WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.359 A little bit better. You're an adult film star, now 2 00:00:02.359 --> 00:00:04.759 you are a boxer. You kind of like changing things 3 00:00:04.759 --> 00:00:07.519 in your life. So I want to know past, present, future, 4 00:00:07.679 --> 00:00:09.199 all of those things and get to know you a 5 00:00:09.240 --> 00:00:10.519 little bit more intimately. 6 00:00:10.720 --> 00:00:11.039 Cool. 7 00:00:11.199 --> 00:00:13.199 I would love to share that with you. So how 8 00:00:13.240 --> 00:00:13.560 are you. 9 00:00:14.160 --> 00:00:16.640 I'm doing really, really good. I can't complain. 10 00:00:17.120 --> 00:00:17.600 I like that. 11 00:00:18.239 --> 00:00:20.320 You know, we we kind of touch base. We you know, 12 00:00:20.320 --> 00:00:22.160 we kind of talked on Instagram where it's like one 13 00:00:22.160 --> 00:00:25.039 of those things where you know, you meet so many 14 00:00:25.079 --> 00:00:26.760 people in the industry for you know, as long as 15 00:00:26.760 --> 00:00:28.440 that we've been in the industry, which you've kind of 16 00:00:28.760 --> 00:00:31.000 maybe said hi, or with the same agency, or you 17 00:00:31.079 --> 00:00:33.399 kind of know, you know, third party friends. But sometimes 18 00:00:33.399 --> 00:00:35.880 we don't as women, get to really talk to people. 19 00:00:36.320 --> 00:00:38.280 And also I think it has a lot to do 20 00:00:38.399 --> 00:00:40.960 with who we were at those times, you know, growing 21 00:00:41.039 --> 00:00:42.799 up in the business where you know, we're really young. 22 00:00:42.920 --> 00:00:45.560 Sometimes you know things you don't know who's intimidating to 23 00:00:45.560 --> 00:00:47.439 talk to. And I get a lot of people, you know, 24 00:00:47.560 --> 00:00:48.920 told me it was like, well I didn't know how 25 00:00:48.920 --> 00:00:49.719 to talk to you, and. 26 00:00:49.679 --> 00:00:51.439 It's like just say hi, you know what I mean. 27 00:00:51.479 --> 00:00:53.960 So it's those intimidating things where it's like breaking those 28 00:00:54.000 --> 00:00:56.799 boundaries and like having real conversations and getting to know 29 00:00:57.240 --> 00:00:59.479 the real you and you need to know you know, 30 00:00:59.520 --> 00:01:01.799 the business side of you, and so much I've seen 31 00:01:01.840 --> 00:01:03.920 from you know, my side looking in with you is 32 00:01:04.159 --> 00:01:06.879 the growth of where you were in the beginning to 33 00:01:06.959 --> 00:01:08.959 what I've seen the last two years, which I think 34 00:01:09.079 --> 00:01:12.359 is really cool to see. And you know, because you're 35 00:01:12.359 --> 00:01:14.840 so vulnerable with your story and how you are with 36 00:01:14.879 --> 00:01:17.239 you know, your life, I think speaks a lot of 37 00:01:17.599 --> 00:01:20.400 volumes of a woman like yourself. Is because you don't 38 00:01:20.400 --> 00:01:22.439 get enough credit and give yourself a pat on the back. 39 00:01:22.560 --> 00:01:24.640 Is that it takes a lot to be vulnerable. It 40 00:01:24.640 --> 00:01:25.920 takes a lot to you know, one thing, to be 41 00:01:25.959 --> 00:01:28.359 an adult film star and show you know who you 42 00:01:28.439 --> 00:01:31.200 are sexually and all these things, but there's things underneath 43 00:01:31.239 --> 00:01:34.480 there that you either had to discover yourself, went through 44 00:01:34.640 --> 00:01:36.640 and kind of like pushed you into the direction that 45 00:01:36.680 --> 00:01:39.200 you are now totally. So can we talk about like 46 00:01:39.239 --> 00:01:40.159 you know from the beginning? 47 00:01:40.359 --> 00:01:43.040 Yes? Oh ok, yeah, And also I want to say 48 00:01:43.079 --> 00:01:46.840 it's funny that you're mentioning how you know, we get 49 00:01:46.879 --> 00:01:49.400 afraid to like approach us girls in the industry because 50 00:01:49.480 --> 00:01:52.079 I honestly didn't want to approach you because I was intimidated, 51 00:01:52.079 --> 00:01:53.680 because I was like, oh my god, it's a Lexus Texas. 52 00:01:53.680 --> 00:01:56.120 Everybody is always like, oh my god, it's like Texas. 53 00:01:56.159 --> 00:01:57.920 But actually, go on stage, all of us are like 54 00:01:58.000 --> 00:02:00.840 super stoked to see you, and like, for some reason, 55 00:02:00.959 --> 00:02:03.879 I never had the courage to come up and introduce 56 00:02:04.000 --> 00:02:07.680 myself until you know, over the past what's seven years, 57 00:02:07.760 --> 00:02:09.280 I bought the confidence finally. 58 00:02:09.680 --> 00:02:10.520 Yeah. 59 00:02:10.560 --> 00:02:13.520 But you know, so to backtrack to getting you know, 60 00:02:13.680 --> 00:02:18.319 like into the industry, you know, is that kind of where. 61 00:02:18.120 --> 00:02:19.400 You wanted me to start with? Like how you got 62 00:02:19.520 --> 00:02:20.319 wherever you want? 63 00:02:20.400 --> 00:02:22.240 However, I feel like, you know, I think it's you know, 64 00:02:22.319 --> 00:02:24.120 journeys of you know, however you want to Where do 65 00:02:24.159 --> 00:02:26.080 you feel like you know you kind of started and 66 00:02:26.120 --> 00:02:29.080 like really the progression of like did you have a 67 00:02:29.080 --> 00:02:31.439 good time? Were you force into things where you like, 68 00:02:31.520 --> 00:02:33.560 did you know right away when you got into the industry, 69 00:02:33.639 --> 00:02:35.560 like where you wanted to take your career? Was it 70 00:02:35.719 --> 00:02:38.240 just young, dumb and full of come like myself, like 71 00:02:38.280 --> 00:02:40.680 I had no direction, I just liked what I was doing, 72 00:02:40.800 --> 00:02:42.400 Like kind of tell us about that. 73 00:02:42.360 --> 00:02:45.400 Okay, yeah, So I'll say this. So when I first 74 00:02:45.479 --> 00:02:48.439 like moved to La Like, I was like a super 75 00:02:48.520 --> 00:02:51.759 Christian girl when I got here, So I didn't really 76 00:02:51.840 --> 00:02:57.120 know anything. I'm from Omaha, Nebraska originally, and you know, 77 00:02:57.280 --> 00:02:59.680 long story shorts to sum it up, like, I had 78 00:02:59.719 --> 00:03:03.599 kind of gotten involved with people out here at a 79 00:03:03.599 --> 00:03:06.159 young age that kind of steered me in the wrong direction. 80 00:03:07.680 --> 00:03:10.599 I was in a really bad place where you know, 81 00:03:10.759 --> 00:03:13.520 I had really no help at a certain time. 82 00:03:13.680 --> 00:03:16.439 So's how was this before you got into the industry 83 00:03:16.520 --> 00:03:18.680 and why I influenced you to get into the industry. 84 00:03:18.800 --> 00:03:20.960 Okay, so this is how I got in. 85 00:03:21.080 --> 00:03:21.479 Yeah. 86 00:03:21.520 --> 00:03:25.000 And you know, when when things are not going the 87 00:03:25.000 --> 00:03:27.800 way you want them to, you're struggling, you don't know 88 00:03:27.800 --> 00:03:29.840 what to do. Oh, you know, you gotta do what 89 00:03:29.840 --> 00:03:33.199 you gotta do. And when I was going to hair 90 00:03:33.319 --> 00:03:36.639 school at the time, there was actually girls who were 91 00:03:36.639 --> 00:03:39.240 in the industry who were trying to get out of it, okay, 92 00:03:39.319 --> 00:03:40.280 and that's why they're going. 93 00:03:40.120 --> 00:03:40.759 To hair school. 94 00:03:41.120 --> 00:03:44.080 So you know, a few of them mentioned you know 95 00:03:44.240 --> 00:03:47.960 a few things about it, and you know, getting curious, 96 00:03:48.319 --> 00:03:50.240 I'm asking questions and. 97 00:03:50.319 --> 00:03:53.240 Had you been like an avid like porn watcher yourself 98 00:03:54.560 --> 00:03:55.080 about it. 99 00:03:55.280 --> 00:03:57.199 Who oh, no, I was pretty crude. 100 00:03:57.280 --> 00:04:01.039 Okay, So you weren't even sexually like over sexually stimulated 101 00:04:01.039 --> 00:04:01.840 yourself at the time. 102 00:04:02.360 --> 00:04:04.800 I would say, like as an average like high schooler, 103 00:04:04.840 --> 00:04:08.159 you know, like I was fucking but it wasn't like 104 00:04:08.719 --> 00:04:11.840 I was like into porn like that. But like, you know, 105 00:04:11.879 --> 00:04:13.879 I was a partier and I was definitely having fun, 106 00:04:14.360 --> 00:04:17.040 but not to a degree like of what we were 107 00:04:17.160 --> 00:04:18.079 doing in our industry. 108 00:04:18.199 --> 00:04:18.439 Okay. 109 00:04:19.519 --> 00:04:22.199 So when she's telling me all these things, you know, 110 00:04:22.519 --> 00:04:25.279 the one thing that really got my interest was money, 111 00:04:25.759 --> 00:04:28.879 you know, and I'm just like thinking, all these beautiful girls, 112 00:04:28.879 --> 00:04:31.920 blah blah blah, this lifestyle. I'm already kind of around 113 00:04:31.959 --> 00:04:36.360 people who do stuff like that, you know, and then 114 00:04:36.399 --> 00:04:38.759 I'm like, I'm holding back for my own personal reasons 115 00:04:39.000 --> 00:04:40.120 like of going into that. 116 00:04:40.360 --> 00:04:42.079 So what were your personal reasons holding back? 117 00:04:43.720 --> 00:04:46.839 Being a believer at the time is where I was at, Like, 118 00:04:46.879 --> 00:04:48.319 you know, I was a Christian girl. I was like, 119 00:04:48.360 --> 00:04:52.199 this is going against yes, okay, morally, I was like 120 00:04:52.240 --> 00:04:56.920 this is so wrong. So when though, you know, things 121 00:04:56.959 --> 00:05:01.399 got real bad and I really had no options at 122 00:05:01.399 --> 00:05:05.120 the time, I just was like fuck it, like I 123 00:05:05.120 --> 00:05:08.680 gotta do what I gotta do so again, long story short, 124 00:05:09.199 --> 00:05:11.959 I wanted to do like one scene and then'd be done, 125 00:05:12.120 --> 00:05:14.879 like nobody find out. I just needed really quick money. 126 00:05:15.399 --> 00:05:18.160 I thought even like a thousand dollars was like so 127 00:05:18.279 --> 00:05:20.560 much to me. Like five hundred dollars was so much 128 00:05:20.600 --> 00:05:20.800 to me. 129 00:05:21.040 --> 00:05:23.319 I mean, you know, I mean that one time, but 130 00:05:23.360 --> 00:05:24.879 it's a lot of money, yeah, because like. 131 00:05:24.920 --> 00:05:28.480 I'm making a freaking cheesecake factory, like two hundred bucks 132 00:05:28.560 --> 00:05:33.120 a week, you know, and I'm like this isn't working, 133 00:05:33.360 --> 00:05:37.000 like you know, just couch hopping stuff like that, and 134 00:05:37.439 --> 00:05:39.600 I was like fuck this, So, you know, did that 135 00:05:39.639 --> 00:05:42.680 one scene and then I was like, now i's gonna 136 00:05:42.680 --> 00:05:45.000 find out. I'm not gonna do this again. But when 137 00:05:45.040 --> 00:05:48.000 I got that check, when I say, I just was like, 138 00:05:48.079 --> 00:05:50.680 holy fuck, like I've never had this much money in 139 00:05:50.680 --> 00:05:53.160 my hand right now before. I just got sucked in 140 00:05:53.240 --> 00:05:53.519 like this. 141 00:05:53.879 --> 00:05:55.800 So what at that moment would you think that you 142 00:05:56.600 --> 00:05:57.560 describe that feeling? 143 00:05:57.680 --> 00:06:01.199 Did you feel like powerful? Did you feel like, you know, 144 00:06:01.439 --> 00:06:01.800 fuck it? 145 00:06:01.959 --> 00:06:02.959 Like you know what I mean, like this is a 146 00:06:03.000 --> 00:06:05.639 lot of money and you'll do whatever, like because I 147 00:06:05.639 --> 00:06:07.199 think it's a you know, uh. 148 00:06:07.000 --> 00:06:08.720 It was an adrenaline rush. Okay. 149 00:06:08.879 --> 00:06:12.079 Yeah, so you got off to the fact that did 150 00:06:12.120 --> 00:06:13.399 you enjoy what you did? 151 00:06:14.360 --> 00:06:16.199 Uh No, not really? 152 00:06:16.600 --> 00:06:19.199 Okay, So you are so you were only satisfied until 153 00:06:19.240 --> 00:06:21.199 you had the money, yes, okay, So it was like 154 00:06:21.360 --> 00:06:23.439 it was a money driven situation. 155 00:06:23.600 --> 00:06:27.360 Okay, So from that point, where does that go? 156 00:06:27.639 --> 00:06:29.079 Because you said you want to want to do it 157 00:06:29.079 --> 00:06:31.279 one time? Yeah, the money is good, like you said, 158 00:06:31.319 --> 00:06:32.480 you did it. You may not have enjoyed it at 159 00:06:32.480 --> 00:06:34.160 that time, but you know you could be like, Okay, 160 00:06:34.160 --> 00:06:35.920 maybe I can learn to like it. Yeah, whatever the 161 00:06:35.920 --> 00:06:37.480 situation is, So where do you go from there? 162 00:06:37.639 --> 00:06:40.360 So that's kind of what it was was. I was like, oh, 163 00:06:40.959 --> 00:06:43.199 I'm just gonna like kind of keep going with it 164 00:06:43.319 --> 00:06:45.160 and like, you know, if I really don't like it, 165 00:06:45.240 --> 00:06:48.319 then you know, I'll be done. But you know, the 166 00:06:48.360 --> 00:06:51.160 more money came in, even though like I was forcing myself, 167 00:06:51.199 --> 00:06:54.279 I was really forcing myself to do these scenes because 168 00:06:54.319 --> 00:06:57.759 I felt super uncomfortable. Even people who knew me, when 169 00:06:57.800 --> 00:07:00.560 they slowly started finding out, they would literally tell me 170 00:07:00.600 --> 00:07:02.199 they're like, yo, like you can tell you do not 171 00:07:02.360 --> 00:07:07.480 like what you're doing. And then the drugs came in. Okay, 172 00:07:07.839 --> 00:07:12.240 So when I started doing it, you know, I don't 173 00:07:12.240 --> 00:07:15.639 know if you remember, do you remember Clover, the guy 174 00:07:15.800 --> 00:07:20.160 dated that we had that thing happen. He's the one 175 00:07:20.160 --> 00:07:21.399 who got me into the drugs. 176 00:07:21.560 --> 00:07:23.399 Okay, So when he got me into. 177 00:07:23.240 --> 00:07:27.199 The drugs is when I really was like completely fucked 178 00:07:27.240 --> 00:07:29.639 up in this whole industry. Like I was like, oh, 179 00:07:29.680 --> 00:07:33.560 I'm making money, I'm substance amusing while being abused, all 180 00:07:33.560 --> 00:07:35.720 this kind of shit, and then I'm sucked into this 181 00:07:35.800 --> 00:07:38.040 fucking world okay, because you know, I don't have it. 182 00:07:38.160 --> 00:07:40.519 So was he controlling that or were you so at 183 00:07:40.519 --> 00:07:43.879 this point controlling yourself being in the industry because he 184 00:07:43.920 --> 00:07:45.680 was doing it himself too, so it felt like you 185 00:07:45.680 --> 00:07:47.160 were just kind of like going along with what the 186 00:07:47.199 --> 00:07:50.560 flow was, and then you're highly medicated of what's going on, 187 00:07:50.680 --> 00:07:52.839 and then obviously we have abuse in the situation, and 188 00:07:52.879 --> 00:07:54.920 then that's not great for any situation. 189 00:07:55.079 --> 00:07:57.240 It was literally all that like I literally like was 190 00:07:57.279 --> 00:07:59.480 just falling into these like things that were so new 191 00:07:59.480 --> 00:08:02.399 that I'm like, oh, this isn't gonna be like that bad, 192 00:08:02.480 --> 00:08:04.560 and then once it happened, I'd be like, holy fuck, 193 00:08:04.639 --> 00:08:07.399 like this is crazy that this is like really what's happening? 194 00:08:07.879 --> 00:08:10.560 So I definitely was following footsteps of people who I thought, 195 00:08:10.600 --> 00:08:12.839 you know, had names in the industry, you know, who 196 00:08:12.839 --> 00:08:17.360 are manipulating me to do things, and you know, just 197 00:08:17.639 --> 00:08:19.519 you know, kind of take me down that path that 198 00:08:19.600 --> 00:08:21.920 you don't want to go down. I feel like, you know, 199 00:08:22.040 --> 00:08:25.160 when you get into porn, you kind of either can 200 00:08:25.199 --> 00:08:27.800 stay like on a good path or you can really 201 00:08:27.879 --> 00:08:31.600 veer off and really get into like the drugs type situation, 202 00:08:32.000 --> 00:08:34.360 which is like the path I started going down, okay, 203 00:08:35.720 --> 00:08:38.600 and then when that all started happening, and like the 204 00:08:38.639 --> 00:08:40.720 whole Clover thing happened. 205 00:08:40.879 --> 00:08:43.720 I do want to indulge. I mean what the Clover 206 00:08:43.799 --> 00:08:44.960 thing happens. 207 00:08:44.879 --> 00:08:46.279 Is, yeah, I can, I don't. 208 00:08:46.360 --> 00:08:48.120 You don't have to go into obviously detail that I 209 00:08:48.159 --> 00:08:50.679 don't know if the fans know, or if you want 210 00:08:50.720 --> 00:08:53.440 to just like touch briefly on what that means to you, 211 00:08:53.480 --> 00:08:56.879 because I feel like, in some way, full circle where 212 00:08:56.919 --> 00:08:59.440 you are now in your journey is a big part 213 00:08:59.440 --> 00:09:01.679 of that. Just touching on of like I feel like 214 00:09:01.720 --> 00:09:04.600 why I have a lot of and not that that's 215 00:09:04.639 --> 00:09:06.519 one of the only reasons, but the empathy of your 216 00:09:06.639 --> 00:09:10.559 strength of where you've come and where you're going is 217 00:09:10.600 --> 00:09:13.159 having those things to kind of talk about and shedlight. 218 00:09:12.840 --> 00:09:14.480 On if you feel comfortable. Yep, totally. 219 00:09:15.559 --> 00:09:18.879 So when like the Clover thing happened, you know, he 220 00:09:19.000 --> 00:09:22.840 was just a very abusive relations person. I mean I 221 00:09:22.879 --> 00:09:24.919 wasn't the only girl. He did to Jen two, that 222 00:09:25.000 --> 00:09:28.919 makeup artist who was in the industry, and I didn't 223 00:09:28.960 --> 00:09:32.159 believe what she was telling me at the time. So 224 00:09:32.600 --> 00:09:35.759 you know, I started being manipulated by somebody who really 225 00:09:35.840 --> 00:09:37.679 knew what they were doing on how to take advantage 226 00:09:37.720 --> 00:09:41.840 of somebody. And you know, this guy made it seem 227 00:09:41.919 --> 00:09:45.159 like he was the greatest guy ever, you know, sucked 228 00:09:45.159 --> 00:09:49.360 me in and then out of nowhere, just completely flips 229 00:09:49.519 --> 00:09:53.919 the switch and just becomes the most abusive I can't 230 00:09:53.960 --> 00:09:56.519 even explain how abusive this person was. It was to 231 00:09:56.559 --> 00:10:00.440 the point where it traumatized me so bad where you know, 232 00:10:00.559 --> 00:10:05.120 I've struggled with OCD and getting hit in the face 233 00:10:05.720 --> 00:10:09.799 stuff like that, where I didn't go to therapy because 234 00:10:09.879 --> 00:10:13.960 I was so like fucked up from everything. I was 235 00:10:14.039 --> 00:10:17.360 just like, I get like a human do this to somebody, Yeah, 236 00:10:17.519 --> 00:10:19.879 you know, and the face thing was like a huge 237 00:10:19.919 --> 00:10:23.840 thing for me, Like I couldn't even you know, just recently, 238 00:10:24.279 --> 00:10:29.320 I'll get into with the OCD thing. You know, I 239 00:10:29.360 --> 00:10:35.519 couldn't touch my face for five years, and it was 240 00:10:35.559 --> 00:10:38.200 so hard on me because I was like, I couldn't 241 00:10:38.360 --> 00:10:41.039 understand why I couldn't touch my face. I was so 242 00:10:41.200 --> 00:10:45.679 scared of people touching me. I felt dirty. I couldn't 243 00:10:45.720 --> 00:10:50.000 stop washing my hands. Uh just everything like really fucked 244 00:10:50.039 --> 00:10:57.080 me up. And he really affected me with men, how 245 00:10:57.120 --> 00:11:02.720 I viewed men, how I thought people could treat somebody. 246 00:11:02.759 --> 00:11:06.320 I was in shock that somebody could do that to somebody. 247 00:11:07.159 --> 00:11:11.080 And uh, you know, he literally almost killed me that 248 00:11:11.320 --> 00:11:16.440 day a v N and uh I never like recovered 249 00:11:16.440 --> 00:11:18.440 from it. I just ignored it, and I ignored it. 250 00:11:18.519 --> 00:11:24.000 I've been ignoring it. And then I you know, after 251 00:11:24.039 --> 00:11:26.840 that happened, I ended up getting in a good relationship 252 00:11:26.879 --> 00:11:30.480 with somebody and they started letting me see like a 253 00:11:30.480 --> 00:11:33.080 better side of things, and I started getting healthy. And 254 00:11:33.799 --> 00:11:36.080 you know, his name was Romeo Price. I don't know 255 00:11:36.080 --> 00:11:40.200 if you remember him. He was an adult guy. Yeah, 256 00:11:40.240 --> 00:11:44.600 And so I started healthy whatever. But then I started 257 00:11:44.840 --> 00:11:47.840 really like working, like because I was like, you know, 258 00:11:47.919 --> 00:11:49.519 if I'm going to be in this, I was like, 259 00:11:49.559 --> 00:11:51.519 I gotta do this. 260 00:11:51.679 --> 00:11:53.879 And like, at this point, did you start to enjoy 261 00:11:53.919 --> 00:11:56.360 it more for yourself. And it wasn't just for the 262 00:11:56.399 --> 00:11:59.480 money or actually I mean money. It was a motivated 263 00:11:59.480 --> 00:12:02.000 made it lead. But it's like at this point before 264 00:12:02.320 --> 00:12:04.240 when he started, like you didn't like it, but did 265 00:12:04.279 --> 00:12:06.519 you start to like the point of where the sex 266 00:12:06.639 --> 00:12:07.000 was going. 267 00:12:07.200 --> 00:12:07.360 Yeah? 268 00:12:07.440 --> 00:12:10.320 Yeah, because like I had, I when I like things 269 00:12:10.360 --> 00:12:12.720 started clearing up and I could like heal a little bit, 270 00:12:12.919 --> 00:12:15.080 and like when I could like understand what I was 271 00:12:15.120 --> 00:12:18.480 doing and like really like start seeing what's going on, 272 00:12:19.120 --> 00:12:21.200 I was like, Okay, this isn't that bad. I was like, Okay, 273 00:12:21.200 --> 00:12:23.240 if I'm gonna do this and I need to take 274 00:12:23.279 --> 00:12:27.200 care of my body, I need to act rite when 275 00:12:27.200 --> 00:12:28.799 I'm on set, you know, I have to treat this 276 00:12:28.879 --> 00:12:31.720 as like it's a fucking job. Yeah, and really get 277 00:12:31.759 --> 00:12:34.639 my shit together, and you know, because I was like 278 00:12:34.960 --> 00:12:36.879 if I don't, I was like, I'm gonna I would 279 00:12:36.879 --> 00:12:39.120 hear all these stories about girls fading off and you know, 280 00:12:39.200 --> 00:12:42.039 and then you shoot these five scenes and they're done. 281 00:12:42.720 --> 00:12:44.519 I'm like, if that happens to me, I was like, 282 00:12:44.600 --> 00:12:47.960 I'm screwed. And honestly, it was crazy. After the Clover 283 00:12:48.039 --> 00:12:50.399 thing happened. It's kind of like I mean bad, people say, 284 00:12:50.440 --> 00:12:52.919 I guess it's good, but it had people start reaching 285 00:12:52.960 --> 00:12:54.399 out to me because they want to know who I was, 286 00:12:55.200 --> 00:12:58.879 so people like wanted to start shooting me. So when 287 00:12:59.120 --> 00:13:01.399 you know, I started having all these things happen, I 288 00:13:01.440 --> 00:13:04.000 just was like, fuck it, let's do it, let's go. 289 00:13:04.600 --> 00:13:06.759 I got into that hustler mentality where. 290 00:13:06.600 --> 00:13:07.879 I just throttle. Yeah. 291 00:13:07.919 --> 00:13:09.879 I was like, let's do it, like, let's make my name, 292 00:13:10.000 --> 00:13:10.759 let's build it. 293 00:13:11.519 --> 00:13:17.120 So your name, but you had another name prior to No. 294 00:13:16.279 --> 00:13:19.080 Nope, just more than kin Chi, Like I do that 295 00:13:19.159 --> 00:13:21.240 for like my social media, okay. 296 00:13:21.039 --> 00:13:24.879 But for porn it's always just yes, okakay, okay. 297 00:13:25.120 --> 00:13:28.039 So so you decided go full throttle. 298 00:13:28.279 --> 00:13:31.279 Yes, did you start and dating this new performer? Yes? 299 00:13:31.360 --> 00:13:34.039 Did you? Did that make you feel a little bit 300 00:13:34.039 --> 00:13:36.039 more safe to like do these types of scenes that 301 00:13:36.120 --> 00:13:38.039 you were doing and kind of like having the backing 302 00:13:38.080 --> 00:13:40.879 and support of somebody like behind you for sure? And 303 00:13:41.279 --> 00:13:43.799 are you still currently doing scenes? I know that you, 304 00:13:43.799 --> 00:13:45.639 you know now are starting to box and do stuff, 305 00:13:45.679 --> 00:13:47.279 but is there a place to do both? 306 00:13:47.559 --> 00:13:52.120 Yeah? So you know I got to the place where 307 00:13:52.320 --> 00:13:56.679 now I don't do boy girl because you know, I'm 308 00:13:56.960 --> 00:14:00.000 you know, seeing someone and you know, out of respect, 309 00:14:00.120 --> 00:14:04.799 I don't do like different person. But like, you know, 310 00:14:05.440 --> 00:14:08.559 for me, when I was in the industry dating somebody like, 311 00:14:08.639 --> 00:14:11.720 I actually got lucky finding a partner in that industry 312 00:14:11.759 --> 00:14:14.480 who could guide me to do it the right way. 313 00:14:15.080 --> 00:14:16.919 Rather than if I wouldn't have had that person, I 314 00:14:16.960 --> 00:14:19.080 probably would have completely fucked my whole shit up. 315 00:14:19.519 --> 00:14:21.679 When you say, the right way, what is the right 316 00:14:21.720 --> 00:14:24.360 way in that scenario of vises by yourself when you 317 00:14:24.399 --> 00:14:27.120 were obviously the drugs is to take that part out 318 00:14:27.120 --> 00:14:28.840 of it, But what is the right way. 319 00:14:28.879 --> 00:14:31.879 Learning to corrected? Sorry I didn't interrupt you. I meant 320 00:14:31.919 --> 00:14:36.840 to say, learning to invest in myself, Okay, just in 321 00:14:37.000 --> 00:14:43.960 every area like physically, emotionally, mentally, uh, financially, all of it. 322 00:14:44.080 --> 00:14:46.200 Like I was like I didn't really know how to 323 00:14:46.240 --> 00:14:48.279 do anything. So when I had somebody like kind of 324 00:14:48.320 --> 00:14:50.799 like take my hand and teach me these things, I 325 00:14:50.840 --> 00:14:53.600 was like, Oh, this is way better than what I 326 00:14:53.600 --> 00:14:55.279 thought it was, you know, like you just see like 327 00:14:55.320 --> 00:14:56.080 a better. 328 00:14:55.840 --> 00:14:56.679 Side for sure. 329 00:14:56.799 --> 00:14:58.960 And then I was like, oh the industry isn't that bad. 330 00:14:59.120 --> 00:15:02.039 And then I started reading more beautiful people you know 331 00:15:02.120 --> 00:15:06.240 that really started wanting to become a part of my life. 332 00:15:06.679 --> 00:15:10.039 And that's when like it started becoming really fun. You know, 333 00:15:10.320 --> 00:15:13.759 Like I started like I needed to give it a chance. 334 00:15:13.919 --> 00:15:15.759 You know, Like at first I didn't want to. I 335 00:15:15.759 --> 00:15:17.440 had a bad experience, and then I was like, if 336 00:15:17.440 --> 00:15:19.519 I just give it a chance to just see And 337 00:15:19.559 --> 00:15:21.799 when I did, I was like, it was fucking awesome 338 00:15:21.879 --> 00:15:26.039 because I met so many cool people literally like in 339 00:15:26.080 --> 00:15:29.879 the industry outside of it, like got to do what 340 00:15:30.879 --> 00:15:34.519 like the funnest things that you know, most people will 341 00:15:34.559 --> 00:15:37.840 never get to say that they've done because this industry, 342 00:15:37.919 --> 00:15:40.039 you know, if you do it, like I said, a 343 00:15:40.080 --> 00:15:41.799 good right way and you have a good head on 344 00:15:41.840 --> 00:15:45.240 your shoulders, it brings so much opportunity, like I and 345 00:15:45.360 --> 00:15:48.720 like I see so many of my girlfriends like thriving 346 00:15:48.879 --> 00:15:52.240 who like started when I started or before, who are 347 00:15:52.360 --> 00:15:56.480 just becoming such empowering women and to have like my 348 00:15:56.840 --> 00:16:01.080 friends like in this industry like really like impact the 349 00:16:01.159 --> 00:16:04.799 world right now. Like I am so supportive of it, 350 00:16:04.879 --> 00:16:06.000 Like I think it's so awesome. 351 00:16:06.600 --> 00:16:09.720 So yeah, I love that about you girls. I feel 352 00:16:09.759 --> 00:16:11.960 like your type of or the. 353 00:16:11.919 --> 00:16:13.440 Time friend that you ladies have come in us. And 354 00:16:13.519 --> 00:16:14.919 it's one of those things where it's kind of like 355 00:16:15.440 --> 00:16:17.279 I make the joke of like I haven't been shooting 356 00:16:17.279 --> 00:16:19.000 in the industry for quite some time, so it's like 357 00:16:19.000 --> 00:16:21.639 there's a lot of these girls that are around for 358 00:16:21.679 --> 00:16:23.279 a while now that I don't know their name, but 359 00:16:23.320 --> 00:16:24.759 they're like been around for a long time, a lot 360 00:16:24.799 --> 00:16:27.399 of these names. But I feel like your like class 361 00:16:27.440 --> 00:16:29.519 of girls or like the last girls that I kind 362 00:16:29.519 --> 00:16:31.960 of really knew, like where you are now and each 363 00:16:32.000 --> 00:16:35.200 every one of you guys have done so many great things. 364 00:16:35.200 --> 00:16:36.399 And it's cool to see. 365 00:16:36.440 --> 00:16:38.039 It's kind of like, I'm like, I'm like the I'm like, 366 00:16:38.039 --> 00:16:39.879 I don't know if it's the auntie like or the 367 00:16:40.360 --> 00:16:42.720 sister thing, but it's cool to see and like I'm 368 00:16:42.720 --> 00:16:44.440 definitely like a cheerleader from the other side. But it's 369 00:16:44.440 --> 00:16:47.080 also well, I love having you girls on the show 370 00:16:47.159 --> 00:16:48.759 and getting to know you a little more. Is because 371 00:16:48.799 --> 00:16:50.919 again going back to the conversation, is like a lot 372 00:16:50.919 --> 00:16:54.480 of times each person's business and how our career path 373 00:16:54.559 --> 00:16:56.759 is different, different in a lot of ways. You know, 374 00:16:56.799 --> 00:16:59.039 we all pick different things and sometimes it's good, sometimes 375 00:16:59.080 --> 00:17:01.919 it's bad. Flows and life is what life is about, 376 00:17:01.960 --> 00:17:04.599 you know, how we learn from those mistakes or learn 377 00:17:04.640 --> 00:17:06.680 from those lessons and things like that and move forward 378 00:17:06.720 --> 00:17:09.160 is how you know, what takes perseverance and shows like 379 00:17:09.240 --> 00:17:12.200 the ownership and adultness of who you are as a woman. 380 00:17:12.240 --> 00:17:13.240 And so I. 381 00:17:13.279 --> 00:17:16.720 Commend you for being so vulnerable about stages in your 382 00:17:16.720 --> 00:17:20.480 life about you know, from drugs, bad boyfriends and you know, 383 00:17:20.599 --> 00:17:22.480 and you know, abuse and things like that where it's 384 00:17:22.480 --> 00:17:24.920 like real things like that happen to everyday people, and 385 00:17:24.960 --> 00:17:27.519 not enough people speak about it because we hold things 386 00:17:27.559 --> 00:17:30.759 sometimes in because we are afraid or a shame right 387 00:17:31.279 --> 00:17:33.559 of those things. But I also think it's a healing 388 00:17:33.640 --> 00:17:36.000 place where it's like if the more you talk about it, 389 00:17:36.039 --> 00:17:37.759 the more strength that you can get from it to 390 00:17:37.880 --> 00:17:40.079 knowing that it was never your fault. It's you know, 391 00:17:40.119 --> 00:17:43.119 everybody's journey is completely different from whichever way you pick, 392 00:17:43.400 --> 00:17:45.119 but you you know, you choose to you choose your 393 00:17:45.160 --> 00:17:48.000 battles the way you want and you you know, survive 394 00:17:48.079 --> 00:17:50.119 them the way that you were meant to be, you know. 395 00:17:50.200 --> 00:17:52.160 And I think that it just speaks you know, volumes 396 00:17:52.160 --> 00:17:55.000 of you now changing and trying to do fighting and 397 00:17:55.079 --> 00:17:57.279 you know, following your kind of peace and that you 398 00:17:57.359 --> 00:17:59.599 speak about like how you kind of found that new 399 00:17:59.599 --> 00:18:00.920 passion and where you're going with that. 400 00:18:01.240 --> 00:18:05.480 Yeah, So another like kind of short story from all this. 401 00:18:05.640 --> 00:18:09.599