Speaker 1: The weird thing happened in the Weird Weird Weird.
Speaker 2: Welcome to Bless, I said, so, guys, I know that
Speaker 2: you haven't missed any episodes, but this is my first
Speaker 2: time recording in like over a month, and yeah, it's
Speaker 2: been a hard month. So today my son is exactly
Speaker 2: one month old. He was born on March twenty eighth,
Speaker 2: at two of six pm. And yeah, it was. It
Speaker 2: was nuts. Actually it was completely traumatizing. And I wasn't
Speaker 2: sure how much I wanted to talk about that, if
Speaker 2: if at all, but but I feel like, I mean,
Speaker 2: I guess it's worth talking about a little bit. But yeah,
Speaker 2: it was. It was just really messed up. We thought
Speaker 2: he was going to die. And basically, you know, for
Speaker 2: for nine months we had a very normal, very problem
Speaker 2: free pregnancy, with no issues, nothing to worry about at all,
Speaker 2: and then we get there and you know, water breaks
Speaker 2: in the middle of the night. We rushed to the hospital.
Speaker 2: We're all excited, we're all freaking out, and she labors
Speaker 2: for like almost twelve hours without really progressing, and then
Speaker 2: it hit a certain point where his heart started dropping
Speaker 2: to really dangerous levels and they lost his heart rate
Speaker 2: a few times a bunch of people burst in the
Speaker 2: room and it was like an emergency and we were
Speaker 2: freaking out, and then they had to wheel her back
Speaker 2: there and cut him out right away, and you know,
Speaker 2: it was very scary and very traumatizing, and I definitely
Speaker 2: had ptsd UH for three days, actually more like two weeks.
Speaker 2: I couldn't sleep and you know, just like having nightmares
Speaker 2: about it and stuff. So it was really tough. And
Speaker 2: the only reason I'm even bringing this up is not
Speaker 2: to like boohoo me, but it's just to say, like,
Speaker 2: I'm I don't feel like I'm the same person that
Speaker 2: I was before that, and I'm just like, I don't know,
Speaker 2: I feel I feel like a different person. I don't
Speaker 2: feel like I care about the same things that I
Speaker 2: care about before that. And I expected to come back
Speaker 2: and have like this happy Kumbayas story and it just
Speaker 2: be this, like, you know, wow, that was so awesome,
Speaker 2: look at my beautiful baby. But it's not really like that.
Speaker 2: It feels more like surviving the worst crisis that I've
Speaker 2: ever experienced. Even though he was totally okay and he's
Speaker 2: very healthy, it was just like a very scary shock
Speaker 2: and I was in there during the emergency c section,
Speaker 2: So I did kind of see everything, and I shouldn't
Speaker 2: have looked, but I had this weird, curious thought, like
Speaker 2: I just want to see if she's okay, because it
Speaker 2: was weird. It was like the baby table was at
Speaker 2: the foot of the operating table and she was awake,
Speaker 2: so they let me sit in there with her and
Speaker 2: like try to keep her calm. And they were like, here,
Speaker 2: come hold the baby, because Jenny was too nauseous and
Speaker 2: had all this medicine enter from the surgery, and so
Speaker 2: they brought me over to hold the baby and it
Speaker 2: was at the foot of the operating table. So I
Speaker 2: just had this week, so of course I walked around
Speaker 2: the curtain and I just had this weird feeling. I
Speaker 2: was like, should I look and see if she's okay?
Speaker 2: I feel like I should. And I looked over and
Speaker 2: they were like they were either pulling an organ out
Speaker 2: or putting an organ in. I can't I couldn't quite
Speaker 2: tell you, but it was it looked like you know,
Speaker 2: and like in the old stories when the Vikings would
Speaker 2: do like blood eagles, they would like they would like
Speaker 2: cut you open and you display your out like wings.
Speaker 2: That's how they had it arranged. I mean it was
Speaker 2: like split open and they were like, I said, it
Speaker 2: was a quick look and I regretted it, but they
Speaker 2: were either pulling one out or putting one in, and
Speaker 2: I was like, I shouldn't have done that. And I'm
Speaker 2: sitting there holding the baby and I was like, they
Speaker 2: were like, here, come hold the baby dead and I
Speaker 2: was like, he's alive, and they're like, yes, he's alive.
Speaker 2: Because for several minutes, you know, during the surgery, we're like,
Speaker 2: is he okay? He was? Is he okay? And they're
Speaker 2: like we're working on it, and they wouldn't give us like, oh,
Speaker 2: I'm forget the website plug dude, I don't care. I
Speaker 2: just had the thought to do that. But anyway, yeah,
Speaker 2: it was. It was horrible. It was messed up and
Speaker 2: totally worth it, totally totally, you know, beautiful, beautiful baby.
Speaker 2: He's an amazing, little, beautiful soul.
Speaker 3: I don't know why we talked about this. Were you
Speaker 3: the first person to do skinn of skin with him?
Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah, me too. She couldn't even hold him for
Speaker 2: an hour or so because you know, all the surgery, yeah,
Speaker 2: postop and all that, and.
Speaker 3: That's about the only similarity we had in our whole experience.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Well, I mean I think what I learned most
Speaker 2: of all was just never have a strict plan, you know,
Speaker 2: like specifically for pregnant season all that. I mean, do
Speaker 2: you go in there and you think it's going to
Speaker 2: go one way and it almost never does and anyway, Yeah,
Speaker 2: so it was it was messed up, and I had
Speaker 2: a really weird dream from the phenomenon. I will say,
Speaker 2: I will say this that right before the sea section,
Speaker 2: and it was very fast too. It was like, Okay,
Speaker 2: we're doing this, and then they willed her back and
Speaker 2: he was cut out in like twenty minutes, and it
Speaker 2: was it was like had us in a whirlwind. But
Speaker 2: I will say that right before, about an hour before
Speaker 2: the sea section, we kind of knew that that was
Speaker 2: a possibility because of the heart rate loss and everything,
Speaker 2: and we had to stare at a monitor for like
Speaker 2: two hours and watch it happen, watch his heart drop
Speaker 2: with every contraction, and so I kind of knew that
Speaker 2: it was coming and that I I don't know, So
Speaker 2: I just walked downstairs to the lobby of the hospital
Speaker 2: and I like got a coffee and I was just
Speaker 2: praying and praying and praying. I was like, oh my God,
Speaker 2: just praying and praying and praying. And I did hear
Speaker 2: a voice, not audibly with my ears, but like in
Speaker 2: my mind, and the voice told me to have faith.
Speaker 2: It's gonna be all right. And I kind of needed
Speaker 2: that because it was so bad that for the first
Speaker 2: like two weeks, I was so traumatized that every I
Speaker 2: just I was scared to get attached because I was
Speaker 2: just like, you know, he's gonna die, you know what
Speaker 2: I mean, just every little thing. I forgot to say
Speaker 2: too that after all that scared of his heart and
Speaker 2: the surgery and everything. Then the first night he was
Speaker 2: on oxygen for like six hours, so that was scary
Speaker 2: and they almost took him to the niqu but he
Speaker 2: beat it because he's strong, tough. But yeah, it was
Speaker 2: it was messed up. And I did have a really
Speaker 2: weird dream that I can't get out of my head,
Speaker 2: and it like kind of haunts me. But when I
Speaker 2: was in the hospital, I had this dream and it
Speaker 2: was the Phenomenon, And I know that the Phenomenon gave
Speaker 2: me this dream. The angels and I saw this orb
Speaker 2: in the sky. It was me and Jenny and we
Speaker 2: were standing out in a field and it was at night,
Speaker 2: and I know we were in like a grassy field,
Speaker 2: and there were some trees in the distance, maybe like
Speaker 2: forest or something, and there was like a small crowd
Speaker 2: of people. For some reason, it was like a group
Speaker 2: of people and I couldn't make out anyone in particular.
Speaker 2: It was just random people. And I was looking up
Speaker 2: at the night sky and it was an ORB and
Speaker 2: it was like this very scary feeling, that ORB being
Speaker 2: up there, and it was flying and you know how
Speaker 2: like sometimes when you have dreams and it just feels
Speaker 2: really eerie and weird. It was almost like a nightmare,
Speaker 2: but it wasn't like a monster, and it was an ORB,
Speaker 2: but it was flying up in the sky and then
Speaker 2: by the time it got directly overhead, it turned into
Speaker 2: a nuclear bomb. It literally looked like a nuclear bomb,
Speaker 2: and then it detonated and it was this huge nuclear blast,
Speaker 2: but it was like pure energy, and the blast from
Speaker 2: the nuclear bomb was coming. So I just I grabbed
Speaker 2: Jenny and I was like, you know, we're gonna go
Speaker 2: down together, and you know, I just kind of like
Speaker 2: held on to her for the blast to come and
Speaker 2: get us. And I woke up and I was so
Speaker 2: messed up by this dream, and I had a feeling
Speaker 2: that it was symbolic of, you know, what we had
Speaker 2: just went through, because it was like a nuclear bomb
Speaker 2: his birth, how devastating and traumatic it was. And I
Speaker 2: also had another feeling that it was kind of symbolic
Speaker 2: of like the changes going on in the world, that like,
Speaker 2: whatever it is that's going on, you know, we're going
Speaker 2: through this together. But yeah, dude, it was messed up.
Speaker 2: And I forgot to say that. A week before he
Speaker 2: was born, I had another experience, but it wasn't a dream.
Speaker 2: I was awake for this. I was meditating and praying
Speaker 2: and I had this experience where it was like my
Speaker 2: vision kind of my mind's eye vision, not my eyes.
Speaker 2: My eyes were closed, but it was like my mind
Speaker 2: kind of faded into this other space and there was
Speaker 2: it was my son, but he wasn't born yet at
Speaker 2: this point. This was, like I said, a week or
Speaker 2: two before he was born. And he looked like a toddler.
Speaker 2: He had this long, curly blonde hair, and he had
Speaker 2: bright blue eyes, and he was very beautiful. He had
Speaker 2: a glow like he kind of had a glow to him.
Speaker 2: And there was a spotlight on him, and he was
Speaker 2: in a dark, crowded room and there was people all
Speaker 2: around him, and he was walking around. He was crying,
Speaker 2: he was looking for me, and I went and I
Speaker 2: picked him up, and then I came out of the experience.
Speaker 2: Jenny's asleep because they usually pray and meditated at night
Speaker 2: before bed. And the next day I was like, dude,
Speaker 2: I think he contacted me from the womb or I
Speaker 2: had a premonition or something. I don't know, but I
Speaker 2: think he's going to be beautiful. So then when he was born,
Speaker 2: of course he's beautiful. And I know a lot of
Speaker 2: babies are. I know everybody says that, but I mean,
Speaker 2: I really do feel that he's a beautiful baby. But
Speaker 2: the thing is, he was born with long hair, and
Speaker 2: all of the nurses are like everybody, they're like, oh
Speaker 2: my god, his hair. It's not blonde, but they're like,
Speaker 2: oh my god, his hair. His hair so long. It's
Speaker 2: so beautiful. His hair stands straight up in spikes. So
Speaker 2: that was really weird. How I had that kind of
Speaker 2: like strange feeling that I don't know. It just was weird.
Speaker 2: It was all weird. It was all weird. So I
Speaker 2: say all that to say, you know, I just I don't.
Speaker 2: Whatever track I may have been on before this month,
Speaker 2: I don't. I don't know. I don't know, no idea
Speaker 2: you know what happens next, just completely destabilizing, right, Yeah. No,
Speaker 2: I'm I'm curious to.
Speaker 3: Know about some of these changes and if they are
Speaker 3: similar to the ones that I experienced with the rapid
Speaker 3: realignment of what's what matters, you know. And I remember
Speaker 3: coming up on Christmas time shortly after Arthur was born,
Speaker 3: and it's like I don't want anything, like I'm not
Speaker 3: supposed to want anything, Like now everything is for this child, right,
Speaker 3: you know, and like all of this you know what's important,
Speaker 3: what needs to happen, and almost this selflessness, like rapid
Speaker 3: acceleration of growth.
Speaker 2: And selflessness, you know what I mean?
Speaker 3: Any of this similar or.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean it's a little different for me because
Speaker 2: the like, of course all that stuff, but with the
Speaker 2: with the great worry of thinking he was I mean
Speaker 2: dude the first time. So at this point, she was
Speaker 2: about nine to ten hours into labor, and I was
Speaker 2: texting my parents and everything was fine. Jenny was on
Speaker 2: the you know, doing her contractions all that I'm looking
Speaker 2: at my phone and I'm texting my parents because they're
Speaker 2: two hours away, you know, I'm trying to tell people
Speaker 2: the news and updated. I'm looking at my phone, texting
Speaker 2: my parents, and then I look up and ten people
Speaker 2: are rushing into the room, and I'm like, what's happening?
Speaker 2: And they're not talking to me or acknowledging me because
Speaker 2: it's an emergency. And they start flipping her over and
Speaker 2: they couldn't find his heartbeat for several minutes, and I
Speaker 2: had no clue what was even happening. I guess the
Speaker 2: nurse like pulled the cord out of the wall because
Speaker 2: it's like an emergency alert thing, and it sends on
Speaker 2: alarm through the hospital, like everybody on the floor who's
Speaker 2: free rushed to this room. And I didn't know any
Speaker 2: of that, you know, I was just literally texting my parents.
Speaker 1: Aha.
Speaker 2: But she's she's doing great, you know that kind of thing.
Speaker 2: And then it was like boom. It switched in an
Speaker 2: instant and then from then on it was fear, like,
Speaker 2: oh my god, he's going to die. And then the
Speaker 2: doctor comes in and she's starting to tell us our options,
Speaker 2: like we really should go cut him out like, I mean,
Speaker 2: of course she doesn't say it like that, but she's like,
Speaker 2: we should really consider an emergency C section. And then
Speaker 2: you know, we had to stare at a monitor and
Speaker 2: watch his heart drop for two hours. So after all
Speaker 2: that terrible fear and all that worry, it like it's
Speaker 2: almost like I blacked out and it completely broke me down.
Speaker 2: And then for the next three days. Oh and then
Speaker 2: of course, you know, being in the operating room and
Speaker 2: all that. So for the next three days, every time
Speaker 2: I closed my eyes, it was like I relived it
Speaker 2: every time, which you know, I slept two hours a
Speaker 2: night for the first two weeks, probably because I didn't
Speaker 2: want to sleep because I had so much adrenaline and
Speaker 2: so much fear of him suffocating or anything like that,
Speaker 2: all because of the oxygen the first night, the heart stuff,
Speaker 2: and you know, I know this a lot of this
Speaker 2: might be normal stuff that a lot of people go through,
Speaker 2: but that doesn't make it any easier or you know,
Speaker 2: less scary. It was fucked up. So I don't think
Speaker 2: it's normal. I think it's common. I mean, it happens,
Speaker 2: it's not normal.
Speaker 3: But oh no, but I think I think every every
Speaker 3: every childbirth has its own, its own thing. Yeah, I
Speaker 3: don't think it's never a normal think there's a there's
Speaker 3: a smooth normal one. Like No, that's that's the extreme
Speaker 3: outlier in my in my opinion of having done it once, right, right, Yeah.
Speaker 2: But I'm just saying it was. It was so messed up.
Speaker 2: The worry of him dying or being dead, you know,
Speaker 2: that that horrible fear of like I know people that
Speaker 2: that has happened to, like miscarriages and stillborns and stuff
Speaker 2: and that, right, you know, that's close and that could
Speaker 2: have been. It's just so many things could have happened, right,
Speaker 2: And it got to the point to where they almost
Speaker 2: didn't give us the choice. Like the second time, not
Speaker 2: only was his heart dropping for hours, but then they
Speaker 2: would lose his heartbeat for several minutes because it was
Speaker 2: so low that the device wouldn't even read it, you know,
Speaker 2: And that was scary as shit. So with all that happening,
Speaker 2: it just broke me down. I'm like, I don't even
Speaker 2: think about a lot of that stuff, you know what.
Speaker 2: I've just been trying to keep him alive. I've been
Speaker 2: staying up till seven or eight in the morning for
Speaker 2: the last like three weeks while she sleeps and recovers.
Speaker 2: So I don't know, I've not really been thinking about
Speaker 2: all that stuff. I've not really been thinking about, like
Speaker 2: you know, all this other stuff, you know, the orbs
Speaker 2: and any of that stuff. In a month. I'm telling you, dude,
Speaker 2: like I haven't thought about I haven't cared. I haven't
Speaker 2: cared about any of it. I haven't cared about. You know,
Speaker 2: Easter came and went whooo. I looked a little bit
Speaker 2: on my phone. Obviously the star didn't turn red. Well,
Speaker 2: I got news for you. I knew that wasn't gonna
Speaker 2: happen on Easter. I never I always felt it would
Speaker 2: be more of a fall summer thing. It is what
Speaker 2: it is. I don't care. I just I couldn't. I
Speaker 2: couldn't be bothered any less. Like I've had some serious
Speaker 2: shit to deal with. So that's what I was saying,
Speaker 2: Like I've kind of it kind of made me a
Speaker 2: different person on the other side of it. I'm like,
Speaker 2: you know, I don't know. I definitely felt like I
Speaker 2: went through the fire. So yeah, let's talk about that
Speaker 2: a little bit. I guess I don't have to keep
Speaker 2: harping on the you know what, I would love to
Speaker 2: shout out some people. And it's been a long time
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Speaker 2: me from reading for a list from from a list
Speaker 2: on my phone here, and it might take a while
Speaker 2: before I I kind of get back into my stride
Speaker 2: after you know, a heavy month. But you know, I
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Speaker 2: So thank you very much. So yeah, I was just
Speaker 2: saying like I don't really know I have I've kind
Speaker 2: of been in a bubble, like staying up every night
Speaker 2: till the sun comes up for the last month and
Speaker 2: I'm like, I don't know what's happening. I know the
Speaker 2: world has fallen apart. Every time I turn on my
Speaker 2: phone and look at social media, even briefly, it's fireball
Speaker 2: streaking across the sky. It's orbs, it's the vice president
Speaker 2: coming out and saying it's angels and demons. By the way,
Speaker 2: you know, my dad was the first person in history
Speaker 2: to say that that I'm aware of you know that
Speaker 2: specifically UFOs or angels and demons. You know, we were
Speaker 2: laughed at for about fifteen years for saying that, And
Speaker 2: here we are now some of the most powerful people
Speaker 2: on the planet are coming out and by God, they're agreeing.
Speaker 2: So I wonder where that idea eve came from. Well,
Speaker 2: I'll tell you they've always known it. The people in
Speaker 2: power have always known this through all of time, that
Speaker 2: this phenomenon that interacts with humanity is you know, it's it.
Speaker 2: It's the real thing, and it's spiritual, it's interdimensional. It
Speaker 2: comes from another place. This is a big picture here
Speaker 2: that is not about some random encounter with aliens from
Speaker 2: another place. It's much more profound than that that. It
Speaker 2: is story of creation. It's the and when you pull
Speaker 2: this thread. It's the very reason why are we even
Speaker 2: here on Earth? What are we even doing? You have
Speaker 2: to be a fool to believe in this accidental evolution crap,
Speaker 2: and that we just formed on a rock that through
Speaker 2: collision with other big rocks and you know, heat from
Speaker 2: the sun, that it kind of shaped into a ball
Speaker 2: where water stays on it in a precisely certain way
Speaker 2: and it spends it a certain way and it has
Speaker 2: a certain tilt. It's so much more profound than that.
Speaker 2: You know that there's a there's a whole other line
Speaker 2: of questioning that's about to open up for humanity as
Speaker 2: this disclosure begins to progress. Which, by the way, if
Speaker 2: I recall, hold on a second, let's back up. Easter
Speaker 2: was only three weeks ago, right, give or take. Okay,
Speaker 2: so today's Tuesday. So Sunday was two days ago, three
Speaker 2: weeks before that, roughly, today's April twenty eighth, only about
Speaker 2: three weeks ago, maybe four. Okay, if you read my
Speaker 2: dad's book, which was written years ago. If you read
Speaker 2: my dad's book, it says the lady I'm paraphrasing, but
Speaker 2: she says she's you know what, No, I'm not gonna paraphrase.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna read it word for word. I don't want
Speaker 2: to be misquoted. I don't want to be I don't want,
Speaker 2: you know, the soulless zombies who served the matrix to
Speaker 2: quote me out of context. I'm just gonna go ahead
Speaker 2: and give you the real thing. Let me find it,
Speaker 2: it says. Okay, hold on, I have a folder of
Speaker 2: UFO of God quotes. Let me find it, she says.
Speaker 2: When we approached the front of the throne, the beings
Speaker 2: gave her a slight bow and turned to walk away,
Speaker 2: leaving me alone looking up at her. She stood up
Speaker 2: from the massive throne and hovered over the carved out
Speaker 2: floor beneath it, never touching theud. Just forty feet and
Speaker 2: twenty feet above me, she spoke a parable that took
Speaker 2: a long time for me to process. When the red
Speaker 2: star of Regulus aligns just before dawn in the gaze
Speaker 2: of the Sphinx, a new knowledge shall come into the world.
Speaker 2: I was not sure what that meant. I have come
Speaker 2: to understand that around Easter twenty twenty six, there will
Speaker 2: be the end of an old way in the beginning
Speaker 2: of a new. Okay, clearly, the star was not red
Speaker 2: on Easter again. The year is not over and until
Speaker 2: January first of twenty twenty seven, we still have, you know,
Speaker 2: a chance in the making here. But aside from that,
Speaker 2: isn't it a little weird that Easter was three weeks ago? Okay,
Speaker 2: so we're still around Easter, right, and all this stuff
Speaker 2: is happening. Things are actually happen. You have to be
Speaker 2: a fool not to see it. You have to be
Speaker 2: a nincompoop and not be able to make the connection
Speaker 2: that things are actually happening according to you know what
Speaker 2: whoops that side what she said, what the lady said,
Speaker 2: that this world is going through a great change. And
Speaker 2: see the reality here is the powers that be that
Speaker 2: are in charge of the world. They're very evil. They're
Speaker 2: very very evil. They despise humanity, they despise us. They
Speaker 2: worship if you could. Okay, I'm not a fundamental Christian
Speaker 2: by any means. I would say I'm a follower of Christ,
Speaker 2: but I'm not a fundamental Christian. But let's just let's
Speaker 2: just say loosely like this, this is real. You know,
Speaker 2: the biblical version is as close to real as it
Speaker 2: gets compared to a lot of things with some touches
Speaker 2: of other things sprinkled in there. You know, if you
Speaker 2: could conceive of an idea of a satan, maybe it's
Speaker 2: not one being, but there is a force that exists
Speaker 2: in this universe that is evil. The people in power
Speaker 2: of this world are in line with that, and they
Speaker 2: hate us. They're literally vampires who feast on the blood
Speaker 2: of children and do way worse than that. They are
Speaker 2: the ones who have been withholding this knowledge from humanity
Speaker 2: for thousands of years, going all the way back to
Speaker 2: blood letting cults from even before recorded history into Babylon
Speaker 2: and Sumhra and even before that. People who literally feast
Speaker 2: on the flesh of humans and children and whatnot. These
Speaker 2: are the people who are running the psychological operations to
Speaker 2: deceive the masses about this UFO story. So when you
Speaker 2: see things like you know, Mark Gates, and I'm not
Speaker 2: picking it again, I don't care about political sides. These
Speaker 2: are players who have now entered my turf. I've been
Speaker 2: a UFO guy for twenty years. These guys been talking
Speaker 2: about it a little bit, so I have a right
Speaker 2: to comment on what anybody says on the subject, right,
Speaker 2: I don't care about politics. But when you have people
Speaker 2: in the political world, like Matt Gates coming out saying
Speaker 2: there's an alien hybrid program. And then you have timber
Speaker 2: Chet coming out saying, look, folks, I've been briefed in
Speaker 2: a private room and and I'm just gonna say they're
Speaker 2: trying to convince me it's anti Christian. I would not
Speaker 2: believe anything unless you see it with your own eyes.
Speaker 2: Psychological warfare exists. And then you have Representative Luna coming out,
Speaker 2: very sweet lady. By the way, my dad has met her.
Speaker 2: He's met timber Chet too, but he met he had
Speaker 2: a little bit more time with Luna, and she's very sweet.
Speaker 2: But when Luna was like she's been saying, you gotta
Speaker 2: read the Book of Enoch. This is biblical, this is spiritual.
Speaker 2: And then the Vice President's coming out and saying it's angels.
Speaker 2: You're seeing a war. I'm not saying who is politically
Speaker 2: good guys are bad guys. That's not what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: Remove the faces. You are seeing a war of factions
Speaker 2: between light and dark. But this information, this very information
Speaker 2: that we've been talking about the Bledsoe family for almost
Speaker 2: twenty years now, that the UFO sub which is biblical,
Speaker 2: not just spiritual, it's biblical. Spiritual could be anything. I'm
Speaker 2: at burning man and I'm burning an effigy of a
Speaker 2: fucking wicker man, and you know, rubbing crystals on my nipples,
Speaker 2: like anybody can say they're spiritual. That's I don't care
Speaker 2: about that. Okay, it's biblical. It specifically has to do
Speaker 2: with the destiny and the creation of the human race,
Speaker 2: all the way up to the creator of reality itself, God,
Speaker 2: the great ineffable truth. Right, That's what we're That is
Speaker 2: what is unfolding. That is the revealing. It's not about
Speaker 2: does life exist out there on Mars? Who gives us shit?
Speaker 2: It's so much bigger than that. It's so much bigger
Speaker 2: than that, you know what I mean. It's it's it's
Speaker 2: it's our key to This is our key to learning
Speaker 2: the truth about literally navigating the cosmos. But we're not
Speaker 2: gonna do it with a physical body. It's gonna be
Speaker 2: with our mind and with our soul. Right But anyway, So,
Speaker 2: what you're seeing is an information war playing out before
Speaker 2: our very eyes, where some people are pushing the satanic
Speaker 2: alien narrative. And then I suspect some people are flipping
Speaker 2: and they're gaining a conscience, and they're coming out and
Speaker 2: they're saying, actually, whoa, I wouldn't believe anything unless you
Speaker 2: see it with your own eyes, which, by the way,
Speaker 2: I recall saying that a few months ago about abduction
Speaker 2: stories and abduction phenomena, and that we shouldn't believe anything
Speaker 2: without rigorous discernment and vetting for ourselves. And somehow or
Speaker 2: another that got so crazy that I wake up one
Speaker 2: day and on Twitter I'm trending and there's thousands of
Speaker 2: posts of people shitting on me for saying the very
Speaker 2: same thing. Hmm, but who cares? I don't care. This is,
Speaker 2: to be perfectly honest, This is a you know, it's
Speaker 2: a spiritual war for the soul of humanity. And you
Speaker 2: have one side that's devouring children in many ways, not
Speaker 2: just you know, for food, but in other ways too,
Speaker 2: that side putting out a certain lie about the alien
Speaker 2: story and the destiny of humanity. And then you have God,
Speaker 2: the phenomenon itself, interacting with the masses in its own way,
Speaker 2: coming to people on a personal and an individual level,
Speaker 2: and saying, go tell the story. We can't break the
Speaker 2: free will of mankind. We need help to spread the
Speaker 2: world has to receive us. We need to be received,
Speaker 2: you know. The lady she said, go tell your story.
Speaker 2: We will help you. We can't break humanity's free will.
Speaker 2: We need help, you know. And then the other side
Speaker 2: is coming out saying, oh, it's alien hybrid program and
Speaker 2: they've got gray as from the future, and they've got
Speaker 2: all this shit, and they you know, they do things
Speaker 2: like probe people in the butt and they do all this,
Speaker 2: you know, weird stuff. So we're seeing, we're seeing in
Speaker 2: real time and information war for the soul of humanity.
Speaker 2: Because you have to think you're a god, a little
Speaker 2: g God. You are an incarnate. The true God is
Speaker 2: this infinite being. It is the totality of all of existences.
Speaker 2: So if you think of like the ocean, you know,
Speaker 2: God is not only the ocean, but is bigger than
Speaker 2: the ocean, and every little drop of water is a
Speaker 2: part of God. But also together they make God. But
Speaker 2: there's an infinite amount of this God to keep sending
Speaker 2: souls out into reality because God is experiencing everything through us,
Speaker 2: through every incarnated being. So we are like little g gods.
Speaker 2: We're little fractals of the infinite mind. So our beliefs
Speaker 2: our mind, our thoughts are very powerful, and the Satanists
Speaker 2: in charge know this, and they don't want us to
Speaker 2: be powerful. They don't want us to have powerful thoughts.
Speaker 2: They don't want us to know the truth and to
Speaker 2: break free from the poison that they've been giving us
Speaker 2: for millennia, for thousands of years, keeping us as slaves
Speaker 2: eating bread, building the pyramids all that. Well, I know
Speaker 2: that's probably not how they were built, but you know
Speaker 2: what I mean, for thousands of years they've been cracking
Speaker 2: a whip. You get bread, build our monuments. That's humankind.
Speaker 2: That's the human story. That there's been a small ruling
Speaker 2: class who have subjugated the masses. But now they do
Speaker 2: it not only through you know, taxes, through making the
Speaker 2: economy so horrible that nobody can really afford to do
Speaker 2: anything unless you're rich, you know, all these other means,
Speaker 2: but they do it through information. They do it through
Speaker 2: addicting you to shitty, horrible soul of slop, media, horrible
Speaker 2: music that brainwashes your kids to be picked up. And
Speaker 2: then you know, lies about UFOs about everything. They are
Speaker 2: completely waging war on humanity. Why am I going on
Speaker 2: and on and on about this because I used to
Speaker 2: care so much, so so so the whole time I've
Speaker 2: done this show, I have believed that I was helping
Speaker 2: peop people undo that programming, that I was tiptoeing around
Speaker 2: what is what this all is about? And you know
Speaker 2: what it means? And uh, you know, then just four
Speaker 2: weeks ago today, I had to survive the complete mental
Speaker 2: collapse of thinking my son was dying and being carved
Speaker 2: right out of my wife in a heartbeat. And I'm
Speaker 2: sitting there having to make the decisions about all of
Speaker 2: this for the first time, you know, anything super scary
Speaker 2: and stressful and intense. Was all pretty much on my
Speaker 2: shoulders because she was so messed up she couldn't, you know,
Speaker 2: do anything. So after all that, I'm just kind of like,
Speaker 2: I don't care anymore, you know, Like I don't care.
Speaker 2: I don't care what people believe. I don't care. I
Speaker 2: don't care if people want to go and believe lies
Speaker 2: or if they if they want to you know, be
Speaker 2: fooled by that. Of course I care, but I don't
Speaker 2: care to try anymore. So I've been kind of thinking
Speaker 2: about it, like what am I doing? What am what
Speaker 2: am I going to talk about? What is this for
Speaker 2: what's the purpose of all of this? You know, we could,
Speaker 2: we could do the best, nicest, greatest thing in the world.
Speaker 2: But because of this evil satanic system that has unlimited
Speaker 2: wealth and resources, they can send. You know, any time
Speaker 2: I post anything, or my dad or anyone in our family,
Speaker 2: we have a dozen bots saying, you know, fraud, you're fake,
Speaker 2: your bullshit, And you know, I shouldn't even say that,
Speaker 2: but I'm so tired of hearing. I'm so I'm so
Speaker 2: tired of we have subjected ourselves for twenty years, almost
Speaker 2: next year, technically it's twenty We have subjected ourselves to
Speaker 2: the ridicule and the criticism and the lashing and the
Speaker 2: mocking and the torment of a world that is controlled
Speaker 2: by demons, literally an evil, sick world. And the whole
Speaker 2: time we've stuck to our guns and we've been telling
Speaker 2: the truth. So dealing with the trauma of my son,
Speaker 2: I just I kind of had this collapse, and you know,
Speaker 2: I don't care. I don't care anymore. I'm gonna do
Speaker 2: what I want to do. I'm gonna talk about what
Speaker 2: I want to talk about. I'm gonna have fun. If
Speaker 2: I want to do a gospel series If I want
Speaker 2: to talk about Jesus Christ for twenty five episodes, I'm
Speaker 2: gonna do it because I want to, not because I
Speaker 2: feel like I have to inform somebody about something. If
Speaker 2: I want to talk about Tibetan Buddhism for three weeks,
Speaker 2: or freaking you know, Templarism, or whatever I want to
Speaker 2: talk about, I'm going to do it because I want to,
Speaker 2: because it's fun, because it excites me, because I don't
Speaker 2: care anymore. I don't care. I just don't care to
Speaker 2: have this pressure in this you know, this weight on
Speaker 2: my shoulders anymore about what people think I'm doing or
Speaker 2: what I'm talking about. After being mocked and torn minted
Speaker 2: for almost twenty years, and we could do the greatest,
Speaker 2: nicest thing for freaking humanity and would never It's a thankless,
Speaker 2: cruel world. That's what I'm trying to say. So I'm
Speaker 2: not speaking to that. I'm not engaging with that. I'm
Speaker 2: not engaging with, you know, any negative. I just don't care.
Speaker 2: There are good people in this world. There are loving
Speaker 2: people who believe in truth. I've come to believe after
Speaker 2: everything that I've had a lot of time to think
Speaker 2: in the last month A lot of suffering, a lot
Speaker 2: of adrenaline and no sleep for weeks, and to the
Speaker 2: point of complete mental collapse multiple times, hyperventilating, just freaking terror.
Speaker 2: I've had a lot of change in my mind, and
Speaker 2: I have come to realize that there are good people
Speaker 2: in this world. But if you read the Book of Revelation,
Speaker 2: it talks about there's one hundred and forty four thousand people.
Speaker 2: I'm not one of those light worker, star seed people
Speaker 2: who are going to say we're the one hundred and
Speaker 2: forty four thousand chosen. I'm not saying that. If you
Speaker 2: also look, I can't exactly remember the quote right now,
Speaker 2: I could find it doesn't matter because you can google
Speaker 2: it and you'll see that it's true that it says
Speaker 2: in the Bible that many are called, but few are chosen.
Speaker 2: That it's harder for a rich person to enter the
Speaker 2: Kingdom of Heaven that it is for a camel to
Speaker 2: pass through the eye of a needle. Now, I know
Speaker 2: that in first century Judea there was in the city
Speaker 2: of Jerusalem there was this tiny little entrance that they
Speaker 2: called the eye of the needle that was like a backway.
Speaker 2: I know that that's technically true but also what it's
Speaker 2: saying is that it's very difficult for people to awaken
Speaker 2: into a sense. So I'm just I've come to believe
Speaker 2: after really taking a step away for a month and
Speaker 2: dealing with what I was dealing with, that I really
Speaker 2: think the majority of this world is pretty negative. And
Speaker 2: you can look about anything online. You can look at anything.
Speaker 2: It could be anime, it could be hip hop, it
Speaker 2: could be fashion, it could be your favorite brand of tissues.
Speaker 2: It could be a post, it could be a video,
Speaker 2: it doesn't matter, and you can read the comments and
Speaker 2: it's people there are hateful, negative, cancel mob people. No, Alex,
Speaker 2: I'm not a doomer. I'm not saying that I have
Speaker 2: no hope for humanity. I'm not a nihilist. I'm not
Speaker 2: any of that. I'm just saying that I've come to
Speaker 2: realize that, you know, I think that I think that
Speaker 2: it takes a special calling in this world, and it
Speaker 2: is very rare and few and far in between to
Speaker 2: choose the path of light and to awaken and go
Speaker 2: to the right place, to the right path, the right direction.
Speaker 2: I used to be like, oh, yeah, the whole world
Speaker 2: is gonna be cool by I don't know, I think
Speaker 2: I think that the split. There is a split happening
Speaker 2: of consciousness, and it's it's extreme, and it's very aggressive.
Speaker 2: It's happening very frequently, and you know, I think it's
Speaker 2: ultimately up to humanity to choose to go the right way.
Speaker 2: So whatever amount of people that is choosing to to
Speaker 2: go the right way and be good and not engage
Speaker 2: with the darkness and the negativity, that's who I'm talking
Speaker 2: to from now on, That's who I care about. That's
Speaker 2: who I'm interacting with in my mind. You know, welcome
Speaker 2: to the show. I'm not I'm not trying to counteract
Speaker 2: anymore some dark, negative thing like I used to believe
Speaker 2: I was. It's not my fight. I don't care. I've
Speaker 2: got enough stuff to deal with and uh, you know,
Speaker 2: I I just want to try to keep it positive
Speaker 2: to the best of my ability. And I'm going to
Speaker 2: just talk about what I want to talk about. And
Speaker 2: I feel like that's pretty much all I have to say.
Speaker 2: Do you have anything to say about any of that? Alex,
Speaker 2: first time back, so.
Speaker 3: I am a little fired up about free will. If
Speaker 3: you want to talk about free will. You brought that
Speaker 3: up a couple of minutes ago. Sure how God loves
Speaker 3: and absolutely respects your free will, and you know, I
Speaker 3: think that's my speculation a large part of why we're
Speaker 3: here doing what we're doing, not me and you everybody, right,
Speaker 3: You're a fragment of God experiencing everything there is to experience,
Speaker 3: and everybody is a mirror of yourself, you know. And
Speaker 3: I often see that, especially with people that I immediately
Speaker 3: don't like, and then you talk to them for longer
Speaker 3: and you begin to learn that the parts you didn't
Speaker 3: like are the parts you don't like about your own self.
Speaker 3: And anyway, free will, the phenomenon and God, but that's
Speaker 3: a synonym, uh, massively respect your free will. I think
Speaker 3: this is also largely the reason that many experiences that
Speaker 3: happen or happen to you can also be written off
Speaker 3: or logic away. There's always this mirror where it's a phenomenon,
Speaker 3: it's a satellite, it's this, it's a chamera, it's a
Speaker 3: shooting star, it's a camera flare.
Speaker 2: That's because it's a SpaceX rocket. Sorry, yeah, you know
Speaker 2: it's true.
Speaker 3: It's true, but it's it's genius, yeah, because I mean
Speaker 3: it's it's kind of like the movie the phenomenon is
Speaker 3: handing you the option, the red pull of the blue pill.
Speaker 3: Which one do you want to take? You know, hey,
Speaker 3: the choice is yours. You know it always will be yours.
Speaker 3: So that when this split happens and you fall on
Speaker 3: one side of the split, you can't say, oh, it's
Speaker 3: not me, it was you had free will the whole time.
Speaker 3: I'm not bashing anybody. I'm just like, you know, it's
Speaker 3: time to to realize that you're in charge of your
Speaker 3: life and you're responsible for the decisions you make, and
Speaker 3: that's just what it is. But you know, whether or
Speaker 3: not what you see is a reflection of who you are, right,
Speaker 3: So that's I just wanted to go on a rant
Speaker 3: there because that seems to be the theme today.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: No, I mean, I just I kind of had a realization, dude,
Speaker 2: Like I used to care so much about trying to
Speaker 2: like help people realize, you know, the truth or the
Speaker 2: right thing, and like in a way that didn't cause
Speaker 2: any sort of I used to. It used to bother
Speaker 2: me when people will go through like existential dread, Like
Speaker 2: I wanted to minimize that. I wanted you know what
Speaker 2: I mean. And I've kind of realized.
Speaker 3: That you can help me on a personal level, because I.
Speaker 2: Still have that they need a lot. Yeah, you need
Speaker 2: a lot of help, buddy. Now I'm kidding, but can
Speaker 2: you hear him? Okay? Well, anyway, So I've just kind
Speaker 2: of come to realize that this is a really messed up,
Speaker 2: cruel world, and it kind of like it almost deserves shock,
Speaker 2: it almost needs it to survive. We need a great shock,
Speaker 2: We need a collective ego death of this world to
Speaker 2: move forward in a way that doesn't destroy us, you know.
Speaker 2: And I don't know. I just feel like, in my
Speaker 2: head I believed I was talking to the whole world
Speaker 2: and I had to reach the whole world. I don't
Speaker 2: feel that way anymore, and I don't care about that.
Speaker 2: I don't believe that it's probably possible for our platform
Speaker 2: to blow up to that level because we're so monitored
Speaker 2: by freaking all these intelligence agencies literally overtly. I don't
Speaker 2: think they'll ever allow us to get to that level.
Speaker 2: I mean, you know, I just don't think it's possible.
Speaker 2: Videos pop up everywhere with our family getting millions of
Speaker 2: views all over the internet, but for some reason, our
Speaker 2: show can't break right past around like you know, where
Speaker 2: it's at right now, And same with Dad and his
Speaker 2: Instagram and anything we do public. Like I just I
Speaker 2: don't even think it's possible for our family to blow
Speaker 2: up to certain levels. So I'm kind of like my
Speaker 2: goals have shifted. And maybe that's a good thing, Maybe
Speaker 2: that's the best thing for me, But I don't I
Speaker 2: don't care to talk to the whole world or reach
Speaker 2: the whole world anymore. I only care to reach the
Speaker 2: good people, the people who want truth, no matter how
Speaker 2: ugly it is. I don't have all the answers, but
Speaker 2: you know what I do have, I have a desire
Speaker 2: to want to know the truth, no matter how scary
Speaker 2: it is or ugly it is. Show me more. You know,
Speaker 2: since I was young, I would always pay pray to
Speaker 2: the Spirit of Truth. Spirit of Truth, I would literally say,
Speaker 2: Especially in my early twenties, I learned this Spirit of truth,
Speaker 2: show me, show me what I need to see. And
Speaker 2: as I begin to do this, I began to learn
Speaker 2: more of more things that you know helped me on
Speaker 2: my path. You know what I mean. I'm not I'm
Speaker 2: not thinking I have all the answers. I don't think
Speaker 2: anybody has all the answers. I think. I think by design,
Speaker 2: humans are flawed, and this is like a cosmic school anyway,
Speaker 2: being you know, taught lessons and going on a journey
Speaker 2: scripted by higher forces anyway. So I'm like, you know,
Speaker 2: I just I want to connect with the people who
Speaker 2: are on the same journey as me, which is trying
Speaker 2: to find the truth without any sort of control over
Speaker 2: what I think that is, or you know, my ego
Speaker 2: saying no, that can't be because I have a science
Speaker 2: degree and I believe in evolution, or no, I don't
Speaker 2: you know, I don't like God or Jesus because a
Speaker 2: Christian offended me, or I don't like Buddha because you know,
Speaker 2: I'm American, or any any of these stupid egotistical things like.
Speaker 2: I don't care about that. What I care about is
Speaker 2: finding the real truth. Give me what's practical, give me
Speaker 2: what's real. And also those are the people that that
Speaker 2: resonate with me. So that's the journey I'm on, just
Speaker 2: trying to think, talk about what excites me and what
Speaker 2: amazes me and what I find interesting. I don't feel
Speaker 2: like I'm on some war anymore. I don't. I don't care,
Speaker 2: you know, just let's just, you know, have fun. Let's
Speaker 2: just have fun and keep doing it, you know. So
Speaker 2: Jenny said, I could cut this one short if I
Speaker 2: wanted to, because it's my first one back and I've
Speaker 2: had a hard month. But I don't know anything else
Speaker 2: you want to add to that.
Speaker 3: It feels like cosmic detention earth. Yeah, the filastic said
Speaker 3: it was hell. It feels like we got in trouble. Yeah,
Speaker 3: and we it's like, no, no, go learn some lessons. Yeah, seriously, dude,
Speaker 3: this world sucks.
Speaker 2: I mean, it's beautiful. There's a lot of beauty in
Speaker 2: this world too. I think it's heaven and Hell truly.
Speaker 2: But yeah, you know, I think it's up to you, yes,
Speaker 2: but then also it no, I think it's up to
Speaker 2: you to react to what's happening. Right, It's up to
Speaker 2: you to choose your state. Right, But karma, cosmic law
Speaker 2: gives you what you need to experience. How are you
Speaker 2: gonna react? You're in the hospital, you think your child
Speaker 2: is dying. They can't find his heart rate. What did
Speaker 2: I do? I'm not saying that, Oh yeah I did, right,
Speaker 2: Look at me. I'm just I'm literally just telling you
Speaker 2: what happened like that, right, and I'm not I don't
Speaker 2: mean it like that. But what did I do? I prayed,
Speaker 2: and I prayed, please, please, please. You know what I said.
Speaker 2: I said, God, I'm not even gonna bargain with you.
Speaker 2: I'm just gonna give myself to you. I'm gonna give
Speaker 2: my son to you. Shit, I'm gonna give my wife
Speaker 2: to you. You can have her too, you can't have
Speaker 2: my whole family. I'm not even gonna ask for anything,
Speaker 2: just you know, keep him alive. And I heard a voice,
Speaker 2: not at that moment, but at a different point, and
Speaker 2: it said, Ah, have faith, that's gonna be all right.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: So you know, I just think I think that we
Speaker 2: all have to experience hardships here and it's inescapable and
Speaker 2: we can be you know, kumbaya all the time, but
Speaker 2: the reality is that's not how it works. And in
Speaker 2: order to grow, we have to go through trauma. Right,
Speaker 2: we come here to experience everything. Really, but it's you know,
Speaker 2: it's it's karma. And I just was really feeling it
Speaker 2: a month ago today, March twenty eighth, kind of like flip.
Speaker 2: I thought my life was over, dude. When I was
Speaker 2: in the operating room and they cut James out and
Speaker 2: he was like they were slapping the crap out of
Speaker 2: him to get him to breathe. I thought they were
Speaker 2: I know that that's kind of normal, but in the moment,
Speaker 2: it didn't feel normal. I thought they were trying to
Speaker 2: start as heart, because for over two hours we were like,
Speaker 2: his heart's messing up, you know what I mean. So
Speaker 2: I thought they were trying to start as heart. They
Speaker 2: were just trying to get him to breathe. Totally normal,
Speaker 2: but in the moment, I was like, oh my god,
Speaker 2: he's Jenny's like, how is he? I was like, he's
Speaker 2: you know, I thought he was dead. And then Jenny's
Speaker 2: freaking out. She was all drugged up from the surgery
Speaker 2: and they still had her open and she's like, am
Speaker 2: I okay, am I okay, am I gonna live? And
Speaker 2: I'm just like, oh my god, my life's over and
Speaker 2: my life is completely over. I've literally thought my life
Speaker 2: was over and then it all ended up okay. So
Speaker 2: I was just kind of like, I don't know what
Speaker 2: I'm gonna talk about. I definitely don't have the same worries.
Speaker 2: I don't have the same motivations that I used to have.
Speaker 2: I see these people talking about all this crap online
Speaker 2: about like you know, hybrid programs and all this crap,
Speaker 2: and I sit there and I'm like, I don't care.
Speaker 2: They can talk about whatever they want to talk about.
Speaker 2: You know why, Alex, Because the good people in this
Speaker 2: world who seek the truth and they have a real
Speaker 2: spiritual phenomenon occurring within their soul where they are like
Speaker 2: magnetically aligned to truth and actual, real truth, they're gonna
Speaker 2: find a way.
Speaker 3: Well, those people also don't leave hate comments.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but they're gonna find a way, dude. They're going
Speaker 2: to find their way to the truth because it was
Speaker 2: predestined for them to come here and to experience it.
Speaker 2: So I don't care anymore. I don't I don't care.
Speaker 2: They can go say whatever lies they want. It's not
Speaker 2: my problem. My only problem is sharing what I know,
Speaker 2: what what I've experienced, and just having fun with it
Speaker 2: and trying to smile a lot more, because there was
Speaker 2: a lot of it was a few weeks I wasn't smiling.
Speaker 3: So you're gonna say that and you're not gonna give
Speaker 3: me a smile.
Speaker 2: Well, now that you've kind of put me on the spot, Okay,
Speaker 2: there you go. But you're welcome, But yeah, I don't know, man,
Speaker 2: I'm just just just gonna figure it out as I go,
Speaker 2: just trying to have fun with it, and you know, hopefully,
Speaker 2: hopefully the show has a feeling of, you know, kind
Speaker 2: of what it was before. But I just I don't know.
Speaker 2: I just feel like I'm not the same person I was.
Speaker 2: So we'll see what happens.
Speaker 3: Well.
Speaker 2: Anyway, thank you guys for the support. To be honest,
Speaker 2: I kind of feel like this is all a dream
Speaker 2: from a lifetime ago, the show and all this stuff
Speaker 2: that's happening out there in the world, and you know,
Speaker 2: the experiences, and it just feels like kind of so
Speaker 2: far away to me now after all this this trauma
Speaker 2: with the baby being born, and sometimes it doesn't even
Speaker 2: feel real to me anymore, and you know, any of
Speaker 2: it really and maybe that's temporary, maybe maybe that'll go away,
Speaker 2: maybe it'll change. But right now it's like, I hear
Speaker 2: my baby crying right now every three hours. I gotta
Speaker 2: keep him fed, and I I keep thinking back to
Speaker 2: the hospital, which also feels like a lifetime ago, and
Speaker 2: that intense fear of thinking he was dying, and then
Speaker 2: we only had him in the room for a few
Speaker 2: hours with us, and then they had to take him
Speaker 2: and keep him on oxygen, you know. And then at
Speaker 2: three am, the pediatrician comes into our room and they're like,
Speaker 2: we're thinking we're gonna have to take him to the
Speaker 2: NICK if he can't figure out how to breathe on
Speaker 2: his own. And I'm just like, oh God, this is it,
Speaker 2: this is it. It's not over. It was one thing
Speaker 2: like his temperature wouldn't stabilize, then it's glucose because of
Speaker 2: his glucose levels, and then he couldn't figure out how
Speaker 2: to breathe on his own, and it was just all
Speaker 2: this stress that Now I'm like, the only thing I
Speaker 2: care about anymore is just keeping that little baby going
Speaker 2: and keeping them happy. So I'm gonna keep doing what
Speaker 2: I've been doing. I love doing the show, I love
Speaker 2: doing all of this. It's a fundamental part of my life.
Speaker 2: And you know what we do and who we are.
Speaker 2: I'm not trying to like freak anybody out. I'm just
Speaker 2: saying I don't feel that i'm the same as I was.
Speaker 2: I feel different about everything. So that's all I'm trying
Speaker 2: to say. Whatever goals I had before, whatever path I
Speaker 2: was on, I'm on a different path now. That's that's,
Speaker 2: that's all I'm saying. So thank you guys for supporting
Speaker 2: us and you know, believing in us and just being
Speaker 2: there with us the whole time. Oh, you know what
Speaker 2: I should say, Alex is I know that this will
Speaker 2: be out after that, But Alex in two days, I'm
Speaker 2: very excited because he's about to go to his first conference.
Speaker 2: He's going to contact Modalities. So and that's a good
Speaker 2: point that next week we'll be able to talk about
Speaker 2: that on next week's episode. That's exciting. Give me another
Speaker 2: little softball to ease and too write. So I am
Speaker 2: looking forward to how that goes. I'm really excited about it.
Speaker 2: The fact that you get to go experience the conference.
Speaker 2: It sucks that I won't be there, but it's okay
Speaker 2: because my family will be there and you'll be in
Speaker 2: great hands. You'll have great time. You're gonna come back
Speaker 2: blah blah blah blah blah bla blah blah. You're gonna
Speaker 2: have such a good time. I can't wait to hear it.
Speaker 2: And then and just a few weeks after that, we're
Speaker 2: going to California together. We're going to contact in the desert,
Speaker 2: and I'm looking forward to that one too. So this
Speaker 2: month will keep me busy, and it'll definitely keep me busy. Oh,
Speaker 2: I should go ahead and say this too. Naturally, I
Speaker 2: had to take off of my Monroe Institute programs because obviously,
Speaker 2: you know, preparing for baby James to come into the world.
Speaker 2: But now that he's earthside, I've been trying to get
Speaker 2: back on my feet, especially because of the emergency surgery.
Speaker 2: I've had to be very attentive to Jenny and the baby.
Speaker 2: For the first you know, a week or so, she
Speaker 2: was like kind of struggling to even walk. Now she's
Speaker 2: done a lot better, but it's just it's just very intensive,
Speaker 2: so I haven't really had the time to to kind
Speaker 2: of do my own things. I've been kind of taking
Speaker 2: care of the family. But very soon we're kind of
Speaker 2: like seeing sunnier days now and it's getting better. So
Speaker 2: Jenny and I are having talks about like, I got
Speaker 2: to get my website done. Real world's knocking on my door.
Speaker 2: I got to kind of get out there and start
Speaker 2: doing something again. And I will say I do miss
Speaker 2: I really do miss doing the Monroe stuff. It's only
Speaker 2: been a couple months. But I really miss it. I
Speaker 2: think the last program I did was like January maybe,
Speaker 2: and it's coming up on, coming up on I think
Speaker 2: May in a couple of days, so I'm working on it.
Speaker 2: I'm working on I did get certified to do virtual programs.
Speaker 2: I just hadn't announced that yet because my website wasn't finished.
Speaker 2: But I'm very close to finishing my website and then
Speaker 2: I'll get right back to it and I look forward
Speaker 2: to having people join for those classes. So my website,
Speaker 2: I should have more information on that soon to be
Speaker 2: able to book classes. I hope you guys have a run.
Speaker 2: I'm tripping over my words there. I felt like Scooby
Speaker 2: Doo for a minute. I was about to say, wonderful,
Speaker 2: raggy raggy ru. I hope you guys have a wonderful West.
Speaker 2: Dang it, bye, guys.
Speaker 1: Weird things happened in the backyard of letting.
Speaker 2: House and the yard of letting.
Speaker 1: Houses, so weird, weird, no weird. Wow