WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.040 --> 00:00:00.960 Hello, Hello, Hello. 2 00:00:01.120 --> 00:00:02.839 If you can hear my voice, that means you're listening 3 00:00:02.839 --> 00:00:05.480 to a brand new episode to catch this fade with 4 00:00:05.519 --> 00:00:06.799 your boy Joe. 5 00:00:06.719 --> 00:00:10.039 And Valeria Vania. 6 00:00:10.640 --> 00:00:13.640 So now that this is your second episode, your your 7 00:00:13.679 --> 00:00:18.960 your family here. You got a lot of good feedback 8 00:00:19.480 --> 00:00:20.600 on your first episode. 9 00:00:20.640 --> 00:00:22.039 Oh cool, thanks guys. 10 00:00:23.199 --> 00:00:28.160 They liked you, they they connected with you, understood you. Hey, 11 00:00:31.120 --> 00:00:31.960 how's your name going? 12 00:00:32.759 --> 00:00:38.719 It's going well. I'm off again today, which is great 13 00:00:38.799 --> 00:00:41.200 during the middle of the week. So we thank God 14 00:00:41.320 --> 00:00:53.240 for that following in these Atlanta City streets. So I'm 15 00:00:53.399 --> 00:01:00.000 laughing because Joe, basically, what's fight me when guy over here? 16 00:01:00.240 --> 00:01:02.640 Because I did say that I would get here at 17 00:01:02.640 --> 00:01:04.280 a certain time and it was a little bit later, 18 00:01:04.680 --> 00:01:09.000 and you know, just like some of us have to 19 00:01:09.040 --> 00:01:11.280 do better with time management and things like that. But 20 00:01:11.319 --> 00:01:13.879 it's fine. I'm laughing because he's watching my story talking 21 00:01:13.879 --> 00:01:16.560 about frolicking like you haven't got nothing else to do? Yes, 22 00:01:16.719 --> 00:01:20.680 I did wait for you. No, no, you would saying 23 00:01:20.680 --> 00:01:22.560 that Like he was like to me, like, you don't 24 00:01:22.560 --> 00:01:24.239 have nothing to do, you just out here frolicking. 25 00:01:24.359 --> 00:01:27.680 Not even that, it's just you're like, yo, I'm gonna 26 00:01:27.680 --> 00:01:29.519 pull up to you this time, and this time, I 27 00:01:29.560 --> 00:01:31.480 ain't bet I'm gonna prepare for you. 28 00:01:32.480 --> 00:01:34.840 Put up a story like an hour and a half 29 00:01:34.920 --> 00:01:35.879 after those. 30 00:01:35.560 --> 00:01:38.760 Sad times, and you're like, it's look at me on 31 00:01:38.799 --> 00:01:39.920 my Instagram story. 32 00:01:40.000 --> 00:01:44.000 I ain't doing nothing, you free tea. 33 00:01:44.560 --> 00:01:47.040 So the tea is when I posted that story, I 34 00:01:47.159 --> 00:01:50.200 was on the way here. I said, Yo, just trying 35 00:01:50.200 --> 00:01:51.760 to grab you a little bite because I had to 36 00:01:51.840 --> 00:01:54.239 eat and it's almost three o'clock, trying to break my fast, 37 00:01:56.400 --> 00:01:58.519 and I didn't want to tell the people anything just 38 00:01:58.640 --> 00:02:02.439 yet because I wanted to, you know, post win about 39 00:02:03.000 --> 00:02:05.840 catch this fade when the next episode was out. So 40 00:02:05.879 --> 00:02:07.840 it's fine, we're good now. 41 00:02:07.920 --> 00:02:10.360 But other than that, I thought he was trying to 42 00:02:10.360 --> 00:02:12.759 set the bob of catching the feed. So that's why 43 00:02:12.800 --> 00:02:15.080 he was like, oh, yeah, I'm gonna be eat you 44 00:02:15.120 --> 00:02:17.919 know what, and I'm I'm saying, don't put up the 45 00:02:18.039 --> 00:02:18.840 Instagram stress. 46 00:02:18.879 --> 00:02:20.960 That's definitely not what I was trying to do as a. 47 00:02:21.000 --> 00:02:23.080 Young and my friends got blocked for that. 48 00:02:23.080 --> 00:02:28.680 That's crazy. Blocking is insane, especially because I'm just a 49 00:02:28.719 --> 00:02:30.560 girl in the way that I was just like, oh, no. 50 00:02:33.280 --> 00:02:33.680 Sentence. 51 00:02:34.759 --> 00:02:36.759 I was really, I'm not even gonna lie you guys, 52 00:02:36.759 --> 00:02:39.560 I had no idea that he was, that there was 53 00:02:39.639 --> 00:02:42.319 even an issue. I popped up in here with my 54 00:02:43.879 --> 00:02:46.319 with my girl, chicken nuggets in my side, salad from 55 00:02:46.360 --> 00:02:46.800 Chick fil A. 56 00:02:46.879 --> 00:02:47.800 Like hi, yo. 57 00:02:48.960 --> 00:02:51.639 The crazy thing is you came in here, right, You're 58 00:02:51.759 --> 00:02:53.280 like hey, I'm like what's up? 59 00:02:54.000 --> 00:02:56.479 Like I'm like, dang, what's wrong with him? And you're 60 00:02:56.560 --> 00:03:01.719 like yo, ah man, So food, I didn't get you anything. 61 00:03:01.800 --> 00:03:02.360 Hold on. 62 00:03:03.840 --> 00:03:08.439 The first thing you say, you can't believe you're like half, well, hey, 63 00:03:08.599 --> 00:03:09.280 that's a food. 64 00:03:09.360 --> 00:03:11.120 I didn't get anything for you, though, I. 65 00:03:11.080 --> 00:03:16.599 Said, just put that out there, okay, just so you could. 66 00:03:16.639 --> 00:03:18.639 Know as long as he thought about me before you 67 00:03:18.719 --> 00:03:20.879 didn't get before, you didn't get anything. 68 00:03:20.960 --> 00:03:23.120 If you want anything, And he's gonna fruit fast anyway, 69 00:03:23.159 --> 00:03:24.560 so he couldn't even have nothing. 70 00:03:24.680 --> 00:03:29.639 In fact, seventy two hours so far. No fact. 71 00:03:31.159 --> 00:03:33.400 I think that's when food the last time I did this, 72 00:03:33.479 --> 00:03:36.520 I think that's when food like comes across to me, 73 00:03:36.599 --> 00:03:40.280 even like freer, like so many more people will offer 74 00:03:40.360 --> 00:03:40.759 me food. 75 00:03:41.240 --> 00:03:43.599 It always happens like that, Oh my God. And the 76 00:03:43.639 --> 00:03:46.159 Lord told me not to. He said, don't ask him. 77 00:03:46.199 --> 00:03:49.039 Going to ask him, You're gonna fell the Lord into 78 00:03:49.120 --> 00:03:50.319 your nonsense right now. 79 00:03:51.080 --> 00:03:53.639 The Lord told you not to break red of me. 80 00:03:53.800 --> 00:03:57.439 No version of the Lord, he said, don't get anything 81 00:03:57.560 --> 00:04:04.319 from Chick fil A for him. 82 00:04:02.560 --> 00:04:06.080 The most religious fast food spot. He tells you. 83 00:04:05.960 --> 00:04:09.479 Don't because fruit fast. I could have asked you though 84 00:04:09.879 --> 00:04:11.479 it's something. 85 00:04:11.759 --> 00:04:15.120 It's all good. Nah, but yeah, for real. 86 00:04:15.199 --> 00:04:17.319 When I was younger, my friends they used to give 87 00:04:17.560 --> 00:04:18.480 blocks fast. 88 00:04:18.680 --> 00:04:19.800 That's crazy, not. 89 00:04:19.680 --> 00:04:21.720 Because no, you gotta think about this. You gotta think 90 00:04:21.720 --> 00:04:26.079 about it like this. Not no, not even not even 91 00:04:26.240 --> 00:04:28.680 like not even like what we came here to do 92 00:04:28.720 --> 00:04:34.560 the podcast. I would hit up Court, you my friend Court. 93 00:04:36.279 --> 00:04:41.360 I would hit her up and she, you know, wouldn't answer, 94 00:04:41.920 --> 00:04:45.759 all right, cool, like a day or go by day. 95 00:04:45.560 --> 00:04:49.240 Two, three, goes by? All right cool. Each and every 96 00:04:49.279 --> 00:04:51.879 one of those days she puts something up. 97 00:04:51.800 --> 00:04:54.959 On some type of social media, So I'm like, okay, 98 00:04:55.560 --> 00:04:59.240 there's one thing, there's one thing to be busy, but like, 99 00:05:01.120 --> 00:05:03.040 and her excuse to this day is like, yo, you 100 00:05:03.160 --> 00:05:04.040 going you can go. 101 00:05:04.000 --> 00:05:07.879 On social media for like blast like something you're putting 102 00:05:07.920 --> 00:05:10.600 on a full bone post story. Shut up, like I'm 103 00:05:10.639 --> 00:05:11.480 not trying to hear it. 104 00:05:11.600 --> 00:05:14.240 This was calculated, but yeah. 105 00:05:14.120 --> 00:05:17.959 She's man like and it's crazy because, like you know, 106 00:05:18.000 --> 00:05:18.839 in our generation, we. 107 00:05:18.800 --> 00:05:20.360 Don't really do voicemails like that. 108 00:05:21.800 --> 00:05:22.000 Voice. 109 00:05:22.319 --> 00:05:27.720 Though it's to the point where like like telling my 110 00:05:27.720 --> 00:05:28.759 friends started selling. 111 00:05:28.560 --> 00:05:30.079 Me voicemails. 112 00:05:34.759 --> 00:05:37.120 Like I love leaving a good voicemail, You're gonna lie, 113 00:05:37.360 --> 00:05:37.720 or like. 114 00:05:39.439 --> 00:05:42.279 Wait, no, no they did because like they'd be like, hey, 115 00:05:42.319 --> 00:05:44.920 so try to call you back before you block. 116 00:05:44.720 --> 00:05:48.720 Me, like a right. 117 00:05:50.920 --> 00:05:53.120 Not to just be going on a block and free. 118 00:05:53.519 --> 00:05:56.800 I mean, watch watch Joe. You guys sometimes you know 119 00:05:56.839 --> 00:05:57.120 I'm not. 120 00:05:57.240 --> 00:05:57.439 I'm not. 121 00:05:57.800 --> 00:05:59.120 Don't get blocked out of nowhere. 122 00:05:59.199 --> 00:06:01.240 I'm not. I'm not like that anymore. And plus it's 123 00:06:01.279 --> 00:06:02.639 not like you've done this millions of. 124 00:06:02.560 --> 00:06:06.480 Times that I have not, and I was oblivious to 125 00:06:06.519 --> 00:06:07.879 the fact that anything was even wrong. 126 00:06:09.800 --> 00:06:12.360 I'm trying to get off the passive stuff you see 127 00:06:12.959 --> 00:06:16.279 before or like a week ago, I probably just want 128 00:06:16.319 --> 00:06:18.600 to sat through it upset. 129 00:06:18.759 --> 00:06:19.959 But I would have you know, I would have changed 130 00:06:19.959 --> 00:06:20.839 the voice over the pot. 131 00:06:21.120 --> 00:06:25.600 But I'm proud of you for being honest and open 132 00:06:25.639 --> 00:06:28.720 and telling me, because I prefer when someone lets me 133 00:06:28.800 --> 00:06:31.600 know there is an issue, because sometimes I really don't 134 00:06:31.680 --> 00:06:35.439 know that I did something to slight someone, So you know, 135 00:06:35.600 --> 00:06:38.040 sometimes you let people know. Sometimes people really do not know. 136 00:06:38.120 --> 00:06:40.959 Sometimes they are aware of what they're doing, other times 137 00:06:40.959 --> 00:06:42.959 they're not. So this is one of them situations where 138 00:06:43.000 --> 00:06:44.439 like thanks for letting on. 139 00:06:44.560 --> 00:06:49.800 It know a big thing with my like my passiveness 140 00:06:49.879 --> 00:06:51.600 or like you know how it used to. 141 00:06:51.639 --> 00:06:53.040 Be where like. 142 00:06:54.560 --> 00:06:57.240 You would have came in here like super happy. I'd 143 00:06:57.240 --> 00:07:00.879 be like, I can't be mad, Like you didn't come. 144 00:07:00.720 --> 00:07:07.759 In hear me, like you like okay, whatever, yeah whatever, yeah. 145 00:07:07.360 --> 00:07:10.439 But like I think you came in positively, like hey, 146 00:07:11.079 --> 00:07:13.319 didn't get your food a lot. 147 00:07:16.360 --> 00:07:19.759 I'm just happy you you were honest. I appreciate that 148 00:07:19.879 --> 00:07:22.040 I do, and now I know I'll make sure to 149 00:07:22.920 --> 00:07:26.319 uh set better expectations when it comes to timing itself. 150 00:07:26.360 --> 00:07:30.079 But you also I asked for schedules, and I'm like, 151 00:07:30.199 --> 00:07:33.439 you're like, I'm free. I'm like, let me know specific 152 00:07:33.480 --> 00:07:35.720 because if you say you're free and I'm like I'm 153 00:07:35.759 --> 00:07:39.160 free too, then I'm gonna just freely come over here when. 154 00:07:39.000 --> 00:07:43.160 I'm you set the time. I think that's the part 155 00:07:43.199 --> 00:07:46.759 that messes me up. If we're both free, all right, late, 156 00:07:46.959 --> 00:07:48.720 i'd be late sometimes. Help me. 157 00:07:49.199 --> 00:07:53.759 You set a time that literally it was what you 158 00:07:53.839 --> 00:07:55.279 be late to times you set. 159 00:07:55.360 --> 00:07:57.800 That's no, that doesn't make sense, not all the time. 160 00:07:57.920 --> 00:08:00.079 It's not a dinner party. I invited you to. It 161 00:08:00.160 --> 00:08:02.000 starts at this time. I lied to you an hour 162 00:08:02.399 --> 00:08:03.439 come later, and. 163 00:08:03.959 --> 00:08:06.519 Because I didn't have anything else to really well, I 164 00:08:06.560 --> 00:08:09.600 do have something else later today. Rehearsal at like eight. 165 00:08:10.000 --> 00:08:12.959 But other than that, rehearsal eight o'clock. 166 00:08:13.399 --> 00:08:18.560 Yeah, why overnight worship rehearsal. 167 00:08:18.720 --> 00:08:20.879 Oh yeah, have you having dinner? Yeah? Sleep over? 168 00:08:21.279 --> 00:08:23.519 No? Is that eighth pm? That's not late. 169 00:08:25.040 --> 00:08:28.439 So everybody, everybody that does choir with you, they're. 170 00:08:28.240 --> 00:08:32.240 All like twenty Yeah, we're in our well, everybody's in 171 00:08:32.519 --> 00:08:35.679 like their thirties okay. Well and we're doing a worship 172 00:08:35.799 --> 00:08:40.919 night yeah okay, but anyway, ya, I didn't have much 173 00:08:40.919 --> 00:08:45.279 to do, so I was just like, okay. Between twelve 174 00:08:45.360 --> 00:08:47.840 and two was when I wanted to be over here, 175 00:08:48.960 --> 00:08:51.200 but I didn't really start. You already know what I 176 00:08:51.240 --> 00:08:56.240 was the whole thing. But it's just like it was 177 00:08:56.480 --> 00:08:57.799 just a ballpark. 178 00:09:00.080 --> 00:09:05.120 It's just it's just it's all out ballpark. Then is 179 00:09:05.200 --> 00:09:09.120 the set up? Yo? When you went on that story, boy. 180 00:09:09.120 --> 00:09:10.080 Yeah, he got upset. 181 00:09:10.559 --> 00:09:13.440 He was like, hey, what you guys do today. Nothing 182 00:09:13.759 --> 00:09:17.799 you need, just gallivant in the streets to these are 183 00:09:17.799 --> 00:09:19.720 your words? 184 00:09:21.240 --> 00:09:23.000 Did you want me to tell everybody else on the 185 00:09:23.000 --> 00:09:25.159 way to record a part? Not even that, but like 186 00:09:25.200 --> 00:09:28.519 I'm kind of mysterious. I'm looking so relaxed. 187 00:09:28.039 --> 00:09:30.799 Like dang, it looked like you had nothing to do 188 00:09:30.879 --> 00:09:31.639 with the I'm. 189 00:09:31.519 --> 00:09:34.360 Like, oh my god. 190 00:09:34.480 --> 00:09:36.240 And then it's crazy. Five minutes later, you're like yore. 191 00:09:36.440 --> 00:09:39.600 Four minutes away, I'm like, is she serious? 192 00:09:40.200 --> 00:09:42.320 I don't I don't see I still don't really see 193 00:09:42.720 --> 00:09:43.399 the problem. 194 00:09:43.440 --> 00:09:45.120 But I am just a girl. 195 00:09:46.559 --> 00:09:52.799 Yeah right, it's just viby, yeah, because it's. 196 00:09:52.720 --> 00:09:53.600 Just a girl. 197 00:09:55.240 --> 00:10:00.399 On the positive news. One of the recommendations years that 198 00:10:00.440 --> 00:10:02.879 I've been doing on the pod is to fix these mics, 199 00:10:02.919 --> 00:10:03.639 ladies and gentlemen. 200 00:10:03.799 --> 00:10:07.519 These breakthrough. 201 00:10:08.159 --> 00:10:13.120 These mics are perfect, brand new mics. I haven't had 202 00:10:13.159 --> 00:10:16.080 a lot of them for a long time. But I 203 00:10:16.240 --> 00:10:20.039 just discovered in the system on how I should have 204 00:10:20.120 --> 00:10:22.919 been formed. I didn't know while doing the pods. So 205 00:10:23.120 --> 00:10:27.639 if we sound really good now, like you know, I'm excited. 206 00:10:28.559 --> 00:10:31.080 Mics aren't bad. I don't got cheap mics, yo, I 207 00:10:31.120 --> 00:10:43.879 don't have no five old dollar general mics like plays 208 00:10:44.600 --> 00:10:47.840 I'm so excited I finally unlocked the code. 209 00:10:47.919 --> 00:10:51.399 It cast me some money, but it's all good. 210 00:10:53.320 --> 00:10:55.679 Clap it up, clappy up. 211 00:10:56.480 --> 00:10:57.799 I really needed I really need that. 212 00:10:58.039 --> 00:11:01.600 I was very proud of you. Good job, good on you. 213 00:11:02.440 --> 00:11:08.799 But speaking of clapping, h we we're gonna introduce. 214 00:11:08.440 --> 00:11:09.360 The topic for the day. 215 00:11:09.519 --> 00:11:13.600 Okay, it's actually ready to take it that you said yay. 216 00:11:14.360 --> 00:11:17.639 Top of the day is purpose outside applause? 217 00:11:18.399 --> 00:11:21.039 Oh right, okay applause. 218 00:11:22.639 --> 00:11:24.159 You want to read the Affirmation of the day or sure, 219 00:11:24.240 --> 00:11:25.120 sure can I read it? 220 00:11:25.799 --> 00:11:26.120 Thanks? 221 00:11:26.799 --> 00:11:31.320 Okay, Affirmation of the Day. I release the need for 222 00:11:31.480 --> 00:11:35.480 outside applause. I don't measure my worth by who claps, 223 00:11:35.720 --> 00:11:38.960 who watches, or who approves. I am proud of who 224 00:11:39.000 --> 00:11:43.799 I am becoming, even in silence. I choose purpose over performance, 225 00:11:44.399 --> 00:11:49.919 peace over pressure, and authenticity over attention. What I build 226 00:11:50.000 --> 00:11:53.879 within me matters more than what the world celebrates. I 227 00:11:54.000 --> 00:11:57.120 am enough even when no one is watching. A. 228 00:11:57.919 --> 00:12:01.120 Yes, that's awesome, ladies and ji, even though it says 229 00:12:02.159 --> 00:12:05.639 X y Z without applause, I do love applause clapping me. 230 00:12:05.720 --> 00:12:06.600 Now, if I did some'm good? 231 00:12:06.679 --> 00:12:08.600 You know you feel like it's great enough? 232 00:12:09.240 --> 00:12:14.320 You can go ahead of plaut. But yeah, so let's 233 00:12:14.360 --> 00:12:18.720 dive into these questions. Yes, what does outside applause mean 234 00:12:18.799 --> 00:12:22.159 to you? And when did you realize you were chasing it? 235 00:12:22.440 --> 00:12:24.120 If you are chasing it, I'm nothing to you. 236 00:12:26.600 --> 00:12:30.639 What does outside applause mean to me? And what was 237 00:12:30.679 --> 00:12:31.279 the second part? 238 00:12:31.720 --> 00:12:34.960 Second part is when did you realize you were chasing it? 239 00:12:36.360 --> 00:12:38.799 You know, now that we're sitting having this conversation, say, 240 00:12:38.840 --> 00:12:44.159 outside applause. I think I can equate it to people 241 00:12:44.279 --> 00:12:48.879 pleasing if you will in a lot of ways. And 242 00:12:49.080 --> 00:12:52.840 so what it means to me sometimes is like leading 243 00:12:52.960 --> 00:13:00.559 with the intention of having someone praise you for what 244 00:13:00.720 --> 00:13:06.879 you've done, or only wanting to do something because you 245 00:13:07.039 --> 00:13:13.600 want a certain response from people, and or doing certain 246 00:13:13.679 --> 00:13:16.720 things just because this person wants you to do it. 247 00:13:18.320 --> 00:13:26.240 Let me think of an example, Okay, Like parents often 248 00:13:26.480 --> 00:13:29.159 want their children to be certain types of things, or 249 00:13:29.639 --> 00:13:32.159 may want to want them to be in a different 250 00:13:32.240 --> 00:13:38.879 in certain professions, and so because you love your parents 251 00:13:38.960 --> 00:13:43.399 so much, you do that thing just to please them, 252 00:13:44.759 --> 00:13:46.919 versus doing the thing that you actually want to do. 253 00:13:47.840 --> 00:13:50.000 So I feel like there are a lot of situations 254 00:13:50.000 --> 00:13:54.559 where we can do those things. I've found myself even 255 00:13:54.639 --> 00:13:58.200 sometimes like dressing, I guess for the male gaze, like 256 00:13:58.519 --> 00:14:03.279 you want to make yeah, like you want to be 257 00:14:03.440 --> 00:14:07.679 seen a certain way. And so for me, like over 258 00:14:07.759 --> 00:14:11.879 the years, I've just learned like I need to just 259 00:14:12.000 --> 00:14:14.200 be doing whatever makes me happy. And I know that 260 00:14:14.360 --> 00:14:17.720 sounds very cliche, but like at the end of the day, 261 00:14:17.919 --> 00:14:21.720 like we'll never be able to fully please everyone, and 262 00:14:21.840 --> 00:14:25.519 if we're often and always trying to do that to 263 00:14:25.639 --> 00:14:28.679 either work a career, or dress a certain way or 264 00:14:28.799 --> 00:14:31.039 do our hair a certain way or whatever the case, 265 00:14:31.519 --> 00:14:35.600 just for someone's approval, then we'll never truly be happy within, 266 00:14:35.720 --> 00:14:37.480 which also kind of goes back to what we were 267 00:14:37.480 --> 00:14:41.519 talking about last week about the mask and things. But yeah, 268 00:14:42.519 --> 00:14:44.720 what about you, so. 269 00:14:44.840 --> 00:14:48.480 The outside applause, I'm actually happy some of the things 270 00:14:48.480 --> 00:14:52.399 that you said. Basically, I feel like it's designed from 271 00:14:53.320 --> 00:14:55.600 you know, like you know, like when you're born, like 272 00:14:55.919 --> 00:14:58.240 you said, with your parents, you always want them to 273 00:14:58.320 --> 00:15:00.120 be proud of you, don't want them to think you're. 274 00:15:00.039 --> 00:15:01.320 Disappointment or whatever like that. 275 00:15:01.840 --> 00:15:04.399 But then you start getting these social spaces, like you 276 00:15:04.440 --> 00:15:07.399 start going to school and you start seeing like you know, 277 00:15:08.159 --> 00:15:11.279 what's cool, what's not, Who gets like big up, who 278 00:15:11.320 --> 00:15:11.960 gets made fun? 279 00:15:12.000 --> 00:15:13.080 Of and stuff like that. 280 00:15:13.399 --> 00:15:16.240 So for me personally, I when I was younger, I 281 00:15:16.360 --> 00:15:19.679 was a class caller. I can see that I was 282 00:15:19.720 --> 00:15:23.559 always because that's what it was like. I'm always trying 283 00:15:23.600 --> 00:15:25.240 to get the laughs, because when you get. 284 00:15:25.120 --> 00:15:28.279 Somebody to laugh, you got them. That's what it like. 285 00:15:29.360 --> 00:15:33.480 Like I go against teachers for no reason, you know me, 286 00:15:34.000 --> 00:15:37.480 all my reasonings was reasons, but like you know, if 287 00:15:37.480 --> 00:15:39.879 a teacher trying to play me, I'm like, what like 288 00:15:40.000 --> 00:15:42.320 stay crazy things even though I'm gonna get my ass 289 00:15:42.320 --> 00:15:47.879 with When I but that, I like that, like oh yeah, 290 00:15:48.000 --> 00:15:53.120 like oh she said it was really funny. So outside 291 00:15:53.159 --> 00:15:54.080 of the pause means. 292 00:15:53.960 --> 00:15:54.200 To me. 293 00:15:55.919 --> 00:15:59.639 That I'm doing something that somebody likes that I'm not 294 00:15:59.840 --> 00:16:04.879 just kind of moving like not without purpose. I don't 295 00:16:04.919 --> 00:16:11.480 say without purpose, but like purpose like without I don't 296 00:16:11.480 --> 00:16:13.039 know how to say it, like you're not really doing 297 00:16:13.240 --> 00:16:17.840 anything that's worth cheering for. I don't know, Like I 298 00:16:17.879 --> 00:16:20.159 won't say purpose, but it's kind of that though. 299 00:16:22.039 --> 00:16:23.840 When I realized I was chasing it when I was younger. 300 00:16:23.919 --> 00:16:26.799 For sure, when I was like I said, just growing 301 00:16:26.919 --> 00:16:31.480 up like you, you always want to be somebody that 302 00:16:31.639 --> 00:16:37.759 somebody either likes looks up to it's proud of something 303 00:16:37.960 --> 00:16:41.399 so strict, it's a constant thing. No matter like that, 304 00:16:41.879 --> 00:16:43.639 no matter what is Even people who are the most 305 00:16:43.639 --> 00:16:49.080 successful people out there, they're still insecure. Like it's still 306 00:16:49.080 --> 00:16:53.519 insecure and no money can you know, Like it's it's 307 00:16:53.559 --> 00:16:55.919 all about what people think you all the time. 308 00:16:56.000 --> 00:16:57.399 It does suck, but. 309 00:16:59.279 --> 00:17:04.079 Sometimes you want a consumer Like, yeah, I think I 310 00:17:04.119 --> 00:17:06.720 think it was funny that you said the sometimes I 311 00:17:06.880 --> 00:17:09.839 just for the male gates. That's actually crazy, not crazy 312 00:17:09.960 --> 00:17:11.839 that you do it, but like it's crazy that you 313 00:17:11.880 --> 00:17:14.200 say it out loud because I've been saying stuff. 314 00:17:14.000 --> 00:17:16.799 Like this all the time because like, all right, so 315 00:17:16.880 --> 00:17:20.759 I had this theory, right it's about Instagram. 316 00:17:21.599 --> 00:17:25.799 I'd be like, you know, girls, girls have Instagrams for 317 00:17:25.920 --> 00:17:30.000 one reason is get attention to people. 318 00:17:32.119 --> 00:17:35.279 What do you think what you think the way not 319 00:17:35.599 --> 00:17:36.119 all the way? 320 00:17:36.319 --> 00:17:39.079 I mean you also take your content creator out of it. 321 00:17:39.319 --> 00:17:40.920 Yeah, I was trying to say, because I mean there's 322 00:17:40.960 --> 00:17:44.839 the there's the aspect of attention because we want someone 323 00:17:45.000 --> 00:17:48.759 to like want to track someone. But then, like you said, 324 00:17:48.759 --> 00:17:50.839 there's a content creation aspect, and a lot of us 325 00:17:50.880 --> 00:17:53.200 are starting to use Instagram as a way to make money. 326 00:17:53.319 --> 00:17:59.480 So there's that you're still for exactly. But I guess 327 00:17:59.559 --> 00:18:01.599 My only is I just can't say that we have 328 00:18:01.880 --> 00:18:03.720 incident specifically to get attention. 329 00:18:04.279 --> 00:18:04.599 That's it. 330 00:18:04.839 --> 00:18:07.039 That's the only Like little. 331 00:18:08.559 --> 00:18:14.759 Stories get stories. What yeah, not selling nothing in it. 332 00:18:15.559 --> 00:18:20.160 I mean I'll be pubbing my bakery and stuff on 333 00:18:20.240 --> 00:18:21.039 my story. 334 00:18:21.599 --> 00:18:25.039 Seeing I've seeing girls like used to talk to and 335 00:18:26.400 --> 00:18:27.559 say be here or something. 336 00:18:29.039 --> 00:18:29.519 That's true. 337 00:18:29.559 --> 00:18:31.799 Though sometimes I do be posting the story so I 338 00:18:31.839 --> 00:18:34.480 could get so I can see who's watching you. 339 00:18:34.599 --> 00:18:38.640 Selfie start going crazy. You ain't never very selfie this 340 00:18:38.839 --> 00:18:39.880 much life. 341 00:18:42.160 --> 00:18:45.920 Like like the but men do it too, we all 342 00:18:46.039 --> 00:18:46.200 do it. 343 00:18:46.279 --> 00:18:46.880 People do it? 344 00:18:47.039 --> 00:18:49.799 Oh yeah, anything anything that I say like, oh women 345 00:18:49.880 --> 00:18:52.359 do x y z, it's only because I don't like women, 346 00:18:52.680 --> 00:18:54.880 you know all. 347 00:18:56.720 --> 00:19:03.000 I know y'all be flex and beat flexing, you know. Yeah. 348 00:19:03.119 --> 00:19:07.960 So have you ever achieved something and still feel empty 349 00:19:08.039 --> 00:19:10.480 because it wasn't the recognition you expected? 350 00:19:12.680 --> 00:19:15.240 Achieved something and not and felt empty because it wasn't 351 00:19:15.240 --> 00:19:20.799 the recognition that I was expecting. I feel like that's 352 00:19:20.880 --> 00:19:25.400 kind of a hard question for me. How about you answer? 353 00:19:25.640 --> 00:19:25.960 First? 354 00:19:29.640 --> 00:19:31.440 Dang, it's just say I don't really I don't really 355 00:19:31.519 --> 00:19:36.559 achieve I guess, but a lot of a lot of things. 356 00:19:36.599 --> 00:19:40.279 But like, I guess, I don't like when you're younger 357 00:19:41.440 --> 00:19:43.599 graduate from XYZ. I guess it's been a wild for 358 00:19:43.720 --> 00:19:48.039 me to be like, hey, congrats on this. I guess 359 00:19:48.079 --> 00:19:52.160 it's been a while, so I can't really necessarily answer. 360 00:19:52.359 --> 00:19:56.799 But I feel like everything that I've ever achieved that's 361 00:19:56.960 --> 00:19:59.519 like recognizable. I feel like I've always. 362 00:20:01.440 --> 00:20:05.240 I don't mean, well, you know what now I'm thinking 363 00:20:05.720 --> 00:20:10.319 I could say that I feel like in recent years, 364 00:20:10.359 --> 00:20:13.880 the last couple of years, I've definitely achieved a certain 365 00:20:14.039 --> 00:20:17.599 level of and this is just based on my own 366 00:20:18.240 --> 00:20:21.480 measure of myself, I've definitely f ch achieved a certain 367 00:20:21.559 --> 00:20:25.880 level of like spiritual wisdom and growth within, like how 368 00:20:25.960 --> 00:20:28.640 I deal with my people, especially like my family and 369 00:20:28.720 --> 00:20:32.559 my friends and whatnot. Mm And I feel like oftentimes 370 00:20:33.240 --> 00:20:35.440 not even my friends, I'll say, cause they recognize it 371 00:20:35.480 --> 00:20:40.039 a lot better than my family does. But s I 372 00:20:40.200 --> 00:20:42.799 feel like I've achieved a lot and I've done a 373 00:20:42.920 --> 00:20:46.559 lot in my personal time, like with God, to grow 374 00:20:47.279 --> 00:20:50.079 into like this person who was able to articulate how 375 00:20:50.119 --> 00:20:53.160 I feel and be authentic and not wear a mask 376 00:20:53.359 --> 00:20:57.319 and you know, communicate openly with people and allow them 377 00:20:57.400 --> 00:21:00.039 to feel they can communicate openly with me, And I 378 00:21:00.079 --> 00:21:02.319 feel like my family in a lot of ways hasn't 379 00:21:02.359 --> 00:21:07.519 recognized that enough and not necessarily given me the the 380 00:21:07.640 --> 00:21:11.000 praise that I would appreciate from them. But I think 381 00:21:11.799 --> 00:21:13.480 what I'm starting to learn is like, at the end 382 00:21:13.519 --> 00:21:17.000 of the day, s genuinely people pleasing is not something 383 00:21:17.039 --> 00:21:20.039 that we can even lead with. Like, cause again, people 384 00:21:20.079 --> 00:21:22.799 are never going to be pleased, and we are people. 385 00:21:22.920 --> 00:21:25.559 We're there's always something that we could always do better, 386 00:21:25.680 --> 00:21:28.720 we could always achieve more, we could always try, you know, 387 00:21:29.200 --> 00:21:31.880 go to another level, whatever the case. So I think 388 00:21:31.920 --> 00:21:33.440 we just have to get to a point where we're 389 00:21:34.799 --> 00:21:37.559 satisfied with what it is that we're doing and we 390 00:21:37.720 --> 00:21:41.079 know that we are aligned with purpose in that way. 391 00:21:42.000 --> 00:21:44.319 So like, as long as we're on that path and 392 00:21:44.400 --> 00:21:46.880 we're moving forward, whether someone is clapping for us, a 393 00:21:47.279 --> 00:21:52.640 for us, or not, you know, then then we're on point. 394 00:21:53.119 --> 00:21:59.000 So yeah, okay, do you think social media has made 395 00:21:59.079 --> 00:22:02.119 us more addicted to validation that we realized on a 396 00:22:02.160 --> 00:22:02.759 million percent? 397 00:22:02.880 --> 00:22:03.400 Absolutely? 398 00:22:04.519 --> 00:22:07.319 I'll tell you about that Instagram I told you, I 399 00:22:07.480 --> 00:22:12.640 told you, yeah, man, people for sure, Like you know. 400 00:22:12.680 --> 00:22:17.839 Everybody has different like journey everybody has certain level of 401 00:22:17.960 --> 00:22:19.880