1 00:00:00,120 --> 00:00:03,279 Speaker 1: What's up, everyone, and welcome to another episode of the 2 00:00:03,279 --> 00:00:06,759 Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're picking up where we 3 00:00:06,839 --> 00:00:10,960 left off with the Virginia Roberts memoir The Billionaires Playboy Club. 4 00:00:12,080 --> 00:00:15,160 I turned seventeen that summer and had accumulated a string 5 00:00:15,199 --> 00:00:18,239 of exotic destinations that I had traveled to in such 6 00:00:18,280 --> 00:00:20,760 a short time. I was given more makeup and a 7 00:00:20,800 --> 00:00:24,199 pair of diamond earrings from Jeffrey. Gulayne only wished me 8 00:00:24,239 --> 00:00:27,519 a happy day, wondering at times if she felt threatened 9 00:00:27,519 --> 00:00:30,879 by Jeffrey in my closeness. We went to the island 10 00:00:30,920 --> 00:00:33,560 after we left NYC, and I asked if Sarah would 11 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:36,280 be meeting us, mentioning it had been a while since 12 00:00:36,320 --> 00:00:38,320 we had last seen her. He said he had some 13 00:00:38,359 --> 00:00:41,479 bad news about her, expecting the worst, thinking she had 14 00:00:41,520 --> 00:00:44,439 gotten hurt or something. I was astounded when Jeffrey told 15 00:00:44,439 --> 00:00:46,399 me that she had been sent to his island with 16 00:00:46,399 --> 00:00:48,840 one of his friends for a couple of days, and 17 00:00:48,920 --> 00:00:51,359 when the housekeepers were cleaning her room, they found a 18 00:00:51,359 --> 00:00:55,000 stash of cocaine left out carelessly in her bathroom. He 19 00:00:55,000 --> 00:00:56,640 said he had no choice but to let her go 20 00:00:57,200 --> 00:01:01,240 attics with no respect for themselves or his wishes had 21 00:01:01,280 --> 00:01:03,840 no leeway. In Jeffrey's book, he didn't mind that I 22 00:01:03,920 --> 00:01:06,359 dabbled in drugs every once in a while, as long 23 00:01:06,359 --> 00:01:08,760 as I never brought them along with us on any trips, 24 00:01:09,040 --> 00:01:11,719 except for my Xanax, which he didn't mind because it 25 00:01:11,760 --> 00:01:15,640 was pharmaceutical and most of all wouldn't cause them trouble 26 00:01:15,959 --> 00:01:19,400 being a legal narcotic. Sarah took it too far when 27 00:01:19,439 --> 00:01:23,040 she crossed international borders with an illegal drug, risking her 28 00:01:23,079 --> 00:01:26,640 welfare and almost causing Jeffrey public attention. She lost her 29 00:01:26,680 --> 00:01:30,040 apartment and contacts in the acting world, only hearing from 30 00:01:30,120 --> 00:01:33,159 acquaintances once in a while that she was sinking deeper 31 00:01:33,159 --> 00:01:36,400 and deeper into the black hole of addiction. It was 32 00:01:36,439 --> 00:01:39,879 sad to see to find out, as always, I did 33 00:01:40,000 --> 00:01:43,840 like her. At the island, Glaine had just recently obtained 34 00:01:43,840 --> 00:01:46,840 that her helicopter pilot's license and wanted to get in 35 00:01:46,920 --> 00:01:50,359 some practice airtime, and flew Jeffrey and I to Saint 36 00:01:50,439 --> 00:01:54,359 John's where we picked up Alexandria Cousteau, the granddaughter of 37 00:01:54,439 --> 00:01:58,519 the inventor of the scuba tank and underwater explorer Jack Cousteau. 38 00:01:59,200 --> 00:02:02,400 Golaine was out to set up a fright in the air, 39 00:02:02,680 --> 00:02:05,560 but it was all talk. She was actually an impressive pilot, 40 00:02:06,079 --> 00:02:08,479 still a daredevil, though she got our kicks out of 41 00:02:08,520 --> 00:02:12,080 hearing us fret on the ear Muff's intercoms. Jeffrey made 42 00:02:12,080 --> 00:02:15,680 it clear that Alexandria as a guest and when I 43 00:02:15,719 --> 00:02:18,680 told her to adhere to her if she wanted a massage, 44 00:02:18,840 --> 00:02:21,840 which I obliged her with several times during our first meeting. 45 00:02:23,039 --> 00:02:26,000 It was Jeffrey who instigated that her and I reenact 46 00:02:26,039 --> 00:02:31,000 as lovers in lesbian acts of foreplay and penetration. I 47 00:02:31,000 --> 00:02:33,919 couldn't imagine a girl of such high prospects lowering herself 48 00:02:33,960 --> 00:02:36,639 to something of Jeffrey's standards, but I later found out 49 00:02:36,680 --> 00:02:40,520 through Jeffrey that he donated money to her continuous exploration 50 00:02:40,879 --> 00:02:44,039 into marine life and habitats. She had followed in her 51 00:02:44,039 --> 00:02:47,280 family's footsteps, all of them involved in marine biology in 52 00:02:47,280 --> 00:02:50,400 some way or another. We actually got along really well. 53 00:02:50,680 --> 00:02:53,000 She was a real decent girl and loved talking about 54 00:02:53,000 --> 00:02:57,680 her passion everything underneath the water's surface. When I wasn't 55 00:02:57,719 --> 00:03:00,759 busy giving massages to everyone around and I would hang 56 00:03:00,759 --> 00:03:03,840 out together. Often we would go swimming in the crystal 57 00:03:03,879 --> 00:03:07,639 clear pool of ocean that the Caribbean had to offer. 58 00:03:08,199 --> 00:03:10,960 Once we swam out so far, not paying attention to 59 00:03:11,039 --> 00:03:14,080 our location, and were carried out to see by the current. 60 00:03:14,719 --> 00:03:16,719 We took turns on the back of each other, taking 61 00:03:16,759 --> 00:03:20,680 breaks against the strong ocean tide. It was almost possibility 62 00:03:20,719 --> 00:03:22,919 that we nearly drowned out there if it weren't for 63 00:03:22,919 --> 00:03:25,719 some guys on a fishing boat for the day. When 64 00:03:25,719 --> 00:03:28,199 they caught us in their view. They picked us up 65 00:03:28,240 --> 00:03:30,360 and brought us back to the island, where we were 66 00:03:30,400 --> 00:03:33,439 reprimanded by a worry Jeffrey in Galaine to first of all, 67 00:03:33,560 --> 00:03:36,240 let someone know where we are going at all times, 68 00:03:36,560 --> 00:03:38,719 and never to lose sight of the shore will out 69 00:03:38,759 --> 00:03:43,479 for a swim. After that learning experience, I took their 70 00:03:43,479 --> 00:03:46,479 heat and proceeded with caution. I had a newfound respect 71 00:03:46,479 --> 00:03:51,039 for the ocean and its mysteries. Having such a love 72 00:03:51,439 --> 00:03:54,159 of the water as a guest made Jeffrey want to 73 00:03:54,199 --> 00:03:56,919 explore parts of the Caribbean he had never seen before. 74 00:03:57,360 --> 00:03:59,960 The Next morning, we were met by a scuba instructor 75 00:04:00,240 --> 00:04:02,759 in Saint James and given a few lessons on how 76 00:04:02,800 --> 00:04:05,199 to get the gear and to use it, and more 77 00:04:05,240 --> 00:04:07,639 tips like how to descend slowly to the ocean floor 78 00:04:07,919 --> 00:04:10,639 as to not cause blood clots, as well as visual 79 00:04:10,680 --> 00:04:15,360 hand signals to communicate underwater. It was so exhilarating beneath 80 00:04:15,360 --> 00:04:18,720 the water's surface, no voices to listen to, only the 81 00:04:18,800 --> 00:04:22,399 enchanting sites to take in. We explored the surrounding reef 82 00:04:22,720 --> 00:04:25,639 and found a large squid, many of the sea urchins, 83 00:04:25,680 --> 00:04:28,600 and magnificent colored coral that housed as many of the 84 00:04:28,680 --> 00:04:32,199 rich variety of local species of fish. It was such 85 00:04:32,199 --> 00:04:35,079 a great site to take in, holding a permanent mental 86 00:04:35,120 --> 00:04:37,639 picture of those adventures to carry in my head for 87 00:04:37,720 --> 00:04:41,160 all times. We all had such a great time that 88 00:04:41,279 --> 00:04:43,959 Jeffrey hired the same scuba instructor to come out the 89 00:04:43,959 --> 00:04:47,360 next day to scuba dive the safer parts around his island. 90 00:04:48,000 --> 00:04:50,439 We got bored quickly, with not so much to see 91 00:04:50,480 --> 00:04:53,600 but seaweed and fish here and there. It didn't take 92 00:04:53,639 --> 00:04:56,560 long for Glene decided for all of us to explore 93 00:04:56,639 --> 00:05:00,319 other numerous locations by boat. Jeffrey needed a bit of 94 00:05:00,360 --> 00:05:03,240 convincing at first, and the instructor was quick to assure 95 00:05:03,279 --> 00:05:05,800 him that he knew his way well around the waters. 96 00:05:06,360 --> 00:05:08,360 Of course, he would say that he was getting paid 97 00:05:08,399 --> 00:05:09,720 a hell of a lot of money to do this 98 00:05:09,800 --> 00:05:12,600 in the first place, why not extended a few more hours. 99 00:05:13,759 --> 00:05:16,680 The clear water glistened and the tropical array of marine 100 00:05:16,720 --> 00:05:19,279 life was on display as we wanted to stop at 101 00:05:19,279 --> 00:05:23,240 so many places, but you could see as beautiful as 102 00:05:23,240 --> 00:05:26,079 it was, it could be equally dangerous. It took so 103 00:05:26,199 --> 00:05:29,439 long that we had to veer away from many desirable spots. 104 00:05:29,959 --> 00:05:32,920 Finally we found a good place that the scuba instructor 105 00:05:32,920 --> 00:05:36,319 thought was safe. He buttied us up into pairs and 106 00:05:36,360 --> 00:05:38,360 we jumped off the back of the boat into the 107 00:05:38,399 --> 00:05:41,600 crystal lock with blue waters, beginning our descent slowly into 108 00:05:41,639 --> 00:05:45,560 the darker regions of the ocean's floor. We were situated 109 00:05:45,879 --> 00:05:48,759 on open water with a cavern of reefs to venture 110 00:05:48,800 --> 00:05:51,879 in and around down below. It seemed to be quite 111 00:05:51,879 --> 00:05:54,879 a choice to scuba in one that our guide said 112 00:05:54,920 --> 00:05:58,240 he wasn't familiar with, but to alleviate his board clientele 113 00:05:58,319 --> 00:06:01,360 deemed safe to swim around. It was Jeffrey and the 114 00:06:01,360 --> 00:06:04,040 guy together Gleayne and Emmy, and I was paired up 115 00:06:04,040 --> 00:06:07,879 with Alexandria. Myles. The houseman came with us and stayed 116 00:06:07,920 --> 00:06:10,120 on the boat just in case something went wrong, and 117 00:06:10,240 --> 00:06:13,600 lucky he did. We were all too far under water 118 00:06:14,079 --> 00:06:17,959 to hear his alarming screams of distress. When shadows lurking 119 00:06:17,959 --> 00:06:21,439 in the murky distance started appearing closer and closer, Glaine 120 00:06:21,560 --> 00:06:23,920 actually looked frightened for once as she gave us a 121 00:06:23,959 --> 00:06:27,079 signal to start ascending upwards, reminding us by holding her 122 00:06:27,120 --> 00:06:30,639 ears not to go up quick or, as we previously 123 00:06:30,680 --> 00:06:33,120 warned before, we could pop a blood vessel in our 124 00:06:33,199 --> 00:06:36,560 brain and hemorrhage to death. Not a very lovely image, 125 00:06:36,680 --> 00:06:40,360 but neither was getting torn apart by sharks. Those giant 126 00:06:40,360 --> 00:06:43,959 shadows became clearer and clearer, and soon enough we could 127 00:06:44,000 --> 00:06:48,319 recognize their indistinct species as a terrifying and more aggressive 128 00:06:48,319 --> 00:06:52,879 breed of sharks. The hammerhead grabbing myles hand. I was 129 00:06:52,879 --> 00:06:54,560 the last one ahead of the guide to get on 130 00:06:54,639 --> 00:06:57,759 the boat. Imagine the worst as I waited behind Emi 131 00:06:57,839 --> 00:07:01,000 and Alexandria, who were the next to follow Jeffrey and Glaane. 132 00:07:01,959 --> 00:07:04,079 I was in too much shock to scream or cry. 133 00:07:04,480 --> 00:07:06,519 I just told myself I had to stay calm and 134 00:07:06,560 --> 00:07:09,839 get out of this alive. Unlucky for us, we found 135 00:07:09,879 --> 00:07:12,839 out later that we were in their breeding territory and 136 00:07:12,879 --> 00:07:14,920 being sent a clear message that we were soon to 137 00:07:14,920 --> 00:07:18,680 be on the menu to their feeding frenzy. We all 138 00:07:18,680 --> 00:07:20,680 felt like we had cheated death, and I know I 139 00:07:20,759 --> 00:07:23,839 wasn't the only one in my heart that was still 140 00:07:23,879 --> 00:07:26,160 beating out of my chest. When we headed back to 141 00:07:26,240 --> 00:07:29,879 Jeffrey's island, Jeffrey was pale as his designer sheets and 142 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:32,519 looked like he had aged another ten years. In his 143 00:07:32,560 --> 00:07:37,279 such scared state, Glayne took the heat off herself, even 144 00:07:37,319 --> 00:07:40,439 barely taking a notice of beforehand, and decided to poke 145 00:07:40,519 --> 00:07:43,199 fun at all of us frantically scurrying to get out 146 00:07:43,199 --> 00:07:46,160 of the water. It was just her nature, as I 147 00:07:46,160 --> 00:07:49,399 had never seen her move so quickly either. We got 148 00:07:49,439 --> 00:07:52,319 back to the island and collapsed our fatigued bodies in 149 00:07:52,360 --> 00:07:56,079 our own beds for a long nap. Freshened up and 150 00:07:56,160 --> 00:07:59,959 much more relaxed, we regaled our horrendous story again over day, 151 00:08:00,480 --> 00:08:04,839 this time and laughter. The following afternoon, Glaanne piloted all 152 00:08:04,879 --> 00:08:07,399 of us in the helicopter to Saint John's Airport and 153 00:08:07,439 --> 00:08:11,040 we said goodbye to Alexandra, where we all parted ways. 154 00:08:11,639 --> 00:08:13,600 I met her a few more separate times in Palm 155 00:08:13,639 --> 00:08:16,519 Beach at Jeffrey's mansion, but she wasn't a regular of his, 156 00:08:17,040 --> 00:08:19,839 probably not as easy as the troubled girls were at 157 00:08:19,839 --> 00:08:23,240 a bribe. Throughout the remainder of the quickly passing year, 158 00:08:23,519 --> 00:08:26,399 I was on the constant move with Jeffrey, attending various 159 00:08:26,439 --> 00:08:31,639 dinner parties, mostly with other esteem billionaires and widely acclaimed scientists. 160 00:08:31,920 --> 00:08:34,799 Jeffrey likes to surround himself with the most brilliant and 161 00:08:34,960 --> 00:08:37,600 powerful minds, filling his little black book with some of 162 00:08:37,600 --> 00:08:41,559 the most esteemed and even infamous people in today's wealthy society. 163 00:08:42,559 --> 00:08:45,399 It was during those intellectual gatherings that my body was 164 00:08:45,440 --> 00:08:48,159 also put on the banquet menu, but this time for 165 00:08:48,240 --> 00:08:52,080 a powerful senator, George Mitchell, and another Nobel Prize winning 166 00:08:52,120 --> 00:08:55,080 scientist whose name would be mentioned, but for all the 167 00:08:55,240 --> 00:08:59,879 life of me I can no longer remember. They would 168 00:08:59,879 --> 00:09:02,519 be only some of the recognizable figures of the high 169 00:09:02,519 --> 00:09:07,080 society that became added to my list of clientele. Of course, 170 00:09:07,120 --> 00:09:09,720 being introduced to for a lot more than just a 171 00:09:09,720 --> 00:09:14,559 client of a massage as an amusement to Jeffrey's associates, 172 00:09:14,840 --> 00:09:17,879 I also knew my place was to entertain, but not 173 00:09:17,960 --> 00:09:21,200 to every desired content. I was to show them a 174 00:09:21,200 --> 00:09:23,200 good time, but not the way I would have to 175 00:09:23,320 --> 00:09:26,600 use technique an effort for Jeffrey, the very teachings from 176 00:09:26,679 --> 00:09:29,720 Jeffrey himself, or my tutor, as he liked to so 177 00:09:29,879 --> 00:09:34,080 eloquently put it, consistently being used and adored for the 178 00:09:34,159 --> 00:09:37,200 likeliness of my youthful looks. I was becoming very accustomed 179 00:09:37,200 --> 00:09:40,559 to my lifestyle with Jeffrey, never really relaxing into it, 180 00:09:40,799 --> 00:09:43,679 but just accepting this as being as good as it's 181 00:09:43,720 --> 00:09:46,240 ever going to get for me. I didn't think I 182 00:09:46,240 --> 00:09:49,000 should be complaining. Wasn't I being offered a life in 183 00:09:49,039 --> 00:09:52,879 exchange for servitude. Just letting the signs of my anxiety 184 00:09:52,919 --> 00:09:55,799 and depression pass me by while I blanketed them with 185 00:09:55,919 --> 00:09:59,240 my pills, suffocating under a blanket of pain is all 186 00:09:59,279 --> 00:10:02,320 I was really doing. I spent Christmas and the New 187 00:10:02,399 --> 00:10:06,000 Year's holiday with Jeffrey in NYC, who doesn't celebrate the 188 00:10:06,039 --> 00:10:09,360 occasion as he's of Jewish descent, not that he was 189 00:10:09,399 --> 00:10:12,799 a religious man anyway. I never even saw him celebrate 190 00:10:12,840 --> 00:10:16,200 Hanukah either. We firstly stayed at his ranch in Santa 191 00:10:16,200 --> 00:10:18,720 Fe for a week, then left for a long plane 192 00:10:18,759 --> 00:10:22,159 trip to Paris, where all suffered jet lag for the 193 00:10:22,200 --> 00:10:25,399 next twenty four hours. We all stayed in the Grand 194 00:10:25,440 --> 00:10:29,000 Hotel with a view of the Champsalise. Emmy and I 195 00:10:29,039 --> 00:10:32,200 shared a room and with her gifted ability to make 196 00:10:32,240 --> 00:10:34,799 new contacts in just a few hours, she brought out 197 00:10:34,840 --> 00:10:38,039 a Jada share on the rooftop at nighttime while we 198 00:10:38,039 --> 00:10:41,279 were overlooking the lit up Eiffel Tower. We never got 199 00:10:41,360 --> 00:10:43,919 really close as buddies, but we both knew what we 200 00:10:43,919 --> 00:10:47,360 were indebted to and I felt each other sorrow. All 201 00:10:47,399 --> 00:10:50,320 four of us went out shopping at Chanelle dnng Ralph 202 00:10:50,399 --> 00:10:54,240 Lauren and many other little exclusive boutiques. The following afternoon. 203 00:10:55,000 --> 00:10:57,480 As a gift, Jeffrey bought me a white terry cloth 204 00:10:57,519 --> 00:10:59,840 goose feathered sofa and had it sent back to my 205 00:11:00,039 --> 00:11:02,840 apartment in Florida, and bought some new tapestries to have 206 00:11:02,919 --> 00:11:05,720 sent back to Santa Fe for his ranch. We also 207 00:11:05,840 --> 00:11:08,440 visited his up and coming Paris apartment. It was a 208 00:11:08,480 --> 00:11:11,480 modern typical flat being refurbished, and we went to see 209 00:11:11,519 --> 00:11:14,960 how it was looking. Jeffrey liked the fuss about every 210 00:11:15,039 --> 00:11:18,759 detail and harassed the builders about their work. Changing last 211 00:11:18,759 --> 00:11:22,440 minute details at a whim days and many croissants later, 212 00:11:22,639 --> 00:11:26,799 we left for Spain feeling bloated and sleepy. All right, folks, 213 00:11:26,840 --> 00:11:28,879 we're gonna wrap up this episode here and in the 214 00:11:28,919 --> 00:11:31,559 next episode we're gonna pick up where we left off. 215 00:11:32,320 --> 00:11:35,039 All of the information that goes with this episode can 216 00:11:35,120 --> 00:11:38,519 be found in the description box. What's up, everyone, and 217 00:11:38,600 --> 00:11:42,600 welcome to another episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, 218 00:11:42,639 --> 00:11:44,679 we're going to pick up where we left off with 219 00:11:44,919 --> 00:11:49,600 Virginia Roberts memoir, The Billionaire's Playboy Club, Days and many 220 00:11:49,600 --> 00:11:53,960 croissants later, we left Spain feeling bloated and sleepy. We 221 00:11:54,039 --> 00:11:56,600 only stayed in Spain for the afternoon, going to see 222 00:11:56,639 --> 00:12:00,799 another astounding Moroccan castle for Jeffrey to replicate at one 223 00:12:00,799 --> 00:12:03,440 of his many mansions. It was only a short plane 224 00:12:03,519 --> 00:12:07,519 ride to Tangier, Africa for more castle hopping. We arrived 225 00:12:07,519 --> 00:12:11,000 at the historic landmark and the only five star hotel 226 00:12:11,039 --> 00:12:14,559 in the Tangier called El Menza in the village a 227 00:12:14,799 --> 00:12:18,679 villa Novelle. The city and outskirts were still very hostile 228 00:12:18,679 --> 00:12:21,039 at the time, females being warned not to walk the 229 00:12:21,039 --> 00:12:23,960 streets alone and not to leave the house after dark, 230 00:12:24,320 --> 00:12:26,120 or to be at risk of being raped or worse. 231 00:12:26,919 --> 00:12:29,039 When we got to the room, it was oozing with 232 00:12:29,279 --> 00:12:33,320 every expected bit of extravagance that a luxurious historical palace 233 00:12:33,480 --> 00:12:35,960 should offer, until I was greeted with a pile of 234 00:12:36,039 --> 00:12:38,600 monkey poo in the very middle of my bed. Not 235 00:12:38,639 --> 00:12:41,799 a happy camper, I called Jeffrey, Glen and Emmy into 236 00:12:41,840 --> 00:12:44,039 my adjoining room and they all had quite a good 237 00:12:44,120 --> 00:12:47,639 laugh at my expense. Within a moment's notice of a complaint, 238 00:12:47,679 --> 00:12:50,600 call to the front desk, and we had an attendant 239 00:12:50,679 --> 00:12:53,720 cleaning up my bed linen. The cleaner noticed that the 240 00:12:53,759 --> 00:12:56,240 window was still opened. He warned not to leave it 241 00:12:56,279 --> 00:12:59,279 ajar at night time, just in case another monkey wanted 242 00:12:59,279 --> 00:13:03,320 to make himself comfortable in my quarters. Gallainne joke that 243 00:13:03,480 --> 00:13:05,799 maybe I should keep it open. I might find a 244 00:13:05,840 --> 00:13:09,519 suitable husband before I get any older. Always the instigator 245 00:13:09,600 --> 00:13:12,120 of a good joke, but unable to take one herself. 246 00:13:12,440 --> 00:13:14,240 She didn't like it when I poked back at her, 247 00:13:14,559 --> 00:13:16,720 and it was more in her recent taste of men, 248 00:13:17,159 --> 00:13:20,519 since she loved to brag about her rendezvous with various lovers. 249 00:13:21,480 --> 00:13:23,519 Once she came back giddy as a schoolgirl, with an 250 00:13:23,519 --> 00:13:26,759 explosion of news. With all the build up and excitement 251 00:13:26,840 --> 00:13:29,440 in her voice, you'd think was the next Crown princess. 252 00:13:29,720 --> 00:13:32,360 But she had given George Clooney a blowjob in the 253 00:13:32,399 --> 00:13:35,720 bathroom at some random event, and she never let that 254 00:13:35,759 --> 00:13:38,679 one down. We all went to explore the town surrounding 255 00:13:38,720 --> 00:13:41,720 Moroccan castles and meet their royalty that lived in them. 256 00:13:42,200 --> 00:13:46,399 Jeffrey's personal interior designer met us at the residences. They 257 00:13:46,440 --> 00:13:50,120 walked around hurriedly scribbling notes into their clipboards and whispering 258 00:13:50,159 --> 00:13:55,039 between themselves. The palaces were historically unique and beautiful, but 259 00:13:55,120 --> 00:13:58,440 I wondered how could they live so grandeur behind these 260 00:13:58,480 --> 00:14:01,559 walls when they lived in a city of such poverty 261 00:14:01,600 --> 00:14:05,840 stricken squabble Beggars line the streets. People could just go 262 00:14:05,919 --> 00:14:08,120 missing and no one could care, and you heard of 263 00:14:08,120 --> 00:14:12,080 barbaric murders happening every night. Against the advice of the 264 00:14:12,120 --> 00:14:15,480 palace attendant and Jeffrey's wishes, I decided to take a 265 00:14:15,480 --> 00:14:18,679 stroll one afternoon, mainly just to take photos of an 266 00:14:18,679 --> 00:14:21,759 exotic Africa and do some shopping in the village markets, 267 00:14:22,000 --> 00:14:23,879 but I ended up being intrigued by a group of 268 00:14:23,919 --> 00:14:27,519 young children playing in the street. When I was noticed 269 00:14:27,559 --> 00:14:29,639 watching them, about fifteen of them came up to me 270 00:14:29,679 --> 00:14:32,159 and began to beg for money and food. I was 271 00:14:32,200 --> 00:14:35,240 overtaken by the poor, hungry children and felt sad for 272 00:14:35,279 --> 00:14:38,559 them all, and wished I could help out somehow. When 273 00:14:38,559 --> 00:14:40,919 the tide of kids washed away and the street went empty, 274 00:14:41,159 --> 00:14:45,120 I was overcome with intrigue at these two little boys brothers, 275 00:14:45,200 --> 00:14:47,639 I found out later on, and their only toy was 276 00:14:47,679 --> 00:14:50,200 an empty can that they were kicking to each other 277 00:14:50,240 --> 00:14:53,279 in the middle of the street. Intelligent kids, they were 278 00:14:53,320 --> 00:14:56,480 able to speak three different languages, including English, and I 279 00:14:56,559 --> 00:14:58,960 was interested to ask them about life here. They didn't 280 00:14:58,960 --> 00:15:01,919 seem to notice or be bothered by their poverty stricken lives. 281 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:04,720 They told me about their school and their parents, and 282 00:15:04,759 --> 00:15:06,720 I thought I had just heard the saddest story ever. 283 00:15:07,120 --> 00:15:09,679 But they were accustomed to living like that, and I 284 00:15:09,720 --> 00:15:12,720 had been so accustomed to my degrading lifestyle for so long. 285 00:15:13,799 --> 00:15:16,279 I was compelled to empty out the contents of my purse, 286 00:15:16,559 --> 00:15:19,879 giving them over two thousand dollars in US currency. A 287 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:23,240 passerby snapped a photo of the kids and myself to 288 00:15:23,320 --> 00:15:26,120 take home as a personal souvenir before they rushed home 289 00:15:26,159 --> 00:15:29,559 to probably show their parents the money. I told Jeffrey 290 00:15:29,639 --> 00:15:31,759 later on of my good deed, and he couldn't believe 291 00:15:31,799 --> 00:15:34,960 I'd given away my money so carelessly. He told me 292 00:15:35,279 --> 00:15:37,360 I had set up their parents with enough money to 293 00:15:37,399 --> 00:15:40,080 feed and shelter their family for a year. Wasn't that 294 00:15:40,120 --> 00:15:43,240 a good thing? I couldn't believe it. Not that I 295 00:15:43,320 --> 00:15:45,639 was well off or anything close to it, but to 296 00:15:45,720 --> 00:15:49,080 realize how lucky I was and not have compassion for 297 00:15:49,120 --> 00:15:52,600 the lesser off, especially children of a third world country, 298 00:15:52,799 --> 00:15:56,000 I wouldn't be human anymore. Then again, what did I 299 00:15:56,000 --> 00:16:00,720 expect from someone who could numerously steal another man's for 300 00:16:00,879 --> 00:16:03,519 the use of his own sexual pleasure with great ease. 301 00:16:05,679 --> 00:16:07,840 We went out to lunch the following day with Jeffrey's 302 00:16:07,840 --> 00:16:11,200 team of designers to wrap things up, and after Jeffrey's 303 00:16:11,200 --> 00:16:14,039 afternoon massage, he went to the palace to have a nap. 304 00:16:14,759 --> 00:16:16,720 When I was all alone, I thought I'd go see 305 00:16:16,759 --> 00:16:19,080 the culture of the local unique markets again and this 306 00:16:19,200 --> 00:16:22,120 time buy some trinkets to bring home. I got the 307 00:16:22,159 --> 00:16:24,799 sight seeing and took pictures of legs of lamb hung 308 00:16:24,879 --> 00:16:27,919 over the blood drenched doorway, over people's homes as to 309 00:16:27,960 --> 00:16:30,679 warn off evil spirits, and the ghettos were the local 310 00:16:30,759 --> 00:16:34,480 villagers called home. I walked into many of the market 311 00:16:34,559 --> 00:16:38,080 stalls and saw the most peculiar antiques, such as weaponry 312 00:16:38,120 --> 00:16:40,519 with the blood of its last victim stained on its 313 00:16:40,559 --> 00:16:44,240 sharp blades, and body pieces of various animals for the 314 00:16:44,320 --> 00:16:48,039 use of religious sacrifice. I was more interested in the 315 00:16:48,080 --> 00:16:51,320 different culture and respecting their ancient way of life with interest, 316 00:16:51,600 --> 00:16:54,399 instead of squirming like a tourist and getting grossed out. 317 00:16:55,600 --> 00:16:58,399 I thought it was so educational and enthralling. In fact, 318 00:16:58,559 --> 00:17:01,279 I ended up buying a few official trinkets to have 319 00:17:01,360 --> 00:17:04,599 sent to my apartment in Palm Beach. Not to say 320 00:17:04,599 --> 00:17:06,400 that I wasn't looking forward to getting back to the 321 00:17:06,519 --> 00:17:09,759 luxuries of Western civilization. It was a bit like camping, 322 00:17:10,079 --> 00:17:14,880 fun and adventurous, but as equally dangerous and thrilling. When 323 00:17:14,920 --> 00:17:17,119 we left for the final destination of our trip, I 324 00:17:17,200 --> 00:17:20,200 was looking forward to eating normal food again, not one 325 00:17:20,279 --> 00:17:23,160 to stray for foreign dishes. Ah'mor of a cheeseburger and 326 00:17:23,200 --> 00:17:27,240 pizza kind of girl, A true sign of my American heritage. 327 00:17:27,279 --> 00:17:30,039 We landed at Heathrow International Airport and greeted by a 328 00:17:30,119 --> 00:17:33,000 driver that would take us to Glen's townhouse in London 329 00:17:33,559 --> 00:17:36,640 that Jeffrey had recently bought and refurbished as a gift 330 00:17:36,680 --> 00:17:39,720 for Emmy said goodbye at the airport, leaving us to 331 00:17:39,759 --> 00:17:42,680 go to her hometown in the rural countryside nearby to 332 00:17:42,759 --> 00:17:46,000 visit family for a six week holiday from work. It 333 00:17:46,039 --> 00:17:48,200 wasn't a very long drive before we were in the 334 00:17:48,200 --> 00:17:51,200 heart of the city at Gallaine's place. I thought it 335 00:17:51,240 --> 00:17:54,000 was a cheery townhouse that had character and historical pub 336 00:17:54,039 --> 00:17:57,160 in front of it, and cobblestone streets only added a 337 00:17:57,240 --> 00:18:00,880 unique charm to its presence. They were going out for 338 00:18:00,920 --> 00:18:03,519 dinner and invited me along with them, but seeing I 339 00:18:03,559 --> 00:18:06,279 was so exhausted from all the traveling and looking a 340 00:18:06,279 --> 00:18:10,680 bit melancholy, I apologetically declined going out for dinner that evening. 341 00:18:11,519 --> 00:18:13,759 I rather would be talking taking a few pills to 342 00:18:13,839 --> 00:18:16,759 catch up on some needed sleep. Are you sure you're okay, 343 00:18:17,039 --> 00:18:19,720 Glene asked as she showed me to my room, more 344 00:18:19,759 --> 00:18:22,759 considerate than she normally was, but I assured her that 345 00:18:22,880 --> 00:18:25,480 I was in absolute good health, just tired from all 346 00:18:25,519 --> 00:18:28,960 the recent jet lag. Without another word, she whisked off 347 00:18:28,960 --> 00:18:33,720 downstairs to the car, where Jeffrey was waiting for I 348 00:18:33,799 --> 00:18:35,799 took the liberty to call my parents' house to say 349 00:18:35,839 --> 00:18:38,440 hello and catch up with them, since I hadn't been 350 00:18:38,480 --> 00:18:41,319 home for all of the holiday season this year, always 351 00:18:41,319 --> 00:18:44,200 too busy working. They sounded really happy to hear from me, 352 00:18:44,400 --> 00:18:46,039 and my mom put me on the phone to talk 353 00:18:46,079 --> 00:18:49,359 to my brothers as well. I got to tell them 354 00:18:49,519 --> 00:18:52,920 about my travels abroad and I had some cool tribal 355 00:18:52,920 --> 00:18:55,920 stuff from Africa that I bought for them. They sounded 356 00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:58,279 so proud of me, all of them, and why shouldn't 357 00:18:58,279 --> 00:19:01,240 they be? And everyone's convinced my I was making great 358 00:19:01,319 --> 00:19:04,799 money traveling the world and meeting new faces everywhere I went. 359 00:19:06,000 --> 00:19:09,920 Why should I spoil anyone's delusions, especially mine. I took 360 00:19:09,920 --> 00:19:13,000 my sleeping tablets and had a bath before falling into 361 00:19:13,039 --> 00:19:15,599 a deep and much needed sleep. The next morning, I 362 00:19:15,680 --> 00:19:19,039 was awoken by Glenn Maxwell, who I could tell was 363 00:19:19,079 --> 00:19:21,400 in a chirpy mood by the way she paraded through 364 00:19:21,440 --> 00:19:24,599 my closed door, saying, wake up, sleepyhead, and open the 365 00:19:24,640 --> 00:19:27,640 window shutters to let in the bright sunlight. She had 366 00:19:27,640 --> 00:19:30,680 never done anything like this before, and I knew immediately 367 00:19:30,720 --> 00:19:33,960 something big was happening. She sat down on my bed 368 00:19:34,079 --> 00:19:36,359 as I rolled over for my deep slumber, and I 369 00:19:36,440 --> 00:19:39,119 was able to mutter for an explanation as to why 370 00:19:39,200 --> 00:19:42,880 she was awake so early, besides the fact that it's 371 00:19:42,920 --> 00:19:45,440 ten o'clock in the morning and nearly time for brunch. 372 00:19:45,720 --> 00:19:47,880 We have a big day planned out for you today. 373 00:19:48,599 --> 00:19:50,519 She was waiting for my queue to ask her what 374 00:19:50,640 --> 00:19:55,000 we're doing. When I said, she responded with a convincing enthusiasm, 375 00:19:55,359 --> 00:19:58,680 We're going shopping for a new ensemble. She paused for 376 00:19:58,720 --> 00:20:03,720 a moment to build a suspense before completing her sentence 377 00:20:04,039 --> 00:20:06,359 to go dancing with the Prince of England this evening, 378 00:20:06,920 --> 00:20:09,160 hoping it would be one of the younger generations. I 379 00:20:09,200 --> 00:20:11,839 was disappointed when she told me he was the Duke 380 00:20:11,839 --> 00:20:15,519 of York, Charles's younger brother Andrew. I looked at her 381 00:20:15,559 --> 00:20:18,640 with a fake surprise. Look what I had used on 382 00:20:18,759 --> 00:20:21,119 many occasions in my time with them to give the 383 00:20:21,160 --> 00:20:25,160 impression of excitement. What wow, I exclaimed, with my gifted 384 00:20:25,160 --> 00:20:29,160 acting ability. It's a sad realization, but I had grown 385 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:32,480 more accustomed to seeing people for their significance rather than 386 00:20:32,519 --> 00:20:35,839 the good qualities they possessed, and was able to grin 387 00:20:35,839 --> 00:20:38,519 and bear the thought of what I expected lay in 388 00:20:38,559 --> 00:20:43,119 store for me. Glene and I left shortly thereafter for 389 00:20:43,400 --> 00:20:46,240 many lanes of designer shops to choose from in London. 390 00:20:46,599 --> 00:20:49,319 Her pep talks to prepare me for my duties towards 391 00:20:49,400 --> 00:20:52,440 Royalty went on and on, giving me the obscure impression 392 00:20:52,759 --> 00:20:55,359 I was something of importance, at least for more than 393 00:20:55,359 --> 00:20:59,559 in an evening. Make sure you're bubbly and energetic. Nobody 394 00:20:59,599 --> 00:21:02,559 wants a horse was one of the cheap tools she 395 00:21:02,680 --> 00:21:05,519 instilled me with. Who knows where this could lead for 396 00:21:05,559 --> 00:21:08,839 you was another. As the day grew shorter, my anxiety 397 00:21:08,880 --> 00:21:13,160 only heightened. Anticipating the Prince's arrival and unable to decide 398 00:21:13,200 --> 00:21:16,920 on an outfit, I picked out three. Our last stop 399 00:21:16,960 --> 00:21:19,680 of the day was Burberries for a nice handbag to 400 00:21:19,720 --> 00:21:23,200 compliment our chosen attire. We got back to our townhouse 401 00:21:23,640 --> 00:21:25,759 with still a couple hours to spare to get ready. 402 00:21:27,000 --> 00:21:30,200 After trying on all three outfits and many mental debates 403 00:21:30,200 --> 00:21:32,960 with myself, later I decided on the pink mini tea 404 00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:37,599 and dazzling pair of denims with horses embroidered into a pattern. 405 00:21:39,039 --> 00:21:41,119 It seemed a lot more my style an age group 406 00:21:41,240 --> 00:21:44,440 rather than the other two older looking, sophisticated dresses I 407 00:21:44,480 --> 00:21:48,079 had picked out. I told myself I was going dancing 408 00:21:48,160 --> 00:21:51,359 out a club, not to one opera. As most young 409 00:21:51,359 --> 00:21:54,720 girls can be during their body changes into womanhood. I 410 00:21:54,759 --> 00:21:58,200 felt awkward, you know, big feet, freckles and body hair 411 00:21:58,200 --> 00:22:02,240 and unwonted places. There are things you just don't want 412 00:22:02,319 --> 00:22:05,480 when you're seventeen and you see these iconic billboards of 413 00:22:05,519 --> 00:22:08,839 what femininity is supposed to represent, and you just don't 414 00:22:08,880 --> 00:22:12,039 fit into that picture, never feeling what we all are 415 00:22:12,079 --> 00:22:16,400 already absolutely perfect. By the time I had got ready, 416 00:22:16,519 --> 00:22:19,119 I was a nervous wreck, but trying to keep cool 417 00:22:19,160 --> 00:22:22,279 on the outside was an act. I thought it'd be 418 00:22:22,319 --> 00:22:24,559 a good idea to take a few xanas before the 419 00:22:24,599 --> 00:22:28,759 evening unraveled and my anxiety went through the roof. Jeffrey 420 00:22:28,759 --> 00:22:31,519 and I were sitting in the lounge room downstairs waiting 421 00:22:31,519 --> 00:22:34,519 for Glaine to finish getting ready. The room was silent, 422 00:22:34,839 --> 00:22:38,200 only stillness in the air. I stared at a mural 423 00:22:38,240 --> 00:22:40,759 painted onto the wall that I was facing. It was 424 00:22:40,799 --> 00:22:44,559 an interesting piece of artwork in great detail. It illustrated 425 00:22:44,599 --> 00:22:47,720 a happy looking family sitting on a bench overlooking upon 426 00:22:47,839 --> 00:22:50,400 that resided on a large piece of land with a 427 00:22:50,440 --> 00:22:54,519 beautiful home displayed. There were also hunting hounds in the 428 00:22:54,599 --> 00:22:58,200 hunters chasing a game of fox, like the notorious English 429 00:22:58,240 --> 00:23:03,519 hunt pieces throughout history. Jeffrey took notice of my enchantment 430 00:23:04,279 --> 00:23:06,839 into the picture, and in a hush voice, proceeded to 431 00:23:06,880 --> 00:23:09,359 tell me that it was a portrait of Glenn's childhood, 432 00:23:09,880 --> 00:23:13,119 the part that she could be proud of. I never 433 00:23:13,160 --> 00:23:16,680 realized how prominent her family's history was in England. Apparently, 434 00:23:16,680 --> 00:23:20,039 as Jeffrey's attest. Her father was born of poor Jewish 435 00:23:20,039 --> 00:23:24,240 descent in Czechoslovakia, most of his family being killed upon 436 00:23:24,359 --> 00:23:28,160 Nazi invasion in nineteen thirty nine. Fleeing to join the 437 00:23:28,160 --> 00:23:31,000 British Army as a young man, he changed his name 438 00:23:31,039 --> 00:23:33,039 a few times and made a lot of contacts in 439 00:23:33,079 --> 00:23:36,839 the field. After the war, a newfound Robert Maxwell when 440 00:23:36,839 --> 00:23:40,440 into publishing, using his army contacts to establish a business 441 00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:45,920 initially built upon publishing scientific books from occupied Germany. In time, 442 00:23:46,319 --> 00:23:50,200 Maxwell acquired several British newspapers, among them The Deli Mirror, 443 00:23:50,640 --> 00:23:53,359 countering his wits against the likes of Rupert Murdoch along 444 00:23:53,400 --> 00:23:58,559 the way. However, whilst constructing his publishing empire, Maxwell compiled 445 00:23:58,680 --> 00:24:03,599 astronomical debts, and his equivocal financial dealings attracted the attention 446 00:24:04,119 --> 00:24:07,079 of governing authorities that judged them not to be looking 447 00:24:07,079 --> 00:24:09,559 out for his company's best interest, and in the end 448 00:24:09,880 --> 00:24:13,440 it transpired that Robert Maxwell had been using proceeds from 449 00:24:13,440 --> 00:24:17,279 his employees' pension funds to meet his financial debts, ruining 450 00:24:17,319 --> 00:24:20,640 the future of thousands of employees. Once an esteem member 451 00:24:20,680 --> 00:24:24,319 of Parliament and publishing mogul, Robert's body was found floating 452 00:24:24,319 --> 00:24:26,680 in the Atlantic Ocean after he was found to be 453 00:24:26,720 --> 00:24:29,640 missing from his yacht, the Lady Glaane, named after his 454 00:24:29,680 --> 00:24:34,440 favorite child, while cruising the Canary Islands in nineteen ninety one. 455 00:24:34,559 --> 00:24:37,519 Jeffrey went on to tell me that when her father died, 456 00:24:37,559 --> 00:24:40,960 she was inconsolable and in a very bad state. He 457 00:24:41,000 --> 00:24:43,559 picked her up from the trenches of despair and took 458 00:24:43,559 --> 00:24:46,519 her under his wing, and it's there she stayed comfortable 459 00:24:46,559 --> 00:24:51,039 ever since. Took Elaine. His peculiar need to have so 460 00:24:51,119 --> 00:24:54,440 many women around, even his taste in younger than legal ones, 461 00:24:54,440 --> 00:24:57,680 didn't seem unconventional to her. It was her own father 462 00:24:58,039 --> 00:25:00,720 who was deemed a womanizer and even took a second 463 00:25:00,759 --> 00:25:03,680 wife while still married to Glane's mother. I would have 464 00:25:03,720 --> 00:25:08,119 never guessed this care free, spirited and vivacious woman have 465 00:25:08,240 --> 00:25:11,240 ever endured such sorrows. I couldn't help but looking her 466 00:25:11,279 --> 00:25:13,920 in a different light from then on, but not letting 467 00:25:13,920 --> 00:25:17,960 her know that I knew to avoid any altercations between us. 468 00:25:18,359 --> 00:25:20,160 All Right, we're gonna wrap this one up right here, 469 00:25:20,359 --> 00:25:22,559 and in the next episode dealing with the topic, we're 470 00:25:22,559 --> 00:25:25,200 gonna pick up where we left off. All of the 471 00:25:25,240 --> 00:25:28,359 information that goes with this episode can be found in 472 00:25:28,440 --> 00:25:31,519 the description box. What's up, everyone, and welcome to another 473 00:25:31,559 --> 00:25:35,039 episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're gonna 474 00:25:35,039 --> 00:25:38,039 pick up where we left off with Virginia Roberts memoir 475 00:25:38,279 --> 00:25:42,519 The Billionaire's Playboy Club. Sunny spring days melted away, the 476 00:25:42,559 --> 00:25:45,400 ice off the frozen streets of New York, and the 477 00:25:45,440 --> 00:25:48,920 harsh winter winds began to gently blow away the dead leaves, 478 00:25:49,200 --> 00:25:51,880 making the cage trees appear to have some form of 479 00:25:51,920 --> 00:25:56,119 life again. I hated the cold winters there. It would 480 00:25:56,119 --> 00:25:59,200 only add to my depression being locked indoors. Give me 481 00:25:59,240 --> 00:26:01,960 hot Florida day, blistering in the sun, where I can 482 00:26:02,000 --> 00:26:05,240 swelter by a cool pool and sip cocktails with pieces 483 00:26:05,240 --> 00:26:09,400 of fruit and little oriental umbrellas floating around. What a 484 00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:13,599 vision of solace. Looking around my extravagantly decorated medieval room, 485 00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:17,039 I was reminded of the desolation that I was more 486 00:26:17,039 --> 00:26:20,200 than accustomed to, knowing it wouldn't be a long time 487 00:26:20,240 --> 00:26:23,880 before I was summoned again for another ritualistic occurrence. In 488 00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:27,240 fornicating with my master, I hardly bothered to leave my 489 00:26:27,279 --> 00:26:31,039 assigned chambers, scarcely being sent home for a moment's break. 490 00:26:31,400 --> 00:26:34,720 I just accepted my fate as I predicted. The innercom 491 00:26:34,720 --> 00:26:38,039 buzzed momentarily, and I heard Golayne's voice come over and 492 00:26:38,039 --> 00:26:41,599 a request to meet them in Jeffrey's study, not not call. 493 00:26:41,880 --> 00:26:44,039 I would often meet him there first so we could 494 00:26:44,079 --> 00:26:47,160 tie up some unfinished business before heading to the dungeon 495 00:26:47,519 --> 00:26:50,440 or what was thought to be the massage room. Making 496 00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:52,799 my way down the hall, I had a neary feeling 497 00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:56,000 wash over me, as if I had several pairs of 498 00:26:56,039 --> 00:26:59,200 eyes on me watching my every move. A cold chill 499 00:26:59,240 --> 00:27:01,279 moved up my spot and I had to move my 500 00:27:01,319 --> 00:27:04,920 thoughts elsewhere. Too easy behind these walls to succumb to 501 00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:09,480 my fearsome anxieties. I punched in number one once inside 502 00:27:09,640 --> 00:27:11,920 the elevator, and it took me down to the floor 503 00:27:12,119 --> 00:27:15,680 where Jeffrey and the surprised guests were waiting with anticipation 504 00:27:16,000 --> 00:27:20,119 behind closed doors. I cracked open the heavy wooden doors, 505 00:27:20,240 --> 00:27:24,079 and a familiar face revealed itself. Definitely not expected or 506 00:27:24,119 --> 00:27:27,079 pre warned on my part, but I already knew what 507 00:27:27,160 --> 00:27:29,200 he was there for, or at least why I was 508 00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:32,759 called down to the study. Prince Andrew had that notorious 509 00:27:32,839 --> 00:27:35,519 cheesy grin slapped over his face as he looked me 510 00:27:35,640 --> 00:27:38,160 up and down, like a shiny new car on display, 511 00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:40,640 and he was about to take it for a test drive. 512 00:27:41,400 --> 00:27:44,359 Glayne led me to the decadent sofa he was lounging 513 00:27:44,400 --> 00:27:46,720 on and twirled me around to give him a good 514 00:27:46,759 --> 00:27:49,920 look over, before sitting me down on his lap like 515 00:27:49,960 --> 00:27:52,640 a show pony. I knew exactly how they wanted me 516 00:27:52,680 --> 00:27:55,599 to be paraded around. With the last of my dignity 517 00:27:55,680 --> 00:27:58,599 long lost, I had nothing more to lose. It was 518 00:27:58,640 --> 00:28:01,240 easy to give them the reaction they desired. All I 519 00:28:01,279 --> 00:28:03,680 had to do was pretend to be unentertained by their 520 00:28:03,759 --> 00:28:08,240 lewde gestures, and when Andrew cut my breast with a 521 00:28:08,279 --> 00:28:11,680 doll made in his image, I only giggled away. Golayne 522 00:28:11,759 --> 00:28:14,400 wanted to take a picture of the bizarre scene, and 523 00:28:14,440 --> 00:28:18,279 even got Johanna, another one of Jeffrey's so called personal assistants, 524 00:28:18,519 --> 00:28:20,680 to come sit on the other knee for a snapshot. 525 00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:24,519 Given the impression girls couldn't stay away from Randy Andy 526 00:28:25,640 --> 00:28:28,000 many crew jokes later, and I was asked to show 527 00:28:28,039 --> 00:28:31,440 Andrew to the upstairs massage room. I'm sure he already 528 00:28:31,519 --> 00:28:34,799 knew where it was from previous visits, but I led 529 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:37,079 him the way anyways, as if he was now my 530 00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:40,279 guest of honor. Entering into the dim room, it took 531 00:28:40,319 --> 00:28:42,880 a few minutes from my eyes to adjust to the darkness, 532 00:28:43,240 --> 00:28:45,440 but knowing my way around the room was enough to 533 00:28:45,480 --> 00:28:48,279 find the shower. I turned on the steam room and 534 00:28:48,359 --> 00:28:52,119 began to undress myself. Andrew followed my lead and disrobed, 535 00:28:52,240 --> 00:28:54,880 throwing his attire to the floor. I wanted to run 536 00:28:54,920 --> 00:28:57,440 and hide, feeling his hands touch me again, but my 537 00:28:57,559 --> 00:29:01,359 servitude for Jeffrey kept me there. Getting out of his stronghold, 538 00:29:01,519 --> 00:29:04,119 I turned my attention to the steam filling up and 539 00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:07,079 tried to turn his attention to the marble bench, where 540 00:29:07,119 --> 00:29:09,759 I suggested he'd take a seat while I rubbed his feet. 541 00:29:10,240 --> 00:29:12,039 By the look in his eyes, I knew he could 542 00:29:12,079 --> 00:29:15,160 care less about a foot massage. His real desire were 543 00:29:15,200 --> 00:29:18,680 being shown by the arousal his body was forming. He 544 00:29:18,720 --> 00:29:21,279 indicated where he wanted me to touch him and how 545 00:29:21,519 --> 00:29:25,200 I fulfilled his CD requests, but only just. There was 546 00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:28,000 no pleasure in this for me. The only thing I 547 00:29:28,119 --> 00:29:30,480 derived from this event was to sing further into my 548 00:29:30,519 --> 00:29:35,279 slumber of depression. I couldn't remember a time when I 549 00:29:35,319 --> 00:29:38,119 felt I needed for anything other than my body or 550 00:29:38,119 --> 00:29:42,480 amusements thereof. After his massage was thoroughly conducted, I couldn't 551 00:29:42,519 --> 00:29:44,480 wait to get back to my room for another shower. 552 00:29:44,920 --> 00:29:47,119 Sitting on the floor of my shower under the harsh 553 00:29:47,119 --> 00:29:49,880 spray of water, I scrubbed my body where he touched me. 554 00:29:50,279 --> 00:29:53,680 Feeling abhorrent and ashamed at what I become, I let 555 00:29:53,680 --> 00:29:57,559 the water wash away the grime. As the days progressed 556 00:29:57,559 --> 00:30:00,480 into nights and the knights followed a trail of destructive months, 557 00:30:00,640 --> 00:30:04,559 my outlook on life had diminished into utter sadness. I 558 00:30:04,599 --> 00:30:06,720 had lost my spark and my ability to look like 559 00:30:06,759 --> 00:30:09,160 I could handle the abusive state of affairs I had 560 00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:13,039 drifted into, sinking deeper into the euphoric state of being 561 00:30:13,079 --> 00:30:16,720 on coke and pills. Not only was my mentality dwindling away, 562 00:30:17,039 --> 00:30:19,839 but also my looks. I sure as hell didn't feel 563 00:30:19,880 --> 00:30:22,759 like a seventeen year old anymore, and now I wasn't 564 00:30:22,759 --> 00:30:26,519 looking like one. My eyes had dark circles underneath them 565 00:30:26,799 --> 00:30:29,759 from not sleeping, and my bones protruded from my skinny 566 00:30:29,759 --> 00:30:33,400 waistline in my chest. This made Jeffrey apprehensive in keeping 567 00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,920 me around as often, and before I had moments notice 568 00:30:37,079 --> 00:30:39,079 I was out of money and looking for a job. 569 00:30:39,720 --> 00:30:42,319 When I questioned them what was happening, he told me 570 00:30:42,359 --> 00:30:44,559 I wasn't the same girl he had first met some 571 00:30:44,680 --> 00:30:47,319 time ago now and looked like I needed a break 572 00:30:47,359 --> 00:30:49,920 from working so much. I'll call you next time I'm 573 00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:51,839 in town, was the last thing he said to me. 574 00:30:53,160 --> 00:30:56,319 Going back to the average teenager's life was more of 575 00:30:56,359 --> 00:30:59,240 a harder transition than I would have ever thought. Jeffrey 576 00:30:59,279 --> 00:31:01,640 stopped paying my expensive rent, and I was forced to 577 00:31:01,640 --> 00:31:03,599 get off the drugs and look for a real job 578 00:31:03,640 --> 00:31:06,799 to feed and shelter. TJ and I. It was much 579 00:31:06,799 --> 00:31:10,119 harder than it sounded, but I was craving this in 580 00:31:10,160 --> 00:31:13,480 every possible way. Even though a week's wages for working 581 00:31:13,480 --> 00:31:15,680 a full time job as a waitress didn't come close 582 00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:17,440 to the money I had made in a couple of 583 00:31:17,480 --> 00:31:20,480 hours working for Jeffrey, I was happier than I had 584 00:31:20,480 --> 00:31:22,960 been in a long time. I made some friends at 585 00:31:22,960 --> 00:31:25,279 my new job and found my duties to be easy 586 00:31:25,319 --> 00:31:28,559 and pleasant. I was good at making customers smile and 587 00:31:28,680 --> 00:31:31,039 keeping them happy before the waitress. That made the most 588 00:31:31,039 --> 00:31:33,359 of the tips for the night, which in turn made 589 00:31:33,400 --> 00:31:36,200 my coworkers happy since we'd all split the tips at 590 00:31:36,200 --> 00:31:38,519 the end of the week. For the first time in 591 00:31:38,559 --> 00:31:41,039 a long time, I had boys my age hitting on me, 592 00:31:41,519 --> 00:31:44,319 and not that I was ever taken aback, but there 593 00:31:44,359 --> 00:31:47,119 were attempts. It reminded me of how it felt to 594 00:31:47,160 --> 00:31:49,799 be around a younger crowd. I missed so much of 595 00:31:49,839 --> 00:31:52,440 what I couldn't get back, and the more I tasted it, 596 00:31:52,599 --> 00:31:56,240 the more I remembered how to smile. The relationship between 597 00:31:56,240 --> 00:31:58,799 TJ and I began to falter in a way that 598 00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:03,079 was beyond reconciliation. Fights became physical, and I saw sides 599 00:32:03,119 --> 00:32:06,359 to him that only pushed me away more. He refused 600 00:32:06,359 --> 00:32:08,640 to look for work to help pay bills, and he 601 00:32:08,680 --> 00:32:12,039 became utterly frustrated, not having his usual cocktail of assorted 602 00:32:12,079 --> 00:32:15,440 drugs to keep him from feeling anything at all. He 603 00:32:15,480 --> 00:32:17,799 didn't like the fact that I was growing inside and 604 00:32:17,839 --> 00:32:21,920 thinking beyond his elusive world. I had gone through too 605 00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:26,400 much to accept another form of abuse and degradation, making 606 00:32:26,440 --> 00:32:28,599 that point very clear to him by kicking him out 607 00:32:28,599 --> 00:32:30,880 of my apartment back to live with his parents. I 608 00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:34,640 felt liberated like never before. I kept up with my rent, 609 00:32:35,119 --> 00:32:37,720 and I cleaned my act up, and rolling in a 610 00:32:37,799 --> 00:32:40,279 yoga course and keeping my focus on staying fit and 611 00:32:40,319 --> 00:32:43,680 healthy became my only source of enjoyment. I was free 612 00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:47,960 and living for myself. While doing the grocery shopping. One evening, 613 00:32:48,119 --> 00:32:50,480 I couldn't help but stop at a local pet store 614 00:32:50,640 --> 00:32:53,000 and fell in love with the furry pooch. She was 615 00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:56,039 a Japanese chow chow and a bundle of fur that 616 00:32:56,079 --> 00:32:58,799 more resembled a baby brown bear than a dog. I 617 00:32:58,839 --> 00:33:01,279 took her home with me and instantly she became my 618 00:33:01,319 --> 00:33:04,359 best friend. We went for several walks a day, and 619 00:33:04,440 --> 00:33:07,319 she bore the brunt of my many tear filled conversations. 620 00:33:07,559 --> 00:33:11,000 She was my loyal companion who understood more than anyone 621 00:33:11,039 --> 00:33:14,240 had before. All I really need was someone to listen, 622 00:33:14,480 --> 00:33:17,160 and funny enough, it was her that filled the hole. 623 00:33:18,640 --> 00:33:20,960 Nearly three months had gone by and not a word 624 00:33:20,960 --> 00:33:24,000 from Jeffrey or Golaine. With TJ out of the picture, 625 00:33:24,359 --> 00:33:27,440 now all I had to concentrate on was work, my parents, 626 00:33:27,440 --> 00:33:31,039 my brothers, and of course my dog Mary Jane. I 627 00:33:31,119 --> 00:33:33,839 was going to family night dinners and bonfires again. My 628 00:33:33,880 --> 00:33:36,200 older brother was getting married to an amazing woman in 629 00:33:36,240 --> 00:33:38,000 a few weeks, and I got to be a part 630 00:33:38,039 --> 00:33:41,799 of their beautiful ceremony, small details of life's journey that 631 00:33:41,839 --> 00:33:44,039 I had already missed so much of, and now being 632 00:33:44,160 --> 00:33:46,880 able to smile at the simple things day in day out, 633 00:33:47,240 --> 00:33:50,519 really seemed to put the real value of life into perspective. 634 00:33:50,599 --> 00:33:53,680 For me. Everything seemed to be working out for itself, 635 00:33:53,799 --> 00:33:56,680 and I was really happy until he came back. TJ 636 00:33:56,839 --> 00:33:59,319 thought he'd come over my place one evening while I 637 00:33:59,400 --> 00:34:03,839 was sitting at home just watching TV. Obviously mentally distorted 638 00:34:03,880 --> 00:34:06,240 from whatever choice of drugs he was smoking that night, 639 00:34:06,599 --> 00:34:09,679 he screamed down my apartment complex, going mad, and scaring 640 00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:11,920 my neighbors. I felt like I had no choice but 641 00:34:11,960 --> 00:34:14,679 to let him inside. I tried talking to him as 642 00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:16,960 a good friend would, just wanting him to see what 643 00:34:17,039 --> 00:34:19,360 he was doing to himself and what he had become 644 00:34:20,440 --> 00:34:22,199 part of me. Still loved him and took pity on 645 00:34:22,280 --> 00:34:25,480 watching him spiral downwards. Taking him back into my life 646 00:34:25,760 --> 00:34:29,159 was not a decision I made wholeheartedly, but with something 647 00:34:29,199 --> 00:34:31,880 I did out of guilt and what I thought was loyalty. 648 00:34:32,599 --> 00:34:35,360 He moved his clothes back to my place, which was 649 00:34:35,639 --> 00:34:38,079 all he ever owned anyways, and we tried to pick 650 00:34:38,159 --> 00:34:41,440 up the broken pieces. TJ, still being badly addicted to 651 00:34:41,480 --> 00:34:43,840 many drugs, I had to be very careful where I 652 00:34:43,920 --> 00:34:47,480 kept my jewelry and expensive items. I decided to rent 653 00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:49,559 out a space at a local spot and store my 654 00:34:49,639 --> 00:34:53,559 cherished items away, just taking the necessary precautions, I thought, 655 00:34:54,199 --> 00:34:57,280 still not working. I knew how he was scraping by money, 656 00:34:57,440 --> 00:34:59,679 and I didn't agree with it. TJ was a known 657 00:34:59,679 --> 00:35:02,480 thief and had been caught several times attempting to steal 658 00:35:02,519 --> 00:35:06,719 things even as stupid as DVD's, or PS two or 659 00:35:06,960 --> 00:35:10,280 Xbox games from a local blockbuster. He even stole from 660 00:35:10,280 --> 00:35:13,239 his parents, his sister, and his brother, and would probably 661 00:35:13,280 --> 00:35:15,199 steal a piece of candy from a five year old 662 00:35:15,599 --> 00:35:17,719 if he knew that it would get him his next fix. 663 00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:22,199 He hated the change in myself, realizing I couldn't be 664 00:35:22,199 --> 00:35:24,639 brought back down by his ways, but knowing I was 665 00:35:24,639 --> 00:35:27,559 still stuck by his side and defended him from anything 666 00:35:27,800 --> 00:35:29,960 that would hurt him, wanting to believe that he still 667 00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:32,840 wanted to show the bits of human nature left in 668 00:35:32,880 --> 00:35:35,440 his empty heart. Unable to stand and see me do 669 00:35:35,559 --> 00:35:38,199 well for myself, he contemplated a way to try and 670 00:35:38,199 --> 00:35:40,840 bring me down. After a busy shift one night, he 671 00:35:40,920 --> 00:35:44,360 retaliated with another show of control. I had just finished 672 00:35:44,400 --> 00:35:46,719 up cleaning my area and setting out the tables to 673 00:35:46,760 --> 00:35:49,239 be ready for the next day, and I went to 674 00:35:49,280 --> 00:35:51,360 the bar to hang up my apron and put my 675 00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:54,039 night's tips in the tipple on the counter by the 676 00:35:54,039 --> 00:35:57,920 beer tap. On one of his drug induced rampages, he 677 00:35:58,000 --> 00:36:00,719 stormed into the restaurant where I was working and started 678 00:36:00,719 --> 00:36:02,920 to pick a fight with me. I knew he was 679 00:36:02,960 --> 00:36:05,480 off his face when he started accusing me of sleeping 680 00:36:05,519 --> 00:36:08,960 with my manager on shift that evening. Having no bias 681 00:36:09,039 --> 00:36:11,280 or ground to stand on in his attempt to make 682 00:36:11,280 --> 00:36:13,480 me look bad in front of everyone. I just laughed 683 00:36:13,519 --> 00:36:15,519 him off as a drunk idiot who needed to go 684 00:36:15,639 --> 00:36:18,719 home and sleep off the night's repercussions. Although I was 685 00:36:18,760 --> 00:36:21,679 fuming inside that he embarrassed me, but I still made 686 00:36:21,719 --> 00:36:24,679 excuses for him and told my boss I had to 687 00:36:24,719 --> 00:36:27,719 leave early to bring him home. All right, folks, we're 688 00:36:27,719 --> 00:36:29,880 gonna wrap up right here, and in the next episode 689 00:36:29,880 --> 00:36:31,960 dealing with the topic, we're gonna pick up where we 690 00:36:32,039 --> 00:36:34,679 left off. All of the information that goes with this 691 00:36:34,760 --> 00:36:37,480 episode can be found in the description box.