1 00:00:03,080 --> 00:00:05,679 Speaker 1: Welcome to the Next Level Soul podcast, where we ask 2 00:00:05,719 --> 00:00:08,720 the big questions about life. Why are we here? 3 00:00:09,160 --> 00:00:09,880 Speaker 2: Is this all? There? 4 00:00:09,960 --> 00:00:14,279 Speaker 1: Is? What is my soul's mission? We attempt to answer 5 00:00:14,320 --> 00:00:17,399 those questions and more by bringing you raw and inspiring 6 00:00:17,440 --> 00:00:20,800 conversations with some of the most fascinating and thought provoking 7 00:00:20,839 --> 00:00:27,640 guests on the planet. Today, I am your host, Alex Ferrari. Now, 8 00:00:27,640 --> 00:00:30,359 before we dive into today's conversation, I want to invite 9 00:00:30,359 --> 00:00:34,560 you to experience something truly transformative. 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It's commercial free, 19 00:01:10,640 --> 00:01:13,799 available around the world, and growing every week with new 20 00:01:13,879 --> 00:01:17,040 soul expanding content. So If you're ready to go deeper, 21 00:01:17,400 --> 00:01:20,439 head over to next levelsoul dot tv and start streaming 22 00:01:20,480 --> 00:01:24,879 your awakening. Now let's begin today's episode. Disclaimer. The views 23 00:01:24,879 --> 00:01:28,519 and opinions expressed in this podcast are those of the 24 00:01:28,599 --> 00:01:32,439 guests and do not necessarily reflect the views or positions 25 00:01:32,799 --> 00:01:35,840 of this show, its host, or any of the companies 26 00:01:35,920 --> 00:01:39,400 they represent. Now today on the show, we welcome near 27 00:01:39,519 --> 00:01:44,599 death experiencer at Nikisha Burrell. Now, this near death experience 28 00:01:44,920 --> 00:01:49,719 is not only profound because she met our angel Raphael, 29 00:01:49,760 --> 00:01:52,000 who kind of gave her a tour of heaven, but 30 00:01:52,200 --> 00:01:55,920 all of the knowledge and the messages that came back 31 00:01:56,359 --> 00:01:58,599 from this NDE will blow you out of the water. 32 00:01:58,760 --> 00:02:03,280 So let's dive in. I'd like to welcome to the show, 33 00:02:03,319 --> 00:02:04,239 Nikisha Barrel. Do. 34 00:02:04,319 --> 00:02:07,719 Speaker 2: Nikisha, I'm doing so fine, especially now that you are 35 00:02:07,799 --> 00:02:09,319 on the other side of the screen from me. 36 00:02:12,199 --> 00:02:14,400 Speaker 1: Thank you so much, Thank you so much for being here. 37 00:02:14,439 --> 00:02:20,759 You have a very exciting and interesting uh death Uh. 38 00:02:23,319 --> 00:02:25,719 Speaker 2: Say the least, yeah, say the least. 39 00:02:26,000 --> 00:02:29,000 Speaker 1: You know normal normally, you know, a normal company, you 40 00:02:29,039 --> 00:02:31,560 would people would be shocked by this stuff. But you 41 00:02:31,599 --> 00:02:33,319 and me are old hat at this at this point, 42 00:02:33,400 --> 00:02:36,639 so we're like we are no, you died, you know, 43 00:02:36,719 --> 00:02:39,639 and you came back YadA YadA, YadA, hwada. Go. But 44 00:02:42,639 --> 00:02:45,520 let's let's let's go. Let's take it back to right before. 45 00:02:45,560 --> 00:02:47,199 Can you take us back to the moment in that 46 00:02:47,360 --> 00:02:51,199 shower when you realize you are you might die? So 47 00:02:51,240 --> 00:02:53,400 can you tell us what ramped up to that moment 48 00:02:53,599 --> 00:02:55,120 in the shower and how do you got there? 49 00:02:55,400 --> 00:02:58,719 Speaker 2: I just took this call step back a little bit. 50 00:02:58,960 --> 00:03:02,479 I was in Jamaica's time right after COVID when I 51 00:03:02,479 --> 00:03:04,599 had no idea who I was anymore. So I was 52 00:03:04,639 --> 00:03:07,080 trying to discover this person. I had no idea who 53 00:03:07,120 --> 00:03:09,879 it was because my company closed down. So it was 54 00:03:09,960 --> 00:03:12,840 one month being into New York when I had these dreams. 55 00:03:12,919 --> 00:03:15,719 New York is calling, so I'm there. So that morning 56 00:03:15,759 --> 00:03:19,919 I was pretty perturbed with God. I was very angry, like, okay, 57 00:03:20,240 --> 00:03:22,400 I hit it to the call. I'm now in New York. 58 00:03:22,719 --> 00:03:25,599 Now what? And I was very angry in a sense, 59 00:03:25,599 --> 00:03:27,960 and I was thinking about what's my identity? What do 60 00:03:28,039 --> 00:03:30,759 I do? I'm no longer entrepreneur, so tell me what 61 00:03:30,919 --> 00:03:34,280 to do? And I everyone in my family had left 62 00:03:34,319 --> 00:03:36,879 because they're living here, so they have their lives I don't, 63 00:03:36,960 --> 00:03:39,439 and I felt very bad about that that morning. So 64 00:03:39,479 --> 00:03:42,159 I went to take a shower, and I think everything 65 00:03:42,240 --> 00:03:45,120 that could happen, what never happen, was going through my mind, 66 00:03:45,680 --> 00:03:47,919 and I felt this tickle in my throat, just a tickle, 67 00:03:48,800 --> 00:03:50,719 and I just thought, okay, I'm going to clear my throat. 68 00:03:50,960 --> 00:03:53,960 That was it. And I went to clear my throat 69 00:03:54,000 --> 00:03:57,759 and in that moment, no breath. I don't know who 70 00:03:57,840 --> 00:04:00,120 cut it off. I'm still trying to find who did it, 71 00:04:00,560 --> 00:04:03,439 but my breath cut off, and I went into I 72 00:04:03,439 --> 00:04:06,479 don't know fright orf light and I was in a 73 00:04:06,719 --> 00:04:08,960 hissy fit because I'm trying to figure out why am 74 00:04:08,960 --> 00:04:11,639 I not catching my breath and I'm in the shower 75 00:04:11,639 --> 00:04:13,479 and I have nobody to call for help. So I 76 00:04:13,520 --> 00:04:17,839 remember one moment I pulled the shower curtains down and 77 00:04:17,879 --> 00:04:19,879 there was no breath coming. And in that moment, the 78 00:04:19,920 --> 00:04:23,040 weirdest things happened within these few seconds, I mind you, 79 00:04:23,120 --> 00:04:26,720 but to fast forward to that moment, I remember, I'm 80 00:04:26,759 --> 00:04:29,519 still trying to guess for breath, and I had this moment, 81 00:04:29,600 --> 00:04:32,040 a very silent moment when I thought to myself, Okay, 82 00:04:32,120 --> 00:04:35,439 I'm gonna die because it's not coming back no matter 83 00:04:35,519 --> 00:04:38,079 what I do. And the last thought I remember I 84 00:04:38,160 --> 00:04:41,079 had within my own mind, I was disgusted at myself. 85 00:04:41,079 --> 00:04:43,360 I was like, your family's gonna come back. They're gonna 86 00:04:43,399 --> 00:04:46,360 find you naked on the damn floor. That's what I thought. 87 00:04:46,560 --> 00:04:49,160 And I don't know when I left this physicality, but 88 00:04:49,199 --> 00:04:53,519 I know I was that upset with myself. And within 89 00:04:53,560 --> 00:04:57,920 the next moment, I remember I was in this white space. 90 00:04:57,959 --> 00:05:00,839 It's not a white room. I've tried to implicate white, 91 00:05:00,879 --> 00:05:03,720 that white, but it doesn't exist here. But I was 92 00:05:03,759 --> 00:05:07,519 in this white space, and the moment I was to 93 00:05:07,600 --> 00:05:10,040 think where am I? I saw the apparition of my 94 00:05:10,079 --> 00:05:12,759 grandmother are paying in front of me, And now that 95 00:05:12,839 --> 00:05:14,920 I think about it, I think she appeared there because 96 00:05:15,040 --> 00:05:16,839 it would probably scare the be GM's out of me 97 00:05:16,839 --> 00:05:20,000 if it was anything else that I saw first. And 98 00:05:20,319 --> 00:05:22,240 it was like as soon as I was to think 99 00:05:22,279 --> 00:05:25,480 about something, I would receive the answer. So I had 100 00:05:25,480 --> 00:05:27,360 this thought where am I, and the moment I was 101 00:05:27,399 --> 00:05:29,279 to think about that, all of a sudden, around me, 102 00:05:29,360 --> 00:05:33,680 in this whiteness, all these lightworbs just started to populate 103 00:05:33,680 --> 00:05:37,519 around me. And the weird thing for me is before 104 00:05:37,839 --> 00:05:41,560 my Nde. I didn't know the names of all angels. 105 00:05:42,399 --> 00:05:48,120 I knew Michael, Raphael, the usual ones, but exactly. And 106 00:05:48,480 --> 00:05:51,160 while I'm in this space, it was like, these lightworms 107 00:05:51,160 --> 00:05:53,160 are populating and I have this not oh my gosh, 108 00:05:53,240 --> 00:05:56,879 these are the angels and I'm naming angels ari El, Honeyel, 109 00:05:57,079 --> 00:05:59,920 and I'm like, oh my gosh, those are angels name 110 00:06:00,079 --> 00:06:04,480 and they were just populating around me. And within that moment, 111 00:06:04,519 --> 00:06:07,040 I realized, oh my gosh, I'm home. I just had 112 00:06:07,079 --> 00:06:09,519 this note I'm home, and it felt it really felt 113 00:06:09,600 --> 00:06:12,240 like a welcome party. It just felt like, well done, 114 00:06:12,279 --> 00:06:17,519 well done, Okay, you're back. However, I'm kind of observing 115 00:06:17,560 --> 00:06:22,399 where I am and immediately I now call it downloads. 116 00:06:22,439 --> 00:06:24,800 Then I had no clue what the verbage was for it. 117 00:06:24,839 --> 00:06:27,920 But I'm seeing these probabilities of Earth and as if 118 00:06:28,240 --> 00:06:30,879 I'm seeing our choices that we make to go to Earth, 119 00:06:30,920 --> 00:06:34,120 and I'm just enjoying this space. My grandmother is there 120 00:06:34,160 --> 00:06:36,120 and it's like she's feeding me with the information. As 121 00:06:36,120 --> 00:06:37,839 soon as I was thinking what am I doing here? 122 00:06:37,879 --> 00:06:40,720 Why am I here? And it's like your home, this 123 00:06:40,800 --> 00:06:44,279 is where light is, this is where love began. And 124 00:06:44,319 --> 00:06:48,199 I remember, just like it just happened now. On my left, 125 00:06:48,240 --> 00:06:51,439 I remember I glanced over there, and when I did, 126 00:06:51,600 --> 00:06:53,759 I could see these angels and the angels that I'm 127 00:06:53,800 --> 00:06:56,680 seeing on the left, they had the apparition of what 128 00:06:56,720 --> 00:06:58,800 I thought angels would have liked, with the wings and 129 00:06:58,839 --> 00:07:01,120 all of that. That's what I saw on the other side. 130 00:07:01,160 --> 00:07:04,319 But what caught my attention was I was seen just 131 00:07:04,680 --> 00:07:08,680 like a rainbow of colors flowing from them to some 132 00:07:08,720 --> 00:07:10,879 other beans. And I thought to myself, Oh my gosh, 133 00:07:11,079 --> 00:07:14,240 those are the souls who came to the light. And 134 00:07:14,319 --> 00:07:16,199 the moment I had that thought, I was like, so 135 00:07:16,319 --> 00:07:20,600 what are they doing? And I heard spiritual rehab and 136 00:07:20,639 --> 00:07:22,600 I thought to myself, Oh my gosh, so they are 137 00:07:22,639 --> 00:07:26,079 working out their stuff, you know whatever, there's stuff. And 138 00:07:26,120 --> 00:07:27,920 my grandmother was still there, and I have this thought, 139 00:07:27,959 --> 00:07:30,160 so what happened to those who don't come to the light. 140 00:07:31,279 --> 00:07:34,920 And immediately I'm just flooded with this knowing. Okay on 141 00:07:35,000 --> 00:07:37,480 your exit, And the way they showed it to me 142 00:07:37,680 --> 00:07:39,639 is it's kind of cool because they show me the 143 00:07:40,240 --> 00:07:43,160 living experience is like walking on sand, so I always 144 00:07:43,240 --> 00:07:46,120 love that. So while you walk on the sand, your 145 00:07:46,199 --> 00:07:49,759 death experience is walking on sand and when the death 146 00:07:49,920 --> 00:07:53,079 exit comes, you step into the infinite waters of life, 147 00:07:53,120 --> 00:07:56,560 so you expand. However, when you get to that point, 148 00:07:57,040 --> 00:08:00,360 you have a choice also as a spirit, do you 149 00:08:00,399 --> 00:08:01,959 go to the light or do you not? And I 150 00:08:02,000 --> 00:08:03,800 thought to myself, so what happened to those who are 151 00:08:03,879 --> 00:08:07,120 left behind? And they showed me there are spirits who 152 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:11,279 change forms and they don't realize that they're dead. So 153 00:08:11,360 --> 00:08:13,399 they're the ones who not going to the light. And 154 00:08:13,399 --> 00:08:17,240 they are also those who live life less than cordially, 155 00:08:17,639 --> 00:08:21,560 you know, they kind of spit of darkness. They are atrocious. 156 00:08:21,639 --> 00:08:24,920 They are the you know, the victimizers. And the moment 157 00:08:25,040 --> 00:08:27,639 you change forms to spirit, when you step into the 158 00:08:27,680 --> 00:08:31,279 infinite life of waters, they showed me you remember and 159 00:08:31,360 --> 00:08:33,919 you know every decision that you made and how it 160 00:08:33,960 --> 00:08:37,559 affected the world. And those spirits when they are hit 161 00:08:37,639 --> 00:08:39,279 with that, it's like being hit with a ton of 162 00:08:39,279 --> 00:08:42,440 bricks because you're hit with your own truth and you realize, 163 00:08:42,559 --> 00:08:45,200 these are the effects that I cause from my choices, 164 00:08:45,720 --> 00:08:48,480 and the light is always there for them to choose. Okay, 165 00:08:48,720 --> 00:08:52,399 you have ended this expression of life. Now you have 166 00:08:52,440 --> 00:08:54,279 a choice to come and then you can deal with 167 00:08:54,320 --> 00:08:56,759 what you did, but most of them feel so ashamed 168 00:08:57,279 --> 00:09:00,679 because immediately you feel unconditional love, love you never really 169 00:09:00,879 --> 00:09:05,000 felt or rediscovered while you were living. And those souls 170 00:09:05,039 --> 00:09:08,559 also choose not to go because they're a shame. They 171 00:09:08,600 --> 00:09:11,679 don't know. Oh my gosh, can I face all there 172 00:09:11,799 --> 00:09:14,919 is with everything that I made? So they have a 173 00:09:15,039 --> 00:09:17,279 choice and they can linger as long as they want to. 174 00:09:17,320 --> 00:09:19,879 But the light, the doorways always opened for them to come, 175 00:09:19,919 --> 00:09:23,120 do you understand. And within that moment, I thought to myself, 176 00:09:23,120 --> 00:09:25,399 oh my gosh, I didn't know that there was so much, 177 00:09:26,000 --> 00:09:29,440 you know, choices you have even in the death process. Anyway, 178 00:09:29,679 --> 00:09:31,919 I kind of digressed from there, and in front of 179 00:09:31,960 --> 00:09:35,679 me there was this huge doorway without a door because 180 00:09:35,679 --> 00:09:38,960 it's just this huge archway. And when I focused beyond it, 181 00:09:38,960 --> 00:09:42,879 it was this beautiful crystal city. It was nothing but crystals, 182 00:09:42,879 --> 00:09:45,240 and I could see over to the left side, like 183 00:09:45,279 --> 00:09:47,759 this beautiful waterfalls, and I so wanted to go there. 184 00:09:47,799 --> 00:09:50,960 It was like it was drawing me in. And immediately 185 00:09:50,960 --> 00:09:53,279 when I was thinking, Okay, I'm gonna go there, my 186 00:09:53,320 --> 00:09:57,039 grandmother appeared again. Now I know that if I had 187 00:09:57,080 --> 00:10:00,120 went there, I wouldn't have come back, but it was 188 00:10:00,279 --> 00:10:04,720 so nice seeing there. But immediately on my right, this 189 00:10:04,919 --> 00:10:08,440 huge angel appeared. Now this is the way I expect 190 00:10:08,480 --> 00:10:11,879 an angel to be huge and massive on my right 191 00:10:11,960 --> 00:10:15,600 and immediately when I perceived it, it was our angel, Raphael, 192 00:10:17,600 --> 00:10:19,559 and I just knew that it was Raphael. And in 193 00:10:19,639 --> 00:10:22,120 the moment, I thought, my god, Oh my gosh, Raphael. 194 00:10:22,240 --> 00:10:26,519 I started to see these I call them imprints of 195 00:10:26,639 --> 00:10:30,840 my pre birth journey and after I was born, when 196 00:10:30,840 --> 00:10:32,840 I had my first accident as a child, and I 197 00:10:32,879 --> 00:10:35,039 went to the hospital and Raphael was showing me that 198 00:10:35,200 --> 00:10:37,440 was me there, and that was me. Then I realized, 199 00:10:37,480 --> 00:10:39,960 oh my gosh, you're my main guide. So it was 200 00:10:40,000 --> 00:10:41,919 taking me through all these clips in my life of 201 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:44,440 things that happened, things that I said to myself, Oh 202 00:10:44,440 --> 00:10:47,120 my gosh, I can't believe I didn't die. It's because 203 00:10:47,120 --> 00:10:49,519 of this angel and this team that I had that 204 00:10:49,600 --> 00:10:51,120 I didn't know about before. 205 00:10:53,120 --> 00:10:55,639 Speaker 1: We'll be right back after a word from our sponsor, 206 00:10:59,240 --> 00:11:00,519 and now back to the show. 207 00:11:03,399 --> 00:11:05,240 Speaker 2: And while I was there, I was seeing flashes of 208 00:11:05,639 --> 00:11:09,440 decisions I made in my life, let's say, and Alex, 209 00:11:09,639 --> 00:11:12,240 I was judging myself. I was like, you could have 210 00:11:12,279 --> 00:11:15,639 been kinder there, and these flashes just kept coming. I 211 00:11:15,679 --> 00:11:17,840 was like, why didn't you choose to do that? I 212 00:11:17,919 --> 00:11:19,919 had decisions that I wanted to make in life that 213 00:11:19,960 --> 00:11:22,039 I didn't and I said a lot of yes is 214 00:11:22,039 --> 00:11:24,600 instead of nos. And I was seeing these flashes, and 215 00:11:25,240 --> 00:11:28,600 I was judging myself and nobody else around me was 216 00:11:28,679 --> 00:11:31,320 judging me. It was just me. And I was feeling 217 00:11:31,320 --> 00:11:33,720 a little bit perturbed in that moment, saying why weren't 218 00:11:33,720 --> 00:11:35,759 you kinder? Why didn't you just give that one dollar? 219 00:11:35,840 --> 00:11:38,159 And I was just going through the flashes and just 220 00:11:38,799 --> 00:11:42,200 like I'm seeing a replay of everything that I did 221 00:11:42,240 --> 00:11:44,120 in my life, every thought I had, and I was 222 00:11:44,200 --> 00:11:48,000 judging myself terribly, and I think Raphael kind of took 223 00:11:48,080 --> 00:11:51,600 me out of that focus. And it's as if I 224 00:11:51,679 --> 00:11:54,480 knew that I needed to go into another space to 225 00:11:54,519 --> 00:11:57,159 buy right. And as soon as I was thinking I'm 226 00:11:57,200 --> 00:12:00,799 there now in this room or I don't know what 227 00:12:00,879 --> 00:12:04,080 to call it, because it's like infinite, it felt as 228 00:12:04,120 --> 00:12:06,440 if I was in a beehive. That's the only way 229 00:12:06,440 --> 00:12:09,679 I can describe it in human words. It seemed as 230 00:12:09,679 --> 00:12:12,360 if there were infinite amount of honeypots and they were golden, 231 00:12:12,399 --> 00:12:15,120 and they were like pulsating like this, and as soon 232 00:12:15,159 --> 00:12:18,320 as I was to think what are those, I got 233 00:12:18,360 --> 00:12:21,639 the understanding that these are the memories a lifetime of 234 00:12:21,679 --> 00:12:24,879 every single human being. And then one popped out and 235 00:12:24,919 --> 00:12:28,080 I knew, oh my gosh, that's mine. And when it 236 00:12:28,120 --> 00:12:30,679 came out, I don't know how to describe it. I 237 00:12:30,759 --> 00:12:33,759 love to say holographic, but it kind of wasn't. But 238 00:12:33,840 --> 00:12:38,000 it's the best description. And I remember Raphael allowed me 239 00:12:38,080 --> 00:12:40,440 to know, you're going to focus on three things in 240 00:12:40,480 --> 00:12:44,639 your life, just three segments, three scenes. And the first 241 00:12:44,679 --> 00:12:47,799 one that came out, I don't know. This thing came 242 00:12:47,799 --> 00:12:51,759 out and it was as if I was there. And 243 00:12:51,799 --> 00:12:54,200 the first one I saw, I was five years old. 244 00:12:54,240 --> 00:12:57,240 I remember that, and I was in this red dress. 245 00:12:57,879 --> 00:13:01,759 But what I found interestingly was I wasn't feeling how 246 00:13:01,799 --> 00:13:04,840 I felt. My sister was getting me, you know, she's 247 00:13:04,840 --> 00:13:07,120 getting me ready for something. I have no idea what 248 00:13:07,240 --> 00:13:11,600 it was, but I was feeling how she felt. Now, 249 00:13:11,799 --> 00:13:13,960 if I should talk about my relationship with my sister, 250 00:13:14,080 --> 00:13:16,320 she is the first one. I'm the last out of four, 251 00:13:17,039 --> 00:13:21,039 so she has years on me, and I'm always the 252 00:13:21,080 --> 00:13:22,759 one who's sticked for tatting. I'm the one in the 253 00:13:22,799 --> 00:13:25,919 family's always chatting. Everyone's always telling me to shut up, 254 00:13:26,159 --> 00:13:28,519 and I'm always arguing back with her. Would you just 255 00:13:28,559 --> 00:13:30,320 be a sister for a moment, stop being a mother? 256 00:13:30,480 --> 00:13:32,960 Already have a mother, so I'm always having this relationship 257 00:13:33,000 --> 00:13:35,759 with her. You can't just chill out, let me make mistakes. 258 00:13:35,759 --> 00:13:37,720 And she said no, no, no, no no. And she's 259 00:13:37,759 --> 00:13:41,600 always that one, right. So within this moment, I realized 260 00:13:41,600 --> 00:13:43,519 that she had a thought when she was getting me 261 00:13:43,559 --> 00:13:47,000 ready in this pretty red dress, and I heard her 262 00:13:47,039 --> 00:13:50,200 thoughts and she said, I will protective forever. And I 263 00:13:50,360 --> 00:13:53,919 thought to myself, why are you saying that? And what 264 00:13:54,039 --> 00:13:56,960 happened that was amazing. I was taken back to her 265 00:13:57,200 --> 00:14:01,399 childhood when she was a little bit older than I was, 266 00:14:01,919 --> 00:14:05,000 and they allowed me to see her experience in something 267 00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:08,360 as a child that a child really shouldn't experience. And 268 00:14:08,399 --> 00:14:11,000 what they allowed me to see was that night when 269 00:14:11,039 --> 00:14:13,399 that happened to her, she had a prayer to God 270 00:14:13,440 --> 00:14:15,320 and she said God, because at the time she had 271 00:14:15,320 --> 00:14:18,360 two brothers. My mother was finished with having children, she 272 00:14:18,440 --> 00:14:20,600 was done. But she had this pray and she said, 273 00:14:20,639 --> 00:14:23,759 if you just give me a sister, I promise I'll 274 00:14:23,799 --> 00:14:27,000 protect her forever, and in that moment, I just felt 275 00:14:27,039 --> 00:14:30,200 this unconditional love from her, and I realized, oh my gosh, 276 00:14:30,200 --> 00:14:32,600 she really does love me like because all my life 277 00:14:32,600 --> 00:14:35,039 I always thought that she felt annoyed that she had 278 00:14:35,039 --> 00:14:37,480 this little, eaty, busy thing she had to take care of. Right, 279 00:14:38,120 --> 00:14:41,039 So within that moment, I was kind of thankful too 280 00:14:41,080 --> 00:14:45,480 because I finally resolved years of me wondering and that 281 00:14:45,559 --> 00:14:48,440 went away. And then I had this second review. Now 282 00:14:48,480 --> 00:14:50,519 I can say review because I know what it is, 283 00:14:50,559 --> 00:14:55,240 life review. And the second one that came up, I 284 00:14:55,279 --> 00:14:58,039 was in high school in Jamaica. It was Valentine's Day 285 00:14:58,480 --> 00:15:02,120 and there was this guy that really I was a kid, 286 00:15:02,240 --> 00:15:04,360 you know, I was probably about I don't know, maybe 287 00:15:04,360 --> 00:15:07,600 in seventh grade, and he brought a rose to me. 288 00:15:07,679 --> 00:15:10,080 But man, I was embarrassed. I was what Jamaican would 289 00:15:10,080 --> 00:15:12,440 call a fool, fluid pitney. I didn't know how to 290 00:15:12,519 --> 00:15:16,320 accept gifts. I was embarrassed. I wanted it, but if 291 00:15:16,320 --> 00:15:18,279 he had given it to me, probably in a quiet 292 00:15:18,360 --> 00:15:20,000 round the corner, I would have taken it. But I 293 00:15:20,120 --> 00:15:25,759 was flat out embarrassed and I refused it. But they 294 00:15:25,799 --> 00:15:34,279 allowed me to feel how he felt. M God Alex, I, okay, 295 00:15:34,320 --> 00:15:37,000 I have to tell this. So I didn't know that 296 00:15:37,080 --> 00:15:42,759 something so stupid could hurt somebody so much, and he 297 00:15:42,960 --> 00:15:47,240 was torn. It tore him up. And the moment I 298 00:15:47,240 --> 00:15:50,480 started to feel how he felt, I was judging myself again, 299 00:15:50,480 --> 00:15:52,720 and all of a sudden, this light orb just came 300 00:15:52,720 --> 00:15:54,519 out of nowhere, and this one wasn't white, it was 301 00:15:54,559 --> 00:15:57,919 just beautiful, colorful light orm and as soon as it appeared, 302 00:15:57,960 --> 00:16:00,000 I just had this moment, Oh my gosh, that's his song. 303 00:16:00,759 --> 00:16:02,480 And for that moment, I think they gave me the 304 00:16:02,519 --> 00:16:05,120 opportunity to say sorry or I don't know. I didn't 305 00:16:05,159 --> 00:16:09,200 say anything, but I felt a little bit lighter. After 306 00:16:09,240 --> 00:16:11,240 my nd when I came back, I tried to find 307 00:16:11,279 --> 00:16:14,159 this guy so hard because I really wanted to say 308 00:16:14,200 --> 00:16:17,440 I'm sorry. And when I checked out, they told me 309 00:16:17,519 --> 00:16:21,720 he had passed away years before. So it floored me. 310 00:16:21,759 --> 00:16:23,960 I realized, oh my gosh, thank you so much. You 311 00:16:24,080 --> 00:16:26,440 gave me the opportunity to really say sorry to his 312 00:16:26,559 --> 00:16:29,679 soul in a sense. And that went away, and I 313 00:16:29,759 --> 00:16:32,879 was living at the third one came up and I 314 00:16:32,919 --> 00:16:34,960 was still in Jamaica in my twenties, and I was 315 00:16:35,000 --> 00:16:38,759 at this supermarket, and I was behind the older lady 316 00:16:39,000 --> 00:16:42,519 and there was a long line behind me, and they 317 00:16:42,519 --> 00:16:45,600 were getting frustrated, so was I a little bit. And 318 00:16:46,080 --> 00:16:48,320 I started to observe her because I wasn't sure what 319 00:16:48,399 --> 00:16:50,840 was happening. So I could see her putting things back 320 00:16:50,879 --> 00:16:53,399 and asking the teller to check putting things, and I realized, 321 00:16:53,399 --> 00:16:56,000 oh my gosh, she can't pay for everything, so she's 322 00:16:56,080 --> 00:16:58,080 like trying to choose what can I do without? What 323 00:16:58,200 --> 00:16:59,639 can I you know, what do I need to take? 324 00:17:00,559 --> 00:17:02,840 And without saying anything to anyone, I leaned over to 325 00:17:02,879 --> 00:17:05,400 the teller and I said, let her take everything. I'll 326 00:17:05,400 --> 00:17:09,200 pay the bill. That was another silly thing that humans do, right, 327 00:17:11,640 --> 00:17:13,519 and it tell us said it to her somehow, and 328 00:17:13,640 --> 00:17:16,400 she turned to me. She was happy, and I remember 329 00:17:16,400 --> 00:17:21,720 she held my hand like this, and what they allowed 330 00:17:21,720 --> 00:17:24,000 me to feel in my indeed that when she held 331 00:17:24,000 --> 00:17:25,519 my hand like this, she said to me, thank you 332 00:17:25,559 --> 00:17:27,519 so much, thank you so much. And I remember I 333 00:17:27,519 --> 00:17:30,799 said to her, God works in mysterious ways. But what 334 00:17:30,960 --> 00:17:33,640 Raphael allowed me to feel is that day she gave 335 00:17:33,680 --> 00:17:36,480 me something. When you are kind to somebody, it's not 336 00:17:36,519 --> 00:17:38,440 just oh I'm being kind, whether it's out of ego 337 00:17:38,559 --> 00:17:40,599 want people to see, or just doing it just because 338 00:17:40,960 --> 00:17:44,680 it's an exchange. It's an exchange of love, of consciousness, 339 00:17:44,680 --> 00:17:47,799 of grace or kindness, and it leaves something with you 340 00:17:47,839 --> 00:17:51,160 although you gave them something, do you understand? And I 341 00:17:51,279 --> 00:17:53,599 felt that that day, Oh my gosh, she gave me something. 342 00:17:53,640 --> 00:17:57,680 But not only that, I was taken almost let's say, 343 00:17:57,680 --> 00:18:01,279 the night before, and they allowed me to see this 344 00:18:01,519 --> 00:18:04,240 lady saying a prayer to God. I don't know how 345 00:18:04,240 --> 00:18:07,119 I'm going to feed my children, but now I know 346 00:18:07,200 --> 00:18:10,079 You'll find a way. And what they allowed me to 347 00:18:10,319 --> 00:18:14,039 witness was that act of kindness. And in that moment 348 00:18:15,279 --> 00:18:17,599 all I could hear on me was that, and they 349 00:18:17,720 --> 00:18:20,839 uttered boots on the ground, and I was like, my gosh, 350 00:18:20,880 --> 00:18:23,440 we are boots on the ground. And they allowed me 351 00:18:23,519 --> 00:18:25,799 to say that one act of kindness that I chose 352 00:18:25,839 --> 00:18:28,160 to do, which was like the silliest thing and the 353 00:18:28,200 --> 00:18:32,839 easiest thing. It concreted her faith in her prayer. And 354 00:18:32,880 --> 00:18:34,920 not just that, they showed me that next door there 355 00:18:34,920 --> 00:18:37,359 were three other children who were fed from the grocery 356 00:18:37,440 --> 00:18:39,880 she brought home. And the third thing they showed me 357 00:18:39,920 --> 00:18:42,839 she had two children, one girl. When she told them 358 00:18:42,839 --> 00:18:46,160 this story, and it also concreted their faith in humanity. 359 00:18:47,119 --> 00:18:49,279 And it almost took me forward again to show that 360 00:18:49,400 --> 00:18:52,720 her daughter, just her daughter from that one story, chose 361 00:18:52,799 --> 00:18:55,519 now as an adult to pay forward because of that 362 00:18:55,559 --> 00:18:58,839 one's story. And they were shown me, you don't understand. 363 00:18:58,839 --> 00:19:01,240 This is boots on the ground. This is the aspect 364 00:19:01,319 --> 00:19:04,799 of humanity, no matter how simple it is. There's nothing 365 00:19:04,839 --> 00:19:07,799 that you can do in this world that's too minute. 366 00:19:08,079 --> 00:19:11,240 Every act of kindness, every act of giving, is an 367 00:19:11,279 --> 00:19:14,880 exchange that allows this world to almost have a domino 368 00:19:14,960 --> 00:19:19,319 effect that does change the world from the moment you 369 00:19:19,400 --> 00:19:23,400 make a choice to do something without wanting anything in return. 370 00:19:24,839 --> 00:19:27,400 And that went away, and I was outside of that 371 00:19:27,519 --> 00:19:31,519 room and I was just in this space, Alex, I'm 372 00:19:31,559 --> 00:19:35,559 just getting all these downloads and they're showing me. People 373 00:19:35,599 --> 00:19:39,440 call them predictions, but my grandmother told me their probabilities, 374 00:19:40,400 --> 00:19:43,359 and they're showing me the choices of humanity is gone by, 375 00:19:44,279 --> 00:19:47,000 and the choices that they made the cause, let's say, 376 00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:51,359 a cataclysmic effect on this planet. And then the reset 377 00:19:51,400 --> 00:19:54,240 button is pressed and you have an opportunity again. And 378 00:19:54,279 --> 00:19:57,160 then they made the same mistakes because of their own choices, 379 00:19:57,720 --> 00:20:01,599 not allowing themselves to understand. I am holding onto invisible 380 00:20:01,680 --> 00:20:05,240 chains in a sense, invisible fear because I have the 381 00:20:05,359 --> 00:20:08,319 choice to be boots on the ground and I'm not 382 00:20:08,480 --> 00:20:11,680 waiting for a savior. I remember my grandmother said, we 383 00:20:11,799 --> 00:20:13,880 keep waiting for a savior, but the savior is waiting 384 00:20:13,920 --> 00:20:18,279 on us to act out by our choices. How do 385 00:20:18,359 --> 00:20:20,839 we want to experience this world? And I'm just seeing 386 00:20:20,839 --> 00:20:24,000 these probabilities and these downloads, and then I realize, oh 387 00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:26,640 my gosh, we have a chance this time to make 388 00:20:26,680 --> 00:20:28,519 it right. 389 00:20:29,000 --> 00:20:31,519 Speaker 1: We'll be right back after a word from our sponsor, 390 00:20:35,119 --> 00:20:37,000 and now back to the show. 391 00:20:38,799 --> 00:20:41,720 Speaker 2: And I realize we're so much on a beautiful trajectory 392 00:20:41,759 --> 00:20:47,160 despite all the predictions that really are probabilities. Because what 393 00:20:47,240 --> 00:20:49,319 my guide said to me is every time you have 394 00:20:49,400 --> 00:20:55,559 a prediction, don't horown into fear of the prediction. Mirror 395 00:20:55,720 --> 00:20:58,359 that with yourself. How am I living in this life? 396 00:20:58,359 --> 00:21:01,559 When they speak about the earthquake that's coming? What do 397 00:21:01,640 --> 00:21:04,119 I need to on Earth in my own physical life 398 00:21:04,160 --> 00:21:07,079 that Gaya is mirroring to us? Now? What do I 399 00:21:07,119 --> 00:21:10,559 need to change about my choices? And while I'm doing that, 400 00:21:10,839 --> 00:21:14,119 how do I want to experience this probability that was 401 00:21:14,160 --> 00:21:18,359 spoken of, do I want to experience it in chaos 402 00:21:18,440 --> 00:21:20,839 or do I want to hone down? And if we pray, 403 00:21:20,960 --> 00:21:23,960 let's pray. And if we meditate, let's meditate and allow 404 00:21:24,079 --> 00:21:28,720 our light to diminish how catastrophic it can be. It 405 00:21:28,839 --> 00:21:31,799 simply is a placemaker that's placed in front of us. 406 00:21:32,400 --> 00:21:36,000 It's a soul test. How do you wish to experience 407 00:21:36,039 --> 00:21:38,400 this soul test? Do you want it to be chaotic? 408 00:21:39,400 --> 00:21:44,720 And before everything else kind of flatlined, I remember two 409 00:21:44,720 --> 00:21:47,240 hands went up and they said, I think maybe I 410 00:21:47,400 --> 00:21:49,200 ask or I had the thought, so what's the purpose 411 00:21:49,240 --> 00:21:51,960 of life? Because I'm still in myself to say, it's 412 00:21:51,960 --> 00:21:54,839 so much craziness going on in this world, this can't 413 00:21:54,880 --> 00:21:57,799 just be it. And I remember these two big hands 414 00:21:57,839 --> 00:22:00,359 came down and it was like, the aspect of life 415 00:22:00,400 --> 00:22:03,960 is simply two things. Do you choose to give love 416 00:22:04,880 --> 00:22:07,880 or do you choose to withhold love? And I thought 417 00:22:07,880 --> 00:22:09,920 to myself, it's too simple, No, no, no. Do you 418 00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:12,240 choose to give love first to you? Do you choose 419 00:22:12,240 --> 00:22:14,680 to pour into you? To choose to fill you up? 420 00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:18,359 To have conversations, to be in places, spaces and making 421 00:22:18,440 --> 00:22:22,160 decisions that allows you to feel fulfilled and whole and 422 00:22:22,240 --> 00:22:24,119 not giving away your truth and your power. Do you 423 00:22:24,200 --> 00:22:26,720 choose to be kind just because? Do you choose to 424 00:22:26,759 --> 00:22:29,240 give just because? Or do you choose to be a 425 00:22:29,240 --> 00:22:32,119 part of the split within this realm that is called 426 00:22:32,240 --> 00:22:35,240 darkness that you yourself created? Do you choose to be unkind 427 00:22:35,279 --> 00:22:38,839 to you not understanding that you are already light and love? 428 00:22:38,880 --> 00:22:41,160 And because of that, all you see in this world 429 00:22:41,279 --> 00:22:44,079 is chaos and hate? And do you choose to continue 430 00:22:44,119 --> 00:22:48,039 to be the victim the victimizer? Do you choose to 431 00:22:48,759 --> 00:22:50,759 hate and hold on to the energies that are so 432 00:22:50,799 --> 00:22:54,359 heavy that ripples across the aspects of this world? And 433 00:22:54,400 --> 00:22:56,599 I got that and so much more. And then all 434 00:22:56,640 --> 00:22:59,039 of a sudden, I'm focusing on this crystal city because 435 00:22:59,079 --> 00:23:01,160 I really wanted to go. And as soon as I 436 00:23:01,200 --> 00:23:03,160 started to think, I'm my gosh, I'd like to know 437 00:23:03,240 --> 00:23:07,279 what's there? My grandmother appeared again and she said it's 438 00:23:07,319 --> 00:23:10,920 time to go. And I was like, oh where, I 439 00:23:11,160 --> 00:23:12,880 know if she given me a chance. She didn't give 440 00:23:12,920 --> 00:23:14,279 me a chance. I was like, she if she did, 441 00:23:14,279 --> 00:23:17,079 I would have argued to stay. But before I could 442 00:23:17,079 --> 00:23:21,640 think of anything else, I'm in this dark space. And 443 00:23:21,720 --> 00:23:23,359 it's funny to me now that I think about this 444 00:23:23,440 --> 00:23:26,920 dark space, because here I wasn't scared in this dark space. 445 00:23:26,960 --> 00:23:29,400 I had this knowing this is where all creation started. 446 00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:33,799 So whatever I'm thinking here, it's been manifested. Whatever I'm 447 00:23:33,799 --> 00:23:36,880 thinking here begins to be created in a sense. So 448 00:23:36,920 --> 00:23:38,400 I was in this space, and as soon as I 449 00:23:38,480 --> 00:23:40,480 was to think what is this, why am I here? 450 00:23:41,319 --> 00:23:44,839 I could see as if somebody something just pricked the 451 00:23:45,000 --> 00:23:47,440 darkness with a pin, you know what I mean, a 452 00:23:47,640 --> 00:23:51,000 very fine light, and then it started to spread. And 453 00:23:51,039 --> 00:23:52,680 as soon as this light started to spread and I 454 00:23:52,720 --> 00:23:57,519 was focusing on it, I had this. I could start 455 00:23:57,519 --> 00:24:00,440 to feel my physical body again. I was feeling my 456 00:24:00,480 --> 00:24:04,119 body more and more, and I didn't want to move 457 00:24:04,519 --> 00:24:06,799 because I thought to myself, I'm damn it, I'm back. 458 00:24:07,079 --> 00:24:09,039 I'm back. And the first thing that hit me like 459 00:24:09,079 --> 00:24:11,359 a ton of bricks was fear. I was like, oh 460 00:24:11,359 --> 00:24:13,559 my gosh, and I don't want to move because I 461 00:24:13,559 --> 00:24:15,519 want to hold onto this feeling. Because this feeling that 462 00:24:15,519 --> 00:24:20,079 I'm feeling, I've never felt it before. And I'm just there. 463 00:24:20,119 --> 00:24:21,920 I'm just there, and I don't want to let go 464 00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:25,039 of it. And before I went into this NDE, my 465 00:24:25,119 --> 00:24:27,039 hobby had called me, and for some reason, the phone 466 00:24:27,079 --> 00:24:29,039 picked up, so I'm hearing his voice on the phone 467 00:24:29,119 --> 00:24:32,720 in of hisy fit, pump and swallow because and I'm like, yeah, 468 00:24:32,759 --> 00:24:34,440 I don't need that, but I don't want to move. 469 00:24:34,839 --> 00:24:37,079 I don't want to let it go. And I had 470 00:24:37,079 --> 00:24:39,160 this fearful thought for a minute, like, oh my gosh, 471 00:24:39,200 --> 00:24:41,759 did I just see angels? And I saw my dad, grandmother, 472 00:24:41,839 --> 00:24:44,319 and oh my gosh, did I just see the possibilities 473 00:24:44,319 --> 00:24:47,759 and all the probabilities of Earth? And all of a sudden, 474 00:24:47,799 --> 00:24:49,599 I had this breadth and it felt as if something 475 00:24:49,640 --> 00:24:53,680 breathed me because it was just and then I had 476 00:24:53,680 --> 00:24:57,359 this knowing, Oh my gosh, that's not air, that's consciousness. 477 00:24:57,359 --> 00:25:01,440 I'm breathing so I'm always connected to sore and I 478 00:25:01,599 --> 00:25:03,440 just had this numb and everything just flooded back to me. 479 00:25:03,519 --> 00:25:06,640 I was like, oh my gosh, I did I just did. 480 00:25:06,920 --> 00:25:08,839 I went on the other side and there is no death, 481 00:25:08,839 --> 00:25:10,759 and oh my gosh, we are only going to more 482 00:25:10,920 --> 00:25:13,279 end and that res oh my gosh. But we're here 483 00:25:13,279 --> 00:25:16,599 for a reason. We're here on an assignment. And by 484 00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:18,519 that time my brother in law is coming through the door, 485 00:25:18,559 --> 00:25:21,200 and he's also in a paddic state, and I don't 486 00:25:21,200 --> 00:25:24,079 want to move, and Alex, I'm naked on the damn 487 00:25:24,119 --> 00:25:28,480 floor and I don't care about that. And he's coming 488 00:25:28,519 --> 00:25:30,079 in and said, okay, get wrapped up. We need to 489 00:25:30,079 --> 00:25:32,160 go to the hospital. And I'm trying to say, wait 490 00:25:32,240 --> 00:25:34,960 a minute, you don't understand. I just so tie because 491 00:25:34,960 --> 00:25:37,279 that's what I call my grandmother and the angels, and 492 00:25:37,319 --> 00:25:39,960 you have no idea that we don't need to worry. 493 00:25:39,960 --> 00:25:41,839 And I'm trying to explain to him and the other 494 00:25:41,880 --> 00:25:45,680 one on the phone, and nobody's listening. They said, you 495 00:25:45,720 --> 00:25:47,400 have to go. And you know what hit made The 496 00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:51,799 first thing I could feel his fear, and it hit 497 00:25:51,839 --> 00:25:53,200 me like a turn of bricks. Said, oh my gosh, 498 00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:55,279 why are you so fearful. You don't understand. We don't 499 00:25:55,319 --> 00:25:58,119 need to be fearful. Fear is the opposite of light. 500 00:25:58,279 --> 00:26:00,359 You have to let it go. Don't be fearful. And 501 00:26:00,400 --> 00:26:02,400 even if I died, it would have been okay. And 502 00:26:02,440 --> 00:26:04,599 when I said that, he went into a bigger his fit. 503 00:26:04,920 --> 00:26:07,920 Come now, and he took me to the car, and 504 00:26:08,960 --> 00:26:12,559 on my drive to the hospital it was I think 505 00:26:12,559 --> 00:26:15,480 that was probably my first drive being aware of life. 506 00:26:15,880 --> 00:26:17,799 I felt the air for the first time, and it 507 00:26:17,839 --> 00:26:20,160 was like, oh my gosh, I'm one with you. And 508 00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:21,720 I was looking at that. She's like, I'm one with 509 00:26:21,759 --> 00:26:24,759 you too, and it's like and I'm talking and he's 510 00:26:24,799 --> 00:26:28,279 getting more fearful because I'm talking these things and he's like, yep, yep, 511 00:26:28,599 --> 00:26:32,319 you lost oxygen. You there's something wrong. And I went 512 00:26:32,359 --> 00:26:34,920 to King's County Hospital and I'm trying to explain to 513 00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:37,400 the nurse the same thing. And the more I talked, 514 00:26:37,440 --> 00:26:41,160 the more people became fearful. And they eventually said, Okay, 515 00:26:41,160 --> 00:26:43,680 you had a very bad anxiety attack. Don't ever touch 516 00:26:43,720 --> 00:26:45,839 another asthma pump. And I'm like, I didn't touch it. 517 00:26:45,839 --> 00:26:49,359 It's I didn't use it. But you know what I 518 00:26:49,440 --> 00:26:53,599 found out, Alex, the NDE was peanuts. It was icing 519 00:26:53,640 --> 00:26:54,720 on the cake. It was easy. 520 00:26:54,880 --> 00:26:55,480 Speaker 1: You know what was. 521 00:26:55,440 --> 00:27:02,480 Speaker 2: Hard fitting in? Yeah, that was a challenge that that 522 00:27:02,640 --> 00:27:06,960 was what floored me coming back and I'm a Jamaican girl. 523 00:27:07,640 --> 00:27:10,880 Me I'm trying to explain to my Jamaican family, Who's saying, listen, 524 00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:13,400 I've I was brought up in the church. I had 525 00:27:13,440 --> 00:27:15,880 to go every Sunday. And I'm the one who was 526 00:27:15,880 --> 00:27:18,880 always saying, why are there so many gods? And I 527 00:27:18,960 --> 00:27:21,400 always been told to shut up, don't Why is my 528 00:27:21,480 --> 00:27:23,720 Rastafarian friends going to hell and my friend going to 529 00:27:23,799 --> 00:27:26,720 church on a Sunday? I don't get it. So now 530 00:27:26,960 --> 00:27:29,359 my mother has probably been happy that I've ever spoken 531 00:27:29,400 --> 00:27:31,799 about this in years, now, me as an adult telling 532 00:27:31,799 --> 00:27:34,839 her these things again. Oops, she says, it's the devil. 533 00:27:34,920 --> 00:27:37,400 It's the devil. I said, but Mom, you don't understand. 534 00:27:38,039 --> 00:27:41,279 I was talking to ty your mother. It's the devil. 535 00:27:41,279 --> 00:27:44,400 I'm telling you it's And it was very challenging for 536 00:27:44,480 --> 00:27:49,000 me because what I did I was kind of egotistical. 537 00:27:49,039 --> 00:27:50,720 I was kind of naughty in the first couple of 538 00:27:50,759 --> 00:27:52,599 weeks because I wanted them to know what I knew. 539 00:27:53,119 --> 00:27:56,039 So I created a family group and I was giving 540 00:27:56,039 --> 00:27:58,759 them my dreams that I was getting these predictions just 541 00:27:58,799 --> 00:28:01,400 for them and I would see them come to pass. 542 00:28:02,599 --> 00:28:05,119 Instead of making them feeling better, they were more fearful, 543 00:28:05,359 --> 00:28:08,440 where you're getting this information from? Why? Why? Why? And 544 00:28:08,519 --> 00:28:10,960 about six months after my DA, I remember, I said 545 00:28:11,119 --> 00:28:13,880 to my guides because after I came back from my ndeed, 546 00:28:14,279 --> 00:28:17,480 I'm getting more dreams. I'm talking to my guides now 547 00:28:17,519 --> 00:28:21,079 more than ever. I'm having these connections and just knowing, knowing, 548 00:28:21,160 --> 00:28:24,319 knowing and feeling how people are feeling. And they're giving 549 00:28:24,319 --> 00:28:26,839 me these downloads and they're telling me exactly how we 550 00:28:26,920 --> 00:28:29,480 can change the aspect of the earth just by choices, 551 00:28:30,240 --> 00:28:33,720 just by us finding our lights and walking on the road. 552 00:28:33,720 --> 00:28:35,599 And my guides are saying to me, don't judge them, 553 00:28:35,640 --> 00:28:38,119 look at them, try to see the light in them. 554 00:28:38,359 --> 00:28:41,039 And when you see the light, understand the shadows that 555 00:28:41,079 --> 00:28:44,759 they've picked up, a fear of limitations, of everything that 556 00:28:44,799 --> 00:28:47,680 came down in ancestry, what society says. And they're saying, 557 00:28:48,519 --> 00:28:50,759 just allow your light to shine. Be the love, be 558 00:28:50,880 --> 00:28:53,880 the light. And I said, nobody's going to listen to me. 559 00:28:53,920 --> 00:28:55,839 What are you're talking about being the love be the light. 560 00:28:55,880 --> 00:28:59,519 Who's going to listen? They said, nobody needs to listen. 561 00:28:59,599 --> 00:29:02,279 Really just need to be you just need to be 562 00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:06,000 kind first to yourself, and when things happen, be an 563 00:29:06,000 --> 00:29:09,000 observer of it. Don't judge others for what they are 564 00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:12,160 going through. They're taking their own soul path, but understand 565 00:29:12,200 --> 00:29:15,880 that the assignment of every human being is kind of muddled. 566 00:29:15,880 --> 00:29:21,200 Into three aspects, understanding how to control your body, which 567 00:29:21,279 --> 00:29:24,319 your mind has everything to do with, understanding how to 568 00:29:24,359 --> 00:29:28,440 control your emotions, and understanding how to control your energy. 569 00:29:29,519 --> 00:29:32,240 And they taught me this to understand the mind controls 570 00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:36,200 the body. But it is imprinted like this huge cpu. 571 00:29:37,319 --> 00:29:40,200 It holds onto everything that you've ever witnessed, ever learned, 572 00:29:40,240 --> 00:29:44,200 ever taught, and it becomes this beautiful what we would 573 00:29:44,240 --> 00:29:48,000 call alarm system for you. It protects you because you 574 00:29:48,119 --> 00:29:51,200 witness those and you imprinted it here to say, I'm 575 00:29:51,240 --> 00:29:53,400 a black woman, so I may never be this thing, 576 00:29:53,440 --> 00:29:55,359 so I'm going to remain safe, right hear, and I 577 00:29:55,400 --> 00:29:58,240 will settle because that's all I'm going to do. My 578 00:29:58,319 --> 00:30:02,200 ancestors struggle, so I need to st and it's imprinted here, 579 00:30:02,240 --> 00:30:05,200 and every time something happens that mirrors that frequency or 580 00:30:05,279 --> 00:30:08,759 that thought, it takes you back to that. And for me, 581 00:30:08,839 --> 00:30:10,279 I had a period in my life where I was 582 00:30:10,319 --> 00:30:14,119 abused and I imprinted it here. So I became this 583 00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:16,240 person who said yes when I knew I should say no, 584 00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:18,400 but I wanted to say yes because I wanted to 585 00:30:18,440 --> 00:30:20,960 fit in. I didn't want people to see my scars. 586 00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:23,720 And they said, until you learn to heal yourself and 587 00:30:23,759 --> 00:30:26,200 to see the light within you. No one will be 588 00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:29,079 able to see your own light. 589 00:30:29,559 --> 00:30:32,079 Speaker 1: We'll be right back after a word from our sponsor, 590 00:30:35,720 --> 00:30:36,960 and now back to the show. 591 00:30:39,599 --> 00:30:42,400 Speaker 2: And that's your process of being boot on the ground 592 00:30:43,279 --> 00:30:46,640 and ushering in this beautiful, what they call quiet revolution, 593 00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:50,559 where within your heart you start to ask these questions. 594 00:30:51,039 --> 00:30:54,799 I think I deserve more. I don't think that's working 595 00:30:54,839 --> 00:30:59,400 out for me anymore. I do have a choice. I 596 00:30:59,480 --> 00:31:02,599 don't need to own the aspects of what people call 597 00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:06,440 is God. Do you understand? And I talk about that, 598 00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:10,200 it's weird. My guides gave me the beautiful analogy. I 599 00:31:10,240 --> 00:31:13,440 remember when my mom was always volatile with me with 600 00:31:13,519 --> 00:31:16,119 these conversations. Don't talk to me about these things you're doing. 601 00:31:17,319 --> 00:31:19,599 And I remember ourchangel Michael. One day my mom called 602 00:31:19,599 --> 00:31:21,960 me about two or three years after my indeed, she said, 603 00:31:22,039 --> 00:31:24,079 I want to know about this thing that you're going 604 00:31:24,079 --> 00:31:26,799 through because if I die, I want to know that 605 00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:28,920 all four of my kids are going to the light. 606 00:31:29,319 --> 00:31:31,000 And I said, but Mom, I'm not going. Yes, you're 607 00:31:31,000 --> 00:31:33,799 following the devil because and I want to know. Explain 608 00:31:33,920 --> 00:31:37,480 this to me. And in that moment She's on the phone. 609 00:31:37,519 --> 00:31:41,160 And when our Angel Michael is within my being, when 610 00:31:41,160 --> 00:31:43,000 the essence is there, I always feel this tingle in 611 00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:44,559 my crown. It goes down my spine. And I said 612 00:31:44,559 --> 00:31:46,839 to her, I said, Mom, hold on a minute, I'm 613 00:31:46,839 --> 00:31:48,480 getting a message. And she said, I don't want to 614 00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:51,160 hear about these things wheneber. She's a Jamaican woman, strict 615 00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:53,400 in faith. And I said, just give me a minute, 616 00:31:54,599 --> 00:31:57,200 and I'll never forget this. And this is the catalyst 617 00:31:57,240 --> 00:31:59,559 of for what I represent, our Cangel Michael lives. I 618 00:31:59,559 --> 00:32:01,400 will take on this cloud. And I was looking at 619 00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:03,400 this little boy and he was pointing onto the sky, 620 00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:06,279 and I thought to myself, my gosh, if he steps over, 621 00:32:07,400 --> 00:32:10,480 he's going to fall into nivorland. Nobody's gonna be able 622 00:32:10,519 --> 00:32:12,640 to help him. And all of a sudden, Michael said, 623 00:32:12,640 --> 00:32:17,079 I don't humans shoes to always to seek for the 624 00:32:17,200 --> 00:32:22,200 Savior far away from them and high. But the Savior 625 00:32:22,359 --> 00:32:25,599 actually is within you. And he said, look. So when 626 00:32:25,640 --> 00:32:29,319 I looked I'm looking at this, I'm now earthbound and 627 00:32:29,400 --> 00:32:32,960 I see this huge mansion, this beautiful white mansion. And 628 00:32:32,960 --> 00:32:35,079 as soon as I was to think what's that, I 629 00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:37,759 was inside these doors Alex and all the way, as 630 00:32:37,799 --> 00:32:39,480 far as you can look, on both sides are these 631 00:32:39,480 --> 00:32:42,920 beautiful golden doors. And as soon as I was to 632 00:32:42,960 --> 00:32:45,119 think what's this, I was inside the first door. And 633 00:32:45,119 --> 00:32:46,680 when I went through the first door, it was the 634 00:32:46,720 --> 00:32:50,400 exact replica of my mom's church. It's an Aakan church, 635 00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:53,599 so the Catholic based and the Organs are there and everything, 636 00:32:53,640 --> 00:32:55,279 and I was like, oh my gosh, and Michael said, 637 00:32:56,200 --> 00:33:00,599 within this room, do you feel God? Was excited. I 638 00:33:00,640 --> 00:33:04,039 was like, yes, I feel God. And all of a 639 00:33:04,079 --> 00:33:05,759 sudden I was outside of that room and I was 640 00:33:05,759 --> 00:33:08,119 in another door, and within that door it was a 641 00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:10,960 different culture is I could smell the incense and there 642 00:33:10,960 --> 00:33:13,640 were the drums beating and it was just beautiful with 643 00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:17,359 the candles lit and everything. And Michael said, within this room, 644 00:33:17,920 --> 00:33:21,960 do you feel God? And I said yes, because I did. 645 00:33:22,480 --> 00:33:24,200 And I came out and there was another room and 646 00:33:24,240 --> 00:33:26,319 it was more I don't know if it's probably Indian 647 00:33:26,359 --> 00:33:28,680 base because I don't understand the culture, but it was 648 00:33:28,720 --> 00:33:31,720 more dancing and it was a different culture. But when 649 00:33:31,799 --> 00:33:33,759 he asked if I felt God in that room, I did. 650 00:33:34,720 --> 00:33:36,799 When I went to the fourth room, there was just 651 00:33:36,839 --> 00:33:40,279 this dark room. There's one big table and one chair, 652 00:33:40,279 --> 00:33:41,720 and there's a girl sitting on it and she had 653 00:33:41,720 --> 00:33:45,039 her head down like this, and she was crying. And 654 00:33:45,079 --> 00:33:47,640 I thought to myself immediately, well that doesn't fit, because 655 00:33:47,640 --> 00:33:49,839 I'm thinking I'm going to see one religion to the other. 656 00:33:50,960 --> 00:33:53,640 And I had this thought, and Michael said, every human 657 00:33:53,720 --> 00:33:56,880 being that has a perspective of what God represents to 658 00:33:56,960 --> 00:34:01,240 them creates for themselves one of these rooms. And when 659 00:34:01,279 --> 00:34:04,319 I witnessed again to look, I see these light orbs 660 00:34:04,359 --> 00:34:06,400 around this girl as though she was crying. I realized, oh, 661 00:34:06,440 --> 00:34:09,239 my god, those are angels. And I said, yes, I 662 00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:12,239 feel God in this room. And I was outside that 663 00:34:12,320 --> 00:34:14,199 room and outside the door, and I was looking at 664 00:34:14,199 --> 00:34:17,800 the mansion. And then Michael said, can you contain God 665 00:34:18,280 --> 00:34:21,119 in that mansion? And I was going to say yes, 666 00:34:21,880 --> 00:34:24,960 And immediately before I could answer, everything started to populate 667 00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:28,239 around this mansion, now, the trees and the valleys, and 668 00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:30,719 I never forget I remember hearing the birds singing. I 669 00:34:30,760 --> 00:34:34,239 was like, oh, my gosh, no, I can't contain God 670 00:34:34,280 --> 00:34:37,960 in that mansion. And I went a little bit further, 671 00:34:38,039 --> 00:34:40,199 almost as if I'm going off the earth. In the end, 672 00:34:40,519 --> 00:34:43,679 and he said look, And when I looked, there are mansions, 673 00:34:43,760 --> 00:34:47,239 just bloody, populating around. And I thought to myself, my gosh, 674 00:34:47,320 --> 00:34:50,440 is that how many religions we've got? And he said, 675 00:34:50,519 --> 00:34:56,000 can you contain God? I thought to myself, no, do 676 00:34:56,079 --> 00:34:59,159 you feel God out here? And I said yes? And 677 00:34:59,239 --> 00:35:01,719 immediately when I sai, I was further and when I 678 00:35:01,760 --> 00:35:07,440 was further up, I'm not seeing mansions anymore. I'm seeing planets. 679 00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:10,280 I'm seeing more arts populating. The next thing that I 680 00:35:10,320 --> 00:35:13,000 have there, it's a painting that I did try to 681 00:35:13,000 --> 00:35:16,800 replicate what I saw and it was just arth, just populating. 682 00:35:16,840 --> 00:35:21,119 And Michael said, do you feel God up here? I 683 00:35:21,159 --> 00:35:26,280 said yes. He said can you contain God? I said no? 684 00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:29,960 And he said, go and tell them God is everything 685 00:35:30,599 --> 00:35:36,159 everyone everywhere, cannot be contained, cannot be owned, do not 686 00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:41,280 need identification. And I'm outside of that with this big 687 00:35:41,320 --> 00:35:43,800 puff of cloud. And by then my mother is there, 688 00:35:44,280 --> 00:35:48,000 Shanny Metian, that is because she's Jamaican, and she and 689 00:35:48,079 --> 00:35:49,559 I took the phone and I said, Mom, I have 690 00:35:49,719 --> 00:35:52,960 exactly what to tell you. Even now she laughs about 691 00:35:52,960 --> 00:35:56,079 this and alex I explained to her everything that the 692 00:35:56,119 --> 00:35:58,000 angel just showed me, and she was quiet for the 693 00:35:58,039 --> 00:35:59,880 first time in all these years because my mother. You 694 00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:02,519 don't talk to her about religion without door. You're not 695 00:36:02,559 --> 00:36:05,199 supposed to say word. Correct yourself, that's not the right 696 00:36:05,199 --> 00:36:07,960 word to say. She was quiet the whole time, and 697 00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:11,559 she listened to everything I said, and then she just said, 698 00:36:11,679 --> 00:36:14,199 all right, then talk to you tomorrow. That was it. 699 00:36:16,039 --> 00:36:20,239 That was it, And ever since that day she doesn't 700 00:36:20,280 --> 00:36:22,199 have the fear of this thing anymore. I don't know 701 00:36:22,239 --> 00:36:25,039 what happened. I don't know what frequency she received, but 702 00:36:25,119 --> 00:36:28,079 she just gets it. And ever since that they have 703 00:36:28,199 --> 00:36:31,400 never had to argue with her about anything that I'm doing. 704 00:36:32,280 --> 00:36:35,599 She's just comfortable with it. She doesn't ask me how 705 00:36:35,639 --> 00:36:38,079 I do it, but she would just say, okay, so 706 00:36:38,159 --> 00:36:41,760 what's happening now. She actually asked these questions now, and 707 00:36:41,800 --> 00:36:46,440 she's okay with where I am and how she understood it. 708 00:36:46,440 --> 00:36:50,039 Don't ask me, but just that analogy that I gave 709 00:36:50,119 --> 00:36:52,480 to her, And I thought to myself, oh my gosh, 710 00:36:52,559 --> 00:36:57,760 this explains so much of us trying to contain something 711 00:36:57,800 --> 00:37:02,079 that's uncontainable, of us trying to strip ourselves from our 712 00:37:02,119 --> 00:37:04,760 own rights of understanding that we are already like we 713 00:37:04,800 --> 00:37:08,119 are aspects of God. No need to try to put 714 00:37:08,119 --> 00:37:10,440 a name on it. Oh my gosh, let alone try 715 00:37:10,480 --> 00:37:14,280 to put it in a room. And that for me 716 00:37:14,360 --> 00:37:18,519 is something that is what the world needs to understand. Now, 717 00:37:20,239 --> 00:37:22,320 what the world needs to understand. We don't need to 718 00:37:22,559 --> 00:37:25,800 keep building these walls and separating ourselves. That's why we 719 00:37:25,880 --> 00:37:29,800 have so much chaos going on. That's why we don't 720 00:37:29,920 --> 00:37:32,079 see the other person as a mirror of for ourselves, 721 00:37:32,079 --> 00:37:34,639 and we just think they don't deserve. But the minute 722 00:37:34,639 --> 00:37:36,760 you think somebody doesn't deserve to be here, is that 723 00:37:36,880 --> 00:37:40,119 moment that you choose to also put darkness on yourself. 724 00:37:41,239 --> 00:37:43,639 So why not choose to be boots on the ground 725 00:37:45,320 --> 00:37:48,840 and know that this ecosystem that we lived in, it's 726 00:37:48,880 --> 00:37:53,119 a place for us to simply expand. This ecosystem self 727 00:37:53,239 --> 00:37:56,679 sustains us. But we're the only ones who separate ourselves 728 00:37:56,679 --> 00:38:00,559 from this earth, the plants, the animals, everybody he lives 729 00:38:00,559 --> 00:38:04,079 within that ecosystem. Of understanding, we are selves sustained, but 730 00:38:04,159 --> 00:38:07,920 we separate ourselves with fear, when with doubt and with identity. 731 00:38:07,960 --> 00:38:11,199 I want to be this one thing, and I don't 732 00:38:11,199 --> 00:38:13,480 care what you are or what you are going to be. 733 00:38:13,800 --> 00:38:17,719 This ecosystem welcomes us. And that's why it's funny when 734 00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:22,000 I have any connections with Gya Gaya always says, it's 735 00:38:22,039 --> 00:38:24,159 time for you to understand we are going through the 736 00:38:24,199 --> 00:38:27,480 phase of the quiet revolution, and always say, what's that. 737 00:38:28,400 --> 00:38:31,320 It's a quiet, subtle whisper in your heart that says 738 00:38:32,119 --> 00:38:34,920 it's time. It's time for me to step out of 739 00:38:35,239 --> 00:38:38,199 this job that I'm doing that's completely depleting me. It's 740 00:38:38,199 --> 00:38:41,400 time for me to speak up my truth. It's time 741 00:38:41,440 --> 00:38:45,559 for me to understand that we deserve freedom, freedom of thoughts, 742 00:38:46,239 --> 00:38:50,239 freedom of knowing that the fear is simply an entity 743 00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:53,719 of darkness that does not belong with us. And in 744 00:38:53,840 --> 00:38:56,039 order for us to have peace on this earth, we 745 00:38:56,119 --> 00:38:59,800 must firstly find a peace within ourselves, and that starts 746 00:38:59,840 --> 00:39:04,000 here from our heart understanding. I am love, Oh my gosh, 747 00:39:04,119 --> 00:39:07,159 I'm not separated from source, universe, God, whatever you want 748 00:39:07,159 --> 00:39:10,880 to call it. But I am the walking example of God. Yes, 749 00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:13,840 we're all these and mass as we speak about we 750 00:39:13,960 --> 00:39:16,920 love them so much, we've never met them. But what 751 00:39:17,000 --> 00:39:18,920 about thinking that the aspect of them is in the 752 00:39:19,000 --> 00:39:21,199 child that you just pass on the street, or the 753 00:39:21,280 --> 00:39:24,800 mother with a beautiful child who's just going through a 754 00:39:24,920 --> 00:39:29,119 tantrum that you're judging in your mind energetically. Have you 755 00:39:29,239 --> 00:39:31,679 felt for a moment what that energy does to that 756 00:39:31,800 --> 00:39:35,280 child and that mother. Could you not instead choose to 757 00:39:35,320 --> 00:39:38,440 be within the space and say, I send support and 758 00:39:38,599 --> 00:39:41,840 love to that beautiful being who is a mirror of me, 759 00:39:43,000 --> 00:39:47,800 who is showing me a different aspect of love. Yeah, 760 00:39:47,920 --> 00:39:51,440 my perspective changed a whole lot coming back, because I 761 00:39:51,480 --> 00:39:53,519 don't see people the same way anymore. 762 00:39:54,119 --> 00:39:55,760 Speaker 1: When you were on the other side, First of all, 763 00:39:56,000 --> 00:39:58,880 how did you die? You just said the air just stopped, 764 00:39:58,880 --> 00:39:59,679 Like I just. 765 00:39:59,599 --> 00:40:02,039 Speaker 2: Stopped, and I'm still trying to find who cut it off. 766 00:40:02,400 --> 00:40:07,599 That was it. I stopped breathing. My throat just locked 767 00:40:07,639 --> 00:40:10,920 off and I couldn't get breath. And when I went 768 00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:12,800 to King's County, the only thing they could have said 769 00:40:12,840 --> 00:40:15,840 it was a It was a bad anxiety attack. That 770 00:40:16,000 --> 00:40:16,400 was it. 771 00:40:16,880 --> 00:40:18,320 Speaker 1: That's the hell of an anxiety attack. 772 00:40:18,559 --> 00:40:25,119 Speaker 2: You're kidding me. I just don't know. That's all that happened. 773 00:40:25,199 --> 00:40:28,519 I wasn't sick before, nothing happened. There was nothing wrong 774 00:40:28,559 --> 00:40:28,800 with me. 775 00:40:29,440 --> 00:40:31,199 Speaker 1: When you were on the other side, you said there 776 00:40:31,199 --> 00:40:33,360 was a crystal city. I've heard of this crystal city 777 00:40:33,400 --> 00:40:37,039 before what else did you see besides like, did you 778 00:40:37,400 --> 00:40:40,039 what are the details? Did you see plants? Did you 779 00:40:40,039 --> 00:40:42,920 see animals? Did you see breath? Gosh, what did you see? 780 00:40:43,119 --> 00:40:45,719 Speaker 2: It's like it was recreating itself. That's where I wanted 781 00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:48,880 to go. So I'm looking at these crystal cities and 782 00:40:48,960 --> 00:40:52,400 the lights were changing, lights that I've never seen here before. 783 00:40:54,000 --> 00:40:56,519 Speaker 1: We'll be right back after a word from our sponsor 784 00:41:00,159 --> 00:41:01,400 and now back to the show. 785 00:41:03,880 --> 00:41:06,559 Speaker 2: But they were pointy, but also beyond that they were 786 00:41:06,639 --> 00:41:10,679 like domes, like dome apparatus, but it's like some of 787 00:41:10,679 --> 00:41:12,719 them it seems as if they're crystal, but it's paved 788 00:41:12,719 --> 00:41:15,639 with gold. And beyond it, I could see these beautiful 789 00:41:15,639 --> 00:41:17,760 waterfalls and you can know when you go through there, 790 00:41:17,800 --> 00:41:21,440 there's like another world. And that's just what I wanted 791 00:41:21,480 --> 00:41:21,920 to go to. 792 00:41:22,239 --> 00:41:22,679 Speaker 1: It just. 793 00:41:24,639 --> 00:41:27,119 Speaker 2: Man, if that's what we're looking forward to to go, 794 00:41:27,199 --> 00:41:32,320 I'm gay. I'm gay, Alex. It was just calling me. 795 00:41:32,440 --> 00:41:35,679 But it was just this beautiful space and all you 796 00:41:35,719 --> 00:41:38,800 can see is just you know, it just felt as 797 00:41:38,800 --> 00:41:41,320 if the city was alive. Is if it's calling you, 798 00:41:41,400 --> 00:41:45,559 it's like it can created sales and change forms. Because 799 00:41:45,559 --> 00:41:49,119 I'm looking at this Crystal city, It's like it keeps expanding, expanding, 800 00:41:49,159 --> 00:41:52,480 beyond this doorway that I'm looking through. You just want 801 00:41:52,519 --> 00:41:53,800 to go there and be one with it. 802 00:41:54,159 --> 00:41:57,800 Speaker 1: How did you when you were when you were there, 803 00:41:58,719 --> 00:42:01,239 did you so you basically we went through a life review. 804 00:42:02,000 --> 00:42:04,320 You were instant. You were instantly there, right, you were 805 00:42:04,320 --> 00:42:06,199 instantly when you went to this side. It was like 806 00:42:06,199 --> 00:42:09,039 once you stopped breathing, you did you oversee your body 807 00:42:09,519 --> 00:42:13,320 or you just were out? No, you were just there. No, yeah, okay, 808 00:42:13,360 --> 00:42:15,000 so when you were on when you were there, you 809 00:42:15,559 --> 00:42:18,199 kind of get thrown into a life review kind of 810 00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:23,599 kind of, and then you you start recognizing angels. But 811 00:42:23,679 --> 00:42:25,320 you said that you were kind of raised in it 812 00:42:25,480 --> 00:42:28,480 by the church, so a Catholic kind of upbringing, so 813 00:42:28,559 --> 00:42:30,559 you knew of angels, but. 814 00:42:32,000 --> 00:42:34,840 Speaker 2: Not so many. Absolutely, not so many. 815 00:42:35,079 --> 00:42:36,440 Speaker 1: And you could have named them if you, if you 816 00:42:36,719 --> 00:42:37,400 if it. 817 00:42:37,239 --> 00:42:40,239 Speaker 2: Was Yeah, it was like going back, you know, you 818 00:42:40,360 --> 00:42:43,280 go into this high school reunion and you remember all 819 00:42:43,360 --> 00:42:46,039 your old friends. That's exactly how it felt to me. 820 00:42:46,119 --> 00:42:47,599 It was like, oh my gosh, so I'm here and 821 00:42:47,599 --> 00:42:51,239 it was like a celebration. Finally she's here. That's how 822 00:42:51,280 --> 00:42:53,000 it felt that was amazing to me. 823 00:42:54,119 --> 00:42:56,880 Speaker 1: And obviously nothing but love is all you feel. 824 00:42:59,079 --> 00:43:01,400 Speaker 2: That's why I take this with bread so often, because 825 00:43:01,480 --> 00:43:03,760 every so often I do this spread that my guide 826 00:43:03,840 --> 00:43:06,480 taught me when I was doing the self healing inhaling 827 00:43:06,559 --> 00:43:11,599 through your nose and exhaling through your mouth, and within 828 00:43:11,639 --> 00:43:15,000 that moment, it kind of gives me that rush that 829 00:43:15,079 --> 00:43:18,639 I felt back there, of the energy kind of building 830 00:43:18,639 --> 00:43:20,840 building within me. It kind of reminded me, Oh, You're 831 00:43:20,880 --> 00:43:23,480 more than this body, and it gives me this imprint, 832 00:43:23,920 --> 00:43:25,920 just a subtle imprint of what I felt on the 833 00:43:25,960 --> 00:43:26,639 other side. 834 00:43:28,280 --> 00:43:33,199 Speaker 1: Was there? What was color like there? Because I've heard different. 835 00:43:33,320 --> 00:43:35,920 There's colors that you can't even explain, Alex. 836 00:43:35,960 --> 00:43:39,840 Speaker 2: I've tried to recreate it. It doesn't exist. I came 837 00:43:39,880 --> 00:43:43,880 back painting and I didn't paint before, and I'm trying 838 00:43:43,880 --> 00:43:46,039 to paint to paint to paint to get the colors, 839 00:43:46,079 --> 00:43:49,440 and I'm mixing colors and everything is just amplified on 840 00:43:49,480 --> 00:43:53,039 the other side. So white is not just white that 841 00:43:53,119 --> 00:43:55,239 we look on. It's like white, but it's as if 842 00:43:55,280 --> 00:43:59,119 if you touch it, you go into it. It's just different. 843 00:44:00,199 --> 00:44:05,519 Everything is amplified. The colors are just nothing that I've 844 00:44:05,519 --> 00:44:07,199 seen so far on this side? 845 00:44:07,880 --> 00:44:08,519 Speaker 1: Was there music? 846 00:44:10,039 --> 00:44:12,519 Speaker 2: Hummin? I didn't hear music. 847 00:44:12,960 --> 00:44:16,639 Speaker 1: I heard hmm yeah, almost like like a vibration almost. 848 00:44:16,880 --> 00:44:20,519 Speaker 2: It's just it's humming. And when you do it on 849 00:44:20,559 --> 00:44:23,960 this side, if you're subtle enough, you kind of get 850 00:44:23,960 --> 00:44:27,440 those type of energies. It was just the most beautiful humming. 851 00:44:27,840 --> 00:44:30,840 Speaker 1: So when you when you came back, what did you 852 00:44:30,880 --> 00:44:33,679 come back with? Obviously you said you came back with painting, 853 00:44:34,199 --> 00:44:38,239 the ability to paint. Obviously you're in a different level consciously, 854 00:44:38,800 --> 00:44:42,079 you have a different perspective on life. This happens the 855 00:44:42,079 --> 00:44:44,119 most near death experiencers. They go and they come back 856 00:44:44,159 --> 00:44:47,519 and they're completely different people. What other abilities did you 857 00:44:47,559 --> 00:44:50,119 bring back? Because I've heard you say in passing that 858 00:44:50,159 --> 00:44:53,119 you're connecting with your guides, that you're you're getting messages 859 00:44:53,559 --> 00:44:56,559 like are you channeling? Are you me a psychic? 860 00:44:56,719 --> 00:44:56,800 Speaker 2: Like? 861 00:44:56,840 --> 00:44:58,039 Speaker 1: What what has come back? 862 00:44:58,679 --> 00:45:01,960 Speaker 2: I came back channeling, okay, And I didn't know that 863 00:45:02,000 --> 00:45:07,679 I was doing it. I after my NDE, because of 864 00:45:07,719 --> 00:45:10,039 everything that I went through, I really started to shut 865 00:45:10,119 --> 00:45:11,840 up because I didn't want to talk about this. It 866 00:45:11,880 --> 00:45:14,960 was too weird, and I'm getting these predictions and dreams 867 00:45:15,000 --> 00:45:18,719 and I'm doing automatic writing and I'm getting all these information, 868 00:45:18,840 --> 00:45:22,119 and I remember about six months in, I was upset. 869 00:45:22,159 --> 00:45:23,920 I said, I don't want to keep getting these dreams, 870 00:45:24,000 --> 00:45:26,079 this information because I don't know what to do with them. 871 00:45:26,119 --> 00:45:27,840 What am I doing with them? At the time, I 872 00:45:27,880 --> 00:45:30,400 had three hundred and fifty six followers on my YouTube 873 00:45:30,639 --> 00:45:34,079 and I'm not much for video. And I remember I 874 00:45:34,119 --> 00:45:35,719 went to this phrase and my guide said to me, 875 00:45:36,400 --> 00:45:38,960 we will do your marketer. If you are the lighthouse, 876 00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:41,840 all you need to do is be And about a 877 00:45:41,840 --> 00:45:44,119 week after that, I got a call from Dick Dingus 878 00:45:44,239 --> 00:45:49,000 from he's a member of Ions and don't Alex, I 879 00:45:49,000 --> 00:45:51,719 don't know how these things. I don't know how these 880 00:45:51,760 --> 00:45:53,880 things replicate themselves. I don't know how they're set up. 881 00:45:54,239 --> 00:45:55,719 But he called me and he said, you know what, 882 00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:58,519 your NDE was a part of our newsletter off the month. 883 00:45:58,559 --> 00:46:01,000 I wondering if you'd sit down with us in a meeting, 884 00:46:01,039 --> 00:46:03,039 a zoom meeting with you know, people who are studying 885 00:46:03,039 --> 00:46:08,320 in DAS. On that first sit down with them, archangel 886 00:46:08,320 --> 00:46:15,320 Michael spoke through me. They were excited. I was freaked out. 887 00:46:15,719 --> 00:46:19,119 What did their lights just happen? And it just flowed. 888 00:46:19,679 --> 00:46:21,679 And I remember that night in meditation. I was like, 889 00:46:21,760 --> 00:46:25,719 what was that. They said, well, it's your initiation. Prepare 890 00:46:25,760 --> 00:46:29,440 yourself to speak only that which is holy and true. 891 00:46:30,119 --> 00:46:32,880 And on my second meeting with them, Guya came through 892 00:46:34,360 --> 00:46:36,000 and I was like, Guya is a thing that you 893 00:46:36,039 --> 00:46:38,039 can I didn't know. I didn't know that was an 894 00:46:38,119 --> 00:46:42,119 essence and Guya came through so beautifully, and then I realized, 895 00:46:42,119 --> 00:46:45,400 oh my gosh, if when you surrender and you allow 896 00:46:45,480 --> 00:46:47,519 yourself to be this empty conduit, this is the way, 897 00:46:47,559 --> 00:46:49,519 they explained to me. You allow yourself to simply be 898 00:46:50,960 --> 00:46:55,320 an empty container, and you relax yourself and you trust, 899 00:46:56,800 --> 00:47:00,400 and you will allow messages of holiness and truth to flow. True, 900 00:47:00,599 --> 00:47:05,159 it will happen, and that's been happening ever since. So 901 00:47:05,360 --> 00:47:09,519 during those sessions with these Aides members, then people were 902 00:47:09,519 --> 00:47:11,800 there and they were talking about probably things happening in 903 00:47:11,840 --> 00:47:14,679 their life, and another guide would come through. Another angel 904 00:47:14,679 --> 00:47:16,639 will come through and tell them, okay, what you need 905 00:47:16,679 --> 00:47:19,280 to do, not telling them how to fix their lives, 906 00:47:19,280 --> 00:47:21,800 but giving them guidance. And I thought to myself, that's 907 00:47:21,880 --> 00:47:24,159 very interesting because I don't know this person. How did 908 00:47:24,199 --> 00:47:27,519 I know to say that, and I just started to trust. 909 00:47:27,519 --> 00:47:30,000 And I remember said to me one day, Nikki, you 910 00:47:30,000 --> 00:47:31,920 are gonna have to talk to people. You can't just 911 00:47:31,960 --> 00:47:35,960 do this here. And I said to myself, I'm not 912 00:47:36,000 --> 00:47:39,079 reaching out to anybody, No, absolutely not. And then it 913 00:47:39,199 --> 00:47:41,679 just started to duplicate. I got a call one day, 914 00:47:42,199 --> 00:47:44,440 and an email and then a call, and then people 915 00:47:44,480 --> 00:47:46,239 are asking me, we want to talk to you about 916 00:47:46,239 --> 00:47:50,800 this experience. And one of Dick's friends said to me, 917 00:47:50,960 --> 00:47:52,360 can you do a one on one with me? And 918 00:47:52,400 --> 00:47:54,440 I said, okay, because I have no clue what I'm doing. 919 00:47:54,519 --> 00:47:59,679 I don't know. And I just sat there and I allowed, 920 00:48:00,079 --> 00:48:01,920 and the messages came through for her, and I was like, 921 00:48:02,559 --> 00:48:05,840 that's kind of cool too, because I don't know this 922 00:48:05,920 --> 00:48:09,119 woman and he's telling her information and she's validating and say, yes, yes, 923 00:48:09,159 --> 00:48:11,639 that's my daughter, and this is the thing that Yes, 924 00:48:11,679 --> 00:48:14,880 you're right, and thank you. And my guide said you 925 00:48:14,960 --> 00:48:19,079 want to speak what is holy and true, allow yourself 926 00:48:19,119 --> 00:48:22,119 to be a messenger of truth. And then I said, okay, 927 00:48:22,320 --> 00:48:25,159 bloody surrender. But I'm still not going out there to 928 00:48:25,199 --> 00:48:28,519 market myself. And this interview that I'm doing with you 929 00:48:28,639 --> 00:48:31,079 right now, I've done this interview with you at least 930 00:48:31,079 --> 00:48:35,360 twice in my head. Don't ask me how it manifested itself. 931 00:48:36,320 --> 00:48:39,400 But yeah, I came back with these and I don't 932 00:48:39,440 --> 00:48:41,400 want to call them abilities because what my guide show 933 00:48:41,440 --> 00:48:45,920 me is every single person channels anyway, and it's beautiful. 934 00:48:45,960 --> 00:48:47,840 I have people sitting across the screen from me and 935 00:48:47,840 --> 00:48:50,119 they're saying, what's my purpose? What am I supposed to do? 936 00:48:50,159 --> 00:48:53,159 And I'm like, well, you're channeling. You know, when you 937 00:48:53,280 --> 00:48:57,440 mix those fragrances together and you get lost in time, 938 00:48:57,880 --> 00:49:00,280 your guides want you to know in that time, just 939 00:49:00,360 --> 00:49:04,440 you is doing it. You're bringing forward beautiful essences and 940 00:49:04,760 --> 00:49:08,360 energies that the person who will receive it, when they 941 00:49:08,400 --> 00:49:11,079 smell it, it brings them exactly what they need in 942 00:49:11,079 --> 00:49:12,920 that moment because you're doing it from your heart and 943 00:49:12,960 --> 00:49:16,840 you're allowing yourself to channel exactly what needs to go 944 00:49:16,920 --> 00:49:19,320 to that individual. When you paint and you get lost 945 00:49:19,360 --> 00:49:22,760 in time, that painting that you did, when the recipient 946 00:49:22,840 --> 00:49:27,119 receives it, it was orchestrated perfectly by your guides and theirs. 947 00:49:27,119 --> 00:49:30,400 Every time they look on it, they understand their overcoming. 948 00:49:30,880 --> 00:49:33,239 Everything that you do. When you get lost in time, 949 00:49:33,760 --> 00:49:37,760 your creative aspects. Anything that you do that's like child's 950 00:49:37,760 --> 00:49:41,239 play that allows you to get lost in time. You're 951 00:49:41,320 --> 00:49:45,280 channeling you when you are doing this beautiful thing that 952 00:49:45,320 --> 00:49:48,320 you do, you get lost in time. You stepped up 953 00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:52,840 to a big plate. You're channeling because you allow only 954 00:49:52,880 --> 00:49:55,599 what's wally and true to get out there. And those 955 00:49:55,639 --> 00:49:59,079 who allow themselves not to just listen, to react, allow 956 00:49:59,159 --> 00:50:04,000 themselves to fee the energies that comes from it becomes 957 00:50:04,039 --> 00:50:07,920 their own lighthouses, because it starts to strip away these 958 00:50:07,920 --> 00:50:10,159 shadows that they picked up over time to said I 959 00:50:10,199 --> 00:50:14,400 can't I don't deserve, I must struggle, I am abused, 960 00:50:14,639 --> 00:50:16,960 I am all these things and all these fear. When 961 00:50:17,039 --> 00:50:20,440 you do what you do and allow us to do 962 00:50:20,519 --> 00:50:24,599 what we do, it slowly starts to almost wash away 963 00:50:24,639 --> 00:50:28,559 the mud from people who are walking in this earth 964 00:50:28,639 --> 00:50:32,159 not loving other people because they just don't understand how 965 00:50:32,199 --> 00:50:33,679 to love themselves. They don't remember. 966 00:50:35,440 --> 00:50:37,960 Speaker 1: We'll be right back after a word from our sponsor, 967 00:50:41,599 --> 00:50:42,840 and now back to the show. 968 00:50:45,440 --> 00:50:49,880 Speaker 2: And something, some frequency, some word, a picture, whatever it 969 00:50:50,000 --> 00:50:53,840 is awakens that dormant DNA in a sense, and it 970 00:50:53,840 --> 00:50:57,880 allows them to almost be breathed and say, oh my gosh, 971 00:50:58,079 --> 00:51:00,559 this addiction that I've been holding onto, it really doesn't 972 00:51:00,599 --> 00:51:05,239 serve me, this habit that I have, and it allows them. Finally, 973 00:51:05,920 --> 00:51:08,360 my guides always say, take this twelve inch journey from 974 00:51:08,400 --> 00:51:10,840 your head to your heart. It's getting out of your 975 00:51:10,840 --> 00:51:14,440 headspace for a moment, allowing your heart to whisper loud 976 00:51:14,519 --> 00:51:17,840 enough to say you deserve to live. You now, you 977 00:51:17,920 --> 00:51:22,599 are here for a purpose. Life is not hard on you. 978 00:51:22,599 --> 00:51:27,760 You are hard on life. So live. And it's in 979 00:51:27,800 --> 00:51:30,639 those moments you realize, oh my gosh, So I don't 980 00:51:30,719 --> 00:51:33,599 need to judge a person who's been mean and atrocious. 981 00:51:34,280 --> 00:51:36,239 All they asked me to do is add light to 982 00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:38,599 the situation. So how do I react to you has 983 00:51:38,639 --> 00:51:43,000 been mean? And Mother Mary taught me this some time ago. 984 00:51:43,480 --> 00:51:45,400 I was having a session with a lady and I 985 00:51:45,440 --> 00:51:47,880 remember Mother Mary was showing me a whole pack of 986 00:51:47,920 --> 00:51:50,760 Benjamin's money and she said, ask her this, And I said, 987 00:51:50,760 --> 00:51:52,400 if you go to a store, will you take all 988 00:51:52,440 --> 00:51:53,800 your money and just give it to them and say 989 00:51:53,800 --> 00:51:56,559 give me all those things that I absolutely detest? And 990 00:51:56,599 --> 00:52:00,800 the woman said absolutely not. So Mother Mary said, well, 991 00:52:00,840 --> 00:52:04,119 why do you just freely give away your energy currency? 992 00:52:04,800 --> 00:52:07,280 Do you not know that's the main currency that you 993 00:52:07,440 --> 00:52:10,800 need to be withholding. And she didn't understand, and she said, well, 994 00:52:10,840 --> 00:52:13,880 every time you say yes to something when you know 995 00:52:13,920 --> 00:52:15,920 in your heart you should have said no, you give 996 00:52:15,960 --> 00:52:19,239 away pennies. And every time you make a choice of 997 00:52:19,280 --> 00:52:21,960 not pouring into yourself, Oh my gosh, I could just 998 00:52:22,000 --> 00:52:24,360 take five minutes break today, you say, oh no, no, no, 999 00:52:24,440 --> 00:52:26,760 I have to because I have to do this amount 1000 00:52:26,800 --> 00:52:29,199 of time start. She says, well, you give away hundreds 1001 00:52:29,239 --> 00:52:32,480 within your energy currency. And she say every time you 1002 00:52:32,599 --> 00:52:35,199 choose to react to something just because you are triggered, 1003 00:52:36,199 --> 00:52:39,679 and you react to in news whatever it is, or 1004 00:52:39,719 --> 00:52:43,599 a conversation somebody's having, or somebody's own choice of reacting, 1005 00:52:44,280 --> 00:52:46,920 and you input darkness with into that, you gave away 1006 00:52:46,960 --> 00:52:50,079 thousands of your energy currency. Well how much more do 1007 00:52:50,119 --> 00:52:52,360 you want to give? Do you want to completely deplete yourself? 1008 00:52:52,360 --> 00:52:56,000 And the lady was like, absolutely not. And I love 1009 00:52:56,079 --> 00:53:00,679 that analogy because we forget about our energy, and we 1010 00:53:00,800 --> 00:53:04,800 forget about how much it impacts the world and how 1011 00:53:04,880 --> 00:53:07,519 much everything that happens really is a sole test, no 1012 00:53:07,559 --> 00:53:11,480 matter how atrocious and how sudden and how chaotic it is. 1013 00:53:12,079 --> 00:53:15,639 So now you have a choice. How do I react 1014 00:53:15,639 --> 00:53:19,880 to this situation, the chaosity, news, the propaganda, whatever it is, 1015 00:53:19,920 --> 00:53:22,760 how do I react to it? Do I join and 1016 00:53:22,800 --> 00:53:25,920 take sides and start to point fingers because when you 1017 00:53:25,960 --> 00:53:28,599 do that, you're adding energies of darkness within it. Does 1018 00:53:28,639 --> 00:53:31,679 it help or do you simply become an observer of 1019 00:53:31,719 --> 00:53:34,119 what's happening? To say, you know what, it's very interesting 1020 00:53:34,159 --> 00:53:35,599 that they chose to do this, But you know what, 1021 00:53:35,679 --> 00:53:38,599 I send prayer, I send love, I send healing, whatever 1022 00:53:38,599 --> 00:53:41,480 it is, how do you want to react to? This 1023 00:53:41,559 --> 00:53:45,599 world reflects the world that you live. So they say, 1024 00:53:45,679 --> 00:53:48,000 if we want to see the world change, we'll start 1025 00:53:48,079 --> 00:53:51,960 changing it by the very thoughts that you hold and 1026 00:53:52,000 --> 00:53:53,920 by the things that you see and how you see 1027 00:53:53,960 --> 00:53:55,920 people as oh my gosh, they're not a part of me. 1028 00:53:56,000 --> 00:53:58,679 So I'm going to walk around with eyes white shirt 1029 00:53:58,719 --> 00:54:00,280 because I don't care what happens. 1030 00:54:00,280 --> 00:54:03,280 Speaker 1: That what is? What does your family say about all this? 1031 00:54:03,320 --> 00:54:06,039 Because you are apparently very public at this point with it. 1032 00:54:07,880 --> 00:54:10,239 Speaker 2: Not everyone in my family is one hundred percent with it, 1033 00:54:11,000 --> 00:54:13,360 because not all the topics are things that they are 1034 00:54:14,079 --> 00:54:16,719 used to. And it's a fear. Also, it's a fair 1035 00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:18,920 because if I'm going to listen to these things that 1036 00:54:18,920 --> 00:54:21,480 you're saying and acknowledge it. Then I have to let 1037 00:54:21,559 --> 00:54:23,320 go of all these things that I've learned before. And 1038 00:54:23,400 --> 00:54:26,599 that's pretty fearful, of course, because the majority of my 1039 00:54:26,639 --> 00:54:28,639 family is okay with it, but not all of them. 1040 00:54:28,760 --> 00:54:33,159 And it's okay because they're not ready yet. And it's 1041 00:54:33,199 --> 00:54:36,920 not just for my family, it's for all families. And 1042 00:54:36,960 --> 00:54:39,719 we have to gracefully have compassion for people for where 1043 00:54:39,760 --> 00:54:43,159 they are now in their own soul growth. But does 1044 00:54:43,199 --> 00:54:45,400 that mean you need to shrink your light and shut up? 1045 00:54:45,639 --> 00:54:47,320 This girl is not shut it up anymore. 1046 00:54:49,320 --> 00:54:51,880 Speaker 1: For those who fear death, do you have any advice 1047 00:54:52,400 --> 00:54:53,880 or what would you like to say for them to 1048 00:54:53,960 --> 00:54:57,199 understand what's going to happen when they pass. 1049 00:54:57,559 --> 00:55:00,800 Speaker 2: Death has no finality to it, as much as the 1050 00:55:01,440 --> 00:55:05,840 human physicality that we are says death is just something 1051 00:55:05,920 --> 00:55:10,159 that allows you to be gone. There is simply an 1052 00:55:10,199 --> 00:55:14,119 expansion of death. Your life, the way you live it 1053 00:55:14,159 --> 00:55:16,880 now is simply allowing yourself to walk on this beautiful 1054 00:55:17,840 --> 00:55:21,440 let's say, beautiful beach and just dab in your feet 1055 00:55:21,440 --> 00:55:23,639 in sand, and the angels would say, you have your 1056 00:55:23,639 --> 00:55:26,119 opportunities to build as many sand castles as you want, 1057 00:55:26,159 --> 00:55:28,760 as you live this life, and you're going to find 1058 00:55:28,840 --> 00:55:32,840 rocks on this speech, on this beautiful sand of fears 1059 00:55:32,960 --> 00:55:37,000 and fear mongering and bloodthirst and all these things it says, 1060 00:55:37,039 --> 00:55:40,719 you know what, it keeps you away from living. You 1061 00:55:40,920 --> 00:55:43,920 are free to pick them up and experience them, experience 1062 00:55:43,920 --> 00:55:47,519 the heartbreak and the pain. Please don't own them. Acknowledge 1063 00:55:47,559 --> 00:55:50,760 that it's simply something somebody threw off a stage where 1064 00:55:50,880 --> 00:55:54,199 they had their own scenes that they played. And as 1065 00:55:54,239 --> 00:55:56,880 you take this beautiful journey and you choose to now 1066 00:55:57,159 --> 00:55:59,519 step into the infinite waters of life, which is what 1067 00:55:59,559 --> 00:56:03,360 we call the death, acknowledge that you step into more, 1068 00:56:04,000 --> 00:56:07,400 but more without the physical body to experience the emotions 1069 00:56:07,440 --> 00:56:11,320 that you fail to balance here. So there's no finality 1070 00:56:11,360 --> 00:56:14,000 to that. It's simply going back to source, going back 1071 00:56:14,039 --> 00:56:19,159 to love that is so unconditional, going back to being 1072 00:56:19,360 --> 00:56:24,639 limited less. So worry not about oh my gosh, I'm 1073 00:56:24,679 --> 00:56:27,280 living to die. That is a muster that will come. 1074 00:56:28,079 --> 00:56:30,679 Think about how do I express myself while I have 1075 00:56:30,760 --> 00:56:37,599 this physical body to balance my body which my mind controls, 1076 00:56:38,119 --> 00:56:42,360 and to also balance my emotions. How do I think? 1077 00:56:42,440 --> 00:56:45,639 How do I choose to react, and how do I 1078 00:56:45,719 --> 00:56:49,800 also balance my energy? How much do I allow myself 1079 00:56:49,840 --> 00:56:52,519 to be guided? How much do I allow myself to 1080 00:56:52,519 --> 00:56:57,400 see truth into every situation and not be judgmental and 1081 00:56:57,480 --> 00:57:00,239 always remembering that the love that we seek god side 1082 00:57:00,239 --> 00:57:05,400 of ourselves really isn't out there, It's here, very very true. 1083 00:57:06,199 --> 00:57:07,840 Speaker 1: Where can people find out more about you and the 1084 00:57:07,840 --> 00:57:09,119 amazing work you're doing in the world. 1085 00:57:10,440 --> 00:57:15,400 Speaker 2: Well, I have a website now, sol Deep Consciousness, Do Love, 1086 00:57:16,079 --> 00:57:18,840 and my YouTube channel is in my name, Nikisha Barrel. 1087 00:57:19,039 --> 00:57:21,400 These are the places that you will go to seeing me, 1088 00:57:22,679 --> 00:57:25,679 and you'll have an opportunity to join our very new, 1089 00:57:25,760 --> 00:57:29,840 beautiful Soul Shift Academy, which is just a beautiful space 1090 00:57:29,880 --> 00:57:35,119 for us to speak, you know, freely and not go 1091 00:57:35,199 --> 00:57:37,599 through you know what we went through when we had 1092 00:57:37,639 --> 00:57:40,440 people thinking that we're going on the dark side where 1093 00:57:40,440 --> 00:57:42,800 we freely can learn to evolve and grow. 1094 00:57:43,920 --> 00:57:46,719 Speaker 1: That's beautiful. And do you have any final words for 1095 00:57:46,760 --> 00:57:47,239 the audience? 1096 00:57:48,559 --> 00:57:53,960 Speaker 2: Oh, my gosh, breathe. We hyperventilate so much in this 1097 00:57:54,039 --> 00:57:56,679 world and we don't take a chance to pause for 1098 00:57:56,719 --> 00:58:00,079 a moment and see what life really has there for us. 1099 00:58:01,039 --> 00:58:05,199 Understand that no matter what's happening in your world. It 1100 00:58:05,239 --> 00:58:09,039 does get better when you choose to when you choose 1101 00:58:09,119 --> 00:58:13,079 to understand that we live in a beautiful ecosystem and 1102 00:58:13,159 --> 00:58:15,519 no matter what chaos comes, it's simply for you to 1103 00:58:15,559 --> 00:58:18,239 reflect to say how do I want to experience this work? 1104 00:58:18,280 --> 00:58:21,760 And you really do have control. And it's funny, Mother 1105 00:58:21,800 --> 00:58:24,320 Mary just places Bob Marley song in my head. I 1106 00:58:24,320 --> 00:58:29,320 don't know why, but it's something that's beautiful. It's emancipate 1107 00:58:29,400 --> 00:58:32,599 yourself from mental slavery, which kind of means that you 1108 00:58:32,800 --> 00:58:35,960 are now allowing yourself not to be confined by believing 1109 00:58:36,000 --> 00:58:39,519 that I don't have a choice none but ourselves can 1110 00:58:39,559 --> 00:58:42,320 free our mind because we are the ones who choose. 1111 00:58:43,239 --> 00:58:46,719 We choose how we experience this beautiful life and witness 1112 00:58:46,880 --> 00:58:49,679 everything else in ecosystem to understand that a tree doesn't 1113 00:58:49,719 --> 00:58:52,719 complain the color of the leave of another tree. It 1114 00:58:52,800 --> 00:58:57,920 simply is. And everything that we say having no fear 1115 00:58:58,000 --> 00:59:00,639 for atomic energy is we don't have any fear of 1116 00:59:00,639 --> 00:59:04,440 anything outside of ourselves because we are the light. Our 1117 00:59:04,519 --> 00:59:07,400 own self. Discovery is rediscovering the light that we are 1118 00:59:07,800 --> 00:59:10,880 that God has with us within every breath, every word 1119 00:59:10,880 --> 00:59:15,840 that we speak and within this world, be the love, 1120 00:59:16,480 --> 00:59:18,800 be the light, and my gosh, try to be boots 1121 00:59:18,840 --> 00:59:22,159 on the ground. That's very important. 1122 00:59:22,960 --> 00:59:25,800 Speaker 1: That is It's been such a pleasure meeting yours. You're 1123 00:59:25,880 --> 00:59:29,039 such a beautiful soul. I'd love your message. I love 1124 00:59:29,079 --> 00:59:31,880 what you're doing in the world, and thank you so 1125 00:59:31,960 --> 00:59:35,519 much for sharing this remarkable story with all of us. 1126 00:59:35,599 --> 00:59:37,639 And I appreciate you and everything you're doing to waken 1127 00:59:37,679 --> 00:59:38,159 this planet. 1128 00:59:38,199 --> 00:59:41,559 Speaker 2: So thank you, Alex, thank you, thank you for choosing 1129 00:59:41,559 --> 00:59:44,239 to step up to this beautiful plate and allowing these 1130 00:59:44,280 --> 00:59:45,800 sacred conversations to happen. 1131 00:59:47,639 --> 00:59:49,679 Speaker 1: I like to thank Nikisha so much for coming on 1132 00:59:49,719 --> 00:59:52,039 the show and sharing her wisdom and story with all 1133 00:59:52,039 --> 00:59:53,400 of us. If you want to get links to anything 1134 00:59:53,400 --> 00:59:55,000 we spoke about in this episode, head over to the 1135 00:59:55,000 --> 00:59:57,920 show notes at next level soul dot com Forward slash 1136 00:59:58,079 --> 01:00:02,039 six three eight. If this conversation stirred something in you, 1137 01:00:02,320 --> 01:00:05,880 there's more waiting. You can listen to this episode completely 1138 01:00:05,920 --> 01:00:09,599 commercial free on next level Soul TV's app where Soul 1139 01:00:09,840 --> 01:00:15,000 meets streaming. Watch and listen on Apple iOS, Android, Apple TV, Ruku, 1140 01:00:15,239 --> 01:00:21,159 Android TV Buyer, tv LG and Samsung apps anytime anywhere. 1141 01:00:21,559 --> 01:00:26,000 Begin your Awakening at Next Levelsoul dot TV thank you 1142 01:00:26,039 --> 01:00:29,480 so much for listening. As I always say, trust the journey. 1143 01:00:29,800 --> 01:00:32,840 It's there to teach you. I'll see you next time.