WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.640 --> 00:00:02.839 Hello, welcome to Private Talk. 2 00:00:02.960 --> 00:00:05.160 Oh, thank you, I'm so glad to be here. Yes, 3 00:00:05.320 --> 00:00:05.639 me too. 4 00:00:05.759 --> 00:00:07.799 It's like one of those things, it's like I know 5 00:00:07.879 --> 00:00:10.759 you through other people, but I don't know you, and 6 00:00:10.800 --> 00:00:12.640 I wanted to get my Private Talk listeners out there 7 00:00:12.679 --> 00:00:14.720 to know you a little bit more intimately as well, 8 00:00:15.039 --> 00:00:17.280 so I needed to have you on here. But yes, 9 00:00:17.359 --> 00:00:20.879 tell us about yourself. You're an adult entertainer superstar. I 10 00:00:20.879 --> 00:00:23.920 have been around for a very long time, and I 11 00:00:24.000 --> 00:00:26.000 love that you have that energy still about you. You're 12 00:00:26.079 --> 00:00:29.039 super like, youthful, you look very to the point where 13 00:00:29.079 --> 00:00:31.320 you still enjoy what you do, which is really hard 14 00:00:31.320 --> 00:00:34.079 sometimes when being in an industry such as ours, is 15 00:00:34.079 --> 00:00:37.640 because people get jaded, people have bad experiences and everybody. 16 00:00:37.640 --> 00:00:39.119 What I like is that it's. 17 00:00:39.039 --> 00:00:42.399 Uniquely different for everybody, you know, even with their interactions 18 00:00:42.399 --> 00:00:45.280 with people, like you know, it's human nature to not 19 00:00:45.399 --> 00:00:48.520 always like people or to be more chemically attracted to 20 00:00:48.560 --> 00:00:51.719 them sexually, and that comes out on film, you know, naturally. 21 00:00:51.799 --> 00:00:54.280 So tell us about all those things mystering. 22 00:00:54.719 --> 00:00:57.240 Well, I am sure, Deville. I have been in the 23 00:00:57.439 --> 00:01:01.119 adult entertainment industry for a little for eleven years now, 24 00:01:01.200 --> 00:01:05.599 which even saying out loud feels crazy. That is a 25 00:01:05.640 --> 00:01:09.640 long in our industry, that's a pretty good tenure, you know, 26 00:01:09.959 --> 00:01:10.280 for sure. 27 00:01:10.280 --> 00:01:12.519 And that's why I say, like it's you're so so happy. 28 00:01:12.560 --> 00:01:14.200 You know, you're talking before you know we started, and 29 00:01:14.239 --> 00:01:16.359 you're just like talking how you're still working for companies 30 00:01:16.719 --> 00:01:18.519 and a lot of people either don't or you know, 31 00:01:19.000 --> 00:01:21.239 go different places in their life that doesn't, but you 32 00:01:21.280 --> 00:01:24.599 seem like you're still like as happy as day one. 33 00:01:25.079 --> 00:01:28.680 To me, this is an amazing job. Like I've loved 34 00:01:28.680 --> 00:01:31.239 it right from the beginning. And and like you said, 35 00:01:31.280 --> 00:01:33.879 a lot of people have, you know, a wide variety 36 00:01:33.879 --> 00:01:38.120 of experiences. But for me, I'm you know, I got 37 00:01:38.159 --> 00:01:41.120 into the industry in my mid thirties, so I don't 38 00:01:41.200 --> 00:01:44.760 feel like I made some of the the mistakes that 39 00:01:44.799 --> 00:01:47.359 maybe some of the younger people have made, or that 40 00:01:47.439 --> 00:01:50.719 I would have made when I'm younger. You know, I 41 00:01:50.760 --> 00:01:52.840 while I was easing my way into the industry, I 42 00:01:52.920 --> 00:01:55.400 had another job, so I never have depended on this 43 00:01:55.920 --> 00:01:59.280 fully for my income, which I think does a lot 44 00:01:59.359 --> 00:02:02.680 of things in including allow you to make whatever choices 45 00:02:02.719 --> 00:02:05.280 you want to make in your heart without having money 46 00:02:05.359 --> 00:02:07.879 be an issue at all. You know, people choosing how 47 00:02:07.879 --> 00:02:10.919 many scenes they want to do a month, what partners 48 00:02:10.960 --> 00:02:14.000 they want to have, what sexual acts they want to perform. 49 00:02:14.319 --> 00:02:17.240 A lot of times, when money becomes a really big issue, 50 00:02:17.719 --> 00:02:20.800 those lines can get a little blurry. It's like, well, 51 00:02:21.159 --> 00:02:23.919 I can't pay my rent, and I guess I could 52 00:02:23.919 --> 00:02:27.159 do this, you know, And I feel like those small 53 00:02:27.360 --> 00:02:31.360 decisions can add up to make sort of an unhappy person, 54 00:02:31.439 --> 00:02:33.680 a person that might feel jaded, a person that might 55 00:02:33.719 --> 00:02:37.000 not feel the level of autonomy that I've been blessed 56 00:02:37.199 --> 00:02:41.199 to be able to feel. So my kind of trajectory 57 00:02:41.199 --> 00:02:43.919 in this job has been different than some because when 58 00:02:43.960 --> 00:02:45.919 I was too new to make a lot of money, 59 00:02:46.319 --> 00:02:49.639 I had another job, you know, and then slowly kind 60 00:02:49.680 --> 00:02:53.039 of eased out of physical therapy and eased more into 61 00:02:53.120 --> 00:02:57.199 adult work as it felt appropriate and emotionally comfortable. So 62 00:02:57.520 --> 00:03:00.560 I think that's why I still can perform happily. For sure. 63 00:03:00.560 --> 00:03:02.319 It's one of those things that I think that, you know, 64 00:03:02.360 --> 00:03:04.879 eating with myself I started when I was twenty one, 65 00:03:04.879 --> 00:03:07.759 But I always said, you know, even the difference between 66 00:03:07.800 --> 00:03:10.159 eighteen to twenty one is quite a difference of not 67 00:03:10.199 --> 00:03:13.400 necessarily age per se by you know, the number wise, 68 00:03:13.479 --> 00:03:16.719 but as far as like experience and things that you're 69 00:03:16.759 --> 00:03:19.080 willing to do or be persuaded to think. You know, 70 00:03:19.120 --> 00:03:21.080 because we are already in the sexual industry, and it's 71 00:03:21.120 --> 00:03:23.840 not that we not necessarily that wouldn't say care about, 72 00:03:23.919 --> 00:03:26.080 but we want to glorify certain things about ourself or 73 00:03:26.120 --> 00:03:27.639 we find things that we like, you know about it, 74 00:03:27.680 --> 00:03:30.280 and that's right for me. I discovered my sexuality, as 75 00:03:30.319 --> 00:03:33.000 you know, in my twenties, but I could see at 76 00:03:33.039 --> 00:03:36.120 that age also how manipulative some things could go. Or 77 00:03:36.159 --> 00:03:38.719 if it starts to deteriorate, you're like, oh, well, I 78 00:03:38.800 --> 00:03:40.879 do need this fourth scene or I do need to 79 00:03:40.919 --> 00:03:43.439 make this whatever, and then it starts to become a 80 00:03:43.520 --> 00:03:46.560 ripple effect of where do those lines cross and where 81 00:03:46.560 --> 00:03:48.479 are your no list? And yesnest and you know what 82 00:03:48.479 --> 00:03:51.000 I mean. And also big important things as agents, you 83 00:03:51.039 --> 00:03:53.199 know what I mean, Agents who you who has who 84 00:03:53.240 --> 00:03:56.120 are on your side and who's fighting advocating for you 85 00:03:56.240 --> 00:03:58.039 is a big thing too. And someone who makes you 86 00:03:58.080 --> 00:04:01.000 feel that it's actually there were working for you and 87 00:04:01.199 --> 00:04:03.439 they're not working. It's not the other way around. And 88 00:04:03.479 --> 00:04:04.879 for a long time, I feel like there was a 89 00:04:04.919 --> 00:04:07.800 disconnect in the industry because of those things. And I'm 90 00:04:07.800 --> 00:04:10.680 glad to happy, happily to see things kind of change 91 00:04:10.840 --> 00:04:12.919 and still be agents and still be you know, big 92 00:04:12.960 --> 00:04:15.199 you know, contenders in the industry and in the adult 93 00:04:15.240 --> 00:04:18.639 industry and still have women as yourself. And like with me, 94 00:04:18.759 --> 00:04:21.040 I never had a bad experience in my agency. It 95 00:04:21.040 --> 00:04:22.879 was always you know, there was other rumors and things 96 00:04:22.879 --> 00:04:24.879 like that going wrong. But for me, per se my 97 00:04:25.120 --> 00:04:28.279 individual path and when I had a great you know 98 00:04:28.360 --> 00:04:31.160 career and people were very respectful if it's because I 99 00:04:31.199 --> 00:04:33.519 was you know, married earlier on in a performer who 100 00:04:33.560 --> 00:04:36.560 they respected or just respected me, you know, And I 101 00:04:36.600 --> 00:04:40.319 feel like it does kind of for me personally gave 102 00:04:40.399 --> 00:04:43.680 me more strength to do more scenes because and I'm like, oh, 103 00:04:43.720 --> 00:04:45.839 I feel like power. I feel like it felt such 104 00:04:45.839 --> 00:04:50.680 a like a gratifying you know exchange to you know, 105 00:04:50.720 --> 00:04:52.639 show people. That's why I say it's one orgasm. It's 106 00:04:52.639 --> 00:04:55.000 helping people one orgasm at a time. So it's a 107 00:04:55.000 --> 00:04:55.680 beautiful thing. 108 00:04:55.759 --> 00:04:58.959 Well, you probably respected yourself, and I feel like people 109 00:04:59.000 --> 00:05:03.600 can read that, you know, you'll have you know, I'm 110 00:05:03.600 --> 00:05:05.680 just going to use word predators. There are people in 111 00:05:05.720 --> 00:05:08.600 this industry and in all industries who are going to 112 00:05:08.639 --> 00:05:12.199 take advantage of people, whether it's financially, sexually, you know, 113 00:05:12.240 --> 00:05:14.959 and and there were bad people even in physical therapy. 114 00:05:15.000 --> 00:05:19.240 But it's really based on the person's attitude. You were 115 00:05:19.279 --> 00:05:22.040 probably never a prey animal, if that makes sense. 116 00:05:22.079 --> 00:05:26.800 You probably had something that people are like. I usually 117 00:05:26.959 --> 00:05:28.920 my mother would say, you have a really great resting 118 00:05:28.920 --> 00:05:30.879 budch face, And I'm like, it's because I like to 119 00:05:30.920 --> 00:05:33.240 deter people to come up to me for bullshit. If 120 00:05:33.240 --> 00:05:35.279 you want to break down that be listing bitch face. 121 00:05:35.319 --> 00:05:37.519 I'm happy to talk to anybody. But you know, it's 122 00:05:37.560 --> 00:05:40.079 also you know, how you navigate through business, and you know, 123 00:05:40.160 --> 00:05:41.600 and what we do is a business. 124 00:05:41.839 --> 00:05:44.879 Yeah, and if you take it as a business, and 125 00:05:44.959 --> 00:05:47.800 if you hold yourself like a business woman, then people 126 00:05:47.879 --> 00:05:51.480 treat you like that. You know, even you hear bad 127 00:05:51.480 --> 00:05:53.879 things about all agencies. You know, this rum or, that 128 00:05:53.959 --> 00:05:56.720 room or whatever rumor. But I've had nothing but an 129 00:05:56.759 --> 00:06:00.439 amazing experience. But I also demand an amazing ex experience. 130 00:06:00.480 --> 00:06:03.040 And if someone isn't going to give me the experience 131 00:06:03.079 --> 00:06:05.759 I need, I'm going to move on for sure. You know, 132 00:06:05.759 --> 00:06:07.319 knowing your boundaries. 133 00:06:06.839 --> 00:06:09.800 I like that, like Khodose to you, that's strong to 134 00:06:09.839 --> 00:06:12.399 have because especially you know, we get so ridiculed with 135 00:06:12.439 --> 00:06:15.720 social media and all these other things, like these other 136 00:06:15.800 --> 00:06:19.040 atmospheres that don't really we didn't really have before where 137 00:06:19.040 --> 00:06:21.680 it's like not that they weren't as adamant and like 138 00:06:21.680 --> 00:06:23.600 there was forums like porn hub has, you know, all 139 00:06:23.600 --> 00:06:26.160 those things or everyone. I was like, I know, there's 140 00:06:26.160 --> 00:06:28.319 another one that I can remember, But for me, it 141 00:06:28.399 --> 00:06:30.959 was I never really like in the beginning, I kind 142 00:06:30.959 --> 00:06:33.519 of looked here and there, but I didn't like to 143 00:06:33.680 --> 00:06:37.879 like like fixate on the negative because I was having 144 00:06:37.920 --> 00:06:38.600 a good experience. 145 00:06:38.680 --> 00:06:39.480 It was about what. 146 00:06:39.439 --> 00:06:41.959 I felt and I didn't care if anybody watched it 147 00:06:42.000 --> 00:06:44.360 because I still got paid. Until later on in my 148 00:06:44.399 --> 00:06:48.000 career did I like really get into the people watching it. 149 00:06:48.040 --> 00:06:50.480 And then getting in like sexually turned onto that part. 150 00:06:50.560 --> 00:06:53.839 So it was like levels to unlocking my sexuality, which 151 00:06:53.879 --> 00:06:56.319 I feel like also why it helped me have the 152 00:06:56.360 --> 00:06:58.000 career that I did and I didn't. I also do 153 00:06:58.160 --> 00:06:59.920 things that I didn't want you or I didn't feel 154 00:06:59.959 --> 00:07:01.399 like I was ready to. It's not that I didn't 155 00:07:01.399 --> 00:07:03.639 want to or feel like I was ready to step 156 00:07:03.759 --> 00:07:06.360 we do because my biggest thing in the business was, 157 00:07:06.720 --> 00:07:08.480 oh what do you do or what you don't do, 158 00:07:08.519 --> 00:07:10.399 and then it's like, oh, just wait, give it time, 159 00:07:10.480 --> 00:07:13.600 you'll do everything. And I thought offended to that because 160 00:07:13.600 --> 00:07:16.079 of the fact, like maybe it's true for some people 161 00:07:16.120 --> 00:07:18.800 and maybe you known cuiche you know, like kudos, but 162 00:07:20.000 --> 00:07:22.920 I feel like it was like almost like oh, you'll lose, 163 00:07:23.000 --> 00:07:25.040 You're gonna give your soul away, or like you're just 164 00:07:25.040 --> 00:07:27.000 for money. What dollar amount can I flash in your 165 00:07:27.000 --> 00:07:29.720 face to do this? And if I wanted to have 166 00:07:29.759 --> 00:07:31.959 the free reign of if I wanted that dollar or 167 00:07:31.959 --> 00:07:34.279 not that like you said before, the money dollar denomination, 168 00:07:34.360 --> 00:07:36.040 didn't matter what you were doing, you would do it 169 00:07:36.079 --> 00:07:38.519 regardless because you wanted to do it. So it took 170 00:07:38.519 --> 00:07:40.199 that away. So for me, I was just like, no, 171 00:07:40.399 --> 00:07:41.680 fuck you, I'm not gonna do anything. You know what 172 00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:43.199 I do? You know what I mean, just because and 173 00:07:43.240 --> 00:07:45.720 I just took that stance. But right or wrong, but 174 00:07:45.759 --> 00:07:48.319 that's just my you know how I feel like me personally, 175 00:07:48.319 --> 00:07:50.120 I had to guard myself because it's like, what do 176 00:07:50.199 --> 00:07:51.920 you think we're doing? You know, we do it because 177 00:07:51.920 --> 00:07:53.399 we want to do it. We show up, you know 178 00:07:53.399 --> 00:07:53.720 what I mean. 179 00:07:53.759 --> 00:07:56.199 It's you know, when you're ready, when you're emotionally ready, 180 00:07:56.199 --> 00:07:59.600 when you're physically ready, you know, whatever that means to 181 00:07:59.639 --> 00:08:02.759 each I think you're right. It doesn't matter what the 182 00:08:02.800 --> 00:08:04.720 fans think, it doesn't matter what your agent think, it 183 00:08:04.759 --> 00:08:07.240 doesn't matter what your peers are doing. If you're not 184 00:08:07.319 --> 00:08:10.399 happy doing what you're doing, one, it's gonna show on film. 185 00:08:10.720 --> 00:08:14.639 And two that's the stuff that I think does create 186 00:08:14.759 --> 00:08:18.240 internal problems. You know. And again, this is not just porn. 187 00:08:18.279 --> 00:08:21.759 It's not just because we're having sex. It's yeah, any business. 188 00:08:21.800 --> 00:08:24.319 If you're you know, taking shit from your boss and 189 00:08:24.360 --> 00:08:26.319 doing things that you don't want to do, that's not 190 00:08:26.360 --> 00:08:27.680 true to you, Yeah. 191 00:08:27.560 --> 00:08:30.040 Saying true to you. So what kind of scenes do 192 00:08:30.120 --> 00:08:32.279 you love to do? I know what you're known for 193 00:08:32.360 --> 00:08:33.960 in all your fans leve, but what kind of scenes 194 00:08:33.960 --> 00:08:36.519 do you know that year it's like just your favorite 195 00:08:36.519 --> 00:08:38.639 when you're gonna, you know, decide to do that scene. 196 00:08:39.120 --> 00:08:44.639 For me, I have the most fun with unscripted romantic 197 00:08:44.799 --> 00:08:47.159 like I want to get to know like your soul, 198 00:08:47.639 --> 00:08:49.480 you know, I want you to look into my eyes. 199 00:08:49.679 --> 00:08:53.039 I want to like feel your presence. And sometimes when 200 00:08:53.399 --> 00:08:57.120 you have an overscripted scene, you're so at least not 201 00:08:57.120 --> 00:08:59.159 not you, but like For me, I'm so in my 202 00:08:59.240 --> 00:09:01.799 head going what would this character say, what would this 203 00:09:01.879 --> 00:09:05.080 character think? How would this character fuck? You know, keeping 204 00:09:05.120 --> 00:09:07.919 that storyline through the sex, Well, the sex can be 205 00:09:08.000 --> 00:09:11.480 really good if my mind is twenty percent somewhere else, 206 00:09:11.559 --> 00:09:14.440 it's twenty percent somewhere else. But if you free me 207 00:09:14.519 --> 00:09:17.159 of that, then I feel like those are my most 208 00:09:17.399 --> 00:09:20.120 likely beautiful Yeah, so. 209 00:09:20.039 --> 00:09:22.120 What kind of scenes, what kind of companies like that? 210 00:09:22.159 --> 00:09:25.320 Because I feel like, for me, I didn't do what 211 00:09:25.480 --> 00:09:27.120 it sounds like, because I didn't watch. 212 00:09:27.000 --> 00:09:27.759 Any of your scenes. 213 00:09:27.759 --> 00:09:31.720 I'm sorry, you know what I mean till nothing. Sometimes 214 00:09:31.759 --> 00:09:35.759 it's my own sexual fantasies actually, But so like, do 215 00:09:35.799 --> 00:09:37.639 you do a lot of role playing type of things, 216 00:09:37.919 --> 00:09:40.399 like like that's like no scenario type things, because like 217 00:09:40.440 --> 00:09:42.919 for me, like, oh yeah, in my work, I did 218 00:09:42.960 --> 00:09:46.759 more gonzo of like what you're kind of exactly, So 219 00:09:46.799 --> 00:09:49.759 like I did do a cameo here and there, but 220 00:09:49.799 --> 00:09:52.120 I never in my mind, And it's great that you're 221 00:09:52.120 --> 00:09:54.799 a great performer obviously that you think like that, but 222 00:09:54.919 --> 00:09:58.080 to fuck like whoever you're fucking in the movie, because 223 00:09:58.120 --> 00:10:00.559 I for me, it was always like how I fucked? 224 00:10:00.600 --> 00:10:02.879 Because you're hiring me now? That's probably why I never 225 00:10:02.879 --> 00:10:04.120 got hired for those. 226 00:10:04.039 --> 00:10:06.519 Roles of those movies. They're just like, you know how 227 00:10:06.519 --> 00:10:07.919 to fuck Alexis go and fuck. 228 00:10:08.279 --> 00:10:09.279 You don't need a script. 229 00:10:09.399 --> 00:10:10.279 We don't need any. 230 00:10:10.080 --> 00:10:12.600 Of that because I like, I'm very freestyle, Like my 231 00:10:12.679 --> 00:10:15.000 show is freestyle. I mean, I have, you know, basis 232 00:10:15.039 --> 00:10:16.960 of things I want to get to know, but it's 233 00:10:17.000 --> 00:10:19.919 freestyle and have a conversation and vibe. Like you said, 234 00:10:19.919 --> 00:10:22.320 there's sometimes you have your porno boyfriend you see a 235 00:10:22.360 --> 00:10:24.960 lot on set, or the times that you don't see 236 00:10:24.960 --> 00:10:27.120 someone and you're just so like you have good chemistry, 237 00:10:27.159 --> 00:10:29.879 but just like like seeing long lost lover, you know 238 00:10:30.039 --> 00:10:31.639 it kind of it's one of those things. So it's 239 00:10:31.759 --> 00:10:34.559 cool to have that, But I never had that that 240 00:10:34.559 --> 00:10:37.000 that thinking, I guess of whatever. 241 00:10:37.120 --> 00:10:39.440 So I feel like part of my main role and 242 00:10:39.519 --> 00:10:41.879 porn that I've been put into and that I've carried 243 00:10:41.879 --> 00:10:43.960 on with my own content because the fan base is 244 00:10:44.000 --> 00:10:50.200 there is like a highly fetishized mommy, stepmommy older woman role, 245 00:10:50.840 --> 00:10:54.519 and that is predominantly a femdom role. You know, in 246 00:10:54.559 --> 00:10:57.840 whatever way it's presented, whether Mommy's taking care of you 247 00:10:57.879 --> 00:11:01.039 in a nurturing way, whether mommy's punishing you whether you know, 248 00:11:01.080 --> 00:11:04.200 whatever that older woman is doing, it's usually she's in 249 00:11:04.279 --> 00:11:07.759 control and you're being taken along for the ride. So 250 00:11:07.879 --> 00:11:10.919 that's my professional world. It's like, did you have that 251 00:11:11.639 --> 00:11:14.879 in your real personal I'm a total sub Yeah, I 252 00:11:14.919 --> 00:11:17.360 am the subbiest subct to me. 253 00:11:18.120 --> 00:11:20.519 But that makes more sense to me. And maybe because 254 00:11:20.639 --> 00:11:24.200 I'm kind of that way myself. Is because you're playing 255 00:11:24.200 --> 00:11:25.919 a role. Yeah, you know what I mean, Like you're 256 00:11:25.919 --> 00:11:27.960 not that twenty four to seven. This is like part 257 00:11:28.000 --> 00:11:30.080 of who you are for work, you know what I mean. 258 00:11:30.080 --> 00:11:32.200 And so it's it's easier or it was easier for 259 00:11:32.240 --> 00:11:35.000 me to be like Alexis Texas is a badass bitch 260 00:11:35.039 --> 00:11:36.799 and this is what it is. But I I mean, 261 00:11:36.840 --> 00:11:39.519 I'm still dominant in my personal life, but I like 262 00:11:39.639 --> 00:11:42.279 to be I like to get to that level of being, 263 00:11:42.320 --> 00:11:44.559 like being let to be submissive because I don't want 264 00:11:44.600 --> 00:11:47.039 to be in control of everything in life. Yeah, it's 265 00:11:47.039 --> 00:11:48.039 hard work out of here. 266 00:11:48.000 --> 00:11:51.120 Well, especially in scenes as a milf, Like I'm deciding 267 00:11:51.120 --> 00:11:53.919 the positions, I'm running the dialogue through the scene. Like 268 00:11:53.960 --> 00:11:55.639 you're like, okay, so I just tell me what to 269 00:11:55.679 --> 00:11:57.679 do and I want to be the teen and have 270 00:11:57.759 --> 00:12:00.080 like one pair of cotton panties and get thrown a 271 00:12:00.639 --> 00:12:03.840 thank you. That'd be awesome. That's because like I'm buying 272 00:12:03.919 --> 00:12:07.039 like three piece laundries. That's all this money spun. 273 00:12:07.120 --> 00:12:10.240 Someone ends up, Yeah, that's crazy. I it was funny 274 00:12:10.279 --> 00:12:12.679 because I had Tanya Tate on the show, and I like, 275 00:12:12.919 --> 00:12:17.840 I like, I get I laugh uncontrollably. Sometimes yes, I smugle, 276 00:12:17.919 --> 00:12:19.799 and that helps too with for other things. But when 277 00:12:19.799 --> 00:12:22.519 I get nervous, not nervous, but like awkward. Like so 278 00:12:22.559 --> 00:12:23.879 I was like, if someone would tell me to do 279 00:12:23.919 --> 00:12:25.879 a mommy thing, like I would laugh because I was 280 00:12:25.919 --> 00:12:27.759 asking her what's the scenario because I was like, what's 281 00:12:27.840 --> 00:12:29.879 just And not that it's weird because I get everybody's fetishes, 282 00:12:29.879 --> 00:12:31.919 but for me to be enrolled, like you're saying like 283 00:12:31.960 --> 00:12:34.200 the character and like making that makes sense, I'm like 284 00:12:34.279 --> 00:12:36.200 I would laugh. Like I was like, how would you? 285 00:12:36.559 --> 00:12:38.720 I'm like, give us a scenario? Like tell us when 286 00:12:38.759 --> 00:12:40.159 so I was like if someone told me that, I'm 287 00:12:40.159 --> 00:12:41.879 like I woul laugh, So can you give us a scenario? 288 00:12:42.039 --> 00:12:44.360 When I were you're a little teaser. 289 00:12:44.720 --> 00:12:47.279 I feel like something that I do a lot is 290 00:12:47.399 --> 00:12:51.440 like like kind mommy, like like to my steps and 291 00:12:51.559 --> 00:12:55.039 so maybe I'd be like, hey, baby, how are you 292 00:12:55.039 --> 00:12:58.120 doing today? And there's like a normal thing going on. 293 00:12:58.159 --> 00:13:00.519 Maybe we're in the kitchen and I'm cooking, and all 294 00:13:00.519 --> 00:13:05.320 of a sudden, darling, do you do you have an erection? 295 00:13:06.559 --> 00:13:10.919 Are you looking at mommy and getting it? Well? I 296 00:13:10.919 --> 00:13:12.559 can't send you out of the house like that, that 297 00:13:12.600 --> 00:13:15.480 would be completely inappropriate. How are you going to focus 298 00:13:15.759 --> 00:13:20.120 on your school work with a raging erections? So, you know, 299 00:13:20.240 --> 00:13:23.039 just for his own good, I take care of that 300 00:13:23.120 --> 00:13:24.519 erection like a good step mom. 301 00:13:24.559 --> 00:13:28.120 Wand I love that and the fact that you can 302 00:13:28.159 --> 00:13:31.080 stay with this straight face. I love it because I 303 00:13:31.120 --> 00:13:33.519 mean again, I envy people like that because like I'm 304 00:13:33.519 --> 00:13:35.879 a role player of things, but that there's just certain 305 00:13:35.919 --> 00:13:38.120 things I'm like I would laugh like I'm just gonna 306 00:13:38.159 --> 00:13:39.639 laugh for but I think that it's just it's a 307 00:13:39.679 --> 00:13:42.519 great like community to be in there because it's very 308 00:13:42.559 --> 00:13:44.159 loyal because they want to be told men when to 309 00:13:44.240 --> 00:13:45.840 be told what to do as much as they don't 310 00:13:45.840 --> 00:13:47.919 want to be told what to do. So is that 311 00:13:47.960 --> 00:13:50.120 one of your number one like customs out there like 312 00:13:50.159 --> 00:13:52.360 that they like request is those types of things or 313 00:13:52.399 --> 00:13:54.480 do you what are some other things that people are 314 00:13:54.480 --> 00:13:54.960 wanting for that. 315 00:13:55.120 --> 00:13:58.039 Yeah, a lot of a lot of gentle femdom, a 316 00:13:58.080 --> 00:14:01.600 lot of you know, I feel like, and it's our 317 00:14:01.639 --> 00:14:04.080 culture is changing, but I feel like, at least with 318 00:14:04.159 --> 00:14:08.960 my generation and older, men were really expected to be dominant, 319 00:14:09.000 --> 00:14:11.840 to make the first move, to get the woman to 320 00:14:11.960 --> 00:14:14.159 pay for the date. You know, that's a lot of 321 00:14:14.519 --> 00:14:18.480 dominant characteristics. But of course men are not inherently dominant 322 00:14:18.519 --> 00:14:21.480 and women are not inherently submissive. So I think that 323 00:14:21.600 --> 00:14:24.679 left a lot of men feeling that they needed to 324 00:14:24.799 --> 00:14:28.320 do these things that might not be within their personality, 325 00:14:28.679 --> 00:14:31.480 and that's I feel like that traps a lot of people. 326 00:14:31.879 --> 00:14:35.320 So I think the fantasy of having a woman take 327 00:14:35.440 --> 00:14:38.519 over those responsibilities. No, you don't have to flirt with me. 328 00:14:38.679 --> 00:14:40.919 I'm going to come on to you sexually. I'm going 329 00:14:40.960 --> 00:14:43.279 to use you, I'm going to tell you what I want. 330 00:14:43.639 --> 00:14:48.080 I'm going to bring this whole sexual experience to you, 331 00:14:48.559 --> 00:14:51.200 and in fact, I might even seduce you. So it's 332 00:14:51.240 --> 00:14:55.440 not even your fault whatever happens next. I'm taking all 333 00:14:55.440 --> 00:14:58.480 the blame. I'm taking all the responsibility, and like to 334 00:14:58.879 --> 00:15:01.879 men in our culture, it seems like that can be 335 00:15:01.919 --> 00:15:04.879 a really freeing experience. 336 00:15:04.720 --> 00:15:07.240 Because I also think it taps into, like, you know, 337 00:15:07.320 --> 00:15:11.240 the psychological part of it. It's like you want things 338 00:15:11.240 --> 00:15:12.960 that you don't have in the sense, you know what 339 00:15:13.000 --> 00:15:14.519 I mean, because I'm sure at home, like you said, 340 00:15:14.519 --> 00:15:16.000 the people in life to show up. 341 00:15:16.000 --> 00:15:16.159 You know. 342 00:15:16.159 --> 00:15:18.399 It's not like we're talking about how we're the opposite 343 00:15:18.440 --> 00:15:20.120 and in our porna life to real life. You know. 344 00:15:20.159 --> 00:15:22.200 It's how you show up and how you want to be. 345 00:15:22.639 --> 00:15:25.399 Sometimes don't always aren't the same of seeing those things. 346 00:15:25.399 --> 00:15:27.240 So it's like I want someone to pass me around 347 00:15:27.240 --> 00:15:29.039 and you know what, Yeah, I don't have to see her, 348 00:15:29.159 --> 00:15:30.360 you know what I mean, unless I want to see 349 00:15:30.399 --> 00:15:30.960 And a lot of. 350 00:15:30.960 --> 00:15:34.879 Men want to get complimented sexually, want to get you sexually, 351 00:15:34.879 --> 00:15:37.240 want to be objectified sexually. They don't always want to 352 00:15:37.240 --> 00:15:39.159 be like, oh my god, on this date, you look 353 00:15:39.200 --> 00:15:41.440 so pretty. You're that you you you you you like? 354 00:15:41.840 --> 00:15:45.039 What about me? You know? Well, maybe maybe I can 355 00:15:45.080 --> 00:15:49.080 be the subject of a fantasy and it's not always 356 00:15:49.120 --> 00:15:49.879 about the woman. 357 00:15:50.320 --> 00:15:52.879 Yeah, yes, it's always about me. 358 00:15:54.159 --> 00:15:55.279 It is always about me. 359 00:15:55.799 --> 00:15:58.440 Well, maybe not me, but my booty for sure, you 360 00:15:58.480 --> 00:16:00.639 know what I mean. I was like, you went to 361 00:16:00.679 --> 00:16:02.399 a ruin and I wonder if I'm like, they even 362 00:16:02.440 --> 00:16:05.240 know this is here. Sometimes just kidding, but at one 363 00:16:05.240 --> 00:16:06.679 point in my life I did that. I'm like, you know, 364 00:16:06.759 --> 00:16:09.000 I do have a face, guys, because every box cover 365 00:16:09.320 --> 00:16:11.399 that's how I am. But I was like, hey, turn 366 00:16:11.440 --> 00:16:13.080 around and then like this one. I think it was 367 00:16:13.120 --> 00:16:15.559 actually probably three that I can think of with my face. 368 00:16:15.600 --> 00:16:16.840 I was like, are you sure you're not going to 369 00:16:16.879 --> 00:16:18.840 get in trouble that you don't want to see my ass? 370 00:16:19.879 --> 00:16:22.840 I'm winning really turned the other way. I like it. 371 00:16:23.200 --> 00:16:23.919 My God. 372 00:16:24.080 --> 00:16:26.159 So you said you started, you know, in the industry 373 00:16:26.159 --> 00:16:28.080 a lot later on in life. Was there people that 374 00:16:28.120 --> 00:16:29.919 you looked up to or you watched porn or were 375 00:16:29.960 --> 00:16:32.279 you always just a sexual person? Do you have any 376 00:16:32.320 --> 00:16:33.559 mentors in the industry. 377 00:16:33.799 --> 00:16:35.720 I was more of a swinger, so I did a 378 00:16:35.759 --> 00:16:38.320 lot of uh. I went to swingers clubs. I like 379 00:16:38.440 --> 00:16:41.000 lived that whole like scene. I've always been a bit 380 00:16:41.039 --> 00:16:43.519 of an exhibitionist. I've always liked variety. 381 00:16:43.799 --> 00:16:46.000 So do you live that in your personal life as well? 382 00:16:46.039 --> 00:16:48.840 Not anymore, because it's not safe. To me. Everyone makes 383 00:16:48.840 --> 00:16:52.159 their own choices, but to me, living the swinger lifestyle 384 00:16:52.159 --> 00:16:54.679 that I did pre porn would be disrespectful to my 385 00:16:54.759 --> 00:16:58.600 colleagues because there's just the testing just isn't there, you 386 00:16:58.639 --> 00:17:01.399 know what I mean? And I think like making those 387 00:17:01.480 --> 00:17:04.759 risky choices and then bringing those choices onto set just 388 00:17:04.799 --> 00:17:07.000 for my at the cultival would not be the way. 389 00:17:07.440 --> 00:17:09.720 But but I love that, and I feel like porn 390 00:17:09.839 --> 00:17:12.720 was like almost the next evolution of that. And when 391 00:17:12.759 --> 00:17:17.359 I first started, I didn't I was absolutely positive it 392 00:17:17.359 --> 00:17:20.200 would not be my career. It was just like I've 393 00:17:20.200 --> 00:17:23.720 been offered this opportunity and like, oh my god, I 394 00:17:23.720 --> 00:17:26.440 could do a porn Like that's crazy. I want to 395 00:17:26.480 --> 00:17:30.480 be eighty years old telling my nieces like, yeah, look 396 00:17:30.559 --> 00:17:34.920 what you know, Auntie's wild when she was younger. Like 397 00:17:34.960 --> 00:17:37.119 I thought it would be like telling people I went 398 00:17:37.200 --> 00:17:41.079 skydiving once upon a time. But I loved it. I 399 00:17:41.119 --> 00:17:43.200 came and I did my weakest scenes and I'm like, 400 00:17:43.440 --> 00:17:48.480 that was really fucking fun, and and I got to 401 00:17:48.640 --> 00:17:52.799