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Speaker 2: thought I was gonna, but hey, what the hell, let's
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Speaker 2: bring you a bit of nostalgia, if you don't mind.
Speaker 2: But let's get to this other thing first. And I'm
Speaker 2: wondering if Bpete has taken notice of this because he
Speaker 2: always mentions the food banks and what's happening, because we
Speaker 2: could get into Doge and the cuts and all that,
Speaker 2: and that's, you know, part of the chaos that's ensuing.
Speaker 2: But nationwide funding cuts halts delivery of three hundred trucks,
Speaker 2: affecting local food bank supplies. This is according to a
Speaker 2: couple of Fox News outlets. But I've gone with Fox
Speaker 2: twenty six news. Where's it at of anyway, let's see
Speaker 2: blah blah blah blah blah. I'm trying to figure out
Speaker 2: where this place is actually from this Fox News but anyway,
Speaker 2: from a Fox News outlet and reported many other places.
Speaker 2: Here's the headline, Fresno, California. The Central California Food Bank
Speaker 2: says it is now waiting on thirteen truckloads of food
Speaker 2: that we're expected to be distributed to local food banks,
Speaker 2: a ripple effect from massive federal funding massive federal funding
Speaker 2: cuts to food assistance programs. The disruption comes after the
Speaker 2: Trump administration pulled one billion dollars in funding from the
Speaker 2: Commodity Credit Corporation, which oversees several national food bank assistance programs.
Speaker 2: According to the Food Bank officials the cuts were made
Speaker 2: without warning or explanation. Nationwide, roughly three hundred fully loaded
Speaker 2: trucks are now on hold, unable to deliver food to
Speaker 2: communities in need. Locally, the Central California Food Bank says
Speaker 2: it is preparing for even more cuts at the state level. Quote,
Speaker 2: we see an increased need due to inflation, said Kim Dilding,
Speaker 2: chief operating officer of the Central California Food Bank. The
Speaker 2: ever rising cost of groceries, medical care, and utilities are
Speaker 2: really pushing a lot of families into our lines and
Speaker 2: needing more services. So. Dildean says, one in four adults
Speaker 2: and one in three children in the Central Valley struggle
Speaker 2: with hunger. The food bank currently serves about three hundred
Speaker 2: thousand people, a number that's expected to rise in the
Speaker 2: coming months. The food Bank says the thirteen delayed trucks
Speaker 2: alone represent about five hundred thousand pounds of food valued
Speaker 2: at more than eight hundred thousand dollars, that was intended
Speaker 2: to feed local families from April through July. Central California
Speaker 2: Food Bank this is, in quotes, doesn't have the ability
Speaker 2: to raise those funds or bridge that gap in this
Speaker 2: quick time period.
Speaker 1: Tildean added.
Speaker 2: The cut stem from changes to the USDA's Commodity Credit Corporation,
Speaker 2: which not only supports food distribution to struggling families, but
Speaker 2: also provides an outlet for farmers to tell their produce
Speaker 2: to food banks. Pause from the article real quick. So
Speaker 2: the USDA, this is one of those cuts. This is
Speaker 2: in usaid. This is USDA anyway.
Speaker 1: Quote.
Speaker 2: Food banks are really struggling right now to try to
Speaker 2: figure out what to do and how to keep serving
Speaker 2: the communities that rely on them, said Becky Silva, a
Speaker 2: food security advocate. Further complicating the issue, Silva says state
Speaker 2: funding to the California Food Assistance Program is expected to
Speaker 2: plummet from sixty million to just eight million, a staggering
Speaker 2: ninety percent reduction. Okay, I'm gonna pull away from the
Speaker 2: article and tell you this. This valley area in California
Speaker 2: because of the dense population representatively, you can transfer this
Speaker 2: to the entire state of Georgia, where food banks which
Speaker 2: were able to give a weekly distribution of food to people,
Speaker 2: which consisted of effectively one box. And I've gone and
Speaker 2: collected one of thesexes myself, so I know consists of
Speaker 2: one box which usually contains either beans or rice in
Speaker 2: a dried bag, and a few cans, and a few
Speaker 2: other things which could be from local supermarkets, like nearly
Speaker 2: gone bad fruits, nearly gone bad breads, stuff like that.
Speaker 2: If you're lucky, a pox box of pasta comes with it,
Speaker 2: and something to represent.
Speaker 1: The the you know, the the.
Speaker 2: Dairy portion of the food pyramid, if you will, and
Speaker 2: perhaps some sort of packaged which is usually a can meat.
Speaker 2: And it doesn't even fill up this whole small square
Speaker 2: box which is about a cube actually of about two
Speaker 2: feet by two feet by two feet, and that cube
Speaker 2: is about half full. And they were doing that once
Speaker 2: a week if you signed up up, if you got
Speaker 2: there in time, and they did it for a couple
Speaker 2: of hours, like every Tuesday or Wednesday, I forget which,
Speaker 2: and that was that, and you had to be there
Speaker 2: at about seven in the morning to collect your food,
Speaker 2: and you had to be signed up in advance, although
Speaker 2: you could go there one week and sign up in
Speaker 2: the next week, you'd receive it. And that is what
Speaker 2: they would give you. If you had a family of
Speaker 2: three or four. If you had a family of I
Speaker 2: think it's starting at six, you get two boxes, and that's.
Speaker 1: All I know about it.
Speaker 2: Now. I didn't have a family of six, and I'm
Speaker 2: only got the three here at Ocelli house. But that's
Speaker 2: what we got about six items in the box. Now,
Speaker 2: I'm not complaining. I'm just telling you the reality of it.
Speaker 2: It's not as though we were filling a pantry or
Speaker 2: a refrigerator or even a full dinner table. Really with
Speaker 2: the products that came from food bank. Occasionally you could create,
Speaker 2: you know, a day's worth of meals out of it
Speaker 2: if you were lucky, but generally speaking, not so much.
Speaker 2: Oh and there might be a jar of peanut butter,
Speaker 2: which was usually acquired in one of these large cases
Speaker 2: that might have come through a program like what they're
Speaker 2: talking about in California. But that's the type of food
Speaker 2: assistance that people are getting. In case you're thinking that
Speaker 2: people are living lavishly for free, and hell, you can
Speaker 2: always go to a food bank and get something to eat.
Speaker 2: I'm telling you exactly what shows up in a Georgia
Speaker 2: food bank box.
Speaker 1: And I'm telling you.
Speaker 2: That you had to have a government ID to get it,
Speaker 2: and I don't think you could even be in illegal
Speaker 2: and get it here at the food bank that I
Speaker 2: know of. But I'm told that some food banks you
Speaker 2: could get around that possibly and as long as you
Speaker 2: proved that you lived in the town somehow and you
Speaker 2: were cool. But there's usually hurdles, and that's what you
Speaker 2: get for your hurdles. Now in California, my understanding is
Speaker 2: that they get they were getting much better amounts. They
Speaker 2: might have to cut back to Georgia levels of food
Speaker 2: bank assistance.
Speaker 1: I'm not making jokes here, by the way.
Speaker 2: I'm very seriously telling you about the realities of what
Speaker 2: it is they have with minimal support coming from the FEDS,
Speaker 2: and with minimal support coming from a community.
Speaker 1: See if a community in.
Speaker 2: General is already challenged food wise, etc. Well, they're food
Speaker 2: banks which collect from that same community. Usually don't reflect
Speaker 2: an abundance you know that's gonna address the need in
Speaker 2: that community. And cutting back on any of it not
Speaker 2: necessarily the best thing to do. When we're looking at
Speaker 2: at again, eggs and chicken being smuggled across the Canadian
Speaker 2: border just to try and bring the price down, I mean,
Speaker 2: that's an effort even being taken on to try and
Speaker 2: smuggle in some products so that you can feed people
Speaker 2: at a more reasonable price. So with the added expense
Speaker 2: of smuggling and everything, it's still cost effective to get
Speaker 2: Canadian eggs and chicken because of what's happening here. And meanwhile,
Speaker 2: I know that inflation is worldwide. I'm just trying to
Speaker 2: make a point in case you are so comfortable that
Speaker 2: you have no idea what I'm talking about, then I'm
Speaker 2: happy for you, and I'm glad you're blessed, but a
Speaker 2: lot of us are not. And I can't even get
Speaker 2: to the food bank really because hey, I don't have
Speaker 2: a lot of friends with transportation, and we don't currently
Speaker 2: own a car. We've been without a car for probably
Speaker 2: coming around to two years, and it's limited us for
Speaker 2: being able to go out and make a living or
Speaker 2: be able to go out and afford to buy a car. Anyway,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna give you guys a little trigger warning here
Speaker 2: because it's gonna get weird. And before I explain or
Speaker 2: read from the article that I'm gonna probably finish off
Speaker 2: this very unique O'Kelly effect news program tonight, I go
Speaker 2: to looking in words, looking and words, so looking n
Speaker 2: words and that is the title of the sub stack
Speaker 2: that I'm gonna read for from uh, and the guy's
Speaker 2: name is Ron ken Yetta. Ron is spelled like John
Speaker 2: but with an R instead of a J, so r
Speaker 2: O h N and then can ken YadA. I'm probably
Speaker 2: mispronouncing his name because I've only ever.
Speaker 1: Read it k E n y A T t A.
Speaker 1: And who knows.
Speaker 2: I might have some other clips to play too before
Speaker 2: I'm all completely finished here, But I wanted to play
Speaker 2: this portion of a song which a lot of you,
Speaker 2: especially if you're over the age.
Speaker 1: Of forty, definitely know, although you may have.
Speaker 2: Forgotten, they had lyrics and everything else, because the instrumental
Speaker 2: version of this was used for one of the most
Speaker 2: popular TV shows to ever air on broadcast television.
Speaker 1: And it'll become relevant shortly. Time willys our skins. It
Speaker 1: doesn't hurt it.
Speaker 2: Begin, but as it works it's way on to the
Speaker 2: pain grows stronger.
Speaker 1: Watch it now.
Speaker 2: You might not recognize the tune just yet, and lyrics
Speaker 2: like the sort of time will pierce our skins. It
Speaker 2: doesn't hurt when it begins, but as it works its
Speaker 2: way on ind the pain grows stronger.
Speaker 1: Watch it grin.
Speaker 2: Sounds probably, I don't know what would they call that nowadays?
Speaker 2: A bit emo like some teenage poetry from somebody that
Speaker 2: you thought was deep when you were fifteen, But it
Speaker 2: does have a significant meaning and came up in an
Speaker 2: ex post which I put out, and uh, most people
Speaker 2: that are usually happy to mock me or even celebrate
Speaker 2: me or whatever, didn't even want to touch this ex
Speaker 2: post when I talked about something after I encountered an
Speaker 2: article which I will mention in just a moment. But
Speaker 2: let's listen to a little more of this tune that
Speaker 2: you may or may not be familiar with again over
Speaker 2: the age of forty. You might be embarrassed that you
Speaker 2: didn't recognize it and couldn't name that tune right away
Speaker 2: if you missed it, But some of you I know
Speaker 2: have it already. Let's listen a little more before I
Speaker 2: get into the rest of the score. Suicide is thangless.
Speaker 2: It brings on many changes.
Speaker 1: And I can take.
Speaker 2: Okay, suicide is painless. It brings on many changes, and
Speaker 2: I can take or leave it if I please. Again,
Speaker 2: sounds kind of grim, sounds kind of down. And if
Speaker 2: I'm triggering you, my apologies, Maybe turn this off and
Speaker 2: go do something to make you feel good. In the meantime,
Speaker 2: the article that I referenced and put up on X
Speaker 2: and then put a personal note to had to do
Speaker 2: with this headline Vets Families of vets who die by
Speaker 2: suicide battle the VA for death Benefits. This is a
Speaker 2: constantly ongoing story, and a version of this hit CNN
Speaker 2: dot com. But people started talking about it online and
Speaker 2: I found the discussions of it holly ridiculous, but wanted
Speaker 2: to add my two cents and make a comment about it.
Speaker 2: And meanwhile, suicide is Painless is actually the name of
Speaker 2: this song that I'm playing clips from. It was written
Speaker 2: by Johnny man Dell and a little more of it,
Speaker 2: and then I'll give you the punchline, so to speak
Speaker 2: to why it is I'm playing it and what you
Speaker 2: should know it from. Street quested me to answer question.
Speaker 1: Is it to be or not to be? And I replied,
Speaker 1: oh me, okay.
Speaker 2: Brave Man once requested me to answer questions that are
Speaker 2: key is it to.
Speaker 1: Be or not to be? And I replied, oh why
Speaker 1: ask me change? Please? You can the same thing, please?
Speaker 2: Okay. So I fade that down just because it's appropriate
Speaker 2: to do so, and I gotta tell you the last
Speaker 2: line there, of course, once again repeating the refrained.
Speaker 1: Suicide is painless.
Speaker 2: It brings on many changes, and I can take it
Speaker 2: or leave it if I please, and you can do
Speaker 2: the same thing if you please.
Speaker 1: And that's the end of the.
Speaker 2: Song, and probably why they didn't want to include much
Speaker 2: of the lyrics in the comedic show Mash because that's
Speaker 2: what the theme song was, Suicide is Painless. And if
Speaker 2: you actually saw the movie, as opposed to the TV show,
Speaker 2: you might have heard the entire song. But anyway, it's
Speaker 2: not the Forbes story or the CNN story worry about
Speaker 2: vets struggling, having to fight over and over and their
Speaker 2: survivors continuously having to argue with the Veterans administration over
Speaker 2: benefits and all that that brings this.
Speaker 1: Up, not at all.
Speaker 2: In fact, it's just a reminder and based on that
Speaker 2: X post that I bring it all to your attention
Speaker 2: once again. So back to the substack, looking n words again,
Speaker 2: Ron Kennetta. Okay, And it begins with a picture of
Speaker 2: Heath Ledgers Joker, which I appreciate and I enjoyed that
Speaker 2: portrayal of the Joker. I think it's one of the best.
Speaker 2: All that kind of good stuff. Anybody who was kind.
Speaker 1: Of plugged in the pop culture.
Speaker 2: In the nineties, or is even old enough to have
Speaker 2: been plugged into the pop culture of the nineties, has
Speaker 2: pretty much, you know, gone into the Heath Ledger thing,
Speaker 2: and it's all part of legend, reality and pop culture anyway.
Speaker 2: The Joker, what happened question mark? Did your balls fall off?
Speaker 2: Question Mark? In one of my favorite movies, The Dark Knight,
Speaker 2: and in one of the greatest and most tragic performances
Speaker 2: by an actor in cinematic history, Heith Ledger plays the
Speaker 2: character of the Joker. During a scene where the Joker
Speaker 2: is taunting a group of criminals, mocking their fear and weakness,
Speaker 2: he famously says, what happened did your balls fall off?
Speaker 2: The Joker is a psychopathic, chaotic figure, and this statement
Speaker 2: is a typical example of his cruel and unpredictable nature.
Speaker 2: The Joker is trying to provoke a reaction from the criminals,
Speaker 2: showing them that he is not afraid to go to
Speaker 2: extreme lengths Now, I pause from ken Yetta's article here.
Speaker 1: To say, he's kind of got it half right.
Speaker 2: You know, he's taunting a group of criminals, mocking the
Speaker 2: fear of their weakness. Blah blah, typical example of his
Speaker 2: cruel and unpredictable nature. Actually, cruel may be correct, but unpredictable,
Speaker 2: not at all. It is predictable once you let go
Speaker 2: of common convention and you understand that not everybody is
Speaker 2: playing by the same rules as you. He walks into
Speaker 2: a you know, a meeting, a get together, a various
Speaker 2: criminal heads of Gotham, all sitting around a table in
Speaker 2: the kitchen of a restaurant. I think trying to come
Speaker 2: up with what the hell is going on? We're getting
Speaker 2: robbed of the money that we robbed from everybody else
Speaker 2: and putting our banks.
Speaker 1: Somebody's robbing our banks.
Speaker 2: Which I find to be an interesting part of that storyline,
Speaker 2: which is often ignored. The Joker has been robbing them,
Speaker 2: and he walks in to say, let's cut a deal.
Speaker 2: And when they say, hey, what's gonna stop us from just,
Speaker 2: you know, sending a couple of my boys to pull
Speaker 2: your head off your shoulders. First of all, the Joker
Speaker 2: dispatches with a guy of one of these tough guys
Speaker 2: being sent over to kill him with a pencil, drives
Speaker 2: that straight into his skull, end of him. And then
Speaker 2: when they really get ready to threaten him, and they're
Speaker 2: about ready to say, we'll screw it, We'll just send
Speaker 2: all of our tough guys on you. He pulls out
Speaker 2: a little string comically tied to guess what, a nice
Speaker 2: grenade under his coat, where it's like, hey, anybody touches me,
Speaker 2: I might mind up pulling this key out of this grenade.
Speaker 1: And this kitchen is not.
Speaker 2: Gonna pass its next health inspection. Now he doesn't say that,
Speaker 2: but that's where I'm at with it.
Speaker 1: Anyway.
Speaker 2: Let's go back to Kenyetta's article and remember that scene
Speaker 2: in the dark Knight, because it is a dark knight
Speaker 2: for all of us at this point, and to me,
Speaker 2: this is the metaphoric punchline of the day.
Speaker 1: And should I play any more audio? Nah, I think
Speaker 1: we're good on that.
Speaker 2: You guys have gotten enough, although weenie dogs might make
Speaker 2: me have to do it if they're gonna keep making noise.
Speaker 1: We'll see anyway.
Speaker 2: The suffix side comes from the Latin word sieda, meaning killer,
Speaker 2: and sidim meaning the act of killing. The root itself
Speaker 2: is derived from the Latin verb okay sodair okay which
Speaker 2: I don't even recall that word, but anyway, which means
Speaker 2: to cut, kill.
Speaker 1: Or strike down.
Speaker 2: Over time, the suffix has been combined with various prefixes
Speaker 2: to form words that specify the target of the act.
Speaker 2: For example, infanticide is the act of killing babies. Matricide
Speaker 2: is the act of killing a mother, because obviously infantsa
Speaker 2: is the babies and matri is the prefix for motherly
Speaker 2: and while patricide, it says in here is the act
Speaker 2: of killing a father, patri being the suffix for father Soroicide,
Speaker 2: rarely used word, is the act of killing a sister,
Speaker 2: as fratricide is the act of killing wait for it,
Speaker 2: a brother brother. Cain will be a is the subtitle
Speaker 2: the next part of this article. Demo side refers to
Speaker 2: the murder of a government, encompassing genocide, politicide, and mass murder,
Speaker 2: and includes any killing of a government or its agents,
Speaker 2: whether international or through reckless indifference. Donald Smitty Trump has
Speaker 2: tapped into Daniel Caine to be Chairman of the Joint
Speaker 2: Chiefs of Staff following the dismissal of General Charles Q.
Speaker 2: Brown Junior, only the second black man in the United
Speaker 2: States to serve in that capacity. Cain is also known
Speaker 2: as what is called a venture capitalist. This means, like
Speaker 2: many in Smitty's cabinet, he will conduct himself in a
Speaker 2: manner of that enriches him point blank. Think about it,
Speaker 2: and then the next subtitle is I Smell a muskrat.
Speaker 2: In the next thirty six months, the US will experience
Speaker 2: things its population cannot imagine. It will see soldiers in
Speaker 2: the streets, and it will see the death of many
Speaker 2: of its citizens. For democrats to publicly fight among themselves
Speaker 2: and show discord is given the nature the nation's trajectory.
Speaker 2: Excuse me, political suicide. Suicide is defined as death caused
Speaker 2: by self directed injurious behavior with intent to die as
Speaker 2: a result of the behavior. Suicide is not painless janets
Speaker 2: parallel parable. Excuse me, suicide is not painless janets parable.
Speaker 2: The year my baby girl graduated from high school, some
Speaker 2: half dozen years ago, I received a phone call that
Speaker 2: will forever be emblazoned upon my mind and soul. The
Speaker 2: woman on the phone informed me that I was the
Speaker 2: beneficiary of five thousand dollars due to the death of
Speaker 2: a policyholder. Since I have few relatives other than my children,
Speaker 2: I was perplexed, while simultaneously ecstatic at such a windfall.
Speaker 2: Being a single parent, while homecoming dances, prom grad night,
Speaker 2: debate tournaments, yearbooks, and a lot of other expenses and
Speaker 2: stuff was transpiring. Confused as to how this occurred, I
Speaker 2: asked the woman who is the deceased. She told me
Speaker 2: it was my dear friend, Janet. I met Janet about
Speaker 2: a decade before her death, resultant from a local government
Speaker 2: quote mixer that required my compulsorily compulsory attendance given my
Speaker 2: business model.
Speaker 1: At the time.
Speaker 2: Janet was a high official in a famous southern California
Speaker 2: city and we were kindred spirits almost immediately. During that time,
Speaker 2: my baby girl was in second grade, and I divulged
Speaker 2: my challenges as a black man in the United States
Speaker 2: raising a female child alone. I was looking for a quote,
Speaker 2: nanny and quote, and Janet said I'd be honored to
Speaker 2: help if I can. And later Janet met my little
Speaker 2: girl and it was as though I was watching two
Speaker 2: children together. The bond they formed was real, it was organic.
Speaker 2: I felt I had been blessed, so to speak, especially
Speaker 2: considering Janet's off the scale intelligence. She was a bisexual,
Speaker 2: white female that possessed two master's degrees and a doctorate.
Speaker 2: The aforementioned city for which she was an official is
Speaker 2: nationally known for progressive policies, and she exuded what the
Speaker 2: city stood for in parentheses, not that I necessarily agree
Speaker 2: with its policies in entirety. Gradually, Janet became a unique
Speaker 2: and trusted part of my tiny family. We began a
Speaker 2: relationship that was not physical in any way. It was
Speaker 2: closer than that oxymoron. Notwithstanding, Janet was not my cup
Speaker 2: of tea from a physical standpoint. In fact, I found
Speaker 2: her incredibly unattractive in that limited sense. But her mind
Speaker 2: was a the most glorious beauty. We would sit up
Speaker 2: all night discussing politics and policy. Anyone that knows me
Speaker 2: knows that is the way to my heart is through
Speaker 2: my mind. If you can't critically think, you ain't got
Speaker 2: nothing coming zero. As I got to know Janet, I
Speaker 2: learned of terrible things that happened to her as a child.
Speaker 1: As I am well aware.
Speaker 2: That broken children make broken adults, Janet was repeatedly raped
Speaker 2: as a child by her older brother, his name was Quinn.
Speaker 2: This was exacerbated by the fact that her parents, particularly
Speaker 2: her mother, not only failed to protect her, they ridiculed her.
Speaker 2: The psychological damage to Janet was so severe that she
Speaker 2: elected to have ECT only known as well, also known
Speaker 2: as shock treatment. The drugs psychotropic and otherwise became ineffective,
Speaker 2: and she was desperate. Now it is important to note
Speaker 2: that Janet had a doctorate.
Speaker 1: In psycho.
Speaker 2: When she informed me of this decision, I was quite concerned,
Speaker 2: though I did not know how damaging such treatment can be.
Speaker 2: I'd find out late to goddamn late. My daughter and
Speaker 2: I had relocated about one hundred miles away when Janet
Speaker 2: started her ECT. My baby was in elementary school, and
Speaker 2: my plate was always beyond full of responsibility. After the treatments,
Speaker 2: Janet would often call me nauseous and disoriented, but she
Speaker 2: never asked for me to come get her. One day,
Speaker 2: she said it was right at the end of the
Speaker 2: school day, and I told Janet, Janet, I am one
Speaker 2: hundred miles away and school just let out. Given traffic,
Speaker 2: there is no way I can get there. She pleaded
Speaker 2: with me, and I denied her. She never called back.
Speaker 2: It would be eight years later when I got the
Speaker 2: call from the insurance investigator. The investigator went on to
Speaker 2: tell me Janet had died from suicide, an intentional overdose
Speaker 2: of the very drugs that she had wished to avoid.
Speaker 2: I had never had experience with suicide, and it shocked
Speaker 2: me to my very core. I remember telling my daughter
Speaker 2: and we both held each other and cried for a.
Speaker 1: Long long time.
Speaker 2: But we were crying for different reasons. My baby was
Speaker 2: crying because she loved Janet, and Janet was a trusted friend. Because,
Speaker 2: you see, my baby too new abuse at the hands
Speaker 2: of those who trusted to protect her, including government officials.
Speaker 2: I was crying because I should have gone to get
Speaker 2: Janet when she called me and needed me. I will
Speaker 2: spend the rest of my natural life regretting my selfishness
Speaker 2: and wondering had I done that simple thing, would you
Speaker 2: still be here today. Guilt is the baddest of mfs,
Speaker 2: and suicide is very, very painful. I will leave the
Speaker 2: rest of this article for you guys to read and
Speaker 2: understand something. As I look at the flippant way that
Speaker 2: people are responding to this idea that oh, shut up
Speaker 2: winding veterans family that committed suicide.
Speaker 1: He was weak. You took the easy way out all
Speaker 1: those things.
Speaker 2: That's fine and dandy for you to be able to
Speaker 2: do that from behind a keyboard, but when you got
Speaker 2: to live with it, or you got to live with
Speaker 2: the idea that you somehow didn't follow through on something
Speaker 2: or couldn't save somebody who destroyed themselves, either with an
Speaker 2: absolutely overt suicide or with something they've done to themselves
Speaker 2: that led to their death, that led to their demise,
Speaker 2: and you had an inkling of humanity left to you,
Speaker 2: and people weren't just targets of ridicule for you when
Speaker 2: you felt the need to lash out, and you know,
Speaker 2: event on somebody else when you get to that point,
Speaker 2: or you ever experience that, I hope none of you
Speaker 2: ever do, but if you do, whether you're like me
Speaker 2: at certain points in my life where indeed a suicide
Speaker 2: that occurred I was a four year old and couldn't
Speaker 2: have had any effect and was simply told to just
Speaker 2: go be a man to get by it afterwards that way,
Speaker 2: or if you watch somebody else destroy themselves from a
Speaker 2: distance because you didn't run to be close enough of
Speaker 2: a friend when they needed you, or if you've known
Speaker 2: somebody who actively and completely with sound mind made a
Speaker 2: decision to take their life because the pain was too much.
Speaker 2: Until you've tasted all those flavors at the baskin robins.
Speaker 1: Of destruction, you.
Speaker 2: Really don't have a right to piss on other people
Speaker 2: who you don't understand and claiming veterans benefits for your family,
Speaker 2: because you've lost somebody who was obviously, in some way
Speaker 2: or other, not necessarily directed directly, but in some way
Speaker 2: or another, their experience in giving up on certain parts
Speaker 2: of their humanity had to be done so that they
Speaker 2: could participate in the defense of this country. On your
Speaker 2: behalf and all that, keep your yellow ribbons and stick
Speaker 2: them wherever you want to, and tell me about how
Speaker 2: you honor and respect and thank the troops all you want,
Speaker 2: but remember there's a lot of prices to be paid.
Speaker 2: And some people leave their blood, their limbs and whatnot
Speaker 2: on battlefields, and sometimes their whole bodies. Other people leave
Speaker 2: parts of their soul. And I say, if you really
Speaker 2: want to have respect for those individuals, and you really
Speaker 2: want to show them some decency, you can do a
Speaker 2: hell of a lot better than you're doing. And definitely
Speaker 2: don't be one of these scumbags online who is flippantly
Speaker 2: telling somebody who was a survivor of the situation how
Speaker 2: they took the easy way out and how they shouldn't
Speaker 2: be whining to the Veterans Administration for something they are
Speaker 2: damned well entitled to. And by the way, I didn't
Speaker 2: receive anything from the Veterans Administration because they decided that
Speaker 2: my father's records didn't exist for a very long time.
Speaker 1: So I never had any of that stuff.
Speaker 2: And I'm not even saying it as somebody who collected,
Speaker 2: but I am saying it as somebody who has maybe
Speaker 2: not sampled every one of those destructive dynamics among people
Speaker 2: that I've loved or cared about in my life, but
Speaker 2: enough of them to say, I know what ice cream is.
Speaker 2: And I may not be the smartest, most experienced or
Speaker 2: anything man in the world world, but I know this much.
Speaker 2: You ought to keep the names out of your mouth
Speaker 2: to the people that you don't understand and don't know
Speaker 2: who are making a point about the rest of the
Speaker 2: cost for people that pay it while you sit in
Speaker 2: comment about it and think it's okay to leave it
Speaker 2: in the hands of a Fox TV show host to
Speaker 2: make decisions, because I could have talked about, you know
Speaker 2: how there was a reporter left in a chat in
Speaker 2: an unsecured line about you know, possible plans for bombing
Speaker 2: Yemen and all that, but you can go ahead and
Speaker 2: check it out. Just think about whose hands you're putting
Speaker 2: all those lives in. The true believers who sign up, Hey,
Speaker 2: sometimes they're actually foreign people that are trying to earn
Speaker 2: their citizenship, and sometimes there are people that were born here,
Speaker 2: but for some reason that I can't quite fathom, still
Speaker 2: one hundred percent believe in the American dream and believe
Speaker 2: that their service will contribute to preserving it. I don't agree,
Speaker 2: and I think they're often misused, misplaced, and absolutely abused
Speaker 2: by a system that uses them to benefit people that
Speaker 2: they wouldn't even.
Speaker 1: Spit on if they were on fire.
Speaker 2: But nonetheless, as an outsider, why don't you take the
Speaker 2: time to think about it before you start commenting on
Speaker 2: exactly what somebody should and should not have in their
Speaker 2: own personal circumstance and those who have to survive it
Speaker 2: after they collapse under the weight of their own personal
Speaker 2: experience when they've worn a uniform. So all that aside,
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Speaker 2: But the day that suicide is less painless than living here.
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