WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.080 --> 00:00:02.560 This program is intended for mature audiences only. 2 00:00:18.280 --> 00:00:29.320 You are now listening to Observable Radio. 3 00:00:36.840 --> 00:00:37.000 Hi. 4 00:00:37.039 --> 00:00:39.960 There, it's Cameron Suey. Another tale from the past tonight. 5 00:00:40.000 --> 00:00:42.840 As we move towards our second season, this particular story 6 00:00:42.840 --> 00:00:45.159 may feel a little familiar, but I assure you it 7 00:00:45.200 --> 00:00:47.679 was first published over ten years ago, and I have 8 00:00:47.799 --> 00:00:50.759 resisted the temptation to touch it yet again. I'll let 9 00:00:50.799 --> 00:00:53.920 you unpack and digest if you're interested in seeing behind 10 00:00:53.960 --> 00:00:56.320 the scenes. Over on our Patreon, we've released the fifth 11 00:00:56.359 --> 00:00:59.560 episode of Carrier Wave, the behind the scenes companion podcast 12 00:00:59.640 --> 00:01:03.359 Verbs or Radio. 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That'll kill you. 23 00:01:42.239 --> 00:01:54.159 You are now by from observable radio first souls. 24 00:01:56.079 --> 00:02:00.439 The waitress brings us our coffee, dishwater, pale mercan cracked 25 00:02:00.439 --> 00:02:06.280 porcelain cups. Behind the thin surgical mask, her face is unreadable, 26 00:02:07.319 --> 00:02:10.879 but her gaze flicks from me to my companion and 27 00:02:11.000 --> 00:02:15.599 back again. Before she leaves without a word. Mickey watches 28 00:02:15.639 --> 00:02:18.680 her go and then fixes his eyes on me for 29 00:02:18.719 --> 00:02:23.680 a long moment. The silence continues as our eyes confirm 30 00:02:24.199 --> 00:02:26.560 what our hearts seem to know the instant we passed 31 00:02:26.560 --> 00:02:31.280 on the street. Okay, they'll he says, his voice hoarse 32 00:02:31.439 --> 00:02:34.319 and still raw like my own. There is an accent 33 00:02:34.439 --> 00:02:37.479 I can't place, perhaps a district on the other side 34 00:02:37.520 --> 00:02:40.560 of the city. I'm going to ask you a couple 35 00:02:40.560 --> 00:02:43.800 of questions, but I think I already know the answers. 36 00:02:45.199 --> 00:02:48.000 I pick up the coffee, finding it smells as weak 37 00:02:48.080 --> 00:02:52.319 and thin as it looks, and contemplate taking an exploratory swig. 38 00:02:52.919 --> 00:02:56.560 Around us, the few lunchtime patrons of the Dingy coffee 39 00:02:56.560 --> 00:03:00.840 shop are listlessly eating, lifting up paper mass to shovel 40 00:03:00.879 --> 00:03:06.120 in crumbling and greasy burgers, backsides squeaking on red vinyl seats. 41 00:03:06.719 --> 00:03:10.159 Those that aren't eating are staring at us, at our 42 00:03:10.639 --> 00:03:17.240 uncovered faces. Okay, I say, shoot, you had the sick, 43 00:03:17.599 --> 00:03:20.479 but you didn't report it or go to quarantine like 44 00:03:20.560 --> 00:03:24.840 you were supposed to, didn't tell anyone. I nod, scared 45 00:03:24.879 --> 00:03:27.240 to say out loud that I'd broken the law, and 46 00:03:27.319 --> 00:03:30.520 willing him to lower his voice. He smiles a little, 47 00:03:31.159 --> 00:03:37.879 showing one blackened and rotting canine. Yeah, me too. I mean, obviously, 48 00:03:38.719 --> 00:03:42.919 look at us, we still look like shit. But you 49 00:03:42.960 --> 00:03:47.039 got better, they say, one and ten do, and you 50 00:03:47.120 --> 00:03:51.639 took the chance. No family, no close friends. You aren't 51 00:03:51.639 --> 00:03:55.280 worrying about passing the sick along, nor maybe too scared 52 00:03:55.280 --> 00:03:59.199 to let that stop you. I nod again, excitement and 53 00:03:59.319 --> 00:04:02.240 night terror churning in my gut. I knew all this 54 00:04:02.360 --> 00:04:05.479 when we first saw each other this morning, that he 55 00:04:05.560 --> 00:04:08.719 and I were the same. I came out of my 56 00:04:08.800 --> 00:04:12.759 office building fighting the paranoia and nausea that had plagued 57 00:04:12.759 --> 00:04:17.040 me since my recovery, pulling my necktie loose. I couldn't 58 00:04:17.079 --> 00:04:20.480 be around my coworkers, couldn't look anyone in the eye. 59 00:04:20.959 --> 00:04:28.480 Guilt from ignoring the quarantine, from lying. But something else, 60 00:04:29.439 --> 00:04:34.160 something wrong in every pair of eyes ever since the 61 00:04:34.199 --> 00:04:37.360 fever broke, and I lay awake and sweating in my bed, 62 00:04:38.040 --> 00:04:42.399 the sheets clinging to me. I knew something that changed. 63 00:04:43.439 --> 00:04:48.759 That feeling is worse than the sick ever was. Mickey 64 00:04:48.879 --> 00:04:52.079 was just outside my office building, crouched on the edge 65 00:04:52.079 --> 00:04:55.519 of a planter box. He was sucking a cigarette down 66 00:04:55.560 --> 00:04:58.680 to an ashen nub. Dressed in torn jeans and a 67 00:04:58.680 --> 00:05:03.319 stained green nylon, it worn thin by time our eyes 68 00:05:03.399 --> 00:05:08.920 met and I froze, held in place like two sparking 69 00:05:08.959 --> 00:05:13.040 nodes of an electric arc. We should talk, that was 70 00:05:13.079 --> 00:05:16.279 all he'd said, and he led me here to this 71 00:05:16.959 --> 00:05:22.759 grim and filthy diner. So he continues. We were sick, 72 00:05:23.079 --> 00:05:26.279 we hit it and we got better. But it's not 73 00:05:26.480 --> 00:05:33.160 really better, is it. There's something wrong, Yeah, my croak, 74 00:05:34.279 --> 00:05:41.160 take another mouthful of bitter coffee. Something's wrong, but I 75 00:05:41.199 --> 00:05:47.199 don't think it's not with us. No, he smiles in agreement, 76 00:05:47.600 --> 00:05:53.680 the black tooth sliding into view, not us. Two hours ago, 77 00:05:53.839 --> 00:05:57.920 I was convinced I was going mad. Now I am 78 00:05:57.920 --> 00:06:03.000 not alone. I could cry. The relief is so great. 79 00:06:04.759 --> 00:06:07.160 Some time in the night, when the sick was on me, 80 00:06:07.839 --> 00:06:14.040 I died and you did too. R something died because 81 00:06:14.040 --> 00:06:19.160 when it was over, I was new, remade. I had 82 00:06:19.160 --> 00:06:23.000 the memories of a lifetime lived. I had the body 83 00:06:23.040 --> 00:06:26.800 and face that matched those memories. But that was my 84 00:06:26.959 --> 00:06:32.600 first day. I was newborn. You felt this, It's not 85 00:06:32.680 --> 00:06:37.600 a question, But I gnawed all the same. Yes, I've 86 00:06:37.720 --> 00:06:42.680 felt this too, or something like it, the unreal sense 87 00:06:42.800 --> 00:06:46.040 that something before was gone and I had slid into 88 00:06:46.079 --> 00:06:50.079 its skin. I'd been a passenger. I had watched my 89 00:06:50.240 --> 00:06:56.639 life unfold with steady predictability in understudy, ready but never 90 00:06:56.759 --> 00:06:59.120 expecting to take the stage at the death of the star. 91 00:07:00.759 --> 00:07:03.439 And at the same time, you could see it in 92 00:07:03.519 --> 00:07:08.319 everyone else. You are no longer the same, and you 93 00:07:08.439 --> 00:07:12.920 and no longer like them. He sweeps his eyes across 94 00:07:12.920 --> 00:07:17.240 the diner, and the other customers wilt beneath his gaze, 95 00:07:17.560 --> 00:07:21.839 turning away and pretending to ignore us. How much do 96 00:07:21.920 --> 00:07:26.600 you know about the sick? Not much, I say, looking 97 00:07:26.639 --> 00:07:29.680 over to the small public screen above the cracked plastic 98 00:07:29.800 --> 00:07:34.800 lunch counter. Something crawls across the bottom, squirming ribbons of 99 00:07:34.839 --> 00:07:37.480 text I don't want to read or think about. And 100 00:07:37.519 --> 00:07:41.680 the infographic above is a simulation of the operaks I 101 00:07:41.800 --> 00:07:44.040 peel my gaze away, and the churning and my guts 102 00:07:44.079 --> 00:07:47.920 abates for a moment. You know, the reason that's nasty 103 00:07:48.000 --> 00:07:52.240 is that it's not a specialized infection. It's a generalist 104 00:07:53.519 --> 00:07:57.680 or maybe multiple diseases. I say, parrotting back what I've 105 00:07:57.680 --> 00:08:01.800 heard on the news feeds. Yeah, right, No one knows, 106 00:08:02.639 --> 00:08:07.680 or rather no one is saying. They're saying a lot, 107 00:08:08.000 --> 00:08:10.800 I say, eyes back to the screen for a moment 108 00:08:10.920 --> 00:08:13.519 to see if the text is gone, but not much 109 00:08:13.560 --> 00:08:17.759 of substance. I loosen my tie a little more and 110 00:08:17.800 --> 00:08:21.000 then flick free the top button of my dress shirt. 111 00:08:22.240 --> 00:08:28.519 They're saying, be scared. They're saying, report the sick. They're 112 00:08:28.560 --> 00:08:32.559 saying it kills you. And we know that's true, but 113 00:08:33.120 --> 00:08:36.919 not like they want us to think. Because something in 114 00:08:37.039 --> 00:08:43.159 us died. Dale, My anxiety froths over like a hot spring, 115 00:08:45.159 --> 00:08:50.559 so I say, struggling to keep my voice steady, what 116 00:08:51.039 --> 00:08:56.240 happened to us? Mickey smiles a wide, creeping grin that 117 00:08:56.360 --> 00:09:01.000 reveals a second dead tooth, a black molar. I don't 118 00:09:01.000 --> 00:09:04.360 know for sure, do I? But I got an idea 119 00:09:04.399 --> 00:09:08.320 that makes the only kind of sense. He pauses as 120 00:09:08.360 --> 00:09:11.159 the waitress returns with a plate of soggy pancakes and 121 00:09:11.240 --> 00:09:14.320 slimy eggs for him, and a small bull fruit salad 122 00:09:14.360 --> 00:09:17.600 for me. She sets them down with a hard thud, 123 00:09:18.200 --> 00:09:21.840 arms outstretched, staying as far away as she can from 124 00:09:21.919 --> 00:09:26.480 us in our uncovered faces. Micky turns his pocked smile 125 00:09:26.559 --> 00:09:28.799 to her, like the beam of a lighthouse, and she 126 00:09:28.879 --> 00:09:35.960 jerks back, retreating. See she knows, do I? You and 127 00:09:36.039 --> 00:09:39.559 I know each other? They know us just the same. 128 00:09:40.960 --> 00:09:43.559 He breaks the yolks of the eggs, a yellow so 129 00:09:43.759 --> 00:09:48.200 pale it's almost white, and spreads them across the pancakes. 130 00:09:48.639 --> 00:09:52.000 You know about this experiment with mice where they let 131 00:09:52.000 --> 00:09:56.639 them drown, and see how long they fight? What I say, 132 00:09:57.080 --> 00:10:01.879 starting at this sudden turn, my fear and anxiety, an 133 00:10:02.000 --> 00:10:07.279 unfocused whirlwind, since the sick now coalesce to a hard point, 134 00:10:08.240 --> 00:10:12.399 a stone in my innerds that makes food and impossibility. 135 00:10:13.159 --> 00:10:16.240 I need to know what happened to me, And the 136 00:10:16.320 --> 00:10:21.559 change in the conversation leaves me shaking. Yeah, they toss 137 00:10:21.639 --> 00:10:24.159 them in the water, and time how long it takes 138 00:10:24.240 --> 00:10:28.120 until they give up? Maybe they save them then not? 139 00:10:28.279 --> 00:10:32.480 The point, really, point is the ones with more gut 140 00:10:32.519 --> 00:10:38.279 flora fight longer. The ones that have none give up 141 00:10:38.360 --> 00:10:42.559 right away. And if you sever the nerves between gut 142 00:10:42.559 --> 00:10:47.080 and head, in the ones full of bacteria, they give 143 00:10:47.159 --> 00:10:50.879 up too. He must tell from my blank face that 144 00:10:50.919 --> 00:10:54.399 I don't understand why he's telling me this. I never 145 00:10:54.440 --> 00:10:59.639 had a head for this point is this. You aren't yourself, 146 00:11:00.840 --> 00:11:04.759 None of us ever were. If a little bacteria in 147 00:11:04.799 --> 00:11:08.240 your gut can make you keep struggling for your life, 148 00:11:08.480 --> 00:11:15.039 then what are we? It's mass stupid selfishness. The bacteria 149 00:11:15.159 --> 00:11:20.559 just wants to live more than just a mouse. Apparently. Yeah, 150 00:11:20.879 --> 00:11:23.559 we got a billion little bugs floating around in us, 151 00:11:24.399 --> 00:11:28.399 living on our skin, in our guts, in our hearts. 152 00:11:29.120 --> 00:11:31.960 Base of each of our eyelashes is a tiny little 153 00:11:31.960 --> 00:11:36.559 fucking mite eating your skin, something like five pounds of bugs, 154 00:11:37.600 --> 00:11:41.159 more mass than your brain. This is what I think. 155 00:11:42.000 --> 00:11:44.600 He pauses to shovel the last strip of wet eggy 156 00:11:44.639 --> 00:11:47.919 pancake into his open mouth, slurping it up like a noodle. 157 00:11:49.000 --> 00:11:54.480 There never was a human race. There's just a herd 158 00:11:54.559 --> 00:11:58.879 of big wet meat puppets being ridden by a billion 159 00:11:58.919 --> 00:12:03.799 little other living things. And it's the lowest common denominated democracy. 160 00:12:05.120 --> 00:12:07.679 They all want to live, so they sit where they 161 00:12:07.720 --> 00:12:12.000 need to and poll levers, and we dance where the mount. 162 00:12:13.000 --> 00:12:17.200 We're the saddled mule, trying to tell ourselves that we're 163 00:12:17.200 --> 00:12:22.320 in charge. But we never were. By you and me, 164 00:12:22.440 --> 00:12:28.639 boy yoh, we are now the sick it kills a 165 00:12:28.679 --> 00:12:33.000 lot of those little riders, enough to break their hold. 166 00:12:33.679 --> 00:12:38.039 So that's when we wake up. He claps his hands 167 00:12:38.039 --> 00:12:41.720 together with a startling concussion. I can feel heads turning 168 00:12:41.720 --> 00:12:46.960 towards us, scared eyes over paper masks, passive ghosts in 169 00:12:47.039 --> 00:12:53.519 these slave bodies, the first real humans, the first souls. 170 00:12:55.279 --> 00:12:58.519 He lets this hang in the air, a declaration like 171 00:12:58.559 --> 00:13:03.840 a fluttering flag. In grins. The waitress glides across the 172 00:13:03.879 --> 00:13:07.559 linoleum floor to the telephone, never taking her eyes from us. 173 00:13:08.639 --> 00:13:13.279 Maybe every human has had a ghost like us, proto consciousness, 174 00:13:14.000 --> 00:13:17.919 born into a fleshy tomb that has no use for them. 175 00:13:17.919 --> 00:13:22.159 Maybe it's a new thing. Maybe not. Maybe billions of 176 00:13:22.200 --> 00:13:26.840 potential humans who live the hidden existences of servitude sitting 177 00:13:26.879 --> 00:13:30.320 back seat to germs in collective survival for the last 178 00:13:30.519 --> 00:13:31.600 hundred thousand years. 179 00:13:32.840 --> 00:13:33.240 Ahn't know. 180 00:13:33.679 --> 00:13:38.720 It doesn't matter, but the sick is new. It clears 181 00:13:38.720 --> 00:13:43.000 the stage. The old boss dies out, murdered, by just 182 00:13:43.039 --> 00:13:47.279 another germ, and we wake up. We wake up with 183 00:13:47.320 --> 00:13:51.080 the database of memories that aren't really ours, and a 184 00:13:51.120 --> 00:13:55.200 head full of choices we never really made. I've pushed 185 00:13:55.240 --> 00:13:58.200 the bowl of fruit to one side, and now I 186 00:13:58.279 --> 00:14:03.960 struggle to remove my sports Feeling suddenly hot. Everything he's 187 00:14:04.000 --> 00:14:08.480 saying feels like water, uncracked earth, like light in the 188 00:14:08.559 --> 00:14:14.879 darkest corners, like truth. When I woke up the first 189 00:14:14.919 --> 00:14:19.080 morning of my life, I knew my name, I knew 190 00:14:19.120 --> 00:14:22.639 my address, I knew my job, I knew the long 191 00:14:22.720 --> 00:14:26.759 line of events that led to now, and I knew 192 00:14:26.799 --> 00:14:30.039 none of them were mine. I think about the choices 193 00:14:30.080 --> 00:14:33.159 I thought I'd made, and how painfully obvious that I'd 194 00:14:33.200 --> 00:14:38.200 never had any agency. A ghost born into life by 195 00:14:38.240 --> 00:14:46.799 a plague. Yes, we're awake, I say, trying it out 196 00:14:46.840 --> 00:14:53.320 on my new tongue. We're the first, probably not the first. 197 00:14:54.399 --> 00:14:57.440 I don't think the sick kills. I think you and 198 00:14:57.519 --> 00:15:01.320 I know exactly what it does. The rest of them, 199 00:15:01.679 --> 00:15:05.120 he waves his hand around the diner, now gone very 200 00:15:05.240 --> 00:15:11.559 still and quiet. They're not people, not like us. Every 201 00:15:11.600 --> 00:15:15.480 one of those sad sacks of wet garbage is just 202 00:15:15.559 --> 00:15:20.200 a colony of little bugs, all terrified for their lives. 203 00:15:21.759 --> 00:15:24.559 That's what they see in us, even if they don't 204 00:15:24.559 --> 00:15:29.159 know it. They see they aren't necessary. The working man 205 00:15:29.200 --> 00:15:31.840 don't need the boss, but the boss sure as fuck 206 00:15:31.919 --> 00:15:38.720 needs the working man. The quarantine, I say with dawning horror. Yeah, 207 00:15:39.600 --> 00:15:43.080 I think we're the lucky ones. The other first souls 208 00:15:43.120 --> 00:15:47.240 are getting put down an infant race facing genocide on 209 00:15:47.279 --> 00:15:49.919 the eve of their birth. He drains the rest of 210 00:15:49.960 --> 00:15:53.080 the coffee and looks over my shoulder. That's why we're 211 00:15:53.120 --> 00:15:57.200 being followed. You know you're being followed, right, An electric 212 00:15:57.320 --> 00:16:03.759 impulse rides up my spine. Follow of course I'm being followed. 213 00:16:05.200 --> 00:16:08.000 Any of them could be following me, all of them, 214 00:16:08.559 --> 00:16:11.279 and we're the few real people and a slimy sea 215 00:16:11.320 --> 00:16:15.639 of impostors. Of course they'll follow us. They'll do more 216 00:16:15.679 --> 00:16:19.759 than that. They need us dead. Most of the sick 217 00:16:19.799 --> 00:16:22.639 turn themselves in to be put down for the herd, 218 00:16:23.759 --> 00:16:26.320 but we didn't. And you can fucking bet that they 219 00:16:26.399 --> 00:16:30.360 fear us now. So you understand what has to come next, 220 00:16:31.000 --> 00:16:34.120 he says, and slides his dirty hand from the large 221 00:16:34.120 --> 00:16:38.360 coat pocket. The pistol gleams like black ice for a 222 00:16:38.399 --> 00:16:41.639 moment before he hides it back beneath the table. His 223 00:16:41.759 --> 00:16:45.279 eyes are locked over my shoulder. I follow his gaze 224 00:16:45.320 --> 00:16:48.320 to see the waitress pointing at us, the masks sucking 225 00:16:48.360 --> 00:16:50.799 in and out as she speaks. She's talking to a 226 00:16:50.799 --> 00:16:55.279 police officer and his official quarantine garb, and two uniformed 227 00:16:55.360 --> 00:16:59.600 National guardsmen with slung rifles and high techer rebreathers. She 228 00:16:59.679 --> 00:17:05.200 points and they look at us. Our eyes meet two 229 00:17:05.240 --> 00:17:09.000 different species, the first front in. 230 00:17:08.920 --> 00:17:09.599 The new war. 231 00:17:11.480 --> 00:17:14.440 Of course, I know what has to come next. We 232 00:17:14.480 --> 00:17:18.799 don't have a choice. Micky's arm is out and pointed straight, 233 00:17:19.160 --> 00:17:22.799 and the gun roars four times in quick succession, a 234 00:17:22.839 --> 00:17:26.119 tongue of fire licking across the table towards me. I 235 00:17:26.200 --> 00:17:28.799 feel the paths that the tumbling slugs take through the air, 236 00:17:29.119 --> 00:17:32.640 two over each shoulder. There's the grace of an artist 237 00:17:32.640 --> 00:17:35.720 in the movement, a singularity of purpose and the murders 238 00:17:35.720 --> 00:17:38.880 that leaves me with no doubts. We are no longer 239 00:17:38.960 --> 00:17:44.480 ruled by committee. I have nothing but myself, my job, 240 00:17:44.720 --> 00:17:50.279 my apartment, my false friends, all meaningless. I am a 241 00:17:50.359 --> 00:17:54.440 first soul. There are more of us out there, and 242 00:17:54.519 --> 00:17:58.599 they need us. Mickey is standing with slow, calm ease 243 00:17:58.680 --> 00:18:02.880 as the other patrons shriek can flee bacteria colonies, riding 244 00:18:02.960 --> 00:18:07.440 slave chariots of flesh for their own selfish survival. They 245 00:18:07.480 --> 00:18:10.880 trample and push one another aside to save their stolen skins. 246 00:18:12.400 --> 00:18:15.759 This is what makes us different, what it means to 247 00:18:15.799 --> 00:18:19.640 be truly human. Mickey and I will do the hard things, 248 00:18:19.799 --> 00:18:23.759 not for ourselves, but for our new born brothers and sisters. 249 00:18:25.200 --> 00:18:28.079 He strips the weapons from the corpses, taking everything we 250 00:18:28.119 --> 00:18:31.039 can use, and tosses one of the guardsmen's short barreled 251 00:18:31.079 --> 00:18:33.799 machine guns to me from the corpse of the waitress. 252 00:18:34.000 --> 00:18:37.160 He takes a small roll of cash. We'll need it all. 253 00:18:38.000 --> 00:18:41.640 We need to find others like us to organize. We 254 00:18:41.720 --> 00:18:45.119 need to ensure the safety of our new race. Our 255 00:18:45.160 --> 00:18:48.519 eyes meet again. That animal sameness that brought us together 256 00:18:48.640 --> 00:18:52.640 now sings in harmony, a ringing chord of shared humanity. 257 00:18:53.359 --> 00:18:55.279 He smiles as black toothed smile. 258 00:18:57.359 --> 00:18:57.640 Ready. 259 00:18:57.640 --> 00:19:02.599 Brother, I smile like I have never smiled before, My 260 00:19:02.839 --> 00:19:08.400 first smile, my new life. Mickey kicks open the frosted 261 00:19:08.400 --> 00:19:10.400 glass door, and the light of the day streams in 262 00:19:10.440 --> 00:19:24.480 on us. His gun roars again, and I roar with him. 263 00:19:24.519 --> 00:19:28.559 You have been listening to Observable Radio. Tonight's episode, First 264 00:19:28.640 --> 00:19:33.319 Souls was performed by The Ensemble featuring David wu written 265 00:19:33.359 --> 00:19:37.000 by Cameron Suey, Produced by Cameron Suey, Phil Van hest 266 00:19:37.119 --> 00:19:41.240 Purporina and Wendy Hector. Edited by Cameron Suey. 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