1 00:00:02,200 --> 00:00:06,440 Speaker 1: Ni. Welcome to Dear NICKI. My name is Nikki. And 2 00:00:06,599 --> 00:00:11,080 on today's show, Chris, a married man, confesses his secret 3 00:00:11,080 --> 00:00:15,560 love to wearing women's lingerie. He describes the thrill and 4 00:00:15,720 --> 00:00:19,079 liberation as he feels when he slips into his wife's 5 00:00:19,160 --> 00:00:24,120 intimate garments. Heather, a college swimmer, recounts an unexpected encounter 6 00:00:24,280 --> 00:00:26,960 with a rival swimmer. After a night of drinking, she 7 00:00:27,039 --> 00:00:30,120 finds herself drawn to the allure of a fellow swimmer, 8 00:00:30,920 --> 00:00:33,960 and Josh, in a rough patch with his wife, places 9 00:00:33,960 --> 00:00:37,359 an ad on Craigslist with a friends with benefits. He 10 00:00:37,479 --> 00:00:40,240 meets Rachel, a sexy blonde, at a coffee shop, and 11 00:00:40,280 --> 00:00:46,359 their connection quickly escalates. That and so so much more. 12 00:00:47,320 --> 00:00:50,960 Are you ready to spice things up? Here's a sneak 13 00:00:51,079 --> 00:00:54,719 pink of the steamy audio content a waiting for you 14 00:00:54,799 --> 00:01:01,320 on Patreon. This is your utmost desire. Allow me to 15 00:01:01,399 --> 00:01:07,799 come over and over without having the need to yourself. 16 00:01:08,799 --> 00:01:12,879 This is total control. This is how I rule your 17 00:01:12,959 --> 00:01:17,079 mind and body. Join now for ad free access to 18 00:01:17,159 --> 00:01:22,239 the Wednesday Show, an exclusive Friday episode packed with erotic 19 00:01:22,319 --> 00:01:27,640 rold play and pleasurable audio experience. Treat yourself to something 20 00:01:27,719 --> 00:01:33,120 naughty you deserve it. Join Patreon today and indulge in 21 00:01:33,159 --> 00:01:38,079 your fantasies. 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Connect with us 51 00:03:33,080 --> 00:03:36,560 on social media Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook and stay up 52 00:03:36,599 --> 00:03:39,800 to date and be part of our vibrant community. Also 53 00:03:39,879 --> 00:03:43,199 check out our partnership pages for exclusive discounts and learn 54 00:03:43,199 --> 00:03:47,400 about the amazing businesses I work with. Last week on 55 00:03:48,080 --> 00:03:51,800 our Friday subscriber show, I started a new thing and 56 00:03:52,000 --> 00:03:58,280 the story was so good I wanted to just repeat 57 00:03:58,280 --> 00:04:04,520 it here. So just enjoy and you'll understand. Dear Nikki. 58 00:04:04,759 --> 00:04:07,960 So this happened about two years ago. Now it's taken 59 00:04:08,039 --> 00:04:10,280 some time for me to be okay about telling the 60 00:04:10,319 --> 00:04:13,199 story as I am now. For a long time, I 61 00:04:13,280 --> 00:04:17,480 kept it entirely to myself in my incognito browser, as 62 00:04:17,519 --> 00:04:20,480 I googled for reassurance that I was not the only one. 63 00:04:21,240 --> 00:04:24,279 But look, it's been a while, I've grown up a bit, 64 00:04:24,680 --> 00:04:27,519 and I realized I can't keep a story like this 65 00:04:27,680 --> 00:04:32,600 to myself forever. It honestly just wins too many conversation 66 00:04:32,800 --> 00:04:37,839 competitions such as funniest, worst, weirdest sex story, and it 67 00:04:37,879 --> 00:04:41,160 would be a shame to give up those victories. Anyway. 68 00:04:42,079 --> 00:04:46,240 First things first, I'm a heterosexual woman, and I use 69 00:04:46,399 --> 00:04:48,720 tender to avoid having to hook up with the local 70 00:04:48,759 --> 00:04:53,240 guys when all I want is casual relationship. It's a 71 00:04:53,279 --> 00:04:56,319 small town, and if you've ever lived in one of those, 72 00:04:56,360 --> 00:05:00,240 you'll understand instantly what I mean. So I get this 73 00:05:00,279 --> 00:05:02,959 guy to drive here, a three hour trip for him. 74 00:05:03,560 --> 00:05:05,839 We meet in public to make sure he's not a 75 00:05:06,000 --> 00:05:08,879 serial killer or whatever, and to see if we get 76 00:05:08,879 --> 00:05:12,480 on as a person. I don't feel super attracted to him, 77 00:05:12,839 --> 00:05:17,079 like we're not clicking, but it's whatever. He has a 78 00:05:17,079 --> 00:05:21,279 penis as in my age bracket, and isn't super gross hindn't. 79 00:05:21,319 --> 00:05:23,800 He's driven three hours to see me, and I'm super 80 00:05:24,000 --> 00:05:28,399 horny desperate, so I bring him home. We get to 81 00:05:28,439 --> 00:05:30,800 my place and things get hot and heavy rather quickly. 82 00:05:31,160 --> 00:05:34,439 We go straight to the bedroom. He's a little rougher 83 00:05:34,439 --> 00:05:37,040 than I usually go for. I like to joke that 84 00:05:37,120 --> 00:05:40,519 my kink is pretending that you actually love me. But again, 85 00:05:41,000 --> 00:05:43,800 it's fine. I'm horny and I'm taking what I can 86 00:05:43,839 --> 00:05:47,160 get at the stage right now, Bear in mind that 87 00:05:47,319 --> 00:05:50,120 I've been nervous all day. I hadn't eaten breakfast, and 88 00:05:50,279 --> 00:05:53,319 just a couple cups of coffee the night before, though 89 00:05:53,560 --> 00:05:57,639 I'd eaten Indian food, Just putting that out there. Back 90 00:05:57,639 --> 00:06:01,600 to the sex. He was rougher and than I'd been expecting. 91 00:06:02,399 --> 00:06:05,839 It had been months since I'd gotten laid. We started 92 00:06:05,839 --> 00:06:08,639 off doggy style, but within a few minutes I decided 93 00:06:08,680 --> 00:06:11,920 I wanted to be a bit more in control, and 94 00:06:12,000 --> 00:06:15,560 I initiate a position switch. Now I'm on top, and 95 00:06:15,600 --> 00:06:18,480 it's a lot better for me. It's less about how 96 00:06:18,519 --> 00:06:21,120 he likes it and more about how I want it. 97 00:06:21,920 --> 00:06:24,120 I get down low, my head close to his shoulder, 98 00:06:24,160 --> 00:06:28,480 and I'm just doing my thing when suddenly he grabs 99 00:06:28,480 --> 00:06:32,000 me by the hips and starts doing this whole other thing, 100 00:06:32,800 --> 00:06:38,120 his thing aggressively, and maybe because I'd already been so close, 101 00:06:38,920 --> 00:06:41,560 it was just all way too much for me, and 102 00:06:41,759 --> 00:06:47,439 I felt myself coming hard, except I'm just not coming. 103 00:06:48,240 --> 00:06:51,920 It all happens so quickly, but I think I came 104 00:06:52,399 --> 00:06:57,199 while I farted, but it was actually sharp, not a 105 00:06:57,240 --> 00:06:59,720 big one or a lot because I hadn't eaten much, 106 00:07:00,360 --> 00:07:04,480 but with a bit of liquid too, and god, it 107 00:07:04,639 --> 00:07:09,040 smelt so bad because the Indian food I had the 108 00:07:09,120 --> 00:07:13,480 night before too. I froze, He froze. He started looking 109 00:07:13,560 --> 00:07:17,480 disgusted to say what, But before he'd even finished getting 110 00:07:17,519 --> 00:07:20,480 the word out, I jumped up and off him, not 111 00:07:20,639 --> 00:07:23,199 quickly enough to avoid seeing what I'd done on him, 112 00:07:23,600 --> 00:07:26,439 and ran to the bathroom in a wide eyed panic. 113 00:07:27,040 --> 00:07:31,519 This is never and has as never happened since to 114 00:07:31,600 --> 00:07:37,040 me before I have Oh my god, I have never 115 00:07:37,120 --> 00:07:40,560 heard of it happening to anyone else before either. This 116 00:07:40,720 --> 00:07:44,759 is awful. I was in tears, moaning no no, no, no, no, no, no, no, 117 00:07:45,399 --> 00:07:47,399 over and over to myself as I heard him walk 118 00:07:47,480 --> 00:07:49,800 up to the hallway, not call my name from outside 119 00:07:49,839 --> 00:07:53,399 the bathroom and knock again. I did not respond. I 120 00:07:53,439 --> 00:07:57,439 could not respond. I didn't know what to say. Eventually 121 00:07:57,439 --> 00:08:00,560 he came in because I mean he had to shower, right, 122 00:08:01,120 --> 00:08:04,680 of course he did. Yeah, so that happened, and it 123 00:08:04,720 --> 00:08:07,199 was an awkward and terrible silent. I still don't know 124 00:08:07,279 --> 00:08:10,920 what to fucking say. What the hell can you say? 125 00:08:11,439 --> 00:08:16,120 I was also still crying and saying no lol. He 126 00:08:16,199 --> 00:08:18,480 only took a minute anyway, grabbed a tail and left 127 00:08:18,519 --> 00:08:21,839 with it. I closed the bathroom door behind him, waiting 128 00:08:22,680 --> 00:08:25,079 till long after he had left to go to the 129 00:08:25,160 --> 00:08:29,759 bedroom change the sheets. He had, of course already unmatched 130 00:08:29,800 --> 00:08:34,919 me on tender. If it's not signed, we'll call her Martha. 131 00:08:35,919 --> 00:08:39,639 I don't know. Oh my god. No, it's never happened 132 00:08:39,639 --> 00:08:41,879 to me. I am not in that group. And I'm 133 00:08:41,960 --> 00:08:47,720 sorry this was a bad I'm sorry if I brought 134 00:08:47,799 --> 00:08:50,480 up a bad Mary for you. Oh my god. I 135 00:08:50,519 --> 00:08:55,639 can honestly say that I have never now, I have 136 00:08:55,879 --> 00:09:01,639 queafed once, because I mean, that's just it makes sense, 137 00:09:01,799 --> 00:09:05,399 especially you know, it just makes sense. But I have 138 00:09:05,600 --> 00:09:13,120 never sharded over anybody. Yeah, oh my god. Okay, So 139 00:09:13,159 --> 00:09:16,960 we're going to start a thing. If you have stories 140 00:09:17,159 --> 00:09:21,120 like yes, I would like to. You know, laughter does 141 00:09:21,240 --> 00:09:23,399 leave to great sex. And if you can't laugh during sex, 142 00:09:23,679 --> 00:09:26,159 I don't know if I could laugh during this. Yeah, 143 00:09:26,279 --> 00:09:28,840 you turn it around, right, especially if you're just looking 144 00:09:28,879 --> 00:09:31,000 for a hookup. He drove three hours and got sharded 145 00:09:31,080 --> 00:09:35,840 on Could you imagine this man's story? Oh my god? 146 00:09:36,320 --> 00:09:40,519 Oh yeah, Darcy was right on this one. We didn't 147 00:09:40,559 --> 00:09:43,320 know what to do with it. So I think I 148 00:09:43,320 --> 00:09:45,600 think we should add this in. I think this made 149 00:09:45,600 --> 00:09:48,440 me I want to delve into this. So if you 150 00:09:48,600 --> 00:09:52,759 have something funny and I might repost this to next 151 00:09:52,799 --> 00:09:55,120 week's show, just because it's too good not to share. 152 00:09:56,120 --> 00:10:00,320 Definitely right in. I would love to hear miss. Perhaps 153 00:10:00,399 --> 00:10:02,320 we all have them, right, we're just embarrassed to talk 154 00:10:02,320 --> 00:10:04,360 about them. And what way is to get it off 155 00:10:04,360 --> 00:10:08,120 your chest and somewhere anonymously just saying it? You know, 156 00:10:08,200 --> 00:10:12,440 a time it is, It's time to sit back, relax, 157 00:10:13,480 --> 00:10:16,919 let's have a whiskey. There's some filthy cherries, of course, 158 00:10:17,720 --> 00:10:21,960 and explore some ironic fantasies from people just like you 159 00:10:22,039 --> 00:10:25,840 and me. Dear Nigie, I need to get something off 160 00:10:25,840 --> 00:10:29,600 my chest. I'm married, I love my wife, and I 161 00:10:29,639 --> 00:10:32,919 want to make it clear right away. I'm not gay. 162 00:10:33,600 --> 00:10:36,480 I have no interest in men, no interest in penis. 163 00:10:37,120 --> 00:10:40,480 I love women, I love vagina. But I have this 164 00:10:40,600 --> 00:10:43,120 side of me that most people would never know about. 165 00:10:44,000 --> 00:10:47,519 It started small. I tried on boys short panties once, 166 00:10:47,799 --> 00:10:51,399 just out of curiosity, and I liked how soft they felt. 167 00:10:52,240 --> 00:10:56,480 From there, it grew thongs, yoga shorts. My wife knows 168 00:10:56,519 --> 00:10:59,120 about those. She gives me shit about it in a 169 00:10:59,159 --> 00:11:02,440 playful way, but she doesn't realize that it goes further. 170 00:11:03,279 --> 00:11:06,559 When she's not around. I'll sometimes put on her sports bras, 171 00:11:06,720 --> 00:11:11,360 her bralettes, even her lingerie, And when I do, I 172 00:11:11,399 --> 00:11:15,519 feel something I can't really explain. I feel sexy, I 173 00:11:15,559 --> 00:11:19,080 feel feminine, I feel free in a way I don't 174 00:11:19,120 --> 00:11:22,159 get to feel otherwise. Part of me thinks it comes 175 00:11:22,200 --> 00:11:25,879 from a mismatch in our sex drives. This fills a 176 00:11:25,919 --> 00:11:30,000 space that empty sometimes. But it's not just about sex. 177 00:11:30,720 --> 00:11:33,480 It's about how it makes me feel like I'm tapping 178 00:11:33,519 --> 00:11:36,159 into this hidden side of myself that's always been there. 179 00:11:36,879 --> 00:11:38,960 I don't want this to sound like a betrayal of 180 00:11:39,000 --> 00:11:42,679 my wife, because it's not replacing her. It's just this 181 00:11:42,919 --> 00:11:45,559 part of me that I keep locked away, and I 182 00:11:45,679 --> 00:11:48,879 guess I'm confessing it here because I want someone to 183 00:11:48,919 --> 00:11:54,000 hear it out loud. Chris Hullo, Chris, how are you? 184 00:11:55,120 --> 00:11:58,600 This is actually way more common than you think. I 185 00:11:58,639 --> 00:12:02,559 can't tell you how many men and would call and 186 00:12:02,600 --> 00:12:07,720 tell me about this. I actually had a long standing regular, 187 00:12:09,039 --> 00:12:12,919 no name here, but he would he when he first 188 00:12:12,919 --> 00:12:17,200 started calling, he would talk about the boys shorts as 189 00:12:17,200 --> 00:12:20,840 you were saying, that we wear, but they were it 190 00:12:20,919 --> 00:12:23,960 was just the way they felt inside me and knew 191 00:12:24,200 --> 00:12:26,879 there was always more, because there's always more. When they 192 00:12:26,919 --> 00:12:28,879 call it, they always start with the fragment, like you 193 00:12:28,919 --> 00:12:32,519 were saying, just that little step, but an all honesty. 194 00:12:32,720 --> 00:12:39,080 He liked to wear women's lingerie and he had I'm 195 00:12:39,120 --> 00:12:41,759 not saying this is your case or everybody's case, but 196 00:12:41,879 --> 00:12:47,200 he had such a high stressful job the exact opposite 197 00:12:48,399 --> 00:12:51,679 made him like decompressed, kind of like a stress ball 198 00:12:52,080 --> 00:12:54,480 in a way, and he would dress up well. He 199 00:12:54,519 --> 00:12:58,480 also liked to vibe himself. So I've talked about him 200 00:12:58,519 --> 00:13:02,279 before where he took I can't think of the toy 201 00:13:02,360 --> 00:13:05,480 right now, but he would wrap it around him and 202 00:13:06,519 --> 00:13:08,960 he would take bandage though it didn't pull any hair, 203 00:13:08,960 --> 00:13:11,840 but I think he was shaved, he said, and we 204 00:13:11,879 --> 00:13:15,600 would vibe him and he would get off that way. 205 00:13:15,679 --> 00:13:18,399 And he did it every week with me once a week. 206 00:13:19,000 --> 00:13:23,600 And he would wear his panties. And these are the 207 00:13:23,639 --> 00:13:27,000 thinner ones, not the boy shorts, but the speedo like 208 00:13:27,200 --> 00:13:32,240 regular panties or the gosh. I wish I would know 209 00:13:32,440 --> 00:13:38,039 my beauties. They weren't complete thongs. He wore thongs, but 210 00:13:38,120 --> 00:13:40,960 he at work he preferred not to wear them. So 211 00:13:42,120 --> 00:13:45,399 but going back to you, it was a really good 212 00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:48,720 Did he like it? Yes, But he also told me 213 00:13:48,759 --> 00:13:51,399 he said he loves women, absolutely loves women. Wasn't in 214 00:13:51,440 --> 00:13:54,320 a dick, didn't want dick, nothing else. It was just 215 00:13:54,879 --> 00:13:58,440 this is his way of the softer side of him 216 00:13:58,480 --> 00:14:02,559 after being such a hard, hard ass, you know, and 217 00:14:03,080 --> 00:14:07,080 what with the position he had. So I don't see 218 00:14:07,080 --> 00:14:09,559 anything wrong with this. And you're not alone, like I said, 219 00:14:09,600 --> 00:14:14,080 I can't tell you how many men you know, and 220 00:14:14,159 --> 00:14:19,120 he didn't. It was a way for him to decompress 221 00:14:19,320 --> 00:14:23,320 or like they tell somebody that's just needs a moment 222 00:14:23,399 --> 00:14:28,399 to go touch grass. So his was the soft feelings 223 00:14:28,480 --> 00:14:33,639 of lingerie where somebody might go and listen to different 224 00:14:33,759 --> 00:14:37,679 mega hurts to decompress. You know, you know how you 225 00:14:37,720 --> 00:14:41,480 can go. YouTube's a great one where it helps with 226 00:14:41,600 --> 00:14:46,480 the anxiety and everything else, but your brain basically needs 227 00:14:46,559 --> 00:14:50,960 an opposite effect, like a lemon if you know, lemons 228 00:14:50,960 --> 00:14:53,000 can also do it. Or the rubber band around your 229 00:14:53,039 --> 00:14:56,840 wrist snap, snap, snap, and it changes the focus of 230 00:14:56,879 --> 00:14:58,919 your brain like it, you know, that kind of thing 231 00:14:58,960 --> 00:15:02,240 before they take medicine or whatever. Not saying anybody sick 232 00:15:02,279 --> 00:15:08,639 here or anything else. If this helps whatever you need 233 00:15:09,159 --> 00:15:12,399 and makes you feel that way in a positive way, 234 00:15:12,799 --> 00:15:15,679 I am one hundred percent for it. I don't see 235 00:15:15,720 --> 00:15:20,240 anything wrong with this. If this makes you feel great, 236 00:15:20,440 --> 00:15:23,200 if it makes you feel in touch with who you are, 237 00:15:23,279 --> 00:15:28,200 it doesn't make you anything but you, And no judgment 238 00:15:28,240 --> 00:15:31,480 for anybody here. We all have something, you know, is 239 00:15:32,559 --> 00:15:35,600 like I say, we all have something mine. I like 240 00:15:35,639 --> 00:15:39,039 to go touch grass. I remember when you know I 241 00:15:39,679 --> 00:15:44,159 do have xanax, I honestly do. And I hate taking 242 00:15:44,200 --> 00:15:46,919 the shit. And if you are know me personally, I 243 00:15:47,000 --> 00:15:49,120 wait to the very last minute where I should have 244 00:15:49,159 --> 00:15:51,960 took it two hours ago, because I do all the 245 00:15:52,000 --> 00:15:55,320 things that you know that beforehand listen to the megaharts, 246 00:15:55,639 --> 00:15:58,679 go touch grass. You know, if I have a limit, 247 00:15:58,759 --> 00:16:01,480 I even try that, you know, but sometimes you just 248 00:16:01,559 --> 00:16:05,759 gotta take it. But I've also found another way. Masturbation 249 00:16:05,960 --> 00:16:09,320 is another one of mine. You know, there's sometimes I 250 00:16:09,440 --> 00:16:12,960 know that when I'm te too keyed up too often. 251 00:16:13,120 --> 00:16:16,159 See I also speak fast. When I'm onto something or 252 00:16:17,440 --> 00:16:20,440 just a little bit riled, I have to go masturbate 253 00:16:20,639 --> 00:16:26,120 and I need one of those deep orgasms that I 254 00:16:26,200 --> 00:16:27,840 know is going to go to my spine, to my 255 00:16:27,960 --> 00:16:30,879 brain and it it's just like an It just like 256 00:16:30,960 --> 00:16:37,679 it's a release. So if something that someone else would 257 00:16:37,720 --> 00:16:44,279 seem odd helps you release and become yourself again, and 258 00:16:44,360 --> 00:16:49,799 it's positive, who the fuck cares what alpha male or 259 00:16:50,759 --> 00:16:53,519 mega bitch down the street feels like it, because I'm 260 00:16:53,519 --> 00:16:57,320 guaranteeing you the first person that says something has something 261 00:16:57,440 --> 00:17:02,919 weirder than you or they. It's more it's like the 262 00:17:03,120 --> 00:17:06,200 stupid kindergarten saying, you maybe pointing one finger at me, 263 00:17:06,279 --> 00:17:09,400 but you've got four fingers in the thumb maybe depending 264 00:17:09,400 --> 00:17:14,079 on how you're pointing back at you. So Chris, embrace it. 265 00:17:14,400 --> 00:17:18,039 I'm proud of you for trusting me with this you 266 00:17:18,039 --> 00:17:22,359 have me really smiling today, Dear Nikki. This was in 267 00:17:22,640 --> 00:17:25,759 sophomore year of college. I was twenty long, blonde hair, 268 00:17:26,200 --> 00:17:28,599 five ten and in a varsity of a swim team 269 00:17:28,680 --> 00:17:32,680 on our university. We have national competitions that would make 270 00:17:32,759 --> 00:17:35,599 or break it for me. When in continuously meant I 271 00:17:35,599 --> 00:17:39,440 got to keep my scholarship, Losing meant I lost everything 272 00:17:39,480 --> 00:17:42,279 and would have to pay for my own tuition. We 273 00:17:42,279 --> 00:17:45,160 weren't rich, so I really had to grind every day 274 00:17:45,359 --> 00:17:48,400 during training to make sure that I won all my meats. 275 00:17:48,880 --> 00:17:51,279 I did pretty well my freshman year. I won a 276 00:17:51,279 --> 00:17:54,680 few here and there. Then I started with the college parties, 277 00:17:54,920 --> 00:17:58,759 making a new friends and getting into orgies and meeting guys, 278 00:17:59,079 --> 00:18:02,680 which kind of screwed up my momentum. I was almost 279 00:18:02,720 --> 00:18:07,640 always last. I decided, Okay, fuck it, I'll start taking 280 00:18:07,680 --> 00:18:11,400 it seriously again. To qualify for my scholarship, I'd have 281 00:18:11,480 --> 00:18:14,680 to be invaluable to our team. But I kept just 282 00:18:14,799 --> 00:18:18,920 not meeting the mark because this one bitch would absolutely 283 00:18:19,000 --> 00:18:22,480 destroy me during the race. I didn't know what to do. 284 00:18:22,759 --> 00:18:25,880 I kept training, but it was not just fast enough. 285 00:18:26,599 --> 00:18:28,440 One day, I was drinking with my friends at a 286 00:18:28,440 --> 00:18:31,799 bar near our campus and I saw her there, curly 287 00:18:31,839 --> 00:18:35,839 brown hair, long legs, hot ass shit. I guess she 288 00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:39,359 decided that day that bras weren't her thing because you 289 00:18:39,359 --> 00:18:42,720 could fully see her tits through her t shirt. I 290 00:18:42,839 --> 00:18:46,799 was quietly judgmental back then. I admit I was a 291 00:18:46,799 --> 00:18:49,680 little bit buzzed and had a few shots, so the 292 00:18:49,680 --> 00:18:53,079 only confidence I needed to blast her. I was fuming 293 00:18:53,839 --> 00:18:56,960 she was the only thing getting in between me and 294 00:18:57,000 --> 00:19:00,400 my win. I came up to her completely expect a 295 00:19:00,480 --> 00:19:04,400 mean entry, but she hugged me and said, oh my god. Hi. 296 00:19:05,519 --> 00:19:08,559 She was red and hot too, probably drank a bit 297 00:19:08,640 --> 00:19:11,920 more than me. I felt her boobs press up against mine. 298 00:19:12,200 --> 00:19:15,519 I was blurry up until that point. I've only really 299 00:19:15,680 --> 00:19:19,599 liked to fuck guys. I never questioned my sexuality ever, 300 00:19:20,240 --> 00:19:23,119 so it must have been the alcohol. We talked a little, 301 00:19:23,240 --> 00:19:26,880 no flirting, just serious talk about our matches. It was 302 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:29,759 casual until I brought up her beating me at every 303 00:19:30,119 --> 00:19:35,079 single race. That's not my fault, babe, She joked, yeah, 304 00:19:35,119 --> 00:19:38,960 but fuck, could you just slow down a bit? Maybe 305 00:19:39,000 --> 00:19:42,400 you need to speed up. I took a shot. I 306 00:19:42,519 --> 00:19:45,960 was dazed. I had nothing to lose. What can I 307 00:19:46,000 --> 00:19:49,519 do to get you to lose for once. She stared 308 00:19:49,599 --> 00:19:52,440 me straight in the eyes and teased, I don't know 309 00:19:52,960 --> 00:19:55,960 what can you do. I wasn't sure what she meant, 310 00:19:56,480 --> 00:19:59,640 but I probably six shots in. I could feel her 311 00:19:59,640 --> 00:20:02,880 hot break on my face. My heart was pounding, so 312 00:20:02,920 --> 00:20:06,079 I grabbed her by the waist and kissed her. She 313 00:20:06,160 --> 00:20:10,400 was so soft, tasted like alcohol, but who fucking cared. 314 00:20:10,960 --> 00:20:13,279 I could feel my pussy vibrating, and she grabbed me 315 00:20:13,359 --> 00:20:17,599 back too. I could hear our friends saying holy shit 316 00:20:18,000 --> 00:20:21,240 in the background, but I didn't give a fuck because 317 00:20:21,240 --> 00:20:24,039 I could feel her tongue in my mouth. I pulled 318 00:20:24,039 --> 00:20:28,000 away for a second. I had to contemplate. I pretended 319 00:20:28,000 --> 00:20:30,599 to check my phone and said I had to go. 320 00:20:31,359 --> 00:20:34,839 I wasn't gay, I wasn't fucking a girl for anything. 321 00:20:35,640 --> 00:20:37,480 I left the bar and didn't see her until our 322 00:20:37,559 --> 00:20:42,240 next race. I lost again. I was pissed. I stayed 323 00:20:42,240 --> 00:20:45,279 in the locker room for hours until everyone left. I 324 00:20:45,359 --> 00:20:48,160 walked out into the pool area. She was there again. 325 00:20:48,839 --> 00:20:51,039 She said she saw me get angry and waited for me. 326 00:20:51,759 --> 00:20:53,160 I sat at the edge of the pool and she 327 00:20:53,200 --> 00:20:56,519 sat next to me. I was still frustrated at that point. 328 00:20:57,359 --> 00:20:59,720 My coach said, I had one chance to win a 329 00:20:59,759 --> 00:21:04,119 meet or else I'm out. Can you throw? I asked hesitantly, 330 00:21:04,920 --> 00:21:08,440 Like what a ball? I thought she was fucking gorgeous, 331 00:21:08,480 --> 00:21:12,440 but dumbest shit. Okay, so I was just an insecure 332 00:21:12,480 --> 00:21:15,480 bitch at the time. No, Like, can you throw a 333 00:21:15,559 --> 00:21:18,799 race for me? I can't lose another one. I'm fucked 334 00:21:18,839 --> 00:21:21,960 if I do. What's in it for me? It's just 335 00:21:22,039 --> 00:21:25,920 the third spot, just to swim faster. Yeah, I can't 336 00:21:25,960 --> 00:21:29,400 even get the fucking third place. I kicked the water 337 00:21:29,440 --> 00:21:32,039 and she gets a little wet. I haven't changed out 338 00:21:32,039 --> 00:21:34,759 of my suit, but she's already in a shirt and 339 00:21:34,839 --> 00:21:38,519 the shortest shorts I've ever could imagine. Her tits were gorgeous. 340 00:21:39,039 --> 00:21:41,519 I was jealous more than I was attracted to her. 341 00:21:42,160 --> 00:21:45,400 She looked at me. I was nervous. I didn't know 342 00:21:45,440 --> 00:21:48,759 if she had anything good to say. Give me something 343 00:21:48,759 --> 00:21:52,559 and I'll throw. She promised, what do you want? I like, 344 00:21:52,599 --> 00:21:56,519 have zero money in my bank account? Nuh, she whispered, 345 00:21:57,119 --> 00:21:59,920 then grab the back of my head and kissed me again. 346 00:22:00,640 --> 00:22:02,480 Her hand made its way down to my thighs, and 347 00:22:02,519 --> 00:22:05,839 I jumped a little. I've never done this before. I 348 00:22:05,839 --> 00:22:09,440 could feel her fingers moving slowly towards my pussy. I 349 00:22:09,519 --> 00:22:12,039 trembled at the thought that she put her fingers inside me. 350 00:22:12,799 --> 00:22:15,240 She took my hand and zipped her shorts, making me 351 00:22:15,319 --> 00:22:18,640 touch her too. I nudged away a little. Do you 352 00:22:18,640 --> 00:22:21,559 want me to throw or what? She pulled me back 353 00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:24,799 closer to her. I tried my best with what I knew. 354 00:22:25,319 --> 00:22:28,200 I softly touched her clip, rubbing it in circles while 355 00:22:28,240 --> 00:22:31,200 kissing her. I heard her moan a little, so I 356 00:22:31,240 --> 00:22:34,279 thought I must be doing something right. She kissed me 357 00:22:34,319 --> 00:22:36,599 harder and pushed me on to the cold tiled floor. 358 00:22:37,319 --> 00:22:40,119 It was dark, but I could see her face. Her 359 00:22:40,160 --> 00:22:43,160 curls fell into her eyes, and she tucked them behind 360 00:22:43,160 --> 00:22:45,799 her ears and kissed me more. She sat up and 361 00:22:45,799 --> 00:22:47,920 pulled my suit to the side and put two fingers 362 00:22:47,960 --> 00:22:52,359 inside me. I almost screamed. Her middle and ring fingers 363 00:22:52,400 --> 00:22:54,519 were bent in a way that I could feel the 364 00:22:54,599 --> 00:22:57,599 tips at the roof of my pussy. I felt like 365 00:22:57,640 --> 00:23:00,640 I was going to pee. I've never had a finger 366 00:23:00,799 --> 00:23:03,759 or fuck me like this before. She rubbed my clit 367 00:23:03,839 --> 00:23:06,039 with her thumb while the other hand fucked me with 368 00:23:06,119 --> 00:23:10,119 her fingers. I wanted to scream I've never felt like 369 00:23:10,160 --> 00:23:13,039 this before. I knew it was coming, so I held 370 00:23:13,039 --> 00:23:16,079 my breath and closed my eyes shut. I felt an 371 00:23:16,079 --> 00:23:20,200 explosion inside my body. I exhaled loudly for what felt 372 00:23:20,279 --> 00:23:24,119 like I was going to die. She was so fucking good. 373 00:23:24,880 --> 00:23:27,960 She pulled my swimsuit back in order and said, get 374 00:23:28,039 --> 00:23:31,720 dressed and I'll wait. At that point, I was willing 375 00:23:31,720 --> 00:23:34,160 to do whatever the fuck she wanted. I didn't even 376 00:23:34,160 --> 00:23:37,640 care if she threw any more. I wanted more. I 377 00:23:37,680 --> 00:23:39,640 got dressed quickly and ran out, and we walked to 378 00:23:39,680 --> 00:23:42,599 her car. She drove us to her apartment. When we 379 00:23:42,680 --> 00:23:45,559 got in, she immediately took her shorts off. Her legs 380 00:23:45,559 --> 00:23:48,440 are gorgeous. She was one of the hottest girls I've 381 00:23:48,480 --> 00:23:51,400 ever met. She gave me a glass of water and 382 00:23:51,519 --> 00:23:55,119 asked if I wanted a snack. I said no. She 383 00:23:55,160 --> 00:23:58,000 had a studio apartment, so we immediately sat on her bed. 384 00:23:58,640 --> 00:24:01,720 I'm going to teach you how to do me, she whispered. 385 00:24:02,480 --> 00:24:05,279 She tucked my hair behind my ears and kissed me softly. Again. 386 00:24:06,000 --> 00:24:08,559 She lied down and took her underwear off. If you 387 00:24:08,599 --> 00:24:11,880 don't want to do it, it's fine, but I want 388 00:24:11,880 --> 00:24:15,720 to teach you. She said, no, it's okay. What do 389 00:24:15,799 --> 00:24:18,359 I do? She spread her legs and told me to 390 00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:21,799 get down there. She asked, what do you like to feel? 391 00:24:22,480 --> 00:24:25,000 Do that to me? I realized she wanted me to 392 00:24:25,039 --> 00:24:28,079 eat her out. I've never really had a guide to 393 00:24:28,119 --> 00:24:32,519 do that to me before. Okay, like this, take your 394 00:24:32,559 --> 00:24:37,680 tongue and tap my clit softly. Then just do the 395 00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:41,319 same when you're playing with your clit to look it 396 00:24:41,440 --> 00:24:45,920 fast until I tell you to stop. I did my best. 397 00:24:46,319 --> 00:24:48,799 I got my tongue as wet as I could and 398 00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:51,960 licked her clit softly. I felt her jump a little. 399 00:24:52,519 --> 00:24:56,240 I did it more. I took two fingers, the same 400 00:24:56,240 --> 00:24:58,720 one she used on me and did what she did 401 00:24:58,759 --> 00:25:02,160 to me. Licked her pussy fast and pulled my fingers 402 00:25:02,200 --> 00:25:05,720 in and out of her too. I licked and licked 403 00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:11,359 until she said fuck. She sat up and held my face. 404 00:25:12,160 --> 00:25:15,480 Thank you, she exhaled. She pushed me on my back 405 00:25:15,519 --> 00:25:17,960 and kissed me on the lips, then on the neck. 406 00:25:18,519 --> 00:25:20,519 Then she took my shirt off and kissed my chest. 407 00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:24,160 She sucked on my right nibbles softly while she twisted 408 00:25:24,160 --> 00:25:27,119 the other with her fingers. She pushed my legs open 409 00:25:27,160 --> 00:25:30,079 and took my shorts and underwear off. She went down 410 00:25:30,079 --> 00:25:32,839 on me too. She licked my clip the same way 411 00:25:32,839 --> 00:25:37,400 I did, but I feel like she was better, way better. 412 00:25:38,119 --> 00:25:40,680 I felt it everywhere in my body. Her hands were 413 00:25:40,759 --> 00:25:44,079 rubbing my inner thighs while she just pulsed her tongue 414 00:25:44,079 --> 00:25:47,680 on my clip. I fucking came on her face. Her 415 00:25:47,720 --> 00:25:51,319 mouth was so wet. I loved every minute of it. 416 00:25:51,960 --> 00:25:54,960 My heart was pounding. When she sat up, she lied 417 00:25:55,000 --> 00:25:58,079 down next to me. We fucked more the entire night. 418 00:25:59,000 --> 00:26:01,160 When we were finished, I wasn't sure if I wanted 419 00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:03,519 to ask her to throw the game from me. I 420 00:26:03,559 --> 00:26:05,599 took a nap, then booked a ride. In the morning. 421 00:26:06,279 --> 00:26:08,359 She offered to give me a ride or get breakfast, 422 00:26:08,400 --> 00:26:10,359 but I just wanted to go home and take a shower. 423 00:26:11,119 --> 00:26:14,559 I was conflicted at that point. She was so fucking 424 00:26:14,640 --> 00:26:17,440 great and beautiful, but I had to figure a lot 425 00:26:17,480 --> 00:26:20,079 of shit out too. I didn't see her until the 426 00:26:20,119 --> 00:26:23,440 next match she threw. I got third place, which was 427 00:26:23,480 --> 00:26:26,039 good enough to keep me around the team until I 428 00:26:26,119 --> 00:26:29,240 tried even harder. I never talked to her again after that. 429 00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:32,440 I also eventually gave up on swimming after a year. 430 00:26:33,200 --> 00:26:36,079 She gave me the best sex of my life. At 431 00:26:36,119 --> 00:26:40,039 that point, and a year of tuition, I realized I 432 00:26:40,200 --> 00:26:43,559 was too straight to pursue her seriously. She was my 433 00:26:43,680 --> 00:26:51,000 typical experimental college phase, Heather. I think we all have 434 00:26:52,039 --> 00:26:57,599 a experimental college phase. I think I've told you mine. 435 00:26:58,279 --> 00:27:02,480 Mine wasn't quite as nice. Yeah, not as nice as 436 00:27:02,519 --> 00:27:05,799 all at all. It was a little odd. But I 437 00:27:06,160 --> 00:27:10,799 do think we should experiment, not just say Okay, college 438 00:27:10,839 --> 00:27:15,079 is over, let's stop experimenting. And I actually hate that phase, 439 00:27:15,319 --> 00:27:17,920 you know, because in college you experiment, and you know 440 00:27:17,960 --> 00:27:20,039 after that you're supposed to just hang up and not 441 00:27:20,119 --> 00:27:25,279 be experiment Just it feels so okay, after this, it's 442 00:27:25,519 --> 00:27:29,279 no more fun, no more this, no more that we're 443 00:27:29,319 --> 00:27:33,799 supposed to be and only be this. And I absolutely 444 00:27:33,839 --> 00:27:36,920 hate that. I've always hated that phrase. It doesn't mean 445 00:27:37,039 --> 00:27:41,640 that it's there's decorum and things happen, you know, in 446 00:27:41,720 --> 00:27:46,400 certain situations. But I don't ever think we should stop experimenting. 447 00:27:46,599 --> 00:27:51,039 I mean, I'm glad Howther realized that she was too straight, 448 00:27:51,559 --> 00:27:57,000 But does it mean that she can't play with women 449 00:27:57,319 --> 00:28:00,440 but not want to romantically be with them Alte not. 450 00:28:00,559 --> 00:28:03,039 I don't think she should rule that out. I mean, 451 00:28:03,079 --> 00:28:05,160 but unless she can honestly say, you know, yeah, it 452 00:28:05,240 --> 00:28:08,079 was a one time thing. I you know, I'm not 453 00:28:09,039 --> 00:28:12,440 really interested at this point. It's you know, going down 454 00:28:12,440 --> 00:28:15,039 that road. I don't know, it just kind of left, 455 00:28:15,039 --> 00:28:18,200 like you know, She's just it was once it was done, 456 00:28:18,440 --> 00:28:20,920 it was great and I'll never do it again. And 457 00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:24,240 that's a shame. But that's honestly how she feels. Then 458 00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:26,359 none of us can change that. And I'm not gonna 459 00:28:26,359 --> 00:28:30,400 shame her for taking that stance. I'm glad she was 460 00:28:30,480 --> 00:28:33,839 conflicted about asking her to throw, because I don't know 461 00:28:34,000 --> 00:28:37,839 how many you know about swimming, and I can think 462 00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:39,480 of a few other sports that are like this. I 463 00:28:39,480 --> 00:28:42,759 could come down to the mill a seconds you know, 464 00:28:42,880 --> 00:28:45,400 your college tuish and can come down to you know, 465 00:28:45,920 --> 00:28:51,200 hundreds of seconds and being fourth place, and you know, 466 00:28:51,799 --> 00:28:57,920 I couldn't imagine going that far. And you know, I swam. 467 00:28:58,000 --> 00:29:01,240 I didn't pursue going that far with it. I maybe 468 00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:06,640 should have, but I couldn't imagine the stress of having 469 00:29:06,680 --> 00:29:09,839 that on my shoulders, plus being attracted and wanting to 470 00:29:09,880 --> 00:29:13,319 experiment and yet yeah, yeah, yeah, I just I don't 471 00:29:13,319 --> 00:29:16,279 think I would cope. Well, so kudos for you on that, Heather, 472 00:29:17,680 --> 00:29:23,759 if you had a chance to experiment again and your 473 00:29:23,839 --> 00:29:26,759 college phase, or even if you didn't go to college, 474 00:29:26,799 --> 00:29:31,720 you're said and said after high school stage, you know, 475 00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:35,519 the couple years where I guess it's a grace period 476 00:29:35,640 --> 00:29:40,240 until you know responsibility. I don't know. Some of us 477 00:29:40,359 --> 00:29:42,359 took the College of Life. So if you took the 478 00:29:42,400 --> 00:29:45,039 College of Life, are we still in our college experimental phase? 479 00:29:45,759 --> 00:29:48,319 That's a great question. I think. Kudos for me for 480 00:29:48,400 --> 00:29:53,920 thinking of it. I really hope none of you have 481 00:29:54,559 --> 00:30:00,000 hung up your experimental phase. You're here so obviously you 482 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:04,319 you probably haven't were thinking about starting your experimental face. 483 00:30:04,359 --> 00:30:08,799 And that's great. Experimental phases changes through life, just like 484 00:30:09,720 --> 00:30:12,400 you know now, I kind of like broccoli when I 485 00:30:12,440 --> 00:30:17,680 couldn't stand years ago. It's stunk, But you know, I 486 00:30:17,680 --> 00:30:21,559 don't mind stuff anymore. I'll eat it. So what I'm 487 00:30:21,599 --> 00:30:26,680 saying is our mental phases did change and grow, and 488 00:30:26,799 --> 00:30:30,279 I think as long as they're consensual and yeta, yaha, yeada, 489 00:30:30,359 --> 00:30:32,880 YadA and all the phase words here, I think we 490 00:30:32,920 --> 00:30:37,559 should embrace them. Of course, the corn please, and you know, 491 00:30:38,200 --> 00:30:41,200 as long as it's happening in there, let it happen. 492 00:30:42,200 --> 00:30:45,480 Dear Nikki. I enjoy listening to your podcast so much 493 00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:48,680 I felt I needed to contribute. This happened a few 494 00:30:48,759 --> 00:30:51,279 years ago when my wife and I were really rough 495 00:30:51,319 --> 00:30:54,680 patch and Craigslist was still going on. I placed an 496 00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:57,720 ad looking for our friends with benefits, not expecting anything 497 00:30:57,759 --> 00:30:59,720 to come of it, as ninety nine percent of my 498 00:30:59,720 --> 00:31:04,400 past experiences with dating sites and such was total bullshit. 499 00:31:05,160 --> 00:31:07,880 One day, though, I received a message that I skim 500 00:31:07,960 --> 00:31:10,839 passed in. Later that day, I get another message from 501 00:31:10,839 --> 00:31:14,279 the same person asking me why I would put and 502 00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:17,920 add there and not answer it. It caught my eye. 503 00:31:18,079 --> 00:31:21,799 This young lady, we'll call her Rachel, had accidentally sent 504 00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:24,920 me three or four messages wanting to meet before one 505 00:31:25,039 --> 00:31:28,200 last caught my eye. I messed her back and she 506 00:31:28,319 --> 00:31:32,559 replied back almost immediately. I asked her what she was 507 00:31:32,599 --> 00:31:36,319 looking for and where she was located, expecting her to 508 00:31:36,359 --> 00:31:39,640 be three states away, and she replied back that she 509 00:31:39,799 --> 00:31:43,119 was only about three miles away from where I was at, 510 00:31:43,519 --> 00:31:47,359 and she was looking for as I was, of French benefits. 511 00:31:48,119 --> 00:31:50,720 So after several messages, we agreed to meet at the 512 00:31:50,759 --> 00:31:54,960 local coffee chain and just see where it went. About 513 00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:58,359 Fifteen minutes later, I arrived at the place and waited 514 00:31:58,359 --> 00:32:00,000 a bit to see if I could get a glimpse 515 00:32:00,079 --> 00:32:03,759 of her before I went inside. No such luck. I 516 00:32:03,799 --> 00:32:07,799 started thinking, Yeah, she's pulling my leg. So I'd decided 517 00:32:07,839 --> 00:32:09,599 to go ahead and go in and get a cup 518 00:32:09,599 --> 00:32:12,880 of Joe. I mean, no sense of going and not 519 00:32:12,920 --> 00:32:16,519 getting a cup of mud. Right just as I sat 520 00:32:16,559 --> 00:32:19,640 down with my coffee and my laptop, walks in this 521 00:32:19,920 --> 00:32:23,599 really cute sexy blonde about five to one and dressed 522 00:32:23,720 --> 00:32:27,160 very nicely. She stopped and looked around for me. I 523 00:32:27,240 --> 00:32:30,359 told her I'd be wearing a purple shirt, and I 524 00:32:30,480 --> 00:32:33,519 do mean purple. As soon as she spotted me, she 525 00:32:33,640 --> 00:32:37,440 got this really sexy smile on her face. She came 526 00:32:37,480 --> 00:32:40,319 over and sat down, and we introduced ourselves, and I 527 00:32:40,400 --> 00:32:43,039 asked her if I could get her a cup of coffee. 528 00:32:43,079 --> 00:32:47,039 She said, no, thanks, I don't drink coffee, but we 529 00:32:47,119 --> 00:32:50,359 can sit here and talk. So we talked about what 530 00:32:50,480 --> 00:32:52,799 I got us both at this point in our marriages. 531 00:32:53,400 --> 00:32:55,839 She was married to our high school sweetheart and a 532 00:32:55,960 --> 00:32:59,000 rocky thirty year marriage and had never been with anyone 533 00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:01,799 else but him. I let her know that my marriage 534 00:33:02,079 --> 00:33:06,440 not my first one, which started out like many with hot, sizzling, passionate, 535 00:33:06,559 --> 00:33:10,359 and somewhat kinky, but rapidly faded after a few years, 536 00:33:10,759 --> 00:33:14,240 but true love remained. We both let each other know 537 00:33:14,359 --> 00:33:17,640 that we had zero intentions of leaving our spouses, as 538 00:33:17,759 --> 00:33:21,480 we both had too much invested into our relationship. It 539 00:33:21,559 --> 00:33:24,480 wasn't long and I had finished my coffee and suggested 540 00:33:24,519 --> 00:33:27,920 that we continue our conversation outside of my truck, and 541 00:33:28,039 --> 00:33:31,400 she said, let's go. Walking out to my truck, I 542 00:33:31,440 --> 00:33:34,000 thought I'd be doing good to even get a kiss 543 00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:37,920 from this sexy vixen, much less anything else. I opened 544 00:33:37,920 --> 00:33:40,359 the door for her and then went around and got in, 545 00:33:40,720 --> 00:33:43,279 and as soon as I closed my door, she jumped 546 00:33:43,279 --> 00:33:46,680 over the console and laid a really hard, sexy kiss 547 00:33:46,680 --> 00:33:49,960 on me, sticking her tongue down my throat, and as 548 00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:53,200 soon as she pulled back, I returned the favor. We 549 00:33:53,319 --> 00:33:55,839 continued our kiss, and I started pulling in her shirt 550 00:33:55,920 --> 00:33:58,599 and working my way under her brawl to play with 551 00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:01,160 her nipples. As as soon as I got one of 552 00:34:01,200 --> 00:34:04,400 her nipples between my thumb and finger and started rolling around, 553 00:34:04,920 --> 00:34:09,239 she stopped the kiss and grasped hard several times. I 554 00:34:09,239 --> 00:34:11,760 asked her if it felt good, and it seemed like 555 00:34:11,840 --> 00:34:16,239 it took everything she had to utter out uh huh. 556 00:34:16,840 --> 00:34:18,559 I asked her if we needed to go somewhere else 557 00:34:18,599 --> 00:34:22,920 to continue this, and once again she uttered uh huh. 558 00:34:23,639 --> 00:34:26,280 With my free hand, I started the truck and asked her, 559 00:34:26,559 --> 00:34:30,599 are you sure, and she said, hell, yeah, I'm sure. 560 00:34:31,400 --> 00:34:33,480 So we broke hold of each other and headed to 561 00:34:33,519 --> 00:34:36,679 the hotel that was conveniently only a mile down the street. 562 00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:39,760 I got us a room towards the back, and when 563 00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:42,480 we went in, I closed the door and she whirled 564 00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:45,519 around and grabbed me shove against the wall, and I 565 00:34:45,599 --> 00:34:47,800 spun her around and pinned her up against the wall, 566 00:34:48,239 --> 00:34:51,519 where we started tearing each other's clothes off. Within three 567 00:34:51,559 --> 00:34:54,239 minutes of walking into the room, we were naked on 568 00:34:54,280 --> 00:34:57,360 the bed going to town. Our first time was quick, 569 00:34:57,400 --> 00:34:59,400 as we both had each other so worked up that 570 00:34:59,480 --> 00:35:02,519 she organed as soon as I slid into her. That 571 00:35:02,760 --> 00:35:05,239 orgasm was followed up in a short minute or two 572 00:35:05,320 --> 00:35:08,239 with a huge gussing oh as she led out a 573 00:35:08,280 --> 00:35:11,280 screaming moan that was sure to be heard down the street. 574 00:35:12,199 --> 00:35:15,039 I came very shortly thereafter, and we both had just 575 00:35:15,119 --> 00:35:18,320 collapsed trying to catch our breath. We both lay there 576 00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:20,800 for a bit talking about how great of an orgasm. 577 00:35:21,119 --> 00:35:24,119 We both just had a bit more talking, and the 578 00:35:24,320 --> 00:35:26,800 next thing I know, she started kissing on me and 579 00:35:26,840 --> 00:35:29,280 then worked her way to my chest and now onto 580 00:35:29,280 --> 00:35:32,519 my rising cock, and she began to lick me clean. 581 00:35:33,320 --> 00:35:35,519 Once she had it all clean and hard as a 582 00:35:35,599 --> 00:35:39,679 rock again, she climbed on top of me. Oh my god, ladies, 583 00:35:39,760 --> 00:35:44,280 if you truly knew how much men enjoy cowgirl, and 584 00:35:44,400 --> 00:35:48,079 slid me into her and started grinding away. Now that 585 00:35:48,119 --> 00:35:50,760 our first time was over and she was starting round two, 586 00:35:51,239 --> 00:35:55,360 I was able to control myself much better. Rachel started 587 00:35:55,400 --> 00:35:58,800 back and forth motions, but long before she started to 588 00:35:58,800 --> 00:36:02,239 come again, our beautiful juices started to flow all over 589 00:36:02,320 --> 00:36:05,719 me and the bed. She had at least eight or 590 00:36:05,840 --> 00:36:09,760 nine more orgasms before I rolled her over and pounded 591 00:36:09,760 --> 00:36:12,239 her as hard as I could. I could tell she 592 00:36:12,239 --> 00:36:16,159 had gone into some orgasmic trance that was only stopped 593 00:36:16,159 --> 00:36:19,000 by me coming my second time. She grabbed me and 594 00:36:19,039 --> 00:36:21,480 held me there, wanting to feel my cock go limp, 595 00:36:21,840 --> 00:36:25,280 and eventually slid out of her. Luckily, this cheap hotel 596 00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:27,840 did have a couple of bottles of water in the room, 597 00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:31,079 so I got up and got a hot washcloth in 598 00:36:31,079 --> 00:36:33,159 the water, and we laid there and talked for a 599 00:36:33,199 --> 00:36:36,400 bit more about our likes and dislikes, both sexual and 600 00:36:36,480 --> 00:36:40,800 non sexual, quenching our thirst. As we realized how much 601 00:36:40,840 --> 00:36:43,239 time had passed, we talked about how both wanted to 602 00:36:43,280 --> 00:36:46,679 continue this and see where it led. We got up 603 00:36:46,719 --> 00:36:49,400 and started getting dressed, and she reached over and pinched 604 00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:53,480 my nipple and I playfully returned the favor, and that 605 00:36:53,639 --> 00:36:55,840 through the switch for the few clothes that we had 606 00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:58,559 to put on come off again. This time was a 607 00:36:58,559 --> 00:37:02,119 tad bit different. As we kissed, my cock was starting 608 00:37:02,119 --> 00:37:05,039 get hard again. She turned around for a little doggie, 609 00:37:05,119 --> 00:37:07,920 or so I thought, as I went to slide in 610 00:37:07,960 --> 00:37:10,840 that steaming hot pussy of hers, she reached around and said, no, 611 00:37:11,760 --> 00:37:15,639 not there, and guided my cock into her ass. I 612 00:37:15,719 --> 00:37:19,000 only thought she had a tight little pussy. At first, 613 00:37:19,000 --> 00:37:22,280 I didn't think it would go in, as I'm pretty grothy. 614 00:37:22,920 --> 00:37:25,519 With a little effort on both of our parts, the 615 00:37:25,599 --> 00:37:29,440 head finally popped in with a little audible pop, and 616 00:37:29,559 --> 00:37:32,400 Rachel gasped and became totally silent for the first time 617 00:37:32,440 --> 00:37:35,960 since we walked into the room, knowing her silence could 618 00:37:35,960 --> 00:37:38,719 mean several things. I slowly pushed on and watching how 619 00:37:38,840 --> 00:37:41,719 Rachel twitched and moved as I worried that I might 620 00:37:41,800 --> 00:37:45,079 hurt her. Before long, I was balls deep in her ass, 621 00:37:45,119 --> 00:37:47,440 and she started to moan and move back and forth. 622 00:37:48,280 --> 00:37:50,960 I let her lead this exercise, as I truly did 623 00:37:50,960 --> 00:37:53,960 not want to send her home injured. It was amazing 624 00:37:54,000 --> 00:37:57,519 how Rachel slowly built up a head steam, sliding my 625 00:37:57,639 --> 00:38:00,800 cock in and out of herself. I just stood there 626 00:38:00,840 --> 00:38:03,760 on my knees watching her. It didn't take her long 627 00:38:03,840 --> 00:38:06,679 as she was full pound mode, and before I knew it, 628 00:38:06,760 --> 00:38:09,440 she was squirting all over us in the bed again. 629 00:38:10,239 --> 00:38:12,800 I've been with several women in my past as squirted, 630 00:38:13,239 --> 00:38:17,159 but never has anyone past our presence squirted as much 631 00:38:17,199 --> 00:38:20,840 as Rachel did. That day. She had several more orgasms, 632 00:38:20,880 --> 00:38:23,920 and we literally lost count as to how many she got. 633 00:38:24,679 --> 00:38:27,679 I finally blew my third and final load into her ass. 634 00:38:28,480 --> 00:38:30,760 We laid there a few more minutes before she noticed 635 00:38:30,760 --> 00:38:34,400 what time it was and said, shit, I gotta go 636 00:38:34,519 --> 00:38:37,280 so he doesn't beat me home. I spoke to her 637 00:38:37,320 --> 00:38:39,880 the next day and she said she was walking in 638 00:38:39,960 --> 00:38:42,800 the back door and he was walking into the front door. 639 00:38:43,519 --> 00:38:45,960 He asked her why she was all sweaty and frazzled 640 00:38:46,400 --> 00:38:48,320 looking as she told him it'd just been a rough 641 00:38:48,440 --> 00:38:51,639 day and she didn't want to talk about it. Rachel 642 00:38:51,679 --> 00:38:54,039 and I met on several more times at the same 643 00:38:54,079 --> 00:38:57,039 hotel and her home when he was out of town, 644 00:38:57,400 --> 00:39:00,639 and even met at a cemetery a few times. It 645 00:39:00,679 --> 00:39:03,320 was fun and a freaky right up until the groundskeeper 646 00:39:03,400 --> 00:39:06,159 walked up on us laying on the blanket butt ass 647 00:39:06,239 --> 00:39:08,559 naked in a secluded part of the cemetery in the 648 00:39:08,599 --> 00:39:11,639 middle of the day. He was nice enough and said 649 00:39:11,679 --> 00:39:13,320 that we needed to get out of there, and that 650 00:39:13,400 --> 00:39:15,880 he was going to walk slowly back to the office, 651 00:39:16,239 --> 00:39:18,559 and we've gone by the time he got there. He 652 00:39:18,599 --> 00:39:22,360 wouldn't call the police. The funny thing is we got dressed. 653 00:39:22,400 --> 00:39:25,599 He walked away and he made the comment thanks. I 654 00:39:25,679 --> 00:39:34,039 enjoyed that. Thanks Josh, Hello, Josh, so has anybody I 655 00:39:34,159 --> 00:39:36,880 know it's not called this, but I only know it 656 00:39:36,920 --> 00:39:40,880 as the Pinia Kalada song. Josh, I really thought this 657 00:39:40,960 --> 00:39:44,320 was going to be like the Pinya Kalada song, just 658 00:39:44,360 --> 00:39:48,159 saying I kind of the way things are going. I 659 00:39:48,280 --> 00:39:51,719 was like, you watch they dressed this up. But no, 660 00:39:52,280 --> 00:39:54,920 so I'm not saying I wished it would have because 661 00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:58,599 it was hot. I really would love to hear the 662 00:39:59,320 --> 00:40:02,800 we've never had the story out of a cemetery. Oh 663 00:40:02,840 --> 00:40:05,280 you watch, We're gonna get symons terry stories now, guys, 664 00:40:05,719 --> 00:40:07,559 I mean, each of their own wherever you guys want 665 00:40:07,559 --> 00:40:12,280 to do it right. There's something about friends with benefits. 666 00:40:12,320 --> 00:40:15,880 They can be dangerous. They very much can, especially if 667 00:40:16,199 --> 00:40:19,639 someone wants to be more than the bee and not 668 00:40:19,719 --> 00:40:25,960 a bitch. Sometimes having a friends with benefits does help. 669 00:40:26,639 --> 00:40:33,079 And no judgment on my part whatsoever, I've been one, 670 00:40:33,159 --> 00:40:39,800 and I remember the guy saying, you know, how do 671 00:40:39,559 --> 00:40:41,719 He said something to the effect of, because I mean, 672 00:40:41,760 --> 00:40:45,639 it's just so long ago. He said, I thought you 673 00:40:45,679 --> 00:40:48,719 would fall for me. I'm like, that's I mean, I 674 00:40:48,760 --> 00:40:52,039 could have. But it was very clear on what he wanted, 675 00:40:52,159 --> 00:40:54,480 but obviously went and clear what he wanted in his head. 676 00:40:55,400 --> 00:40:59,559 What gets me is when you guys write in and 677 00:41:00,039 --> 00:41:03,920 for somebody will write in and there's a line that 678 00:41:04,000 --> 00:41:06,599 a few of you have written time and time again 679 00:41:06,639 --> 00:41:09,760 in the last couple of weeks, and it's where you 680 00:41:09,800 --> 00:41:13,800 guys stop and you ask the other person, are you sure, 681 00:41:14,679 --> 00:41:19,159 And it always brings me back to a memory of 682 00:41:20,239 --> 00:41:22,800 It wasn't a friends with benefits story, that's for sure, 683 00:41:23,360 --> 00:41:25,880 but it's very special. So I only will tell you 684 00:41:26,000 --> 00:41:30,599 a tiny bit. So I was out of town and 685 00:41:30,639 --> 00:41:33,599 I had been talking to this person for a long time. 686 00:41:33,679 --> 00:41:37,239 We never met, and it was just one of those 687 00:41:38,519 --> 00:41:41,800 what the fuck? And I drove there and got a 688 00:41:41,800 --> 00:41:46,480 condo and they happened to be in town for whatever reason, 689 00:41:46,760 --> 00:41:52,559 and we met up and yeah, I remember kind of 690 00:41:52,599 --> 00:41:55,599 like this. We didn't rip each other's clothes off. I mean, 691 00:41:55,760 --> 00:42:00,960 trust me, there was very big intentions and really wanting to, 692 00:42:01,159 --> 00:42:04,360 but it was very nice to put a name with 693 00:42:04,440 --> 00:42:08,800 a face. And I don't remember what led us from 694 00:42:08,880 --> 00:42:12,639 wine on the couch to the bedroom. I don't remember 695 00:42:12,679 --> 00:42:16,320 at all. It could have been kissing. I don't know. 696 00:42:17,159 --> 00:42:22,159 It's very much a blur, but I do remember stopping 697 00:42:23,119 --> 00:42:29,000 and asking him was he sure? And he asked back, 698 00:42:30,039 --> 00:42:34,599 and I think my comment was I wouldn't have drove 699 00:42:34,719 --> 00:42:37,440 thousands of miles if I would, because I did. I 700 00:42:37,519 --> 00:42:42,519 drove a couple thousand, not quite cross country, but middle 701 00:42:42,559 --> 00:42:49,000 country to the other side. So yeah, that was my answer. 702 00:42:50,440 --> 00:42:53,400 So then we went at it and we did it 703 00:42:53,440 --> 00:42:58,400 for a week, and yes, it's one of the best 704 00:42:58,440 --> 00:43:03,039 sex romantic weeks I've one of them I've ever had, 705 00:43:03,079 --> 00:43:05,960 and it's very much up there, and I do think 706 00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:09,320 about it quite often, especially when you guys write are 707 00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:13,559 you sure? So that one always just flitters to the 708 00:43:13,559 --> 00:43:17,920 top of my my mind. So thank you to each 709 00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:19,679 one of you guys. When you do put that that, 710 00:43:20,199 --> 00:43:22,280 it's a very special moment in my life, and it 711 00:43:22,360 --> 00:43:25,719 does flipped to my mind. Could you have a friends 712 00:43:25,760 --> 00:43:30,320 with benefits? You know, either you know for their like 713 00:43:30,360 --> 00:43:36,199 a reason of they are or just because friends with 714 00:43:36,280 --> 00:43:39,639 benefits can mean lots of things. I mean, you could 715 00:43:39,719 --> 00:43:45,639 have a very very busy work life or whatever type 716 00:43:45,639 --> 00:43:50,239 of life you know, and a relationship just does not 717 00:43:50,599 --> 00:43:54,159 fit in at the moment, and that's okay. You know, 718 00:43:54,239 --> 00:43:59,039 being honest about what you're looking for in whatever type 719 00:43:59,079 --> 00:44:03,960 of relationship, either romantic or just sexual, is a good 720 00:44:04,000 --> 00:44:06,079 place to be. It's a very honest place to be, 721 00:44:06,840 --> 00:44:10,480 and it's if that's where you want it to stay, 722 00:44:10,599 --> 00:44:12,960 it's very it's a very good place to keep it 723 00:44:13,679 --> 00:44:18,159 in check as well. So I'm for friends with benefits 724 00:44:18,880 --> 00:44:23,800 I'm supportive for that. There's, like I said, no reason 725 00:44:23,880 --> 00:44:25,639 not to have one if you want to go that. 726 00:44:25,760 --> 00:44:30,119 Oh I mean, I don't leave one right now. I 727 00:44:30,519 --> 00:44:33,079 have enough hand. I have my hands busy with what 728 00:44:33,199 --> 00:44:37,280 I have, So take that where you want it. What 729 00:44:37,400 --> 00:44:41,079 about you? I really want to know. I think this 730 00:44:41,199 --> 00:44:44,679 is a perfect place to stop for the day. I 731 00:44:44,679 --> 00:44:47,159 want to thank you again for joining me. No announcements 732 00:44:47,199 --> 00:44:49,840 this week. Still still trying to catch up with jet 733 00:44:49,960 --> 00:44:51,760 Like it's not as bad as it was last week, 734 00:44:51,800 --> 00:44:56,800 but oh every not every day, not definitely, not every day, 735 00:44:56,800 --> 00:44:59,840 but like once a week. I'm like, okay, it's time 736 00:45:00,079 --> 00:45:03,320 a nap, and I do have to go recharge for 737 00:45:03,400 --> 00:45:06,000 like half an hour. But I'm still going to bed 738 00:45:06,079 --> 00:45:09,159 really early, about eight thirty. It feels like two thirty 739 00:45:09,159 --> 00:45:12,119 in the morning, and I'm dragging to stay awake. I'm 740 00:45:12,119 --> 00:45:15,599 trying to stay up a little later each night, just 741 00:45:16,400 --> 00:45:18,800 get the swing of things. And I'm still laking up 742 00:45:19,000 --> 00:45:22,320 bright eyed, bushy tailed at for am I really need 743 00:45:22,360 --> 00:45:27,719 to get best that because it sucks. And In closing, Hello, lover, 744 00:45:28,840 --> 00:45:34,000 why don't you come on over? You know we can 745 00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:36,719 relift some of the things that we just did what 746 00:45:36,880 --> 00:45:40,840 do you think I really want to know, And until 747 00:45:40,920 --> 00:45:46,480 the next time, ladies and gentlemen, have a fucking fabulous week.