Speaker 1: Welcome to the two seventeen Recovery Broadcast.
Speaker 2: If you don't make mistakes, you won't learn.
Speaker 1: With your host Corey Winfield, you know how you know
Speaker 1: fish as bad as you can't put on pizza and
Speaker 1: special guests.
Speaker 3: Justin Burke, the thumb nail totally does not dictate.
Speaker 1: The move at all. Jesse Smoker. I called the string
Speaker 1: and take it. Tama Mitchell O'Brien, he goes you recorded
Speaker 1: new o sleepig and I was like nope. He goes
Speaker 1: Winfield dead.
Speaker 2: You got this terror in his eye and I was
Speaker 2: like nope, and then he's like it was Smoker, got
Speaker 2: your ass.
Speaker 1: It is the twenty first of September twenty twenty four.
Speaker 1: Welcome to the two seventeen Recovery Podcast. My name is
Speaker 1: Corey Winfield.
Speaker 2: I'm Justin Burke, Mitchell O'Brien, Jesse Spoker.
Speaker 1: Hold a string, Oh, hold a string. A surprise. Now
Speaker 1: we're all doing a Saturday podcast today because we're hitting
Speaker 1: the road going to a place in Michigan. There's a
Speaker 1: city called kel Caska, Yeah, and probably many have driven
Speaker 1: through it. Yeah, there's a drive through yeah, yeah. Thinking
Speaker 1: they were going to go up north to some pretty stuff,
Speaker 1: and they're like, we'll pass through Kelkaska.
Speaker 2: Could you see that big fish?
Speaker 3: I was about to say, the only thing is that
Speaker 3: big fish?
Speaker 1: I don't know. I went to the Westco. I think
Speaker 1: they have a Westco there.
Speaker 3: They they don't have no Wesco.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, they do, don't wear no Westco. Pretty sure.
Speaker 1: Would you like to bet a paycheck on this? Justin Burke?
Speaker 2: They have a Westco there in kel Caaska. Yeah, you
Speaker 2: take it right, have the shell and the west goes
Speaker 2: on the left.
Speaker 1: Still betting them. Would you like to make a bet
Speaker 1: justin Burke on a paycheck?
Speaker 3: No smart move, damn it.
Speaker 1: So I've been to it. Yeah, been there. That's pretty cool. Yeah,
Speaker 1: And I didn't really spend much time other than just
Speaker 1: at the Westco. Probably just getting a donut or something,
Speaker 1: you know, maybe some gasoline. But that's that's kind of all.
Speaker 1: And I think we were invited to go to the
Speaker 1: Trout festival, but we would have had to man the
Speaker 1: tent all day or something, and I was like, I
Speaker 1: don't really have staffing for that, especially since I hate fish. Yeah,
Speaker 1: let's go to a festival that you hate. Don't go
Speaker 1: on pizza? Yeah, yeah, I have a pizza festival. Your
Speaker 1: boy's gonna be there, right, I'll be there all day.
Speaker 1: Don't have at festival. I'm there. Have a Westco festival.
Speaker 1: That's what we need to do, Westco. Yeah, I start
Speaker 1: at Westco Festival. Yeah, and then like, don't name it Waco. Yeah,
Speaker 1: well we'll spell it different. We'll spell it like Gaylord
Speaker 1: spells Gaylord. Yeah. Yeah, we'll say no, it's it's not Westco.
Speaker 1: It's we see you know.
Speaker 4: But I just googled it and there's no West Go
Speaker 4: in keol Casco.
Speaker 3: I should have bet you your paycheck.
Speaker 1: We'll see when we stop at the Westco in kol
Speaker 1: Casca today.
Speaker 3: Yeah, let's do it. They closed down.
Speaker 4: There's not one there. I've never The closest West Go
Speaker 4: to Traverse City is Benzonia, and then the closest one
Speaker 4: south to US is Lake City where Cadillac.
Speaker 3: M You could be you could be right.
Speaker 1: I didn't take that bet, huh.
Speaker 4: I wasn't trying to lose paycheck. I got a kid feed.
Speaker 4: They're expensively. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Well that's on the recovery and this is kind of
Speaker 1: this is the recovery ads. Yeah, we're doing two seventeen podcasts. Today.
Speaker 1: But yeah, we're going to Kolcska today because they are
Speaker 1: having it's being called the Talents of Recovery up north. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's going to be good. I'm excited. I don't really
Speaker 1: know what we're going to get into, but never know.
Speaker 2: It's it's going to be exciting though, a good day
Speaker 2: whether it looks good.
Speaker 1: Yeah, in the inaugural festival that they have, and yeah,
Speaker 1: it's one of the coalitions up there they're doing, like, hey,
Speaker 1: we want to do something for our area, and they
Speaker 1: invited us and they're like, hey, you guys are pretty
Speaker 1: fing awesome. Would you crace us with your presence? And
Speaker 1: we're like, yeah, sure, nice, will be there do some tomfoolery.
Speaker 2: It was a little disappointed that that isn't the annual.
Speaker 1: They knew, they heard, they know, yeah, they know, they knew,
Speaker 1: knew better put that on their flyer because that's how
Speaker 1: people know. Yeah, because I bust their balls. You don't
Speaker 1: put first annual. There is no first annual. No, it's
Speaker 1: not annual. It has to be annuals to be an annual,
Speaker 1: so it's inaugural. So yeah, proud of them for that,
Speaker 1: Thanks for listening, Thanks for just knowing twelve to six
Speaker 1: is with the time they say it's going to go on.
Speaker 1: We're going to get there eleven, so maybe set up. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's at the Railroad Square in Kelcaske. And if you
Speaker 1: listen to this podcast and you're like, damn, I should
Speaker 1: have went to it, well that's why you listen to
Speaker 1: the podcast. When you get the notification that's new, they
Speaker 1: listen right away. Drop everything that you're doing, yes, and listen.
Speaker 1: But if not, you know, like I said, some tom foolery,
Speaker 1: we might do some audio stuff from out there. We'll
Speaker 1: see how they goes. We got some new technology, some
Speaker 1: equipment got upgraded yesterday. So you probably will have some
Speaker 1: videos finally, at least for our Recovery Dad's podcast, because
Speaker 1: we're all going to be there, why not take some
Speaker 1: videos and some pictures like yeah, the opening and close
Speaker 1: says that. Go to our website for all the videos
Speaker 1: and then you go to the Recovery dads dot com
Speaker 1: and this is not any videos.
Speaker 3: You know, we try and we're coming.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but we'll do that and it'll be a good time,
Speaker 1: it really will. So look for some pictures and stuff
Speaker 1: like that. How was how was your guys?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 1: Your Friday yesterday it was was It was a good
Speaker 1: fun Friday for everybody, smashing good Friday.
Speaker 2: It was a good, pretty good Friday.
Speaker 3: Yeah, justin Yeah, it's pretty wonderful.
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, I mean.
Speaker 3: My boss hooked me up with some new technology.
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, cool boss.
Speaker 4: My ride was all right, all right, good, went down
Speaker 4: to Richmond, very nice.
Speaker 1: Cool.
Speaker 2: I got to exceed some expectations on the recovery rides
Speaker 2: that we do.
Speaker 1: Okay.
Speaker 2: Somebody had said, I like to use you guys to
Speaker 2: transport people because you're there when you say you're going
Speaker 2: to be there. That's what we do. And I rolled
Speaker 2: in just a couple of minutes early and it felt good.
Speaker 2: They're like, this is they literally said, this is why
Speaker 2: we have you guys transport.
Speaker 1: People out communication. Yep, they don't have to wait around
Speaker 1: two days. And are they coming here? No, you know
Speaker 1: exactly when they're coming. Eight pm?
Speaker 2: Rolls around, here comes the guy is supposed to be there.
Speaker 1: At eight a m. Got a hot date, but you
Speaker 1: can't go on it because yeah, run a silver living
Speaker 1: home and this dude is supposed to come in. You
Speaker 1: gotta drop everything to do that. I could see what
Speaker 1: that would be a pain, the answers. That's why we
Speaker 1: communicate with them, why we do what we do.
Speaker 4: And my stunt my son stopped by the office yesterday.
Speaker 4: The stunt son, Yeah, it went good.
Speaker 3: Good. We're gonna go out for dinner after we get
Speaker 3: done at Kolkascar.
Speaker 1: Fantastic, nice, any special some fish?
Speaker 4: Probably not really, he wanted to go out back.
Speaker 3: I told him. I was like, you think I'm rich
Speaker 3: or something.
Speaker 1: Wow, Okay, it's nice though, I mean it is nice.
Speaker 2: You get that dark bread and butter at the beginning.
Speaker 1: Eat ig eat that and a cup of soup.
Speaker 2: Yeah, gotta get a balloom and onion.
Speaker 1: Though, Tell your waiter to be like, look, bro, I
Speaker 1: got a twenty spot in this for you. If everything
Speaker 1: that kid orders that's over nine ninety nine is oh,
Speaker 1: we're out of that. You say we're out of that.
Speaker 1: I got twenty spots just for you. I want to
Speaker 1: flame out out of that. Oh, I want to out
Speaker 1: of that.
Speaker 2: I think all the garden right now is doing that
Speaker 2: endless possible ooh, which is always good.
Speaker 1: I don't want that. I want the Trio sampler. Yeah, well,
Speaker 1: you know, out of that, out of that Tonight twenty
Speaker 1: eight ninety nine yeah, I think we all go through that.
Speaker 1: You can't even go to McDonald's now.
Speaker 3: No, it's like Tony Bucks.
Speaker 2: Yeah, a bacon or a sausage, egg of cheese, McMuffin.
Speaker 2: It's almost five dollars for just that.
Speaker 3: So I don't get the egg.
Speaker 1: Wow, So how much is it without the egg?
Speaker 4: I get two or halfs I I get.
Speaker 3: Two of them and it's like three seventy five.
Speaker 1: Oh no egg.
Speaker 3: Yeah, the bread and the meat, ye, meat and cheese.
Speaker 1: You're getting your protein from the sausage.
Speaker 3: It's very unhealthy protein from them.
Speaker 2: I need to I need to double protein.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I'm not a protein it's not a
Speaker 1: neurologist nutrition. I'm not one of those people.
Speaker 3: I was.
Speaker 1: Protein ologists, could be it could be anything. I wouldn't know.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna make a bet on it.
Speaker 2: Well, if you know something about anything, you're just an
Speaker 2: ologist of that thing.
Speaker 1: I'm glad. I'm glad that you guys had such a
Speaker 1: great Friday, though, did you? Oh, thank you, thank you
Speaker 1: for asking Friday yesterday. It was twentieth September twenty twenty four.
Speaker 1: It was tough for the Winfield family. The little Parker
Speaker 1: included he was there with us on Thursday, the nineteenth
Speaker 1: of September twenty twenty four, roughly four thirty pm when
Speaker 1: we walked out of the vet as I had to
Speaker 1: put my precious Nico to sleep for Equid. So it
Speaker 1: was a tough day yesterday, you know, coming back from
Speaker 1: that and waking up and looking over to where Nico
Speaker 1: normally sleeps, kind of down by my bed, in between
Speaker 1: the bed and the wall. We had this little bed
Speaker 1: for that and where she refuses to lay on, but
Speaker 1: she would just lean on it like a pillow, and
Speaker 1: like during the night Thursday night and a Friday morning,
Speaker 1: I just kept waking up looking over there where I'd
Speaker 1: always see her, and she always look up at me
Speaker 1: and go, I'm like, you're being good. She was gone.
Speaker 1: She was in there. So it's just weird starting my
Speaker 1: day trying not to trip over her, trying to have
Speaker 1: to step on her. She was in there, step on
Speaker 1: and I missed those days that I used to have
Speaker 1: to work myself out of bed. It's hard for a
Speaker 1: fat guy because you can't just like where you gotta roll.
Speaker 1: It's a process, especially with back problems. You know, you
Speaker 1: gotta kick your legs over and you go. So it
Speaker 1: was tough. It was a tough day, man. Yeah. My
Speaker 1: cat Andico, who was with me through some really dark,
Speaker 1: terrible times man. And when I first got her, it
Speaker 1: was in twenty ten, and right after my grandma had
Speaker 1: passed away, and my boss at the time, because I
Speaker 1: was like, I got to go to my go back
Speaker 1: to Michigan for this funeral, and he's like, well, fourth
Speaker 1: of July is right next weekend, you need to be
Speaker 1: back here for the July in case there's an event
Speaker 1: we're doing. So I had to leave the family early
Speaker 1: after burying my grandmother to come back to fucking Arkansas,
Speaker 1: and there was no event to fucking go to. So
Speaker 1: I just sat there. We can sew. I ended up
Speaker 1: looking through the paper and getting a cat. It's free kittens,
Speaker 1: and so I drove over and I picked this cat
Speaker 1: up and lady said, oh, yeah, no, it's never been outside.
Speaker 1: A'm I doesn't have fleas, no, And it's good. I'm
Speaker 1: all right, we'll get home just fleas everywhere. So I
Speaker 1: give her flea bath and stuff. But like that was
Speaker 1: kind of like a healing thing for me from losing
Speaker 1: the grandmother, and so she kind of helped me with that,
Speaker 1: and then I bought a home down there, and she
Speaker 1: moved in, obviously, moved over from the little duplex I
Speaker 1: was renting for three hundred and seventy dollars a month.
Speaker 3: Wasn't running so amazing, dude, just.
Speaker 1: An Arkansas a loan. I mean she was cheap. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean, it's it's insane. Like they were like, hey,
Speaker 1: you can get this. You guys would be like, let's go. Yeah, Like,
Speaker 1: I mean, it wasn't big, but damn it was nice
Speaker 1: hardwood floors and stuff. Roaches every once in a while
Speaker 1: all the time, but that's all right. They caught the
Speaker 1: water bugs down there's a water bug. I'm like, that
Speaker 1: thing is as big as my cat. Like nikos. She
Speaker 1: would get them for me. She got into getting bugs.
Speaker 1: And then like when I went through the whole kidney
Speaker 1: failure thing, like it was the first time I were
Speaker 1: really laid on the couch because before I would just
Speaker 1: sit up and then I would pass out, you know,
Speaker 1: like just pass out drunk. And so when I got
Speaker 1: home from the hospital, I had to keep my feet
Speaker 1: elevated because my legs were still swollen. And she like
Speaker 1: would jump up and then like really started cuddling with me.
Speaker 1: And if I would say, hey, Nico, you want to cuddle,
Speaker 1: she would jump up like let's go. You know. She
Speaker 1: was a very smart cat. And you know, moving home
Speaker 1: and then leaving radio, having to go back to live
Speaker 1: with mom and dad, you know, and all that stuff,
Speaker 1: and Nico was just in this little room when I
Speaker 1: went to treatment last time. You know, she was in
Speaker 1: this little room because I ended up moving out and
Speaker 1: get my own place, but then she had to go
Speaker 1: back and she was just like stuck in this little room.
Speaker 1: And I think my mom and step dad for least
Speaker 1: allowing that, and for my stepdad for getting attacked every
Speaker 1: time he would try to feed her. I appreciate it.
Speaker 1: Yeah I don't believe it because she was a sweet
Speaker 1: baby kitty, but yeah she was. But just to leave
Speaker 1: her there for five six months because I went to
Speaker 1: treatment for three months or two months, and then I
Speaker 1: went to sober living from their six months. So all
Speaker 1: that time Nico just was just hanging out by herself
Speaker 1: in this little last room and I felt bad for
Speaker 1: I remember one time I came home for something to
Speaker 1: my mom was like, you're gonna go see your cat?
Speaker 1: And I said no, because it was too hard, and
Speaker 1: I don't think my mom understood that, you know that
Speaker 1: it was very frustrating for me. But I've seen so
Speaker 1: many people use that, oh, I can't go to a
Speaker 1: sober living because I got a dog, can't go because
Speaker 1: I've got a cat. And I did not want that
Speaker 1: to be an excuse. I didn't want to have excuses.
Speaker 1: And I looked at the bottom line, like, yeah, I
Speaker 1: love my cat, but at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: I gotta love me, I gotta be there for me,
Speaker 1: and I got to figure this shit out. It hurt
Speaker 1: me to know that she was up there in that
Speaker 1: room and she probably could hear me and knew I
Speaker 1: was there, but it was too much emotionally for me
Speaker 1: to deal with. And I knew, like I couldn't go
Speaker 1: up there to do that. My mom was just like,
Speaker 1: you didn't even see your cat, you know, and she's
Speaker 1: going to tell you that. She didn't say it like that,
Speaker 1: but she said it just like that. Oh yeah, absolutely.
Speaker 1: So when I was able to go to a sober
Speaker 1: living house and manage the house, that was one of
Speaker 1: the things. I'm like, well, I need to have my cat,
Speaker 1: and they're like, okay, that's cool. I'm like, I straight.
Speaker 1: So then she went from that little room to a
Speaker 1: different little room, but at least she'd see me. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and the guys in the house kind of liked her,
Speaker 1: and she didn't really try to go out of the
Speaker 1: room too much, and it was a good time. And
Speaker 1: then you know, Marnie she kind of knew like, oh,
Speaker 1: the cat's part of the package too, you know. So
Speaker 1: I was like, if you want all this man right here,
Speaker 1: you gotta have that little kiddy too. And Nico wasn't
Speaker 1: a huge fan of other people, and she kind of
Speaker 1: grew to love Marnie too, and it was just kind
Speaker 1: of magical how that kind of bond happened. And we
Speaker 1: had like this beautiful picture and I'll show it to
Speaker 1: you guys if you haven't seen it. But it was
Speaker 1: around Christmas time and Marnie was decorated Christmas tree and
Speaker 1: Nico loved Christmas and she's putting this ornament up. I
Speaker 1: took a picture and Nico was just looking at her like,
Speaker 1: you know, I'm knocking that down right.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 1: It's just a perfect like Christmas picture, you know, and
Speaker 1: we're gonna have that forever, and you know, you never
Speaker 1: know why people or things come into your life. But
Speaker 1: I believe pets have souls. I really do. Oh yeah,
Speaker 1: and you know, she got me through a huge part
Speaker 1: of my life that you know how many times I
Speaker 1: was laying in bed withdrawing and she would just come
Speaker 1: up there and just lay by my feet, and just
Speaker 1: to know that she was there was very comforting. So Nico,
Speaker 1: love you, girl, and I'll see again one day. But
Speaker 1: I'm so glad that you guys had such great fridays.
Speaker 1: Though it's pretty cool.
Speaker 3: I'm sorry yours is so sad.
Speaker 1: I that you guys had going. Hey man, not to
Speaker 1: take away from you guys, just praide nothing, but no.
Speaker 2: Obviously I understand.
Speaker 3: Wow, you have had Nico a long time though, fourteen
Speaker 3: out of the.
Speaker 1: Newspaper fourteen and a half years, you know, Yeah, twenty ten,
Speaker 1: that's a long time down in Arkansas. I still think
Speaker 1: that's how they communicate with newspapers.
Speaker 2: It's how long I've had my kid.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you imagine that, having to put them to sleep
Speaker 1: too and.
Speaker 2: Put them in the newspaper up for sale. I did that. Yeah,
Speaker 2: that was part of my day yesterday, my Friday. Probably
Speaker 2: she could do that, No fleas no tics in indoor
Speaker 2: child true facts.
Speaker 1: We took her to the bet though, because before she
Speaker 1: had this huge kidney stone and I thought she just
Speaker 1: hated me because I would change her litter and she
Speaker 1: would just ship right next to the little box. I'm like,
Speaker 1: I just changed it. Like, what are you doing inside?
Speaker 1: Chase around? I'm like, no, don't shoot on the floor,
Speaker 1: and and I feel so bad, and again, uneducated as
Speaker 1: a pet owner, to know like that is a huge
Speaker 1: sign that something is wrong with your cat. Something's not
Speaker 1: something's not right. So finally, after like a year or
Speaker 1: two or five, I don't remember how long, but we
Speaker 1: took her to the vet and they're like, oh, she
Speaker 1: had this kidney stone about the size of a baseball.
Speaker 1: I'm like what They're like, if this was a male, okay,
Speaker 1: you trust me, you would be knowing. But since the
Speaker 1: female organs are different, whatever, she can live with it.
Speaker 1: But it's still very, very painful. And so we had
Speaker 1: dealt with that, and so I'm like, okay, cool, Well,
Speaker 1: all of our cats, I don't know that if they're
Speaker 1: like bleemic or what it is, but they have an
Speaker 1: eating disorder I think because they're all thrown up and
Speaker 1: so we're seeing this throw up and the upstairs, downstairs
Speaker 1: everywhere just cat throw up, you know, cleaning it up.
Speaker 1: And the other day I saw a cat throw up
Speaker 1: and then poop. I'm like, all right, which some bitch?
Speaker 1: Is it? Three of them? And then I just days
Speaker 1: go by and I see more throw up in the
Speaker 1: bedroom and I'm like, what the hell. And we're thinking
Speaker 1: it's a little one because he just runs around his
Speaker 1: puke and everywhere like that that's his game. And so
Speaker 1: I pick it up and I go to walk in
Speaker 1: my bathroom. They go throw the puke away and I
Speaker 1: step on something and I knew better to put my
Speaker 1: toe all the way down. I was like, oh, hold on,
Speaker 1: flip on the light and there's turds. And then I
Speaker 1: see like where I kind of kicked it. It was
Speaker 1: like a string of like mucus and blood. I said,
Speaker 1: that's not good. So I pick it up. I look
Speaker 1: at it, and I flush it, and I thought I
Speaker 1: should have took picture of that, but I didn't it.
Speaker 1: So I just kind of like, eh, let's just pretend
Speaker 1: that didn't happen. But I knew that that's bad. I
Speaker 1: start googling it and then it's just like, oh no,
Speaker 1: that's bad, and if there's puking involved, then this and
Speaker 1: this shit. So then like a couple days later, I
Speaker 1: see another puke spot in the bedroom and then right
Speaker 1: behind that, like she was doing double duty, like it
Speaker 1: was puking and pooping at the same time. And I
Speaker 1: picked that up again with some toilet paper, looked at
Speaker 1: it and blood and I took pictures and then I
Speaker 1: sent that to the vet and they're like, yeah, bring
Speaker 1: your cat in. Yeah. So I did that on Wednesday night,
Speaker 1: and then Thursday they call and they're like, can you
Speaker 1: bring her in like now? And I was like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I'll bring her in. So I brought her in and
Speaker 1: then they called and they're like, okay, well we did
Speaker 1: blood test doesn't really show too much. One thing that
Speaker 1: really is freaking us out is her body temperature. It
Speaker 1: is extremely low. And sometimes when the cats get freaked
Speaker 1: out and like she was, she was real nervous and
Speaker 1: like vomiting and stuff like that in their catcage. Normally
Speaker 1: that spikes it. And it didn't do that, and she's
Speaker 1: still not. Her body temperature is not warming up whatsoever.
Speaker 1: It's nothing near normal. So they're like, if we do
Speaker 1: an x ray, I can tell you that it's going
Speaker 1: to show something that we're not going to like, and
Speaker 1: that even if we did like a surgery on it,
Speaker 1: she's not going to survive. So we would recommend, you know,
Speaker 1: like if you can take her home and you know,
Speaker 1: let her live it out, but that's not going to
Speaker 1: be a very good life, and she probably is in
Speaker 1: some pain. So I was like, all right, let's let's
Speaker 1: do this. And I was trying to mentally prepare myself
Speaker 1: when I started looking up the blood and all that
Speaker 1: on Google. I was trying to mentally prepare myself, like
Speaker 1: this is happening, so all the stuff. But yeah, having
Speaker 1: Parker there with me did help right in there. And
Speaker 1: like Marnie's crying, I'm crying, He's just like, ah, talking
Speaker 1: and smiling and.
Speaker 2: Good, you got me now.
Speaker 1: It's good.
Speaker 3: That's good.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but it's it's a tough loss. And how many
Speaker 1: times has somebody lost an animal or a pet or
Speaker 1: a loved one and went right to drinking or using again,
Speaker 1: you know, like I could have easily used that as
Speaker 1: an excuse. Yeah, very real for me, thank god. And
Speaker 1: I'm about to cough. I know if this sounds like
Speaker 1: I'm really choked up here, which it would be understandable
Speaker 1: if I was, but you know, and I'm in such
Speaker 1: a better place that that there's still a chance, there's
Speaker 1: still one percent chance, you know, that that could could
Speaker 1: have made me lose it. And you know, but I'm
Speaker 1: glad and I thank God that I'm in a better
Speaker 1: place now. And I think God that Nico was in
Speaker 1: my life. You know, That's how I kind of look
Speaker 1: at things, and I think that's how we kinda look
Speaker 1: at even when we lose a loved one, you know, like,
Speaker 1: thank you Lord for letting me know that person and
Speaker 1: letting me spend that time with them, you know. And
Speaker 1: I'm a better person because of Nico. You know, Like
Speaker 1: there was many times that I had to buy cat
Speaker 1: food instead of the expensive liquor you know, side that right,
Speaker 1: and to get that rock gut stuff. But it makes
Speaker 1: me want to throw up when I think about it today,
Speaker 1: So that's good. Yeah, you know, I wasn't living that
Speaker 1: high life, so yeah, it's it was tough. But now
Speaker 1: we're here and now we move on, and that's part
Speaker 1: of life. You know, death is a part of life.
Speaker 1: When I got that cat, I knew one day she's
Speaker 1: gonna die. Yeah, And I'm glad I didn't just like
Speaker 1: walk around the corner one day and there she is. All.
Speaker 1: I think that would be worse.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 2: And I like the fact that you weren't selfish and
Speaker 2: brought her home either. You thought about her.
Speaker 3: She's hurting, she's not in the best shape.
Speaker 2: Got to do a hard decision, but you made the
Speaker 2: hard decision.
Speaker 1: There's some people that let them, like my mom not
Speaker 1: to be ragging on her nothing, but I'm like with her,
Speaker 1: she had a cat, and that's this thing. It was,
Speaker 1: you know, once they get him newter, they kind of
Speaker 1: get bigger and all this stuff, and this cat was huge,
Speaker 1: and then it just se s hearted just withering away,
Speaker 1: and it's just like, Mom, you take him to the vet,
Speaker 1: you know, like what's going on? You know, like get
Speaker 1: him to the vet, put them down. Yeah, you know.
Speaker 1: And I think that she eventually did. I can't remember,
Speaker 1: but Marnie had kind of a similar situation with someone
Speaker 1: that she knew with her dog and like it was blind,
Speaker 1: couldn't walk. I like you had to like physically take
Speaker 1: it outside to pee.
Speaker 2: Ye.
Speaker 3: Blind.
Speaker 1: I mean, It's just it was like what the fuck? Yeah,
Speaker 1: let him go.
Speaker 4: Man, My mom did that too to a cat, and
Speaker 4: it was it was sad. I'm like, why don't you
Speaker 4: go put him to sleep? Like and so he quit
Speaker 4: suffering and like he already can't walk around your house
Speaker 4: because he's blind. You know, just be nice to him
Speaker 4: and do the nice thing. Don't be selfish. The dog
Speaker 4: that I got when I was a teenager, we're fifteen.
Speaker 4: His name was Cooper and he was almost seventeen years
Speaker 4: old when we finally put him to sleep. A year
Speaker 4: before that, you were starting to really notice, like he
Speaker 4: stayed in his youth for a really long time.
Speaker 1: He was a good dog.
Speaker 2: Like got him right after the car accident that killed
Speaker 2: my grandmother. Like we kind of got him as like
Speaker 2: a almost like a service dog, you know, like therapy dog,
Speaker 2: and he was really good at it. He was there
Speaker 2: when my son was born. Loved that kid, give him
Speaker 2: all his food. You know. He's like through all these
Speaker 2: big things in my life, like basically my entire life
Speaker 2: of addiction almost. And we took him in because he
Speaker 2: just looked like he was getting older. He we thought, like,
Speaker 2: you know, he's getting slower, and thought he was in
Speaker 2: some pain. And they ended up telling us like, no,
Speaker 2: he's got some time left. He definitely has arthritis, and
Speaker 2: we had got a medication for him so he could
Speaker 2: be more comfortable. And he lived for another year and
Speaker 2: and then then it got really bad and kind of similar,
Speaker 2: like what you're talking about. Your story about Nico reminds
Speaker 2: me of the end with Cooper.
Speaker 1: A lot so. And it's cool that Nico knew me
Speaker 1: sober for you know, almost six years, so that was
Speaker 1: kind of cool. And she got to see that. And
Speaker 1: it was a few months ago I could tell there
Speaker 1: was something she wouldn't just she wouldn't come downstairs as often.
Speaker 1: She would just stay up in her bedroom the whole day.
Speaker 1: And then I mean these past couple of weeks, like
Speaker 1: when I would get out of bed, I'd make my bed,
Speaker 1: my part of it, and then she would jump in
Speaker 1: there and just like that's her spot now now that
Speaker 1: if daddy's in there, it's daddy's spot. If Daddy's not
Speaker 1: in the spot, it's Nico's spot. And then she stopped
Speaker 1: doing that, so I knew, like, oh, but before that,
Speaker 1: when Marnie was pregnant with Parker, I just started seeing
Speaker 1: some signs of her not coming downstairs a lot, and
Speaker 1: I remember having a conversation with her. I was like, Nico,
Speaker 1: you need to just hold on to me, my son.
Speaker 1: And she was the cat that wasn't freaked out. And
Speaker 1: I thought she would be the one that would be
Speaker 1: freaked out by Parker's crying and just being around, but
Speaker 1: she was just cool with it.
Speaker 2: Man.
Speaker 1: She was just like, all right, that's a little man.
Speaker 1: And she would still jump on the bed when he
Speaker 1: starts crying. She's still up there like all right, man,
Speaker 1: what's up. And the other cats are like they're out
Speaker 1: out of the room, like oh no, get out of here.
Speaker 1: And it's pretty cool that she did get to me
Speaker 1: my son, and you know, she got to see me
Speaker 1: be actually sober and complete the process.
Speaker 3: So it's awesome.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I rest in peace, Nico. You're a good kiddy.
Speaker 3: She was, Yes, she.
Speaker 2: Was so thank you for sharing that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, because it's something I kind of wanted to do
Speaker 1: and I want to do it yesterday, but it just
Speaker 1: it wasn't really fitting and and today we actually had
Speaker 1: some time to do it. And I appreciate you guys
Speaker 1: being a part of the podcast to talk about it
Speaker 1: before we don't have some fun today because you know,
Speaker 1: there's that morning period, but then there's that time where Okay,
Speaker 1: well I'm still alive and I still have duties and
Speaker 1: responsibilities and things, and I just sat home and moped
Speaker 1: about it. You know, it's not going to do do
Speaker 1: any good. So yeah, proud of you, Thanks Mitchell.
Speaker 3: Proud of you too, Man.
Speaker 1: Thanks Justin Copycat, Well.
Speaker 3: I mean you could have took a really wrong turn.
Speaker 4: Jesse just gave me the because it was a very
Speaker 4: devastating moment, you know, and you did it. You thought
Speaker 4: about everything else that you still have to live for.
Speaker 1: Yeah, ye know. And it's a little different too when
Speaker 1: you have a kid. You have a child, and then
Speaker 1: like you actually become super busy and other things are
Speaker 1: going on in your life, you know, like before that
Speaker 1: was that was my kid, that was it. That was Nico,
Speaker 1: that was that was my responsibility. It was my job
Speaker 1: take care of her. And once Parker came along, well,
Speaker 1: once I got married too, then it becomes okay, well
Speaker 1: now it's Marnie and I and Nico. And then Marnie
Speaker 1: started like wanting to sort of cat farm, so it
Speaker 1: was like and then oh no, Luna needs a friend.
Speaker 1: And now it was Brent and then Brent we had
Speaker 1: to put Brn down and Marnie had to take Kiv
Speaker 1: and that was very sad because he was a sweet
Speaker 1: little kiddie and he got the cat COVID and his
Speaker 1: like belly just started like expanding me. It was that
Speaker 1: little poor guy, Marty said. When they poked him to
Speaker 1: do a shot, like she said, it was just like oh,
Speaker 1: plus just scored out and it was it was bad.
Speaker 1: And yeah, he was just such a sweet little boy
Speaker 1: and that that was a tough one for us. And
Speaker 1: then we got a little Hudson, his crazy little ass.
Speaker 1: Yeah he's something else, man, that little mf or Like,
Speaker 1: I feel bad for him because he wants to cuddle.
Speaker 1: But we got a Parker of the bed so and
Speaker 1: then now you help him running up and just the
Speaker 1: head butt me AND's like bam, like what are you doing?
Speaker 1: And so I started swearing at him and he's a
Speaker 1: cat where if you hear this, he's gone. And he's
Speaker 1: not just gone, He's gonna run over your face, hit
Speaker 1: the lamp, everything that you have next to the bedstand,
Speaker 1: knock all that ship off, run around and then finally
Speaker 1: leave the room. You're like, dude, if you're really that
Speaker 1: scared exits there? Why run across my face my body?
Speaker 1: He did, but I got to touch everything first. Yeah,
Speaker 1: calls out too. You know he tore Mourney up the
Speaker 1: other day.
Speaker 2: We have Oliver and he's the he's the head butter.
Speaker 1: He does that.
Speaker 2: I'll be like pouring his food.
Speaker 1: He comes up.
Speaker 2: I think it's a thank you, but he hits my
Speaker 2: and then it's all over the place. So I'll come
Speaker 2: up to him now and he'll be sitting there waiting
Speaker 2: and I'll have the food and were like no headbudding.
Speaker 2: And then he sits there the whole time. And he
Speaker 2: won't if I tell him that, he won't do it.
Speaker 2: But yeah, when other people come around, he's talking about Hudson,
Speaker 2: like Chase running and stuff. You don't see him leave,
Speaker 2: like he's there and you look away. Somebody new comes
Speaker 2: into the home and he's gone. He does not exist
Speaker 2: anymore until they're gone. You can go look for him
Speaker 2: and you will not find him. He's going downstairs, in
Speaker 2: the back rooms everywhere. He's just no longer exists. And
Speaker 2: then they leave and all of a sudden, he comes
Speaker 2: walking out like he was never even missing.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and Nico was great about that, like before, like
Speaker 1: back in the day before, like door Dash and the
Speaker 1: Domino's Appetoe. You when the person's coming, Like if I
Speaker 1: got food delivered, which I did most of the time
Speaker 1: because I was drunk, couldn't drive him anywhere. Niko would
Speaker 1: just be like did you. I'm like, oh, food must
Speaker 1: be here, like she had like she knew when someone
Speaker 1: was at the door or coming up to the door
Speaker 1: or something. Man, it was it was actually kind of
Speaker 1: convenient put pants on, like okay, we go pants on,
Speaker 1: I'm not here. N She'd be like all right, but yeah,
Speaker 1: Hudson Man, he's he's something else.
Speaker 3: Though.
Speaker 1: He'll crawl up on the this pillow because I'm like,
Speaker 1: I don't want to crush my child. So I'm like, hey,
Speaker 1: we got to have this pillow between me and Marnie
Speaker 1: and the child. That way I don't roll over and
Speaker 1: just kill them all. So I have this pillow there.
Speaker 1: But then Hudson Hill He'll try to come up and
Speaker 1: I'm like, no, it'll stop. And he was just way
Speaker 1: on the pillow and then you like close your eyes
Speaker 1: for me and you open back up and he's like
Speaker 1: what are you doing? And then I caught him. I
Speaker 1: faked closed my eyes, you know, and I still see him,
Speaker 1: and he's like just inching up, you know, like he's
Speaker 1: military style and this belly just like stop it in
Speaker 1: your eyes. He stops like I ain't doing nothing. He's
Speaker 1: a little closer to you, and you're like you a
Speaker 1: little mf.
Speaker 2: Or there's that video. It went around the internet for
Speaker 2: a while. There's a cat like further away and somebody
Speaker 2: with their camera like peeking out, and every time it
Speaker 2: was never moving, and every time they peaked it out,
Speaker 2: it was closer.
Speaker 1: Man, he's a trip. But he's the most loving male
Speaker 1: cat that I've ever seen in my life. Like most
Speaker 1: male cats are kind of like, all right, that's cool, man, whatever,
Speaker 1: see you later. This dude loves the cuddle, loves to
Speaker 1: get up in you. And well, I mean like obviously
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Yeah, Award, hold the string.
Speaker 3: That's a tail.
Speaker 2: I've never had to do this thing.
Speaker 1: Richard Gear's story was bad. Let me tell you about
Speaker 1: Cory Winfield. Yeah all right, well I guess that'll wrap
Speaker 1: us up before today. Then yeah, it's we end done
Speaker 1: a little fun good note, but yeah, we're gonna be
Speaker 1: a kal Kaska. It'll be some some good times for sure.
Speaker 1: So even if you hear this podcast and it's Sunday
Speaker 1: or Monday or Tuesday or whatever two years from now,
Speaker 1: go check out the pictures from the event, because we
Speaker 1: will take pictures and we'll have some videos for recovery dads.
Speaker 1: I don't know what kind of videos or what, but well,
Speaker 1: planning on doing some timefoolery today. Yep, absolutely all right,
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