Speaker 1: From Workhouse Connect and AJ Benze fame. Uh, he'd liked
Speaker 1: to be walking on a leash and play really dirty
Speaker 1: kinky sex games. Is the guy put the cock in
Speaker 1: the peacock network? Okay, bitch, hey everybody, AJ Bens youre
Speaker 1: here with fame, is it? Bitch? This is your daily
Speaker 1: Unfiltered podcast for November twenty six, twenty five, one two six,
Speaker 1: two oh two five.
Speaker 2: As we get inches closer to Thanksgiving, I don't know
Speaker 2: what you guys are doing, who's cooking, who's entertaining, who's
Speaker 2: doing whatever? I think I said, I'm just I'm making
Speaker 2: stuff shells. I decided on stuff shells with a nice
Speaker 2: meat sauce.
Speaker 1: And pork and beef. My kids love it. They used
Speaker 1: to make it with me and they were kids. It
Speaker 1: was so cute with the mixture. We make the mixture
Speaker 1: of the mutsell and.
Speaker 2: I got the eggs, just the parmegiano and giano cheese,
Speaker 2: and you just stuff your shells with that.
Speaker 1: Make a nice pork and beef meat sauce with that.
Speaker 1: Oh forget, It's wonderful. And I ham, I'm not doing
Speaker 1: the turkey. I'm not doing this. A couple of sides.
Speaker 1: Some stuffings, some nice string beans with garlic and almonds.
Speaker 1: I'm not going bananas with the turkey, Like I said,
Speaker 1: I can't do it, but that's my plan. Just a
Speaker 1: little Is it just me? There is a little bit
Speaker 1: off this year? Is it a little bit off? I
Speaker 1: feel a little bit off. Maybe it's my situation in life.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I just don't feel like it's like
Speaker 1: holiday time. I don't feel it. I don't know. I
Speaker 1: wanted to tell you I forgot. I watched that Michael
Speaker 1: Manson documentary and I forgot to tell you that one
Speaker 1: of the it was such a phony moment of my life,
Speaker 1: but a necessary one, because you know, that's what you
Speaker 1: do when you're a person in Ay. You got a
Speaker 1: movie script, Well, what I did was when I got
Speaker 1: the script for a movie I was supposed to read
Speaker 1: for called Chump Change. Yes, I read it home in
Speaker 1: my apartment actual it was Vinnie's apartment, and I loved it.
Speaker 1: It was really funny. It's very seldom that you get
Speaker 1: a script you laugh out loud, and Chump Change had
Speaker 1: some really great jokes and I loved my lines, and
Speaker 1: the director allowed me to live and we had a
Speaker 1: ball with Tracy Lord's and Fred Willard. I mean, so
Speaker 1: many people and Mirra. That movie had a lot of
Speaker 1: fun people. Tim Mathieson, Oh yeah, we had a great time.
Speaker 1: I remember taking the script. This is so bad, but
Speaker 1: I did it. I took it to the Beverly Hills Hotel.
Speaker 1: I just went to the Beverly Hills Hotel. And back
Speaker 1: in the day, you could kind of slip in and
Speaker 1: get out the back door and take off your sweatpant
Speaker 1: answer and have a bathing sit on and lay on
Speaker 1: a lounge and order a drink. And they didn't bust
Speaker 1: your balls about what room are you in, Sarah? Now
Speaker 1: I'm paying cash. I still need your room, sir. They
Speaker 1: didn't do that back then, so you could go out there,
Speaker 1: and I did. I laid out there on a nice
Speaker 1: hot date and had my script next to me and
Speaker 1: read my script at the pool at the BHH. Because
Speaker 1: that's what you do when you're a big shot and
Speaker 1: you get a script. You got to read it in
Speaker 1: front of people. Let the town know, Oh he's getting work.
Speaker 1: I know it's so bad, but it's it is what
Speaker 1: it is. You know. Before I launch into the show,
Speaker 1: I gotta tell you this morning God, how I love
Speaker 1: this song ninety seven point five. I don't even know
Speaker 1: what the name of the station is that I listened to,
Speaker 1: but it's got all old rock, which I love, and
Speaker 1: it's none of that bullshit rap in the morning and
Speaker 1: I can't you know, Oh, this is the zoo, the
Speaker 1: fucking zoo. Cow bells, I can't hear air horns. Get
Speaker 1: out of here. They played this morning Knights in White Satin,
Speaker 1: moody blues. Most of you, if not all of you,
Speaker 1: know that beautiful song. The guy that wrote this song,
Speaker 1: I want you to understand. You know, sometimes we push
Speaker 1: away youth because we don't think they know enough and
Speaker 1: they're not ready to hear this. What does he know? Well,
Speaker 1: the guy that wrote this song, Justin Hayward, was nineteen
Speaker 1: years old when he wrote Knights in White Satin. And yes,
Speaker 1: it's a progressive rock song or whatever you want to
Speaker 1: call it, but you have to admit it's timeless. The
Speaker 1: kid was nineteen and we all feel most kids don't
Speaker 1: know shit at that juncture of their lives. But here
Speaker 1: he is spitting out a beautiful melody and lyrics to
Speaker 1: a wonderful song. I mean, remember what happened to your heart.
Speaker 1: When you first heard that song, it wasn't just a melody.
Speaker 1: You know there was something else behind it, right, It
Speaker 1: just hits you a certain way. It's still creepy in
Speaker 1: a good way. And it's moody. Well that makes sense,
Speaker 1: it was saying by the moody blues. But it is phenomenal.
Speaker 1: It's a very haunting melody. There's those beautiful string instruments,
Speaker 1: lush string. I love using the word lush, lush strings.
Speaker 1: With the powerful crescendos. It's a symphony of sorrow and
Speaker 1: it cuts very deep when you hear it. And not
Speaker 1: a lot of us can understand the poem at the end.
Speaker 1: You know, poems could be kind of weird to delve into.
Speaker 1: What is this exactly saying? Is it meeting the sadness
Speaker 1: I have in my heart? Like? Where is this poem?
Speaker 1: And what does it mean to me? Oh? My god,
Speaker 1: it's beautiful. He was writing this justin Hayward as one
Speaker 1: relationship he had was ending and another one was about
Speaker 1: to go and bloom nineteen years old. Happens a lot.
Speaker 1: You break up with a chick as you saw another chick.
Speaker 1: It's you know, back in those days where every tree
Speaker 1: had so much fruit, and he come home one night
Speaker 1: and he couldn't sleep. His mind was wandering. I listen,
Speaker 1: I still sit on the edge of my bed at
Speaker 1: night and try to come up with better words to
Speaker 1: a story. I do. I do. And that night Justin
Speaker 1: Hayward was wrapped up in satin sheets that a girlfriend
Speaker 1: bought him that he felt were a bit pretentious, but
Speaker 1: that's what he was wrapped up in. He liked them
Speaker 1: because they look romantic and man, those lyrics at the
Speaker 1: beginning knights in whit satin, never reaching the end. Let
Speaker 1: us I've written meaning to send fuck. That's the kind
Speaker 1: of shit you hear from therapy. Like he. I know
Speaker 1: for a fact that he went to therapy because those
Speaker 1: lyrics right there. You know, a lot of therapists ask
Speaker 1: you to write letters to the people that you may
Speaker 1: have hurt, and even write letters to yourself to forgive yourself.
Speaker 1: I didn't. I've not done that, but it's been asked
Speaker 1: of me, and I can tell that's where this Justin
Speaker 1: Hayward got that line. Yes, letters that are written to
Speaker 1: send the girl, sure, but sometimes it's about letters you
Speaker 1: write to yourself or people you want to apologize to
Speaker 1: that you're not going to send. But again, this happened
Speaker 1: during a time when one relationship was ending and the
Speaker 1: other one was beginning, or at least he hoped. And
Speaker 1: that sort of shit will give a writer a lot
Speaker 1: of fuel. But anybody who knows a thing or two
Speaker 1: about men and women can tell you this is a
Speaker 1: song about a guy who lost a girl. Of course,
Speaker 1: it's one of the best things you could do. Oh,
Speaker 1: I lost my girl. Go write a song, Go write
Speaker 1: a story. Your heart is full of words, it's full
Speaker 1: of passion, and you gotta get out there. You have to,
Speaker 1: you know, blood, let it, let it out. Find something
Speaker 1: in that pain that you can make positive for yourself.
Speaker 1: Too many people don't know how to do that. But
Speaker 1: those lyrics, beauty I've always missed with these eyes before.
Speaker 1: Just what truth is? I can't say anymore? Obviously he's
Speaker 1: lamenting the fact that he should have told this girl
Speaker 1: how he feels about her. Brilliant, But then, you know,
Speaker 1: just what truth is? I can't say anymore because I
Speaker 1: love you, And he says that over and over again,
Speaker 1: and it's hearty, Yes, I love you, you know, it's
Speaker 1: just my god, it's beautiful. The strings someone tried to
Speaker 1: tell me thought, they cannot define just what you want
Speaker 1: me to be. I will be in the end again,
Speaker 1: Oh my god. He won't be where he wants to
Speaker 1: be because he fell in love with a girl who
Speaker 1: got away. You get it. He fell in love with well,
Speaker 1: I've told you about Mary, but Labucci, that was his girl.
Speaker 1: Just what you want to be, you will be in
Speaker 1: the end. Yeah, that happens. The guy wants that which
Speaker 1: he can no longer. Have a love song to the
Speaker 1: one who got away. It's very tragic. But if you're
Speaker 1: a man and you don't know a love song, you
Speaker 1: haven't lived. I've heard this song I don't know ten
Speaker 1: thousand times. I love it, I adore it, and I've
Speaker 1: come to realize as I've gotten older, you do become
Speaker 1: what you want to be in the end. You do.
Speaker 1: And it's kind of beautiful how much emotion it starts
Speaker 1: up in you. And when the song breaks down into
Speaker 1: the narration part where they do the poem, next time
Speaker 1: you hear it, try and remember that this came from
Speaker 1: a nineteen year old kid's broken heart, and he minded
Speaker 1: that beautiful song from his broken heart his chest. Obviously,
Speaker 1: there's people out there who could be just as creative
Speaker 1: by tapping into their inner pain, or their inner peace,
Speaker 1: or their inner agony, whatever the fuck, But just tap
Speaker 1: in and beautiful things will come out of it. I
Speaker 1: always say, if you feel like you might want to cry,
Speaker 1: then lean in and cry. But that poem is called
Speaker 1: late lament and God breathe deep. The gathering gloom watched,
Speaker 1: lights fade from every room, bensidered, people look back and
Speaker 1: lament another day's useless energy spent impassion, lovers wrestlers, One
Speaker 1: lonely man cries for love and has none. New mother
Speaker 1: picks up and suckles her son. Senior citizens wish they
Speaker 1: were young, cold hearted. Orb that rules the night removes
Speaker 1: the colors from our sight. Reds, gray and yellow white.
Speaker 1: But we decide which is right and which is an illusion.
Speaker 1: Oh myfe hit me with an axe in the back
Speaker 1: of the head. I don't care if I die right now.
Speaker 1: That song, that poem, red is gray and yellow white.
Speaker 1: Fuck you six words that kill me. So beautiful and
Speaker 1: even better than it's the end of a rock song.
Speaker 1: What an extra surprise that was. As a kid, we
Speaker 1: didn't know that was coming, right, We just heard the
Speaker 1: song and then what's this. There's a poem after they
Speaker 1: hit the xylophone. If you done what kid like me
Speaker 1: who loves words that work together, well you can imagine
Speaker 1: what it did to me. So great, Moving on, I
Speaker 1: told you a few days ago that Cannis Owns just
Speaker 1: lost her mind with what she's doing with this whole
Speaker 1: new story about the country of France. Has put out
Speaker 1: a hit on her. Coincidentally, they also put out a
Speaker 1: hit on Charlie Kirk. Now Candas sow is in there crosshairs.
Speaker 1: That's what she's saying. I told you she's lost her
Speaker 1: mind and it's getting embarrassing. And now there's articles about
Speaker 1: exactly what I said. They're saying that cannas Ollan has
Speaker 1: claimed they're very high ranking employee of the French government
Speaker 1: had warned her that President Emmanuel Macron and his wife
Speaker 1: quote unquote Brigitte have executed upon and paid for her assassination.
Speaker 1: And the kill squad includes at least one Israeli. Of
Speaker 1: course it's gott included Jew because that's what Candice Owen's
Speaker 1: loved to talk about. Jews are killing every Jews at
Speaker 1: the end of the world. Ju Ju ju ju jew unbelievable.
Speaker 1: But the New York Post and The Guardian and other
Speaker 1: outlets have written about this delusion. She suddenly is going
Speaker 1: on this paranoia delusions of grandeur, as she declines, she's
Speaker 1: been claiming this since last year, that Macron was born
Speaker 1: a man and they both are part of a pedophile
Speaker 1: cult called the Frankests that founded Israel. It gets I mean, uh,
Speaker 1: a cult, a pedophile cult founded Israel. She even says
Speaker 1: Brigitte may actually be Emmanuel's biological father. I know she's
Speaker 1: not on drugs, but she might as well be. Matter
Speaker 1: of fact, get on them. Can this? You'll feel better
Speaker 1: during your delusions. She also fanned the flames of this
Speaker 1: big old crazy conspiracy theory that Israel had something to
Speaker 1: do with Charlly being assassinated. I mean, people talk about
Speaker 1: Alex Jones and the kind of nutty shit he's done.
Speaker 1: Is Candae owns that far away from him, and I
Speaker 1: enjoy listening to Alex Jones, even though I know there's
Speaker 1: something off of them. These people are all Howard Beel's
Speaker 1: from the movie Network. If you haven't seen it or
Speaker 1: heard all my shows I've mentioned Network, and you need to.
Speaker 1: It's one of the best shows of the nineteen seventies
Speaker 1: or maybe the Best Not Shows, one of the best
Speaker 1: movies of all time. But Howard was a newsman who
Speaker 1: lost his mind and began to just report what he
Speaker 1: felt he had to report on. And that's the movie
Speaker 1: where you get the line A man as hell and
Speaker 1: I can't take it anymore. He made viewers say that
Speaker 1: out there windows in New York City while he was
Speaker 1: doing his news show. This is what Cande Zellens has become,
Speaker 1: except she's spouting conspiracy theories and not truths, at least
Speaker 1: not truths to me. But the thing is, the more
Speaker 1: she talks shit, he would think that people would turn off,
Speaker 1: but no, she's getting so much more hits and likes this.
Speaker 1: The first episode of the Macrone series, Becoming Brigitte got
Speaker 1: five million views, and the whole thing about the Franco
Speaker 1: Israeli hit squad that got are you ready thirty nine
Speaker 1: million views over the weekend. I write something on substack
Speaker 1: and if twenty people read it, I feel good. Jesus Christ.
Speaker 1: Maybe some of them are tuning in because they know
Speaker 1: they're reading the words of somebody or listening to somebody
Speaker 1: who's become a dumpster fire. I don't know, but it's
Speaker 1: a really weird sight. And this whole digital media landscape
Speaker 1: we're now all kind of involved in, it's become what
Speaker 1: this writer called a cesspool where personality and scandal outweigh
Speaker 1: anything resembling sanity and substance. Great point, and every time
Speaker 1: Canda Sellens has something to say, she gets more clicks,
Speaker 1: more likes. That puts more money in her pocket, and
Speaker 1: it puts you into the feeds of other equally unhipged
Speaker 1: viewers who do believe everything she's saying and selling. I
Speaker 1: don't know. I've always looked at her as sane, and
Speaker 1: I'd like her face. I think she's pretty to look at,
Speaker 1: and she's very smart, and she's quick on her feet,
Speaker 1: and man, she hit the town running. People like that
Speaker 1: you gotta take stand up and take notice of. But
Speaker 1: her sanity is off right now. It's almost like disintegrating.
Speaker 1: And the more people that tune in and hit like
Speaker 1: and subscribe, you're just adding to her delusion and her paranoia.
Speaker 1: I don't know what's gonna happen to her, but I
Speaker 1: think there needs to be a welfare check on Canvas.
Speaker 1: Can someone go check on her and her husband and
Speaker 1: the kids, it's really weird. Okay, water break, because I'm
Speaker 1: gonna talk to you about a movie I just saw
Speaker 1: that I liked a lot, and do me favorite. Anybody
Speaker 1: out there that wants to be smart ass and write
Speaker 1: me on the podcast page. Could you not sniff so
Speaker 1: much to clear through or make noises with your mouth?
Speaker 1: Go fuck yourself. Anybody who says that, fuck off. Go
Speaker 1: listen to Heathery McDonald. Go listen to anybody that's got
Speaker 1: to show with an editor that edits everything out. This
Speaker 1: show is called unfiltered, So if I fart in the
Speaker 1: fucking microphone, it's part of the show. If I do this,
Speaker 1: deal with it. It's fucking life. If you don't like it,
Speaker 1: fuck off. I'm sick of it. Don't complain to me.
Speaker 1: Get out of here. A fucking asshole told me that
Speaker 1: this morning on the page. You have no idea. I
Speaker 1: don't care what people think of me when they say
Speaker 1: something as stupid as that to me. I don't know
Speaker 1: his name. I call him out right now. He's not
Speaker 1: someone that usually UH posts, but the fuck out of here?
Speaker 1: Can you stop doing this and that? Anyhow? I saw
Speaker 1: an article today that said that pretty soon forty percent
Speaker 1: of jobs performed by human beings are going to be
Speaker 1: replaced by AI. And most of the jobs you kind
Speaker 1: of see would be replaced by robots, but there are
Speaker 1: some you wouldn't think that would happen to. But listen,
Speaker 1: it's going to be a scrum, and that scrum many
Speaker 1: people who never dream they lose their occupations. They're going
Speaker 1: to have to try and convince their bosses that they're better, healthier, quicker,
Speaker 1: and more reliable than programmed robots. And none of them
Speaker 1: are going to be able to do that. Not even
Speaker 1: one percent of them will provide a convincing argument that
Speaker 1: makes sense to the pencil pushes of the world. They've
Speaker 1: made their decisions. Robots don't get sick. You know, you're
Speaker 1: not going to pay them, you're not going to worry
Speaker 1: about them not coming to work on time. They get
Speaker 1: it done, and they're there every day, whether it's a
Speaker 1: machine or an actual robot, and they're reliable. I know
Speaker 1: it's impersonal, but if you're a pencil pusher with a
Speaker 1: big business, it makes sense. I know a lot of
Speaker 1: occupations that include, you know, empathy, sympathy, entertainment to a degree,
Speaker 1: medical advice, and there are many other important areas that
Speaker 1: should not ever be replaced, or maybe in ten years
Speaker 1: will find that they can be. I don't know. We
Speaker 1: used to always talk about a doctor's bedside manner. That
Speaker 1: meant a lot. I hope doctors are always going to
Speaker 1: be around our bed and not have some robot deliver
Speaker 1: some print out to a nurse who reads it to you.
Speaker 1: It's just crazy if that happens in ten years, five years,
Speaker 1: What does that do to the workforce in America? A
Speaker 1: workforce that's very uncertain of their future, Like our children,
Speaker 1: What do you want to do when you get out
Speaker 1: of college? I don't know what's going to be available.
Speaker 1: I don't know either. Along the same lines, today I
Speaker 1: watched a movie on Netflix called Train Dreams with Joel Edgerton,
Speaker 1: who I always like. And this movie centers around one
Speaker 1: man at the turn of the century trying to spend
Speaker 1: a life, or to spin a life actually for him
Speaker 1: and this nice pretty girl he meets, who's Felicity Jones,
Speaker 1: And then they have a baby. And this man gets
Speaker 1: work making bridges up in the Pacific Northwest Idaho Oregon area,
Speaker 1: bridges that traverse rivers and streams, and because of his
Speaker 1: hard work and all the other people working on that,
Speaker 1: on those developments. It made life a lot easier for
Speaker 1: people traveling in those areas in the Great West. But
Speaker 1: then ten years later, bigger men from a big company
Speaker 1: with more money came and replaced those wooden bridges with
Speaker 1: ones made of steel and concrete that could stand the
Speaker 1: test of time. And you see this man coming home,
Speaker 1: dead tired from months of work away from his home,
Speaker 1: and you can tell his face in the same kind
Speaker 1: of threats to his career and his family's well being
Speaker 1: as many of us right now are because of this
Speaker 1: scary reality. Even though it's a beautiful movie. It's a
Speaker 1: very sweet trauma about young love and big promise of
Speaker 1: you know, the big promise of parenthood and what hard
Speaker 1: work can bring you. Many moments where he's with his
Speaker 1: wife and their little daughter is born, and they're in
Speaker 1: bed speaking about what kind of girl she's going to be,
Speaker 1: what kind of women, what they want to do, and
Speaker 1: they put rocks around this patch of land and the
Speaker 1: rock symbol how they want their house to be built.
Speaker 1: And they build this house by fucking hand like pioneers
Speaker 1: did back then, and it's beautiful. From log cabin they
Speaker 1: built for themselves to house that baby, and it makes
Speaker 1: me remember what it was like when I had my
Speaker 1: children with my wife, and those nights where you just
Speaker 1: sit up in wonder and stare at that baby's face
Speaker 1: and the giggles and the crying and everything. It got
Speaker 1: to a point where I was a very hands on father.
Speaker 1: The minute I heard my babies cry, I was up.
Speaker 1: I never believed and let them cry till they fall asleep.
Speaker 1: I can't do that. I picked them up, immediately, made
Speaker 1: them a bottle, made sure it was warm on the
Speaker 1: inside of my wrist, took them to the couch, you know,
Speaker 1: sang to them, and fed them all swaddled up. Those
Speaker 1: are just such amazing times that you share with somebody
Speaker 1: now that marriages go bad and that's where you got left.
Speaker 1: There's those memories, but they're tremendous memories. But when you
Speaker 1: think about this plot, it's almost like a horror movie
Speaker 1: because how quickly the world is moving. There's no jump scares,
Speaker 1: there's no petrifying clowns or little kids with knives or
Speaker 1: you know, there were no walls where blood runs down them.
Speaker 1: There's no cycle that stabs the little kids. After he
Speaker 1: pulls them down a storm drain. You know, no red balloons.
Speaker 1: It ain't that kind of scary. But it's just a
Speaker 1: man who came to America to make this country great
Speaker 1: and to keep his family's head above water. And fifteen
Speaker 1: minutes in you can already see him drowning in doubt
Speaker 1: and worry and heavy concern. And I ask you, is
Speaker 1: this any different than the way many men and women
Speaker 1: are feeling today? And this movie is seeing men. You know,
Speaker 1: they're taking down big trees in Idaho, and they got
Speaker 1: handsaws and axes and hatchets, and you know, some men die.
Speaker 1: In fact, there were Asian men on the job who
Speaker 1: were you know, there was bad time back then in
Speaker 1: America and you know they have to be taken away
Speaker 1: or killed. And some of these guys were thrown off
Speaker 1: a cliff. And I'm not sure how truthful that is,
Speaker 1: but there's one guy in this movie, this one Asian
Speaker 1: man who gets thrown off a cliff, and that memory
Speaker 1: never leaves our lead character's brain. But yeah, Asians back
Speaker 1: then were very good with explosives. They were the men
Speaker 1: that went into caves and put dynamite in there so
Speaker 1: they can blow things up and keep it moving, keep
Speaker 1: the train tracks able to be built, et cetera. So
Speaker 1: the why Asians got that job. They were good with
Speaker 1: gunpowder from China. Same thing with Native Americans are very
Speaker 1: good at heights. They would paint bridges and a lot
Speaker 1: of high structures. For some reason, Native Americans are flying
Speaker 1: with heights. I don't know, it's a thing. Italians like
Speaker 1: working with marble. I don't know. Mexicans like working outside.
Speaker 1: What can I tell you? But they're taking down these
Speaker 1: big trees, right And when they sleep at night, you know,
Speaker 1: it's they're sitting there with these lanterns that are powered
Speaker 1: by oil, you know, and they're intents. They sleep in
Speaker 1: tents that were once used for the Civil War for
Speaker 1: soldiers to sleep in during the Civil War. In fact,
Speaker 1: those tents were used before that, during the span during
Speaker 1: the Indian conflicts. Something we never think about, right, And
Speaker 1: it's an old man in this movie played by William H.
Speaker 1: Macy And I'm telling you right now he will be
Speaker 1: nominated for an Academy Award for Best Supporting Actor and
Speaker 1: I think he'll win. It's not a long roller. It's
Speaker 1: probably in the movie sixteen minutes. But the words they
Speaker 1: gave him to say the dialogue, and the way he
Speaker 1: does it, it's fantastic. Old Salty Man has been out
Speaker 1: there a long time and he's in one of those tenths.
Speaker 1: He's singing, and the guys don't want him to sing.
Speaker 1: The Minnesota boys he calls, and they don't want to
Speaker 1: hear him singing. So he takes his harmonica out and
Speaker 1: plays the harmonica late at night as these boys are
Speaker 1: going to sleep, And it just made me think of
Speaker 1: how much better off were we when there were people
Speaker 1: who would lay down a night and listen to a
Speaker 1: harmonica and fall asleep, rather than have to check tick
Speaker 1: talk or Instagram or the little bullshit we have on
Speaker 1: our iPhones, Twitter, what have you. They just went to
Speaker 1: bed with the soft sounds of a harmonica, not crazy
Speaker 1: liberal fags and trans shouting how much to hate America
Speaker 1: and hate Trump and all the other noise and nonsense
Speaker 1: we have out there in the palm of our hands.
Speaker 1: Those phones they gave to us that we pay a
Speaker 1: lot of money for just slow us down. I know,
Speaker 1: we use them and they're very valuable in terms of work.
Speaker 1: You could do the same shit on your laptop, but
Speaker 1: you don't carry around with you all day. Either way,
Speaker 1: it's made our culture very lazy, and there's a lot
Speaker 1: of learning. When you watch this movie Train Dreams, it's
Speaker 1: just about a lot of hard nosed men and women
Speaker 1: who came here to put this country together and make
Speaker 1: it the best place in the world. And now you
Speaker 1: see the fruits of their labor and others who came
Speaker 1: after them, our grandparents, our parents, and then us. And
Speaker 1: you look at all the living and the nonsense in
Speaker 1: so many cities and states around the country, and you
Speaker 1: can feel your bones. It's just not going right. You
Speaker 1: feel a change. I got to bed back. I can
Speaker 1: feel it in my bones. When the wedd is about
Speaker 1: to change. My sister feels in her hands. You can
Speaker 1: feel it. America's changed. The first big change was COVID,
Speaker 1: where we learned that our lives are not protected and secured.
Speaker 1: After all, the government really doesn't know what to do
Speaker 1: when they have to take care of us, and it
Speaker 1: split second they don't know what to do. And then
Speaker 1: four years of Biden allowing millions of vicious, violent, uneducated
Speaker 1: masses to come into this country did nothing about it.
Speaker 1: A lot of these people don't contribute anything to our
Speaker 1: livelihood or our culture, or America's beauty or our generosity.
Speaker 1: They just take advantage of it. They take, they steal,
Speaker 1: They make life harder for many other Americans who work
Speaker 1: hard and as hard as life was back then then.
Speaker 1: I bet those guys could never imagine that years and
Speaker 1: years later, even though it was so hard and they
Speaker 1: worked their asses off by hand cutting down trees and
Speaker 1: living by gas lamps and not seeing their family, I
Speaker 1: bet they look back as they got older and realized
Speaker 1: that those times were maybe the best times of their lives, because,
Speaker 1: as they say in the movie, the world that we
Speaker 1: live in is very infinitely stitched together, and when you
Speaker 1: pull out one thread you can you just don't know,
Speaker 1: you might be fucking up the whole design of things. Man,
Speaker 1: it's that intricate. It's a part of the movie where
Speaker 1: a tree falls on a man, a tree branch, a
Speaker 1: big branch falls on a man and kills him, and
Speaker 1: they call those the widow makers. Because it happened a
Speaker 1: lot back then. Reminded me of me and Jack, my
Speaker 1: brother in law, were in Manhattan back when he was
Speaker 1: getting cancer treatments and my father was getting the same,
Speaker 1: and the three of us were going to Manhattan, and
Speaker 1: one day me and Jack were together in the car
Speaker 1: and about a block up ahead it was a big scaffolding.
Speaker 1: And the scaffolding everywhere in Manhattan, it's disgusting. There's scaffolding everywhere,
Speaker 1: but there's no scaffolding in Europe, and they're putting up
Speaker 1: the biggest buildings in the world in Dubai and no scaffolding,
Speaker 1: But in New York City scaffolds. But we saw a
Speaker 1: big piece of plywood start to fall out of the
Speaker 1: twenty stories, falling like a leaf. Guys, but this is
Speaker 1: a deadly piece of lumber and it hit a man
Speaker 1: and we really couldn't see it because he was like
Speaker 1: a block ahead, but we heard it and the shrieks
Speaker 1: of the people. That guy died, and you just go, God, damn,
Speaker 1: how easy is it to just die? And it doesn't matter.
Speaker 1: We're all gonna go on and do what we gotta do.
Speaker 1: The light turned green. I got an appointment. This guy's dead. Well,
Speaker 1: I gotta go someplace. It's very disheartening, you know, it's
Speaker 1: weird our brains. I'm gonna get deep here. I heard
Speaker 1: of Jay Morris podcast. He was talking to the football
Speaker 1: player Julian Edelman, who played for the Patriots, won a
Speaker 1: bunch of Super Bowls. Great guy, short but fast as
Speaker 1: the wind and tough as nails and played quarterback in college,
Speaker 1: but knew he couldn't be a quarterback in the Pro,
Speaker 1: so he developed a talent to repurent return punts and
Speaker 1: be a receiver, and him and Tom Brady lit up
Speaker 1: the scoreboard for years. He talked about one day a
Speaker 1: teammate got a concussion and I'm just I'm just saying
Speaker 1: this story to tell you how much, how little we
Speaker 1: know about the human brain. This guy got racked up
Speaker 1: and they go take him to the sidelines and they're
Speaker 1: talking to him. He finally comes to with smelling sauce.
Speaker 1: They're talking to him, where are you? And he said,
Speaker 1: he's at a football stadium with a dome. And he said,
Speaker 1: I'm going to get the name of the town wrong.
Speaker 1: I'm at the wood Haven Mall. And he said it
Speaker 1: very indignantly, I'm at the wood Haven Mall. Uh huh,
Speaker 1: you are, yeah, And he goes, where did they put
Speaker 1: a dome over the fucking mall? The guy was gone.
Speaker 1: His brain was on a whole different level. We just
Speaker 1: don't know enough about our brains. Man. It's like I know,
Speaker 1: we always say space is the next great frontier. Know
Speaker 1: our brains are even the ocean is you. We got
Speaker 1: to study brains more. I'm sure we do. I know
Speaker 1: we do, but I wish it were more because there's
Speaker 1: so much untapped information there. I don't know why I
Speaker 1: got this discussion, but I know what. I saw a
Speaker 1: video on Instagram where a an African parrot, some kind
Speaker 1: of talking bird, the ones that lived to like fifty
Speaker 1: sixty years old. This bird's very intelligent, could speak in
Speaker 1: different languages, knows how to read. Just one of those
Speaker 1: terrific birds. But he did something that they've never heard
Speaker 1: a bird. Do birds know about what's going on right now?
Speaker 1: That's my food, that's your ahead, that's the TV. I'm
Speaker 1: gonna walk here, I'm gonna do this. They don't know
Speaker 1: about yesterday and tomorrow. It's not what their brains can do.
Speaker 1: But this fucking parrot said to his owner, what are
Speaker 1: we doing tomorrow? I would have run out of the
Speaker 1: house shrieking. Birds should know about tomorrow or yesterday? Anyhow?
Speaker 1: Can we just work more on brains? I love like
Speaker 1: another video. There's a little Pomeranian who's deaf. A family
Speaker 1: owns this beautiful toy palm. She's old, she's deaf. She
Speaker 1: lays on the loneium floor. She don't do nothing. There's
Speaker 1: another Pomeranian who's young and act. It was like a
Speaker 1: tutsi gizmo thing. And every time there's something happening in
Speaker 1: the house or it's dinner time, the young Pomeranian goes
Speaker 1: over to the deaf one and taps her head with
Speaker 1: her paw to say, get up, there's something going on.
Speaker 1: I know you can't hear, said the fucking how does
Speaker 1: the dog know the other dog is deaf? I love
Speaker 1: this stuff miracles. Anyhow, getting back to the movie, there's
Speaker 1: a scene with this guy's in the middle of a
Speaker 1: field and it's a field where him and his wife
Speaker 1: built that house out of logs, you know, And he's
Speaker 1: sitting there on a rock and he's just contemplating how
Speaker 1: much he's lost in life. And again, it's no different
Speaker 1: than what happened in Malibu and Pasadena. His house burned down,
Speaker 1: and I'm going to spoil something for you, but he
Speaker 1: lost his family, and is that different than what just
Speaker 1: happened by the ocean on the PCH Pacific Coast Highway. No,
Speaker 1: people lose everything and they got to rebuild. And as
Speaker 1: hot as it is now, and it's near impossible now
Speaker 1: with allways rules and laws and sanctions in LA, how
Speaker 1: much tough it was back then. People were working for
Speaker 1: four dollars a day, being away from home for months
Speaker 1: on end. What a rough life. But they still were
Speaker 1: able to see opportunity and work for a living and
Speaker 1: get things done so that their lives would be memorable.
Speaker 1: It's so different now. And look at that guy sitting
Speaker 1: on the rock, not really showing much emotion on his face,
Speaker 1: and I know exactly what he feels like, even though
Speaker 1: I can't exactly recognize the emotion, but I know what
Speaker 1: he's feeling. And this is what women need to hear.
Speaker 1: And I just say this, women, you need to hear this.
Speaker 1: Even children need to hear this. Your men in your
Speaker 1: life carry much more than you could ever fathom in
Speaker 1: their hearts, in their chests. We carry shit that we
Speaker 1: can't unload, and we don't want to unload or unpack
Speaker 1: in front of people we love because we don't want
Speaker 1: them to get nervous. We're not just carrying responsibility or
Speaker 1: caring for a family, but we're also loving around all
Speaker 1: the hurt and the problems and the drama and the
Speaker 1: doubts and the mystery of our past and the mystery
Speaker 1: of the future. And that's the thing about men. We
Speaker 1: don't talk to each other. What's up, bro? Good? How
Speaker 1: you doing good? Bro good? Bro? We don't talk. You
Speaker 1: girls get together in front of the mirror while you
Speaker 1: put in makeup on. You both know what's going on
Speaker 1: in both your lives in the last twenty years. Men
Speaker 1: don't do that. How you doing bro? Good? Good? Alarm? Okay?
Speaker 1: You know that's all we say. No one ever says,
Speaker 1: can I talk to you a second? I'm having a
Speaker 1: real rough time. We just let our emotions bounce around
Speaker 1: our head like a pinball for years on it end,
Speaker 1: and we try to make peace with them on a
Speaker 1: daily basis. It's like we try to calm down an
Speaker 1: angry dog. It's always snarling. We just try to calm
Speaker 1: it down. That's how I see it, anyhow. But if
Speaker 1: women and children knew what their husbands or fathers are
Speaker 1: carrying around in their heads, they treat them with more care.
Speaker 1: Because we don't. We we don't want to walk around
Speaker 1: with problems. But we have to because we have to
Speaker 1: negotiate how to solve everybody else's problems while we juggle
Speaker 1: our own. That's a dad, that's a man. Anyhow, before
Speaker 1: I slip, there's another part in this movie where an
Speaker 1: Indian chief comes to visit this guy in the woods
Speaker 1: because it gets sense that he's troubled. And that's exactly
Speaker 1: what happened with my uncle Larry and that Indian chief
Speaker 1: who came out of the deep woods in New Jersey
Speaker 1: to help him. I wrote that in my first chapter
Speaker 1: of my second book, which I love that chapter so much,
Speaker 1: and no one talks about that chapter. I think people
Speaker 1: just breeze right past it. It's a beautiful chapter about
Speaker 1: how this Indian chief gave my uncle natural things from
Speaker 1: the forest to make him feel better, burdock rude and
Speaker 1: all these different roots and plants and leaves and berries
Speaker 1: that he knew having lived off the land. It's amazing
Speaker 1: he found my uncle because as he could sense, he
Speaker 1: was ill. Ah. God, things like that make me insane.
Speaker 1: So this guy in the movie has to find a
Speaker 1: spot next to a lake where he can fish for
Speaker 1: speckled trout. Maybe he gets some mushrooms he could eat.
Speaker 1: But that's his life now. And it's just a reminder
Speaker 1: of how many hurdles and obstacles we have to jump over,
Speaker 1: and walls we have to push down, walls we have
Speaker 1: to knock down. That's why these Marvel movies don't impress me,
Speaker 1: because we're all doing whatever we can do to survive,
Speaker 1: and we don't have bulging muscles or hidden powers. We're
Speaker 1: just fucking regular people with determination and grit and a
Speaker 1: sense of urgency and responsibility that just makes us move
Speaker 1: our s. So this guy rebuilds his home with the
Speaker 1: help of the Indian chief, but he couldn't bring himself
Speaker 1: to build a bedroom without his wife and daughter around
Speaker 1: years go by. Can't do it. He's still waiting, he's
Speaker 1: still thinks they're going to turn up in the woods somewhere.
Speaker 1: And it just reminded me that we all have something
Speaker 1: we're waiting for. We all got something we can't wait
Speaker 1: to find to happen, to open up, you know, just
Speaker 1: a bunch of emotions in our life, some relief in
Speaker 1: our life. Maybe we can finish this run on a
Speaker 1: high note. We're all working toward that end goal, right
Speaker 1: This movie is really something, you know. There's a part
Speaker 1: of the film where they the world has finally gotten
Speaker 1: to a point where these men can now use gas
Speaker 1: power chain saws to cut down these big, mighty trees.
Speaker 1: And there's a scene where the main character is trying
Speaker 1: to get that motor started and the younger guy comes
Speaker 1: up behind him and says, watch out, old man, I'll
Speaker 1: get this cracking for you. Of course it works, but
Speaker 1: when you see all these men using saws and access
Speaker 1: and hatches to cut down trees and branches, and then
Speaker 1: you go to a man who put takes a gas
Speaker 1: power chainsaw and does in three minutes what these guys
Speaker 1: did in one hour. It's just another example of how
Speaker 1: that's happening nowadays, with technology and with people and with AI.
Speaker 1: When we made wine in our backyard a longsle and
Speaker 1: it was from a grapevine my father planted years earlier
Speaker 1: in our backyard straight to Rosalie's backyard, and there was
Speaker 1: all fishing line set up and pieces of thin lumber
Speaker 1: that we would leave the vines to to keep it moving.
Speaker 1: And it took years. You just watched that vine grow
Speaker 1: year after year. Finally it's crawled across that lumber and
Speaker 1: the fishing lines got it, and then it goes up
Speaker 1: on the telephone lines and the cable wires, and now
Speaker 1: it's hitting Rosalie's deck. And now we're getting beautiful blue
Speaker 1: purple grapes. They're gonna make fantastic wine. And my father
Speaker 1: would have me pull down those grapes. It was kind
Speaker 1: of painstaking, and we dumped them in these big steel
Speaker 1: or metal barrels he had. And as we did this,
Speaker 1: my father would have I'm not lying, sixty seventy bees
Speaker 1: on his forearms, honey bees around his neck. They were
Speaker 1: just smelling the grapes, licking. They loved. The bees stayed
Speaker 1: in the grapevine, so that arbor was so scary to
Speaker 1: walk under all your herbs. But they did their thing.
Speaker 1: They were doing their work. But when they came to
Speaker 1: my father's arms, they didn't sting him once. It's amazing.
Speaker 1: The bees just let him do what he needed to do.
Speaker 1: I get. Did they understand that we're making our own
Speaker 1: wine and we'd have this operation working in long garage?
Speaker 1: There was at least I don't know, fifteen big five
Speaker 1: gallon glass bottles, all of them had wine in them
Speaker 1: being fermented from our grapes, and when the grape season ended,
Speaker 1: my father would use pumpkins that he planted. We planted
Speaker 1: pumpkin and pumpkin. He made a nice white pumpkin wine.
Speaker 1: People thought we were crazy. No, now you look at
Speaker 1: the stores they sell pumpkin wine. Back in nineteen seventy eight, No,
Speaker 1: there was no pumpkin wine on the shelves. My father
Speaker 1: knew how to do it, and that wine got you
Speaker 1: drunk real quick, oh, very strong. And I know there
Speaker 1: are machines that can compress these grapes and make wine
Speaker 1: at a much quicker rate and save these people who
Speaker 1: owned vineyards a lot of money. But that's not what
Speaker 1: we want to see, is it. We want to see
Speaker 1: wine and wonderful food being served to us by people
Speaker 1: who use their hands and work it with love, like
Speaker 1: Lucy Bull did with her feet on that episode of
Speaker 1: I Love Lucy. We want to see hard work. And
Speaker 1: I see a lot of instances in this movie Train
Speaker 1: dreams that what's happening in real time right now. It's
Speaker 1: getting scary and depressing because it's very different out there,
Speaker 1: and it begs the question. Sometimes you can't figure out
Speaker 1: if it's different or if it's always been this way.
Speaker 1: You start to think about how when you were younger
Speaker 1: and tougher and rougher, it was different. You could understand
Speaker 1: and figure out a lot of the bullshit that life
Speaker 1: threw in our way. And at one point in the movie,
Speaker 1: some old man that this character meets you met years ago,
Speaker 1: comes back in the forest and didn't recognize him at first,
Speaker 1: and he asked about a character. He asked about William H.
Speaker 1: Macy's character, have you seen so and so? And the
Speaker 1: main character knows that he's gone, but this guy's having
Speaker 1: some sort of delusion, so he says, no, I haven't
Speaker 1: seen him, because he knows the guy saw him the
Speaker 1: day that he died, but he forgot it or put
Speaker 1: it out of his mind because life was too tough
Speaker 1: back then. So she says, no, I don't know, I
Speaker 1: haven't seen him. It just makes you think about the
Speaker 1: people during those times, how they would probably have to
Speaker 1: forget about a lot of scary, sad things that happen
Speaker 1: in front of their eyes. It makes you think about
Speaker 1: those people, how much they're scrubbing in their rear view mirror.
Speaker 1: You know, in our cars there's that sign on the
Speaker 1: mirrors that say objects and mirror are closer than they appear. Well,
Speaker 1: that's true, but objects in people and memories in our
Speaker 1: rearview mirror are further away than they appear. Especially as
Speaker 1: you get older, they get very fleeting. My buddy tough
Speaker 1: Tony sent me a picture of about fifty friends of ours,
Speaker 1: former classmates at West is Of High School, all gather
Speaker 1: in his backyard this past week, and I didn't make it.
Speaker 1: I'm so mad I didn't make it. They make that
Speaker 1: pilgrimage to Tony's house every year. It's a great picture
Speaker 1: to see because I'm trying to remember all their faces
Speaker 1: and names right, And to my amazement, there were a
Speaker 1: ton of men I couldn't recognize. Yeah, their midsections were bigger,
Speaker 1: many of them had no hair, Some looked beaten down, weathered.
Speaker 1: They just really looked like a bunch of old men
Speaker 1: in someone's backyard. Not the kind of men you'd fuck with.
Speaker 1: But that's besides the point. But I just don't know
Speaker 1: and cannot remember when we all got this old. Oh boy. Finally,
Speaker 1: I want to end this with saying that one of
Speaker 1: my patrons, I think it's Deborah Cruk, sent me a
Speaker 1: letter she enjoyed my latest sub stack called Hollywood Knights.
Speaker 1: It's about a night that I had many years ago
Speaker 1: in the nineties where I was at a producer's house
Speaker 1: and he was pushing his wife off on me, and
Speaker 1: I wrote very honestly about what happened that night, and
Speaker 1: Debora wrote to me, I'm joining you. I'm joining because
Speaker 1: of you. I seriously do not have time or money
Speaker 1: for one more thing, let alone media. Deborah. I understand
Speaker 1: I'm the same as you, but I can't help myself.
Speaker 1: So I came and happily. I hear your voice in
Speaker 1: every letter, quirky and raw and sexy, with an edge
Speaker 1: that just might turn some women off, but I love it.
Speaker 1: I've heard this story before, I never tired of it,
Speaker 1: but this was definitely better, or maybe just hit speak
Speaker 1: differently and new because I've never read your written words before.
Speaker 1: I will need to buy your books and thank you
Speaker 1: for the entertainment and literary visuals. I love it. That's
Speaker 1: the message I want to bring to you, folks when
Speaker 1: I tell you go to aj Benz at dot subset
Speaker 1: dot com. It's about reading my words and not just
Speaker 1: listening to me. There's a difference. I'm equally talented in
Speaker 1: both arenas, and I dare to say the written word
Speaker 1: was where it all began. And I don't have a problem.
Speaker 1: But she wrote. I love what she wrote, but I
Speaker 1: don't want to hear that it might turn some women off.
Speaker 1: It's about a man talking about the possibility of sex
Speaker 1: with a married woman while her husband's upstairs in the house,
Speaker 1: who clearly knows this is going on. So if that
Speaker 1: turns women off, I don't want to know those women.
Speaker 1: I'm a very passionate man and I've had a very
Speaker 1: sexual life and I don't make any apologies for it,
Speaker 1: and you shouldn't either. Whoever reads those words, but by
Speaker 1: all means, gang go to aj Ben's at dot substack
Speaker 1: dot com and join. Read my words. You'll like me.
Speaker 1: It turns out I'm multifaceted. That's it. I love you
Speaker 1: as I'll talk to you tomorrow, one day before Thanksgiving.
Speaker 1: I think we're gonna take two days off. No show Thursday,
Speaker 1: knows Friday. What do you say? Maybe I'll do one
Speaker 1: because you know I can't stay away, but I don't know.
Speaker 1: I think it's time for two days. Either way, we'll
Speaker 1: talk tomorrow