WEBVTT 1 00:00:05.400 --> 00:00:07.280 The weird things happened in the backyard. 2 00:00:07.480 --> 00:00:25.399 Let them around the weird, weird, weird. 3 00:00:26.440 --> 00:00:29.320 Welcome, one and all to the the Alex Report. Alex Go. 4 00:00:30.640 --> 00:00:35.159 Welcome everybody, and welcome for our report today. We're reporting 5 00:00:35.200 --> 00:00:38.560 on the things that are happening currently. 6 00:00:38.920 --> 00:00:41.000 All around and I'm welcome to you here. 7 00:00:43.920 --> 00:00:46.200 And wait is the Alex Report. 8 00:00:46.280 --> 00:00:49.320 Well, there's things happening all around all over, so first 9 00:00:49.399 --> 00:00:54.719 we have to determine where they're happening and what it 10 00:00:54.799 --> 00:00:58.320 is that's going on. So for this episode of the 11 00:00:58.359 --> 00:01:04.159 Alex Report, we're here in the studio reporting on bloods. 12 00:01:04.159 --> 00:01:06.599 Have said, so so welcome. 13 00:01:06.840 --> 00:01:09.359 That was your opportunity. That could have been the funniest 14 00:01:09.400 --> 00:01:13.879 way to introduce that I'm leaving the show. But if 15 00:01:13.920 --> 00:01:16.120 you if you had just been like, if you had 16 00:01:16.159 --> 00:01:18.319 been like today, we're here to report that Nick is 17 00:01:18.400 --> 00:01:18.959 leaving the show. 18 00:01:19.000 --> 00:01:20.920 I didn't. I didn't feel like it was my placement. 19 00:01:21.200 --> 00:01:22.599 Did the thought cross your mind? 20 00:01:22.680 --> 00:01:22.959 It did? 21 00:01:23.120 --> 00:01:23.680 You should have? 22 00:01:23.959 --> 00:01:27.000 It did? And I was like, not my news. 23 00:01:27.239 --> 00:01:30.280 Man, Okay, it's okay. I forgive you and thank you 24 00:01:30.319 --> 00:01:33.159 for being considerate you like the way I started it 25 00:01:33.280 --> 00:01:35.359 or not? I did, And you know, I wanted to 26 00:01:35.359 --> 00:01:38.879 be recognized. That as my final request for being on 27 00:01:38.920 --> 00:01:41.319 the show, I requested that Alex start it with an 28 00:01:41.319 --> 00:01:44.879 Alex report. You know, I honestly did, and you honored 29 00:01:44.879 --> 00:01:45.439 my request. 30 00:01:45.879 --> 00:01:47.799 Is that the first time he ever started an episode? 31 00:01:48.280 --> 00:01:49.040 No, no, it can't. 32 00:01:49.040 --> 00:01:49.319 It's not. 33 00:01:49.640 --> 00:01:49.959 No. 34 00:01:49.959 --> 00:01:52.840 No, I did back at the apartment for maybe dragons. 35 00:01:53.359 --> 00:01:54.879 Yeah, you had. 36 00:01:54.920 --> 00:01:59.120 It's just hard to remember what number was dragons. Oh. 37 00:01:59.200 --> 00:02:06.640 I was gonna ask, Okay, remember you have a you 38 00:02:06.680 --> 00:02:10.439 have a grace margin. Okay, no no, no, no, no, no, no, okay, 39 00:02:10.439 --> 00:02:12.759 all right, you have a grace margin of ten episodes. 40 00:02:12.960 --> 00:02:17.520 Here we go. The pressure's on, and what is at stake? 41 00:02:17.879 --> 00:02:23.000 God, dude, what was it? One is Merlin? But oh, 42 00:02:23.120 --> 00:02:25.960 dragons was way before that didn't but was it? 43 00:02:26.639 --> 00:02:27.159 Hang on? 44 00:02:27.280 --> 00:02:31.759 But hey, didn't Merlin like kill a fucking dragon or something? 45 00:02:32.560 --> 00:02:35.639 Probably he drove all this, he did, He drove all 46 00:02:36.080 --> 00:02:37.759 he drove all the dragons out of Ireland. 47 00:02:38.560 --> 00:02:40.319 No, that was the Vatican. 48 00:02:41.199 --> 00:02:45.520 Oh and it was yeah, damn it, you're right, Sat. 49 00:02:46.599 --> 00:02:50.240 Saint Patrick Patrick. Yeah, no, there is some dragons in Merlin. 50 00:02:50.319 --> 00:02:51.000 I just can't remember. 51 00:02:51.639 --> 00:02:53.400 I know what it was. He looked under the tower 52 00:02:53.439 --> 00:02:57.159 and there was a white baby dragon and a red baby. Remember, 53 00:02:57.479 --> 00:02:58.000 So what was it? 54 00:02:58.080 --> 00:02:58.280 Dude. 55 00:02:58.319 --> 00:03:00.520 I'm still trying to find it, man, Dude, it doesn't 56 00:03:00.599 --> 00:03:03.360 work when you search like I'm searching. Bloods said so 57 00:03:03.560 --> 00:03:05.520 Dragons and the first thing that comes up is a 58 00:03:05.560 --> 00:03:07.479 clip of the yoga episode. 59 00:03:08.120 --> 00:03:09.000 I just want to say that. 60 00:03:09.240 --> 00:03:13.240 I'm like, there, this is something. Something's very wrong with 61 00:03:13.400 --> 00:03:14.120 the algorithm. 62 00:03:14.159 --> 00:03:15.479 Algorithm is against us. 63 00:03:15.560 --> 00:03:17.360 I'm still working, so bear with me. 64 00:03:17.520 --> 00:03:19.159 Well, I should have known that because we've been here 65 00:03:19.199 --> 00:03:21.759 over a year and that's only fifty episodes ago, and 66 00:03:21.800 --> 00:03:24.599 we did the Dragons episode at the other apartment. It's 67 00:03:24.639 --> 00:03:27.400 just kind of hard to gauge anymore, Like after living 68 00:03:27.400 --> 00:03:28.120 in this house. 69 00:03:28.199 --> 00:03:29.719 Well, it's getting there. 70 00:03:29.759 --> 00:03:30.479 One three. 71 00:03:31.759 --> 00:03:33.439 I was kind of close but not close enough. 72 00:03:33.479 --> 00:03:36.520 And I think I started that one. Yeah, I'm confirming. 73 00:03:36.719 --> 00:03:38.599 I hadn't confirmed because I would like to know. And 74 00:03:38.680 --> 00:03:41.000 I love the fact that, like so many people listening 75 00:03:41.000 --> 00:03:42.800 to this might are like on their edge, on the 76 00:03:42.879 --> 00:03:44.400 edge of there's on their edge. 77 00:03:44.680 --> 00:03:47.599 They're on their edge the edge a little bit because 78 00:03:47.599 --> 00:03:49.280 they're like, what did you say? 79 00:03:49.360 --> 00:03:50.800 Is it really his last episode? Yes? 80 00:03:51.199 --> 00:03:54.919 But first long hair, I don't know that i'd say. 81 00:03:54.800 --> 00:03:58.039 That, No, not last episode. It's not our last episode, 82 00:03:58.039 --> 00:03:58.879 and we will clarify. 83 00:03:58.960 --> 00:04:02.520 Yes, yeah, yeah, brought it in. 84 00:04:02.719 --> 00:04:04.240 Yeah, you brought it in, bro. 85 00:04:04.199 --> 00:04:07.879 And I got long hair. Yeah, damn remember that it was. 86 00:04:08.199 --> 00:04:09.719 That was a fun episode. It's one of the best 87 00:04:09.719 --> 00:04:10.479 thumbnails ever. 88 00:04:11.000 --> 00:04:13.000 It is truly one of the best thumbnails. 89 00:04:13.039 --> 00:04:15.280 Yeah you did freaking uh you did. 90 00:04:15.199 --> 00:04:17.199 Start and you're wearing the exact same shirt. Wow. 91 00:04:17.399 --> 00:04:19.839 No I'm not. But I got the exact same haircut 92 00:04:19.879 --> 00:04:28.399 with almost the amount of what shadow close looking pretty similar. 93 00:04:28.439 --> 00:04:30.920 Except back then you were to baby and now you're 94 00:04:30.959 --> 00:04:31.439 the daddy. 95 00:04:32.040 --> 00:04:34.480 Yeah. Yeah, yeah. 96 00:04:35.120 --> 00:04:37.879 We can't get penalized for showing our own stuff in 97 00:04:37.959 --> 00:04:38.959 our own video, right. 98 00:04:39.720 --> 00:04:43.439 I was thinking, you have to like manually claim that. 99 00:04:44.000 --> 00:04:45.399 Yeah to be a thing. 100 00:04:46.079 --> 00:04:50.439 All right, fine, I'll freaking I'll explain. Dang it, let's 101 00:04:50.519 --> 00:04:51.759 just get into it. 102 00:04:52.399 --> 00:04:55.800 I'm I'm patiently waiting enough delaying. 103 00:04:56.000 --> 00:05:00.800 Damn it, guys, this is this is well, it's not 104 00:05:00.920 --> 00:05:04.720 my last episode ever. It's not my last episode ever. No, 105 00:05:04.800 --> 00:05:09.920 but I am leaving the show. I'm leaving the show 106 00:05:10.600 --> 00:05:15.560 like my regular involvement in the show at least. It 107 00:05:15.879 --> 00:05:18.519 all kind of it kind of just came together quick. 108 00:05:18.519 --> 00:05:22.120 It was like fully and completely my decision. I just 109 00:05:22.199 --> 00:05:26.079 like I had a feeling in my heart that I'm 110 00:05:26.120 --> 00:05:29.879 feeling pulled towards other projects that I'd really love to do, 111 00:05:29.920 --> 00:05:33.040 and I just felt it wouldn't be fair to this 112 00:05:33.160 --> 00:05:37.560 amazing thing that we've all built together to pull any 113 00:05:37.600 --> 00:05:41.920 of my energy away from this show towards those other projects. 114 00:05:42.000 --> 00:05:47.680 And you know, this, this show, it takes a ton 115 00:05:47.720 --> 00:05:52.600 of our time. We worked so so hard on this show. 116 00:05:54.399 --> 00:05:57.600 It takes a ton of our time. And like I 117 00:05:57.720 --> 00:06:00.560 was very I have been very happy to do that. 118 00:06:00.759 --> 00:06:05.560 For four years we've done it, and at varying amounts 119 00:06:05.560 --> 00:06:08.120 of time that it takes from us, I was very 120 00:06:08.120 --> 00:06:12.120 happy to do that. I'm so so extremely proud of 121 00:06:12.199 --> 00:06:16.639 us and this show and the community that has formed 122 00:06:16.680 --> 00:06:20.600 around us, and like serious, I couldn't be more proud. 123 00:06:22.319 --> 00:06:24.839 And it just it came to a point where I 124 00:06:25.000 --> 00:06:27.360 had this gut feeling and this feeling in my heart 125 00:06:27.560 --> 00:06:32.000 like it is time for me to move on to 126 00:06:32.079 --> 00:06:37.639 other things. And you know, I've always been I've always 127 00:06:37.680 --> 00:06:42.839 been like mister adhd brain, Like I have way too 128 00:06:42.879 --> 00:06:48.120 many interests and I like want to explore them all, 129 00:06:48.160 --> 00:06:50.720 and it's like I have little chapters of my life. 130 00:06:50.720 --> 00:06:53.519 It's always been that way. My life is like segmented 131 00:06:53.560 --> 00:06:56.920 into these little chapters where I'm pursuing a different passion, 132 00:06:57.480 --> 00:07:03.160 you know, And this one was to help you and 133 00:07:03.279 --> 00:07:07.879 your family make this project and get and get your 134 00:07:07.920 --> 00:07:12.319 story out there and help spread you know, your your 135 00:07:12.360 --> 00:07:16.279 message of love and light. When we started this thing, 136 00:07:16.480 --> 00:07:21.279 it was a different life. Your family was you know, 137 00:07:21.319 --> 00:07:23.279 there was no there was no book, There was no 138 00:07:24.040 --> 00:07:27.160 HBO documentaries happened or not HBO sorry, the History Channel 139 00:07:27.199 --> 00:07:30.319 documentary is happening. There wasn't. There wasn't the things that 140 00:07:30.360 --> 00:07:36.560 are going on now. And so you know, I saw 141 00:07:37.079 --> 00:07:44.240 this desperation two, like get the story out there and 142 00:07:44.240 --> 00:07:49.319 and and spread the message. And you know, we we 143 00:07:49.360 --> 00:07:52.639 had talked about, we had talked about as friends, just 144 00:07:52.680 --> 00:07:55.560 talked about what's what do you do? What do you whatever? 145 00:07:55.920 --> 00:07:58.519 And the idea of the you know, we've talked about it. 146 00:07:58.560 --> 00:08:01.639 Alex and I were both like simultaneously being like, start 147 00:08:01.639 --> 00:08:04.199 the podcast. Start a podcast. You got to start a podcast, dude, 148 00:08:05.000 --> 00:08:08.720 And like I never I never thought I never once 149 00:08:08.800 --> 00:08:10.959 thought like I could co host it. Never. But you 150 00:08:11.079 --> 00:08:14.000 came to me and you were like, dude, I think 151 00:08:14.000 --> 00:08:16.160 I'm down to do a podcast, but I only want 152 00:08:16.160 --> 00:08:17.839 to do it if you if you do it with me, 153 00:08:19.439 --> 00:08:22.639 And there was not even a thought. I was like, hell, yeah, 154 00:08:22.680 --> 00:08:26.639 let's do it. Whatever it takes, whatever it takes to 155 00:08:26.720 --> 00:08:33.279 get that ball rolling, Let's do it. We we fucking 156 00:08:33.320 --> 00:08:39.480 did it, like we've We've accomplished so much. And I 157 00:08:39.519 --> 00:08:45.879 was explaining to the team that my dream, my literal dream, 158 00:08:46.039 --> 00:08:52.440 being involved with this show was to make it a platform. 159 00:08:53.279 --> 00:08:55.240 Get it to the point where it is a platform 160 00:08:55.840 --> 00:09:00.919 and it has it has traction, and it has people, 161 00:09:01.200 --> 00:09:04.919 a community, it has legs to stand on. Get it 162 00:09:04.960 --> 00:09:09.039 to this place where it's grown wings and it can fly. 163 00:09:09.080 --> 00:09:11.240 You know, that was my dream. That's always been my 164 00:09:11.360 --> 00:09:16.480 dream for this show. And I think somewhere recently, I 165 00:09:16.519 --> 00:09:20.480 think I've subconsciously that that box has been checked in 166 00:09:20.519 --> 00:09:23.519 my mind and I and I think I finally took 167 00:09:23.559 --> 00:09:27.399 a second to look around and was like, oh, damn, 168 00:09:27.480 --> 00:09:30.559 what the hell. We have a there's a Neon sign, 169 00:09:31.080 --> 00:09:34.720 there's the walls are painted, there's a whole studio in 170 00:09:34.799 --> 00:09:39.360 Ryan's house. There's like we did it, we did it. 171 00:09:39.679 --> 00:09:45.960 Here we are and you know, it felt it felt 172 00:09:46.480 --> 00:09:51.600 like it was time. It's like not it has nothing 173 00:09:51.639 --> 00:09:55.320 to do with anything other than me. I just have 174 00:09:55.679 --> 00:09:58.960 I have. I like to I like to make music, 175 00:09:58.960 --> 00:10:02.840 I like to write, you know, stories, and I like 176 00:10:02.919 --> 00:10:05.639 to do all sorts of different stuff. But I'm also 177 00:10:05.759 --> 00:10:09.399 just like I like to casually pursue my interests. And 178 00:10:10.200 --> 00:10:13.120 I don't know, I'm kind of I don't know. I 179 00:10:13.159 --> 00:10:15.080 don't even know how I would describe it. I'm very 180 00:10:15.399 --> 00:10:21.639 my creativity is very volatile. It's constantly pulling me in 181 00:10:21.759 --> 00:10:25.360 different directions all the time. And then I think, if 182 00:10:25.440 --> 00:10:28.559 I'm in a place where I can't explore those things freely, 183 00:10:29.039 --> 00:10:32.159 I maybe start to feel a little cooped up. Maybe 184 00:10:32.159 --> 00:10:34.960 that's a good way to describe it. I don't know, 185 00:10:35.559 --> 00:10:37.080 I'm blabbing on and blabbing on. 186 00:10:37.159 --> 00:10:38.720 No, No, that's kind of the whole point of this. 187 00:10:40.480 --> 00:10:46.799 Yeah, it's it's sad, like I'm I'm definitely it was 188 00:10:46.879 --> 00:10:49.519 not an easy decision to make. 189 00:10:50.720 --> 00:10:53.960 And just for the reference to the listener, we all 190 00:10:54.039 --> 00:10:58.200 had this talk for the first time last night, and 191 00:10:58.240 --> 00:11:02.039 obviously it came as a surprise. Yeah, and I hope 192 00:11:02.039 --> 00:11:03.759 it's okay that I say this, but Nick was very 193 00:11:03.799 --> 00:11:04.759 nervous to bring it up. 194 00:11:04.840 --> 00:11:06.639 Of course, dude, you can say anything. 195 00:11:06.360 --> 00:11:11.000 Probably wondering if we would freak out, or wondering however 196 00:11:11.320 --> 00:11:12.720 we would react. 197 00:11:13.759 --> 00:11:16.120 And I just want to say real quick, I knew 198 00:11:16.279 --> 00:11:19.399 in my heart that you're my best friends and that 199 00:11:19.440 --> 00:11:22.320 you would you would be you'd have my back. You'd 200 00:11:22.360 --> 00:11:25.000 be shocked and confused, but you'd have my back. It's 201 00:11:25.039 --> 00:11:28.360 just the it's still scary, the anxiety. Yeah, the thoughts 202 00:11:28.399 --> 00:11:30.360 creep in, and it's like what if they're mad. But 203 00:11:30.559 --> 00:11:32.559 when I would talk about it, and that's normal, when 204 00:11:32.559 --> 00:11:33.840 I would talk about it, I was like, there's no 205 00:11:33.879 --> 00:11:35.360 way they'll be mad. Sorry. 206 00:11:35.480 --> 00:11:38.039 Yeah, And and he was obviously like really nervous, and 207 00:11:38.080 --> 00:11:40.039 he came out with it, and obviously it was a 208 00:11:40.080 --> 00:11:42.919 big surprise, but I mean, at the end of the day, 209 00:11:42.960 --> 00:11:45.879 it's just like I wasn't mad at all. I was 210 00:11:45.960 --> 00:11:48.879 just kind of like, you know, I can't really blame 211 00:11:48.919 --> 00:11:51.559 you for that, and and and how you were so 212 00:11:54.360 --> 00:11:58.120 positive about it and so professional. Well yeah, professional too, 213 00:11:58.159 --> 00:12:00.679 but like so honest and upfront. And we all just 214 00:12:00.720 --> 00:12:02.080 kind of talked about it, and I think he stayed 215 00:12:02.080 --> 00:12:03.960 for like another three hours and we were just like, 216 00:12:04.000 --> 00:12:07.279 we are not recording to night if that let's just 217 00:12:07.320 --> 00:12:11.600 hang out and yeah, we all just kind of talked 218 00:12:11.600 --> 00:12:14.960 it over and and you know, obviously it's sad for 219 00:12:15.080 --> 00:12:19.559 everybody involved, but like to be very clear, like nothing 220 00:12:19.720 --> 00:12:23.799 will change with us, like we're, you know, still who 221 00:12:23.840 --> 00:12:26.039 we are, and Nick's involvement in this is still what 222 00:12:26.080 --> 00:12:30.080 it is and what it was. But ultimately I think 223 00:12:30.120 --> 00:12:32.840 we all just kind of agreed that maybe it would 224 00:12:32.879 --> 00:12:36.480 be best for everybody in the sense that Nick felt 225 00:12:36.639 --> 00:12:41.519 as if his passion for being like the grind, like 226 00:12:41.600 --> 00:12:45.000 this is a grind grind, Yeah, and you had been 227 00:12:45.000 --> 00:12:49.519 feeling yourself dwindling with that, and it just makes sense 228 00:12:49.559 --> 00:12:51.559 for you to not like why why would you push 229 00:12:51.679 --> 00:12:54.360 through that if it's not you know, like you do 230 00:12:54.440 --> 00:12:56.279 have to have a passion for this. This is an animal, 231 00:12:57.919 --> 00:13:02.080 this is a beast. I have no clue what it takes. 232 00:13:01.799 --> 00:13:05.480 To do this. Oh man, it's thousands. It is a 233 00:13:05.840 --> 00:13:08.600 it's constant. I mean, it's we have days where we 234 00:13:09.320 --> 00:13:12.720 relax and we have days off. But I mean, you know, 235 00:13:12.960 --> 00:13:17.120 we at times have a week a week and a 236 00:13:17.159 --> 00:13:22.200 half where it's like every single day there is something 237 00:13:22.480 --> 00:13:25.960 going on with the podcast that's rare, but like you know, 238 00:13:26.080 --> 00:13:29.480 on most occasions it's two maybe three days out of 239 00:13:29.480 --> 00:13:32.559 the week we've got something going on. But I mean 240 00:13:32.600 --> 00:13:37.039 at times will be going a week straight doing different things. 241 00:13:37.720 --> 00:13:43.000 It is a grind. It is a serious grind. And 242 00:13:43.080 --> 00:13:46.840 of course for the longest time, I'm like a like, 243 00:13:47.399 --> 00:13:49.960 I'm grinding and I'm doing this to help my friend 244 00:13:50.000 --> 00:13:53.440 and his family, and b I'm also I'm getting a 245 00:13:53.480 --> 00:13:55.840 ton out of this, and I enjoy this a lot, 246 00:13:56.000 --> 00:13:58.720 Like you know, I enjoy being involved. I get a 247 00:13:58.759 --> 00:14:01.679 lot of gratification for doing it. I'm proud of doing it. 248 00:14:02.639 --> 00:14:06.879 The lovely the lovely messages and the people that we 249 00:14:06.960 --> 00:14:10.200 meet in person and they tell me how you know, 250 00:14:10.279 --> 00:14:12.840 how much they love to hear from me and see 251 00:14:12.840 --> 00:14:14.480 me on the show, and how much I bring to 252 00:14:14.559 --> 00:14:18.679 the show, and like that is like it's been it's 253 00:14:18.720 --> 00:14:24.639 been so like healing for me for these four years. 254 00:14:25.240 --> 00:14:28.360 It's been so instrumental to the person that I've become 255 00:14:29.399 --> 00:14:32.279 the past four years. Like it's it's not like I'm 256 00:14:32.320 --> 00:14:35.720 just like I'm just I'm doing this for for Ryan 257 00:14:35.759 --> 00:14:37.480 and his family, and that's it. It's like, no, I 258 00:14:37.519 --> 00:14:40.039 got plenty out of it. I got a lot of 259 00:14:40.440 --> 00:14:44.159 creative gratification and a lot I got a lot of 260 00:14:44.200 --> 00:14:44.759 things out. 261 00:14:44.639 --> 00:14:46.799 Of it, a lot of fun too. 262 00:14:47.720 --> 00:14:49.519 Fuck are you kidding me? This has been some of 263 00:14:49.519 --> 00:14:52.759 the most fun I've ever had. Like it, it's been 264 00:14:52.919 --> 00:14:58.480 so much fun. And but but yeah, it just it's 265 00:14:58.519 --> 00:15:01.200 one of the I even said this to you last night, 266 00:15:01.360 --> 00:15:04.039 and yeah, I mean, now that we've acknowledged the timeline, 267 00:15:05.200 --> 00:15:08.720 it's it's a whirlwind. It all kind of happened extremely fast. 268 00:15:08.840 --> 00:15:12.320 We like looked at our schedule and we're like, I 269 00:15:12.360 --> 00:15:14.440 think it makes most sense to just go ahead and 270 00:15:14.519 --> 00:15:17.159 knock this out, Like let's just let's just do it. 271 00:15:17.279 --> 00:15:19.000 Yeah, I think it's just easier for everybody. 272 00:15:19.120 --> 00:15:22.799 Yeah, like it just it, which is crazy. It's because 273 00:15:22.879 --> 00:15:26.399 I was prepared fully to stay on for a while, 274 00:15:26.480 --> 00:15:29.559 and I told them, whatever you guys need, and we 275 00:15:29.679 --> 00:15:32.120 just talked about it, and ultimately we were like, I 276 00:15:32.159 --> 00:15:36.240 think the thing that, according to the schedule and everything else, 277 00:15:36.399 --> 00:15:38.279 that makes the most sense, we just we go ahead 278 00:15:38.279 --> 00:15:40.679 and knock it out. And like, I'm still gonna be 279 00:15:40.960 --> 00:15:43.240 helping to tie up the loose ends for the next 280 00:15:43.279 --> 00:15:46.399 few months, so however long it takes. Like I'm I'm 281 00:15:46.440 --> 00:15:48.600 not just like I'm out peace, you know. 282 00:15:48.759 --> 00:15:50.679 No, it's not like that no, no, no, I am. 283 00:15:50.919 --> 00:15:55.720 It's mutual and very very friendly. 284 00:15:55.399 --> 00:15:57.840 And yeah, there's still much. 285 00:15:58.279 --> 00:16:00.840 Yeah, it's just like I think it's good for everybody 286 00:16:00.840 --> 00:16:03.080 but sad. But like sad is not always a bad thing. 287 00:16:03.840 --> 00:16:07.480 It's the the change. Yeah, the change part is like 288 00:16:07.519 --> 00:16:12.639 the it's it's heavy and it's scary, but it's like ultimately, yeah, 289 00:16:12.679 --> 00:16:16.320 I think I think the I think that I will 290 00:16:16.360 --> 00:16:21.600 Obviously I will be. I'll be happier chasing whatever the 291 00:16:21.639 --> 00:16:24.240 next like creative thing that I want to do is 292 00:16:24.320 --> 00:16:27.000 I've been just resting for a while. Oh, that'll definitely 293 00:16:27.039 --> 00:16:29.759 happen because another thing about me, and y'all know this, 294 00:16:30.080 --> 00:16:35.240 I'm lazy. I like to chill, I like to kick it, 295 00:16:35.440 --> 00:16:38.720 like that's my favorite thing in the world is just downtime. 296 00:16:39.960 --> 00:16:43.159 So I will definitely be. I'll definitely be resting for 297 00:16:43.200 --> 00:16:47.320 a bit. But yeah, I miss like that creative freedom 298 00:16:47.360 --> 00:16:50.559 and I miss like the not knowing what the next 299 00:16:50.639 --> 00:16:52.960 thing is gonna that's gonna pull me is and like 300 00:16:53.679 --> 00:16:56.840 so for me, that's very exciting and it's gonna be 301 00:16:57.000 --> 00:17:01.279 really awesome, And honestly, I but that the show is 302 00:17:01.720 --> 00:17:04.039 going to be better than ever. It's going to enter 303 00:17:04.119 --> 00:17:06.759 this new phase. It's evolving, it's going to enter this 304 00:17:06.799 --> 00:17:10.839 new thing. It's going to become something that I think 305 00:17:11.000 --> 00:17:15.400 is going to be incredible and better than ever. And 306 00:17:16.519 --> 00:17:18.599 I just I have no doubt in my mind that 307 00:17:19.000 --> 00:17:23.039 this is going to be not just like a pretty part. 308 00:17:23.160 --> 00:17:25.920 This is going to be a very positive thing for 309 00:17:26.000 --> 00:17:27.839 all of us for sure. 310 00:17:28.480 --> 00:17:30.920 Sure hope. So I don't know what the future holds. 311 00:17:32.759 --> 00:17:35.079 I had to have a good feeling about it. I mean, 312 00:17:35.119 --> 00:17:37.759 it's just I think it's up to me proving to 313 00:17:37.799 --> 00:17:42.640 myself that I've come into my personal confidence to. 314 00:17:43.960 --> 00:17:46.960 You know what, man, you have? I know you have. 315 00:17:47.319 --> 00:17:51.640 That is maybe the first thing that I thought when 316 00:17:52.240 --> 00:17:55.640 when this decision kind of came upon me, because that's 317 00:17:55.720 --> 00:18:00.799 really what it feels like it came on it. 318 00:18:00.920 --> 00:18:05.960 The decision happened, came upon you. The phrasing there was 319 00:18:06.000 --> 00:18:08.480 a little crazy for from within you. 320 00:18:09.680 --> 00:18:13.480 It blasted all over me. And and I feel like, 321 00:18:13.599 --> 00:18:15.680 you know, one of the first things that I thought 322 00:18:15.960 --> 00:18:21.119 was Ryan's ready. He's He's good. He is he is 323 00:18:21.200 --> 00:18:25.119 more confident than ever. He is like fired up that 324 00:18:25.200 --> 00:18:29.240 the passion is burning super hot inside of him, like 325 00:18:29.519 --> 00:18:33.000 it's it's he he is. I have no doubt in 326 00:18:33.039 --> 00:18:36.279 my mind. And Alex obviously Alex has had this ship 327 00:18:36.359 --> 00:18:39.599 on lock since day one. Alex is fantastic at his job. 328 00:18:39.640 --> 00:18:42.519 Yeah, and and nothing's gonna change, Like I mean, obviously 329 00:18:42.519 --> 00:18:45.519 things are going to change, but the show will go 330 00:18:45.599 --> 00:18:47.279 on and Alex and I are going to continue to 331 00:18:47.279 --> 00:18:50.160 do the show. That's not going to change. Obviously, Nick 332 00:18:50.200 --> 00:18:56.599 will no longer be here. Uh ultimately, though, what in 333 00:18:56.640 --> 00:18:59.400 a perfect world for me, it would be whenever you want, 334 00:18:59.440 --> 00:19:01.519 you come visit it, and you come, I'm a pop 335 00:19:01.559 --> 00:19:03.000 few episodes, I'm a pop in. 336 00:19:03.279 --> 00:19:05.720 You know, you know I'm a pop in. I literally 337 00:19:05.720 --> 00:19:06.839 live two minutes from here. 338 00:19:06.920 --> 00:19:09.119 Yeah, and like if you got something going on, Hey, 339 00:19:09.200 --> 00:19:11.000 you know we're putting out a new song, or you're 340 00:19:11.000 --> 00:19:12.759 working on this, or you just want to come and 341 00:19:12.799 --> 00:19:15.160 you want to join, Like I think, in a perfect 342 00:19:15.160 --> 00:19:16.720 world it would be nice if every now and then 343 00:19:16.759 --> 00:19:18.920 you came in, you you joined us for the show. 344 00:19:19.319 --> 00:19:22.440 I will, yeah, I will absolutely be doing that for sure, 345 00:19:22.519 --> 00:19:25.200 without a doubt. You'll this isn't the last time you'll 346 00:19:25.240 --> 00:19:28.759 see me. I'm gonna I'll be back. I'm still gonna anytime. 347 00:19:28.799 --> 00:19:30.599 There's music that needs to be done for this show. 348 00:19:30.640 --> 00:19:33.319 It's still gonna be me. You you better believe that 349 00:19:33.480 --> 00:19:36.440 any any any music you hear on this show is me. 350 00:19:36.799 --> 00:19:41.359 It'll always be me. That's like, that's. 351 00:19:41.480 --> 00:19:44.559 Laying is clean. Oh, we don't know anybody else anyway. Man, 352 00:19:46.319 --> 00:19:48.000 I think I think you. 353 00:19:47.920 --> 00:19:50.799 Have that unlocked back off all of y'all. 354 00:19:50.920 --> 00:19:51.839 It don't be coming from him. 355 00:19:51.920 --> 00:19:52.640 That's my job. 356 00:19:52.799 --> 00:19:55.440 Yeah, you've got that job. You have earned it. You 357 00:19:55.519 --> 00:19:58.680 have earned it. Okay, Yeah, don't you worry about that. 358 00:19:58.759 --> 00:20:01.440 Uh huh So yeah, and I'm and again I'm gonna 359 00:20:01.440 --> 00:20:03.839 pop in. We already talked about like if we go 360 00:20:03.880 --> 00:20:05.960 see a cool movie together and we're like, damn, this 361 00:20:06.000 --> 00:20:08.440 will make a fire episode, like why not, or if. 362 00:20:08.359 --> 00:20:09.839 It's been a few months and you're just like, man, 363 00:20:09.880 --> 00:20:11.720 I kind of misrecording a little bit, Hey, come to 364 00:20:11.759 --> 00:20:13.839 an episode, you know, Like I think it's just it 365 00:20:14.079 --> 00:20:17.359 doesn't have to be like the forever end. It doesn't 366 00:20:17.400 --> 00:20:18.240 have to be like that. 367 00:20:18.359 --> 00:20:19.200 No, it's not gonna be. 368 00:20:19.559 --> 00:20:21.759 It's just I get it. Like even though it was 369 00:20:21.799 --> 00:20:24.720 hard to hear in the moment, and to be clear, 370 00:20:24.920 --> 00:20:29.000 like I never was like oh fuck, you know, like 371 00:20:29.079 --> 00:20:32.640 I mean you saw me immediately, I was like I'm 372 00:20:32.640 --> 00:20:37.920 not mad, dude, I'm not mad. I'm just confused as 373 00:20:37.920 --> 00:20:39.279 it came out of it. It was just a lot 374 00:20:39.319 --> 00:20:42.000 to think about. But I do think ultimately you'll be 375 00:20:42.079 --> 00:20:44.640 more happy. I think that the show will be able 376 00:20:44.680 --> 00:20:48.200 to always continue to grind no matter what. It's not 377 00:20:48.240 --> 00:20:50.519 gonna die. It might hurt for a little bit, we 378 00:20:50.599 --> 00:20:52.799 might feel a little bit of like, Okay, how are 379 00:20:52.839 --> 00:20:55.599 we gonna go from here? But ultimately it will survive. 380 00:20:56.599 --> 00:20:59.880 It's not the end of the world, you know, and. 381 00:21:00.440 --> 00:21:02.920 It is always right hard, Okay. 382 00:21:02.640 --> 00:21:04.839 It is what it is. I just have a lot 383 00:21:04.880 --> 00:21:07.359 of growing to do now. And Alex doesn't need to 384 00:21:07.440 --> 00:21:11.880 change one bait. He's an angel, he's a barballs, Yeah 385 00:21:11.920 --> 00:21:12.240 he is. 386 00:21:12.279 --> 00:21:12.440 So. 387 00:21:12.480 --> 00:21:14.039 I just I have a little bit of growing to 388 00:21:14.039 --> 00:21:15.599 do and and to be honest. 389 00:21:15.359 --> 00:21:18.880 With you, that excites me, dude, that yes it does. 390 00:21:18.960 --> 00:21:19.759 It doesn't scare me. 391 00:21:19.839 --> 00:21:23.759 You have grown, and I think you'll you'll I think 392 00:21:23.799 --> 00:21:26.160 you're just a little like nervous now about it. I 393 00:21:26.200 --> 00:21:29.119 think very quickly you'll realize like, oh, dude, I got 394 00:21:29.119 --> 00:21:31.839 this ship. You got this ship. You do You've already 395 00:21:31.839 --> 00:21:35.039 grown a ton, You've grown so much, like you have 396 00:21:35.160 --> 00:21:39.039 this ship on lock. Uh, this show, this show is 397 00:21:39.039 --> 00:21:42.480 not going anywhere like long lived Ledsoe said, so one 398 00:21:42.519 --> 00:21:45.920 thousand percent, it is not going anywhere. It's just, you know, 399 00:21:46.000 --> 00:21:49.079 it just it just the timing, the timing felt right. 400 00:21:49.839 --> 00:21:53.039 It just did. And it was this kind of unspeakable thing. 401 00:21:53.079 --> 00:21:55.440