Speaker 1: The weird thing happened in.
Speaker 2: Weird weird Okay.
Speaker 3: So the day after the eclipse, I was here working
Speaker 3: on the house and Dad was like, son, I had
Speaker 3: a dream last night and it was so vivid. I
Speaker 3: was like, oh, cool, tell me about it. And he said, well,
Speaker 3: I dreamed that there were these seven Sons on the
Speaker 3: horizon and they were slowly setting, just descending beneath the horizon,
Speaker 3: and then they were gone, and then one big, massive
Speaker 3: sun started descending above the horizon, and he said it
Speaker 3: came to him that the seven Sons were like the
Speaker 3: old powers of darkness going away, and that the ones
Speaker 3: on was the Lady God, the new rain returning, and
Speaker 3: that we were entering the shift into the Age of
Speaker 3: Aquarius with the with the eclipse.
Speaker 4: I was like, whoa damn okay, And.
Speaker 3: Ever since Dad's been like, we're we shifted. It was
Speaker 3: the eclipse. We're in the age of Aquarius. So I've
Speaker 3: been like, yes, sir, like you know, i'd take his
Speaker 3: dreams seriously. But yeah, Emily didn't know that. It's it's
Speaker 3: just kind of hard for us to communicate all the
Speaker 3: time when Dad lives in Fayetteville and then we live
Speaker 3: here in Wilmington, and then Emily lives in Florida and
Speaker 3: Jeremy lives in Greenville, so yeah, and obviously Junior's at Fayeville.
Speaker 3: But yeah, Emily just heard that last night.
Speaker 5: I heard that last night because we were watching Labyrinth Labyrinth,
Speaker 5: which is one of my fairy favorite movies of all time.
Speaker 5: Ryan would never watch it with me growing up.
Speaker 4: I just saw it for the first time like this year.
Speaker 4: Would you think it was awesome?
Speaker 2: It was wild?
Speaker 4: That was really cool because well, remember we watched Never
Speaker 4: Any Story for the first time like last year or
Speaker 4: the year before something like that, and I fell in
Speaker 4: love with da Yeah, and Labyrinth seemed like a similar.
Speaker 3: I've got a whole list of like those kinds of
Speaker 3: movies that have been like recommended to me, like Legend,
Speaker 3: h Dragon Slayer, a.
Speaker 4: Few like dark fantasy movies.
Speaker 3: Yeah, The Sword and the Sorcerer.
Speaker 5: Oh, my, Labyrinth, Labyrinth. I've seen it more times than
Speaker 5: I could ever try to count. It was one of
Speaker 5: my comfort movies when all the UFO stuff was happening.
Speaker 5: I watched it like every day.
Speaker 4: There was like a fifty to fifty chance that I
Speaker 4: could hear Labyrinth coming out of your bedroom. No, that's
Speaker 4: like not an exaggerate. Always it was either Ocarina of
Speaker 4: Time Sounds or Labyrinth or Yeah or Halo. Yeah that's funny.
Speaker 5: Yes, no, you ever played Labyrinth so much? I know
Speaker 5: all the words. But Ryan finally watched it.
Speaker 2: With me, and uh, I told you the dream?
Speaker 5: You told me the dream, and I was like, wait
Speaker 5: what I had? I've been, you know, for the past
Speaker 5: few weeks, I've been trying to figure out like what
Speaker 5: does that mean? That that out of body that happened
Speaker 5: to me? What does that mean? And now I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 5: it's coming together because I don't remember and I can't
Speaker 5: find it. I can't find it, but I'll just say
Speaker 5: this particular part. So I'm in it looks like space, right,
Speaker 5: It's like kind of bluish dark. Everything's dark. But I'm
Speaker 5: on this platform and this platform looks very like eighties
Speaker 5: like nineties like platform with like the grid.
Speaker 4: Oh oh yeah, yeah, like just an old skill.
Speaker 5: Like a tron grid. But I'm in space and I'm
Speaker 5: on just this platform, and I'm looking at myself and
Speaker 5: I'm just looking up and then I kind of swivel
Speaker 5: around and see myself and in front of me that
Speaker 5: I'm looking at is a massive sun that had just
Speaker 5: risen above the platform and it was right in my face,
Speaker 5: and I just said and it resounded around me, but
Speaker 5: it was like I said it, but also everything around
Speaker 5: me said it. While I'm staring at the sun. It said,
Speaker 5: I am a daughter of the Sun. And I was
Speaker 5: like back in to myself looking at the sun, and
Speaker 5: I was like, I'm a daughter of the Sun. I
Speaker 5: don't know what that why, but I was like.
Speaker 4: This happened during creation station.
Speaker 5: Yeah, oh, and this isn't this isn't the point of
Speaker 5: creation station. When we go back to the debrief, I
Speaker 5: was like, yeah, mine was good. I didn't know what
Speaker 5: to say, so I've just been kind of resonating on
Speaker 5: or marinating on that. But I was like, I am
Speaker 5: a daughter of the Sun. And then Dad's dream with
Speaker 5: the new sun rising.
Speaker 3: Yeah, do you ever see that meme of like I
Speaker 3: think it's like Matthew McConaughey when he's like smoking a cigarette,
Speaker 3: he looks really stressed out. He's like a thousand years stare. Yeah,
Speaker 3: that's how I was at the first debrief. I mean,
Speaker 3: after I left my body for the first time.
Speaker 4: It was really cool.
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, it's kind of crazy. Yeah, so that's casual.
Speaker 4: You just found out about the dream last night? Yeah,
Speaker 4: wow wow.
Speaker 5: And something about the platform at the end of Labyrinth.
Speaker 5: It doesn't look like that, but something about that felt
Speaker 5: which synchronistic at the end where she's like you have no.
Speaker 3: Power all right and they're kind of like in space.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it just felt the vibe.
Speaker 2: That was a wild movie. Yeah, it was cool.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 4: Didn't they recently like remake it or make some new
Speaker 4: game or something.
Speaker 5: I think that was Like, is the original.
Speaker 4: One called Labyrinth Dark Crystal or those two different things?
Speaker 3: Two different movies. Okay, Dark Crystal is another one I've
Speaker 3: never seen that we're supposed to watch.
Speaker 5: I've seen it.
Speaker 2: I thought it'd be cool.
Speaker 3: I had the idea last night, like what if we
Speaker 3: love to do like a dark fantasy episode.
Speaker 4: Yeah sick.
Speaker 3: You know, like we've done a cosmic horror, we could
Speaker 3: do like a dark fantasy episode.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'd love that. I haven't seen enough dark fantasy movies.
Speaker 3: Though, so see that's that's the objective homework. Yeah, you
Speaker 3: gotta watch more dark fantasy movies. Yeah, only dude, I mean,
Speaker 3: can you what Eldon Ring consumed so much in mediums.
Speaker 2: Can you give me, like an example of a movie
Speaker 2: that I may have seen that would fall into that,
Speaker 2: that you may have seen.
Speaker 3: That's a stretch, is of the rings dark fantasy, fantasy fantasy?
Speaker 3: But he hasn't seen them.
Speaker 2: I know I've seen a little bit of them, can't
Speaker 2: I will give you that.
Speaker 3: I don't know, man, because dark fantasy was like really
Speaker 3: really popular in the eighties, and I feel like.
Speaker 4: Dark fantasy is specifically the eighties movies with the practical
Speaker 4: effects and the puppets.
Speaker 2: And just the vibe.
Speaker 4: Yeah, like Cauldron. Did you watch Never Ending Story when
Speaker 4: we did? Okay, that would that's definitely dark fantasy for sure.
Speaker 3: The Dark Crystal obviously, which I have yet to see.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I haven't seen.
Speaker 3: Legend is supposed to be. Oh there's another one.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Willow, never seen it. They're all good Willow.
Speaker 3: I've been saying that for years. Y'all watched Willow.
Speaker 5: I love Willow.
Speaker 3: Yeah it's a lucasfilm.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I know that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, And apparently Labyrinth was and Dark Crystal.
Speaker 5: Labyrinth is probably the silliest of all of those.
Speaker 2: It is very silly, yeah, but but it was dark though. Yeah,
Speaker 2: it had its moments.
Speaker 3: There was There was at one point when she fell
Speaker 3: down into this horrific hell hole and was in this
Speaker 3: like bacchanalia party where they all had these like Rothschild
Speaker 3: style masks and they were all just like taunting her.
Speaker 2: It was.
Speaker 3: It had some very dark, like subtle undertones, you know.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I loved it.
Speaker 2: No, it was.
Speaker 3: We had a good time anyway. I don't think you've
Speaker 3: seen a dark fantasy, Alex, but.
Speaker 4: It's a very it's it's sick. I would say it's
Speaker 4: a niche kind of Oh yeah, very hyper specific genre berserk. Probably,
Speaker 4: it's definitely a dark fantasy. I got dark fantasy anime.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's like the dark fantasy anime.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I would, I would say, so new obsession much
Speaker 6: what dark fantasy? Oh okay, yes, I was just letting
Speaker 6: you know. Thanks, I'm out of the Kaiju phase for
Speaker 6: the moment. Now now I'm on dark fantasy. Okay, Hey,
Speaker 6: I don't sorry, No, you're good. You just take the wheel.
Speaker 1: I was.
Speaker 5: Trying to remember what I was gonna say, but I
Speaker 5: I wanted to add something about synchronicities with uh the
Speaker 5: Arthur stuff. I haven't actually gotten yet to listen to
Speaker 5: y'all Arthur episode. But I was listening to Merlin and
Speaker 5: uh so, okay, Bletsoe Castle, y'all talked about that a
Speaker 5: little bit, right, Oh this is weird. Did y'all talk
Speaker 5: about that yet?
Speaker 1: Not?
Speaker 5: I didn't think so why I wanted to bring it up? Okay?
Speaker 5: So Ryan was talking about how King Henry the seventh
Speaker 5: of England, the first Tutor King, was famously known for
Speaker 5: trying to trace his roots back to King Arthur. Well,
Speaker 5: King Henry the seventh, mother Lady Margaret was born, Yes,
Speaker 5: Beaufort was born at Bloodsoe Castle. That's her family. Wowy,
Speaker 5: And we have connection to Blotsoe Castle. You can't say
Speaker 5: one hundred.
Speaker 3: Well, the first guy that came to America from England,
Speaker 3: the first Bloodsoe in America, he was the owner of.
Speaker 5: And that's from our roots is Bledsoe. It's with a
Speaker 5: t Bledsoe. And I thought about this the other day
Speaker 5: because Dad sent me a thing that Bloodsoe Castle was
Speaker 5: for sale, and I I was panicking, like, oh my gosh,
Speaker 5: how am I going to acquire my ancestral home? Millions
Speaker 5: and three point two million pounds.
Speaker 1: Each?
Speaker 2: More than that, there's thirteen million dollar houses. I know, like, yeah,
Speaker 2: one house, fourth third. We should talk to some of
Speaker 2: our friends and see if they'll help me on the
Speaker 2: bridge loan.
Speaker 4: What is million pounds?
Speaker 2: Literally six million dollars? ISHU, but this is literally it's
Speaker 2: just outside my budget.
Speaker 5: A castle built in the thirteen hundreds, I've got it
Speaker 5: pulled up and listen, listen to this. This is another parallel. So,
Speaker 5: King Henry the seventh was really into King Arthur. We're Bledsoe.
Speaker 5: His mom was born at Bletsoe Castle. Her dad was
Speaker 5: the duke that owned Bletsoe Castle. She was very famous.
Speaker 5: I'm very into Tudor history. I love history. I have, yes, yes,
Speaker 5: I have so many books and watch all the shows
Speaker 5: and movies about like royalty and especially like the Tudor
Speaker 5: line and literally that era. Okay. And so his mother
Speaker 5: was very famous for being like extremely religious, like she
Speaker 5: was very devout and like and is portrayed in like
Speaker 5: pop culture as being like her faith in God was
Speaker 5: so strong that she's the reason he was put on
Speaker 5: the throne, because there was like the battle of the
Speaker 5: Roses to see who would be placed on the throne,
Speaker 5: and it was like her the mother's her faith faith
Speaker 5: is what won and everything worked and he became the king.
Speaker 5: And that's just like really interesting because I don't know,
Speaker 5: I'm not trying to I don't even know for sure
Speaker 5: if I'm related to her, but you know, the connection
Speaker 5: is there somehow, and it's just cool that she has that,
Speaker 5: like that that famous reputation for being so fa for
Speaker 5: so being faith, being so faithful.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's like her faith in her son or her
Speaker 4: faith in God.
Speaker 5: She was like very devout Catholic. This is before Protestantism,
Speaker 5: because King Henry the Eighth is the one who brought Protestantism.
Speaker 5: I didn't mean go.
Speaker 4: Ahead, oh no no. So it's like like she obviously
Speaker 4: had faith that her son was like meant to be
Speaker 4: the king, yeah, and she had faith that God would
Speaker 4: fulfill that, and.
Speaker 5: It was like that he was like a baby.
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah, it's like that undying faith kind of thing.
Speaker 5: Yeah, which is really cool. And then I had a
Speaker 5: synchronous city pop up, and I kept wondering, like, why
Speaker 5: is this bloodsoe Castle stuff popping up? It feels like
Speaker 5: it's related somehow to my Monroe stuff. I don't know
Speaker 5: why yet, but it just felt relevant. And so then
Speaker 5: I kept getting this thing pop up, and I was like,
Speaker 5: what is this. There's this castle in Slovenia called bled.
Speaker 2: Castle, bled bledled Blood Island, right, Well, there's a town
Speaker 2: called Blood in Slovenia, and there's.
Speaker 5: A castle called Blood Castle overlooking the lake, and in
Speaker 5: the center of the lake is the Church of Blood,
Speaker 5: which is the ascension of Mary Church, which is like
Speaker 5: about the Mother And a lot of bledsoes come from
Speaker 5: Blood Castle too in Slovenia. And so I'm like, what's
Speaker 5: going on? And if you look at pictures of Blood Castle.
Speaker 2: It looks like what I saw.
Speaker 5: It looks like what he saw when he was at Monroe.
Speaker 3: Yeah, because I didn't really talk about this on our
Speaker 3: Monroe episodes, there's a lot in here I didn't want
Speaker 3: to talk about. But I'm gonna I'm gonna try to
Speaker 3: find this. But at one point, when I was out
Speaker 3: of body eyes, I had to ask my higher self
Speaker 3: like where did this begin for me? And I saw
Speaker 3: myself on a castle over the water, and the word
Speaker 3: popped into my mind Merlin's Tower, and I was like,
Speaker 3: maybe this.
Speaker 2: I don't know what the fuck this means, but it
Speaker 2: looked exactly like the castle over the water.
Speaker 4: Literally, I want to see can you pull it up, Alex,
Speaker 4: I want to see what it looks like.
Speaker 5: But it's so beautiful. It looks like a fairy tale.
Speaker 5: Blood is just this castle. It's now a museum. It
Speaker 5: was built in the eleven hundreds or the like one thousand,
Speaker 5: and it's overlooking the gorgeous lake with the Ascension of
Speaker 5: Mary Church in the middle. And so I'm like, okay, yeah.
Speaker 2: The church is beautiful too.
Speaker 4: Sometimes Ascension of Mary Church. I need to know more
Speaker 4: of it.
Speaker 5: I think that's what can you look up if that's
Speaker 5: exactly what it's called, But it's something like not ascension
Speaker 5: of Mary the I'm sorry, what is it? It'll come
Speaker 5: to me, But.
Speaker 4: That's crazy. The ascension of Mary thing obviously makes me
Speaker 4: think of like the Da Vinci Code, you know, you
Speaker 4: know how.
Speaker 5: That Jack is reading right now?
Speaker 2: Oh really, yes, Assumption of Mary, assumption, assumption of Maria Church.
Speaker 4: Yes, sorry, Maria Church.
Speaker 2: The tickets are only thirteen dollars and nineteen cents. Oh
Speaker 2: I found it Field trip, Yeah, for forty two sixty
Speaker 2: bled Slovenia.
Speaker 5: Well, what I've seen too is that people that came,
Speaker 5: I'm might be totally wrong. People came from there and
Speaker 5: went to England, and then a lot of the Bloodsoe's
Speaker 5: have come to me.
Speaker 3: I found the so Actually the owner of the castle
Speaker 3: in the sixteen hundreds was William Bledsoe, and then George Bledsoe,
Speaker 3: the first ever one to come to America, and where
Speaker 3: we all descend from, is believed to be either the
Speaker 3: son or the nephew of William Bledsoe. Just to be clear,
Speaker 3: blood Castle or Blodsok, yeah, which.
Speaker 2: One in England? And blood to Tea.
Speaker 3: But I found my thing in the in the Monorda
Speaker 3: experience I had. This was a I believe it was
Speaker 3: a Focus fifteen and it was just an exercise.
Speaker 1: Oh.
Speaker 3: I set the intention to visit my wife because I
Speaker 3: asked Ignacio. They were like, you can go out of
Speaker 3: body and it's a free flow. You can go where
Speaker 3: you want to go.
Speaker 2: Maybe setting attention to see somebody and see what they're doing.
Speaker 3: So I was like, in Nasio, what do I do?
Speaker 3: He's like, go check on your wife. I was like okay,
Speaker 3: and I had the intention to check on her. I
Speaker 3: did see her. I saw her painting in the bathroom,
Speaker 3: which I knew she was going to be. But I
Speaker 3: saw her painting in there, and I saw her like
Speaker 3: painting up on the ceiling by the shower.
Speaker 2: And she did.
Speaker 3: But then a part of me is like, well, I
Speaker 3: knew she was going to be in there, so maybe
Speaker 3: I was just imagining it. I tried not to think
Speaker 3: too hard about that, but I felt tingles in my body,
Speaker 3: as if I was actually rising and falling. I said,
Speaker 3: I set an attention to see my wife, but instead
Speaker 3: I went through a portal into a nonsensical world that
Speaker 3: looked like abstract cartoons. Oh, this was focus twelve. The
Speaker 3: first time I left my body and then I kept
Speaker 3: it showed me that, you know, just by staying on
Speaker 3: the path about reaching my potential. And then I saw Egypt.
Speaker 3: I said, where do I begin? I saw Egypt. Then
Speaker 3: I saw a castle on a cliff over the ocean.
Speaker 3: I heard Merlin's Temple. Then I felt like I was
Speaker 3: one with the stars in the night sky. My main
Speaker 3: affirmation was to see without fear. This was a much
Speaker 3: more gentle experience. I saw a glowing magical eye that
Speaker 3: felt like my inner eye. Also, I heard forget what
Speaker 3: you know? So I was a little freak when you
Speaker 3: sent me there.
Speaker 5: The Blood Castle yeah. Wow, yeah, no, I'm just trying
Speaker 5: to figure out how we can purchase I don't know
Speaker 5: if it's been purchased, but we can so castle. It
Speaker 5: has a moat.
Speaker 4: We don't have good enough.
Speaker 2: It has a moat, it has a tennis court, it's
Speaker 2: got beautiful equestrian sports, horseback riding.
Speaker 3: It was renovated in the sixteen hundreds.
Speaker 5: It's a beautiful thirty minute train ride to London.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I saw it must have been price reduced. I
Speaker 2: saw two point seven million.
Speaker 5: Oh, we're we're getting it.
Speaker 6: Get it.
Speaker 2: The coziest castle you'll ever find, with paddock, ancient moats,
Speaker 2: tennis courts, and a billiard room. Listen, if I had
Speaker 2: infinite money, I would buy it, would actually buy it.
Speaker 5: I would buy it. I had that I would live there. Yeah,
Speaker 5: it's it's like technically a castle, but it just looks
Speaker 5: like a really big cottage.
Speaker 4: It's like a manner.
Speaker 5: I want to show me that one technically a castle?
Speaker 2: Yeah, dude, I mean whatever, you have to pay the
Speaker 2: people to mow the grass like this, just get.
Speaker 3: A get a couple of them.
Speaker 4: That's a lot of grass.
Speaker 3: Get a horse drawn mower. Yeah, that's true.
Speaker 4: That takes all day to cut that grass. Just get
Speaker 4: my brother to do.
Speaker 3: Have you guys seen the like robot mowers now, yes,
Speaker 3: they're pretty cool.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I was driving down the road the other day Carolina
Speaker 3: Beach or you know, weeks ago, and I saw this
Speaker 3: little robot just cutting the grass on the highway.
Speaker 2: What the hell?
Speaker 4: They have them where they're like they're like roombas where
Speaker 4: they know themselves. But they also make remote control ones.
Speaker 4: Oh that's you just sit on your porch.
Speaker 3: That's cool, But I feel like I'd rather be driving
Speaker 3: the thing, you know, like at least I'm like pretending
Speaker 3: to play Mario Karts.
Speaker 2: Have you seen the guys who have the podcast where
Speaker 2: they play in a sandbox with uh with remote control
Speaker 2: like excavators and thumb trucks.
Speaker 4: No, I would actually.
Speaker 3: Probably enjoy watching that for a little bit, dude.
Speaker 4: Kind of a little bit.
Speaker 2: No, they just kind of not along out, but and
Speaker 2: it's funny. They're they're objective is to use the excavator.
Speaker 2: They have a little pond that's full of ice and beers,
Speaker 2: and they pick him up with the excavator, put them
Speaker 2: in the truck and then drive them to each other.
Speaker 3: Wheels and excavators. Don't know what it's called wheels and excavators, but.
Speaker 2: I keep seeing it, so yeah, I kind of Well,
Speaker 2: the point is I want one of those remote control excavators.
Speaker 3: Yeah, maybe your birthday is soon, so don't go getting
Speaker 3: any ideas.
Speaker 4: You're either going to get a remote control excavator or
Speaker 4: you're going to get a castle in England.
Speaker 2: Dude, you know what else?
Speaker 1: I want?
Speaker 2: Just to make this about me, I want, I want
Speaker 2: the the flute that is tuned to like four hundred
Speaker 2: and thirty two herds that it's not his brother, I
Speaker 2: don't think, but yeah it's no, it's not man. They
Speaker 2: mock him, but like he's right. Oh yeah, no I want.
Speaker 2: I looked him up.
Speaker 5: I found the website you tuning a guitar or some drum.
Speaker 2: See, I just have problems playing instruments. But then I
Speaker 2: find one. Yeah, I have a single bowl. The dog
Speaker 2: freaks out. Really, it's the demons in her. It's purging.
Speaker 3: She's a liking throat, dude, them just fighting word son.
Speaker 4: Yeah, don't talk about Juno about my daughter.
Speaker 2: She's an angel, will be hitting on liking thropes.
Speaker 4: She's a precious little angel. She's not a liking throat
Speaker 4: and she's not possessed by devils, dude, she's chill. Yeah.
Speaker 2: I want one of those flutes. I want to do
Speaker 2: the same thing. I want to go up on my
Speaker 2: balcony at night and play it and have it echo
Speaker 2: through the marina and people be like, where is that
Speaker 2: coming from.
Speaker 5: I'm hypnotized.
Speaker 3: It'll heal the fish. Yeah, it'll make the sharks happen.
Speaker 3: It'll be like less aggressive. Yeah, because there's sharks out
Speaker 3: in his backyard there.
Speaker 4: Are you ever see them? Yeah? My neighbor caught one.
Speaker 4: What kind of sharks?
Speaker 2: Like a five foot Atlantic? I think atlantic sharp nose,
Speaker 2: like the ones from streets, A sharp teeth. No, their
Speaker 2: teeth are pretty I've caught one, but it was like
Speaker 2: two feet out there, right out in front of my house.
Speaker 4: Really, m m. Do you do you still go fishing
Speaker 4: out there?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Sometimes I'm trying to do that.
Speaker 3: I really would like if like the three of us
Speaker 3: would get together and like go out on the boat sometime,
Speaker 3: just like before summer ends, you know, before we lose
Speaker 3: track of it and it's too late. Don't worry, man,
Speaker 3: because we're about to be in local summer. Dude, I
Speaker 3: have not had a summer. I've been working on house
Speaker 3: and then traveling for a month, and I've been in
Speaker 3: America for two weeks now, and I'm like, I literally
Speaker 3: have not had a summer. I haven't swim, I haven't
Speaker 3: None of us are about to.
Speaker 2: Be in local summer. It's Nick's first local summer.
Speaker 4: And it's been a great first summer.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I've done it. I've done a lot of beaching.
Speaker 4: I've done a lot of swimming. A lot I haven't.
Speaker 4: It's been that's the light.
Speaker 3: It's not fair when you wait all year to be
Speaker 3: able to swim and then you're like so busy you
Speaker 3: don't get the chance to it. It's like I have
Speaker 3: to wait another year.
Speaker 2: I need.
Speaker 3: I tried to swim yesterday or want to.
Speaker 5: That's true.
Speaker 2: Suit, you're three hundred dollars away from swimming all year,
Speaker 2: that's true. You know, my birthday did just pass. That's
Speaker 2: one of those, you know, personal purchases. I think you
Speaker 2: have to make sure it's right. Yeah, well, why don't
Speaker 2: you go get your own fucking excavator. Oh my god,
Speaker 2: all right, let's get back on track.
Speaker 8: Alan, Oh, just right through the whole that got me Okay,
Speaker 8: I was in teached.
Speaker 5: I think the funniest part was I could see it.
Speaker 5: I don't watch when I listen, I just listen. I
Speaker 5: could see the look on Christini's face.
Speaker 4: The smirk.
Speaker 2: It's the smirk, this thing he goes, we love you Alan,
Speaker 2: he does.
Speaker 4: That's smirk.
Speaker 3: Every time I ta Alex for whatever reason in the discord,
Speaker 3: Like if someone makes a comment and like, you know,
Speaker 3: I want one of y'all to see it or something.
Speaker 3: Sometimes I'll tag Yellen that comment if it relates to y'all.
Speaker 3: And there's been two or three times now that I'll
Speaker 3: tag Alex or not. Like I'll say the word Alex
Speaker 3: and I'll get corrected by the people in the discord.
Speaker 3: I have not once since that episode been able to
Speaker 3: reference Alex or comment his name without being corrected.
Speaker 2: To say, and just.
Speaker 4: For a message to the people in our discord and
Speaker 4: in our comments, don't stop.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've been on a YouTube episode recently. I get
Speaker 2: scared every time I go in there. Now, where the discord?
Speaker 2: Are they making you uncomfortable? No, I just know it's coming.
Speaker 4: Yeah, you need to just embrace it.
Speaker 2: Hey, but Alex Dair's out and well. Turning of the
Speaker 2: time Alan is a little bit softer. Well, see that's
Speaker 2: the problem.
Speaker 4: I don't like it. Would you rather be Alex Stir
Speaker 4: or Alan.
Speaker 2: Probably Alex Stair? Oh okay, Oh, all of a sudden,
Speaker 2: you're cool with it. Yeah, you know, it's just giving
Speaker 2: a choice because I just think. I think about Michael
Speaker 2: Sarah in the Barbie movie and I'm like, I don't
Speaker 2: want to be.
Speaker 4: That, oh with his character's name Alice.
Speaker 2: Well, I mean what about like you know it? And
Speaker 2: I bet you no one thought about it until I
Speaker 2: brought it up to No, I did think about it.
Speaker 3: Okay, now I'm thinking about it more like I'm confirmed
Speaker 3: now whatever.
Speaker 2: Whatever I've been called worse, we love you, Alan, I
Speaker 2: love me too. You've also been called much better.
Speaker 4: Yeah. I've been called a lot.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I've ever been called late for dinner. Many are called,
Speaker 3: but few are chosen.
Speaker 4: Though I get here?
Speaker 5: Where we go?
Speaker 4: How did we don't know?
Speaker 2: We started talking about let's of castle on this.
Speaker 5: I've been trying to figure out something to share from
Speaker 5: my book here and it is nonsense. Well it's all nonsense.
Speaker 2: Let's let's give it a shot.
Speaker 5: Okay, are you sure? Listen? Okay? A river vast and strong,
Speaker 5: from source, all flowing in my favor, glowing different perspective platform.
Speaker 5: I am a daughter of the sun, Creation coming to me,
Speaker 5: friends with the bird and animals and a whales clow
Speaker 5: the forest, the watch the joy.
Speaker 2: That's literally sound like poetry. Yeah, it really did.
Speaker 5: Oh my God, Like literally, I don't know what to
Speaker 5: pick out of here.
Speaker 4: That's what it's all like, the watch the Joy.
Speaker 5: There is no greater act than remembering and becoming aware
Speaker 5: of who you really are.
Speaker 4: Oh but here's the thing. I bet you reading this
Speaker 4: stuff back, you remember.
Speaker 5: The feeling of it.
Speaker 4: Yes, so it only makes sense to you.
Speaker 5: The bird, the whales, glowing, being the forest, to watch
Speaker 5: the joy.
Speaker 2: When you wake up at the morning dream down.
Speaker 5: Yeah, well what I love is from source, all flowing
Speaker 5: in my favor, glowing different perspectives.
Speaker 3: The problem, too, is like a lot of the stuff
Speaker 3: that you're experiencing is visual. You know, you're seeing things.
Speaker 3: You might be seeing symbolism or seeing flashes of memories, images, whatever.
Speaker 3: So then when you write it out it can be
Speaker 3: like to someone else reading it, it's like.
Speaker 4: It's like it's like trying to describe to somebody what
Speaker 4: being on mushrooms is like or DMP or acid or
Speaker 4: something like that, or.
Speaker 3: A movie that you saw that's literally this visual experience. Yeah,
Speaker 3: it's hard to translate.
Speaker 4: But the stuff that happens even in like these like
Speaker 4: deeply meditating, it's like, okay, imagine getting into a super
Speaker 4: deep level of meditation or even out of body or whatever,
Speaker 4: and trying to describe that to somebody, Yeah, is like
Speaker 4: phishing for the words. Right. It's a deeply personal thing, right,
Speaker 4: Like it's hard to convey that stuff.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's so personal. And it's like you at some
Speaker 5: point you're aware of your body, but you're not in it,
Speaker 5: and you can feel it, but you're not in it somehow,
Speaker 5: and then and then you're like, okay, well i'm gonna
Speaker 5: quit paying attention to you now. And then you're experiencing
Speaker 5: all this stuff and then something jolts you and your
Speaker 5: body shifts and you're like, okay, I'm back in it.
Speaker 5: I'm back here. And that's something that happened to me
Speaker 5: that I kind of shared. I was like, my knees,
Speaker 5: it was like my knees jumped up and buckled. It
Speaker 5: was like okay, well I'm back. And that happened to
Speaker 5: someone else I.
Speaker 2: Think in the group too, but the creation station.
Speaker 5: Yeah, OK, to maybe one or two other people something
Speaker 5: like that, But that's not like the intention there, So
Speaker 5: that was a byproduct. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And I will
Speaker 5: say like this in particular my overall experience, like I
Speaker 5: had a lot of visual stuff, a lot of that
Speaker 5: kind of stuff, but the main takeaway for me was
Speaker 5: the perspective shift. And that could literally mean It could
Speaker 5: mean different things, but it could literally mean like I said,
Speaker 5: when I was like on that platform, I wasn't just
Speaker 5: looking at the sun. I was also looking at myself
Speaker 5: from different looking at the sun, and I was able
Speaker 5: to view myself in any way I wanted. Yeah, I
Speaker 5: had to become the sun and look at myself as
Speaker 5: the sun, like it's it's tapping into consciousness from any.
Speaker 4: Perspective, collective consciousness, like it's all connected, like you could
Speaker 4: you could in theory view it from any perspective because
Speaker 4: like you are everything.
Speaker 3: I had moments like sat at the Gateway experience where
Speaker 3: I was like seeing orbs from the perspective of being
Speaker 3: the orb right, you know, right. I would see myself
Speaker 3: sometimes like from behind me or above me, not like
Speaker 3: live like I'm walking around, Oh, like that's a raven.
Speaker 2: But I mean like in meditations, you know.
Speaker 3: But there were a few times like, uh, it was
Speaker 3: about the fourth day in and by that point, you know,
Speaker 3: you're just so I guess I could say like ungrounded,
Speaker 3: because you've been leaving your body a few times and
Speaker 3: all these other exercises. I was laying down to go
Speaker 3: to bed one night, and I was like just laying there,
Speaker 3: and all of a sudden, I was in the cafeteria,
Speaker 3: like I just I felt like I was in the
Speaker 3: cafeteria and I had what I felt like was a
Speaker 3: cup of coffee in my hand, and I was just
Speaker 3: in line, like trying.
Speaker 2: To get my food.
Speaker 3: And I was like, wait a minute, I haven't gone
Speaker 3: to bed yet. And I kind of snapped back and
Speaker 3: I was still laying in bed, and I was like,
Speaker 3: what the fuck. And then the next day I got
Speaker 3: up at seven am. I let the because they play
Speaker 3: speakers or they have speakers in the wall and they
Speaker 3: play frequencies overnight at the institute for you to like
Speaker 3: have a deeper sleep. And then I think at like
Speaker 3: six thirty sharp every morning, Bob Monroe's voice comes on
Speaker 3: and it's like it's a great day. It's a beautiful day.
Speaker 2: It gives you a little morning waking up. Yeah, it's
Speaker 2: a great day, so get up and go.
Speaker 3: And it's like just this really little wholesome like you know,
Speaker 3: take in all the gratitude of what you have to
Speaker 3: do before you. It's like this little morning exercise. But
Speaker 3: I skipped it most days because you know how I
Speaker 3: am a sleep But on like the last day, I
Speaker 3: wanted to wake up as early as I could. Well,
Speaker 3: you have the option, they tell you upfront. It's like
Speaker 3: if you if you don't want it to wake you
Speaker 3: up six thirty, you can turn off the speakers so
Speaker 3: it's not you know, blasting at six thirtye. So I
Speaker 3: had it wake me up two days. But on the
Speaker 3: last day, I had that wake me up at seven am.
Speaker 3: I jumped up, I made my cup of coffee, and
Speaker 3: I went and I sat by the crystal because I
Speaker 3: was like, this my last day. I do not want
Speaker 3: to uh miss out on any moment of today. And
Speaker 3: when I was sitting at the crystal, I pulled up
Speaker 3: a lawn chair beside it, and I was just touching
Speaker 3: it and I was just kind of like meditating, doing
Speaker 3: some of the exercises, sip in my coffee, and my
Speaker 3: brain started to get really fuzzy, and I felt like
Speaker 3: I similar to when I was in bed the other
Speaker 3: night and I felt like I was in the cafeteria.
Speaker 3: It happened again, and I felt like I was in
Speaker 3: the night before, and I got very confused, like brain fog,
Speaker 3: and I was like, oh my god, like I don't
Speaker 3: even know what time it is, and like when I
Speaker 3: closed my eyes, I felt like I was in the
Speaker 3: day before.
Speaker 4: Wow.
Speaker 2: If that adds any acted for what you were saying.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I feel like, Well, there was this one time
Speaker 5: that when I this was when I was at Monroe
Speaker 5: with the frequencies at night, I thought I was in
Speaker 5: a sleep all night and I didn't sleep the entire night.
Speaker 5: And I was like, what happened to me? Oh, you
Speaker 5: thought you did, But there's mind awake body of sleep,
Speaker 5: which is one of the states you can go into,
Speaker 5: which is where your body's asleep, but your mind is awake.
Speaker 5: And that was me the entire night. And I was like,
Speaker 5: why can't I sleep?
Speaker 4: Oh my god?
Speaker 5: But I was just awake the whole time.
Speaker 4: Oh whoa, but I slept. That's trippy.
Speaker 5: It was very I was a little scared.
Speaker 2: So do you wake up feeling rested?
Speaker 5: I was rested.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's cool. I remember what I was saying.
Speaker 3: I know it's been a few months, but like we
Speaker 3: would be staying up till three am many nights, Chris
Speaker 3: Ramsey doing magic and you know, Hannah and Marco and
Speaker 3: Amy and Hakem and countless others. Brad, we would be
Speaker 3: hanging out and just like chopping it up till three
Speaker 3: am and then go to bed, and we'd be like
Speaker 3: groggy as fuck in the morning, eight am, breakfast, We
Speaker 3: go to class at like nine, stumble into our room.
Speaker 3: We'd meditate for an hour, and by ten o'clock we're
Speaker 3: all like, I feel great, you know. And we'd be
Speaker 3: meditating all day. So you're just resting all day. Yeah,
Speaker 3: you guys will see when we do Creation Station, you're
Speaker 3: gonna see.
Speaker 4: Yeah. And I've had a little tiny bit of experience
Speaker 4: with like restfulness and Theta wave, like you know with
Speaker 4: the Shumann resonance.
Speaker 3: Yeah, they have it's a similar frequency.
Speaker 4: They have those they have like specific ones that are
Speaker 4: geared towards specific outcomes or whatever. And one of them
Speaker 4: is like one of them is it's called like restfulness
Speaker 4: or it basically it makes it to where you don't
Speaker 4: need as much sleep, like you get more rest required.
Speaker 4: That's what it is.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, that's exactly down.
Speaker 3: They took those down off Spotify and Apple Music. Really yeah,
Speaker 3: I found they were like from my library, that specific album.
Speaker 5: That specific one that I used voice.
Speaker 3: Yeah, they removed it.
Speaker 5: Reduces sleep required.
Speaker 2: But that's the one I used with me too.
Speaker 3: But if you guys might enjoy hearing this. But when
Speaker 3: we do Creation Station, we're going to be using Focus
Speaker 3: ten and Focused twelve.
Speaker 4: Oh so we're getting thrown in.
Speaker 3: Well that's the Focus ten is the first one to pression.
Speaker 1: Ok.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's it's it's progressive.
Speaker 3: It is, it's progressive. But again, like Creation Station is
Speaker 3: unique because it has nothing to do with trying to
Speaker 3: explore like leaving the body. It's specifically focused about creativity.
Speaker 2: And one of the.
Speaker 3: Things that I learned about these different focus states is
Speaker 3: like you.
Speaker 2: Can't think about it like.
Speaker 3: Oh, this is Focused thirty two, so it's more powerful.
Speaker 3: That's not the point. The point is they function.
Speaker 2: They have different.
Speaker 3: Functions, and something that the institute teaches is like or
Speaker 3: at least you know, the instructors that I was with
Speaker 3: there is that focus twelve is the most productive frequency,
Speaker 3: and it's because it's expanded awareness. So it gets you
Speaker 3: to that state of expanding awareness where you're thinking about
Speaker 3: things with a more divergent style of thinking.
Speaker 5: I use that every day to work when I'm working,
Speaker 5: just like throughout my day.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you can go on twelve, right, that was Yeah,
Speaker 3: intro to out of Body.
Speaker 2: Was focused twelve.
Speaker 5: I do that while I'm working.
Speaker 2: You absolutely can. But focus twelve is amazing. You're gonna
Speaker 2: love it.
Speaker 3: It's it's like focus ten is again. You know this
Speaker 3: is just true probably across multiple mineral programs. But focus
Speaker 3: ten is I imagine that's there to introduce you to the
Speaker 3: sensation of being in this deep meditative state, you know,
Speaker 3: and experiencing it multiple times so that you, the participant
Speaker 3: will say, Okay, I understand what this feels like. I
Speaker 3: actually understand what it means to be in this state
Speaker 3: because I've done it a few times now. It's not
Speaker 3: me imagining something. I am actually mind awake, body of sleep.
Speaker 3: Let's go further in my experience. I don't want to
Speaker 3: like load what will happen to you because everybody's different.
Speaker 3: Just like if I have a cup of coffee right
Speaker 3: now and you have a cup of coffee right.
Speaker 4: Now, it'll affect different.
Speaker 3: They're just because of the hormones in our body and
Speaker 3: the time of day. You might be a little more
Speaker 3: sensitive right now than I am, and vice versa across
Speaker 3: any day. It's the same with this you know stuff.
Speaker 3: It just depends on the situation and and and you
Speaker 3: and everybody is sensitive to this stuff in their own way,
Speaker 3: right And I'll.
Speaker 5: Say another one of my big takeaways with this one
Speaker 5: because I didn't have like any crazy visuals on all
Speaker 5: of them, and that's not always the intention of times. Point.
Speaker 5: The point isn't that you have to have a crazy
Speaker 5: astral Disney World experience. No, right, that's never the like
Speaker 5: you have to do that.
Speaker 2: The point is you can, you.
Speaker 5: Can, you can, but that doesn't make your experience less
Speaker 5: important if you don't. And so one of my favorite
Speaker 5: things about this one for me was really tuning in
Speaker 5: to signals in my body, right, like signals coming through
Speaker 5: things that for many years we've been kind of nodding
Speaker 5: to with the phenomenon stuff. Especially Dad, He's always like
Speaker 5: that that sensation that you just mentioned that's the phenomenon
Speaker 5: or this is the consciousness or this is that or
Speaker 5: that is that, and so really tuning into that information,
Speaker 5: be aware of being aware of your body as information
Speaker 5: like that that specific tingle or that that little poke.
Speaker 5: Literally I'm not joking. I'm laying there and I had
Speaker 5: out of nowhere, this has never happened, just the sharpest
Speaker 5: pain ever in my right foot, and it was so bad.
Speaker 5: I was like and had to take a second and
Speaker 5: then calm myself and say, this is information and ask
Speaker 5: that sharp pain like what's going on? Like, what are
Speaker 5: you doing here? I'm not mad at you? Can I
Speaker 5: understand thirty three on the clock? Can I can? I
Speaker 5: ask that, you know, like becoming aware of this this
Speaker 5: pain as information and granting it permission to be with
Speaker 5: me and saying like trying to understand, trying to understand
Speaker 5: it and not just detest it because sometimes for us,
Speaker 5: as like physical beings, sensations might seem uncomfortable, but it
Speaker 5: could be valuable information. And trying to just medicate everything
Speaker 5: and push everything away, fix to fix everything, you're not
Speaker 5: listening to the wisdom of your body, which is actually
Speaker 5: kind of a big part of your holistic voice program. Now,
Speaker 5: like the wisdom in your body.
Speaker 4: That's really profound. I feel like I have a lot
Speaker 4: of like body anxiety when I get weird.
Speaker 5: Feelings wisdom and if you want to get really into it,
Speaker 5: like I have a lot of thoughts about this. I
Speaker 5: can't say for sure, but it's just a conversation to
Speaker 5: bring up that I think your body literally is like
Speaker 5: a psychic spiritual being itself. That I think absolutely, your
Speaker 5: your body is like a spiritual psychic vessel, right, and
Speaker 5: it has wisdom that you might not cognitively have you
Speaker 5: don't recognize, and so why else would you have a
Speaker 5: gut sensation boom, something is happening and then you dodge
Speaker 5: and you know, you jumped out of the way of
Speaker 5: getting hit by a car. Like stuff like that.
Speaker 4: Happens, yeah, yeah all the time.
Speaker 5: Or like, oh, why is my tooth hurting? And you
Speaker 5: go to the doctor and you find out something that's
Speaker 5: not to do with the tooth, but because you went
Speaker 5: at that time, you caught cancer or something. You know
Speaker 5: what I'm saying, Like, I don't, I just made that up.
Speaker 5: But there's so.
Speaker 2: Much wisdom and the signs mean something.
Speaker 5: The signs all of it means something and it's all connected.
Speaker 4: I found this in my.
Speaker 3: Journal on the first day of doing the exercises, I wrote,
Speaker 3: felt a strong vibration in my right foot.
Speaker 5: Oh we're twins.
Speaker 3: But it wasn't painful mind vibration. I didn't have any
Speaker 3: painful sensations. But yeah, multiple points throughout the week we
Speaker 3: would we would all be experiencing like, uh, that's something
Speaker 3: Chris Ramsey said as he kept feeling buzzing. I think
Speaker 3: it was in his hands or in his feet. Like
Speaker 3: the entire week, we all felt like pulsing in our
Speaker 3: like foreheads. And that's That's something that's really cool about
Speaker 3: it is it will make you aware of your body differently.
Speaker 4: So that's cool.
Speaker 5: Well, we're electrical beings. Yeah, you know, your whole body
Speaker 5: is run by electricity, and so all of these impulses
Speaker 5: mean something, and so learning to tap into that can
Speaker 5: have a a lot of benefit.
Speaker 4: Yeah, certainly lots. And so is that like okay, So
Speaker 4: it sounds like these focuses and stuff that you learn,
Speaker 4: like you you kind of try to teach yourself how
Speaker 4: to recall that stuff, like you know, after you're out
Speaker 4: of the experience.
Speaker 5: Like the physical impulses. You mean to recall that later?
Speaker 5: Is that what you're saying?
Speaker 4: Yeah, Like, like, I'm curious because you mentioned on the
Speaker 4: big you know, the three part series that we did,
Speaker 4: that you learn these focuses and then you can recall
Speaker 4: them later. You can later quickly get yourself into those focuses.
Speaker 4: Is that based off of like physical cues, like you
Speaker 4: remember the physical feeling or.
Speaker 2: What It's a mixture of both.
Speaker 5: It could be.
Speaker 3: Okay, I'll tell you what, Like this is gonna sound weird,
Speaker 3: but I know that I'm in focus twelve or above
Speaker 3: when I'm meditating, and you know, naturally you want to
Speaker 3: do it with your eyes closed. And I'm sitting there,
Speaker 3: I'm going through the process. I'm basically saying the affirmation
Speaker 3: and doing the energy reball and the what's the box
Speaker 3: called the energy conversion box, and I'm going through all
Speaker 3: this stuff. And then I'm sitting there and I'm doing
Speaker 3: what they teach me, which was, you know, think of
Speaker 3: the number twelve and take a deep breath and let
Speaker 3: it out and then you can kind of feel, at
Speaker 3: least for me, the sensation I feel in my body
Speaker 3: when I know what's happening. Is I can feel my
Speaker 3: eyes get much heavier, even behind my eyelids, and I
Speaker 3: feel them getting really heavy.
Speaker 2: And then when I.
Speaker 3: Open my eyes, everything around me is like distorted and.
Speaker 5: Really zoomed in, well zoomed out. Well yeah, it's kind
Speaker 5: of like.
Speaker 3: Yeah, like you can feel yourself even though your eyes
Speaker 3: are closed. You can feel yourself getting heavier and kind
Speaker 3: of like farther away and less focused on everything out here.
Speaker 3: And then it's like, Okay, open your eyes and it's
Speaker 3: like whoa, and it's like everything is blurry and it's
Speaker 3: it's just there's certain things that you notice about how
Speaker 3: you feel and how your mind is feeling and how
Speaker 3: your body is feeling.
Speaker 2: You just you know that you're there.
Speaker 3: And I'm just talking strictly like if you're like out
Speaker 3: somewhere doing it without frequencies, like on your own, with
Speaker 3: your own mind.
Speaker 5: Sure, you know I think that.
Speaker 2: You feel different, Well, yeah, you feel different.
Speaker 5: And I think that I have traditionally been doing this
Speaker 5: without realizing it, and it's kind of given me a
Speaker 5: lot of struggles, like kind of having this altered state
Speaker 5: where when I'm around people, I struggle to talk to
Speaker 5: them because I'm not here.
Speaker 4: I can definitely relate to that, like it.
Speaker 5: Really zoomed out and I'm like not here totally. You
Speaker 5: could say it's dissociation, but I also do think that
Speaker 5: there's a difference between that because I can totally identify
Speaker 5: that because I've been there. But also there's like sort
Speaker 5: of the expanded consciousness state where it's like I'm just
Speaker 5: hyper present and hyper aware, but not in like a
Speaker 5: scary or anxious way. It's just like I am observing
Speaker 5: from a different part of myself. Okay, does that make sense?
Speaker 4: Yeah, it does.
Speaker 5: It's like a bird's eye view, That's how you can
Speaker 5: tell that. And I'm just kind of like it's like
Speaker 5: everything is slow and I'm just able to observe, and
Speaker 5: then people talking to me. It takes me time to
Speaker 5: process yeah, and then you're like okay, yes, and then
Speaker 5: you can.
Speaker 4: You forget You're like kind of a part of the
Speaker 4: conversation that's happening. You feel like you're just observing it happen. Yeah.
Speaker 3: I get like that sometimes too. I think that's like
Speaker 3: what we all experience in our family. Like I noticed
Speaker 3: juniors like that, Jeremys like that. I just think that
Speaker 3: I got aware of it a long time ago and
Speaker 3: tried to like grab the reins of it.
Speaker 4: I still struggle with that. Sometimes it's like just spacing
Speaker 4: out and just yeah, I often feel like so.
Speaker 2: Like daydreaming, you know, thinking about other things.
Speaker 4: Always.
Speaker 5: I think we all have the we're all, you know,
Speaker 5: the same thing. We're all the same thing, and we
Speaker 5: all access it differently, and all certainly have and can,
Speaker 5: but I think it has been a bit of a
Speaker 5: problem for me.
Speaker 4: Yeah. Historical is that something that you feel like the
Speaker 4: Monroe stuff has helped with or because it has.
Speaker 5: Helping understanding it, identifying it. Because if you can identify something,
Speaker 5: you can claim power.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 5: If you can identify it, this is what this is,
Speaker 5: then you have the piece and the clarity and the
Speaker 5: power over yourself in this situation.
Speaker 3: If you can't identify it.
Speaker 5: It feels scary.
Speaker 3: You cannot identify it, you're either not aware of it
Speaker 3: or you're in denial.
Speaker 5: Yeah yeah, or you don't have.
Speaker 4: Yeah, you may not have the tools.
Speaker 5: Yeah, you're not the tools.
Speaker 2: You might you know, not be able to face this issue.
Speaker 1: You have.
Speaker 3: Something I noticed about my post Moreau Monroe integration is
Speaker 3: that I've been a lot more committed to health, eating better,
Speaker 3: or feeling better about like my eating patterns and being
Speaker 3: like way more in control of like, nah, I don't
Speaker 3: want to eat, maybe I want to fast and just
Speaker 3: like committing to it without a second thought. Feeling great
Speaker 3: And exercise. I actually find that I'm like doing a
Speaker 3: lot better with And you know that could also be
Speaker 3: because I went through three months of lif crisis level stress,
Speaker 3: you know, getting this house together, and then the day
Speaker 3: after I finished that job, then I went to Monroe.
Speaker 3: Then I went to Europe for a month. So you know,
Speaker 3: maybe we could say it's because, oh my god, my
Speaker 3: life's been so crazy for four months. I have my
Speaker 3: schedule in control now. But I'm just saying, like I
Speaker 3: feel more motivated about certain things, yeah, like productive things,
Speaker 3: beneficial things, things that are good for me.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 3: So that's that's something I never would have expected.
Speaker 5: Well, back to the wisdom of your body. Like your
Speaker 5: body thrives.
Speaker 2: It wants to be happy, it wants it wants to
Speaker 2: feel good, and it wants to be healthy.
Speaker 5: It thrives and I'm not talking calisten X or high
Speaker 5: intensity workout crazy cardio stuff. It thrives with movement, with
Speaker 5: being engaged, being active, doesn't have to be highly productive work.
Speaker 2: You don't have to be an Olympic ath.
Speaker 4: It just wants to be.
Speaker 5: It wants to be moving, wants to be nourished, and
Speaker 5: it wants space to rest. And it sounds like you're
Speaker 5: just tapping into that really well right now.
Speaker 3: Yeah, maybe I was talking to Ignacio. I think it
Speaker 3: was that time that we were on the phone with
Speaker 3: them last week, and I told him, Man, ever since
Speaker 3: leaving there, I've been getting the best sleep in my life.
Speaker 3: It was like, well, I mean that makes a lot
Speaker 3: of sense, because at least with Gateway, Like I can't
Speaker 3: say this will be the same with Creation Station because
Speaker 3: I haven't done it. But when you're there for so
Speaker 3: long and you're doing it for so long, it has
Speaker 3: like a complete reset effect on your nervous system. Yes,
Speaker 3: it's like it like all of this intense meditation for
Speaker 3: days and days like profoundly restabilizes your nervous system, which
Speaker 3: is why a lot of people when they leave there,
Speaker 3: they you know, that might experience days of like crying
Speaker 3: and crying or like traumas just like kind of being
Speaker 3: released and being able to integrate more or with negative
Speaker 3: things that they've experienced in their life because because your
Speaker 3: nervous system is being more balanced, it's kind of like
Speaker 3: shifting you into that. Like it's like this, when you're
Speaker 3: stressed all the time, your body is very hyper alert
Speaker 3: and it's stimulated, and you're like aware of threats and
Speaker 3: things that are a problem to you. But then when
Speaker 3: you finally are in that point where it's like my
Speaker 3: nervous system is regulated and I know that there is
Speaker 3: no threat, then the alert comes down, the threat response.
Speaker 3: You know, you're not like on a swivel looking for
Speaker 3: threats and all this stuff. So then the exhaustion hits,
Speaker 3: the rest begins. Get you get tired, your body, your
Speaker 3: body lets its guard got to catch up. Yeah, you
Speaker 3: start sleeping deep, you start being like, dude, there was
Speaker 3: like for two weeks all I wanted to do was nothing.
Speaker 3: The other day, literally like three days ago, I finally said,
Speaker 3: I feel like I'm recovering from all of this stuff,
Speaker 3: from like the travel for a month and all of
Speaker 3: this stuff.
Speaker 5: Can I tell you something funny this It was not
Speaker 5: funny at the time. Imagine, okay, imagine my story from
Speaker 5: the first Monroe trip and how profound it was for me.
Speaker 5: I changed and I immediately immediately got on a flight
Speaker 5: to New York City.
Speaker 2: I forgot about that.
Speaker 5: And listen, you are highly highly sensitive after and you're
Speaker 5: in a different perspective. Still, you're not grounded yet. And
Speaker 5: I go to New York and Jack and I are,
Speaker 5: you know, there for a couple of days, and we're
Speaker 5: going to go see a show. And we went to
Speaker 5: go see this musical and it's objectively a good show, Okay,
Speaker 5: which one, but it's called a Strange Loop. But it
Speaker 5: has some very troubling things in it. And I was
Speaker 5: highly susceptible. And this was the day after I left.
Speaker 5: I was extremely sensitive. And there were two I literally
Speaker 5: thought times to and I was stuck in it forever.
Speaker 5: It felt like hell, and I felt like I would
Speaker 5: never feel good again, Like the energy was so dark.
Speaker 5: Two things. One was like very negative, like a sexual
Speaker 5: thing that happened. And then one thing was a religious
Speaker 5: trauma thing. And that's the one that really killed me
Speaker 5: because like religious trauma. Hello. And it was just like
Speaker 5: so intense that I left there And Ryan.
Speaker 2: What.
Speaker 4: She's talking about? Something so dark? You're just like stretching
Speaker 4: an alien.
Speaker 5: Get a hair.
Speaker 4: Talking about something?
Speaker 5: Who's the older sebling here?
Speaker 4: Right?
Speaker 5: Exactly anyway that I was so mad. I was like,
Speaker 5: Jack of all the shows? Why are we here watching this?
Speaker 1: After?
Speaker 5: I just love them? In Row it was dark. But anyway,
Speaker 5: how long do you.
Speaker 4: Think it took you before you started feeling.
Speaker 5: I wasn't normal after my first time going there. I
Speaker 5: wasn't normal for a I don't think I've ever gotten normal.
Speaker 5: What is normal? Actually? What is normal? I don't think
Speaker 5: I've ever been normal again.
Speaker 4: In terms of your definitely the perception of your sensitivity levels,
Speaker 4: Like like you mentioned being hyper sensitive right after, I
Speaker 4: would say.
Speaker 5: The hyper sensitivity took some months to go away. Wow, yeah,
Speaker 5: it could take a.
Speaker 3: Year, they say some people it was probably.
Speaker 5: It was probably a year. And then I went back again.
Speaker 2: It's in the ground packet here.
Speaker 4: You feel like it just real.
Speaker 5: I've been once a year for the past since then
Speaker 5: three years. I went that year, then last year, and
Speaker 5: then this year. But yeah, I just keeps coming back.
Speaker 4: So it feels the same, like your sensitivity levels feel
Speaker 4: heightened every time after leaving. This is your third time now,
Speaker 4: and it was virtual, but the sensitivity was probably.
Speaker 5: Oh my gosh. Yeah, I went to Walmart and I
Speaker 5: was like, I don't like Walmart.
Speaker 4: Walmart has dark vibes, it does.
Speaker 5: It was so intense.
Speaker 2: The tunnels underneath Oh man, I thought that was the
Speaker 2: White House. Okay, they're connected.
Speaker 5: Wait anyway, don't go don't go to don't go to
Speaker 5: Walmart during the monroach.
Speaker 4: Yeah, or apparently a dark play oh my Broadway.
Speaker 3: So so like for for our case, because we're doing
Speaker 3: Creation station, is it similar? Is the post experience similar
Speaker 3: where you're like in that heightened state basis?
Speaker 2: Yeah, it is. You would compare it to like your
Speaker 2: other two trips, great, I would.
Speaker 5: I wouldn't say it's I would say yeah.
Speaker 3: It's a good thing. It's a good thing to experience.
Speaker 3: It's just like it depends on your perspective.
Speaker 5: Like, Okay, I'll give you another example. I have a superpower.
Speaker 5: I don't drop Okay, this is my like funny superpower,
Speaker 5: but it's a real thing. Like you can ask Jack
Speaker 5: if I drop something, if if it's an accident, I
Speaker 5: will catch it no matter what. If something falls, I
Speaker 5: will catch it. My reflex is just like I can
Speaker 5: catch anything unless you're trying to throw something at me
Speaker 5: and I know I have to catch it. I might
Speaker 5: drop it, but if something falls I could catch it
Speaker 5: with like a pinky. It's like a weird thing. But
Speaker 5: literally right after this, like for days, I was dropping
Speaker 5: the dumbest stuff. I was spilling things. I wrote it everywhere,
Speaker 5: spilling water rice like it was a disaster, which is
Speaker 5: totally not me. I was not back.
Speaker 2: Is that coming from like a lack of coordination place,
Speaker 2: or like a lack of focus place? Does that make sense?
Speaker 2: I think it's free.
Speaker 5: I don't think I was coordinated with my body, Like
Speaker 5: I wasn't focused with my body.
Speaker 4: So it's a focused thing.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think so.
Speaker 5: I think the focus affected my coordination because I have
Speaker 5: great coordination.
Speaker 3: I had the same exact experience, Like I even wrote
Speaker 3: it in my journal, Like for days, I was just
Speaker 3: dropping stuff. I'd be sitting there debrief and just drop
Speaker 3: my pen over and over and over. Eventually I had
Speaker 3: to put in my shirt pocket.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: So I have a lot of questions about the virtual experience.
Speaker 2: After listening to Ryan go on and on about the
Speaker 2: Gateway experience, I'm just like, like, I feel like being
Speaker 2: there is such a such a deep part of the
Speaker 2: Gateway experience. I can't like, I can't wrap my mind
Speaker 2: around spending all day at the computer doing these things,
Speaker 2: going into your meditations, and then like, all right, it's
Speaker 2: been a day. I'm gonna go make dinner, like and
Speaker 2: be in my house and like live my regular life.
Speaker 2: So like, well for that whole weekend, you're not gonna
Speaker 2: live your regular life. Well, it's gonna be Monday, your
Speaker 2: regular life, because it's gonna be Sunday. The whole days
Speaker 2: you know spoken for too, right, Saturday and Sunday, full days.
Speaker 5: What I recommend is don't drive. You're not you're not
Speaker 5: encouraged to drive that weekend.
Speaker 3: You're not actually supposed to drive.
Speaker 5: You're not supposed to drive if you have to go
Speaker 5: somewhere and have someone drive for you. But like Friday
Speaker 5: night when it starts for Friday afternoon, from then, try
Speaker 5: not to drive, Try not to go in public.
Speaker 2: So treat it kind of like a lock in.
Speaker 5: Treat it like a lock in. Treat it like it's
Speaker 5: a special retreat.
Speaker 2: So like prepare, get your groceries. Okay, I.
Speaker 5: Was by myself that week and Jack was in Kansas
Speaker 5: for pickleball thing, and I had to go to Walmart
Speaker 5: because I have groceries, and I went after our first day,
Speaker 5: and that's why. I was like, oh my, oh wow,
Speaker 5: oh no, everyone was dogging on me. Why did you
Speaker 5: go to Walmart? Walmart? It's gross anyway, like ew Walmart?
Speaker 5: But yeah, don't go anywhere. Just treat it like it's
Speaker 5: really special. I didn't watch shows like I normally do.
Speaker 5: I did watch Sailor Moon, but that I felt like
Speaker 5: I had to and I felt like I should be
Speaker 5: guilty for this because I really wanted to commit to this.
Speaker 5: But then later I was like, oh I was meant
Speaker 5: to sure, I felt called to watch this, So like,
Speaker 5: just be intentional with what you're doing, what you're eating,
Speaker 5: what you're watching.
Speaker 4: I'm a watch Stephen Universe, yeah, nothing else.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Would you go as far to like turn your phone off?
Speaker 2: You could when you're at Monroe.
Speaker 5: You don't have to.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 5: I wasn't on mine. I didn't scroll, I didn't do
Speaker 5: any mindless scrolling.
Speaker 2: That's what I mean. Like I do a lot of
Speaker 2: mindless scrolling in my free time. Yeah, And so I'm like,
Speaker 2: maybe it'd be worth complete log off for I.
Speaker 3: Mean, it's like, use it if you need it, you know,
Speaker 3: you don't have to completely lock it away. You know,
Speaker 3: if your my dad try to call your something like.
Speaker 3: That's fine, But the idea, at least when you're there
Speaker 3: residentially is, yeah, you want to try to be like away.
Speaker 2: From the outside world as much as possible.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you're supposed to feel like you're kind of separated
Speaker 3: from the mundane.
Speaker 4: I'm really trying not to like take any hopes, like
Speaker 4: specific hopes for specific outcomes into the experience because I
Speaker 4: truly just want to be like a blank canvas when
Speaker 4: I go in. That's great, but I can't help but
Speaker 4: have like some subconscious things that I really hope come
Speaker 4: from it.
Speaker 5: Whatever is meant for you, you will be for you.
Speaker 4: That's more so what I'm trying to settle into. You
Speaker 4: just need what I need.
Speaker 3: I will get focus on that intention and dude, like,
Speaker 3: just take take my experience. For example, I had Emily
Speaker 3: and Dad's encounters in my mind and looming in the distance, like,
Speaker 3: surely I can't experience something that they did. This is
Speaker 3: so much pressure, And I literally went there in day one.
Speaker 3: I was like, I don't even know if it's possible
Speaker 3: for me to go out of body.
Speaker 2: Like I don't even think I have this ability. That's
Speaker 2: kind of where I'm at, But it feels it feels
Speaker 2: similar to me of like the first a couple of
Speaker 2: times I would come over to the house and not
Speaker 2: see anything. Ye like, but you did, and eventually I did.
Speaker 2: But I remember feeling like, oh, man, like I'm not
Speaker 2: this isn't I'm not part of this blah blah blah.
Speaker 2: I mean I kind of feel that like like not,
Speaker 2: I don't know, no imposture syndrome or not.
Speaker 3: Like everybody there felt imposter syndrome. If that makes you
Speaker 3: feel better, it does.
Speaker 2: A little bit like everyone's completely new.
Speaker 3: Chris Ramsey love him to keep bringing him up because
Speaker 3: our rooms were beside each other. I'm sorry, but I
Speaker 3: felt like you should hear this. Chris Ramsey's room was
Speaker 3: beside mine, so before and after every meditation we would
Speaker 3: talk like, oh, like he'd be.
Speaker 2: The first person. Oh yeah, yeah.
Speaker 3: We were always the first to see each other right after.
Speaker 3: And that's something he was telling me one time, like
Speaker 3: three or four days in he just had this profound
Speaker 3: breakthrough and on the way to one of the meditations,
Speaker 3: or it was right after, he was like, dude, I
Speaker 3: just I haven't known how to put words to it,
Speaker 3: but I've just had this crazy imposter syndrome all week,
Speaker 3: and I was like, in my head, I was like, damn,
Speaker 3: you know, that explains how I'm feeling. I think everybody
Speaker 3: has that to it. Yeah, to an extent. I'd love to, really, I'd.
Speaker 2: Love to sit down and us do an episode before,
Speaker 2: like do it before and after abh, like where we
Speaker 2: just kind of do this again.
Speaker 5: I think I think that that coming up for you though,
Speaker 5: is something for you to marinate on beforehand, because you
Speaker 5: can work out that that imposter syndrome at the retreat. Like,
Speaker 5: if this is coming up for you, maybe make that
Speaker 5: sort of one of your intentions for the retreat itself.
Speaker 2: Because it does bleed into everything else.
Speaker 5: Of course.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you guys are love Ignacio. He's a very bright light.
Speaker 1: He is.
Speaker 2: He's very wise, and I'll say like very tapped in,
Speaker 2: especially like with it being the creator thing, like the
Speaker 2: creativity thing, Like I feel like I'm the least creative.
Speaker 2: Like obviously, you know it's just a self limiting belief
Speaker 2: or whatever, but I do feel like you guys have
Speaker 2: your music thing. All of you guys have your music thing,
Speaker 2: and I'm just me, you know, So I'm like, but
Speaker 2: you said it's for everybody.
Speaker 4: Music ain't the only art for it, buddy.
Speaker 2: No, it's not even problem solving, like absolutely yes.
Speaker 5: And also I'll say I just something I've been marinating
Speaker 5: on is that your existence is just creation magic. Like
Speaker 5: the fact that you're alive is creation magic.
Speaker 2: I mean, and I think it all goes hand in
Speaker 2: hand with like the manifestation stuff.
Speaker 3: It's creative intelligence.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's like in Rick Rubin's book, that's what he
Speaker 4: talked about. Everything is art, everything is creation.
Speaker 5: You are.
Speaker 4: Yeah, everything your eyeballs are seeing right now is like
Speaker 4: you know, you understand, you're not like seeing exactly what
Speaker 4: you think you're seeing. Your brain is painting a picture
Speaker 4: of what it thinks your eyeballs are seeing right now.
Speaker 4: Like you are constantly engaged in the act of creation.
Speaker 5: What you're saying is creating an outward expression of your thought.
Speaker 5: You're bringing you're bringing forth and bringing it forth into
Speaker 5: the world. Like whatever you say, you are creating it. Yeah,
Speaker 5: you're making it real.
Speaker 2: That's right. I heard something like don't talk about what
Speaker 2: you're doing until you're done, because you trick your brain
Speaker 2: into thinking you already did it.
Speaker 4: That's such a problem for you.
Speaker 2: Don't like actually follow through so like if you have
Speaker 2: plans to do something and you say, oh, I'm you know,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna climb the mountain. I'm going to climb the mountain. Like,
Speaker 2: the more you say that to other people, the more
Speaker 2: your brain thinks the mountains climb, dude, Which is interesting
Speaker 2: because like, yeah, no, I believe in that too.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's for sure a thing like I've had that
Speaker 4: problem a thousand moves in silence.
Speaker 5: Yes, yeah, saying to not talk about it.
Speaker 2: Yeah before yeah, real, g's riding silence like Lasagna.
Speaker 5: Okay, okay, I think that is a difference though, wait, because.
Speaker 3: He is silent, right, Oh my gosh, I love that.
Speaker 2: It's a little Wayne.
Speaker 5: I do think it's difficult though. I do think it's
Speaker 5: different though, than speaking and putting forth. It doesn't have
Speaker 5: to even be speaking. It could be writing or just
Speaker 5: starting the creation of said plans, because you have to
Speaker 5: bring it forth, but maybe not share it with others.
Speaker 2: Right, because as soon as you write your intention down
Speaker 2: on paper, it becomes forty nine percent more likely it's
Speaker 2: gonna come true.
Speaker 3: Well, that's that's an interesting number.
Speaker 2: No, that's that's like correct, It's like forty eight or
Speaker 2: forty nine percent more likely to happen.
Speaker 3: But something that we did at Monroe was there, Like,
Speaker 3: when you're trying to ask for something from your higher self,
Speaker 3: write it down. If you have questions for your higher self,
Speaker 3: think of the questions, write them down. You could even
Speaker 3: just think of the questions in your mind.
Speaker 2: And no, no, no, you could.
Speaker 3: You could write the questions down on a pin of
Speaker 3: paper and then number them one, two, three, and then
Speaker 3: when you get to the meditation, you don't even have
Speaker 3: to remember them. You can say, Okay, what's the answer
Speaker 3: to my first question, second question, third question. And I
Speaker 3: think it's like because when you write something down, your
Speaker 3: subconscious mind is sort of like using you as that
Speaker 3: marionette puppet to bind these symbols to that paper and
Speaker 3: sort of conjure forth the meaning of your words out
Speaker 3: into the manifest reality. Because now these words were just
Speaker 3: thoughts in your little fucking brain floating around. Now there's
Speaker 3: symbol bound on a piece of paper. So I think
Speaker 3: their material, their material. Yeah, that's that's what I'm getting at. So, like,
Speaker 3: I think there is very something very powerful to writing
Speaker 3: down your desires, your your goals, your affirmations, whatever. And
Speaker 3: it's something that they make you do it, Monroe. That's
Speaker 3: why they make you journal. They give you a journal.
Speaker 3: I don't know about virtual, but you know, when you're
Speaker 3: there in person, they give you a journal. They give
Speaker 3: you a pen, and they're like, write anything that comes.
Speaker 5: To you down, pick a journal.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I do agree.
Speaker 1: I know.
Speaker 4: It's just like how they say, like you commit things
Speaker 4: to memory more when you put when you write it down,
Speaker 4: it's like it's engaging your subconscious mind. It's like accessing
Speaker 4: your subconscious mind automatic writing, which is where the magic happens.
Speaker 4: You know about automatic writing? I think so, but tell
Speaker 4: me about it.
Speaker 3: It's like the thing where they say, like you just
Speaker 3: start writing and then like you'll you'll be channeling some
Speaker 3: higher force and you know, crazy stuff will start coming out.
Speaker 2: But Olivia does that every morning.
Speaker 4: That's cool. Every morning.
Speaker 2: That's very corn Yeah, she's got a great little morning routine.
Speaker 2: And I sleep in, but my sleep in is seven o'clock.
Speaker 4: You know what.
Speaker 2: Olivia is kind of a boss, dude.
Speaker 3: I'm like, I'm getting to know her better as you
Speaker 3: guys are getting married, and I'm like around you guys
Speaker 3: as a couple more and where Yeah, just I'm seeing
Speaker 3: you guys grow up and you know, get closer and closer.
Speaker 3: And I have to say, dude, Plus, she was in
Speaker 3: college the first several year I really knew you, and
Speaker 3: I have to say, man, like, she's a boss. Dude,
Speaker 3: I'm excited for her. Go get her, bro Like, you're
Speaker 3: in good hands.
Speaker 2: No, she truly is, like, and that's that's a lot
Speaker 2: of the reason that we're together is like when things started,
Speaker 2: like we've been together a long time, but when things
Speaker 2: started to get really serious, like she was the most
Speaker 2: driven person I knew, and I like, you know, I like,
Speaker 2: I like myself and I know what I'm capable of,
Speaker 2: but I knew that I like, in that moment, I
Speaker 2: lacked that drive, like I was just a pot smoking teenager,
Speaker 2: you know, and that like, that's probably one of the
Speaker 2: things about her that I like the most.
Speaker 1: She's absolutely.
Speaker 2: Oh you know, there's some emotion under here somewhere.
Speaker 3: Yeah. No, that that was beautiful.
Speaker 4: Man.
Speaker 3: The advice to you guys, going back to the other
Speaker 3: thing is, look, I can promise you based on what
Speaker 3: you guys both just said, I felt like a clone,
Speaker 3: like the identical feelings. And I literally went there the
Speaker 3: first day and I was like they're like, what do
Speaker 3: you expect? And I was like, nothing, Anything that I
Speaker 3: experienced I'll be happy for, you know, so just just
Speaker 3: you know, put it out of your head.
Speaker 2: Yay, we have a creation station coming up. Oh, it's out.
Speaker 2: I got.
Speaker 3: There's so much in between, right, I understand, like don't
Speaker 3: don't don't don't think about it. I'm not saying don't
Speaker 3: be excited, don't literally think about it, but like, don't
Speaker 3: I want this to happen.
Speaker 4: I want to it.
Speaker 2: Don't think any of that.
Speaker 4: I've processed most of that and now I'm just like
Speaker 4: really excited and grateful that it's gonna happen.
Speaker 2: That's all you need to be.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And I'm just like excited to see what it
Speaker 4: is and.
Speaker 5: This will be I'm not even really sharing as much
Speaker 5: about what we did because a lot of the visuals
Speaker 5: were related to prompts and things that you know, we
Speaker 5: were doing, like tools and tasks. But I will say that,
Speaker 5: you know, even though I have experienced other people and
Speaker 5: there too were having things they were experiencing or you know,
Speaker 5: that was shifting their perspective or that they were seeing
Speaker 5: or going through or whatever that was so profound that
Speaker 5: like literally I won't say any names, but like the
Speaker 5: first exercise, which is like you know, I don't know,
Speaker 5: it's below level ten. It's just like to get you going,
Speaker 5: and there's like different things or whatever.
Speaker 2: He was like, uh, that was wild.
Speaker 5: I don't know if I'll ever be normal again. And
Speaker 5: we're like, oh, was this the creation stage?
Speaker 1: Yes?
Speaker 5: Yeah it was No, it was amazing. But you know,
Speaker 5: as we all progressed, everyone was like, what is going on?
Speaker 3: Wow, skeptics come here. I heard stories of like.
Speaker 5: Even if they didn't see visuals, they were like, something's different.
Speaker 4: Sure, yeah, you could feel it.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: There's this one story that was told to me while
Speaker 3: I was there that there's this husband and wife and
Speaker 3: the wife is like really into this stuff, and it
Speaker 3: was like I gotta go to the road and dote.
Speaker 3: So the husband was like all right, and I'll go
Speaker 3: with you. And then they get there and the husband
Speaker 3: starts having these like like Charles Xavier, like seeing all
Speaker 3: this ship and having these crazy experiences and everyone was like, yo,
Speaker 3: this is crazy, and the wife's like what you know.
Speaker 3: I was the one that wanted to come here, and
Speaker 3: he was a skeptic dude.
Speaker 4: Right, you know, but he needed it. It was for him.
Speaker 3: I was doing like the how the channelers do with it,
Speaker 3: you know in the videos.
Speaker 5: That's funny you said that because one of the I
Speaker 5: won't say names again, but shout out to my program
Speaker 5: people that because a lot of them listen, I love
Speaker 5: you guys. But someone else had an experience there that
Speaker 5: they were like I felt like Charles Xavier. I was
Speaker 5: like I was like in cerebral Yeah, like cerebro, cerebro.
Speaker 3: Sorry, just you know, open mind, open heart, and it's
Speaker 3: it's an incredible place. Yeah, I think that, like, yeah,
Speaker 3: and most of all, it's fun and you're in good hands.
Speaker 3: You have to remember it's like, first of all, they
Speaker 3: have developed this cutting edge technology that gets your brain
Speaker 3: to these states.
Speaker 2: It's not you can't think about it, like.
Speaker 3: I don't know if I'll be able to get to
Speaker 3: these states of meditation. Yeah you will, because your brain's
Speaker 3: gonna do it for you, because it's gonna get to
Speaker 3: the frequencies. All you gotta do is just fall along.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: That's not so much what my like like anxieties were
Speaker 4: or whatever it was. It was more so like, man,
Speaker 4: I hope these specific issues get fixed with me, right,
Speaker 4: But then but then I processed that and I was like,
Speaker 4: you know what, like it's going to be exactly what
Speaker 4: I need it to be. And yeah, I'm just excited now.
Speaker 5: There's nothing to fix about you, right, Yeah.
Speaker 4: That's a good way to look at it. Yeah, it's
Speaker 4: like I'm having.
Speaker 5: Like a mixing board, like you're you're just shifting the
Speaker 5: dials into a more optimal position.
Speaker 3: Keep that perspective, like I'm going to get exact or something.
Speaker 2: You just got to tune the car up a little bit, yeah.
Speaker 4: Or the boat, find like a specific way to all
Speaker 4: late to it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you gotta grease up that excavator.
Speaker 5: All right, what's with that?
Speaker 3: I don't I'm just trying to appeal to the youth.
Speaker 2: The youth, and he points in me.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I mean you are the youngest you are.
Speaker 2: You're what twenty six and a couple of seven.
Speaker 4: You're the baby baby, You're a little baby.
Speaker 5: Wait, how old are you, Alex?
Speaker 2: He's almost twenty six almost, I'm twenty twenty five and
Speaker 2: a half. I'm like twenty five ninety percent.
Speaker 5: What's weird is I've always been the baby, but I'm
Speaker 5: starting to like in places not I'm like older than everyone,
Speaker 5: and that's weird.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: Yeah, when when that starts to happen, that's like the
Speaker 4: over the hill thing.
Speaker 5: Everyone's like wait.
Speaker 3: Yeah, oh yeah, no, I mean I'm like in all
Speaker 3: my other friends in my grade, I was always the youngest,
Speaker 3: so it's yeah, I've always been the oldest.
Speaker 4: Well yeah, I'm the baby of my family, so I've
Speaker 4: always felt like the baby. I've always felt like the youngest.
Speaker 4: And now that I'm thirty, it's like everyone around me
Speaker 4: is significantly younger than me. I'm like, this is weird. Yeah,
Speaker 4: this is a weird feeling.
Speaker 2: You'll ever analyze your friends like in what way? Like
Speaker 2: the majority of my friends are all younger brothers, the
Speaker 2: large real friends and younger brothers. Really, oh really, and
Speaker 2: I'm like an older brother. I have a couple older
Speaker 2: brother friends, but yeah, most the majority of them are younger.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I guess the majority of my friends then younger brothers.
Speaker 3: You start thinking, like the kind of people that you attract, Like,
Speaker 3: are they.
Speaker 2: No, I'd have to think about that. I never thought
Speaker 2: about it. Yeah, well I never thought about it. I'm
Speaker 2: more of an abstract thinker because I have some older brothers.
Speaker 4: All right, all right, there buddy.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you're you're definitely an abstract thinker. Man of that
Speaker 3: shirt gives it away.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it does. You're one of a kind, Bud.
Speaker 2: Yeah, thanks, I you.
Speaker 3: I did want to uh ask you.
Speaker 2: About bending spoons.
Speaker 3: Okay, you want to talk at all about like your
Speaker 3: second trip there?
Speaker 5: My second trip there? Yeah, I don't know how much
Speaker 5: I can say, right, yeah, but I do know that
Speaker 5: I talked about something that when I was there at
Speaker 5: that time. I talked about that on here when I
Speaker 5: was above the house and all the stuff was happening
Speaker 5: in the house, and then I saw the lady and
Speaker 5: I saw that was that time when I went the
Speaker 5: second time. Yeah, yeah, I don't think I'm allowed to
Speaker 5: say too much about that trip, yeap, fair enough? Yeah,
Speaker 5: And also with this one, it's it's really hard for
Speaker 5: me to not say too much about my music.
Speaker 2: What was don't even go there?
Speaker 3: You asked me last night to make sure you don't
Speaker 3: go there.
Speaker 5: I just don't want to go too much because I
Speaker 5: feel like we could do another episode on that because
Speaker 5: there's just so much about.
Speaker 4: It, and we should absolute a thousand.
Speaker 5: So it's like if I talk about this, then I'll
Speaker 5: have to talk about that, and it's like keep it clean.
Speaker 4: Yeah, hey, we got it.
Speaker 3: She literally told me the one thing you cannot let
Speaker 3: me talk about it my music. I'm telling you we
Speaker 3: are not going to talk about your We have to
Speaker 3: save it.
Speaker 4: Let's do a whole episode. Yeah whenever.
Speaker 5: Well, what I can say, what's what's been greenlighted is
Speaker 5: that where you know this is the album I was
Speaker 5: talking about two years ago that everyone's like, when's your
Speaker 5: music coming out? And I probably shouldn't have advertised it,
Speaker 5: but it was just so significant for me at the time,
Speaker 5: like I was finally writing music, I had unlocked all
Speaker 5: this stuff. And so now the timing is starting to
Speaker 5: accelerate and it should be coming out sooner. I can't
Speaker 5: say a date, but it should be sooner, and it
Speaker 5: will be in collaboration with the Monroe stuff. But I'll
Speaker 5: make sure everyone knows about it when it's when it's time. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 5: it's gonna be good. Me and Nicky are we're going good.
Speaker 4: Yeah, we're making we're hitting like the momentum now yeah,
Speaker 4: we're getting it done.
Speaker 5: Yeah, So that's exciting. Yeah. I don't I don't know
Speaker 5: what else I can say about it.
Speaker 2: You feel resolved I think.
Speaker 5: Everyone should watch and only if you're gonna love it,
Speaker 5: watch Labyrinth.
Speaker 4: That's the message today.
Speaker 2: That's unreal.
Speaker 5: And it's funny because I wrote in here that the
Speaker 5: platform was Labyrinth like and then like last night we
Speaker 5: watched and I was like, oh, it was like that,
Speaker 5: and I didn't even remember that I had written that.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 4: So only if you know you're gonna love the movie,
Speaker 4: watch it.
Speaker 5: Yeah, exactly, exactly.
Speaker 2: That's the only movies I watch it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, watch a trailer first.
Speaker 5: David Bowie is the Goblin King.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but that should be enough.
Speaker 2: A Ryan loved it, No, I did. I thought it
Speaker 2: was very fun. Tron's on my list.
Speaker 4: They just announced the third one.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I heard that they're going to be going into the
Speaker 3: real world. That's kind of crazy.
Speaker 4: It's time.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that'd be cool.
Speaker 3: I don't even watch the original, man, I think, like
Speaker 3: just knowing you it will just be a complete waste
Speaker 3: of time.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it is a very the You're great.
Speaker 5: I do have something I want to say. It's something
Speaker 5: that I feel like a lot of people are going
Speaker 5: through spiritual awakenings, and I work with a lot of
Speaker 5: people in my program that are doing this right, and
Speaker 5: it's it can be really scary, it can be really hard,
Speaker 5: and just no, Number one, you're not alone. But also
Speaker 5: you can feel kind of crazy from the synchronicities. When
Speaker 5: you start noticing how things are connected, it can make
Speaker 5: you feel kind of crazy.
Speaker 3: That is a great point, and.
Speaker 5: You're not crazy. And the more you sit with it
Speaker 5: and the more you learn and grow through this process,
Speaker 5: the more you can just have a deep seated knowing
Speaker 5: of was connected and it's not surprising anymore. It's like yeah, yeah, okay,
Speaker 5: And it's to the point where it's like, oh, you know,
Speaker 5: if you were to ask me what's been going on
Speaker 5: with you, it's like, well, I don't know how to
Speaker 5: explain it because I feel like everything is a synchronicity.
Speaker 5: It does, and I don't know how to explain it.
Speaker 5: It's so tangled. Yeah, it's like does that make sense?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Yeah. I have little pockets of time where everything seems
Speaker 4: like it's connected, and it's it's really really hard to
Speaker 4: relay that to people, how everything is connected, everything's a synchronicity.
Speaker 4: Like I feel like Casey is going through that right now,
Speaker 4: where everything in her life is a synchronicity. Every day
Speaker 4: she's telling me oh my god. That will I get
Speaker 4: in the car at the end of the day and
Speaker 4: she'll be like boom unload, like five different synchronicities on
Speaker 4: me every single day. Yeah, it's weird. You'll have like
Speaker 4: a two week stretch where it's like non stop, right,
Speaker 4: and then it'll slow down a little bit.
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, it's that. And then it's also I guess,
Speaker 5: I mean not everyone has the same experience for everything,
Speaker 5: but I feel like I will just hear or just
Speaker 5: feel a message and it's like, yeah, that's it. Like
Speaker 5: I just know that this is true. Something happens and
Speaker 5: I'm like this is that or you know, this is
Speaker 5: what this means or this is why that happened or whatever.
Speaker 5: I just kind of like have a knowing and then
Speaker 5: I don't stress about it. Like you don't have to.
Speaker 5: You don't need to stress over the meaning of the synchronicity.
Speaker 5: You don't need to stress over figuring out why this
Speaker 5: came up. You just have to know that it's information
Speaker 5: and it's popping up because you're becoming more aware. It's
Speaker 5: like one thing I see a lot with my students,
Speaker 5: and I'm sure you know we can all relate to
Speaker 5: is like that desperate need to get to the bottom
Speaker 5: of everything that happens, and you drive yourself crazy, and
Speaker 5: that's when people start going mad. It's like, oh my gosh,
Speaker 5: I have to understand all of this stuff, and it's like,
Speaker 5: well do you or can you just sit back and
Speaker 5: observe it happening around you?
Speaker 3: Detachment?
Speaker 5: Yeah, And I think that in itself, that permission can
Speaker 5: give a lot of peace.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I tend to that makes sense, absolutely does it does.
Speaker 4: I tend to look at synchronicities more as a general sign.
Speaker 4: I don't dig into the specific meaning just just me personally.
Speaker 4: I just look at them as like a little nudge
Speaker 4: from the universe, like you're doing good, You're on the
Speaker 4: right path, keep it up.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 5: And another thing is like the phenomenon showing up physically,
Speaker 5: like as an entity or an orb doesn't if that's
Speaker 5: not happening right now. I still get signs and feel
Speaker 5: them and know I have a knowing that they're there,
Speaker 5: and I see things that happen that I know is
Speaker 5: related to that. But I don't have to be seeing things.
Speaker 5: So I said that because a lot of people that
Speaker 5: experienced things, or maybe they had un experience, they're like
Speaker 5: well it's not happening. Now, what does that mean? What
Speaker 5: does that mean? What does that mean? Why is I
Speaker 5: not happening? Am I not worthy anymore? Am I doing
Speaker 5: something wrong? It's like, calm down, just just pay attention
Speaker 5: to the wisdom that is in you. Right now. You're
Speaker 5: not being present, you're not being aware of what your
Speaker 5: body needs. Because the phenomenon, whether it's a tickle that
Speaker 5: you feel on your left elbow or the light turning
Speaker 5: out or an orb in your face, like, it's all
Speaker 5: related and it's all just as relevant and important.
Speaker 4: Yeah right, yeah, absolutely.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's interesting you say that because that's kind of
Speaker 2: where I'm at right now. It's like I haven't seen
Speaker 2: anything in quite some time, probably since the last time
Speaker 2: we saw something altogether. And I'll think about that when
Speaker 2: when I don't see anything, But then I'm like I
Speaker 2: don't need it. Yeah, yeah, I'm doing great, Like I
Speaker 2: feel great, and you're like, I know it's there, you know,
Speaker 2: Like I don't need constant that affirmation that they're with me.
Speaker 3: It was two weekends ago we saw one together, remember
Speaker 3: at Olivia's birthday party that weekend with your friend.
Speaker 2: I didn't see it, Yeah, you did. But it was
Speaker 2: I was having trouble looking where you were looking. I
Speaker 2: don't remember seeing it was me you and I know,
Speaker 2: I know exactly what you're talking. Yeah, I know exactly
Speaker 2: what you're talking about, but I had issues seeing it.
Speaker 2: I thought you saw it.
Speaker 5: Yeah, okay, well then they know that you're in you
Speaker 5: don't really need it.
Speaker 2: That's kind of where I'm at. It's like, I don't like,
Speaker 2: I don't beat myself up over it. You're busy, You're
Speaker 2: busy right now. But I'm also just like I'm also
Speaker 2: you know, doing good. Yeah, like you know, like I'm
Speaker 2: very happy, yeah, very content.
Speaker 5: So yeah, and I'll think, yeah, and I'll share this
Speaker 5: affirmation that came up for me. I was supposed to
Speaker 5: come up with an affirmation, and U like, what is it.
Speaker 2: That I desire most?
Speaker 5: And I just got really overwhelmed with this feeling of gratitude,
Speaker 5: like I don't want anything. I don't actually know what
Speaker 5: to say. God, I want this more than anything, because
Speaker 5: ultimately I have everything I need and I just couldn't
Speaker 5: come up with any affirmation that would help me manifest
Speaker 5: something I desired. And so ultimately what I landed on
Speaker 5: was I have everything I need and that has been
Speaker 5: sort of it's.
Speaker 4: The most beautiful place to be.
Speaker 5: That's what I've been really affirming for myself every day.
Speaker 5: And because of that, even if you don't truly feel
Speaker 5: it in the moment, by restating that, you're making your
Speaker 5: brain believe it, and you're telling the universe and God
Speaker 5: and everything that you are welcoming the things that you need, right,
Speaker 5: the things that give you abundance and happiness, and so
Speaker 5: like by just trying to desperately pour your energy into
Speaker 5: things that you don't have that you want, it's kind
Speaker 5: of like.
Speaker 4: You're focusing on the wrong thing.
Speaker 5: Well, not necessarily, I mean you could be. I think
Speaker 5: it's more about the energy. Like, if you want a
Speaker 5: new car, it could be the wrong thing, or it
Speaker 5: could be something that you want. And that's okay. You
Speaker 5: can want a new car. That's nothing wrong with that,
Speaker 5: But where's your how are you managing the energy with that?
Speaker 5: Where is your intention with that? Like do you really
Speaker 5: need the car or do you want it because it's
Speaker 5: material right? Or do you want it because it would
Speaker 5: make you so happy?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 5: Like where is the underlying thing here? So just getting
Speaker 5: really fine tuned with the energy, the energetics of like
Speaker 5: your intention and the things you say and want.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's beautiful. I mean like this at the beginning
Speaker 4: of this year was like one of the hardest times
Speaker 4: I've ever gone through in my whole life, and gratitude
Speaker 4: saved me from it.
Speaker 5: Like, well, you can't experience anxiety and gratitude at the
Speaker 5: same time.
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah, I had to trick myself. Like you said,
Speaker 4: even if you don't feel it in the moment, just
Speaker 4: say it out loud yourself. I had to say out
Speaker 4: loud to myself that, like, I'm grateful for everything I have.
Speaker 4: I have everything I need, even though at the time
Speaker 4: it very much did not feel like it, but eventually
Speaker 4: it clicked and everything started falling into place.
Speaker 6: Good.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it was really I learned a lot this year.
Speaker 4: I've learned a lot.
Speaker 5: You've had a big year.
Speaker 4: It's been a big year.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm proud all of them. I'm proud of you.
Speaker 5: I'm proud of all of y'all.
Speaker 4: Thank you.
Speaker 5: I'm proud of the studio.
Speaker 4: It's it's it's beautiful.
Speaker 5: I love it so much.
Speaker 2: It's not done right.
Speaker 5: Well, I feel like y'all know, y'all know, I feel
Speaker 5: like this is my podcast too, Yes it is. I
Speaker 5: know that I put in all the work y'all do, but.
Speaker 2: I mean I feel that way too. I tell people
Speaker 2: that it's it's like our family, you know.
Speaker 5: Yeah, absolutely, so I'm proud.
Speaker 4: You got pictures to take, Yeah you do have pictures. Yeah,
Speaker 4: you got pictures to take. We got to say that,
Speaker 4: we got to say the outro line. You know, everybody
Speaker 4: feel good?
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I mean we lug you in the beginning.
Speaker 3: You want to at least throw your Instagram and whatever
Speaker 3: relevant things?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 5: Sure. Oh and I I will say I'm sorry for
Speaker 5: my blood so baby people, this is my TikTok. I
Speaker 5: haven't been posting because I've been grinding at my business.
Speaker 4: Yeah, been so busy whatever.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's a lot of creative juice to post on
Speaker 5: different platforms that are total spread yourself to so I'll
Speaker 5: get back to it as I can. But yeah, my
Speaker 5: Instagram is Emily Holloway Voice. I post a lot of
Speaker 5: different stuff, even if you're not a singer. I think
Speaker 5: it can be helpful content. But yeah, I also have
Speaker 5: them in a row and affiliate link if anyone wants
Speaker 5: to sign up for Monroe that's my bio.
Speaker 4: Awesome. Yeah, it's always awesome. Yeah, having you here, we.
Speaker 2: Have to do it again soon.
Speaker 5: You know I'll be back for River Fast.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, you stay with.
Speaker 4: Us in October.
Speaker 2: Sweet awesome.
Speaker 5: The better be spot for me because.
Speaker 2: Well we'll figure it out.
Speaker 1: We will.
Speaker 3: I mean, you got you know, hypothetically, if there's no
Speaker 3: spot here, I mean you know, I'm sure you got
Speaker 3: two other apartments.
Speaker 5: We'll figure it out, for sure, we'll figure it out.
Speaker 2: Yeah. So you know the words, right, the magic words,
Speaker 2: the magic words. You ready, y'all.
Speaker 7: By weird things happen in the backyard of Bletsoe House. Shi,
Speaker 7: look out, it's so weird. You're coming closer to my
Speaker 7: heart right up, like smirre.
Speaker 1: Ling on the inside of it. No one knows that
Speaker 1: it's coming right over side. Being a happy