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<v Speaker 1>Hello everybody, Welcome back to Holly Randall Unfiltered. I am

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<v Speaker 1>very excited for my guest today. I actually only just

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<v Speaker 1>met her last week, so this is a very like

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<v Speaker 1>last minute, kind of serendipitous interview. But I think it's

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<v Speaker 1>going to be one that you're really going to enjoy.

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<v Speaker 1>She is a MoMA for a widow, a Mormon, and

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<v Speaker 1>a content creator who is passionate about empowerment, honesty, and

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<v Speaker 1>her faith. Welcome the Costco Mom next Door Holly Jane Johnson.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm really excited.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's so nice to I mean, obviously another Holly.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, it was meant to be.

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<v Speaker 1>It was meant to be clearly, like all Hollies are great.

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<v Speaker 4>So you kept popping up on my feed on Instagram. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>out of nowhere. I don't think we even have any

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<v Speaker 4>followers in common. Just the algorithm pushed you to meet.

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<v Speaker 4>And then I saw you. I recognize your hair. I

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<v Speaker 4>was like, that's her. She has this beautiful, curly hair. Andy,

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<v Speaker 4>it's her. I'm going to talk to her.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I know.

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<v Speaker 1>So so we went to it was the ABN House

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<v Speaker 1>party last week and I was and yeah, she came

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<v Speaker 1>up to me and she was like, I've seen you

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<v Speaker 1>on Instagram. I'm like, yes, me, yes, And then yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we started talking and she said she was in town

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<v Speaker 1>and you know she you've never done a podcast before?

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<v Speaker 4>Is that?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh? I have you have done? Okay? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 4>And I was on The Daily Blast Live. It's a

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<v Speaker 4>it's a live talk show.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>So I've done some podcasts, just not recently, but just

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<v Speaker 4>not any good ones, just not any good ones.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, this is the first so I thought it would

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<v Speaker 1>be really fun to have her come on. And you

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<v Speaker 1>have a really interesting story, so definitely want to get

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<v Speaker 1>into that. So I guesslet's talk about your when you

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<v Speaker 1>launched your adult career. That was back in twenty twenty one.

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<v Speaker 1>It was yeah, okay, so tell me what inspired that move.

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<v Speaker 4>I knew I wasn't happy, you know, I think any well,

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of people that work like the nine to five,

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<v Speaker 4>they're like, how do I get out of this?

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<v Speaker 1>Right?

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<v Speaker 4>And I knew that I wanted to be in the industry.

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<v Speaker 4>I just didn't know where I fit in, and it

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<v Speaker 4>wasn't on the forefront of my mind. I just had

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<v Speaker 4>a baby and I was on attorney. We'd leave and

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<v Speaker 4>I'm watching I'm sitting there watching TV and somebody it

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<v Speaker 4>was miss Poindexter.

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<v Speaker 3>You know who Miss Poindexter is. The name is so Fune. Okay.

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<v Speaker 4>So her kids they were asked to leave their Catholic school,

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<v Speaker 4>like they could no longer attend because someone outed the mom,

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<v Speaker 4>Miss Poindexter. So it was a big thing. She was

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<v Speaker 4>all over the media and this segment came on and

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<v Speaker 4>they were talking about.

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<v Speaker 3>It, and she did she was she and me, she's

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<v Speaker 3>an OnlyFans. Okay, yeah, she's an O F model.

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<v Speaker 4>So I saw this and they mentioned the money that

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<v Speaker 4>she makes and like a little bit in a in

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<v Speaker 4>like a family friendly way to explain what she does.

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<v Speaker 4>And I had never heard off before. So I grabbed

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<v Speaker 4>my phone, like sitting there, I'm like, put the baby

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<v Speaker 4>down and grab my phone. And it was just the

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<v Speaker 4>like aha moment, like oh this could be where I

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<v Speaker 4>fit in.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>It was that instant like, oh, this is something, and

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<v Speaker 4>so I immediately started to research and I put my

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<v Speaker 4>whole plan into action, and that's really it. I just

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<v Speaker 4>took off from there.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>And that is right when Only Fans was really hitting

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<v Speaker 1>its trajectory, because it's right after the pandemic and all

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<v Speaker 1>those stories were really coming out about how much people

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<v Speaker 1>were making and all of those stories about like people

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<v Speaker 1>who had this regular day job or was this regular person.

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<v Speaker 1>Then all of a sudden they tried this this thing,

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<v Speaker 1>and you know, Only Fans has really changed the landscape

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<v Speaker 1>of the adult industry so much, because before you had

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<v Speaker 1>to be a porn star and you had to be

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<v Speaker 1>hired by a director and you had to do a

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<v Speaker 1>scene and you got a one time check and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>you generally had to do a bunch of different shoots

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<v Speaker 1>to even get your name up there, and you didn't really.

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<v Speaker 3>Have that much control over your career or your.

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<v Speaker 1>Image, and you definitely didn't have that direct connection with

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<v Speaker 1>your fans.

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<v Speaker 3>That only fans brings you.

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<v Speaker 4>Right, Yeah, you didn't own your content.

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<v Speaker 3>You weren't.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, you could be a somewhat of a brand

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<v Speaker 4>right in that realm, but really you can decide what

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<v Speaker 4>your brand looks like, who you want to be name

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<v Speaker 4>the price of your content. I mean, you own all

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<v Speaker 4>of the rights. You can do whatever you want, you

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<v Speaker 4>can get creative with it. And so I really like that,

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<v Speaker 4>And you know, I think not everyone obviously can make

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<v Speaker 4>it on only fans. It takes a lot of work,

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<v Speaker 4>and a lot of people think that we just take

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<v Speaker 4>pictures and we make all of this money. But there's

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of behind the scenes work that goes into that.

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<v Speaker 4>And I'm a very driven person. So I just knew

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<v Speaker 4>I will be that person. Will I will be that

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<v Speaker 4>mis poindexter. So I was really exciting and I just

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<v Speaker 4>stuck with it.

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<v Speaker 1>Were you a sexual person growing up or was that

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<v Speaker 1>something that you embraces a totally new side of yourself.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh I always was. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, even you know, growing up, like as you're in

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<v Speaker 4>high school and you're talking with your friends about what

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<v Speaker 4>you want to do, like if you want to go

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<v Speaker 4>to college. I had no interest. I was like, I know,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm going to work for myself, make my own schedule, right,

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<v Speaker 4>Like I just had this. You know, everyone thought I

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<v Speaker 4>was in La La Land. I remember Jenny McCarthy and

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<v Speaker 4>Carmen Electra. Those were my idols. I'm like, they're doing

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<v Speaker 4>something right, they look like they're having a lot of fun.

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<v Speaker 4>They're in magazines. I wanted to model, so of course,

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<v Speaker 4>like I got married, I had kids, and I just

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<v Speaker 4>thought that's not possible.

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<v Speaker 3>But that's what I wanted to do well.

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<v Speaker 1>And the great thing about only Fans is that it

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<v Speaker 1>really opens up that space for you to find that

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<v Speaker 1>audience that is looking for like that attractive woman next

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<v Speaker 1>door that feels more attainable than like a Carmen Electra right.

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<v Speaker 4>Right, yeah, yeah. People want to think that exactly, that

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<v Speaker 4>it's obtainable that the mom that they see at the

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<v Speaker 4>grocery store that they could have a chance with her.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, for me, like that's been such an interesting

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<v Speaker 1>thing to see in on the Internet, and then even

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<v Speaker 1>more so with personal content platforms like OnlyFans, because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I've been in the adult industry for it'll be twenty

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<v Speaker 1>seven years in September, and so I started when it

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<v Speaker 1>was very much controlled by the distributors, and so you know,

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<v Speaker 1>the only content that people had access to was you know,

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<v Speaker 1>well VHS's, yeah, and then like DVDs that they bought,

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<v Speaker 1>and then like magazines that they bought. So they were

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<v Speaker 1>very much there wasn't a lot of feedback from the

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<v Speaker 1>audience to the distributor, right, They just whatever porn they

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<v Speaker 1>got was what they consumed. And then when the Internet

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<v Speaker 1>really opened up this opportunity for people to really seek

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<v Speaker 1>out the things that they were into, you saw like

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<v Speaker 1>this shift like Mills did not exist fifteen twenty years ago.

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<v Speaker 1>Like why when you were like twenty eight, you were

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<v Speaker 1>like done, your career was over.

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<v Speaker 3>That makes sense.

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<v Speaker 4>You didn't have the feedback from the audience, like you said,

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<v Speaker 4>and so you just assumed what they wanted to see,

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<v Speaker 4>and that assumption was, you know, they're getting older, no

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<v Speaker 4>one's interested in this. And then now that we have

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<v Speaker 4>the feedback, what's the.

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<v Speaker 3>Number one search.

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<v Speaker 1>I know, it's crazy, so you want to see it's

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<v Speaker 1>been really cool to see, like how you know pigeonholed.

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<v Speaker 1>Everybody was in porn before where literally you know I

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<v Speaker 1>girls would come in for gosies. Yeah, and I would

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<v Speaker 1>send their pictures to the magazines for approval and they'd

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<v Speaker 1>be like, how old she?

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<v Speaker 3>And I'm like, uh, well, twenty eight. They'd be like,

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<v Speaker 3>just toold? Can you imagine? It's like too old? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>you're still a baby.

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<v Speaker 1>You're still so young, I know, right, And now it's like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, you can be in your fifties, in your

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<v Speaker 1>sixties and some people are doing.

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<v Speaker 3>Like incredibly well.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and it's also enabled I think women to come

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<v Speaker 1>into the industry at a later age when they are

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<v Speaker 1>in a better place to make decisions like them yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean. Yeah, Like they've thought about

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<v Speaker 1>it and they know what they want in life and

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<v Speaker 1>they're ready to establish boundaries. I think sometimes when you

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<v Speaker 1>come into eighteen Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I also think too. You know a lot of men,

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<v Speaker 4>and what's different about of is that you're connecting with

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<v Speaker 4>the fans, and they are seeking more than just the content.

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<v Speaker 4>They're seeking the connection and the relationship and that's why

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<v Speaker 4>they're there. They want to talk to you, they want

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<v Speaker 4>to connect with you, and they're into you. They want

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<v Speaker 4>to know everything about you. And so if if that's true,

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<v Speaker 4>which which it is, then they maybe if they're older themselves,

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<v Speaker 4>then they want someone around their same age that they

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<v Speaker 4>can connect with.

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<v Speaker 3>Absolutely.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that the reason that it exploded so much

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<v Speaker 1>during the pandemic was obviously, like people were so isolated,

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<v Speaker 1>people were so lonely, and this is a way for

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<v Speaker 1>them to connect with other people. And you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>really saw like how important that connection was to two fans,

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<v Speaker 1>and that's It's just it's crazy because I remember when

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<v Speaker 1>only fans first came along. Yeah, and I signed up,

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<v Speaker 1>and I just because I wanted to grab my username, right,

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't want anyone to take it. But I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>like think anything of it. I mean, like I'll be

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<v Speaker 1>the first to admit, like I didn't think it was

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<v Speaker 1>going to go anywhere.

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<v Speaker 3>I was wrong.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And and just to see the way it's exploded,

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<v Speaker 1>it was, I don't know, I feel like it was

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<v Speaker 1>something that like I don't think anyone.

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<v Speaker 4>Saw it coming, right really, Yeah, which is kind of crazy. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>everyone was sort of surprised by how well this is

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so tell me how you built an audience, because

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<v Speaker 1>at least like from my industry already had a following,

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<v Speaker 1>right like because they were doing adult movies. But you

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<v Speaker 1>came you were a mom, and you know you didn't have.

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<v Speaker 4>I had no I had a Facebook that I posted

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<v Speaker 4>on maybe once a year because the family wants to

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<v Speaker 4>see pictures of the kids, right like. That was the extent,

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<v Speaker 4>and I was never on there. I just occasionally would

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<v Speaker 4>go on post that picture. Leave. I had never used TikTok, Twitter, Instagram.

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<v Speaker 4>It was just that Facebook. So part of that, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>when I saw miss Poindexter and I was like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 4>writing out that plan. And part of that plan was

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<v Speaker 4>I knew because I did my research, Oh you can't

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<v Speaker 4>There's really no internal traffic. So a lot of the

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<v Speaker 3>Yourself.

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<v Speaker 4>So I had to open all of these accounts, and

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<v Speaker 4>I opened multiple on Instagram and multiple Twitters, and I knew, okay,

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<v Speaker 4>I need as many eyeballs on me as possible. So

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<v Speaker 4>I spent several months just posting like crazy, just working

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<v Speaker 4>different platforms. I would sit on you can't really do

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<v Speaker 4>sit on TikTok for like an hour just on live

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<v Speaker 4>building a fan base and pushing them over to my Instagram.

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<v Speaker 4>And I'm a nut. I wake up at like seven

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<v Speaker 4>am and I pose I post it noon. I post

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<v Speaker 4>at the same time every day, multiple times a day

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<v Speaker 4>on all of my twelve accounts, and I'm just very

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<v Speaker 4>consistent with it. Like my religion now, my new religion

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<v Speaker 4>is posting on Instagram.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so you say you have multiple accounts. Why did

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<v Speaker 1>you open multiple accounts? And like, are they different from

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<v Speaker 1>each other in anyway? No, I'm starting with the batch creating.

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<v Speaker 3>So I will.

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<v Speaker 4>Let's say I'm in a swim suit and I'm just

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<v Speaker 4>you know, posting, you know, in a picture or just

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<v Speaker 4>make a cute reel in that swimsuit. I'm going to

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<v Speaker 4>make a twelve in that swimsuit so that I don't

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<v Speaker 4>have to reinvent the wheel. And okay, what am I

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<v Speaker 4>doing for the next one. It's just it's quick, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>It's a seven second reel, and then I bust out

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<v Speaker 4>the next one. It's I'll batch create. Since I post

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<v Speaker 4>three times a day, I'll get you know, in another outfit,

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<v Speaker 4>and we'll do that in three outfits so that I

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<v Speaker 4>have that content for the day, and I and I

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<v Speaker 4>will do this. I'll do about a week's worth of

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<v Speaker 4>content and just kind of repeat that process. And why

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<v Speaker 4>twelve accounts is because, like I said, I need to

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<v Speaker 4>have as many eyes on me as possible, and these

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<v Speaker 4>accounts don't perform the same. You could open an Instagram

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<v Speaker 4>and you could be frustrated and think I only get

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<v Speaker 4>you know, five thousand views on all of my reels.

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<v Speaker 4>You could open another account and for some reason, I'm

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<v Speaker 4>getting in thirty days, I'm pulling in like ten million views.

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<v Speaker 4>And so I knew and I saw very quickly. Okay,

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<v Speaker 4>some of these accounts are kind of duds. Some are performing. Okay,

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<v Speaker 4>I have one that performs well, well, you know, in

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<v Speaker 4>this industry, Instagram is not our friend, and your account

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<v Speaker 4>can go down, and you've put all of your eggs

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<v Speaker 4>in one basket in this account, so I better have twelve.

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<v Speaker 1>So do you have a theory as to why certain

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<v Speaker 1>accounts do better than others? Do you think it's just

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<v Speaker 1>like an algorithm like chance? Yeah, exactly, yeah, right, A

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<v Speaker 1>lot of it is luck. Yeah, yeah, because I have

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<v Speaker 1>found that I started helping a couple of girls like

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<v Speaker 1>start new Instagrams, and I have found that I struggle

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<v Speaker 1>with getting some posts above like a certain number, like

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<v Speaker 1>some will do really well and then others won't. And

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<v Speaker 1>I can see like the ones that Instagram is pushing

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<v Speaker 1>out to the non followers versus the followers only, and

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<v Speaker 1>it seems like the sexier it is, the more Instagram

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<v Speaker 1>will choke the traffic.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah. True, And I'm like, how you get past that barrier?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have to get to a certain number of

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<v Speaker 1>followers and then it's just like at that point, it's

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<v Speaker 1>just the like an exponential growth like that's yes, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>my own personal account, I already like over eight hundred thousands.

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<v Speaker 1>That's different, but starting from scratch, like I haven't done

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<v Speaker 1>that since the beginning of Instagram.

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<v Speaker 4>It's yeah, it's really difficult. Yes, you're right, but also

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<v Speaker 4>without pushing the limits. So some think, oh, I have

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<v Speaker 4>five million followers, I can do whatever I want. Well,

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<v Speaker 4>you turn around in a thong and you're going to

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<v Speaker 4>find out real quick you can't do whatever you want

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<v Speaker 4>then to fly the posts. So it's there's a balance.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 4>I have an account, my main account. I think for

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<v Speaker 4>the last thirty days. You know how it shows like

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<v Speaker 4>your views for the last thirty days, I met ninety

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<v Speaker 4>million views.

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<v Speaker 3>That's a lot.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, ninety million views, and the last thirty days on

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<v Speaker 4>that account. Another account is at like fifteen million. So

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<v Speaker 4>that's why I have these accounts because I'm going to

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<v Speaker 4>get lucky on one.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, interesting, and they're none that you like give up on. No,

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<v Speaker 1>you're just like never, I'm going to keep. I believe

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<v Speaker 1>in all of you. I believe your children. Yes, yeah, exactly.

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<v Speaker 4>I believe in you, and I just treat them as

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<v Speaker 4>though this next post is going to go viral and

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<v Speaker 4>eventually something will.

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<v Speaker 3>So you just have to.

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<v Speaker 4>I think people get frustrated and they give up, and

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<v Speaker 4>you can't. You have to just yeah, you can't, you

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<v Speaker 4>have to, Yes, you just have to maintain that delusion

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<v Speaker 4>that this next post is going to do it, this

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<v Speaker 4>next post is going to do it, because eventually it will.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, So do you post the same exact Do you

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<v Speaker 1>do a different post for each Instagram?

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<v Speaker 4>I do because Instagram doesn't want you to spam, so

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<v Speaker 4>they don't want you to take this real that you

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<v Speaker 4>posted on this account and post it on another make

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<v Speaker 4>a different reel. But they're pretty identical. Maybe in this

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<v Speaker 4>one I went like this with my hair instead of

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<v Speaker 4>instead of just standing there. You know, their captions are different.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't.

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<v Speaker 4>Usually I don't really believe in captions. I don't my

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<v Speaker 4>main account try to find it. I mean, okay, you

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<v Speaker 4>maybe find on a collap maybe I don't know. Two

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<v Speaker 4>captions out of like a hundred, I don't. I don't

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<v Speaker 4>think it makes the difference. No one reads, no, No

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<v Speaker 4>one looks at that. No, so hashtag well no, don't

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<v Speaker 4>even bother.

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<v Speaker 1>No one cares about that, cares will be there on

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<v Speaker 1>TikTok though hashtags matter, I.

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<v Speaker 3>Think, so, yeah, yeah I do.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you guys know you were taking a social media

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<v Speaker 1>class today? I'm sorry, these the questions I want to know.

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<v Speaker 4>So I think a lot of people want to know

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<v Speaker 4>why do you do what I Some guys will ask,

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<v Speaker 4>They're like, wait, why am why am I seeing like

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<v Speaker 4>twelve of you. I'm like, because a girl's got to

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<v Speaker 4>do what a girl's gotta do.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, So tell me about when you first opened your

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<v Speaker 1>only fans, Like, do you remember the first piece of

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<v Speaker 1>content that you shared on there?

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<v Speaker 4>Embarrassing photos?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my gosh.

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<v Speaker 4>I look back and I'm like, those are so low quality, embarrassing,

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<v Speaker 4>like horrible lighting. I probably had like some terrible filter

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<v Speaker 4>on it, you know. I just yeah, I don't repeat

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<v Speaker 4>those photos. And then video. I don't know why, because

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<v Speaker 4>I could have made so much more money, so so

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<v Speaker 4>much sooner. I think the first one was just like

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<v Speaker 4>a like a beaja facial video.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh that was your first video? That was No, that

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<v Speaker 3>was my first.

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<v Speaker 4>Boy girl, OK. And I think I waited like six

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<v Speaker 4>months to post it because I was like, I can't

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<v Speaker 4>give them everything at once.

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<v Speaker 3>We have to trickle this out. Yeah, absolutely, he.

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<v Speaker 4>Like build up the interest.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 4>It was just a solo video of myself probably terrible.

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<v Speaker 4>Sorry it's gotten better, I promise, but yeah, just a

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<v Speaker 4>solo video, you know, like five minutes solo. I think

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<v Speaker 4>I did that right out the gate, Like first week

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<v Speaker 4>it was like, Okay, we're doing this. Yeah, and then

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<v Speaker 4>I think, yeah, they got that j video. And then

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<v Speaker 4>I think I waited like a year to have a

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<v Speaker 4>true boy girl video and then it was.

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<v Speaker 3>On after that, After that it was very easy. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, So how how did you build up your only fans?

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<v Speaker 1>Like where, like how long did it take for you

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<v Speaker 1>you got to a point where you're like, Okay, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>making serious money because I mean, you know, you hear

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<v Speaker 1>all these stories about oh my god, all we hear

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<v Speaker 1>is the people that are making millions of dollars on

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<v Speaker 1>their only fans, two hundred thousand dollars a month, whatever

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<v Speaker 1>it is.

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<v Speaker 3>But a majority of creators are.

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<v Speaker 1>Making no more than two hundred dollars a month, right, So,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's so hard for people to push past yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that that drop off?

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<v Speaker 3>Right, how did you get past that?

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<v Speaker 2>So?

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<v Speaker 3>I think I was.

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<v Speaker 4>Two months in when I quit my job. I was

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<v Speaker 4>recruiting nurses for a dialysis company. Okay, I had a

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<v Speaker 4>great job, and I just was like done with you

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<v Speaker 4>because I spent two months building, building my social media,

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<v Speaker 4>opening the only fans, and I want to say, at

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<v Speaker 4>two months in, I was probably making about maybe made

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<v Speaker 4>like about like seven thousand at that point, which at

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<v Speaker 4>the time was like, oh, we're quitting. Why would I

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<v Speaker 4>do this anymore? And I knew I was at that

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<v Speaker 4>point where I needed to give my full attention to it.

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<v Speaker 4>It can't or it can't grow. I'll always only make

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<v Speaker 4>this because this is all I can do, because there's

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<v Speaker 4>a lot that you have to put into growing on OnlyFans.

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<v Speaker 4>And so I quit and then I knew, Okay, I

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<v Speaker 4>now have the time to open more accounts and to

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<v Speaker 4>truly dedicate myself to this. So you know, people aren't

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<v Speaker 4>that aren't making the money. It's because they think, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>while I'm hot, I can post and just people are

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<v Speaker 4>going to come.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, no one knows who you are, who are you? Right?

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<v Speaker 4>It's very competitive on social media, So you not only

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<v Speaker 4>have to figure out how to set yourself apart, but

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<v Speaker 4>you have to have a drive, you have to be

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<v Speaker 4>you have to be a workhorse.

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<v Speaker 3>You should treat it like a full time job. It is.

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<v Speaker 3>It's a business.

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<v Speaker 4>Like you know, if you were opening a restaurant, would

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<v Speaker 4>you show up, you know, twice a week and not

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<v Speaker 4>advertise and expect that people are going to come in and.

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<v Speaker 3>You're going to win a Michelin award.

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<v Speaker 2>No.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, you have to get in there. You have to

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<v Speaker 4>market yourself. You have to make it known that you're here.

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<v Speaker 1>What if you found works the best for you on

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<v Speaker 1>only Evans content wise more just like maybe overall strategy.

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<v Speaker 3>Keep things very personalized on their voice notes.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, I want them to know that I'm here,

436
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<v Speaker 4>it's me, and so like good morning messages, good night messages,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, using personalizing it, I you know, not short

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<v Speaker 4>in the messages. So you know, even if you're not

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<v Speaker 4>spending today, you're going to want to spend with me

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<v Speaker 4>because you're going to get to know me and like me,

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<v Speaker 4>and then you're going to want to support me because

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<v Speaker 4>I'm just a genuine, normal, nice person and it's not

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<v Speaker 4>always the hustle. Yeah, you know, I take the time

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<v Speaker 4>like how are you today?

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<v Speaker 3>What are you up to?

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<v Speaker 4>You know, I have those conversations. So I think that's

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<v Speaker 4>important and that works really really well.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have any issues with like fans who aren't

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<v Speaker 1>good at respecting boundaries or who kind of think you're

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<v Speaker 1>in a relationship that you're not in, and like how

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<v Speaker 1>do you manage that.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't really have that problem. I think, I mean,

453
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<v Speaker 4>people get upset when they come on and find out like, oh,

454
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<v Speaker 4>this isn't bumble, this isn't bumble. I can't I can't

455
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<v Speaker 4>meet you right now right right, I can't do that

456
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<v Speaker 4>and we can't talk about that that. I would say

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<v Speaker 4>that's the biggest problem.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but generally your fans are pretty good at like

459
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<v Speaker 1>understandingies and you don't.

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<v Speaker 3>I've had I've had a couple, You've had some issues.

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<v Speaker 4>A cuckoo on me, Oh what happens everyone's found to

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<v Speaker 4>come up?

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<v Speaker 3>I think, yeah, I think you know, they just think that.

464
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<v Speaker 1>It's more and more connected than we are, and you know, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>they think that it's going to go to the next level.

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<v Speaker 3>Right, And I'm and I have a kid, and I like.

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<v Speaker 1>Write, I do care about you as a person, and

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<v Speaker 1>like I do want to know how your day is going,

469
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<v Speaker 1>and but I like, we're not going to be together. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's sad though, you know, like loneliness is an epidemic,

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<v Speaker 1>and I see that in a lot. I see that

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<v Speaker 1>in a lot of men. I see that in a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of cat fishing. I get a lot of cat fishing.

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<v Speaker 3>Do you get that? Oh fakes of me? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah all the time. And it's like yeah, they'll say,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, we've been talking on What's Happened. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 4>so if I have a subscription site where I get

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<v Speaker 4>paid when you come on and talk to me, why

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<v Speaker 4>would I be on What's happ for free? Like why

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<v Speaker 4>would that happen? On what planet? And on What's happened?

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<v Speaker 4>You know, when I'm busy just chatting for kicks and giggles.

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<v Speaker 1>Like No, Unfortunately, I think like a lot of times

483
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<v Speaker 1>that guys who buy into that are not necessarily people

484
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<v Speaker 1>who are going to think.

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<v Speaker 3>Logically.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's just like it's it's unfortunate and they and

487
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<v Speaker 1>they send a lot of money to these scammers, and

488
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<v Speaker 1>it's just like and it makes me sad because I'm

489
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<v Speaker 1>just like you, just that is not that money to me.

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<v Speaker 3>Right exactly? Yeah, can give it to me tips?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, send you a custom at least like fake

492
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<v Speaker 1>promises moving in with you?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>I think the biggest frustration though, is maybe someone come on,

495
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<v Speaker 4>coming on and not respecting my time and value because

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<v Speaker 4>I value myself in my time, so you know, oh,

497
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<v Speaker 4>can you do it for this? No, because one of

498
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<v Speaker 4>us is going to have to sacrifice, you or me,

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<v Speaker 4>and it's not going to be me when I'm the

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<v Speaker 4>one making the content and you know you want me

501
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<v Speaker 4>to do something for you, but you're asking me to

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<v Speaker 4>make the sacrifice. Yeah, and you're trying to woo me

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<v Speaker 4>and you want my attention. Yeah, if you were dating

504
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<v Speaker 4>a woman, is that how it would go?

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<v Speaker 1>No?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, so why are you You're supposed to be like

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<v Speaker 4>showering me with me with attention, love, money, gifts, and

508
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<v Speaker 4>you are wondering why I'm not giving you my time?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, get it together, you know. I sometimes I

510
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<v Speaker 1>do say to guys, I'm like, this isn't a flea market.

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<v Speaker 3>We are not here to haggle.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, exactly, get out of here. But I will say that, like,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm sure you have this experience too. Most of

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<v Speaker 1>the guys are like awesome, like so respectful, yeah, really supportive,

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<v Speaker 1>and I feel, you know.

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<v Speaker 3>So grateful.

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<v Speaker 4>Ninety seven percent Yes, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, absolutely just always it a couple of bad yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Those yeah, exactly. Most of you guys were great. Yes,

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<v Speaker 3>I love you.

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<v Speaker 1>You deserve to feel amazing. Start today. Okay, so you

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<v Speaker 1>were only thirty four when you became a widow. How

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<v Speaker 1>did you manage to survive that loss, especially with four kids?

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<v Speaker 1>That must have been like so incredibly difficult. I can't

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<v Speaker 1>even imagine.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, no, it was.

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<v Speaker 4>I had a good group of friends, and I had

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<v Speaker 4>at the time the support of the church, and so

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<v Speaker 4>they did things that I couldn't and leading up to

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<v Speaker 4>his death as well, like they brought meals every day

563
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<v Speaker 4>for months. I didn't have to think about cooking or

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<v Speaker 4>food in the house because they brought it or they'd

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<v Speaker 4>be like, oh, let me take the kids to their

566
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<v Speaker 4>sports activities because some days I just like couldn't. I

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<v Speaker 4>just couldn't. Yeah, write it was really difficult. Yeah, but

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<v Speaker 4>you know, like I think when something like that happens,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, leading up to it, you think like there's

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<v Speaker 4>no way I can get through this, I can't do this,

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<v Speaker 4>and then somehow you do.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, I'm not going to say it's easy, but yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>somehow you just you do. You do go into survival mode.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean, don't you don't know what you can

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<v Speaker 1>get through until you face with it. Yeah, and especially

577
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<v Speaker 1>when you have kids, it's like you have to.

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<v Speaker 3>You have to. You have to get through it. There's

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<v Speaker 3>no choice. You don't. You don't have a choice, right

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<v Speaker 3>you know. Yeah, so you said that.

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<v Speaker 1>So you were in the Mormon Church then at the time,

582
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<v Speaker 1>and so they really like gathered around you and like

583
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<v Speaker 1>supported you. That must have been one of like for me,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not a religious persons. In fact, I was raised atheist,

585
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<v Speaker 1>but I love the way that the church creates a

586
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<v Speaker 1>community of people that really come together and support each other. Yeah,

587
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<v Speaker 1>And I think that that's something that is missing in society.

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<v Speaker 4>Definitely, these days. Yeah, everyone is just like for themselves.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, like we don't really like people don't have something

590
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<v Speaker 1>that centers them, Yeah, and something to like focus around.

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<v Speaker 1>And even though I'm not religious, I see how like

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<v Speaker 1>that has value with the church. So that must have

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<v Speaker 1>been you must have been felt like so grateful for that, Like.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, definitely. I mean they even came to me and said, Okay,

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<v Speaker 4>we know that you can't do this, so just tell us,

596
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<v Speaker 4>like what flowers you Like? They did absolutely everything for

597
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<v Speaker 4>the funeral. They paid for it, they put the service together.

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<v Speaker 3>I showed up. Did your faith help you get through that?

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<v Speaker 4>It did because I felt like, Okay, I'm going to

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<v Speaker 4>see him again because I you know, I really believe that.

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<v Speaker 4>So I'm like, okay, I'm going to see him again.

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<v Speaker 4>So I had that comfort. I knew, okay, he's with God. Now.

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<v Speaker 4>I had that comfort, and so that helped me quite

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<v Speaker 4>a bit, just knowing like he's a piece I don't

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<v Speaker 4>need to have any guilt about that, and that you know,

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<v Speaker 4>for me, like everything is going to be okay.

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<v Speaker 1>That's another thing that I actually makes me a little

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<v Speaker 1>bit jealous about people who have faith like that. That

609
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<v Speaker 1>truly like feeling that comfort and thinking that you're going

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<v Speaker 1>to see that person again, yeah, or that they're they're okay,

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<v Speaker 1>that their spirit like resides somewhere. Yeah, because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>when my father died, like that was like the worst

613
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<v Speaker 1>thing for me. Yeah, and I didn't have that.

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<v Speaker 3>That he was just gone.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah yeah, yeah, you know what I mean, Like there's

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<v Speaker 4>just nothing right.

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<v Speaker 3>Like he's gone, right, and I'm never going to see

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<v Speaker 3>him again.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>I think whether you're religious or not, and if you

621
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<v Speaker 4>don't have that, you can know that, well, they're not

622
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<v Speaker 4>physically suffering, right, They're not suffering whether you believe or not,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, in the other stuff or not. Regardless of

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<v Speaker 4>what you believe, they're not suffering. Yeah, and so you

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<v Speaker 4>don't have to carry that burden, Right's.

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<v Speaker 1>The idea of non existence to me, is like the

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<v Speaker 1>most terrifying thing ever.

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<v Speaker 4>It is. It's strange.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah. Yeah, I like sit in the dark and think, well,

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<v Speaker 3>if you've gone through that, yes, you do.

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<v Speaker 4>You think about those things because it is strange to

632
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<v Speaker 4>know someone your whole life and to have someone be

633
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<v Speaker 4>constant and then they just don't exist. It's strange and

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<v Speaker 4>it's not something that you think about unless it happens

635
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<v Speaker 4>to you, right, yeah.

636
00:31:04.200 --> 00:31:09.319
<v Speaker 1>So now you ended up being excommunicated from the church

637
00:31:09.400 --> 00:31:12.799
<v Speaker 1>that yeah, right, So what happened there?

638
00:31:13.720 --> 00:31:15.119
<v Speaker 4>So I think it was I told you I was

639
00:31:15.119 --> 00:31:16.960
<v Speaker 4>on that talk show, The Daily Blast Live.

640
00:31:17.599 --> 00:31:18.799
<v Speaker 3>Well that aired.

641
00:31:19.599 --> 00:31:22.079
<v Speaker 4>I don't think they're on the air anymore, but I

642
00:31:22.160 --> 00:31:24.599
<v Speaker 4>think they aired in like twenty states and it was

643
00:31:24.599 --> 00:31:28.079
<v Speaker 4>this live talk show, and then that was put on

644
00:31:28.200 --> 00:31:30.240
<v Speaker 4>YouTube and so it circulates.

645
00:31:31.119 --> 00:31:34.720
<v Speaker 1>And so you went on that talk show about your career, Yeah, okay.

646
00:31:34.440 --> 00:31:35.039
<v Speaker 3>I think I was.

647
00:31:35.559 --> 00:31:38.079
<v Speaker 4>You know, after being featured in the New York Post,

648
00:31:39.880 --> 00:31:42.079
<v Speaker 4>they contacted me and said, hey, we'd like to have

649
00:31:42.160 --> 00:31:43.160
<v Speaker 4>you as a guest on our show.

650
00:31:43.160 --> 00:31:45.079
<v Speaker 3>Would you like to do that? I'm like sure, So

651
00:31:45.240 --> 00:31:46.480
<v Speaker 3>I did, And.

652
00:31:46.400 --> 00:31:50.440
<v Speaker 4>Then after it was televised, they put it on YouTube.

653
00:31:50.880 --> 00:31:53.480
<v Speaker 4>Someone I don't know who, someone in the church saw

654
00:31:53.519 --> 00:31:58.200
<v Speaker 4>that and said recognize you and they sent that to

655
00:31:58.319 --> 00:32:01.759
<v Speaker 4>the bishop of the church. And so I got a

656
00:32:01.880 --> 00:32:05.480
<v Speaker 4>text one morning and this was after another article had

657
00:32:05.519 --> 00:32:08.079
<v Speaker 4>come out in the New York Post, and I thought, oh,

658
00:32:08.119 --> 00:32:08.599
<v Speaker 4>he saw it.

659
00:32:08.720 --> 00:32:10.359
<v Speaker 3>I had a text at.

660
00:32:10.000 --> 00:32:12.799
<v Speaker 4>Like five thirty am. I need to meet with you.

661
00:32:12.960 --> 00:32:16.039
<v Speaker 4>It's important. Can you come and meet me at the church.

662
00:32:16.920 --> 00:32:18.799
<v Speaker 4>I've never had a text like that in my life,

663
00:32:18.880 --> 00:32:24.079
<v Speaker 4>so I knew who knows, and so of course I'm like,

664
00:32:24.480 --> 00:32:27.240
<v Speaker 4>I'm really busy. Can we just talk about this over text?

665
00:32:27.799 --> 00:32:30.319
<v Speaker 4>And he's like, it's really important, I'd rather do this

666
00:32:30.359 --> 00:32:33.359
<v Speaker 4>in person. And so I avoided him for a while

667
00:32:33.599 --> 00:32:36.559
<v Speaker 4>and then I decided, Okay, he's going to see me

668
00:32:36.599 --> 00:32:39.920
<v Speaker 4>in attendance this Sunday. Let's just rip the band aid off.

669
00:32:40.319 --> 00:32:40.839
<v Speaker 3>So I did.

670
00:32:40.880 --> 00:32:43.039
<v Speaker 4>I let him come over, and we had the most

671
00:32:43.119 --> 00:32:48.400
<v Speaker 4>awkward interaction conversation ever. You know, he's not really into

672
00:32:48.440 --> 00:32:52.319
<v Speaker 4>social media, right, and I don't know if he has Instagram,

673
00:32:52.359 --> 00:32:57.480
<v Speaker 4>but he certainly doesn't know anything about the adult industry. Well,

674
00:32:58.079 --> 00:33:00.759
<v Speaker 4>it's still none of his business. And I still, you know,

675
00:33:00.799 --> 00:33:04.400
<v Speaker 4>I don't see anything wrong with if I were on

676
00:33:04.440 --> 00:33:06.759
<v Speaker 4>the other side of the business, as you know, an

677
00:33:06.799 --> 00:33:11.519
<v Speaker 4>adult in adult entertainment film star. But he assumed that's

678
00:33:11.519 --> 00:33:15.160
<v Speaker 4>what it was, and he went off on some spiel,

679
00:33:15.279 --> 00:33:18.759
<v Speaker 4>some tangent about how you know, like negative that is

680
00:33:18.960 --> 00:33:22.160
<v Speaker 4>and you know, not not great for you know, myself

681
00:33:22.240 --> 00:33:25.119
<v Speaker 4>or my family. I didn't correct him. I just sort

682
00:33:25.160 --> 00:33:29.160
<v Speaker 4>of like the smile and nod like a yea, yeah.

683
00:33:29.200 --> 00:33:31.720
<v Speaker 4>He gave me an ultimatum. He said, you can't do

684
00:33:31.920 --> 00:33:34.039
<v Speaker 4>this and be a member of the church. It just

685
00:33:34.079 --> 00:33:38.720
<v Speaker 4>doesn't work. Those two things just don't coexist. You can

686
00:33:38.759 --> 00:33:44.079
<v Speaker 4>have your career and your life, or you can come

687
00:33:44.119 --> 00:33:49.400
<v Speaker 4>and attend and be one of us, basically, And he

688
00:33:49.480 --> 00:33:51.599
<v Speaker 4>asked me if that's you know, do you want to

689
00:33:51.640 --> 00:33:53.680
<v Speaker 4>still attend and do you want to be a member?

690
00:33:54.319 --> 00:33:56.920
<v Speaker 4>And is this what you want? And I said yes,

691
00:33:57.240 --> 00:33:58.400
<v Speaker 4>you know, I just wanted to think.

692
00:33:58.480 --> 00:33:59.880
<v Speaker 3>I just wanted him out of my house.

693
00:34:00.559 --> 00:34:04.839
<v Speaker 4>I'm thinking towards the end of the conversation, I'm thinking,

694
00:34:05.359 --> 00:34:07.400
<v Speaker 4>wait a minute, why are wait, why are you here

695
00:34:07.480 --> 00:34:07.799
<v Speaker 4>right now?

696
00:34:07.799 --> 00:34:09.400
<v Speaker 3>Why did I let you come over again?

697
00:34:10.239 --> 00:34:12.920
<v Speaker 4>But you're conditioned from a young age because in the

698
00:34:12.920 --> 00:34:17.199
<v Speaker 4>Mormon Church, you have to you you attend an annual

699
00:34:17.239 --> 00:34:21.719
<v Speaker 4>meeting where you're asked questions about you know, your faith

700
00:34:21.920 --> 00:34:25.880
<v Speaker 4>and if you still have the same beliefs that you

701
00:34:26.079 --> 00:34:30.440
<v Speaker 4>did and if you've been living a pure life to

702
00:34:30.679 --> 00:34:35.239
<v Speaker 4>get permission to go to the Mormon temple, So you

703
00:34:35.280 --> 00:34:37.559
<v Speaker 4>can't just walk into the Mormon Temple. You have to

704
00:34:37.599 --> 00:34:41.599
<v Speaker 4>have the recommendation from the bishop, and so you know

705
00:34:41.719 --> 00:34:45.920
<v Speaker 4>you're you're if you're a member, then you're used to this.

706
00:34:46.079 --> 00:34:51.079
<v Speaker 4>You're used to asking for permission and wanting and needing acceptance,

707
00:34:51.679 --> 00:34:53.639
<v Speaker 4>and so that's why. To anyone else, they're like, you know,

708
00:34:53.639 --> 00:34:55.280
<v Speaker 4>why did you let him in your house? Like that's

709
00:34:55.320 --> 00:34:57.599
<v Speaker 4>none of his business. But if you're used to that

710
00:34:57.800 --> 00:35:00.920
<v Speaker 4>and having those conversations, then it's just sort of a

711
00:35:00.960 --> 00:35:04.400
<v Speaker 4>knee jerk reaction to say, Okay, dad, yeah, you know,

712
00:35:04.559 --> 00:35:05.880
<v Speaker 4>go over, we'll talk about it.

713
00:35:05.960 --> 00:35:06.199
<v Speaker 3>Right.

714
00:35:07.480 --> 00:35:09.760
<v Speaker 4>But yeah, Towards the end of that conversation, I'm like,

715
00:35:10.440 --> 00:35:13.679
<v Speaker 4>wait a minute, this is really strange. This is not normal.

716
00:35:13.719 --> 00:35:15.719
<v Speaker 4>Why are you here? This is none of your business.

717
00:35:15.840 --> 00:35:16.079
<v Speaker 3>You know.

718
00:35:16.679 --> 00:35:19.559
<v Speaker 4>I when I'm in attendance on Sunday, which I am

719
00:35:19.599 --> 00:35:26.239
<v Speaker 4>every Sunday, I act normal, like I dress conservatively, I'm nice,

720
00:35:25.920 --> 00:35:28.840
<v Speaker 4>I sit quietly and I listen and then I leave

721
00:35:28.880 --> 00:35:32.280
<v Speaker 4>and I go home. So where it led from there

722
00:35:32.880 --> 00:35:37.480
<v Speaker 4>was he wanted an update. Like every couple of weeks,

723
00:35:37.480 --> 00:35:39.679
<v Speaker 4>he was texting me like, Hey, I'd really like to

724
00:35:39.679 --> 00:35:41.639
<v Speaker 4>have an update from you. Where are we at with things?

725
00:35:41.679 --> 00:35:44.880
<v Speaker 4>Because he wanted to know are you still continuing your

726
00:35:44.880 --> 00:35:49.719
<v Speaker 4>shenanigans on on OnlyFans or have you changed your ways?

727
00:35:50.039 --> 00:35:52.119
<v Speaker 4>And of course I haven't changed my ways, making bank

728
00:35:53.599 --> 00:35:54.239
<v Speaker 4>make a lot.

729
00:35:54.119 --> 00:35:56.639
<v Speaker 3>Of money, don't you. I don't you have to give

730
00:35:56.679 --> 00:35:58.800
<v Speaker 3>ten percent of your income to the Mormon you but.

731
00:36:00.480 --> 00:36:03.079
<v Speaker 4>It's frowned upon, not too Yeah.

732
00:36:02.840 --> 00:36:04.639
<v Speaker 3>So if he wants his ten percent, then maybe he

733
00:36:04.679 --> 00:36:06.280
<v Speaker 3>should let you do only right.

734
00:36:06.079 --> 00:36:12.800
<v Speaker 4>Yes, right, yeah, exactly, yeah, yeah, I thought it was

735
00:36:12.840 --> 00:36:13.559
<v Speaker 4>dirty money.

736
00:36:13.840 --> 00:36:14.159
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

737
00:36:14.239 --> 00:36:16.960
<v Speaker 4>So you know, he's really after me, wanting an update,

738
00:36:17.199 --> 00:36:19.079
<v Speaker 4>and I didn't want to give it to him because

739
00:36:19.119 --> 00:36:21.639
<v Speaker 4>I wanted to just do my thing and like leave

740
00:36:21.679 --> 00:36:26.119
<v Speaker 4>me alone. Right. So I was moving to another state,

741
00:36:26.840 --> 00:36:30.440
<v Speaker 4>and it was known because I was asking for help

742
00:36:31.199 --> 00:36:34.840
<v Speaker 4>to carry furniture and do things and so, not him,

743
00:36:34.840 --> 00:36:36.920
<v Speaker 4>but other members in the church. So you know, the

744
00:36:37.039 --> 00:36:40.199
<v Speaker 4>talk happened that Okay, she's moving, and he didn't want

745
00:36:40.199 --> 00:36:42.079
<v Speaker 4>this to be I think what happened is he didn't

746
00:36:42.079 --> 00:36:45.400
<v Speaker 4>want this to be another bishop's problem, because when you move,

747
00:36:46.119 --> 00:36:48.679
<v Speaker 4>you have a record number you have, you have a

748
00:36:48.760 --> 00:36:53.119
<v Speaker 4>record with the church. So if I move and I attend,

749
00:36:53.159 --> 00:36:55.360
<v Speaker 4>they're going to ask, okay, what's your member I d

750
00:36:55.880 --> 00:36:58.280
<v Speaker 4>and then they're going to find out and then we

751
00:36:58.360 --> 00:37:00.679
<v Speaker 4>have to have that conversation. So I think he just thought,

752
00:37:00.960 --> 00:37:04.039
<v Speaker 4>let's just close business here. You're not doing what you're

753
00:37:04.079 --> 00:37:07.559
<v Speaker 4>supposed to be doing. Your Instagram's still there, your account's

754
00:37:07.559 --> 00:37:10.239
<v Speaker 4>still there, your your link is still in your bio,

755
00:37:11.599 --> 00:37:14.079
<v Speaker 4>and so I'm just going to make the call. And

756
00:37:14.159 --> 00:37:16.400
<v Speaker 4>so he took away my membership.

757
00:37:16.760 --> 00:37:19.440
<v Speaker 3>So he excommunicated you. Yes, yeah, you know.

758
00:37:19.559 --> 00:37:21.519
<v Speaker 4>It says in the letter, which I did get an

759
00:37:21.559 --> 00:37:25.440
<v Speaker 4>official letter, that you know, I'm still welcome to attend,

760
00:37:25.639 --> 00:37:29.159
<v Speaker 4>but I can't take part in sacrament. I can't attend

761
00:37:29.199 --> 00:37:31.599
<v Speaker 4>the temple. I don't have any of the same privileges.

762
00:37:32.320 --> 00:37:34.800
<v Speaker 4>So you're allowed to sit there in the pew and

763
00:37:34.840 --> 00:37:37.760
<v Speaker 4>be shamed if you'd like to still attend, you know,

764
00:37:37.800 --> 00:37:40.280
<v Speaker 4>if you'd still like to show up and have everyone

765
00:37:40.400 --> 00:37:45.559
<v Speaker 4>stare at you because it's quiet, like if somebody passes

766
00:37:45.639 --> 00:37:48.320
<v Speaker 4>gas two hundred, people are going to know. Like it's

767
00:37:48.400 --> 00:37:51.360
<v Speaker 4>quiet when you pass that bread in that water. Everyone

768
00:37:51.480 --> 00:37:57.639
<v Speaker 4>is looking around, and everyone takes the bread in the water.

769
00:37:57.800 --> 00:38:00.880
<v Speaker 4>But if I'm not allowed to, it's going to be noticed.

770
00:38:00.960 --> 00:38:03.719
<v Speaker 4>Right if I don't, it's like I'm not, come on,

771
00:38:03.800 --> 00:38:05.280
<v Speaker 4>this isn't I'm excommunicated.

772
00:38:05.280 --> 00:38:08.159
<v Speaker 3>I'm out. Yeah, yeah, So what did you do after that?

773
00:38:08.760 --> 00:38:12.199
<v Speaker 4>I moved and then I just I just went about

774
00:38:12.199 --> 00:38:16.559
<v Speaker 4>my life and I started recently thinking about going back

775
00:38:17.320 --> 00:38:21.920
<v Speaker 4>because I just wanted to like regroup, you know, restart

776
00:38:21.960 --> 00:38:24.400
<v Speaker 4>my life, which I wasn't moving because of that. I

777
00:38:24.519 --> 00:38:28.920
<v Speaker 4>wanted out of bad weather. But I'm glad I'm away.

778
00:38:29.000 --> 00:38:29.960
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I don't want.

779
00:38:29.840 --> 00:38:32.760
<v Speaker 3>Those people as neighbors, right. Yeah, So.

780
00:38:34.280 --> 00:38:38.239
<v Speaker 4>I'm now because my kids, you know, they grew up

781
00:38:38.280 --> 00:38:40.320
<v Speaker 4>attending every Sunday and it's kind of weird. It's like

782
00:38:40.360 --> 00:38:43.440
<v Speaker 4>there's this hole and things are just different. And so

783
00:38:43.559 --> 00:38:46.800
<v Speaker 4>I've thought about, well, maybe I do just go back

784
00:38:46.840 --> 00:38:49.800
<v Speaker 4>and then I fight for my membership. I'm just not

785
00:38:49.840 --> 00:38:51.880
<v Speaker 4>really sure what my move is going to be, but

786
00:38:52.440 --> 00:38:53.159
<v Speaker 4>that's the potential.

787
00:38:53.400 --> 00:38:55.519
<v Speaker 1>How did you tell your kids that you were excommunicated?

788
00:38:55.519 --> 00:38:56.400
<v Speaker 1>Do they know why?

789
00:38:57.559 --> 00:39:00.760
<v Speaker 4>My older daughter does, The younger one thinks we've been

790
00:39:00.800 --> 00:39:01.400
<v Speaker 4>busy and.

791
00:39:02.679 --> 00:39:04.719
<v Speaker 3>I mean we're just not true.

792
00:39:05.159 --> 00:39:07.280
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, yeah, you know, and she's you know, busy with

793
00:39:07.360 --> 00:39:09.880
<v Speaker 4>her friends, and you know, probably now is like, well okay,

794
00:39:09.960 --> 00:39:12.239
<v Speaker 4>well actually I'm happy we're not.

795
00:39:12.559 --> 00:39:12.719
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

796
00:39:12.719 --> 00:39:13.719
<v Speaker 3>I have study's free now.

797
00:39:13.920 --> 00:39:15.840
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it's free. Now I can play roadblocks.

798
00:39:16.000 --> 00:39:17.599
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

799
00:39:17.679 --> 00:39:20.920
<v Speaker 1>So did you think about like getting like when you

800
00:39:20.960 --> 00:39:24.000
<v Speaker 1>got into only fans? Do you think about the church

801
00:39:24.079 --> 00:39:27.639
<v Speaker 1>running out? Like neighbors finding out that stuff I did,

802
00:39:28.119 --> 00:39:29.280
<v Speaker 1>but it.

803
00:39:29.159 --> 00:39:32.800
<v Speaker 4>Was worth it to me to just because I knew

804
00:39:32.880 --> 00:39:35.119
<v Speaker 4>I believed in myself. I knew that I was going

805
00:39:35.159 --> 00:39:38.360
<v Speaker 4>to be at the top on OnlyFans when like day one,

806
00:39:38.440 --> 00:39:40.800
<v Speaker 4>I was like, it's happening. That's just who I am.

807
00:39:40.840 --> 00:39:44.360
<v Speaker 4>I do something and I want to take it to

808
00:39:44.400 --> 00:39:44.760
<v Speaker 4>the top.

809
00:39:45.000 --> 00:39:45.400
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

810
00:39:45.440 --> 00:39:49.400
<v Speaker 4>So I thought about it, but I thought I would

811
00:39:49.480 --> 00:39:53.280
<v Speaker 4>rather deal with that and have those consequences than not

812
00:39:53.559 --> 00:39:54.639
<v Speaker 4>pursue what I want to do.

813
00:39:55.000 --> 00:39:56.440
<v Speaker 3>And do you feel like it's been worth it?

814
00:39:56.599 --> 00:39:56.840
<v Speaker 4>Oh?

815
00:39:57.000 --> 00:39:57.800
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, absolutely.

816
00:39:58.039 --> 00:40:01.639
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it has been excommunicated from the church. Is that

817
00:40:01.679 --> 00:40:03.920
<v Speaker 1>shaking your faith at all? Or is it as strong

818
00:40:03.960 --> 00:40:04.320
<v Speaker 1>as ever?

819
00:40:04.559 --> 00:40:04.880
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

820
00:40:05.000 --> 00:40:09.840
<v Speaker 4>I just think it's you know, it's hypocritical because everyone sins, right,

821
00:40:09.920 --> 00:40:13.159
<v Speaker 4>this is a sin, but and he sends too. He's

822
00:40:13.159 --> 00:40:16.599
<v Speaker 4>not perfect, he's human. So for him to decide that

823
00:40:17.079 --> 00:40:19.760
<v Speaker 4>my sin is greater, that it's worse than his, for

824
00:40:19.880 --> 00:40:22.480
<v Speaker 4>him to decide, well, I'm the judge and the jury

825
00:40:22.880 --> 00:40:26.639
<v Speaker 4>and your sin that's dirty, mine is not. So I

826
00:40:26.679 --> 00:40:30.480
<v Speaker 4>can still hold my position. That's hypocritical. And you're not

827
00:40:30.679 --> 00:40:32.760
<v Speaker 4>the You're not Jesus like.

828
00:40:32.719 --> 00:40:38.519
<v Speaker 1>No, right, So you feel like maybe the organization around

829
00:40:39.159 --> 00:40:43.719
<v Speaker 1>the Mormon church, like the people are perhaps not running

830
00:40:43.760 --> 00:40:46.840
<v Speaker 1>it the way that they're misled, but you still have

831
00:40:46.880 --> 00:40:49.719
<v Speaker 1>a strong faith, like staring Jesus and the message and

832
00:40:49.760 --> 00:40:49.920
<v Speaker 1>all that.

833
00:40:50.119 --> 00:40:52.679
<v Speaker 4>Definitely, Yeah, none of that has changed. I just think

834
00:40:52.719 --> 00:40:55.440
<v Speaker 4>that he's a little flawed, Yeah, and that the system

835
00:40:55.480 --> 00:40:56.239
<v Speaker 4>is a little flawed.

836
00:40:56.679 --> 00:40:59.000
<v Speaker 1>Do you think that you would be welcomed back in

837
00:40:59.000 --> 00:41:00.960
<v Speaker 1>a different church with the from pastor.

838
00:41:01.000 --> 00:41:05.159
<v Speaker 4>That's what I'm considering, Like maybe I can say my

839
00:41:05.280 --> 00:41:06.599
<v Speaker 4>piece and we can.

840
00:41:06.480 --> 00:41:08.239
<v Speaker 3>Come to an understanding. Yeah.

841
00:41:08.440 --> 00:41:12.519
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, potentially free only fans memberships for everybody.

842
00:41:12.679 --> 00:41:14.880
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, hey, I'll show you a.

843
00:41:14.880 --> 00:41:17.079
<v Speaker 4>Peak three month subscription.

844
00:41:17.719 --> 00:41:21.920
<v Speaker 1>So you've also been reported to your HOA and judged

845
00:41:21.920 --> 00:41:25.800
<v Speaker 1>by your neighbors. Yeah, so you're getting it from all sides. Yeah.

846
00:41:25.840 --> 00:41:28.280
<v Speaker 4>I have a funny story about my neighbor. Okay, crazy,

847
00:41:28.320 --> 00:41:30.719
<v Speaker 4>I want to hear it. Yeah, so this loon that

848
00:41:30.800 --> 00:41:34.000
<v Speaker 4>she's behind me, so we share a fence, and so

849
00:41:34.079 --> 00:41:37.519
<v Speaker 4>here's my porch, and then her house is here. So

850
00:41:37.559 --> 00:41:40.039
<v Speaker 4>I'll go out there and I'll make reels. I'm not

851
00:41:40.119 --> 00:41:42.800
<v Speaker 4>doing anything crazy. I'm just being cute in my bikini

852
00:41:43.280 --> 00:41:46.440
<v Speaker 4>sometimes lingerie. But like from a distance, you couldn't tell

853
00:41:46.440 --> 00:41:51.119
<v Speaker 4>the difference between my lingerie top and a bikini because

854
00:41:51.119 --> 00:41:54.760
<v Speaker 4>it's just like maybe it's a maroon full coverage, like

855
00:41:54.840 --> 00:41:57.280
<v Speaker 4>not sheer top and panty.

856
00:41:57.360 --> 00:41:59.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm assuming that the fence is not super high and

857
00:41:59.840 --> 00:42:02.639
<v Speaker 1>it's not like opaque like you can see through it.

858
00:42:02.639 --> 00:42:04.000
<v Speaker 3>Obviously you can't.

859
00:42:04.000 --> 00:42:06.079
<v Speaker 4>But so my house is sit My house is like

860
00:42:06.239 --> 00:42:09.639
<v Speaker 4>kind of on a it's it's it's above, it's above.

861
00:42:09.719 --> 00:42:09.960
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

862
00:42:10.119 --> 00:42:13.440
<v Speaker 4>So she's look when she looks, I'm up and her

863
00:42:13.440 --> 00:42:15.920
<v Speaker 4>house is down here, gotcha. So I can see down

864
00:42:16.679 --> 00:42:19.719
<v Speaker 4>onto her porch, she can see up to mine. So

865
00:42:19.719 --> 00:42:21.000
<v Speaker 4>I'm out there one day and you know how you

866
00:42:21.000 --> 00:42:24.199
<v Speaker 4>could just feel someone's eyes, right, I had my little

867
00:42:24.239 --> 00:42:27.440
<v Speaker 4>tripod and I'm just you know, basically being cute Sie

868
00:42:27.440 --> 00:42:29.880
<v Speaker 4>in the camera and I'm not like bouncing around and

869
00:42:29.920 --> 00:42:33.440
<v Speaker 4>doing anything weird. I felt eyes. So I look over

870
00:42:33.639 --> 00:42:37.880
<v Speaker 4>and she's, you know, she's definitely staring at me. And

871
00:42:37.920 --> 00:42:41.400
<v Speaker 4>so I thought, it's just your imagination, a holly. So

872
00:42:41.840 --> 00:42:44.119
<v Speaker 4>I did what I needed to do, and I'm like,

873
00:42:45.079 --> 00:42:47.519
<v Speaker 4>we'll see again. So but it's been several minutes and

874
00:42:47.559 --> 00:42:51.599
<v Speaker 4>I look and she's still staring at me, and I'm like, Okay,

875
00:42:51.639 --> 00:42:54.000
<v Speaker 4>don't think it's my imagination. I have like one more

876
00:42:54.039 --> 00:42:57.440
<v Speaker 4>real to do. So a couple minutes go by and

877
00:42:57.480 --> 00:43:00.079
<v Speaker 4>I look up again and she's still staring at me.

878
00:43:00.480 --> 00:43:03.199
<v Speaker 4>I think she was thinking, like, if I give her

879
00:43:03.239 --> 00:43:05.679
<v Speaker 4>the evil eye, she'll just she'll be uncomfortable and she'll

880
00:43:05.679 --> 00:43:09.719
<v Speaker 4>go inside. So I went inside because I'm done. Like

881
00:43:09.760 --> 00:43:12.079
<v Speaker 4>that was my purpose. I needed to make some cute reels.

882
00:43:12.119 --> 00:43:14.199
<v Speaker 4>Take a couple of pics on my deck. I'm going

883
00:43:14.239 --> 00:43:17.480
<v Speaker 4>back inside. So I did, and I'm in a bikini.

884
00:43:18.480 --> 00:43:22.719
<v Speaker 4>Take my bikini top off, and I'm in my I'm

885
00:43:22.760 --> 00:43:25.920
<v Speaker 4>in my dining room in my house. I take it

886
00:43:25.960 --> 00:43:29.960
<v Speaker 4>off and I set something down and I looked over

887
00:43:30.480 --> 00:43:34.320
<v Speaker 4>and she's still staring at me. And she's like she's

888
00:43:34.400 --> 00:43:37.920
<v Speaker 4>like this on her counter, and she's like, I mean

889
00:43:37.960 --> 00:43:39.800
<v Speaker 4>it's kind of hard to see because there's a glare.

890
00:43:40.239 --> 00:43:42.920
<v Speaker 4>I can definitely tell her she's staring at me. And

891
00:43:43.000 --> 00:43:45.440
<v Speaker 4>so of course I'm like, now I'm staring at you

892
00:43:45.559 --> 00:43:48.679
<v Speaker 4>because I'm thinking, wait, why are we staring right now?

893
00:43:48.800 --> 00:43:50.239
<v Speaker 3>Right? Is that? What UD thinking?

894
00:43:50.400 --> 00:43:50.559
<v Speaker 1>Right?

895
00:43:50.719 --> 00:43:52.159
<v Speaker 3>Why is this going up? What's going on?

896
00:43:53.440 --> 00:43:56.880
<v Speaker 4>Like yeah, yeah, And then she grabs her phone. Come

897
00:43:56.920 --> 00:44:00.960
<v Speaker 4>to find out, she called the neighbors to say that

898
00:44:01.159 --> 00:44:06.039
<v Speaker 4>I'm like to complain that I made eye contact over

899
00:44:06.039 --> 00:44:08.239
<v Speaker 4>the fence line at her, and that I went in

900
00:44:08.360 --> 00:44:11.559
<v Speaker 4>my house and took my top off for her, like

901
00:44:11.719 --> 00:44:14.199
<v Speaker 4>wanting her to watch me, that I like seductively took

902
00:44:14.199 --> 00:44:19.639
<v Speaker 4>it off, and that I'm basically like, right, yes, you're

903
00:44:19.800 --> 00:44:21.519
<v Speaker 4>the peeping tom.

904
00:44:22.000 --> 00:44:22.960
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so she I'm.

905
00:44:23.000 --> 00:44:25.800
<v Speaker 1>So sorry, officer, but I had my nose pressed against

906
00:44:25.840 --> 00:44:28.039
<v Speaker 1>her window in the middle of the night and then

907
00:44:28.199 --> 00:44:31.639
<v Speaker 1>she got undressed in front of me, and yeah, you know,

908
00:44:31.719 --> 00:44:33.559
<v Speaker 1>but she's the perpetrator.

909
00:44:33.840 --> 00:44:37.920
<v Speaker 4>Yes, yeah, you're the peeping tom. I know. And I

910
00:44:37.960 --> 00:44:39.800
<v Speaker 4>don't know who she's blown in the neighborhood that they

911
00:44:39.840 --> 00:44:42.599
<v Speaker 4>all like, oh, you know, like I thinks she's the

912
00:44:42.679 --> 00:44:45.320
<v Speaker 4>victim because she saw me naked.

913
00:44:46.440 --> 00:44:47.559
<v Speaker 3>You're looking at my window.

914
00:44:48.199 --> 00:44:50.519
<v Speaker 4>Yeah yeah, So she's talking crap to all the neighbors

915
00:44:50.559 --> 00:44:55.440
<v Speaker 4>about how like I'm this pervert and she called someone

916
00:44:55.480 --> 00:44:58.119
<v Speaker 4>called the age away m hm and made complaints that

917
00:44:58.159 --> 00:45:01.559
<v Speaker 4>I'm outside in my bikini and I mean, it doesn't

918
00:45:01.599 --> 00:45:02.039
<v Speaker 4>bother me.

919
00:45:02.239 --> 00:45:05.599
<v Speaker 3>It's just so did the age A call you? No,

920
00:45:05.760 --> 00:45:08.280
<v Speaker 3>they didn't, that would because we're I.

921
00:45:08.280 --> 00:45:10.400
<v Speaker 4>Know, isn't that crazy?

922
00:45:10.480 --> 00:45:11.039
<v Speaker 3>Like what do you think?

923
00:45:11.039 --> 00:45:13.199
<v Speaker 4>They're the morality police for the neighborhood, Like, what do

924
00:45:13.280 --> 00:45:14.159
<v Speaker 4>you think they're going to do?

925
00:45:14.880 --> 00:45:16.920
<v Speaker 3>Oh, no, she's in a bikini. So are you you

926
00:45:16.920 --> 00:45:20.599
<v Speaker 3>have a pool lunatic? Yeah? Yeah, so how is that?

927
00:45:20.920 --> 00:45:24.039
<v Speaker 4>We just like no one talks up no one. Yeah,

928
00:45:24.280 --> 00:45:26.320
<v Speaker 4>I'm just like, no one wants to talk to me.

929
00:45:26.920 --> 00:45:29.400
<v Speaker 4>I'll drive through the neighborhood or walk and people are like,

930
00:45:32.119 --> 00:45:35.119
<v Speaker 4>They're like so uncomfortable, it's so weird.

931
00:45:35.159 --> 00:45:36.719
<v Speaker 3>Like make you feel like you want to move.

932
00:45:36.960 --> 00:45:40.159
<v Speaker 4>I'll do whatever, Like I'm not uncomfortable and I have

933
00:45:40.559 --> 00:45:44.119
<v Speaker 4>zero shame, but I have to for the sake of

934
00:45:44.159 --> 00:45:46.239
<v Speaker 4>my kids. I have to go to our neighborhood pool

935
00:45:47.119 --> 00:45:52.400
<v Speaker 4>like at like seven am because my kids there will

936
00:45:52.400 --> 00:45:54.880
<v Speaker 4>be consequences for them if I cause a stir, So

937
00:45:54.920 --> 00:45:57.119
<v Speaker 4>I have to keep a low profile. And like, I

938
00:45:57.519 --> 00:45:59.760
<v Speaker 4>only want to move because I'm like, okay, I just

939
00:45:59.840 --> 00:46:01.599
<v Speaker 4>need my own pool so that I don't have to

940
00:46:01.599 --> 00:46:04.599
<v Speaker 4>get up at seven am to make reels. If i'd

941
00:46:04.599 --> 00:46:07.000
<v Speaker 4>sit noon or you know, whatever I want to do

942
00:46:07.039 --> 00:46:09.400
<v Speaker 4>at my pool, I can do. But I have to

943
00:46:09.440 --> 00:46:12.079
<v Speaker 4>just keep the low key profile because of the kids.

944
00:46:12.920 --> 00:46:15.679
<v Speaker 4>So because of that reason, yes, but not because I

945
00:46:15.800 --> 00:46:18.880
<v Speaker 4>like care what they think or I'm like what you're boring,

946
00:46:19.000 --> 00:46:20.599
<v Speaker 4>Like you don't have a life. You think I want

947
00:46:20.599 --> 00:46:23.039
<v Speaker 4>to hang out with you anyways, No, we have nothing

948
00:46:23.079 --> 00:46:23.599
<v Speaker 4>in common.

949
00:46:24.119 --> 00:46:28.639
<v Speaker 1>Has this affected you're like anything with your kids? Do

950
00:46:28.679 --> 00:46:33.400
<v Speaker 1>they have struggles at school or anything like that? Does anyone, Like.

951
00:46:33.360 --> 00:46:36.320
<v Speaker 4>You've just been a couple of uncomfortable, like tough conversations

952
00:46:36.400 --> 00:46:39.000
<v Speaker 4>like why do you have to do this? Mom? I'm like,

953
00:46:39.440 --> 00:46:42.320
<v Speaker 4>you like those shoes, lying's house, you like the vacation,

954
00:46:42.719 --> 00:46:43.440
<v Speaker 4>That's why?

955
00:46:43.639 --> 00:46:43.800
<v Speaker 2>Right?

956
00:46:43.880 --> 00:46:49.440
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, right, they could take it back, change things, but overall,

957
00:46:49.480 --> 00:46:52.880
<v Speaker 4>like they have all had trouble, like you know, like

958
00:46:52.880 --> 00:46:55.840
<v Speaker 4>like it hasn't caused them. They haven't had issues themselves

959
00:46:56.079 --> 00:47:00.079
<v Speaker 4>prior to moving. Yes, my older daughter was bullied. I

960
00:47:00.199 --> 00:47:04.599
<v Speaker 4>popped up on TikTok. I was live on TikTok and

961
00:47:04.639 --> 00:47:06.599
<v Speaker 4>one of her friends did see, and of course they

962
00:47:06.599 --> 00:47:09.280
<v Speaker 4>went to my Instagram and then it was.

963
00:47:09.719 --> 00:47:12.639
<v Speaker 3>All bad from there. They can't get on to OnlyFans,

964
00:47:12.639 --> 00:47:13.679
<v Speaker 3>but they can see the link.

965
00:47:13.719 --> 00:47:16.480
<v Speaker 4>They can see what I do, and so they did

966
00:47:16.480 --> 00:47:19.079
<v Speaker 4>give her a hard time and that was during middle

967
00:47:19.079 --> 00:47:23.320
<v Speaker 4>school and that was awful. Since moving, though, we really

968
00:47:23.360 --> 00:47:26.159
<v Speaker 4>haven't had those issues. But she knows about the neighbor

969
00:47:26.239 --> 00:47:29.079
<v Speaker 4>thing and I think there is one other kid in

970
00:47:29.119 --> 00:47:33.000
<v Speaker 4>the neighborhood. And he saw me with a tripod in

971
00:47:33.079 --> 00:47:35.519
<v Speaker 4>my front door and he put two and two together

972
00:47:35.639 --> 00:47:38.039
<v Speaker 4>and he didn't raz her about it. He just asked

973
00:47:38.079 --> 00:47:41.920
<v Speaker 4>about it. So thankfully that's been okay. Yeah, so it's

974
00:47:42.559 --> 00:47:44.519
<v Speaker 4>it's okay. But there have been a couple of conversations,

975
00:47:44.559 --> 00:47:46.599
<v Speaker 4>like I said, like, why do you have to do this, mom,

976
00:47:47.119 --> 00:47:49.360
<v Speaker 4>because you like money as much as I do.

977
00:47:49.679 --> 00:47:51.880
<v Speaker 1>What we have to do my daughter, I like it.

978
00:47:52.079 --> 00:47:56.079
<v Speaker 1>My daughter starts public school this year, and I'm like,

979
00:47:57.239 --> 00:47:59.760
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, I just it's funny because so you know,

980
00:48:00.079 --> 00:48:03.079
<v Speaker 1>with public school, they ask for all kinds of volunteer

981
00:48:03.280 --> 00:48:05.800
<v Speaker 1>help from the parents and stuff like that. And one

982
00:48:05.800 --> 00:48:10.639
<v Speaker 1>of the positions was a photographer, like class photographer, and

983
00:48:10.800 --> 00:48:13.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, I'm a photographer. I'm a very good photographer,

984
00:48:13.480 --> 00:48:16.159
<v Speaker 1>and I know a lot about photography and I you know,

985
00:48:17.880 --> 00:48:20.320
<v Speaker 1>And so my husband was like, oh, you should, you

986
00:48:20.360 --> 00:48:22.920
<v Speaker 1>should do that, like you because he was also like,

987
00:48:22.960 --> 00:48:24.679
<v Speaker 1>if you're not the photographer, all you're gonna do is

988
00:48:24.719 --> 00:48:27.480
<v Speaker 1>criticize whoever becomes the photographer.

989
00:48:26.840 --> 00:48:30.039
<v Speaker 3>Right, Like that's true. But then I was thinking about it.

990
00:48:30.079 --> 00:48:32.679
<v Speaker 1>I was like, the problem is is that at some

991
00:48:32.840 --> 00:48:35.760
<v Speaker 1>point someone's going to eventually find out what I do

992
00:48:36.440 --> 00:48:39.199
<v Speaker 1>and it's going to be weird, and a parent's going

993
00:48:39.280 --> 00:48:41.559
<v Speaker 1>to complain, and then a teacher is going to have

994
00:48:41.599 --> 00:48:44.400
<v Speaker 1>to come to me and be like, hey, sorry, we

995
00:48:44.519 --> 00:48:48.199
<v Speaker 1>found out that you shoot porn. We cannot allow you to,

996
00:48:49.239 --> 00:48:52.440
<v Speaker 1>you know, be the class photographer for like the preschool,

997
00:48:52.719 --> 00:48:55.239
<v Speaker 1>which is like insane amazing.

998
00:48:54.960 --> 00:48:56.599
<v Speaker 3>Saying like, what do you think I'm going to do?

999
00:48:56.760 --> 00:48:58.360
<v Speaker 3>Show them my work? Yeah?

1000
00:48:58.400 --> 00:49:00.360
<v Speaker 1>I mean it's like, first of all, it's it's all

1001
00:49:00.400 --> 00:49:03.440
<v Speaker 1>in a public space. It's at the school, yeah, right,

1002
00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:05.480
<v Speaker 1>Like And second of all, to think that I'm like

1003
00:49:05.519 --> 00:49:10.599
<v Speaker 1>some sexual deviant is is bananas? Yes, Like it's you know,

1004
00:49:10.840 --> 00:49:12.880
<v Speaker 1>I mean And if anything, I was saying about this

1005
00:49:12.880 --> 00:49:17.280
<v Speaker 1>the other day, if anybody understands consent and bodily autonomy,

1006
00:49:17.320 --> 00:49:17.639
<v Speaker 1>it's me.

1007
00:49:18.039 --> 00:49:20.119
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, you know, like people don't like the.

1008
00:49:20.079 --> 00:49:24.119
<v Speaker 1>Adult industry is we are very especially like you know,

1009
00:49:24.360 --> 00:49:28.119
<v Speaker 1>at the level that I work at, we're very concerned

1010
00:49:28.159 --> 00:49:32.639
<v Speaker 1>with consent and like, you know, autonomy, And I'm very like, yeah,

1011
00:49:32.719 --> 00:49:34.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm very aware of those things.

1012
00:49:34.320 --> 00:49:36.519
<v Speaker 3>And like the fucking children, like.

1013
00:49:36.639 --> 00:49:39.760
<v Speaker 4>Right, this is quiet exactly. It's if suddenly you don't

1014
00:49:39.760 --> 00:49:43.639
<v Speaker 4>have a brain, and like, like, you can't. Can't you know,

1015
00:49:43.719 --> 00:49:47.079
<v Speaker 4>be professional? Right, it's just because of what you do, right, Yeah.

1016
00:49:47.079 --> 00:49:49.079
<v Speaker 1>And it's just like, and it's sad because I knew

1017
00:49:49.119 --> 00:49:50.639
<v Speaker 1>I was going to come up against this at some

1018
00:49:50.719 --> 00:49:52.360
<v Speaker 1>point and it hasn't happened yet.

1019
00:49:52.360 --> 00:49:54.679
<v Speaker 3>This is the imaginary thing that's coming up in my head.

1020
00:49:54.719 --> 00:49:56.960
<v Speaker 1>But I'm just like, I know, if I put myself

1021
00:49:56.960 --> 00:50:00.599
<v Speaker 1>in that position, I feel like it's going to backfire

1022
00:50:00.679 --> 00:50:02.760
<v Speaker 1>on me and then it's going to be really hurtful.

1023
00:50:03.159 --> 00:50:03.760
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, you know.

1024
00:50:04.119 --> 00:50:06.559
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And I just like I don't want to put

1025
00:50:06.559 --> 00:50:09.599
<v Speaker 1>myself in that position. So yeah, I think I'm going

1026
00:50:09.639 --> 00:50:11.920
<v Speaker 1>to have to let somebody else take shitty photos of

1027
00:50:11.960 --> 00:50:12.480
<v Speaker 1>the kids and.

1028
00:50:12.440 --> 00:50:15.599
<v Speaker 3>I'll just have to judge from back here. Yeah, not

1029
00:50:15.679 --> 00:50:18.239
<v Speaker 3>where you put that light lady.

1030
00:50:17.480 --> 00:50:20.519
<v Speaker 4>Right, Yeah, you could just say you could just say

1031
00:50:20.559 --> 00:50:23.559
<v Speaker 4>to her. I mean two things, One you could you

1032
00:50:23.559 --> 00:50:25.800
<v Speaker 4>could take the chance, or two you could go to

1033
00:50:25.840 --> 00:50:28.239
<v Speaker 4>her and be like, hey, I couldn't. I was too

1034
00:50:28.280 --> 00:50:31.079
<v Speaker 4>busy to take this on, but hey, I I took

1035
00:50:31.119 --> 00:50:33.199
<v Speaker 4>some photography classes and I can give you some tips.

1036
00:50:34.719 --> 00:50:35.760
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

1037
00:50:35.920 --> 00:50:38.119
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but it's gonna be an interesting world to navigate.

1038
00:50:38.559 --> 00:50:40.440
<v Speaker 1>But I mean, you know, I do live in LA.

1039
00:50:40.639 --> 00:50:42.159
<v Speaker 1>People are a lot more open here.

1040
00:50:42.239 --> 00:50:44.000
<v Speaker 3>They are. It's very real different.

1041
00:50:44.280 --> 00:50:48.199
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I haven't really like faced too much vitriol for

1042
00:50:48.280 --> 00:50:52.599
<v Speaker 1>what I do. It just I've never I've never navigated

1043
00:50:52.599 --> 00:50:53.119
<v Speaker 1>this road.

1044
00:50:52.960 --> 00:50:53.480
<v Speaker 3>As a mom.

1045
00:50:53.719 --> 00:50:55.400
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, yeah, you know right.

1046
00:50:55.719 --> 00:50:58.360
<v Speaker 1>And it's like I grew up in this industry as

1047
00:50:58.400 --> 00:51:00.599
<v Speaker 1>the daughter of pornographers. I mean that's what my parents.

1048
00:51:00.639 --> 00:51:04.079
<v Speaker 1>There was no backlash, right, well, but the Internet didn't exist. Oh,

1049
00:51:04.159 --> 00:51:07.559
<v Speaker 1>you're right, you're right, people about you know. I mean

1050
00:51:07.599 --> 00:51:10.159
<v Speaker 1>if somebody, first of all, if you knew who Susan

1051
00:51:10.199 --> 00:51:13.559
<v Speaker 1>Randall was, then you were like a big fan of porn,

1052
00:51:13.679 --> 00:51:16.159
<v Speaker 1>like to know who the photographer was.

1053
00:51:16.159 --> 00:51:19.679
<v Speaker 3>You know then yeah, so that was like not common.

1054
00:51:20.440 --> 00:51:24.079
<v Speaker 1>But to recognize her like you know, at an event,

1055
00:51:24.280 --> 00:51:27.840
<v Speaker 1>like then you're like crazy super fan, Like that's so uncommon.

1056
00:51:27.880 --> 00:51:29.639
<v Speaker 1>But now you know, everybody's on the internet. I mean

1057
00:51:30.119 --> 00:51:32.559
<v Speaker 1>you found me because I pucked up on your instagra. Yeah,

1058
00:51:33.239 --> 00:51:35.559
<v Speaker 1>you know, and the way phones talk to each other.

1059
00:51:36.239 --> 00:51:38.559
<v Speaker 1>Who knows that I'm just going to be like next

1060
00:51:38.559 --> 00:51:42.320
<v Speaker 1>to a mom. And then just like it does recommend yeah,

1061
00:51:42.639 --> 00:51:43.559
<v Speaker 1>people that are near you.

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00:51:43.639 --> 00:51:44.119
<v Speaker 3>Yes, it does.

1063
00:51:44.159 --> 00:51:46.320
<v Speaker 4>When you first post something, it pushes out to those

1064
00:51:46.719 --> 00:51:50.920
<v Speaker 4>in your local area. It does well, then it goes further. Yeah,

1065
00:51:51.239 --> 00:51:53.119
<v Speaker 4>so yeah, your neighbors are seeing your stuff.

1066
00:51:53.239 --> 00:51:55.079
<v Speaker 3>You know, my neighbors are cool.

1067
00:51:55.159 --> 00:51:57.519
<v Speaker 1>Like the neighborhood that I live in is like this

1068
00:51:57.599 --> 00:52:00.360
<v Speaker 1>eclectic kind of like school art community full of a

1069
00:52:00.400 --> 00:52:03.599
<v Speaker 1>lot of people in the entertainment business. They are totally fine,

1070
00:52:03.599 --> 00:52:05.400
<v Speaker 1>they are awesome. I have no worries about that.

1071
00:52:05.480 --> 00:52:06.840
<v Speaker 3>It's just maybe those moms.

1072
00:52:06.920 --> 00:52:09.880
<v Speaker 1>It's the school environment that I'm concerned about. Yeah, maybe

1073
00:52:09.880 --> 00:52:12.639
<v Speaker 1>I'm just I don't know, maybe I'm just boring.

1074
00:52:12.760 --> 00:52:13.440
<v Speaker 4>We'll find out.

1075
00:52:13.639 --> 00:52:18.639
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, I'm normal. I know we're normal. I know

1076
00:52:18.800 --> 00:52:21.760
<v Speaker 3>talk about Dix a lot, but I won't do that at.

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00:52:21.639 --> 00:52:24.119
<v Speaker 4>School, right, I promise.

1078
00:52:27.639 --> 00:52:30.199
<v Speaker 1>What would you say to women, especially moms who feel

1079
00:52:30.239 --> 00:52:32.840
<v Speaker 1>conflicted about embracing their sexuality.

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00:52:32.639 --> 00:52:34.599
<v Speaker 4>Say, like, as far as like wanting to be in

1081
00:52:34.639 --> 00:52:38.119
<v Speaker 4>the industry, Like if someone is hesitant, I feel.

1082
00:52:38.000 --> 00:52:40.880
<v Speaker 1>Just like embracing your sexuality in general, just like being

1083
00:52:40.920 --> 00:52:43.480
<v Speaker 1>a sexual woman. You know, it doesn't necessarily have to

1084
00:52:43.519 --> 00:52:46.360
<v Speaker 1>mean that you're in the industry. Maybe just you know,

1085
00:52:47.159 --> 00:52:51.159
<v Speaker 1>deciding to like forage into like role play with your

1086
00:52:51.239 --> 00:52:53.639
<v Speaker 1>husband or maybe letting your husband take sexy pictures of you,

1087
00:52:53.719 --> 00:52:55.559
<v Speaker 1>or taking sexy pictures of yourself or your husband. It

1088
00:52:55.599 --> 00:52:57.719
<v Speaker 1>doesn't have to be anything public facing, but just like

1089
00:52:58.079 --> 00:53:00.559
<v Speaker 1>getting out of that place where you think like a

1090
00:53:00.599 --> 00:53:03.599
<v Speaker 1>woman always has to be pure and demure and you

1091
00:53:03.639 --> 00:53:07.440
<v Speaker 1>want to think that Apparently I don't know those people.

1092
00:53:08.519 --> 00:53:09.440
<v Speaker 3>I hear they're out there.

1093
00:53:09.800 --> 00:53:12.199
<v Speaker 4>I know, I hear they're out there. Yeah, I think

1094
00:53:12.199 --> 00:53:15.480
<v Speaker 4>it's good for your self esteem. I think that maybe

1095
00:53:15.559 --> 00:53:18.320
<v Speaker 4>uncomfortable at first, not for me, but for some Apparently

1096
00:53:18.760 --> 00:53:21.880
<v Speaker 4>it's uncomfortable to you know, to get in lingerie or

1097
00:53:21.920 --> 00:53:24.159
<v Speaker 4>to take sexy pictures, even if you're not going to

1098
00:53:24.239 --> 00:53:27.960
<v Speaker 4>post them, and that's not your intention. Yeah, it's it's

1099
00:53:28.000 --> 00:53:31.119
<v Speaker 4>something that will become comfortable and then you'll feel more

1100
00:53:31.119 --> 00:53:33.000
<v Speaker 4>comfortable in your own skin. And I think to be

1101
00:53:33.079 --> 00:53:36.519
<v Speaker 4>intimate you need to first and for that to go

1102
00:53:36.599 --> 00:53:39.760
<v Speaker 4>well right for you to enjoy yourself, you do need

1103
00:53:39.840 --> 00:53:42.480
<v Speaker 4>to feel comfortable with yourself. If you don't feel attractive,

1104
00:53:43.239 --> 00:53:46.519
<v Speaker 4>then you're not gonna have a good time. So I

1105
00:53:46.559 --> 00:53:49.400
<v Speaker 4>think that that can really help, you know, just kind

1106
00:53:49.400 --> 00:53:52.079
<v Speaker 4>of if there's something that a woman wants to do,

1107
00:53:52.159 --> 00:53:54.440
<v Speaker 4>like wants to start wearing lingerie or wants to start,

1108
00:53:54.559 --> 00:53:57.119
<v Speaker 4>you know, taking pictures, or having her husband take pictures,

1109
00:53:57.239 --> 00:54:00.639
<v Speaker 4>or you know, being more vocal in the bedroom, you know,

1110
00:54:00.719 --> 00:54:02.000
<v Speaker 4>like any of those things.

1111
00:54:02.239 --> 00:54:03.679
<v Speaker 3>But those are self esteem builders.

1112
00:54:03.880 --> 00:54:07.000
<v Speaker 4>So I think, you know, just go for it and

1113
00:54:07.039 --> 00:54:11.039
<v Speaker 4>then slowly you'll get more comfortable and then those boundaries

1114
00:54:11.039 --> 00:54:12.280
<v Speaker 4>will be pushed a little more.

1115
00:54:12.719 --> 00:54:14.920
<v Speaker 1>What advice would you give to moms who want to

1116
00:54:15.039 --> 00:54:18.519
<v Speaker 1>get into the industry but are maybe afraid of judgment

1117
00:54:18.760 --> 00:54:20.719
<v Speaker 1>or just feel like maybe they're too old or they're

1118
00:54:20.760 --> 00:54:21.599
<v Speaker 1>too late to the game.

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00:54:21.880 --> 00:54:24.360
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, well, you're definitely not too late, because I think

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00:54:24.400 --> 00:54:27.320
<v Speaker 4>I've said twice so far in this podcast that MILF

1121
00:54:27.480 --> 00:54:30.840
<v Speaker 4>is the number one searched That's that's the number one

1122
00:54:30.840 --> 00:54:31.639
<v Speaker 4>search is MILF.

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00:54:31.760 --> 00:54:32.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

1124
00:54:32.480 --> 00:54:36.960
<v Speaker 4>Guys like a mature, experienced woman that knows what she wants.

1125
00:54:37.079 --> 00:54:37.599
<v Speaker 3>They like it.

1126
00:54:37.599 --> 00:54:43.199
<v Speaker 4>It's attractive. Confidence is attractive. So it's not necessarily you know,

1127
00:54:44.559 --> 00:54:47.800
<v Speaker 4>twenty years old it's attractive anymore. It's it's the confidence

1128
00:54:47.920 --> 00:54:50.679
<v Speaker 4>knowing what you want and going out and doing it

1129
00:54:50.840 --> 00:54:52.199
<v Speaker 4>that guys like that.

1130
00:54:52.280 --> 00:54:52.880
<v Speaker 3>They love it.

1131
00:54:53.800 --> 00:54:56.119
<v Speaker 4>I think, you know, be ready to work hard, because,

1132
00:54:56.719 --> 00:55:00.199
<v Speaker 4>as I said, this is not easy. So it's like

1133
00:55:00.239 --> 00:55:03.679
<v Speaker 4>starting any other business, so you have to get your

1134
00:55:03.719 --> 00:55:06.320
<v Speaker 4>act together. But if you have your act together and

1135
00:55:06.920 --> 00:55:10.800
<v Speaker 4>you're willing to work hard and work smart and do

1136
00:55:10.880 --> 00:55:15.679
<v Speaker 4>your research and be comfortable putting yourself out there. I mean,

1137
00:55:15.719 --> 00:55:18.239
<v Speaker 4>the sky's the limit for your career, and there really

1138
00:55:18.360 --> 00:55:21.960
<v Speaker 4>isn't an age limit, So I say do it. And

1139
00:55:22.000 --> 00:55:23.800
<v Speaker 4>if you're worried about what people are going to think,

1140
00:55:24.039 --> 00:55:27.320
<v Speaker 4>you do have to weigh that out, you know, am I.

1141
00:55:27.679 --> 00:55:29.559
<v Speaker 4>You have to just be prepared and just know that

1142
00:55:29.599 --> 00:55:33.039
<v Speaker 4>at some point you're going to face that that backlash

1143
00:55:33.199 --> 00:55:35.599
<v Speaker 4>or family members could be upset with you and not

1144
00:55:35.599 --> 00:55:37.199
<v Speaker 4>want to talk to you. You have to be okay

1145
00:55:37.199 --> 00:55:41.000
<v Speaker 4>with that. I personally made the decision that if that happens,

1146
00:55:41.039 --> 00:55:44.440
<v Speaker 4>I'm good like you. If you're going to say that

1147
00:55:44.960 --> 00:55:48.000
<v Speaker 4>you know, for some reason you don't think I'm the

1148
00:55:48.000 --> 00:55:50.280
<v Speaker 4>same person anymore, just because I do this for a living,

1149
00:55:50.360 --> 00:55:52.239
<v Speaker 4>then I don't need to talk to you and we're okay.

1150
00:55:52.840 --> 00:55:58.320
<v Speaker 1>What would you tell your former freshly grieving self one thing,

1151
00:55:58.599 --> 00:56:00.239
<v Speaker 1>considering where you are to.

1152
00:56:00.840 --> 00:56:02.920
<v Speaker 4>I've never been asked that question. I never really thought

1153
00:56:02.920 --> 00:56:06.559
<v Speaker 4>about that my former grieving self. What would I tell myself?

1154
00:56:07.079 --> 00:56:08.360
<v Speaker 4>Maybe that I didn't believe.

1155
00:56:08.119 --> 00:56:09.559
<v Speaker 3>Then that I know now.

1156
00:56:11.039 --> 00:56:15.239
<v Speaker 4>That what I think my weaknesses are now are going

1157
00:56:15.320 --> 00:56:17.039
<v Speaker 4>to become superpowers later.

1158
00:56:18.280 --> 00:56:18.519
<v Speaker 1>And you.

1159
00:56:20.800 --> 00:56:23.920
<v Speaker 4>That time will reveal how that's going to work. So

1160
00:56:24.119 --> 00:56:28.360
<v Speaker 4>the things that are hard now and where my weaknesses are,

1161
00:56:28.400 --> 00:56:32.360
<v Speaker 4>that those that'll actually excel in those areas, and that

1162
00:56:32.440 --> 00:56:37.039
<v Speaker 4>I'll take where I'm weak and what I'm going through

1163
00:56:37.039 --> 00:56:39.960
<v Speaker 4>and the tragedies that I'm going through and somehow that

1164
00:56:40.119 --> 00:56:43.559
<v Speaker 4>will open up more doors for me and more opportunities

1165
00:56:44.039 --> 00:56:46.159
<v Speaker 4>and that really good things will happen. And I never

1166
00:56:46.239 --> 00:56:50.079
<v Speaker 4>believed that, Like for example, it actually opened up the

1167
00:56:50.079 --> 00:56:53.440
<v Speaker 4>doors for me to do this right. I never thought

1168
00:56:53.440 --> 00:56:56.079
<v Speaker 4>that I would fit into this industry or that I

1169
00:56:56.119 --> 00:56:59.400
<v Speaker 4>would have a window of opportunity to do it, and

1170
00:56:59.519 --> 00:57:03.880
<v Speaker 4>so I decided to which did help rebuild my self

1171
00:57:04.000 --> 00:57:07.400
<v Speaker 4>esteem and to show myself that, oh I'm capable of

1172
00:57:07.440 --> 00:57:10.119
<v Speaker 4>a lot of things on my own, and I can

1173
00:57:10.639 --> 00:57:13.159
<v Speaker 4>do anything I want to do, which gave me the

1174
00:57:13.199 --> 00:57:15.239
<v Speaker 4>confidence to write a book. I just wrote a book

1175
00:57:15.280 --> 00:57:19.159
<v Speaker 4>and I just recorded the audible about my experience with

1176
00:57:19.280 --> 00:57:23.199
<v Speaker 4>my husband. Okay, yeah, so I wrote a book for

1177
00:57:23.239 --> 00:57:27.599
<v Speaker 4>those going through a similar process. It's it is a memoir,

1178
00:57:27.639 --> 00:57:30.880
<v Speaker 4>but it's also like a self help book. So I

1179
00:57:31.079 --> 00:57:33.920
<v Speaker 4>just finished that and I never thought that I would

1180
00:57:33.960 --> 00:57:35.599
<v Speaker 4>be able to do that, or that I'd be in

1181
00:57:35.599 --> 00:57:36.559
<v Speaker 4>a good enough place.

1182
00:57:36.360 --> 00:57:38.360
<v Speaker 3>To do it. So do you have a title for

1183
00:57:38.400 --> 00:57:38.760
<v Speaker 3>it yet?

1184
00:57:40.039 --> 00:57:46.519
<v Speaker 4>I do, I haven't launched it yet. It's the hardest help.

1185
00:57:46.880 --> 00:57:48.880
<v Speaker 4>So helping a loved one through alcoholism.

1186
00:57:49.280 --> 00:57:53.880
<v Speaker 1>Oh wow, yeah, that's awesome. You know I'm seven years ober,

1187
00:57:54.280 --> 00:57:58.880
<v Speaker 1>are you okay? So I have trudged that road.

1188
00:57:59.119 --> 00:57:59.559
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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00:57:59.639 --> 00:58:03.320
<v Speaker 4>Well, And so my book is for this like the

1190
00:58:03.360 --> 00:58:06.079
<v Speaker 4>spouse or the family member because as you know, like

1191
00:58:06.599 --> 00:58:09.639
<v Speaker 4>they need to learn how to help you, but not

1192
00:58:09.679 --> 00:58:12.320
<v Speaker 4>in a controlling way, like it has to be a

1193
00:58:12.360 --> 00:58:14.880
<v Speaker 4>sub so for them to have the tools to support you.

1194
00:58:15.159 --> 00:58:17.719
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, right, No, I put my family through hell yeah,

1195
00:58:17.760 --> 00:58:20.639
<v Speaker 1>and my husband too. My husband and I actually met

1196
00:58:20.840 --> 00:58:23.280
<v Speaker 1>when I was because I had seven years and then

1197
00:58:23.280 --> 00:58:26.960
<v Speaker 1>I relapsed and I was took me like normal four years,

1198
00:58:27.039 --> 00:58:28.880
<v Speaker 1>yeah to get back, and I was struggling in my

1199
00:58:28.920 --> 00:58:31.280
<v Speaker 1>relapse trying to get sober again when I met my husband,

1200
00:58:32.639 --> 00:58:35.440
<v Speaker 1>And I don't know why he stayed with me, because

1201
00:58:35.480 --> 00:58:35.960
<v Speaker 1>I was not.

1202
00:58:36.119 --> 00:58:38.119
<v Speaker 3>The best version of myself at the time.

1203
00:58:38.199 --> 00:58:41.039
<v Speaker 1>But I don't know. He said that he saw something

1204
00:58:41.079 --> 00:58:42.679
<v Speaker 1>in me. He was like, this is the only thing

1205
00:58:42.719 --> 00:58:44.400
<v Speaker 1>that is wrong with you. And he's like, I know,

1206
00:58:44.480 --> 00:58:46.840
<v Speaker 1>you can overcome it, and he's like without you know,

1207
00:58:46.880 --> 00:58:49.960
<v Speaker 1>you're perfect otherwise, and he stuck with it.

1208
00:58:50.000 --> 00:58:52.639
<v Speaker 3>And I just celebrated seven years a week ago.

1209
00:58:52.679 --> 00:58:53.519
<v Speaker 4>Wow, that's awesome.

1210
00:58:53.679 --> 00:58:57.440
<v Speaker 3>Another seven years, so yeah, that's awesome. Yeah, so cool.

1211
00:58:57.480 --> 00:59:02.639
<v Speaker 3>You can get you can do it too, well, that's amazing.

1212
00:59:02.719 --> 00:59:04.719
<v Speaker 1>Do you know where people will be able to get

1213
00:59:04.760 --> 00:59:06.639
<v Speaker 1>the book or should they just follow you on social media?

1214
00:59:06.719 --> 00:59:07.679
<v Speaker 3>Pell me on social.

1215
00:59:07.400 --> 00:59:10.639
<v Speaker 4>Media because I'll definitely have updates. I haven't mentioned it

1216
00:59:10.679 --> 00:59:14.320
<v Speaker 4>at all on social media because it's you know, I

1217
00:59:14.320 --> 00:59:17.280
<v Speaker 4>spent a year preparing for this, and I just that's

1218
00:59:17.280 --> 00:59:19.920
<v Speaker 4>why I'm in LA. I was recording the audible. Okay,

1219
00:59:19.960 --> 00:59:22.360
<v Speaker 4>I just finished that, and so it's out in September,

1220
00:59:22.480 --> 00:59:25.480
<v Speaker 4>and so when I have the website up, which I'll

1221
00:59:25.480 --> 00:59:28.400
<v Speaker 4>have about a week of the website up and then

1222
00:59:28.400 --> 00:59:31.199
<v Speaker 4>we'll do pre orders and I'll have that available. It

1223
00:59:31.199 --> 00:59:33.800
<v Speaker 4>comes out in September to mid September.

1224
00:59:33.800 --> 00:59:34.519
<v Speaker 3>It'll come out.

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00:59:34.559 --> 00:59:37.599
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, well, by the time this episode actually comes out,

1226
00:59:37.800 --> 00:59:41.760
<v Speaker 1>like on all the platforms, it'll be more than a

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00:59:41.760 --> 00:59:42.199
<v Speaker 1>week from now.

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00:59:42.280 --> 00:59:44.400
<v Speaker 3>So it sounds like your website will probably probably.

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00:59:44.480 --> 00:59:47.159
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, the hardest help dot Com and and can just

1230
00:59:47.159 --> 00:59:49.920
<v Speaker 4>follow me on Instagram because I'll have updates on there.

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00:59:50.159 --> 00:59:53.119
<v Speaker 3>Fantastic. Well, Holly, thank you so much for joining us.

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00:59:54.119 --> 00:59:56.599
<v Speaker 1>Oh, I do have one Patreon question for you that

1233
00:59:56.679 --> 00:59:58.159
<v Speaker 1>I don't I don't want to skip over.

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00:59:58.719 --> 01:00:01.360
<v Speaker 3>We'll just include it as a bon and this segment.

1235
01:00:01.440 --> 01:00:03.800
<v Speaker 1>Normally I do a separate segment for Patreon questions, but

1236
01:00:04.360 --> 01:00:06.199
<v Speaker 1>lucky you guys, you're going to get this one for free.

1237
01:00:06.199 --> 01:00:08.519
<v Speaker 1>And if you're a Patreon member, you can send in

1238
01:00:08.599 --> 01:00:11.559
<v Speaker 1>questions for my guests as well. So this one is

1239
01:00:11.559 --> 01:00:15.199
<v Speaker 1>from Strawberry Mew okay, and he asks, how is your

1240
01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:19.440
<v Speaker 1>understanding and approach to identity and authenticity evolved over the

1241
01:00:19.480 --> 01:00:20.480
<v Speaker 1>last two years.

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01:00:21.159 --> 01:00:24.119
<v Speaker 4>I always from the date from day one, because you know,

1243
01:00:25.360 --> 01:00:29.760
<v Speaker 4>entering into this business, I did follow some other creators

1244
01:00:29.760 --> 01:00:32.800
<v Speaker 4>and models and I noticed, okay, some have like a

1245
01:00:32.880 --> 01:00:36.559
<v Speaker 4>character or you know, they're like in this niche, this

1246
01:00:36.679 --> 01:00:39.760
<v Speaker 4>is my niche. And I thought, you know, I'm just

1247
01:00:39.800 --> 01:00:41.440
<v Speaker 4>coming in as Holly and we're going to have a

1248
01:00:41.440 --> 01:00:41.880
<v Speaker 4>good time.

1249
01:00:42.119 --> 01:00:42.320
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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01:00:43.199 --> 01:00:46.280
<v Speaker 4>So I yeah, I never did that. I just came

1251
01:00:46.320 --> 01:00:50.440
<v Speaker 4>in as myself, like if I in the morning, just

1252
01:00:50.639 --> 01:00:53.840
<v Speaker 4>wake up and my hair's a mess. But you know,

1253
01:00:54.079 --> 01:00:56.679
<v Speaker 4>I'm nude, and I think, well, they won't care. I

1254
01:00:56.719 --> 01:00:58.719
<v Speaker 4>snap a pick and I post it. You know, I've

1255
01:01:00.239 --> 01:01:02.800
<v Speaker 4>I really from day one decided that they're going to

1256
01:01:02.920 --> 01:01:05.679
<v Speaker 4>kind of see everything, and that's how I want it

1257
01:01:05.719 --> 01:01:07.519
<v Speaker 4>to be. So I kind of want it to be

1258
01:01:07.639 --> 01:01:09.880
<v Speaker 4>sort of like blog like, hey, I just woke up

1259
01:01:09.880 --> 01:01:10.719
<v Speaker 4>and my hair's crazy.

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01:01:10.760 --> 01:01:11.360
<v Speaker 3>Good morning.

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01:01:11.719 --> 01:01:15.440
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and then you know, midday, I'm more done up,

1262
01:01:15.519 --> 01:01:17.760
<v Speaker 4>and this is what I'm wearing, and these are the

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<v Speaker 4>reels I'm making. This is what I'm doing, and so

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<v Speaker 4>I look cuter and you know, and then before bed

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<v Speaker 4>it look kind of crazy again, but here it is.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>So I've just from day one, I made that decision

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<v Speaker 4>that they're coming here to see me, and they're real me.

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<v Speaker 3>So here you go.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so you really like take people through your whole

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<v Speaker 1>day on only fans, and it's like it's almost like

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<v Speaker 1>a journal, like a vog Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, absolutely, yeah, And I'll post. I'll just and it

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<v Speaker 4>doesn't matter what I look like. I'll take a little

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<v Speaker 4>video and say, you know, well maybe in the morning

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<v Speaker 4>and say, well, this is what I'm doing today. I

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<v Speaker 4>hope you're having to just talk to the camera like

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<v Speaker 4>you know, they're standing here in front of me. That's

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<v Speaker 4>what I'm doing today, and this is the plan. And

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<v Speaker 4>I hope you're having a good day. Message me, and

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<v Speaker 4>I'm still answering messages even though I'm doing blah blah blah.

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<v Speaker 3>Right, and then I'll just fucking away. I'm getting on

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<v Speaker 3>a video first thing in the morning without a filter, like.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and then you know, later in the day, maybe I'm,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, at the pool and I'll you know, snap

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<v Speaker 4>a selfie and I'm at the pool and it's just yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>exactly what you said, like like a blog.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I cannot get myself into like that habit. Like

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<v Speaker 1>I know that that's like the thing that people want

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<v Speaker 1>to see and that's what gets you. But you gotta

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<v Speaker 1>know you got it, Like and I'm just like I

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<v Speaker 1>cannot get myself into that mindset.

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<v Speaker 3>I just I don't know, I just can't.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I'm just like it's I think it's just like

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<v Speaker 1>a you just have to get yourself in that headspace

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<v Speaker 1>or I need to like hire someone to follow me just.

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<v Speaker 3>Take pictures of me, because I just like I won't

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<v Speaker 3>do it.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I think, you know, in the beginning, it was like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 4>I have to schedule this and then eventually it just

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<v Speaker 4>sort of becomes the habit.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I should probably also try not to have like

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<v Speaker 1>six other.

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<v Speaker 3>Jobs, right, Yeah, you're like a little too much. That

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<v Speaker 3>also makes it difficult. Yes, you have a lot on

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<v Speaker 3>your plate.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, anyways, and this podcast is one of them. Thank

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<v Speaker 1>you guys so much for watching it. So, Holly, can

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<v Speaker 1>you let everybody know where they can find you online?

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<v Speaker 3>Please? Yes?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, let's see, I'll rattle off two of my instruments.

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<v Speaker 3>Instagram.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, it's the real Holly j So, the real Holly.

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<v Speaker 3>With a J.

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<v Speaker 4>That's one of my main accounts. Holly dot Jane dot

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<v Speaker 4>Johnston is one of my accounts, and the other one

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<v Speaker 4>is is it Holly Holly dot Jane Underscore XO or

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<v Speaker 4>Holly dot Johnston Underscore XO.

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<v Speaker 3>One of those? And then what about your only fans?

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<v Speaker 1>It's your direct only fans length if they just want

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<v Speaker 1>to go straight there.

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<v Speaker 4>My handle on OnlyFans is blush When I say this,

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<v Speaker 4>Holly Jane loves six' Nine Oh, spicy and My twitter

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<v Speaker 4>Is Holly jane four sixt'.

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<v Speaker 3>Nine SO i GUESS i don't need to ask you

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<v Speaker 3>what your favorite position.

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<v Speaker 4>Is thank you one of them at least for the.

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<v Speaker 1>Play and you guys can find me On instagram At Holly.

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<v Speaker 1>RANDALL i also started a Modeling. Instagram AS i was

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<v Speaker 1>Telling holly earlier That i'm bad at, updating it's, Exo holly,

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<v Speaker 1>snaps it's just so work on That i'm gonna give

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<v Speaker 1>it to.

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<v Speaker 3>Her she's gonna do it.

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<v Speaker 1>Otherwise i'm On twitter At Holly, randall and of course

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<v Speaker 1>you can go to hollylinks to get access to all

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<v Speaker 1>of my, Platforms, patreon dot, Com, Slash Holly, randall and.

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<v Speaker 1>Filtered to support this, podcast watch these interviews streamed, live

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<v Speaker 1>and thank you guys so much for being. Here thank

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<v Speaker 1>you for your, support AND i will see you you

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<v Speaker 1>on the next.

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<v Speaker 3>One mm

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<v Speaker 2>Hmm
