Speaker 1: Hello you guys, welcome back to another episode of the
Hawkerell Energy Podcast. I'm your host, Kaylee, and this is
your weekly reminder that it's a new day, a new week,
a new mindset, and another day for you to become
the Hawkerel Energy you want to attract. Hello you guys,
welcome back to another episode. I'll be fully honest, this
episode is definitely going to be up a day late
because I did not take into account the current construction
that's going on across from my house right now, which
is going.
Speaker 2: To cause a lot of noise issues for the podcast.
Speaker 1: So I literally was like, there's no way that I'll
be able to record this today because there were so
much background noise. They're actually drilling, like in the dirt
across this field that's across from my house right now,
and I'm like, the way this would bother me so much.
Speaker 2: Recording and also probably hurt your ears on top of that.
Speaker 1: So I did have to, unfortunately take that into account,
and I did not think of that yesterday when thinking
of recording. So anyways, I apologize if this episode's up
a day late, but better to have an episode up
than no episode up at all.
Speaker 2: As you guys, know, I have been.
Speaker 1: Really just kind of going through it these this Honestly,
this past year, it's just.
Speaker 2: Been kind of a crazy year.
Speaker 1: I feel like it's been very busy but also very interesting.
Speaker 2: That's like the best way to put it.
Speaker 1: And I kind of wanted to talk about it in
today's episode of kind of Navigating Highs and Lows in
Life because I feel like this has definitely been like
more of a challenging year.
Speaker 2: I feel like than you know, the past.
Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, before I even started my
influencing career, of course I had years where it was
like not the greatest, but I feel like I haven't
ever really shared too much of my personal life, and
I feel like this is the first year I've ever
kind of like really opened up about like what's going
on in my life, because I feel like I've always
been that influencer that just has always wanted to share
the highs and the positive things that are happening in
my life, which is always great to share.
Speaker 2: I think it's great inspiration.
Speaker 1: I think it's really exciting, and like obviously wanting to
document those experiences is always fun. I think everybody really
just sees their social media as a highlight reel, like
it really is, like you want to document moments of excitement.
You want to show Okay, I'm going on a fun trip, Okay,
I got engaged, Okay, I bought a new house. Like
people love to show the highs, but I feel like
not enough people share the realness of the lows and
like what they're currently going through. And that was something
that I feel like I never really showed throughout my
influencing journey of posting.
Speaker 2: My life online for the past five years.
Speaker 1: And I finally feel like I was open to sharing
what's going on in my life, and you know what,
it's really made me feel more connected with you guys
in the best way possible. I feel like I've always
really been open here on the podcast. I think a
lot of you guys have known that from the beginning
that I've always been very truthful and honest from day
one on here. But I feel like through my TikTok,
through my Instagram, through my YouTube, I don't really share
the lows that I'm currently going through, and I felt
like I wanted to share more of that and show
some realness of like what's been going on in my life.
But I kind of just wanted to talk to you
guys about how I'm navigating this because there has been
a lot of highs and lows this year. There's a
lot of exciting things, but a lot of things that
are like happening in my personal life that's obviously causing
some stress and anxiety and you know, probably not the
greatest for my mental health either. Of like things that
are going on with my family. Firstly, I've mentioned it before,
but my dad is getting hurt surgery. He's getting triple
bypass surgery. He might actually be getting quadruple bypass surgery,
which is crazy. So it's definitely just been like hard
on my family because it's very scary to know that
your dad is at risk of a heart attack and
we are basically in the waiting period where he's just
basically on hold for a surgery, and if someone becomes
a bigger priority, they obviously get the surgery done first,
which honestly I totally understand.
Speaker 2: And because we are in Canada.
Speaker 1: Our health is covered, so we obviously pay into our
health insurance, so we don't get to basically schedule a surgery.
It's basically like whenever we can get you in we
can get you in. So I think it might be
a little different in the States potentially or somewhere else
in the world, but in Canada, it basically works that
you're on a list and whenever they can get you
on the list.
Speaker 2: Is basically when you can get your surgery done.
Speaker 1: So to be honest, he was actually supposed to get
a surgery today, but it got postponed for another like
four to six weeks, which we weren't exactly happy about,
just because I think we were all mentally preparing, like
I canceled my trip based off my dad's surgery, Like
we basically planned our entire plans around like this surgery date,
and then they say, yeah, just kidding, it's not happening.
So it was kind of like difficult to hear that
because I think my dad's also in the position of like, hey,
I just want to get this surgery over with. I
think he's very much in the mindset of wanting to
get the surgery done, move on, know that he's healthy, right,
I think anybody would have that mindset of just knowing
that they need to get their heart done.
Speaker 2: So yeah, it was kind of like upsetting news.
Speaker 1: But all we can do is just pray and hope
that he gets his surgery date soon and he can
get in, have a great surgery, be healthy after. Like
that's all we can pray for at this point. But
you know, obviously that's been going on. And then I
actually just recently lost my family dog. This was very hard,
to be honest, because I picked this dog out myself.
Speaker 2: We've had her for thirteen years.
Speaker 1: She was actually from the beginning of Zach and I's relationship.
We picked her up, and then she's been with us
obviously for the entirety of a relationship and the entirety
of my family. But if you have a dog, or
if you have a cat, or if you have any
kind of pet, I'm sure you realize that the attachment
that you build with these animals is quite literally crazy.
Speaker 2: Like I personally feel like a dog is a family member,
like that to me is an immediate family man.
Speaker 1: You see them when you get home, you see them
before you go to bed, you wake up to them
when you see them in.
Speaker 2: The morning, like you see them every freaking day.
Speaker 1: And I have actually lost another dog before this one,
my childhood dog that I got when I was seven.
He passed away when I was I think sixteen or
eighteen around there, and then Mocha, which is now somewhat
of a childhood dog. I got her when I was
sixteen and now I'm thirty. So it was very very
hard on the family to lose her, Like, oh, I
was an emotional reck I'm not gonna lie. I fully
had a few breakdowns these past few days of just
like knowing that she's gone is really really sad, and
I don't know, I feel like a pet is a
family member in my opinion, I think they play such
an important role in your life. I think it's okay
to feel the grief and to feel a loss when
you do lose a pet, because I think they just
mean so much to you that it's really really hard
to let go and know that like a part of
your life that you had with them is now you know,
unfortunately gone, but the memories I'll always remember, and I
will always remember her as such an amazing dog, and
I'll never forget her. So anyways, there's just been so
much going on right so it's like there's that going on,
and then oh, let's talk about things that are exciting
in my life. It's like I'm moving into a new house.
I've bought in a new house, Like we're moving in
three weeks, you know, like it's all exciting, but then
it's like, oh, this is also happening, by the way,
So it's like it's hard to be excited of like
exciting news that is happening, but also be really strong
of like understanding what's also happening in the background. And
that's I think that's why I want it to be
a little bit more open about what's going on, because
of course, like, yes, there's highs and there's excitement, but
there's also like things that are happening that you know,
are reminding myself that you know, we're currently going through something,
but it's like we have to navigate this situation by
reminding yourself that it's like this is just a season,
like this is just temporary, and that unfortunately, like what
we're currently going through can be difficult, but it's important
to change your mindset and still be positive.
Speaker 2: Of going into these exciting things while still trying.
Speaker 1: To you know, be strong and still be excited about
those exciting moments. So I kind of just wanted to
share things about the highs and lows and also like
navigating change because obviously we are moving out literally in
three and a half weeks, I think, and then I
live with my parents for a week until we officially
move into our new.
Speaker 2: House, and not gonna lie.
Speaker 1: The anxiety is starting to peak about change because I
think everybody's obviously excited about change and excited about, you know,
entering a new chapter in their life. But I also
think there's like something to lose a little bit and
like grieve, Like thinking about leaving this house, it feels
really weird, to be honest, because I feel like we've
spent the past four years here and have made such
incredible memories that it like feels like I'm like leaving
that part of my life and knowing that like we
don't own this house anymore is just like so weird
to me, I don't know, And like going into a
new house, it's gonna feel so weird, right It's like
I feel like I'm gonna have to build a whole
new routine for myself. While that sounds exciting of like, oh,
a new routine, like you know, a new space to
make a coffee, finding a cute little spot to do reading,
and like, you know what I mean, it sounds exciting,
but it also kind of sounds scary because it's like, oh,
what do you mean, I'm not gonna be able to
go outside of my backyard and just sit on the
patio and you know, drink my morning coffee and like
read my book or get some work done outside because
I won't have a backyard in the new house because
it's currently under construction and we're in a new development.
So it's just not gonna be, you know, part of
our life in the beginning. But I don't know, it's
just kind of like adjustments, right, Like you're making these
adjustments and it's all different. So I'm trying to find
ways to like not think too much of that, like
not overthink. I just realize that it's like, Okay, we
could still create exciting moments in the new house by
adapting to different things with your routine. So I just
kind of wanted to share some things of like what
I feel like I'm currently thinking about and like how
I'm trying to like reframe my mindset while going through
this like going through the highs and lows, going through change,
Like how am I shifting my mindset through this chapter
in my life?
Speaker 2: I think one of them.
Speaker 1: Is to realize that you can have two emotions at
the same time, meaning that like I have learned that
I can feel sad while also feeling grateful, And I
think this year has really taught me that of just
like learning that it's okay to like go through difficult
times but also get really excited about excitement times of
moving into a new house, starting a new chapter with
my husband, Like it's okay to feel sad about my
dad and losing my pet, but also feel.
Speaker 2: So grateful and excited for this new chapter that I'm
about to enter with my husband. I feel like sometimes.
Speaker 1: People might feel guilty of like wanting to experience joy
when there's something difficult that's happening in the background. But
I'm trying to like refrain my mindset of like yeah,
but like you don't want to look back at this
experience like ten years from now and be like, oh,
like I decided to not be excited about moving into
my new house because I decided to let my mental
health like affect me and like bring me down and not.
Speaker 2: Think of the excitement of going into the new house.
Speaker 1: Like I'm trying to reframe my mindset of like this
is a chapter that you're going to remember forever of
moving into this new house that you worked so hard towards.
You and your husband put so much work and effort
towards this home and to even afford this home. Right,
So it's like, don't lose that excitement and joy all
because like there is things going around in the background, right,
Like I can still grieve those things, but I can
also still be excited about what's to come. So I
think it's important to understand that you can have two
emotions at the same time and that allow yourself to
feel that sadness when there's a time for it, but
also to make sure that you can still be excited
about this new chapter ahead. So I'm just trying to
like refrain my mindset of understanding that that you can
be sad and excited at the same.
Speaker 2: Time, and that's okay.
Speaker 1: This is probably the biggest one that I think I've
learned this year, specifically because I think for the longest time,
I thought holding it together by holding my emotions and
not really sharing too much online was considered strong, Whereas
I feel like now I see that much differently. I
feel like it's important.
Speaker 2: To cry when you want to cry.
Speaker 1: It's important to ask for help if you need help,
And I think that makes you look stronger than just
ignoring those feelings and ignoring it by just like trying
to keep it together. I think showing up regardless every day,
whether you're giving it one hundred percent or not, is
something to be proud of. As I said, I do
think putting my life on social media is very difficult
to obviously share what's going on in your life all
the time, Like there are moments where it's like you
don't really want to show yourself on camera right now,
like I am going through a hard day, Like I
don't want to have to record myself when I'm going
through this today.
Speaker 2: Like that is very normal and that is very okay.
Speaker 1: But I think as I've gotten older, I've realized how
important it is to share the hard parts because that's
where the reality is, right, it's not always sunshine and
rainbow is like life is about dealing with challenges and
finding strength to still show up and realize how grateful
life really is. Because it's important to try and see
the positives in your life and stay positive throughout the
typicult times. And that's why I really love to talk
about this type of stuff on the podcast because no
matter what I'm currently going through, I always want to
try and find ways to still be positive in this situation.
One thing that makes me feel so good is going
through this whole situation with my dad. I had like
literally hundreds of messages I'm not even overexaggerating about a
lot of you guys just telling me how either your
dad or your grandpa or your grandma went through triple
bypass surgery. And you guys were just sharing all these
positive stories and how they're doing amazing now.
Speaker 2: And someone was like, my grandma had, you know, bypass
surgery at sixty, she's now ninety six.
Speaker 1: Like just giving me all these positive stories and like
having that positivity just like brought into my mindset made
me feel so much better, and it totally shifted my mindset.
Speaker 2: This surgery is gonna make my dad feel ten times better.
Speaker 1: He's gonna be ten times healthier, he's gonna come out
of this, he's gonna live ten times longer. Like I'm
totally reframing my mindset by like hearing these positive stories
and hearing these people tell me all these things and
success stories. It makes the harder time, feel a little
bit less hard by hearing the positive and successful stories.
So again, it's really about a mindset of like shifting
it and trying to find the positive aspects in it.
I know it's really really hard, especially when you're going
through tough times. But again, this is why I wanted
to talk about this, because I think there's there's ways
to really reshift your mindset when you're going through this
high and low season in your life that might be
difficult to handle.
Speaker 2: This next one is.
Speaker 1: Don't let one season define your whole year. This one
is so fricking important. And the reason why I want
to say that is because I recently had a comment
on a video where I was crying because I posted
it to show that it's like not everything as sunshine
and rainbows here, Like, yeah, I'm kind of going through
it right now, but I'm still being strong and you know,
I'm still trying to show up here and you know,
post on my platform and still share the funny content
that I typically share and exciting content, but also, hey,
I'm going through some you know, sad times, and like
it's okay to feel sad. It's okay to show that
you're going through an emotional time in your life right now,
and that's okay, right, Like, I really wanted to show
that it wasn't about Hey, look i'm crying, give me
sympathy because I'm sad. It wasn't about that. It was
about to show that it's like, this is the real,
honest truth, Like there is excitement in my life, but there's.
Speaker 2: Also been some hard times.
Speaker 1: And someone decided to comment, throw that vision board away,
it's not worth it for the rest of the year,
And that comment really stuck with me because the way
I read it was like, no, it's not thrown away,
because even if you make one goal happen from your
vision goal, if you just achieved one thing from that
vision board, you should still be pretty dang proud of yourself.
I think there's a positive in every single aspect. And yeah, sure,
have I achieved everything off my vision board this year? No?
Speaker 2: Has there been a few things that.
Speaker 1: I've achieved, Yes, But then that's what keeps you going,
That's what keeps you more motivated, is just being able
to achieve that one thing. You're like, Okay, I want
to go on to the next, like I want to
achieve more things for myself, how can I do it?
Speaker 2: What are the steps that I need to take in
order to achieve that for myself?
Speaker 1: So it really was like sad to be like, oh, yeah,
you threw it out the way, like your year's done.
It's like, well, no, I'm not saying twenty twenty six
is done. I'm not saying that twenty twenty six is
the worst year yet. I am not saying that. I
am saying that I'm going through a season and that's it.
Who's to say that a month or two from now
it's going to be the best year ever. Like, it's
not about that. It's just about seeing the highs in
that year and being like, hey, I'm really proud of
myself for doing these things even though I went through
these hard times, Like you can always see excitement and
joy and positivities out of everything in your life, because again,
life is not supposed to be all sunshine and rainbows,
Like life is supposed to throw curveballs at us that
it's supposed to, you know, share challenges because we're supposed
to find the strength to be able to get through
those challenges.
Speaker 2: We're supposed to.
Speaker 1: Be strong, We're supposed to find ways on how do
we overcome this? How do we learn from this opportunity?
How do we get stronger? So I do think things happen,
and unfortunately it's things that it's out of our control.
But it's like, how can we move past this? How
can we still show up for ourselves? How can we
still create positivity and excitement going into the months ahead,
the days ahead.
Speaker 2: The weeks ahead.
Speaker 1: Right, So, I do think there's still ways to be
excited about your vision board for the year. I don't
think you're throwing out your entire year. I still twenty
twenty six is going to be a great year. I'm
not saying it's going to be the best year of
my life, but I am going to say that I
do want to continue having more highs. I don't think
my highs are done. I don't think the lows are done.
I just want to continue achieving what I can for
myself and just again keep looking at my vision board
and still finding ways to motivate myself to achieve more things. Again,
it's really about the mindset and how you see situations.
It's all about turning things into a positive and not
always seeing it as a negative. Because if you go
into this year, thinking yeah, this year's over, I'm just
gonna wait till next year. Well, why do we having
that mindset, like we're not just going to assume that, oh,
twenty twenty six is done. Let's maybe we'll start again
in twenty twenty.
Speaker 2: Seven, like we'll start over.
Speaker 1: Then.
Speaker 2: I hate when people do that, Like, let's not say that.
Speaker 1: Let's say it's July of twenty twenty six, and we're
gonna make August to December our best months.
Speaker 2: Yet, We're gonna.
Speaker 1: Shift our mindset and actually focus on what we want
to do for the rest of the year and how
we're going to achieve those things. Actually men writing things down, journaling,
doing the steps that you need to do in order
to achieve those things that you had on your vision boar,
like almost doing like a reevaluating for yourself of like
how can I do better for the rest of the year.
What can I do differently to become that person that
I want to become for twenty twenty six. So anyways,
I just felt like I needed to say that because
it really made me sad thinking about this person that
decides to just like throw their entire year out the
window because of a few things that have happened, But
I don't want that to be the way I was
positioning my thoughts on twenty twenty six or that video.
It was more so to share that It's like, hey,
I'm currently going through it, but that doesn't mean it
defines what my year is. I know I'm going to
keep pushing through it and find ways to still create
positivity out of it. So now let's talk about the
whole change, because obviously there's a lot of change that's
about to happen, and it's exciting, Like I'm very, very excited,
but I also think there's a lot of exhaustion that's
about to come out of this. Like moving is a
lot of freaking work, and obviously there's emotion behind this
house here.
Speaker 2: I think it's gonna be really hard to just like
leave it. I also have this like emotional thing with
Freddie right now.
Speaker 1: If you guys don't know who Freddie is, Freddy's my
dog and he has lived here his whole life. And
I think it gives me a little anxiety because, like
I see how excited he gets when he comes into
the house, Like he has his little routines, you know,
he knows where to sit on the couch, like he
knows where his food dishes are. He has like little
spots when I leave the house that he likes to
lay to wait till I get home. So for me,
that makes me really sad because I think about the
routine for myself, but I also think that bout the
routine for him, where it's like he's gonna have to
adjust in this new house and he's not gonna know for.
Speaker 2: Like the first few weeks that it's like, no, this
is our new house.
Speaker 1: Like he's gonna be like, oh, okay, we're just staying
here until you know, we get back home, Like he
doesn't realize that it's like no, no, no, like we're leaving,
like this is no longer your.
Speaker 2: House, Like I don't know. That makes me sad, Like
this is how much love I have for pets.
Speaker 1: I pretend to put my mind in them and think
like how are they going to adapt to this change?
And how are they going to adapt to this new reality?
And it makes me kind of sad. But I also
know that it's like he's eventually going to build a routine.
He's eventually going to figure it out. He's eventually going
to realize that like, this is our new home, and
that it's not about the house.
Speaker 2: It's about the people that he's with and like me
and Zach is his home right. So although it's exciting,
it's also emotional.
Speaker 1: It's also hard to realize that, you know, routines are
going to change a little bit, obviously, environments are going
to change, new habits are probably going to be created,
and it just feels off, But it just means.
Speaker 2: That we're adjusting, Like we're going to have to adjust
to this new life.
Speaker 1: We're going to have to adjust to this new home
and how we're going to you know, create a new
routine for ourselves and adapt to this new change. So
although it's exciting, it is exhausting and it's demply going
to feel different, but I know we're going to adjust
to it and things will feel like home. And I've
also heard people talk about like lighting candles that bring
them a sense of home. So it's like, if there's
a candle specifically that I light a lot in this house,
like can I do it at the next house where
I'm lighting the candle just to kind of bring that
smell back into the house, to bring some type of comfort,
Like I hear some tips around there where people are like, yeah,
like to make the space feel more like home, spray
that room spray that you typically do, or light that
candle that you typically have, or put out that flower
vase that you love so much in the same spot
in your kitchen in your new kitchen.
Speaker 2: Like, I definitely plan.
Speaker 1: On taking those habits and like adjusting it into the
new house again to kind of bring some comfort of
that homey feeling of what we have here. So that
kind of goes into the next one, which is creating
little routines that make life feel familiar. So doing little
things that make me feel like what I would do
back home. So it's like making my morning coffee in
my new morning coffee spot and doing my daily walk,
like finding a new walking path for me to do
my walks every single day, you know, is it working
out every single morning?
Speaker 2: Okay, maybe I find a spot in my basement to
do my.
Speaker 1: Favorite worker that I typically do from home, you know, journaling,
whatever the case may be. Like just kind of finding
small routines that I can do in the new house
that are similar to what I do here and bring
some like comfort in the.
Speaker 2: Space by like doing those things, if that makes sense. Like,
I think making coffee is a big one.
Speaker 1: I think people love that feeling of like making your
coffee at home and like it tasting a specific way
and like there's some type of comfort I feel like
just making a coffee, And so like that's something that
I think is like going to be easier to like
adjust to in the new house, because like I'm kind
of bringing the same routine just in a different space,
if that makes sense. So anyways, that's today's episode. I
kind of really wanted to just kind of talk about
what I'm currently going through and how if you're going
through this type of season in your life where you're
having a difficult time or you're going through you know,
highs in your life and you don't know how to
adapt with you know, maybe going through something difficult at
the same time, know that you're not alone and that
it's okay to have these wins and be excited about
these you know, huge changes that are happening in your life.
But it's also okay to feel that sadness that you're
feeling through Uh, you know, there's difficult challenge that you
might be going through, and that it's important to just
keep moving forward and you know, celebrate the good, honor
the hard, like everything's just gonna work out.
Speaker 2: It's hard to really shift your mindset.
Speaker 1: I totally feel you, like I am definitely you know,
have had hard times of changing my mindset of trying
to continue to stay positive. But it's one step at
a time and it really really does go a long
way if you really just shift your mindset of trying
to find the positives in every situation. And I do
find journaling helps a lot. I think that's really been
a big one for me, is just taking out the journal,
writing things down, writing how I'm feeling in that current moment,
and really just like reminding myself how grateful I am
for this life. I think faith has also been a
huge thing of just like praying more and like leaning
into my faith a little bit has been a huge
thing that I've changed this year as well. So anyways,
I just wanted to tell you guys that you're not alone,
and if you're going through it, I feel you. This
episode is really just to help you navigate through that
difficult season and know that this doesn't define your year.
Speaker 2: You could still have a good year.
Speaker 1: You can still find ways to enjoy the highs and
find ways to still achieve everything that you want to
achieve a the year and just not let that reflect
your entire year. So anyways, I just wanted to end
off with that, but I'd love you guys all so much.
Thank you guys for taking the time to listen to
today's episode, and I apologize that this is up a
day late, but I love you guys also much. Thank
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