Speaker 1: Hi everyone, and welcome back to the podcast episode. My
Speaker 1: name is Alicia Gogin, the host of the Globe Secrets podcast.
Speaker 1: Why I help you expand your mind and become more
Speaker 1: self awares that you can glow up into the best
Speaker 1: version of yourself. Hello, Happy Sunday if you're listening to
Speaker 1: this on a Sunday. Today's episode is going to be
Speaker 1: deep and it's going to be personal because I'm going
Speaker 1: to share with you something that I've been going through
Speaker 1: and I know it will in some way resonate with
Speaker 1: you and hopefully will make you feel better about the
Speaker 1: current situation that you're in and or just the human
Speaker 1: experience of running away from yourself. So let me give
Speaker 1: you a story about why I even chose this topic
Speaker 1: for this week. If you don't know, I have ulcrative colitis,
Speaker 1: which is a form of irritable bowel disease. It is
Speaker 1: essentially an autoimmune disease. Now, this is actually a huge
Speaker 1: part of my life, but I deal with it in
Speaker 1: different phases of my life because it's not always prominent
Speaker 1: in every season of my life. Sometimes I'll get flare up,
Speaker 1: sometimes not. I have been on different medications. I have
Speaker 1: had to go through different phases of my life of
Speaker 1: trying to manage it and work on my stress levels
Speaker 1: and my diet and so many different components that contribute
Speaker 1: to a autoimut disease and or chronic illness. That's basically
Speaker 1: what it is. When I go through flare ups. It
Speaker 1: can be really bad. I have to go to the
Speaker 1: washroom a lot, There's a lot of urgency, there's ulcers,
Speaker 1: There's just really uncomfortable times. It gets to a point
Speaker 1: where I can't live my normal life. I either can't work,
Speaker 1: I can't see people, I can't really eat a lot,
Speaker 1: just a lot of pain. Anyone who has any sort
Speaker 1: of stomach issues and or maybe has this or even
Speaker 1: like Crone's disease or anything similar or honestly even chronic illness,
Speaker 1: regardless of what it is, you understand the struggles that
Speaker 1: chronic illness can bring and really take you away from life.
Speaker 1: And if you guys haven't been watching my vlog channel,
Speaker 1: I have been sharing on there that I've currently been
Speaker 1: going through a flare up. I know how I have
Speaker 1: mentioned it before on the podcast, but I have been
Speaker 1: going through a flare up. And although I am getting
Speaker 1: the right medication and I've been through this before, and
Speaker 1: I'm doing the best with diet and stress and all
Speaker 1: of these things, and also you know, looking at some
Speaker 1: of the habits that might have contributed to a flare
Speaker 1: up to bring it back up in my life. During
Speaker 1: this time of healing, there is an immense amount of
Speaker 1: having to wait, especially when you're dealing with anything physical
Speaker 1: for your health. It sometimes takes like ten times longer
Speaker 1: than you really wish, because you don't have that much
Speaker 1: control over how quickly your body response to medication, or
Speaker 1: even if you're not on medication, just in general, how
Speaker 1: long it takes for your body to recover. And I
Speaker 1: have found through this flare up, I have been trying
Speaker 1: to run away from it, and quite frankly, I have
Speaker 1: been running away from this disease in many aspects of
Speaker 1: my life. And mind you, it's normal to want to
Speaker 1: run away from pain or run away from something that
Speaker 1: scares you. Run away from a disease or you know,
Speaker 1: like an autoimmune thing or anything, right like, why would
Speaker 1: you want to have this be a part of your
Speaker 1: reality or a part of your health circumstance. It's hard,
Speaker 1: it can be painful, it can be confusing, it can
Speaker 1: be scary, But I find when my body needs time
Speaker 1: to heal, I tend to want to run away from
Speaker 1: that waiting period. And when I run away from that
Speaker 1: waiting period, I actually create more suffering and more pain
Speaker 1: because I'm not actually with my body and what it
Speaker 1: actually needs. My body when I am sick, my emotional
Speaker 1: and mental health, when I am sad, it doesn't need
Speaker 1: me to run away from it in the sense of ignoring,
Speaker 1: in the sense of trying to fix. Even though fixing
Speaker 1: is great. We want to get answers, we want to
Speaker 1: obviously do certain things to help us heal, but sometimes
Speaker 1: within that it's this form of like, I just want
Speaker 1: to fix this. I want to fix you. I want
Speaker 1: to change this situation so that I can run away
Speaker 1: from that. In between uncomfortable feeling that I am left with,
Speaker 1: which is me being left with myself, me being left
Speaker 1: with the reality of, Wow, I maybe did neglect myself
Speaker 1: a little bit more than I thought. And this is
Speaker 1: not me, by the way, like actually blaming myself for
Speaker 1: having an autoimmune disease. And you never should for anything when
Speaker 1: it comes to chronic illness or anything. Realistically, you're a
Speaker 1: human being, but there are always things that you kind
Speaker 1: of run away from when there's something that's hard in
Speaker 1: your life. And sometimes what happens, and this has happened
Speaker 1: with me, and it's so normal, but it's almost like
Speaker 1: I end up getting mad at my body for being sick.
Speaker 1: I get mad at my body for not getting better faster.
Speaker 1: I get mad at myself for is there something else
Speaker 1: I should have done? Or I'll just try to do
Speaker 1: the most perfect thing, the most flawless thing, so that
Speaker 1: I can get better, quicker, faster, so I can run
Speaker 1: away from this uncomfortable feeling, which again, in part that's natural,
Speaker 1: you want to feel better. But I have found there's
Speaker 1: a lot of this rejection of self. There's a lot
Speaker 1: of not wanting to slow down and understand what my
Speaker 1: body actually needs and why my body is in this
Speaker 1: state in the first place, and what I can do
Speaker 1: in this present moment while my body is healing, because
Speaker 1: the truth is, I'm in the waiting period. The truth
Speaker 1: is you might be in a waiting period right now.
Speaker 1: Sometimes you can't do anything. Sometimes you can't change the
Speaker 1: situation that's happening. Sometimes you are in this waiting period.
Speaker 1: And sometimes I think life really tries to show you
Speaker 1: that all it needs you to do is actually slow
Speaker 1: down and be here in the present. And sometimes that's
Speaker 1: why your body speaks to you. Sometimes that's why life
Speaker 1: speaks to you. Or you think things are crumbling, but
Speaker 1: really it's like a lesson for you to be here
Speaker 1: and be awake and be like what is going on?
Speaker 1: Like how have I actually been very disconnected to myself
Speaker 1: or my needs and my wants, whether that's in relationships
Speaker 1: or career or lifestyle, health, all of these things. But
Speaker 1: we just look at the slowing down, the response of
Speaker 1: our bodies, the response of life as like a bad thing,
Speaker 1: as it shouldn't be happening. But really there's a lot
Speaker 1: of wisdom that can be found in this waiting period.
Speaker 1: So I kind of want to talk about some of
Speaker 1: the things that have helped me navigate a waiting period,
Speaker 1: how to not run away from myself and what is
Speaker 1: happening in my life. So maybe you're not going through
Speaker 1: a health situation or something as similar to me, but
Speaker 1: maybe you find yourself running away from the thing that
Speaker 1: you know you need to kind of face in a way,
Speaker 1: and hopefully these tips can help. And I think that
Speaker 1: this can be helpful because this is the human experience. Guys.
Speaker 1: You're going to have times in your life where you're
Speaker 1: in this waiting period of it's uncomfortable, it's hard, it's dreadful.
Speaker 1: You don't know when things are going to change, you
Speaker 1: don't even know the answer. What do you do? And
Speaker 1: in the moment of when you don't know, it really
Speaker 1: does count. Gone through many hard times in my life,
Speaker 1: whether it is with my UC or I've had nerve
Speaker 1: pain in my hands. I wrote that in my boat,
Speaker 1: The Ultimate Globe Guide. I have gone through other health issues.
Speaker 1: I've gone through financial stress, mental stress, breakups, all of
Speaker 1: those things, and what makes you resilient and unfortunately, sometimes
Speaker 1: what actually allows you to get out of the period
Speaker 1: that you're in is for you to stop running away
Speaker 1: from what is now. I saw a Pinterest quote that
Speaker 1: really resonated and I shared it on Instagram, So I'm
Speaker 1: going to share it with you guys, if you're watching
Speaker 1: on YouTube or you can just listen to on audio,
Speaker 1: and it says, it's okay to be in this space,
Speaker 1: the transition, the messy middle, the space in between. You
Speaker 1: moved on, but you haven't yet arrived. You've left behind
Speaker 1: what you needed to but the puzzle pieces haven't all
Speaker 1: yet come together. There is messiness, there is waiting, there's uncertainty.
Speaker 1: You are wanting to rush, but everything is moving slow.
Speaker 1: You are wondering if you will get to where you
Speaker 1: want to go. But where you are is perfect. The
Speaker 1: middle is for the doors to close and new doors
Speaker 1: to open. This transition period is where things come undone
Speaker 1: so that they can get put back together. This is
Speaker 1: a season of just being, of trusting. This is a
Speaker 1: season to pause and take a breath, have love for yourself.
Speaker 1: You are exactly where you need to be now. I
Speaker 1: think the reason why it's very, very difficult for you
Speaker 1: to actually surrender and accept and be okay with the
Speaker 1: in between, the messy, the unknown one is maybe seriously
Speaker 1: it is painful. Like I think about my own health
Speaker 1: right now. It's genuinely so painful when I have to
Speaker 1: go to the washroom or when my symptoms are flared up,
Speaker 1: like it's not a good site and it's not a
Speaker 1: good feeling. But even in the times where let's say
Speaker 1: I don't have you know, a level ten pain, but regardless,
Speaker 1: I still can't go and live my life. I have
Speaker 1: to slow things down. I have found that's a result
Speaker 1: of me constantly living in survival mode when you have
Speaker 1: been on fight or flight, making sure you survive, making
Speaker 1: sure you are safe in any capacity. For you to
Speaker 1: embrace slowing down is so foreign to your body because
Speaker 1: you don't feel like it's safe to actually not fix
Speaker 1: anything or not look for an answer or not know
Speaker 1: the answer, because you've lived your life always seeking and
Speaker 1: seeking and seeking. But I like to remind myself sometimes
Speaker 1: when you're constantly trying to fix and fix and fix again,
Speaker 1: it's almost like you're rejecting yourself. You're rejecting the part
Speaker 1: of you that just needs you to slow down and
Speaker 1: to heal and to breathe and to be grounded. Right now,
Speaker 1: your body, your inner child, your deepest self, doesn't need
Speaker 1: you to fix. There's nothing to even fix right now
Speaker 1: other than for you to slow it down and breathe
Speaker 1: and rest and to stop putting things on your to
Speaker 1: do list. But you have that other part of you
Speaker 1: that's been in survival mode and it's like, no, we
Speaker 1: need to fix, you need to go, We need to go.
Speaker 1: So it's important for you to kind of see how
Speaker 1: you might have too conflicting part of you that are
Speaker 1: making your current circumstance worse than it needs to be,
Speaker 1: which is what I have seen in myself even during
Speaker 1: like this flare right now is like my flare, my
Speaker 1: ucy flare, my symptoms, my health. I look at it
Speaker 1: kind of like my inner child right now that's really sick.
Speaker 1: And my inner child that's really sick right now does
Speaker 1: not need the part of me that is the survival mode,
Speaker 1: independent girl that wants to hit all of her goals,
Speaker 1: who wants to get everything done. She doesn't need that
Speaker 1: part of her to aid her, because that's not what's
Speaker 1: going to help her right now. She needs the motherly
Speaker 1: voice and the wisdom and the softness and the love
Speaker 1: and the calm and the just letting her be and
Speaker 1: feel and be sick right now energy. That's what she needs.
Speaker 1: And so I think the first step when it comes
Speaker 1: to you not running away from yourself is for you
Speaker 1: to surrender, for you to get curious, and for you
Speaker 1: to lean inwards to the thing that you keep running
Speaker 1: away from. From this place of support, let's say, to
Speaker 1: your inner child, or to the part of you that
Speaker 1: is hurting right now. And that's how I like to
Speaker 1: look at it. Right when you are not comfortable with
Speaker 1: the in between right now, there's a part of you
Speaker 1: that's hurting, okay, And so when I look at it,
Speaker 1: I don't want my inner child to be holding this
Speaker 1: pain of this disease, right I don't want her to
Speaker 1: be alone with this pain, with this stomach ache, with
Speaker 1: being afraid. And now, mind you, I will give credit
Speaker 1: where credit is due to that part of me that
Speaker 1: is a survivor. I've tried to do the best with
Speaker 1: trying to aid my inner child by being like, Okay,
Speaker 1: let me fix it, you know, let me get the medication,
Speaker 1: let me do the proper diet, let me do all
Speaker 1: these things, which is great, but it's great to an extent.
Speaker 1: There's gonna come a point where there's nothing I can
Speaker 1: do other than to hold my inner child's hand and
Speaker 1: be like, I'm going to go to the washing with you,
Speaker 1: and I'm going to hold your stomach while you are
Speaker 1: in pain right now, and I'm gonna let you cry
Speaker 1: if you need to, and I'm going to let you
Speaker 1: feel and I'm going to be very soft with you.
Speaker 1: And I'm not going to try and tell you that
Speaker 1: things are even going to change, because I don't know
Speaker 1: if they're going to change, and that's not even going
Speaker 1: to change the fact that you're in pain right now.
Speaker 1: But I am not going to let you go through
Speaker 1: this pain by yourself. And I feel like when we
Speaker 1: try to fix, fix, fix, fix, find the answers, find
Speaker 1: the answers, and hit the goals, what we are doing
Speaker 1: is telling our inner child, telling the part of us
Speaker 1: that is uncomfortable, that is in pain, that you're going
Speaker 1: to be in pain alone while I go over here
Speaker 1: and try and figure out the situation. That's not always
Speaker 1: what we need when it comes to healing. Now, I
Speaker 1: have a little it's like this meditation mindfulness book. It's
Speaker 1: called how to Walk. I don't know how to say
Speaker 1: this author's name. This is like a monk of some sort.
Speaker 1: One of my therapists. I have two therapists, not because
Speaker 1: I think that I need two therapists, but I have
Speaker 1: one therapist where I work on she's kind of more
Speaker 1: of like a spiritual therapist. And then I have another
Speaker 1: one that's actually a health psychologists and she works closely
Speaker 1: with me when it comes to my IBD and colitis actually,
Speaker 1: which is very supportive. And she was the one that
Speaker 1: brought this up because we have been diving into mindfulness
Speaker 1: a lot, because mindfulness is very important when it comes
Speaker 1: to the waiting period, which we'll talk about. There's a
Speaker 1: million things I'm going to get into in this episode.
Speaker 1: But she introduced me to this monk who has like
Speaker 1: all of these little pocket book mindfulness. They're like quotes
Speaker 1: and just like really deep spiritual thoughts and wisdom essentially.
Speaker 1: And I'll link this on Amazon if you want to
Speaker 1: check him out. But she also did study with him,
Speaker 1: so that was pretty cool to hear. Anyways, she had
Speaker 1: brought this up in our session and I wanted to
Speaker 1: get this and I really wanted to bring it to
Speaker 1: you guys. So I'm going to read one of these
Speaker 1: and so this one is about running, and it says
Speaker 1: in every one of us there's a tendency to run.
Speaker 1: There's a belief that happiness is not possible here and now,
Speaker 1: so we have the tendency to run into the future
Speaker 1: in order to look for happiness. That habit energy may
Speaker 1: have been transmitted to us by our father, our mother,
Speaker 1: or our ancestors. Running has become a habit. Even in
Speaker 1: our dreams, we continue to run and look for something.
Speaker 1: The practice of mindfulness helps us to stop running and
Speaker 1: see that everything we have been looking for is here.
Speaker 1: Many of us have been running all of our lives.
Speaker 1: One mindful step can help us to stop running. When
Speaker 1: the mind is focused on breathing and walking, we are
Speaker 1: unifying body, speech, and mind, and we are already home.
Speaker 1: So this book is really all about just how to
Speaker 1: be more mindful in your day to day life when
Speaker 1: it comes to walking. You know, if you unplug and
Speaker 1: you don't listen to a podcast or we don't listen
Speaker 1: to music, it is such a great practice for healing
Speaker 1: in your nervous system and to remind yourself that you
Speaker 1: are safe by being aware of like one foot in
Speaker 1: front of the other and just slowing it down and
Speaker 1: taking nature and all of those things. But I think
Speaker 1: the deeper message here really is that, you know, we
Speaker 1: are always running from something in our lives, right, We're
Speaker 1: always distracting ourselves, We're always finding a new thing to do,
Speaker 1: We're always trying to run away from pain, which again
Speaker 1: is so normal in a way. But again, sometimes there
Speaker 1: is going to be pain, whether that is health, or
Speaker 1: you're going through grief, or there's just something that you
Speaker 1: just don't know yet. You know, there is that waiting period.
Speaker 1: So how do we stop running? Because running away is
Speaker 1: again abandoning ourselves and making things ten times more difficult
Speaker 1: for our inner worlds. And usually what we do when
Speaker 1: we run is we ramp up our nervous systems, sustain
Speaker 1: that fight or flight, right, We try to find more information,
Speaker 1: try to intellectualize the situation again and again and again.
Speaker 1: We don't give ourselves a second to breathe. And most
Speaker 1: likely the thing that you're running from, all it needs
Speaker 1: you to do is to not be in fight or flight. Right.
Speaker 1: When I think back to my health, when you're talking
Speaker 1: about an autoimmune disease, yes, there's a lot of aspects
Speaker 1: as to how you heal. Right, you might need medication,
Speaker 1: maybe your diet needs some more, maybe you need more sleep,
Speaker 1: maybe you need some more hydration, all of these things.
Speaker 1: Maybe you're in a toxing environment. But at the end
Speaker 1: of the day, like your body actually just needs less things, right,
Speaker 1: less products, less supplements, less taxing on the body, less
Speaker 1: chatter in the mind, and just calm and presence and peace.
Speaker 1: So how do we shift from being in that running energy,
Speaker 1: the survival mode energy more into the healing energy, the
Speaker 1: thriving energy. Now, a few things that I'm going to
Speaker 1: talk about are related to things we tend to do
Speaker 1: when we're running. And the thing that I do usually
Speaker 1: the most when something is distressing and uncomfortable in my
Speaker 1: life is I tend to hyper focus and try to
Speaker 1: fix it. So instead of trying to hyper focus and
Speaker 1: fix and change constantly every single day, you're researching, you're
Speaker 1: talking to a million people, you know, you know your
Speaker 1: habits with whatever it is is right, or you're just
Speaker 1: constantly just running away and ignoring and or ignoring what
Speaker 1: I like to try and do every day, and this
Speaker 1: is a day to day thing is to acknowledge and
Speaker 1: ask myself what I need in this moment, because this
Speaker 1: is the thing. When you're trying to run away from
Speaker 1: something that's distressing in your life, You'll wake up every
Speaker 1: day and be like, Okay, how do I fix this?
Speaker 1: Where's the answer? You look outside of yourself versus connecting
Speaker 1: back to self and saying what would feel really good
Speaker 1: and supportive to my nervous system, to my mindset, to
Speaker 1: my health, whatever it is. And so I'm going to
Speaker 1: give you an example of what I've been doing when
Speaker 1: it comes to my ulsterraate of clitis. Instead of googling
Speaker 1: every symptom and micromanaging every single time I have this
Speaker 1: symptom or that symptom. When I feel myself wanting to
Speaker 1: do that, you know, wanting to find a new answer
Speaker 1: or wanting to check in on something, I try to
Speaker 1: recognize that that's really just my inner child right now,
Speaker 1: in pain, scared, worried. Right So, instead of me trying
Speaker 1: to go to find the answer, I like to have
Speaker 1: a little practice with myself. And this could be me
Speaker 1: speaking to myself. It could be a journal practice. It
Speaker 1: could just me be like just for a moment, being like,
Speaker 1: ok hey, let me put everything down, and I allow
Speaker 1: myself to process those emotions, because realistically, what's happening is
Speaker 1: I'm afraid right now. You know, when you're constantly like,
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, okay, let me find this answer. You're afraid.
Speaker 1: You're not trusting, you're not trusting the process, You're scared.
Speaker 1: And so I don't need another Google answer. I don't
Speaker 1: need to go over the symptoms one hundred times, especially
Speaker 1: when you know yourself and you know the situation at hand,
Speaker 1: right like, usually this happens a lot, and you've gone
Speaker 1: through it one hundred times before. So it's not that
Speaker 1: I need to go outside of myself. It's like, Okay,
Speaker 1: I need to process these emotions right now, and I
Speaker 1: need to allow myself to feel because I am afraid,
Speaker 1: and that's okay. That's okay that you're afraid right now.
Speaker 1: It is tough, it's overwhelming, it's really shitty some times.
Speaker 1: It's you allow yourself to be really enraged and mad.
Speaker 1: Right Like, there's been so many times that I've gone
Speaker 1: through like a million emotions where I'm mad at myself.
Speaker 1: I'm mad at my health, I'm mad at my past,
Speaker 1: I'm mad at the fact that I've been living in
Speaker 1: fight or flight, I'm mad at everything. I'm mad at
Speaker 1: just everything. And I allow myself to feel that instead
Speaker 1: of trying to go and find another answer that's gonna
Speaker 1: fix something which I already don't need. I don't need that.
Speaker 1: I know enough now. Another thing that I like to
Speaker 1: do is, let's say, in the mornings, and this is
Speaker 1: specific to my situation, right, but maybe this could help
Speaker 1: in some other sense. But I like to do a
Speaker 1: little bit of a body check in This is really
Speaker 1: good when you are going through a period of like
Speaker 1: waiting healing, no answers, things like that. You can't really
Speaker 1: predict anything, right, You don't really have any answers, So
Speaker 1: you can't really tell yourself like this is how the
Speaker 1: day is gonna go, or I'm gonna do these things tomorrow.
Speaker 1: And mind you, some of that can be helpful, and
Speaker 1: it can make you feel stabilized. That's fine. Some routine
Speaker 1: can be fine. But for you to constantly dictate how
Speaker 1: you're going to feel is it's counterintuitive to the healing process.
Speaker 1: And so I like to wake up in the morning
Speaker 1: and be like, what does my body need right now?
Speaker 1: And I'll give you example. Is it ideal for me
Speaker 1: to wake up in the morning and hydrate myself, take
Speaker 1: my medication, eat really soothing foods, do some yoga and
Speaker 1: some breath work, and do a meditation and maybe take
Speaker 1: a bath, and you know, go for a walk, do
Speaker 1: all these things. Yeah, but I don't know how my
Speaker 1: body is going to feel tomorrow. I really don't. And
Speaker 1: you know what, sometimes my body is not feeling up
Speaker 1: for that and I just can't. But if I tell
Speaker 1: myself you need to do these things tomorrow because quote
Speaker 1: unquote it's good for your health, it creates this energy
Speaker 1: again of me actually running away from myself because I
Speaker 1: am not being with myself in the present moment. So
Speaker 1: you have to take things very, very slow. And I
Speaker 1: think about this even when you are going through something
Speaker 1: like mentally stressing, if it's like a breakup or you're
Speaker 1: really sad, you don't know how you're gonna feel tomorrow.
Speaker 1: Like yeah, you might be like, Okay, I'm gonna go
Speaker 1: to the gym, I'm gonna start hanging out with my friends,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get better, like I'm gonna stay off social media,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do all these things. But then you wake
Speaker 1: up and you just like aren't feeling the best. You
Speaker 1: just aren't. So it's like, okay, ask yourself, what does
Speaker 1: your inner child really need right now? Does your inner
Speaker 1: child need you to just tell her it's gonna be okay?
Speaker 1: And we don't even need to change how we're feeling
Speaker 1: right now? Do we allow ourselves to stay in bed
Speaker 1: one more day? Do we take some things off of
Speaker 1: our plate if we can? How do we make this
Speaker 1: day as easy and effortless as possible? How do we
Speaker 1: slow it down? How do we take something off of
Speaker 1: our plates? And you know, life is not perfect. I
Speaker 1: remember the times where, oh my gosh, I did not
Speaker 1: have the life that I had now, and I had
Speaker 1: to go into work and work when I was very
Speaker 1: very ill. But I got to a point where I
Speaker 1: had to realize that I couldn't be that survival mode
Speaker 1: girl who could just be really strong, and I had
Speaker 1: to tell my managers that I was going through a
Speaker 1: flare up. I had to tell my teachers that I
Speaker 1: was going through like I was going through a sickness.
Speaker 1: And there's days that I could not show up. I
Speaker 1: had to get extensions on papers, I had to get
Speaker 1: extensions on things, I had to not go into work.
Speaker 1: I ended up having to go on short term disability
Speaker 1: at one point because I was in so much pain
Speaker 1: and I wasn't able to work, and then that affected
Speaker 1: my finances. Like there was things that I had to
Speaker 1: do right, there's things that you still have to do,
Speaker 1: but it's from this place of leaning into the current
Speaker 1: circumstance that you're in and adjusting and modifying instead of
Speaker 1: trying to beat it right, like trying to fight it off.
Speaker 1: I don't want to fight myself. I want to support myself,
Speaker 1: and sometimes that looks like slowing it down, right, And
Speaker 1: we don't want to Sometimes we don't want to accept
Speaker 1: the fact that we're going through something like a sickness.
Speaker 1: We don't want to accept the fact that we're going
Speaker 1: through a heartbreak. We don't want to accept the fact
Speaker 1: that we're going through the hardest time financially right now.
Speaker 1: But it's better for us to actually see what we
Speaker 1: need instead of run away from it because it ends
Speaker 1: up just making it worse. Now. The next thing kind
Speaker 1: of addresses the part of us that does want to fix, fix, fix,
Speaker 1: and support ourselves in a way. Right Again, we do
Speaker 1: not want to ever try to reject any part of
Speaker 1: us that is trying to keep us safe, because all
Speaker 1: parts of us are really trying to keep us safe,
Speaker 1: you know. But the part of us that wants to
Speaker 1: find the answers and wants to fix and wants to
Speaker 1: move things forward, sometimes that mindset is very much. So
Speaker 1: I have to energy versus I choose to and this
Speaker 1: is how I want to live my life, and this
Speaker 1: is how I want to support myself, And this is
Speaker 1: kind of what I mean. There are things that will
Speaker 1: support my clitis. There are things like making sure that
Speaker 1: I'm hydrated and eating soothing foods and making sure that
Speaker 1: I'm getting enough rest and creating boundaries and just showing
Speaker 1: up for myself. Like wellness is very huge for a
Speaker 1: health issue, but sometimes it can feel exhausting when I'm
Speaker 1: looking at all the wellness things that i know are
Speaker 1: good for me from this place of like I have
Speaker 1: to do the hydration and the meditation and the movement
Speaker 1: and the eating gut health friendly food from this place
Speaker 1: of having to fix and change the result of my
Speaker 1: health versus I want to show up as somebody who
Speaker 1: cares about their wellness and who wants to do these
Speaker 1: things because this is how I want to experience and
Speaker 1: show up in life, regardless of if I have this
Speaker 1: disease or not. I don't only want to do these
Speaker 1: things to change this outcome. I want to do this
Speaker 1: because it feels good to me. It feels good to
Speaker 1: me to sleep and to have a routine. It feels
Speaker 1: good to me to hydrate myself, knowing that that helps
Speaker 1: with my digestion, that helps with my consistency in my day.
Speaker 1: When I'm eating really beautiful, nourishing foods, that gives me energy,
Speaker 1: it supports me, it does make me feel really good
Speaker 1: but sometimes I think that we can get very caught
Speaker 1: up with like doing certain things because we know it
Speaker 1: will fix the thing, which is again not necessarily the
Speaker 1: worst thing in the world, of course, but especially when
Speaker 1: you're in the waiting period, sometimes you can kind of
Speaker 1: you can mix up the two and then it becomes
Speaker 1: overwhelming and then you don't want to do it, Like
Speaker 1: I remember, seriously this is And of course the realization
Speaker 1: came on the toilet, because I'm like always on the toilet,
Speaker 1: like it's not too much information, it's really not, it's
Speaker 1: really not. That's my life right now. But I was
Speaker 1: on the freaking toilet and I was just so sick
Speaker 1: of this whole situation. I was like, I'm tired of
Speaker 1: having to do with these hundred things, all of these
Speaker 1: wellness things, because this is what I do, right I'm
Speaker 1: this like perfectionist, and I know all the things that
Speaker 1: I need to do that are good for me, all
Speaker 1: of the nervous system regulation da da da dah, this
Speaker 1: that and the third. But I was doing a lot
Speaker 1: of it from a place of trying to change my
Speaker 1: colitis and like trying to fix it and trying to heal,
Speaker 1: and I found I was getting so overwhelmed because I
Speaker 1: was having the mindset of only doing these things so
Speaker 1: that I can change my circumstance. And then I was like,
Speaker 1: it's no wonder that I'm getting so annoyed that I
Speaker 1: almost don't want to do these things, and it's because
Speaker 1: I'm not really showing up in my life as like
Speaker 1: wanting to do these things because they feel good to me.
Speaker 1: And so anything that you are going to do to
Speaker 1: help aid you during a waiting period, because obviously a
Speaker 1: waiting period is not you literally meditating. You know, there's
Speaker 1: obviously some things that you might need to do, but
Speaker 1: it's the energy in which you do that from. And
Speaker 1: for me, there is an aspect where I am grateful
Speaker 1: for what's going on right now because it did make
Speaker 1: me see how there was a lot of things that
Speaker 1: I was just doing just because I knew that I
Speaker 1: needed to do them, and I realized I wasn't that
Speaker 1: connected to these healthy habits in that way, and it
Speaker 1: was teetering on the doing it for the end result,
Speaker 1: and that never really sticks right, or that never really
Speaker 1: resonates to your nervous system. It's like your nervous system
Speaker 1: your inner child. It's like it is when you're doing
Speaker 1: shit from a place of yeah, okay, I'm just gonna
Speaker 1: do this until I get that result. And this is
Speaker 1: also probably me moving into my twenty ninth year. I
Speaker 1: just really, really, actually enjoy feeling good. I do. I
Speaker 1: really like the feeling of being well rested and eating
Speaker 1: well and hydrating. And this is a result of me
Speaker 1: going through this flare up. But this was also something
Speaker 1: that I was kind of coming to, even like the
Speaker 1: whole year of being like, I just want to feel good.
Speaker 1: I am so sick of not feeling good and or
Speaker 1: only doing things just to get that outcome. And this
Speaker 1: reminds me of when I first went on my Globe
Speaker 1: journey and I wanted to lose weight to be skinny
Speaker 1: for summer, and it was always that every single year,
Speaker 1: I only wanted to work out and I only wanted
Speaker 1: to care about my health so I could get that
Speaker 1: end result. And I never got that end result because
Speaker 1: I only cared about doing it for that end result.
Speaker 1: And then you know, that is hard to sustain, you know,
Speaker 1: because it's not a lifestyle. You aren't picking up working
Speaker 1: out or eating well or regulating your nervous system or
Speaker 1: hanging out with the right type of people, because this
Speaker 1: is how you want to live your life. You're just
Speaker 1: doing it so you can get that end result and
Speaker 1: then you can kind of go back to living the
Speaker 1: life that you were living. But it's like, was that
Speaker 1: life really that good? When you don't sleep well, when
Speaker 1: you are picking up toxic habits, when you're numbing out
Speaker 1: the pain, when you are just running running running running
Speaker 1: and ignoring and just suppressing, it's not really And I
Speaker 1: think sometimes you have to go through a lot of
Speaker 1: those cycles before, unfortunately you realize, you know what, I'm
Speaker 1: so sick of not feeling good. Unfortunately, at least that's
Speaker 1: been my story. I've had many rock bottoms, and that's
Speaker 1: just how it's been for me. Hopefully, maybe that's not
Speaker 1: exactly how it is for you guys, but that's usually
Speaker 1: how it is for me. So when it comes to
Speaker 1: whatever it is that you are doing in this moment,
Speaker 1: try to really examine your relationship with the things that
Speaker 1: you are trying to do in your life, and see
Speaker 1: how much am I doing this from this place of
Speaker 1: like just trying to do it so I can get
Speaker 1: by and so I can get out of it, versus
Speaker 1: how can I live my life right now, in the
Speaker 1: present moment, and do these things because I want to
Speaker 1: feel good now, regardless of if this is gonna change
Speaker 1: my circumstance. And again, I know it's so hard, right
Speaker 1: because there is always going to be a part of
Speaker 1: me that, yeah, the meditation better work tonight because I'm
Speaker 1: trying to feel better in the morning. That's okay too,
Speaker 1: But realistically, I do want to feel like I'm in
Speaker 1: a meditatid state when I'm going to sleep, regardless of
Speaker 1: if I'm in pain or not, because it feels so
Speaker 1: good and it sets me up for success the next day,
Speaker 1: whatever the benefits are. And this kind of leads me
Speaker 1: into the next thing of no longer just waiting for
Speaker 1: that end goal and trying to find some joy in,
Speaker 1: some happiness or some peace in the process. And this
Speaker 1: is very listen when you're going through hard times talking
Speaker 1: about joy and peace and happiness in the process. Baby,
Speaker 1: I'm not finding any joy or peace when I'm on
Speaker 1: the toilet. I promise you that anything near that, okay,
Speaker 1: But what I like to do, and this is very circumstantial, right,
Speaker 1: It depends on what you're going through, But I still
Speaker 1: do my best to try to remind myself of what
Speaker 1: is going good in this process right now, and how
Speaker 1: can I list even three things that are going well?
Speaker 1: And I'll give you an example. When I go to
Speaker 1: the washroom and there is pain, it takes a lot
Speaker 1: out of me. But what I like to say, this
Speaker 1: is just my circumstance right now, is usually what I
Speaker 1: do is I take a bath. So, for one, I
Speaker 1: am so incredibly grateful that I can get off the
Speaker 1: toilet and go into the bath because the bath obviously
Speaker 1: helps my body recover a little bit, and it feels
Speaker 1: so therapeutic even though I'm in the worst pain ever.
Speaker 1: So I'm so grateful for that. And I'll just sit
Speaker 1: in the bathroom a moment and I'll just like breathe,
Speaker 1: and I think back to the time, Guys, I think
Speaker 1: back to the time where I was nowhere near their
Speaker 1: life that I had. I is financially struggling. This was
Speaker 1: like I don't even know twenty seventeen, twenty eighteen, life
Speaker 1: was completely different. My mom was going through her addictions.
Speaker 1: I was living through so much trauma and stress. I
Speaker 1: was unhealthy. I had a bad relationship with food as
Speaker 1: I was going through a flare up which made things worse.
Speaker 1: I was not really aligned. I didn't have like that
Speaker 1: job that I had whatever. There was a lot of things,
Speaker 1: and I was going through a flare up and I
Speaker 1: was in the same amount of pain. But we didn't
Speaker 1: have enough hot water, or I didn't have enough hot
Speaker 1: water in that apartment that I was in to be
Speaker 1: able to have a bath. So when I was on
Speaker 1: the toilet like, I was just in more pain. And
Speaker 1: maybe I had a heating pad or something. I don't know,
Speaker 1: but I just remember how uncomfortable I was and how
Speaker 1: much I wished I had a bath that was hot
Speaker 1: that I could just lay in. And so I think
Speaker 1: about that time when I'm in this bath right now,
Speaker 1: and I'm you know, I'm in this bath in pain.
Speaker 1: I'm still in kind of the same situation, but I
Speaker 1: at least am not where I was before. So I
Speaker 1: always remind myself of that. I also am incredibly grateful
Speaker 1: that I, even though I was going through so much
Speaker 1: hardship and I, you know, was living in fight or
Speaker 1: flight and in survival mode for so many years, I
Speaker 1: built a life for myself as I was going through
Speaker 1: all of that, to the point where now I don't
Speaker 1: have to call off work really because I work for myself.
Speaker 1: And now, mind you, I'm still like slowly taking some
Speaker 1: time off work. You guys probably won't really see it
Speaker 1: too much, but you know, I have to, Like I'm
Speaker 1: not full force right now. There's definitely things that I
Speaker 1: have to adjust, but I do not have to go
Speaker 1: into work. And I think about the times where I
Speaker 1: had to go into work and or I had to
Speaker 1: call off work and I lost a lot of money
Speaker 1: by doing that, and it's not good. It creates even
Speaker 1: more stress and more financial instability. And so I am
Speaker 1: very grateful for that, and I remind myself of that,
Speaker 1: and I think that that makes me feel the strongest
Speaker 1: I have ever felt in my life, where I go
Speaker 1: through the hardest times and I can still find some
Speaker 1: sort of light through it all. And you know, it's
Speaker 1: hard to hear somebody say that when you're going through
Speaker 1: a difficult time. I find like especially people on the internet,
Speaker 1: because it's like, well, what do you know about my situation?
Speaker 1: Is that I don't, You know, I don't and maybe
Speaker 1: there's like barely anything that you can pull, but I've
Speaker 1: been through really hard times where there's always something there's
Speaker 1: just something and even if that situation is not what
Speaker 1: I want it to be, it's at least something like,
Speaker 1: do I really want to be so happy that I'm
Speaker 1: in a bath even though I'm in pain? Like, but
Speaker 1: the bath is like helping with my pain, not even
Speaker 1: really because it's not an enjoyable bath, but at least
Speaker 1: it's helping me a little bit. And for me, I
Speaker 1: would rather sink into that gratitude than anything else. Now,
Speaker 1: when I'm not in excruciating pain, I like to think about,
Speaker 1: you know what, there is a lot of good that's
Speaker 1: coming out of this right There's a lot of downtime
Speaker 1: for me to think about how I want the next
Speaker 1: year to go. I was thrown into a deeper healing
Speaker 1: journey and a deeper like spiritual journey than I even
Speaker 1: thought that I was going to be from this colitis.
Speaker 1: If I'm being honest with you, then I thought and
Speaker 1: I think that that helps me in a lot of ways,
Speaker 1: and I think it helps you guys. I can bring
Speaker 1: that to my audience and my work, and there's really
Speaker 1: just a lot of time for me to see, you know,
Speaker 1: what wasn't really working the past year, And I'm very
Speaker 1: aware what hasn't been working? What has this that? But
Speaker 1: there's something about when you are forced to slow down,
Speaker 1: you will see a lot of things that you didn't
Speaker 1: want to see. And so whatever you're going through, that's
Speaker 1: making you maybe have to slow down, take this time
Speaker 1: to reflect. Right, I think about going through any sort
Speaker 1: of relational issues or financial issues, or you know anything,
Speaker 1: what was out of alignment? How can you step into
Speaker 1: a new authentic version of yourself when you are ready
Speaker 1: to come out of this waiting peace period? And that's
Speaker 1: something to experience and find pleasure in in a way.
Speaker 1: And as much as yeah, I want to be out
Speaker 1: of this circumstance more than anything else because it's created
Speaker 1: a lot of pain. And that's totally fine. I know
Speaker 1: when I'm out of this, I'm not gonna be in
Speaker 1: this spiritual healing phase. I'm gonna be in a new phase.
Speaker 1: And this phase has a lot of wisdom and things
Speaker 1: that I just will not be able to access when
Speaker 1: I'm out of it. And that's fine because it'll be
Speaker 1: a new thing. But there's just wisdom that you will
Speaker 1: only get from this phase of your life. And I
Speaker 1: need you to understand this and the reason why I
Speaker 1: want to say this too is People ask me all
Speaker 1: the time, how are you so wise? How do you
Speaker 1: have the right advice? How did you know this? D
Speaker 1: da da. Obviously there's a lot of elements that create
Speaker 1: who I am and how I show up. But there
Speaker 1: are things that I have gone through, these deep dark
Speaker 1: holes in my life, these rock bottoms, where I got
Speaker 1: this wisdom from. It hasn't come from anything else. It
Speaker 1: didn't come from any book, It didn't come from any
Speaker 1: YouTube video. Nobody taught me this. I didn't learn it
Speaker 1: in school. I didn't learn it from my parents. I
Speaker 1: learned it from being in rock bottom, in excruciating amount
Speaker 1: of pain and not having any answers and having to
Speaker 1: be left with myself to figure it out. That's how
Speaker 1: I have some of the deepest amount of wisdom that
Speaker 1: I have. I'm not saying I'm like the most wise
Speaker 1: person ever. I'm not, but that's where that comes from.
Speaker 1: And so there is a little bit of acknowledgment for
Speaker 1: that dark time. And I also think about this when
Speaker 1: it comes to when my father died. There was something
Speaker 1: that I experienced that nobody taught me. But there was
Speaker 1: this level of like wisdom that happened. I grew up
Speaker 1: in a way when I was sixteen years old. That
Speaker 1: just came to me because of the grief and the loss.
Speaker 1: And is that something that I wanted to ever happen?
Speaker 1: I wish on anyone or this that, No, but only
Speaker 1: the loss of my father created that wisdom. Unfortunately, you know,
Speaker 1: there is duality, there's light and dark, and so when
Speaker 1: you find people who are really wise or they have
Speaker 1: this something or whatever, and you want that as well. Well.
Speaker 1: I mean, let's hope you don't have to go through
Speaker 1: really hard times, but everyone goes through hard times. A
Speaker 1: lot of times. It does come from those hard times.
Speaker 1: The next thing that I want to talk about is
Speaker 1: something that I think always tends to happen for me
Speaker 1: and within other people when it comes to continuously running
Speaker 1: away from the present moment and yourself and the uncomfortable
Speaker 1: feeling of like waiting, which is all or nothing thinking.
Speaker 1: So coming back to when you're in a waiting period
Speaker 1: and you're going through something that you just can't really change.
Speaker 1: You can't really do much, and if there is something
Speaker 1: that you can do, it's probably like the smallest amount
Speaker 1: of things that you can do, right, like for my clitis,
Speaker 1: you know, I could bely do like a ten minute
Speaker 1: meditation or like a ten minute yoga session, or like
Speaker 1: a tiny little walk, but those small things still count
Speaker 1: and they still can be very very helpful. But sometimes
Speaker 1: my mind will be like going back to the fixing
Speaker 1: energy well, because I can't go doing my hour hawk
Speaker 1: or a walk, it doesn't count, And then I'm back
Speaker 1: in this energy of just needing it to be over
Speaker 1: and waiting for this thing to change, and then just
Speaker 1: being really on happy and miserable and not taking care
Speaker 1: of myself in the process of things. So just a reminder, Okay,
Speaker 1: when you're going through anything, small actions are worth it,
Speaker 1: and quite frankly, that's really all your body needs. Sometimes
Speaker 1: that's really all your mental health needs. Sometimes sorry my
Speaker 1: camera overheated, But basically, when it comes to all or
Speaker 1: nothing thinking, it can also mess up some of your
Speaker 1: healing because healing, like I said, takes ten times probably
Speaker 1: longer sometimes and I don't want to set you up
Speaker 1: for like feeling like it's gonna take forever, but sometimes
Speaker 1: it just takes way longer, Like you just don't know,
Speaker 1: especially when it comes to health, like you cannot determine
Speaker 1: when your body wants to heal. Like we don't know,
Speaker 1: you know, and you could be supporting yourself in small
Speaker 1: little ways and it could build momentum and really be
Speaker 1: allowing yourselves to repair or your emotional health to repair,
Speaker 1: you know, all of these things. But because you're like, oh,
Speaker 1: if it's not everything, then it's nothing, it's like you
Speaker 1: keep stalling that progress because realistically, you're not gonna see
Speaker 1: progress every single second all the time, right There's gonna
Speaker 1: be a lot of downtime. And I've had to really
Speaker 1: remind myself of that, especially with my health symptoms. You know,
Speaker 1: if I wake up and I have the same symptoms
Speaker 1: as yesterday, does that mean my medications not working in
Speaker 1: the background and repairing and taking its time. No, it
Speaker 1: definitely is. It just doesn't feel like it at the moment.
Speaker 1: So I'm not going to then go into the fixing
Speaker 1: energy and be like nothing's working. I need to figure
Speaker 1: out that, Dada, this, that and the third. Now, obviously
Speaker 1: you need to discern for yourself, depending on what you're
Speaker 1: talking about, how long you're waiting, you want to advocate yourself.
Speaker 1: You want to obviously make sure that you're caring for
Speaker 1: yourself and you aren't leaving things unchecked and you're reaching
Speaker 1: out for support. But I feel like for a lot
Speaker 1: of us, the running awayers, the ones who don't like
Speaker 1: any form of slowing it down, we take three seconds
Speaker 1: and then we're like, Okay, it's not working. I need
Speaker 1: to change everything about this, you know. I always think
Speaker 1: about this when it comes to even working out as well.
Speaker 1: It's like you go to the gym for a month
Speaker 1: and you're like, oh, nothing's working. I need to change
Speaker 1: the way that I'm doing my diet and my exercises,
Speaker 1: and you're going online this, that, and the third it's like, babe,
Speaker 1: it's been a month. Okay, a month. I know it
Speaker 1: feels like forever, but it's not. And I think about
Speaker 1: how long did it take for you to get to
Speaker 1: the place that you're at right Probably longer than a month.
Speaker 1: And this is not to say it's going to take
Speaker 1: the same amount of time to reverse whatever it is
Speaker 1: are you're going through for you to get out of it.
Speaker 1: But give yourself a second, okay. And how you give
Speaker 1: yourself a second as well is being more mindful. And
Speaker 1: this is something that I'm really practicing right now in
Speaker 1: my life right So mindfulness practices, mindfulness practices can be anything.
Speaker 1: It can be meditation. It can be eating your food,
Speaker 1: listening to jazz music instead of watching a vlog. It
Speaker 1: can be going outside not listening to any music. It
Speaker 1: can be checking with your body every morning and be like,
Speaker 1: what do I need today. But it can simply just
Speaker 1: being taking things off of your plate. Less goals, less
Speaker 1: to do lists, less thinking in the future. Just be
Speaker 1: here in the present moment right now. If that just
Speaker 1: means you're gonna watch your favorite show and you're gonna
Speaker 1: color and that's all you're doing, and you're not being productive,
Speaker 1: so be it. And this is a reminder that you
Speaker 1: don't always have to be productive. Okay, Sometimes being unproductive
Speaker 1: is the best thing that you can do for yourself.
Speaker 1: And that's what I've been doing. As much as I
Speaker 1: want to push, as much as I have so many
Speaker 1: things that I want to do on my to do list,
Speaker 1: I know it is not supportive of myself right now
Speaker 1: for me to hyper focus on that. And I can
Speaker 1: do a little bit of dreaming, I can do a
Speaker 1: little bit of mood boards. I can you know, think
Speaker 1: about some things, but I have to be aware when
Speaker 1: I'm doing that from a place of running away from myself.
Speaker 1: I am allowing myself to watch shows, and I'm coloring
Speaker 1: a lot, and I'm taking a bath if I need
Speaker 1: to take a bath. I am going on a walk
Speaker 1: if I feel like I can go on my walk.
Speaker 1: I am letting myself not go on a walk and
Speaker 1: not feel like crap out myself and be like, oh,
Speaker 1: you didn't getr steps in. Oh my god, you should
Speaker 1: have gone for a walk if I can, because my
Speaker 1: stomach hurts. You know, I'm speaking to myself kindly and understanding.
Speaker 1: You know what, today's not today, Today's not your day.
Speaker 1: You can't do it. You can't record the podcast today
Speaker 1: because it's just not your day. And that's okay, and
Speaker 1: you have to do that for yourself with whatever it is.
Speaker 1: You know what, maybe you can't go to that event
Speaker 1: because you are not well. That's okay. If you are
Speaker 1: right now, let's say struggling financially, or the thing that
Speaker 1: you are running away from is just kind of making
Speaker 1: your life a little bit of a mess. You're gonna
Speaker 1: be okay. You're gonna figure it out. And this doesn't
Speaker 1: mean that doesn't change the fact that it might be
Speaker 1: a little bit of a mess. Right when I think
Speaker 1: about when I had to not work or when I
Speaker 1: was sick, all of those things. But I was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, it's all go. I'm gonna figure it
Speaker 1: out right now. What I need is I need to rest,
Speaker 1: I need to listen to my body. I need to adjust,
Speaker 1: I need to talk to the doctors, I need to
Speaker 1: talk to people around me. Whatever I need to do,
Speaker 1: I need to do it. I need to honor myself.
Speaker 1: And it's not the way that I want it to
Speaker 1: be right now, and it's not perfect, and it's not
Speaker 1: on plan, but that's fine because me trying to force
Speaker 1: the plan is me rejecting myself, running away from myself
Speaker 1: and making it worse. And I'll figure it out. I'll
Speaker 1: figure out the plan when it is time. But the
Speaker 1: only plan that needs to be put in motion right
Speaker 1: now is for me to be here with myself. And
Speaker 1: that's about it. So that's all I'm gonna talk about
Speaker 1: today on this episode, because actually my stomach is hurting
Speaker 1: and I need to go. But I want to hear
Speaker 1: in the comments, and I also want to hear like
Speaker 1: on Spotify, you guys can leave your comments what resonated
Speaker 1: from this episode and if there's any other thing that
Speaker 1: you want me to talk about, like for next week's episode,
Speaker 1: please let me know. I'm sure this is going to
Speaker 1: resonate in some sense and maybe you need to hear more.
Speaker 1: Maybe what do you need to hear you let me know.
Speaker 1: I do have a few episodes like ideas and stuff,
Speaker 1: but you guys know, I kind of like to talk
Speaker 1: about what I'm either going through or what I feel
Speaker 1: like is the most important. And I think that this
Speaker 1: was important to talk about. So yeah, that's what I'm
Speaker 1: going through. I hope this helps in some sense. And
Speaker 1: just know that I'm with you guys, and we're gonna
Speaker 1: get through it as we always do. And that's just
Speaker 1: season of life that we're on. And all I know
Speaker 1: is it's just going to make me a better person,
Speaker 1: you know, and sometimes it just happens when it happens. Anyways,
Speaker 1: last thing, I have my digital guides, my Abundance Mindset
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Speaker 1: They're all digital. You can download them and you can
Speaker 1: fill them in when you download them, or you can
Speaker 1: just use them like with your own journal and like
Speaker 1: look at them and whatever. All of those guides are
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Speaker 1: Maybe something that you can do during this time. I
Speaker 1: really love to come inwards and spend time with my
Speaker 1: you know, my mental self and my mental health and
Speaker 1: you know, really reflect and do a lot of healing
Speaker 1: work in that way when it comes to these periods
Speaker 1: of my life. But not to push, not to force.
Speaker 1: It's just a natural, usually like process that happens. So
Speaker 1: maybe that's something that you want to explore, So that'll
Speaker 1: be down below. I hope you guys enjoy and I'll
Speaker 1: see you in the next one. Bye.