Speaker 1: Why do you look so surprised to see me? No, no,
Speaker 1: you shouldn't be. And in fact, I usually don't see
Speaker 1: people inside of the throne room. I try to keep
Speaker 1: people as far away from the castle as possible. My
Speaker 1: home is my domain. I prefer to catch people, especially
Speaker 1: when they have requesteds you have right on their way
Speaker 1: to the castle. That's when they're thinking about what ails them.
Speaker 1: What do you mean? What am I doing? I'm getting
Speaker 1: a good look at you. You seem really young. Oh yeah, no, well,
Speaker 1: when you've been around for hundreds of years, it's just me.
Speaker 1: You're practically brand new. So you want your heart turned
Speaker 1: to us? Oh thank you. I think you're eyes are
Speaker 1: rather lovely too. No, don't touch me. Well, yes, anyone
Speaker 1: can touch me, but whenever I'm looking at someone such
Speaker 1: as yourself, especially when I'm looking at them from not
Speaker 1: too far away and I'm investigating, looking for any signs
Speaker 1: of deception, it's best not to touch me. At least
Speaker 1: your whole body turns to us. So go ahead, tell me, darling,
Speaker 1: what makes you think that you would be a good
Speaker 1: candidate for being well, one of the cold ones? Oh? Love? Well,
Speaker 1: you know I don't just get rid of your emotion
Speaker 1: of love, turning an ice the heart ice cold. There's
Speaker 1: lots of implications with that. You'll never feel joy. You'll
Speaker 1: you'll never feel love for even your friends or your dog,
Speaker 1: or you'll your family. You'll never have anger and sadness,
Speaker 1: which seems like a wonderful thing, but they help you
Speaker 1: appreciate the good times. You'll never know good times again.
Speaker 1: You'll walk around catatonically. What do you mean that's what
Speaker 1: you've been doing? No, no one does it all the time.
Speaker 1: There's always brief moments, even a fleeting where you let
Speaker 1: out a giggle or a laugh or something makes you think.
Speaker 1: You will draw into yourself and you will find that
Speaker 1: it can be its own. Hell, what do you mean?
Speaker 1: I wouldn't know. I have the curse of turning other
Speaker 1: people's hearts cold. To get to know me is to
Speaker 1: become one of them, my guards, everyone at the palace,
Speaker 1: they're cold ones. You. You have a strong heart. I can
Speaker 1: feel it. No here, look, yeah, I can feel it.
Speaker 1: My hand on your cheek, just running my finger tips
Speaker 1: around your jaw and your chin. Oh, darling, I can
Speaker 1: feel it. There's a lot that runs heavy in your
Speaker 1: What would the word be veins. Sorry, I don't deal
Speaker 1: with a lot of people that have much pumping through
Speaker 1: their veins to remember the words. Sometimes I can feel
Speaker 1: the passion rolling off your arteries. I can feel, oh,
Speaker 1: I can feel how much you would actually desire and
Speaker 1: you want love? And what do you mean you feel
Speaker 1: it in me too? Trust and believe if you could
Speaker 1: feel anything inside of me, well, personally, I would love
Speaker 1: to experience that feeling. But back to what we were saying, Darlin,
Speaker 1: there will be no chance to come back. There's no
Speaker 1: Fay magic, there's no Eldridge horror that could make a
Speaker 1: deal with you. I've spoken to Lucifer morning Star himself
Speaker 1: and he said it's the one thing that he loves
Speaker 1: to use, his torture, but it's also the one thing
Speaker 1: that can never be undone to turn someone truly into
Speaker 1: a cold one. So I can do this for you.
Speaker 1: But it would absolutely be some what of a Greek tragedy,
Speaker 1: a travesty? Really to see someone with such a spark
Speaker 1: in their eyes. No, I get it. You've been surrounded
Speaker 1: by people who have never seen outside of their own city.
Speaker 1: Who their hopes are are, what piked fence and being
Speaker 1: sold some dream of how their life should be. Meanwhile,
Speaker 1: you have the ability to see life for what it
Speaker 1: could be. That's your curse. Your curse isn't that wonderful,
Speaker 1: beautiful heart that's inside of your chest? Your plate armor here? Sorry,
Speaker 1: you couldn't help but wrap my fingers across it. My darling,
Speaker 1: let me tell you you were meant for something more. Sorry,
Speaker 1: I can't help but just walk around you. If I
Speaker 1: sport to stand in one spot, I would find myself.
Speaker 1: I'm finding myself drawn closer and closer to you. Geez
Speaker 1: plenty to get my mental faculties back down now, I'm sorry.
Speaker 1: That's vantilism, isn't it to call you swadie? I call
Speaker 1: everyone that. I'm sorry. If you go through with this,
Speaker 1: you will lose that beautiful gift that is also a curse,
Speaker 1: of being able to see what others cannot. You see
Speaker 1: what is possible while they only see what is there.
Speaker 1: You see something magical and fun and playful. You are
Speaker 1: different from them, and that is something to be That
Speaker 1: is something to be celebrated. That is something that is beautiful.
Speaker 1: You were meant to create while they were meant to
Speaker 1: just do. You are a lone wolf, a lion amongst mass.
Speaker 1: They all congregate together and say that they're happy, and
Speaker 1: you know what, the funny thing is, they are Meanwhile,
Speaker 1: you were meant to go out and create the laugh
Speaker 1: that makes them feel secure and happy. And that means
Speaker 1: that you are not appealing to the average woman. You're
Speaker 1: not and that sounds terrible, it sounds awful, But it
Speaker 1: means that you are meant for extraordinary women who recognize
Speaker 1: you for who you are. Yeah, they're hard to find. Yes,
Speaker 1: you're right, they're very hard to find, just because just
Speaker 1: like you, you are hard to find. Those women out there.
Speaker 1: They're searching for you. But you've got to make yourself known.
Speaker 1: But you think so little of yourself. You are so humble,
Speaker 1: you are all the qualities that make you such a
Speaker 1: wonderful partner are the ones that are holding you back.
Speaker 1: You're humble. You don't put yourself out there. You haven't
Speaker 1: taken your talents and built something so great, so magnificent,
Speaker 1: that it would then help put you on the radar
Speaker 1: of these women, Because how is anyone supposed to know
Speaker 1: eactly who you are? When you tuck yourself away from
Speaker 1: the world. You can't both hide in the shadows and
Speaker 1: be seen. It would take someone with the spotlights that's
Speaker 1: as bright as the tip of the Luxor hotel and
Speaker 1: last Vegas to find you. And while she probably exists,
Speaker 1: she's probably out there. How could you get angry that
Speaker 1: she hasn't found you. No, I can do this for you,
Speaker 1: but then you eliminate the girl who's looking at you.
Speaker 1: Chancer to find you? Well in hay time frame? Is
Speaker 1: that supposed to happen? There's no time frame for love.
Speaker 1: Some people don't find their true love to other in
Speaker 1: their forties or their fifties. Some people wait a while.
Speaker 1: But you know what, there's so much life to enjoy
Speaker 1: in the meantime. There's so many beautiful places you could see.
Speaker 1: There's so many experiences you could have, And by putting
Speaker 1: yourself in those places and having those experiences, you could
Speaker 1: find someone who also enjoys that stuff too. She's out there.
Speaker 1: You just gotta you just got I'm sorry. I'm not
Speaker 1: your therapist. I'm not your therapist. I'm not your doctor.
Speaker 1: I'm not one of your close friends. I'm not one
Speaker 1: of your colleagues. It's just I've seen this over and
Speaker 1: over and over again. It doesn't work out. Turning yourself.
Speaker 1: Cold is not the way, especially when I look into
Speaker 1: those gas and I can see so much life and
Speaker 1: so much promise, so much opportunity, so much intelligence, so
Speaker 1: much vim, and so much vigor and so much passion
Speaker 1: for life, and it just m I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Speaker 1: I Oh no, No, I didn't, did I? No? I
Speaker 1: just I lost myself for a second, did I. No,
Speaker 1: you're finn No your eyes aren't changing. No, I just
Speaker 1: oh no, I feel like hmmm, no, I feel warm,
Speaker 1: I feel warm. Oh No, I felt this way before.
Speaker 1: It's what do you mean? What about me? I told
Speaker 1: you everyone that I love everyone I get close to.
Speaker 1: I ended up freezing them their hearts. I last time
Speaker 1: I felt this way, it didn't go well. And now
Speaker 1: he's frozen and he's not coming back. I just no, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: actually no, you're right. No, you're right. I've actually never
Speaker 1: felt this way before, this intensely. I I we don't
Speaker 1: need to talk about me. We don't need to we
Speaker 1: don't need to talk about me. Back to you, what
Speaker 1: do you mean there's no spark. If there was a spark,
Speaker 1: that would be a very bad thing for you. Don't
Speaker 1: want there, I promise you. You don't want there to
Speaker 1: be a spark. You don't want there to be something.
Speaker 1: You don't want there to be something between us. I
Speaker 1: promise you you don't. You don't want that. Okay, What
Speaker 1: if I I have some other powers, not just turning
Speaker 1: hearts to us? What if I were to help you
Speaker 1: un your true love? What do you mean you think
Speaker 1: you found her? Then why are you here? Why why
Speaker 1: would you want to turn silly? No, silly boy, it
Speaker 1: can't be me. It can't Nothing can love me. I
Speaker 1: am I am, I am me, and to love me
Speaker 1: is to promise that you will turn into the thing
Speaker 1: that you sought out when you got here. No, I'm not.
Speaker 1: I'm just not built like that. I can see potential,
Speaker 1: I can see what someone should be, but I can't.
Speaker 1: I can't help you. I can't help you, not with this.
Speaker 1: I can help you find someone else. Trust me. If
Speaker 1: you think it's me, then there's at least five or
Speaker 1: six other girls on this are the right now that
Speaker 1: it could be, and they also aren't I switches. So
Speaker 1: what do you mean? I just never got control over
Speaker 1: my powers. This is what my powers are. I've studied
Speaker 1: under some of the most powerful ass queens out there
Speaker 1: and they have the same affliction. What do you mean,
Speaker 1: I'm the one that's afraid of love. You're the one
Speaker 1: who came here because you're afraid that if you continue
Speaker 1: with these feelings, then you don't know what you would
Speaker 1: do with yourself. You're the one that wants to detach yourself.
Speaker 1: I don't want to detach myself. I detached myself for
Speaker 1: the safety of others. Oh, you think I'm being and selfless.
Speaker 1: If you do that again, you are, honest to goodness,
Speaker 1: risking so much. You are risking potentially getting your heart person,
Speaker 1: and then whatever you think that you're on right now
Speaker 1: is not going to work. Now. Look, okay, you came
Speaker 1: here for the request, and turning your eyes your heart
Speaker 1: to us will actually help keep me warm and keep
Speaker 1: me being able to feel. There's a couple other people
Speaker 1: that are on their way, and they actually have some
Speaker 1: really good reasons to want their as the art to
Speaker 1: be turned to us. One's a prisoner. He sends some
Speaker 1: terrible things, and his feelings are the reason why he
Speaker 1: keeps doing these terrible things. So I've got to get
Speaker 1: to him. And then there's you, Well, there is you. You
Speaker 1: can come along. There's another guy who he's towards the
Speaker 1: end of his life and his partner has passed on,
Speaker 1: so he just wants to stop feelings so that he
Speaker 1: can spend the rist of what's left of his lafe
Speaker 1: not being miserable that he's lost the love of his life.
Speaker 1: They will be enough to sustain me for at least
Speaker 1: a couple months. I can help you with your mission
Speaker 1: to potentially find someone who would be as brilliant and
Speaker 1: is wonderful and it's amazing as you deserve that. I
Speaker 1: ask for one thing, you think you can give that
Speaker 1: to me. You have to try your hardest to not
Speaker 1: give in to whatever the hell is going on between us. Yes,
Speaker 1: I whispered it because I don't want the guards to hear.
Speaker 1: I don't want them to hear that I may potentially
Speaker 1: have someone that is making my heart beat faster. Well,
Speaker 1: once my magic that turned them into that fades, then no,
Speaker 1: you're right, it is permanent, but it means that they end.
Speaker 1: It means they go on to the next life. So
Speaker 1: it might mean that they try to do something to you,
Speaker 1: because while they don't have feelings, they also like being
Speaker 1: on this side of this earth, so they don't want
Speaker 1: to go on to the next one. Just do me
Speaker 1: a favor and promise me. All right, wonderful. Well, no,
Speaker 1: they're gonna know that you're not changed. But that's not
Speaker 1: a bad thing, is it? All right? So I propose
Speaker 1: that we head on down the road there, just down
Speaker 1: the road, about a mile or two, just down yonder stretch.
Speaker 1: Down yonder Stretch. I guess that you don't know southernis
Speaker 1: a stretch could be anywhere between five feet and five
Speaker 1: hundred miles. But this is not too far yonder. Is
Speaker 1: that a way? Well? This way and that way? Yeah,
Speaker 1: we don't use left and right. It's either this way
Speaker 1: or that a way. Don't worry, you'll you'll catch up.
Speaker 1: City boy. What do you mean you're not a city boy? Really? Well,
Speaker 1: then I have to ask you to how do you
Speaker 1: make sweet tea? Oh, that's just that's that's no, you
Speaker 1: are a city boy. Don't worry. We'll get you ratten
Speaker 1: to hat. Let's go. What do you mean what's going
Speaker 1: to happen to them? I mean nothing terrible is going
Speaker 1: to happen to them. I'm going to turn their hearts
Speaker 1: to us. Yes, I do my research before No, I
Speaker 1: will absolutely hear them out. I'll absolutely ask them, you know,
Speaker 1: why do they want it? But barready done my research
Speaker 1: on them. I know why they're coming. The prisoner is
Speaker 1: for the greater good of people and the other person.
Speaker 1: It's a noble thing to just want to be able
Speaker 1: to get through your life, and it's like emotional hospice
Speaker 1: in this case. Sometimes it's a blessing, but for the
Speaker 1: majority of us, it's a curse. So I'm just trying
Speaker 1: to do the right thing. No, that doesn't show that.
Speaker 1: Why are you trying to make it seem like I'm
Speaker 1: something else? You're trying to make it seem like I'm
Speaker 1: this benevolent being. I'm no angel, but I would say
Speaker 1: I'm no devil either. I'm just a girl who has
Speaker 1: abilities that she never hasked for and has caused wrath. Yeah,
Speaker 1: this region is my snowy, icy region. It's fueled off
Speaker 1: of my emotions and how I feel about most things.
Speaker 1: It's the outward embodiment of what your heart will be
Speaker 1: if you have me turn you well, Yeah, I say here.
Speaker 1: If I travel outside of here, stuff starts to become colder,
Speaker 1: but it'll shift back shortly after I leave. It's just stuff.
Speaker 1: Been here for so long? What are you saying? You
Speaker 1: think you want to become an ice king? No, I
Speaker 1: don't know why you're flirting with me. So, but I
Speaker 1: will admit you've got me beyond blustered. You have me
Speaker 1: warming areas of my body. I didn't well trust me.
Speaker 1: I know they operate, but no one else has gotten
Speaker 1: them to operate, if you know what I mean. All right,
Speaker 1: so let's boots, get biggie on out of here, shouldn't we?
Speaker 1: All right again, let's go. We're gonna go down yonder
Speaker 1: and you are going to walk on the opposite side
Speaker 1: of the road is me? Because I I'm not gonna lie.
Speaker 1: Trying to resist you is proven to be a problem,
Speaker 1: A big one, all right? Yeah, go scoot over there
Speaker 1: go Hey, guys, seeing Alexander here. I want to say
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Speaker 1: you very much. Inspiration for this video is very simple.
Speaker 1: I'm kind of a cold hearted person when it comes
Speaker 1: to relationships, and I am a very difficult person to
Speaker 1: be in a relationship with because of a lot of
Speaker 1: past trauma. And my therapist likes to say that everyone
Speaker 1: like there's puppies and there's elephants. Everyone can usually have
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Speaker 1: much told me that he's very emotionally detached from everything
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Speaker 1: I did what I do. And it's again, it's very
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