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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to the Trauma Theapist podcast. My name is gamickperson.

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<v Speaker 1>I interview incredible people who've dedicated their lives to helping

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<v Speaker 1>those who've been impacted by trauma. A big thank you

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<v Speaker 1>to our sponsors and our guests who are supporting this show.

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<v Speaker 1>Five four, three, two and one folks, Welcome back to

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<v Speaker 1>the podcast. Super excited to have as my guest today.

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<v Speaker 1>Gabriella Tranquina. Gabriella, welcome.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you so much for having me. Super honored to

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<v Speaker 2>be here.

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<v Speaker 1>Appreciate that. Gabriella is a creator and host of Gabriella Rebranded,

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<v Speaker 1>a spiritual podcast about healing after trauma, brain injury, recovery,

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<v Speaker 1>and spiritual growth, told with honesty and dark humor. After

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<v Speaker 1>surviving at three and a half week coma, brain surgery

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<v Speaker 1>and multiple fractures for being struck by a car, Gabriella

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<v Speaker 1>reframed her life around resilience, spirituality, and joy even in

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<v Speaker 1>the face of adversity. Her work promotes trauma healing, disability advocacy,

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<v Speaker 1>and personal transformation listeners to reconnect with meaning, positive energy

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<v Speaker 1>and their own stories of survival. All right, Gabriella, I

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<v Speaker 1>can feel your energy already. I love it. I love

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<v Speaker 1>it so much? Yeah, love it. I was like, before

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<v Speaker 1>we get going share with the listeners where you're from

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<v Speaker 1>originally and where you are currently?

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<v Speaker 2>I am from Long Island, New York. Would you hear

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<v Speaker 2>when I say Long Island?

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<v Speaker 1>Love it? I used to live in Long Island?

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<v Speaker 2>Oat? Nice?

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<v Speaker 1>Where about in Shoreham?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay? Nice?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm from Mintlasset It's on the north awesome.

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<v Speaker 2>And I currently live in Los Angeles.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, okay, So let's dive in. How the heck did

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<v Speaker 1>all this start for you?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god? Well, how it really started was I

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<v Speaker 2>left a pair of sunglasses at a restaurant and I

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<v Speaker 2>went back to get them, and I was walking back

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<v Speaker 2>to my car and another car appeared and ran over me.

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<v Speaker 2>So that's how it really all started. But how this, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>the podcast and everything that I've done since has started

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<v Speaker 2>is I really needed I needed something to cling to.

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<v Speaker 2>I needed something to believe in because so much when

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<v Speaker 2>I was recovering was just going wrong and wrong and wrong.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, hang on, hang on, hand, I don't want any

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<v Speaker 1>but you gotta go back. What the hell happened? You

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<v Speaker 1>got hit? And what happened?

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<v Speaker 2>Yes? I was hit? I was hit by car I

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<v Speaker 2>was crossing the street legally. I like to add legally,

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<v Speaker 2>and a car didn't see me. They hit me. Brought

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<v Speaker 2>to Cedar Sinai. Really lucky. That's a big spiritual moment.

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<v Speaker 2>I chose a great place to get hit by a car,

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<v Speaker 2>second best hospital in America. So I was brought to

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<v Speaker 2>Cedar Sinai. They did what they had to do in

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<v Speaker 2>terms of the brain, brain surgery and all that, but

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<v Speaker 2>there was a lot more that went on. I've in

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<v Speaker 2>the past for not recently because it's been a little

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<v Speaker 2>bit of a break, but I wound up having surgeries

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<v Speaker 2>for two and a half years. How old were you

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<v Speaker 2>sixteen surgeries. I was twenty three when I got hit

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<v Speaker 2>and my last surgery I had when I was twenty five. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so it was it was a long healing process and

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<v Speaker 2>I really needed something to get me through and that's

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<v Speaker 2>when I found spirituality. Actually, what started it for me

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<v Speaker 2>was I read The Universe as Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein,

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<v Speaker 2>who you've also had as a podcast guest, and that's

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<v Speaker 2>what started it. It didn't, it didn't really end there.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't I wasn't the best spiritual student right away,

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<v Speaker 2>but that's what originally birthed it?

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<v Speaker 1>When Okay, so, at what point did you experience a

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<v Speaker 1>coma or were you in the coma?

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<v Speaker 2>As soon as I was hit, I woke up in

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<v Speaker 2>the hospital, woke up. It's not like the movies. It's

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<v Speaker 2>not like you wake up and just start talking. It's

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<v Speaker 2>like a very gradual A lot of the parts of

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<v Speaker 2>the brain need to heal. So I gained consciousness and

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<v Speaker 2>was technically not comatose anymore at three and a half weeks,

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<v Speaker 2>but my memory hadn't healed yet. So my earliest memory

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<v Speaker 2>was a little over a month, and it was leaving

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<v Speaker 2>the hospital to go to inpatient rehab. And even then

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<v Speaker 2>it's a very blurry, very chopped up memory. My entire

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<v Speaker 2>time in rehab is kind of in and out in

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<v Speaker 2>black and white. Some things I remember very clearly. A

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<v Speaker 2>lot is a blur. But yeah, that's my biggest takeaway

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<v Speaker 2>that I want people to know, is that waking up.

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<v Speaker 2>So many people ask me what was your first thought

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<v Speaker 2>when you woke up from the coma. That's not how

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<v Speaker 2>it works, that's not how That's how Hollywood makes it seem,

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<v Speaker 2>but that's not how it works. So I wouldn't know,

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<v Speaker 2>so you're.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, you wake up and what are you feeling?

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<v Speaker 1>What are you thinking?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, Well, my first memory was the sound of my

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<v Speaker 2>mom's voice telling me I was hit by a car.

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<v Speaker 2>No visuals, just the sound of her voice. Apparently I

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<v Speaker 2>kept forgetting what had happened, so my mom had to

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<v Speaker 2>tell me about six times that I was hit by

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<v Speaker 2>a car, which was traumatic for her and her own right,

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<v Speaker 2>that's really really hard. But my first concrete thought, aside

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<v Speaker 2>from the fact, was being thankful I wasn't texting Walder walking.

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<v Speaker 2>I was walking, not driving. But aside from the fact

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<v Speaker 2>that I wasn't staring at my phone when I had

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<v Speaker 2>my accident, was and I was crossing legally. My first

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<v Speaker 2>real thought was this will not all be for nothing.

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<v Speaker 2>The only way out is through, and this won't all

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<v Speaker 2>be for nothing. Something good is going to come out

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<v Speaker 2>of this this. I will not just have a break

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<v Speaker 2>from my life and that is it. It's going to

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<v Speaker 2>produce something really great.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay. So that's a pretty kick ass feeling and thought

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<v Speaker 1>to have. I mean, was that you even going even

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<v Speaker 1>before this?

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<v Speaker 2>No, not all. It's so crazy because now people always

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<v Speaker 2>talk about how positive and bubbly I am No one

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<v Speaker 2>would have described me as that before my accident. I

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<v Speaker 2>think I was. I was a pretty negative person. I

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<v Speaker 2>was a pretty negative person. If there was one thing

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<v Speaker 2>I was good at, it was complaining. This accident was

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<v Speaker 2>it really woke me up? It really sort of changed

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<v Speaker 2>everything about the way I moved through the world. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>a much better person now.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, So how did you get there? Will you just

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<v Speaker 1>hang on before you answered that? So? Were you forgive

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<v Speaker 1>me for projecting? But were you in bed? I mean

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<v Speaker 1>at some point going what the fuck is going on?

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<v Speaker 1>How am I gonna? Did you have experienced self pity?

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<v Speaker 2>Yes? So I was determined to move back to La.

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<v Speaker 2>I was living in LA at the time, and I

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<v Speaker 2>was determined to get back here because I did not

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<v Speaker 2>want my life to be on pause. And I thought

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<v Speaker 2>the longer I was out of LA, the longer I

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<v Speaker 2>wasn't hanging out with my friends, the longer I wasn't

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<v Speaker 2>I was an actor at the time, the longer I

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<v Speaker 2>wasn't pursuing acting, the farther away I was getting from myself,

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<v Speaker 2>and I was determined to get back. And all the

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<v Speaker 2>way up until La, I had a pretty positive disposition.

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<v Speaker 2>And even though I was very underhealed and should not

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<v Speaker 2>have moved back. I seemed physically fine enough because my

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<v Speaker 2>problems were up here and we didn't realize how bad

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<v Speaker 2>I say we, meaning me, my parents, my deficits were

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<v Speaker 2>until I moved back, and I was responsible for running

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<v Speaker 2>my entire life by myself. Because while I was recovering

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<v Speaker 2>at home, you know, I had my parents. They were

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<v Speaker 2>making sure the fridge was stocked, they were making me food,

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<v Speaker 2>they were driving me here, there, everywhere. And then I

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<v Speaker 2>went to La and suddenly I was by myself, alone

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<v Speaker 2>in the studio apartment, and I to do everything. I

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<v Speaker 2>was determined or I thought that something was going to

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<v Speaker 2>click in a place eventually, and I thought the law

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<v Speaker 2>of averages. I had a lot of bad and now

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<v Speaker 2>I was going to get some good. Something's going to

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<v Speaker 2>click in a place me right, Everything went wrong. Everything

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<v Speaker 2>I wasn't let back into my acting class. I lost

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of friends. I was having panic attacks left

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<v Speaker 2>and right, which drove a lot of people away. I

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<v Speaker 2>wasn't having panic attacks while I lived at home. They

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<v Speaker 2>started when I was back in La living by myself.

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<v Speaker 2>I couldn't function. Just managing my own life was impossible.

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<v Speaker 2>I couldn't even do my part time job. I couldn't

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<v Speaker 2>do anything. And just before the first year anniversary of

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<v Speaker 2>my accident, I came home and I went to a

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<v Speaker 2>reiki healer, Tina Conroy. She was She's the one who

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<v Speaker 2>told me to read the universe has her back. I

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<v Speaker 2>owe everything to her. She was just a local woman

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<v Speaker 2>from around my town that my family knew growing up.

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<v Speaker 2>And I went to her and I was like, everything's

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<v Speaker 2>going wrong. I can't get something to work. I thought

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<v Speaker 2>I was the Universe's comedic relief. That was how I

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<v Speaker 2>said it. I was like, I think I'm the Universe's

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<v Speaker 2>comedic relief. Nothing's going right. Everything I try, I am losing.

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<v Speaker 2>I was desperate. I truly had nothing to believe in.

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<v Speaker 2>And then in December, because this was about in October

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<v Speaker 2>that I saw her. In December, a surgery that I

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<v Speaker 2>had went wrong. It was one of the five surgeries

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<v Speaker 2>I've had for this ie and it was over a

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<v Speaker 2>month of five complications. It was ultimately deemed a failure.

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<v Speaker 2>So now I wasn't even healing correctly, and I was

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<v Speaker 2>just in this self pitying state of life, like I

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<v Speaker 2>cannot get everything, Like I've lost everything, and drufully, I

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<v Speaker 2>was a little suicidal, and I said I didn't have

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<v Speaker 2>plans to kill myself, but I said, if another car

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<v Speaker 2>came around and hit me and this time I died,

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<v Speaker 2>I wouldn't be upset about it. That was how I

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<v Speaker 2>truly felt. And then I went on a brain injury

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<v Speaker 2>retreat via the organization Love Your Brain, great organization, and I.

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<v Speaker 1>Had what is what is I've never heard of that?

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<v Speaker 1>What is that your brain?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god? Well, yeah, they are fabulous. They are

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<v Speaker 2>an organization that was started by Kevin Pierce. And if

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<v Speaker 2>you remember the Vancouver Olympics and twenty ten, there was

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<v Speaker 2>that snowboarder from America who was expected to beat Sean

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<v Speaker 2>White and then like a month out from the Olympics,

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<v Speaker 2>he got really hurt. I don't know if you remember that.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm vaguely vaguely yes. That was Kevin Pierce. And he

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<v Speaker 2>his entire life was going to be a snowboarder. He

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<v Speaker 2>was pro snowboarding. That was all he knew. And then

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<v Speaker 2>while he was training, he had an arly fall sustained

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<v Speaker 2>to TBI had brain surgery, which is what I have

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<v Speaker 2>going on. He couldn't go back to snowboarding, so similar

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<v Speaker 2>to me. His friends were snowboarders, his entire light. He

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<v Speaker 2>had dropped out of normal school to work on snowboarding.

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<v Speaker 2>That was his everything, his girlfriend was and he lost everything.

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<v Speaker 2>How he moved forward is like me. He decided he

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<v Speaker 2>wanted to bleed something positive to the world and he

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<v Speaker 2>started Love Your Brain, which is an organization for brain

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<v Speaker 2>injured persons and also their families. There's a caregiver support

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<v Speaker 2>group that my mom and her original tribe. They still

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<v Speaker 2>independently meet.

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<v Speaker 1>Over three years later.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and I went on this retreat and I finally

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<v Speaker 2>that's what inspired me to start my podcast because I

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<v Speaker 2>was finally validated. I finally met other people who knew

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<v Speaker 2>what I was going through, which I hadn't yet had.

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<v Speaker 2>I finally met other people that my struggles, and I said,

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<v Speaker 1>Look at you, I love you. I love your your

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<v Speaker 1>your your energy, and your passion. So you was that

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<v Speaker 2>It was, okay, a major turning point. When I am

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<v Speaker 2>lot to that. That retreat was the turning point in

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<v Speaker 2>my recovery. That moment, it was almost a year and

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<v Speaker 2>energy that I have now. It was finally being validated,

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<v Speaker 2>and that was like, wow, I this was what I need.

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<v Speaker 1>Finally being heard. Talk to us about that experience. Was

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<v Speaker 1>it like you're in a group and just people got it,

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<v Speaker 2>It was three days of pure validation, That's how I

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<v Speaker 2>describe it. And the first day there was a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of us, so we only got ninety seconds. But for

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<v Speaker 2>ninety seconds, you talked about what brought you to love

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<v Speaker 2>they were overlaps in all of our experiences and It

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<v Speaker 2>was an incredibly emotional moment for me just being there

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<v Speaker 2>and the three days we got to know each other.

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<v Speaker 2>We had a lot of activities, there was a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of bonding. I'm so close with a lot of people

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<v Speaker 2>from my original retreat. I love volunteering there now I volunteer,

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<v Speaker 2>I go back all the time. And it was just

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<v Speaker 2>finally connecting with other people. And also for me, I

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<v Speaker 2>twenty four when I wanted this retreat. Not many people

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<v Speaker 2>have a traumatic brain injury, or not a traumatic brain injury,

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<v Speaker 2>but a severe brain injury, a severe medical situation when

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<v Speaker 2>they're as young as I was. And it was finally

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<v Speaker 2>of their life. And it was this camaraderie that it

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<v Speaker 2>because for a while it felt like it was just me,

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<v Speaker 2>And then it was also I learned that I was

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<v Speaker 2>still can after everything I had been through. Visually, I

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<v Speaker 2>can't do anything Visually, I'm the queen of losing my phone.

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<v Speaker 2>But I've still maintained this, and I was like, holy shit,

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<v Speaker 1>So love it. So you you decide there that you're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna was it. You're going to start a podcast, share

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<v Speaker 1>with our listeners the name of your podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>Gabriella Rebranded. That is the name of my podcast. That's

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<v Speaker 2>my social media, that's everything, and it's that was the

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<v Speaker 2>name of my podcast. And I had always so many

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<v Speaker 2>people had told me to write a book, and so

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<v Speaker 2>many people had told me to start a podcast. Before

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<v Speaker 2>I'd gotten hurt. People were telling me to start a

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<v Speaker 2>podcast because I'm great at talking, but I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't have anything to talk about in a podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>And then this happened and I was like, Oh, I've

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<v Speaker 2>moment I got serious about starting a book that again

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<v Speaker 2>we're still not done with because I have to heal

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<v Speaker 2>some of the CPTSD a little bit more to finish

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<v Speaker 2>the book. But that was when I got really real

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<v Speaker 2>about the podcast, because if I wasn't perfectly healed, I

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<v Speaker 2>could start the podcast because I could take it from

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<v Speaker 2>the perspective of I'm a student and I'm I'm learning

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<v Speaker 2>all this with you, and I'm figuring all all of

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<v Speaker 2>this out too. I don't have it all figured out yet.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think any of us will ever have it

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<v Speaker 2>all figured out. But I'm still at the beginning of

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<v Speaker 2>my journey, and I'm journey and I'm right there with you.

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<v Speaker 2>So my podcast is very much from the perspective of

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<v Speaker 2>student and learning.

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<v Speaker 1>When what is it, Gabriella that I mean? I understand

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<v Speaker 1>it was validation was huge, But walking, let's say, walking

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<v Speaker 1>into that retreat, you were thinking you were all alone?

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<v Speaker 1>What no one would understand, no one understands you. What

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<v Speaker 1>is it that you was keeping you so isolated in

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<v Speaker 1>a sense, maybe physically and psychologically before you walked into

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I think the most beautiful moment that I had

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<v Speaker 2>while I was in impatient rehab that my mom brings

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<v Speaker 2>up all the time is there is one point where

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<v Speaker 2>I was in my bed like I could barely talk,

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<v Speaker 2>So it was like this, but I said, I'm the

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<v Speaker 2>only person under eighty here, like on this brain injury floor.

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<v Speaker 2>That's how I felt LA. Unfortunately, at the time I

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<v Speaker 2>was there, there were no brain injury support groups in LA,

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<v Speaker 2>and there was none, and sure there were online ones,

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<v Speaker 2>but it wasn't the same. I needed someone with me

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<v Speaker 2>and there were none. Now, California Rehab, which is where

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<v Speaker 2>I was posted up in Century City, Los Angeles, has

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<v Speaker 2>a brain injury support group, so why everyone did know that?

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<v Speaker 2>Now they have that, but they did it at the time,

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<v Speaker 2>so I knew no one that understood it. And the

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<v Speaker 2>problem was I present like this. I look pretty physically

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<v Speaker 2>fine on the outside. I can walk, I can use

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<v Speaker 2>both my arms, I can talk, I can do all that.

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<v Speaker 2>So no one really knew how her I still was.

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<v Speaker 2>No one really knew how damaged the brain was. So

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<v Speaker 2>from everyone around me's perspective, all the other former friends

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<v Speaker 2>from before my accident, it was like, well, why isn't

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<v Speaker 2>she back to normal? And they a lot of people,

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<v Speaker 2>I think they they didn't have the energy or the

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<v Speaker 2>capacity to be patient with me and extend the energy

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<v Speaker 2>that I needed because I needed a lot. I needed

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of handholding. Still and it was this completely

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<v Speaker 2>lost moment where I couldn't drink, which was wound up

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<v Speaker 2>being the smallest thing in the world. But loud noises.

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<v Speaker 2>I have hearing sensitivity. I couldn't take that. Bright lights.

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<v Speaker 2>I couldn't take that. I still need to sleep more

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<v Speaker 2>than the average person, but it was especially bad then

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<v Speaker 2>over stimulation. I still get very overstimulated. So I couldn't

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<v Speaker 2>because I could barely do anything. So I didn't have

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<v Speaker 2>friends from work. I lived in a studio. I was

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<v Speaker 1>What is your goal with the podcast? Like, when you've

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<v Speaker 1>decided I'm going to do this, what was this you

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to do?

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<v Speaker 2>To be the voice for others that I needed when

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<v Speaker 2>I was going through the worst and the worst of

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<v Speaker 2>the word the worst of the worst, sorry, but to

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<v Speaker 2>be the voice for others that I needed because I

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<v Speaker 2>I had no one. I didn't think anyone got it.

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<v Speaker 2>Brain injury is very very intricate, and it's very confusing,

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<v Speaker 2>and even I'm blessed. My father is a doctor, so

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<v Speaker 2>he's a better understanding, but even my mom sort of

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<v Speaker 2>had no idea what was going on with me. She

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<v Speaker 2>kind of still she tries her best, and she's great.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm the best mom in the world, but there's still

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<v Speaker 2>a lot that she doesn't get because it's it's here,

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<v Speaker 2>it's internal. And as much as my dad has a

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<v Speaker 2>knowledge more than most, there is a bit he will

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<v Speaker 2>never understand because it's in here, and it's it's you

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<v Speaker 2>gotta feel it, you gotta you gotta live. From my perspective,

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<v Speaker 2>so it felt like no one got it and no

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<v Speaker 2>one understood me. And people tried their best, but no

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<v Speaker 2>one was fully there. And I know how when I

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<v Speaker 2>was isolated, when I was so alone, I was so

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<v Speaker 2>net if that it wasn't aiding my recovery. Positivity aids

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<v Speaker 2>or physical healing so much it aids. Everything in your

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<v Speaker 2>life just flows to you the more positive energy you exude,

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<v Speaker 2>and the first place that that positive energy starts is

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<v Speaker 2>just someone who understands. And I still to this day

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<v Speaker 2>when I meet other not just brain injury survivors, but

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<v Speaker 2>medical trauma survivors, it's such relief. It's like Oh my god,

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<v Speaker 2>someone finally someone understands. My friend Alyssa says that it's

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<v Speaker 2>like we have a shorthand with each other and that

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<v Speaker 2>like we're able to just understand, pick right up what

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<v Speaker 2>the other person is going through, and I was like, Wow,

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<v Speaker 2>all other trauma survivors, regardless if it's medical or not medical,

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<v Speaker 2>but need this too. They probably also feel this way.

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<v Speaker 2>So my goal with the podcast was that.

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<v Speaker 1>So give us a little understanding, and not that we're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna completely understand. But what is it that people don't

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<v Speaker 1>understand about people who've experienced a trauma such as yours.

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<v Speaker 2>I think what people don't understand is a brain injury.

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<v Speaker 2>It's lifelong, it's not an event. There is no it's

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<v Speaker 2>actually recently found out considered a chronic illness now, so

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<v Speaker 2>it's not something I won't one day just.

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<v Speaker 1>Be back to normal, like get over it. Get Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I am different who I was before the accident. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>not her anymore. I love her, I miss her. She

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<v Speaker 2>would be really excited to know who I am now.

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<v Speaker 2>But I'm different. That is very true.

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<v Speaker 1>Would you mind sharing how you're different?

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<v Speaker 2>I was someone who was I never needed alone time.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't like to be home by myself for more

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<v Speaker 2>than five minutes. I was so extroverted. I was always

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<v Speaker 1>Pretty extroverted.

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<v Speaker 2>Now I'm still extroverted, but I need my recharge time.

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<v Speaker 2>If I'm doing something on a Friday or Saturday, I

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<v Speaker 2>have to be very selective with who I give my

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<v Speaker 2>I was kind of which isn't a bad thing. I

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<v Speaker 2>people are. We all think we're invincible. I have to

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<v Speaker 1>Now.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm so much more empathetic. Now I'm so much more sense.

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<v Speaker 2>I cry all the time. It is so easy to

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<v Speaker 2>much more seriously. I have a lot more of a

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<v Speaker 2>refined grasp on the fragility of life, and there is

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<v Speaker 2>definitely a level of emotional intelligence. I like the people

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<v Speaker 2>I was a very I mean, I was very like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to find the words, I didn't give a

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<v Speaker 2>fuck Like that's I was a very I didn't give

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<v Speaker 2>of like whatever about other people. I was very. I

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<v Speaker 2>mean I was super super dramatic about which I still

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<v Speaker 2>am a little bit, but dramatic in terms of anger

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<v Speaker 2>and dramatic in terms of sadness, and dramatic in terms

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<v Speaker 2>of everything had to be an event. And I was

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<v Speaker 2>so confrontational, whereas now it's definitely more. That's not that serious.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not that serious. I promise you. That little thing

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<v Speaker 2>that you're throwing to temper tantrum about, I promise you

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<v Speaker 2>it does not matter. And I used to throw a

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<v Speaker 2>tempertensium about everything, and now I promise you, as long

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<v Speaker 2>as your health is okay, your loved ones health is okay,

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<v Speaker 2>you know where your next meal is coming from. There's

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<v Speaker 2>a roof of her head. The rest you will figure out.

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<v Speaker 2>The rest will all be figured the fuck out. It's

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<v Speaker 2>not that deep. And I made everything deep.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, So you mentioned that you were you were working

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<v Speaker 1>at a particular job. You weren't able to do that.

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<v Speaker 1>What is your employment situation like now, are you able

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<v Speaker 1>to work?

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<v Speaker 2>No, I'm definitely not able to do a typical nine

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<v Speaker 2>to five. I'm not allowed to look at a computer

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<v Speaker 2>screen for more than like an hour and a half.

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<v Speaker 2>I just need more rest than the average person staying over.

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<v Speaker 2>I get over stimulated very easily. It's the unfortunate reality

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<v Speaker 2>that the people with my level of injury I think

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<v Speaker 2>only about it's either five percent or three percent, will

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<v Speaker 2>be able to go back to working a normal nine

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<v Speaker 2>to five job with my level of injury, which was

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<v Speaker 2>a very severe traumatic brain injury. So I am not

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<v Speaker 2>able to do that. What I am doing now is

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<v Speaker 2>I'm writing my book and I'm producing this podcast, and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm really blessed to be in a situation. And I

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<v Speaker 2>know how blessed I am. That does not lost to

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<v Speaker 2>me at all. I give thanks for that every day.

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<v Speaker 2>But I'm really blessed to be in a situation where

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<v Speaker 2>I am able to do that. And part of how

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<v Speaker 2>I'm paying it forward being so blessed to be here

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<v Speaker 2>currently is that with all this free time, or not

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<v Speaker 2>free time, but with all this ability and flexibility to

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<v Speaker 2>not need to have a standard nine to five job,

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<v Speaker 2>I could be kind of living a purely self serving

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<v Speaker 2>life and doing whatever I wanted and instead I'm using

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<v Speaker 2>it to give, and I'm using it to spend every

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<v Speaker 2>day devoted to how can I help other people? And

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<v Speaker 2>it's kind of self serving. I will say that it

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<v Speaker 2>is kind of self serving because it helps.

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<v Speaker 1>Me sure sure, well not unlike a lot of things

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<v Speaker 1>we all do, right, we all there's a give and

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<v Speaker 1>take there. Wow. Okay, So in your pot, tell us

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit more about your podcast. How is it structured?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you invite people on or is it you or what?

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<v Speaker 2>It's both. It's a mix of solo episodes, it's a

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<v Speaker 2>mix of having guests. It depends. I'm definitely still figuring

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<v Speaker 2>it out. I'm only my second season right now, but

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<v Speaker 2>I think I've got a better grasp on what I

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<v Speaker 2>want it to be. So I'm moving into a way

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<v Speaker 2>of my solo episodes or tending to be more short.

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<v Speaker 2>Get those quick episodes in like less than forty five minutes,

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<v Speaker 2>an easy thing to put on on your commute to work.

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<v Speaker 2>And when I have guests on guests, I don't necessarily

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<v Speaker 2>want to cut short what they're saying if they're talking

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<v Speaker 2>about something really important, So guest episodes may be a

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<v Speaker 2>bit longer, around an hour. What's important to me with

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<v Speaker 2>the guest episodes is I had a veteran on recently,

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<v Speaker 2>I had a sexual scholar who's an expert in sexual

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<v Speaker 2>assault and things like that and sexual trauma on I'm

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<v Speaker 2>having a breast cancer survivor, come on. So there's a

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<v Speaker 2>lot that I don't know. And that's sort of how

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<v Speaker 2>I'm hitting the basis of addressing other types of trauma.

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<v Speaker 2>And then in my sole episodes, I talk about what

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<v Speaker 2>I know, and I also give general spiritual lessons for

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<v Speaker 2>all types of trauma survivors, no matter how big or

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<v Speaker 2>smaller trauma is, because all of life is traumatizing.

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<v Speaker 1>True that Yeah, all right, Keviriella. How do people learn

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<v Speaker 1>more about you and your podcast?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, the way to learn more about me is Gabriella

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<v Speaker 2>rebranded everything. So, Gabriella Rebranded is the name of my podcast,

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<v Speaker 2>it's the name of my instagram, my TikTok, that's my website,

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<v Speaker 2>sign up for my news letter on my website. That's

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<v Speaker 2>the best way to get access on when new episodes drop,

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<v Speaker 2>and yeah, that is that is it. Gabriella Rebranded. Also,

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<v Speaker 2>if you would like to be a guest on the podcast,

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<v Speaker 2>you can head over to my website. We have a

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<v Speaker 2>fun little form for you to fill out.

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<v Speaker 1>Love it, love it. We'll have all that linked up

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<v Speaker 1>here at the show notes page at the Trauma Therapist

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<v Speaker 1>podcast dot com. Gabriella, you are a breath of fresh air.

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<v Speaker 1>I love it. Love you seriously. Love to have you

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<v Speaker 1>back at a later date, no pressure if you don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to, but would love it, love me. I would

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<v Speaker 1>love to love your energy. And I think in this

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<v Speaker 1>world we need people like you who are just like

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<v Speaker 1>exuding this this not just positivity, but this courage and strength.

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<v Speaker 1>So thank you for joining me today.

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<v Speaker 2>And I wouldn't have gotten here without the coma, so.

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<v Speaker 1>Appreciate it. All right, we'll be in touch.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you so much.

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<v Speaker 1>Great, all right,