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<v Speaker 1>The weird thing happened in the Weird Weird Weird.

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<v Speaker 2>Welcome to Bless, I said, so, guys, I know that

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<v Speaker 2>you haven't missed any episodes, but this is my first

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<v Speaker 2>time recording in like over a month, and yeah, it's

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<v Speaker 2>been a hard month. So today my son is exactly

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<v Speaker 2>one month old. He was born on March twenty eighth,

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<v Speaker 2>at two of six pm. And yeah, it was. It

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<v Speaker 2>was nuts. Actually it was completely traumatizing. And I wasn't

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<v Speaker 2>sure how much I wanted to talk about that, if

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<v Speaker 2>if at all, but but I feel like, I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>I guess it's worth talking about a little bit. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it was. It was just really messed up. We thought

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<v Speaker 2>he was going to die. And basically, you know, for

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<v Speaker 2>for nine months we had a very normal, very problem

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<v Speaker 2>free pregnancy, with no issues, nothing to worry about at all,

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<v Speaker 2>and then we get there and you know, water breaks

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<v Speaker 2>in the middle of the night. We rushed to the hospital.

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<v Speaker 2>We're all excited, we're all freaking out, and she labors

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<v Speaker 2>for like almost twelve hours without really progressing, and then

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<v Speaker 2>it hit a certain point where his heart started dropping

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<v Speaker 2>to really dangerous levels and they lost his heart rate

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<v Speaker 2>a few times a bunch of people burst in the

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<v Speaker 2>room and it was like an emergency and we were

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<v Speaker 2>freaking out, and then they had to wheel her back

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<v Speaker 2>there and cut him out right away, and you know,

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<v Speaker 2>it was very scary and very traumatizing, and I definitely

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<v Speaker 2>had ptsd UH for three days, actually more like two weeks.

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<v Speaker 2>I couldn't sleep and you know, just like having nightmares

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<v Speaker 2>about it and stuff. So it was really tough. And

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<v Speaker 2>the only reason I'm even bringing this up is not

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<v Speaker 2>to like boohoo me, but it's just to say, like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm I don't feel like I'm the same person that

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<v Speaker 2>I was before that, and I'm just like, I don't know,

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<v Speaker 2>I feel I feel like a different person. I don't

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<v Speaker 2>feel like I care about the same things that I

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<v Speaker 2>care about before that. And I expected to come back

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<v Speaker 2>and have like this happy Kumbayas story and it just

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<v Speaker 2>be this, like, you know, wow, that was so awesome,

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<v Speaker 2>look at my beautiful baby. But it's not really like that.

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<v Speaker 2>It feels more like surviving the worst crisis that I've

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<v Speaker 2>ever experienced. Even though he was totally okay and he's

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<v Speaker 2>very healthy, it was just like a very scary shock

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<v Speaker 2>and I was in there during the emergency c section,

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<v Speaker 2>So I did kind of see everything, and I shouldn't

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<v Speaker 2>have looked, but I had this weird, curious thought, like

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<v Speaker 2>I just want to see if she's okay, because it

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<v Speaker 2>was weird. It was like the baby table was at

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<v Speaker 2>the foot of the operating table and she was awake,

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<v Speaker 2>so they let me sit in there with her and

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<v Speaker 2>like try to keep her calm. And they were like, here,

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<v Speaker 2>come hold the baby, because Jenny was too nauseous and

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<v Speaker 2>had all this medicine enter from the surgery, and so

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<v Speaker 2>they brought me over to hold the baby and it

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<v Speaker 2>was at the foot of the operating table. So I

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<v Speaker 2>just had this week, so of course I walked around

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<v Speaker 2>the curtain and I just had this weird feeling. I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, should I look and see if she's okay?

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like I should. And I looked over and

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<v Speaker 2>they were like they were either pulling an organ out

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<v Speaker 2>or putting an organ in. I can't I couldn't quite

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<v Speaker 2>tell you, but it was it looked like you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and like in the old stories when the Vikings would

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<v Speaker 2>do like blood eagles, they would like they would like

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<v Speaker 2>cut you open and you display your out like wings.

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<v Speaker 2>That's how they had it arranged. I mean it was

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<v Speaker 2>like split open and they were like, I said, it

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<v Speaker 2>was a quick look and I regretted it, but they

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<v Speaker 2>were either pulling one out or putting one in, and

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, I shouldn't have done that. And I'm

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<v Speaker 2>sitting there holding the baby and I was like, they

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<v Speaker 2>were like, here, come hold the baby dead and I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, he's alive, and they're like, yes, he's alive.

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<v Speaker 2>Because for several minutes, you know, during the surgery, we're like,

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<v Speaker 2>is he okay? He was? Is he okay? And they're

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<v Speaker 2>like we're working on it, and they wouldn't give us like, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm forget the website plug dude, I don't care. I

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<v Speaker 2>just had the thought to do that. But anyway, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it was. It was horrible. It was messed up and

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<v Speaker 2>totally worth it, totally totally, you know, beautiful, beautiful baby.

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<v Speaker 2>He's an amazing, little, beautiful soul.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know why we talked about this. Were you

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<v Speaker 3>the first person to do skinn of skin with him?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Yeah, me too. She couldn't even hold him for

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<v Speaker 2>an hour or so because you know, all the surgery, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>postop and all that, and.

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<v Speaker 3>That's about the only similarity we had in our whole experience.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Well, I mean I think what I learned most

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<v Speaker 2>of all was just never have a strict plan, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>like specifically for pregnant season all that. I mean, do

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<v Speaker 2>you go in there and you think it's going to

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<v Speaker 2>go one way and it almost never does and anyway, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so it was it was messed up, and I had

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<v Speaker 2>a really weird dream from the phenomenon. I will say,

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<v Speaker 2>I will say this that right before the sea section,

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<v Speaker 2>and it was very fast too. It was like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>we're doing this, and then they willed her back and

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<v Speaker 2>he was cut out in like twenty minutes, and it

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<v Speaker 2>was it was like had us in a whirlwind. But

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<v Speaker 2>I will say that right before, about an hour before

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<v Speaker 2>the sea section, we kind of knew that that was

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<v Speaker 2>a possibility because of the heart rate loss and everything,

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<v Speaker 2>and we had to stare at a monitor for like

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<v Speaker 2>two hours and watch it happen, watch his heart drop

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<v Speaker 2>with every contraction, and so I kind of knew that

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<v Speaker 2>it was coming and that I I don't know, So

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<v Speaker 2>I just walked downstairs to the lobby of the hospital

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<v Speaker 2>and I like got a coffee and I was just

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<v Speaker 2>praying and praying and praying. I was like, oh my God,

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<v Speaker 2>just praying and praying and praying. And I did hear

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<v Speaker 2>a voice, not audibly with my ears, but like in

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<v Speaker 2>my mind, and the voice told me to have faith.

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<v Speaker 2>It's gonna be all right. And I kind of needed

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<v Speaker 2>that because it was so bad that for the first

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<v Speaker 2>like two weeks, I was so traumatized that every I

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<v Speaker 2>just I was scared to get attached because I was

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<v Speaker 2>just like, you know, he's gonna die, you know what

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, just every little thing. I forgot to say

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<v Speaker 2>too that after all that scared of his heart and

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<v Speaker 2>the surgery and everything. Then the first night he was

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<v Speaker 2>on oxygen for like six hours, so that was scary

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<v Speaker 2>and they almost took him to the niqu but he

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<v Speaker 2>beat it because he's strong, tough. But yeah, it was

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<v Speaker 2>it was messed up. And I did have a really

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<v Speaker 2>weird dream that I can't get out of my head,

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<v Speaker 2>and it like kind of haunts me. But when I

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<v Speaker 2>was in the hospital, I had this dream and it

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<v Speaker 2>was the Phenomenon, And I know that the Phenomenon gave

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<v Speaker 2>me this dream. The angels and I saw this orb

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<v Speaker 2>in the sky. It was me and Jenny and we

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<v Speaker 2>were standing out in a field and it was at night,

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<v Speaker 2>and I know we were in like a grassy field,

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<v Speaker 2>and there were some trees in the distance, maybe like

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<v Speaker 2>forest or something, and there was like a small crowd

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<v Speaker 2>of people. For some reason, it was like a group

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<v Speaker 2>of people and I couldn't make out anyone in particular.

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<v Speaker 2>It was just random people. And I was looking up

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<v Speaker 2>at the night sky and it was an ORB and

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<v Speaker 2>it was like this very scary feeling, that ORB being

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<v Speaker 2>up there, and it was flying and you know how

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<v Speaker 2>like sometimes when you have dreams and it just feels

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<v Speaker 2>really eerie and weird. It was almost like a nightmare,

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<v Speaker 2>but it wasn't like a monster, and it was an ORB,

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<v Speaker 2>but it was flying up in the sky and then

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<v Speaker 2>by the time it got directly overhead, it turned into

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<v Speaker 2>a nuclear bomb. It literally looked like a nuclear bomb,

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<v Speaker 2>and then it detonated and it was this huge nuclear blast,

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<v Speaker 2>but it was like pure energy, and the blast from

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<v Speaker 2>the nuclear bomb was coming. So I just I grabbed

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<v Speaker 2>Jenny and I was like, you know, we're gonna go

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<v Speaker 2>down together, and you know, I just kind of like

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<v Speaker 2>held on to her for the blast to come and

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<v Speaker 2>get us. And I woke up and I was so

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<v Speaker 2>messed up by this dream, and I had a feeling

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<v Speaker 2>that it was symbolic of, you know, what we had

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<v Speaker 2>just went through, because it was like a nuclear bomb

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<v Speaker 2>his birth, how devastating and traumatic it was. And I

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<v Speaker 2>also had another feeling that it was kind of symbolic

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<v Speaker 2>of like the changes going on in the world, that like,

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<v Speaker 2>whatever it is that's going on, you know, we're going

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<v Speaker 2>through this together. But yeah, dude, it was messed up.

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<v Speaker 2>And I forgot to say that. A week before he

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<v Speaker 2>was born, I had another experience, but it wasn't a dream.

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<v Speaker 2>I was awake for this. I was meditating and praying

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<v Speaker 2>and I had this experience where it was like my

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<v Speaker 2>vision kind of my mind's eye vision, not my eyes.

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<v Speaker 2>My eyes were closed, but it was like my mind

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<v Speaker 2>kind of faded into this other space and there was

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<v Speaker 2>it was my son, but he wasn't born yet at

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<v Speaker 2>this point. This was, like I said, a week or

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<v Speaker 2>two before he was born. And he looked like a toddler.

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<v Speaker 2>He had this long, curly blonde hair, and he had

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<v Speaker 2>bright blue eyes, and he was very beautiful. He had

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<v Speaker 2>a glow like he kind of had a glow to him.

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<v Speaker 2>And there was a spotlight on him, and he was

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<v Speaker 2>in a dark, crowded room and there was people all

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<v Speaker 2>around him, and he was walking around. He was crying,

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<v Speaker 2>he was looking for me, and I went and I

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<v Speaker 2>picked him up, and then I came out of the experience.

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<v Speaker 2>Jenny's asleep because they usually pray and meditated at night

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<v Speaker 2>before bed. And the next day I was like, dude,

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<v Speaker 2>I think he contacted me from the womb or I

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<v Speaker 2>had a premonition or something. I don't know, but I

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<v Speaker 2>think he's going to be beautiful. So then when he was born,

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<v Speaker 2>of course he's beautiful. And I know a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>babies are. I know everybody says that, but I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>I really do feel that he's a beautiful baby. But

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<v Speaker 2>the thing is, he was born with long hair, and

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<v Speaker 2>all of the nurses are like everybody, they're like, oh

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<v Speaker 2>my god, his hair. It's not blonde, but they're like,

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<v Speaker 2>oh my god, his hair. His hair so long. It's

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<v Speaker 2>so beautiful. His hair stands straight up in spikes. So

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<v Speaker 2>that was really weird. How I had that kind of

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<v Speaker 2>like strange feeling that I don't know. It just was weird.

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<v Speaker 2>It was all weird. It was all weird. So I

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<v Speaker 2>say all that to say, you know, I just I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>Whatever track I may have been on before this month,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't. I don't know. I don't know, no idea

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<v Speaker 2>you know what happens next, just completely destabilizing, right, Yeah. No,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm curious to.

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<v Speaker 3>Know about some of these changes and if they are

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<v Speaker 3>similar to the ones that I experienced with the rapid

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<v Speaker 3>realignment of what's what matters, you know. And I remember

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<v Speaker 3>coming up on Christmas time shortly after Arthur was born,

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<v Speaker 3>and it's like I don't want anything, like I'm not

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<v Speaker 3>supposed to want anything, Like now everything is for this child, right,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, and like all of this you know what's important,

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<v Speaker 3>what needs to happen, and almost this selflessness, like rapid

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<v Speaker 3>acceleration of growth.

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<v Speaker 2>But she's she's doing great, you know that kind of thing.

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<v Speaker 2>watch his heart drop for two hours. So after all

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<v Speaker 2>And then for the next three days. Oh and then

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<v Speaker 2>all because of the oxygen the first night, the heart stuff,

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<v Speaker 2>and you know, I know this a lot of this

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<v Speaker 2>might be normal stuff that a lot of people go through,

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<v Speaker 2>but that doesn't make it any easier or you know,

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<v Speaker 2>less scary. It was fucked up. So I don't think

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<v Speaker 2>it's normal. I think it's common. I mean, it happens,

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<v Speaker 3>But oh no, but I think I think every every

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<v Speaker 3>every childbirth has its own, its own thing. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 3>don't think it's never a normal think there's a there's

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<v Speaker 3>a smooth normal one. Like No, that's that's the extreme

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<v Speaker 3>outlier in my in my opinion of having done it once, right, right, Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>But I'm just saying it was. It was so messed up.

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<v Speaker 2>The worry of him dying or being dead, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>that that horrible fear of like I know people that

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<v Speaker 2>have been. It's just so many things could have happened, right,

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<v Speaker 2>And it got to the point to where they almost

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<v Speaker 2>so low that the device wouldn't even read it, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>And that was scary as shit. So with all that happening,

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<v Speaker 2>it just broke me down. I'm like, I don't even

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<v Speaker 2>think about a lot of that stuff, you know what.

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<v Speaker 2>I've just been trying to keep him alive. I've been

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<v Speaker 2>the last like three weeks while she sleeps and recovers.

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<v Speaker 2>So I don't know, I've not really been thinking about

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<v Speaker 2>all that stuff. I've not really been thinking about, like

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<v Speaker 2>you know, all this other stuff, you know, the orbs

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<v Speaker 2>and any of that stuff. In a month. I'm telling you, dude,

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<v Speaker 2>like I haven't thought about I haven't cared. I haven't

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<v Speaker 2>cared about any of it. I haven't cared about. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>Easter came and went whooo. I looked a little bit

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<v Speaker 2>on my phone. Obviously the star didn't turn red. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>I got news for you. I knew that wasn't gonna

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<v Speaker 2>happen on Easter. I never I always felt it would

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<v Speaker 2>be more of a fall summer thing. It is what

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<v Speaker 2>it is. I don't care. I just I couldn't. I

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<v Speaker 2>couldn't be bothered any less. Like I've had some serious

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<v Speaker 2>shit to deal with. So that's what I was saying,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I've kind of it kind of made me a

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I don't know. I definitely felt like I

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<v Speaker 2>went through the fire. So yeah, let's talk about that

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<v Speaker 2>a little bit. I guess I don't have to keep

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<v Speaker 2>harping on the you know what, I would love to

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<v Speaker 2>shout out some people. And it's been a long time

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<v Speaker 2>and we've had some new people sign ups, so forgive

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<v Speaker 2>me from reading for a list from from a list

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<v Speaker 2>on my phone here, and it might take a while

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<v Speaker 2>before I I kind of get back into my stride

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<v Speaker 2>after you know, a heavy month. But you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>just these these individuals are supporting them at our light

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<v Speaker 2>being tier on Patreon, so we want to give them

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<v Speaker 2>a special thank you. I'm going to start off with

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<v Speaker 2>my main man, Blank, who wants to remain anonymous. We've

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<v Speaker 2>got Derek Longoria returning with support for that tear, So

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<v Speaker 2>thank you guys very much. At any level of support

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<v Speaker 2>that we receive, we're very grateful and very appreciative and

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<v Speaker 2>it helps us to keep the show alive and to

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<v Speaker 2>So thank you very much. So yeah, I was just

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<v Speaker 2>saying like I don't really know I have I've kind

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<v Speaker 2>of been in a bubble, like staying up every night

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<v Speaker 2>till the sun comes up for the last month and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I don't know what's happening. I know the

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<v Speaker 2>world has fallen apart. Every time I turn on my

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<v Speaker 2>phone and look at social media, even briefly, it's fireball

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<v Speaker 2>streaking across the sky. It's orbs, it's the vice president

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<v Speaker 2>coming out and saying it's angels and demons. By the way,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, my dad was the first person in history

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<v Speaker 2>to say that that I'm aware of you know that

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<v Speaker 2>specifically UFOs or angels and demons. You know, we were

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<v Speaker 2>laughed at for about fifteen years for saying that, And

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<v Speaker 2>here we are now some of the most powerful people

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<v Speaker 2>on the planet are coming out and by God, they're agreeing.

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<v Speaker 2>So I wonder where that idea eve came from. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>I'll tell you they've always known it. The people in

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<v Speaker 2>power have always known this through all of time, that

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<v Speaker 2>this phenomenon that interacts with humanity is you know, it's it.

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<v Speaker 2>It's the real thing, and it's spiritual, it's interdimensional. It

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<v Speaker 2>comes from another place. This is a big picture here

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<v Speaker 2>that is not about some random encounter with aliens from

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<v Speaker 2>another place. It's much more profound than that that. It

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<v Speaker 2>is story of creation. It's the and when you pull

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<v Speaker 2>this thread. It's the very reason why are we even

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<v Speaker 2>here on Earth? What are we even doing? You have

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<v Speaker 2>to be a fool to believe in this accidental evolution crap,

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<v Speaker 2>and that we just formed on a rock that through

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<v Speaker 2>collision with other big rocks and you know, heat from

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<v Speaker 2>the sun, that it kind of shaped into a ball

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<v Speaker 2>where water stays on it in a precisely certain way

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<v Speaker 2>and it spends it a certain way and it has

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<v Speaker 2>a certain tilt. It's so much more profound than that.

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<v Speaker 2>You know that there's a there's a whole other line

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<v Speaker 2>of questioning that's about to open up for humanity as

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<v Speaker 2>this disclosure begins to progress. Which, by the way, if

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<v Speaker 2>I recall, hold on a second, let's back up. Easter

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<v Speaker 2>was only three weeks ago, right, give or take. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>so today's Tuesday. So Sunday was two days ago, three

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<v Speaker 2>weeks before that, roughly, today's April twenty eighth, only about

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<v Speaker 2>three weeks ago, maybe four. Okay, if you read my

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<v Speaker 2>dad's book, which was written years ago. If you read

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<v Speaker 2>my dad's book, it says the lady I'm paraphrasing, but

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<v Speaker 2>she says she's you know what, No, I'm not gonna paraphrase.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna read it word for word. I don't want

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<v Speaker 2>to be misquoted. I don't want to be I don't want,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, the soulless zombies who served the matrix to

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<v Speaker 2>quote me out of context. I'm just gonna go ahead

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<v Speaker 2>and give you the real thing. Let me find it,

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<v Speaker 2>it says. Okay, hold on, I have a folder of

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<v Speaker 2>UFO of God quotes. Let me find it, she says.

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<v Speaker 2>When we approached the front of the throne, the beings

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<v Speaker 2>gave her a slight bow and turned to walk away,

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<v Speaker 2>leaving me alone looking up at her. She stood up

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<v Speaker 2>from the massive throne and hovered over the carved out

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<v Speaker 2>floor beneath it, never touching theud. Just forty feet and

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<v Speaker 2>twenty feet above me, she spoke a parable that took

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<v Speaker 2>a long time for me to process. When the red

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<v Speaker 2>star of Regulus aligns just before dawn in the gaze

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<v Speaker 2>of the Sphinx, a new knowledge shall come into the world.

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<v Speaker 2>I was not sure what that meant. I have come

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<v Speaker 2>to understand that around Easter twenty twenty six, there will

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<v Speaker 2>be the end of an old way in the beginning

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<v Speaker 2>of a new. Okay, clearly, the star was not red

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<v Speaker 2>on Easter again. The year is not over and until

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<v Speaker 2>January first of twenty twenty seven, we still have, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>a chance in the making here. But aside from that,

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<v Speaker 2>isn't it a little weird that Easter was three weeks ago? Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>so we're still around Easter, right, and all this stuff

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<v Speaker 2>is happening. Things are actually happen. You have to be

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<v Speaker 2>a fool not to see it. You have to be

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<v Speaker 2>a nincompoop and not be able to make the connection

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<v Speaker 2>that things are actually happening according to you know what

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<v Speaker 2>whoops that side what she said, what the lady said,

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<v Speaker 2>that this world is going through a great change. And

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<v Speaker 2>see the reality here is the powers that be that

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<v Speaker 2>are in charge of the world. They're very evil. They're

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<v Speaker 2>very very evil. They despise humanity, they despise us. They

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<v Speaker 2>worship if you could. Okay, I'm not a fundamental Christian

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<v Speaker 2>by any means. I would say I'm a follower of Christ,

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<v Speaker 2>but I'm not a fundamental Christian. But let's just let's

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<v Speaker 2>just say loosely like this, this is real. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>the biblical version is as close to real as it

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<v Speaker 2>gets compared to a lot of things with some touches

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<v Speaker 2>of other things sprinkled in there. You know, if you

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<v Speaker 2>could conceive of an idea of a satan, maybe it's

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<v Speaker 2>not one being, but there is a force that exists

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<v Speaker 2>in this universe that is evil. The people in power

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<v Speaker 2>of this world are in line with that, and they

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<v Speaker 2>hate us. They're literally vampires who feast on the blood

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<v Speaker 2>of children and do way worse than that. They are

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<v Speaker 2>the ones who have been withholding this knowledge from humanity

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<v Speaker 2>for thousands of years, going all the way back to

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<v Speaker 2>blood letting cults from even before recorded history into Babylon

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<v Speaker 2>and Sumhra and even before that. People who literally feast

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<v Speaker 2>are the people who are running the psychological operations to

416
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<v Speaker 2>deceive the masses about this UFO story. So when you

417
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<v Speaker 2>see things like you know, Mark Gates, and I'm not

418
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<v Speaker 2>picking it again, I don't care about political sides. These

419
00:23:43.799 --> 00:23:46.680
<v Speaker 2>are players who have now entered my turf. I've been

420
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<v Speaker 2>a UFO guy for twenty years. These guys been talking

421
00:23:49.279 --> 00:23:51.920
<v Speaker 2>about it a little bit, so I have a right

422
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<v Speaker 2>to comment on what anybody says on the subject, right,

423
00:23:54.160 --> 00:23:56.880
<v Speaker 2>I don't care about politics. But when you have people

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<v Speaker 2>in the political world, like Matt Gates coming out saying

425
00:24:00.039 --> 00:24:02.480
<v Speaker 2>there's an alien hybrid program. And then you have timber

426
00:24:02.599 --> 00:24:05.720
<v Speaker 2>Chet coming out saying, look, folks, I've been briefed in

427
00:24:05.759 --> 00:24:10.039
<v Speaker 2>a private room and and I'm just gonna say they're

428
00:24:10.039 --> 00:24:12.279
<v Speaker 2>trying to convince me it's anti Christian. I would not

429
00:24:12.279 --> 00:24:14.079
<v Speaker 2>believe anything unless you see it with your own eyes.

430
00:24:14.119 --> 00:24:19.319
<v Speaker 2>Psychological warfare exists. And then you have Representative Luna coming out,

431
00:24:19.559 --> 00:24:21.720
<v Speaker 2>very sweet lady. By the way, my dad has met her.

432
00:24:22.480 --> 00:24:24.759
<v Speaker 2>He's met timber Chet too, but he met he had

433
00:24:24.799 --> 00:24:27.440
<v Speaker 2>a little bit more time with Luna, and she's very sweet.

434
00:24:28.599 --> 00:24:31.680
<v Speaker 2>But when Luna was like she's been saying, you gotta

435
00:24:31.680 --> 00:24:34.279
<v Speaker 2>read the Book of Enoch. This is biblical, this is spiritual.

436
00:24:34.680 --> 00:24:36.880
<v Speaker 2>And then the Vice President's coming out and saying it's angels.

437
00:24:37.319 --> 00:24:43.079
<v Speaker 2>You're seeing a war. I'm not saying who is politically

438
00:24:43.160 --> 00:24:44.799
<v Speaker 2>good guys are bad guys. That's not what I'm saying.

439
00:24:45.759 --> 00:24:51.240
<v Speaker 2>Remove the faces. You are seeing a war of factions

440
00:24:52.079 --> 00:24:55.640
<v Speaker 2>between light and dark. But this information, this very information

441
00:24:55.799 --> 00:24:57.759
<v Speaker 2>that we've been talking about the Bledsoe family for almost

442
00:24:57.759 --> 00:25:01.680
<v Speaker 2>twenty years now, that the UFO sub which is biblical,

443
00:25:02.240 --> 00:25:05.839
<v Speaker 2>not just spiritual, it's biblical. Spiritual could be anything. I'm

444
00:25:05.880 --> 00:25:07.920
<v Speaker 2>at burning man and I'm burning an effigy of a

445
00:25:07.960 --> 00:25:11.759
<v Speaker 2>fucking wicker man, and you know, rubbing crystals on my nipples,

446
00:25:11.839 --> 00:25:16.079
<v Speaker 2>like anybody can say they're spiritual. That's I don't care

447
00:25:16.079 --> 00:25:22.880
<v Speaker 2>about that. Okay, it's biblical. It specifically has to do

448
00:25:22.960 --> 00:25:25.319
<v Speaker 2>with the destiny and the creation of the human race,

449
00:25:26.000 --> 00:25:28.839
<v Speaker 2>all the way up to the creator of reality itself, God,

450
00:25:29.279 --> 00:25:33.599
<v Speaker 2>the great ineffable truth. Right, That's what we're That is

451
00:25:33.640 --> 00:25:36.440
<v Speaker 2>what is unfolding. That is the revealing. It's not about

452
00:25:36.519 --> 00:25:38.880
<v Speaker 2>does life exist out there on Mars? Who gives us shit?

453
00:25:38.960 --> 00:25:41.359
<v Speaker 2>It's so much bigger than that. It's so much bigger

454
00:25:41.359 --> 00:25:44.119
<v Speaker 2>than that, you know what I mean. It's it's it's

455
00:25:44.240 --> 00:25:48.079
<v Speaker 2>it's our key to This is our key to learning

456
00:25:48.119 --> 00:25:52.279
<v Speaker 2>the truth about literally navigating the cosmos. But we're not

457
00:25:52.319 --> 00:25:54.240
<v Speaker 2>gonna do it with a physical body. It's gonna be

458
00:25:54.279 --> 00:25:57.759
<v Speaker 2>with our mind and with our soul. Right But anyway, So,

459
00:25:57.880 --> 00:26:01.559
<v Speaker 2>what you're seeing is an information war playing out before

460
00:26:01.599 --> 00:26:04.200
<v Speaker 2>our very eyes, where some people are pushing the satanic

461
00:26:04.279 --> 00:26:08.559
<v Speaker 2>alien narrative. And then I suspect some people are flipping

462
00:26:08.559 --> 00:26:10.240
<v Speaker 2>and they're gaining a conscience, and they're coming out and

463
00:26:10.240 --> 00:26:14.640
<v Speaker 2>they're saying, actually, whoa, I wouldn't believe anything unless you

464
00:26:14.640 --> 00:26:16.319
<v Speaker 2>see it with your own eyes, which, by the way,

465
00:26:17.200 --> 00:26:19.359
<v Speaker 2>I recall saying that a few months ago about abduction

466
00:26:19.480 --> 00:26:23.480
<v Speaker 2>stories and abduction phenomena, and that we shouldn't believe anything

467
00:26:23.519 --> 00:26:28.119
<v Speaker 2>without rigorous discernment and vetting for ourselves. And somehow or

468
00:26:28.119 --> 00:26:31.279
<v Speaker 2>another that got so crazy that I wake up one

469
00:26:31.319 --> 00:26:34.039
<v Speaker 2>day and on Twitter I'm trending and there's thousands of

470
00:26:34.079 --> 00:26:36.240
<v Speaker 2>posts of people shitting on me for saying the very

471
00:26:36.279 --> 00:26:42.240
<v Speaker 2>same thing. Hmm, but who cares? I don't care. This is,

472
00:26:43.680 --> 00:26:46.519
<v Speaker 2>to be perfectly honest, This is a you know, it's

473
00:26:46.519 --> 00:26:49.359
<v Speaker 2>a spiritual war for the soul of humanity. And you

474
00:26:49.440 --> 00:26:54.960
<v Speaker 2>have one side that's devouring children in many ways, not

475
00:26:55.079 --> 00:26:58.519
<v Speaker 2>just you know, for food, but in other ways too,

476
00:26:59.480 --> 00:27:02.359
<v Speaker 2>that side putting out a certain lie about the alien

477
00:27:02.400 --> 00:27:05.559
<v Speaker 2>story and the destiny of humanity. And then you have God,

478
00:27:05.640 --> 00:27:10.000
<v Speaker 2>the phenomenon itself, interacting with the masses in its own way,

479
00:27:10.319 --> 00:27:12.880
<v Speaker 2>coming to people on a personal and an individual level,

480
00:27:12.880 --> 00:27:15.920
<v Speaker 2>and saying, go tell the story. We can't break the

481
00:27:15.920 --> 00:27:20.400
<v Speaker 2>free will of mankind. We need help to spread the

482
00:27:20.400 --> 00:27:23.000
<v Speaker 2>world has to receive us. We need to be received,

483
00:27:23.079 --> 00:27:25.359
<v Speaker 2>you know. The lady she said, go tell your story.

484
00:27:25.440 --> 00:27:28.559
<v Speaker 2>We will help you. We can't break humanity's free will.

485
00:27:28.960 --> 00:27:31.680
<v Speaker 2>We need help, you know. And then the other side

486
00:27:31.759 --> 00:27:34.240
<v Speaker 2>is coming out saying, oh, it's alien hybrid program and

487
00:27:34.279 --> 00:27:36.160
<v Speaker 2>they've got gray as from the future, and they've got

488
00:27:36.200 --> 00:27:38.240
<v Speaker 2>all this shit, and they you know, they do things

489
00:27:38.240 --> 00:27:40.640
<v Speaker 2>like probe people in the butt and they do all this,

490
00:27:41.200 --> 00:27:45.200
<v Speaker 2>you know, weird stuff. So we're seeing, we're seeing in

491
00:27:45.279 --> 00:27:48.319
<v Speaker 2>real time and information war for the soul of humanity.

492
00:27:48.960 --> 00:27:50.839
<v Speaker 2>Because you have to think you're a god, a little

493
00:27:50.880 --> 00:27:55.680
<v Speaker 2>g God. You are an incarnate. The true God is

494
00:27:55.720 --> 00:27:59.880
<v Speaker 2>this infinite being. It is the totality of all of existences.

495
00:28:01.240 --> 00:28:07.920
<v Speaker 2>So if you think of like the ocean, you know,

496
00:28:08.079 --> 00:28:10.559
<v Speaker 2>God is not only the ocean, but is bigger than

497
00:28:10.599 --> 00:28:13.039
<v Speaker 2>the ocean, and every little drop of water is a

498
00:28:13.079 --> 00:28:16.519
<v Speaker 2>part of God. But also together they make God. But

499
00:28:16.599 --> 00:28:19.319
<v Speaker 2>there's an infinite amount of this God to keep sending

500
00:28:19.359 --> 00:28:23.799
<v Speaker 2>souls out into reality because God is experiencing everything through us,

501
00:28:23.839 --> 00:28:28.880
<v Speaker 2>through every incarnated being. So we are like little g gods.

502
00:28:28.920 --> 00:28:33.480
<v Speaker 2>We're little fractals of the infinite mind. So our beliefs

503
00:28:33.759 --> 00:28:38.319
<v Speaker 2>our mind, our thoughts are very powerful, and the Satanists

504
00:28:38.319 --> 00:28:41.119
<v Speaker 2>in charge know this, and they don't want us to

505
00:28:41.160 --> 00:28:43.839
<v Speaker 2>be powerful. They don't want us to have powerful thoughts.

506
00:28:44.119 --> 00:28:45.640
<v Speaker 2>They don't want us to know the truth and to

507
00:28:45.640 --> 00:28:48.200
<v Speaker 2>break free from the poison that they've been giving us

508
00:28:48.720 --> 00:28:52.000
<v Speaker 2>for millennia, for thousands of years, keeping us as slaves

509
00:28:52.039 --> 00:28:55.400
<v Speaker 2>eating bread, building the pyramids all that. Well, I know

510
00:28:55.480 --> 00:28:57.119
<v Speaker 2>that's probably not how they were built, but you know

511
00:28:57.119 --> 00:28:59.559
<v Speaker 2>what I mean, for thousands of years they've been cracking

512
00:28:59.559 --> 00:29:04.279
<v Speaker 2>a whip. You get bread, build our monuments. That's humankind.

513
00:29:04.720 --> 00:29:07.680
<v Speaker 2>That's the human story. That there's been a small ruling

514
00:29:07.759 --> 00:29:14.720
<v Speaker 2>class who have subjugated the masses. But now they do

515
00:29:14.799 --> 00:29:18.680
<v Speaker 2>it not only through you know, taxes, through making the

516
00:29:18.720 --> 00:29:21.079
<v Speaker 2>economy so horrible that nobody can really afford to do

517
00:29:21.119 --> 00:29:24.319
<v Speaker 2>anything unless you're rich, you know, all these other means,

518
00:29:24.319 --> 00:29:27.000
<v Speaker 2>but they do it through information. They do it through

519
00:29:27.039 --> 00:29:33.799
<v Speaker 2>addicting you to shitty, horrible soul of slop, media, horrible

520
00:29:33.880 --> 00:29:37.960
<v Speaker 2>music that brainwashes your kids to be picked up. And

521
00:29:38.000 --> 00:29:42.960
<v Speaker 2>then you know, lies about UFOs about everything. They are

522
00:29:43.119 --> 00:29:46.559
<v Speaker 2>completely waging war on humanity. Why am I going on

523
00:29:46.599 --> 00:29:50.319
<v Speaker 2>and on and on about this because I used to

524
00:29:50.480 --> 00:29:54.799
<v Speaker 2>care so much, so so so the whole time I've

525
00:29:54.799 --> 00:29:59.799
<v Speaker 2>done this show, I have believed that I was helping

526
00:29:59.799 --> 00:30:03.880
<v Speaker 2>peop people undo that programming, that I was tiptoeing around

527
00:30:04.000 --> 00:30:06.519
<v Speaker 2>what is what this all is about? And you know

528
00:30:06.559 --> 00:30:10.039
<v Speaker 2>what it means? And uh, you know, then just four

529
00:30:10.079 --> 00:30:16.039
<v Speaker 2>weeks ago today, I had to survive the complete mental

530
00:30:16.039 --> 00:30:19.799
<v Speaker 2>collapse of thinking my son was dying and being carved

531
00:30:19.880 --> 00:30:21.839
<v Speaker 2>right out of my wife in a heartbeat. And I'm

532
00:30:21.839 --> 00:30:24.000
<v Speaker 2>sitting there having to make the decisions about all of

533
00:30:24.039 --> 00:30:27.039
<v Speaker 2>this for the first time, you know, anything super scary

534
00:30:27.079 --> 00:30:29.559
<v Speaker 2>and stressful and intense. Was all pretty much on my

535
00:30:29.599 --> 00:30:32.839
<v Speaker 2>shoulders because she was so messed up she couldn't, you know,

536
00:30:32.960 --> 00:30:36.039
<v Speaker 2>do anything. So after all that, I'm just kind of like,

537
00:30:37.160 --> 00:30:40.039
<v Speaker 2>I don't care anymore, you know, Like I don't care.

538
00:30:40.559 --> 00:30:44.839
<v Speaker 2>I don't care what people believe. I don't care. I

539
00:30:44.839 --> 00:30:50.519
<v Speaker 2>don't care if people want to go and believe lies

540
00:30:50.920 --> 00:30:53.359
<v Speaker 2>or if they if they want to you know, be

541
00:30:53.519 --> 00:30:57.000
<v Speaker 2>fooled by that. Of course I care, but I don't

542
00:30:57.039 --> 00:31:00.960
<v Speaker 2>care to try anymore. So I've been kind of thinking

543
00:31:00.960 --> 00:31:05.160
<v Speaker 2>about it, like what am I doing? What am what

544
00:31:05.200 --> 00:31:06.920
<v Speaker 2>am I going to talk about? What is this for

545
00:31:07.160 --> 00:31:09.920
<v Speaker 2>what's the purpose of all of this? You know, we could,

546
00:31:10.119 --> 00:31:12.960
<v Speaker 2>we could do the best, nicest, greatest thing in the world.

547
00:31:13.359 --> 00:31:16.240
<v Speaker 2>But because of this evil satanic system that has unlimited

548
00:31:16.279 --> 00:31:19.240
<v Speaker 2>wealth and resources, they can send. You know, any time

549
00:31:19.279 --> 00:31:21.640
<v Speaker 2>I post anything, or my dad or anyone in our family,

550
00:31:21.839 --> 00:31:24.920
<v Speaker 2>we have a dozen bots saying, you know, fraud, you're fake,

551
00:31:25.200 --> 00:31:27.759
<v Speaker 2>your bullshit, And you know, I shouldn't even say that,

552
00:31:27.799 --> 00:31:30.359
<v Speaker 2>but I'm so tired of hearing. I'm so I'm so

553
00:31:30.519 --> 00:31:39.000
<v Speaker 2>tired of we have subjected ourselves for twenty years, almost

554
00:31:40.039 --> 00:31:43.680
<v Speaker 2>next year, technically it's twenty We have subjected ourselves to

555
00:31:43.759 --> 00:31:49.640
<v Speaker 2>the ridicule and the criticism and the lashing and the

556
00:31:49.680 --> 00:31:55.400
<v Speaker 2>mocking and the torment of a world that is controlled

557
00:31:55.519 --> 00:32:00.440
<v Speaker 2>by demons, literally an evil, sick world. And the whole

558
00:32:00.440 --> 00:32:02.279
<v Speaker 2>time we've stuck to our guns and we've been telling

559
00:32:02.319 --> 00:32:05.799
<v Speaker 2>the truth. So dealing with the trauma of my son,

560
00:32:05.880 --> 00:32:07.680
<v Speaker 2>I just I kind of had this collapse, and you know,

561
00:32:07.720 --> 00:32:10.519
<v Speaker 2>I don't care. I don't care anymore. I'm gonna do

562
00:32:10.559 --> 00:32:13.079
<v Speaker 2>what I want to do. I'm gonna talk about what

563
00:32:13.119 --> 00:32:16.400
<v Speaker 2>I want to talk about. I'm gonna have fun. If

564
00:32:16.480 --> 00:32:18.599
<v Speaker 2>I want to do a gospel series If I want

565
00:32:18.599 --> 00:32:20.920
<v Speaker 2>to talk about Jesus Christ for twenty five episodes, I'm

566
00:32:20.920 --> 00:32:22.960
<v Speaker 2>gonna do it because I want to, not because I

567
00:32:22.960 --> 00:32:26.839
<v Speaker 2>feel like I have to inform somebody about something. If

568
00:32:26.839 --> 00:32:30.559
<v Speaker 2>I want to talk about Tibetan Buddhism for three weeks,

569
00:32:31.079 --> 00:32:33.880
<v Speaker 2>or freaking you know, Templarism, or whatever I want to

570
00:32:33.920 --> 00:32:36.000
<v Speaker 2>talk about, I'm going to do it because I want to,

571
00:32:36.519 --> 00:32:41.559
<v Speaker 2>because it's fun, because it excites me, because I don't

572
00:32:41.599 --> 00:32:44.880
<v Speaker 2>care anymore. I don't care. I just don't care to

573
00:32:45.960 --> 00:32:49.000
<v Speaker 2>have this pressure in this you know, this weight on

574
00:32:49.039 --> 00:32:55.119
<v Speaker 2>my shoulders anymore about what people think I'm doing or

575
00:32:55.119 --> 00:33:00.400
<v Speaker 2>what I'm talking about. After being mocked and torn minted

576
00:33:00.480 --> 00:33:03.119
<v Speaker 2>for almost twenty years, and we could do the greatest,

577
00:33:03.240 --> 00:33:08.880
<v Speaker 2>nicest thing for freaking humanity and would never It's a thankless,

578
00:33:08.960 --> 00:33:12.440
<v Speaker 2>cruel world. That's what I'm trying to say. So I'm

579
00:33:12.440 --> 00:33:15.519
<v Speaker 2>not speaking to that. I'm not engaging with that. I'm

580
00:33:15.559 --> 00:33:20.400
<v Speaker 2>not engaging with, you know, any negative. I just don't care.

581
00:33:20.079 --> 00:33:23.240
<v Speaker 2>There are good people in this world. There are loving

582
00:33:23.279 --> 00:33:26.920
<v Speaker 2>people who believe in truth. I've come to believe after

583
00:33:27.000 --> 00:33:28.720
<v Speaker 2>everything that I've had a lot of time to think

584
00:33:28.720 --> 00:33:31.240
<v Speaker 2>in the last month A lot of suffering, a lot

585
00:33:31.279 --> 00:33:38.839
<v Speaker 2>of adrenaline and no sleep for weeks, and to the

586
00:33:38.880 --> 00:33:45.480
<v Speaker 2>point of complete mental collapse multiple times, hyperventilating, just freaking terror.

587
00:33:45.799 --> 00:33:51.599
<v Speaker 2>I've had a lot of change in my mind, and

588
00:33:51.880 --> 00:33:56.519
<v Speaker 2>I have come to realize that there are good people

589
00:33:56.519 --> 00:33:59.599
<v Speaker 2>in this world. But if you read the Book of Revelation,

590
00:34:01.920 --> 00:34:04.359
<v Speaker 2>it talks about there's one hundred and forty four thousand people.

591
00:34:05.279 --> 00:34:07.960
<v Speaker 2>I'm not one of those light worker, star seed people

592
00:34:07.960 --> 00:34:09.400
<v Speaker 2>who are going to say we're the one hundred and

593
00:34:09.400 --> 00:34:12.400
<v Speaker 2>forty four thousand chosen. I'm not saying that. If you

594
00:34:12.480 --> 00:34:15.159
<v Speaker 2>also look, I can't exactly remember the quote right now,

595
00:34:15.599 --> 00:34:18.719
<v Speaker 2>I could find it doesn't matter because you can google

596
00:34:18.760 --> 00:34:21.039
<v Speaker 2>it and you'll see that it's true that it says

597
00:34:21.079 --> 00:34:23.880
<v Speaker 2>in the Bible that many are called, but few are chosen.

598
00:34:25.360 --> 00:34:29.320
<v Speaker 2>That it's harder for a rich person to enter the

599
00:34:29.400 --> 00:34:31.239
<v Speaker 2>Kingdom of Heaven that it is for a camel to

600
00:34:31.239 --> 00:34:34.119
<v Speaker 2>pass through the eye of a needle. Now, I know

601
00:34:34.400 --> 00:34:37.400
<v Speaker 2>that in first century Judea there was in the city

602
00:34:37.400 --> 00:34:40.480
<v Speaker 2>of Jerusalem there was this tiny little entrance that they

603
00:34:40.519 --> 00:34:42.880
<v Speaker 2>called the eye of the needle that was like a backway.

604
00:34:43.039 --> 00:34:47.599
<v Speaker 2>I know that that's technically true but also what it's

605
00:34:47.639 --> 00:34:50.719
<v Speaker 2>saying is that it's very difficult for people to awaken

606
00:34:50.760 --> 00:34:52.639
<v Speaker 2>into a sense. So I'm just I've come to believe

607
00:34:52.920 --> 00:34:55.360
<v Speaker 2>after really taking a step away for a month and

608
00:34:56.199 --> 00:35:02.760
<v Speaker 2>dealing with what I was dealing with, that I really

609
00:35:02.800 --> 00:35:06.639
<v Speaker 2>think the majority of this world is pretty negative. And

610
00:35:07.360 --> 00:35:10.159
<v Speaker 2>you can look about anything online. You can look at anything.

611
00:35:10.280 --> 00:35:12.760
<v Speaker 2>It could be anime, it could be hip hop, it

612
00:35:12.760 --> 00:35:16.599
<v Speaker 2>could be fashion, it could be your favorite brand of tissues.

613
00:35:17.119 --> 00:35:18.679
<v Speaker 2>It could be a post, it could be a video,

614
00:35:18.840 --> 00:35:21.280
<v Speaker 2>it doesn't matter, and you can read the comments and

615
00:35:21.320 --> 00:35:29.559
<v Speaker 2>it's people there are hateful, negative, cancel mob people. No, Alex,

616
00:35:29.559 --> 00:35:31.920
<v Speaker 2>I'm not a doomer. I'm not saying that I have

617
00:35:31.960 --> 00:35:34.119
<v Speaker 2>no hope for humanity. I'm not a nihilist. I'm not

618
00:35:34.159 --> 00:35:38.440
<v Speaker 2>any of that. I'm just saying that I've come to

619
00:35:38.519 --> 00:35:44.920
<v Speaker 2>realize that, you know, I think that I think that

620
00:35:45.079 --> 00:35:47.360
<v Speaker 2>it takes a special calling in this world, and it

621
00:35:47.400 --> 00:35:49.679
<v Speaker 2>is very rare and few and far in between to

622
00:35:51.280 --> 00:35:53.280
<v Speaker 2>choose the path of light and to awaken and go

623
00:35:54.000 --> 00:35:57.639
<v Speaker 2>to the right place, to the right path, the right direction.

624
00:35:58.199 --> 00:35:59.880
<v Speaker 2>I used to be like, oh, yeah, the whole world

625
00:35:59.920 --> 00:36:02.119
<v Speaker 2>is gonna be cool by I don't know, I think

626
00:36:02.760 --> 00:36:05.800
<v Speaker 2>I think that the split. There is a split happening

627
00:36:05.800 --> 00:36:10.039
<v Speaker 2>of consciousness, and it's it's extreme, and it's very aggressive.

628
00:36:10.119 --> 00:36:16.360
<v Speaker 2>It's happening very frequently, and you know, I think it's

629
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<v Speaker 2>ultimately up to humanity to choose to go the right way.

630
00:36:22.239 --> 00:36:28.159
<v Speaker 2>So whatever amount of people that is choosing to to

631
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<v Speaker 2>go the right way and be good and not engage

632
00:36:31.440 --> 00:36:34.920
<v Speaker 2>with the darkness and the negativity, that's who I'm talking

633
00:36:34.920 --> 00:36:37.519
<v Speaker 2>to from now on, That's who I care about. That's

634
00:36:37.519 --> 00:36:41.519
<v Speaker 2>who I'm interacting with in my mind. You know, welcome

635
00:36:41.559 --> 00:36:46.280
<v Speaker 2>to the show. I'm not I'm not trying to counteract

636
00:36:46.719 --> 00:36:50.480
<v Speaker 2>anymore some dark, negative thing like I used to believe

637
00:36:50.519 --> 00:36:55.519
<v Speaker 2>I was. It's not my fight. I don't care. I've

638
00:36:55.519 --> 00:36:59.559
<v Speaker 2>got enough stuff to deal with and uh, you know,

639
00:36:59.840 --> 00:37:01.920
<v Speaker 2>I I just want to try to keep it positive

640
00:37:01.960 --> 00:37:04.880
<v Speaker 2>to the best of my ability. And I'm going to

641
00:37:05.000 --> 00:37:06.239
<v Speaker 2>just talk about what I want to talk about. And

642
00:37:06.400 --> 00:37:08.159
<v Speaker 2>I feel like that's pretty much all I have to say.

643
00:37:08.320 --> 00:37:10.039
<v Speaker 2>Do you have anything to say about any of that? Alex,

644
00:37:11.239 --> 00:37:12.280
<v Speaker 2>first time back, so.

645
00:37:13.800 --> 00:37:15.599
<v Speaker 3>I am a little fired up about free will. If

646
00:37:15.639 --> 00:37:17.800
<v Speaker 3>you want to talk about free will. You brought that

647
00:37:17.880 --> 00:37:22.519
<v Speaker 3>up a couple of minutes ago. Sure how God loves

648
00:37:22.599 --> 00:37:26.360
<v Speaker 3>and absolutely respects your free will, and you know, I

649
00:37:26.400 --> 00:37:30.719
<v Speaker 3>think that's my speculation a large part of why we're

650
00:37:30.760 --> 00:37:34.960
<v Speaker 3>here doing what we're doing, not me and you everybody, right,

651
00:37:35.079 --> 00:37:39.000
<v Speaker 3>You're a fragment of God experiencing everything there is to experience,

652
00:37:39.000 --> 00:37:42.119
<v Speaker 3>and everybody is a mirror of yourself, you know. And

653
00:37:42.159 --> 00:37:45.400
<v Speaker 3>I often see that, especially with people that I immediately

654
00:37:45.400 --> 00:37:48.119
<v Speaker 3>don't like, and then you talk to them for longer

655
00:37:48.119 --> 00:37:50.400
<v Speaker 3>and you begin to learn that the parts you didn't

656
00:37:50.480 --> 00:37:52.239
<v Speaker 3>like are the parts you don't like about your own self.

657
00:37:52.400 --> 00:37:59.360
<v Speaker 3>And anyway, free will, the phenomenon and God, but that's

658
00:37:59.400 --> 00:38:05.199
<v Speaker 3>a synonym, uh, massively respect your free will. I think

659
00:38:05.280 --> 00:38:11.760
<v Speaker 3>this is also largely the reason that many experiences that

660
00:38:12.360 --> 00:38:16.480
<v Speaker 3>happen or happen to you can also be written off

661
00:38:16.639 --> 00:38:22.159
<v Speaker 3>or logic away. There's always this mirror where it's a phenomenon,

662
00:38:22.719 --> 00:38:26.039
<v Speaker 3>it's a satellite, it's this, it's a chamera, it's a

663
00:38:26.039 --> 00:38:27.320
<v Speaker 3>shooting star, it's a camera flare.

664
00:38:27.880 --> 00:38:33.079
<v Speaker 2>That's because it's a SpaceX rocket. Sorry, yeah, you know

665
00:38:33.599 --> 00:38:34.280
<v Speaker 2>it's true.

666
00:38:34.679 --> 00:38:40.800
<v Speaker 3>It's true, but it's it's genius, yeah, because I mean

667
00:38:40.840 --> 00:38:43.719
<v Speaker 3>it's it's kind of like the movie the phenomenon is

668
00:38:43.760 --> 00:38:46.000
<v Speaker 3>handing you the option, the red pull of the blue pill.

669
00:38:46.000 --> 00:38:48.039
<v Speaker 3>Which one do you want to take? You know, hey,

670
00:38:48.320 --> 00:38:51.639
<v Speaker 3>the choice is yours. You know it always will be yours.

671
00:38:52.079 --> 00:38:54.639
<v Speaker 3>So that when this split happens and you fall on

672
00:38:54.639 --> 00:38:57.400
<v Speaker 3>one side of the split, you can't say, oh, it's

673
00:38:57.400 --> 00:39:01.239
<v Speaker 3>not me, it was you had free will the whole time.

674
00:39:01.840 --> 00:39:05.039
<v Speaker 3>I'm not bashing anybody. I'm just like, you know, it's

675
00:39:05.119 --> 00:39:09.599
<v Speaker 3>time to to realize that you're in charge of your

676
00:39:09.679 --> 00:39:13.679
<v Speaker 3>life and you're responsible for the decisions you make, and

677
00:39:13.719 --> 00:39:19.159
<v Speaker 3>that's just what it is. But you know, whether or

678
00:39:19.239 --> 00:39:23.119
<v Speaker 3>not what you see is a reflection of who you are, right,

679
00:39:24.320 --> 00:39:27.639
<v Speaker 3>So that's I just wanted to go on a rant

680
00:39:27.679 --> 00:39:29.920
<v Speaker 3>there because that seems to be the theme today.

681
00:39:30.199 --> 00:39:30.440
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

682
00:39:30.599 --> 00:39:33.679
<v Speaker 2>No, I mean, I just I kind of had a realization, dude,

683
00:39:33.719 --> 00:39:37.280
<v Speaker 2>Like I used to care so much about trying to

684
00:39:39.360 --> 00:39:42.199
<v Speaker 2>like help people realize, you know, the truth or the

685
00:39:42.239 --> 00:39:44.880
<v Speaker 2>right thing, and like in a way that didn't cause

686
00:39:44.880 --> 00:39:47.639
<v Speaker 2>any sort of I used to. It used to bother

687
00:39:47.719 --> 00:39:49.800
<v Speaker 2>me when people will go through like existential dread, Like

688
00:39:49.800 --> 00:39:52.199
<v Speaker 2>I wanted to minimize that. I wanted you know what

689
00:39:52.239 --> 00:39:54.800
<v Speaker 2>I mean. And I've kind of realized.

690
00:39:54.519 --> 00:39:58.119
<v Speaker 3>That you can help me on a personal level, because I.

691
00:39:58.000 --> 00:40:00.440
<v Speaker 2>Still have that they need a lot. Yeah, you need

692
00:40:00.480 --> 00:40:04.199
<v Speaker 2>a lot of help, buddy. Now I'm kidding, but can

693
00:40:04.239 --> 00:40:09.679
<v Speaker 2>you hear him? Okay? Well, anyway, So I've just kind

694
00:40:09.679 --> 00:40:11.480
<v Speaker 2>of come to realize that this is a really messed up,

695
00:40:11.519 --> 00:40:15.760
<v Speaker 2>cruel world, and it kind of like it almost deserves shock,

696
00:40:16.239 --> 00:40:20.079
<v Speaker 2>it almost needs it to survive. We need a great shock,

697
00:40:20.119 --> 00:40:23.400
<v Speaker 2>We need a collective ego death of this world to

698
00:40:24.039 --> 00:40:26.639
<v Speaker 2>move forward in a way that doesn't destroy us, you know.

699
00:40:28.159 --> 00:40:33.519
<v Speaker 2>And I don't know. I just feel like, in my

700
00:40:33.599 --> 00:40:35.519
<v Speaker 2>head I believed I was talking to the whole world

701
00:40:35.880 --> 00:40:38.159
<v Speaker 2>and I had to reach the whole world. I don't

702
00:40:38.159 --> 00:40:40.239
<v Speaker 2>feel that way anymore, and I don't care about that.

703
00:40:40.800 --> 00:40:43.679
<v Speaker 2>I don't believe that it's probably possible for our platform

704
00:40:43.719 --> 00:40:46.960
<v Speaker 2>to blow up to that level because we're so monitored

705
00:40:46.960 --> 00:40:50.719
<v Speaker 2>by freaking all these intelligence agencies literally overtly. I don't

706
00:40:50.760 --> 00:40:52.639
<v Speaker 2>think they'll ever allow us to get to that level.

707
00:40:53.159 --> 00:40:56.599
<v Speaker 2>I mean, you know, I just don't think it's possible.

708
00:40:56.920 --> 00:41:00.519
<v Speaker 2>Videos pop up everywhere with our family getting millions of

709
00:41:00.599 --> 00:41:02.800
<v Speaker 2>views all over the internet, but for some reason, our

710
00:41:02.840 --> 00:41:05.559
<v Speaker 2>show can't break right past around like you know, where

711
00:41:05.559 --> 00:41:08.360
<v Speaker 2>it's at right now, And same with Dad and his

712
00:41:08.480 --> 00:41:11.239
<v Speaker 2>Instagram and anything we do public. Like I just I

713
00:41:11.280 --> 00:41:13.079
<v Speaker 2>don't even think it's possible for our family to blow

714
00:41:13.159 --> 00:41:15.639
<v Speaker 2>up to certain levels. So I'm kind of like my

715
00:41:15.800 --> 00:41:19.239
<v Speaker 2>goals have shifted. And maybe that's a good thing, Maybe

716
00:41:19.280 --> 00:41:22.119
<v Speaker 2>that's the best thing for me, But I don't I

717
00:41:22.119 --> 00:41:24.159
<v Speaker 2>don't care to talk to the whole world or reach

718
00:41:24.199 --> 00:41:26.159
<v Speaker 2>the whole world anymore. I only care to reach the

719
00:41:26.159 --> 00:41:31.400
<v Speaker 2>good people, the people who want truth, no matter how

720
00:41:31.480 --> 00:41:34.280
<v Speaker 2>ugly it is. I don't have all the answers, but

721
00:41:34.320 --> 00:41:36.519
<v Speaker 2>you know what I do have, I have a desire

722
00:41:37.239 --> 00:41:40.239
<v Speaker 2>to want to know the truth, no matter how scary

723
00:41:40.280 --> 00:41:43.400
<v Speaker 2>it is or ugly it is. Show me more. You know,

724
00:41:43.599 --> 00:41:46.559
<v Speaker 2>since I was young, I would always pay pray to

725
00:41:46.800 --> 00:41:49.920
<v Speaker 2>the Spirit of Truth. Spirit of Truth, I would literally say,

726
00:41:50.239 --> 00:41:53.400
<v Speaker 2>Especially in my early twenties, I learned this Spirit of truth,

727
00:41:53.840 --> 00:41:56.800
<v Speaker 2>show me, show me what I need to see. And

728
00:41:56.920 --> 00:41:59.599
<v Speaker 2>as I begin to do this, I began to learn

729
00:41:59.679 --> 00:42:02.760
<v Speaker 2>more of more things that you know helped me on

730
00:42:02.800 --> 00:42:06.360
<v Speaker 2>my path. You know what I mean. I'm not I'm

731
00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:07.960
<v Speaker 2>not thinking I have all the answers. I don't think

732
00:42:07.960 --> 00:42:10.519
<v Speaker 2>anybody has all the answers. I think. I think by design,

733
00:42:10.639 --> 00:42:14.199
<v Speaker 2>humans are flawed, and this is like a cosmic school anyway,

734
00:42:14.679 --> 00:42:19.320
<v Speaker 2>being you know, taught lessons and going on a journey

735
00:42:19.639 --> 00:42:23.719
<v Speaker 2>scripted by higher forces anyway. So I'm like, you know,

736
00:42:24.119 --> 00:42:27.079
<v Speaker 2>I just I want to connect with the people who

737
00:42:27.280 --> 00:42:29.159
<v Speaker 2>are on the same journey as me, which is trying

738
00:42:29.159 --> 00:42:33.199
<v Speaker 2>to find the truth without any sort of control over

739
00:42:33.239 --> 00:42:36.159
<v Speaker 2>what I think that is, or you know, my ego

740
00:42:36.280 --> 00:42:39.000
<v Speaker 2>saying no, that can't be because I have a science

741
00:42:39.039 --> 00:42:41.960
<v Speaker 2>degree and I believe in evolution, or no, I don't

742
00:42:42.280 --> 00:42:44.239
<v Speaker 2>you know, I don't like God or Jesus because a

743
00:42:44.320 --> 00:42:47.159
<v Speaker 2>Christian offended me, or I don't like Buddha because you know,

744
00:42:47.239 --> 00:42:50.400
<v Speaker 2>I'm American, or any any of these stupid egotistical things like.

745
00:42:50.440 --> 00:42:53.519
<v Speaker 2>I don't care about that. What I care about is

746
00:42:53.559 --> 00:42:55.880
<v Speaker 2>finding the real truth. Give me what's practical, give me

747
00:42:55.920 --> 00:42:58.960
<v Speaker 2>what's real. And also those are the people that that

748
00:42:59.480 --> 00:43:03.559
<v Speaker 2>resonate with me. So that's the journey I'm on, just

749
00:43:03.599 --> 00:43:07.000
<v Speaker 2>trying to think, talk about what excites me and what

750
00:43:07.079 --> 00:43:10.079
<v Speaker 2>amazes me and what I find interesting. I don't feel

751
00:43:10.119 --> 00:43:14.280
<v Speaker 2>like I'm on some war anymore. I don't. I don't care,

752
00:43:14.679 --> 00:43:19.960
<v Speaker 2>you know, just let's just, you know, have fun. Let's

753
00:43:20.000 --> 00:43:25.039
<v Speaker 2>just have fun and keep doing it, you know. So

754
00:43:26.840 --> 00:43:28.519
<v Speaker 2>Jenny said, I could cut this one short if I

755
00:43:28.559 --> 00:43:30.840
<v Speaker 2>wanted to, because it's my first one back and I've

756
00:43:30.880 --> 00:43:33.440
<v Speaker 2>had a hard month. But I don't know anything else

757
00:43:33.480 --> 00:43:34.199
<v Speaker 2>you want to add to that.

758
00:43:35.639 --> 00:43:40.519
<v Speaker 3>It feels like cosmic detention earth. Yeah, the filastic said

759
00:43:40.559 --> 00:43:42.840
<v Speaker 3>it was hell. It feels like we got in trouble. Yeah,

760
00:43:42.880 --> 00:43:47.000
<v Speaker 3>and we it's like, no, no, go learn some lessons. Yeah, seriously, dude,

761
00:43:47.039 --> 00:43:47.920
<v Speaker 3>this world sucks.

762
00:43:47.960 --> 00:43:50.280
<v Speaker 2>I mean, it's beautiful. There's a lot of beauty in

763
00:43:50.320 --> 00:43:53.920
<v Speaker 2>this world too. I think it's heaven and Hell truly.

764
00:43:54.360 --> 00:43:57.840
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, you know, I think it's up to you, yes,

765
00:43:57.920 --> 00:44:02.880
<v Speaker 2>but then also it no, I think it's up to

766
00:44:02.920 --> 00:44:07.639
<v Speaker 2>you to react to what's happening. Right, It's up to

767
00:44:07.679 --> 00:44:13.559
<v Speaker 2>you to choose your state. Right, But karma, cosmic law

768
00:44:15.320 --> 00:44:17.639
<v Speaker 2>gives you what you need to experience. How are you

769
00:44:17.679 --> 00:44:21.559
<v Speaker 2>gonna react? You're in the hospital, you think your child

770
00:44:21.639 --> 00:44:23.960
<v Speaker 2>is dying. They can't find his heart rate. What did

771
00:44:24.000 --> 00:44:25.920
<v Speaker 2>I do? I'm not saying that, Oh yeah I did, right,

772
00:44:26.039 --> 00:44:28.440
<v Speaker 2>Look at me. I'm just I'm literally just telling you

773
00:44:28.440 --> 00:44:30.559
<v Speaker 2>what happened like that, right, and I'm not I don't

774
00:44:30.559 --> 00:44:32.239
<v Speaker 2>mean it like that. But what did I do? I prayed,

775
00:44:32.280 --> 00:44:34.400
<v Speaker 2>and I prayed, please, please, please. You know what I said.

776
00:44:34.519 --> 00:44:36.440
<v Speaker 2>I said, God, I'm not even gonna bargain with you.

777
00:44:37.199 --> 00:44:39.760
<v Speaker 2>I'm just gonna give myself to you. I'm gonna give

778
00:44:39.800 --> 00:44:42.400
<v Speaker 2>my son to you. Shit, I'm gonna give my wife

779
00:44:42.400 --> 00:44:44.400
<v Speaker 2>to you. You can have her too, you can't have

780
00:44:44.480 --> 00:44:46.880
<v Speaker 2>my whole family. I'm not even gonna ask for anything,

781
00:44:47.400 --> 00:44:52.679
<v Speaker 2>just you know, keep him alive. And I heard a voice,

782
00:44:53.639 --> 00:44:55.440
<v Speaker 2>not at that moment, but at a different point, and

783
00:44:55.480 --> 00:45:00.159
<v Speaker 2>it said, Ah, have faith, that's gonna be all right.

784
00:45:02.000 --> 00:45:02.199
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

785
00:45:02.719 --> 00:45:08.199
<v Speaker 2>So you know, I just think I think that we

786
00:45:08.320 --> 00:45:12.559
<v Speaker 2>all have to experience hardships here and it's inescapable and

787
00:45:12.599 --> 00:45:14.840
<v Speaker 2>we can be you know, kumbaya all the time, but

788
00:45:14.880 --> 00:45:16.840
<v Speaker 2>the reality is that's not how it works. And in

789
00:45:16.920 --> 00:45:22.079
<v Speaker 2>order to grow, we have to go through trauma. Right,

790
00:45:22.159 --> 00:45:27.480
<v Speaker 2>we come here to experience everything. Really, but it's you know,

791
00:45:27.599 --> 00:45:30.280
<v Speaker 2>it's it's karma. And I just was really feeling it

792
00:45:30.320 --> 00:45:34.800
<v Speaker 2>a month ago today, March twenty eighth, kind of like flip.

793
00:45:35.039 --> 00:45:37.119
<v Speaker 2>I thought my life was over, dude. When I was

794
00:45:37.159 --> 00:45:39.880
<v Speaker 2>in the operating room and they cut James out and

795
00:45:39.920 --> 00:45:41.800
<v Speaker 2>he was like they were slapping the crap out of

796
00:45:41.880 --> 00:45:43.559
<v Speaker 2>him to get him to breathe. I thought they were

797
00:45:43.880 --> 00:45:46.039
<v Speaker 2>I know that that's kind of normal, but in the moment,

798
00:45:46.079 --> 00:45:48.039
<v Speaker 2>it didn't feel normal. I thought they were trying to

799
00:45:48.079 --> 00:45:50.880
<v Speaker 2>start as heart, because for over two hours we were like,

800
00:45:51.320 --> 00:45:53.280
<v Speaker 2>his heart's messing up, you know what I mean. So

801
00:45:53.320 --> 00:45:54.760
<v Speaker 2>I thought they were trying to start as heart. They

802
00:45:54.760 --> 00:45:57.760
<v Speaker 2>were just trying to get him to breathe. Totally normal,

803
00:45:58.159 --> 00:45:59.719
<v Speaker 2>but in the moment, I was like, oh my god,

804
00:45:59.760 --> 00:46:02.039
<v Speaker 2>he's Jenny's like, how is he? I was like, he's

805
00:46:02.079 --> 00:46:04.000
<v Speaker 2>you know, I thought he was dead. And then Jenny's

806
00:46:04.000 --> 00:46:06.760
<v Speaker 2>freaking out. She was all drugged up from the surgery

807
00:46:06.840 --> 00:46:08.639
<v Speaker 2>and they still had her open and she's like, am

808
00:46:08.639 --> 00:46:10.360
<v Speaker 2>I okay, am I okay, am I gonna live? And

809
00:46:10.360 --> 00:46:13.320
<v Speaker 2>I'm just like, oh my god, my life's over and

810
00:46:13.400 --> 00:46:15.960
<v Speaker 2>my life is completely over. I've literally thought my life

811
00:46:16.039 --> 00:46:20.960
<v Speaker 2>was over and then it all ended up okay. So

812
00:46:21.039 --> 00:46:24.679
<v Speaker 2>I was just kind of like, I don't know what

813
00:46:24.679 --> 00:46:31.480
<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna talk about. I definitely don't have the same worries.

814
00:46:32.360 --> 00:46:35.920
<v Speaker 2>I don't have the same motivations that I used to have.

815
00:46:36.519 --> 00:46:38.679
<v Speaker 2>I see these people talking about all this crap online

816
00:46:38.719 --> 00:46:42.800
<v Speaker 2>about like you know, hybrid programs and all this crap,

817
00:46:44.199 --> 00:46:47.599
<v Speaker 2>and I sit there and I'm like, I don't care.

818
00:46:48.320 --> 00:46:49.960
<v Speaker 2>They can talk about whatever they want to talk about.

819
00:46:50.000 --> 00:46:52.559
<v Speaker 2>You know why, Alex, Because the good people in this

820
00:46:52.639 --> 00:46:57.679
<v Speaker 2>world who seek the truth and they have a real

821
00:46:57.840 --> 00:47:02.199
<v Speaker 2>spiritual phenomenon occurring within their soul where they are like

822
00:47:02.320 --> 00:47:06.159
<v Speaker 2>magnetically aligned to truth and actual, real truth, they're gonna

823
00:47:06.199 --> 00:47:06.679
<v Speaker 2>find a way.

824
00:47:07.199 --> 00:47:10.159
<v Speaker 3>Well, those people also don't leave hate comments.

825
00:47:10.400 --> 00:47:13.199
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but they're gonna find a way, dude. They're going

826
00:47:13.239 --> 00:47:15.960
<v Speaker 2>to find their way to the truth because it was

827
00:47:16.840 --> 00:47:19.280
<v Speaker 2>predestined for them to come here and to experience it.

828
00:47:19.320 --> 00:47:21.840
<v Speaker 2>So I don't care anymore. I don't I don't care.

829
00:47:21.880 --> 00:47:23.880
<v Speaker 2>They can go say whatever lies they want. It's not

830
00:47:23.960 --> 00:47:27.920
<v Speaker 2>my problem. My only problem is sharing what I know,

831
00:47:28.800 --> 00:47:32.000
<v Speaker 2>what what I've experienced, and just having fun with it

832
00:47:32.079 --> 00:47:33.960
<v Speaker 2>and trying to smile a lot more, because there was

833
00:47:34.039 --> 00:47:36.239
<v Speaker 2>a lot of it was a few weeks I wasn't smiling.

834
00:47:38.639 --> 00:47:40.360
<v Speaker 3>So you're gonna say that and you're not gonna give

835
00:47:40.400 --> 00:47:40.920
<v Speaker 3>me a smile.

836
00:47:42.199 --> 00:47:44.840
<v Speaker 2>Well, now that you've kind of put me on the spot, Okay,

837
00:47:44.840 --> 00:47:52.320
<v Speaker 2>there you go. But you're welcome, But yeah, I don't know, man,

838
00:47:52.679 --> 00:47:56.320
<v Speaker 2>I'm just just just gonna figure it out as I go,

839
00:47:56.440 --> 00:48:00.719
<v Speaker 2>just trying to have fun with it, and you know, hopefully,

840
00:48:01.760 --> 00:48:06.119
<v Speaker 2>hopefully the show has a feeling of, you know, kind

841
00:48:06.119 --> 00:48:08.519
<v Speaker 2>of what it was before. But I just I don't know.

842
00:48:08.559 --> 00:48:10.280
<v Speaker 2>I just feel like I'm not the same person I was.

843
00:48:11.039 --> 00:48:13.159
<v Speaker 2>So we'll see what happens.

844
00:48:14.199 --> 00:48:14.440
<v Speaker 3>Well.

845
00:48:14.519 --> 00:48:17.760
<v Speaker 2>Anyway, thank you guys for the support. To be honest,

846
00:48:17.800 --> 00:48:19.760
<v Speaker 2>I kind of feel like this is all a dream

847
00:48:19.800 --> 00:48:22.280
<v Speaker 2>from a lifetime ago, the show and all this stuff

848
00:48:22.320 --> 00:48:24.840
<v Speaker 2>that's happening out there in the world, and you know,

849
00:48:25.079 --> 00:48:27.719
<v Speaker 2>the experiences, and it just feels like kind of so

850
00:48:27.800 --> 00:48:31.480
<v Speaker 2>far away to me now after all this this trauma

851
00:48:31.519 --> 00:48:34.400
<v Speaker 2>with the baby being born, and sometimes it doesn't even

852
00:48:34.440 --> 00:48:38.119
<v Speaker 2>feel real to me anymore, and you know, any of

853
00:48:38.159 --> 00:48:43.239
<v Speaker 2>it really and maybe that's temporary, maybe maybe that'll go away,

854
00:48:43.760 --> 00:48:47.840
<v Speaker 2>maybe it'll change. But right now it's like, I hear

855
00:48:47.880 --> 00:48:49.880
<v Speaker 2>my baby crying right now every three hours. I gotta

856
00:48:49.920 --> 00:48:53.719
<v Speaker 2>keep him fed, and I I keep thinking back to

857
00:48:53.760 --> 00:48:56.199
<v Speaker 2>the hospital, which also feels like a lifetime ago, and

858
00:48:56.199 --> 00:49:00.280
<v Speaker 2>that intense fear of thinking he was dying, and then

859
00:49:00.320 --> 00:49:01.719
<v Speaker 2>we only had him in the room for a few

860
00:49:01.719 --> 00:49:05.400
<v Speaker 2>hours with us, and then they had to take him

861
00:49:05.400 --> 00:49:07.079
<v Speaker 2>and keep him on oxygen, you know. And then at

862
00:49:07.119 --> 00:49:09.400
<v Speaker 2>three am, the pediatrician comes into our room and they're like,

863
00:49:09.440 --> 00:49:11.400
<v Speaker 2>we're thinking we're gonna have to take him to the

864
00:49:11.480 --> 00:49:13.000
<v Speaker 2>NICK if he can't figure out how to breathe on

865
00:49:13.039 --> 00:49:15.000
<v Speaker 2>his own. And I'm just like, oh God, this is it,

866
00:49:15.119 --> 00:49:17.360
<v Speaker 2>this is it. It's not over. It was one thing

867
00:49:17.400 --> 00:49:19.880
<v Speaker 2>like his temperature wouldn't stabilize, then it's glucose because of

868
00:49:19.880 --> 00:49:21.760
<v Speaker 2>his glucose levels, and then he couldn't figure out how

869
00:49:21.760 --> 00:49:23.400
<v Speaker 2>to breathe on his own, and it was just all

870
00:49:23.480 --> 00:49:27.320
<v Speaker 2>this stress that Now I'm like, the only thing I

871
00:49:27.400 --> 00:49:29.800
<v Speaker 2>care about anymore is just keeping that little baby going

872
00:49:29.840 --> 00:49:35.079
<v Speaker 2>and keeping them happy. So I'm gonna keep doing what

873
00:49:35.199 --> 00:49:37.320
<v Speaker 2>I've been doing. I love doing the show, I love

874
00:49:37.400 --> 00:49:40.360
<v Speaker 2>doing all of this. It's a fundamental part of my life.

875
00:49:41.079 --> 00:49:43.559
<v Speaker 2>And you know what we do and who we are.

876
00:49:45.000 --> 00:49:46.960
<v Speaker 2>I'm not trying to like freak anybody out. I'm just

877
00:49:47.000 --> 00:49:50.880
<v Speaker 2>saying I don't feel that i'm the same as I was.

878
00:49:53.119 --> 00:49:59.400
<v Speaker 2>I feel different about everything. So that's all I'm trying

879
00:49:59.400 --> 00:50:03.920
<v Speaker 2>to say. Whatever goals I had before, whatever path I

880
00:50:04.079 --> 00:50:07.880
<v Speaker 2>was on, I'm on a different path now. That's that's,

881
00:50:08.119 --> 00:50:11.679
<v Speaker 2>that's all I'm saying. So thank you guys for supporting

882
00:50:11.760 --> 00:50:19.280
<v Speaker 2>us and you know, believing in us and just being

883
00:50:19.280 --> 00:50:21.440
<v Speaker 2>there with us the whole time. Oh, you know what

884
00:50:21.519 --> 00:50:23.800
<v Speaker 2>I should say, Alex is I know that this will

885
00:50:23.840 --> 00:50:27.360
<v Speaker 2>be out after that, But Alex in two days, I'm

886
00:50:27.440 --> 00:50:29.480
<v Speaker 2>very excited because he's about to go to his first conference.

887
00:50:31.159 --> 00:50:33.760
<v Speaker 2>He's going to contact Modalities. So and that's a good

888
00:50:33.800 --> 00:50:35.679
<v Speaker 2>point that next week we'll be able to talk about

889
00:50:35.719 --> 00:50:38.320
<v Speaker 2>that on next week's episode. That's exciting. Give me another

890
00:50:38.320 --> 00:50:42.719
<v Speaker 2>little softball to ease and too write. So I am

891
00:50:42.760 --> 00:50:46.960
<v Speaker 2>looking forward to how that goes. I'm really excited about it.

892
00:50:47.760 --> 00:50:49.800
<v Speaker 2>The fact that you get to go experience the conference.

893
00:50:49.840 --> 00:50:51.440
<v Speaker 2>It sucks that I won't be there, but it's okay

894
00:50:51.440 --> 00:50:53.519
<v Speaker 2>because my family will be there and you'll be in

895
00:50:53.559 --> 00:50:56.000
<v Speaker 2>great hands. You'll have great time. You're gonna come back

896
00:50:56.039 --> 00:50:57.599
<v Speaker 2>blah blah blah blah blah bla blah blah. You're gonna

897
00:50:57.599 --> 00:50:59.199
<v Speaker 2>have such a good time. I can't wait to hear it.

898
00:50:59.719 --> 00:51:01.519
<v Speaker 2>And then and just a few weeks after that, we're

899
00:51:01.559 --> 00:51:06.800
<v Speaker 2>going to California together. We're going to contact in the desert,

900
00:51:06.840 --> 00:51:10.719
<v Speaker 2>and I'm looking forward to that one too. So this

901
00:51:10.840 --> 00:51:14.000
<v Speaker 2>month will keep me busy, and it'll definitely keep me busy. Oh,

902
00:51:14.119 --> 00:51:16.960
<v Speaker 2>I should go ahead and say this too. Naturally, I

903
00:51:17.039 --> 00:51:22.199
<v Speaker 2>had to take off of my Monroe Institute programs because obviously,

904
00:51:22.239 --> 00:51:25.239
<v Speaker 2>you know, preparing for baby James to come into the world.

905
00:51:25.400 --> 00:51:28.400
<v Speaker 2>But now that he's earthside, I've been trying to get

906
00:51:28.440 --> 00:51:31.679
<v Speaker 2>back on my feet, especially because of the emergency surgery.

907
00:51:31.760 --> 00:51:34.480
<v Speaker 2>I've had to be very attentive to Jenny and the baby.

908
00:51:35.039 --> 00:51:36.719
<v Speaker 2>For the first you know, a week or so, she

909
00:51:36.840 --> 00:51:39.440
<v Speaker 2>was like kind of struggling to even walk. Now she's

910
00:51:39.480 --> 00:51:42.079
<v Speaker 2>done a lot better, but it's just it's just very intensive,

911
00:51:42.119 --> 00:51:45.360
<v Speaker 2>so I haven't really had the time to to kind

912
00:51:45.360 --> 00:51:47.679
<v Speaker 2>of do my own things. I've been kind of taking

913
00:51:47.719 --> 00:51:51.760
<v Speaker 2>care of the family. But very soon we're kind of

914
00:51:51.800 --> 00:51:55.280
<v Speaker 2>like seeing sunnier days now and it's getting better. So

915
00:51:55.639 --> 00:51:58.760
<v Speaker 2>Jenny and I are having talks about like, I got

916
00:51:58.760 --> 00:52:01.519
<v Speaker 2>to get my website done. Real world's knocking on my door.

917
00:52:01.599 --> 00:52:03.039
<v Speaker 2>I got to kind of get out there and start

918
00:52:03.039 --> 00:52:06.159
<v Speaker 2>doing something again. And I will say I do miss

919
00:52:06.400 --> 00:52:08.880
<v Speaker 2>I really do miss doing the Monroe stuff. It's only

920
00:52:08.920 --> 00:52:11.159
<v Speaker 2>been a couple months. But I really miss it. I

921
00:52:11.159 --> 00:52:14.199
<v Speaker 2>think the last program I did was like January maybe,

922
00:52:14.239 --> 00:52:18.239
<v Speaker 2>and it's coming up on, coming up on I think

923
00:52:18.320 --> 00:52:22.880
<v Speaker 2>May in a couple of days, so I'm working on it.

924
00:52:22.960 --> 00:52:27.239
<v Speaker 2>I'm working on I did get certified to do virtual programs.

925
00:52:27.400 --> 00:52:29.880
<v Speaker 2>I just hadn't announced that yet because my website wasn't finished.

926
00:52:29.920 --> 00:52:31.960
<v Speaker 2>But I'm very close to finishing my website and then

927
00:52:32.000 --> 00:52:34.519
<v Speaker 2>I'll get right back to it and I look forward

928
00:52:34.559 --> 00:52:40.039
<v Speaker 2>to having people join for those classes. So my website,

929
00:52:41.039 --> 00:52:43.000
<v Speaker 2>I should have more information on that soon to be

930
00:52:43.079 --> 00:52:45.039
<v Speaker 2>able to book classes. I hope you guys have a run.

931
00:52:47.159 --> 00:52:49.400
<v Speaker 2>I'm tripping over my words there. I felt like Scooby

932
00:52:49.440 --> 00:52:51.199
<v Speaker 2>Doo for a minute. I was about to say, wonderful,

933
00:52:51.760 --> 00:52:54.480
<v Speaker 2>raggy raggy ru. I hope you guys have a wonderful West.

934
00:52:54.960 --> 00:52:56.840
<v Speaker 2>Dang it, bye, guys.

935
00:53:12.599 --> 00:53:15.119
<v Speaker 1>Weird things happened in the backyard of letting.

936
00:53:14.960 --> 00:53:16.480
<v Speaker 2>House and the yard of letting.

937
00:53:16.320 --> 00:53:21.000
<v Speaker 1>Houses, so weird, weird, no weird. Wow