Speaker 1: And we are back season four and today Private Talk,
Speaker 1: we have the pleasure of having Adelia on the couch right.
Speaker 2: Welcome.
Speaker 1: Thank you for coming to Private Talk. I'm excited to
Speaker 1: get to know you a little bit better. I've seen
Speaker 1: clips of your podcasts all over late Lee, and I
Speaker 1: just can't get enough of you. Your you know, your personality,
Speaker 1: how you know excited you are about your content. I
Speaker 1: feel like, you know, you're just authentically yourself. And I
Speaker 1: feel like nowadays it's really hard to kind of stick
Speaker 1: out in a you know, a sea full of content.
Speaker 1: So I feel like you've kind of made a really
Speaker 1: good splash, and so I'd love to get to know
Speaker 1: you more. So introduced yourself to Private Talk.
Speaker 2: Hello, I'm Adelia. I am an internet whore who celibate
Speaker 2: in real life. Been almost two years without Dick.
Speaker 1: How's that going for you?
Speaker 2: I keep wanting to lose it, but I'm staying strong. Nice.
Speaker 1: Have you been tempted? Have you almost crossed the line?
Speaker 1: Are you just like staying away from everything altogether? Because
Speaker 1: you know, how do you?
Speaker 2: Are?
Speaker 1: You like doing it? For what reasons?
Speaker 2: I have just.
Speaker 3: Only ever I feel like experienced fuck boys or just
Speaker 3: people that always end up breaking my heart. So I
Speaker 3: almost broke it last Saturday with a guy who I'm
Speaker 3: actually pretty into, but all we did was make out
Speaker 3: and had a little culibate sleepover.
Speaker 2: So I'm just holding out.
Speaker 1: So are there rules? Like what is it just penetration?
Speaker 1: Is it oral sex? Is it any everything?
Speaker 2: He's actually the first guy even kissed in two years?
Speaker 1: Okay, And is that by choice or it's like you
Speaker 1: just like I said, it's like sometimes we isolate ourselves
Speaker 1: because we're either healing or trying to figure out, like
Speaker 1: what kind of partner do we really want? And I
Speaker 1: feel like, sometimes you know, when we establish that we
Speaker 1: may have our picker off of like you said, fuck boys,
Speaker 1: it's like sometimes we also project that energy without knowing it.
Speaker 1: It's like so when we don't really sit down and
Speaker 1: sit with ourselves and be like what do I really
Speaker 1: need from a partner? What makes me happy? And not
Speaker 1: just being validated by just the first boy that's like,
Speaker 1: oh you're pretty, I love your hair. And I feel
Speaker 1: like sometimes as women, we kind of cling on to
Speaker 1: like the fuck boys because it's like easy and even
Speaker 1: though in a sense it's not easy and long term
Speaker 1: in the in the beginning. It's easy because they're telling
Speaker 1: us what we want to hear. Yeah, so have you
Speaker 1: done work on yourself or like what kind of established
Speaker 1: you to like push yourself to this celibacy.
Speaker 3: Honestly, I've been doing it on and off since college,
Speaker 3: so like in college, I think it was a little
Speaker 3: bit for over a year until I started dating someone,
Speaker 3: although he cheated on me a lot, but it's fine
Speaker 3: because at least I was happy for a solid.
Speaker 1: Do you tell your partners upfront that, like on first
Speaker 1: date or like the first time you're meeting them, Like, hey, like,
Speaker 1: don't expect anything from me. I'm doing this celibacy journey.
Speaker 1: Like you can either join the ride or fuck off.
Speaker 3: Yeah, exactly, Okay, that's exactly what I say. And then
Speaker 3: I tell them what I'm looking for.
Speaker 1: If they're interested, can you let us know you're looking
Speaker 1: for it's all private talk. Oh, let's manifest I free.
Speaker 1: I'm a big about manifesting. So what are you looking
Speaker 1: for in a partner?
Speaker 3: I love goofy, authentic people. I feel like I'm more
Speaker 3: intimate than women, but I'm into like I could have
Speaker 3: a girlfriend and a boyfriend, but I feel like I
Speaker 3: couldn't just have a girlfriend.
Speaker 1: But like you have you had a girlfriend?
Speaker 2: No, I haven't. I have the biggest girl crush on
Speaker 2: Maddie May Hi, Maddie Hi, Maddie. She knows it though.
Speaker 1: But okay, have you ever done anything with females other
Speaker 1: than the fact admire them?
Speaker 2: No? Yeah, I've eaten a lot of pussy.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you're good at eating pussy.
Speaker 3: I don't know if I'm good because it's been over
Speaker 3: a year for even woman, but that I think is involuntary.
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, I feel like you if you're good at
Speaker 1: it once, you have to be get at it twice.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I just think I might be a little nervous for
Speaker 3: the first time back and I'm like, oh my god,
Speaker 3: I where is.
Speaker 1: Just knock the dust off of it. I'll just keep
Speaker 1: on eating. There are ways in the good parts. Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: So what else in your partner?
Speaker 2: Oh my god? Actually I have a whole list. Shall
Speaker 2: I bring it up? Yeah?
Speaker 1: I would love to. I feel like it's important because
Speaker 1: I feel like a lot of people say, like, oh,
Speaker 1: it is this too much? Like, no, you're not too
Speaker 1: much for anybody. If you're gonna person's gonna be all
Speaker 1: the things that you want them to be. So that
Speaker 1: list can be long, it can be tall, it can
Speaker 1: be short.
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, so here is what I'm looking for, goofy.
Speaker 3: I added this one when I had a spider in
Speaker 3: my house. Must kill spiders for me, come over at
Speaker 3: any cost, preferred, get aasectomy because I don't want kids.
Speaker 3: Must be a feminist. Must be down to make content
Speaker 3: with me and help my brand. Bro Now, whether that
Speaker 3: is OnlyFans, content, TikTok, content, et cetera. I just want
Speaker 3: someone who can help my career. Can't be in a
Speaker 3: traditional job, not into that, ready to embarrass themselves, funny,
Speaker 3: kind to me and others, genuinely kind because you know,
Speaker 3: a lot of people are nice, But I don't think
Speaker 3: a lot of people who are nice aren't kind, like
Speaker 3: they do it to get certain things, like I want
Speaker 3: someone who's kind, Like if I'm nice to a person,
Speaker 3: it's because I genuinely like them, and I'm not really
Speaker 3: nice to people that I don't fuck with. Okay, can
Speaker 3: make me laugh, respect my boundaries, treats my law, treats
Speaker 3: my dog like his child. Except if she loves them more,
Speaker 3: I'm out. She's gotta love me the most.
Speaker 1: Is You're like, sorry, this was going so well, but
Speaker 1: she's like this too much gonna work out for me?
Speaker 3: Sorry, is grounded, has done the healing work and is
Speaker 3: continuing to do the healing work, is able to be calm,
Speaker 3: can stay home or go party fox like Owen Gray.
Speaker 2: And this is another preferred thing.
Speaker 3: But liking dubstep because I I fucked a dubstep. I
Speaker 3: fucked it up in our sex life.
Speaker 1: You only fucked a dubstep.
Speaker 2: Oh it's I would prefer that. I'm not gonna slow
Speaker 2: it down to the weekend.
Speaker 1: So that's your only tempt Your only speed is depth,
Speaker 1: like what I like.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Honestly, when I'm using my vibrator at home, I
Speaker 3: come to dubstep drops.
Speaker 1: Hey, you know what you like. There's nothing wrong with that,
Speaker 1: you know, stick with what works for you, Vagina, Really,
Speaker 1: you know, you can maybe have a playlist for her,
Speaker 1: make it romantic. It's like, you know, date night.
Speaker 3: Just mean some dove steps, some one forty bpm kind
Speaker 3: of fuck it up.
Speaker 1: I love that though. So how old are you? I'm
Speaker 1: twenty sex so you being twenty six year old? Twenty
Speaker 1: six years old? I feel like it's really good to
Speaker 1: like put a really core foundation of those things that
Speaker 1: you want, Like some of them may sound silly, but
Speaker 1: those are things that you really want and have qualities
Speaker 1: in a man. And I again sticking to what you
Speaker 1: want and what you're like needing. I feel like you
Speaker 1: manifest that through your everyday life, Like if it's finding
Speaker 1: someone who's going to like dumbstuf because you're at a
Speaker 1: concert and you like to go to things, or like,
Speaker 1: you know, similarities and interests. I feel like people just
Speaker 1: deal with like being in LA for so long, you're
Speaker 1: just like, oh, the people settle and especially like you know,
Speaker 1: and I think, you know, being twenty six, it's like
Speaker 1: you should experiment them all. Like there is this one
Speaker 1: lady that my girlfriend she wrote in an uber, and
Speaker 1: she was like, you need to have a hundred dicks
Speaker 1: before you settle down, because it's like, you know, theoretically,
Speaker 1: it's like you need to try them all out before
Speaker 1: you really know what you want, because every person is different,
Speaker 1: every situation can be different, so you know, maybe not
Speaker 1: fuck them all, but you know, you try them out,
Speaker 1: go on a date. And I think that it's cool
Speaker 1: to have the boundaries of the celibacy of like because
Speaker 1: you really could see who's invested in getting to know
Speaker 1: who you are and who's either maybe a fan of
Speaker 1: your work or your podcast, or maybe who wants to
Speaker 1: have clout from you, or who wants to really be
Speaker 1: invested in getting to know you and where you're going forward,
Speaker 1: like you said, being a part of your business and
Speaker 1: growing you.
Speaker 2: A thousand percent.
Speaker 3: And it's like when I was in college a lot
Speaker 3: like I watch Blue Mountain State growing up. Well, in
Speaker 3: high school, I guess that's not really growing up, but
Speaker 3: I watch Blue Mountain State and I'm like, yo, these
Speaker 3: guys they were all hose their freshman year. So what
Speaker 3: am I gonna do. I'm gonna be a hoe my
Speaker 3: freshman year and just it was fun my freshman year.
Speaker 3: And then I was kind of a hoe again my
Speaker 3: senior year. But like soccer, explain to Miss Texas what
Speaker 3: a hoe is to you?
Speaker 1: What did you? What is your body count? Where you
Speaker 1: just like flirtatiously going like you know, because in college
Speaker 1: you can either you know, you can do a lot
Speaker 1: of blowjobs, you can.
Speaker 3: New hand jobs, or you can go all the way
Speaker 3: and fuck them all a new guy every weekend.
Speaker 2: That was my goal. Did you maybe not every weekend.
Speaker 3: Okay, but a lot of weekends define sometimes too sometimes
Speaker 3: too Yeah, and then sometimes I'd accidentally fuck best friends
Speaker 3: and I'd get.
Speaker 2: In gently or you know, you just it's.
Speaker 3: Hard because like they're all like it, frats are not
Speaker 3: that big, Like they are big, but like their pledge
Speaker 3: class isn't that big. So like, especially freshman year, when
Speaker 3: I was fucking a lot of other freshmen.
Speaker 2: It was just like it was kind of hard to
Speaker 2: of woid friends no pun attended. Yeah, kind of hard.
Speaker 3: But then I got chalmydia and then I'm like, maybe
Speaker 3: I need to either start using condoms, which I didn't like,
Speaker 3: or slow it down.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you were raw dogging, just out there, raw
Speaker 1: dogging everybody.
Speaker 2: Everybody Okay, okay, got the best choices.
Speaker 1: But we live and we learned.
Speaker 2: Yeah, we live and we learn. Now I'd like get
Speaker 2: some clividy.
Speaker 1: It really just was the deal, you know. The ceiling
Speaker 1: would be like, listen, I need to get my shit together.
Speaker 2: Let's do this.
Speaker 1: And I still want to do it, but let's do
Speaker 1: it safe. No, I still raw dogged. I just raw
Speaker 1: dogged less. Oh okay, So it didn't fucking mean didn't matter. No,
Speaker 1: I just took your pills and went on your marry.
Speaker 3: I just try to avoid fucking Kapa SIGs after that
Speaker 3: and focus on other frats that didn't get Lama's What cap.
Speaker 2: Did you every web cap? What praturning did you move
Speaker 2: on to?
Speaker 1: Next?
Speaker 2: I think it was fucking essays.
Speaker 3: Okay, I walked Alpha SIGs like my whole freshman year, pikes.
Speaker 3: I didn't get to to like my junior and senior year.
Speaker 2: Uh yeah it was. I was. I was a.
Speaker 3: Crazy one, like to fuck see, I like it. I do,
Speaker 3: And honestly, everyone is like, how are you celibate? Like,
Speaker 3: isn't that hard? Honestly, after even having a celibate sleepover
Speaker 3: on Saturday, all I could think about for the next
Speaker 3: like four or five days was penis and how much
Speaker 3: I wanted it until I finally could like snap myself
Speaker 3: out of like this dick and I was trying to
Speaker 3: use my vibrator. I'm like, you know what I want, Dick,
Speaker 3: let me know. My vagina was having none of it.
Speaker 2: It was like.
Speaker 3: Throbbing for Dick, and it's so difficult. But it's like
Speaker 3: I know what I'm looking for and I don't want.
Speaker 1: To, so what made him not worthy of those choices.
Speaker 1: And what will it take for you to break that?
Speaker 1: Is it having to be in a relationship actually, or
Speaker 1: just someone that you feel that's close to your list.
Speaker 3: Not just close to my list, Because like, I've only
Speaker 3: known him for a week now, so I feel like
Speaker 3: it's I'm just gonna have to get to know him, okay,
Speaker 3: over the next few weeks, which that's kind of.
Speaker 1: I mean, I mean, nowadays I feel like things are
Speaker 1: sped up, like but but knowing someone for only a
Speaker 1: week and having a sleepover, I feel like it is
Speaker 1: a big step because insan, he's still a stranger. You
Speaker 1: don't really know.
Speaker 3: And I kissed him, I don't. I haven't like kissed
Speaker 3: the man in so fucking long?
Speaker 2: Was it? God? Was it? Like? Oh my god, I'd
Speaker 2: say ten.
Speaker 3: I haven't had that much sexual chemistry with anyone since, Like,
Speaker 3: oh yeah, I was like dripping. I was dripping, And
Speaker 3: it was really hard to say no because all I
Speaker 3: wanted to do is was there.
Speaker 1: Dry humping involved?
Speaker 2: Yes?
Speaker 1: Okay, they was kissing and dry humping and can come
Speaker 1: in his pants? No he didn't, but I almost came.
Speaker 1: I almost came from kissing and dry humping.
Speaker 2: But I kind of feel like that's hot.
Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, it's slowing down of like
Speaker 1: why do we need to rush? Like I feel like
Speaker 1: so many people like think about like they fuck first
Speaker 1: and then think about it later, like who you're fucking?
Speaker 1: And it's like you know that they're entering your body,
Speaker 1: that person's energy will be with you, Like, heyta think
Speaker 1: about those things?
Speaker 2: Yeah, Okay, so he's got potential. He has potential.
Speaker 3: I think I'm just gonna wait and kind of see
Speaker 3: where it goes. And I don't want to like speed
Speaker 3: anything up.
Speaker 1: So you're still open to like where do you meet
Speaker 1: guys to like as far as dating or girls.
Speaker 2: I just meet them organically.
Speaker 1: Okay, so you're not on any dating apps or.
Speaker 3: I was, but it was mainly just to promote my
Speaker 3: only fans. And then I got banned for impersonating myself
Speaker 3: and I can't get any of my accounts back.
Speaker 2: How does that even work? Like who's the person we
Speaker 2: need to call?
Speaker 1: Like how do you ban yourself from impersonating you?
Speaker 3: It's an Instagram too. That was happening to everyone's instagrams
Speaker 3: for a little bit, but every like the.
Speaker 1: Discrimination of I mean content I mean, you're not a
Speaker 1: sex worker too, well, I guess it is still sex work.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm still a sex worker.
Speaker 3: I just I have fucked on my only fans, but
Speaker 3: that was literally the last guy I.
Speaker 2: Fucked, and I was like, oh my god, I'm so
Speaker 2: over this.
Speaker 1: So on your only fans, you do solos, you grow
Speaker 1: girl girl on your only fans. What can we find
Speaker 1: on your only fans.
Speaker 2: I do have sex tapes with the last guy that
Speaker 2: I fucked, and I have a few of those.
Speaker 3: I have a few blowjob videos. I can score. I
Speaker 3: can score it a lot, and I can scar it
Speaker 3: a lot, like many times in a row. So I
Speaker 3: go only fans live a lot where it's like there
Speaker 3: have been days I squirt five times and I'm like
Speaker 3: hitting like four feet.
Speaker 1: Who needs dick when you're squirting five times? Yeah, I
Speaker 1: mean that's exhausting.
Speaker 2: Oh my pussy was a little burnt out.
Speaker 3: I slowed down on the lives because I'm like, oh
Speaker 3: my god, like my vibrator doesn't even do anything right now.
Speaker 1: You know, it's always good to have a little breaking. Yeah,
Speaker 1: this hesitation is a real thing. Sometimes you gotta like,
Speaker 1: you know, sit back and enjoy it.
Speaker 2: A little bit. Yeah, I didn't know that my vagina
Speaker 2: could burn out like that, but I was going live
Speaker 2: like three four times a wee, like squirting like crazy.
Speaker 2: So just happens. I guess. Hey.
Speaker 1: I mean, I feel like the more relaxed you are
Speaker 1: with your body and like your sexuality, that that's how
Speaker 1: it really happens, because you're it's you're releasing. You know,
Speaker 1: your female ejaculate and you're it's your coming. But yeah,
Speaker 1: in a different form.
Speaker 3: And I know a lot of girls take testosterone to
Speaker 3: try to get their horniness up.
Speaker 1: I didn't have that, but okay, yeah a lot never
Speaker 1: have that problem.
Speaker 2: I'm Puerto Rican.
Speaker 1: It just happens.
Speaker 2: It happens. You never burn your libido out. No, I
Speaker 2: like to fuck a lot.
Speaker 1: I feel like that's why I got into Port many
Speaker 1: moons ago, and I was just young, demon full of
Speaker 1: come and I just munch of pop. You just couldn't stop.
Speaker 1: And I just I don't know. I feel like even
Speaker 1: the older that I've gotten, I think that me like
Speaker 1: porn for me kind of helped me figure out my
Speaker 1: like sexuality, like as far as like what I liked,
Speaker 1: what I didn't like, And it was in a safe space.
Speaker 1: So for me, I learned a lot about my sexuality
Speaker 1: and being a woman in the industry, and I feel
Speaker 1: like now being older, I crave it more, but in
Speaker 1: different ways, Like there's different things that make me think
Speaker 1: things are hot, like even like expressing like how you're
Speaker 1: saying how you not having sex and taking that off
Speaker 1: the table and like going back to almost like juvenile
Speaker 1: like humping each other and like kissing and stuff.
Speaker 2: You know, those people forget about the like the.
Speaker 1: Intimacy of what you know, sex and like those feelings
Speaker 1: really are And I feel like that's important to kind
Speaker 1: of bring back full circle of like who you are,
Speaker 1: because you start to lose that as a sex worker,
Speaker 1: it's like becomes kind of mechanical and like it's like
Speaker 1: abc D, you know, and everybody has their different parts,
Speaker 1: but it's like sometimes of what makes us all you
Speaker 1: unique is bringing your own sensuality into your work. And
Speaker 1: for me, it's why I always loved porn's because I
Speaker 1: always said it's like my artwork and that's how I
Speaker 1: expressed myself. And I've just always been comfortable naked, So
Speaker 1: you just took it to a next level.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, I feel like I was posting in Pasies
Speaker 3: at like eighteen, going to festivals and a lot of drugs.
Speaker 2: See.
Speaker 1: I never was a festival girl. I loved music, but
Speaker 1: I don't feel like or I'm from Texas where there's
Speaker 1: not any of that. That's enough where I could have
Speaker 1: gotten to like, yeah, it's not it wasn't really fun.
Speaker 1: But you growing up here, you know, in La, I'm
Speaker 1: sure you're kind of exposed to things a lot more
Speaker 1: earlier than like people like kids your age.
Speaker 2: Yeah, i'd say growing up in La.
Speaker 3: I mean I took ecstasy for the first time at
Speaker 3: like fifteen sixteen. To be fair, I was semi drugged.
Speaker 3: But it's like my friends willingly.
Speaker 1: Or did you like, were they just like, hey take
Speaker 1: this or were you like you how to explain that? See,
Speaker 1: because you say semi so what is I.
Speaker 3: They told me I was taking something called ecstasy and
Speaker 3: I had only tried weed before, so I asked them,
Speaker 3: is it like weed? I've only taken weed and they say, yeah,
Speaker 3: it's just like definitely. And then I was rolling at school.
Speaker 3: How is that experience?
Speaker 2: I had to leave?
Speaker 1: And then did you tell them or do you just
Speaker 1: like I don't feel good? Like because at that point
Speaker 1: you're also high, like you be like, hey, I took
Speaker 1: a pill or were they just like it's like I
Speaker 1: hop defense, Oh so you were just out of there.
Speaker 2: I was out of there girls, A fifteen sixteen year
Speaker 2: old on ecstasy for my first time. I blew three
Speaker 2: guys that day.
Speaker 3: Oh not great, three sorry, just I would go from
Speaker 3: one person to the next to the next.
Speaker 1: Did they know?
Speaker 2: And was this that school? This was not at school.
Speaker 2: One of the guys picked me up from the nice place?
Speaker 2: Did he know where you just came out of? He
Speaker 2: didn't care. I don't. I didn't tell him, you know,
Speaker 2: I just blew the guy right before you.
Speaker 1: But then, well, I mean, if if you're from us,
Speaker 1: you know, well, I guess it's not a small town
Speaker 1: thinking about for me, it's like if you go buy
Speaker 1: somebody's house, you know who's who lives there, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. So it's like on your.
Speaker 2: Now, and I just I just kept it going, and
Speaker 2: I'm like, oh my god, I was.
Speaker 3: I was crazy as a high schooler. So then like
Speaker 3: my mom sent me to rehab for weed. She sent
Speaker 3: me to one of those like Mormon Parasheltan like rehabs.
Speaker 3: When I was a senior in high school, so then
Speaker 3: it work. No, I tried coke right after I got out.
Speaker 3: They convinced me to try and come.
Speaker 2: They convinced me I kind of rehab like the other
Speaker 2: people in the rehab. Oh, you're like this.
Speaker 1: My thing was not even that bad, but y'all had
Speaker 1: some hardcore, so I want to try that.
Speaker 3: I wasn't even like super into weed. I just failed
Speaker 3: one drug test and my mom was like, you know,
Speaker 3: you're off. You're off to the racist like I got kidnap.
Speaker 1: Never say that you're you grew up in a strict household.
Speaker 2: So strict I have to like sneak out. I wasn't
Speaker 2: allowed to like fuck or be with guy.
Speaker 1: Do you think that that has the place a part
Speaker 1: of why you started.
Speaker 2: Doing things so early on, to like test the limits.
Speaker 1: No, I'd say it's just that you couldn't do it
Speaker 1: because I feel like you have this for me and
Speaker 1: just talking to you, you have this repeated behavior like
Speaker 1: when you don't want when you want something really bad
Speaker 1: and you really want it, but then it's like you're
Speaker 1: trying to resist not the urges. Right, Yeah, maybe're bringing
Speaker 1: it back to sex. But like when someone tells us no,
Speaker 1: we want to do it more because we don't know
Speaker 1: better and we want to know why.
Speaker 2: You said no to us, so we want to try,
Speaker 2: you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: And that's why being young, it's like we have nothing
Speaker 1: to really lose because we have our parents, and so
Speaker 1: sometimes I feel like, you know, people who like close.
Speaker 2: Knut and you you just kind of like wild child out.
Speaker 1: Like one of my best friends like that was like
Speaker 1: she was like went the total opposite as soon as
Speaker 1: she turned eighteen. She did everything her mother didn't tell
Speaker 1: wanted to do. And I feel like that sometimes I
Speaker 1: feel like we have a part of why we experiment
Speaker 1: a little bit more. I had more freedom where they
Speaker 1: were just like I had older sisters and they weren't
Speaker 1: bad and I was. So when I came around, they
Speaker 1: didn't know that these things existed that I was doing,
Speaker 1: so they were just like, oh cute, now we have
Speaker 1: new rules, like you have a curfew and you have
Speaker 1: these things where it's like, yeah, work both ways.
Speaker 3: I feel like for me, I was just kind of
Speaker 3: born this way. Okay, that's just kind of how I feel.
Speaker 2: I always felt like a black sheep, and it's like
Speaker 2: I always felt like I did things being scared of
Speaker 2: my parents but knowing it's what I wanted to do.
Speaker 2: And maybe I've rebelled a little bit against the church
Speaker 2: versus my parents, but I was genuinely, like really scared
Speaker 2: of my parents and I did not want them to
Speaker 2: find out about anything I was doing. And then in
Speaker 2: college I was also crazy.
Speaker 3: I mean, I can still be crazy now, I'm just
Speaker 3: crazy in a little bit different ways and I'm a
Speaker 3: lot toned down.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Well, I mean I think it's also one of those things,
Speaker 1: like you said, where when it's not too and far
Speaker 1: between to be like, oh your celibates, because you've had
Speaker 1: a lot of experience and the thing for you is
Speaker 1: like maybe sex played a different part for you in
Speaker 1: other ways than like what your reality and like life,
Speaker 1: like how you want to see things going for your
Speaker 1: future or your future partner, and like those things. I
Speaker 1: think we don't think about how we interpret it sex.
Speaker 1: It's like because we're just using our bodies even though
Speaker 1: we enjoyed it. Yeah, I mean, we're having fun doing it.
Speaker 1: But now it's like, okay, wait, I can still use
Speaker 1: my body and do things I want to do, but
Speaker 1: on my terms and not just because it's like a
Speaker 1: free for all.
Speaker 3: I just remember, like wanting to lose my virginity is
Speaker 3: so bad. When I was like fourteen, I'm like, I'm
Speaker 3: just over it, Like I just wanted to find the
Speaker 3: first guy who would like lose my virginity. And I
Speaker 3: do think that was more had more so how to
Speaker 3: do with the church telling me that, like losing your
Speaker 3: virginity is bad. I was just like, no, I'm over
Speaker 3: being a virgin, Like let's just get this over with.
Speaker 3: And I don't think it was until probably my junior
Speaker 3: year of college where I was really like what.
Speaker 2: Am I looking for?
Speaker 3: Like I don't think I want to just have meaningless
Speaker 3: sex anymore.
Speaker 2: But like it took a lot of.
Speaker 3: Work on myself because I think just having I think
Speaker 3: more so, I had a lot of trauma for my parents,
Speaker 3: so I was like desensitized to a lot of things,
Speaker 3: Like a lot of my friendships were shallow, a lot
Speaker 3: of like just my relationships in general were shallow.
Speaker 2: So until I started like doing the work on myself, yeah,
Speaker 2: all I could really have are those shots of shops.
Speaker 1: So it's like your program to believe like that's what
Speaker 1: that's supposed to be or look like for sure. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but that's good. I'm that's good to hear that. You know,
Speaker 1: someone like you doing the work is hard work. Nobody
Speaker 1: wants to do any of that, you know, I mean,
Speaker 1: showing up for yourself is the most important thing. But
Speaker 1: finding and identifying like why we act out the way
Speaker 1: they things, and not to change that behavior, but to
Speaker 1: make it really work for you and you can tinue
Speaker 1: to be happy and on the path that you are
Speaker 1: and being wild and crazy in your new way of
Speaker 1: doing it. And I think that that's really unique that
Speaker 1: someone your age can really like go through life like
Speaker 1: that at this early of a dage.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 3: Second, honestly, I feel like just my anxiety, I'm like,
Speaker 3: I need you to something about this. Yeah, And my
Speaker 3: body is so sensitive to any medication, so that's just
Speaker 3: been out. But I do take a lot of mushrooms
Speaker 3: and I meditate a lot on mushrooms and I do
Speaker 3: a lot of self discovery on mushrooms plus like life coaching, acupuncture,
Speaker 3: Like I just try to do it all nice.
Speaker 1: I like that for you. So how did you get
Speaker 1: into doing your podcast? How did you How did that
Speaker 1: all come about? Were you just someone that you seem
Speaker 1: very like good with your words. You feel very like,
Speaker 1: you know, an alpha female energy as far as like
Speaker 1: standing in your power. You just knew that you had
Speaker 1: a message and want to deliver it.
Speaker 3: How did you start the podcast route? I remember called
Speaker 3: the hypocrisy of this. But for the longest time, I'm like,
Speaker 3: I could never make an OnlyFans. I could never I
Speaker 3: could never use my body for profit, Like it's just
Speaker 3: like I was so judgmental.
Speaker 2: And then one day I just I took a lot
Speaker 2: of acid being transparent, took a lot of acid, and
Speaker 2: I'm like, wait, I actually really do want to start
Speaker 2: in only fans, Like whose voices are these?
Speaker 3: And I'm like, they're not my voices. I'm like, oh,
Speaker 3: is it my parents? It's a little bit of my parents.
Speaker 3: It was a little bit of my coworkers at the time.
Speaker 3: It was a little bit of my friends saying like
Speaker 3: OnlyFans girls are worse, And I'm like, I'm going to
Speaker 3: start an only fans And then I'm like, but I
Speaker 3: need to make a difference when I started only fans,
Speaker 3: like I need to kind of destigmatize it and normalize
Speaker 3: you being in tune with your sexuality and girls having
Speaker 3: sexual power and not putting shame with that. So I'm like,
Speaker 3: I made my only fans. In a month or so later,
Speaker 3: I'm like, I was planning the podcast.
Speaker 1: So on your only fans at that time? Did you
Speaker 1: just create the only fans to have a platform to
Speaker 1: speak on about it or were you intentionally doing it
Speaker 1: because you wanted to do solo stuff and show your
Speaker 1: body and do those things, Like what was the thought
Speaker 1: of that process?
Speaker 3: I think more so I started my only fans to
Speaker 3: do the podcast. I definitely like showing my body though,
Speaker 3: It's like I have always enjoyed being half naked on
Speaker 3: Instagram or full naked or having sheer shirts, like that's
Speaker 3: something I've always liked, ok to do. So having an
Speaker 3: only fans felt really empowering to me when I started it,
Speaker 3: just because I was able to show my body and
Speaker 3: make money off of it and I was able to
Speaker 3: be successful when it's like no one really thought I
Speaker 3: was going to be successful. And then once I started
Speaker 3: masturbating on camera, I remember that was a huge dilemma
Speaker 3: because I'm like, Okay, masturbating on cameras kind of where
Speaker 3: it's it's not just what sord I'm looking for like
Speaker 3: when you're shooting naked, it's more so porn because it's like.
Speaker 2: You being made sexual act. Yeah, just showing your body exactly. Yeah,
Speaker 2: So that was a huge Like.
Speaker 1: So what kind of pushed you in that direction to
Speaker 1: go that route if it first wasn't your intention of
Speaker 1: doing maybe masturbation.
Speaker 3: Yeah, So I had management and that was my last
Speaker 3: time having management. I'm not a believer in management, but
Speaker 3: like I had a manager who kept saying, like, your
Speaker 3: only fans numbers aren't doing great because you're not masturbating.
Speaker 3: So I just got pushed into it, I think before
Speaker 3: I was ready, but then it was weird. I fired
Speaker 3: him like the day after I came out with my
Speaker 3: first masturbation videos because I'm like, this just didn't make
Speaker 3: sense for me. And then I was like, oh my god,
Speaker 3: I can like get really into masturbating on camera. It's
Speaker 3: like I started masturbating to myself masturbating, and then I
Speaker 3: was able to just think of myself as like a
Speaker 3: hot sexual being, and I before that always thought it
Speaker 3: was kind of ugly. So it's just like just the
Speaker 3: longer I've done only fans, like, the better I feel
Speaker 3: about myself and how I present myself.
Speaker 1: And is it because you feel like because you keep
Speaker 1: showing up and doing more so you feel more comfortable,
Speaker 1: or is it because the feedback that you're getting from
Speaker 1: your fans and how successful that your OF has become.
Speaker 2: No, I'd say more so just like looking at myself.
Speaker 3: Okay, I mean the fans definitely help, but I mean
Speaker 3: one hundred people could tell me I'm pretty and I
Speaker 3: would still think I'm ugly if like, that's what I believe.
Speaker 3: So now it's more so like a hundred people could
Speaker 3: tell me I'm ugly and I feel pretty because it's.
Speaker 1: See you believe it now?
Speaker 2: Yeah, now I believe it. It's taken.
Speaker 3: It's taken a lot of fucking work, and there are
Speaker 3: still times where I'm like, okay, I'm just not looking
Speaker 3: my best today, but I'm trying to avoid.
Speaker 2: Words like you look ugly today.
Speaker 3: It's just like, Okay, you didn't get a lot of
Speaker 3: sleep or you haven't eaten a lot, like come on,
Speaker 3: we can look better tomorrow.
Speaker 1: So what was the first reaction of when when you
Speaker 1: started your OF and you came out that you were
Speaker 1: doing it. What was the reaction from your peers?
Speaker 3: A lot of girl, what are you doing, girl, what
Speaker 3: are you doing with your life? And now everyone who
Speaker 3: said that, or almost everyone is like, oh my god, girl,
Speaker 3: congrats on your success.
Speaker 1: Like how does that make you feel? Kind of like
Speaker 1: I told you so? Or do you feel like proud
Speaker 1: that because you kept listening to your intuition and just
Speaker 1: doing what you wanted to do.
Speaker 2: I'd say both, Okay, it kind of like feels good
Speaker 2: to big Dick. That's kind of what I say, Like
Speaker 2: that feels good to big Dick, the people who told
Speaker 2: me not to do it. I'm like, oh, so, how's
Speaker 2: working like twelve hour days doing sales? How's that? How
Speaker 2: does that working out for you? Oh? Me, Yeah, I
Speaker 2: just moved into a house. That's just like how I feel.
Speaker 3: But I don't really say it like that, like that's
Speaker 3: just how I kind of feel inside for the people
Speaker 3: who all judge me.
Speaker 2: But like, you know, what do you think was your
Speaker 2: first like.
Speaker 1: Time of being like in a sense of viral where
Speaker 1: people started to really notice what you were doing and
Speaker 1: getting bigger numbers on your podcast numbers and your of Well,
Speaker 1: I'd say.
Speaker 2: I started going viral my junior.
Speaker 3: Year of college for raves, but that I didn't have
Speaker 3: an only fans yet or anything. That's just like I
Speaker 3: was the girl who was known for wearing pasties at raves,
Speaker 3: so I was being posted on like every rave account,
Speaker 3: and I got recognized like every rave I went to.
Speaker 3: And then my dad found that Instagram and he made
Speaker 3: me delete it if he was still going to support
Speaker 3: me during college. Then I did delete that Instagram, and
Speaker 3: then it took me a little bit to start going
Speaker 3: viral again. But that was I remember when I deleted
Speaker 3: that Instagram because I felt like my heart and soult
Speaker 3: into that Instagram.
Speaker 2: So crushed, like I was like depressed.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I was fully depressed, like I was going through
Speaker 3: a breakup.
Speaker 2: My whole Instagram was deleted and it was just.
Speaker 1: That because I feel like nowadays that people kind of
Speaker 1: make like your social media is kind of like your
Speaker 1: identity m hm, and it's like you cling onto those
Speaker 1: those things. What would you say, what social media platform is?
Speaker 1: What your favorite to use?
Speaker 3: It used to be TikTok okay, but right now it's
Speaker 3: Facebook because it's the easiest to go viral on Facebook.
Speaker 3: TikTok I don't know what happened, but like I've been
Speaker 3: banned probably four or five times and then every time
Speaker 3: I've been banned, it's just like they don't push my
Speaker 3: content anymore, and it's like I haven't gone viral in
Speaker 3: such a long time, which I have just thought it's
Speaker 3: a little unfair because I used to go viral a
Speaker 3: lot on TikTok, And now.
Speaker 1: It's like, do you think it's because of the context
Speaker 1: of what you're talking about, or why why do they
Speaker 1: say that you're banned?
Speaker 3: Are you Every time I'm banned, it's like just stupid shit,
Speaker 3: Like I remember discrimination. I thought it was discrimination because
Speaker 3: it's like I even tried to do like serious stuff
Speaker 3: like talking about overcoming and eating disorder and stuff like that,
Speaker 3: and then they would that stuff down. They would take
Speaker 3: anything down where I talked about mental health because they
Speaker 3: were like I think they said the last time I
Speaker 3: was banned that they were scared I would commit suicide
Speaker 3: or something, and I'm like, because I'm being honest about
Speaker 3: my mental health and where I'm out, like I see
Speaker 3: so many other creators doing that. Yeah, So I just
Speaker 3: kept getting banned and then they would just stop pushing
Speaker 3: my content. So they're the most frustrating platform. I'd say
Speaker 3: Instagram is also I think every social media platform has
Speaker 3: just been incredibly frustrating the past few years.
Speaker 1: Yeah, agreed. I feel like there definitely isn't fair all
Speaker 1: the way across the board, and I feel like it
Speaker 1: definitely should change. Yeah, if you could change jobs, would
Speaker 1: you And if so, what would you be?
Speaker 2: Oh my god, I don't think I would change jobs?
Speaker 2: I would I mean.
Speaker 3: No, I don't think I would change jobs. It's just
Speaker 3: I would like more streams of income. But that is
Speaker 3: coming to me soon, just like through the podcast. I'm
Speaker 3: gonna start getting paid for it soon. But like I mean,
Speaker 3: I would just I would love to be going viral
Speaker 3: on TikTok more and make some money on that.
Speaker 2: But would I change jobs for that? No? I would
Speaker 2: just want that as like an additional source of income.
Speaker 1: Okay, who do you go to for advice?
Speaker 2: My life coach?
Speaker 3: But then when she tells me what I don't want
Speaker 3: to hear my friends, funny how that works. Well, sometimes
Speaker 3: she's trying to tell me, She's like, you need to
Speaker 3: wait three months of talking to a guy before fucking him,
Speaker 3: and I'm like it's been a week and I'm.
Speaker 2: Going crazy, Like let's be a little realistic here.
Speaker 3: She's like, Okay, well, if you get your heart broken,
Speaker 3: I'm like, oh my god, I can maybe wait a month.
Speaker 3: I think a month is like, but three months, oh
Speaker 3: my god.
Speaker 1: I mean that does realistically sound like a long time,
Speaker 1: but time is relative, and it depends that you want
Speaker 1: to get out of those situations because again, it's like
Speaker 1: what kind of partner do you want? Do you want
Speaker 1: to be a partner that could be that's like patient
Speaker 1: and like understanding of your like you know, oh yeah,
Speaker 1: every all of those things. So it's like it does
Speaker 1: sound like a bad thing, but I feel like sometimes
Speaker 1: the hardest things are the best things for us. Yeah,
Speaker 1: maybe you should listen to your life coach.
Speaker 2: I'll try. I told her that I would try.
Speaker 1: It's just trying to get into a chastity belt so
Speaker 1: someone else has the keys. You can not have it
Speaker 1: because every time you every these like sleepovers that are
Speaker 1: platonic at this moment, make you know at the third
Speaker 1: second month, you know, we mean, oh you have to
Speaker 1: be uh have somebody watch you.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, because my vagina is already yelling at me.
Speaker 3: It's it took over my brain for a few days
Speaker 3: and I was like so ready to text them, let's
Speaker 3: just fuck less and I would just put my phone
Speaker 3: on do not disturb and like hide it from myself
Speaker 3: because I'm.
Speaker 2: Like, ad, yeah, boys, going on with you?
Speaker 3: Because again I haven't had the sexual chemistry with anyone
Speaker 3: in years.
Speaker 1: It's like you should think of something to replace every time,
Speaker 1: Like you're like instead of you know, keep your mind busy,
Speaker 1: and like every time you feel like you want to
Speaker 1: get fucked.
Speaker 2: You gotta go do something else.
Speaker 1: If it's I don't know what your interests are, but
Speaker 1: like you know, paint something, listen to music, deb step
Speaker 1: it out in your house. You gotta be really fit
Speaker 1: with all those dance steps you out too.
Speaker 2: It's so funny.
Speaker 3: I like literally sent my friends a screenshot like how
Speaker 3: to get less horny, and like one of the first
Speaker 3: things is just like, go want a walk? So I
Speaker 3: just try to like walk around my backyard with my dog.
Speaker 1: You're gonna see how many steps you get and see
Speaker 1: what you how frustrated you are each day that this
Speaker 1: back up.
Speaker 2: What are the top three rules that you abide by?
Speaker 2: Oh my god, I don't know if I abuie to
Speaker 2: any rules.
Speaker 1: You don't have like a code of conduct for yourself
Speaker 1: that you I mean these are rules that you can
Speaker 1: stated about your celibacy. There's you know, is there anything
Speaker 1: that you kind of maybe live by a code?
Speaker 3: I mean, I'm I feel like, always be authentic, because
Speaker 3: what else would you be. I guess this is kind
Speaker 3: of my rules. But I've just noticed a lot of
Speaker 3: people in the industry specifically don't have a lot of
Speaker 3: morals or ethics. And if I hear about a sexual
Speaker 3: assault allegation, I Am not going to associate with that
Speaker 3: person anymore. Yeah, So that is something I have a
Speaker 3: high fucking moral compass, because like it just takes hearing
Speaker 3: one or two stories.
Speaker 2: For me to be like all right, yeah, yeah, you're
Speaker 2: for sure. Any other rules, I don't know. Work hard.
Speaker 2: I work really hard. Okay.
Speaker 1: What's one subscription that you cannot live without?
Speaker 2: Probably tick Safe because that saves all my tiktoks without
Speaker 2: the watermark.
Speaker 1: Okay, Okay, since you say that you've been, you know,
Speaker 1: prior to right now, with your whole celebacy going on
Speaker 1: in college or anything, you know, any time in between them.
Speaker 1: Did you ever take a souvenir home from one of
Speaker 1: your sexcapades?
Speaker 2: Oh? Yeah, I take They're called shack shirts in college.
Speaker 3: So I have almost every fraternity's shock shirts at my
Speaker 3: uh in my house right now, and actually yesterday I
Speaker 3: film skits with them with the guy who I'm kind
Speaker 3: of interested in in a lot of my friends.
Speaker 1: Nice, you should make a blanket, you know, you get
Speaker 1: all the shirts up making.
Speaker 2: So I got, I got all the shock shirts.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, hmmm. Have you ever gone through a partner's phone?
Speaker 2: No? Okay.
Speaker 3: I think the closest thing was his alarm was going
Speaker 3: off when he was in the shower and I ended
Speaker 3: it and then I saw a girl texted him. Then
Speaker 3: I was piss but like, that wasn't me purposely going
Speaker 3: through his phone?
Speaker 1: Have you ever been kicked out of a place? If so, why, yes?
Speaker 2: And what did you do?
Speaker 3: I was really drunk, like not speaking English kind of drunk.
Speaker 1: Did you have your own language going on?
Speaker 2: I did?
Speaker 3: I had my own fucking language going on? And I
Speaker 3: this guy told me can you come over around like
Speaker 3: two two thirty? I was like sure, and then he
Speaker 3: texted me again and at that point I had just
Speaker 3: blacked out, had no idea what was going on, and
Speaker 3: he's like, wait, actually, can you come closer to three?
Speaker 3: So I went to his house, was banging on his
Speaker 3: door he was not home, and then I was banging
Speaker 3: on his roommate's door, who ironically I had fucked my
Speaker 3: freshman year and this was my senior year. And then
Speaker 3: his best friend was like, oh my god, is she
Speaker 3: trying to fuck me? And I'm like, no, he told
Speaker 3: me to come. I am just very fucking early. Yeah,
Speaker 3: and yeah, so I got I got he's like, go home,
Speaker 3: just go fucking home.
Speaker 1: And I got keep out for trying to fuck too early.
Speaker 2: Yeah and yeah.
Speaker 3: And he he did think I was crazy because I
Speaker 3: sent him so many text messages like fuck you, Why
Speaker 3: did you tell me to come over when you're not
Speaker 3: even here. I read all the text messages the next
Speaker 3: morning and I'm like, did you ever fuck him again?
Speaker 2: No? He thought I was crazy after that. That was
Speaker 2: That was the deal breaker. He thought it was a
Speaker 2: little psycho. And I might have been. I might have been.
Speaker 3: I don't drink a lot of alcohol anymore because I'm like,
Speaker 3: drink Adelia is fun every once in a while, but
Speaker 3: I do get a little crazy sometimes.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Thoughts when.
Speaker 1: If people came with a warning label, what would yours be? Adelia?
Speaker 2: Oh god, if I had a.
Speaker 3: Warning label, be careful of her. At raves, I accidentally
Speaker 3: punch people a lot.
Speaker 2: Oh you're angry.
Speaker 3: I am a headbanger. I like like I like headbanger shit,
Speaker 3: so I'm prone to concussions. I'm prone to hitting things
Speaker 3: on accident.
Speaker 2: Rager over here, Yeah, I like to get in there.
Speaker 1: What's your favorite way to receive affection compliments words of
Speaker 1: affirmation is your leveling?
Speaker 3: Yeah, which isn't always the best because fuck boys usually
Speaker 3: are great at words of affirmation and don't mean a
Speaker 3: single thing they say.
Speaker 2: See the beast, that's the three months roll.
Speaker 1: Yeah, make sure you got to see if those affirmations
Speaker 1: are really true.
Speaker 2: M what's the biggest life.
Speaker 1: Lesson that you've learned this far.
Speaker 3: I'd say, believe in yourself when no one else does,
Speaker 3: and just do that inner work. And once you start
Speaker 3: doing that inner work, things just become a lot easier.
Speaker 2: They're harder while you're.
Speaker 3: Doing the inner work, a lot harder while you're doing
Speaker 3: the inner work, but like afterwards, things are just a
Speaker 3: lot easier in life.
Speaker 1: What is a common sexual act that you dislike?
Speaker 3: Sixty nine ing, No, sixty nineing for you, it's it's
Speaker 3: not a fun time for me.
Speaker 2: Not for you. Okay, No, it is kind of awkward too. Yeah,
Speaker 2: it's just like I think in high school. I try
Speaker 2: because I'm like, oh, sixteen ninety and I'm like this,
Speaker 2: how do you focus on anything? It's like because if
Speaker 2: I am trying to get like my clip stimulated, that
Speaker 2: is literally the only thing I can be focused on.
Speaker 2: It's in fact, I do breath work a lot when
Speaker 2: I'm like trying to come, because it's like if I
Speaker 2: get distracted at all, it's like I lose the almost coming.
Speaker 2: Is it more intense while doing that? Oh? Yeah? Yeah.
Speaker 2: If you haven't tried breathwork while trying to masturbate, do it.
Speaker 1: I've definitely never done it while I'm masturbating. I've done it,
Speaker 1: but I never I can see the intensity from that
Speaker 1: point because I've like been emotionally released, but never like
Speaker 1: orgasm release.
Speaker 2: It's awesome. Try that one.
Speaker 1: Yeah, learned something new everything. Okay, So you said your
Speaker 1: celibacy act is going on. When's the last time you've
Speaker 1: had sex? How long has it been at this current time?
Speaker 1: September thirty of twenty twenty one. You have like a
Speaker 1: time work going on for a long time.
Speaker 2: Well, I put the countdown.
Speaker 1: Well, I guess there's no nothing to expect yet, so
Speaker 1: it's like this long running clock.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I keep making tiktoks, like six I think it's
Speaker 3: six hundred and eighty something days without Dick right now.
Speaker 1: How are you feeling? How are you doing good besides
Speaker 1: the like minor setback? Do you feel more clear? Do
Speaker 1: you feel like so much more clear? You feel like
Speaker 1: more clarity of like everything, just the sexual part is
Speaker 1: with partners, Like how does that feel for you other
Speaker 1: than like the torture you're doing for yourself?
Speaker 3: I feel like it's awesome. I feel like it. I mean,
Speaker 3: here's the thing. I'm not interested in a lot of
Speaker 3: men to begin with, so for me to even find
Speaker 3: a man that I'm interested in, like it takes a while.
Speaker 1: But why do you think that? And why do you
Speaker 1: say that?
Speaker 3: Like a lot of men who are into me are
Speaker 3: either just like super obviously players or I noticed a
Speaker 3: lot of them are like, uh, not very independent kind
Speaker 3: of people. So I feel like they cling on to
Speaker 3: me because I'm very opinionated, I'm very strong, and it's
Speaker 3: like they want to hide behind someone.
Speaker 1: The mommy factor something like that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, And it's like or I'll have guys wanting to
Speaker 3: be a sugar baby or I'm like, I never offered
Speaker 3: to do that.
Speaker 1: They just assume. Yeah, it's just I think that's the
Speaker 1: generation that we're in. Unfortunately I don't get it. But
Speaker 1: looking from Afar, dating is rough in general. I feel like,
Speaker 1: you know, I feel like that's especially being in California,
Speaker 1: and that's why it's unique to see that you're from here.
Speaker 2: So it's like, do you feel like.
Speaker 1: It's always been that way or do you think just
Speaker 1: more so of you be coming into like becoming a
Speaker 1: woman and now you see things more clearly.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean I went to school at the University
Speaker 3: of Arizona and I lived in Arizona after that. I'd
Speaker 3: say dating is a lot worse in Arizona than here. Okay,
Speaker 3: just my personal opinion.
Speaker 1: But I feel like there's not as many men in Arizona.
Speaker 1: There's more females than men, so I can see it
Speaker 1: being like scarce for like good men out there.
Speaker 2: I think it's just too hot for me in general.
Speaker 3: But yeah, it's just it's a lot of like a
Speaker 3: lot of people after college too, they just never grow
Speaker 3: out of the partying. And it's like I I mean,
Speaker 3: I'll still party really hard if I party, but it's like.
Speaker 2: I'm not partying nearly as much as I used to.
Speaker 1: It's like, you don't have to go out every single night.
Speaker 3: No, I maybe go out like three times a month. Maybe, Yeah,
Speaker 3: that's being generous. Okay, there's some months I don't do anything.
Speaker 3: But it's just they're they're a little girl, and then
Speaker 3: they're like they're over here, like if they get a
Speaker 3: girl pregnant, they're like, oh, yeah, like get an abortion,
Speaker 3: blah blah blah. But they just don't want other people
Speaker 3: having options, and they don't see the hypocrisy in that.
Speaker 1: So they have these conversations on like a first second
Speaker 1: date conversation like this.
Speaker 2: I've just been with enough rop boys.
Speaker 1: Yeah, maybe just leave the frop boys. Yeah, leave them
Speaker 1: where they are in the in their dorms, frat houses,
Speaker 1: you know, drinking lots of beer and getting STDs. Yeah,
Speaker 1: let them let them be there, Let.
Speaker 2: Them be there. What who was your first celebrity crush?
Speaker 1: Oh my god, did you have any posters on your
Speaker 1: wall of some sexy man or woman? You know?
Speaker 2: Where did this woman crush come from? I didn't.
Speaker 3: I don't think I had any, Like, I definitely don't
Speaker 3: have any posters. I think my first celebrity crush was
Speaker 3: like Justin Bieber, but I think that's almost everybody.
Speaker 1: So I was it like the wallpapers on your phone
Speaker 1: you had Justin Bieber like memorabilia.
Speaker 3: No, but I did go to a Justin Bieber concert
Speaker 3: and as an eighth grader, a Christian eighth grader, I
Speaker 3: got white panties, stole them, got a red sharpie, wrote
Speaker 3: my phone number on it, and then I tried to
Speaker 3: fling it on stage from about maybe four five hundred
Speaker 3: feet away and probably more than that. Like, however, much
Speaker 3: like half a stadium, basically is I don't know who.
Speaker 1: Took you to this concert? My mom, and so how
Speaker 1: did you take the panties off without her knowing?
Speaker 2: Well, I was wearing different panties.
Speaker 1: I just did it to be got it? Yeah, I
Speaker 1: thought you were being even more sneaky and I was like,
Speaker 1: here's my panties. I'm like, you're in eighth grade and
Speaker 1: your mom's watching you do this.
Speaker 2: What's going on? I wonder why your mom's pissed? Oh dad?
Speaker 1: So did they make the.
Speaker 3: Stage Nope, not even close. It maybe hit the person
Speaker 3: too rose in front of me.
Speaker 2: Did your mom see you throw something? No? No, no,
Speaker 2: I don't until she went pee smart?
Speaker 1: Smart girl? What makes you smile?
Speaker 3: My dog and dubstep and flowers and being outside and.
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, what would you say is unique about you
Speaker 1: a lot?
Speaker 2: I'm just I'm just weird. I don't even know how
Speaker 2: to describe myself half the time, but I would say
Speaker 2: that in fact, I just can't really be anyone but myself.
Speaker 2: And sometimes I would like to be, but I can't.
Speaker 1: I don't need to be.
Speaker 2: I mean, I feel like if it works for you,
Speaker 2: why change it? Yeah? What is your biggest pet? Peeve?
Speaker 2: People who are unaware of themselves? Okay, just like self.
Speaker 3: Awareness is just so attractive in friendships relationships, Like if
Speaker 3: you don't have any self awareness, you're just you just
Speaker 3: get on my fucking nerves. It's like, I am very
Speaker 3: self aware of a lot of my bad habits, my
Speaker 3: bad traits, the stuff that I'm working on. And it's
Speaker 3: like if someone is like, I don't do that, and
Speaker 3: I'm like, get offended.
Speaker 2: Yeah, get offended, and it's who do you think you are?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: So yeah, that's that's my biggest Okay he said that
Speaker 2: you were a big rave girl.
Speaker 1: Is there one concert experience that kind of sticks out
Speaker 1: more than all the others.
Speaker 2: Paradise Blue and Cancun.
Speaker 3: It was Excision, which is a huge dub DJ on
Speaker 3: the beach, and it was unlimited drinks, unlimited food, like
Speaker 3: all inclusive resort and it was just like dub stuff
Speaker 3: on the fucking It was awesome.
Speaker 2: Nice, craziest celebrity interaction.
Speaker 1: Do you have any my god, do I?
Speaker 2: I probably do.
Speaker 3: I guess this isn't like too crazy. But I met
Speaker 3: Kevin Hart and I was like, I was seventeen at
Speaker 3: the time, and my first the first thing that came
Speaker 3: out of my mouth was like, oh my god, you're
Speaker 3: so short.
Speaker 2: Like I was trying to be funny, you know, Okay,
Speaker 2: I was just trying to didn't know he was. He
Speaker 2: joked about it though, he was like, just give me
Speaker 2: your damn phone.
Speaker 3: He's like, you're fucking tall for a girl, but like
Speaker 3: like joking, but it was I don't know why that
Speaker 3: was the first thing that I thought to say, Like
Speaker 3: I was just trying to make him.
Speaker 2: Laugh, okay, but yeah, it was. It just wasn't a
Speaker 2: great joke. Sometimes, you know, we have like comedians.
Speaker 1: Beak comedian say, you know.
Speaker 2: I'm such a big fan of you. Let's take a picture.
Speaker 2: To be fair, I was seventeen.
Speaker 1: Hey, you had balls enough to try to make him.
Speaker 1: There's something in that for sure.
Speaker 2: Where would be the weirdest place.
Speaker 1: That you have masturbated? Is there any like kinky spots
Speaker 1: that you've touched yourself? Been naughty pretty much everywhere?
Speaker 2: Oh my god. I have masturbated at raves. I've masturbated
Speaker 2: in airplanes.
Speaker 3: I have masturbated in my car and multiple different kinds
Speaker 3: of parking lots.
Speaker 1: I've around the beach.
Speaker 3: I feel like you name it. I've probably masturbated sother Okay.
Speaker 1: So you just masturbating, queen, You're just mashbading all over town.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm very horny, like Celius is hard. People will
Speaker 3: underestimate how fucking hard it is. But I masturbate a lot.
Speaker 1: So how many what's the most summer time you've masturbated
Speaker 1: in one day?
Speaker 2: Like three four hours?
Speaker 1: So, but you're so are you coming the entire time?
Speaker 2: Are you coming like twenty times? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Okay, so it's just a long process all at one time. No, no, no,
Speaker 1: that's taking breaks.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm not taking breaks.
Speaker 3: I mean, maybe I'll have to go pee or my
Speaker 3: hand will cramp and then I'm like, okay, I have to.
Speaker 1: So is this like a hi tachi situation, a dildo situation?
Speaker 2: Both mixing it up?
Speaker 1: You're watching porn, you're just thinking of naughty thoughts. Like,
Speaker 1: I got a lot of questions because if you're masturbating
Speaker 1: that many times just to like in place like in
Speaker 1: place of the dick, you're trying to like you know,
Speaker 1: you're running from the dick, but you're gooding it from yourself.
Speaker 2: Yeah, the whole time. Pretty much. I would love it
Speaker 2: if like I had some kind of penetration.
Speaker 3: I'm like, God, if I was just like making a
Speaker 3: little bit more money right now, It's like I want
Speaker 3: one of those like dildo machines that could like fuck
Speaker 3: me while I'm using the machine. Yeah, like a fucking machine.
Speaker 3: So I could have like both stimulation at the same time.
Speaker 1: But why didn't you just get like a thing that
Speaker 1: vibrates like a like the rabbit type situation or.
Speaker 2: It needs to be like right here, but it come.
Speaker 1: But think if you push it flesh on yourself and
Speaker 1: it's I'm like instructing, like you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: I like I wish and my other you know, my
Speaker 1: other spot we have. I have Lexis Texas Toys, which
Speaker 1: it has one that hast of those things. So I'll
Speaker 1: have to make sure that you get with something that
Speaker 1: you could practice and see that it says it I
Speaker 1: could say, because I like the both. For me, it's
Speaker 1: like I'm a quittoral person. I'm a hatachi queen and
Speaker 1: it's like my I take him everywhere we go. It's
Speaker 1: like my boyfriend and so but sometimes you know you
Speaker 1: need the extra, you know, So for me, that's what
Speaker 1: I like. I can't I get what you're saying. It's
Speaker 1: like really heavy on, like you know, vibrating on your
Speaker 1: clips and make you come. But I feel like this
Speaker 1: thing would do the job.
Speaker 2: Okay, I'll try it out. I have tried it.
Speaker 1: Before, Yeah, but maybe it was just this isn't just
Speaker 1: like a little this like a bigger one that it
Speaker 1: has these little things. I'll send you something wrong. I'll
Speaker 1: make sure you're taking care of you know, we have
Speaker 1: to make sure that the celebates these days. I'm with
Speaker 1: the three month thing. I mean, at least that you're trying.
Speaker 1: I feel like at least try it out and then
Speaker 1: by the second month you'll be like, fuck, this is easy.
Speaker 2: I don't you know what I mean? Yeah, I never know.
Speaker 1: You just got over the hump they say, like twenty
Speaker 1: one days where it's like, you know.
Speaker 2: Something like that. Yeah, all right, So that's that.
Speaker 1: Part of that of the podcast. This time is my
Speaker 1: favorite part. We're going to play truth with Texas. It's
Speaker 1: a little game that I came up with that we
Speaker 1: get to see your naughtier side, which you already seem
Speaker 1: like a naughty lady. We get to need you a
Speaker 1: little bit more intimately. Okay, are you ready to play Texas?
Speaker 1: All right? We've got four sets of questions. We've got kinky, spicy, naughty,
Speaker 1: and romantic.
Speaker 2: I think we're gonna.
Speaker 1: Start with kinky. Okay, you seem like a kinky lady,
Speaker 1: Miss kinky over here?
Speaker 2: Shower sex or car sex, car secks?
Speaker 1: Do you have any fetishes?
Speaker 2: Uh? I mean I like to fuck it dub sub.
Speaker 2: I don't think it's a fetish though. And do you
Speaker 2: like fee Do you like face sitting? Do like get
Speaker 2: it to be hit a little bit?
Speaker 1: Okay? So like like BDSM type thing, like you know,
Speaker 1: like ropes and like whips or like what kind of
Speaker 1: like choking, what kind of hitting your roots speaking?
Speaker 2: Throw me against the room? Okay, so like rough, really rough. Yeah.
Speaker 2: I think it goes hand in hand with the dubstep
Speaker 2: you get in the mood.
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, crashing into walls and ship.
Speaker 3: Yeah, like one of my concussions has been from I
Speaker 3: was like my head again, so all you won't and
Speaker 3: he did, and he did. He saw stars and then yeah,
Speaker 3: I had a big bump right here the next day,
Speaker 3: and I'm like, god, I probably should have chilled a
Speaker 3: little bit, but I was.
Speaker 1: The jete that I wanted to keep fucking. Oh yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: fuck the concussion I need to come.
Speaker 2: I mean, here's the thing.
Speaker 3: I didn't know had a concussion until like the next
Speaker 3: day because I was on acid, molly.
Speaker 2: Alcohol, like a whole bottle of sorock at the time.
Speaker 2: So I'm like, yeah, so I didn't even know I
Speaker 2: had to concussion until probably like the next day.
Speaker 1: Well I'm good to see that you're still here after
Speaker 1: that old thing. But you know, you got the job done.
Speaker 1: You can't exactly it was.
Speaker 2: That was a fun time.
Speaker 1: So you talked about a lot of one on one
Speaker 1: encounters in college and through your lifetime. Have you been
Speaker 1: in any orgies.
Speaker 3: I've been in like some girl girl orgies. Okay, it's
Speaker 3: been in a while since I've been in one. I
Speaker 3: just remember when I first kind of discovered I was
Speaker 3: by sexual. I was like, oh my god, like I wanted.
Speaker 3: I was like hoent out with the vaginas, like pussy everywhere. Yeah,
Speaker 3: pussy everywhere, and that was really fun. And now I
Speaker 3: just I haven't really done that in a little bit
Speaker 3: because I do prefer I think one on one or
Speaker 3: maybe even like a threesome. But I it's very over
Speaker 3: stimulating being with so many people.
Speaker 1: What was the most number of people in the orgy
Speaker 1: probably like forty forty. Yeah, I did expect that number.
Speaker 1: But yeah, me and Malcova was there. I was in
Speaker 1: a little vibrator train with her. Okay, Yeah, how does
Speaker 1: one that these things happened? You're like at a party
Speaker 1: and you're just like, hey, everybody, let's have an orgy.
Speaker 3: No, it's like like people organize like content trip. So
Speaker 3: it was on like a content trip where it's like
Speaker 3: everyone was there for that thing, and it's like we
Speaker 3: definitely like the orgy ahead of time. Okay, It like
Speaker 3: everyone who was in the orgy either had to be
Speaker 3: like full send or like they had to be participating
Speaker 3: in the orgy, and I was just I was really
Speaker 3: fucking excited to be in it.
Speaker 1: Okay, let's all yeah, hmmm, called someone the wrong name
Speaker 1: during sex?
Speaker 2: Yep? What was Oh my god?
Speaker 1: They were they mad? Did they get up and leave?
Speaker 1: Or they keep fucking you?
Speaker 2: Uh?
Speaker 3: I just started coughing a lot afterwards, so they kind
Speaker 3: of ask like, what's wrong.
Speaker 2: That happened a lot.
Speaker 3: I used to call a lot of men my ex
Speaker 3: when I was trying to get over him, because like
Speaker 3: I was celibate before my ex, and then I was
Speaker 3: like with my ex and I was like in love,
Speaker 3: Like honestly, I was a little bad shit crazy after
Speaker 3: because it's like he loved brought me so hard for
Speaker 3: such a long time that then when he started being
Speaker 3: like a complete dick, I like started being crazy. So
Speaker 3: it's like my senior year I was kind of a
Speaker 3: hoe again. Not because I truly wanted to be a hoe.
Speaker 3: It was because if I didn't go home with a
Speaker 3: different guy, I would try to go home with him, Okay,
Speaker 3: like crazy, like I could call him twenty times in
Speaker 3: a row. But I would need a whole bottle of
Speaker 3: hoose queer, but it'll be able to do that.
Speaker 1: But you don't think there's no accountability in that statement.
Speaker 2: We just said, Oh no, I was I was crazy. Okay, No,
Speaker 2: I'm saying I was crazy.
Speaker 1: Okay. So this was the thought so that I thought,
Speaker 1: even now you're like I had just been, I'm just
Speaker 1: like my we have to control ourselves. But it was
Speaker 1: the love bombing and those things like that, especially that
Speaker 1: young of age. It's like and you're like dick drunk
Speaker 1: because he's like this all this thing.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, no, I can fully admit like he if
Speaker 3: he tells people I'm crazy, I'm not even gonna deny it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, there's there's self awareness that I was.
Speaker 3: And it's like I remember going to therapy and I'm like,
Speaker 3: why can't I stop doing these crazy things?
Speaker 2: And like I had a bad therapist at the time.
Speaker 3: So anyways, I would call a lot of men his
Speaker 3: name when I would like fuck them to not fuck him.
Speaker 1: But you were doing an intentional or like no.
Speaker 2: Complete by accident, okay.
Speaker 1: So it was never just used to it because it
Speaker 1: was that your partner at the time, and you were
Speaker 1: just yeah.
Speaker 3: And then the guy who the painuay didn't work, the
Speaker 3: guy who I like, showed up at his house and
Speaker 3: I had also fucked his roommate. Like my freshman year,
Speaker 3: I accidentally called him his roommate's name a few times,
Speaker 3: and I would just start.
Speaker 2: Coughing because I'm like, god, fuck, like this is.
Speaker 3: So bad, because I would be thinking, like, huh, I
Speaker 3: wonder if let's just say his name is Matt, like
Speaker 3: I wonder if Matt's here, and then I would accidentally
Speaker 3: say Matt's name and then he.
Speaker 2: Would be like what, and I'm what what happened? Okay, actress,
Speaker 2: I see it. I don't know if I pulled it off.
Speaker 3: I don't even know if he knew I fucked his
Speaker 3: room because I never told him.
Speaker 1: But sorry, Matt, it's not really Mat. But your fake
Speaker 1: name is Mat.
Speaker 2: But yeah, your fake name is Matt. But oh my god,
Speaker 2: it's just.
Speaker 1: Do you still talk to him anymore?
Speaker 2: I'm crazy? Okay, I'm not even like I was probably
Speaker 2: a little bit crazy. It's fine, but you know what,
Speaker 2: at that time, it served you, and now we move on. Yeah,
Speaker 2: you just don't have to do that the next time,
Speaker 2: because you know. That's why celibacy he's good.
Speaker 1: I like this. I like this for you more and more,
Speaker 1: Like more I get to know you, the more I
Speaker 1: understand why this is a good thing, especially just for
Speaker 1: space and like clarity, you know what I mean. Because
Speaker 1: again like back to like what we interpret sex is
Speaker 1: and what it gives us.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, and also it just helps a lot too.
Speaker 3: Like I used to drink a lot, and now I
Speaker 3: maybe drink once a month. I'm not get crazy once
Speaker 3: a month, but it's like I do take a lot
Speaker 3: of mushrooms that you're not gonna black out and do
Speaker 3: stupid shit on mushrooms.
Speaker 2: You more clarity.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I have a lot more clarity. And alcohol was
Speaker 3: like not serving me at all. I would do so
Speaker 3: much dumb shit.
Speaker 1: I'm proud of me for knowing that. You know, you
Speaker 1: know what you gotta get, which likes and like move
Speaker 1: on from it.
Speaker 2: Thank you.
Speaker 1: How many all these things that you've speak about, the
Speaker 1: sex capades, how many partners do you think that you have?
Speaker 1: I have had with your body count girl.
Speaker 2: Men is definitely less than fifty woman.
Speaker 3: I couldn't even tell because it's like I've been in
Speaker 3: forty girl orgies, but in my fucking every girl in
Speaker 3: the orgy.
Speaker 2: No, so it's like I could not, by the way, okay,
Speaker 2: name how many women I don't even know?
Speaker 1: All right, TBA, yeah, all right, naughty questions. Do you
Speaker 1: like dirty talk?
Speaker 2: Yes?
Speaker 1: Can you give us an example of your dirty talk?
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, uh oh, I'm nervous.
Speaker 1: If Miss Texas was buying a dirty custom from you
Speaker 1: and I want to do to dirty talk me, what
Speaker 1: would you tell Miss Texas?
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, I'm not like the I feel like
Speaker 2: I'm so much better in the moment. And but it's
Speaker 2: like I want you. I really want you to punish me,
Speaker 2: like I really want you to choke me.
Speaker 3: I want you to tell me I'm being a bad
Speaker 3: fucking girl or a good girl like makes and praise
Speaker 3: and derogatory things like you're a dirty little slut, but
Speaker 3: you suck my dick so good, or like or I
Speaker 3: or like you suck my clips so good. But it's
Speaker 3: like I tell you what I want you to say
Speaker 3: to me kind of stuff.
Speaker 1: Okay, little girl, Yeah, don't be nervous, and its talksus.
Speaker 2: I won't bite you too much. Luber spit spit.
Speaker 1: Handcuffs are blindfold both role play.
Speaker 2: Do you like it? I could.
Speaker 3: I could get in, but I'm not a great actress,
Speaker 3: so we're gonna be laughing.
Speaker 2: But I could get into it. Okay, it's it's not
Speaker 2: gonna be that serious. What's your biggest turn off? Oh,
Speaker 2: I have a lot.
Speaker 1: Few.
Speaker 2: If they ask to play the weekend while we're fucking,
Speaker 2: that's a big turn off.
Speaker 1: You hate the weekend?
Speaker 2: I listen.
Speaker 3: I don't hate him, but I do not want to
Speaker 3: fuck all slow and.
Speaker 1: Sensual, dumb stup fucking no weekend fucking.
Speaker 3: I want like aggressive fucking. And I just don't think
Speaker 3: that you can fuck aggressively to the weekend. That's just
Speaker 3: how I feel. You would be into rhythms. There would
Speaker 3: be a rhythms.
Speaker 2: So yeah, I guess. I guess that's probably one of
Speaker 2: my biggest starting offs.
Speaker 1: Okay, romantic questions, make out, our cuddle both?
Speaker 2: I can't choose.
Speaker 3: You gotta choose one. Oh I have to choose one.
Speaker 3: Oh my gosh, Okay, making out, I guess cutting a
Speaker 3: cuddle with my dog cut or uncut? What does that
Speaker 3: mean their dick is either cut or uncut? I do
Speaker 3: not want to fucking nake and wole rat. It's gotta
Speaker 3: be circumcised.
Speaker 2: It has to be circumcised. I will be scared.
Speaker 1: Have you ever had an uncircumcised one.
Speaker 2: I haven't fucked one, Okay, but that's so bad.
Speaker 1: They're good. They're good for anal. They're not so bad.
Speaker 3: My butthole is sensitive. We haven't gotten there. I haven't
Speaker 3: done anal yet.
Speaker 1: Well, that's that's should you first, should have someone who's uncircumcised. Circumcised, okay,
Speaker 1: because it's like a little you know, it's like a
Speaker 1: little glove for everybody. That's what the Lassis Fox said
Speaker 1: on my podcast. But that one time I took ecstasy
Speaker 1: when I was in high school and I blew three guys.
Speaker 1: The first guy I didn't even know, like what was wrong.
Speaker 2: With his deck? Okay, And you're like, I didn't.
Speaker 3: Know that it was uncircumcised, And excuse me, sir, what's
Speaker 3: going on? I said, I'm going to the bathroom and
Speaker 3: ran out and had the other.
Speaker 2: Guy who it was gonna did shamed him. Well, I
Speaker 2: just I went to the bathroom. I just never came back.
Speaker 1: You look at his like, oh, I have to excuse
Speaker 1: me real quick.
Speaker 2: I go for a sack okay. He gave it a
Speaker 2: little kiss, Yeah, a little.
Speaker 3: Until I ran out, And then he was in one
Speaker 3: of my classes after that and was like.
Speaker 2: Hey, like, what's what's going on?
Speaker 1: And I'm like, oh, or I don't even know what
Speaker 1: to say, because you like to either make noises, coughs,
Speaker 1: seems to get out of things.
Speaker 2: Yeah, what happened? I just started making random noises. Favorite
Speaker 2: place to be kissed, Oh, probably my neck?
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, spicy questions. Let's see. Have you ever thrown
Speaker 1: up during sex?
Speaker 3: I've thrown up on a lot of penises when I'm
Speaker 3: blowing them since I was believing most of my life,
Speaker 3: and it just it's very sensitive.
Speaker 1: Did you just keep on going or did they know?
Speaker 1: They might They might know.
Speaker 3: They might pretend like they don't know, but they don't
Speaker 3: outwardly say that they know it.
Speaker 1: But theirs was so hard and ready to go.
Speaker 3: Yes, okay, because it's not like I'm throwing up chunks.
Speaker 3: It's like a little bits of water, so it could
Speaker 3: just feel like spit.
Speaker 1: Okay.
Speaker 2: Yeah, do you use toys in the bedroom? Yes?
Speaker 1: Have you ever stayed in a relationship for sex only?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 1: Have you ever fallen asleep during sex a lot.
Speaker 2: Okay, yeah, when I used to have a little bit
Speaker 2: of a drinking problem, and they should probably have stopped
Speaker 2: fucking me.
Speaker 1: A What is something that's completely off limits in the
Speaker 1: bedroom that you won't even try because you're not into it.
Speaker 2: I don't want to try things with knives. That's a
Speaker 2: good one.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I even when I was at my lowest point
Speaker 3: in life, like feeling a little bit suicidal, I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 3: everyone else who suicidal cuts them stuff, let me just
Speaker 3: try it.
Speaker 2: Oh my god. I barely cut my skin and was
Speaker 2: like crying. So that's just I'm not down. Okay, no,
Speaker 2: no hurting, just you know, just fucking well. I do want.
Speaker 3: I do want, like bruises. Like bruises are fine, but
Speaker 3: like actual like cuts, like.
Speaker 1: That's that's fine, fair enough. Yeah, all right, that is
Speaker 1: the rest of truth with Texas. Thank you so much
Speaker 1: for sharing. Is there anything you'd like to ask miss
Speaker 1: Texas before we go?
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, all right, do you