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Speaker 1: M hmmm.

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Speaker 2: Lock the pine trees lying in the winding rule. I've

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gotten me. I've gotten me, I can singing bird and

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the crooking tool.

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Speaker 3: I've got a name, I've got a knee. Get to

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carry it with me like my daddy did. But I'm

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living my dream.

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Speaker 1: Hello, my friends. I am recording this uh later on

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a Friday night.

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Speaker 3: Down way.

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Speaker 1: I'm not sure if anybody really gets it shit or not,

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but I do think of Jewish family and I appreciate

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everybody who listens to this podcast. It has been so

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much to me over the past two years. And as

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you know that, I've been dealing with some stuff with

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my father and his health, and it has taken a

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slide deeper down he is. We expect maybe by the

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time you're watching this, he will no longer be on

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the planet. And I thought I should say this because

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it'll probably go dark for a little while. And I

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hope that when the pirate ship fires up again, that

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you'll be joining us and happy to be here. And

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I do appreciate all that, But at the same time,

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I don't know that I've ever had a loss like

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this in my life. And I thought, after a couple

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of drinks that started with at a tequila bar and

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then ended up at a well with Guinness. I mean,

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it's me, but I thought maybe we could I could

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say and things. I played the Jim Crochy song because

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my dad. I can remember him, and I can picture

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it in my mind as I close my eyes now,

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of him keeping the beat to different Jim Crochy songs

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on my leg as a little boy in the front

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seat of our green Pinto or his white Toyota, either

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one of those. But I do remember that, and it

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was just something that Jim Crochy will always hold the

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special place in my heart because of my dad. Now,

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my dad, just to let you know its taken obviously

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a rather bad turn. I don't know by the time you're,

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like I said, watching or listening even if you care.

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He may no longer be on the planet, but he

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was moved to hospice. And I am going to be

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heading up to Maine. We're recording this at about eleven

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nineteen on Friday, July eleventh, and I will be leaving

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to go to Maine tomorrow. It's a weird thing, you know.

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For I don't I can't speak for everybody else, speak

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for myself, and thank you for indulging me a little bit,

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my old man, and I think for most guys, was

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like your first real hero, right, you know. He built

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me the coolest room, and he built me a house.

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And I never understood until I was an adult what

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that really was. We're talking about a guy who grew

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up in Greenpoint, Brooklyn and a tenement, probably had never

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held a power tool in his hands until he built

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my house. But my dad was a genius and he

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was one of the funniest, funniest people I have ever

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ever known in my life. And he was also a

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great protector. Now, as you can imagine, I might have

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bumped heads with my dad from time to time. It

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was I mean, I'm sure you're shocked. He was very,

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very strong and at times domineering and in the best,

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most loving way. There are phrases that my dad said

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to me that I say to my sons in things

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like I'm not here to ruin your good time. I'm

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just here to keep you alive. And that was something

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that always stuck with me, even at fifteen, sixteen, seventeen

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years old. I'll give you this story, and this is

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going to be very brief tonight, and I again, thank

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you for even taking a second to listen. Can you

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imagine me like I was voted most likely to be

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found looking for a party when I graduated in high school.

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It's like, oh, I remember my dad being so mad

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when I graduated high school because he goes dumber than

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you got all these scholarships and you got nothing. I

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don't know whether to shake your hand or kick your ass.

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And if it wasn't for my mom's dad who stepped

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in and goes, who whoa, whoa, whoa, it's graduation day.

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Let's just let it go. Yeah, my dad was not happy.

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I was not a great student, but I did very

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well on some standardized says and things. So whatever meat

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stuffing at this point. But my dad was a great

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protector and he would always say to me, your father's

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not dead. And there was a time where as I

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told you, I had most likely to be found looking

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for a party in the yearbook. That was my honor.

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There was a party, and there were where we lived,

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while rural was also a little bougie, meaning that a

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lot of people from New York City, since it was

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ninety miles out, would have country homes and things and

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weekend homes that they would come up to. And I

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do remember a friends of mine through a party and

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they did it on a space that they knew the

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people weren't going to be there for a while. Maybe

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one of our friends watched their kids. I don't know

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when they did come to town. I did not attend

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that party, but there was property that was damaged and

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the state troopers, and I've told this story before, so

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I'm sorry if I'm being redundant. State trooper came to

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my home and said, hey, Bill, liked to talk to

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you about the party. And my old man, my dad,

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was right behind me. Now, I want you to think

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about this. You have such a reputation for partying that

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the police are coming to talk to you about property damage,

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even though they're aware you did not attend this party.

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But they know you know some people that are around.

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And this is before I mean self, Ah, we're going

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back to the stone age basically right. There was no snapchat,

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no social media know anything. So he says, Bill, I'd

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like to talk to about it, and my father said, no,

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you will enter the house. And we had this big

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formal living room with the oriental Excuse me, A, I

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don't even know if he can say that, can you

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say that? It was like a Persian rug in there,

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and big wing tip chair like chairs with wings on

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the back and all this very formal living room. And

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my father said, and sit down, and the guy goes, hey, Bill, listen,

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I just want to know if you know anybody who's

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at the party. My father said, excuse me, you will

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address him as William. And I don't remember much after that.

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I just remember that. And when the officer or state trooper, right,

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he's just trying to do his job and find out

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if somebody's pissed off their property gun damage, you can understand.

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And thankfully it was not at the party. And I

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may have known something, but shit, I wasn't saying I

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wasn't saying anything. And my old man kind of had

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my back on that. And after he left, he said,

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your father's not dead. My dad has, even as an adult,

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bailed me out of situations over and over again. I'm

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not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing,

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but I know it's a loving thing. And I am

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a big believer in the fact that energy never ceases

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to exist, and we are energy. We are in some

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form eternal is my belief. That doesn't mean a hast

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to line up with your belief. But I will say this,

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it is odd, right, It's hard to figure out when

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someone does pass on or is about to pass on,

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where do they go and I can't see them anymore

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and they're not here? And how do I carry on?

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And what does that mean? I don't know. I don't

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have the answers. When my father did say, your father's

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not dead, and I will say that even as he passes,

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he's not dead. He will live forever right here. He

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will ever live forever right here. He was very funny,

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he was very witty, he was charming, and I'm so

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glad that about a week ago I had a lot

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of time with him, and I remember leaving and I

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gave him a hug and I came back and said,

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like another hug, and he said I like that too,

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And I said I love you and he said I

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love you too. And So for anybody who's ever gone

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through this, or is going to go through this at

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some point, because we all will, I say, just remember

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it doesn't die. Your father's not dead, your mother's not dead,

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but your father's not dead. He lives right here. And

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that's something that I will hold forever. The wisdom, the grace,

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the critical thinking that he instilled upon me and my

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siblings will be forever that and I thank you for

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indulging me. I hope I'm not coming off too sappy. Uh.

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It is a heavy time. And I hope that you

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will join the pirates ship again when it is upright

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and ready to start sailing. But we are going to

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go dark for a little while I deal with this

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family issue. And in the meantime I leave you Instead

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of with one of my all time favorites, John Hyatt,

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I leave you with another all time favorite and a

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favorite of my dad. I've got Jim Croche. Thank you.

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Speaker 2: Like a singing bird in the crooking tool. I've got

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a knee. I've got a knee. Get to carry it

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with me like my daddy Bottom, live on my dream

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that he kept down the highway.

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Speaker 3: Down Wait too many has a lot more pacified.

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