, I read poetry, I read books. I've
Speaker 5: been reading Winnie the Pooh, but I got to do
Speaker 5: all the voices and stuff, and some people really love that.
Speaker 5: I've been working on getting some music recorded so I
Speaker 5: can I can post it there, so like I have
Speaker 5: things on TikTok to maybe like a minute long or
Speaker 5: thirty seconds or whatever, so I have like longer content
Speaker 5: on there. It's honestly, like I said, for me, it's
Speaker 5: it's a place where I get to go and be
Speaker 5: creative in maybe a little bit of a different way.
Speaker 5: There is there. There still are like you know, spicy
Speaker 5: audios on there, but it's not the only thing that
Speaker 5: I do. So when I first started Patreon, I was
Speaker 5: so like intimidated by it because I'm like, I don't
Speaker 5: exactly how do you do this? I don't know what
Speaker 5: people are expecting, Like, I don't know. So yeah, I
Speaker 5: mean I think it's all just a lot of fun
Speaker 5: and I get to be kind of spontaneous and creative.
Speaker 5: We recently did a haiku writing challenge and I got
Speaker 5: to read everyone's Haiku's and it's just it's just fun.
Speaker 5: It's been a really great space. It's been really fun.
Speaker 5: I enjoy I enjoy the little community there. So basically,
Speaker 5: like I don't I'm not posting like every day on
Speaker 5: social media, but I do go on Patreon and I
Speaker 5: try to like basically, that's my that's my space. I'll
Speaker 5: post photos of my pets and maybe coffee or what
Speaker 5: I'm writing that that week.
Speaker 2: So and you do have some poetry poetry?
Speaker 5: Yes?
Speaker 3: Sorry, do I have something stuck in my ear? I
Speaker 3: didn't hear the first letter in that word.
Speaker 5: A poet poetry.
Speaker 3: Yes, it's freaking awesome.
Speaker 2: It's so good that it is.
Speaker 1: I don't need the explain if it's exactly what I think.
Speaker 5: Is that is exactly it?
Speaker 1: I can't.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but it's a fun space. And it's so funny
Speaker 2: because like you're I mean, I didn't know you had
Speaker 2: a Patreon at all until you posted a guitar TikTok
Speaker 2: of all things there, and I was like, because obviously
Speaker 2: I comment on every guitar one because I love it.
Speaker 2: But you said something like, oh yeah, there's even more
Speaker 2: of this on my Patreon. I'm like, what, there's a
Speaker 2: patre music. So it's one of those like you know,
Speaker 2: you guys know Patreon, right, like, let me hop on
Speaker 2: for a month and check. I'm like, oh, I'm home.
Speaker 2: The people are so sweet in there, and like, yeah,
Speaker 2: it's just thinking guitar king. Oh my god, I love no,
Speaker 2: I just feel music deeply smudge.
Speaker 1: I don't think you're supposed to do that with the guitar.
Speaker 5: But well, I am, I am glad, I am glad
Speaker 5: you joined, and I'm I'm glad that you that you
Speaker 5: have had a good experience. I think everyone there is,
Speaker 5: they're they're great. I don't post about Patreon as often.
Speaker 5: I guess what I want people to know about Patreon.
Speaker 5: Something I would lead with is it's not just exclusively
Speaker 5: spicy things. It's a space for me to be creative
Speaker 5: and interactive and that's where most of that happens. And
Speaker 5: so if you do like the guitar playing, if you
Speaker 5: do like the poetry and the writing and the chaotic creativity,
Speaker 5: that's where it's at.
Speaker 1: Look, it's been brilliant.
Speaker 5: Thank you so brilliant, Thank you, thank you for having We.
Speaker 1: Can't wait to have you back on.
Speaker 3: Yes, please with the guitar.
Speaker 5: A guitar game.
Speaker 2: Thanks loxing your lunch hours more than over.
Speaker 1: Yes, sorry, get back to work.
Speaker 5: I gotta get back to the ground.
Speaker 1: Enjoy the rest of you want.
Speaker 5: Thank you, bye bye.
Speaker 4: All Right, So that was looks it was, Oh my gosh,
Speaker 4: I didn't want to stop talking.
Speaker 3: That was I mean, that went so many different ways, but.
Speaker 2: It was so deep and like, it was so deep
Speaker 2: it was, I mean, he really gets the power of
Speaker 2: this work and the intentionality puts into it. I don't know,
Speaker 2: I was obsessed.
Speaker 4: Even he's just hearing someone someone that we're chatting with,
Speaker 4: talking about how he's changed talking to his friends.
Speaker 3: Outside of the space.
Speaker 4: Right, Oh my god, that was wonderful to hear and
Speaker 4: just to have him kind of not go down a
Speaker 4: rabbit hole about it, but just be so so so
Speaker 4: interested in wanting to make that difference with his male friends.
Speaker 2: Huge, I mean massive, really massive that he's yeah, that
Speaker 2: he he wants to make such a difference that he's
Speaker 2: doing his own work. And then yeah, pastoral long to
Speaker 2: friends and community.
Speaker 1: And exactly told you, small conversations lead to big changes
Speaker 1: and lovely.
Speaker 2: Yeah, well it's a big conversation that will lead to
Speaker 2: big changes.
Speaker 3: Here you go.
Speaker 2: Thanks once. We can't wait to have you back. All right, cliticians,
Speaker 2: we hope you enjoyed our conversation with Lux as much
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Speaker 2: But yeah, we'll be back soon with another great episode.
Speaker 2: For now, this has been Caza. Your voice matters.
Speaker 3: This has been Jules. Go put those lips to good
Speaker 3: use
Speaker 1: And this has been so much Keep winking