WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.440 --> 00:00:03.160 And we are back season four and today Private Talk, 2 00:00:03.200 --> 00:00:07.240 we have the pleasure of having Adelia on the couch right. 3 00:00:07.559 --> 00:00:08.039 Welcome. 4 00:00:08.400 --> 00:00:10.880 Thank you for coming to Private Talk. I'm excited to 5 00:00:10.919 --> 00:00:13.160 get to know you a little bit better. I've seen 6 00:00:13.279 --> 00:00:16.239 clips of your podcasts all over late Lee, and I 7 00:00:16.399 --> 00:00:19.160 just can't get enough of you. Your you know, your personality, 8 00:00:19.600 --> 00:00:22.039 how you know excited you are about your content. I 9 00:00:22.079 --> 00:00:24.280 feel like, you know, you're just authentically yourself. And I 10 00:00:24.280 --> 00:00:27.120 feel like nowadays it's really hard to kind of stick 11 00:00:27.160 --> 00:00:29.480 out in a you know, a sea full of content. 12 00:00:29.800 --> 00:00:31.120 So I feel like you've kind of made a really 13 00:00:31.160 --> 00:00:33.000 good splash, and so I'd love to get to know 14 00:00:33.039 --> 00:00:35.640 you more. So introduced yourself to Private Talk. 15 00:00:36.000 --> 00:00:39.880 Hello, I'm Adelia. I am an internet whore who celibate 16 00:00:39.920 --> 00:00:43.640 in real life. Been almost two years without Dick. 17 00:00:44.159 --> 00:00:45.200 How's that going for you? 18 00:00:46.000 --> 00:00:49.039 I keep wanting to lose it, but I'm staying strong. Nice. 19 00:00:49.039 --> 00:00:51.560 Have you been tempted? Have you almost crossed the line? 20 00:00:51.679 --> 00:00:54.560 Are you just like staying away from everything altogether? Because 21 00:00:54.600 --> 00:00:55.200 you know, how do you? 22 00:00:55.840 --> 00:00:56.000 Are? 23 00:00:56.000 --> 00:00:58.079 You like doing it? For what reasons? 24 00:00:58.320 --> 00:00:59.640 I have just. 25 00:01:00.119 --> 00:01:02.679 Only ever I feel like experienced fuck boys or just 26 00:01:02.719 --> 00:01:07.120 people that always end up breaking my heart. So I 27 00:01:07.159 --> 00:01:09.640 almost broke it last Saturday with a guy who I'm 28 00:01:09.640 --> 00:01:13.480 actually pretty into, but all we did was make out 29 00:01:13.480 --> 00:01:14.959 and had a little culibate sleepover. 30 00:01:15.359 --> 00:01:16.640 So I'm just holding out. 31 00:01:16.840 --> 00:01:19.640 So are there rules? Like what is it just penetration? 32 00:01:19.879 --> 00:01:22.000 Is it oral sex? Is it any everything? 33 00:01:22.120 --> 00:01:24.000 He's actually the first guy even kissed in two years? 34 00:01:24.079 --> 00:01:26.719 Okay, And is that by choice or it's like you 35 00:01:26.799 --> 00:01:29.079 just like I said, it's like sometimes we isolate ourselves 36 00:01:29.120 --> 00:01:31.200 because we're either healing or trying to figure out, like 37 00:01:31.200 --> 00:01:33.159 what kind of partner do we really want? And I 38 00:01:33.159 --> 00:01:35.840 feel like, sometimes you know, when we establish that we 39 00:01:35.920 --> 00:01:38.319 may have our picker off of like you said, fuck boys, 40 00:01:38.319 --> 00:01:42.200 it's like sometimes we also project that energy without knowing it. 41 00:01:42.200 --> 00:01:44.000 It's like so when we don't really sit down and 42 00:01:44.000 --> 00:01:45.680 sit with ourselves and be like what do I really 43 00:01:45.719 --> 00:01:48.359 need from a partner? What makes me happy? And not 44 00:01:48.480 --> 00:01:50.959 just being validated by just the first boy that's like, 45 00:01:50.959 --> 00:01:53.159 oh you're pretty, I love your hair. And I feel 46 00:01:53.200 --> 00:01:55.519 like sometimes as women, we kind of cling on to 47 00:01:55.719 --> 00:01:58.560 like the fuck boys because it's like easy and even 48 00:01:58.599 --> 00:02:00.799 though in a sense it's not easy and long term 49 00:02:01.000 --> 00:02:02.719 in the in the beginning. It's easy because they're telling 50 00:02:02.799 --> 00:02:04.879 us what we want to hear. Yeah, so have you 51 00:02:05.159 --> 00:02:08.520 done work on yourself or like what kind of established 52 00:02:08.520 --> 00:02:10.319 you to like push yourself to this celibacy. 53 00:02:10.879 --> 00:02:14.199 Honestly, I've been doing it on and off since college, 54 00:02:14.680 --> 00:02:16.960 so like in college, I think it was a little 55 00:02:17.000 --> 00:02:19.360 bit for over a year until I started dating someone, 56 00:02:19.840 --> 00:02:21.599 although he cheated on me a lot, but it's fine 57 00:02:21.599 --> 00:02:23.639 because at least I was happy for a solid. 58 00:02:23.439 --> 00:02:26.360 Do you tell your partners upfront that, like on first 59 00:02:26.439 --> 00:02:28.599 date or like the first time you're meeting them, Like, hey, like, 60 00:02:28.639 --> 00:02:31.360 don't expect anything from me. I'm doing this celibacy journey. 61 00:02:31.400 --> 00:02:33.800 Like you can either join the ride or fuck off. 62 00:02:33.960 --> 00:02:36.199 Yeah, exactly, Okay, that's exactly what I say. And then 63 00:02:36.240 --> 00:02:37.560 I tell them what I'm looking for. 64 00:02:37.639 --> 00:02:39.919 If they're interested, can you let us know you're looking 65 00:02:39.919 --> 00:02:42.199 for it's all private talk. Oh, let's manifest I free. 66 00:02:42.199 --> 00:02:44.400 I'm a big about manifesting. So what are you looking 67 00:02:44.400 --> 00:02:45.120 for in a partner? 68 00:02:45.439 --> 00:02:51.840 I love goofy, authentic people. I feel like I'm more 69 00:02:51.840 --> 00:02:54.080 intimate than women, but I'm into like I could have 70 00:02:54.120 --> 00:02:55.759 a girlfriend and a boyfriend, but I feel like I 71 00:02:55.759 --> 00:02:56.840 couldn't just have a girlfriend. 72 00:02:56.879 --> 00:02:59.039 But like you have you had a girlfriend? 73 00:02:59.120 --> 00:03:01.319 No, I haven't. I have the biggest girl crush on 74 00:03:01.360 --> 00:03:06.000 Maddie May Hi, Maddie Hi, Maddie. She knows it though. 75 00:03:06.039 --> 00:03:09.680 But okay, have you ever done anything with females other 76 00:03:09.719 --> 00:03:10.840 than the fact admire them? 77 00:03:11.000 --> 00:03:12.319 No? Yeah, I've eaten a lot of pussy. 78 00:03:12.360 --> 00:03:13.800 Okay, So you're good at eating pussy. 79 00:03:13.840 --> 00:03:15.759 I don't know if I'm good because it's been over 80 00:03:15.960 --> 00:03:19.000 a year for even woman, but that I think is involuntary. 81 00:03:19.120 --> 00:03:21.319 Okay, Well, I feel like you if you're good at 82 00:03:21.319 --> 00:03:22.680 it once, you have to be get at it twice. 83 00:03:22.879 --> 00:03:23.080 Yeah. 84 00:03:23.159 --> 00:03:24.800 I just think I might be a little nervous for 85 00:03:24.840 --> 00:03:26.560 the first time back and I'm like, oh my god, 86 00:03:26.599 --> 00:03:27.919 I where is. 87 00:03:27.879 --> 00:03:29.599 Just knock the dust off of it. I'll just keep 88 00:03:29.599 --> 00:03:33.000 on eating. There are ways in the good parts. Yeah, okay, 89 00:03:33.039 --> 00:03:34.240 So what else in your partner? 90 00:03:35.439 --> 00:03:36.919 Oh my god? Actually I have a whole list. Shall 91 00:03:36.960 --> 00:03:37.599 I bring it up? Yeah? 92 00:03:37.599 --> 00:03:39.560 I would love to. I feel like it's important because 93 00:03:39.599 --> 00:03:41.199 I feel like a lot of people say, like, oh, 94 00:03:41.439 --> 00:03:43.840 it is this too much? Like, no, you're not too 95 00:03:43.879 --> 00:03:46.400 much for anybody. If you're gonna person's gonna be all 96 00:03:46.400 --> 00:03:48.120 the things that you want them to be. So that 97 00:03:48.159 --> 00:03:50.120 list can be long, it can be tall, it can 98 00:03:50.159 --> 00:03:50.639 be short. 99 00:03:50.680 --> 00:03:53.800 Okay, yeah, so here is what I'm looking for, goofy. 100 00:03:54.199 --> 00:03:55.800 I added this one when I had a spider in 101 00:03:55.840 --> 00:03:58.039 my house. Must kill spiders for me, come over at 102 00:03:58.120 --> 00:04:02.840 any cost, preferred, get aasectomy because I don't want kids. 103 00:04:03.599 --> 00:04:07.080 Must be a feminist. Must be down to make content 104 00:04:07.159 --> 00:04:09.599 with me and help my brand. Bro Now, whether that 105 00:04:09.759 --> 00:04:12.759 is OnlyFans, content, TikTok, content, et cetera. I just want 106 00:04:12.840 --> 00:04:15.960 someone who can help my career. Can't be in a 107 00:04:15.960 --> 00:04:22.360 traditional job, not into that, ready to embarrass themselves, funny, 108 00:04:22.560 --> 00:04:24.720 kind to me and others, genuinely kind because you know, 109 00:04:24.720 --> 00:04:27.480 a lot of people are nice, But I don't think 110 00:04:27.720 --> 00:04:29.399 a lot of people who are nice aren't kind, like 111 00:04:29.399 --> 00:04:31.120 they do it to get certain things, like I want 112 00:04:31.120 --> 00:04:33.480 someone who's kind, Like if I'm nice to a person, 113 00:04:33.519 --> 00:04:35.879 it's because I genuinely like them, and I'm not really 114 00:04:35.959 --> 00:04:38.879 nice to people that I don't fuck with. Okay, can 115 00:04:38.920 --> 00:04:42.319 make me laugh, respect my boundaries, treats my law, treats 116 00:04:42.319 --> 00:04:45.079 my dog like his child. Except if she loves them more, 117 00:04:45.160 --> 00:04:48.480 I'm out. She's gotta love me the most. 118 00:04:49.240 --> 00:04:51.519 Is You're like, sorry, this was going so well, but 119 00:04:52.240 --> 00:04:54.720 she's like this too much gonna work out for me? 120 00:04:54.879 --> 00:04:59.439 Sorry, is grounded, has done the healing work and is 121 00:04:59.439 --> 00:05:02.040 continuing to do the healing work, is able to be calm, 122 00:05:02.319 --> 00:05:06.240 can stay home or go party fox like Owen Gray. 123 00:05:06.199 --> 00:05:07.959 And this is another preferred thing. 124 00:05:08.199 --> 00:05:12.480 But liking dubstep because I I fucked a dubstep. I 125 00:05:12.560 --> 00:05:14.319 fucked it up in our sex life. 126 00:05:14.360 --> 00:05:15.839 You only fucked a dubstep. 127 00:05:16.399 --> 00:05:20.360 Oh it's I would prefer that. I'm not gonna slow 128 00:05:20.399 --> 00:05:21.759 it down to the weekend. 129 00:05:21.800 --> 00:05:24.759 So that's your only tempt Your only speed is depth, 130 00:05:24.839 --> 00:05:25.279 like what I like. 131 00:05:25.360 --> 00:05:27.959 Yeah, Honestly, when I'm using my vibrator at home, I 132 00:05:27.959 --> 00:05:29.000 come to dubstep drops. 133 00:05:29.920 --> 00:05:31.639 Hey, you know what you like. There's nothing wrong with that, 134 00:05:31.680 --> 00:05:35.079 you know, stick with what works for you, Vagina, Really, 135 00:05:35.839 --> 00:05:37.639 you know, you can maybe have a playlist for her, 136 00:05:37.959 --> 00:05:40.199 make it romantic. It's like, you know, date night. 137 00:05:40.879 --> 00:05:43.759 Just mean some dove steps, some one forty bpm kind 138 00:05:43.759 --> 00:05:44.319 of fuck it up. 139 00:05:44.480 --> 00:05:46.519 I love that though. So how old are you? I'm 140 00:05:46.560 --> 00:05:49.079 twenty sex so you being twenty six year old? Twenty 141 00:05:49.120 --> 00:05:50.800 six years old? I feel like it's really good to 142 00:05:50.920 --> 00:05:53.279 like put a really core foundation of those things that 143 00:05:53.360 --> 00:05:55.040 you want, Like some of them may sound silly, but 144 00:05:55.079 --> 00:05:57.319 those are things that you really want and have qualities 145 00:05:57.319 --> 00:05:59.639 in a man. And I again sticking to what you 146 00:05:59.680 --> 00:06:01.480 want and what you're like needing. I feel like you 147 00:06:01.560 --> 00:06:04.240 manifest that through your everyday life, Like if it's finding 148 00:06:04.240 --> 00:06:06.399 someone who's going to like dumbstuf because you're at a 149 00:06:06.399 --> 00:06:07.920 concert and you like to go to things, or like, 150 00:06:07.959 --> 00:06:10.519 you know, similarities and interests. I feel like people just 151 00:06:10.680 --> 00:06:12.600 deal with like being in LA for so long, you're 152 00:06:12.600 --> 00:06:15.079 just like, oh, the people settle and especially like you know, 153 00:06:15.160 --> 00:06:16.920 and I think, you know, being twenty six, it's like 154 00:06:17.079 --> 00:06:19.399 you should experiment them all. Like there is this one 155 00:06:19.439 --> 00:06:21.879 lady that my girlfriend she wrote in an uber, and 156 00:06:21.920 --> 00:06:23.879 she was like, you need to have a hundred dicks 157 00:06:23.959 --> 00:06:26.600 before you settle down, because it's like, you know, theoretically, 158 00:06:26.639 --> 00:06:28.399 it's like you need to try them all out before 159 00:06:28.439 --> 00:06:31.000 you really know what you want, because every person is different, 160 00:06:31.000 --> 00:06:34.480 every situation can be different, so you know, maybe not 161 00:06:34.560 --> 00:06:36.600 fuck them all, but you know, you try them out, 162 00:06:36.639 --> 00:06:37.920 go on a date. And I think that it's cool 163 00:06:37.920 --> 00:06:39.920 to have the boundaries of the celibacy of like because 164 00:06:39.920 --> 00:06:42.519 you really could see who's invested in getting to know 165 00:06:42.560 --> 00:06:45.279 who you are and who's either maybe a fan of 166 00:06:45.319 --> 00:06:47.480 your work or your podcast, or maybe who wants to 167 00:06:47.519 --> 00:06:49.759 have clout from you, or who wants to really be 168 00:06:49.800 --> 00:06:53.160 invested in getting to know you and where you're going forward, 169 00:06:53.199 --> 00:06:54.839 like you said, being a part of your business and 170 00:06:55.240 --> 00:06:55.920 growing you. 171 00:06:56.279 --> 00:06:57.480 A thousand percent. 172 00:06:57.519 --> 00:07:00.600 And it's like when I was in college a lot 173 00:07:00.800 --> 00:07:03.519 like I watch Blue Mountain State growing up. Well, in 174 00:07:03.600 --> 00:07:05.160 high school, I guess that's not really growing up, but 175 00:07:05.160 --> 00:07:07.560 I watch Blue Mountain State and I'm like, yo, these 176 00:07:07.600 --> 00:07:09.720 guys they were all hose their freshman year. So what 177 00:07:09.759 --> 00:07:11.720 am I gonna do. I'm gonna be a hoe my 178 00:07:11.759 --> 00:07:14.879 freshman year and just it was fun my freshman year. 179 00:07:14.879 --> 00:07:16.000 And then I was kind of a hoe again my 180 00:07:16.000 --> 00:07:18.800 senior year. But like soccer, explain to Miss Texas what 181 00:07:18.839 --> 00:07:19.920 a hoe is to you? 182 00:07:20.319 --> 00:07:22.279 What did you? What is your body count? Where you 183 00:07:22.399 --> 00:07:25.279 just like flirtatiously going like you know, because in college 184 00:07:25.279 --> 00:07:27.160 you can either you know, you can do a lot 185 00:07:27.199 --> 00:07:28.040 of blowjobs, you can. 186 00:07:28.000 --> 00:07:29.360 New hand jobs, or you can go all the way 187 00:07:29.399 --> 00:07:32.240 and fuck them all a new guy every weekend. 188 00:07:32.319 --> 00:07:35.279 That was my goal. Did you maybe not every weekend. 189 00:07:35.319 --> 00:07:40.000 Okay, but a lot of weekends define sometimes too sometimes 190 00:07:40.040 --> 00:07:43.000 too Yeah, and then sometimes I'd accidentally fuck best friends 191 00:07:43.000 --> 00:07:45.399 and I'd get. 192 00:07:43.439 --> 00:07:47.000 In gently or you know, you just it's. 193 00:07:46.839 --> 00:07:50.079 Hard because like they're all like it, frats are not 194 00:07:50.240 --> 00:07:52.959 that big, Like they are big, but like their pledge 195 00:07:53.000 --> 00:07:55.759 class isn't that big. So like, especially freshman year, when 196 00:07:55.759 --> 00:07:57.680 I was fucking a lot of other freshmen. 197 00:07:57.600 --> 00:07:59.560 It was just like it was kind of hard to 198 00:07:59.759 --> 00:08:03.319 of woid friends no pun attended. Yeah, kind of hard. 199 00:08:03.560 --> 00:08:05.839 But then I got chalmydia and then I'm like, maybe 200 00:08:05.839 --> 00:08:08.279 I need to either start using condoms, which I didn't like, 201 00:08:08.480 --> 00:08:09.240 or slow it down. 202 00:08:09.360 --> 00:08:12.000 Okay, So you were raw dogging, just out there, raw 203 00:08:12.040 --> 00:08:13.079 dogging everybody. 204 00:08:13.120 --> 00:08:15.759 Everybody Okay, okay, got the best choices. 205 00:08:15.800 --> 00:08:16.639 But we live and we learned. 206 00:08:16.680 --> 00:08:20.639 Yeah, we live and we learn. Now I'd like get 207 00:08:20.720 --> 00:08:21.800 some clividy. 208 00:08:21.839 --> 00:08:23.920 It really just was the deal, you know. The ceiling 209 00:08:23.959 --> 00:08:26.399 would be like, listen, I need to get my shit together. 210 00:08:26.560 --> 00:08:27.079 Let's do this. 211 00:08:27.160 --> 00:08:29.160 And I still want to do it, but let's do 212 00:08:29.199 --> 00:08:31.360 it safe. No, I still raw dogged. I just raw 213 00:08:31.439 --> 00:08:34.480 dogged less. Oh okay, So it didn't fucking mean didn't matter. No, 214 00:08:34.600 --> 00:08:36.440 I just took your pills and went on your marry. 215 00:08:36.919 --> 00:08:39.639 I just try to avoid fucking Kapa SIGs after that 216 00:08:39.759 --> 00:08:43.919 and focus on other frats that didn't get Lama's What cap. 217 00:08:43.759 --> 00:08:46.039 Did you every web cap? What praturning did you move 218 00:08:46.039 --> 00:08:46.279 on to? 219 00:08:46.440 --> 00:08:46.679 Next? 220 00:08:47.639 --> 00:08:49.840 I think it was fucking essays. 221 00:08:49.960 --> 00:08:54.279 Okay, I walked Alpha SIGs like my whole freshman year, pikes. 222 00:08:54.279 --> 00:08:56.519 I didn't get to to like my junior and senior year. 223 00:08:57.200 --> 00:09:00.159 Uh yeah it was. I was. I was a. 224 00:09:00.159 --> 00:09:03.320 Crazy one, like to fuck see, I like it. I do, 225 00:09:03.480 --> 00:09:06.159 And honestly, everyone is like, how are you celibate? Like, 226 00:09:06.279 --> 00:09:10.240 isn't that hard? Honestly, after even having a celibate sleepover 227 00:09:10.320 --> 00:09:12.919 on Saturday, all I could think about for the next 228 00:09:12.919 --> 00:09:15.080 like four or five days was penis and how much 229 00:09:15.080 --> 00:09:17.960 I wanted it until I finally could like snap myself 230 00:09:17.960 --> 00:09:19.480 out of like this dick and I was trying to 231 00:09:19.519 --> 00:09:21.279 use my vibrator. I'm like, you know what I want, Dick, 232 00:09:21.360 --> 00:09:23.639 let me know. My vagina was having none of it. 233 00:09:23.639 --> 00:09:24.080 It was like. 234 00:09:24.120 --> 00:09:27.759 Throbbing for Dick, and it's so difficult. But it's like 235 00:09:28.039 --> 00:09:30.720 I know what I'm looking for and I don't want. 236 00:09:30.559 --> 00:09:34.679 To, so what made him not worthy of those choices. 237 00:09:34.720 --> 00:09:37.240 And what will it take for you to break that? 238 00:09:37.440 --> 00:09:40.080 Is it having to be in a relationship actually, or 239 00:09:40.679 --> 00:09:43.799 just someone that you feel that's close to your list. 240 00:09:43.600 --> 00:09:45.320 Not just close to my list, Because like, I've only 241 00:09:45.360 --> 00:09:48.720 known him for a week now, so I feel like 242 00:09:48.759 --> 00:09:50.720 it's I'm just gonna have to get to know him, okay, 243 00:09:50.759 --> 00:09:52.559 over the next few weeks, which that's kind of. 244 00:09:52.519 --> 00:09:54.679 I mean, I mean, nowadays I feel like things are 245 00:09:54.679 --> 00:09:56.480 sped up, like but but knowing someone for only a 246 00:09:56.519 --> 00:09:58.519 week and having a sleepover, I feel like it is 247 00:09:58.679 --> 00:10:01.320 a big step because insan, he's still a stranger. You 248 00:10:01.440 --> 00:10:02.200 don't really know. 249 00:10:02.519 --> 00:10:06.600 And I kissed him, I don't. I haven't like kissed 250 00:10:06.600 --> 00:10:07.879 the man in so fucking long? 251 00:10:08.120 --> 00:10:11.759 Was it? God? Was it? Like? Oh my god, I'd 252 00:10:11.759 --> 00:10:12.200 say ten. 253 00:10:12.279 --> 00:10:14.559 I haven't had that much sexual chemistry with anyone since, Like, 254 00:10:16.399 --> 00:10:19.200 oh yeah, I was like dripping. I was dripping, And 255 00:10:19.240 --> 00:10:21.320 it was really hard to say no because all I 256 00:10:21.320 --> 00:10:22.440 wanted to do is was there. 257 00:10:22.440 --> 00:10:23.519 Dry humping involved? 258 00:10:23.720 --> 00:10:23.960 Yes? 259 00:10:24.039 --> 00:10:26.080 Okay, they was kissing and dry humping and can come 260 00:10:26.120 --> 00:10:28.840 in his pants? No he didn't, but I almost came. 261 00:10:29.440 --> 00:10:32.320 I almost came from kissing and dry humping. 262 00:10:32.120 --> 00:10:33.600 But I kind of feel like that's hot. 263 00:10:33.759 --> 00:10:36.000 I feel like, you know, it's slowing down of like 264 00:10:36.039 --> 00:10:37.759 why do we need to rush? Like I feel like 265 00:10:37.799 --> 00:10:40.039 so many people like think about like they fuck first 266 00:10:40.080 --> 00:10:41.960 and then think about it later, like who you're fucking? 267 00:10:41.960 --> 00:10:43.879 And it's like you know that they're entering your body, 268 00:10:44.120 --> 00:10:47.080 that person's energy will be with you, Like, heyta think 269 00:10:47.080 --> 00:10:47.759 about those things? 270 00:10:47.840 --> 00:10:50.840 Yeah, Okay, so he's got potential. He has potential. 271 00:10:50.960 --> 00:10:52.840 I think I'm just gonna wait and kind of see 272 00:10:52.879 --> 00:10:55.519 where it goes. And I don't want to like speed 273 00:10:55.559 --> 00:10:56.120 anything up. 274 00:10:56.360 --> 00:10:58.480 So you're still open to like where do you meet 275 00:10:58.559 --> 00:11:00.879 guys to like as far as dating or girls. 276 00:11:01.600 --> 00:11:03.000 I just meet them organically. 277 00:11:03.120 --> 00:11:05.440 Okay, so you're not on any dating apps or. 278 00:11:05.559 --> 00:11:07.360 I was, but it was mainly just to promote my 279 00:11:07.399 --> 00:11:10.759 only fans. And then I got banned for impersonating myself 280 00:11:10.799 --> 00:11:12.720 and I can't get any of my accounts back. 281 00:11:12.840 --> 00:11:14.720 How does that even work? Like who's the person we 282 00:11:14.759 --> 00:11:15.159 need to call? 283 00:11:15.279 --> 00:11:17.799 Like how do you ban yourself from impersonating you? 284 00:11:18.000 --> 00:11:21.000 It's an Instagram too. That was happening to everyone's instagrams 285 00:11:21.000 --> 00:11:22.679 for a little bit, but every like the. 286 00:11:22.759 --> 00:11:26.759 Discrimination of I mean content I mean, you're not a 287 00:11:26.840 --> 00:11:29.080 sex worker too, well, I guess it is still sex work. 288 00:11:29.240 --> 00:11:30.639 Yeah, I'm still a sex worker. 289 00:11:30.679 --> 00:11:33.320 I just I have fucked on my only fans, but 290 00:11:33.360 --> 00:11:34.559 that was literally the last guy I. 291 00:11:34.519 --> 00:11:36.480 Fucked, and I was like, oh my god, I'm so 292 00:11:36.600 --> 00:11:36.960 over this. 293 00:11:37.200 --> 00:11:40.240 So on your only fans, you do solos, you grow 294 00:11:40.279 --> 00:11:42.399 girl girl on your only fans. What can we find 295 00:11:42.440 --> 00:11:43.320 on your only fans. 296 00:11:43.519 --> 00:11:46.559 I do have sex tapes with the last guy that 297 00:11:46.600 --> 00:11:48.559 I fucked, and I have a few of those. 298 00:11:48.679 --> 00:11:51.919 I have a few blowjob videos. I can score. I 299 00:11:51.960 --> 00:11:55.519 can score it a lot, and I can scar it 300 00:11:55.519 --> 00:11:58.559 a lot, like many times in a row. So I 301 00:11:58.679 --> 00:12:01.200 go only fans live a lot where it's like there 302 00:12:01.200 --> 00:12:03.360 have been days I squirt five times and I'm like 303 00:12:03.440 --> 00:12:05.120 hitting like four feet. 304 00:12:05.919 --> 00:12:08.279 Who needs dick when you're squirting five times? Yeah, I 305 00:12:08.320 --> 00:12:09.679 mean that's exhausting. 306 00:12:09.879 --> 00:12:11.679 Oh my pussy was a little burnt out. 307 00:12:11.720 --> 00:12:13.480 I slowed down on the lives because I'm like, oh 308 00:12:13.519 --> 00:12:16.679 my god, like my vibrator doesn't even do anything right now. 309 00:12:17.480 --> 00:12:19.679 You know, it's always good to have a little breaking. Yeah, 310 00:12:19.759 --> 00:12:22.559 this hesitation is a real thing. Sometimes you gotta like, 311 00:12:22.600 --> 00:12:23.799 you know, sit back and enjoy it. 312 00:12:23.840 --> 00:12:25.559 A little bit. Yeah, I didn't know that my vagina 313 00:12:25.600 --> 00:12:27.639 could burn out like that, but I was going live 314 00:12:27.799 --> 00:12:30.159 like three four times a wee, like squirting like crazy. 315 00:12:30.240 --> 00:12:32.600 So just happens. I guess. Hey. 316 00:12:32.840 --> 00:12:34.559 I mean, I feel like the more relaxed you are 317 00:12:34.559 --> 00:12:36.799 with your body and like your sexuality, that that's how 318 00:12:36.840 --> 00:12:39.440 it really happens, because you're it's you're releasing. You know, 319 00:12:39.480 --> 00:12:42.480 your female ejaculate and you're it's your coming. But yeah, 320 00:12:42.600 --> 00:12:43.759 in a different form. 321 00:12:43.879 --> 00:12:46.480 And I know a lot of girls take testosterone to 322 00:12:46.519 --> 00:12:48.000 try to get their horniness up. 323 00:12:48.080 --> 00:12:50.559 I didn't have that, but okay, yeah a lot never 324 00:12:50.600 --> 00:12:51.279 have that problem. 325 00:12:52.159 --> 00:12:52.879 I'm Puerto Rican. 326 00:12:52.960 --> 00:12:53.720 It just happens. 327 00:12:53.840 --> 00:12:57.480 It happens. You never burn your libido out. No, I 328 00:12:57.600 --> 00:12:58.399 like to fuck a lot. 329 00:12:58.399 --> 00:13:00.440 I feel like that's why I got into Port many 330 00:13:00.600 --> 00:13:03.000 moons ago, and I was just young, demon full of 331 00:13:03.039 --> 00:13:06.240 come and I just munch of pop. You just couldn't stop. 332 00:13:06.279 --> 00:13:08.120 And I just I don't know. I feel like even 333 00:13:08.320 --> 00:13:11.480 the older that I've gotten, I think that me like 334 00:13:11.600 --> 00:13:13.879 porn for me kind of helped me figure out my 335 00:13:14.039 --> 00:13:16.559 like sexuality, like as far as like what I liked, 336 00:13:16.559 --> 00:13:18.360 what I didn't like, And it was in a safe space. 337 00:13:18.440 --> 00:13:21.559 So for me, I learned a lot about my sexuality 338 00:13:21.600 --> 00:13:23.759 and being a woman in the industry, and I feel 339 00:13:23.799 --> 00:13:26.600 like now being older, I crave it more, but in 340 00:13:26.600 --> 00:13:29.080 different ways, Like there's different things that make me think 341 00:13:29.120 --> 00:13:31.279 things are hot, like even like expressing like how you're 342 00:13:31.279 --> 00:13:33.799 saying how you not having sex and taking that off 343 00:13:33.799 --> 00:13:36.600 the table and like going back to almost like juvenile 344 00:13:36.720 --> 00:13:39.200 like humping each other and like kissing and stuff. 345 00:13:39.240 --> 00:13:41.240 You know, those people forget about the like the. 346 00:13:41.240 --> 00:13:44.679 Intimacy of what you know, sex and like those feelings 347 00:13:44.720 --> 00:13:47.000 really are And I feel like that's important to kind 348 00:13:47.000 --> 00:13:49.480 of bring back full circle of like who you are, 349 00:13:49.519 --> 00:13:51.519 because you start to lose that as a sex worker, 350 00:13:51.519 --> 00:13:54.879 it's like becomes kind of mechanical and like it's like 351 00:13:54.960 --> 00:13:57.240 abc D, you know, and everybody has their different parts, 352 00:13:57.240 --> 00:13:59.879 but it's like sometimes of what makes us all you 353 00:14:00.039 --> 00:14:03.799 unique is bringing your own sensuality into your work. And 354 00:14:03.840 --> 00:14:05.519 for me, it's why I always loved porn's because I 355 00:14:05.519 --> 00:14:07.480 always said it's like my artwork and that's how I 356 00:14:07.519 --> 00:14:10.600 expressed myself. And I've just always been comfortable naked, So 357 00:14:10.759 --> 00:14:12.320 you just took it to a next level. 358 00:14:12.399 --> 00:14:14.399 Oh yeah, I feel like I was posting in Pasies 359 00:14:14.440 --> 00:14:17.360 at like eighteen, going to festivals and a lot of drugs. 360 00:14:17.519 --> 00:14:17.720 See. 361 00:14:17.759 --> 00:14:20.799 I never was a festival girl. I loved music, but 362 00:14:21.000 --> 00:14:23.320 I don't feel like or I'm from Texas where there's 363 00:14:23.360 --> 00:14:26.320 not any of that. That's enough where I could have 364 00:14:26.360 --> 00:14:29.039 gotten to like, yeah, it's not it wasn't really fun. 365 00:14:29.080 --> 00:14:30.840 But you growing up here, you know, in La, I'm 366 00:14:30.879 --> 00:14:33.519 sure you're kind of exposed to things a lot more 367 00:14:35.399 --> 00:14:37.679 earlier than like people like kids your age. 368 00:14:37.840 --> 00:14:39.639 Yeah, i'd say growing up in La. 369 00:14:39.919 --> 00:14:41.879 I mean I took ecstasy for the first time at 370 00:14:41.919 --> 00:14:45.159 like fifteen sixteen. To be fair, I was semi drugged. 371 00:14:45.840 --> 00:14:48.360 But it's like my friends willingly. 372 00:14:48.120 --> 00:14:49.720 Or did you like, were they just like, hey take 373 00:14:49.759 --> 00:14:52.679 this or were you like you how to explain that? See, 374 00:14:52.840 --> 00:14:55.240 because you say semi so what is I. 375 00:14:55.080 --> 00:14:57.559 They told me I was taking something called ecstasy and 376 00:14:57.679 --> 00:15:00.960 I had only tried weed before, so I asked them, 377 00:15:01.159 --> 00:15:03.919 is it like weed? I've only taken weed and they say, yeah, 378 00:15:04.080 --> 00:15:08.600 it's just like definitely. And then I was rolling at school. 379 00:15:09.639 --> 00:15:10.919 How is that experience? 380 00:15:11.240 --> 00:15:12.039 I had to leave? 381 00:15:12.200 --> 00:15:14.200 And then did you tell them or do you just 382 00:15:14.200 --> 00:15:15.960 like I don't feel good? Like because at that point 383 00:15:15.960 --> 00:15:18.240 you're also high, like you be like, hey, I took 384 00:15:18.240 --> 00:15:20.039 a pill or were they just like it's like I 385 00:15:20.080 --> 00:15:22.279 hop defense, Oh so you were just out of there. 386 00:15:22.360 --> 00:15:26.159 I was out of there girls, A fifteen sixteen year 387 00:15:26.159 --> 00:15:29.279 old on ecstasy for my first time. I blew three 388 00:15:29.320 --> 00:15:30.080 guys that day. 389 00:15:30.360 --> 00:15:35.320 Oh not great, three sorry, just I would go from 390 00:15:35.320 --> 00:15:37.120 one person to the next to the next. 391 00:15:37.240 --> 00:15:37.759 Did they know? 392 00:15:38.799 --> 00:15:41.360 And was this that school? This was not at school. 393 00:15:42.039 --> 00:15:44.600 One of the guys picked me up from the nice place? 394 00:15:44.960 --> 00:15:46.799 Did he know where you just came out of? He 395 00:15:46.840 --> 00:15:48.919 didn't care. I don't. I didn't tell him, you know, 396 00:15:49.000 --> 00:15:50.559 I just blew the guy right before you. 397 00:15:50.639 --> 00:15:52.240 But then, well, I mean, if if you're from us, 398 00:15:52.320 --> 00:15:53.919 you know, well, I guess it's not a small town 399 00:15:54.279 --> 00:15:55.879 thinking about for me, it's like if you go buy 400 00:15:55.919 --> 00:15:58.120 somebody's house, you know who's who lives there, you know 401 00:15:58.159 --> 00:16:00.559