Speaker 1: Developing a relationship with your creative self is a journey.
It does not happen overnight, and there's a lot of
judgment involved. Unplugged because we will always say yes to creativity.
Totally unkept because we all make mistakes. So turn it
into a tool. This is arrow unplugged, Oh, the walking
way of the human mind. A very close friend was
rushed to the hospital yesterday for acting unusual. While at
the hospital, he told doctors that his spouse was the
one that was wrong. Her observations of him were misleading.
Yet the spouse spoke of the incident as being extremely
odd and abnormal. Who was right? Here? The world of
medicine took all types of tests and nothing seemed to
go wrong. He allowed everything to unfold to keep peace
in the family, And yet for some reason, the wife
and husband speak of two different experiences. Who was right?
Was it a warning sign of something much bigger being
drug into the picture? My mother had dementia. She did
multiple odd things that became her walk and way of
being normal. Are we falling witness? Are we falling witness
to a mind starting to fade? Hey, serol, this is
the daily mess. A chronological walk through an everyday world.
I am a daily writer. It's stuff like this that
I learned from the events of the world outside of
this shell become reasons why I can become greater with
my knowledge by not reacting, but studying what is taking place,
to prepare my own path for what may or will
take place, Learning how to become an observer and an activator,
being prepared for what can or will happen. This is
the daily mess moving through the changes of life. I
did some research on this. For men, it begins in
the late forties and early fifties mood swings and irritability.
Now doctors say it can last up to twenty years.
I started writing in nineteen ninety four at the age
of thirty two. If I moved through male menopause, it
was well documented. My changes are that of walls built
by outsiders. Because of my age, I'm not being hired
for positions I'm well qualified for. Nobody wants an old
guy or a grandpa, which makes me chuckle because my
two grandchildren, by way of marriage, don't even call me that.
They see me as that dude who's married to their
biological grandmother. It was well written when I entered my fifties,
that my life would start to change in ways that
I wouldn't be able to control. As I near sixty one,
the walk in the world of business is now self
made that moment. These years, it's a place of constant
change because your body aches in ways that you can't
really explain. One moment, your leg is feeling fine, the
next moment it's like, what the hell happened here? Your back,
your head, your eyes, oh the eyes, you full vision
of the world. And then you sit in a room
and you stare at a wall. The change. I don't
expect anybody who's thirty to understand. But what I want
to do is I want to plant the seed for
you to embrace where you're headed. I have never met
anybody who sat me down and said, hey, I'm gonna
share a story with you. You're probably gonna get married, and
you're gonna have kids that are going to grow up
a lot faster than you imagine, and they're going to
have children who are going to grow up even faster.
But you're not going to look at yourself as being
a sixty one year old man or woman. You're going
to still feel like that kid in high school. Your
body's going to ache in ways that's going to tell
you slow down, but you don't want to. I want
to be that guy that says, hey, look, write, do
something with your early years so that you have a
place to go back to when you do have a
faded moment, when your mind does go into an area
that might be like my friend who I think could
be going through dementia, the very front stages of it.
You are going to face a life that is going
to have so many headlines from around the world that
will infect your heart. You will be poisoned, but there's
no medicine on this planet that will take you away
from it. You can calm it by doing drugs, by
doing alcohol, by doing the Internet, but it's still going
to be there. And when you realize, oh hell, I'm
not getting that time back, how am I going to
deal with this hangover? Learning that you're going to grow
into a shape that you can't control. If you're lucky enough,
you'll make it to sixty one. If you are lucky enough.
I had a heart attack at the age of forty seven.
It changed my life. It changed my view, It changed
the way that I walk because I don't want to stop.
Suddenly the world of business was no longer important to
my heart. It was to be with family and friends.
But I know you don't understand this right now because
you're not where I am. But there is somebody here
that's telling you prepare. I say it starts with writing.
Just jot down a note, because there's no greater feeling
than going back to those years that went by so fast.
But you left yourself a letter. I'm Marrow, and that's
the daily mess.