WEBVTT 1 00:00:07.839 --> 00:00:12.480 Last episode, we began the story of Jerry Brutos, also 2 00:00:12.560 --> 00:00:17.000 known as the Shoe Fetish Slayer. Today, we're carrying on 3 00:00:17.079 --> 00:00:19.559 with part two, so be sure to check out part 4 00:00:19.600 --> 00:00:22.079 one before listening. Today. 5 00:00:22.719 --> 00:00:26.440 My name's Ben, I'm Nicole, and you're listening to Wicked and. 6 00:00:26.359 --> 00:00:28.600 Grim, a true crime podcast. 7 00:00:29.199 --> 00:00:29.600 Warning. 8 00:00:30.160 --> 00:00:37.840 The following podcast material intended for a matural audience. Listener 9 00:00:37.920 --> 00:01:00.759 discretion is advised. You gotta drink ready, I do you do? 10 00:01:00.759 --> 00:01:03.200 Do you guys have a drink ready? I've got a 11 00:01:03.280 --> 00:01:06.120 drink ready. We record in the morning. I'm not having 12 00:01:06.359 --> 00:01:09.680 whiskey per se, as I promised last episode, because it 13 00:01:09.760 --> 00:01:12.959 is eight am. Maybe if we recorded any evening I would, 14 00:01:12.959 --> 00:01:16.319 But today I've got coffee and Carolan's. I've irished it up. 15 00:01:16.959 --> 00:01:19.439 We good. Make sure you have a comfort drink too, 16 00:01:19.480 --> 00:01:20.760 because you're gonna need it today. 17 00:01:20.959 --> 00:01:23.400 I have Greens. Is that considered a comfort drink? 18 00:01:23.640 --> 00:01:25.560 I think? So? I don't even know what greens is 19 00:01:25.760 --> 00:01:26.359 or that's just. 20 00:01:26.319 --> 00:01:28.959 Like that like a supplement of Okay, yeah, but it 21 00:01:28.959 --> 00:01:31.599 actually doesn't taste terrible, So we're okay, We're okay. 22 00:01:31.799 --> 00:01:34.560 Like I say, the point of having a quote drink 23 00:01:34.680 --> 00:01:37.560 with us is a comfort drink. It can be water 24 00:01:37.599 --> 00:01:39.760 if you need hydrating. It could be coffee, it could 25 00:01:39.760 --> 00:01:42.280 be whiskey, it could be beer. It's a drink that 26 00:01:42.359 --> 00:01:45.799 you find you can just kind of have your security, 27 00:01:45.799 --> 00:01:48.519 blank the edge off and sip away when you need it. 28 00:01:48.599 --> 00:01:50.920 You know, distracts you. 29 00:01:51.120 --> 00:01:55.120 Yes, distracts you that there you go, distracts you, takes you, 30 00:01:55.280 --> 00:01:57.400 snaps you back to the reality of your real world 31 00:01:57.480 --> 00:02:00.159 rather than the world you're listening to. So hopefully you 32 00:02:00.200 --> 00:02:01.719 have something like that right now that can do that. 33 00:02:02.359 --> 00:02:04.879 Maybe you even have I don't know, a little doggle 34 00:02:04.920 --> 00:02:05.439 by your side. 35 00:02:05.439 --> 00:02:09.120 You can reach out pack man. That is the best 36 00:02:09.159 --> 00:02:11.680 of comfort. Really, there's nothing better. 37 00:02:11.879 --> 00:02:13.759 Well, we have our one dog, Ripley, who's like an 38 00:02:13.879 --> 00:02:16.080 mpath dog. She can sense when you're upset and she'll 39 00:02:16.120 --> 00:02:18.159 come over and just like rest your head on your 40 00:02:18.240 --> 00:02:19.319 lap and stare at you. 41 00:02:19.680 --> 00:02:24.120 Well, in anytime better and I hug she like instantly, 42 00:02:24.159 --> 00:02:26.479 she goes right in between our legs, like she joins 43 00:02:26.520 --> 00:02:28.800 our hug. It is it is the like, we need 44 00:02:28.840 --> 00:02:31.080 to get that on video. It's the sweetest cutest thing 45 00:02:31.080 --> 00:02:31.759 I've ever seen. 46 00:02:31.879 --> 00:02:33.360 Yeah, She'll be laying there and then we hug and 47 00:02:33.400 --> 00:02:35.280 then she'll just stand up and come walk come running 48 00:02:35.280 --> 00:02:37.280 over and just like walk in between her legs and 49 00:02:37.319 --> 00:02:40.840 put herself in the middle. Oh man, it's adorable, Like who. 50 00:02:40.479 --> 00:02:42.080 What kind of dog does that? 51 00:02:42.080 --> 00:02:46.960 That is just I know. Anyway, Yeah, we digress, We digress. 52 00:02:47.319 --> 00:02:49.919 Are you ready to carry on with part two? Oh? 53 00:02:49.960 --> 00:02:52.039 I think so? Yeah, You're gonna give us a little 54 00:02:52.080 --> 00:02:53.159 recap there. 55 00:02:53.199 --> 00:02:56.080 Okay, I will. Yes. So we started the story of 56 00:02:56.120 --> 00:02:59.120 Jerry Brudos, right, a man known as the shoe fetish 57 00:02:59.120 --> 00:03:02.879 Slayer also sometimes the lust Killer. There's a few different 58 00:03:03.039 --> 00:03:05.039 names he's gone by, but those are the primary ones. 59 00:03:06.360 --> 00:03:09.680 And he went through a few attempted abductions that did 60 00:03:09.719 --> 00:03:13.000 not go according to his plan. How the remains of 61 00:03:13.039 --> 00:03:15.719 some of his victims were discovered. We talked about last 62 00:03:15.759 --> 00:03:20.080 time as well and his initial arrest. Then we began 63 00:03:20.159 --> 00:03:23.000 talking about who Jerry Brudos was, starting with his upbringing 64 00:03:23.039 --> 00:03:27.120 and mentioning the inciting incident that psychologist believes to be 65 00:03:27.639 --> 00:03:30.879 when his fetish and tendencies really began. 66 00:03:31.800 --> 00:03:34.280 And that's where we left off with his mother kind 67 00:03:34.280 --> 00:03:34.560 of thing. 68 00:03:34.840 --> 00:03:37.680 Yes, with the incident with his mother and berating him 69 00:03:37.680 --> 00:03:40.159 in shoes and women's clothing. 70 00:03:39.840 --> 00:03:41.479 And then wishing he was a girl. 71 00:03:41.759 --> 00:03:44.159 And then he found a pair of shoes, discarded high 72 00:03:44.199 --> 00:03:47.159 heeled shoes, brought them home, and his mother was irate 73 00:03:47.680 --> 00:03:49.879 made burn them in front of him, and those were 74 00:03:49.919 --> 00:03:53.599 his prize possession sort of thing. Right, So yeah, that's 75 00:03:53.599 --> 00:03:55.360 where we left off, and we have a lot more 76 00:03:55.400 --> 00:03:56.479 to cover to trust. 77 00:03:56.319 --> 00:03:58.759 Me, I'm sure we do. Yeah, okay, So. 78 00:03:58.759 --> 00:03:59.360 You ready for this? 79 00:03:59.520 --> 00:04:00.719 I am all right. 80 00:04:01.120 --> 00:04:03.439 So we're going to start by continuing to look at 81 00:04:03.520 --> 00:04:05.879 Jerry in his early life, leading all the way up 82 00:04:05.919 --> 00:04:09.599 to his arrest. So here we go. So after that 83 00:04:09.719 --> 00:04:12.319 incident with his mother and losing those shoes, life kind 84 00:04:12.319 --> 00:04:15.159 of went on for little Jerry. But one day in 85 00:04:15.240 --> 00:04:18.720 first grade, Jerry became captivated by his teacher's habit of 86 00:04:18.720 --> 00:04:21.480 switching into high heels at the start of each day. 87 00:04:22.160 --> 00:04:25.160 She had come in like sneakers or whatever, right, and 88 00:04:25.199 --> 00:04:28.279 then switch into high heels for work. Basically okay, and 89 00:04:28.600 --> 00:04:31.000 she clearly had a love for fashion, even keeping an 90 00:04:31.000 --> 00:04:34.160 extra pair of heels tucked under her desk. Now, whatever 91 00:04:34.160 --> 00:04:36.399 the practical reason was for this spared pair of shoes 92 00:04:36.399 --> 00:04:39.040 with a fashion or in case a heel breaks, who knows, 93 00:04:39.079 --> 00:04:41.399 it doesn't matter, and it didn't matter to Jerry either. 94 00:04:41.480 --> 00:04:45.800 What mattered was how badly he wanted those shoes. So 95 00:04:45.920 --> 00:04:49.600 that day, Jerry's focus wasn't on his lessons in the classroom, 96 00:04:49.959 --> 00:04:54.199 but on the shoes instead. He spent hours staring at them, 97 00:04:54.439 --> 00:04:58.519 building up the nerve to try and take them for himself. Finally, 98 00:04:58.560 --> 00:05:02.160 when the teacher wasn't looking, did quietly he slipped the 99 00:05:02.240 --> 00:05:06.000 high heels into his backpack, thinking he had gotten away 100 00:05:06.000 --> 00:05:09.120 with his first heist. But his victory was short lived. 101 00:05:09.759 --> 00:05:13.839 Another student noticed Jerry sneaking the shoes away and reported 102 00:05:13.839 --> 00:05:18.319 it to the teacher. When he was approached about this 103 00:05:18.439 --> 00:05:21.199 by the teacher, he was embarrassed. He was humiliated in 104 00:05:21.199 --> 00:05:23.800 front of the class, and he bolted out of the classroom, 105 00:05:23.839 --> 00:05:26.439 his face just burning red with shame from what he did. 106 00:05:26.519 --> 00:05:31.240 Right So, that failed theft may have been a small incident, 107 00:05:31.519 --> 00:05:33.879 but it was a glimpse at the compulsions that were 108 00:05:34.000 --> 00:05:35.319 beginning to haunt Jerry. 109 00:05:36.199 --> 00:05:38.040 It's so hard I just have to say, for me 110 00:05:38.079 --> 00:05:41.319 to even comprehend that, like a little one year old 111 00:05:42.079 --> 00:05:46.040 or not one year first grader is six is so 112 00:05:46.240 --> 00:05:49.160 fixated on something like that, you know, Like I don't know, 113 00:05:49.160 --> 00:05:53.839 I just think back to myself for like other first graders, 114 00:05:53.839 --> 00:05:55.920 and I just you're like so care free and you're 115 00:05:56.000 --> 00:05:59.199 just all over the place. And but he's just like 116 00:05:59.639 --> 00:06:03.560 already has this like obsessive compulsive disorder kind of thing, right, like. 117 00:06:03.439 --> 00:06:04.920 Oh, one hundred percent he does. 118 00:06:05.199 --> 00:06:05.399 Yeah. 119 00:06:05.439 --> 00:06:07.879 But the thing is this isn't naturally developing with him. 120 00:06:07.920 --> 00:06:10.879 He was instilled with this from those actions of his mother, right. 121 00:06:11.000 --> 00:06:13.759 Yeah, but it just seems like so young to be having, 122 00:06:13.879 --> 00:06:16.000 you know, like in this sort of thing. 123 00:06:16.199 --> 00:06:18.800 It is. I don't think like at this age, I 124 00:06:18.839 --> 00:06:20.920 don't think it's a fetish sort of thing. I don't 125 00:06:20.959 --> 00:06:24.639 think it's a sexual thing at least not yet. Yeah, 126 00:06:24.680 --> 00:06:27.120 it's just he has this obsession with the shoes. 127 00:06:27.519 --> 00:06:29.000 It's almost his comfort I think. 128 00:06:29.160 --> 00:06:32.000 Yeah, like he wants to wear them, he enjoys it, 129 00:06:32.079 --> 00:06:34.399 you know, that sort of thing, and he was forced 130 00:06:34.439 --> 00:06:36.360 to do it behind closed doors. He's forced to be 131 00:06:36.399 --> 00:06:41.839 shameful about it. So now it's just like he I mean, 132 00:06:42.480 --> 00:06:44.680 if his mother just gave him a fucking pair of 133 00:06:44.759 --> 00:06:46.839 high heels, he probably would have played with him for 134 00:06:46.839 --> 00:06:48.839 a week a month and then like got bored of them, 135 00:06:49.000 --> 00:06:50.560 and that would have been that got it out of 136 00:06:50.560 --> 00:06:53.720 his system per se. And that's just me like speculation. Possibly, 137 00:06:54.160 --> 00:06:57.639 but it is possible, and maybe he would have moved 138 00:06:57.639 --> 00:06:59.600 on with his life, but he didn't. He didn't have 139 00:06:59.600 --> 00:07:02.800 that upper tunity. So he's got to sneak around and 140 00:07:02.920 --> 00:07:05.279 be careful and do it behind closed doors when no 141 00:07:05.319 --> 00:07:08.040 one's looking, and he rarely gets that opportunity, especially at 142 00:07:08.040 --> 00:07:14.000 this age. Oh jeez. So during his teenage years, Jerry 143 00:07:14.040 --> 00:07:17.079 became a little bit infamous in his neighborhood for his 144 00:07:17.360 --> 00:07:20.800 troubling behavior. He was known for sneaking into nearby homes 145 00:07:20.839 --> 00:07:25.439 to steal women's underwear, which he hoarded in secret. Every 146 00:07:25.439 --> 00:07:29.079 time he was caught, his mother subjected him to harsh punishments, beatings, 147 00:07:29.360 --> 00:07:33.279 verbal humiliation, things that only deepened his resentment and shame. 148 00:07:34.600 --> 00:07:37.399 As he got older, his actions escalated even further. He 149 00:07:37.480 --> 00:07:41.199 began stalking women who walked out alone at night, lurking 150 00:07:41.279 --> 00:07:43.879 in the shadows and waiting for that opportunity when he 151 00:07:43.920 --> 00:07:47.439 could strike on them. When he found a vulnerable target, 152 00:07:47.560 --> 00:07:52.920 Jerry would attack, often strangling the women until they were unconscious. 153 00:07:53.680 --> 00:07:56.079 He didn't harm them further after that, but he would 154 00:07:56.160 --> 00:08:01.040 steal their shoes as trophies. Before fleeing the scene. Man, Yeah, 155 00:08:01.079 --> 00:08:03.680 imagine waking up without your shoes after an attack like that. 156 00:08:04.399 --> 00:08:06.839 Well, and I feel like that could easily go wrong 157 00:08:06.959 --> 00:08:09.600 though too, Like how does he for sure no one 158 00:08:09.639 --> 00:08:12.199 to stop? And you know, like I feel like you 159 00:08:12.199 --> 00:08:15.519 could easily he could accidentally kill one of them, even 160 00:08:15.560 --> 00:08:16.639 if he wasn't intending to. 161 00:08:16.920 --> 00:08:20.040 It's possible if you go too far, for sure. Now, 162 00:08:20.079 --> 00:08:23.319 by Jerry's mid teens, his behavior has had caused enough 163 00:08:23.399 --> 00:08:25.839 trouble that the family did decide to move to a 164 00:08:25.879 --> 00:08:28.600 new town in Oregon. His parents hoped that a fresh 165 00:08:28.600 --> 00:08:30.759 start and a new environment might help Jerry leave his 166 00:08:30.839 --> 00:08:34.919 troubling reputation behind. Unfortunately, the move did little to curb 167 00:08:35.000 --> 00:08:40.600 his escalating behavior, as his obsession and impulsions just followed 168 00:08:40.639 --> 00:08:45.159 him wherever he went. Sorry, it's morning. I'm not doing 169 00:08:45.159 --> 00:08:47.519 so well with my voice right now. I need more 170 00:08:47.519 --> 00:08:51.480 SIPs of coffee. So but just at sixteen years old, 171 00:08:51.519 --> 00:08:55.200 Jerry spent an entire weekend out, you know, in this 172 00:08:55.279 --> 00:08:58.879 new place in Oregon, digging a deep pit on a hillside, 173 00:08:58.879 --> 00:09:01.840 away from prying eyes. He went out here all alone, 174 00:09:02.159 --> 00:09:04.639 and he began digging the pit, and he fantasized to 175 00:09:04.720 --> 00:09:08.440 himself about imprisoning a woman and having her captive here 176 00:09:08.879 --> 00:09:12.480 in this pit. Yes, he pictured having a woman helped 177 00:09:12.519 --> 00:09:15.559 captive in a fucking pit, and he's like, oh, just 178 00:09:15.600 --> 00:09:18.240 thinking about how she could be begging for freedom and 179 00:09:18.279 --> 00:09:22.080 that sort of thing, very silence of the Lamb's esque, which, 180 00:09:22.240 --> 00:09:25.159 as I mentioned in episode one, this there is some 181 00:09:25.240 --> 00:09:28.600 influence from this case that went into the movie and 182 00:09:28.639 --> 00:09:29.320 Buffalo Bill. 183 00:09:29.799 --> 00:09:32.720 See when you've were talking about this pit, my first 184 00:09:32.720 --> 00:09:34.679 reaction was that he was just going to store some 185 00:09:34.759 --> 00:09:37.960 of his stolen shit in there, not like a freaking woman. 186 00:09:38.440 --> 00:09:42.679 No, he planned on having a person in there. Okay, Now, 187 00:09:42.720 --> 00:09:46.039 thankfully no individual ever saw the inside of this pit. 188 00:09:47.440 --> 00:09:51.120 This pit, this pit, this pit. 189 00:09:53.200 --> 00:09:56.879 Oh we're really in for this Okay. Yeah, I'm already 190 00:09:56.919 --> 00:09:59.399 just like sitting here just shocked by everything. 191 00:10:00.879 --> 00:10:04.399 Yeah, you should be, because it's fucked now. When Jerry 192 00:10:04.480 --> 00:10:06.600 was seventeen, he put together a plan to get a 193 00:10:06.600 --> 00:10:10.240 local girl alone. He took a pair of her underwear, 194 00:10:10.639 --> 00:10:13.639 and then he pretended that he knew who was responsible 195 00:10:13.639 --> 00:10:15.080 for it, and then he wanted to help this girl 196 00:10:15.120 --> 00:10:17.279 get this pair of underwear back. So he's like, I 197 00:10:17.320 --> 00:10:19.919 can help you. You know what, I know, who did it? 198 00:10:19.919 --> 00:10:22.000 Come over to my place, and we're gonna go through 199 00:10:22.000 --> 00:10:23.279 this and we're gonna get figured out for you. 200 00:10:23.360 --> 00:10:23.519 Right. 201 00:10:24.200 --> 00:10:26.120 So he invited her over to his home, and as 202 00:10:26.159 --> 00:10:29.440 soon as she arrived on step inside, he then grabbed 203 00:10:29.440 --> 00:10:32.120 her with face mask on so covering his face, and 204 00:10:32.120 --> 00:10:34.279 he grabbed her wielding a kitchen knife. 205 00:10:34.799 --> 00:10:36.039 Holy shit. 206 00:10:36.480 --> 00:10:38.840 He then forced this girl to strip and posed for 207 00:10:39.159 --> 00:10:45.440 dozens of photographs before letting her go. What so that's seventeen. 208 00:10:45.559 --> 00:10:47.559 Oh man, okay, Yeah. 209 00:10:47.600 --> 00:10:51.320 The girl was absolutely terrified. Yeah, and left their home 210 00:10:51.399 --> 00:10:54.159 in tears and immediately reported the ordeal to the police, 211 00:10:54.679 --> 00:10:58.639 but for one reason or another, no arrests were ever made. 212 00:10:59.200 --> 00:11:02.399 What the Yeah, it seems like that's a pretty fucking 213 00:11:02.480 --> 00:11:04.919 serious incident. I don't know why that didn't go anywhere. 214 00:11:05.039 --> 00:11:07.919 Well, yeah, and did he not imagine that she would 215 00:11:07.919 --> 00:11:11.000 go and report this? Like? What the what was he? Oh? 216 00:11:11.159 --> 00:11:14.039 God, that's just so gross, I know, right, Like there's 217 00:11:14.679 --> 00:11:19.480 there's not understandable when someone attacks, but like I get 218 00:11:19.519 --> 00:11:21.960 that they're like trying to cover their face and like 219 00:11:21.960 --> 00:11:25.759 they're going through the attack to trying to remain anonymous. Meanwhile, 220 00:11:25.799 --> 00:11:30.879 he lured her here and it's his home. You think 221 00:11:30.919 --> 00:11:33.879 this isn't gonna like trace back to you? Yeah, you 222 00:11:33.879 --> 00:11:36.679 think that face mask is gonna, you know, maybe solve it. 223 00:11:36.840 --> 00:11:39.720 He figured that she He's like threatened her enough that 224 00:11:39.759 --> 00:11:43.120 she wouldn't say that could be like an option, I guess. 225 00:11:43.159 --> 00:11:46.399 But but she's probably like, I know who this fucking was. 226 00:11:46.519 --> 00:11:48.799 So yeah, I'm glad she did report it. 227 00:11:49.000 --> 00:11:51.639 Yeah, but he did get away with that one. Like 228 00:11:51.679 --> 00:11:54.759 I said, no arrests were made, And the following year, 229 00:11:54.840 --> 00:11:57.639 Jerry decided to try his luck with a similar plan, 230 00:11:58.320 --> 00:12:01.039 so he kidnapped a seventeen year old girl in his car. 231 00:12:01.519 --> 00:12:03.399 He then took her to a secluded area with a 232 00:12:03.440 --> 00:12:07.919 deserted farmhouse, and he took her to this farmhouse. There 233 00:12:07.960 --> 00:12:13.080 he began to beat the girl severely. Now, thankfully, there 234 00:12:13.159 --> 00:12:15.480 was a couple that was walking past the property at 235 00:12:15.480 --> 00:12:17.919 the time and they heard the girl's screams coming from 236 00:12:17.919 --> 00:12:21.159 this abandoned farmhouse and they went to see what was happening. 237 00:12:22.639 --> 00:12:25.799 That was when they found Jerry looming over his helpless victim. 238 00:12:26.480 --> 00:12:30.440 Oh gosh, okay, the fact that they went and investigated 239 00:12:30.559 --> 00:12:32.600 is pretty pretty incredible. 240 00:12:32.720 --> 00:12:35.399 It is pretty daring. So put on them. Honestly, they 241 00:12:35.480 --> 00:12:38.559 probably saved this girl's life, no kidding, But he was 242 00:12:38.639 --> 00:12:41.679 caught red handed, though Jerry did attempt to spin a 243 00:12:41.720 --> 00:12:45.720 bizarre kind of claim. He's like, oh, I was just 244 00:12:45.799 --> 00:12:48.639 helping this girl. I already scared off the real attacker. 245 00:12:48.480 --> 00:12:50.360 All of shit. 246 00:12:50.840 --> 00:12:53.639 Yeah. I'm pretty sure that was the couple's reaction too, 247 00:12:53.679 --> 00:12:55.840 because they didn't buy his story at all, and they 248 00:12:55.879 --> 00:13:01.000 called police pretty much immediately. Oh what an I know, 249 00:13:01.080 --> 00:13:03.960 He's just like, oh no, I'm the hero. Yeah, I'm 250 00:13:03.960 --> 00:13:06.759 pretty sure this girl is gonna fucking tell that couple otherwise. 251 00:13:07.639 --> 00:13:10.399 But when Jerry was confronted, he did confess to everything 252 00:13:10.399 --> 00:13:14.480 about it and everything like his perversions, all this sort 253 00:13:14.519 --> 00:13:17.919 of stuff. So a subsequent search of his room occurred, 254 00:13:17.960 --> 00:13:20.639 and it revealed a hidden stash of stolen women's underwear 255 00:13:21.039 --> 00:13:26.799 and of course some non consensual photographs. His now twisted 256 00:13:26.879 --> 00:13:30.600 collection lay bare for everyone to see, and it was 257 00:13:30.639 --> 00:13:33.320 all taken away from him. He was stripped of his 258 00:13:33.360 --> 00:13:38.879 trophies and exposed. Jerry was left humiliated and defeated and 259 00:13:39.039 --> 00:13:45.799 forced to face the consequences. Now, it's unclear of exactly 260 00:13:46.200 --> 00:13:50.600 what his arrest occurred with this one. I do know 261 00:13:50.639 --> 00:13:54.879 that he had an incriminating file after this, but I 262 00:13:54.919 --> 00:13:57.480 do know he was not necessarily sent to prison by 263 00:13:57.519 --> 00:13:59.080 the sounds of it. He was sent to a psych 264 00:13:59.120 --> 00:14:04.240 word in Oregon State Hospital instead. Okay, because here he 265 00:14:04.320 --> 00:14:08.919 underwent a battery of psychological evaluations. He was officially diagnosed 266 00:14:08.919 --> 00:14:14.639 with borderline schizophrenia, sexual fetishism, and what they euphemistically described 267 00:14:14.679 --> 00:14:19.120 as severe psychological mum or sorry, severe pathological mummy issues. 268 00:14:19.679 --> 00:14:20.399 Oh wow. 269 00:14:20.679 --> 00:14:25.559 Yeah. So, despite his his commitment to the psych ward 270 00:14:25.600 --> 00:14:29.240 and trying to get better, Jerry was still allowed to 271 00:14:29.320 --> 00:14:32.279 actually attend high school at the same time, and he 272 00:14:32.320 --> 00:14:35.879 did manage to graduate in nineteen fifty seven. Now, his 273 00:14:36.039 --> 00:14:38.720 nine months in the psych ward didn't cure his disturbing 274 00:14:38.799 --> 00:14:42.720 tendencies though. Instead they gave him the tools to suppress them, 275 00:14:43.080 --> 00:14:45.879 or at least hide them well enough to convince anyone 276 00:14:45.960 --> 00:14:48.399 else that he was in fact cured. 277 00:14:49.600 --> 00:14:54.200 Okay, because he probably almost needed longer in there, which Okay, 278 00:14:54.279 --> 00:14:58.120 the people that were initially like investigating this and found 279 00:14:58.120 --> 00:15:00.480 all this shit, they were probably just like, wow, like, 280 00:15:00.519 --> 00:15:04.639 we have a huge problem here. Yeah, and they I 281 00:15:04.679 --> 00:15:06.440 don't know, I feel like they could have nipped it 282 00:15:06.440 --> 00:15:11.519 in the butt potentially, but they didn't I don't know, 283 00:15:11.639 --> 00:15:14.679 didn't have him in there long enough or something. I guess. 284 00:15:14.919 --> 00:15:17.080 I see, I disagree. I don't think you. 285 00:15:17.000 --> 00:15:18.080 Don't think it's possible. 286 00:15:18.559 --> 00:15:21.639 I don't think. I don't think he was reformable. I 287 00:15:21.679 --> 00:15:24.200 don't think it was possible to reform Jerry Brutos at 288 00:15:24.240 --> 00:15:25.200 all at this point. 289 00:15:25.320 --> 00:15:27.120 No, it's far too already too far. 290 00:15:27.240 --> 00:15:29.840 Okay, you have to remember at this point, he's what eighteen, 291 00:15:31.200 --> 00:15:34.559 He's been going through this for nearly two decades of 292 00:15:34.559 --> 00:15:37.679 his life. Remember, his mother was berating him in women's 293 00:15:37.679 --> 00:15:41.159 clothing as like as younger than five, because five was 294 00:15:41.399 --> 00:15:43.679 the incident with the shoes when he stole them and 295 00:15:43.720 --> 00:15:45.559 they burned in front of him. So even if we 296 00:15:45.639 --> 00:15:49.639 make that five year old the landing point for all this, 297 00:15:50.240 --> 00:15:53.879 that leaves twelve years of this instilled within him. 298 00:15:54.200 --> 00:15:57.200 Yeah. I mean, it's just so interesting though it started 299 00:15:57.240 --> 00:16:00.440 just like with women's shoes, and it's sure fricking progress. 300 00:16:00.600 --> 00:16:03.360 Yeah. Now, I do want to say, if he was 301 00:16:04.080 --> 00:16:06.720 able to be reformed, I think it would have taken 302 00:16:07.360 --> 00:16:10.399 several decades, not just like, oh I'll give him a 303 00:16:10.440 --> 00:16:12.600 year or two. No, I'm thinking I'm talking like give 304 00:16:12.639 --> 00:16:15.279 him fucking twenty thirty years and maybe because I think 305 00:16:15.320 --> 00:16:18.279 this is so deep, this is literally who he is. 306 00:16:18.639 --> 00:16:21.279 Yeah, no, it would definitely have taken some more time 307 00:16:21.320 --> 00:16:22.120 than nine months. 308 00:16:22.320 --> 00:16:26.159 Yeah. Now, after his discharge from the hospital, Jerry attempted 309 00:16:26.159 --> 00:16:28.919 to turn over a new leaf by joining the military. 310 00:16:29.559 --> 00:16:33.200 At the time, his assault conviction and psychological diagnosis weren't 311 00:16:33.200 --> 00:16:35.879 flagged as issues because I mean, hey, it is like, 312 00:16:35.919 --> 00:16:41.240 what the nineteen sixties, so yeah, or at least almost 313 00:16:41.240 --> 00:16:43.639 the nineteen sixties. I think it was still late nineteen fifty, 314 00:16:43.720 --> 00:16:47.519 but anyways, I digress. He was accepted without question, but 315 00:16:47.639 --> 00:16:51.600 Jerry's time in the service was short lived. He his 316 00:16:51.720 --> 00:16:55.720 main ambition during this time, disturbingly, was to be try 317 00:16:55.759 --> 00:16:58.559 and get stationed in Korea, where he fantasized about a 318 00:16:58.639 --> 00:17:02.360 Korean woman seducing him and fulfilling his dominating fantasies. 319 00:17:02.600 --> 00:17:06.759 Jeez, yeah, that is like such a reason to join 320 00:17:06.799 --> 00:17:07.880 the military, hey. 321 00:17:08.000 --> 00:17:12.039 Right, Instead, he was sent to Fort Gordon, Georgia, where 322 00:17:12.240 --> 00:17:16.599 his bizarre behavior quickly drew attention. Jerry was advised to 323 00:17:16.680 --> 00:17:19.319 meet with a military psychiatrist, and during their session he 324 00:17:19.359 --> 00:17:23.880 spoke openly about his troubling domination fantasies. Not The exact 325 00:17:23.880 --> 00:17:26.920 details of the discussion remained unclear, but his military record 326 00:17:27.000 --> 00:17:31.279 noted that he was discharged for bizarre obsessions. His brief 327 00:17:31.319 --> 00:17:36.480 attempt at military life had ended in utter failure. After discharge, 328 00:17:36.559 --> 00:17:39.720 Jerry returned home to Oregon. His parents allowed him to 329 00:17:39.759 --> 00:17:42.279 move back, but only under the strict conditions that he 330 00:17:42.359 --> 00:17:44.480 wasn't allowed to sleep in the house. Instead, he had 331 00:17:44.519 --> 00:17:45.920 to sleep in the farm shed. 332 00:17:46.359 --> 00:17:49.279 Oh my gosh. 333 00:17:48.640 --> 00:17:53.279 Yeah, just continuing that shaming beration of their child. 334 00:17:53.200 --> 00:17:57.319 Just like parents of the fricking year. Hey yeah, holy shit. 335 00:17:58.240 --> 00:18:03.400 Isolated, Jerry's first strations grew. Feeling stripped of all his dignity, 336 00:18:03.759 --> 00:18:07.079 all his control, he reverted to his old ways to 337 00:18:07.200 --> 00:18:11.839 vent out his anger. Jerry stalked and attacked a random woman, 338 00:18:13.160 --> 00:18:17.559 strangling her until she lost consciousness. With the woman incapacitated, 339 00:18:17.759 --> 00:18:20.319 Jerry took her shoes and ran back to his bed, 340 00:18:21.079 --> 00:18:24.839 curling up to sleep with them held tight in his arms. 341 00:18:26.319 --> 00:18:29.599 His violent fantasies were still very much so alive. Jerry's 342 00:18:29.640 --> 00:18:34.119 ability to suppress and you know, like hide these perversions 343 00:18:34.160 --> 00:18:38.039 had been nothing more than a facade. By the time 344 00:18:38.119 --> 00:18:41.240 Jerry Brutos turned twenty two. He had trained as an 345 00:18:41.279 --> 00:18:45.200 electrician and appeared to be settling into a conventional lifestyle. 346 00:18:45.880 --> 00:18:49.160 He met Darcy Metzler, a seventeen year old girl who 347 00:18:49.240 --> 00:18:54.000 would become his wife. Her parents strongly opposed the couple's relationship, 348 00:18:54.160 --> 00:18:57.079 probably because they kind of could see Jerry for who 349 00:18:57.119 --> 00:19:01.319 he was, A total creep. Yeah, but their disapproval only 350 00:19:01.400 --> 00:19:03.240 drove Darcy closer to Jerry. 351 00:19:03.759 --> 00:19:05.319 Okay, as it would Yeah, yep. 352 00:19:05.920 --> 00:19:09.119 For the first time in his life, Jerry experienced genuine 353 00:19:09.160 --> 00:19:13.880 affection from a woman, and it cemented their bond together. Now, 354 00:19:13.920 --> 00:19:17.759 to the outside world, Jerry seemed to have transformed finally 355 00:19:17.839 --> 00:19:21.160 into a respectable family man. He didn't drink, he didn't 356 00:19:21.200 --> 00:19:25.880 smoke or swear, making it seem like he was just normal. 357 00:19:26.799 --> 00:19:30.759 But behind closed doors, his devyan tendencies were very much 358 00:19:30.799 --> 00:19:34.920 so alive and thriving. Early in their marriage, Jerry imposed 359 00:19:34.960 --> 00:19:38.759 strict rules on Darcy, demanding that she serve him absolutely 360 00:19:39.119 --> 00:19:43.559 unconditionally as his housewife. She was to wear only high 361 00:19:43.599 --> 00:19:45.160 heels around the house. 362 00:19:46.519 --> 00:19:50.319 Oh gosh, okay, yeah, holy shit, I would rage. 363 00:19:50.720 --> 00:19:54.720 Yeah. Now, I did read some articles talking about how 364 00:19:54.759 --> 00:19:57.160 she was told she could wear nothing but high heels, 365 00:19:57.200 --> 00:20:01.279 and I read one saying only high heels. So I'm 366 00:20:01.279 --> 00:20:02.759 going to assume it's a little bit of a mix 367 00:20:02.799 --> 00:20:06.440 because I can't imagine she's just constantly nude stretting about 368 00:20:06.480 --> 00:20:08.640 the house, you know what I mean. Yeah, but I mean, hey, 369 00:20:08.680 --> 00:20:09.519 it is a possibility. 370 00:20:09.519 --> 00:20:11.680 Well, and I think she's so much younger, like not 371 00:20:11.839 --> 00:20:14.920 like it's not terrible, but like five years, like that's 372 00:20:15.200 --> 00:20:17.559 substantial when they're that age kind of thing. 373 00:20:17.559 --> 00:20:20.920 In Yeah, the percentage wise, the age gap is rather 374 00:20:21.160 --> 00:20:24.319 it is not like creepy, but it's a bit large. Yeah, 375 00:20:24.359 --> 00:20:27.920 I mean technically she was seventeen when they met, not eighteen. 376 00:20:28.000 --> 00:20:31.359 I mean, yeah, okay, yeah, but yeah, I mean by 377 00:20:31.359 --> 00:20:34.119 the time they got married, I'm sure she was well 378 00:20:34.160 --> 00:20:39.200 over seventeen eighteen nineteen, who knows, but yeah. Anyways, Over time, 379 00:20:39.279 --> 00:20:44.079 Darcy appeared to fall completely under Jerry's control, seemingly brainwashed 380 00:20:44.119 --> 00:20:47.839 by his absolute dominance. The couple moved frequently before settling 381 00:20:47.839 --> 00:20:50.720 into Portland, Oregon, where Jerry secured a stable job as 382 00:20:50.720 --> 00:20:55.039 a radio station technician. They welcomed a daughter in nineteen 383 00:20:55.079 --> 00:20:58.400 sixty two and his son, Jason in nineteen sixty seven. 384 00:20:59.079 --> 00:21:01.599 For years, it seemed as though this family life and 385 00:21:01.640 --> 00:21:06.400 love of his devoted wife kept Jerry's dark urges in check. Mean, yeah, sure, 386 00:21:06.400 --> 00:21:09.519 some weird stuff's going on at home. It's consensual stuff. Hey, 387 00:21:09.680 --> 00:21:12.160 all the power to you, right, So it seems like 388 00:21:12.160 --> 00:21:15.519 everything's in order. However, psychologists have since noted that the 389 00:21:15.519 --> 00:21:18.759 birth of his son Jason, marked a critical turning point 390 00:21:19.119 --> 00:21:23.759 in Jerry's life. See. During Jason's birth, Darcy barred Jerry 391 00:21:23.799 --> 00:21:27.519 from entering the maternity ward for whatever reason she had right, 392 00:21:28.599 --> 00:21:31.519 and it's believed that this act triggered a profound sense 393 00:21:31.519 --> 00:21:36.680 of betrayal and disempowerment in Jerry. He viewed that moment 394 00:21:37.200 --> 00:21:40.799 as a challenge to his control, and it seemed to 395 00:21:40.839 --> 00:21:44.400 reignite the deviant compulsions that he had managed to suppress 396 00:21:44.720 --> 00:21:46.400 for the past few years. 397 00:21:46.799 --> 00:21:52.160 Just like, that's one simple little thing there, exactly. Oh gosh, okay, 398 00:21:52.200 --> 00:21:54.279 it's stocking that it didn't come back earlier then. 399 00:21:54.640 --> 00:21:56.640 Yeah, so well, I mean that's why I'm sitting here 400 00:21:56.640 --> 00:21:58.920 saying I don't think you can reform this individual when 401 00:21:58.960 --> 00:22:03.720