WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.200 --> 00:00:06.440 Ni. Welcome to Dear NICKI. My name is Nikki. And 2 00:00:06.599 --> 00:00:11.080 on today's show, Chris, a married man, confesses his secret 3 00:00:11.080 --> 00:00:15.560 love to wearing women's lingerie. He describes the thrill and 4 00:00:15.720 --> 00:00:19.079 liberation as he feels when he slips into his wife's 5 00:00:19.160 --> 00:00:24.120 intimate garments. Heather, a college swimmer, recounts an unexpected encounter 6 00:00:24.280 --> 00:00:26.960 with a rival swimmer. After a night of drinking, she 7 00:00:27.039 --> 00:00:30.120 finds herself drawn to the allure of a fellow swimmer, 8 00:00:30.920 --> 00:00:33.960 and Josh, in a rough patch with his wife, places 9 00:00:33.960 --> 00:00:37.359 an ad on Craigslist with a friends with benefits. He 10 00:00:37.479 --> 00:00:40.240 meets Rachel, a sexy blonde, at a coffee shop, and 11 00:00:40.280 --> 00:00:46.359 their connection quickly escalates. 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Connect with us 51 00:03:33.080 --> 00:03:36.560 on social media Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook and stay up 52 00:03:36.599 --> 00:03:39.800 to date and be part of our vibrant community. Also 53 00:03:39.879 --> 00:03:43.199 check out our partnership pages for exclusive discounts and learn 54 00:03:43.199 --> 00:03:47.400 about the amazing businesses I work with. Last week on 55 00:03:48.080 --> 00:03:51.800 our Friday subscriber show, I started a new thing and 56 00:03:52.000 --> 00:03:58.280 the story was so good I wanted to just repeat 57 00:03:58.280 --> 00:04:04.520 it here. So just enjoy and you'll understand. Dear Nikki. 58 00:04:04.759 --> 00:04:07.960 So this happened about two years ago. Now it's taken 59 00:04:08.039 --> 00:04:10.280 some time for me to be okay about telling the 60 00:04:10.319 --> 00:04:13.199 story as I am now. For a long time, I 61 00:04:13.280 --> 00:04:17.480 kept it entirely to myself in my incognito browser, as 62 00:04:17.519 --> 00:04:20.480 I googled for reassurance that I was not the only one. 63 00:04:21.240 --> 00:04:24.279 But look, it's been a while, I've grown up a bit, 64 00:04:24.680 --> 00:04:27.519 and I realized I can't keep a story like this 65 00:04:27.680 --> 00:04:32.600 to myself forever. It honestly just wins too many conversation 66 00:04:32.800 --> 00:04:37.839 competitions such as funniest, worst, weirdest sex story, and it 67 00:04:37.879 --> 00:04:41.160 would be a shame to give up those victories. Anyway. 68 00:04:42.079 --> 00:04:46.240 First things first, I'm a heterosexual woman, and I use 69 00:04:46.399 --> 00:04:48.720 tender to avoid having to hook up with the local 70 00:04:48.759 --> 00:04:53.240 guys when all I want is casual relationship. It's a 71 00:04:53.279 --> 00:04:56.319 small town, and if you've ever lived in one of those, 72 00:04:56.360 --> 00:05:00.240 you'll understand instantly what I mean. So I get this 73 00:05:00.279 --> 00:05:02.959 guy to drive here, a three hour trip for him. 74 00:05:03.560 --> 00:05:05.839 We meet in public to make sure he's not a 75 00:05:06.000 --> 00:05:08.879 serial killer or whatever, and to see if we get 76 00:05:08.879 --> 00:05:12.480 on as a person. I don't feel super attracted to him, 77 00:05:12.839 --> 00:05:17.079 like we're not clicking, but it's whatever. He has a 78 00:05:17.079 --> 00:05:21.279 penis as in my age bracket, and isn't super gross hindn't. 79 00:05:21.319 --> 00:05:23.800 He's driven three hours to see me, and I'm super 80 00:05:24.000 --> 00:05:28.399 horny desperate, so I bring him home. We get to 81 00:05:28.439 --> 00:05:30.800 my place and things get hot and heavy rather quickly. 82 00:05:31.160 --> 00:05:34.439 We go straight to the bedroom. He's a little rougher 83 00:05:34.439 --> 00:05:37.040 than I usually go for. I like to joke that 84 00:05:37.120 --> 00:05:40.519 my kink is pretending that you actually love me. But again, 85 00:05:41.000 --> 00:05:43.800 it's fine. I'm horny and I'm taking what I can 86 00:05:43.839 --> 00:05:47.160 get at the stage right now, Bear in mind that 87 00:05:47.319 --> 00:05:50.120 I've been nervous all day. I hadn't eaten breakfast, and 88 00:05:50.279 --> 00:05:53.319 just a couple cups of coffee the night before, though 89 00:05:53.560 --> 00:05:57.639 I'd eaten Indian food, Just putting that out there. Back 90 00:05:57.639 --> 00:06:01.600 to the sex. He was rougher and than I'd been expecting. 91 00:06:02.399 --> 00:06:05.839 It had been months since I'd gotten laid. We started 92 00:06:05.839 --> 00:06:08.639 off doggy style, but within a few minutes I decided 93 00:06:08.680 --> 00:06:11.920 I wanted to be a bit more in control, and 94 00:06:12.000 --> 00:06:15.560 I initiate a position switch. Now I'm on top, and 95 00:06:15.600 --> 00:06:18.480 it's a lot better for me. It's less about how 96 00:06:18.519 --> 00:06:21.120 he likes it and more about how I want it. 97 00:06:21.920 --> 00:06:24.120 I get down low, my head close to his shoulder, 98 00:06:24.160 --> 00:06:28.480 and I'm just doing my thing when suddenly he grabs 99 00:06:28.480 --> 00:06:32.000 me by the hips and starts doing this whole other thing, 100 00:06:32.800 --> 00:06:38.120 his thing aggressively, and maybe because I'd already been so close, 101 00:06:38.920 --> 00:06:41.560 it was just all way too much for me, and 102 00:06:41.759 --> 00:06:47.439 I felt myself coming hard, except I'm just not coming. 103 00:06:48.240 --> 00:06:51.920 It all happens so quickly, but I think I came 104 00:06:52.399 --> 00:06:57.199 while I farted, but it was actually sharp, not a 105 00:06:57.240 --> 00:06:59.720 big one or a lot because I hadn't eaten much, 106 00:07:00.360 --> 00:07:04.480 but with a bit of liquid too, and god, it 107 00:07:04.639 --> 00:07:09.040 smelt so bad because the Indian food I had the 108 00:07:09.120 --> 00:07:13.480 night before too. I froze, He froze. He started looking 109 00:07:13.560 --> 00:07:17.480 disgusted to say what, But before he'd even finished getting 110 00:07:17.519 --> 00:07:20.480 the word out, I jumped up and off him, not 111 00:07:20.639 --> 00:07:23.199 quickly enough to avoid seeing what I'd done on him, 112 00:07:23.600 --> 00:07:26.439 and ran to the bathroom in a wide eyed panic. 113 00:07:27.040 --> 00:07:31.519 This is never and has as never happened since to 114 00:07:31.600 --> 00:07:37.040 me before I have Oh my god, I have never 115 00:07:37.120 --> 00:07:40.560 heard of it happening to anyone else before either. This 116 00:07:40.720 --> 00:07:44.759 is awful. I was in tears, moaning no no, no, no, no, no, no, no, 117 00:07:45.399 --> 00:07:47.399 over and over to myself as I heard him walk 118 00:07:47.480 --> 00:07:49.800 up to the hallway, not call my name from outside 119 00:07:49.839 --> 00:07:53.399 the bathroom and knock again. I did not respond. I 120 00:07:53.439 --> 00:07:57.439 could not respond. I didn't know what to say. Eventually 121 00:07:57.439 --> 00:08:00.560 he came in because I mean he had to shower, right, 122 00:08:01.120 --> 00:08:04.680 of course he did. Yeah, so that happened, and it 123 00:08:04.720 --> 00:08:07.199 was an awkward and terrible silent. I still don't know 124 00:08:07.279 --> 00:08:10.920 what to fucking say. What the hell can you say? 125 00:08:11.439 --> 00:08:16.120 I was also still crying and saying no lol. He 126 00:08:16.199 --> 00:08:18.480 only took a minute anyway, grabbed a tail and left 127 00:08:18.519 --> 00:08:21.839 with it. I closed the bathroom door behind him, waiting 128 00:08:22.680 --> 00:08:25.079 till long after he had left to go to the 129 00:08:25.160 --> 00:08:29.759 bedroom change the sheets. He had, of course already unmatched 130 00:08:29.800 --> 00:08:34.919 me on tender. If it's not signed, we'll call her Martha. 131 00:08:35.919 --> 00:08:39.639 I don't know. Oh my god. No, it's never happened 132 00:08:39.639 --> 00:08:41.879 to me. I am not in that group. And I'm 133 00:08:41.960 --> 00:08:47.720 sorry this was a bad I'm sorry if I brought 134 00:08:47.799 --> 00:08:50.480 up a bad Mary for you. Oh my god. I 135 00:08:50.519 --> 00:08:55.639 can honestly say that I have never now, I have 136 00:08:55.879 --> 00:09:01.639 queafed once, because I mean, that's just it makes sense, 137 00:09:01.799 --> 00:09:05.399 especially you know, it just makes sense. But I have 138 00:09:05.600 --> 00:09:13.120 never sharded over anybody. Yeah, oh my god. Okay, So 139 00:09:13.159 --> 00:09:16.960 we're going to start a thing. If you have stories 140 00:09:17.159 --> 00:09:21.120 like yes, I would like to. You know, laughter does 141 00:09:21.240 --> 00:09:23.399 leave to great sex. And if you can't laugh during sex, 142 00:09:23.679 --> 00:09:26.159 I don't know if I could laugh during this. Yeah, 143 00:09:26.279 --> 00:09:28.840 you turn it around, right, especially if you're just looking 144 00:09:28.879 --> 00:09:31.000 for a hookup. He drove three hours and got sharded 145 00:09:31.080 --> 00:09:35.840 on Could you imagine this man's story? Oh my god? 146 00:09:36.320 --> 00:09:40.519 Oh yeah, Darcy was right on this one. We didn't 147 00:09:40.559 --> 00:09:43.320 know what to do with it. So I think I 148 00:09:43.320 --> 00:09:45.600 think we should add this in. I think this made 149 00:09:45.600 --> 00:09:48.440 me I want to delve into this. So if you 150 00:09:48.600 --> 00:09:52.759 have something funny and I might repost this to next 151 00:09:52.799 --> 00:09:55.120 week's show, just because it's too good not to share. 152 00:09:56.120 --> 00:10:00.320 Definitely right in. I would love to hear miss. Perhaps 153 00:10:00.399 --> 00:10:02.320 we all have them, right, we're just embarrassed to talk 154 00:10:02.320 --> 00:10:04.360 about them. And what way is to get it off 155 00:10:04.360 --> 00:10:08.120 your chest and somewhere anonymously just saying it? You know, 156 00:10:08.200 --> 00:10:12.440 a time it is, It's time to sit back, relax, 157 00:10:13.480 --> 00:10:16.919 let's have a whiskey. There's some filthy cherries, of course, 158 00:10:17.720 --> 00:10:21.960 and explore some ironic fantasies from people just like you 159 00:10:22.039 --> 00:10:25.840 and me. Dear Nigie, I need to get something off 160 00:10:25.840 --> 00:10:29.600 my chest. I'm married, I love my wife, and I 161 00:10:29.639 --> 00:10:32.919 want to make it clear right away. I'm not gay. 162 00:10:33.600 --> 00:10:36.480 I have no interest in men, no interest in penis. 163 00:10:37.120 --> 00:10:40.480 I love women, I love vagina. But I have this 164 00:10:40.600 --> 00:10:43.120 side of me that most people would never know about. 165 00:10:44.000 --> 00:10:47.519 It started small. I tried on boys short panties once, 166 00:10:47.799 --> 00:10:51.399 just out of curiosity, and I liked how soft they felt. 167 00:10:52.240 --> 00:10:56.480 From there, it grew thongs, yoga shorts. My wife knows 168 00:10:56.519 --> 00:10:59.120 about those. She gives me shit about it in a 169 00:10:59.159 --> 00:11:02.440 playful way, but she doesn't realize that it goes further. 170 00:11:03.279 --> 00:11:06.559 When she's not around. I'll sometimes put on her sports bras, 171 00:11:06.720 --> 00:11:11.360 her bralettes, even her lingerie, And when I do, I 172 00:11:11.399 --> 00:11:15.519 feel something I can't really explain. I feel sexy, I 173 00:11:15.559 --> 00:11:19.080 feel feminine, I feel free in a way I don't 174 00:11:19.120 --> 00:11:22.159 get to feel otherwise. Part of me thinks it comes 175 00:11:22.200 --> 00:11:25.879 from a mismatch in our sex drives. This fills a 176 00:11:25.919 --> 00:11:30.000 space that empty sometimes. But it's not just about sex. 177 00:11:30.720 --> 00:11:33.480 It's about how it makes me feel like I'm tapping 178 00:11:33.519 --> 00:11:36.159 into this hidden side of myself that's always been there. 179 00:11:36.879 --> 00:11:38.960 I don't want this to sound like a betrayal of 180 00:11:39.000 --> 00:11:42.679 my wife, because it's not replacing her. It's just this 181 00:11:42.919 --> 00:11:45.559 part of me that I keep locked away, and I 182 00:11:45.679 --> 00:11:48.879 guess I'm confessing it here because I want someone to 183 00:11:48.919 --> 00:11:54.000 hear it out loud. Chris Hullo, Chris, how are you? 184 00:11:55.120 --> 00:11:58.600 This is actually way more common than you think. I 185 00:11:58.639 --> 00:12:02.559 can't tell you how many men and would call and 186 00:12:02.600 --> 00:12:07.720 tell me about this. I actually had a long standing regular, 187 00:12:09.039 --> 00:12:12.919 no name here, but he would he when he first 188 00:12:12.919 --> 00:12:17.200 started calling, he would talk about the boys shorts as 189 00:12:17.200 --> 00:12:20.840 you were saying, that we wear, but they were it 190 00:12:20.919 --> 00:12:23.960 was just the way they felt inside me and knew 191 00:12:24.200 --> 00:12:26.879 there was always more, because there's always more. When they 192 00:12:26.919 --> 00:12:28.879 call it, they always start with the fragment, like you 193 00:12:28.919 --> 00:12:32.519 were saying, just that little step, but an all honesty. 194 00:12:32.720 --> 00:12:39.080 He liked to wear women's lingerie and he had I'm 195 00:12:39.120 --> 00:12:41.759 not saying this is your case or everybody's case, but 196 00:12:41.879 --> 00:12:47.200 he had such a high stressful job the exact opposite 197 00:12:48.399 --> 00:12:51.679 made him like decompressed, kind of like a stress ball 198 00:12:52.080 --> 00:12:54.480 in a way, and he would dress up well. He 199 00:12:54.519 --> 00:12:58.480 also liked to vibe himself. So I've talked about him 200 00:12:58.519 --> 00:13:02.279 before where he took I can't think of the toy 201 00:13:02.360 --> 00:13:05.480 right now, but he would wrap it around him and 202 00:13:06.519 --> 00:13:08.960 he would take bandage though it didn't pull any hair, 203 00:13:08.960 --> 00:13:11.840 but I think he was shaved, he said, and we 204 00:13:11.879 --> 00:13:15.600 would vibe him and he would get off that way. 205 00:13:15.679 --> 00:13:18.399 And he did it every week with me once a week. 206 00:13:19.000 --> 00:13:23.600 And he would wear his panties. And these are the 207 00:13:23.639 --> 00:13:27.000 thinner ones, not the boy shorts, but the speedo like 208 00:13:27.200 --> 00:13:32.240 regular panties or the gosh. I wish I would know 209 00:13:32.440 --> 00:13:38.039 my beauties. They weren't complete thongs. He wore thongs, but 210 00:13:38.120 --> 00:13:40.960 he at work he preferred not to wear them. So 211 00:13:42.120 --> 00:13:45.399 but going back to you, it was a really good 212 00:13:46.000 --> 00:13:48.720 Did he like it? Yes, But he also told me 213 00:13:48.759 --> 00:13:51.399 he said he loves women, absolutely loves women. Wasn't in 214 00:13:51.440 --> 00:13:54.320 a dick, didn't want dick, nothing else. It was just 215 00:13:54.879 --> 00:13:58.440 this is his way of the softer side of him 216 00:13:58.480 --> 00:14:02.559 after being such a hard, hard ass, you know, and 217 00:14:03.080 --> 00:14:07.080 what with the position he had. So I don't see 218 00:14:07.080 --> 00:14:09.559 anything wrong with this. And you're not alone, like I said, 219 00:14:09.600 --> 00:14:14.080 I can't tell you how many men you know, and 220 00:14:14.159 --> 00:14:19.120 he didn't. It was a way for him to decompress 221 00:14:19.320 --> 00:14:23.320 or like they tell somebody that's just needs a moment 222 00:14:23.399 --> 00:14:28.399 to go touch grass. So his was the soft feelings 223 00:14:28.480 --> 00:14:33.639 of lingerie where somebody might go and listen to different 224 00:14:33.759 --> 00:14:37.679 mega hurts to decompress. You know, you know how you 225 00:14:37.720 --> 00:14:41.480 can go. YouTube's a great one where it helps with 226 00:14:41.600 --> 00:14:46.480 the anxiety and everything else, but your brain basically needs 227 00:14:46.559 --> 00:14:50.960 an opposite effect, like a lemon if you know, lemons 228 00:14:50.960 --> 00:14:53.000 can also do it. Or the rubber band around your 229 00:14:53.039 --> 00:14:56.840 wrist snap, snap, snap, and it changes the focus of 230 00:14:56.879 --> 00:14:58.919 your brain like it, you know, that kind of thing 231 00:14:58.960 --> 00:15:02.240 before they take medicine or whatever. Not saying anybody sick 232 00:15:02.279 --> 00:15:08.639 here or anything else. If this helps whatever you need 233 00:15:09.159 --> 00:15:12.399 and makes you feel that way in a positive way, 234 00:15:12.799 --> 00:15:15.679 I am one hundred percent for it. I don't see 235 00:15:15.720 --> 00:15:20.240 anything wrong with this. If this makes you feel great, 236 00:15:20.440 --> 00:15:23.200 if it makes you feel in touch with who you are, 237 00:15:23.279 --> 00:15:28.200 it doesn't make you anything but you, And no judgment 238 00:15:28.240 --> 00:15:31.480 for anybody here. We all have something, you know, is 239 00:15:32.559 --> 00:15:35.600 like I say, we all have something mine. I like 240 00:15:35.639 --> 00:15:39.039 to go touch grass. I remember when you know I 241 00:15:39.679 --> 00:15:44.159 do have xanax, I honestly do. And I hate taking 242 00:15:44.200 --> 00:15:46.919 the shit. And if you are know me personally, I 243 00:15:47.000 --> 00:15:49.120 wait to the very last minute where I should have 244 00:15:49.159 --> 00:15:51.960 took it two hours ago, because I do all the 245 00:15:52.000 --> 00:15:55.320 things that you know that beforehand listen to the megaharts, 246 00:15:55.639 --> 00:15:58.679 go touch grass. You know, if I have a limit, 247 00:15:58.759 --> 00:16:01.480 I even try that, you know, but sometimes you just 248 00:16:01.559 --> 00:16:05.759 gotta take it. But I've also found another way. Masturbation 249 00:16:05.960 --> 00:16:09.320 is another one of mine. You know, there's sometimes I 250 00:16:09.440 --> 00:16:12.960 know that when I'm te too keyed up too often. 251 00:16:13.120 --> 00:16:16.159 See I also speak fast. When I'm onto something or 252 00:16:17.440 --> 00:16:20.440 just a little bit riled, I have to go masturbate 253 00:16:20.639 --> 00:16:26.120 and I need one of those deep orgasms that I 254 00:16:26.200 --> 00:16:27.840 know is going to go to my spine, to my 255 00:16:27.960 --> 00:16:30.879 brain and it it's just like an It just like 256 00:16:30.960 --> 00:16:37.679 it's a release. So if something that someone else would 257 00:16:37.720 --> 00:16:44.279 seem odd helps you release and become yourself again, and 258 00:16:44.360 --> 00:16:49.799 it's positive, who the fuck cares what alpha male or 259 00:16:50.759 --> 00:16:53.519 mega bitch down the street feels like it, because I'm 260 00:16:53.519 --> 00:16:57.320 guaranteeing you the first person that says something has something 261 00:16:57.440 --> 00:17:02.919 weirder than you or they. It's more it's like the 262 00:17:03.120 --> 00:17:06.200 stupid kindergarten saying, you maybe pointing one finger at me, 263 00:17:06.279 --> 00:17:09.400 but you've got four fingers in the thumb maybe depending 264 00:17:09.400 --> 00:17:14.079 on how you're pointing back at you. So Chris, embrace it. 265 00:17:14.400 --> 00:17:18.039 I'm proud of you for trusting me with this you 266 00:17:18.039 --> 00:17:22.359 have me really smiling today, Dear Nikki. This was in 267 00:17:22.640 --> 00:17:25.759 sophomore year of college. I was twenty long, blonde hair, 268 00:17:26.200 --> 00:17:28.599 five ten and in a varsity of a swim team 269 00:17:28.680 --> 00:17:32.680 on our university. We have national competitions that would make 270 00:17:32.759 --> 00:17:35.599 or break it for me. When in continuously meant I 271 00:17:35.599 --> 00:17:39.440 got to keep my scholarship, Losing meant I lost everything 272 00:17:39.480 --> 00:17:42.279 and would have to pay for my own tuition. We 273 00:17:42.279 --> 00:17:45.160 weren't rich, so I really had to grind every day 274 00:17:45.359 --> 00:17:48.400 during training to make sure that I won all my meats. 275 00:17:48.880 --> 00:17:51.279 I did pretty well my freshman year. I won a 276 00:17:51.279 --> 00:17:54.680 few here and there. Then I started with the college parties, 277 00:17:54.920 --> 00:17:58.759 making a new friends and getting into orgies and meeting guys, 278 00:17:59.079 --> 00:18:02.680 which kind of screwed up my momentum. I was almost 279 00:18:02.720 --> 00:18:07.640 always last. I decided, Okay, fuck it, I'll start taking 280 00:18:07.680 --> 00:18:11.400 it seriously again. To qualify for my scholarship, I'd have 281 00:18:11.480 --> 00:18:14.680 to be invaluable to our team. But I kept just 282 00:18:14.799 --> 00:18:18.920 not meeting the mark because this one bitch would absolutely 283 00:18:19.000 --> 00:18:22.480 destroy me during the race. I didn't know what to do. 284 00:18:22.759 --> 00:18:25.880 I kept training, but it was not just fast enough. 285 00:18:26.599 --> 00:18:28.440 One day, I was drinking with my friends at a 286 00:18:28.440 --> 00:18:31.799 bar near our campus and I saw her there, curly 287 00:18:31.839 --> 00:18:35.839 brown hair, long legs, hot ass shit. I guess she 288 00:18:36.000 --> 00:18:39.359 decided that day that bras weren't her thing because you 289 00:18:39.359 --> 00:18:42.720 could fully see her tits through her t shirt. I 290 00:18:42.839 --> 00:18:46.799 was quietly judgmental back then. I admit I was a 291 00:18:46.799 --> 00:18:49.680 little bit buzzed and had a few shots, so the 292 00:18:49.680 --> 00:18:53.079 only confidence I needed to blast her. I was fuming 293 00:18:53.839 --> 00:18:56.960 she was the only thing getting in between me and 294 00:18:57.000 --> 00:19:00.400 my win. I came up to her completely expect a 295 00:19:00.480 --> 00:19:04.400 mean entry, but she hugged me and said, oh my god. Hi. 296 00:19:05.519 --> 00:19:08.559 She was red and hot too, probably drank a bit 297 00:19:08.640 --> 00:19:11.920 more than me. I felt her boobs press up against mine. 298 00:19:12.200 --> 00:19:15.519 I was blurry up until that point. I've only really 299 00:19:15.680 --> 00:19:19.599 liked to fuck guys. I never questioned my sexuality ever, 300 00:19:20.240 --> 00:19:23.119 so it must have been the alcohol. We talked a little, 301 00:19:23.240 --> 00:19:26.880 no flirting, just serious talk about our matches. It was 302 00:19:27.000 --> 00:19:29.759 casual until I brought up her beating me at every 303 00:19:30.119 --> 00:19:35.079 single race. That's not my fault, babe, She joked, yeah, 304 00:19:35.119 --> 00:19:38.960 but fuck, could you just slow down a bit? Maybe 305 00:19:39.000 --> 00:19:42.400 you need to speed up. I took a shot. I 306 00:19:42.519 --> 00:19:45.960 was dazed. I had nothing to lose. What can I 307 00:19:46.000 --> 00:19:49.519 do to get you to lose for once. She stared 308 00:19:49.599 --> 00:19:52.440 me straight in the eyes and teased, I don't know 309 00:19:52.960 --> 00:19:55.960 what can you do. I wasn't sure what she meant, 310 00:19:56.480 --> 00:19:59.640 but I probably six shots in. I could feel her 311 00:19:59.640 --> 00:20:02.880 hot break on my face. My heart was pounding, so 312 00:20:02.920 --> 00:20:06.079 I grabbed her by the waist and kissed her. She 313 00:20:06.160 --> 00:20:10.400 was so soft, tasted like alcohol, but who fucking cared. 314 00:20:10.960 --> 00:20:13.279 I could feel my pussy vibrating, and she grabbed me 315 00:20:13.359 --> 00:20:17.599 back too. I could hear our friends saying holy shit 316 00:20:18.000 --> 00:20:21.240 in the background, but I didn't give a fuck because 317 00:20:21.240 --> 00:20:24.039 I could feel her tongue in my mouth. I pulled 318 00:20:24.039 --> 00:20:28.000 away for a second. I had to contemplate. I pretended 319 00:20:28.000 --> 00:20:30.599 to check my phone and said I had to go. 320 00:20:31.359 --> 00:20:34.839 I wasn't gay, I wasn't fucking a girl for anything. 321 00:20:35.640 --> 00:20:37.480 I left the bar and didn't see her until our 322 00:20:37.559 --> 00:20:42.240 next race. I lost again. I was pissed. I stayed 323 00:20:42.240 --> 00:20:45.279 in the locker room for hours until everyone left. I 324 00:20:45.359 --> 00:20:48.160 walked out into the pool area. She was there again. 325 00:20:48.839 --> 00:20:51.039 She said she saw me get angry and waited for me. 326 00:20:51.759 --> 00:20:53.160 I sat at the edge of the pool and she 327 00:20:53.200 --> 00:20:56.519 sat next to me. I was still frustrated at that point. 328 00:20:57.359 --> 00:20:59.720 My coach said, I had one chance to win a 329 00:20:59.759 --> 00:21:04.119 meet or else I'm out. Can you throw? I asked hesitantly, 330 00:21:04.920 --> 00:21:08.440 Like what a ball? I thought she was fucking gorgeous, 331 00:21:08.480 --> 00:21:12.440 but dumbest shit. Okay, so I was just an insecure 332 00:21:12.480 --> 00:21:15.480 bitch at the time. No, Like, can you throw a 333 00:21:15.559 --> 00:21:18.799 race for me? I can't lose another one. I'm fucked 334 00:21:18.839 --> 00:21:21.960 if I do. What's in it for me? It's just 335 00:21:22.039 --> 00:21:25.920 the third spot, just to swim faster. Yeah, I can't 336 00:21:25.960 --> 00:21:29.400 even get the fucking third place. I kicked the water 337 00:21:29.440 --> 00:21:32.039 and she gets a little wet. I haven't changed out 338 00:21:32.039 --> 00:21:34.759 of my suit, but she's already in a shirt and 339 00:21:34.839 --> 00:21:38.519 the shortest shorts I've ever could imagine. Her tits were gorgeous. 340 00:21:39.039 --> 00:21:41.519 I was jealous more than I was attracted to her. 341 00:21:42.160 --> 00:21:45.400 She looked at me. I was nervous. I didn't know 342 00:21:45.440 --> 00:21:48.759 if she had anything good to say. Give me something 343 00:21:48.759 --> 00:21:52.559 and I'll throw. She promised, what do you want? I like, 344 00:21:52.599 --> 00:21:56.519 have zero money in my bank account? Nuh, she whispered, 345 00:21:57.119 --> 00:21:59.920 then grab the back of my head and kissed me again. 346 00:22:00.640 --> 00:22:02.480 Her hand made its way down to my thighs, and 347 00:22:02.519 --> 00:22:05.839 I jumped a little. I've never done this before. I 348 00:22:05.839 --> 00:22:09.440 could feel her fingers moving slowly towards my pussy. I 349 00:22:09.519 --> 00:22:12.039 trembled at the thought that she put her fingers inside me. 350 00:22:12.799 --> 00:22:15.240 She took my hand and zipped her shorts, making me 351 00:22:15.319 --> 00:22:18.640 touch her too. I nudged away a little. Do you 352 00:22:18.640 --> 00:22:21.559 want me to throw or what? She pulled me back 353 00:22:21.680 --> 00:22:24.799 closer to her. I tried my best with what I knew. 354 00:22:25.319 --> 00:22:28.200 I softly touched her clip, rubbing it in circles while 355 00:22:28.240 --> 00:22:31.200 kissing her. I heard her moan a little, so I 356 00:22:31.240 --> 00:22:34.279 thought I must be doing something right. She kissed me 357 00:22:34.319 --> 00:22:36.599 harder and pushed me on to the cold tiled floor. 358 00:22:37.319 --> 00:22:40.119 It was dark, but I could see her face. Her 359 00:22:40.160 --> 00:22:43.160 curls fell into her eyes, and she tucked them behind 360 00:22:43.160 --> 00:22:45.799 her ears and kissed me more. She sat up and 361 00:22:45.799 --> 00:22:47.920 pulled my suit to the side and put two fingers 362 00:22:47.960 --> 00:22:52.359 inside me. I almost screamed. Her middle and ring fingers 363 00:22:52.400 --> 00:22:54.519 were bent in a way that I could feel the 364 00:22:54.599 --> 00:22:57.599 tips at the roof of my pussy. I felt like 365 00:22:57.640 --> 00:23:00.640 I was going to pee. I've never had a finger 366 00:23:00.799 --> 00:23:03.759 or fuck me like this before. She rubbed my clit 367 00:23:03.839 --> 00:23:06.039 with her thumb while the other hand fucked me with 368 00:23:06.119 --> 00:23:10.119 her fingers. I wanted to scream I've never felt like 369 00:23:10.160 --> 00:23:13.039 this before. I knew it was coming, so I held 370 00:23:13.039 --> 00:23:16.079 my breath and closed my eyes shut. I felt an 371 00:23:16.079 --> 00:23:20.200 explosion inside my body. I exhaled loudly for what felt 372 00:23:20.279 --> 00:23:24.119 like I was going to die. She was so fucking good. 373 00:23:24.880 --> 00:23:27.960 She pulled my swimsuit back in order and said, get 374 00:23:28.039 --> 00:23:31.720 dressed and I'll wait. At that point, I was willing 375 00:23:31.720 --> 00:23:34.160 to do whatever the fuck she wanted. I didn't even 376 00:23:34.160 --> 00:23:37.640 care if she threw any more. I wanted more. I 377 00:23:37.680 --> 00:23:39.640 got dressed quickly and ran out, and we walked to 378 00:23:39.680 --> 00:23:42.599 her car. She drove us to her apartment. When we 379 00:23:42.680 --> 00:23:45.559 got in, she immediately took her shorts off. Her legs 380 00:23:45.559 --> 00:23:48.440 are gorgeous. She was one of the hottest girls I've 381 00:23:48.480 --> 00:23:51.400 ever met. She gave me a glass of water and 382 00:23:51.519 --> 00:23:55.119 asked if I wanted a snack. I said no. She 383 00:23:55.160 --> 00:23:58.000 had a studio apartment, so we immediately sat on her bed. 384 00:23:58.640 --> 00:24:01.720 I'm going to teach you how to do me, she whispered. 385 00:24:02.480 --> 00:24:05.279 She tucked my hair behind my ears and kissed me softly. Again. 386 00:24:06.000 --> 00:24:08.559 She lied down and took her underwear off. If you 387 00:24:08.599 --> 00:24:11.880 don't want to do it, it's fine, but I want 388 00:24:11.880 --> 00:24:15.720 to teach you. She said, no, it's okay. What do 389 00:24:15.799 --> 00:24:18.359 I do? She spread her legs and told me to 390 00:24:18.400 --> 00:24:21.799 get down there. She asked, what do you like to feel? 391 00:24:22.480 --> 00:24:25.000 Do that to me? I realized she wanted me to 392 00:24:25.039 --> 00:24:28.079 eat her out. I've never really had a guide to 393 00:24:28.119 --> 00:24:32.519 do that to me before. Okay, like this, take your 394 00:24:32.559 --> 00:24:37.680 tongue and tap my clit softly. Then just do the 395 00:24:37.720 --> 00:24:41.319 same when you're playing with your clit to look it 396 00:24:41.440 --> 00:24:45.920 fast until I tell you to stop. I did my best. 397 00:24:46.319 --> 00:24:48.799 I got my tongue as wet as I could and 398 00:24:48.880 --> 00:24:51.960 licked her clit softly. I felt her jump a little. 399 00:24:52.519 --> 00:24:56.240 I did it more. I took two fingers, the same 400 00:24:56.240 --> 00:24:58.720 one she used on me and did what she did 401 00:24:58.759 --> 00:25:02.160