Speaker 1: And that's why I never read the comment. I just
want to like, I'm not even gonna look amazing tonight.
I love what you're wearing a sandwich. Oh my god,
they're all I have an angry closs. That is life.
But that's hard, like unless it's like an NBA team
or something.
Speaker 2: Like whoa, Hello, everybody, Welcome back to an incredibly special
episode of Holly Randall Unfiltered. And it's not just because
I have an amazing guest, which I do, but I
am so excited to be here in my brand new studio. People,
I have backlight, which is all I ever wanted in life.
Speaker 3: The flyways may make me reconsider it's very strong backlight,
but uh, you know, I couldn't get backlight. My old
studio was too small, and now I have backlight and
it makes me very happy, maybe until I see this
feed and then I'm like, oh.
Speaker 1: God, backlight was a bad idea.
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guest today is an incredibly successful melf who started off
her career in mainstream and now she's killing it an adult.
Speaker 1: And I'm very excited to have her here to be.
Speaker 2: Popping my cherry in my new studio, the one and
Only ggdor Hi.
Speaker 4: Thank you so much for having me. Of course, this
is an amazing space. I'm so excited I get to
be the first few guests at the studio.
Speaker 2: I'm so excited to have you here. I will have
more fans here next time I come here. I only
need more fans. Only fans, That's all I need. Shas plug,
I know, right, because we love only fans, we do,
we really do.
Speaker 1: So yeah, So thank you so much for coming on.
Speaker 2: I know that like we did our little, our little
uh pre game interview on the red carpet, Yes, and
that clip went like viral.
Speaker 1: It did so well.
Speaker 4: That's amazing.
Speaker 1: Are you used to that kind of Does all your
social media content do that? Well?
Speaker 4: Like, not all of it, but I like to. When
I like deliver something, I like to go big or
go home. So it makes me happy when it does,
because you know it's good for you, it's good for me,
it's good for all of us.
Speaker 1: So how long have you banned the industry for?
Speaker 4: Five years this month?
Speaker 1: Oh wow?
Speaker 4: Five years this month? And ironically I started camming, so
that's where I got my start. So when you said
like you didn't need a social media following, I started
from zero. Yeah, yeah I had. I started with a
stage name and a Instagram and Twitter with zero followers.
Speaker 1: How was camming for you like when you got into it?
Was it what you expected?
Speaker 4: I expected it to be very slow. I was like,
who's gonna want to jump on and see me on cam?
And my first night I had to get off early
because I was so overwhelmed with the traffic that I
was like, oh my god. I had no idea. And
then I kind of was like, oh, well, that's just
going to be easy. So I think it went like
crazy easy, and then it kind of, you know, I
had to find my groove. And but camping for me
will always be where like I started. It's my home,
it's my first love. I absolutely love camming. I can
do it from home, and you know, when I'm done,
throw some sweatpants on and then I'm home. So I
absolutely love it.
Speaker 2: You can even do it in your sweatpants.
Speaker 5: I have.
Speaker 2: I mean, I know, like girls that tell me that
they sometimes they don't put on makeup or get dressed.
Speaker 4: No, And now that I've been in the adult industry
for a little bit, some of the fans actually prefer
those days when I'm not all made up because they
get to see like the studio work of me, all
like made up in hair and makeup. But those days
on like you know and sex panther or on on campsites,
those are just me, you know, those are like the
real me, and they get to see like a different
version of me. So sometimes I do Sometimes I just eat.
I love those streets like I want to do that.
I just eat like chips and just like we talk
sports or we talk you know stuff, and it's it's amazing.
I've had some of my most diehard fans come from kimming.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, because that real time connection can't really
be be.
Speaker 4: Right, you can't, you can't. The crazy part I have
found that a lot of people don't maybe understand though,
is they see all of you, but we don't see
them right. So I think they think that there's like
this deep connection sometimes and yes, like you're chatting and
stuff and you so you are definitely getting to know them.
But there's one of me and there's thousands of them,
so you know they'll be like, oh, I know her,
and I'm like, I know you from on the line,
So you know you have to It's sometimes a little
bit of a balance.
Speaker 2: Do you have, Like I'm sure you've had fans that
have like crossed boundary lines with you, Like how do
you manage that?
Speaker 4: I set firm expectations. I think being older, I think
it's a little easier setting the boundaries.
Speaker 1: Supposedly we've learned how to Supposedly, Yeah, by this point.
Speaker 4: It's something I'm still, you know, very very hard at
work at. But you know, they I warn them and
then I always say, like it's a three strike. You know,
you have three shots and if you continue to push me,
then you'll block or you're out. And I'm pretty firm
with that. And then if I'm on a campsite or whatever,
I have really great moderators and they helped me enforce that.
They're like, you're not going to be disrespectful more than
a couple of times.
Speaker 2: These moderators are generally like, started off as fans, right,
and now you elevate.
Speaker 4: Them to be yes and my mods are some of
my best friends now, so they've seen me from day one,
so they're amazing. Yeah, they're incredible.
Speaker 2: So, speaking of day one, let's talk about your start
in the industry. So you came into adult entertainment after
over a decade in me stream fashion, modeling, TV, infomercials,
a Bloodhound Gang music video which with Bam mcgara.
Speaker 1: I hadn't like heard either of those names and so
long I was.
Speaker 4: Like, oh my god, right, no right, blasts in the past.
Speaker 1: What made you finally crossover covid?
Speaker 2: Ah, I love Everyone said like covid was the gateway drugs.
Speaker 4: It was, it was a gateway. So I had done
mainstream and so I was comfortable on camera and things
like that. So I was at home painting and I
was listening to a show on WE or something, and
this girl had had this beautiful house and she was
always home, and I was like, So I googled what
she did for a living and she's it said she
was a cam model, So I was like, what's that?
So then I like I remember sitting on our stairs
in the front entryway and like the paint is right there,
and then I'm on my phone and I'm just like
down this rabbit hole of like what camling was. And
then I found like Ainsley Divine, and you know, she
was one of my first like like mentors, like people
I looked up to, and so I just kind of
started doing some research. And then my significant other came
home that night and I was like, Hey, what do
you think about this? And he's like, are you kidding?
And I was like no, and so we kind of
like let it sit for simmer for a little while,
and then he started doing some research and I started
doing some research. And really what got me in was
I have children and and I know it we'll talk
about it in a little bit, but I had stomach
surgery and I had badical bills, and I wasn't working
during COVID, and I had kids, a little kids at home,
so I was looking for extra way to make money
from home and not have to like you know, I
was cleaning other people's houses and you know, just to
make ends meet. And so when I found camming, it's
changed my life.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 2: Yeah, definitely So what is it about like that move
that made you realize, like, this is something that I
definitely wanted to do.
Speaker 4: I'm not no, I'm just kidding. There are days where
I'm not sure it is, But was it? No? There,
you know, it's definitely a roller coaster. I think once
I saw that it was a business, and then if
I ran it as such, it had the potential of
being extremely lucrative and changing not only my life but
my family's life for the foreseeable future and to make
up for, you know, financial issues that I had run
into in my first divorce and different things like that.
And then on top of that, it also has given
me so much strength and so much confidence and like
a just like a confidence in my sexuality.
Speaker 2: So you came in because you know, I mean, there's
the age old debate about like when is too young
to come into the porn industry, and there's quite a
few people that think that eighteen is too young. You
obviously came in later. Are you happy that you came
in later?
Speaker 4: I had submitted my pictures Playboy in two thousand and
six and I got a call back, and then I
found out I was pregnant with my oldest, so I
had to put that on the back burner. So I
think porn was always something that I may have been
drawn to. It was just a timing thing and a
support thing because with kids at home and stuff, it
was it definitely I needed that extra support and that
extra help and guidance, and I wasn't getting that back then.
So I think there's definitely an advantage to getting in
older because I now know it is a business. I
think if I had done it in my twenties, I
may have partied a little harder and you know, done
all of that a little more. But I sometimes look
back and I wish I had because I think that
extra experience and the extra time in and porn's so
different now, even in five years, it's so different. I
can't imagine what an extra fifteen or twenty on top
of that would have been.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I will like argue that the time that
you got in was a time where like models have
the most power and the most like flexibility an agency
over their careers because completely, you know, I've been in this,
I've been in the ship twenty seven years and it's like, yeah,
I mean, you know, before you were completely dependent on
whatever director wanted to book you, and then you got
your day rate and that was it. And then like
once you got shot out, like what were you going
to do? Really? You know, some girls had solo model websites,
but to be successful with those was pretty difficult, pretty difficult,
and nothing compared to like what girls I'm making on
OnlyFans now, like.
Speaker 4: Yeah, even not even close. And I think having the
ability of all of the opportunities we have now has
allowed me to stay on the East coast, yeah, where
my kids are, versus having to be local in La
or Vegas or you know, It's given me that power
to be able to camp from home when I'm when
I'm not on on studio.
Speaker 2: So you started off camming, Yes, you're doing scenes now?
Speaker 5: Yes?
Speaker 1: How did that transition happen?
Speaker 4: So? I was probably camming for about eight months and
I had an agent approached me at one of the
conventions and was like, I have you ever thought about
and so I was like, sure, I'll give it a shot.
So I did my first scene in March of twenty two,
so almost a full year in.
Speaker 2: Had you done any work with other performers before then,
like for camming or girl girl?
Speaker 4: Just you know, a little girl girl here and there,
but very light and no and most of my only
fan stuff was just getting launched. Like I had a
very very very like I had like two videos like
nothing crazy. So I shot in March and I absolutely
hated it. I cried after the scene. I cried the
whole way home. Was it a bad scene in retrospect?
Speaker 2: Yes?
Speaker 1: Okay?
Speaker 4: So and I worn new performers of this now as
like I kind of like, you know, the moms of
the industry, I say, be very careful on what you
say your limits are and what your jews and don'ts
are because porn jews and don'ts and porn lingo is
very different than like bedroom lingo of like just a
regular regular person.
Speaker 1: Do you have like any specific examples.
Speaker 4: So yeah, So, like I went in and I was like,
they were like, you know, what do you do? What
do you don't? And I was like, I like it
rough and porn rough is a very different rough than
married bedroom ruffy. Yeah, I yah, yeah, I was choked
and I didn't realize that I need to say you
can't put your hands like you could put your hands there,
but no, you know, no restriction. Correct. Yeah, make sure
that I can breathe, there's no slapping, no sp you know,
the a lot of things that I incorporate into my
Jews and don'ts now because of other shoots and because
of preferences and things, I had no and no guidance
on it.
Speaker 1: Did you guys do a boundary checklist on this set? No?
Speaker 2: Yeah, That's a big thing about that's great about the
boundary checklist that we do now is that they're very specific.
Speaker 4: Almost so specific that like there's stuff on some of
those lists. I'm like, I didn't even think it's like
I was in the thought of that, but it's on
there for a reason.
Speaker 2: Yeah, because like what if, yeah, someone does it to
you and you're like, I didn't know.
Speaker 1: I had to say no to that.
Speaker 4: Exactly, yeah, exactly, Like even like there, like I was
fish hooked and like I'm okay now with it, but
it was startling when it's your first time at there.
And so so I went home and I was crying
and I was like this isn't for me. I'm like,
I'm just going to CAM. So I did. I went
home and I continued to CAM from March until October,
and then October the agent called me again and he
was like, I have like five shoots for you in Florida.
Do you want to come down? So I went. I
stayed in Miami for I think I was there for
like two weeks and I shot like five or six
scenes and it was a whole different experience. I went
in with a different head, like, you know, a different
boundary obviously, boundaries. I looked up boundaries, like I googled it,
like Google has been my best friend during this journey, Like, yeah,
I googled what boundaries were, what do's and don'ts were.
I watched porn to see like what I was okay
with and what it wasn't.
Speaker 1: Did you look up the companies that you were working for?
Speaker 4: Yes, so they were. They were different too, They weren't
first time companies. They were in more reputable, like you know,
more common scenes too. So and then I was just
more vocal, you know. And the longer I've been in,
the more vocal I get. I'm like, no, I'm not
okay with this or yeah, like you know, you get
it's weird. I always call my boundaries like a like
a piece of spaghetti, right, Like sometimes they're very, very
firm and they're very consistent, and then other times they're
like boiled pasta and it's a little loose and you know,
it's a little at Dundee, you know, I kind of
just you know, it moves around a little bit. So
but yeah, so and then October. I've shot almost every
month since October of twenty two. Wow. Yeah, so a lot.
It's been a lot, Like I haven't even added my scene,
so we're not.
Speaker 2: I'm sure there's somebody out there that knows how many scenes.
I'm sure there is someone keeping track.
Speaker 4: Somebody knows that number, if.
Speaker 1: You know, wonderful like autistic fans.
Speaker 4: We love you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, what has been your favorite scene you think that
you've done so far? Like if there was someone who
was watching and they're new and they're like, oh this,
you know, girls hot, like I want to check her out.
Speaker 1: Like where would you be, like you should go watch
this scene.
Speaker 4: Oh, that's a tough question. I loved my I was
a main none of my first feature last year for Elegant,
which was Breakthrough. Yeah, so we got to really like
act like and you know, not just go on and
have sex. So that was probably one of my favorites
to date. But as far as like having fun on set.
Let's see, I did Team Skeet with Dee Williams and
Millie Morgan. That one went really really like. That one
did really well. That one was incredible. That was just fun,
you know, like I think those are those are my
best day or one you forget you're working, yeah, and
you're like, oh my god, we're done. Okay, So I
just shot a girl girl scene with my Ramones or
a Quasar and it hasn't been dropped yet, but it's insane.
Speaker 2: It's any It's Quasy is like one of my best friends.
Like I just love being around him and his energy
and he's amazing.
Speaker 4: It was on set, it was just incredible. It was
just a great day. Like her and I had great chemistry.
So that's a really good one when that one drops.
Let's see, Millie Morgan and I did Team Skeet one
and that was a blast because she's a blast. Yea,
so we did a swap. So yeah, those are a
couple of my tops.
Speaker 2: Any like dream scenes that you haven't done, or dream
performers you haven't worked with yet that you really want to.
Speaker 4: Probably mostly girls, ironically, there's not that many guys. No
there's not that thing.
Speaker 1: It's probably worked with almost.
Speaker 4: All almost all of them, and if I haven't, they're
probably coming up. So I mean, I know I've I've
said it before. Like there's the icons like Kendra and
and Brandy Love, under Lust, kender Lust. Sorry, yeah, I
mean that's those are probably my two top right now. Yeah, yeah,
those are probably like but you know, dream scenes no, like,
I just like, I love the creativity of it. I
love when we have a script but we can play
with it and you know, really make it our own.
Speaker 1: Do you prefer shooting features like with acting or do
you prefer shooting gonzo or are they just different?
Speaker 4: They're just different. They're just different in their own you know.
The ones with scripts and the features are long days
and you know there it's a lot of work, but
it's you know, it's amazing because you get to really show, like, yeah,
more than just your sexual acts and those. But then
the gonzo scenes are great because sometimes it's just fun
to get out there.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and you're done quick.
Speaker 4: You're done quick, and you you know, still have the
rest of your day yourself exactly exactly.
Speaker 2: You had a pretty significant trademark dispute with Christian Dior
in your history, so walk me through that. We experienced
that with Lexus by the way, well really yeah. We
had this girl who was was Lexus Locklear.
Speaker 1: She was like back in the eighties.
Speaker 2: My mom shot her a ton and we started our
websites Who's done, and then yeah, Lexus came after us
and we were like, wow.
Speaker 4: Yeah, so that's that's yeah. I did virtual expis the
very first year I was in the business.
Speaker 1: I forgot about that.
Speaker 4: We were still virtual Yeah. Yeah, so I did breakout
groups and one of the seminars we sat through was
to trademark your name, especially when you're in and you're
a newer, because as you grow, people can you know,
steal your name and all that. So that was one
of the first things we did after we came up
with the stage name. We trademarked it and successfully, Like
I got the you know, the go ahead, and shortly
after that, I got a letter in the mail from
Christian do yor Or and their conglomerate and said that
they were fighting me on the trademark due to disillusion
a brand and they were going to fight me. So
that was a three year battle.
Speaker 1: Wow, three years, so you you didn't fold.
Speaker 4: I did not fold. You were like, no, bitch, nope,
you're gonna have to like, no, you're not. I'm not folding.
Speaker 1: So how did you end up?
Speaker 2: I Mean, the thing is is like with trademarks, it's
like it's all about the area that you work in, right,
Like you because my name is trademarked, right, It's like
I'm trademarked, but like in these specific correct areas like
I can't Tolie Randall isn't trademarked for like cooking, right,
or like cultinary products. Don't start a fucking snow named
after me. But I'm just saying like it would be
hard for me to go after someone.
Speaker 1: Right for that.
Speaker 4: Yes, And everybody that I spoke to said that they
didn't feel that they had a leg to stand on
because I was trademarking it under acting and entertainment and
it had nothing to do with clothing or anything like that.
Speaker 1: You've legally changed your name to Gigi.
Speaker 4: Door and in the process of it, yes.
Speaker 1: And what made you decide to make that permanent and official?
Speaker 4: Because it's my identity now? It truly is. With social
media being verified on all these sites and everything, it's
become a little more difficult to have two names. I
kind of feel like it's just me at this point,
like not just on set anymore, Like people are at
home and everything, like my friends, everybody knows me as
GG now, So yeah, I think it just makes sense.
Speaker 1: You know, you're not the first person to do that.
Speaker 2: Tera Patrick also legally changed her name, did she Yeah,
her name was not originally Taro Patrick, but it is.
Speaker 4: Now because like even on Instagram, for me to like
change anything, you have to show your real ID and
all of that. And that's why so many performers. I mean,
my legal name's out there, but I just feel like
it's a little bit more protection.
Speaker 2: And yeah, you don't necessarily want to advertise it, right
because unfortunately.
Speaker 1: We do have stalkers, Yes we do. Do you have
people that.
Speaker 4: Are ill intended?
Speaker 1: Yes, exactly exactly. In fact, you're currently dealing with a
stalker who hacked your personal and financial information. Yes. How
did you find that out? And how did you manage it?
Speaker 4: Well? I'm still managing it. Most stressful couple of weeks
of my life. I woke up Friday Friday morning and
I was looking at my emails and I had all
of these emails at like one am, two am of
like username accessed, username, password changed, and it was like
all of my credit cards, all of my bank accounts.
So I asked my significant other. I was like, you know,
he was like I was asleep, Like no, So I
jumped on and I couldn't access anything, like everything was
locked down. So I got on the phone and I
had to verify myself four separate times in one phone
call to change everything back to my name, my address,
my email, my phone number because they hacker I changed everything.
So as I'm on the phone with the credit card
companies changing everything back to my information, and they're not
only changing it back because they have online access, but
they're calling me and sending me text messages saying, like
the one text message I got said Stephanie akagg d
or we're not here to hurt you, We're here to
help you. So it's absolutely directed, like this was not
just a coincidence, like they knew, they know, they know
what's happening, right, like they know. So I got before
I came here, I got a credit card alert that
they're trying to use it again. So I don't know
how else to lot. I mean, I've locked my credit down.
I have locked everything down. I I don't know in
the credit card company has been no help, like no help.
After I changed everything we passed or protected the account everything,
they called up and pretended to be me and they
just changed everything back. And the credit card company told
me this.
Speaker 1: I was like, you have two factor of indication on
everything I.
Speaker 4: Do, but they change the phone number on the on
the because they have online access, they were changing the
phone number to their phone number, so they were getting
the two factor authentication. Oh my god. So I've cried,
I've screamed, I've had to laugh because sometimes you just
have nothing else for us to do, but like just
find some silver lining in it and like all of
this over. Like the credit card is strictly the one
that I used to travel, and it's usually I only
use it to get like a rental car or like,
it's not a high dollar credit card. So I'm like,
where are you going with this? But then they opened
a bank account, they opened four other credit cards, so yeah,
so now I'm in the process of fighting all of
that with the credit bureaus so that that it doesn't
show up on my credit reports. So yeah, it's been.
Speaker 1: You hear stories like this, and they're so scary.
Speaker 4: So scary, so scary. I thought maybe it was just
a credit card, but then once I found they were
trying to open cell phones and all this my aim
and I'm like, oh god, so it's been it's been
a roller coaster.
Speaker 2: Can you use get one of those like credit monitoring companies?
Speaker 4: I did. I got it, but apparently they had tried
to open so much that they only work after you
purchase it, so they can't go backwards and protect you
from stuff. So my recommendation is if you're worried about it,
just go get it, Just pay the subscription, lock everything down,
like I'm I'm locking all of my kids stuff down,
Like wow, I don't want any open anywhere.
Speaker 2: Was it like LifeLock or something I bought LifeLock, Yeah,
that's what I'm.
Speaker 1: They just sponsored my podcast. This is a.
Speaker 4: Great a great plug LifeLock. Thank you. Yes. So they
said if anything happens moving forward that I'm insured on it.
But everything appears that they had done prior to me
opening it. So and I opened. All this happened on Friday.
I got LifeLock on Saturday, and they had done that
much damage in twenty four and today's third day.
Speaker 1: Today, it's been less than a week.
Speaker 4: It's been less than a week.
Speaker 1: Oh my god.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's been less than a week.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, it's insane. Yeah, let's just talk about
all the scary shit. We'll get to porn. At some point.
Speaker 2: Your significant other was drugged in an industry event, and
it sounds like the drug was the drink was actually
meant for you.
Speaker 1: Yes, So what happened there?
Speaker 4: So we'd gotten a drink, We had gotten drinks, and
I was pulled away for photos and so I hate
having an alcoholic beverage in my hand in photographs, especially
professional ones. So he took my drink and was speaking
with somebody and I came back and he was gone,
and so I'm calling him and he's not answering, and
so he was like, I'm outside, and I'm like, so
I go. There was like an outside patio. I go
out there and he's not out there, and I'm like,
where are So I call him again, And we had
a credit card tab open at the bar, so I
walked up, I closed that out and I call him again.
He's like, I'm outside. So I walked out outside. So
what happened, is I guess the drink had hit him
and or the drug had hit him, and he fell asleep,
like like sitting up, And so he was escorted out,
and so he was sitting outside waiting, and so I
got out there and he like, I've seen I've seen
him drunk, I've seen him tired. I've seen him drunk
and tired, but I've never seen him like this before
in my entire life. I had to literally walk barefoot,
I take my heels off, and I had to like
fireman like carry him all the way back to our hotel,
and he like got sick and all of this. So
we're pretty sure that was the case. Yeah, Now fast forward.
I was at an event recently whom I thought was
the culprit of like I had narrowed it down. I
had spoken to a friend and after the event we
were at and she was like I had told her
that whole story. I remember how it came up. And
she's like, oh my god, She's like, I saw that
person biting something like a pill and putting it in
someone's drink last night when we were out. It was
almost like validation right that. It was like, Okay, I'm
not crazy like this, what this actually did happen? And
I think either they tried to drug both drinks or
tried to drug my drink and then separate, like I
think that's why maybe I was pulled away for photos
or something to separate us. And but he must have
just mixed up the drinks in the hands or whatever.
So yeah, it was. It was a actually a very humbling,
very humbling.
Speaker 2: So are you now thinking like you almost don't want
to take a drink.
Speaker 4: I don't drink at industry events. I don't if it
doesn't come with bottled water with a cap and I
have it in my hand the entire time, then I'll
go dry the entire I'm sober now anyway, But I yeah,
I'm just drinking bottled water at events because it's just
it's not worth it.
Speaker 1: I had it, you know. It's so funny.
Speaker 2: A really long time ago, I had a weird situation
with a model who came on set and we were
doing a live show. This is like twenty years ago,
and my assistant at the time was working with me,
and I still work with him on stuff, and I've
known him forever and he's a very trustworthy person and
she suddenly in the middle of the show got like wasted,
like something happened like a fish, and I was like,
what the hell, and so we stopped the show, and
her boyfriend accused me, well not me, because he knew
I wouldn't do it, but he accused my assistant of
drugging her. And I was like, there's no way my
assistant would ever do that. And I still stand by
that because, like I said, like, he's still in the industry.
You've probably worked with him on some sets. He's like,
he's not that person, but ever, and I think, honestly,
what happened was she'd a drug problem or a drinking problem,
because I know that when I was drinking, this would
happen to me. I'd be sneaking drinks on the side
and then I would take too much and it would
hit me in the middle and I'd black out in
the middle of something and suddenly I would.
Speaker 4: Change so eating or yah.
Speaker 1: I know that, like that's happened to me, and probably
she wouldn't admit.
Speaker 2: To her boyfriend that she had this problem, and so
he automatically like accused us, like whatever anyways.
Speaker 4: And what would be the purpose of during that drugging,
like you know, it's not there would be no outcome
of that. You know, why would wondering a lot? But
that's what, Yeah, that's that's my point. Like that doesn't
make there's like.
Speaker 2: A sinister person who wanted to try to, like you know,
take advantage of somebody, but like I'm not. And also
it was her and another girl. It was just like
anyways whatever. But honestly, ever since then, I now like
when I'm on set, I don't open if somebody wants
to drink, I don't open it. I open it in
front of them, like I don't know if you noticed
what with your bottle of water And this is just
automatic now. I brought it over to you, sealed and
like let you pour it. Like I just it's just
like an automatic thing now because if something crazy ever
does happen, like you can't get it.
Speaker 4: But you know, we're in We're in a world. Brother,
that's got to be the key. Like it's it's it's
sad and I wish it was different, but unfortunately it's not.
And you have to protect yourself because at the end
of the day, nobody else will do it for you.
Speaker 2: I'm of the mind of like remove all possibilities on
where you could potentially be put in a compromising position.
Speaker 1: Absolutely, you have to eliminate those.
Speaker 4: And this is work. So why am I drinking at work?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Like so that's how I look at it now. It's
like if I'm going to an industry event or something
like that, Like it's it's this is my job. You
wouldn't like if you were a doctor, you wouldn't drink
before you went into surgery, right, So hope, I mean
we all know probably that, but but that's my point is, like,
this is my job.
Speaker 5: So I want to be of sound mind. Yeah, absolutely
at all times. So Okay, So you went to King
Kun for an ayahuasca retreat. Yes, So for people don't
who don't know what that experience is, like, can you explain,
like what ayahuasca is, what happens, and why you sought
it out.
Speaker 4: We'll start with why I sought it out. So I
sought it out because of past traumas. I've had more
therapists than I think I have underwear. So my significant
other knew I was struggling with a couple of like
heavy traumas, and no matter the talk therapy I was doing,
and everything else. I was just like I was stuck.
I felt like I was stuck. And so he did
some research and found that ayahuasca is equivalent to ten
years of talk therapy.
Speaker 1: So about efficiency. We melts were all about it.
Speaker 4: Fre we are I'm like, give me, give me three
days instead of ten years. I am all about it.
So I did some research and last year I was
ready after feeling like I was repeating the same cycles
over and over and over again and feeling like I
was just treading water. So I found this place in
Cancun and it was called the Hacienda, and absolutely like
I can't wait to go back. It was in Cancuon,
but not the Cancuon that like everyone thinks. It's not
resort Cancuon. It's like Mexico, Mexico.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: There was monkeys swinging between the trees and hammocks out
in the patio, and there was this big temple outdoors
that we got to sit in and meditate like in between,
and that's where a lot of the ceremonies were held.
So ayahuasca is how do I describe it? Uh, it's
a trip, right, like it's a And so going back
a little bit. They sent us a list of requirements,
so you have to be off of certain medications prior.
So I got off of all my antiata pressants, all
my medication about three weeks prior. You couldn't eat certain
things a certain time because the way it metabolizes in
your body, and because you throw up a lot.
Speaker 2: I was gonna say, people like, don't they people throw
up a lot?
Speaker 4: And I threw up. We were I didn't have anybody. No,
I mean we had a very small group nobody, but yes,
I've heard people have shipped themselves. I threw up. We
were there five days. I threw up every day. I've
never been so happy. I kind of equate. I kind
of equate iauasca to this. After you got a child,
Like when you're pregnant, you're like, okay, I'm pregnant. You
go through childbirth, it's awful, it's terrible. You're like, oh
my god, why did I do this? Then you hold
this sweet little baby and in like ten minutes, you
forget about everything that you just did and you're like, okay,
I could do this again. And then you're pregnant before
you know it. So that that's my like, that's my
correlation to ayahuasca, because I was like, this is hell
while I'm doing it, I don't know. So we got there,
we did a fast, We did like our last like
real meal with like fish and vegetables and stuff, and
then we did cambo the first morning, which is frog poison.
So they did little I kind of like say it
like cigarette burns. They did it in my lower back.
The two other gentlemen there, they did their on their
shoulder and they burn it like a superficial burn, and
then they put the frog poison into those burns. So
all of a sudden, you get this like warmth that
comes over you and you just start swing up. I'm
pretty sure I threw up the devil because I just yeah, yeah,
and then I looked like hitch because my lips swelled.
Not a pretty site. There were no cameras anywhere. I
would never take cameras there anyway.
Speaker 1: I feel like they probably have like a no cell
phone policy.
Speaker 4: They have Wi Fi for emergencies, but they recommend because
of the process, like no like that you're snapchatting.
Speaker 1: Nobody's snapchat.
Speaker 4: Yeah No, nobody's tiktoking while we're there, Like I would
listen to it. To like meditate and stuff. I would
listen to like my iTunes and stuff. But other than that,
it was actually a really nice purge from my phone.
So the cambo like after the swelling and everything came down.
That was the first day. Then the second day.
Speaker 1: Did you trip it all the first day or just
throw it?
Speaker 4: Well, just threw up, But they did what was called
uh repe It's like a tobacco and they put it
in this long tobacco pipe and they put it in
your nostrils and then they blow it and then like
the first time you do it, you're like, oh my god,
this is so So you get like tobacco leaf like
in your nose and it burns a little bit. You're
I know, wait it gets better.
Speaker 1: There's more.
Speaker 4: There's three more days of throwing up. So the repe
actually it cleans, It clears your penal gland and helps
like re regenerate. Uh you're vegas nerve. So the repe
was kind of like a like a high, but not really.
It was kind of like a like a xanax feeling
kind of like just a chilly. So then after that
the ridge did the repee. Then we did it was
like a hot igloo it's really what it was, right,
we did the repe kind of there's a name for it.
I'm blanking on it right now, it'll come to me.
But you get in and it's a circle and a
hole in the ground and there's like there was like
eight of us in it, and every everyone you just right,
that's right, exactly exactly. No, you just sweat, and you
just sweat. It's like the hottest suna you've ever been
in your life. And when you think like you can't
sweat anymore, you like sweat more. So we did that,
and then there was uh so there was camp both
and there was the repae. Then there was the ayahuasca.
So that was we purged all day or we fasted
all day. For the evening, we took ayahuasca around six pm. No,
I'm sorry, we started getting ready for about six pm.
Ten pm. We took the ayahuasca. But because of my
reaction to the cambo, the shaman gave me a half
a dose of what he gave the other two people.
And I was like sitting there and all of a sudden,
like everyone else is like laying down and I can
see like them starting to like you know, fly high,
right and I'm like, what is not? Like, what's not
it's not working? I'm like, maybe I need more. All
of a sudden, I get sick and then it it
like takes me my hand, like people don't believe you
when you say it, but my hand all of a
sudden like comes up and my fingers go like this,
and my hand just takes itself and it goes like this,
and Holly, I was off like it was like a
magic Harper ride, unlike anything I've ever experienced. I was
inside my mom's womb. I remember like the fluid and
the water and like seeing my hands and then seeing
like the birth. I remember being in my playpen when
I was probably like a year or two, reaching up
for my mom, and my mom was very young when
she had me and her just walking by, and I
remember like crying out for her and like putting my
hands up and her walking by.
Speaker 1: And then.
Speaker 4: I was a belly dancer in Egypt. In a past life,
I had a piece of paper because I wanted to
make sure that when I came to I could write
all these down so that I could remember them, so
I didn't forget anything. So I must have realized remembered
so my I'm right handed, my left hand takes this
pen and starts writing in all this other language on
this paper. And I woke up the next day and
it was like a signature. It was the same signature
or autograph over and over and over and over again.
The craziest was the alien though. So I'm looking into
the we're in the middle of like the forest or jungle,
and I see this little red light like in a distance,
and there's no lights, like we barely had electricity there.
So my hand again takes me and we are off.
Like so I go to the red light and I
was on an alien ship and I was giving birth
and I remember being on a cold metal table and girl, ah, yeah,
it was absolutely intense, intense. But through all of that,
through like the me and the playpat and all of that,
it brought me so much peace and healing. Like I
saw that my mom was really young, and like I've
forgiven her for a lot of the things that I
had to work through, and it just shows me that
like this isn't it, Like they We're just here now,
right and we can come back in any time and
any form, in any shape and just enjoy the ride
while you're here, embrace it.
Speaker 2: That's got to be so comforting because I know that,
like the one, I'm not religious at all, and like
I was raised atheist. Actually my dad okay, it was
super anti God. And when he died that was really
hard for me because I was like, well, he's just gone, yeah,
and that's it, like that, like he just poofed, non existent.
And that was the first time that I felt like
jealous of people who had like a kind of faith
and who believed in like heaven and believed in like
reuniting with their loved ones. Yes, that must be like
a really comforting thought to have, and that father's just gone, yeah, whatever.
Speaker 4: It was very comforting. So the other person I went with,
he saw his past cousin and she was very young
when she passed, and he was asking her questions and
other people like his grandparents she had said had gone
down and gotten you know, new new bodies or however
you want to say it. So it was very so
the other thing that I saw, which is really cool
because we've always believed. So the person I'm with, we
had a vision. We were we both did uh marijuana
in Vegas several years ago, and we both had a
vision of like that we had known each other in
a past life, and so we both took our phones
and like wrote down in our phones like what we
each saw like during that and it was identical. It
was identical. But I saw it during my Ayawaska trip
and so did he.
Speaker 1: So we've you guys been together.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, so we we definitely have met in a
past life. And so that's calming too, that like I
have a possibility of meeting people that I truly connect with, Yeah,
of meeting them and finding them again. So that's really incredible.
It's really incredible, I have to say.
Speaker 1: So I had I don't know if you know who
Vanessa Verrakruz is.
Speaker 4: The name sounds familiar.
Speaker 1: She did now does a lot of work for ALU.
Speaker 2: She does like like a talent liaison and stuff like that.
But anyways, she actually came on the podcast and if
you haven't seen the episode, you should go back and
watch it. It's one of the most powerful episodes I've
ever done. And she did ayahuasca and she had this,
you know, horrible tragedy. Basically when she was young, her
father shot her mother in front of her when she
was a kid and then killed himself. And she did
ayahuasca and because obviously that's an incredibly traumatic experience that
you would carry with you forever, right, And she did
ayahuasca and she said that she like saw her dad
again and like saw her mom again, and it enabled
her to forgive her father. Yeah, like her mother like
told her to forgive her father and enabled her to
like move on.
Speaker 1: And I remember she was just telling me. I was
like crying.
Speaker 2: I was just like, I mean, so, it's something that
I've always like thought about, just because I've heard some
incredible experiences from people who've done it.
Speaker 1: But I don't.
Speaker 2: I'm sober and I have like I'll have eight years
of sobriety in like a couple of months.
Speaker 4: Congratulations, thank you.
Speaker 1: So I'm like terrified of taking any kind of.
Speaker 2: Mind altering drug, just like I'm afraid that I'll be like, oh,
I forget how fun this was, and then it'll just
like trigger me. But I also, like, honestly, admittedly, I
don't really have like a lot of trauma that I
have to deal with. I'm so fortunate in that way,
So I feel like it's not something that like I
absolutely need to do.
Speaker 1: But like we all have issues.
Speaker 4: Right absolutely, it might give you answers, yeah, you know,
and it may not heal maybe not healing or like
traumatic reasons for you, but it might give you answers
or hope or direction on which you know, maybe like it.
Because after ayahuasca, like after we came to I slept
like most of the next day because it was so
like it was six hours, six seven hours that we
were I call it like my journey, right that we
were gone, and then so we kind of like chilled
the next day and then the last day we did DMT.
And now I'm sober too. So I know it kind
of sounds hypocritical, like you're doing this but and you're sober,
But it feel like I would do it again, even sober,
just because it has done so much for my soul
and for me as a human, Like I just I
have more empathy for people I see. I see it
fake smiles, and I like, I get it because I
understand that we're all hiding. We're all like hiding behind
these masks that we put up and everybody's I said
the other day, where we all live in the prisons
that we'd create, right like, and so it's really helped
free me of that and just saying like and be
firm and who I am, and saying like, Okay, the
people that want to be in my life are going
to be here, and the people who don't maybe they
have a purpose for a short period of time or
what they're here for is important, but they may be
here for a short period of time. You know, they
might be a chapter in my book and maybe not
the whole book. Right, And that's what really brought me
so much, just peace and comforting because I've had massive
abandonment issues, massive abandoned issues, and I thought, you know,
I had to either cling to people or keep them
at arm's length because I didn't, like I wanted to
leave first, right like I didn't want anybody to hurt me.
So this has given me that ability to truly love
from like my visceral core.
Speaker 2: I mean that makes sense because you know, I mean,
look like we all when we do like drugs and
alcohol and like the recreational sense, and especially once become
we become like dependent on it, become like addicts, it's
because we're trying to.
Speaker 1: Escape our reality.
Speaker 2: Absolutely, like we don't want to be in the present
when it want to be in our body. We don't
want to like face the things that we want to forget,
And it sounds like the experience that you had.
Speaker 1: Is the opposite.
Speaker 4: Correct.
Speaker 2: It's literally like you're facing all of these things that
you've buried and you're kind of letting the damn loose,
Like you're breaking down all those walls that we have
built up over all the years to keep like things,
you know, compartmentalize in our minds so that we can
basically like deal with every day and not face the
things that hurt us so much.
Speaker 4: Absolutely, because I would disassociate a lot. Yeah, and I
probably still do to an extent, just as like a
coping mechanism, but it's definitely less. I'm definitely more present
in all of my in my daily life.
Speaker 2: The thing is, is what I try to always remind
myself is that you know, life is not a movie
where at the end, you you know, reach your apex
and you reach some kind of realization and then like
everything's perfect from there on out and you are never,
you know, haunted by these issues.
Speaker 1: You dealt with in the movie. Like it's just like
there's never like.
Speaker 2: A happy ending where it's just like that part of
my life is over and now everything's fine, Like that,
doesn't it exist that way?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 4: And I actually even just on the other day, I
was on my way here, I had like a memory
come up that I had definitely like repressed and it
came through me. I thought about it, like I really
like processed it and then I let it go, and
that this process has definitely allowed me to learn how
to do that more effectively anyway.
Speaker 1: So yeah, so funny.
Speaker 2: I mean, I love these kinds of interviews because I'm
all about like getting to know the person, the fact
that you sometimes the fact that, like we work in
the adult industry is adjacent to what we do.
Speaker 1: With Like all of my questions are not about porn,
sorry guys. They're like they're about like your you to
bribe your way out of Egypt?
Speaker 4: Yes, oh my god. And it wasn't in this life.
Speaker 2: It wasn't when you were a belly answer, and it.
Speaker 4: Was in this life. So we did like a europe tour,
not the kind of tour, but like like we did Paris, London, Budapest, Prague, Egypt,
and Egypt was amazing a little scary. But as we
were leaving Egypt, well all around Egypt. Like we had
a tour guide and everywhere we went he was like
paying people.
Speaker 2: Like while we got there, I was gonna say, like
I've heard that if you visit Egypt you need somebody
who's there to like you can't just.
Speaker 4: Like if I did do it again, I'd probably go
through a cruise because then there's like guides and stuff.
We just woon it, like we just landed, just the
two of us. You know, I was blonde at the time,
so I covered everything. I wore sunglasses, I wore long pants,
long shirt, My ankles showed in one pair and like
I got dirty looks for that. So it was very crazy.
The interesting thing is there are no traffic lights, there
are no signals, there's nothing, so everybody just honks all
the time. So twenty four hours a day, seven days
of week in Egypt, it's my map honking. Wow, there
isn't That's the only sound you hear. Like I think
we were like seventeen stories in our hotel and you
could still hear the honking all day and all night.
It was absolutely crazy. So our tour guide was tipping everybody,
and we just kind of like we're like okay, like
maybe that's their protocol. So we're leaving, we're at the
airport and they separate the men and the females. So
there's a female line for security and a male line.
And I had everything in my purse, like our passports
and everything, and I had all the cash. So if
you ever go to Egypt, take a lot of singles,
a lot of singles because they love like, it's great
money for them, even a dollar bill there. So I
had all the money. So he's in that line. I'm
in this line and they take our passports to the
other side and we're just standing there and the guy's
like I'm looking and I'm like, oh, okay, and he's like,
we're passports and I was like oh. So I reached
my person at this point, I had like only larger dollars,
so I pulled out I think I could ten and
I handed it to him and he smacks my hand
and he's like, no, not you you. So I had
to hand the ten dollars bill to the man and
have him hand it because I wasn't allowed to hand
it to him. But finally right, so I so after
the money was processed, they handed us that and they
did like the most extensive pat down search on the females.
And then we were girls there from probably United States
that had like booty shorts on and mid drifts, and
I'm like, that is insane to me. Like, I'm a
huge believer in where you go. You need to respect
the culture, right, Like, I'm not one of those people
that like expects everybody to speak English everywhere I go, right, Like,
I cannot speak many other languages or any other languages
very well, but I will learn key phrases wherever I
am going because I feel like it's just appropriate and
if they happened to speak English, we're better for it.
But so these girls were like walking around in these
shorts and stuff, and I'm just like you are, like
you were just broadcasting that you're sticking out like a
sore thumb. So yeah, so yeah, I had to pay
to get my passport back.
Speaker 1: Okay, I'll keep that in mind.
Speaker 2: Yes, my god, it's wild, crazy, it was wild. You
also visited a suspected UFO crash site Arizona with a
metal detector. Yes, So are you a believer in aliens?
I mean yes, are you? Were you before Ajuasca?
Speaker 4: So I believed that there were other entities and other
beings out there, because I think it's naive to think
that we're all alone in this massive universe universe multi
universe that we live in. But this definitely sold me.
So after that, we had planned a like a road
trip from Arizona up to to La then back down,
and so we got to Kingmen, Arizona, and there was
a suspected crash site there. So we got our way
like packed these metal detectors that like broke down into
like suitcases, and we we had like a van or something.
We were bottoming out on this back road in the
like middle of nowhere, and so we got out and
there was this massive whole like indentation in the ground
that went down probably the height of this room or
deeper and was the size of like a football field
and clear, and it looked like something you know, like
when you drop something and it like or if you
drop something in sand, you know how like it ripples out.
Absolutely looked just like it. So we found some really
cool rocks and like it was I could have spend
all day there, I was like, but we also didn't
want to get arrested. So we were on like new
dress passing territories. So yeah, so it was kind of
like a oh what car was that? So it was
a little risky, but it was so much fun, so
much fun. Yeah.
Speaker 2: I mean I think that they didn't the Pentagon like
come out last year basically acknowledging that like UFOs exist
and like unidentified flying what's the new term that they
use for it's a different acronym now, uap UAP Yeah,
unidentified active phenomenon. Okay, right, Yeah, they're just like they're like, yeah,
there's these things that happen, we just don't know.
Speaker 4: Well, I live on the East Coast and the drones
were a very real thing last year, like in our
in our yard at night, you could see them flying
all around. It was it was very very real. Like
I know that everybody's like explaining it out, but they
were there. They were absolutely there, and they were like
at one point there was like five surrounding where we
were at. So it was yeah, so I definitely believe
in that. Are they green of that nature?
Speaker 1: You know?
Speaker 4: I don't know how much of that I believe in,
but yeah, and I think they came out. I think
the full disclosure is coming. It's going to be interesting
how people react to it.
Speaker 1: Does it scare you or does it excite you?
Speaker 4: I think a little bit of both. Like, it does
scare me because why like and why is it taking
so long for full disclosure to come out? And why
you know, have I just read something that they're they're
farming us for our emotions? I read some bit and
watch some bizarre stuff. Wow, So you know, and and
being like mindful and patient and you know, very very
uh high on your consciousness. It's the ultimate piece, right,
So I kind of feel safe in that that I'm
like very peaceful and my emotions aren't all over the
map like they used to be, because if you want
to harness them, you're not going to harness somebody that's here, right,
You want somebody that's more erratic. So okay, there's a
little piece in that. So okay, I have no idea
if it's true or not.
Speaker 1: So like good mental stability will protect you from the aliens.
Speaker 4: I'm thinking, yeah, Okay, that's that's Gigi's theory.
Speaker 2: Okay, we're gonna go over that all right, last question,
and I'm gonna I'm gonna circle back to the adult
industry just a little bit on this one. What advice
would you give to somebody who's looking to get into
the industry, And I'm thinking maybe more along the lines
of somebody who's more our age as opposed to like
a young girl looking to get because the milk is
like a very kind of specific genre. Yeah, and I
know that there's definitely women who, like you know, they've
had their kids, they've had their life, like whatever, their
circumstances have changed, had a divorce, and they're like, this
is something I've always wanted to explore.
Speaker 1: Is too late for me?
Speaker 4: Absolutely not. It's never too late. I think we're at
our sexual peak at this age. I'm more confident than
I've ever been in my entire life. I know what
I want, I know how to get what I want.
And my advice to anybody who wants to come in
at this age is treat it like a business, because
it is. If you treat it like a business, you'll
be successful. I've seen a lot of other mills recently
say like it like a business because it is right.
If you're in it for just the sex, then you're
in it for the wrong reasons, or own just that
and know that you're in it for that, so know
the reason you're getting in, right is it? Are you
getting in for the sex, Are you getting in for
the business? Are you getting in for the accolades?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 4: What's your goal? Like, have a really set goal, set
a five year plan to know what you like, what
you want to obtain and reach for in those five years,
and then just get to work, like perfect your look.
You know, ask people that are going to be honest
with you. You know if you need to change your
hair color, or if you know you need to work
in your eyebrows, or you know if you need to
gain weight or lose weight. I lost a feel a
lot of time in the beginning because from my surgery
I was so thin. I feel like as I've gotten
thicker and heavier, my career has gotten better because I'm
not so I'm not so thin looking. So for me,
I wish I had put weight on earlier than I did.
So just like and know what you want out of it,
right like, and then set boundaries, stick with those boundaries.
Have somebody that is out there that you can utilize
as like a boundary keeper, as kind of like a checkmate,
like a okay, are you really holding to this? And
I think last would be don't give it all away
for free right up front. Like, I've been very strategic
in what I've shot and when I've shot it. I
didn't shoot ANAL until I was in for three three
and a half years sports.
Speaker 1: I was just gonna say, like, don't do ANAL right
out there?
Speaker 4: You ANAL right away. I'm shooting my first DP tomorrow.
Speaker 1: Can you say that is for? Is that still a secret?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 4: I can say it. I'm shooting for Elegant Angel tomorrow
for my first DP.
Speaker 1: So do you know the talent that you're working.
Speaker 4: With Vince Carter and Christian Clay.
Speaker 1: Ah, okay, I went with Christian Clay, like forever ago
in Budapest.
Speaker 4: I've heard there. Well, I've worked with Vance, I haven't
worked with Christian. It's very big, so that as I've
been told, it's a lot of dick. It's a lot
of dick. So I want to be very full tomorrow.
But I've waited and like we've spoke with my agents
and with Elegant and there's like a little bit of
a roll out with it. So I'm not giving it
all away like write at once, right, So make it special,
like make it make it something that your fans want
to work for and own it first. Like I feel
for me, if I'm going to shoot it, it's going
to be my only fans first, because I want the
exclusive rights to it first. Yeah, Like I want to
monetize it as much as possible upfront.
Speaker 1: So yeah, see that's something that you could not have
done eight years ago.
Speaker 4: Yeah, one hundred percents that one hundred percent be be
ready to roll with the punches because in five years,
this industry has changed so much. I can't even imagine, Like,
like I talked to somebody earlier that was in eighteen
years and then for twenty seven years, Like I can't
even imagine the changes that you guys have seen. And
my I'm just so like impressed by everybody that's been
in this long, especially like twenty seven years, for you
to roll with it and to recreate and reinvent and
stay valid. It's like, I'm so impressed. It's impressive.
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie.
Speaker 2: I am like somebody who lives with the plan B. Yeah,
I always have a plan B. I always have thing
in my back pocket. I'm like, if this doesn't work out,
I can do this. Like I am never not actively
thinking about like what else.
Speaker 1: I can do?
Speaker 2: What other opportunities like never, yeah, and yeah, you can't
rest on your laurels.
Speaker 4: No, and right now with so many of the sites
being blocked in so many states, yeah, we really need
to We really need to have a backup plan to
be in to see and figure out, Okay, if you're
about to stay in this industry, how are you going
to make it work for you? Because you know, it's
a it's a challenge every day that we're going to
get completely blocked.
Speaker 2: So yeah, yeah, I mean the good thing is is that,
like you know, social media has really allowed you know,
adult industry stars to gain a lot of power and
like that traffic, it's something deleted all the time, but still,
like you know, there's other avenues and options that can
be open to you that don't necessarily have to do
with sex.
Speaker 4: So yeah, one hundred percent. The one thing I've noticed
though is I've had like fitness brands reach out and
things like that. And then once because I don't advertise,
especially on my Instagram, what I do, you know, Like
there's not a ton of what I do on there.
I mean there's if you look deep into like if
you really look at the whole page. You could figure
it out. Yeah, But like I don't advertise it, and
so I've had other people reach out to like collab
and stuff, and then once they find out that I'm important,
Like I had a fitness company reach out and they're like,
I'm sorry, like if you ever decide to leave, like
but in order to join with us, you'd have to
cancel everything. And I'm like, I'm just not I'm not
prepared to do that yet. Sorry, unless you're really to
pay me like seven figures, Yeah, I'm not.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's definitely I think an issue that we're going
to face for a while. But I feel like, I mean,
it's I feel like it's gonna it's changing slowly but surely.
Speaker 4: Absolutely. While I think it's shifting right now, but like
I know, like are my kids they all know what
I do, right, and so it's kind of becoming like
a new normal, and so I think, like the judgment
and stuff, it might shift eventually again to say, like listen,
how did your.
Speaker 1: Kids handle knowing what you do for a living?
Speaker 4: Like how you tell them so because it's been so
long now, they're all very different ages now than they
were I told them in groups like the older ones
and the younger ones. I was very honest, but agri
propriet honest. Yeah, the oldest one was very, very very
upset and still kind of is. My daughters have all
been very supportive and they're like, are you happy, and
I'm like yes, and they're like, then we're happy for you.
And they're not making up terribly in this game.
Speaker 1: So but I'm very.
Speaker 4: Protective of them. So like if people come up to
me and stuff, I can probably come off as a
bitch if they're coming up to me with when I'm
with my kids, because I'm very protective of that. And
they're not on my social media and like I'm a
big believer in they need to be protected to the
to the opteenth, Like I don't put them anywhere, like
and my personal pages are all taken down because I
don't want anybody to know anything about them. So I
started with the younger two where I just say like
I just model, you know, or and then they thought
I like bikini modeled, and then they all got phones
and realized that it's more than the page.
Speaker 1: So yeah, we able to tell them before they found
out on their own.
Speaker 4: Yes, yes, I told all of them before because that
was my biggest fear was they were going to go
to school and somebody was going to know. And their
dad actually did a very them the disservice by like
texting all of their friends parents like videos and pictures
and stuff. So he out of me first. So I
was like, why would you want to ruin your Yeah,
like he's he's not a great person. But my significant
others X got got the message it like yeah, everybody,
my family, everybody. So so I'm very grateful I had
the wherewithal to mention it prior because I think there
could have been like a relationship like fracture at that
point had I not come out and said it first.
Speaker 2: So yeah, now, I almost every parent that I've talked
to who does sex work because has always said that
if they don't tell their kids before the kids find
out of their own, it's they definitely regretted it.
Speaker 4: So yeah, age appropriate honesty is what I tell everybody
with little kids. They're like, how did you do it?
I'm like, just slowly roll it, you know, like.
Speaker 1: You don't have to be my daughter that I make
movies for grown ups.
Speaker 4: That's great.
Speaker 2: Yeah, And she's like she doesn't know what they don't
know any I'm like, you're not a grown up, you
can't watch them. I'm like, when you're a.
Speaker 1: Grown up, you can watch them. Yeah, exactly, they would
be really you wouldn't be interested anyway.
Speaker 4: Would be really boring for you, exactly. I know, like
girls know I love makeup and hair and stuff like
that and clothes and so but they know my social
media is and all of that. But they also know
that it's for adults and they're not adults, so you know,
we need to manage that. But yeah, I think just
honesty the best.
Speaker 1: I mean, that's how my parents did it with me,
you know, like, yeah.
Speaker 4: That's an interesting because you had it from the other side.
Speaker 2: So, so I grew up with pornographer parents and I
always knew and and it wasn't yeah, and it was
I mean it was like, you know, I always had
issues with like friends, like not letting my friends find
out or my friend's parents find out. So there was
like a little bit of that, yeah, friction, just because
I didn't want to like be treated differently, like how
do you tell your because most parents like give their
children zero sex education and like keep shame on them.
Speaker 1: About sex.
Speaker 2: So like for me to tell my friends like what
my parents do is like totally real ify. Yeah, but overall,
like and you know, I mean, obviously I ended up
in the industry, but like my brother and my sister
are both completely work in completely different industries even closely
related to adult and they're fine.
Speaker 1: They don't care a great you.
Speaker 4: Don't you don't have any deep trauma, Like you just
don't like you don't have any like deep rooted trauma.
So I think, you know, if people ask me all
the time, would you be okay with it? And I'd
be like, yeah, I would just help guide them, you know,
that was their if that was their choice, Like I've
I've had to learn everything by myself, Like it's nobody's
handed anything to me. So of course I would be
supportive because I would not want them, especially if they
started at a young age. I would want them to
know the pitfalls and you know, because it can be
a very cd as you know, as wonderful and as
amazing as so many of my experiences have been. You know,
you always hear those horror stories, so you want to
kind of like steer them clear of that. Yeah, But
I think doing what I do has and them knowing
what I do has allowed our conversations in real time
on real topics of sex and friendship and relationships. It's
given them kind of like Corpeland. You know, they're very
we're very open with each other. They ask me questions
very openly, and like I again, I answer age appropriately.
But I think that's great that they are comfortable enough
to have those conversations. Yeah, and or you know, open
with me with that. So yeah, I had I got
a phone call a Gublem months ago and I heard
a friend in the background be like, you're gonna call
and tell your mom that? And she's like, I tell
my mom everything. And I'm like, thank god. Yeah, I'm like, okay,
I wasn't meant to hear that, but I heard it,
and it's like a huge, huge relief, huge relief.
Speaker 2: So okay, those are all my questions for this segment.
We have a some questions from my Patreon fans, who
of course want to know more about you, but that
will be for my Patreon members only.
Speaker 1: Gigi, thank you so much, thank you, thank you.
Speaker 4: This is amazing.
Speaker 1: I know, and we went on like a while.
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