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Speaker 1: Developing a relationship with your creative self is a journey.

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It does not happen overnight, and there's a lot of

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judgment involved. Unplugged because we will always say yes to creativity.

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Totally unkept because we all make mistakes. So turn it

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into a tool. This is arrow unplugged, Oh, the walking

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way of the human mind. A very close friend was

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rushed to the hospital yesterday for acting unusual. While at

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the hospital, he told doctors that his spouse was the

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one that was wrong. Her observations of him were misleading.

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Yet the spouse spoke of the incident as being extremely

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odd and abnormal. Who was right? Here? The world of

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medicine took all types of tests and nothing seemed to

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go wrong. He allowed everything to unfold to keep peace

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in the family, And yet for some reason, the wife

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and husband speak of two different experiences. Who was right?

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Was it a warning sign of something much bigger being

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drug into the picture? My mother had dementia. She did

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multiple odd things that became her walk and way of

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being normal. Are we falling witness? Are we falling witness

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to a mind starting to fade? Hey, serol, this is

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the daily mess. A chronological walk through an everyday world.

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I am a daily writer. It's stuff like this that

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I learned from the events of the world outside of

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this shell become reasons why I can become greater with

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my knowledge by not reacting, but studying what is taking place,

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to prepare my own path for what may or will

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take place, Learning how to become an observer and an activator,

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being prepared for what can or will happen. This is

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the daily mess moving through the changes of life. I

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did some research on this. For men, it begins in

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the late forties and early fifties mood swings and irritability.

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Now doctors say it can last up to twenty years.

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I started writing in nineteen ninety four at the age

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of thirty two. If I moved through male menopause, it

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was well documented. My changes are that of walls built

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by outsiders. Because of my age, I'm not being hired

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for positions I'm well qualified for. Nobody wants an old

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guy or a grandpa, which makes me chuckle because my

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two grandchildren, by way of marriage, don't even call me that.

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They see me as that dude who's married to their

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biological grandmother. It was well written when I entered my fifties,

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that my life would start to change in ways that

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I wouldn't be able to control. As I near sixty one,

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the walk in the world of business is now self

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made that moment. These years, it's a place of constant

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change because your body aches in ways that you can't

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really explain. One moment, your leg is feeling fine, the

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next moment it's like, what the hell happened here? Your back,

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your head, your eyes, oh the eyes, you full vision

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of the world. And then you sit in a room

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and you stare at a wall. The change. I don't

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expect anybody who's thirty to understand. But what I want

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to do is I want to plant the seed for

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you to embrace where you're headed. I have never met

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anybody who sat me down and said, hey, I'm gonna

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share a story with you. You're probably gonna get married, and

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you're gonna have kids that are going to grow up

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a lot faster than you imagine, and they're going to

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have children who are going to grow up even faster.

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But you're not going to look at yourself as being

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a sixty one year old man or woman. You're going

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to still feel like that kid in high school. Your

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body's going to ache in ways that's going to tell

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you slow down, but you don't want to. I want

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to be that guy that says, hey, look, write, do

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something with your early years so that you have a

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place to go back to when you do have a

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faded moment, when your mind does go into an area

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that might be like my friend who I think could

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be going through dementia, the very front stages of it.

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You are going to face a life that is going

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to have so many headlines from around the world that

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will infect your heart. You will be poisoned, but there's

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no medicine on this planet that will take you away

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from it. You can calm it by doing drugs, by

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doing alcohol, by doing the Internet, but it's still going

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to be there. And when you realize, oh hell, I'm

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not getting that time back, how am I going to

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deal with this hangover? Learning that you're going to grow

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into a shape that you can't control. If you're lucky enough,

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you'll make it to sixty one. If you are lucky enough.

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I had a heart attack at the age of forty seven.

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It changed my life. It changed my view, It changed

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the way that I walk because I don't want to stop.

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Suddenly the world of business was no longer important to

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my heart. It was to be with family and friends.

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But I know you don't understand this right now because

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you're not where I am. But there is somebody here

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that's telling you prepare. I say it starts with writing.

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Just jot down a note, because there's no greater feeling

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than going back to those years that went by so fast.

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But you left yourself a letter. I'm Marrow, and that's

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the daily mess.