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<v Speaker 1>Lux be a VI eight tonight was a bit vagasy

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<v Speaker 1>brat pack. I'm a brat really.

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<v Speaker 2>Think I think you're thinking of the rat tag. But

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<v Speaker 2>for you.

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<v Speaker 3>Rat tag.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, when I realized who we were speaking to today,

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<v Speaker 1>I just had Vegas in my head for some reason,

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<v Speaker 1>I have that song.

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<v Speaker 3>Why Why would you have that stuck in your head?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, why would I jews?

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<v Speaker 4>Maybe because it sounds a lot like the va we're

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<v Speaker 4>talking to today. Because we're talking to Lux today, you're.

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<v Speaker 1>Duck Gonna looks Prince, which is like one name looks

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<v Speaker 1>just checks slick.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's tell our Clitticiens a little bit about Lux, shall

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<v Speaker 2>we so. Lux has been a Quinn Audio creator for

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<v Speaker 2>over two years. As an anonymous creator, he loves to

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<v Speaker 2>think of himself as an international man of mystery.

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<v Speaker 4>Known for stirring his coffee with the same fingers he

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<v Speaker 4>uses to coax magic from his guitar and other things hint, hint,

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<v Speaker 4>and for producing what his listeners generously call growls.

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<v Speaker 1>Loux is not afraid to try new things or to

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<v Speaker 1>experiment and see what happens. Chaos is his best friend, music,

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<v Speaker 1>his confidante, tacos, his favorite.

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<v Speaker 4>Meal, Okay, I have to say, and I really hate

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<v Speaker 4>playing favorites. This might be the best bio we have

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<v Speaker 4>ever got from.

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<v Speaker 2>A pretty good bio.

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<v Speaker 4>It's so fun and I love it.

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<v Speaker 2>This bio is Muibian right.

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<v Speaker 1>First off, I'm not ambidient extress, but tacos favorite mail?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you know what? I genuinely don't think I've ever

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<v Speaker 1>had a taco. If I don't know, I haven't, I've

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<v Speaker 1>never had a taco.

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<v Speaker 4>I had a taco earlier today in honor of Lux. Yes,

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<v Speaker 4>of course, of course you got to prepare. That's for

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<v Speaker 4>science as well. You know, we've done a really good

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<v Speaker 4>job not making a joke about tacos right now.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, we are doing it right. We're saving it for Lux.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, we're just God, the professionalism is just amazing, isn't it.

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<v Speaker 1>Should we bring them in and talk talk all things taco.

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<v Speaker 2>Come on in, luck, We're welcome.

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<v Speaker 1>Looks, how are you?

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<v Speaker 5>I am good? You know? It is a fine Tuesday? Correct?

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<v Speaker 5>Is I had to look it up?

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<v Speaker 2>Look?

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<v Speaker 3>Is it.

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<v Speaker 1>Time?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you do this full time?

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<v Speaker 3>Looks?

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<v Speaker 5>No? I do not? Okay, Yeah, I'm actually on like

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<v Speaker 5>a break. I have a kind of an extended lunch break. Oh,

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<v Speaker 5>so I have a full time job that is not this,

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<v Speaker 5>and I do this when I make time to do this,

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<v Speaker 5>because obviously this is so much more fun and I

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<v Speaker 5>absolutely wanted to talk to you, so I said, yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>let's let's do this now. But yeah, no, this is

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<v Speaker 5>not this. This is not my full time job. I

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<v Speaker 5>wish it was. Hopefully we'll get there someday soon.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, well, we are very happy that you have

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<v Speaker 1>taken time out of your lunch to spend your time

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<v Speaker 1>with us.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>You know what's really fun, Lucks is we like to

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<v Speaker 2>start off warming up our guests with a little game.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, that's the intimidating part.

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<v Speaker 2>This is going to be so up your street. You

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<v Speaker 2>have nothing to worry about here.

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<v Speaker 5>I wanted to go to hit me with I have

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<v Speaker 5>no idea.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, okay, well here we go. So we'll tell you

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<v Speaker 2>about the game what it is, and then we will

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<v Speaker 2>ask for your consent because that's important, and then we'll

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<v Speaker 2>dive in and you will wow us with your knowledge.

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<v Speaker 5>You will.

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<v Speaker 2>It's gonna be so happy with yours. What the game is? Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>So the game is called Taco about Trivia. Oh god,

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<v Speaker 2>So we're going to ask you some trivia questions about tacos. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>I mean they're your favorite food according to your bio.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, yes, and it's Taco Tuesday, so yeah, let's

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<v Speaker 5>go for it.

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<v Speaker 1>What it is.

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<v Speaker 2>You realize that? Okay, here we go, see how much

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<v Speaker 2>you really love tacos.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm still scared.

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<v Speaker 3>Wait did we ask you for your consent? Actually?

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<v Speaker 2>Did we?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know?

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<v Speaker 2>Did you want to play?

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<v Speaker 5>Yes? I do. I'm terrified, shaken in my boots.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, so the first question, yes, what are the two

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<v Speaker 2>most common taco shell types?

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<v Speaker 5>Taco shell types like the corn tortilla taco shell? Mm hmmm, yeah, you're.

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<v Speaker 2>Ever getting more specific than you need to.

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<v Speaker 5>Well, you know that's it's like there's there's like the

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<v Speaker 5>hard taco shell, and there's like there's a soft tortilla,

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<v Speaker 5>like what I call the original taco, which is like

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<v Speaker 5>the the like the mini tortillas when you come like two,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, like you have two of them so that

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<v Speaker 5>if you spill out of the first one, you can

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<v Speaker 5>use the second tortilla to eat whatever fell out of

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<v Speaker 5>the first one, so you don't miss out on all

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<v Speaker 5>that goodness.

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<v Speaker 3>Scale Yes, you got it.

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<v Speaker 2>Hard and soft is all we were looking for, and

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<v Speaker 2>you just you can use your knowledge. That sounds like.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm looking at the next answer as well, and

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<v Speaker 1>once again, yeah, calm down.

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<v Speaker 3>That road, all right.

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<v Speaker 4>Next one, what meat is used in a carnitas taco?

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<v Speaker 1>That's I told you these were going to be right

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<v Speaker 1>too easy for tack Lover.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't like to ailiate our guests like you do

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<v Speaker 2>with I like to set stuff for success.

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<v Speaker 5>The whole time, I was like, I'm wondering what they're

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<v Speaker 5>going to do for this game thing because I'm listening

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<v Speaker 5>to your other episodes and I'm like, oh no, like.

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<v Speaker 1>Because nine times out of ten I do the game.

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<v Speaker 1>I kind of have a brain that doesn't do this

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<v Speaker 1>type of game.

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<v Speaker 2>So I did this game, yes, because I don't like

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<v Speaker 2>humuli guests.

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<v Speaker 1>So this is this is where any type of pronunciation

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<v Speaker 1>goes out the window. Didn't learn Spanish or anything, So

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<v Speaker 1>here we go. What does our pasta postal mean in English?

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<v Speaker 1>What does our pastor mean in English?

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<v Speaker 5>Shepherd style? Yeah, I'm like, it's not pastor.

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<v Speaker 1>How do you pronounce it? Then it's pasta?

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<v Speaker 3>Alright, I mean that's what you said.

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<v Speaker 1>I think if we rewound this. But that's exactly what

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<v Speaker 1>I said.

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<v Speaker 5>That's all right right.

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<v Speaker 2>What fruit is traditionally served on l pastor tacos?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh? Man, See this is where you got me because

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<v Speaker 5>I don't normally I don't normally get them. I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we've got a hint.

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<v Speaker 3>You need a hint.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay sometimes. Actually I'm gonna say this tastes delicious on pizza.

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<v Speaker 5>Pineapple.

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<v Speaker 1>See you and pizza. I was signing. If you turn

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<v Speaker 1>it upside down, you can swing on you can swing

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<v Speaker 1>on it.

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<v Speaker 5>See. I love pineapple and pizza, so that's the first

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<v Speaker 5>thing I thought of too.

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<v Speaker 3>It's my favorite.

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<v Speaker 5>So yeah, see, and this divides people like immediately, so immediately.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I'm already questioning my friendship with jewels.

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<v Speaker 2>I have to know because I do love pineapple and

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<v Speaker 2>I've never had it on pizza, So, like, what else

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<v Speaker 2>is on the pizza that you have it on jewels?

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<v Speaker 4>So traditionally people do ham. I'm not a huge ham person,

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<v Speaker 4>so I do pineapple because I love sweet and savory together.

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<v Speaker 2>So pineapple on like a plain cheese pizza.

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<v Speaker 3>With pepperoni in a side of ranch.

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<v Speaker 5>I've never done the ranch part, but I'm going to

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<v Speaker 5>have to try that.

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, little crispy crust, absolute perfection again, all right? Next one,

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<v Speaker 4>what type of fish is most commonly used in Baja

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<v Speaker 4>style fish tacos?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh? I don't actually know, but I love them. I

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<v Speaker 5>love them. What is it? Is it? Tilapia is a goldfish?

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<v Speaker 2>That's a problem with goldfish.

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<v Speaker 1>Three lessons whitefish and if you turn it round the

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<v Speaker 1>opposite way, it's another va that end in rapture.

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<v Speaker 3>It's really good smudgie. Yeah. The other example could be

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<v Speaker 3>mahi mahi as well.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, you didn't know what that was. I thought that

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<v Speaker 1>was a cocktail.

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<v Speaker 2>That's my type type.

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<v Speaker 1>It doesn't taste the same, right, Next one, what's the

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<v Speaker 1>difference between a taco dorado dorado and a regular taco?

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<v Speaker 5>It's like dorado?

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<v Speaker 2>What does that mean?

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<v Speaker 5>It's like roasted. It's like it's like, I don't I

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<v Speaker 5>don't know how to describe. It's just like a roasted toasted,

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<v Speaker 5>like more of a burnt.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, yes, okay, oh okay. What animal does barbacoa traditionally

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<v Speaker 2>come from in Central Mexico.

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<v Speaker 5>Traditionally come from? Uh? Is it a goat? Lamb?

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<v Speaker 2>It's a cow, specifically the head which.

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<v Speaker 5>Is it's the one I don't get. It's the one

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<v Speaker 5>I avoid. I avoid that one I avoid, I avoid

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<v Speaker 5>the tongue one. No, I'm gonna I'm gonna stick to

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<v Speaker 5>the stuff that I am. I prefer to, I prefer

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<v Speaker 5>to look at.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, I didn't know until now that barbaricola was that

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<v Speaker 4>because I love Barbicoa.

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<v Speaker 3>So probably gonna think about it a little bit.

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<v Speaker 5>Totally not that, not that at all though.

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<v Speaker 4>Well mine from Chipotless probably probably not probably whatever. All right,

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<v Speaker 4>what does trump trompo refer to in taco culture?

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I love that you just right away, I'm blanking.

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<v Speaker 3>I know that's the best part because I.

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<v Speaker 5>Know the word Spanish that the word trompo is is

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<v Speaker 5>a top? Is what the top like the spin the top?

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<v Speaker 5>You know? Okay, so is it? Is it the thing

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<v Speaker 5>that that the meat is like on turning while they're yeah, okay, good, yes.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, I got really excited. You got that.

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<v Speaker 4>It is the spinning vertical spit used to cook al

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<v Speaker 4>pastor meat.

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<v Speaker 2>You can trust yourself more.

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<v Speaker 5>Man, I think I do. I came in here super nervous,

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<v Speaker 5>to be honest, I'm like the most like shy person

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<v Speaker 5>like in real life.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, we're sorry, and to come to the three of us.

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<v Speaker 5>But lu but lux is very different. Yes, what's the.

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<v Speaker 1>Of the radishes? Often served alongside tacos to eat them

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<v Speaker 1>and to be fair, I think you're right, right, he's right.

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<v Speaker 1>How can they be that it's a radish?

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<v Speaker 5>They're amazing because they're just like.

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<v Speaker 2>Not because they don't taste like it.

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<v Speaker 3>They don't taste like anything.

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<v Speaker 2>So there are pelicleans that they add crunch and freshness

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<v Speaker 2>between bites.

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<v Speaker 5>They don't taste like anything to type of onion really,

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<v Speaker 5>but I think they're really pungent. They're like really strong,

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<v Speaker 2>They don't taste like anything. You know what, it's probably

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<v Speaker 4>like the local market. It probably be super flavorful or something.

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<v Speaker 2>It's pungent.

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<v Speaker 5>them I might bake a radish. It tastes sweet, really,

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<v Speaker 5>but I just don't believe.

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<v Speaker 5>There was just a crunch, no wonder. The question was like,

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<v Speaker 3>Right?

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<v Speaker 5>It tastes like.

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<v Speaker 3>Palate cleanser.

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<v Speaker 5>Well done, it must be good. Yes, you get it survived, Yes.

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<v Speaker 4>And now onto the imp of the game. I'm just

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<v Speaker 4>all right, you're like, am my internet just went out?

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<v Speaker 3>Sorry?

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<v Speaker 1>God?

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<v Speaker 2>Who?

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<v Speaker 1>So what was your life like before audio?

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<v Speaker 5>Was like what, I guess my life was what it

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<v Speaker 5>is when I'm not doing this. That's just the nature

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<v Speaker 5>of the thing. Yeah, no, it's it's it's kind of funny.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't think anyone. So I'm an anonymous audio creator

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<v Speaker 5>first of all. So people don't know in my normal

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<v Speaker 5>everyday life that I do this. I don't tell them.

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<v Speaker 5>These are like two separate worlds for me. So yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>I guess the main thing that's different is I get

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<v Speaker 5>to have fun and get into character and write scripts

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<v Speaker 5>and edit things and make sounds and uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>promote stuff. And I have a you know, small Patreon

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<v Speaker 5>community that that is really just cheering me on most

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<v Speaker 5>of the time, and and we're just having fun. So

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<v Speaker 5>I think that's the big thing. And and the time

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<v Speaker 5>that I put into this. Obviously, I have to make

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<v Speaker 5>time in my in my life for this particular thing,

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<v Speaker 5>and that was very daunting at first because I was

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<v Speaker 5>I was just thinking, like how, how my how am

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<v Speaker 5>I supposed to do this with everything else I've got

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<v Speaker 5>going on. So it's a nice it's a nice creative

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<v Speaker 5>outlet for me to get out there and be lucks.

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<v Speaker 2>So when do you do it? Like late at night

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<v Speaker 2>early mornings.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, most of the time, it happens late at night

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<v Speaker 5>probably for me, anywhere anywhere between nine and ten pm

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<v Speaker 5>is when I'm recording, and sometimes I will edit up

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<v Speaker 5>until maybe midnight when I have to submit audios every week.

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<v Speaker 5>And at first it was just it was a lot

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<v Speaker 5>because I was learning everything. So I remember staying up

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<v Speaker 5>till maybe like two in the morning, three in the

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<v Speaker 5>morning editing things in order to submit them because I've

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<v Speaker 5>got work the next morning and I don't have time

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<v Speaker 5>to do it then, you know, But I've I've learned

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<v Speaker 5>a lot. I've learned a lot, I gotten a lot

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<v Speaker 5>faster quicker at the whole process. And I've learned, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>the times of day, or I've learned to read myself

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<v Speaker 5>because I I've what I've realized is I don't I

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<v Speaker 5>release things on a consistent basis on Quinn, but I

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<v Speaker 5>don't produce them like in that in that I don't

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<v Speaker 5>know how I say it, like every week, like I'm

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<v Speaker 5>not as creative every single week, And there are there

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<v Speaker 5>are weeks when I'm just like, oh, yeah, let's do this.

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<v Speaker 5>I could do two three different things and and set

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<v Speaker 5>myself up so that I don't show up to the

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<v Speaker 5>booth with a script or whatever, and I'm just like,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm just not feeling it, Like I'm just exhausted, I'm tired,

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<v Speaker 5>and I don't want to do it because I think

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<v Speaker 5>that's that's one of the pitfalls where you start getting

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<v Speaker 5>into burnout, the burnout phase of things. So I've just

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<v Speaker 5>really learned to kind of read myself and take better

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<v Speaker 5>care of myself over over the last few years, just

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<v Speaker 5>to recognize the rhythms of creativity that I that I

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<v Speaker 5>have myself in honor.

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<v Speaker 4>Are you are you like naturally a night owl or not?

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<v Speaker 4>Like having to record that late was that something you

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<v Speaker 4>had to get used to or you just used to

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<v Speaker 4>being up late anyway.

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<v Speaker 3>Like me, I go to bed at eight o'clock.

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<v Speaker 5>So I'm so that is early really.

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<v Speaker 3>Social, like my social battery.

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<v Speaker 4>Time I go to bed, I tell every I'm going

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<v Speaker 4>to bed, and that means like, leave jewels alone.

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<v Speaker 3>Now she's done for the day.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah. I uh so I've always been a night owl. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>that's always just been me. It's it's had to change

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<v Speaker 5>over time because obviously I have like a regular daytime

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<v Speaker 5>job and I got to be there, you know, in

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<v Speaker 5>the morning or whatever. So I can't. I can't be

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<v Speaker 5>that a night owl that I know that I am,

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<v Speaker 5>so I have to just really manage my energy and time.

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<v Speaker 5>But also, you know, I am an introvert, so being

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<v Speaker 5>by myself and working on things on my own is

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<v Speaker 5>kind of fun and kind of energizing. So I think

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<v Speaker 5>that's why it's worked. That's why I can I can

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<v Speaker 5>do this late at night because I'm like, I'm tired

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<v Speaker 5>of dealing with all the other things that I do,

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<v Speaker 5>and I get to just like sit in my little

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<v Speaker 5>booth and pretend to be something else for a little bit,

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<v Speaker 5>you know. And yeah, and edit that and and be

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<v Speaker 5>and be creative and just be with myself in that process.

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<v Speaker 1>So how did you find the world.

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<v Speaker 5>I used to listen to a lot of audio erotica.

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<v Speaker 5>I guess I have a thing for like voices and sound.

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<v Speaker 5>And I stumbled across literrotica like many years ago, and

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<v Speaker 5>I just started listening and I was just kind of

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<v Speaker 5>mesmerized by all of it, like this is all happening

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<v Speaker 5>just in my ears. No one knows I'm listening to this,

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<v Speaker 5>and it's it was fun at first and just like

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<v Speaker 5>out of curiosity, and then I started realizing, oh, this

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<v Speaker 5>is kind of interesting because I kind of I'm listening

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<v Speaker 5>to people say things that are very sometimes I make

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<v Speaker 5>you feel things, and I guess I wasn't expecting that,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, at first, I was just curious about listening

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<v Speaker 5>to I don't know, this sort of taboo thing that

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<v Speaker 5>like I didn't want anyone to know I was listening

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<v Speaker 5>to it. But you know, I listened to people do

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<v Speaker 5>scripts and they're writing their own stories and getting creative

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<v Speaker 5>or even funny, and I was like, oh, wow, this

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<v Speaker 5>is really cool. Eventually, you know, there was a bunch

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<v Speaker 5>of like male voices too, and I was like I'm

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<v Speaker 5>curious to know what they are doing and like how

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<v Speaker 5>does this work? And I listened to a few and

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<v Speaker 5>it was like, Okay, this is weird. Like I don't

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know about this. This is weird. After a while,

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<v Speaker 5>I was like, I feel like I could probably do this.

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<v Speaker 5>I didn't immediately jump into it. I think a few

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<v Speaker 5>years back, like during COVID and everything, I was looking

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<v Speaker 5>into possibly doing audio book narration, and so I recorded

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<v Speaker 5>a few samples of audio put it out there to

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<v Speaker 5>see if I would get anything back. And like the

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<v Speaker 5>only offers I got back were for like narrating like

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<v Speaker 5>audio erotica stuff, and I was like, that's weird. I

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<v Speaker 5>don't think I want to do that, Like I got

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<v Speaker 5>to put my name on that, and like that's I

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<v Speaker 5>don't know if I want to do that yet. And

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<v Speaker 5>I think Quinn had started right around at the same time,

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<v Speaker 5>and I had looked at their application stuff because I

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<v Speaker 5>was curious, and yeah, it was kind of like over

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<v Speaker 5>the years, it's just kind of like this thing that

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<v Speaker 5>was snowballing, and eventually at some point I just decided, Hey,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm just gonna try this out and make sort of

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<v Speaker 5>these spicy audio things and see what happens. And eventually

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<v Speaker 5>I landed in TikTok and Instagram back then, and I

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<v Speaker 5>connected with a few people, a scriptwriter and Alice and

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<v Speaker 5>we did a little collab and then I had another

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<v Speaker 5>scriptwriter that wanted to work with me and I did

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<v Speaker 5>I just script by them, and it ended up being

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<v Speaker 5>the script phil that I used as my audition for Quinn.

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<v Speaker 5>So I applied and I submitted that and they liked

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<v Speaker 5>it and they were like, come on board, like we

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<v Speaker 5>want you. So it happened. It seemed to happen very quickly,

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<v Speaker 5>but it was this thing that had been snowballing for

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<v Speaker 5>years for me, and so when I finally got there,

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<v Speaker 5>I was just kind of shocked that I got in,

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<v Speaker 5>and I was scared because I'm like, these guys are

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<v Speaker 5>like they're they're big, they're like big names, and like

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<v Speaker 5>everyone's talking to them. They're they're they're amazing, and they

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<v Speaker 5>put out so much content. And it took me about

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<v Speaker 5>a month to do that that script bill because I

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<v Speaker 5>had like audio editing stuff that I needed to learn

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<v Speaker 5>to do. I had like music I had to find

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<v Speaker 5>on Beyonce things. I remember spending like three days trying

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<v Speaker 5>to figure out how to make it sound like when

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<v Speaker 5>you go inside a room when music's playing outside and

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<v Speaker 5>you close the door and it's just a muffled sound.

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<v Speaker 5>How the hell do I do this? And I was

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<v Speaker 5>working on like free software, and I had like a

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<v Speaker 5>beat up MIC, and I managed to pull it off.

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<v Speaker 5>But then but then I realized that took me a month.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't think audio in a week, are you serious? So,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, it was it was a wild ride to

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<v Speaker 5>get to that point. I had had a little bit

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<v Speaker 5>of experience working at a small radio station when I

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<v Speaker 5>was in college, and I, you know, I knew the

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<v Speaker 5>basics of like audio reinforcement and recording, but it's it's

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<v Speaker 5>it had been a while, and and software is has

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<v Speaker 5>changed so much and like everything, so I just had

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<v Speaker 5>a lot to learn in a very short amount of time,

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<v Speaker 5>and just so much imposter syndrome at the beginning. So yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>it was it was. I looking back, I'm like, I

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<v Speaker 5>can't believe I'm still here. I can't believe I made

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<v Speaker 5>it here. This is all It's been a lot. I'm

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<v Speaker 5>I'm I'm excited about it and I love it, But

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<v Speaker 5>it was it was really daunting at first, where.

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<v Speaker 1>Where did the name come from? When you did Quinn

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<v Speaker 1>name you or would you always always looks.

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<v Speaker 5>My name was Pollux. I was that that was the

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<v Speaker 5>original name. I went with uh v A Pollux or

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<v Speaker 5>Pollux dot v A Pollux is one of the stars

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<v Speaker 5>in the Gemini constellation. I'm a Gemini and so I

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<v Speaker 5>just you know, trying to figure out, like what name

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<v Speaker 5>I could use, and I ended up, Okay, I think

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<v Speaker 5>I identify with this. This is kind of cool. I could

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<v Speaker 5>I could do Pollucks, but it just felt too long.

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<v Speaker 5>And also when I picked it, I didn't realize how

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<v Speaker 5>far I would get. Yeah, I was like, I don't

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<v Speaker 5>like how that sounds. That's because then people started saying

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<v Speaker 5>I don't like that. I think we need to shorten it.

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<v Speaker 5>Maybe we can do LUs. And and then we went

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<v Speaker 5>with Lux, and I just I like the idea of lux,

428
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<v Speaker 5>and you know, it means light and and just I

429
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<v Speaker 5>I just level everything about it. So I stuck with it.

430
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<v Speaker 5>And when I went on to Quinn, I just I

431
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<v Speaker 5>told them, yeah, let's just let's just do Lux. And

432
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<v Speaker 5>that's when it really solidified.

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<v Speaker 2>I love the name. I mean it's I think it's

434
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<v Speaker 2>I mean, it's beautiful for those reasons you said, light,

435
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<v Speaker 2>et cetera. And it's also just like when I think

436
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<v Speaker 2>of lux like luxurious, lucky kind of lux it's it's

437
00:25:43.559 --> 00:25:47.599
<v Speaker 2>very rich and soft and warm and cozy, and like

438
00:25:47.640 --> 00:25:51.960
<v Speaker 2>your audio is really fitting that very yeah, very inviting,

439
00:25:52.000 --> 00:25:55.240
<v Speaker 2>and so yeah, yeah, all forms of luck it fits you.

440
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<v Speaker 1>I think that's yeah, I know, psy Pollocks. I mean

441
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<v Speaker 1>it's very British.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, sorry, yeah, I was just going to ask you

443
00:26:05.640 --> 00:26:08.319
<v Speaker 4>to pronounce it for me, because to me, it would say.

444
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<v Speaker 4>I was like, it's not just going to say it

445
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<v Speaker 4>and it's going to sound like balls.

446
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<v Speaker 6>When in the end it was it was it was

447
00:26:13.799 --> 00:26:16.559
<v Speaker 6>a good idea, and I was like, it's a it's

448
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<v Speaker 6>just short, one syllable, three letters and yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>I so how.

450
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<v Speaker 3>Would you say?

451
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<v Speaker 2>Luck that this work kind of allows you to express

452
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<v Speaker 2>yourself in ways that maybe otherwise you hadn't been able to.

453
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<v Speaker 5>I think one of the biggest things about this whole endeavor,

454
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<v Speaker 5>I think for me is just being able to freely

455
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<v Speaker 5>speak about sex. Yeah, just talking about sex. I grew

456
00:26:46.759 --> 00:26:52.279
<v Speaker 5>up in a very sort of traditional religious household, and

457
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<v Speaker 5>so sex was just out of the question. It was

458
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<v Speaker 5>the thing you didn't do until you got married, and

459
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<v Speaker 5>it it I don't think I realized how it affected

460
00:27:06.400 --> 00:27:12.759
<v Speaker 5>me as a as an individual, and the negative connotations

461
00:27:12.799 --> 00:27:16.000
<v Speaker 5>surrounding sex or even talking about sex, and how that

462
00:27:16.200 --> 00:27:23.400
<v Speaker 5>felt repressed for me. So I would have never believed

463
00:27:23.599 --> 00:27:26.279
<v Speaker 5>anyone if they told me that I would be doing this,

464
00:27:27.599 --> 00:27:29.920
<v Speaker 5>Like I would be like, you're out of your mind,

465
00:27:30.000 --> 00:27:32.559
<v Speaker 5>Like I don't know what you're like, what are you saying?

466
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<v Speaker 5>Because it's just been so it's so different, and it's

467
00:27:39.640 --> 00:27:43.240
<v Speaker 5>opened me up and it's made me reflect on things

468
00:27:44.039 --> 00:27:47.839
<v Speaker 5>in my own life and I've been able to sort

469
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<v Speaker 5>of make peace with things like religious trauma or things

470
00:27:52.799 --> 00:27:56.400
<v Speaker 5>that happened in my past that shouldn't have happened, and

471
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<v Speaker 5>just I don't know, I feel like I've discovered this

472
00:28:02.079 --> 00:28:05.400
<v Speaker 5>whole other side of being a human being. Yeah, and

473
00:28:06.039 --> 00:28:09.599
<v Speaker 5>it's it's been incredible and it's been I'm really grateful

474
00:28:09.640 --> 00:28:14.160
<v Speaker 5>for the experience. My partner I and I, Lady Lux

475
00:28:14.200 --> 00:28:18.200
<v Speaker 5>and I, we talk a lot about, you know, things,

476
00:28:18.240 --> 00:28:21.799
<v Speaker 5>and she'll she'll bring up things like, yeah, like you

477
00:28:21.880 --> 00:28:25.440
<v Speaker 5>should never be able to like freely talk about some

478
00:28:25.519 --> 00:28:28.720
<v Speaker 5>of the things we now talk about just and it's

479
00:28:28.960 --> 00:28:32.519
<v Speaker 5>and it's normal, and we've had sort of this, We've

480
00:28:32.519 --> 00:28:35.839
<v Speaker 5>gone into this habit of just talking about sex in

481
00:28:35.880 --> 00:28:40.079
<v Speaker 5>a way that is very just like eye opening and

482
00:28:40.079 --> 00:28:43.519
<v Speaker 5>and free, and I just I just feel so much

483
00:28:43.640 --> 00:28:48.240
<v Speaker 5>lighter about so many things and accepting, you know, accepting myself,

484
00:28:48.359 --> 00:28:53.000
<v Speaker 5>accepting where I'm at. And I didn't expect so much

485
00:28:53.079 --> 00:28:54.519
<v Speaker 5>healing to come from this.

486
00:28:55.160 --> 00:28:58.279
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, none of us did us did, Yes.

487
00:28:58.240 --> 00:29:03.079
<v Speaker 5>So I'm just like, what is like what? So, Yeah,

488
00:29:03.079 --> 00:29:06.160
<v Speaker 5>it's it's it's definitely changed me in in in a

489
00:29:06.200 --> 00:29:09.279
<v Speaker 5>lot of ways, and it continues to be something that

490
00:29:09.400 --> 00:29:12.359
<v Speaker 5>is transformative.

491
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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmmm, Yeah, I think that's the perfect word for there.

492
00:29:15.920 --> 00:29:19.720
<v Speaker 2>It is transformative. And you don't realize how heavy the

493
00:29:19.759 --> 00:29:22.359
<v Speaker 2>burden was that you were carrying until it was lifted,

494
00:29:22.480 --> 00:29:24.519
<v Speaker 2>you know, like the religious trauma and the and the

495
00:29:24.759 --> 00:29:26.920
<v Speaker 2>Yeah that heavy.

496
00:29:27.319 --> 00:29:29.200
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it's like it's like I didn't know it was

497
00:29:29.319 --> 00:29:31.799
<v Speaker 5>I was in it. Like it's like I don't know,

498
00:29:31.839 --> 00:29:35.359
<v Speaker 5>it's like weird to describe. It's like like this is

499
00:29:35.400 --> 00:29:36.880
<v Speaker 5>like you're in a cloud and you don't know you're

500
00:29:36.920 --> 00:29:38.279
<v Speaker 5>in a cloud and it clears up and you can

501
00:29:38.319 --> 00:29:40.200
<v Speaker 5>finally see and you're like, wait, I was in that

502
00:29:40.319 --> 00:29:45.440
<v Speaker 5>thing for so long? Yes, and yeah, so yes.

503
00:29:45.960 --> 00:29:47.519
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, we totally get it.

504
00:29:47.759 --> 00:29:49.079
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, we've all we've all been there.

505
00:29:49.079 --> 00:29:51.079
<v Speaker 4>And when you start, you know, seeing that you're like this,

506
00:29:51.519 --> 00:29:53.640
<v Speaker 4>I'm dealing with like learned shame, and then all of

507
00:29:53.680 --> 00:29:56.640
<v Speaker 4>a sudden you aren't feeling that anymore, and it just.

508
00:29:56.559 --> 00:29:58.880
<v Speaker 3>Like you said, later is such a perfect word for it.

509
00:29:58.880 --> 00:30:04.000
<v Speaker 5>There's shame and the guilt and the yeah it's brutal. Yeah.

510
00:30:04.440 --> 00:30:04.680
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

511
00:30:05.079 --> 00:30:09.759
<v Speaker 1>Now you're in communities that are predominantly women. What's the

512
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<v Speaker 1>difference between how you were traditionally brought up in regards

513
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<v Speaker 1>to a man's role and who you are as a man,

514
00:30:15.519 --> 00:30:18.240
<v Speaker 1>to how you feel now after being surrounded.

515
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<v Speaker 5>I grew up in a very macho, like, very very

516
00:30:25.240 --> 00:30:29.680
<v Speaker 5>rigid gender norms and just this idea that as a

517
00:30:29.720 --> 00:30:34.200
<v Speaker 5>man you do not express emotion, especially not like boys

518
00:30:34.200 --> 00:30:38.839
<v Speaker 5>don't cry kind of thing. And so in addition to

519
00:30:39.200 --> 00:30:44.440
<v Speaker 5>the religious traditionalism, there was also this like you're a

520
00:30:44.480 --> 00:30:46.720
<v Speaker 5>man and you need to act like one and you

521
00:30:46.759 --> 00:30:50.119
<v Speaker 5>need to suck it up and just you know, like

522
00:30:50.799 --> 00:30:55.319
<v Speaker 5>that's that's what you do. I have always been a

523
00:30:55.480 --> 00:30:59.599
<v Speaker 5>very emotional person, but what that caused in me was

524
00:30:59.799 --> 00:31:03.720
<v Speaker 5>the inability to even recognize what I was feeling and

525
00:31:04.559 --> 00:31:08.200
<v Speaker 5>just repressing so much of it. So coming into this

526
00:31:08.279 --> 00:31:14.480
<v Speaker 5>space and being able to begin to explore and allow

527
00:31:14.680 --> 00:31:19.920
<v Speaker 5>this sort of emotional awareness to develop and grow and

528
00:31:20.079 --> 00:31:25.480
<v Speaker 5>to the point where I can really express it has

529
00:31:25.519 --> 00:31:30.759
<v Speaker 5>been really amazing. I know that you know, as an

530
00:31:30.799 --> 00:31:34.480
<v Speaker 5>anonymous creator, obviously you don't see me, but like that

531
00:31:34.599 --> 00:31:36.880
<v Speaker 5>made it a little easier at first to be able

532
00:31:36.920 --> 00:31:40.400
<v Speaker 5>to show those emotions and to express those emotions in

533
00:31:40.880 --> 00:31:43.599
<v Speaker 5>audio that I wasn't able to do that before. And

534
00:31:43.599 --> 00:31:46.000
<v Speaker 5>obviously that kind of bleeds into the rest of my

535
00:31:46.039 --> 00:31:48.400
<v Speaker 5>life because I'm like, oh, I am able to do this.

536
00:31:48.519 --> 00:31:50.759
<v Speaker 5>I am able to begin to recognize the things that

537
00:31:50.799 --> 00:31:54.039
<v Speaker 5>I'm feeling and to communicate them. And in terms of

538
00:31:54.160 --> 00:31:59.799
<v Speaker 5>like community. The one thing that I am grateful for

539
00:32:00.440 --> 00:32:02.880
<v Speaker 5>growing up was that, you know, I grew up. I

540
00:32:02.880 --> 00:32:06.799
<v Speaker 5>grew up with sisters, so I knew how the world

541
00:32:06.880 --> 00:32:11.000
<v Speaker 5>was different for them compared to me. There was like

542
00:32:11.039 --> 00:32:15.400
<v Speaker 5>the double standards and everything, and I grew up observing

543
00:32:15.480 --> 00:32:18.119
<v Speaker 5>it and being close to them and talking to them.

544
00:32:18.200 --> 00:32:20.839
<v Speaker 5>I always sort of knew I was I wasn't really

545
00:32:20.920 --> 00:32:27.119
<v Speaker 5>quite fitting the typical male like like ideal for the

546
00:32:27.920 --> 00:32:30.680
<v Speaker 5>you know, the environment I grew up in, so I

547
00:32:30.720 --> 00:32:34.720
<v Speaker 5>always felt insecure about about things. But being now in

548
00:32:35.000 --> 00:32:38.000
<v Speaker 5>in this community, I think I've just learned to listen

549
00:32:38.599 --> 00:32:44.759
<v Speaker 5>and to kind of see and learn about women's experiences

550
00:32:44.799 --> 00:32:47.559
<v Speaker 5>through what they share and they talk about and with

551
00:32:47.599 --> 00:32:51.119
<v Speaker 5>my partner and there's just there's just so much to learn.

552
00:32:51.160 --> 00:32:55.839
<v Speaker 5>And I have just learned so much about what women

553
00:32:55.920 --> 00:32:59.839
<v Speaker 5>have to deal with on a daily basis that growing

554
00:32:59.920 --> 00:33:03.559
<v Speaker 5>up a male, I didn't realize, Oh, I never had

555
00:33:03.559 --> 00:33:06.880
<v Speaker 5>to think about those things. I never had to think about,

556
00:33:07.039 --> 00:33:09.319
<v Speaker 5>you know, whether or not someone was looking at me

557
00:33:09.400 --> 00:33:12.640
<v Speaker 5>a certain way, or was thinking about doing something, you know,

558
00:33:12.920 --> 00:33:16.720
<v Speaker 5>like behind my back, or like simply just like you know,

559
00:33:17.839 --> 00:33:21.640
<v Speaker 5>asking you to smile, like like you know, it's like

560
00:33:22.599 --> 00:33:29.400
<v Speaker 5>I've become so disappointed with so much, so many things,

561
00:33:29.480 --> 00:33:32.200
<v Speaker 5>so many things in society that have just never been challenged,

562
00:33:32.240 --> 00:33:35.319
<v Speaker 5>and things that are protected that shouldn't be protected versus

563
00:33:35.400 --> 00:33:37.519
<v Speaker 5>the people who should be and it's just there's so

564
00:33:37.680 --> 00:33:42.440
<v Speaker 5>much there. But I've just always been an open minded person,

565
00:33:42.720 --> 00:33:46.559
<v Speaker 5>and that means that I've also been open minded to

566
00:33:46.720 --> 00:33:49.839
<v Speaker 5>the fact that maybe I don't know all things, you know,

567
00:33:50.000 --> 00:33:53.720
<v Speaker 5>and there's space to learn, and I have learned. I've

568
00:33:53.799 --> 00:33:57.160
<v Speaker 5>learned so much. I've I feel like I'm not the

569
00:33:57.200 --> 00:34:00.759
<v Speaker 5>same person I was when I started this, Like I'm wow,

570
00:34:01.440 --> 00:34:04.839
<v Speaker 5>I'm different. I feel it. I feel it even in

571
00:34:05.480 --> 00:34:07.359
<v Speaker 5>like the way that I approach the mic on a

572
00:34:07.359 --> 00:34:09.599
<v Speaker 5>weekly basis when I'm thinking about what I'm going to do,

573
00:34:09.760 --> 00:34:12.960
<v Speaker 5>it is if I can say it is. It has

574
00:34:13.039 --> 00:34:19.480
<v Speaker 5>become this thing that is almost I'm very passionate about

575
00:34:19.480 --> 00:34:21.480
<v Speaker 5>the things that I do. And there's almost like there's

576
00:34:21.480 --> 00:34:26.079
<v Speaker 5>almost a spiritual aspect to yeah to creativity for me,

577
00:34:27.880 --> 00:34:32.079
<v Speaker 5>and I'm connecting to something and I'm channeling it. I've

578
00:34:32.119 --> 00:34:35.920
<v Speaker 5>been more aware. I've become more aware of the feelings

579
00:34:35.960 --> 00:34:38.960
<v Speaker 5>and the things that people are going that are experiencing

580
00:34:39.000 --> 00:34:43.079
<v Speaker 5>around me. And in a lot of ways, I feel

581
00:34:43.119 --> 00:34:47.079
<v Speaker 5>like I kind of just kind of hone in to

582
00:34:47.199 --> 00:34:51.880
<v Speaker 5>sort of this almost like collective cloud of like feeling

583
00:34:52.400 --> 00:34:54.760
<v Speaker 5>and I and I try to work from there. I

584
00:34:54.800 --> 00:34:58.599
<v Speaker 5>think my best work comes from those moments. I don't

585
00:34:58.639 --> 00:35:02.239
<v Speaker 5>always get it right, but I do have sort of

586
00:35:02.280 --> 00:35:08.480
<v Speaker 5>this desire I guess to speak to like the core

587
00:35:08.760 --> 00:35:13.679
<v Speaker 5>of what we may be feeling electively. I don't always

588
00:35:13.679 --> 00:35:17.480
<v Speaker 5>do it, but I feel like I do tend to

589
00:35:18.400 --> 00:35:22.159
<v Speaker 5>like gravitate towards that approach, and I think that's why.

590
00:35:23.719 --> 00:35:26.239
<v Speaker 5>I think that's why I've made it this far, because

591
00:35:26.239 --> 00:35:30.199
<v Speaker 5>I always want to do something that's meaningful, and sometimes

592
00:35:30.239 --> 00:35:32.960
<v Speaker 5>it's fun to just be spicy and be hilarious, of course,

593
00:35:33.119 --> 00:35:35.880
<v Speaker 5>wild and silly, and that's cool, that's really creative. But

594
00:35:35.960 --> 00:35:38.599
<v Speaker 5>I think that really drives me is that that idea

595
00:35:38.639 --> 00:35:43.880
<v Speaker 5>that I could actually speak to something that really matters,

596
00:35:44.199 --> 00:35:49.719
<v Speaker 5>that is going to be impactful beyond the entertainment aspect

597
00:35:49.920 --> 00:35:54.800
<v Speaker 5>of audio erotica. And I feel like that's really me

598
00:35:55.719 --> 00:36:01.239
<v Speaker 5>and it's been it's been interesting. It's led me to

599
00:36:01.679 --> 00:36:05.880
<v Speaker 5>feel scripts that tell stories that are very different, and

600
00:36:06.119 --> 00:36:08.280
<v Speaker 5>sometimes I'm like doing it, I'm like, do I really

601
00:36:08.320 --> 00:36:09.960
<v Speaker 5>want to do this because it's just like it's almost

602
00:36:10.039 --> 00:36:12.000
<v Speaker 5>kind of sad and I don't know if like this

603
00:36:12.079 --> 00:36:17.360
<v Speaker 5>even belongs in this space. And so I've taken, you know,

604
00:36:17.440 --> 00:36:22.559
<v Speaker 5>I've taken some sort of creative risks, and I've just

605
00:36:22.679 --> 00:36:26.239
<v Speaker 5>learned to kind of trust my gut on these things

606
00:36:26.360 --> 00:36:28.960
<v Speaker 5>and just know that, you know, not not everyone's gonna

607
00:36:29.360 --> 00:36:31.760
<v Speaker 5>love everything I do, and that's that's okay. That's part

608
00:36:31.800 --> 00:36:37.079
<v Speaker 5>of being creative. But but yeah, just just doing those

609
00:36:37.440 --> 00:36:40.119
<v Speaker 5>new things or different things or things that maybe are

610
00:36:40.159 --> 00:36:44.000
<v Speaker 5>unexpected in this space are is kind of in my niche.

611
00:36:44.800 --> 00:36:47.599
<v Speaker 5>That's if I can, if I can say that, do.

612
00:36:47.519 --> 00:36:49.920
<v Speaker 1>You find the conversations you're having with your male friends

613
00:36:49.960 --> 00:36:52.880
<v Speaker 1>now you've said you've you know, you think you're you've

614
00:36:52.960 --> 00:36:55.320
<v Speaker 1>changed to be a completely different person now or to

615
00:36:55.400 --> 00:36:57.760
<v Speaker 1>a different person now than you work back? Then, do

616
00:36:57.800 --> 00:37:01.280
<v Speaker 1>you find the conversations you have with your male friends

617
00:37:01.320 --> 00:37:07.519
<v Speaker 1>now are more rounded or still more traditional?

618
00:37:07.960 --> 00:37:12.039
<v Speaker 5>Yes, it's it's been. I mean they've noticed the change.

619
00:37:12.119 --> 00:37:16.440
<v Speaker 5>And I think partly the changes due to me working

620
00:37:16.880 --> 00:37:23.559
<v Speaker 5>on myself so consistently as well. Mental health has always

621
00:37:23.599 --> 00:37:29.039
<v Speaker 5>been a really big thing for me. It is something

622
00:37:29.079 --> 00:37:36.719
<v Speaker 5>that I've struggled with and I've been consistently like working

623
00:37:36.800 --> 00:37:41.000
<v Speaker 5>through things with a therapist for all long time now

624
00:37:41.119 --> 00:37:43.639
<v Speaker 5>and working out a lot of these things that you know,

625
00:37:43.679 --> 00:37:47.480
<v Speaker 5>we're sources of guilt and shame growing up, and you know,

626
00:37:47.519 --> 00:37:49.880
<v Speaker 5>I'm doing this now and it's like, how is it

627
00:37:50.199 --> 00:37:53.000
<v Speaker 5>moving me forward? How is it changing me? But my

628
00:37:53.199 --> 00:37:59.079
<v Speaker 5>male friends they were already a little different because I

629
00:37:59.119 --> 00:38:02.239
<v Speaker 5>was already a little different then I feel like I

630
00:38:02.280 --> 00:38:07.599
<v Speaker 5>feel like the conversations we have are very they become

631
00:38:07.639 --> 00:38:11.280
<v Speaker 5>more open in terms of sex because guys never talk

632
00:38:11.360 --> 00:38:15.400
<v Speaker 5>about like sex in a way that women talk about sex.

633
00:38:15.559 --> 00:38:20.760
<v Speaker 5>They're not as as open about their sex lives. It's

634
00:38:20.800 --> 00:38:24.119
<v Speaker 5>it's a it's a real like vulnerable feeling. I think

635
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<v Speaker 5>for for a lot of guys to talk to other

636
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<v Speaker 5>men about their sex lives, like oh, something weird happening

637
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<v Speaker 5>with their partner or like those are not things they

638
00:38:32.239 --> 00:38:35.920
<v Speaker 5>typically share, but you know, now with my with my

639
00:38:35.960 --> 00:38:39.079
<v Speaker 5>close friends, like we will we will talk about those things.

640
00:38:39.079 --> 00:38:43.239
<v Speaker 5>We will talk about like you know, how how are

641
00:38:43.320 --> 00:38:46.840
<v Speaker 5>you dealing like with intimacy and like how do you

642
00:38:46.960 --> 00:38:50.000
<v Speaker 5>feel about you know, the like how do you feel

643
00:38:50.000 --> 00:38:51.800
<v Speaker 5>about your sex life? Like what are some of the

644
00:38:51.840 --> 00:38:54.559
<v Speaker 5>things that maybe you've like repressed because like I've repressed

645
00:38:54.559 --> 00:38:57.360
<v Speaker 5>so much here like that's so weird, or like what

646
00:38:57.360 --> 00:38:59.679
<v Speaker 5>do you think about you know, how how can we

647
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<v Speaker 5>be better at listening at like protecting because it almost

648
00:39:05.599 --> 00:39:08.719
<v Speaker 5>feels like there's so much stuff happening, There's so many

649
00:39:08.880 --> 00:39:10.719
<v Speaker 5>bad things in the world, Like how how do we

650
00:39:11.880 --> 00:39:14.480
<v Speaker 5>how do we counter that in a way that is

651
00:39:14.719 --> 00:39:18.559
<v Speaker 5>that is helpful because sometimes it does feel like there's

652
00:39:18.599 --> 00:39:22.320
<v Speaker 5>so few of us that actually care. So it's it's gotten,

653
00:39:22.480 --> 00:39:28.599
<v Speaker 5>it's gotten to that. And I think that having a

654
00:39:28.639 --> 00:39:35.199
<v Speaker 5>partner has really helped throughout the process of this and

655
00:39:35.280 --> 00:39:38.960
<v Speaker 5>the conversations that I have with her are you know,

656
00:39:39.440 --> 00:39:41.519
<v Speaker 5>like some things I just don't even know about. Like

657
00:39:42.880 --> 00:39:46.760
<v Speaker 5>she brought up the whole thing with this website I'm

658
00:39:46.800 --> 00:39:50.119
<v Speaker 5>sure you've heard about, and I had, I had no idea.

659
00:39:50.199 --> 00:39:52.960
<v Speaker 5>I was like what, She's like, yeah, like I'm sure,

660
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:55.320
<v Speaker 5>I'm like I have what are you talking about right now?

661
00:39:55.360 --> 00:39:57.719
<v Speaker 5>She's like everyone's talking about like I don't know what like,

662
00:39:58.320 --> 00:40:00.360
<v Speaker 5>and it came as such a shock to me. Yeah,

663
00:40:01.639 --> 00:40:05.360
<v Speaker 5>and it's just like, okay, how do we I mean

664
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<v Speaker 5>I think growing up, I would see, you know, like

665
00:40:08.119 --> 00:40:10.719
<v Speaker 5>as like maybe a teenager or even younger, like the

666
00:40:10.760 --> 00:40:14.039
<v Speaker 5>way that boys talked about girls and like the things

667
00:40:14.039 --> 00:40:16.719
<v Speaker 5>that they would say about them behind their back, and

668
00:40:16.960 --> 00:40:19.480
<v Speaker 5>I would feel uncomfortable. I didn't exactly know what to

669
00:40:19.519 --> 00:40:22.159
<v Speaker 5>do about it or how, you know, Like I was

670
00:40:22.199 --> 00:40:24.760
<v Speaker 5>also trying to fit in and like I was always

671
00:40:24.840 --> 00:40:28.079
<v Speaker 5>kind of like this the weird kid, and so like

672
00:40:28.800 --> 00:40:30.960
<v Speaker 5>it was just weird, Like I already felt at that

673
00:40:31.039 --> 00:40:33.079
<v Speaker 5>point like something's wrong and I don't know how to

674
00:40:33.440 --> 00:40:35.000
<v Speaker 5>deal with it. I don't know who to talk to

675
00:40:35.039 --> 00:40:39.119
<v Speaker 5>about it. And now it's like, oh no, like I

676
00:40:39.280 --> 00:40:42.719
<v Speaker 5>just I just need to be like, you know, like

677
00:40:42.800 --> 00:40:45.119
<v Speaker 5>how would I react if this was like my partner,

678
00:40:45.239 --> 00:40:50.599
<v Speaker 5>Like like it's just like anger, Like this's just all

679
00:40:50.639 --> 00:40:53.320
<v Speaker 5>this anger that would come out, And it's like how

680
00:40:53.360 --> 00:40:55.320
<v Speaker 5>do we how do we confront and how do we

681
00:40:55.400 --> 00:40:59.719
<v Speaker 5>talk to people about things that we see that are

682
00:41:01.039 --> 00:41:03.800
<v Speaker 5>they're just not good? How do we bring it up?

683
00:41:03.800 --> 00:41:06.119
<v Speaker 5>How do we confront them in a way that doesn't

684
00:41:07.719 --> 00:41:10.480
<v Speaker 5>just like have them ignore us and continue to do

685
00:41:10.519 --> 00:41:12.760
<v Speaker 5>whatever the you know the hell they are doing. How

686
00:41:12.840 --> 00:41:17.800
<v Speaker 5>do we actually make them see like this is not okay.

687
00:41:19.360 --> 00:41:22.840
<v Speaker 5>So it's it's a continuing conversation that I continue to

688
00:41:22.880 --> 00:41:27.280
<v Speaker 5>have with with a lady Lux and with my with

689
00:41:27.320 --> 00:41:30.519
<v Speaker 5>my friends, and it's something that it's like every time

690
00:41:30.559 --> 00:41:32.559
<v Speaker 5>that we talk about it, I'm like I uncover something

691
00:41:32.559 --> 00:41:34.760
<v Speaker 5>else and I'm like, Yeah, that shouldn't have happened. That

692
00:41:34.760 --> 00:41:37.440
<v Speaker 5>shouldn't happen. That shouldn't have happened to you when you

693
00:41:37.440 --> 00:41:39.159
<v Speaker 5>were that age. That shouldn't have happened to me. When

694
00:41:39.159 --> 00:41:42.039
<v Speaker 5>I was that age, like, and there's so many things

695
00:41:42.039 --> 00:41:45.280
<v Speaker 5>that I just like, we were just having a conversation today, like, oh,

696
00:41:45.480 --> 00:41:48.719
<v Speaker 5>like I was just telling her, like something that happened

697
00:41:48.719 --> 00:41:52.760
<v Speaker 5>to me when I was like much younger, and she's like, yeah,

698
00:41:52.800 --> 00:41:55.920
<v Speaker 5>that shouldn't have happened. I'm like, you know, what's weird.

699
00:41:56.039 --> 00:41:58.760
<v Speaker 5>I never thought of that. That never crossed my mind.

700
00:42:00.599 --> 00:42:03.679
<v Speaker 5>And there's so many of those things, and you know, like,

701
00:42:04.440 --> 00:42:08.079
<v Speaker 5>how how are we setting up the world in society

702
00:42:08.119 --> 00:42:10.880
<v Speaker 5>for those that come after us, for those that are

703
00:42:10.880 --> 00:42:13.480
<v Speaker 5>younger that us, for those that are actually growing up

704
00:42:13.880 --> 00:42:17.559
<v Speaker 5>right now. Yeah, I feel I feel a certain sense

705
00:42:17.599 --> 00:42:21.760
<v Speaker 5>of responsibility to do better.

706
00:42:22.519 --> 00:42:28.480
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's a tall order to try to to try

707
00:42:28.519 --> 00:42:30.800
<v Speaker 2>to do better because it's it can really feel like

708
00:42:30.840 --> 00:42:35.679
<v Speaker 2>you're swimming upstream a lot of the time. But it's

709
00:42:35.679 --> 00:42:38.800
<v Speaker 2>worth I guess it's worth swimming continuing.

710
00:42:39.360 --> 00:42:43.960
<v Speaker 1>You know, lots of small conversations can lead to big change.

711
00:42:43.599 --> 00:42:44.719
<v Speaker 3>That's exactly.

712
00:42:45.199 --> 00:42:47.320
<v Speaker 1>You've got to have the conversations. It doesn't matter how

713
00:42:47.320 --> 00:42:50.159
<v Speaker 1>small the conversation is, just it can lead to something

714
00:42:50.199 --> 00:42:52.800
<v Speaker 1>a lot bigger. So keep having the conversations, looks, keep

715
00:42:52.800 --> 00:42:53.239
<v Speaker 1>having them.

716
00:42:53.559 --> 00:42:56.159
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I mean, even the fact that you and Lady

717
00:42:56.199 --> 00:42:58.920
<v Speaker 4>Lux talked about that, and because she told you about

718
00:42:58.920 --> 00:43:01.599
<v Speaker 4>the website, you now it was on your radar, so

719
00:43:01.599 --> 00:43:04.000
<v Speaker 4>it could be on the radar for your other male friends.

720
00:43:04.039 --> 00:43:05.760
<v Speaker 4>Because let me tell you, I don't know one woman

721
00:43:06.000 --> 00:43:09.079
<v Speaker 4>who hasn't heard about that article even but my husband

722
00:43:09.119 --> 00:43:10.000
<v Speaker 4>hadn't heard about it either.

723
00:43:10.400 --> 00:43:14.280
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, that's that's the weird thing about it too. It's

724
00:43:14.320 --> 00:43:16.639
<v Speaker 5>such a big news. How did I not know it

725
00:43:16.679 --> 00:43:19.519
<v Speaker 5>had been a few days by then? And and and

726
00:43:19.599 --> 00:43:21.599
<v Speaker 5>granted I don't spend as much time on social media

727
00:43:22.480 --> 00:43:26.000
<v Speaker 5>as like other people might, and but like it just

728
00:43:26.079 --> 00:43:30.239
<v Speaker 5>hit me and I was just like I couldn't believe her,

729
00:43:30.719 --> 00:43:33.119
<v Speaker 5>Like I was like, what are you? Like, are you serious?

730
00:43:33.199 --> 00:43:38.360
<v Speaker 5>Like this is like an actual thing, and it just

731
00:43:38.480 --> 00:43:41.519
<v Speaker 5>it made me scared. Yeah, it made me scared. And

732
00:43:41.559 --> 00:43:45.000
<v Speaker 5>then it made me just like angry because I feel

733
00:43:45.000 --> 00:43:50.159
<v Speaker 5>like there's it's just been a barrage of things too

734
00:43:50.239 --> 00:43:53.800
<v Speaker 5>much at one time. You know, it's a content everything

735
00:43:53.880 --> 00:43:58.239
<v Speaker 5>is falling apart, and like I think for me, everything

736
00:43:58.280 --> 00:44:04.079
<v Speaker 5>has just been sort of deconstructed. Yea, And yes, you

737
00:44:04.119 --> 00:44:07.320
<v Speaker 5>know it started with you know, these these really traditional

738
00:44:07.320 --> 00:44:10.440
<v Speaker 5>beliefs I held at one point and and that that

739
00:44:11.480 --> 00:44:14.360
<v Speaker 5>you know, I kind of broke through that and now

740
00:44:14.360 --> 00:44:16.440
<v Speaker 5>it's like I just feel I was telling her today,

741
00:44:16.880 --> 00:44:22.239
<v Speaker 5>I just feel like everything, like all of these things

742
00:44:22.280 --> 00:44:26.440
<v Speaker 5>that we've taken for granted about how society works and

743
00:44:26.440 --> 00:44:32.280
<v Speaker 5>and just everything is gone. I don't know what's why.

744
00:44:32.480 --> 00:44:36.079
<v Speaker 5>I feel like I can't trust anyone, and I just

745
00:44:36.280 --> 00:44:41.440
<v Speaker 5>I feel like maybe I'm just starting to beginning to understand,

746
00:44:41.440 --> 00:44:45.199
<v Speaker 5>to begin to understand the world, and I don't like it.

747
00:44:45.559 --> 00:44:49.400
<v Speaker 5>I just don't like it. How can I bring good

748
00:44:49.440 --> 00:44:52.719
<v Speaker 5>things to the world? And how can I bring good

749
00:44:52.760 --> 00:44:55.760
<v Speaker 5>things to people who are nearby? Like like what people

750
00:44:55.800 --> 00:44:59.119
<v Speaker 5>I actually interact with every day, because everyone's going through

751
00:44:59.119 --> 00:45:02.920
<v Speaker 5>this at the same time. And really, the the real

752
00:45:02.960 --> 00:45:05.039
<v Speaker 5>effect I have is in the people that I see

753
00:45:05.039 --> 00:45:06.599
<v Speaker 5>every day, the people that I talk to every day,

754
00:45:06.679 --> 00:45:10.000
<v Speaker 5>like the people who live next door to me. How

755
00:45:10.360 --> 00:45:14.360
<v Speaker 5>how can we how can we bring good to the

756
00:45:14.360 --> 00:45:19.639
<v Speaker 5>world despite so much crap that that we deal with

757
00:45:19.639 --> 00:45:21.639
<v Speaker 5>on every and on every day basis. So that's been

758
00:45:21.679 --> 00:45:25.159
<v Speaker 5>sort of my focus, and I try to bring that

759
00:45:25.239 --> 00:45:27.920
<v Speaker 5>into the space of audio erotica, which sometimes it's weird

760
00:45:27.960 --> 00:45:31.079
<v Speaker 5>because it's like are you erotica? It's like supposed to

761
00:45:31.119 --> 00:45:34.440
<v Speaker 5>be really spicy and exciting, and then sometimes it's like, well,

762
00:45:34.480 --> 00:45:36.760
<v Speaker 5>here I am reading we need the Pooh on Patreon

763
00:45:36.920 --> 00:45:41.039
<v Speaker 5>because you know it's really soothing, and maybe like doing

764
00:45:41.079 --> 00:45:43.800
<v Speaker 5>some like sleep aid stuff and like maybe just having

765
00:45:43.800 --> 00:45:48.159
<v Speaker 5>fun because just I've realized just that being creative is

766
00:45:48.199 --> 00:45:52.719
<v Speaker 5>sort of a rebellion for me against all the shit

767
00:45:52.760 --> 00:45:54.960
<v Speaker 5>that I got deal with, because there have been weeks

768
00:45:54.960 --> 00:45:57.960
<v Speaker 5>when I'm just like I can't I can't sit down

769
00:45:57.960 --> 00:46:01.480
<v Speaker 5>and be creative right now, Like I feel so so

770
00:46:01.599 --> 00:46:03.079
<v Speaker 5>much like like what's the point.

771
00:46:03.440 --> 00:46:06.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I think that's a really uncommon feeling, but I mean,

772
00:46:07.360 --> 00:46:10.920
<v Speaker 2>what's so amazing? This is gonna sound funny, but like

773
00:46:11.039 --> 00:46:12.280
<v Speaker 2>I know when you said, like you feel like you're

774
00:46:12.280 --> 00:46:16.920
<v Speaker 2>seeing the world with clear eyes and it pisses you off. Right,

775
00:46:16.960 --> 00:46:19.880
<v Speaker 2>So that's a great place to be in because that's

776
00:46:19.880 --> 00:46:23.320
<v Speaker 2>where change begins, right when you when you step out

777
00:46:23.320 --> 00:46:26.079
<v Speaker 2>from behind the cloud or the blindness or the whatever

778
00:46:26.119 --> 00:46:28.199
<v Speaker 2>it might be, and you see things and it's like, shit,

779
00:46:29.679 --> 00:46:34.039
<v Speaker 2>this is something. Shit's really wrong here. It's just it's

780
00:46:34.119 --> 00:46:37.440
<v Speaker 2>real refreshing to hear. I mean you can just hear

781
00:46:37.480 --> 00:46:39.320
<v Speaker 2>it every everything that you're saying that you know you're

782
00:46:39.360 --> 00:46:41.440
<v Speaker 2>you're doing the work on yourself. You're doing the work

783
00:46:42.119 --> 00:46:44.519
<v Speaker 2>like Smudge said with like having a small conversations lead

784
00:46:44.559 --> 00:46:47.079
<v Speaker 2>to big change. It's like the more we can do

785
00:46:48.079 --> 00:46:50.639
<v Speaker 2>for ourselves that we then impact our partners and our

786
00:46:50.639 --> 00:46:53.400
<v Speaker 2>communities and our and it just keeps growing out and out.

787
00:46:53.440 --> 00:46:56.159
<v Speaker 2>That when when the world feels like it does now,

788
00:46:56.199 --> 00:46:59.079
<v Speaker 2>that's all we can do is like it feels like

789
00:46:59.199 --> 00:47:03.840
<v Speaker 2>joy is resistant, you know, creativity as resistance, all those

790
00:47:03.920 --> 00:47:06.719
<v Speaker 2>kinds of things. So I think I'm god. I mean,

791
00:47:06.920 --> 00:47:09.239
<v Speaker 2>I'm really hopeful for the path you're on and hope more.

792
00:47:09.159 --> 00:47:09.480
<v Speaker 5>Men for.

793
00:47:11.480 --> 00:47:15.440
<v Speaker 1>It's keeping conversations going, and it's giving us these spaces

794
00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:18.440
<v Speaker 1>and safe spaces to talk openly about things that we

795
00:47:18.519 --> 00:47:22.239
<v Speaker 1>haven't been able to for centuries, to be honest. So

796
00:47:23.079 --> 00:47:27.559
<v Speaker 1>you know, audio erotica may seem such a small stepping

797
00:47:27.599 --> 00:47:30.400
<v Speaker 1>stone to change, but it's bigger than you think.

798
00:47:30.719 --> 00:47:34.559
<v Speaker 5>No, I agree. I don't think that there are very

799
00:47:34.639 --> 00:47:39.440
<v Speaker 5>many spaces that allow for men to really sit with

800
00:47:40.760 --> 00:47:44.559
<v Speaker 5>the like what what is the experience of women? How

801
00:47:44.559 --> 00:47:47.079
<v Speaker 5>do women experience Like I was telling my partner this

802
00:47:47.079 --> 00:47:48.719
<v Speaker 5>the other day, I was like, I don't I've never

803
00:47:48.840 --> 00:47:51.920
<v Speaker 5>sat down to think about what are their first thoughts,

804
00:47:51.960 --> 00:47:54.400
<v Speaker 5>Like if I walk into the room being aware of

805
00:47:54.440 --> 00:47:56.719
<v Speaker 5>the way I move and the way I talk and

806
00:47:56.760 --> 00:47:58.840
<v Speaker 5>the way I say things and the way I treat

807
00:47:58.840 --> 00:48:01.480
<v Speaker 5>people like I I'm much more aware of those things

808
00:48:01.519 --> 00:48:03.559
<v Speaker 5>now than I was before. Before I'd never thought of

809
00:48:03.559 --> 00:48:06.800
<v Speaker 5>those things. I never thought, oh, she might actually perceive

810
00:48:06.880 --> 00:48:09.960
<v Speaker 5>me as like maybe maybe it's a threat or maybe

811
00:48:10.000 --> 00:48:13.480
<v Speaker 5>like the way I speak or the way I move,

812
00:48:13.679 --> 00:48:15.960
<v Speaker 5>Like I don't know what people's experiences have been in

813
00:48:16.000 --> 00:48:19.239
<v Speaker 5>their past, and I I have such I've had such

814
00:48:19.239 --> 00:48:22.360
<v Speaker 5>a great like privilege to not have to worry, like

815
00:48:22.400 --> 00:48:24.400
<v Speaker 5>I don't worry about someone coming in the room, Like

816
00:48:24.440 --> 00:48:27.000
<v Speaker 5>I don't feel threatened. I don't feel like scared. I've

817
00:48:27.000 --> 00:48:28.920
<v Speaker 5>never thought like they're looking at me a certain way.

818
00:48:28.960 --> 00:48:31.880
<v Speaker 5>I'd never thought like there's so many things that now

819
00:48:31.920 --> 00:48:36.599
<v Speaker 5>I consider that I never thought of before, And I'm

820
00:48:36.719 --> 00:48:41.199
<v Speaker 5>just like wow. I remember when, like growing up, it

821
00:48:41.320 --> 00:48:45.880
<v Speaker 5>was like, oh, consent is a thing like you can

822
00:48:46.199 --> 00:48:50.199
<v Speaker 5>ask and if they say yes and they're they're enthusiastic

823
00:48:50.199 --> 00:48:53.199
<v Speaker 5>about it, then it's then it's then it's yes, you know,

824
00:48:53.480 --> 00:48:56.000
<v Speaker 5>like no means no. For me, it was it was

825
00:48:56.199 --> 00:48:59.480
<v Speaker 5>just this thing that it made sense to me, but

826
00:48:59.559 --> 00:49:02.400
<v Speaker 5>I realized for a lot of people it just they

827
00:49:02.719 --> 00:49:04.519
<v Speaker 5>never really saw it in a way that might have

828
00:49:04.679 --> 00:49:06.880
<v Speaker 5>might that could be sexy, that could just be part

829
00:49:06.880 --> 00:49:10.000
<v Speaker 5>of the entire but the part of the experience that

830
00:49:10.039 --> 00:49:14.280
<v Speaker 5>could enhance the experience, uh, you know, instead of like

831
00:49:14.320 --> 00:49:16.119
<v Speaker 5>this thing of like, oh, it's going to kill the vibe,

832
00:49:16.159 --> 00:49:17.679
<v Speaker 5>you know, like what are we gonna do? I'm like, well,

833
00:49:17.719 --> 00:49:20.400
<v Speaker 5>if you're worried about that, then fuck you dude. Like

834
00:49:21.239 --> 00:49:25.480
<v Speaker 5>it's like it's like if you're not in amfortable, then

835
00:49:25.480 --> 00:49:27.760
<v Speaker 5>why the Yeah, it's like why are you doing it?

836
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<v Speaker 5>So yeah, I think all those things are really important,

837
00:49:31.920 --> 00:49:34.639
<v Speaker 5>and I think it's opened It's opened a conversation up,

838
00:49:35.159 --> 00:49:38.400
<v Speaker 5>and for me it's been it's been interesting because also

839
00:49:38.599 --> 00:49:41.960
<v Speaker 5>it's allowed me to open that conversation up with other

840
00:49:42.119 --> 00:49:44.599
<v Speaker 5>men that I interact with that I am friends with,

841
00:49:45.360 --> 00:49:47.559
<v Speaker 5>because sometimes they're curious about it, like you know what, so,

842
00:49:47.639 --> 00:49:50.239
<v Speaker 5>like you're still doing that thing? Like you know, it's

843
00:49:50.280 --> 00:49:56.960
<v Speaker 5>like yeah, because I told a few of them and

844
00:49:56.280 --> 00:49:58.960
<v Speaker 5>and it's like so, so like are you still are

845
00:49:59.000 --> 00:50:01.440
<v Speaker 5>you still doing that? Like yeah, Like they're like, so, so,

846
00:50:01.480 --> 00:50:03.920
<v Speaker 5>what's it? What's it like? Like you know, how do

847
00:50:03.960 --> 00:50:06.760
<v Speaker 5>you feel like, is it is it weird? Like and

848
00:50:06.800 --> 00:50:10.000
<v Speaker 5>I'm like, no, dude, Like it's so different than than

849
00:50:10.039 --> 00:50:13.679
<v Speaker 5>what you probably imagined. Like there, it's there's so much

850
00:50:13.719 --> 00:50:18.239
<v Speaker 5>to it, and there's so there's so much positive to

851
00:50:18.440 --> 00:50:22.239
<v Speaker 5>it that that you just I don't think you could imagine.

852
00:50:22.280 --> 00:50:24.679
<v Speaker 5>So I tell them about about things, the things that

853
00:50:24.679 --> 00:50:26.840
<v Speaker 5>I'm learning and things that i'm I'm working through and

854
00:50:26.880 --> 00:50:31.360
<v Speaker 5>things that I'm you know, experiencing, and it's it's fun

855
00:50:31.400 --> 00:50:33.119
<v Speaker 5>and some of them get it, some of them some

856
00:50:33.199 --> 00:50:36.000
<v Speaker 5>of them maybe kind of don't because they're just not

857
00:50:36.199 --> 00:50:37.559
<v Speaker 5>in I don't know.

858
00:50:41.000 --> 00:50:42.599
<v Speaker 3>Exactly exactly.

859
00:50:42.679 --> 00:50:44.599
<v Speaker 5>I had one of my friends he was like, yeah,

860
00:50:44.760 --> 00:50:46.039
<v Speaker 5>you know so and said I was asking about you.

861
00:50:46.079 --> 00:50:47.760
<v Speaker 5>They were like, yeah, is he still out there being

862
00:50:47.760 --> 00:50:52.360
<v Speaker 5>a porn star? And I'm like, no, that is that

863
00:50:52.480 --> 00:50:55.840
<v Speaker 5>is not what that is. That is not it. Yeah,

864
00:50:56.599 --> 00:50:58.639
<v Speaker 5>there's a big difference between those two things.

865
00:50:58.760 --> 00:51:01.880
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's really cool that you like get the how

866
00:51:02.119 --> 00:51:03.800
<v Speaker 2>like you said, how healing the space is because it

867
00:51:03.840 --> 00:51:05.639
<v Speaker 2>really is. For we hear that all the time in

868
00:51:05.679 --> 00:51:08.079
<v Speaker 2>the communities that we're in a lot. So you know,

869
00:51:08.199 --> 00:51:09.960
<v Speaker 2>some some people we speak to the like oh you know, yeah,

870
00:51:09.960 --> 00:51:12.400
<v Speaker 2>I just make spicy videos or audios and that I'm like,

871
00:51:12.440 --> 00:51:15.159
<v Speaker 2>you have no idea. We're around hundreds of women in

872
00:51:15.199 --> 00:51:18.039
<v Speaker 2>these communities talking about the impact that these audiences have on.

873
00:51:18.199 --> 00:51:21.519
<v Speaker 5>And the truth is, we don't actually know on our end,

874
00:51:21.679 --> 00:51:23.599
<v Speaker 5>you know, we do know that has an impact, we

875
00:51:23.639 --> 00:51:27.239
<v Speaker 5>don't know exactly what that impact is. But I think

876
00:51:27.400 --> 00:51:30.360
<v Speaker 5>I think we're we're we're glad to know that that

877
00:51:30.440 --> 00:51:32.559
<v Speaker 5>it is being experienced is a positive thing and it

878
00:51:32.679 --> 00:51:35.920
<v Speaker 5>is healing. And sometimes it's just hearing something that you've

879
00:51:36.039 --> 00:51:40.880
<v Speaker 5>maybe always needed to hear but you never even knew

880
00:51:40.880 --> 00:51:43.760
<v Speaker 5>you you needed it, and it's like it comes through

881
00:51:43.960 --> 00:51:47.360
<v Speaker 5>and or even you know. For me, what's been interesting

882
00:51:47.440 --> 00:51:51.719
<v Speaker 5>is feeling scripts and noticing how, for example, like arguments

883
00:51:51.719 --> 00:51:56.320
<v Speaker 5>are written are like or like apologizing for something, and

884
00:51:56.360 --> 00:52:01.119
<v Speaker 5>I'm like, oh, oh okay, that's that. That's actually really helpful,

885
00:52:01.559 --> 00:52:06.760
<v Speaker 5>and like like I'm learning from the scripts, I'm learning

886
00:52:06.800 --> 00:52:11.440
<v Speaker 5>how these dynamics, and so I'm also learning as I'm

887
00:52:11.920 --> 00:52:15.159
<v Speaker 5>performing things. I'm like, oh, okay, like this is good,

888
00:52:15.280 --> 00:52:17.840
<v Speaker 5>or maybe something is familiar, like maybe I've had a

889
00:52:17.880 --> 00:52:20.840
<v Speaker 5>conversation like that before and it's like, oh, this went

890
00:52:20.960 --> 00:52:23.079
<v Speaker 5>a completely different way and I can see how. I

891
00:52:23.119 --> 00:52:26.119
<v Speaker 5>can see how and why and how people perceive things differently.

892
00:52:27.159 --> 00:52:29.360
<v Speaker 5>And I guess that's another thing that's kind of nerve

893
00:52:29.400 --> 00:52:33.079
<v Speaker 5>wrecking about doing voice acting work, is like, you know,

894
00:52:33.119 --> 00:52:36.000
<v Speaker 5>when you write something, someone might read it and they

895
00:52:36.440 --> 00:52:40.840
<v Speaker 5>perceive it based on their lived experience. They come with

896
00:52:40.880 --> 00:52:44.679
<v Speaker 5>their lived experience to the script or the story, and

897
00:52:44.760 --> 00:52:47.280
<v Speaker 5>like they interpret it through their own eyes, through their

898
00:52:47.320 --> 00:52:52.519
<v Speaker 5>own experience, and sometimes it's completely different. Like I came

899
00:52:52.559 --> 00:52:54.400
<v Speaker 5>at it and I was just completely having fun. It

900
00:52:54.519 --> 00:52:56.159
<v Speaker 5>was just something that maybe I normally say, and I

901
00:52:56.239 --> 00:52:58.639
<v Speaker 5>just said it, and you might experience it a certain

902
00:52:58.639 --> 00:53:02.360
<v Speaker 5>way because of the things that you've experienced through your life,

903
00:53:02.840 --> 00:53:07.039
<v Speaker 5>and maybe you're open to that particular emotion in a

904
00:53:07.119 --> 00:53:09.079
<v Speaker 5>safe space where it's like it's just you and your

905
00:53:09.079 --> 00:53:11.079
<v Speaker 5>headphones and you hear it and you take it in,

906
00:53:11.639 --> 00:53:14.920
<v Speaker 5>rather than having someone you know immediately in front of

907
00:53:14.920 --> 00:53:17.719
<v Speaker 5>you or someone you're actually in a relationship with and

908
00:53:17.760 --> 00:53:22.119
<v Speaker 5>you hear these things. And yeah, So there's just so

909
00:53:22.360 --> 00:53:25.679
<v Speaker 5>much what I like to call magic that happens between

910
00:53:27.119 --> 00:53:31.119
<v Speaker 5>me at the mic and a listener with their headphones

911
00:53:31.440 --> 00:53:32.599
<v Speaker 5>in their context.

912
00:53:32.760 --> 00:53:34.519
<v Speaker 1>So how do you know when an audio is done

913
00:53:34.679 --> 00:53:38.360
<v Speaker 1>is there a certain feeling you're chasing when it's completed.

914
00:53:42.360 --> 00:53:43.119
<v Speaker 1>That's what she said.

915
00:53:43.519 --> 00:53:52.159
<v Speaker 5>It's hard, it's done. No work's done here. It's difficult

916
00:53:52.199 --> 00:53:59.239
<v Speaker 5>to know because I almost always are I basically never

917
00:53:59.360 --> 00:54:01.760
<v Speaker 5>feel like something's done. I get to the point where

918
00:54:01.760 --> 00:54:06.239
<v Speaker 5>I submit an audio because I think this is good.

919
00:54:06.960 --> 00:54:07.679
<v Speaker 5>Is it perfect?

920
00:54:08.039 --> 00:54:08.079
<v Speaker 1>No?

921
00:54:08.960 --> 00:54:12.440
<v Speaker 5>But do I have more time? Absolutely not, And I

922
00:54:12.480 --> 00:54:14.639
<v Speaker 5>need to hit that submit button and I and I

923
00:54:14.679 --> 00:54:18.360
<v Speaker 5>submit it and then I kind of cringe and I'm like, oh, Okay,

924
00:54:18.440 --> 00:54:21.079
<v Speaker 5>there it goes, and like I just hope, I hope

925
00:54:21.119 --> 00:54:22.639
<v Speaker 5>it gets approved. I hope they don't send it back

926
00:54:22.639 --> 00:54:26.039
<v Speaker 5>for edits. It's it's difficult to know. Especially I think

927
00:54:26.079 --> 00:54:28.880
<v Speaker 5>that writing my own scripts has gotten me into it's

928
00:54:29.039 --> 00:54:31.719
<v Speaker 5>It's made me challenge my own perfectionism because I'm like,

929
00:54:31.760 --> 00:54:36.280
<v Speaker 5>it can't it can't always be the perfect as I

930
00:54:36.280 --> 00:54:39.800
<v Speaker 5>imagine it to be. It's going to be a little different.

931
00:54:40.159 --> 00:54:42.800
<v Speaker 5>I also do some where it's just completely improvised, and

932
00:54:42.800 --> 00:54:45.039
<v Speaker 5>then those I think, I think it's just when I

933
00:54:45.159 --> 00:54:46.639
<v Speaker 5>feel it, and then I feel it, I feel it

934
00:54:46.679 --> 00:54:49.480
<v Speaker 5>and I know and it's done. Those are probably the

935
00:54:49.559 --> 00:54:53.719
<v Speaker 5>easiest in that sense, but once I submit it, I

936
00:54:53.719 --> 00:54:57.079
<v Speaker 5>think the imposter syndrome is so much higher for completely

937
00:54:57.079 --> 00:55:01.280
<v Speaker 5>improv stuff than that. I'm just like, oh my god,

938
00:55:01.280 --> 00:55:05.920
<v Speaker 5>I can't believe I just submitted that. So yeah, it's

939
00:55:06.079 --> 00:55:09.800
<v Speaker 5>it's I guess, I don't. It depends on the project,

940
00:55:09.840 --> 00:55:12.519
<v Speaker 5>and it just depends on where I'm at mentally and

941
00:55:13.039 --> 00:55:13.599
<v Speaker 5>in the space.

942
00:55:13.719 --> 00:55:16.679
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, how about your style?

943
00:55:16.800 --> 00:55:18.639
<v Speaker 4>Has that kind of evolved at all since you've been

944
00:55:18.639 --> 00:55:20.480
<v Speaker 4>doing this now two plus years.

945
00:55:20.960 --> 00:55:29.800
<v Speaker 5>I don't know. I've always been sort of very chaotic, uh,

946
00:55:29.840 --> 00:55:33.239
<v Speaker 5>And I like to try different things and do different things.

947
00:55:34.400 --> 00:55:36.679
<v Speaker 5>Not all my audios are the same type. I like

948
00:55:36.719 --> 00:55:40.599
<v Speaker 5>to jump around, I think style wise, I don't know.

949
00:55:40.840 --> 00:55:42.880
<v Speaker 5>I think the main thing that's changed is maybe the

950
00:55:42.920 --> 00:55:46.400
<v Speaker 5>novelty of it. It's it's not as new to me anymore.

951
00:55:46.599 --> 00:55:49.679
<v Speaker 5>I was like this excited puppy when I first got in,

952
00:55:51.519 --> 00:55:54.519
<v Speaker 5>and now I don't think of it the same way.

953
00:55:54.679 --> 00:55:57.039
<v Speaker 5>It's still it's still exciting. It's just it's just a

954
00:55:57.079 --> 00:55:59.800
<v Speaker 5>different kind. It's like a different kind of love for

955
00:55:59.800 --> 00:56:04.679
<v Speaker 5>the work. I think my approach has been to focus

956
00:56:04.880 --> 00:56:06.880
<v Speaker 5>more on the work. You know. I started on like

957
00:56:06.920 --> 00:56:09.880
<v Speaker 5>TikTok and like Instagram, and so I realized that at

958
00:56:09.880 --> 00:56:12.800
<v Speaker 5>some point like these things are taking more time away

959
00:56:12.840 --> 00:56:15.719
<v Speaker 5>from me and my energy that I want to put

960
00:56:15.719 --> 00:56:20.519
<v Speaker 5>into creating these things and actually putting the work out

961
00:56:20.559 --> 00:56:24.000
<v Speaker 5>and like growing. And so I've actually sort of just

962
00:56:24.599 --> 00:56:28.679
<v Speaker 5>reduced my my media presence, my social media presence to

963
00:56:28.960 --> 00:56:32.000
<v Speaker 5>just TikTok and Patreon, and I use the rest of

964
00:56:32.039 --> 00:56:36.920
<v Speaker 5>the time to actually unplug's. That's become sort of something

965
00:56:36.960 --> 00:56:39.800
<v Speaker 5>that I've I've gotten an habit of I've gotten a

966
00:56:39.840 --> 00:56:42.159
<v Speaker 5>habit of picking up a book and just reading, and

967
00:56:42.159 --> 00:56:43.679
<v Speaker 5>I don't want to be out with my phone. I

968
00:56:43.800 --> 00:56:48.320
<v Speaker 5>just want to just sit down and not do ten

969
00:56:48.480 --> 00:56:53.639
<v Speaker 5>things at the same time because I'm so like everywhere,

970
00:56:53.840 --> 00:56:57.639
<v Speaker 5>so scatterbrained, and so I've learned to like I need

971
00:56:57.679 --> 00:57:01.880
<v Speaker 5>to sit down and go outside and not have anything

972
00:57:01.960 --> 00:57:07.119
<v Speaker 5>playing and allow my brain to be creative in ways

973
00:57:07.159 --> 00:57:09.719
<v Speaker 5>that maybe have nothing to do with audio erotica, so

974
00:57:09.760 --> 00:57:12.800
<v Speaker 5>that when I get into it, like I'm fresh and

975
00:57:12.840 --> 00:57:15.840
<v Speaker 5>I'm refreshed and I can jump into things. Another thing

976
00:57:15.880 --> 00:57:19.039
<v Speaker 5>with social media I had to back off from it

977
00:57:19.079 --> 00:57:22.400
<v Speaker 5>was just there's so much shit online and it's like

978
00:57:23.320 --> 00:57:26.360
<v Speaker 5>and like I can't open up my phone and just

979
00:57:26.559 --> 00:57:28.920
<v Speaker 5>be hit with things. It's almost like they've taken away

980
00:57:29.039 --> 00:57:32.800
<v Speaker 5>our ability to choose what we want to see and

981
00:57:32.800 --> 00:57:36.000
<v Speaker 5>what we expose ourselves to, and they're just like throwing

982
00:57:36.039 --> 00:57:39.480
<v Speaker 5>things at us, and it's like no, no, I can't

983
00:57:39.519 --> 00:57:42.679
<v Speaker 5>do that anymore. I also want to stay informed. So

984
00:57:42.760 --> 00:57:45.519
<v Speaker 5>it's like this weird like balance I have to strike.

985
00:57:45.920 --> 00:57:48.480
<v Speaker 5>But I know myself and I know how sensitive I

986
00:57:48.519 --> 00:57:53.119
<v Speaker 5>am to things, and I don't want that to carry

987
00:57:53.199 --> 00:57:55.920
<v Speaker 5>into my work because I want my work to be

988
00:57:56.079 --> 00:57:59.199
<v Speaker 5>something that is positive, and I want to be able

989
00:57:59.239 --> 00:58:02.039
<v Speaker 5>to get into the booth and be like be here,

990
00:58:02.119 --> 00:58:04.280
<v Speaker 5>be present, because this these are the things that I

991
00:58:04.320 --> 00:58:05.280
<v Speaker 5>can actually control.

992
00:58:06.000 --> 00:58:07.440
<v Speaker 2>It is always a a conundrum of like, you know,

993
00:58:07.480 --> 00:58:08.800
<v Speaker 2>I don't want to bury my head in the sand,

994
00:58:08.840 --> 00:58:10.920
<v Speaker 2>but listen, we couldn't bury our heads in the sand

995
00:58:10.920 --> 00:58:13.599
<v Speaker 2>if we tried these days, Like it's just we're always

996
00:58:13.599 --> 00:58:15.840
<v Speaker 2>gonna find out. I'm gonna because I mean I hadn't.

997
00:58:15.960 --> 00:58:17.880
<v Speaker 2>It's been years since I've watched the news. I just

998
00:58:17.960 --> 00:58:21.239
<v Speaker 2>don't because I'm the same. I'm way too sensitive. I'm

999
00:58:21.280 --> 00:58:24.719
<v Speaker 2>like I am a sensitive sponge. It's incredibly empathetic, and

1000
00:58:24.719 --> 00:58:28.199
<v Speaker 2>it's it's a heavy road to carry, and so I

1001
00:58:28.239 --> 00:58:31.280
<v Speaker 2>have to just protect my piece and I'm gonna find

1002
00:58:31.320 --> 00:58:33.880
<v Speaker 2>out what's going on, of course, But like you said,

1003
00:58:33.880 --> 00:58:35.559
<v Speaker 2>look when you when you go in the booth and create,

1004
00:58:35.639 --> 00:58:38.320
<v Speaker 2>Like I believe when any artist creates anything, whether it's

1005
00:58:38.320 --> 00:58:40.559
<v Speaker 2>an audio in here, whether it's a book that they

1006
00:58:40.559 --> 00:58:42.840
<v Speaker 2>write or piece of music, the energy with which you

1007
00:58:42.920 --> 00:58:46.679
<v Speaker 2>create that is also communicated to the end user. So

1008
00:58:47.039 --> 00:58:50.440
<v Speaker 2>I can appreciate wanting to go into the booth with

1009
00:58:50.760 --> 00:58:55.199
<v Speaker 2>energy that's not toxic from social media. Yeah, and more clear,

1010
00:58:55.320 --> 00:58:57.559
<v Speaker 2>because that's that's gonna come across the audio.

1011
00:58:58.719 --> 00:59:05.840
<v Speaker 1>You know, agreed, What's one thing after this time? You

1012
00:59:05.880 --> 00:59:08.119
<v Speaker 1>wish people understood about the space or you.

1013
00:59:09.719 --> 00:59:14.039
<v Speaker 5>I saw recently a post someone wrote something I don't

1014
00:59:14.079 --> 00:59:18.679
<v Speaker 5>remember where I saw it, something about celebrities exist in

1015
00:59:18.719 --> 00:59:22.440
<v Speaker 5>a space that isn't real. There's this weird space that

1016
00:59:22.480 --> 00:59:26.719
<v Speaker 5>people put you on, like a pedestal or something, because

1017
00:59:28.280 --> 00:59:31.800
<v Speaker 5>you know, you're a creator or some sort or you're

1018
00:59:31.960 --> 00:59:34.599
<v Speaker 5>in a particular platform and all of a sudden, there's

1019
00:59:34.719 --> 00:59:37.519
<v Speaker 5>like this aura around you. I guess I just I

1020
00:59:37.679 --> 00:59:41.320
<v Speaker 5>just like people to realize that, Like we're human. I

1021
00:59:41.360 --> 00:59:44.400
<v Speaker 5>think that's that's the biggest thing for me. Like we're human,

1022
00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:51.400
<v Speaker 5>we have feelings, we are not like these super human

1023
00:59:51.559 --> 00:59:56.119
<v Speaker 5>people or these celebrities, Like we deal with shit day

1024
00:59:56.159 --> 00:59:59.199
<v Speaker 5>in and day out. We do so much other things

1025
00:59:59.199 --> 01:00:02.440
<v Speaker 5>that are just like you. Everyone is. I think, you know,

1026
01:00:02.559 --> 01:00:05.920
<v Speaker 5>everyone has like this intrinsic value. But like, I don't

1027
01:00:05.960 --> 01:00:09.920
<v Speaker 5>want to be put on a pedestal because it's it's

1028
01:00:10.039 --> 01:00:13.639
<v Speaker 5>just not good. It's just not good for us as vas.

1029
01:00:13.679 --> 01:00:16.559
<v Speaker 5>It's not good for listeners or the audiences to put

1030
01:00:16.639 --> 01:00:20.519
<v Speaker 5>us in a certain pedestal. I grew up being put

1031
01:00:20.559 --> 01:00:22.519
<v Speaker 5>on a pedestal, and I just do not want it

1032
01:00:22.599 --> 01:00:27.360
<v Speaker 5>as well. So we I appreciate, you know, anonymity, and

1033
01:00:27.559 --> 01:00:31.719
<v Speaker 5>I appreciate the respect that I've received from the community,

1034
01:00:31.760 --> 01:00:34.880
<v Speaker 5>and I want to also give that respect as well

1035
01:00:34.920 --> 01:00:38.760
<v Speaker 5>to my audience who have been very generous in supporting

1036
01:00:38.800 --> 01:00:43.320
<v Speaker 5>me and just you know, listening and being fun. You know,

1037
01:00:43.519 --> 01:00:45.360
<v Speaker 5>like if I were just saying, I say it a

1038
01:00:45.360 --> 01:00:49.320
<v Speaker 5>lot like take care of yourselves, because you know, I

1039
01:00:49.360 --> 01:00:54.360
<v Speaker 5>know a lot of us are constantly online, and it's

1040
01:00:54.400 --> 01:00:57.199
<v Speaker 5>like it's so easy to ignore the things that you

1041
01:00:57.280 --> 01:01:00.760
<v Speaker 5>actually do need in your life and I don't know,

1042
01:01:00.800 --> 01:01:02.840
<v Speaker 5>fill it up with other things that take up your time.

1043
01:01:03.159 --> 01:01:05.800
<v Speaker 5>I have become very aware of that in my own life,

1044
01:01:06.079 --> 01:01:09.159
<v Speaker 5>and so I just I guess I just want to

1045
01:01:09.159 --> 01:01:12.519
<v Speaker 5>share that with people. I've always just wanted to be

1046
01:01:12.599 --> 01:01:15.880
<v Speaker 5>a source of inspiration and a source of something good

1047
01:01:15.920 --> 01:01:18.440
<v Speaker 5>in the world. And what we each of us does

1048
01:01:18.480 --> 01:01:22.239
<v Speaker 5>affects other people that we might not even know. And

1049
01:01:22.320 --> 01:01:25.039
<v Speaker 5>so I think that's helped me to commit myself to

1050
01:01:25.760 --> 01:01:29.559
<v Speaker 5>like improving me. I think if we if we want

1051
01:01:29.599 --> 01:01:34.159
<v Speaker 5>to change things, you got to change ourselves. And mm hmmm,

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01:01:34.360 --> 01:01:37.519
<v Speaker 5>that's sometimes the most the hardest thing to do, right, Like.

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01:01:37.760 --> 01:01:40.519
<v Speaker 2>It's the hardest thing to do so different.

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<v Speaker 5>So for those of you who are working on yourselves,

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01:01:43.840 --> 01:01:45.079
<v Speaker 5>more power to you, you.

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01:01:45.039 --> 01:01:49.400
<v Speaker 3>Know, do keep going, keep going with different.

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01:01:49.360 --> 01:01:51.760
<v Speaker 1>Some of us like pine up on our pizzasn't a wrong.

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01:01:52.159 --> 01:01:56.440
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, you know, I feel like we're tied because luck

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01:01:56.519 --> 01:01:57.400
<v Speaker 4>and I think that's good.

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01:01:57.440 --> 01:01:58.760
<v Speaker 3>But Kas has never had that.

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01:01:58.840 --> 01:02:00.760
<v Speaker 2>You've never had that totally on too, though, Like I'm

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01:02:01.079 --> 01:02:01.639
<v Speaker 2>I'm in for it.

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01:02:01.960 --> 01:02:06.639
<v Speaker 3>Well next time you okay, oh my.

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01:02:06.559 --> 01:02:09.239
<v Speaker 4>God, I'm so nervous, just gonna slipper or some money

1065
01:02:09.280 --> 01:02:10.519
<v Speaker 4>to say the wrong thing.

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01:02:12.679 --> 01:02:14.519
<v Speaker 2>You'll see, Like here we are on Tuesday, Like this

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01:02:14.599 --> 01:02:16.360
<v Speaker 2>is you guys, didn't think you were getting a therapy

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01:02:16.360 --> 01:02:19.960
<v Speaker 2>Tuesday today, right, and here here comes Lux in to

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01:02:20.000 --> 01:02:21.719
<v Speaker 2>save to therapy.

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01:02:22.119 --> 01:02:23.760
<v Speaker 1>Kaza goes to therapy every Tuesday.

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01:02:24.000 --> 01:02:26.320
<v Speaker 2>They get excited because after my therapy session, I will

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01:02:26.400 --> 01:02:28.199
<v Speaker 2>leave them a voicemail with a debrief of what I

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01:02:28.280 --> 01:02:31.440
<v Speaker 2>learned that day. So now I didn't know how much

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01:02:31.480 --> 01:02:36.119
<v Speaker 2>they've come to rely on it. Yes, we have fucking therapists.

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01:02:37.400 --> 01:02:39.079
<v Speaker 4>A voice note, it will be like, that's not you're

1076
01:02:39.079 --> 01:02:40.079
<v Speaker 4>talking about therapy.

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01:02:40.400 --> 01:02:41.079
<v Speaker 3>Get out of here.

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01:02:42.880 --> 01:02:45.079
<v Speaker 1>We had hairdresser Tuesday the week and I was like,

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01:02:45.159 --> 01:02:47.599
<v Speaker 1>what the hell was going on? That's not what I it's.

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01:02:49.280 --> 01:02:53.280
<v Speaker 2>You guys should chip in from my se Then lux

1081
01:02:53.320 --> 01:02:54.679
<v Speaker 2>came in and saved the day because I didn't. We

1082
01:02:54.679 --> 01:02:57.599
<v Speaker 2>didn't have therapy Tuesday today, But yes we did. Thank

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01:02:57.639 --> 01:02:58.000
<v Speaker 2>you Loox.

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01:02:58.519 --> 01:03:03.440
<v Speaker 1>Therapy Tuesday, tack Tuesday. It's fine. It was meant to be.

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01:03:03.800 --> 01:03:05.960
<v Speaker 5>Sometimes I'm afraid that I give to card flash.

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01:03:07.039 --> 01:03:11.679
<v Speaker 1>That's how my brain works. Look, that was just a nave, genuinely.

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01:03:11.519 --> 01:03:15.719
<v Speaker 2>Okay to Oh my god, this is like I could

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01:03:15.800 --> 01:03:18.239
<v Speaker 2>talk like this all day long. Hey, so the listener

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01:03:18.320 --> 01:03:21.360
<v Speaker 2>questions first, Before we get to the questions, we had

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01:03:21.400 --> 01:03:25.039
<v Speaker 2>someone who submitted a comment that we're going to share.

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<v Speaker 2>So this is from La Nuna. Luna won't be asked

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01:03:28.800 --> 01:03:32.280
<v Speaker 2>a question. She said, he reads poetry the way it's

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01:03:32.320 --> 01:03:36.400
<v Speaker 2>meant to be read, with sincerity, emotion, and vulnerability, and

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01:03:36.440 --> 01:03:38.239
<v Speaker 2>I love that I can feel all of that in

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01:03:38.280 --> 01:03:41.559
<v Speaker 2>his other audios too. I also appreciate that he doesn't

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01:03:41.599 --> 01:03:43.760
<v Speaker 2>go too over the top with them. They're mostly grounded,

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01:03:43.920 --> 01:03:47.480
<v Speaker 2>slice of life scenarios that feel honest and real. I

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01:03:47.519 --> 01:03:49.920
<v Speaker 2>never fully lose the awareness that they're scripted, but I

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01:03:49.960 --> 01:03:53.320
<v Speaker 2>can still easily and comfortably place myself in those scenes

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01:03:53.400 --> 01:03:55.920
<v Speaker 2>and forget the world for a few minutes. There's beauty

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01:03:55.960 --> 01:03:58.679
<v Speaker 2>and quiet moments and everyday routines, and he really seems

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01:03:58.679 --> 01:03:59.360
<v Speaker 2>to understand that.

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<v Speaker 3>So well, mm hmmm, beautiful.

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01:04:03.079 --> 01:04:03.920
<v Speaker 5>It's very nice.

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01:04:04.800 --> 01:04:07.480
<v Speaker 2>But really take that in like I think, I think

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01:04:07.480 --> 01:04:10.639
<v Speaker 2>it really encapsulates your audio.

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01:04:10.440 --> 01:04:10.840
<v Speaker 4>Your work.

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01:04:11.159 --> 01:04:16.440
<v Speaker 5>That's yeah, yeah, that's absolutely thank you, Thank you.

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01:04:18.559 --> 01:04:19.039
<v Speaker 3>All right.

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<v Speaker 4>Our first question is from Kylie. Were you surprised at

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01:04:24.239 --> 01:04:27.239
<v Speaker 4>the reactions to you using Spanish in your audios?

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<v Speaker 5>I didn't. I didn't know. I didn't know how people

1113
01:04:30.360 --> 01:04:33.000
<v Speaker 5>would react to it. I I feel like I took

1114
01:04:33.039 --> 01:04:37.039
<v Speaker 5>a creative risk to use Spanish in my audios. I

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01:04:37.440 --> 01:04:40.559
<v Speaker 5>think the first time that I used Spanish in an audio,

1116
01:04:41.320 --> 01:04:43.679
<v Speaker 5>I think it was a full Spanish audio. I was

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01:04:44.239 --> 01:04:49.320
<v Speaker 5>scared shitless. I didn't know what would happen, but yeah,

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01:04:49.360 --> 01:04:53.519
<v Speaker 5>I was. I was very surprised by the reception and

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01:04:53.880 --> 01:04:58.559
<v Speaker 5>the just a general feedback that I got from people.

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01:04:58.760 --> 01:05:02.079
<v Speaker 5>I feel like a lot of people felt seen and

1121
01:05:03.320 --> 01:05:06.159
<v Speaker 5>that was really incredible. And it was also for me

1122
01:05:06.519 --> 01:05:11.880
<v Speaker 5>a moment of learning to accept that side of myself.

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01:05:12.239 --> 01:05:15.320
<v Speaker 5>Not that I necessarily rejected it, but I mean I

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01:05:15.360 --> 01:05:20.199
<v Speaker 5>am I am a son of immigrants in the United States,

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01:05:20.679 --> 01:05:26.840
<v Speaker 5>and growing up, Spanish was just not something you wanted

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01:05:26.920 --> 01:05:30.920
<v Speaker 5>to speak in public or at school or you know.

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01:05:31.079 --> 01:05:34.079
<v Speaker 5>It was There's a certain warmth to it because it

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01:05:34.119 --> 01:05:38.039
<v Speaker 5>comes from the sense of home, but also it's something

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01:05:38.119 --> 01:05:43.360
<v Speaker 5>that is looked down upon elsewhere. So just doing that,

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01:05:43.440 --> 01:05:46.519
<v Speaker 5>I wanted to do it because I knew that there

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01:05:46.519 --> 01:05:49.159
<v Speaker 5>would be people who would feel seen by it, but

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01:05:49.280 --> 01:05:51.000
<v Speaker 5>I also didn't I was scared because I was like,

1133
01:05:51.000 --> 01:05:52.800
<v Speaker 5>I don't know if I'm going to do this well

1134
01:05:52.840 --> 01:05:58.400
<v Speaker 5>because I've never listened to Spanish audio. Eeronica, Like, there's

1135
01:05:58.400 --> 01:06:00.599
<v Speaker 5>certain things I don't know how to say, Like you

1136
01:06:00.639 --> 01:06:03.960
<v Speaker 5>know how to portray, but Yeah, it was really exciting

1137
01:06:04.000 --> 01:06:06.960
<v Speaker 5>and I was really like it was really nerve wrecking,

1138
01:06:07.599 --> 01:06:10.880
<v Speaker 5>but to see the feedback and the reception felt very

1139
01:06:11.119 --> 01:06:14.360
<v Speaker 5>almost kind of healing, like this is also part of

1140
01:06:14.400 --> 01:06:17.719
<v Speaker 5>who I am and it's good.

1141
01:06:18.159 --> 01:06:21.599
<v Speaker 1>And Yeah, We've got a couple of questions about guitar,

1142
01:06:21.639 --> 01:06:23.559
<v Speaker 1>so I'm gonna put them both in one. So from

1143
01:06:23.719 --> 01:06:31.199
<v Speaker 1>Missus p Zoo and from Real Ali Cat. So Missus says,

1144
01:06:31.199 --> 01:06:33.400
<v Speaker 1>have you thought about playing more guitar in your audios?

1145
01:06:33.519 --> 01:06:35.840
<v Speaker 1>And Real Ali Kat says, what's your favorite song to

1146
01:06:35.920 --> 01:06:36.840
<v Speaker 1>perform on the guitar?

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01:06:37.559 --> 01:06:43.440
<v Speaker 5>Okay, So I have thought about playing guitar in an

1148
01:06:43.480 --> 01:06:49.599
<v Speaker 5>audio and that might be happening pretty soon. I have

1149
01:06:49.679 --> 01:06:52.840
<v Speaker 5>a project I'm working on that will include guitar playing.

1150
01:06:53.079 --> 01:06:58.440
<v Speaker 5>My favorite thing to play on the guitar. I like

1151
01:06:58.559 --> 01:07:02.840
<v Speaker 5>to just sort of improvise on the guitar, and I

1152
01:07:02.840 --> 01:07:07.000
<v Speaker 5>think this is what's maybe different. Guitar has always been

1153
01:07:07.039 --> 01:07:10.440
<v Speaker 5>sort of a self soothing thing for me, and I

1154
01:07:10.480 --> 01:07:12.639
<v Speaker 5>think I realized that recently. But I've been playing guitar

1155
01:07:12.639 --> 01:07:16.199
<v Speaker 5>for a very very long time, since I was like thirteen,

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01:07:16.480 --> 01:07:20.079
<v Speaker 5>twelve thirteen. I don't know, for me, playing guitar feels

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01:07:20.239 --> 01:07:24.599
<v Speaker 5>It's like it's self soothing because I get to kind

1158
01:07:24.599 --> 01:07:29.360
<v Speaker 5>of just get into a flow state where I'm not

1159
01:07:29.760 --> 01:07:34.480
<v Speaker 5>thinking about things. I'm feeling things. And as someone who

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01:07:35.199 --> 01:07:39.159
<v Speaker 5>kind of always repressed emotions, to be able to express

1161
01:07:39.199 --> 01:07:41.880
<v Speaker 5>it in that way was just helpful. And there's also

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01:07:41.920 --> 01:07:44.920
<v Speaker 5>something very soothing about feeling like that, the vibration of

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01:07:44.960 --> 01:07:47.320
<v Speaker 5>the instrument on your body. Those are just things that

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<v Speaker 5>I liked, and those that's what makes it my favorite

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01:07:51.519 --> 01:07:54.400
<v Speaker 5>thing to do. So I don't have a particular thing

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01:07:54.440 --> 01:07:57.719
<v Speaker 5>that I always play. I like to play things, but

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01:07:57.760 --> 01:07:59.960
<v Speaker 5>I don't often go out of my way to learn

1168
01:08:00.239 --> 01:08:02.840
<v Speaker 5>something new, like a popular song or anything like that.

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01:08:02.880 --> 01:08:06.039
<v Speaker 5>To perform, it's usually just me sitting with the guitar

1170
01:08:06.159 --> 01:08:09.039
<v Speaker 5>or like feeling just the sound. Sometimes I'll just sit

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01:08:09.039 --> 01:08:10.960
<v Speaker 5>in the room, like with the lights off, like at night,

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01:08:11.039 --> 01:08:15.239
<v Speaker 5>and just like play in the dark. Like that's kind

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01:08:15.280 --> 01:08:17.079
<v Speaker 5>of what I like to do. I did play in

1174
01:08:17.119 --> 01:08:20.079
<v Speaker 5>a few bands and I got that experience too, But

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01:08:20.399 --> 01:08:23.039
<v Speaker 5>my favorite and absolute favorite thing to do is is

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01:08:23.720 --> 01:08:27.079
<v Speaker 5>like shut the lights off, just shut the mind down

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01:08:27.319 --> 01:08:30.880
<v Speaker 5>and just like focus on sound. That's that's what I

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01:08:30.880 --> 01:08:34.680
<v Speaker 5>thought I would be doing. I thought I would become

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01:08:34.720 --> 01:08:36.760
<v Speaker 5>a musician. I thought this is what I was gonna do.

1180
01:08:37.199 --> 01:08:39.760
<v Speaker 5>I didn't think I would be doing like audio erotica stuff,

1181
01:08:40.079 --> 01:08:43.520
<v Speaker 5>but I realized there there's sort of a crossover of like,

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01:08:43.800 --> 01:08:48.840
<v Speaker 5>you know, like really focusing on the emotion of things

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01:08:48.960 --> 01:08:50.840
<v Speaker 5>and allowing myself to flow in that.

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01:08:51.359 --> 01:08:53.359
<v Speaker 2>So, yeah, that's well.

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01:08:53.359 --> 01:08:55.079
<v Speaker 1>If I could put in a guitar request for you,

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01:08:55.159 --> 01:08:57.399
<v Speaker 1>seven Spanish een jels by Woody Nelson.

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01:08:59.279 --> 01:09:01.159
<v Speaker 2>Specific it's one of my favorite.

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01:09:01.159 --> 01:09:03.560
<v Speaker 1>It's one of my favorite guitar when I hear the

1189
01:09:03.560 --> 01:09:08.439
<v Speaker 1>guitar because it's got that Spanish fine country five no

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01:09:08.520 --> 01:09:10.640
<v Speaker 1>no Spanish and country type five.

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01:09:10.520 --> 01:09:13.000
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, Spanish angels.

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01:09:13.800 --> 01:09:15.359
<v Speaker 2>I mean, we haven't seeing a lot of your guitar

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01:09:15.640 --> 01:09:18.600
<v Speaker 2>TikTok slately. We were saying before you arrived that it

1194
01:09:18.720 --> 01:09:21.119
<v Speaker 2>was like all of a sudden. Maybe it's not all

1195
01:09:21.119 --> 01:09:22.920
<v Speaker 2>of a sudden, but like we're seeing more of you

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01:09:23.000 --> 01:09:27.479
<v Speaker 2>on social media, posting more in general on social media.

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01:09:27.640 --> 01:09:28.840
<v Speaker 5>I'm posting more on TikTok.

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01:09:28.920 --> 01:09:31.199
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, okay, because I'm like, we're seeing more about off.

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01:09:31.199 --> 01:09:32.680
<v Speaker 2>It's just because it was the guitar that found its

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01:09:32.680 --> 01:09:32.960
<v Speaker 2>way to me.

1201
01:09:34.399 --> 01:09:38.319
<v Speaker 3>Lots of FIP, which was it right, right, that's so funny.

1202
01:09:38.600 --> 01:09:44.680
<v Speaker 5>Exactly which one was it. I think that I've changed

1203
01:09:44.720 --> 01:09:48.239
<v Speaker 5>my approach towards social media. I think TikTok itself is

1204
01:09:48.279 --> 01:09:52.199
<v Speaker 5>just a really different beast, and I just wanted it

1205
01:09:52.239 --> 01:09:58.399
<v Speaker 5>to be something positive. Music to me is it's kind

1206
01:09:58.399 --> 01:10:02.439
<v Speaker 5>of just a big light to me, like in my life.

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01:10:02.640 --> 01:10:05.359
<v Speaker 5>So I just I'm like, yeah, this is still kind

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01:10:05.399 --> 01:10:09.000
<v Speaker 5>of shock in all people because I'm an erotic voice actor,

1209
01:10:09.039 --> 01:10:11.199
<v Speaker 5>but you're not even hearing my voice. I'm just like

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01:10:11.239 --> 01:10:13.439
<v Speaker 5>playing guitar. I'm just gonna I'm just gonna play guitar

1211
01:10:13.439 --> 01:10:15.760
<v Speaker 5>for you, Like that's essentially what I'm doing. I'm gonna

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01:10:15.760 --> 01:10:17.039
<v Speaker 5>show up on your scream, I'm gonna play a tar

1213
01:10:17.079 --> 01:10:20.520
<v Speaker 5>for you, and I just play. And it's also because

1214
01:10:20.560 --> 01:10:22.479
<v Speaker 5>it's not something that I don't think a lot of

1215
01:10:22.479 --> 01:10:25.199
<v Speaker 5>people knew that I did. It's one of these funny

1216
01:10:25.199 --> 01:10:27.880
<v Speaker 5>things about me that I don't immediately share with people

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01:10:28.000 --> 01:10:30.560
<v Speaker 5>that I play guitar. I think a lady Lex didn't

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01:10:30.560 --> 01:10:34.039
<v Speaker 5>know I played guitar to like a long time after

1219
01:10:34.079 --> 01:10:36.600
<v Speaker 5>she like we met, and it was just something that

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01:10:36.600 --> 01:10:41.800
<v Speaker 5>I didn't want to like lead with and I just

1221
01:10:41.960 --> 01:10:45.359
<v Speaker 5>decided I'm just gonna try this out. I think she

1222
01:10:45.520 --> 01:10:47.319
<v Speaker 5>was in the room when I started playing, and I

1223
01:10:47.359 --> 01:10:49.600
<v Speaker 5>was like, I think I'm going to record this, and

1224
01:10:49.600 --> 01:10:51.840
<v Speaker 5>she's like, yeah, go for it, and I just hit

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01:10:51.920 --> 01:10:54.079
<v Speaker 5>record and that the room was a little dark so

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01:10:54.119 --> 01:10:56.600
<v Speaker 5>you could just barely see me, and I'm I'm literally

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01:10:56.680 --> 01:11:00.520
<v Speaker 5>just playing around like I didn't get into a performance

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01:11:00.560 --> 01:11:03.239
<v Speaker 5>mode or anything. I just and even like the video

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01:11:03.279 --> 01:11:05.000
<v Speaker 5>is a little dark, you just see my hand. I

1230
01:11:05.039 --> 01:11:06.840
<v Speaker 5>didn't know how people would react to that.

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01:11:07.119 --> 01:11:08.279
<v Speaker 6>You do now.

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01:11:11.239 --> 01:11:14.800
<v Speaker 5>And now I'm like, oh, okay, this is this could

1233
01:11:14.800 --> 01:11:17.640
<v Speaker 5>be a thing, like I could just continue doing this

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01:11:17.760 --> 01:11:20.159
<v Speaker 5>and I and and the reactions and comments and everything,

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01:11:20.159 --> 01:11:23.279
<v Speaker 5>I'm like, wow, I didn't think people will react this

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01:11:23.359 --> 01:11:27.880
<v Speaker 5>way because this isn't this isn't audio erotica related at all.

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01:11:29.880 --> 01:11:35.960
<v Speaker 1>Women, not everything is all about exactly.

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01:11:36.680 --> 01:11:38.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean yeah.

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01:11:38.399 --> 01:11:40.119
<v Speaker 3>But but it looks really.

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01:11:40.000 --> 01:11:43.520
<v Speaker 2>Nice and it's clear. I mean it's so clear. It's

1241
01:11:43.520 --> 01:11:45.560
<v Speaker 2>so clear that you you play guitar so well. You

1242
01:11:45.560 --> 01:11:47.079
<v Speaker 2>could tell just by the way that you play like

1243
01:11:47.119 --> 01:11:49.640
<v Speaker 2>he's this is not someone who sucks around with guitar

1244
01:11:49.680 --> 01:11:51.960
<v Speaker 2>like he plays. You could just really tell.

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01:11:52.000 --> 01:11:54.079
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you don't play guitar, like well, you speak Spanish

1246
01:11:54.079 --> 01:11:58.439
<v Speaker 1>and I'm gonna throw this in because somebody, somebody, somebody

1247
01:11:58.479 --> 01:12:01.800
<v Speaker 1>sent in a question in Spanish, and I think each

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01:12:01.840 --> 01:12:06.560
<v Speaker 1>one of us should say it in our own like whatever,

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01:12:08.640 --> 01:12:12.079
<v Speaker 1>and if you understand it, and if you understand any

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01:12:12.119 --> 01:12:14.359
<v Speaker 1>of it from any of us, so we'll each say

1251
01:12:14.399 --> 01:12:18.159
<v Speaker 1>it what it's written down. I got clue, and then

1252
01:12:18.319 --> 01:12:23.600
<v Speaker 1>you can see which one you understand.

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01:12:23.800 --> 01:12:34.119
<v Speaker 2>Oh okay, great, all right? Tiennis planiado a Tiennis planniados

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01:12:34.399 --> 01:12:36.399
<v Speaker 2>audios and Espaniel Quin.

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01:12:37.720 --> 01:12:42.560
<v Speaker 4>Jules tienna is plannado as ser mass adios and Espaniel Quin.

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01:12:43.960 --> 01:12:44.840
<v Speaker 3>That's gonna win.

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01:12:44.800 --> 01:12:51.960
<v Speaker 1>Smudge, Tiens planiado hayeser mass audios on Espano para quin.

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<v Speaker 5>That was That was the best one.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 5>I knew.

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<v Speaker 1>Had that hit that brit.

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<v Speaker 3>There you go, you got it.

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<v Speaker 2>Let me Do you have mm hmm plans mm hmmm

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<v Speaker 2>something more ado?

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<v Speaker 5>You guys got it? Yeah? Uh. I don't have uh

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<v Speaker 5>like a script rate to go or anything, but I

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<v Speaker 5>do plan to do more audios in Spanish for Quinn.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know that I'll do a full Spanish audio

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<v Speaker 5>because I I do want my audience to understand, so

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<v Speaker 5>I think bi lingual audios is my way to go.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not ruling out full Spanish audience in the future,

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<v Speaker 5>but I don't have any plans to do one there yet.

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<v Speaker 5>I want to be as genuine as possible, and I

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<v Speaker 5>think the last bilingual ones that I've done are the

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<v Speaker 5>most genuine to me because it's my lived experience. Bilingual

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01:14:01.600 --> 01:14:05.720
<v Speaker 5>communication with a partner in my context in the US

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01:14:06.159 --> 01:14:09.520
<v Speaker 5>is where I'm at, and it's the most genuine to me,

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<v Speaker 5>So that's that's why.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, I mean, yeah, as you can see, I

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<v Speaker 1>mean all three of us were basically fluent.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, exactly, changes from place to place, exactly.

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01:14:24.079 --> 01:14:25.079
<v Speaker 3>There's a dialect.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a tiny pocket in spin understood what I said.

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<v Speaker 2>No, there's not in your audio, CLO is that how

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01:14:37.680 --> 01:14:39.439
<v Speaker 2>you pronounced it? That was a beautiful use of the

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01:14:39.439 --> 01:14:43.279
<v Speaker 2>built because even the parts of it where you're speaking Spanish,

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01:14:43.960 --> 01:14:46.479
<v Speaker 2>you know what's happening in the scene, even without being

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01:14:46.479 --> 01:14:51.039
<v Speaker 2>able to translate the words. So that was really yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>And that was a powerful audio anyway, like Jesus so

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01:14:53.720 --> 01:14:55.600
<v Speaker 2>powerful the statement of the world, you know.

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<v Speaker 5>Thanks, Yeah, that was yeah, yeah, that was I didn't

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01:15:02.680 --> 01:15:04.960
<v Speaker 5>know how people would react to that one either, but

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01:15:05.399 --> 01:15:10.319
<v Speaker 5>I felt it was needed. I just needed something that

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01:15:10.399 --> 01:15:15.039
<v Speaker 5>I also needed to do. But yeah, I think that

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01:15:15.039 --> 01:15:19.560
<v Speaker 5>that is the bilingual context that I'm most comfortable in.

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm. Yeah, And I guess we kind of like

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01:15:23.399 --> 01:15:25.479
<v Speaker 2>spoken code. Like, So for listeners who haven't heard that

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01:15:25.520 --> 01:15:28.199
<v Speaker 2>audio yet, could you just give like a quick snippet

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<v Speaker 2>about what the plot, what it's about.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah. I think it was released in June of last year.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't quite remember, but we were experiencing some really,

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01:15:43.079 --> 01:15:47.439
<v Speaker 5>some really tough times. It was sort of the first

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01:15:47.479 --> 01:15:52.439
<v Speaker 5>time that ICE was out there picking people up from

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01:15:52.520 --> 01:15:58.560
<v Speaker 5>different places. It's just a completely different way of enforcing policies,

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01:15:58.600 --> 01:16:02.359
<v Speaker 5>I guess. And I didn't want to make something that

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01:16:02.640 --> 01:16:07.119
<v Speaker 5>was outright political. I wanted to make something that was

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01:16:07.239 --> 01:16:11.000
<v Speaker 5>very human and it was really it was really difficult

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<v Speaker 5>for me to get into the creative headspace at that time,

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01:16:14.640 --> 01:16:17.880
<v Speaker 5>and I think that what helped me get there was

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01:16:18.000 --> 01:16:21.640
<v Speaker 5>just thinking, I'm just going to tell a story of

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01:16:21.840 --> 01:16:29.319
<v Speaker 5>things that we are actually experiencing and how people, real life,

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01:16:29.399 --> 01:16:32.279
<v Speaker 5>every day people are experiencing it, and how it's affecting

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01:16:32.279 --> 01:16:35.399
<v Speaker 5>our lives. Because like it or not, it's happening, and

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01:16:35.439 --> 01:16:37.920
<v Speaker 5>it's happening to us, and it's happening in our communities,

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01:16:38.119 --> 01:16:40.920
<v Speaker 5>and I just want to invite you to walk in

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01:16:40.960 --> 01:16:45.399
<v Speaker 5>our shoes for about twenty minutes. And that was that

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01:16:45.560 --> 01:16:52.359
<v Speaker 5>because I didn't know how else to express it. I

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01:16:52.399 --> 01:16:55.399
<v Speaker 5>think that there is power in people being able to

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01:16:55.520 --> 01:16:58.720
<v Speaker 5>understand the experiences of others, even if it's not their

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01:16:58.720 --> 01:17:03.760
<v Speaker 5>own lived experience. I didn't want to take the route

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01:17:03.800 --> 01:17:09.239
<v Speaker 5>of arguing against something or just yelling and screaming about something.

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01:17:09.399 --> 01:17:11.520
<v Speaker 5>I wanted to have you walk in our shoes. And

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01:17:12.199 --> 01:17:17.039
<v Speaker 5>so the story just surrounds a couple who are having

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01:17:17.079 --> 01:17:20.600
<v Speaker 5>these conversations that like everyday normal people that I knew

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01:17:20.640 --> 01:17:23.520
<v Speaker 5>were having, including myself, of like, hey, you know, so

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01:17:23.640 --> 01:17:26.439
<v Speaker 5>and so is really scared about this, and it's really

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01:17:26.439 --> 01:17:28.520
<v Speaker 5>they're really anxious about it, and they're afraid to leave

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01:17:28.560 --> 01:17:31.359
<v Speaker 5>their home even though they are they're fine, like they

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01:17:31.359 --> 01:17:33.960
<v Speaker 5>shouldn't be worried or scared about this happening to them,

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01:17:34.000 --> 01:17:36.960
<v Speaker 5>but there's just so much fear and uncertainty around it.

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01:17:37.039 --> 01:17:41.439
<v Speaker 5>And you know, my partner in the audio asking me like, hey,

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01:17:41.600 --> 01:17:45.479
<v Speaker 5>like are you carrying your documentation with you? And I'm like,

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01:17:45.720 --> 01:17:48.039
<v Speaker 5>why the fuck do I need to carry documentation? Like

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01:17:48.920 --> 01:17:50.600
<v Speaker 5>I don't need to, Like I don't need to worry

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01:17:50.640 --> 01:17:52.960
<v Speaker 5>about this at all, and yet here we are worrying

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01:17:53.000 --> 01:17:57.560
<v Speaker 5>about it and and it's affecting us. And so that's

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01:17:57.680 --> 01:18:00.199
<v Speaker 5>that's where it came from. But I also wanted to

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01:18:00.359 --> 01:18:03.359
<v Speaker 5>have that aspect of I guess for me, my culture

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01:18:03.479 --> 01:18:09.520
<v Speaker 5>is very like we can get through anything, and there's

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01:18:09.600 --> 01:18:13.359
<v Speaker 5>this aspect of we can we can joke about things,

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01:18:13.479 --> 01:18:17.239
<v Speaker 5>and we can have fun even in these moments of

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01:18:17.680 --> 01:18:21.079
<v Speaker 5>a complete uncertainty. And so that that's what that audio

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01:18:21.279 --> 01:18:26.119
<v Speaker 5>kind of invites the listener into. And as it progresses,

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01:18:26.159 --> 01:18:29.479
<v Speaker 5>it it goes from like this nervous, anxious state to

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01:18:29.760 --> 01:18:31.760
<v Speaker 5>more of like, Okay, we're just gonna have time together

1346
01:18:31.800 --> 01:18:34.560
<v Speaker 5>and have fun and we're gonna get sexy with each

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01:18:34.560 --> 01:18:37.960
<v Speaker 5>other and like whatever, you know. And then I ended

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01:18:38.079 --> 01:18:41.479
<v Speaker 5>on a note of again kind of bringing it back

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01:18:41.520 --> 01:18:44.640
<v Speaker 5>to reality. There's a there's a there's a knock at

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01:18:44.640 --> 01:18:48.600
<v Speaker 5>the door, and then all of a sudden, we're back

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01:18:48.640 --> 01:18:51.800
<v Speaker 5>to where we were at at the beginning. And it's

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01:18:51.880 --> 01:18:56.600
<v Speaker 5>just like I felt that I really needed to do that,

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01:18:57.000 --> 01:19:00.560
<v Speaker 5>And again, I didn't know how it would be received.

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01:19:00.600 --> 01:19:03.520
<v Speaker 5>I didn't know. I just don't know, you know, because

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01:19:03.680 --> 01:19:06.279
<v Speaker 5>it's such a divisive issue. I don't think it should be,

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01:19:06.279 --> 01:19:06.680
<v Speaker 5>but it is.

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01:19:08.000 --> 01:19:09.760
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, so and also it's like does it does it

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01:19:13.239 --> 01:19:16.800
<v Speaker 5>even belong in audio erotica again? You know? And I

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01:19:17.199 --> 01:19:20.800
<v Speaker 5>feel like I continue to find ways to I just

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01:19:20.800 --> 01:19:24.880
<v Speaker 5>want to be real. Yeah, And I guess that's that

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01:19:25.039 --> 01:19:26.920
<v Speaker 5>was the best way to do it for me, And

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01:19:27.039 --> 01:19:29.640
<v Speaker 5>it was also the best way to kind of kick

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01:19:29.720 --> 01:19:33.479
<v Speaker 5>my creative mind back in the gear, because I really

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01:19:33.560 --> 01:19:39.079
<v Speaker 5>did feel this sense of not safe and you kind

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01:19:39.079 --> 01:19:41.239
<v Speaker 5>of have to be in a safe headspace to be

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01:19:41.279 --> 01:19:47.359
<v Speaker 5>able to create. And that's not something that's completely gone

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01:19:47.520 --> 01:19:53.279
<v Speaker 5>for me, but it. I guess we've learned to deal

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01:19:53.319 --> 01:19:57.159
<v Speaker 5>with it, to manage the anxieties and fears that maybe

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01:19:57.199 --> 01:20:00.199
<v Speaker 5>we grew up as kids and thinking like, oh my god, gosh,

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01:20:00.239 --> 01:20:02.159
<v Speaker 5>I'm going to get home from school one day, my

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01:20:02.199 --> 01:20:04.359
<v Speaker 5>parents are not going to be there. Those things that

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01:20:04.920 --> 01:20:08.079
<v Speaker 5>we sort of outgrew and we became adults, and now

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01:20:08.359 --> 01:20:11.760
<v Speaker 5>we see it happening to others. It still kind of

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01:20:11.800 --> 01:20:16.319
<v Speaker 5>triggers this like fear. But uh, I think that's another

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01:20:16.399 --> 01:20:21.359
<v Speaker 5>reason why I've sort of focused on here, like here

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01:20:21.680 --> 01:20:25.720
<v Speaker 5>with myself here at home, here with like my actual

1378
01:20:25.920 --> 01:20:29.359
<v Speaker 5>like neighbor, like my neighborhood, my community, you know, the

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01:20:29.359 --> 01:20:32.000
<v Speaker 5>people who I actually talk to, And so you know,

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01:20:32.039 --> 01:20:35.000
<v Speaker 5>I don't say what I do or or what I'm

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01:20:35.000 --> 01:20:38.680
<v Speaker 5>working on on like the internet or social media or whatever,

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01:20:38.880 --> 01:20:40.960
<v Speaker 5>like I don't you know, I want to. I guess,

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01:20:41.119 --> 01:20:47.000
<v Speaker 5>lead with action, and lead with love, and lead with understanding,

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01:20:47.039 --> 01:20:51.760
<v Speaker 5>and lead with this openness to change and to understanding

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01:20:51.760 --> 01:20:54.720
<v Speaker 5>other people and to understanding that people on both sides

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01:20:54.720 --> 01:20:58.880
<v Speaker 5>are human and that honoring that is It's something that

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01:20:58.920 --> 01:21:03.439
<v Speaker 5>requires a certain sense of courage and strength. And yeah,

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01:21:03.520 --> 01:21:06.239
<v Speaker 5>there's there's a lot. I don't talk about this very

1389
01:21:06.239 --> 01:21:12.000
<v Speaker 5>often because it does reach very deep into who I

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01:21:12.039 --> 01:21:18.399
<v Speaker 5>am as a person, and I think that myself, as

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01:21:18.560 --> 01:21:25.000
<v Speaker 5>many others are, I hope hopeful still that that good

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01:21:25.279 --> 01:21:31.760
<v Speaker 5>can happen and that humans can remember that we are

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01:21:31.920 --> 01:21:35.119
<v Speaker 5>all on the same planet at the same time, and

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01:21:35.159 --> 01:21:39.800
<v Speaker 5>that we are sharing this world together. And it's like

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01:21:40.279 --> 01:21:43.359
<v Speaker 5>watching the Artemis Mission and then them, you know, like

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01:21:43.600 --> 01:21:46.319
<v Speaker 5>shooting off to the moon and whatever. Like the most

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01:21:46.319 --> 01:21:49.479
<v Speaker 5>impressive thing for me was being able to look back

1398
01:21:49.560 --> 01:21:52.119
<v Speaker 5>on Earth and being like, we're all on this thing together,

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01:21:52.359 --> 01:21:57.720
<v Speaker 5>We're all experiencing tragic things. Why can't we just look

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01:21:57.920 --> 01:22:02.640
<v Speaker 5>beyond ourselves and yes, and just why, you know, and

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01:22:03.359 --> 01:22:07.640
<v Speaker 5>I want to continue to be optimistic and sometimes that's

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01:22:07.720 --> 01:22:12.520
<v Speaker 5>really difficult to do, but I do see the value

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01:22:12.560 --> 01:22:15.720
<v Speaker 5>in that. And I think that creativity is a rebellion

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01:22:15.760 --> 01:22:23.560
<v Speaker 5>against this dystopian hopelessness that is so pervasive. And I

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01:22:23.800 --> 01:22:27.279
<v Speaker 5>don't want to I don't want to add more to that.

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01:22:27.399 --> 01:22:30.600
<v Speaker 5>I don't want to add any more toxicity to the

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01:22:33.239 --> 01:22:37.000
<v Speaker 5>It's just so much like, let's just not do that anymore.

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01:22:37.039 --> 01:22:39.920
<v Speaker 5>And I want to do something that is going to

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01:22:39.960 --> 01:22:46.760
<v Speaker 5>be healing, and obviously that begins with me and then words.

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01:22:46.760 --> 01:22:50.399
<v Speaker 5>So that's that's I don't even remember what the question was, but.

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01:22:50.399 --> 01:22:56.079
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, well, to be fair, we normally ask our you know, guests,

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01:22:56.359 --> 01:22:58.680
<v Speaker 1>a final question about what is sexual freedom? But to

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01:22:58.720 --> 01:23:02.800
<v Speaker 1>be fair, like happy that we've just talked about general

1414
01:23:02.840 --> 01:23:07.800
<v Speaker 1>freedom and I think that covered in its entirety for me.

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01:23:08.039 --> 01:23:08.640
<v Speaker 1>How about you?

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01:23:09.680 --> 01:23:12.680
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, thank you for the really thoughtful work you put

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01:23:12.680 --> 01:23:18.680
<v Speaker 2>out there. It matters and it hits, so thanks, yeah, thanks,

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01:23:18.720 --> 01:23:21.520
<v Speaker 2>thanks for the internality behind it.

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01:23:21.520 --> 01:23:26.319
<v Speaker 1>It's been a journey, oh my god, really amazing one,

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01:23:26.439 --> 01:23:29.439
<v Speaker 1>an amazing conversation.

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01:23:29.079 --> 01:23:30.920
<v Speaker 3>So amazing, Oh my gosh.

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01:23:31.039 --> 01:23:33.920
<v Speaker 1>We went everywhere I love it.

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01:23:33.960 --> 01:23:37.439
<v Speaker 3>I love it.

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01:23:36.960 --> 01:23:40.399
<v Speaker 1>It's been a genuine pleasure and thank you so much

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01:23:40.439 --> 01:23:42.800
<v Speaker 1>for your honesty, your vulnerability.

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01:23:43.119 --> 01:23:45.760
<v Speaker 5>Thanks for having me, thanks for inviting me.

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01:23:46.319 --> 01:23:49.520
<v Speaker 2>Oh thanks for accepting the invitations. But really, such such

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01:23:49.520 --> 01:23:51.960
<v Speaker 2>a pleasure. You have a Patreon, I know because I'm

1429
01:23:52.000 --> 01:23:54.920
<v Speaker 2>in it. Can you share a little bit about what

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01:23:54.960 --> 01:23:56.880
<v Speaker 2>goes on in there so people know what is what

1431
01:23:56.960 --> 01:23:57.760
<v Speaker 2>waits them?

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01:23:57.920 --> 01:24:00.880
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, so the Patreon. Honestly, it's like I'm inviting you

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01:24:00.920 --> 01:24:03.199
<v Speaker 5>to my living room where I come in and hang

1434
01:24:03.239 --> 01:24:05.960
<v Speaker 5>out with you guys, and I create stuff that maybe

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01:24:06.079 --> 01:24:08.640
<v Speaker 5>is not necessarily stuff that you would to hear on Quinn.

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01:24:08.760 --> 01:24:11.520
<v Speaker 5>I do have like the group chat that's on there.

1437
01:24:11.600 --> 01:24:13.840
<v Speaker 5>You don't have to actually be in the group chat.

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01:24:13.880 --> 01:24:15.640
<v Speaker 5>You can choose to be on it or not, and

1439
01:24:15.680 --> 01:24:18.399
<v Speaker 5>that's totally fine. But I do share updates on like, Hey,

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01:24:18.439 --> 01:24:20.439
<v Speaker 5>I'm working on this audio for this week, and like,

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01:24:20.479 --> 01:24:23.000
<v Speaker 5>what do you guys think about this? I think for

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01:24:23.119 --> 01:24:24.800
<v Speaker 5>let me take care of you. I did ask you know,

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01:24:24.880 --> 01:24:27.479
<v Speaker 5>what are some like I like to have some like

1444
01:24:27.600 --> 01:24:29.720
<v Speaker 5>audience or listener feedback, Like what are some of the

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01:24:29.760 --> 01:24:32.479
<v Speaker 5>things that you would feel are really comforting that could

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01:24:32.520 --> 01:24:34.439
<v Speaker 5>be an audio erotica, and I just kind of took

1447
01:24:34.439 --> 01:24:37.000
<v Speaker 5>some of those ideas and ran with them. I read

1448
01:24:37.079 --> 01:24:41.199
<v Speaker 5>safer work things, I read poetry, I read books. I've

1449
01:24:41.199 --> 01:24:44.399
<v Speaker 5>been reading Winnie the Pooh, but I got to do

1450
01:24:44.439 --> 01:24:47.199
<v Speaker 5>all the voices and stuff, and some people really love that.

1451
01:24:47.560 --> 01:24:50.199
<v Speaker 5>I've been working on getting some music recorded so I

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01:24:50.199 --> 01:24:52.439
<v Speaker 5>can I can post it there, so like I have

1453
01:24:52.520 --> 01:24:54.840
<v Speaker 5>things on TikTok to maybe like a minute long or

1454
01:24:54.920 --> 01:24:58.760
<v Speaker 5>thirty seconds or whatever, so I have like longer content

1455
01:24:58.840 --> 01:25:03.399
<v Speaker 5>on there. It's honestly, like I said, for me, it's

1456
01:25:03.600 --> 01:25:06.880
<v Speaker 5>it's a place where I get to go and be

1457
01:25:07.119 --> 01:25:10.800
<v Speaker 5>creative in maybe a little bit of a different way.

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01:25:11.239 --> 01:25:13.760
<v Speaker 5>There is there. There still are like you know, spicy

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01:25:13.800 --> 01:25:16.560
<v Speaker 5>audios on there, but it's not the only thing that

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01:25:16.640 --> 01:25:19.119
<v Speaker 5>I do. So when I first started Patreon, I was

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01:25:19.159 --> 01:25:21.920
<v Speaker 5>so like intimidated by it because I'm like, I don't

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01:25:22.039 --> 01:25:24.720
<v Speaker 5>exactly how do you do this? I don't know what

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01:25:24.760 --> 01:25:28.000
<v Speaker 5>people are expecting, Like, I don't know. So yeah, I

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<v Speaker 5>mean I think it's all just a lot of fun

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<v Speaker 5>and I get to be kind of spontaneous and creative.

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<v Speaker 5>We recently did a haiku writing challenge and I got

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<v Speaker 5>to read everyone's Haiku's and it's just it's just fun.

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<v Speaker 5>It's been a really great space. It's been really fun.

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<v Speaker 5>I enjoy I enjoy the little community there. So basically,

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<v Speaker 5>like I don't I'm not posting like every day on

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01:25:49.680 --> 01:25:51.319
<v Speaker 5>social media, but I do go on Patreon and I

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<v Speaker 5>try to like basically, that's my that's my space. I'll

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01:25:55.920 --> 01:25:59.840
<v Speaker 5>post photos of my pets and maybe coffee or what

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01:26:00.199 --> 01:26:01.479
<v Speaker 5>I'm writing that that week.

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<v Speaker 2>So and you do have some poetry poetry?

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<v Speaker 5>Yes?

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<v Speaker 3>Sorry, do I have something stuck in my ear? I

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01:26:11.199 --> 01:26:13.079
<v Speaker 3>didn't hear the first letter in that word.

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<v Speaker 5>A poet poetry.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, it's freaking awesome.

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<v Speaker 2>It's so good that it is.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't need the explain if it's exactly what I think.

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<v Speaker 5>Is that is exactly it?

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<v Speaker 1>I can't.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but it's a fun space. And it's so funny

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<v Speaker 2>because like you're I mean, I didn't know you had

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<v Speaker 2>a Patreon at all until you posted a guitar TikTok

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01:26:39.319 --> 01:26:42.159
<v Speaker 2>of all things there, and I was like, because obviously

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01:26:42.239 --> 01:26:44.399
<v Speaker 2>I comment on every guitar one because I love it.

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<v Speaker 2>But you said something like, oh yeah, there's even more

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<v Speaker 2>of this on my Patreon. I'm like, what, there's a

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<v Speaker 2>patre music. So it's one of those like you know,

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01:26:54.359 --> 01:26:56.000
<v Speaker 2>you guys know Patreon, right, like, let me hop on

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01:26:56.039 --> 01:26:58.119
<v Speaker 2>for a month and check. I'm like, oh, I'm home.

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<v Speaker 2>The people are so sweet in there, and like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it's just thinking guitar king. Oh my god, I love no,

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<v Speaker 2>I just feel music deeply smudge.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think you're supposed to do that with the guitar.

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<v Speaker 5>But well, I am, I am glad, I am glad

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<v Speaker 5>you joined, and I'm I'm glad that you that you

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01:27:21.760 --> 01:27:24.439
<v Speaker 5>have had a good experience. I think everyone there is,

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01:27:24.560 --> 01:27:27.399
<v Speaker 5>they're they're great. I don't post about Patreon as often.

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01:27:27.600 --> 01:27:29.560
<v Speaker 5>I guess what I want people to know about Patreon.

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01:27:30.640 --> 01:27:34.000
<v Speaker 5>Something I would lead with is it's not just exclusively

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01:27:34.039 --> 01:27:38.079
<v Speaker 5>spicy things. It's a space for me to be creative

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01:27:38.279 --> 01:27:42.720
<v Speaker 5>and interactive and that's where most of that happens. And

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<v Speaker 5>so if you do like the guitar playing, if you

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01:27:45.600 --> 01:27:48.319
<v Speaker 5>do like the poetry and the writing and the chaotic creativity,

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01:27:48.479 --> 01:27:49.239
<v Speaker 5>that's where it's at.

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<v Speaker 1>Look, it's been brilliant.

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<v Speaker 5>Thank you so brilliant, Thank you, thank you for having We.

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<v Speaker 1>Can't wait to have you back on.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, please with the guitar.

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<v Speaker 5>A guitar game.

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<v Speaker 2>Thanks loxing your lunch hours more than over.

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01:28:05.840 --> 01:28:08.119
<v Speaker 1>Yes, sorry, get back to work.

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01:28:08.359 --> 01:28:10.159
<v Speaker 5>I gotta get back to the ground.

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<v Speaker 1>Enjoy the rest of you want.

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<v Speaker 5>Thank you, bye bye.

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<v Speaker 4>All Right, So that was looks it was, Oh my gosh,

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<v Speaker 4>I didn't want to stop talking.

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<v Speaker 3>That was I mean, that went so many different ways, but.

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<v Speaker 2>It was so deep and like, it was so deep

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<v Speaker 2>it was, I mean, he really gets the power of

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<v Speaker 2>this work and the intentionality puts into it. I don't know,

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<v Speaker 2>I was obsessed.

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<v Speaker 4>Even he's just hearing someone someone that we're chatting with,

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01:28:42.960 --> 01:28:46.880
<v Speaker 4>talking about how he's changed talking to his friends.

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<v Speaker 3>Outside of the space.

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<v Speaker 4>Right, Oh my god, that was wonderful to hear and

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01:28:51.600 --> 01:28:53.119
<v Speaker 4>just to have him kind of not go down a

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<v Speaker 4>rabbit hole about it, but just be so so so

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<v Speaker 4>interested in wanting to make that difference with his male friends.

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<v Speaker 2>Huge, I mean massive, really massive that he's yeah, that

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01:29:02.960 --> 01:29:05.000
<v Speaker 2>he he wants to make such a difference that he's

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<v Speaker 2>doing his own work. And then yeah, pastoral long to

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<v Speaker 2>friends and community.

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<v Speaker 1>And exactly told you, small conversations lead to big changes

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<v Speaker 1>and lovely.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well it's a big conversation that will lead to

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<v Speaker 2>big changes.

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<v Speaker 3>Here you go.

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<v Speaker 2>Thanks once. We can't wait to have you back. All right, cliticians,

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<v Speaker 2>we hope you enjoyed our conversation with Lux as much

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<v Speaker 2>as we did. You know the deal. If you can comment, rate, review, share,

1546
01:29:30.800 --> 01:29:33.720
<v Speaker 2>all the things, would really appreciate it. We love any feedback,

1547
01:29:33.760 --> 01:29:36.920
<v Speaker 2>any topic ideas. You can email us at quincast podcast

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01:29:37.199 --> 01:29:39.399
<v Speaker 2>at gmail dot com. You can go to our website

1549
01:29:39.479 --> 01:29:43.239
<v Speaker 2>quincast dot com and leave us a voicemail, which is fun.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, we'll be back soon with another great episode.

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<v Speaker 2>For now, this has been Caza. Your voice matters.

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<v Speaker 3>This has been Jules. Go put those lips to good

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<v Speaker 3>use

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<v Speaker 1>And this has been so much Keep winking