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Speaker 1: I do believe creativity is an addiction. I live it

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every day. If I'm not creating, I'm just completely miserable.

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I've got to have that element of bringing something forward,

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or I'm discovering new things that other people have created.

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I accept other people's creativity. It's like, oh, give me

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some more of that, unplugged, because we always say yes

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to creativity, totally uncut because we all make mistakes. So

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turn it into a tool. This is arrow unplugged. Oh

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look at this my daily writing, scratched out words. I'm

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not used to that. Uh huh. Usually I'm all about

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stream thinking and what's there is there. When I first

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met my wife, I wrote a lot of poetry to her.

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I love scribbling out emotions in a melodic way. And

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she goes, I don't want to see the perfected or

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the edited poetry. I want to hold on to the

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poetry where you have scratched out thoughts. That's what I

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want because that was the origin of where you were growing.

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That's the poetry. I got to have that. And so

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when I sit down with my authors and musicians and

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we talk about what they are sending out to the world,

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that's cool. That's neat. But I also want to know

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want did you scratch out? I want to know what

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you didn't like the outtakes even on television show. Send

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me the outtake tape. I want to see you guys

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screw it up or what you thought was a mess up.

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But to the rest of us, it's art. It's the

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acceptance of being. Hey, hero, this is the daily mass,

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a chronological walk through in everyday world. I am a

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daily writer things like this, man, this is what it's

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all about, writing about who we are as a people,

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as a generation, as something that's just here. We're here,

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that's it, a speck of dust, a mustard seed, if

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even that we're here. This is the daily mess. Let's

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talk about that screw up. So the sentence reads, but

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it's a choice to give it to a face and

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scratched out word and above it I put energy, hmm.

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But it's a choice to give it a face and energy.

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You know what word I put in there originally, But

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it's a choice to give it a face and injury? Injury?

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Where did that word come from? All? Right, now that

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you know where we're going, let's figure out what this

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donkey was trying to say. This morning the day it

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has arrived. All days pretty much the same, but how

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will this day play? So many people depend on our presence,

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which puts pressure on our alone moments. I do get

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extremely jealous of those who claim they can turn it

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off and tune out. Wow. Is that a sign of

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uncaring and selfishness? For some sick reason, I hear a

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lot of things way away from where I presently stand.

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Sound has this way of pointing me in all directions,

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which I don't always agree with. Like most, I struggle

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with the damnedest things. But it's a choice to give

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it a face an injury. That's what I put injury,

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and then I scratched it out. But it's a choice

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to give it a face and energy. See what you

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don't see is that I did put the word injury

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in there. A choice to give it a face. An

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injury gives off a completely different view of expression. It's

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weird how the mind wants to paint a different expression,

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which is why we should always be aware of what

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we say and what we write. I'm very guilty of

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sending emails and text messages to people that I feel

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are motivational to help build them up, to make them

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stronger to believe more in themselves rather than accepting the

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hand me outs of others. But the people who receive

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what it is that I said and go, God, dang dude,

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why did you attack me? What happened here? What did

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I do to you? Can we look at that email again?

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I think maybe I need to explain where I was going.

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And then when I get to see it and I

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show them what I was trying to say, then it's like,

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oh wow, I didn't see it that way. I felt, Hey,

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you're just attacking me. The other day at the essential job,

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I looked at one of our managers who had taken

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ten days off, and I said, man, I said, I'm

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so glad you're back, because while you were gone, we

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were lost. And the assistant manager looks at me and says,

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what the hell are you talking about. We weren't lost.

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We kept this ship together. And what I did is

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I had to find myself in a place of explaining

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what I meant by lost. I said that when a

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member of the band is gone, there's something wrong with

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the rhythm. That we were lost, as in like, oh

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my god, where's the map? There was just something missing.

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We all work so tight and so closely together that

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it's like something was missing, and he goes, you need

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to find better words. The word lost lost me. You

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were wrong by choosing that word. But I have to

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ask about this word here. But it's a choice to

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give it a face and injury. What if I had

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stayed with that original thought, how would I have finished

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this page today? It has arrived all days pretty much

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the same, But how will this day play? So many

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people depend on our presence, which puts pressure on our

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alone moments. I don't see any injury in that, and

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yet the writing hand said it. It woke me up.

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It made me stop what I was thinking. I don't

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always agree with, like most struggle with the damnedest things,

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but it's a choice to give it a face an injury.

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I'm not a brutal person. I don't bring injury to anything.

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Unless you read my emails and my text messages and

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they'll say, yeah, he said some junk that has injured me,

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when in fact, all I was trying to do was

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motivate you. Be careful what you're right. That's what the

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HR Department always said, be careful. In fact, we prefer

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that you don't write to anybody. Have a physical conversation

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with people. This is the person that they obviously trust

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and love. Don't be the writer, don't be the text sender.

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Be you in front of them. Okay, I'm Marrow and

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that's the daily mess.