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of this show, its host, or any of the companies
they represent. Now today on the show, we welcome near
death experiencer at Nikisha Burrell. Now, this near death experience
is not only profound because she met our angel Raphael,
who kind of gave her a tour of heaven, but
all of the knowledge and the messages that came back
from this NDE will blow you out of the water.
So let's dive in. I'd like to welcome to the show,
Nikisha Barrel. Do.
Speaker 2: Nikisha, I'm doing so fine, especially now that you are
on the other side of the screen from me.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much, Thank you so much for being here.
You have a very exciting and interesting uh death Uh.
Speaker 2: Say the least, yeah, say the least.
Speaker 1: You know normal normally, you know, a normal company, you
would people would be shocked by this stuff. But you
and me are old hat at this at this point,
so we're like we are no, you died, you know,
and you came back YadA YadA, YadA, hwada. Go. But
let's let's let's go. Let's take it back to right before.
Can you take us back to the moment in that
shower when you realize you are you might die? So
can you tell us what ramped up to that moment
in the shower and how do you got there?
Speaker 2: I just took this call step back a little bit.
I was in Jamaica's time right after COVID when I
had no idea who I was anymore. So I was
trying to discover this person. I had no idea who
it was because my company closed down. So it was
one month being into New York when I had these dreams.
New York is calling, so I'm there. So that morning
I was pretty perturbed with God. I was very angry, like, okay,
I hit it to the call. I'm now in New York.
Now what? And I was very angry in a sense,
and I was thinking about what's my identity? What do
I do? I'm no longer entrepreneur, so tell me what
to do? And I everyone in my family had left
because they're living here, so they have their lives I don't,
and I felt very bad about that that morning. So
I went to take a shower, and I think everything
that could happen, what never happen, was going through my mind,
and I felt this tickle in my throat, just a tickle,
and I just thought, okay, I'm going to clear my throat.
That was it. And I went to clear my throat
and in that moment, no breath. I don't know who
cut it off. I'm still trying to find who did it,
but my breath cut off, and I went into I
don't know fright orf light and I was in a
hissy fit because I'm trying to figure out why am
I not catching my breath and I'm in the shower
and I have nobody to call for help. So I
remember one moment I pulled the shower curtains down and
there was no breath coming. And in that moment, the
weirdest things happened within these few seconds, I mind you,
but to fast forward to that moment, I remember, I'm
still trying to guess for breath, and I had this moment,
a very silent moment when I thought to myself, Okay,
I'm gonna die because it's not coming back no matter
what I do. And the last thought I remember I
had within my own mind, I was disgusted at myself.
I was like, your family's gonna come back. They're gonna
find you naked on the damn floor. That's what I thought.
And I don't know when I left this physicality, but
I know I was that upset with myself. And within
the next moment, I remember I was in this white space.
It's not a white room. I've tried to implicate white,
that white, but it doesn't exist here. But I was
in this white space, and the moment I was to
think where am I? I saw the apparition of my
grandmother are paying in front of me, And now that
I think about it, I think she appeared there because
it would probably scare the be GM's out of me
if it was anything else that I saw first. And
it was like as soon as I was to think
about something, I would receive the answer. So I had
this thought where am I, and the moment I was
to think about that, all of a sudden, around me,
in this whiteness, all these lightworbs just started to populate
around me. And the weird thing for me is before
my Nde. I didn't know the names of all angels.
I knew Michael, Raphael, the usual ones, but exactly. And
while I'm in this space, it was like, these lightworms
are populating and I have this not oh my gosh,
these are the angels and I'm naming angels ari El, Honeyel,
and I'm like, oh my gosh, those are angels name
and they were just populating around me. And within that moment,
I realized, oh my gosh, I'm home. I just had
this note I'm home, and it felt it really felt
like a welcome party. It just felt like, well done,
well done, Okay, you're back. However, I'm kind of observing
where I am and immediately I now call it downloads.
Then I had no clue what the verbage was for it.
But I'm seeing these probabilities of Earth and as if
I'm seeing our choices that we make to go to Earth,
and I'm just enjoying this space. My grandmother is there
and it's like she's feeding me with the information. As
soon as I was thinking what am I doing here?
Why am I here? And it's like your home, this
is where light is, this is where love began. And
I remember, just like it just happened now. On my left,
I remember I glanced over there, and when I did,
I could see these angels and the angels that I'm
seeing on the left, they had the apparition of what
I thought angels would have liked, with the wings and
all of that. That's what I saw on the other side.
But what caught my attention was I was seen just
like a rainbow of colors flowing from them to some
other beans. And I thought to myself, Oh my gosh,
those are the souls who came to the light. And
the moment I had that thought, I was like, so
what are they doing? And I heard spiritual rehab and
I thought to myself, Oh my gosh, so they are
working out their stuff, you know whatever, there's stuff. And
my grandmother was still there, and I have this thought,
so what happened to those who don't come to the light.
And immediately I'm just flooded with this knowing. Okay on
your exit, And the way they showed it to me
is it's kind of cool because they show me the
living experience is like walking on sand, so I always
love that. So while you walk on the sand, your
death experience is walking on sand and when the death
exit comes, you step into the infinite waters of life,
so you expand. However, when you get to that point,
you have a choice also as a spirit, do you
go to the light or do you not? And I
thought to myself, so what happened to those who are
left behind? And they showed me there are spirits who
change forms and they don't realize that they're dead. So
they're the ones who not going to the light. And
they are also those who live life less than cordially,
you know, they kind of spit of darkness. They are atrocious.
They are the you know, the victimizers. And the moment
you change forms to spirit, when you step into the
infinite life of waters, they showed me you remember and
you know every decision that you made and how it
affected the world. And those spirits when they are hit
with that, it's like being hit with a ton of
bricks because you're hit with your own truth and you realize,
these are the effects that I cause from my choices,
and the light is always there for them to choose. Okay,
you have ended this expression of life. Now you have
a choice to come and then you can deal with
what you did, but most of them feel so ashamed
because immediately you feel unconditional love, love you never really
felt or rediscovered while you were living. And those souls
also choose not to go because they're a shame. They
don't know. Oh my gosh, can I face all there
is with everything that I made? So they have a
choice and they can linger as long as they want to.
But the light, the doorways always opened for them to come,
do you understand. And within that moment, I thought to myself,
oh my gosh, I didn't know that there was so much,
you know, choices you have even in the death process. Anyway,
I kind of digressed from there, and in front of
me there was this huge doorway without a door because
it's just this huge archway. And when I focused beyond it,
it was this beautiful crystal city. It was nothing but crystals,
and I could see over to the left side, like
this beautiful waterfalls, and I so wanted to go there.
It was like it was drawing me in. And immediately
when I was thinking, Okay, I'm gonna go there, my
grandmother appeared again. Now I know that if I had
went there, I wouldn't have come back, but it was
so nice seeing there. But immediately on my right, this
huge angel appeared. Now this is the way I expect
an angel to be huge and massive on my right
and immediately when I perceived it, it was our angel, Raphael,
and I just knew that it was Raphael. And in
the moment, I thought, my god, Oh my gosh, Raphael.
I started to see these I call them imprints of
my pre birth journey and after I was born, when
I had my first accident as a child, and I
went to the hospital and Raphael was showing me that
was me there, and that was me. Then I realized,
oh my gosh, you're my main guide. So it was
taking me through all these clips in my life of
things that happened, things that I said to myself, Oh
my gosh, I can't believe I didn't die. It's because
of this angel and this team that I had that
I didn't know about before.
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Speaker 2: And while I was there, I was seeing flashes of
decisions I made in my life, let's say, and Alex,
I was judging myself. I was like, you could have
been kinder there, and these flashes just kept coming. I
was like, why didn't you choose to do that? I
had decisions that I wanted to make in life that
I didn't and I said a lot of yes is
instead of nos. And I was seeing these flashes, and
I was judging myself and nobody else around me was
judging me. It was just me. And I was feeling
a little bit perturbed in that moment, saying why weren't
you kinder? Why didn't you just give that one dollar?
And I was just going through the flashes and just
like I'm seeing a replay of everything that I did
in my life, every thought I had, and I was
judging myself terribly, and I think Raphael kind of took
me out of that focus. And it's as if I
knew that I needed to go into another space to
buy right. And as soon as I was thinking I'm
there now in this room or I don't know what
to call it, because it's like infinite, it felt as
if I was in a beehive. That's the only way
I can describe it in human words. It seemed as
if there were infinite amount of honeypots and they were golden,
and they were like pulsating like this, and as soon
as I was to think what are those, I got
the understanding that these are the memories a lifetime of
every single human being. And then one popped out and
I knew, oh my gosh, that's mine. And when it
came out, I don't know how to describe it. I
love to say holographic, but it kind of wasn't. But
it's the best description. And I remember Raphael allowed me
to know, you're going to focus on three things in
your life, just three segments, three scenes. And the first
one that came out, I don't know. This thing came
out and it was as if I was there. And
the first one I saw, I was five years old.
I remember that, and I was in this red dress.
But what I found interestingly was I wasn't feeling how
I felt. My sister was getting me, you know, she's
getting me ready for something. I have no idea what
it was, but I was feeling how she felt. Now,
if I should talk about my relationship with my sister,
she is the first one. I'm the last out of four,
so she has years on me, and I'm always the
one who's sticked for tatting. I'm the one in the
family's always chatting. Everyone's always telling me to shut up,
and I'm always arguing back with her. Would you just
be a sister for a moment, stop being a mother?
Already have a mother, so I'm always having this relationship
with her. You can't just chill out, let me make mistakes.
And she said no, no, no, no no. And she's
always that one, right. So within this moment, I realized
that she had a thought when she was getting me
ready in this pretty red dress, and I heard her
thoughts and she said, I will protective forever. And I
thought to myself, why are you saying that? And what
happened that was amazing. I was taken back to her
childhood when she was a little bit older than I was,
and they allowed me to see her experience in something
as a child that a child really shouldn't experience. And
what they allowed me to see was that night when
that happened to her, she had a prayer to God
and she said God, because at the time she had
two brothers. My mother was finished with having children, she
was done. But she had this pray and she said,
if you just give me a sister, I promise I'll
protect her forever, and in that moment, I just felt
this unconditional love from her, and I realized, oh my gosh,
she really does love me like because all my life
I always thought that she felt annoyed that she had
this little, eaty, busy thing she had to take care of. Right,
So within that moment, I was kind of thankful too
because I finally resolved years of me wondering and that
went away. And then I had this second review. Now
I can say review because I know what it is,
life review. And the second one that came up, I
was in high school in Jamaica. It was Valentine's Day
and there was this guy that really I was a kid,
you know, I was probably about I don't know, maybe
in seventh grade, and he brought a rose to me.
But man, I was embarrassed. I was what Jamaican would
call a fool, fluid pitney. I didn't know how to
accept gifts. I was embarrassed. I wanted it, but if
he had given it to me, probably in a quiet
round the corner, I would have taken it. But I
was flat out embarrassed and I refused it. But they
allowed me to feel how he felt. M God Alex, I, okay,
I have to tell this. So I didn't know that
something so stupid could hurt somebody so much, and he
was torn. It tore him up. And the moment I
started to feel how he felt, I was judging myself again,
and all of a sudden, this light orb just came
out of nowhere, and this one wasn't white, it was
just beautiful, colorful light orm and as soon as it appeared,
I just had this moment, Oh my gosh, that's his song.
And for that moment, I think they gave me the
opportunity to say sorry or I don't know. I didn't
say anything, but I felt a little bit lighter. After
my nd when I came back, I tried to find
this guy so hard because I really wanted to say
I'm sorry. And when I checked out, they told me
he had passed away years before. So it floored me.
I realized, oh my gosh, thank you so much. You
gave me the opportunity to really say sorry to his
soul in a sense. And that went away, and I
was living at the third one came up and I
was still in Jamaica in my twenties, and I was
at this supermarket, and I was behind the older lady
and there was a long line behind me, and they
were getting frustrated, so was I a little bit. And
I started to observe her because I wasn't sure what
was happening. So I could see her putting things back
and asking the teller to check putting things, and I realized,
oh my gosh, she can't pay for everything, so she's
like trying to choose what can I do without? What
can I you know, what do I need to take?
And without saying anything to anyone, I leaned over to
the teller and I said, let her take everything. I'll
pay the bill. That was another silly thing that humans do, right,
and it tell us said it to her somehow, and
she turned to me. She was happy, and I remember
she held my hand like this, and what they allowed
me to feel in my indeed that when she held
my hand like this, she said to me, thank you
so much, thank you so much. And I remember I
said to her, God works in mysterious ways. But what
Raphael allowed me to feel is that day she gave
me something. When you are kind to somebody, it's not
just oh I'm being kind, whether it's out of ego
want people to see, or just doing it just because
it's an exchange. It's an exchange of love, of consciousness,
of grace or kindness, and it leaves something with you
although you gave them something, do you understand? And I
felt that that day, Oh my gosh, she gave me something.
But not only that, I was taken almost let's say,
the night before, and they allowed me to see this
lady saying a prayer to God. I don't know how
I'm going to feed my children, but now I know
You'll find a way. And what they allowed me to
witness was that act of kindness. And in that moment
all I could hear on me was that, and they
uttered boots on the ground, and I was like, my gosh,
we are boots on the ground. And they allowed me
to say that one act of kindness that I chose
to do, which was like the silliest thing and the
easiest thing. It concreted her faith in her prayer. And
not just that, they showed me that next door there
were three other children who were fed from the grocery
she brought home. And the third thing they showed me
she had two children, one girl. When she told them
this story, and it also concreted their faith in humanity.
And it almost took me forward again to show that
her daughter, just her daughter from that one story, chose
now as an adult to pay forward because of that
one's story. And they were shown me, you don't understand.
This is boots on the ground. This is the aspect
of humanity, no matter how simple it is. There's nothing
that you can do in this world that's too minute.
Every act of kindness, every act of giving, is an
exchange that allows this world to almost have a domino
effect that does change the world from the moment you
make a choice to do something without wanting anything in return.
And that went away, and I was outside of that
room and I was just in this space, Alex, I'm
just getting all these downloads and they're showing me. People
call them predictions, but my grandmother told me their probabilities,
and they're showing me the choices of humanity is gone by,
and the choices that they made the cause, let's say,
a cataclysmic effect on this planet. And then the reset
button is pressed and you have an opportunity again. And
then they made the same mistakes because of their own choices,
not allowing themselves to understand. I am holding onto invisible
chains in a sense, invisible fear because I have the
choice to be boots on the ground and I'm not
waiting for a savior. I remember my grandmother said, we
keep waiting for a savior, but the savior is waiting
on us to act out by our choices. How do
we want to experience this world? And I'm just seeing
these probabilities and these downloads, and then I realize, oh
my gosh, we have a chance this time to make
it right.
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Speaker 2: And I realize we're so much on a beautiful trajectory
despite all the predictions that really are probabilities. Because what
my guide said to me is every time you have
a prediction, don't horown into fear of the prediction. Mirror
that with yourself. How am I living in this life?
When they speak about the earthquake that's coming? What do
I need to on Earth in my own physical life
that Gaya is mirroring to us? Now? What do I
need to change about my choices? And while I'm doing that,
how do I want to experience this probability that was
spoken of, do I want to experience it in chaos
or do I want to hone down? And if we pray,
let's pray. And if we meditate, let's meditate and allow
our light to diminish how catastrophic it can be. It
simply is a placemaker that's placed in front of us.
It's a soul test. How do you wish to experience
this soul test? Do you want it to be chaotic?
And before everything else kind of flatlined, I remember two
hands went up and they said, I think maybe I
ask or I had the thought, so what's the purpose
of life? Because I'm still in myself to say, it's
so much craziness going on in this world, this can't
just be it. And I remember these two big hands
came down and it was like, the aspect of life
is simply two things. Do you choose to give love
or do you choose to withhold love? And I thought
to myself, it's too simple, No, no, no. Do you
choose to give love first to you? Do you choose
to pour into you? To choose to fill you up?
To have conversations, to be in places, spaces and making
decisions that allows you to feel fulfilled and whole and
not giving away your truth and your power. Do you
choose to be kind just because? Do you choose to
give just because? Or do you choose to be a
part of the split within this realm that is called
darkness that you yourself created? Do you choose to be unkind
to you not understanding that you are already light and love?
And because of that, all you see in this world
is chaos and hate? And do you choose to continue
to be the victim the victimizer? Do you choose to
hate and hold on to the energies that are so
heavy that ripples across the aspects of this world? And
I got that and so much more. And then all
of a sudden, I'm focusing on this crystal city because
I really wanted to go. And as soon as I
started to think, I'm my gosh, I'd like to know
what's there? My grandmother appeared again and she said it's
time to go. And I was like, oh where, I
know if she given me a chance. She didn't give
me a chance. I was like, she if she did,
I would have argued to stay. But before I could
think of anything else, I'm in this dark space. And
it's funny to me now that I think about this
dark space, because here I wasn't scared in this dark space.
I had this knowing this is where all creation started.
So whatever I'm thinking here, it's been manifested. Whatever I'm
thinking here begins to be created in a sense. So
I was in this space, and as soon as I
was to think what is this, why am I here?
I could see as if somebody something just pricked the
darkness with a pin, you know what I mean, a
very fine light, and then it started to spread. And
as soon as this light started to spread and I
was focusing on it, I had this. I could start
to feel my physical body again. I was feeling my
body more and more, and I didn't want to move
because I thought to myself, I'm damn it, I'm back.
I'm back. And the first thing that hit me like
a ton of bricks was fear. I was like, oh
my gosh, and I don't want to move because I
want to hold onto this feeling. Because this feeling that
I'm feeling, I've never felt it before. And I'm just there.
I'm just there, and I don't want to let go
of it. And before I went into this NDE, my
hobby had called me, and for some reason, the phone
picked up, so I'm hearing his voice on the phone
in of hisy fit, pump and swallow because and I'm like, yeah,
I don't need that, but I don't want to move.
I don't want to let it go. And I had
this fearful thought for a minute, like, oh my gosh,
did I just see angels? And I saw my dad, grandmother,
and oh my gosh, did I just see the possibilities
and all the probabilities of Earth? And all of a sudden,
I had this breadth and it felt as if something
breathed me because it was just and then I had
this knowing, Oh my gosh, that's not air, that's consciousness.
I'm breathing so I'm always connected to sore and I
just had this numb and everything just flooded back to me.
I was like, oh my gosh, I did I just did.
I went on the other side and there is no death,
and oh my gosh, we are only going to more
end and that res oh my gosh. But we're here
for a reason. We're here on an assignment. And by
that time my brother in law is coming through the door,
and he's also in a paddic state, and I don't
want to move, and Alex, I'm naked on the damn
floor and I don't care about that. And he's coming
in and said, okay, get wrapped up. We need to
go to the hospital. And I'm trying to say, wait
a minute, you don't understand. I just so tie because
that's what I call my grandmother and the angels, and
you have no idea that we don't need to worry.
And I'm trying to explain to him and the other
one on the phone, and nobody's listening. They said, you
have to go. And you know what hit made The
first thing I could feel his fear, and it hit
me like a turn of bricks. Said, oh my gosh,
why are you so fearful. You don't understand. We don't
need to be fearful. Fear is the opposite of light.
You have to let it go. Don't be fearful. And
even if I died, it would have been okay. And
when I said that, he went into a bigger his fit.
Come now, and he took me to the car, and
on my drive to the hospital it was I think
that was probably my first drive being aware of life.
I felt the air for the first time, and it
was like, oh my gosh, I'm one with you. And
I was looking at that. She's like, I'm one with
you too, and it's like and I'm talking and he's
getting more fearful because I'm talking these things and he's like, yep, yep,
you lost oxygen. You there's something wrong. And I went
to King's County Hospital and I'm trying to explain to
the nurse the same thing. And the more I talked,
the more people became fearful. And they eventually said, Okay,
you had a very bad anxiety attack. Don't ever touch
another asthma pump. And I'm like, I didn't touch it.
It's I didn't use it. But you know what I
found out, Alex, the NDE was peanuts. It was icing
on the cake. It was easy.
Speaker 1: You know what was.
Speaker 2: Hard fitting in? Yeah, that was a challenge that that
was what floored me coming back and I'm a Jamaican girl.
Me I'm trying to explain to my Jamaican family, Who's saying, listen,
I've I was brought up in the church. I had
to go every Sunday. And I'm the one who was
always saying, why are there so many gods? And I
always been told to shut up, don't Why is my
Rastafarian friends going to hell and my friend going to
church on a Sunday? I don't get it. So now
my mother has probably been happy that I've ever spoken
about this in years, now, me as an adult telling
her these things again. Oops, she says, it's the devil.
It's the devil. I said, but Mom, you don't understand.
I was talking to ty your mother. It's the devil.
I'm telling you it's And it was very challenging for
me because what I did I was kind of egotistical.
I was kind of naughty in the first couple of
weeks because I wanted them to know what I knew.
So I created a family group and I was giving
them my dreams that I was getting these predictions just
for them and I would see them come to pass.
Instead of making them feeling better, they were more fearful,
where you're getting this information from? Why? Why? Why? And
about six months after my DA, I remember, I said
to my guides because after I came back from my ndeed,
I'm getting more dreams. I'm talking to my guides now
more than ever. I'm having these connections and just knowing, knowing,
knowing and feeling how people are feeling. And they're giving
me these downloads and they're telling me exactly how we
can change the aspect of the earth just by choices,
just by us finding our lights and walking on the road.
And my guides are saying to me, don't judge them,
look at them, try to see the light in them.
And when you see the light, understand the shadows that
they've picked up, a fear of limitations, of everything that
came down in ancestry, what society says. And they're saying,
just allow your light to shine. Be the love, be
the light. And I said, nobody's going to listen to me.
What are you're talking about being the love be the light.
Who's going to listen? They said, nobody needs to listen.
Really just need to be you just need to be
kind first to yourself, and when things happen, be an
observer of it. Don't judge others for what they are
going through. They're taking their own soul path, but understand
that the assignment of every human being is kind of muddled.
Into three aspects, understanding how to control your body, which
your mind has everything to do with, understanding how to
control your emotions, and understanding how to control your energy.
And they taught me this to understand the mind controls
the body. But it is imprinted like this huge cpu.
It holds onto everything that you've ever witnessed, ever learned,
ever taught, and it becomes this beautiful what we would
call alarm system for you. It protects you because you
witness those and you imprinted it here to say, I'm
a black woman, so I may never be this thing,
so I'm going to remain safe, right hear, and I
will settle because that's all I'm going to do. My
ancestors struggle, so I need to st and it's imprinted here,
and every time something happens that mirrors that frequency or
that thought, it takes you back to that. And for me,
I had a period in my life where I was
abused and I imprinted it here. So I became this
person who said yes when I knew I should say no,
but I wanted to say yes because I wanted to
fit in. I didn't want people to see my scars.
And they said, until you learn to heal yourself and
to see the light within you. No one will be
able to see your own light.
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Speaker 2: And that's your process of being boot on the ground
and ushering in this beautiful, what they call quiet revolution,
where within your heart you start to ask these questions.
I think I deserve more. I don't think that's working
out for me anymore. I do have a choice. I
don't need to own the aspects of what people call
is God. Do you understand? And I talk about that,
it's weird. My guides gave me the beautiful analogy. I
remember when my mom was always volatile with me with
these conversations. Don't talk to me about these things you're doing.
And I remember ourchangel Michael. One day my mom called
me about two or three years after my indeed, she said,
I want to know about this thing that you're going
through because if I die, I want to know that
all four of my kids are going to the light.
And I said, but Mom, I'm not going. Yes, you're
following the devil because and I want to know. Explain
this to me. And in that moment She's on the phone.
And when our Angel Michael is within my being, when
the essence is there, I always feel this tingle in
my crown. It goes down my spine. And I said
to her, I said, Mom, hold on a minute, I'm
getting a message. And she said, I don't want to
hear about these things wheneber. She's a Jamaican woman, strict
in faith. And I said, just give me a minute,
and I'll never forget this. And this is the catalyst
of for what I represent, our Cangel Michael lives. I
will take on this cloud. And I was looking at
this little boy and he was pointing onto the sky,
and I thought to myself, my gosh, if he steps over,
he's going to fall into nivorland. Nobody's gonna be able
to help him. And all of a sudden, Michael said,
I don't humans shoes to always to seek for the
Savior far away from them and high. But the Savior
actually is within you. And he said, look. So when
I looked I'm looking at this, I'm now earthbound and
I see this huge mansion, this beautiful white mansion. And
as soon as I was to think what's that, I
was inside these doors Alex and all the way, as
far as you can look, on both sides are these
beautiful golden doors. And as soon as I was to
think what's this, I was inside the first door. And
when I went through the first door, it was the
exact replica of my mom's church. It's an Aakan church,
so the Catholic based and the Organs are there and everything,
and I was like, oh my gosh, and Michael said,
within this room, do you feel God? Was excited. I
was like, yes, I feel God. And all of a
sudden I was outside of that room and I was
in another door, and within that door it was a
different culture is I could smell the incense and there
were the drums beating and it was just beautiful with
the candles lit and everything. And Michael said, within this room,
do you feel God? And I said yes, because I did.
And I came out and there was another room and
it was more I don't know if it's probably Indian
base because I don't understand the culture, but it was
more dancing and it was a different culture. But when
he asked if I felt God in that room, I did.
When I went to the fourth room, there was just
this dark room. There's one big table and one chair,
and there's a girl sitting on it and she had
her head down like this, and she was crying. And
I thought to myself immediately, well that doesn't fit, because
I'm thinking I'm going to see one religion to the other.
And I had this thought, and Michael said, every human
being that has a perspective of what God represents to
them creates for themselves one of these rooms. And when
I witnessed again to look, I see these light orbs
around this girl as though she was crying. I realized, oh,
my god, those are angels. And I said, yes, I
feel God in this room. And I was outside that
room and outside the door, and I was looking at
the mansion. And then Michael said, can you contain God
in that mansion? And I was going to say yes,
And immediately before I could answer, everything started to populate
around this mansion, now, the trees and the valleys, and
I never forget I remember hearing the birds singing. I
was like, oh, my gosh, no, I can't contain God
in that mansion. And I went a little bit further,
almost as if I'm going off the earth. In the end,
and he said look, And when I looked, there are mansions,
just bloody, populating around. And I thought to myself, my gosh,
is that how many religions we've got? And he said,
can you contain God? I thought to myself, no, do
you feel God out here? And I said yes? And
immediately when I sai, I was further and when I
was further up, I'm not seeing mansions anymore. I'm seeing planets.
I'm seeing more arts populating. The next thing that I
have there, it's a painting that I did try to
replicate what I saw and it was just arth, just populating.
And Michael said, do you feel God up here? I
said yes. He said can you contain God? I said no?
And he said, go and tell them God is everything
everyone everywhere, cannot be contained, cannot be owned, do not
need identification. And I'm outside of that with this big
puff of cloud. And by then my mother is there,
Shanny Metian, that is because she's Jamaican, and she and
I took the phone and I said, Mom, I have
exactly what to tell you. Even now she laughs about
this and alex I explained to her everything that the
angel just showed me, and she was quiet for the
first time in all these years because my mother. You
don't talk to her about religion without door. You're not
supposed to say word. Correct yourself, that's not the right
word to say. She was quiet the whole time, and
she listened to everything I said, and then she just said,
all right, then talk to you tomorrow. That was it.
That was it, And ever since that day she doesn't
have the fear of this thing anymore. I don't know
what happened. I don't know what frequency she received, but
she just gets it. And ever since that they have
never had to argue with her about anything that I'm doing.
She's just comfortable with it. She doesn't ask me how
I do it, but she would just say, okay, so
what's happening now. She actually asked these questions now, and
she's okay with where I am and how she understood it.
Don't ask me, but just that analogy that I gave
to her, And I thought to myself, oh my gosh,
this explains so much of us trying to contain something
that's uncontainable, of us trying to strip ourselves from our
own rights of understanding that we are already like we
are aspects of God. No need to try to put
a name on it. Oh my gosh, let alone try
to put it in a room. And that for me
is something that is what the world needs to understand. Now,
what the world needs to understand. We don't need to
keep building these walls and separating ourselves. That's why we
have so much chaos going on. That's why we don't
see the other person as a mirror of for ourselves,
and we just think they don't deserve. But the minute
you think somebody doesn't deserve to be here, is that
moment that you choose to also put darkness on yourself.
So why not choose to be boots on the ground
and know that this ecosystem that we lived in, it's
a place for us to simply expand. This ecosystem self
sustains us. But we're the only ones who separate ourselves
from this earth, the plants, the animals, everybody he lives
within that ecosystem. Of understanding, we are selves sustained, but
we separate ourselves with fear, when with doubt and with identity.
I want to be this one thing, and I don't
care what you are or what you are going to be.
This ecosystem welcomes us. And that's why it's funny when
I have any connections with Gya Gaya always says, it's
time for you to understand we are going through the
phase of the quiet revolution, and always say, what's that.
It's a quiet, subtle whisper in your heart that says
it's time. It's time for me to step out of
this job that I'm doing that's completely depleting me. It's
time for me to speak up my truth. It's time
for me to understand that we deserve freedom, freedom of thoughts,
freedom of knowing that the fear is simply an entity
of darkness that does not belong with us. And in
order for us to have peace on this earth, we
must firstly find a peace within ourselves, and that starts
here from our heart understanding. I am love, Oh my gosh,
I'm not separated from source, universe, God, whatever you want
to call it. But I am the walking example of God. Yes,
we're all these and mass as we speak about we
love them so much, we've never met them. But what
about thinking that the aspect of them is in the
child that you just pass on the street, or the
mother with a beautiful child who's just going through a
tantrum that you're judging in your mind energetically. Have you
felt for a moment what that energy does to that
child and that mother. Could you not instead choose to
be within the space and say, I send support and
love to that beautiful being who is a mirror of me,
who is showing me a different aspect of love. Yeah,
my perspective changed a whole lot coming back, because I
don't see people the same way anymore.
Speaker 1: When you were on the other side, First of all,
how did you die? You just said the air just stopped,
Like I just.
Speaker 2: Stopped, and I'm still trying to find who cut it off.
That was it. I stopped breathing. My throat just locked
off and I couldn't get breath. And when I went
to King's County, the only thing they could have said
it was a It was a bad anxiety attack. That
was it.
Speaker 1: That's the hell of an anxiety attack.
Speaker 2: You're kidding me. I just don't know. That's all that happened.
I wasn't sick before, nothing happened. There was nothing wrong
with me.
Speaker 1: When you were on the other side, you said there
was a crystal city. I've heard of this crystal city
before what else did you see besides like, did you
what are the details? Did you see plants? Did you
see animals? Did you see breath? Gosh, what did you see?
Speaker 2: It's like it was recreating itself. That's where I wanted
to go. So I'm looking at these crystal cities and
the lights were changing, lights that I've never seen here before.
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Speaker 2: But they were pointy, but also beyond that they were
like domes, like dome apparatus, but it's like some of
them it seems as if they're crystal, but it's paved
with gold. And beyond it, I could see these beautiful
waterfalls and you can know when you go through there,
there's like another world. And that's just what I wanted
to go to.
Speaker 1: It just.
Speaker 2: Man, if that's what we're looking forward to to go,
I'm gay. I'm gay, Alex. It was just calling me.
But it was just this beautiful space and all you
can see is just you know, it just felt as
if the city was alive. Is if it's calling you,
it's like it can created sales and change forms. Because
I'm looking at this Crystal city, It's like it keeps expanding, expanding,
beyond this doorway that I'm looking through. You just want
to go there and be one with it.
Speaker 1: How did you when you were when you were there,
did you so you basically we went through a life review.
You were instant. You were instantly there, right, you were
instantly when you went to this side. It was like
once you stopped breathing, you did you oversee your body
or you just were out? No, you were just there. No, yeah, okay,
so when you were on when you were there, you
kind of get thrown into a life review kind of
kind of, and then you you start recognizing angels. But
you said that you were kind of raised in it
by the church, so a Catholic kind of upbringing, so
you knew of angels, but.
Speaker 2: Not so many. Absolutely, not so many.
Speaker 1: And you could have named them if you, if you
if it.
Speaker 2: Was Yeah, it was like going back, you know, you
go into this high school reunion and you remember all
your old friends. That's exactly how it felt to me.
It was like, oh my gosh, so I'm here and
it was like a celebration. Finally she's here. That's how
it felt that was amazing to me.
Speaker 1: And obviously nothing but love is all you feel.
Speaker 2: That's why I take this with bread so often, because
every so often I do this spread that my guide
taught me when I was doing the self healing inhaling
through your nose and exhaling through your mouth, and within
that moment, it kind of gives me that rush that
I felt back there, of the energy kind of building
building within me. It kind of reminded me, Oh, You're
more than this body, and it gives me this imprint,
just a subtle imprint of what I felt on the
other side.
Speaker 1: Was there? What was color like there? Because I've heard different.
There's colors that you can't even explain, Alex.
Speaker 2: I've tried to recreate it. It doesn't exist. I came
back painting and I didn't paint before, and I'm trying
to paint to paint to paint to get the colors,
and I'm mixing colors and everything is just amplified on
the other side. So white is not just white that
we look on. It's like white, but it's as if
if you touch it, you go into it. It's just different.
Everything is amplified. The colors are just nothing that I've
seen so far on this side?
Speaker 1: Was there music?
Speaker 2: Hummin? I didn't hear music.
Speaker 1: I heard hmm yeah, almost like like a vibration almost.
Speaker 2: It's just it's humming. And when you do it on
this side, if you're subtle enough, you kind of get
those type of energies. It was just the most beautiful humming.
Speaker 1: So when you when you came back, what did you
come back with? Obviously you said you came back with painting,
the ability to paint. Obviously you're in a different level consciously,
you have a different perspective on life. This happens the
most near death experiencers. They go and they come back
and they're completely different people. What other abilities did you
bring back? Because I've heard you say in passing that
you're connecting with your guides, that you're you're getting messages
like are you channeling? Are you me a psychic?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 1: What what has come back?
Speaker 2: I came back channeling, okay, And I didn't know that
I was doing it. I after my NDE, because of
everything that I went through, I really started to shut
up because I didn't want to talk about this. It
was too weird, and I'm getting these predictions and dreams
and I'm doing automatic writing and I'm getting all these information,
and I remember about six months in, I was upset.
I said, I don't want to keep getting these dreams,
this information because I don't know what to do with them.
What am I doing with them? At the time, I
had three hundred and fifty six followers on my YouTube
and I'm not much for video. And I remember I
went to this phrase and my guide said to me,
we will do your marketer. If you are the lighthouse,
all you need to do is be And about a
week after that, I got a call from Dick Dingus
from he's a member of Ions and don't Alex, I
don't know how these things. I don't know how these
things replicate themselves. I don't know how they're set up.
But he called me and he said, you know what,
your NDE was a part of our newsletter off the month.
I wondering if you'd sit down with us in a meeting,
a zoom meeting with you know, people who are studying
in DAS. On that first sit down with them, archangel
Michael spoke through me. They were excited. I was freaked out.
What did their lights just happen? And it just flowed.
And I remember that night in meditation. I was like,
what was that. They said, well, it's your initiation. Prepare
yourself to speak only that which is holy and true.
And on my second meeting with them, Guya came through
and I was like, Guya is a thing that you
can I didn't know. I didn't know that was an
essence and Guya came through so beautifully, and then I realized,
oh my gosh, if when you surrender and you allow
yourself to be this empty conduit, this is the way,
they explained to me. You allow yourself to simply be
an empty container, and you relax yourself and you trust,
and you will allow messages of holiness and truth to flow. True,
it will happen, and that's been happening ever since. So
during those sessions with these Aides members, then people were
there and they were talking about probably things happening in
their life, and another guide would come through. Another angel
will come through and tell them, okay, what you need
to do, not telling them how to fix their lives,
but giving them guidance. And I thought to myself, that's
very interesting because I don't know this person. How did
I know to say that, and I just started to trust.
And I remember said to me one day, Nikki, you
are gonna have to talk to people. You can't just
do this here. And I said to myself, I'm not
reaching out to anybody, No, absolutely not. And then it
just started to duplicate. I got a call one day,
and an email and then a call, and then people
are asking me, we want to talk to you about
this experience. And one of Dick's friends said to me,
can you do a one on one with me? And
I said, okay, because I have no clue what I'm doing.
I don't know. And I just sat there and I allowed,
and the messages came through for her, and I was like,
that's kind of cool too, because I don't know this
woman and he's telling her information and she's validating and say, yes, yes,
that's my daughter, and this is the thing that Yes,
you're right, and thank you. And my guide said you
want to speak what is holy and true, allow yourself
to be a messenger of truth. And then I said, okay,
bloody surrender. But I'm still not going out there to
market myself. And this interview that I'm doing with you
right now, I've done this interview with you at least
twice in my head. Don't ask me how it manifested itself.
But yeah, I came back with these and I don't
want to call them abilities because what my guide show
me is every single person channels anyway, and it's beautiful.
I have people sitting across the screen from me and
they're saying, what's my purpose? What am I supposed to do?
And I'm like, well, you're channeling. You know, when you
mix those fragrances together and you get lost in time,
your guides want you to know in that time, just
you is doing it. You're bringing forward beautiful essences and
energies that the person who will receive it, when they
smell it, it brings them exactly what they need in
that moment because you're doing it from your heart and
you're allowing yourself to channel exactly what needs to go
to that individual. When you paint and you get lost
in time, that painting that you did, when the recipient
receives it, it was orchestrated perfectly by your guides and theirs.
Every time they look on it, they understand their overcoming.
Everything that you do. When you get lost in time,
your creative aspects. Anything that you do that's like child's
play that allows you to get lost in time. You're
channeling you when you are doing this beautiful thing that
you do, you get lost in time. You stepped up
to a big plate. You're channeling because you allow only
what's wally and true to get out there. And those
who allow themselves not to just listen, to react, allow
themselves to fee the energies that comes from it becomes
their own lighthouses, because it starts to strip away these
shadows that they picked up over time to said I
can't I don't deserve, I must struggle, I am abused,
I am all these things and all these fear. When
you do what you do and allow us to do
what we do, it slowly starts to almost wash away
the mud from people who are walking in this earth
not loving other people because they just don't understand how
to love themselves. They don't remember.
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Speaker 2: And something, some frequency, some word, a picture, whatever it
is awakens that dormant DNA in a sense, and it
allows them to almost be breathed and say, oh my gosh,
this addiction that I've been holding onto, it really doesn't
serve me, this habit that I have, and it allows them. Finally,
my guides always say, take this twelve inch journey from
your head to your heart. It's getting out of your
headspace for a moment, allowing your heart to whisper loud
enough to say you deserve to live. You now, you
are here for a purpose. Life is not hard on you.
You are hard on life. So live. And it's in
those moments you realize, oh my gosh, So I don't
need to judge a person who's been mean and atrocious.
All they asked me to do is add light to
the situation. So how do I react to you has
been mean? And Mother Mary taught me this some time ago.
I was having a session with a lady and I
remember Mother Mary was showing me a whole pack of
Benjamin's money and she said, ask her this, And I said,
if you go to a store, will you take all
your money and just give it to them and say
give me all those things that I absolutely detest? And
the woman said absolutely not. So Mother Mary said, well,
why do you just freely give away your energy currency?
Do you not know that's the main currency that you
need to be withholding. And she didn't understand, and she said, well,
every time you say yes to something when you know
in your heart you should have said no, you give
away pennies. And every time you make a choice of
not pouring into yourself, Oh my gosh, I could just
take five minutes break today, you say, oh no, no, no,
I have to because I have to do this amount
of time start. She says, well, you give away hundreds
within your energy currency. And she say every time you
choose to react to something just because you are triggered,
and you react to in news whatever it is, or
a conversation somebody's having, or somebody's own choice of reacting,
and you input darkness with into that, you gave away
thousands of your energy currency. Well how much more do
you want to give? Do you want to completely deplete yourself?
And the lady was like, absolutely not. And I love
that analogy because we forget about our energy, and we
forget about how much it impacts the world and how
much everything that happens really is a sole test, no
matter how atrocious and how sudden and how chaotic it is.
So now you have a choice. How do I react
to this situation, the chaosity, news, the propaganda, whatever it is,
how do I react to it? Do I join and
take sides and start to point fingers because when you
do that, you're adding energies of darkness within it. Does
it help or do you simply become an observer of
what's happening? To say, you know what, it's very interesting
that they chose to do this, But you know what,
I send prayer, I send love, I send healing, whatever
it is, how do you want to react to? This
world reflects the world that you live. So they say,
if we want to see the world change, we'll start
changing it by the very thoughts that you hold and
by the things that you see and how you see
people as oh my gosh, they're not a part of me.
So I'm going to walk around with eyes white shirt
because I don't care what happens.
Speaker 1: That what is? What does your family say about all this?
Because you are apparently very public at this point with it.
Speaker 2: Not everyone in my family is one hundred percent with it,
because not all the topics are things that they are
used to. And it's a fear. Also, it's a fair
because if I'm going to listen to these things that
you're saying and acknowledge it. Then I have to let
go of all these things that I've learned before. And
that's pretty fearful, of course, because the majority of my
family is okay with it, but not all of them.
And it's okay because they're not ready yet. And it's
not just for my family, it's for all families. And
we have to gracefully have compassion for people for where
they are now in their own soul growth. But does
that mean you need to shrink your light and shut up?
This girl is not shut it up anymore.
Speaker 1: For those who fear death, do you have any advice
or what would you like to say for them to
understand what's going to happen when they pass.
Speaker 2: Death has no finality to it, as much as the
human physicality that we are says death is just something
that allows you to be gone. There is simply an
expansion of death. Your life, the way you live it
now is simply allowing yourself to walk on this beautiful
let's say, beautiful beach and just dab in your feet
in sand, and the angels would say, you have your
opportunities to build as many sand castles as you want,
as you live this life, and you're going to find
rocks on this speech, on this beautiful sand of fears
and fear mongering and bloodthirst and all these things it says,
you know what, it keeps you away from living. You
are free to pick them up and experience them, experience
the heartbreak and the pain. Please don't own them. Acknowledge
that it's simply something somebody threw off a stage where
they had their own scenes that they played. And as
you take this beautiful journey and you choose to now
step into the infinite waters of life, which is what
we call the death, acknowledge that you step into more,
but more without the physical body to experience the emotions
that you fail to balance here. So there's no finality
to that. It's simply going back to source, going back
to love that is so unconditional, going back to being
limited less. So worry not about oh my gosh, I'm
living to die. That is a muster that will come.
Think about how do I express myself while I have
this physical body to balance my body which my mind controls,
and to also balance my emotions. How do I think?
How do I choose to react, and how do I
also balance my energy? How much do I allow myself
to be guided? How much do I allow myself to
see truth into every situation and not be judgmental and
always remembering that the love that we seek god side
of ourselves really isn't out there, It's here, very very true.
Speaker 1: Where can people find out more about you and the
amazing work you're doing in the world.
Speaker 2: Well, I have a website now, sol Deep Consciousness, Do Love,
and my YouTube channel is in my name, Nikisha Barrel.
These are the places that you will go to seeing me,
and you'll have an opportunity to join our very new,
beautiful Soul Shift Academy, which is just a beautiful space
for us to speak, you know, freely and not go
through you know what we went through when we had
people thinking that we're going on the dark side where
we freely can learn to evolve and grow.
Speaker 1: That's beautiful. And do you have any final words for
the audience?
Speaker 2: Oh, my gosh, breathe. We hyperventilate so much in this
world and we don't take a chance to pause for
a moment and see what life really has there for us.
Understand that no matter what's happening in your world. It
does get better when you choose to when you choose
to understand that we live in a beautiful ecosystem and
no matter what chaos comes, it's simply for you to
reflect to say how do I want to experience this work?
And you really do have control. And it's funny, Mother
Mary just places Bob Marley song in my head. I
don't know why, but it's something that's beautiful. It's emancipate
yourself from mental slavery, which kind of means that you
are now allowing yourself not to be confined by believing
that I don't have a choice none but ourselves can
free our mind because we are the ones who choose.
We choose how we experience this beautiful life and witness
everything else in ecosystem to understand that a tree doesn't
complain the color of the leave of another tree. It
simply is. And everything that we say having no fear
for atomic energy is we don't have any fear of
anything outside of ourselves because we are the light. Our
own self. Discovery is rediscovering the light that we are
that God has with us within every breath, every word
that we speak and within this world, be the love,
be the light, and my gosh, try to be boots
on the ground. That's very important.
Speaker 1: That is It's been such a pleasure meeting yours. You're
such a beautiful soul. I'd love your message. I love
what you're doing in the world, and thank you so
much for sharing this remarkable story with all of us.
And I appreciate you and everything you're doing to waken
this planet.
Speaker 2: So thank you, Alex, thank you, thank you for choosing
to step up to this beautiful plate and allowing these
sacred conversations to happen.
Speaker 1: I like to thank Nikisha so much for coming on
the show and sharing her wisdom and story with all
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