WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.040 --> 00:00:14.199 Enogy, s cancel so high acts, sage, cancel it not 2 00:00:14.519 --> 00:00:17.600 sorry and energy? 3 00:00:19.320 --> 00:00:23.640 Oh what's that? A karmack has entered your life? Forget 4 00:00:23.920 --> 00:00:27.239 Christmas in July, it is Halloween in July. It is 5 00:00:27.320 --> 00:00:32.119 spooky season. In July, we have mercury retrograde. There's a 6 00:00:32.359 --> 00:00:34.799 ton of planets in retrograde right now. There is a 7 00:00:34.880 --> 00:00:40.159 lot of spooky, creepy energy that is peeking over right 8 00:00:40.359 --> 00:00:43.439 at us. But we know this is not to hurt us. 9 00:00:43.479 --> 00:00:46.600 This is not to harm us. A karmack entering the 10 00:00:46.719 --> 00:00:52.560 chat is all about our own evolution, our self, facing 11 00:00:53.640 --> 00:00:59.039 our wounds, our insecurities, and cleansing it so we can 12 00:00:59.159 --> 00:01:02.479 get the life that we've freaking dreamed of. Remember, things 13 00:01:02.520 --> 00:01:05.560 are not happening to you but for you. They're not 14 00:01:05.680 --> 00:01:08.760 happening to you but from you. Oh what a lovely 15 00:01:08.840 --> 00:01:13.120 world we see that we exist within. What's a positive bitches? 16 00:01:13.159 --> 00:01:15.000 How are you doing today? If you're hearing this episode, 17 00:01:15.040 --> 00:01:16.760 then you are meant to be here. So keep listening 18 00:01:17.439 --> 00:01:21.120 that Bitch's Positive Podcast. Sometimes we will laugh. Other times, baby, 19 00:01:21.200 --> 00:01:23.959 we're gonna cry, but we will always walk away feeling 20 00:01:24.000 --> 00:01:27.760 our most empowered, positive bitch self. That is babe in 21 00:01:27.840 --> 00:01:32.319 true connection with herself, himself or human self. On this podcast, 22 00:01:32.400 --> 00:01:34.599 we unbecome who we are not so we can fully 23 00:01:34.640 --> 00:01:37.920 step into exactly who we came here to be. I 24 00:01:38.000 --> 00:01:39.840 do want to remind you if you've not yet gotten 25 00:01:39.879 --> 00:01:41.599 your copy of Show Up as Her, be sure to 26 00:01:41.640 --> 00:01:43.959 get that link will be in the show notes. Follow 27 00:01:44.040 --> 00:01:47.000 me on Instagram at vibe witcc, and be sure to 28 00:01:47.079 --> 00:01:49.640 check out my work books and my courses to help 29 00:01:49.719 --> 00:01:53.519 you get to the next highest timeline. Today we're talking 30 00:01:53.560 --> 00:01:56.280 about karmic relationships. What are they? How do we move 31 00:01:56.359 --> 00:02:01.319 through them? Because who are they? Difficult? What is a 32 00:02:01.560 --> 00:02:07.159 karmaic relationship? Well, let me tell you it is one 33 00:02:07.879 --> 00:02:11.439 that is very intense and you're gonna feel an instant 34 00:02:11.520 --> 00:02:15.159 connection with this person. And I feel like it's really 35 00:02:15.319 --> 00:02:18.719 hard to talk about karmic relationships with people who don't 36 00:02:18.840 --> 00:02:22.439 use these terms and don't acknowledge past lifetimes because they're 37 00:02:22.520 --> 00:02:26.199 looking at you like Cci, this person treats you terribly, 38 00:02:26.599 --> 00:02:29.599 why would you allow them into your reality? Or Brad, 39 00:02:29.879 --> 00:02:33.120 she is so mean to you, she disrespects you all 40 00:02:33.159 --> 00:02:36.039 the time, and you keep letting her into your reality. 41 00:02:36.800 --> 00:02:40.199 People have to acknowledge the cosmic truth that this ain't 42 00:02:40.280 --> 00:02:43.800 any of our first rodeos. Okay, we have had past 43 00:02:44.240 --> 00:02:48.080 lifetimes where we weren't always perfect and we racked up 44 00:02:48.120 --> 00:02:52.120 some karma. So your soul and their soul will agree 45 00:02:52.240 --> 00:02:56.039 to incarnate at around the same time once again, to 46 00:02:56.199 --> 00:03:00.319 work out some kinks, to work out some trauma, to 47 00:03:00.439 --> 00:03:04.000 work out some karma. If you hurt someone in your 48 00:03:04.039 --> 00:03:06.759 past life, or they hurt you, they might come to 49 00:03:06.840 --> 00:03:09.319 you before you reincarnate and say, hey, let's get it 50 00:03:09.520 --> 00:03:12.360 right this time. The other day, I was in meditation, 51 00:03:12.599 --> 00:03:16.439 and I know everyone talks about planet Earth as being 52 00:03:16.599 --> 00:03:20.639 a school bitch. It's a battleground. That's what I saw. 53 00:03:20.759 --> 00:03:23.560 That's what Mother Mary showed me. It is a battleground. 54 00:03:23.759 --> 00:03:26.120 We come here not just for love, light rainbows. He 55 00:03:26.240 --> 00:03:29.479 he ha ha ha. No, we come here to work 56 00:03:29.560 --> 00:03:32.960 shit out, to work on the karma, to evolve, to 57 00:03:33.080 --> 00:03:36.680 heal the wounds. This isn't easy, This is emotional, This 58 00:03:36.879 --> 00:03:41.240 is intense. A karma relationship therefore, is something you're going 59 00:03:41.319 --> 00:03:45.960 to feel immediately. It's an intense, instant connection, a feeling 60 00:03:46.080 --> 00:03:49.000 like you've known this person forever, and this is a 61 00:03:49.120 --> 00:03:51.800 sole agreement you have from a past lifetime. I just 62 00:03:51.879 --> 00:03:55.319 want to validate and acknowledge. If there is someone that 63 00:03:55.639 --> 00:03:57.639 you feel like, I just can't cut them out of 64 00:03:57.719 --> 00:03:59.840 my life. This is so intense. I'm having ups and 65 00:04:00.280 --> 00:04:02.840 I don't even understand why I like them. That most 66 00:04:03.000 --> 00:04:06.680 likely is a karmic relationship. You're not crazy, but you 67 00:04:06.840 --> 00:04:11.000 are being initiated into your soul's mission and in order 68 00:04:11.159 --> 00:04:14.639 to ascend, in order to evolve, you can't keep taking 69 00:04:14.759 --> 00:04:17.519 around all the negativity from your past lifetimes. You can't 70 00:04:17.600 --> 00:04:20.319 keep taking all the negativity from your childhood. You can't 71 00:04:20.439 --> 00:04:24.360 keep taking all this negativity from your past encounters. You 72 00:04:24.759 --> 00:04:27.319 have to release it. And what's the best way to 73 00:04:27.399 --> 00:04:31.040 release some emotion? To release some karma? Having a three 74 00:04:31.199 --> 00:04:34.920 D human trigger you bringing up all these negative emotions 75 00:04:35.079 --> 00:04:37.480 so you can let go of them. A lot of 76 00:04:37.600 --> 00:04:41.360 these karmic relationships are emotionally charged, and they can swing 77 00:04:41.480 --> 00:04:46.279 from really euphoric feelings to really painful lows. The reason 78 00:04:46.319 --> 00:04:49.879 I'm even talking about this is because I recently had 79 00:04:50.000 --> 00:04:56.759 a connection that was with a karmic person and I 80 00:04:57.199 --> 00:05:03.879 just acknowledge the safe gridness of it, and it honestly 81 00:05:04.079 --> 00:05:10.800 was quite painful, but it also was really beautiful, and 82 00:05:11.800 --> 00:05:16.399 it is worth talking about because if I experienced this 83 00:05:16.480 --> 00:05:18.680 and I thought it was difficult, I'm sure there's a 84 00:05:18.720 --> 00:05:21.560 lot of us out there who are dealing with similar 85 00:05:21.800 --> 00:05:26.120 connections or similar difficulties. It feels so intense and familiar 86 00:05:26.199 --> 00:05:29.040 because this soul is familiar. Even if this person is 87 00:05:29.079 --> 00:05:32.319 a stranger, on a soul level, you do recognize them, 88 00:05:32.639 --> 00:05:36.279 You do know them. You might be experiencing an immediate 89 00:05:36.480 --> 00:05:38.839 knowing or a feeling that this person is a mirror 90 00:05:39.000 --> 00:05:42.600 of unresolved aspects of yourself that is eventually going to 91 00:05:42.639 --> 00:05:45.800 be a catalyst for your growth. A lot of these 92 00:05:45.920 --> 00:05:50.240 relationships resurrect old wounds or karmic debt, and we might 93 00:05:50.360 --> 00:05:53.720 feel that when we get into relation with this person 94 00:05:54.360 --> 00:05:57.720 there are old identities that come back up, old insecurities 95 00:05:57.800 --> 00:06:00.879 that come back up, old patterns that come back up. 96 00:06:01.240 --> 00:06:04.319 When I was in connection with this person, I felt 97 00:06:04.399 --> 00:06:08.920 myself revisiting older identities. I felt myself go back to 98 00:06:09.000 --> 00:06:11.680 that place where I was really anxious all of the time. 99 00:06:12.240 --> 00:06:15.120 I felt myself going back into an energy that honestly 100 00:06:15.639 --> 00:06:18.800 I haven't felt in so long and really didn't recognize 101 00:06:18.839 --> 00:06:22.199 it's just not me anymore at this point, I've healed 102 00:06:22.279 --> 00:06:26.560 so much that I feel really free and surrendered and fun, 103 00:06:26.680 --> 00:06:32.720 loving and magnetic. But this connection really did trigger a 104 00:06:32.879 --> 00:06:35.639 lot of older stuff, and I know I triggered him 105 00:06:35.680 --> 00:06:39.160 as well, because we would talk about it. We would 106 00:06:39.199 --> 00:06:42.439 tell each other, we would acknowledge that we were triggering 107 00:06:42.480 --> 00:06:46.199 one another's shadows as much as we loved each other's lights. 108 00:06:46.439 --> 00:06:51.399 It just there was things to work out, and yeah, 109 00:06:51.399 --> 00:06:54.920 I'm trying to talk about disrespectfully so and it's still 110 00:06:55.120 --> 00:07:01.959 a little like raw. So we're gonna get through this. 111 00:07:05.160 --> 00:07:11.720 You might feel like there's constant drama or repeated cycles 112 00:07:11.720 --> 00:07:15.000 addictive push pull energy, or maybe you feel like you 113 00:07:15.079 --> 00:07:17.600 can't live without them, all of this intensity when you 114 00:07:17.720 --> 00:07:20.680 actually don't even know this human. That is usually a 115 00:07:20.759 --> 00:07:23.879 telltale sign that this is karmic. This is bringing up 116 00:07:23.920 --> 00:07:29.319 past patterns, and this is something to recognize, something to acknowledge. 117 00:07:29.639 --> 00:07:32.480 When I was getting into this connection, there were so 118 00:07:32.920 --> 00:07:36.800 many synchronicities, and I think a lot of us see 119 00:07:36.920 --> 00:07:40.560 synchronicity and we assume, oh, there's so much synchronicity around 120 00:07:40.639 --> 00:07:43.439 this person. They must be my husband, or they must 121 00:07:43.879 --> 00:07:47.879 be my great love story. But synchronicity is aren't really 122 00:07:47.920 --> 00:07:52.040 about other people. They're about you. The closer you get 123 00:07:52.120 --> 00:07:55.160 to your soul mission, the more in alignment you are 124 00:07:55.399 --> 00:07:59.079 with yourself, the more synchronicity you're going to see because 125 00:07:59.120 --> 00:08:02.040 the universe is trying to confirm to you you're on 126 00:08:02.199 --> 00:08:07.040 the right path. The point of a karmat connection isn't 127 00:08:07.079 --> 00:08:10.920 about the other person. This is about your own inner growth. 128 00:08:11.040 --> 00:08:15.439 The synchronicities are not about them. They're about you, About 129 00:08:15.600 --> 00:08:18.480 you stepping into the next evolution of yourself, about you 130 00:08:18.680 --> 00:08:21.920 stepping into this next portal of self, about you clearing 131 00:08:22.040 --> 00:08:28.319 old wounds, old patterns, old repetitive cycles. In these sort 132 00:08:28.360 --> 00:08:32.519 of relationships, it does feel like one big giant test, 133 00:08:33.080 --> 00:08:35.639 But I really like to see it as you're being 134 00:08:35.840 --> 00:08:39.120 trained to break out of who you've been and you're 135 00:08:39.159 --> 00:08:43.159 being trained to stay in your power. This recent relationship 136 00:08:43.440 --> 00:08:46.960 constantly was testing me. Can I stand up for myself? 137 00:08:47.080 --> 00:08:50.039 Can I use my voice? Can I speak my boundary? 138 00:08:50.159 --> 00:08:52.559 Can I choose myself? Or am I going to go 139 00:08:52.679 --> 00:08:55.240 back to the old version of me that had anxious attachment, 140 00:08:55.559 --> 00:08:59.039 codependency and abandonment problems? Who am I going to show 141 00:08:59.080 --> 00:09:02.240 up as? What am I going to do? And every 142 00:09:02.320 --> 00:09:04.840 single time we got into an argument. Something was wrong, 143 00:09:05.879 --> 00:09:09.080 whatever it may be. I was so proud of myself 144 00:09:09.159 --> 00:09:12.960 because I was literally shaking, crying sometimes, but I was 145 00:09:13.000 --> 00:09:15.320 still speaking up for myself. I was still saying, no, 146 00:09:15.559 --> 00:09:17.720 this is not okay. You can't speak to me like that. 147 00:09:17.919 --> 00:09:20.039 You can't do that to me. This is not going 148 00:09:20.120 --> 00:09:24.720 to work. And ultimately this person apologized to me a 149 00:09:24.799 --> 00:09:27.960 bunch of times, but in apology without changed behavior is 150 00:09:28.080 --> 00:09:31.039 just manipulation and that doesn't work for me. And I 151 00:09:31.200 --> 00:09:34.200 have to say, this is such a learning experience for 152 00:09:34.320 --> 00:09:36.440 me because I would hear stories, whether it be from 153 00:09:36.440 --> 00:09:39.000 my clients or my friends or my family, and they 154 00:09:39.039 --> 00:09:41.919 would tell me about things that would happen to them 155 00:09:41.960 --> 00:09:44.480 in relationship, and I would think, how did it get 156 00:09:44.600 --> 00:09:47.360 so bad? How did it get so far where you 157 00:09:47.480 --> 00:09:50.879 are so controlled? I get it now, because there are 158 00:09:51.000 --> 00:09:54.639 certain connections or humans on this planet that will microdose 159 00:09:54.759 --> 00:09:59.159 control and you will be in your own head and 160 00:09:59.279 --> 00:10:02.480 you will be q yourself. You will end up gaslighting yourself. 161 00:10:02.799 --> 00:10:05.200 I get it now. So I really value this experience 162 00:10:05.279 --> 00:10:07.919 and what it has taught me. And I don't blame 163 00:10:08.039 --> 00:10:10.759 anyone because I know this is just two people who 164 00:10:10.799 --> 00:10:13.320 are clearing out karma, and that is all that I'm 165 00:10:13.399 --> 00:10:20.399 going to ascribe there. You have to be so grounded 166 00:10:20.879 --> 00:10:25.000 and so aware of how you're being treated, because I 167 00:10:25.240 --> 00:10:28.600 have seen relationships go from oh, he's just protecting me 168 00:10:28.759 --> 00:10:32.559 to actually, I am his possession. And there is a 169 00:10:32.720 --> 00:10:36.279 huge difference between someone protecting you versus someone wanting to 170 00:10:36.440 --> 00:10:40.519 possess you. And as women, we have this cosmic womb, 171 00:10:40.840 --> 00:10:43.799 we have this divine, feminine energy. And we've talked about 172 00:10:43.919 --> 00:10:47.720 energy harvesters, and we know about energy harvesters, and one 173 00:10:47.799 --> 00:10:51.279 way someone can harvest your energy is by possessing you. 174 00:10:51.679 --> 00:10:54.320 It starts out with you know, it would really mean 175 00:10:54.360 --> 00:10:56.480 a lot to me if you could not wear that, 176 00:10:57.080 --> 00:10:59.639 and then eventually it's I'm telling you what to wear, 177 00:10:59.840 --> 00:11:03.440 I'm picking it out for you. Eventually it's you can't 178 00:11:03.480 --> 00:11:06.000 go out with that friend. You're not allowed to do this, 179 00:11:06.480 --> 00:11:10.399 You're not allowed to do that. It starts out small, 180 00:11:11.120 --> 00:11:14.320 and what happens is those microdoses get bigger and bigger 181 00:11:14.360 --> 00:11:15.879 and bigger, and then you're in love with that person 182 00:11:15.960 --> 00:11:17.360 and you do think they want the best for you, 183 00:11:17.440 --> 00:11:20.480 and you're gaslighting yourself. And I've seen this happen over 184 00:11:20.559 --> 00:11:23.840 and over and over again. And thank God I'm grounded 185 00:11:23.919 --> 00:11:26.360 in myself and have amazing women around me, and have 186 00:11:26.559 --> 00:11:29.240 teachers and coaches and healers that I go to myself 187 00:11:29.720 --> 00:11:31.919 and that I have God to pray too to give 188 00:11:31.960 --> 00:11:35.080 me clarity and discernment, because I can see how these 189 00:11:35.159 --> 00:11:39.159 Karmax cycles will get you there. If you feel like 190 00:11:39.200 --> 00:11:44.600 you're constantly being tested, take a seat, take a breath. 191 00:11:45.360 --> 00:11:49.360 Ask yourself. What am I being invited to show up as? 192 00:11:50.679 --> 00:11:54.039 Is this in alignment with me? Does this feel right 193 00:11:54.120 --> 00:11:55.840 to me? I was breaking out in hives, and as 194 00:11:55.879 --> 00:11:59.440 soon as that happens, I know something's wrong. This person 195 00:11:59.559 --> 00:12:02.960 is triggering my sympathetic nervous system. There is no way 196 00:12:03.000 --> 00:12:04.600 that I feel safe in this. There's no way I 197 00:12:04.639 --> 00:12:06.879 feel comfortable. There is no way that I feel good 198 00:12:06.960 --> 00:12:10.320 right now. If my body's breaking out in hives and 199 00:12:10.440 --> 00:12:13.039 I'm not feeling like I'm being seen and heard, something 200 00:12:13.159 --> 00:12:17.519 is fundamentally wrong. And as divine feminine energies, we need 201 00:12:17.600 --> 00:12:22.600 to feel safety, and masculine energies are supposed to be 202 00:12:22.679 --> 00:12:25.440 when they're healed. The creator of a safe space for 203 00:12:25.559 --> 00:12:27.879 you to show up in, not the thing that's triggering you. 204 00:12:28.039 --> 00:12:31.360 Constantly telling you that you're bad and wrong. Remember, no 205 00:12:31.519 --> 00:12:34.799 manage your friend, no manage your enemy. Every single manager 206 00:12:34.919 --> 00:12:37.799 portal we have to be telling ourselves while we're on 207 00:12:37.879 --> 00:12:41.039 the path to divine union, because there will be karmic 208 00:12:41.120 --> 00:12:43.399 people that come in, there will be counterfeit energies that 209 00:12:43.480 --> 00:12:46.440 come in. We have to consistently remind ourselves if it's 210 00:12:46.519 --> 00:12:49.519 them great and if it's not great, because ultimately I 211 00:12:49.759 --> 00:12:53.279 know what's mine will be mine. I know ultimately what's 212 00:12:53.320 --> 00:12:55.720 meant to be will be. I know God is not 213 00:12:55.799 --> 00:12:57.840 going to pull the rug from out underneath me. I 214 00:12:58.000 --> 00:13:01.000 know God is not gonna hurt me. No, Divinity has 215 00:13:01.080 --> 00:13:03.360 my back. So if it's them great, then it's meant 216 00:13:03.399 --> 00:13:04.840 to be, and if it's not great, it will be 217 00:13:05.039 --> 00:13:09.480 someone more in alignment with me. Do not get attached 218 00:13:09.519 --> 00:13:11.360 and trust me. I know I'm such a lover girl. 219 00:13:11.440 --> 00:13:13.720 I love to be attached to everyone and anything. But 220 00:13:13.840 --> 00:13:16.279 do not get attach to these people that you're just 221 00:13:16.440 --> 00:13:19.360 dating because you don't know yet if their karma at 222 00:13:19.360 --> 00:13:21.600 their counterfeit. You don't know. You have to give yourself 223 00:13:21.679 --> 00:13:24.559 time to see. And that's why taking it slow is 224 00:13:24.600 --> 00:13:27.559 such a gift to yourself and them. The truth will 225 00:13:27.600 --> 00:13:29.519 always float to the top, it will always come out 226 00:13:29.559 --> 00:13:31.480 in the end, but you need to give yourself time 227 00:13:31.879 --> 00:13:35.559 to see is this karmic? Is this counterfeit? And a 228 00:13:35.639 --> 00:13:38.679 karmic connection is a type of soulmate. They are coming 229 00:13:38.720 --> 00:13:40.840 into your life to trigger you. They are coming into 230 00:13:40.879 --> 00:13:42.759 your life to show you your own wounds. They are 231 00:13:42.840 --> 00:13:44.879 coming into your life to show you where you still 232 00:13:44.960 --> 00:13:47.799 need to grow. So it's not that we hate their 233 00:13:47.879 --> 00:13:51.360 human self, it's not that we blame them. Let's acknowledge 234 00:13:51.440 --> 00:13:53.799 these connections for what they are. Because I see people 235 00:13:53.840 --> 00:13:57.440 going absolutely insane because they feel so intensely, but no 236 00:13:57.519 --> 00:14:00.399 one's validating them. I hear you, I I see you. 237 00:14:00.559 --> 00:14:03.720 I'm validating you. I believe you. I believe you feel 238 00:14:03.759 --> 00:14:06.240 so intensely. I believe you have past lives with this person. 239 00:14:06.360 --> 00:14:09.039 I believe that they are triggering you, that you're confused. 240 00:14:09.320 --> 00:14:10.879 I believe it. But you know what else, I know 241 00:14:12.039 --> 00:14:14.440 just because someone is a karma connection with you, just 242 00:14:14.480 --> 00:14:16.720 because you've had past lives with them, it doesn't mean anything. 243 00:14:17.360 --> 00:14:19.559 It doesn't mean they're meant to stay. They might have 244 00:14:19.679 --> 00:14:22.440 been meant to arrive, but it does not mean that 245 00:14:22.519 --> 00:14:24.639 they are meant to stay in your life. They are 246 00:14:24.679 --> 00:14:27.840 your catalyst, they are your activator. They are meant to 247 00:14:27.919 --> 00:14:30.600 come in show you where you're still hurting. You're meant 248 00:14:30.679 --> 00:14:34.120 to take those lessons, and then you're meant to move on. Period. 249 00:14:34.519 --> 00:14:36.919 If you end up realigning later down the line because 250 00:14:36.960 --> 00:14:38.840 you both heal, then you want to do that, Go 251 00:14:39.039 --> 00:14:42.120 do it, but acknowledge people for what they are. When 252 00:14:42.159 --> 00:14:44.759 we feel an intense connection with someone, we get so excited. 253 00:14:44.759 --> 00:14:46.279 We're like, I don't feel it's with that every day 254 00:14:46.519 --> 00:14:48.720 Joe Schmoe. So we just want to jump in. We 255 00:14:48.879 --> 00:14:51.080 just want to marry them. We just want to get 256 00:14:51.120 --> 00:14:52.879 into this and we want it to be fast. No, 257 00:14:53.639 --> 00:14:57.159 you're allowed to feel intensely for someone. It might be karmic, 258 00:14:57.480 --> 00:15:00.200 it might be a catalyst, it might be whatever they are, 259 00:15:00.360 --> 00:15:02.799 maybe a soulmate, but it doesn't mean they're meant to 260 00:15:02.840 --> 00:15:06.080 stay forever. It doesn't mean they're meant to stay forever. 261 00:15:06.240 --> 00:15:10.200 And I know, I know it's hard. I know it's hard. 262 00:15:10.320 --> 00:15:12.159 I feel it. I feel it with you. I can 263 00:15:12.240 --> 00:15:14.919 cry right now, I really do feel it. This is 264 00:15:15.159 --> 00:15:21.200 not easy. It's not easy to see who someone could be, 265 00:15:23.320 --> 00:15:25.960 but then they're showing up in ways that are hurting 266 00:15:26.039 --> 00:15:30.039 you consistently, repeatedly. It's not easy to hear them say 267 00:15:30.200 --> 00:15:32.440 I'm so sorry, I won't do that anymore, and then 268 00:15:32.480 --> 00:15:34.960 they do it again. It's not easy to get into 269 00:15:35.120 --> 00:15:37.480 a disagreement and then they're blaming you for something that 270 00:15:37.519 --> 00:15:41.639 you didn't even do. It's not easy. But we did 271 00:15:41.720 --> 00:15:46.039 not come here just for easy, No, we didn't. We 272 00:15:46.200 --> 00:15:48.360 came here to evolve, but we came here to grow. 273 00:15:48.480 --> 00:15:51.000 We came here to build the life that we want. 274 00:15:51.080 --> 00:15:53.559 We came here to learn how to manipulate energy, to 275 00:15:54.080 --> 00:15:57.720 recognize ourselves as being one with God and being a creator. 276 00:15:58.720 --> 00:16:05.240 And I I'm so thankful. I am so thankful for 277 00:16:05.519 --> 00:16:10.039 every single person who has broke my heart and suspithered reads, 278 00:16:10.200 --> 00:16:12.919 who has disappointed me, who has stabbed me in the back, 279 00:16:12.960 --> 00:16:18.840 who has left my life. I am so thankful because 280 00:16:18.960 --> 00:16:25.279 they have every single time gifted me remembrance of my 281 00:16:25.440 --> 00:16:30.080 own divinity, remembrance of my connection with God, and remembrance 282 00:16:30.200 --> 00:16:32.879 of my mission that I came onto this planet to do. 283 00:16:34.440 --> 00:16:39.000 And I'm so thankful that even if they want to 284 00:16:39.039 --> 00:16:44.000 blame me for whatever reality they've constructed in their own mind, 285 00:16:44.840 --> 00:16:46.600 if they want to hate me. If they want me 286 00:16:46.679 --> 00:16:51.399 to be the villain, that's okay with me. Excuse my snifflings. 287 00:16:51.440 --> 00:16:54.879 I'm having ascension symptoms. I'm like going through it right now. 288 00:16:57.279 --> 00:17:02.120 I knew not to wear ascaret today. I knew it. 289 00:17:03.080 --> 00:17:11.680 I refuse. I refuse to be anything other than what 290 00:17:11.799 --> 00:17:16.279 I am, which is someone who just leads with love. 291 00:17:18.039 --> 00:17:21.720 I refuse to become a black cat. I refuse to 292 00:17:21.799 --> 00:17:26.960 be a cold, chill girl. I refuse to change now. 293 00:17:29.400 --> 00:17:35.279 It's not easy to have this connection. To see the 294 00:17:35.319 --> 00:17:39.839 synchronicity is to have love for someone who just can't 295 00:17:40.279 --> 00:17:45.319 treat you well or meet your needs. It's not easy, 296 00:17:45.519 --> 00:17:49.799 but we didn't come here for that. You didn't come 297 00:17:49.880 --> 00:17:52.680 here for mediocrity. You didn't come here for average. You 298 00:17:52.720 --> 00:17:55.480 didn't come here to beg someone to see you, to 299 00:17:55.640 --> 00:17:58.839 get you, to treat you how you needed to be treated. 300 00:18:01.480 --> 00:18:04.000 And if you stay in these connections, and I'm here 301 00:18:04.079 --> 00:18:07.640 with you, I acknowledge this shit is not easy. But 302 00:18:07.799 --> 00:18:10.400 if you stay in these connections, they're gonna eat you 303 00:18:10.799 --> 00:18:14.200 from the inside out. I think it's important that we 304 00:18:14.359 --> 00:18:18.200 acknowledge that this does feel intense. I think it's important 305 00:18:18.240 --> 00:18:20.720 we acknowledge you have love for them, even if you 306 00:18:20.799 --> 00:18:23.359 don't like how they treat you. There is that familiarity. 307 00:18:23.720 --> 00:18:26.000 If you try to lie to yourself, you're gonna go crazy. 308 00:18:26.480 --> 00:18:29.240 Acknowledge what your truth is, the good, the bad, and 309 00:18:29.319 --> 00:18:33.480 the ugly. You can't acknowledge. This is hard, this is overwhelming. 310 00:18:33.559 --> 00:18:36.519 I'm feeling a lot of different things, but I know 311 00:18:36.680 --> 00:18:41.680 I have to choose myself. I know I can't be devalued. 312 00:18:42.119 --> 00:18:46.599 I know I can't accept treatment that is manipulative. I 313 00:18:46.759 --> 00:18:51.200 know I can't sit here and not be met emotionally 314 00:18:51.480 --> 00:18:54.880 and just do emotional labor for someone else. I know 315 00:18:55.079 --> 00:18:58.720 I know that I can't be sitting here having hives 316 00:18:58.759 --> 00:19:03.279 every day. I know it's hard, but you can do this. 317 00:19:03.480 --> 00:19:09.839 You're capable of hard. I really encourage that you have 318 00:19:10.160 --> 00:19:13.359 a list on your phone or a pen and paper, 319 00:19:13.599 --> 00:19:17.279 and you're jotting down the red flags the things that 320 00:19:17.359 --> 00:19:20.400 you're seeing, because you need to hold yourself accountable. It's 321 00:19:20.440 --> 00:19:22.880 so easy to get lost in the sauce, put the 322 00:19:23.000 --> 00:19:25.000 romance goggles on and be like they're great. We have 323 00:19:25.079 --> 00:19:27.240 past life connections. And I don't feel this with just everyone, 324 00:19:27.319 --> 00:19:29.400 but I'm feeling it with them. It doesn't matter if 325 00:19:29.400 --> 00:19:31.000 you have a past life connection, that doesn't mean they're 326 00:19:31.039 --> 00:19:32.720 treating your right. It doesn't mean they're meant to be yours. 327 00:19:32.759 --> 00:19:34.480 It just means you have a past life connection. Don't 328 00:19:34.519 --> 00:19:37.279 make it something it's not. You can acknowledge this is 329 00:19:37.319 --> 00:19:41.000 something more than just another Joe Schmoe, but don't make 330 00:19:41.039 --> 00:19:44.359 it into something it's not. Watch the meaning that you're 331 00:19:44.480 --> 00:19:48.680 ascribing that you are labeling to connections to people, Because 332 00:19:48.680 --> 00:19:52.000 if you tell yourself, well, it's so familiar, this must 333 00:19:52.079 --> 00:19:54.039 mean that we're meant to be together forever, then you're 334 00:19:54.039 --> 00:19:57.559 gonna have a really hard time protecting yourself. For me, 335 00:19:58.079 --> 00:20:01.119 I know, as a lover girl, I I have to 336 00:20:01.400 --> 00:20:05.480 really protect myself. I have to really protect that like 337 00:20:06.440 --> 00:20:10.319 very precious, like innocent thing that I have within me 338 00:20:11.200 --> 00:20:15.160 because I know myself, and if you don't know yourself, 339 00:20:15.440 --> 00:20:19.759 I mean, good fuck out there. I know myself. I 340 00:20:20.000 --> 00:20:23.799 am sensitive. I want to lead with love. When someone's hurting, 341 00:20:24.039 --> 00:20:25.880 I don't want them to hurt. I want to help them. 342 00:20:26.319 --> 00:20:29.000 But there comes a time where you have to realize 343 00:20:30.079 --> 00:20:35.480 if someone's not really showing up for you, you can't 344 00:20:35.640 --> 00:20:41.920 sacrifice yourself. You're not the sacrifice, you're the altar. You're 345 00:20:41.960 --> 00:20:43.880 not the gas station, You're not meant to be used 346 00:20:43.880 --> 00:20:46.279 by everyone. You're the gateway. I think we don't want 347 00:20:46.319 --> 00:20:49.160 to hear this. But sometimes the lesson is to walk away. 348 00:20:49.319 --> 00:20:53.279 Sometimes the lesson is to choose yourself. Sometimes the lesson is, damn, 349 00:20:53.480 --> 00:20:58.200 I really need to recognize my own value because what 350 00:20:58.640 --> 00:21:01.279 am I doing? What am I doing in these places? 351 00:21:02.359 --> 00:21:06.279 And you know, in this relationship, I have to be honest. 352 00:21:06.559 --> 00:21:11.319 Like I got scared, not even for myself maybe for 353 00:21:11.400 --> 00:21:12.240 a second, but I. 354 00:21:12.480 --> 00:21:19.039 Got scared for everyone else because if I knowing everything 355 00:21:19.160 --> 00:21:22.759 I know, being so connected and having I have a 356 00:21:22.799 --> 00:21:25.480 support system in place, if I could be at times 357 00:21:25.559 --> 00:21:27.839 emotionally manipulated. 358 00:21:28.240 --> 00:21:32.359 Oh my god, what is happening to people who don't 359 00:21:32.440 --> 00:21:36.279 know this information? And I really think I'm gonna have 360 00:21:36.400 --> 00:21:41.559 to eventually talk more about signs and what this might 361 00:21:41.640 --> 00:21:44.400 look like, because I even have a friend who went 362 00:21:44.480 --> 00:21:48.000 through something really traumatic and I didn't at first understand 363 00:21:48.039 --> 00:21:49.759 how it could get so bad, and I see it, 364 00:21:50.759 --> 00:21:54.079 I see how it could get there. I understand it. 365 00:21:54.759 --> 00:21:56.680 I just want you to know if you're going through 366 00:21:57.039 --> 00:21:59.880 something that you do have a support system. I'm here 367 00:22:00.119 --> 00:22:02.359 for you. There are other people that are here for you. 368 00:22:02.480 --> 00:22:05.920 You can find coaches, you can find healers and helpers, 369 00:22:06.000 --> 00:22:09.599 and you're not alone. And if you think there's something wrong, 370 00:22:09.720 --> 00:22:14.319 there's probably something wrong. Do not ignore your intuition. Do 371 00:22:14.559 --> 00:22:18.240 not ignore your body. Your body's wisdom is everything. It 372 00:22:18.440 --> 00:22:21.640 knows things before you can consciously unpack it. It knows 373 00:22:21.720 --> 00:22:25.240 things before you can consciously understand and connect all the dots. 374 00:22:25.640 --> 00:22:29.640 You have to listen to your body. And I know 375 00:22:29.680 --> 00:22:32.359 I'm crying so much, but I'm crying for so many 376 00:22:32.440 --> 00:22:36.039 different reasons. I'm crying because a part of me is 377 00:22:36.960 --> 00:22:40.200 ub leveling and cleansing past behavior and patterns. And I'm 378 00:22:40.240 --> 00:22:43.000 crying because there's some past life energies that are falling 379 00:22:43.039 --> 00:22:47.039 off of me right now. And I'm crying because I 380 00:22:47.200 --> 00:22:51.559 feel I want to protect other women or men who 381 00:22:51.720 --> 00:22:58.799 could fall into these traps, because it is truly like 382 00:22:59.079 --> 00:23:03.359 a honeytrap, connections that feel so sweet like honey, but 383 00:23:03.720 --> 00:23:07.119 these people sting you like a bee, and you have 384 00:23:07.319 --> 00:23:10.440 to be so careful. And I think in today's age, 385 00:23:10.480 --> 00:23:15.200 with hookup culture and data apps, we aren't careful. I 386 00:23:15.319 --> 00:23:18.920 don't think we are valuing ourselves anymore. And it makes 387 00:23:19.000 --> 00:23:25.240 me upset. I am upset about it. And I know 388 00:23:25.319 --> 00:23:27.279 there's so many healers and coaches and they're all so 389 00:23:27.519 --> 00:23:31.400 neutral about everything. I'm not neutral, Okay, I am not neutral. 390 00:23:31.480 --> 00:23:33.559 I have a lot of opinions and a lot of thoughts, 391 00:23:33.599 --> 00:23:39.559 and I'm feeling a lot of things right now. My 392 00:23:39.720 --> 00:23:43.759 wish might hold my desire in like my heart. Oh 393 00:23:43.839 --> 00:23:48.160 my god, I need to calm down a little, though cheesus. Okay, lord, 394 00:23:51.559 --> 00:23:54.160 My desire is that you walk away from today with 395 00:23:54.720 --> 00:23:58.079 valuing yourself one percent more. Please, for the love of God, 396 00:23:58.200 --> 00:24:02.279 do this. You have to value yourself because there will 397 00:24:02.319 --> 00:24:06.720 be carbon connections, counterfeits, there will just be straight demonic entities. 398 00:24:07.160 --> 00:24:10.160 You have to protect yourself. And I'm so thankful because 399 00:24:10.160 --> 00:24:11.799 I had the support and I know what, I know 400 00:24:11.960 --> 00:24:13.960 that I was able to protect myself in ways that 401 00:24:14.000 --> 00:24:16.680