Speaker 1: And that's why I never read the comment. I just
want to like, I'm not even going to look amazing tonight.
Speaker 2: I love what you're wearing.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, you're all I have an angry closs.
Speaker 2: That is life, but that's hard, like unless it's like
an NBA team or something like.
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genuinely have one of my favorite people in the world
on this show. And she's been on before, but she's
back and I'm so excited to have her here. She
came in at eighteen, wanting to be a bombshell, not
the girl next door, not the approachable fantasy, but the
full throttle, undeniable kind of icon that makes you forget
what you were doing. And at twenty two she became
the first ever Browsers contract girl, and I was there.
Speaker 1: I shot the photos for her first anal.
Speaker 3: Scene, and then what should have been the peak of everything,
a catastrophic car accident changed the course of her life.
Twelve surgeries later, after years of recovery, false starts, and yes,
even more surgeries, Madison Ivy is back, and she has
a lot to say about who she was, who she became,
and what the industry looks like now that she's returned
to it. Please welcome the icon be legend, Madison Ivy.
Speaker 2: So good to be.
Speaker 4: Here and so good to see you. Holly is one
of my favorite humans to ever exist. She has no
idea how much she has influenced and inspired every aspect
of my life, my being, and my soul.
Speaker 1: I hope you know that, thank you. I appreciate that.
Speaker 3: I really like that means a lot to me because
I I've been out of like the directing game for
a while, and I feel like so many people just crazy,
yeah that I work with, Like I've never worked with them, right,
I get to meet them on this podcast and it's
awesome because I get to have great conversations with them.
Speaker 1: But we don't.
Speaker 3: I mean, you and I have like worked together so much.
I mean we went to Costa Rica.
Speaker 2: Oh that was amazing.
Speaker 3: You know, we went to Costa Rica together and shot
in Costa Rica.
Speaker 4: Like that was incredible. You and Nicole Aniston and me
and Mila Kova. Oh my gosh. I still think about that. Yeah,
Like that was one of the funnest trips I think
I've ever taken it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and Tyler and Nixon that's right, Yeah, Oh my god.
Speaker 3: I mean it was like the dream Team, like the
three and the three of you were still such icons, right, Madison,
Ivy Cole, Anniston, Me and mel Kova and Tyler in
Costa Rica.
Speaker 4: Like, I still have people requesting me to work with
Tyler because they felt that those scenes that we shot
there were just so passionate and sexy.
Speaker 2: They were like, can you work with him again? Please?
It's like, I don't know if he's still in the industry.
Actually he is.
Speaker 3: So I didn't know that either, but he I talked
to so I think was Taylor Vixen was on and
she had just done a scene with him.
Speaker 1: I don't think he's in La anymore.
Speaker 3: Okay, but yeah, hunt him down and I don't think
he's shooting for stud yeas anymore.
Speaker 1: But I think like collabs.
Speaker 2: Hmmm.
Speaker 1: He was always just a nice kid.
Speaker 4: He's so sweet, honestly, so easy to work with, polite, sexy,
perfect dick.
Speaker 3: Yes, God, do you remember? You know, Madison is always
like a fucking queen. But I just one of the
things my favorite memories from Costa Rica is when we
got that big ass snake, are you yes? And like
you were not afraid of that thing at all? And
that was a big ass mother. It was a big
Boa constrictor, it was, and you were like just getting
your face right up to it. And I remember taking
pictures and I was just like inside it was terrified.
I was like, please don't bite her face off off.
Speaker 4: I remember you had said we're going to get a
snake for a photo shoot, and you kind of had
hinted to all the girls who would be comfortable with
the snake, and I mean it was a snake.
Speaker 2: I'm a snaky snake.
Speaker 4: It was just that was me, like, and you lit
a fire under my love for snakes because then I
had to have one for my first anal scene.
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, I blame you.
Speaker 2: I blame you.
Speaker 1: That was a great It was a great scene though.
Speaker 3: That was Remember my pants ripped from like crotched all
the way up to my ass that day.
Speaker 2: I forgot about that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, now my.
Speaker 3: Ass was completely hanging out and I had no change
of clothes.
Speaker 2: I mean, I think we need to repeat of that today.
We can get one and that way.
Speaker 1: Look, my clothes are getting tighter by the minute.
Speaker 2: I like the sna Oh my god.
Speaker 3: That was That was actually also the first day I
met Abigail Mack.
Speaker 2: That was that's right, because she was just an extra.
Speaker 1: Yes you requested her.
Speaker 4: I did well because I was supposed to have Kieran's
lovely miss.
Speaker 1: Oh.
Speaker 4: She was supposed to be in my scene Kate, but
she just found out that she was pregnant, so she
was like, sorry, I can't. Yeah, So I got Abigail,
and I'll never forget. When I first saw her, I
was like, who is this lovely lady? She is She's
going to be something. And everyone saw her in my scene.
I was like, who's that? It's like, believe me, I'm
trying to figure that out myself. Oh she's such a
sweetheart too. Yeah, she really is a beautiful soul like
this one.
Speaker 1: Thank you. Okay, I guess uh. Let's get into it.
Let's get into the question, let's get into it. You
came into the industry at eighteen knowing you knowing what
you wanted.
Speaker 3: You didn't want to be the girl next door, you
didn't want to play the teen you wanted to be
the bombshell.
Speaker 1: Where did that kind of clarity come from at that age?
Speaker 3: And like, how do you feel about your entrance at eighteen,
because you know, there's a lot of people who feel
it's too young, Like how were you mentally at that time?
Speaker 4: Well, I feel like for eighteen, I was much more
of a mature eighteen year old. And I know everyone
says that and then we look back on ourselves and
we go, oh, no, you were dumb. But I did
feel like I had a little bit more of an
understanding of what I wanted and who I wanted to
be at eighteen. So when I came in, I obviously
no implants. Bleach blonde hair, and I'm four eleven, so
tiny little body. The thing that they obviously want to
do is they just wanted to put me in the
cute girl next door. And I grew up watching movies
like The Mask with Cameron Diaz in her red dress
when she comes out and Jessica Rabbit.
Speaker 2: I have a thing for women in red dresses. I'm thinking, but.
Speaker 4: They're just these very voluptuous womanly figures. And I just
was so intoxicated by that type of person that I
was like, I don't know how, but that's who I
want to be. I just felt this connection with seduction
in a way rather than this like.
Speaker 2: Kind of vibe.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I remember the first I think it was the
first scene we shot you in was with Mick Blue,
and I think we dressed you as a school.
Speaker 2: Yes, you did, which made me a hot school girl.
Speaker 3: Like but I mean also though too, if you look
back at the scene in the pictures, like the intensity
which you already had at that age, like you could
tell that that wasn't really the right like genre for you,
you know what I mean, Like the like innocent like.
Speaker 2: I should have been in the teacher seat in a.
Speaker 1: Way, like you already like it felt out of place.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, because I had a little crush on Mick.
Speaker 4: He was the one who I would always watch when
I would watch porn. So when I got finally got
to work with him, I was like.
Speaker 3: I know that we've gone over this because I did
a podcast with you before, but it's been a while ages. Yeah,
So just a quick like recap of how you actually
even got introduced to the industry.
Speaker 4: Oh, so I started working. I was working actually at
a bowling alley as a mechanic, and then a strip
club at night, and this lovely, lovely adult star that
many people might know, Aurora Snow, came on through and
she was just so sweet. Every time I was on stage,
she'd come sit at my stage, she'd put money up,
and so finally I was like, I gotta go say hi.
And so when I approached her, she just immediately asked
me do you want to come to La and savor
my thighs?
Speaker 2: I was like, ah, yes, please, yes, please.
Speaker 4: So the next week I was in La shooting, just
figuring it out.
Speaker 2: So nervous though.
Speaker 1: Who was the first scene that you shot for?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 4: It was this small company Smashed. Do you remember Smash Pictures. Yes,
it was for them. It was a night shoot of
all things, which was very rare. I feel like, so
I pull up to this big house. The front door
is wide open and this white sheet is just hanging
in front of it. So I'm just like, what am
I stepping into? Is this gonna be like an eyes
wide shut sort of situation and just dicks everywhere masks on.
Speaker 2: But I just walked in.
Speaker 4: No one around, but lights set up and then the
classic casting couch Oh yes.
Speaker 2: The casting couch vibe.
Speaker 4: But I was taking a nap in the scene and
someone just walked through and I was like, hey, nice tits.
Speaker 2: I was like, yes, take it.
Speaker 1: Wow, what an intro? What an intro We're gonna so
we're gonna have you taken a nap?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Interesting?
Speaker 3: It was hot, which that now I don't think you
can shoot because it's like considered cordion. No, you can't.
You can't be sleeping in any part of the scene.
So then from there, did you get an agent?
Speaker 1: I did.
Speaker 4: I got an agent, but she was kind of like
the agent that you don't want, a kind of agent
that lies to you, tells you.
Speaker 2: One thing, and you get to set and you're doing
another thing.
Speaker 4: So I had her for about a month, and then
I I found a really lovely female agent that was
she was kind of a beast and everybody hated her,
but she really protected her girls, and I grew to
respect the fuck out of that shy love ah.
Speaker 2: Yes, right, yes, and she did.
Speaker 4: She had a terrible reputation in the industry, but she
took me aside. One day after she kind of had
found out about this first agent that I had. She's like,
if you ever feel uncomfortable, if anyone ever feels like
they're pushing you to do something that we did not
agree on, call me and we'll get you right off
of set. Yeah, and that I had kind of not
heard that that was maybe some other girls experiences at times.
Speaker 2: So it was very grateful for Yeah.
Speaker 1: I mean it was different back then.
Speaker 2: It was it was like the wild West.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: So you say that you were you'd walk in on
set and you'd like be presented with a completely different
scene than what you thought you were getting into.
Speaker 4: Give an example, Ooh, I think the final straw was
I was told that I was going to do this
scene with three guys, but I wasn't gonna be working
with each all three of them at once. I was
told that I was gonna work with one and then
we were gonna move essentially to a different space, and
then I'd work with another one. It'd be kind of
almost like moving down the line. Then when I got
to set, it was not three guys, it was seven,
and it was.
Speaker 2: Not one at a time.
Speaker 4: It was all at once. It was basically a gang
bang is a gangbang for my third scene. And so
the director, I think was very aware at the time
that there was a little bit of foul play going on,
and he kind of played along it with it, and
he had used this There was a big thing in
the industry a long time ago where some very not
good directors would tell you, well, if you're gonna leave set,
you have to pay a killfie for every.
Speaker 2: Single person on set.
Speaker 4: And so he really pressed me about it, and I was like, well,
you're gonna have to pay killfie for the team.
Speaker 2: All seven guys.
Speaker 4: So we kind of worked it out to where I'd
only worked with the three that I had originally agreed to,
but it was still all at once, and it was
still more like, Okay, well, this isn't what I want
to be doing.
Speaker 2: Yeah, So I was like, nah.
Speaker 3: I mean the fact for you, even at the age
of eighteen, to be able to have the guts to
even negotiate that, because especially with being put the pressure
on you that like you know, you're now going to
be you're gonna walk out of this scene like negative yes, right,
like you thought you're here negative.
Speaker 2: Ten thousand dollars.
Speaker 4: So it's like that was immediately, Oh no, how do
I fix this?
Speaker 3: Right?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 1: And you didn't feel like you could call your agent? No,
well I did.
Speaker 4: I believe actually at the time, and I believe because
it was so long ago that she pressed me to
do it. So I was like, the moment someone starts
pressing me is the moment they've lost to me.
Speaker 2: Yeah, because I just won't tolerate it.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 3: This is why I say, like, you know, today, if
you get into the industry, like now is the best
time it is to get in, because like, shit like
that would happen back in the day, But that's not
really like going to fly today.
Speaker 4: No, it's because a company's like Browsers coming in and
really elevating the whole industry that companies like that just
got immediately pushed out.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and also too, like performers having so much more
control over their careers and being financially independent, they're not
going to put up with that shit.
Speaker 4: And getting to work with your partner versus working with
someone you've never met before.
Speaker 5: Right.
Speaker 4: I don't think a lot of the only fans girls
even understand going to set to a sixteen hour day
if you were lucky sometimes longer, and working with someone
you've never even talked to.
Speaker 1: Yeah, like it different thing now.
Speaker 3: Back then, we were actually still doing ghosties, which is
like not a thing anymore.
Speaker 2: No, I don't think people even know what ghosties are.
Speaker 1: I was going to ask, can you explain to the
audience what a ghosty is?
Speaker 4: So a ghosty is where your agent would pick you
up and it would be maybe three to five girls,
and you'd spend the whole day driving around from company
to company, to wearhouse to wearhouse, and you'd go into
the GM's office and you'd strip down to your birthday
suit and give a little twirl, bend over, make sure
that that zone looks good because so many people would
photoshop extra filter. I mean, even back then when social
networking really wasn't that big, you had to worry about
am I going to get the girl in the picture.
So some companies, like New Sensations, they would not hire
you if they did not see you in person.
Speaker 2: I loved Renee though she was brutal, but I loved her.
Speaker 1: She's just a strong woman.
Speaker 2: I loved strong women.
Speaker 3: Yeah, we were kind of the same too, like yeah,
we very rarely booked people unless we saw them in person.
Speaker 5: First.
Speaker 1: The worst was doing a ghosie with a guy.
Speaker 2: Oh, I don't think I ever did a goho see
with a guy.
Speaker 3: Well, because you didn't have to. You weren't the one casting, right, rude.
And actually it's funny because Seth Gamble was around at
that time. Yes, he came to a gosy for me.
That's the first time we met. And so just real
quick aside. So if you are a guy and you
do go see same thing, used to strip down naked
and everything, but the things you have to get your
dick hard, because we needed to see what it looks
like hard.
Speaker 1: I don't care what it looks like soft.
Speaker 4: And if you can get it hard on command, it's
very important.
Speaker 3: And so of course no one in the office ever
wanted to do that. Oh, like, and so I got
stuck with it because I was like, you know, I
was like the peon.
Speaker 1: I was like at the low end, so it always
had to be me.
Speaker 3: And so I came up with a system because there's
nothing worse than standing in the room with a guy
who's trying to get his dick.
Speaker 1: And you're just kind of like holding a camera, like
do I look at him? Do I look away? Do
I look at the ceiling?
Speaker 3: Do I? Actually, I don't even think, like smartphones are
really thing at the time, Like what do I do
with myself? So what I would do is there was
the back room, and I would like get a stack
of magazines. Because we didn't have like smartphones at the time,
we could just pull up porn Hub and I would
like have a box, like a box with magazines and
lube and baby wipes, and I give it to the
guy and I'd be like, let me know when you're ready, yeah,
And so then I would leave and I would stand
right outside the door because I didn't want there to
be too much time between when he said he was
ready and when I shot it, because it could go down.
Of course, I have this is so vividly burned in
my mind light of you.
Speaker 2: Though most people be like all right, I tell them
when you're ready?
Speaker 1: Are you ready? Yeah?
Speaker 3: I mean like I want him to get hard because
like you know, like I, well.
Speaker 2: Some people don't have that attitude.
Speaker 4: I've I've met some female performers who are like get
your dick hardy, and they're like they won't even be
flirtatious with the partner to create a sense of energy.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm trying to like help them and make them
feel Sometimes guys would ask me to like stay in
the room and ask if I could help, and I
was like, sweetheart, But I would stand outside the door
and I would just be holding my camera and then
like I just hear through the wall like and then
I'd hear, okay, I'm ready, and then I'd like rush
in with my camera and like trying to take the
pictures before.
Speaker 1: Like it went down. And sometimes it would go down
like right away, and then you.
Speaker 2: Startle them coming through the door.
Speaker 1: But yeah, maybe it's the kool aid.
Speaker 4: Man, Yeah, where's your ticket?
Speaker 2: Oh god?
Speaker 3: And I remember once this guy like accidentally came. He
came like all over the floor and I made him,
I mean because I was like I cleaned on that up, like, yeah,
those were the fucking days.
Speaker 1: Go sees. Oh my god, blast in the past.
Speaker 3: Okay, at twenty two, you became the first ever Grazers
contractor Yes, what did that mean to you at the time,
and what does it mean to you now looking back?
Speaker 4: I mean, I feel like it was such an honor,
like to not only be the first one, but to
be the first female, because they had signed a few
guys before and I at that time, it was really
we were exiting the DVD era and internet was on
the rise. But everyone really I remember, hated on browsers,
like a lot of performers like I'll never go work
with them because we had such loyalty to the DVD companies.
But for me, I was super into internet shopping and
posting online and on Flicker and all these different little sites.
So once I got the chance to work for an
internet company, I'm like, this is the future, this is
where we're headed. So when they asked me to be
their contract girl, I almost couldn't believe it. I still
am like surprised that they came back the same day
and were like, yes, we want her.
Speaker 2: So it still just makes them a little heart flutter.
Speaker 1: It's crazy because I remember when Browsers started.
Speaker 3: You know, we already had Sue's Net and that was
up and running, and then you know, and back then,
affiliate programs were like a big thing. Affiliate programs are
basically like other websites that post like free samples of
content and then they link back to the original site
that has the content with a special code, and whoever
like signs up gets a certain amount of money from
that website. Right, So back in the day, that was like,
I mean, it's not really such a lucrative thing anymore,
but it was at the time.
Speaker 1: And I remember this new.
Speaker 3: Company called Browsers coming in and paying out like these
insane sign up fees that were way higher than everybody else's.
So all of the affiliates would promote their content because
they got the highest number of like And I believe
at the beginning, like I knew someone who knew someone
at Browsers and they were like, it's not really like
converting financially for us at the moment, but like we're
playing the long games.
Speaker 1: Yes right, yes, I don't know. Did it work.
Speaker 4: I mean, it works for me definitely, because I was
on every little sidebar.
Speaker 2: There was always a little cutout, a little emblem.
Speaker 4: So at that time I couldn't go to Disneyland with
my family without being swarmed act and I was like,
oh god, I have to wear disguises now because it
would just get outrageous.
Speaker 3: Actually, yeah, and you're also kind of like visible because
I mean your petite right, yes, so like you stick
out like for that reason too.
Speaker 4: Yes, short with big tits on like a lollipop walking around.
Speaker 2: I'm oh, there, it is, there, it is.
Speaker 4: Now.
Speaker 1: You were nominated for an Abian Award that year.
Speaker 4: I was, yes, for my anal scene. I can't even
remember now what award. If it was for if it
was for a Female Performer of the Year or Best
anal Scene. It was for a really big award, and
I was just, oh, it was heartbroken that I didn't
get to be there that.
Speaker 1: Year because that's when you had the car.
Speaker 2: Acit that's when I had the car accident.
Speaker 3: Yeah, And then can you just talk a little bit
about that period. I mean, we went into it pretty
extensively in the previous episode, So if you guys want
to hear the Grizzly story, you can go back and
watch that. I don't want to ask you to repeat,
but just like a quick recap for people who did
no idea what we're talking about.
Speaker 4: Well, it's funny because I feel like when we did
that last interview, it was so soon still after I
had had my last round of surgeries. So I was
on my way out to dinner one night, just a
normal evening, and this crazy, reckless driver comes creening around
a turn in his Ferrari and slams right into me
and the seatbelt.
Speaker 2: It broke my back.
Speaker 4: It ruptured three different organs, and I spent the next
year bedridden. But I so desperately wanted to get back
to life before that. And I think anyone who's been
through anything traumatic, whether it's health related or accident, all
you want to do is get back to who you
were before that happened. But that's never going to happen,
so you really have to learn to be happy with
who you are now becoming. So I just tried so
hard to get back to being that person that I
really feel like I hurt.
Speaker 2: Myself in a lot of ways.
Speaker 4: Yeah, just with the pressure too of be energetic, be
on when your back is killing you, your energy is nonexistent.
I mean, I still struggle so much, and I don't
think people even realize that that I spend two weeks
out of every month doing physical therapy still till this day,
and it's something that I'll always have to deal with.
Speaker 3: So when you say two weeks out of the month,
you mean like so frequently that it's like a fourteen day.
Speaker 2: It's so frequently that it's like a fourteen day.
Speaker 4: I mean like I pretty much spend every day focusing
on some sort of semblance of physical therapy, but there's
always a grouping of at least two weeks. It seems
like out of every month where I'm immobile, I'm so
zapped of energy and I'm maybe I pinched a nerve
that I physically can't even walk, so I use my
hoverboard a lot. Actually, wow, Yeah, I really think hoverboards
could be a great use for anyone with spinal or
psiatic pain because I can't take steps, but I could
stand straight. So if you can stand on a hoverboard,
you can get shit done.
Speaker 1: That's crazy. I mean, how long ago was this accident?
Speaker 4: When I think about it, it's insane. It was already
ten years.
Speaker 1: Ago and you're still suffering.
Speaker 2: But I'm still suffering.
Speaker 4: I just had three emergency surgeries two and a half
years ago, so I was gonna come back actually to filming,
but then it was like boom, boom boom, like all
of a sudden again, my body just decided we're bringing
back some old problems. And I kind of knew that
these things would become an issue. They told me, I'll
always have to worry about this, but I was kind
of a few years out away from surgery, so I
had kind of gotten in my mind, I'm good, like
we're safe, We're in the safe zone. The moment you
start thinking that way is the moment the universe wants
to humble you.
Speaker 1: What is the whole experience taught you about life and
about yourself.
Speaker 4: Try not to let anything upset you too much, because
time heals all.
Speaker 2: Don't let those things ruin your day.
Speaker 4: Of course, everything's gonna upset you once in a while,
but don't let it sit within you, because you're gonna
live your whole life angry, and you're gonna get to
your end of your life thinking why did I do that?
Speaker 2: Life was so good.
Speaker 4: You're gonna spend your twenties, your thirties, your forties, and
then you're gonna get to your fifties and sixties and
go Man, I was a hot bitch in my twenties
and in my thirties and in my forties and in
my fifties, and I wasted all of that worrying. So
stop worrying if you can, and try just living just
a little bit.
Speaker 1: They say it's about the journey, not the destination. Yes,
And I'm always thinking about the destination. It's always like same.
Speaker 3: I'm always like when I get to this thing, then
I'll be happy. When I get that thing, I'll be happy,
like even when you get that thing. And I think
you're probably similar to me. We're kind of perfectionists, right, Yes,
you're never happy. You're never you're like, oh this is
not what I thought it would be, or just like
what's the next thing.
Speaker 1: You're always looking to the next thing, and like in.
Speaker 3: Between all of those milestones that you're trying to hit,
like that's.
Speaker 4: When life happens, truly, truly. I was on my way
once to get into a car. I can't even remember
where I was, and a security guy saw me rushing
to the car and he goes, oh, you must be later.
Are you gonna hurry, you're running. I wasn't late for anything.
I was just moving and I was just in that moment.
I'm like, damn, I need to I need to slow down.
I need to remind myself it's okay to walk. Anytime
I see someone i'm walking with them, I'm just I'm
up here and they're back here, and I'm like, girl,
let yourself be back here with them.
Speaker 3: You know what reminds me a lot of this thing
that I need to work on and I lack a lot.
I will say honestly, is like my daughter. Because kids
are so in the moment. Yes, they're not worried about
time nothing. She's very much not worried about time to
the point we're rushing.
Speaker 1: Late to school every day.
Speaker 3: But you know what I mean, I'll be like, I
let hurry up, hurry up, we gotta go, Yes, we
got to go, and she's like, oh la la.
Speaker 1: La, like she's looking at this flower. Was like, And
you know, even though I.
Speaker 3: Get like frustrated sometimes because like I'm trying to get
shit done and my kid's dragging her fucking feet like
all kids do, there's so many times where I'm like
Jesus christ like she is living in the moment. She is,
She's experiencing life right now, She's there, she's present.
Speaker 1: I am not I am rushing her.
Speaker 3: I am like saying next, next, next, not here, here, here,
And like she reminds me of that a lot.
Speaker 2: I could totally say that.
Speaker 4: But do you remember what it was like to be
that age where Christmas felt like it was an eternity
a way, because the construct of time does not exist
to children. Yes, And I'm so envious of that. I know,
because in my head there's always a clock. It's always ticking.
Even though I want to remind myself slow down, that
clock is always ticking.
Speaker 3: So Madison, obviously you went through all of that. You
step back, you took a break, You felt like you
tried to return to the industry too quickly. So what
has been different about this time?
Speaker 4: Well, this time, I definitely feel like I wanted to
just get my self right. I mean, I look back
on some of those those videos from my return and
I can just see that my skin is a little
gray because I was bedridden for a year. I didn't
go out in the sun enough, so maybe just needed
a little bit more fun in the sun for myself actually,
So I think that was really all the end. I
just needed to get past figuring out my pain management.
So that's a big one. Figuring out what new energy
I have and how do I want to spend that.
Speaker 2: So I have to kind of map out life.
Speaker 4: And I think a lot of people don't realize that
that is what it's like for me.
Speaker 2: Is I really have to be strategic.
Speaker 4: If I have a big going out activity or a
big photo shoot, I very often need to have the
next day off. As ridiculous as it is, I work
for one day and I need a day off. Outrageous,
But sometimes I have a pinch nerve from a photo
shoot and I'm down for three days just planning my
life like that.
Speaker 1: I need, I need a day off.
Speaker 4: I mean, I think that's how it should work. We
all work one day, we get a day off, one
day day off.
Speaker 1: I think we.
Speaker 3: I think also as a society, we like we push
ourselves too hard right we do right now and we
really yeah and we really like don't give ourselves breaks.
Speaker 1: If I go get a massage.
Speaker 3: Like I feel guilty, which is crazy, and like I
don't especially now that I you know a kid like
I don't know time. People are like, oh, you're gonna
make time for yourself. I'm like, get the fuck out
of here.
Speaker 1: When am I going to do that?
Speaker 5: Tell me?
Speaker 1: It's it's kind of like almost impossible.
Speaker 4: Because I mean, I'm seeing both my brothers had their
first kids. Yeah, and I'm seeing the reality of what
life is like with kids and parents are superheroes, like
you are amazing. I wake up every day barely have
energy for myself and my dog.
Speaker 2: So anyone who has more than one child, you deserve
a vacation, all expenses paid, like Jesus Christ, once a year.
Speaker 1: Because you don't. You don't get breaks.
Speaker 2: You don't get breaks, breaks, you don't.
Speaker 1: Get to you know.
Speaker 3: Someone said to me today because I took her to
school this morning, and the crossing guard was like, wow,
it's Friday eve, It's almost the weekend.
Speaker 1: And I was like, buddy, weekends.
Speaker 3: Are almost more work for me than during the week
because during the week she's at school. During the weekend,
I got her and like that child wants to be
entertained at all ten yes, at fucking all times, and so.
Speaker 4: You're the most awesome person. So it's like she wants
to hang out with you.
Speaker 3: I know, and she's very attached to me, and I
have to keep reminding myself.
Speaker 2: That this will not always be the case exactly.
Speaker 1: You will get to that age where like mom is
not cool anymore.
Speaker 2: Just about to say, are you looking forward to the
teenage years?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 3: No, she is so like she has such a strong personality,
and she is so smart, and she's I mean everyone
thinks their kids beautiful, but my kid's beautiful.
Speaker 2: Oh so beautiful.
Speaker 1: She is beautiful. She's gonna be really Yeah, the thing
is going to be a problem.
Speaker 3: It's going a problem. I can tell anyways about me. Okay,
So now you're back, and I mean, do you feel
like you had.
Speaker 1: To rush back? Were you worried that the industry was
going to forget you?
Speaker 2: I think everybody's worried about that.
Speaker 4: I think in this day and age, with content turnover
rate the way it is, there's such a push to
constantly produce, constantly make content, constantly be virtually present.
Speaker 2: And I feel that all the time.
Speaker 4: So I'm trying to kind of delete that from me
now because I just can't do I can't.
Speaker 2: Live life that way.
Speaker 4: So you need to take time anytimes people see me
not posting. It's either because I'm in a super physical
therapy moment or I'm truly just unplugging for myself. Because
I have a box at my house that says commit
to the moment. And I put my phone in that
box and about like six pm every day, and I
don't look at it again until right before I plug
it in to go to bed, and that whole time
is for crafting or something creative.
Speaker 1: Was that hard for you to do it first? And
is it natural? Does it feel okay? Like easy? Now?
Speaker 4: It feels great now, I actually feel the sense of
sickness with my phone is in my hand, and I'm
just dying to put it in that box because and
it has to be in an enclosed space. It like
cuts it off from me in a way that just
putting it in the other room, plugging it away from you,
doesn't do for me. So I needed that and I
needed that reminder where it says commit to the moment.
Speaker 3: I have found myself definitely like dooms scrolling late at
night and I'm like, I should be in bed and
this is not helping me go to sleep. No, And
also like the algorithm knows that I will stop on
the worst stories about like child abduction and you know,
all the things that like you're afraid of. Yes, the
internet knows, and that's what.
Speaker 1: It feeds you. And then you go to bed with
that shit.
Speaker 2: In your head. And then our phones are secretly listening
to us.
Speaker 4: Oh so my phone knows I'm a sad bitch that
Oh she's crying again.
Speaker 2: Send her a puppy video.
Speaker 3: Enter this like fucking pharmaceutical ad for antidepressidence.
Speaker 4: Yes, yeah, And I can't not like and support people's
very sad videos sometimes, So now my whole algorithm, I'm
just like, get it away from me.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I know.
Speaker 3: You know what's funny is Masha uses my phone because
she's my social media manager, so she postsuff on my Instagram.
Speaker 1: There's a lot of Russian shit in my feet. I'm like,
Musha's been on here again. It's just all this Russian stuff.
Speaker 3: And I'm like, so, you've also lived through three completely
different eras of this industry, the DVD era, the rise
of internet powern and now OnlyFans.
Speaker 1: How has this shift looked for you?
Speaker 3: And do you think that the industry is better off
now than it was or are there some things that
you miss?
Speaker 1: About the good old days.
Speaker 4: I mean, I think there was like a little bit
more of a sense of glamour in a sense for
the good old days, especially with the DVD era, when
we had digital playground, shooting things like pirates, building full
scale pirate shit, really putting.
Speaker 1: A whole day just for box cover.
Speaker 2: Yes, just for picture.
Speaker 1: Now you have ten minutes to shoot a box.
Speaker 4: Covery, yes, and then you better get at least three
different zones. It's like you can't do a full photo
set in the same space anymore, which makes sense.
Speaker 2: I get it, but it's it's interesting.
Speaker 4: I do love though, the shift for the performer in
the sense of now you understand personal value, you understand
what your earning power is.
Speaker 2: Because of only fans, you get to work.
Speaker 4: With your partner, your friends, You really get to decide
your own niche. And I think it's really done a
lot for just the individuals. If someone out there was
just a little less greedy and came out and made
a platform like Spotify, but that gave the majority of
the money to the actual artists, oh my god, the
world would be so amazing. Every industry needs in only fans.
I feel like, give the power back to the performers.
Speaker 3: When you were at the height of your career before
the accident, what did success feel like then? And now
after everything you've experienced, What does success look like to
you now?
Speaker 4: I think then I measured my success by how many
really crazy parties that I got to, like the elite
kind of parties that you never hear about, you never
see about that you actually have to lock your phone
up when you enter them. Whether how many designer bags
I had or how long my extensions were. I swear
like the scale of measure of success from then till
now is so different.
Speaker 2: Now I don't want to be famous in a sense.
Speaker 4: I do just want to be successful, And to me,
that looks like being able to take care of my parents,
being able to help my siblings if they need. I'm
putting my little brother through piloting school right now. He
wants to fly for the big airlines. So just being
able to afford more of a comfortable lifestyle, but not
just for myself, but for the people I really care about.
That is really what success looks like to me now.
Speaker 1: I love that.
Speaker 3: And now, coming back after this long hiatus, how does
that feel for you?
Speaker 1: And tell me a little bit about what you've shot
so far.
Speaker 4: I feel so shy. I feel so shy. I did
not expect to feel so like a little bit insecure. Actually,
I think after so many surgeries, so many new scars,
I cannot look at myself without looking directly at the
things that I like the least. So for my perception,
I don't see anything probably what people see when they
look at me. So there's this big new wave of
I've lost that cocky energy that you have when you're young.
You're invincible, You're badass, and I just want to create
and be as fun as I can now, Like I
just want to create more interesting and visually exciting things.
Before it was just like just give it all to
make gang bang Ah.
Speaker 2: I have a cocky energy.
Speaker 1: Cocky energy. Yes, oh my god, I want.
Speaker 2: The bukki energy.
Speaker 4: And I do now put that on a shirt. Yeah, No,
bucocky energy. That's what That's how I'm trying to live
life right now. Is everything Everything is Boukocki energy, whether
it's like you're working on art, you're cleaning your house,
get I want you to bring that boukoki level energy
because if you've ever watched a buukkoki it's so you
have to have a lot of energy for it.
Speaker 2: You gotta be into it.
Speaker 4: There's no downtime, there's no oh my elbow, Like, no,
you better be stretching because we're coming with bukkaki energy
all day.
Speaker 3: Well also too, when that first load hits your face, like,
you gotta like keep going. You can't take a break
because it's gonna drop.
Speaker 4: You don't want it to dry, and you better hope
to bob it doesn't go straight in your eyeballs, otherwise
you're gonna be, you know, doing a little something something.
Speaker 1: Have you ever had come in your eye?
Speaker 2: Who hasn't? Who hasn't?
Speaker 5: True?
Speaker 4: True, It's the worst, the worst, because you can feel
them trying to impregnant your eyeball and you have to
drive home from set Danger Danger.
Speaker 1: There was a shooting taboo once, and I feel like
I've seen it somewhere else.
Speaker 2: Who was it?
Speaker 4: Was it?
Speaker 1: Charlie Ford who loves coming her eyes?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 4: I know a few girls, So yes, there's a few
of them where they would purposefully.
Speaker 1: Like hold their eyes open. Yes, what the fuck?
Speaker 2: What did I mean to each his own?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: No, judge?
Speaker 1: What was so fun?
Speaker 2: I'm pretty sure was Charlie for and we don't judge.
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, go back and listen to my episode with
her and she talks about it because she's such a
sweet like growing this door and she's really smart and
like has her shit together and not that like you
wouldn't have your shit together can come in your eyes.
Speaker 1: But she's just the last person I expected that from.
Speaker 5: Oh.
Speaker 4: I feel like the people that have the ship together
the most are the ones that have something like that. Yeah,
always like doctors, lawyers, those guys.
Speaker 3: Do you have any kinky fetishes that people may not
know about or be maybe surprised about.
Speaker 4: Ooh, I like a sexy game of Marco Polo?
Speaker 1: What is that?
Speaker 2: That means?
Speaker 4: I want to be blindfolded and I want the other
person to kind of Marco Polo around me, and I
have to try to tiptoe through treacherous areas to get
to them like an obstacle course.
Speaker 2: Yes, really, Yes, that's interesting, Yes.
Speaker 4: Because it's the it's the anticipation am I gonna fall?
Am I going to run into something? Or are they
going to run into me? Like there's something exciting about it.
I don't know what it is, So.
Speaker 1: That is interesting.
Speaker 3: Okay, So I have a note in here that I
have to ask you about the Lakers dinner.
Speaker 1: Yes, can you tell us a little bit about that?
Speaker 2: Yes.
Speaker 4: So there's a there's a video online published by TMZ
and it's of me and my best friend and I'm
in this red dress with this big faux fur over
my shoulder, and we're outside this restaurant in Los Angeles
called Boa.
Speaker 2: We would usually go.
Speaker 4: Out to dinner every once in a while, and at
dessert we would sprinkle a little magical fung guy onto
our dessert. So at the restaurant, we're having dessert, and
I just noticed there's this big table of beautiful girls,
model girls, and there's these security guys that keep coming out,
and they get two of them and they take them back,
get two of them, they take them back, and they're
just Boa in Boa. They're just funneling these girls to
this back room. And there's this big door with two
security guards on either side. And right as that magical
fung guy was kicking in, I look at my best
friend and I go, whoo, what do you think if
we just take a little walk back that way? I
bet they'll open the door for us. And she goes no,
why would we do that.
Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm curious.
Speaker 4: I want to know what's back there. She's like, all right,
I will follow your lead. So I confident as all hell, Like,
still can't believe I was it is confident.
Speaker 2: Walk straight up to that door with those two security.
Speaker 4: Guards, look at both of them, and they just open
the door and I walk right in.
Speaker 2: It's the entire Lakers team.
Speaker 4: Every single person in there, back when Kobe Bryant rip
was still playing for them, and all the lovely ladies.
So I am like, okay, let's let's just sneak in
here into the back.
Speaker 2: So we kind of take a seat.
Speaker 1: Is it like a lounge area or it was a dinner.
Speaker 4: It was a big dining table. Was a long dining table.
But there's a lot of girls standing around. There's a
few of the girls sitting at the table. So I'm like,
you know, if we just go stand in the background,
no one's even gonna notice us. One of the players
I won't name who out of respect, came right up
to me and go, Madison Ivy, you look just like
Jessica Rabbit tonight.
Speaker 2: And I just.
Speaker 4: Almost hit the floor because I was such a fan
and I was.
Speaker 2: Just like, this might be the greatest moment of my
whole life. So I just laughing.
Speaker 4: And then my lovely best friend ended up with one
of the other players, and man, he called her for
months after that.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 2: So it was a great night.
Speaker 4: But there's a video of me on TMZ from that
night challenging Snoop Dogg to a smoke blunt smoking contest.
Speaker 2: I don't know what I was thinking.
Speaker 1: So wait, Snoop was there too.
Speaker 2: He wasn't there. I don't know why.
Speaker 4: I just we went outside to smoke, and these cameras
just rushed up to us because we looked very lovely.
I think so they were just there because I think
they knew maybe that all the Lakers were there having dinner.
But they just started asking us questions. And I don't
know why. That one just started to come out of me.
I was like, well, we love to smoke. You know
who else likes to smoke? Snoop Dogg challenge.
Speaker 1: Challenge and he never accepted the challenge.
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, he never did.
Speaker 3: Listen, Snoop, there's still time, there's still time. I know
you watched this podcast. Yeah, he I mean that guy
is he? I think everyone loves him. There's just something
so endearing about him. He just seems like such a
fun guy.
Speaker 2: To Uncle Snell.
Speaker 4: I feel like he just comes through just smelling all dandy.
Speaker 3: I remember so, I mean those paparazzi guys generally like
hang out outside, like, you know, famous restaurants. I remember
I went to, Oh fuck, was that vegan Mexican restaurant
off Melrose that everybody goes to.
Speaker 1: Oh I know exactly what?
Speaker 5: Yes?
Speaker 1: Yes, why am I spacing on the name.
Speaker 2: I'm terrible with names, honestly, Okay, I'm the worst.
Speaker 1: It's like it's Madre something.
Speaker 2: Yeah, not grossiest Madre?
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, yes, okay, grossis Madre. I think we went
there for Jilliana Jenson's birthday or I don't know. I'm
pretty sure she was there. And then are these photographers
that were standing out outside and I come out and
I'm fully joking, but they don't really know what to
make of me, and I'm like, oh, oh my god,
this is so embarrassing.
Speaker 1: They knew I was here. Oh okay, guys, it's fine.
Speaker 3: I'll pose for some pictures, but like, please just a
couple and like let me go, because like I'm here I'm.
Speaker 1: Here with friends, and you know, I'm like, I just
trying to keep it.
Speaker 2: Look, I can some crime to see if that's okay,
respect the woman's space.
Speaker 3: And then so I just start like posing like this.
I'm like, okay, here's your moment. And these guys are
just like take it by photo because they're like, who.
Speaker 1: The fuck is this girl? But they were like, well,
maybe she's somewhat so we'll just take the pictures. Or
it's just awkward, so we'll just take her photos. So
she shuts up and goes away.
Speaker 4: I mean, I think that's how you should definitely handle
anytime you see someone cameras.
Speaker 1: I pretend like you're there for me, and they will be,
you know.
Speaker 2: I feel like.
Speaker 4: Maybe that's the new trend for gen Z, Like when
they're done storming the Scientology buildings, just find all the paparazzis.
Speaker 2: And just like, oh no, no, I can't.
Speaker 3: So how is your relationship with your own sexuality shifted
over the course of your career and especially through your
years of recovery.
Speaker 4: Oh well, it's definitely I'm so much more a demi sexual.
I think when I was younger, I was just an animal.
You could literally just give me a body and I
just beast. But now I need romancing. I need kissing,
I need touching, I need foreplay. I know a lot
of people sometimes they feel like foreplay can just it
gets in the way, it's like too much at times.
But for me, I really need the foreplay now, especially kissing,
because one of the biggest things I feel like you
get on people's no lists is no kissing.
Speaker 3: Yeah, because there are general people that are like in relationships, yeah,
somebody else who and respectly isn't fully okay, that's what
they do.
Speaker 4: And if you're in a relationship, I totally understand that, uh,
but especially in I dated someone recently actually who they
did not like kissing. They have autism, so things coming
close to their face was really difficult for them, and
I started to realize I was like, oh, this isn't
going to work.
Speaker 2: I need to.
Speaker 4: Feel your mouth, that hot breath on my neck, on
my ears, just I want to feel like I'm being
consumed by my person. And if you're not going to
consume me, I can't be with you.
Speaker 1: That leads me to the next question, how important is
penisized to you?
Speaker 2: Penis size is not important to me.
Speaker 4: Actually I'm not a size queen, and I think that
goes along with this person I dated. They were huge, huge,
to the point where I felt like my pussy was
being punched into my brain and without kissing and those
that warmed me up, it was really it became very uncomfortable.
So I started to feel like, well, you know, average
is so much more my speed for like a daily
fuck because I'm a daily fucker.
Speaker 2: I want it every day if I can get it.
But yeah, the big ones much.
Speaker 1: Sometime what's average to you or what's like an ideal
size to you?
Speaker 2: Like five to six inches?
Speaker 4: Okay, Like, yeah, I do feel like that type of
human usually comes with the want of being a bit
more of a romantic. Sometimes the size comes with this
like bravado and a gust of I am badass and
you are.
Speaker 2: But if you're just going to slam your pelvis into me,
that's that's not going to do anything.
Speaker 3: Yeah, almost, like this thing that I have is all
that I it's the impressive that's all I need.
Speaker 4: Yeah, Yeah, it's the it's the finishing move. Yeah right
there for me, there's there's a million other moves between that.
Speaker 3: I remember I dated a guy once he was really
really good looking and had a really big dick, and
it was the most boring.
Speaker 1: Sect that my fucking life. Oh no, it was, but
it was exactly that kind of thing.
Speaker 3: I think he just thought like, oh, well, I'm good
looking and I have a big dicks, and so therefore,
like I don't need to do anything.
Speaker 4: And I was like yeah, and our and our sex
was honestly, it was amazing until it got to the
point where I was like, well, I do need a
little bit more of the other stuff. So make sure
you give your partner the other stuff. Make sure you're
always attentive to their body. I feel like sexuality and
flirtation it doesn't just start right before sex. It's throughout
the day. It's every time you walk past your partner
and they're bent over getting something, You grab that ass,
you give them a spank every time.
Speaker 2: Every time.
Speaker 3: Well, I was actually gonna ask you, what advice would
you give to men to become a better lover?
Speaker 1: I feel like you kind of just did. Is there
anything else, like, maybe more physical or specific?
Speaker 2: Ooh?
Speaker 4: I think the easiest one is for a lot of
people feel like they have a hard time remembering things
that they can do for their partner. But I feel
like our partners always mention things that they like, that
they want, that they're into. I keep a note in
my phone anytime I date someone of the size of
every single garment they wear, if they mention any sort
of childhood toy to me that they've always wanted, that
they've never gotten, their favorite color, their favorite food, how
they like their coffee. I have just a dossier, a
roller dix if you will, of what their dick is requiring,
because I want them to know that I don't just
care about their body, but their mind and their soul
and their childlike mind's fulfillment.
Speaker 2: So that's a big one.
Speaker 4: If you have a hard time remembering things, anytime your
person says something, I love that that pair of socks.
Oh I love this in that color? Da da dua,
put that in your phone. Remember it for birthdays, Christmas,
Valentine's Day, Then you have a whole dossier.
Speaker 2: You don't got a stress.
Speaker 1: Is she not the perfect woman? I'm sorry? Is there
anyone more perfect than this person? Right here? You you?
Speaker 3: I don't keep a dossier Every year. I buy my
husband something he doesn't fucking want.
Speaker 1: Every year. Almost like a joke out like I just
he doesn't like anything that I get him.
Speaker 2: Now, is he hard shopper?
Speaker 4: Like yes, okay, does he ever mention anything that he's
into or is he one of the silent No?
Speaker 3: Not really, And if there is something that he wants,
he goes and hits it his goddamn self.
Speaker 1: So it's like, yep, it is impossible.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's a hard one too, because I realize I'm
kind of that kind of person. It's like always, we'll
just handle it, like whatever it is, I'll handle it.
So I would start to just realize, Okay, you need
to start giving people hints of things and actively.
Speaker 2: Not buy your yourself those things or do that for yourself.
It's maddening.
Speaker 1: I bought him some hands this year that wait.
Speaker 2: Pants are pants like cooking?
Speaker 1: Like cooking? Okay, like to cook. He says they're lovely
and he likes them, but he has.
Speaker 5: An hmmm so suspicious suspicious Yeah, Like I give him children,
so whatever, And that's the great thing you can give someone.
Speaker 2: That is an that's a gift I'll probably never give somebody.
Speaker 1: Do you is that not possible for you or do
you just am not interested?
Speaker 2: Why should I don't know.
Speaker 4: Actually, after the accident and after everything, there was a
big question there if I can or if I can't.
But I've never really gotten close enough to the moment,
So I'm kind of like, if the moment never happens,
it's not an end all, be all for me, because
I would love to just devote my time to uh
like charity and such and going and working at hospitals
and being a candy striper and just bringing stuff around
to make people's day.
Speaker 3: Ryan, I though, I mean, like the thing is is
that I think that I mean I felt definitely before
I had kids, because you know, I had Violet later, Yeah,
it was forty when I got pregnant with her. You know,
as women, we feel this pressure to have children huge,
like even if we don't necessarily want them, and it's
like a measure of you know, who we are as
a person and all this kind of thing. But I
think there's a lot of people who have kids who shouldn't. Yeah,
that's a big one, and it's a it's a really
it's going to change your life and it's a massive commitment.
And I absolutely understand like some people that just don't
want them, and it's really frustrating that.
Speaker 1: I feel like society shames people.
Speaker 2: There's a lot of shame there isn't there shame's.
Speaker 1: Women for not wanting to have kids.
Speaker 3: Like, it's just like, I think you can live a wonderful, fulfilling,
magical life without children.
Speaker 2: Did you feel like you were hesitant to have children
or did you always I always wanted kids, that is always,
But I think that's how you should be.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I mean I always wanted kids. But like
then I ended up with the wrong guy. I was
married to the wrong guy for a while, and it
actually it wasn't until I realized that maybe I could
live because I stayed with him for a long time
because I thought, Okay, I don't love him and our
relationship between the two of us isn't fantastic, but he'd
be a great father. Oh so I made this like
deal with myself that I could stay with him because
he'd be because that would be the good option with right,
that makes sense. I was also like, oh, I'm thirty five,
I'm ancient. I can't get divorced.
Speaker 1: No one will want me.
Speaker 4: Well, how many times do we hear in movies that, oh, well,
she's hit twenty five, she's past her prime. Yeah, and
that is such a silly concept because I feel like
I get a lot of people and it's so flattering.
I hope they're lying to me, or I hope they're
not lying in a way that everyone keeps telling me
that I look better now than ever before, and it's
so sweet. But I'm like, but I'm, you know, not
twenty five anymore. So am I past the expiration day?
Speaker 2: Like we say? Or do I look better than ever?
I think I look better than ever?
Speaker 1: You look better than ever?
Speaker 2: You're so sweet.
Speaker 3: I mean I feel like I looked I looked way
better in my thirties and like forties, and I did
in my twenties. I was also drinking like a fucking
fish in my twenties, so I floated and like pretty
just alcohol, like bloat in my face.
Speaker 1: It looks terrible. So I definitely think I look better now.
Speaker 3: But you know, there's something and they're saying that comes
with like confidence, experience, And I think, you know, beauty
is physical, but I think the way that people see you,
it's also the way you carry yourself. And I think
that so that true factors into how attractive you are
to other people.
Speaker 4: Hugely, because I've met some of the most gorgeous girls
and just been in raptures at how stunning they are.
And then they will be rude to the waiter or
just beyond disrespectful out of nowhere, and it's like a
switch flips and it's like you can see every wrinkle,
you can see the unevenness in their makeup, and I'm like,
why wasn't that they're two seconds ago so interesting?
Speaker 3: Now you said that you're back in the industry and
you're ready for so much more.
Speaker 1: What is so much more actually mean to medicson IVY
right now?
Speaker 2: Well, I feel like.
Speaker 4: Because I had rushed to come back to the industry
after my accident and I really was too nervous to
do any of the I didn't have Boukcocky energy.
Speaker 2: I need my Buukocki energy.
Speaker 1: We are trademarking this, you know, we need T.
Speaker 2: Shirts, we need mugs. I want like, oh, I do
you want a license plate cover.
Speaker 3: I'm literally going to check and see if you available
after this. Nobody who's watched this life go fucking buy
it right now.
Speaker 1: Don't do it.
Speaker 4: But yeah, I just haven't had my Boucocki energy until
very recently so and even now I've still had to
make adjustments because my health just took another little dip.
It's it's so funny. The universe just likes to remind
me be slow, take your time with things. So I'm
excited for Bukocky's for Gangbangs, for dps.
Speaker 2: I've never done a DP and I'm so nervous.
Speaker 1: Crazy to me, I feel like, yeah.
Speaker 4: It's long overdue, it's long over I've done two anal
scenes in my fifteen plus years, so I've I had
a beautiful, long career that I'm so grateful for.
Speaker 2: But now because I have that Boukake energy and just
the will and the want and the desire, yeah to
get more power. Yeah, I'm just ready to go kind
of all out.
Speaker 3: Is there anyone in the industry now that you really
want to do a scene with it? Maybe like wasn't
around when you were working before.
Speaker 4: Oh, I feel like there's so many people. Actually, I'm
really looking forward to working with Hollywood Cash. We have
had a few scenes that were supposed to get booked
and then kind of just fell through. I also feel
like I just don't know so many people, and I've
been in my little hermit hole for so long that
I need to go to parties.
Speaker 2: I need to see who's out there.
Speaker 4: I just like, I'm not on my phone as much,
so I just don't get to see as many people.
Speaker 2: But there's so many girls. There's so many girls that
I'm dying.
Speaker 3: I feel like our audience can help us out. So
if you guys are watching this, drop a comment.
Speaker 2: Who should Madison work with mendations? I love, love love recommendations.
Speaker 3: I bet, I bet we'll get some really good ones,
please please, all right, So my last question for you
is if you could go back and tell your younger self,
the one who had just landed the Browsers contract and
had no idea what was coming, what would you tell them?
Speaker 4: Don't go to Washington, DC. That's where my accident happen. Yes,
don't go to DC. But I would just maybe tell
her to put more stuff in your butt. Don't be afraid,
don't be afraid, welcome it with open cheeks.
Speaker 3: I'm expecting some really like inspirational, like to have patience life.
Speaker 2: Will work out the way, or how much you can
fit in your.
Speaker 1: Love yourself. You're like, no more things of my butt? Yes,
And I mean how could we get to end on
that it was so perfect?
Speaker 3: You know, oh god, well, I mean I could talk
to you for another like ten hours, say, but it
was such a pleasure.
Speaker 1: To see you again.
Speaker 2: Thank you for having me. It is such a blessing
to get to see you, my dear. Thank you.
Speaker 3: And then of course we do have our questions from
our Patreon members. We have a lot of them, so
we will be doing that in a second segment as usual.
But in the meantime, can you tell everyone where they
can find you online?
Speaker 4: So right now you can find me on Instagram mad
Ivy with a Z at the end m ad iv
Y Z or on OnlyFans Madison four twenty Ivy love you.
Speaker 3: All fantastic And then of course you guys can find
me on Instagram and on x at Holly Randall. Once again,
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