Speaker 1: A little bit better. You're an adult film star, now
Speaker 1: you are a boxer. You kind of like changing things
Speaker 1: in your life. So I want to know past, present, future,
Speaker 1: all of those things and get to know you a
Speaker 1: little bit more intimately.
Speaker 2: Cool.
Speaker 3: I would love to share that with you. So how
Speaker 3: are you.
Speaker 2: I'm doing really, really good. I can't complain.
Speaker 3: I like that.
Speaker 1: You know, we we kind of touch base. We you know,
Speaker 1: we kind of talked on Instagram where it's like one
Speaker 1: of those things where you know, you meet so many
Speaker 1: people in the industry for you know, as long as
Speaker 1: that we've been in the industry, which you've kind of
Speaker 1: maybe said hi, or with the same agency, or you
Speaker 1: kind of know, you know, third party friends. But sometimes
Speaker 1: we don't as women, get to really talk to people.
Speaker 1: And also I think it has a lot to do
Speaker 1: with who we were at those times, you know, growing
Speaker 1: up in the business where you know, we're really young.
Speaker 1: Sometimes you know things you don't know who's intimidating to
Speaker 1: talk to. And I get a lot of people, you know,
Speaker 1: told me it was like, well I didn't know how
Speaker 1: to talk to you, and.
Speaker 3: It's like just say hi, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: So it's those intimidating things where it's like breaking those
Speaker 1: boundaries and like having real conversations and getting to know
Speaker 1: the real you and you need to know you know,
Speaker 1: the business side of you, and so much I've seen
Speaker 1: from you know, my side looking in with you is
Speaker 1: the growth of where you were in the beginning to
Speaker 1: what I've seen the last two years, which I think
Speaker 1: is really cool to see. And you know, because you're
Speaker 1: so vulnerable with your story and how you are with
Speaker 1: you know, your life, I think speaks a lot of
Speaker 1: volumes of a woman like yourself. Is because you don't
Speaker 1: get enough credit and give yourself a pat on the back.
Speaker 1: Is that it takes a lot to be vulnerable. It
Speaker 1: takes a lot to you know, one thing, to be
Speaker 1: an adult film star and show you know who you
Speaker 1: are sexually and all these things, but there's things underneath
Speaker 1: there that you either had to discover yourself, went through
Speaker 1: and kind of like pushed you into the direction that
Speaker 1: you are now totally. So can we talk about like
Speaker 1: you know from the beginning?
Speaker 2: Yes? Oh ok, yeah, And also I want to say
Speaker 2: it's funny that you're mentioning how you know, we get
Speaker 2: afraid to like approach us girls in the industry because
Speaker 2: I honestly didn't want to approach you because I was intimidated,
Speaker 2: because I was like, oh my god, it's a Lexus Texas.
Speaker 2: Everybody is always like, oh my god, it's like Texas.
Speaker 2: But actually, go on stage, all of us are like
Speaker 2: super stoked to see you, and like, for some reason,
Speaker 2: I never had the courage to come up and introduce
Speaker 2: myself until you know, over the past what's seven years,
Speaker 2: I bought the confidence finally.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: But you know, so to backtrack to getting you know,
Speaker 2: like into the industry, you know, is that kind of where.
Speaker 3: You wanted me to start with? Like how you got
Speaker 3: wherever you want?
Speaker 1: However, I feel like, you know, I think it's you know,
Speaker 1: journeys of you know, however you want to Where do
Speaker 1: you feel like you know you kind of started and
Speaker 1: like really the progression of like did you have a
Speaker 1: good time? Were you force into things where you like,
Speaker 1: did you know right away when you got into the industry,
Speaker 1: like where you wanted to take your career? Was it
Speaker 1: just young, dumb and full of come like myself, like
Speaker 1: I had no direction, I just liked what I was doing,
Speaker 1: Like kind of tell us about that.
Speaker 2: Okay, yeah, So I'll say this. So when I first
Speaker 2: like moved to La Like, I was like a super
Speaker 2: Christian girl when I got here, So I didn't really
Speaker 2: know anything. I'm from Omaha, Nebraska originally, and you know,
Speaker 2: long story shorts to sum it up, like, I had
Speaker 2: kind of gotten involved with people out here at a
Speaker 2: young age that kind of steered me in the wrong direction.
Speaker 2: I was in a really bad place where you know,
Speaker 2: I had really no help at a certain time.
Speaker 1: So's how was this before you got into the industry
Speaker 1: and why I influenced you to get into the industry.
Speaker 2: Okay, so this is how I got in.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: And you know, when when things are not going the
Speaker 2: way you want them to, you're struggling, you don't know
Speaker 2: what to do. Oh, you know, you gotta do what
Speaker 2: you gotta do. And when I was going to hair
Speaker 2: school at the time, there was actually girls who were
Speaker 2: in the industry who were trying to get out of it, okay,
Speaker 2: and that's why they're going.
Speaker 3: To hair school.
Speaker 2: So you know, a few of them mentioned you know
Speaker 2: a few things about it, and you know, getting curious,
Speaker 2: I'm asking questions and.
Speaker 1: Had you been like an avid like porn watcher yourself
Speaker 1: about it.
Speaker 2: Who oh, no, I was pretty crude.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you weren't even sexually like over sexually stimulated
Speaker 1: yourself at the time.
Speaker 2: I would say, like as an average like high schooler,
Speaker 2: you know, like I was fucking but it wasn't like
Speaker 2: I was like into porn like that. But like, you know,
Speaker 2: I was a partier and I was definitely having fun,
Speaker 2: but not to a degree like of what we were
Speaker 2: doing in our industry.
Speaker 3: Okay.
Speaker 2: So when she's telling me all these things, you know,
Speaker 2: the one thing that really got my interest was money,
Speaker 2: you know, and I'm just like thinking, all these beautiful girls,
Speaker 2: blah blah blah, this lifestyle. I'm already kind of around
Speaker 2: people who do stuff like that, you know, and then
Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm holding back for my own personal reasons
Speaker 2: like of going into that.
Speaker 3: So what were your personal reasons holding back?
Speaker 2: Being a believer at the time is where I was at, Like,
Speaker 2: you know, I was a Christian girl. I was like,
Speaker 2: this is going against yes, okay, morally, I was like
Speaker 2: this is so wrong. So when though, you know, things
Speaker 2: got real bad and I really had no options at
Speaker 2: the time, I just was like fuck it, like I
Speaker 2: gotta do what I gotta do so again, long story short,
Speaker 2: I wanted to do like one scene and then'd be done,
Speaker 2: like nobody find out. I just needed really quick money.
Speaker 2: I thought even like a thousand dollars was like so
Speaker 2: much to me. Like five hundred dollars was so much
Speaker 2: to me.
Speaker 3: I mean, you know, I mean that one time, but
Speaker 3: it's a lot of money, yeah, because like.
Speaker 2: I'm making a freaking cheesecake factory, like two hundred bucks
Speaker 2: a week, you know, and I'm like this isn't working,
Speaker 2: like you know, just couch hopping stuff like that, and
Speaker 2: I was like fuck this, So, you know, did that
Speaker 2: one scene and then I was like, now i's gonna
Speaker 2: find out. I'm not gonna do this again. But when
Speaker 2: I got that check, when I say, I just was like,
Speaker 2: holy fuck, like I've never had this much money in
Speaker 2: my hand right now before. I just got sucked in
Speaker 2: like this.
Speaker 1: So what at that moment would you think that you
Speaker 1: describe that feeling?
Speaker 3: Did you feel like powerful? Did you feel like, you know,
Speaker 3: fuck it?
Speaker 1: Like you know what I mean, like this is a
Speaker 1: lot of money and you'll do whatever, like because I
Speaker 1: think it's a you know, uh.
Speaker 2: It was an adrenaline rush. Okay.
Speaker 1: Yeah, so you got off to the fact that did
Speaker 1: you enjoy what you did?
Speaker 3: Uh No, not really?
Speaker 1: Okay, So you are so you were only satisfied until
Speaker 1: you had the money, yes, okay, So it was like
Speaker 1: it was a money driven situation.
Speaker 3: Okay, So from that point, where does that go?
Speaker 1: Because you said you want to want to do it
Speaker 1: one time? Yeah, the money is good, like you said,
Speaker 1: you did it. You may not have enjoyed it at
Speaker 1: that time, but you know you could be like, Okay,
Speaker 1: maybe I can learn to like it. Yeah, whatever the
Speaker 1: situation is, So where do you go from there?
Speaker 2: So that's kind of what it was was. I was like, oh,
Speaker 2: I'm just gonna like kind of keep going with it
Speaker 2: and like, you know, if I really don't like it,
Speaker 2: then you know, I'll be done. But you know, the
Speaker 2: more money came in, even though like I was forcing myself,
Speaker 2: I was really forcing myself to do these scenes because
Speaker 2: I felt super uncomfortable. Even people who knew me, when
Speaker 2: they slowly started finding out, they would literally tell me
Speaker 2: they're like, yo, like you can tell you do not
Speaker 2: like what you're doing. And then the drugs came in. Okay,
Speaker 2: So when I started doing it, you know, I don't
Speaker 2: know if you remember, do you remember Clover, the guy
Speaker 2: dated that we had that thing happen. He's the one
Speaker 2: who got me into the drugs.
Speaker 3: Okay, So when he got me into.
Speaker 2: The drugs is when I really was like completely fucked
Speaker 2: up in this whole industry. Like I was like, oh,
Speaker 2: I'm making money, I'm substance amusing while being abused, all
Speaker 2: this kind of shit, and then I'm sucked into this
Speaker 2: fucking world okay, because you know, I don't have it.
Speaker 1: So was he controlling that or were you so at
Speaker 1: this point controlling yourself being in the industry because he
Speaker 1: was doing it himself too, so it felt like you
Speaker 1: were just kind of like going along with what the
Speaker 1: flow was, and then you're highly medicated of what's going on,
Speaker 1: and then obviously we have abuse in the situation, and
Speaker 1: then that's not great for any situation.
Speaker 2: It was literally all that like I literally like was
Speaker 2: just falling into these like things that were so new
Speaker 2: that I'm like, oh, this isn't gonna be like that bad,
Speaker 2: and then once it happened, I'd be like, holy fuck,
Speaker 2: like this is crazy that this is like really what's happening?
Speaker 2: So I definitely was following footsteps of people who I thought,
Speaker 2: you know, had names in the industry, you know, who
Speaker 2: are manipulating me to do things, and you know, just
Speaker 2: you know, kind of take me down that path that
Speaker 2: you don't want to go down. I feel like, you know,
Speaker 2: when you get into porn, you kind of either can
Speaker 2: stay like on a good path or you can really
Speaker 2: veer off and really get into like the drugs type situation,
Speaker 2: which is like the path I started going down, okay,
Speaker 2: and then when that all started happening, and like the
Speaker 2: whole Clover thing happened.
Speaker 1: I do want to indulge. I mean what the Clover
Speaker 1: thing happens.
Speaker 2: Is, yeah, I can, I don't.
Speaker 1: You don't have to go into obviously detail that I
Speaker 1: don't know if the fans know, or if you want
Speaker 1: to just like touch briefly on what that means to you,
Speaker 1: because I feel like, in some way, full circle where
Speaker 1: you are now in your journey is a big part
Speaker 1: of that. Just touching on of like I feel like
Speaker 1: why I have a lot of and not that that's
Speaker 1: one of the only reasons, but the empathy of your
Speaker 1: strength of where you've come and where you're going is
Speaker 1: having those things to kind of talk about and shedlight.
Speaker 3: On if you feel comfortable. Yep, totally.
Speaker 2: So when like the Clover thing happened, you know, he
Speaker 2: was just a very abusive relations person. I mean I
Speaker 2: wasn't the only girl. He did to Jen two, that
Speaker 2: makeup artist who was in the industry, and I didn't
Speaker 2: believe what she was telling me at the time. So
Speaker 2: you know, I started being manipulated by somebody who really
Speaker 2: knew what they were doing on how to take advantage
Speaker 2: of somebody. And you know, this guy made it seem
Speaker 2: like he was the greatest guy ever, you know, sucked
Speaker 2: me in and then out of nowhere, just completely flips
Speaker 2: the switch and just becomes the most abusive I can't
Speaker 2: even explain how abusive this person was. It was to
Speaker 2: the point where it traumatized me so bad where you know,
Speaker 2: I've struggled with OCD and getting hit in the face
Speaker 2: stuff like that, where I didn't go to therapy because
Speaker 2: I was so like fucked up from everything. I was
Speaker 2: just like, I get like a human do this to somebody, Yeah,
Speaker 2: you know, and the face thing was like a huge
Speaker 2: thing for me, Like I couldn't even you know, just recently,
Speaker 2: I'll get into with the OCD thing. You know, I
Speaker 2: couldn't touch my face for five years, and it was
Speaker 2: so hard on me because I was like, I couldn't
Speaker 2: understand why I couldn't touch my face. I was so
Speaker 2: scared of people touching me. I felt dirty. I couldn't
Speaker 2: stop washing my hands. Uh just everything like really fucked
Speaker 2: me up. And he really affected me with men, how
Speaker 2: I viewed men, how I thought people could treat somebody.
Speaker 2: I was in shock that somebody could do that to somebody.
Speaker 2: And uh, you know, he literally almost killed me that
Speaker 2: day a v N and uh I never like recovered
Speaker 2: from it. I just ignored it, and I ignored it.
Speaker 2: I've been ignoring it. And then I you know, after
Speaker 2: that happened, I ended up getting in a good relationship
Speaker 2: with somebody and they started letting me see like a
Speaker 2: better side of things, and I started getting healthy. And
Speaker 2: you know, his name was Romeo Price. I don't know
Speaker 2: if you remember him. He was an adult guy. Yeah,
Speaker 2: And so I started healthy whatever. But then I started
Speaker 2: really like working, like because I was like, you know,
Speaker 2: if I'm going to be in this, I was like,
Speaker 2: I gotta do this.
Speaker 1: And like, at this point, did you start to enjoy
Speaker 1: it more for yourself. And it wasn't just for the
Speaker 1: money or actually I mean money. It was a motivated
Speaker 1: made it lead. But it's like at this point before
Speaker 1: when he started, like you didn't like it, but did
Speaker 1: you start to like the point of where the sex
Speaker 1: was going.
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Yeah, because like I had, I when I like things
Speaker 2: started clearing up and I could like heal a little bit,
Speaker 2: and like when I could like understand what I was
Speaker 2: doing and like really like start seeing what's going on,
Speaker 2: I was like, Okay, this isn't that bad. I was like, Okay,
Speaker 2: if I'm gonna do this and I need to take
Speaker 2: care of my body, I need to act rite when
Speaker 2: I'm on set, you know, I have to treat this
Speaker 2: as like it's a fucking job. Yeah, and really get
Speaker 2: my shit together, and you know, because I was like
Speaker 2: if I don't, I was like, I'm gonna I would
Speaker 2: hear all these stories about girls fading off and you know,
Speaker 2: and then you shoot these five scenes and they're done.
Speaker 2: I'm like, if that happens to me, I was like,
Speaker 2: I'm screwed. And honestly, it was crazy. After the Clover
Speaker 2: thing happened. It's kind of like I mean bad, people say,
Speaker 2: I guess it's good, but it had people start reaching
Speaker 2: out to me because they want to know who I was,
Speaker 2: so people like wanted to start shooting me. So when
Speaker 2: you know, I started having all these things happen, I
Speaker 2: just was like, fuck it, let's do it, let's go.
Speaker 2: I got into that hustler mentality where.
Speaker 3: I just throttle. Yeah.
Speaker 2: I was like, let's do it, like, let's make my name,
Speaker 2: let's build it.
Speaker 1: So your name, but you had another name prior to No.
Speaker 2: Nope, just more than kin Chi, Like I do that
Speaker 2: for like my social media, okay.
Speaker 1: But for porn it's always just yes, okakay, okay.
Speaker 2: So so you decided go full throttle.
Speaker 3: Yes, did you start and dating this new performer? Yes?
Speaker 1: Did you? Did that make you feel a little bit
Speaker 1: more safe to like do these types of scenes that
Speaker 1: you were doing and kind of like having the backing
Speaker 1: and support of somebody like behind you for sure? And
Speaker 1: are you still currently doing scenes? I know that you,
Speaker 1: you know now are starting to box and do stuff,
Speaker 1: but is there a place to do both?
Speaker 2: Yeah? So you know I got to the place where
Speaker 2: now I don't do boy girl because you know, I'm
Speaker 2: you know, seeing someone and you know, out of respect,
Speaker 2: I don't do like different person. But like, you know,
Speaker 2: for me, when I was in the industry dating somebody like,
Speaker 2: I actually got lucky finding a partner in that industry
Speaker 2: who could guide me to do it the right way.
Speaker 2: Rather than if I wouldn't have had that person, I
Speaker 2: probably would have completely fucked my whole shit up.
Speaker 1: When you say, the right way, what is the right
Speaker 1: way in that scenario of vises by yourself when you
Speaker 1: were obviously the drugs is to take that part out
Speaker 1: of it, But what is the right way.
Speaker 2: Learning to corrected? Sorry I didn't interrupt you. I meant
Speaker 2: to say, learning to invest in myself, Okay, just in
Speaker 2: every area like physically, emotionally, mentally, uh, financially, all of it.
Speaker 2: Like I was like I didn't really know how to
Speaker 2: do anything. So when I had somebody like kind of
Speaker 2: like take my hand and teach me these things, I
Speaker 2: was like, Oh, this is way better than what I
Speaker 2: thought it was, you know, like you just see like
Speaker 2: a better.
Speaker 3: Side for sure.
Speaker 2: And then I was like, oh the industry isn't that bad.
Speaker 2: And then I started reading more beautiful people you know
Speaker 2: that really started wanting to become a part of my life.
Speaker 2: And that's when like it started becoming really fun. You know,
Speaker 2: Like I started like I needed to give it a chance.
Speaker 2: You know, Like at first I didn't want to. I
Speaker 2: had a bad experience, and then I was like, if
Speaker 2: I just give it a chance to just see And
Speaker 2: when I did, I was like, it was fucking awesome
Speaker 2: because I met so many cool people literally like in
Speaker 2: the industry outside of it, like got to do what
Speaker 2: like the funnest things that you know, most people will
Speaker 2: never get to say that they've done because this industry,
Speaker 2: you know, if you do it, like I said, a
Speaker 2: good right way and you have a good head on
Speaker 2: your shoulders, it brings so much opportunity, like I and
Speaker 2: like I see so many of my girlfriends like thriving
Speaker 2: who like started when I started or before, who are
Speaker 2: just becoming such empowering women and to have like my
Speaker 2: friends like in this industry like really like impact the
Speaker 2: world right now. Like I am so supportive of it,
Speaker 2: Like I think it's so awesome.
Speaker 3: So yeah, I love that about you girls. I feel
Speaker 3: like your type of or the.
Speaker 1: Time friend that you ladies have come in us. And
Speaker 1: it's one of those things where it's kind of like
Speaker 1: I make the joke of like I haven't been shooting
Speaker 1: in the industry for quite some time, so it's like
Speaker 1: there's a lot of these girls that are around for
Speaker 1: a while now that I don't know their name, but
Speaker 1: they're like been around for a long time, a lot
Speaker 1: of these names. But I feel like your like class
Speaker 1: of girls or like the last girls that I kind
Speaker 1: of really knew, like where you are now and each
Speaker 1: every one of you guys have done so many great things.
Speaker 3: And it's cool to see.
Speaker 1: It's kind of like, I'm like, I'm like the I'm like,
Speaker 1: I don't know if it's the auntie like or the
Speaker 1: sister thing, but it's cool to see and like I'm
Speaker 1: definitely like a cheerleader from the other side. But it's
Speaker 1: also well, I love having you girls on the show
Speaker 1: and getting to know you a little more. Is because
Speaker 1: again going back to the conversation, is like a lot
Speaker 1: of times each person's business and how our career path
Speaker 1: is different, different in a lot of ways. You know,
Speaker 1: we all pick different things and sometimes it's good, sometimes
Speaker 1: it's bad. Flows and life is what life is about,
Speaker 1: you know, how we learn from those mistakes or learn
Speaker 1: from those lessons and things like that and move forward
Speaker 1: is how you know, what takes perseverance and shows like
Speaker 1: the ownership and adultness of who you are as a woman.
Speaker 3: And so I.
Speaker 1: Commend you for being so vulnerable about stages in your
Speaker 1: life about you know, from drugs, bad boyfriends and you know,
Speaker 1: and you know, abuse and things like that where it's
Speaker 1: like real things like that happen to everyday people, and
Speaker 1: not enough people speak about it because we hold things
Speaker 1: sometimes in because we are afraid or a shame right
Speaker 1: of those things. But I also think it's a healing
Speaker 1: place where it's like if the more you talk about it,
Speaker 1: the more strength that you can get from it to
Speaker 1: knowing that it was never your fault. It's you know,
Speaker 1: everybody's journey is completely different from whichever way you pick,
Speaker 1: but you you know, you choose to you choose your
Speaker 1: battles the way you want and you you know, survive
Speaker 1: them the way that you were meant to be, you know.
Speaker 1: And I think that it just speaks you know, volumes
Speaker 1: of you now changing and trying to do fighting and
Speaker 1: you know, following your kind of peace and that you
Speaker 1: speak about like how you kind of found that new
Speaker 1: passion and where you're going with that.
Speaker 2: Yeah, So another like kind of short story from all this.
Speaker 2: So I'd say, like last year, I was in a
Speaker 2: really crazy, fucked up place again. I was like, really,
Speaker 2: this is probably the worst I'd ever been in a
Speaker 2: very long time. It was a year ago, and I
Speaker 2: was super on drugs like heavy whippets really heavily and
Speaker 2: Xanax and drinking.
Speaker 3: That's like that can't like.
Speaker 2: Y thing I was doing, Like I'm not even fucking around.
Speaker 2: I was probably doing like four hundred a day for
Speaker 2: like months straight.
Speaker 3: Hundred What does that mean?
Speaker 2: Like little can't little little disposable car to reuse. So
Speaker 2: I would just fucking hit that thing till I woke
Speaker 2: up to like all sleep do for is it like
Speaker 2: head high? Okay, Okay, it's like and the thing is
Speaker 2: is it's that kind of high that you can't get against.
Speaker 2: You keep doing it till you try.
Speaker 3: And just wind to mask whatever was going whatever and
Speaker 3: right now.
Speaker 2: So at the time, yes, and when I say I
Speaker 2: everybody noticed it. Social media, everybody was all my friends,
Speaker 2: nobody wanted to be around me anymore. It was probably
Speaker 2: the most loneliest I've ever been. I was literally falling
Speaker 2: apart and I couldn't stop. Like literally, like my best
Speaker 2: friend got to a point where she was like, I
Speaker 2: can't be around you anymore. Everybody in my family they
Speaker 2: were like this is and I literally was like ready
Speaker 2: to go. I was like, I'm done. I don't fucking care.
Speaker 2: I was like I didn't feel like I had any purpose.
Speaker 2: I felt like I kept failing at everything and nothing
Speaker 2: was getting better. So I was like, fuck this. I
Speaker 2: was like I'm ready. I was like I don't need
Speaker 2: to keep going. I was like, experience life already. Whatever,
Speaker 2: So I made you snap out of it. So I
Speaker 2: didn't wake up for like almost three days, and I
Speaker 2: woke up and when I say, my face was so
Speaker 2: fucked up. My face had this weird, crazy rash thing
Speaker 2: on it, and I was like, oh my god. I
Speaker 2: was like I had never seen myself like this, and
Speaker 2: I looked so disgusting that I just literally was like
Speaker 2: I couldn't stop crying. I was like I ruined my face.
Speaker 2: I was like I can't wave, like you know, I
Speaker 2: just started panicking. I'm like what the fuck? And my
Speaker 2: body felt so deteriorated, like I couldn't even like breathe properly,
Speaker 2: Like everything just was weird, and I was like, if
Speaker 2: I don't fucking stop, I was like, I'm gonna die.
Speaker 2: I was like, I was like, oh my god, didn't
Speaker 2: just die right there. Like so I literally was like done.
Speaker 2: I was like, we're not doing it again. I was like,
Speaker 2: get it the fuck together. Yeah, because nobody even wanted
Speaker 2: to help me, like nobody even cared. So I was like,
Speaker 2: fuck it. I was like I literally had one shot.
Speaker 2: I was like, if I don't fix this shit, I
Speaker 2: was like I'm gonna I'm gonna fuck myself. So I
Speaker 2: just decided that day to literally cut everything off, literally
Speaker 2: all the drugs. I didn't go to therapy, I didn't
Speaker 2: go to nothing. I was just like, let's just get
Speaker 2: it done. And I started doing it. And when I
Speaker 2: stuck with it, like each day just drinking easier and
Speaker 2: easier and easier, and I was able to just now, well, up,
Speaker 2: next month will be my year. Sobriety, yes, thank you. Yes,
Speaker 2: that's a big accomplishment, a huge one for me.
Speaker 1: So yeah, when you say sober, is that everything alcohol, weed.
Speaker 3: The weed?
Speaker 2: Sometimes I'd say for me, it's like hardcore drugs and alcohol.
Speaker 2: So yeah, anything like pills all that stuff never haven't
Speaker 2: touched in a year. Drinking havn't touched in a year.
Speaker 2: Like I said, I'll smoke here and there, but you
Speaker 2: know it helps me a lot sometimes, you know, so
Speaker 2: that I don't fall back into the hard for sure stuff.
Speaker 3: I mean I think that.
Speaker 1: I mean everybody's you know, battle is probably a little
Speaker 1: bit different. So it's like knowing what you really need
Speaker 1: and like, you know, kind of giving you your grace,
Speaker 1: you know, with all that happening totals, like you know,
Speaker 1: if you need weed a little bit, you know, you
Speaker 1: know when yourself fou and eventually you may not need
Speaker 1: it maybe, you know, it depends on what you know,
Speaker 1: what you're into at that time totally, But how do
Speaker 1: you think that that kind of like process like got
Speaker 1: you too boxing?
Speaker 2: Yeah, so you know, so when I started wanting to
Speaker 2: get healthy, I started getting to a place where I
Speaker 2: was like, oh, I want to get into fitness. So
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, I'm getting healthy, you know, I
Speaker 2: mean getting into a good place. I was like, fitness
Speaker 2: is kind of like the route that I think I
Speaker 2: want to go. So when I started doing that, it
Speaker 2: just kind of naturally started flowing like I was getting healthy.
Speaker 2: I started looking good again, Like you know, people start.
Speaker 1: Like naturally into like kind of fitness before yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: always have been and sports, so it just came natural, yes, okay.
Speaker 2: So when that was happening, you know, I was like, Oh,
Speaker 2: it's gonna be like the route that I want to do.
Speaker 2: And then uh, one of my friends just hit me up,
Speaker 2: who had already been in the Misfits boxing, and he
Speaker 2: just was like, Hey, do you want to do this?
Speaker 2: I thought about it and I was like no. I
Speaker 2: was like I don't know if I want to. And
Speaker 2: then you know, a couple of months later, you know,
Speaker 2: I get asked again and then I'm like out a
Speaker 2: place where And this is what like probably four months
Speaker 2: ago where I was like, you know, I really was
Speaker 2: like do I want to switch my career and like
Speaker 2: go full force into something else? And I'm a risk
Speaker 2: taker saw I was like, fuck, yeah, let's do it.
Speaker 2: So I was like, okay, let's do this. I moved
Speaker 2: to Long Beach, you know, just a couple of months ago,
Speaker 2: and then found this gym that I was going to
Speaker 2: and then I I knew too, this is the crazy
Speaker 2: thing with the OCD and the drugs and all this
Speaker 2: shit that goes into this boxing thing. So like during
Speaker 2: the boxing thing, I was like I don't want to
Speaker 2: get hit in the face. I was like there's no way.
Speaker 2: I was like I can't stand trigger trigger, I won't
Speaker 2: even let a touch my face. Yeah, So like I
Speaker 2: was like, how am I gonna hit in the face.
Speaker 2: I was like, I just don't want to dodge.
Speaker 1: Everything can make you madd you know, here's my target exactly.
Speaker 3: We're gonna go crazy.
Speaker 2: Yeah. So like you're thin, but you're thinking that, but
Speaker 2: this is the thing is like you know when you're training,
Speaker 2: you're actually are getting hit by stuff. So like you know,
Speaker 2: I would have these panic attacks where I'm like, oh
Speaker 2: my god, I'm gonna hit the face because I would
Speaker 2: have to Like if I got touched by something, immediately,
Speaker 2: my OCD would be I have to go shower, I
Speaker 2: have to wash my face, I gotta wash my hands.
Speaker 2: Anything i'd touched my face, I'd have to go do
Speaker 2: a routine. So for me, I'd be like freaking out
Speaker 2: that I gotta go and do this. So I'm like
Speaker 2: really not wanting to get hit. And then like one day,
Speaker 2: like the OCD thing, like I don't know how to
Speaker 2: explain it, but it was like such like a spiritual thing.
Speaker 2: One day, I literally like went on my Instagram and
Speaker 2: I was like because people knew because I talked about
Speaker 2: it before the soap thing like two years ago, and
Speaker 2: I was like, guys, and I was like, I think
Speaker 2: I'm genuinely done with this fucking soap like cause I
Speaker 2: have been I that. Yeah, like I have been fighting, and.
Speaker 3: I'm sure it's liberating, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: Like I had the confidence because I was like, I
Speaker 2: have to fight. I was like, if you can't fight
Speaker 2: and get hit in the face and let me not
Speaker 2: touch your face again, I was like, you're never going
Speaker 2: to move on and learn. So I was like, dude, let's.
Speaker 3: Fucking do it.
Speaker 2: Girl, the same thing, like I haven't done it since.
Speaker 2: It's fucking crazy.
Speaker 3: I know.
Speaker 2: It's such a weird I.
Speaker 3: Think, but at the end of the day, it's not weird.
Speaker 1: I think that it's obviously that there's vices on certain
Speaker 1: things and reasons why we put those in place, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, And that is something that your
Speaker 1: journey unfortunately had to go through whatever. But the fact
Speaker 1: of being aware of what that was giving it grace
Speaker 1: and being like this, this is what it was, and
Speaker 1: also just continue to do it and when you needed
Speaker 1: to do it. But then now learning and finding something
Speaker 1: that's replacing those things to making you feel empowered, making
Speaker 1: you feel the point that I don't need this, I
Speaker 1: have myself have you know what I mean, Like I
Speaker 1: need to do this other thing and this is in
Speaker 1: my way totally, And at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: it's a lesson of learning that the only thing that's
Speaker 1: in our way is ourselves totally. So it's like, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, it's like sometimes you just got
Speaker 1: to fucking fuck the bullshit just do whatever, like what
Speaker 1: you want to do. You know, cliche sayings that you
Speaker 1: know growing up or whatever.
Speaker 3: It's like one of those things. It's they're really true.
Speaker 1: And it's like you have to find what drives you,
Speaker 1: what makes you passionate about what you're doing, and what
Speaker 1: is then it makes it so authentic totally. It just
Speaker 1: makes sense totally.
Speaker 2: And you know what was crazy is going on this
Speaker 2: journey because I'm gonna be on this one for a while.
Speaker 2: I'm learning that the more than I can replace my
Speaker 2: negatives with positives like and that being said, like let's
Speaker 2: say somebody struggling with drinking, you know, like finding just
Speaker 2: an outlet that and it takes effort, like you know,
Speaker 2: not everybody like can just do it like this, but
Speaker 2: like you know, people who do have like issues like that,
Speaker 2: finding an outlet to like replace something that you're struggling with,
Speaker 2: like is like how I really started being able to
Speaker 2: get better and rather than sticking on it, because I
Speaker 2: was like, if I keep ignoring it, and then I
Speaker 2: keep doing again the same result over over and over
Speaker 2: again and sanity insanity. Yeah, And I was like, and
Speaker 2: we don't need to keep doing that because it's been years.
Speaker 2: So I was like, something's got to change.
Speaker 3: So I'm happy for you, journey. So let's talk about
Speaker 3: you had a you know, a fight, yes in London.
Speaker 1: Yes, how is that whole preparation? Like this is something
Speaker 1: completely new? Like you said, this whole thought idea was
Speaker 1: four months ago, so you've been just like saying, hey,
Speaker 1: you're gonna.
Speaker 3: Do it, Like how long did the preparation take?
Speaker 1: How is it to get like punched in the face
Speaker 1: the first time by another opponent? And I saw clips
Speaker 1: of things of talking shit yea, being like the bad
Speaker 1: person and throwing a fish thing, Like, is that just
Speaker 1: like what you're wanting to be? That persona like the
Speaker 1: bad guy? Like what is all that about?
Speaker 3: Miss me?
Speaker 2: So okay, yeah, so I guess I got to say
Speaker 2: that stuff.
Speaker 3: So okay.
Speaker 2: So for this fight, I had about a month and
Speaker 2: a half to train for this fight, and I.
Speaker 3: Because this time, had you been punched in the face
Speaker 3: or anything.
Speaker 2: I mean I've been a street fights.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and so like, but I like different, it's different, yes, yes,
Speaker 1: organized yes, no, never like that before.
Speaker 2: So you know, when I'm doing this, I'm like.
Speaker 3: Oh, you know, get punched face, let's go.
Speaker 2: Girl. When I would first start sparring before I was
Speaker 2: going to London, I got my ass whooped.
Speaker 1: And when I work out of a boxing gym and
Speaker 1: those people get worked on and I'm like, that's why
Speaker 1: I'm like, not for me.
Speaker 3: You know, I'll be the ring girl will be.
Speaker 1: Real cute, but not I know, girl, I tell you,
Speaker 1: I'm literally I'll drop my ass, will shit.
Speaker 2: But she's like, I'll be laughing out here while you're
Speaker 2: on the ground. And I.
Speaker 3: Love boxing.
Speaker 1: I guess for me, I'm just like, oh no, no, no, yeah, no,
Speaker 1: It's one of those Okay, absol.
Speaker 2: The only reason why it is a good sport for
Speaker 2: me is because I'm just I got that little craziness,
Speaker 2: I mean, that license ship.
Speaker 1: But that's what But that's where I think it works
Speaker 1: is because well, you've already seemed to me from afar
Speaker 1: not knowing, you've always seemed feisty. You've all kind of
Speaker 1: seen like in a sense lost, but you've always like
Speaker 1: kind of like just been like scrappy, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. So I feel like in those senses, like
Speaker 1: why it's good for fighting is because you're always on guard.
Speaker 1: Now replacing that with emotional things to like a physical
Speaker 1: task is why I think in the great like moving
Speaker 1: to where you are at, like in this journey in life,
Speaker 1: it's really good for you. It is redirecting that anger
Speaker 1: to those things totally. But I also and I don't know,
Speaker 1: and you know this is my two cents. I say,
Speaker 1: doctor Texas, I don't have a PhD at all, But
Speaker 1: I also think that if you haven't in place like
Speaker 1: you can only ignore certain things for so long, and
Speaker 1: therapy is really helpful in a lot of ways of
Speaker 1: knocking down walls even more then obviously we are our
Speaker 1: best person to be our teacher and you know, learning
Speaker 1: of things, but sometimes it takes people to get things
Speaker 1: into our deep inner sides of us to really go
Speaker 1: to the next level of healing and learning grace about
Speaker 1: yourself and like you've done a really great job of
Speaker 1: navigating through your life whatever. But I really think that
Speaker 1: you would benefit from having just someone who's an unbiased person,
Speaker 1: you know. I think that therapy becomes in different ways now.
Speaker 1: It's not something that you can have to like be accounting.
Speaker 1: There's life coaches, there's people that can like have outlets.
Speaker 1: But something that could really give grace to you is
Speaker 1: because I feel like there's a lot more unleashing that
Speaker 1: you need to do emotionally to shine in what you're
Speaker 1: meant to be. And that's why I think again I
Speaker 1: give you. I appreciate you sharing your story with me
Speaker 1: and you know the you know, private talk and also
Speaker 1: like being vulnerable like you are. Like I said, for me,
Speaker 1: I struggle with vulnerability. I'm very like a tough shot
Speaker 1: about things. But the last couple of years and the
Speaker 1: journey in life work that I've done, I've been working
Speaker 1: on my vulnerability and so I've always like show praise
Speaker 1: to people that do that because you do it so naturally,
Speaker 1: which I think that that is a really good guide
Speaker 1: to where your feeling can go. But there you need
Speaker 1: a little nudge to get there, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: And that's okay, you know, you get on your own time.
Speaker 1: But I think that you know, if you just feel
Speaker 1: you know, seen and heard in a safe space and
Speaker 1: knowing that what you know, your journey, what you went
Speaker 1: through and things like the bad parts is never your fault,
Speaker 1: nothing that you ever did. It's just you know, it
Speaker 1: needs a place to be redirect those emotions and feelings
Speaker 1: to positive things, to knowing that, you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: why those things happen in a positive grace.
Speaker 2: Yep, yep, right about that, you know what I'm I'm
Speaker 2: gonna listen to you on that.
Speaker 3: Doctor Taxis now has a lot of things.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna listen to you on that only because I've
Speaker 2: actually been having kind of like a yearning for something
Speaker 2: like that recently. I've been kind of, you know, doing
Speaker 2: everything on my own and I'm needing to give myself grace,
Speaker 2: more grace than I usually do.
Speaker 3: But that's what happens comes with really healing.
Speaker 1: Yea, And so you realize what grace means, what gratitude
Speaker 1: means total, and what you know, what you've crawled out
Speaker 1: of and giving yourself that you're you know, you know,
Speaker 1: a successful woman. Give yourself praise. You know people, you know,
Speaker 1: you have a platform that you can speak on from
Speaker 1: anything from boxing to whatever. You have supporters, You have
Speaker 1: people that love you that you look on, look in
Speaker 1: on you when you have problems with anything from the
Speaker 1: soap thing to men, to the business or whatever. You're
Speaker 1: going to mean, So to think the positive and those
Speaker 1: negative things, like you said before, it's changing those negatives
Speaker 1: to positive total. It's you know, the feelings that we
Speaker 1: have that are negative or things in our past that
Speaker 1: we've all had.
Speaker 3: Unfortunately, we have to like make those feelings.
Speaker 1: Something that are positive and know that you know at
Speaker 1: the time that may have worked for you, but it
Speaker 1: no longer serves you, So let it go.
Speaker 3: Yet I let that go.
Speaker 2: You go, you go.
Speaker 3: We're gonna play truth with Texas.
Speaker 1: This is my favorite part of the whole thing because
Speaker 1: they get a little naughtier.
Speaker 3: Okay, but all right. How it works is.
Speaker 1: We're going to go through four different types of questions.
Speaker 1: Can be naughty romantic and spicy and get to know
Speaker 1: you a little bit more intimately. All right, we're gonna
Speaker 1: start with spicy questions.
Speaker 3: Cool. Do you like dirty talk? I love it? Can
Speaker 3: you give us an example.
Speaker 2: Like I love when a guy calls me the little slut, Like, well,
Speaker 2: they're you know, like the way they're fucking me from behind,
Speaker 2: They're like, you're a little slut.
Speaker 3: Okay, okay, slut talk. You like to sluted out?
Speaker 2: Love to be a little slut.
Speaker 3: Have you ever thrown up during sex?
Speaker 2: No? Never, Maybe maybe one of the like like the
Speaker 2: deep throat challenges in Street swallowed it, But no, not
Speaker 2: like I don't think I've like maybe because a dick
Speaker 2: went too far down, but I think got thrown up
Speaker 2: like having.
Speaker 1: Sex, well normally, I think it more in the sense of,
Speaker 1: like if you're giving a blowjob and like you were,
Speaker 1: you know, getting throat fucked, and did you throw up?
Speaker 3: No throat champ Let's my girls, my girl, Let's get girl. Okay,
Speaker 3: all right.
Speaker 1: Have you ever broken up with somebody because they were
Speaker 1: bad and bad?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 3: Because I haven't yet.
Speaker 2: Yes.
Speaker 3: What's the craziest place you've ever had sex? Movie theater?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 3: Yes, yes?
Speaker 2: Okay, and that was risque. Okay, high school?
Speaker 3: Oh dirty floor, dirty on the floor.
Speaker 2: In the front because no one goes in the front.
Speaker 3: Dragon can't be able to see people in the front,
Speaker 3: and you're.
Speaker 2: No one's in there, but you can hear it. Oh man,
Speaker 2: I don't even remember.
Speaker 3: The Titanic maybe so right.
Speaker 1: Toys in the bedroom, I love them, you love them, okay,
Speaker 1: but you use that during with somebody else, Yeah, I
Speaker 1: mean they don't get jealousy. Person would get jealous because
Speaker 1: I'm all about the hatachi. But that's a personal like
Speaker 1: it's one on one time. My Tati's name is Bob.
Speaker 1: We had a relationship for many years.
Speaker 3: Like bringing up.
Speaker 2: When the dick is there, Well, I think I like
Speaker 2: to get both stimulated. Like I'm like, fuck you. If
Speaker 2: you're gonna come like that, I better come like that too.
Speaker 2: So when do you bring it out?
Speaker 3: Like what minute? Is it? Like right away?
Speaker 2: Up?
Speaker 3: Is it just laying in bed? So it's like the
Speaker 3: reasons like all time, No, this is like.
Speaker 2: We're still going and I want to get off again.
Speaker 3: You're like, what are you reaching for?
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah yeah, I'm like you're behind me, like just
Speaker 2: turn on, slide it underneath real quick. So you gonna know.
Speaker 1: See I'm a multiple comer though, Like I'm hearing about
Speaker 1: like seven times in a session for sure, and it's
Speaker 1: not even like you doesn't even have to be that long,
Speaker 1: Like I can make myself come. Yeah, but I feel
Speaker 1: like the hatachi for me is like after the fifth
Speaker 1: time and like cause it's a different kind of coming
Speaker 1: in second and like and you know you're the lady
Speaker 1: parts are already like you know it seems because you
Speaker 1: know you're coming in.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: So I feel like that because I'll even.
Speaker 1: Have sex and then as soon as they leave and
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, I need to go back to my
Speaker 1: head's touche just maybe two more times.
Speaker 2: Yea, yeah, okay, Well I was gonna say, like, Okay,
Speaker 2: I don't do it all the time. It's only like
Speaker 2: when I really really want to get off. I did
Speaker 2: have a guy that I was danty though, who literally
Speaker 2: wanted me to use it every time you're fucking and
Speaker 2: that's all you have to say over and over and over,
Speaker 2: and I was like, what the fuck.
Speaker 1: But I mean, it kind of gets like there's not
Speaker 1: a lot of space for both.
Speaker 2: There's not It's so baz.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's why I'm like, exactly, I imagine this and then.
Speaker 3: You know what I mean.
Speaker 2: It's a lot.
Speaker 3: Okay, okay, but the hatachi the only thing you bring
Speaker 3: into the bedroom.
Speaker 2: I'm not really going to bring another dick. No, no,
Speaker 2: I think that's.
Speaker 1: Would you do any ask plan on your man if
Speaker 1: he wanted it? As far as like toys.
Speaker 2: If he wanted it toys? No, no, he said, tell
Speaker 2: me what you wanted before you.
Speaker 3: Got a relationship with men like that?
Speaker 2: I think more.
Speaker 3: Now you know it's crazy.
Speaker 1: So we have I got to talk about this because
Speaker 1: so allegedly.
Speaker 3: Yes, hold on, how old are you?
Speaker 2: Thirty?
Speaker 3: Okay? How old is you're in a relationship currently? Yes,
Speaker 3: he's how old?
Speaker 2: Twenty three?
Speaker 3: Okay? Great, great question for you.
Speaker 1: All right, So allegedly, I don't know if you call
Speaker 1: them men boys, I don't really know at this point.
Speaker 1: But allegedly these men are out here sitting on women's faces.
Speaker 2: Why they're squatting on their faces? Why I need a picture?
Speaker 3: You have a twenty three old boyfriend, He's not squatting
Speaker 3: on your face.
Speaker 2: It's just a gen z thing.
Speaker 3: I think.
Speaker 1: I've been told by a female friend and also a
Speaker 1: male friend on different occasions like he got me in
Speaker 1: fun of by the younger people because they were talking
Speaker 1: about like, oh you don't do that, like oh, you're
Speaker 1: not cool, and he's like, I don't want any parts
Speaker 1: of me that is not cool.
Speaker 2: No.
Speaker 1: Then I had a girlfriend said that it happened to
Speaker 1: her in the backseat of a car, and the backseat
Speaker 1: of a car too, so.
Speaker 3: I was talking earlier.
Speaker 1: I was like, how is this something you talk about beforehand,
Speaker 1: like hey, I'm gonna sit on your face?
Speaker 3: Or like do you like you give it the a okay?
Speaker 2: Like it's like.
Speaker 3: Anal, like how do you know what the limits? And
Speaker 3: in someone your boyfriend?
Speaker 1: Right if like tonight you know this isn't live, but
Speaker 1: what if he if y'all are gonna like fuck?
Speaker 3: And he just started he squatted.
Speaker 2: Like this.
Speaker 1: He was you were sucking his dick, right he was
Speaker 1: standing up and then you just told them the sit
Speaker 1: on your face.
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, it sounds fun. Okay. I'm literally picturing in
Speaker 2: my head right now of the scenario of halving right
Speaker 2: now and he's like, yeah, I'm gonna start your face
Speaker 2: and be like, yeah, you want to sit on your face?
Speaker 2: And he's like, no, I want I want to sit
Speaker 2: on your face? What did you say my face?
Speaker 3: Fuck now so you'd say no now, so you're abort mission?
Speaker 2: Yes? What if I'm gonna get pink eye?
Speaker 1: What if he was laying on his back and he
Speaker 1: did the Jans Sport and he held both of his legs.
Speaker 2: Back Okay, I had I've had somebody see that that
Speaker 2: I see yeah, and I'm like it's we like it.
Speaker 3: Crosses a long How long did they hold their legs
Speaker 3: back in? Until a long time? Hold it before you
Speaker 3: actually put a tongue there, or like, how long do
Speaker 3: you like