Speaker 1: Hi everyone, and welcome back to their podcast episode. My
Speaker 1: name is Lisha Gogin, the host of the Globe Secrets podcast,
Speaker 1: where I help you expand your mind and become more
Speaker 1: self awares that you can glow up into the best
Speaker 1: version of yourself. Hello, how are we doing? I hope
Speaker 1: everyone is doing great. Whenever you listen to this episode,
Speaker 1: I think this is going to be an episode that
Speaker 1: I just post randomly. That is mainly because I didn't
Speaker 1: even plan this video. This morning, I was having a
Speaker 1: nice little journal session and I thought, you know what,
Speaker 1: this would be great to bring to the podcast. So
Speaker 1: I want to just share a little reminder and a message.
Speaker 1: When it comes to trusting the universe or trusting God,
Speaker 1: I use those two interchangeably. I like to try and
Speaker 1: be inclusive. Not everyone necessarily belasing God. Some people are
Speaker 1: spiritual religious. That's just what I'm going to use. And
Speaker 1: today I'll probably speak in the form of God aka Him.
Speaker 1: But there has always been so many times in my
Speaker 1: life where I have had to really put trust in
Speaker 1: the unknown. My life was looking a mess, or if
Speaker 1: there was just things that I wanted that I did
Speaker 1: not have yet, and I had to go through this
Speaker 1: uncomfortable feeling of waiting, of wondering if it's going to happen,
Speaker 1: of trusting and believing in something that I don't even see,
Speaker 1: or if I do see something, it is a mess.
Speaker 1: It is exactly the opposite of what I want. And
Speaker 1: I always like to think about mountains. And it's so
Speaker 1: funny because I brought this example to you guys this
Speaker 1: time last year, and it's just interesting to see how
Speaker 1: we are making a full circle moment when it comes
Speaker 1: to this cycle of really diving more into the spiritual
Speaker 1: side of things, especially on the podcast. But there was
Speaker 1: an episode I was probably talking about letting go and
Speaker 1: detaching and things of that nature, and I was talking
Speaker 1: about how you know, when you put out your desires
Speaker 1: into the universe, or you ask God for things, or
Speaker 1: you just you're you're waiting for things to change, you
Speaker 1: really have to understand that God is moving mountains for you.
Speaker 1: He is moving mountains for you, but you are forgetting
Speaker 1: that not only does it take a little bit of
Speaker 1: time to move a mountain, but sometimes you're gonna see
Speaker 1: a little bit of mess when you, let's say, ask
Speaker 1: God to move the mountain that's over here, which is
Speaker 1: the life that you currently have, or the distress that
Speaker 1: you're in, or the thing that you want to get
Speaker 1: rid of. Right, God, please move this mountain. It is
Speaker 1: I'm distressed over here. I can't be in this location.
Speaker 1: It's just I'm attracting too many negative things whatever. I'm
Speaker 1: not good over here. Can you please move me from
Speaker 1: A to B or my life from A to be
Speaker 1: or the situation at hand from A to B. God says, Okay, yes,
Speaker 1: why because you are a child of Me or the universe. Yes,
Speaker 1: you create your own reality. Yes, your desires will become,
Speaker 1: you can manifest you. You are a co creator. Okay,
Speaker 1: So yes, as soon as you put that desire out
Speaker 1: you say that this is what you want. Yes. And
Speaker 1: as soon as you put those desires out and you're
Speaker 1: asking for more and you're praying for more, God will
Speaker 1: start to move that mountain. And what God really just
Speaker 1: requires of us is to go back and wait and
Speaker 1: be patient and know that it's coming. I'm moving and
Speaker 1: I'm moving and I'm moving it. And so what we
Speaker 1: do is we get uncomfortable with the waiting period. We
Speaker 1: won't even trust because maybe our connection with God or
Speaker 1: the universe is not that strong. Which is understandable. You know,
Speaker 1: everyone has their connection with the things that you can't
Speaker 1: actually see, and some people don't at all. But I
Speaker 1: think that it is definitely helpful to strengthen that connection.
Speaker 1: But regardless, we are waiting. You know, there's things that
Speaker 1: sometimes don't happen in a snap of a finger, and
Speaker 1: we basically have to wait in the reality that was
Speaker 1: manifested from the previous version of ourselves or what we
Speaker 1: have asked for, or even if we did not ask
Speaker 1: for right like we sometimes we're just handed certain cards
Speaker 1: and it's just not exactly the way that we want.
Speaker 1: But it's really going to be up to us to
Speaker 1: focus in and ask and pray and manifest a new
Speaker 1: version of our lives. But right now, maybe it's not
Speaker 1: exactly the way we want, so we basically have to
Speaker 1: come back to that life and we kind of have
Speaker 1: to be patient and trust the process. But what we do,
Speaker 1: like I said, is sometimes we don't trust because maybe
Speaker 1: we don't have that relationship. But it can be very
Speaker 1: distressing here the in between, the unknown, the silence. Okay,
Speaker 1: we are trained to not even be okay with not
Speaker 1: having a lot or not having every single thing handed
Speaker 1: to us right at this moment, or we see everyone
Speaker 1: else get all the things right, or everyone else is happy,
Speaker 1: everyone else has love, everyone else has abundance, and where's mine?
Speaker 1: And this is not fair? And it could be not fair,
Speaker 1: right the deck of cards that we got handed, maybe
Speaker 1: it's not completely fair. So there's a lot of things
Speaker 1: that get in our minds, and a lot of the
Speaker 1: times our minds are also programmed to constantly look for
Speaker 1: problems and fear because we've come from a long line
Speaker 1: of trauma, a long line of looking at everything as
Speaker 1: a threat because maybe it has been so it's understandable.
Speaker 1: That's been my life. I'm constantly looking, Hey, what's the
Speaker 1: next problem, what's the next thing? If I don't have it,
Speaker 1: then oh my gosh, And that means this is the
Speaker 1: worst thing ever and I'm not safe. I'm not safe.
Speaker 1: I'm not safe. So our mind is doing that well.
Speaker 1: Over here, God is trying to be like, hello, I'm
Speaker 1: moving the mountain. You don't need to worry, you don't
Speaker 1: need to be afraid. It is happening, is happening. And
Speaker 1: then every three seconds we're looking, hey, God, did you
Speaker 1: move the mountain yet? Did you move the mountain? Yet universe.
Speaker 1: Where is my things? Where's my manifestations? And where the
Speaker 1: big test comes in is that when you think about
Speaker 1: God moving a mountain or you actually I'm bringing in
Speaker 1: something material into your life from the spiritual realm. There's
Speaker 1: a process of creation. Okay, so there's a process of
Speaker 1: moving that mountain from A to B, which means if
Speaker 1: you're moving that mountain, there might be some rocks that
Speaker 1: are falling, there might be some things that don't make sense.
Speaker 1: It doesn't make sense. How is he going to move
Speaker 1: it from A to B? It doesn't make sense. Idologically
Speaker 1: can't understand it. Or when it comes to manifesting, well,
Speaker 1: how am I going to get the money or where
Speaker 1: is it going to come from? Or how is this?
Speaker 1: How am I going to be out of distress? I
Speaker 1: just can't see a way out. I can't see a
Speaker 1: way out. It is not your concern of how it
Speaker 1: is going to be. So it is not your concern
Speaker 1: to see how God is going to make it possible
Speaker 1: to move that mountain from A to B. And this
Speaker 1: is the thing. We have a very limited way of
Speaker 1: being able to even see all that is possible for us.
Speaker 1: And I think that this sometimes is why. It is
Speaker 1: good at least for me. And it's helpful to believe
Speaker 1: in something that's bigger than me, like a higher power, universe, God,
Speaker 1: because there's just things I can't understand. There are things
Speaker 1: that I don't even know how. I don't know how
Speaker 1: to move this mountain from A to B, but I
Speaker 1: know I need it to be moved. I know that
Speaker 1: things need to change. I know that I need more money.
Speaker 1: I know that I need all of these reasources D
Speaker 1: da DA, but I don't know how. And that's okay.
Speaker 1: You don't need to know how. This is just your ego,
Speaker 1: it's just your fear being. Like I need to know
Speaker 1: the answer. I have to be the one to be
Speaker 1: able to move that mountain from A to B. I
Speaker 1: have to be the one to materialize that thing. No,
Speaker 1: you don't, you don't. All you have to do is
Speaker 1: release control and trust that is happening. And see when
Speaker 1: you see that mess, when you see things are moving
Speaker 1: but they're not moving in the right direction. Okay, I
Speaker 1: ask God to bring me your love and abundance, and
Speaker 1: I'm getting the opposite. I'm literally getting the opposite. Understand,
Speaker 1: it's a test. And what I mean by a test
Speaker 1: is it's a test to see are you gonna respond
Speaker 1: the same way and then create more of that same
Speaker 1: thing in your life or are you gonna understand that
Speaker 1: it is taking as much time as it's taking. And
Speaker 1: quite frankly, if you want to bring in that love
Speaker 1: and abundance is gonna require new version of you, which
Speaker 1: means you need to respond differently to the things that
Speaker 1: are currently happening in your life. Can you see it
Speaker 1: like that? Because when you see it like that, you understand, Okay,
Speaker 1: you know what. It's messy here. But I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: mess with the middle. I'm gonna observe the mess. I'm
Speaker 1: gonna observe the tests. I'm gonna see how these people, places,
Speaker 1: and things keep coming to me and it's a half
Speaker 1: ast version of what I want. And I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: get super triggered. I'm not gonna go back into my
Speaker 1: fear based thing and say I'm not getting what I want. See,
Speaker 1: God isn't listening to me, the universe is not I'm
Speaker 1: not manifesting, it's not working out. I'm gonna see it
Speaker 1: for what it is, and you know, sometimes it's a mess.
Speaker 1: Sometimes things need to change. People need to move over here, this, that,
Speaker 1: and the third in order for things to work out
Speaker 1: the way that we want. Let's not get tied up
Speaker 1: in it. Let's not use all of our life force
Speaker 1: energy and pour into this mess that we don't even
Speaker 1: want anyways, Why are we putting so much focus on
Speaker 1: the thing we don't want. Let's put focus on what
Speaker 1: is actually important, which is the belief that God or
Speaker 1: the universe is moving those mountains and having trust in that,
Speaker 1: and what can we do in the meantime. Well, for me,
Speaker 1: it's about clearing the clutter. It's about clearing the fear
Speaker 1: based thoughts. I've been talking a lot on the podcast
Speaker 1: about how your fear speaks loud in first, but it's
Speaker 1: not the truth of who you are. These limiting beliefs,
Speaker 1: the self doubt, the doubting in God, doubting in the universe,
Speaker 1: and doubting that your life could be anything more than
Speaker 1: it is right now. It's lies. It's lies that have
Speaker 1: been taught to you. It's lies that keep you small,
Speaker 1: even though you have convinced yourself that these lies will
Speaker 1: actually keep you safe. If I just tell myself that
Speaker 1: I can actually control the situation, if I tell myself
Speaker 1: that I know the answer and I can project that
Speaker 1: this is not going to work out, then I'll keep
Speaker 1: safe and then I don't have to deal with the disappointment.
Speaker 1: Round don't have to deal with the rejection or this that. No,
Speaker 1: that's just keeping you small. Okay, you are resilient. You
Speaker 1: can deal with the disappointment sometimes, because really what that
Speaker 1: is is it's redirection. When things don't work out the
Speaker 1: way that you had hoped. Okay, well, you know what,
Speaker 1: maybe there's a different way. Maybe there's a better way
Speaker 1: that I haven't thought about yet, that's easier and it's
Speaker 1: more abundant. You just don't know, but you're telling yourself, well,
Speaker 1: it has to be this way, and you're doing that
Speaker 1: to control situations, to try and keep yourself safe. But
Speaker 1: it's truly a false sense of safety. And you know
Speaker 1: that even trying to control your life all your life,
Speaker 1: I'm sure coming back to myself, I've had to There's
Speaker 1: so many instances in my life where I have had
Speaker 1: to predict. I've had to try and control. And it's
Speaker 1: not to say that we have to rid that part
Speaker 1: of us to try and control certain things. We need
Speaker 1: to navigate this material world right here. We can't just
Speaker 1: like be esoteric, We can't just like always be in
Speaker 1: this spiritual realm, but we do way more than we need.
Speaker 1: We need to release that control, We need to believe
Speaker 1: and trust in. How you do that is you clear
Speaker 1: your mind and you understand that a lot of your
Speaker 1: fear based thoughts, a lot of your micromanaging, is just
Speaker 1: coming from this sense of I think that I can
Speaker 1: control the situation, but really you don't actually need to
Speaker 1: give it to God, give it to the universe, allow
Speaker 1: it to work out better than you even thought. Wouldn't
Speaker 1: it be amazing if you actually did not need to
Speaker 1: assume that you know everything and put all of these
Speaker 1: responsibilities on you. Wouldn't it be nice to wake up
Speaker 1: and know that everything is working out in the background
Speaker 1: and right now today if you don't have the things
Speaker 1: that you want, or if you're a little bit distressed,
Speaker 1: instead of trying to stress yourself out more and trying
Speaker 1: to figure out how to fix a problem that is
Speaker 1: not fixable by you, how about trying to operate more
Speaker 1: out of love, more out of clarity. How can you
Speaker 1: start operating more out of flow, out of an intuitive hit,
Speaker 1: out of a sense of knowing versus waking up and
Speaker 1: telling yourself how you should move through the day. And
Speaker 1: the only way that you're really going to be able
Speaker 1: to connect with that part of you is if you
Speaker 1: clear your mind, is if you wake up in the
Speaker 1: morning and you don't bombard yourself and with all of
Speaker 1: these to do's and all these things that you need
Speaker 1: to do or what you think you need to do,
Speaker 1: or not trusting, have a connection, have a practice with
Speaker 1: God or the universe. Right, be silent for a second,
Speaker 1: allow yourself to breathe, and I promise you things will come.
Speaker 1: The word of God or the sense of knowing, or
Speaker 1: this idea, this one idea that might come to you
Speaker 1: that might have never even come to you if you're
Speaker 1: constantly just bombarding your mind. It will come to you,
Speaker 1: and it might just be that thing that you need
Speaker 1: to act on, which will then connect you to that
Speaker 1: manifestation that the universe has been working on, or that
Speaker 1: God has been trying to get you to see, or
Speaker 1: that person that you need to connect with in order
Speaker 1: to meet the love of your life. When you start
Speaker 1: acting out of a place of love for yourself and others,
Speaker 1: out of what would somebody who loves themselves do. What
Speaker 1: would somebody who trusts in the universe and trusts in God,
Speaker 1: what would they do today? How would they go through
Speaker 1: their day? How would they speak to themselves and how
Speaker 1: would they speak to others? What practices would they do?
Speaker 1: Would they constantly be ruminating? Would they constantly be searching
Speaker 1: and checking and wondering and obsessing and ruminating, or would
Speaker 1: they be regulating their nervous system? Would they be having
Speaker 1: a journal practice? Would they stop bombarding themselves with constant information.
Speaker 1: You don't need any more information, You don't need any
Speaker 1: more seeking, You don't even need any more fixing. What
Speaker 1: would the highest version of you do? And for me,
Speaker 1: the highest version of me that is made in the
Speaker 1: eyes of God knows her worth, knows that she's worthy
Speaker 1: of abundance and love and prosperity and a life that
Speaker 1: is not filled with depression and anxiety. But it's gonna
Speaker 1: be up to me to take off those glasses where
Speaker 1: I'm constantly believing and thinking that I don't deserve it,
Speaker 1: that I don't get it and everyone else does. And
Speaker 1: those are pleaefs from childhood. But I have to remember
Speaker 1: when I have those self doubts, when I believe. Oh,
Speaker 1: I don't know if I can have it. So I'm
Speaker 1: gonna start obsessing over this thing, and I'm gonna have
Speaker 1: to work really hard, and I'm gonna have to just
Speaker 1: prove my value constantly. And if I just do this
Speaker 1: one thing, if I just do this one thing correctly,
Speaker 1: then that's going to be the thing that No, you've
Speaker 1: done enough, you're good enough, you're worthy enough. But you
Speaker 1: have to remind yourself of that. And the more times
Speaker 1: you start operating from that place, you will see things
Speaker 1: open up. You will see and be able to trust
Speaker 1: that you know what this mess here, it's all going away.
Speaker 1: It's gonna be removed. I don't have to remove it.
Speaker 1: God has it for me. And on top of that,
Speaker 1: that mountain is being moved. And I found this just quote.
Speaker 1: You guys know, I love a good Pinterest quote, and
Speaker 1: it says, your faith can move mountains and your doubt
Speaker 1: can create them. Watch where your focus is. And it's
Speaker 1: very true. When you have faith in something, when you
Speaker 1: believe it's gonna happen, when you know, even if you
Speaker 1: don't see it yet, you will start to create Your thoughts,
Speaker 1: your beliefs, they create. And the way I like to
Speaker 1: look at it. It is very simple. When you think better thoughts,
Speaker 1: when you believe and you trust, you stop getting tied
Speaker 1: up in the mess. You get up and you become
Speaker 1: the best version of yourself, and you act like the
Speaker 1: best version of yourself, and you keep going despite the
Speaker 1: trials and tribulations of life. And if you do the
Speaker 1: things that you need to do, you release your emotions
Speaker 1: and you show up for yourself, and you do the
Speaker 1: inner child healing, and you do the things that you
Speaker 1: need to do. You don't give up. You know it's coming,
Speaker 1: and you be patient. You get comfortable with the in between.
Speaker 1: Not every single thing is gonna be this dopamine kick.
Speaker 1: It's going to be perfect, it's gonna be whatever. But
Speaker 1: you don't lose sights versus if you focus on the mess,
Speaker 1: you keep doubting yourself, you're gonna wake up and you're
Speaker 1: not gonna try. You're not gonna put yourself out there.
Speaker 1: Why why would you? You're constantly focused on the thing
Speaker 1: you don't want. Well, if you keep doing that, you're
Speaker 1: not gonna manifest. You're not gonna create because, in my opinion, God,
Speaker 1: the universe it needs you to co create, It needs
Speaker 1: you to believe in something. It needs you to get
Speaker 1: up out of your bread and believe that you are
Speaker 1: worthy enough to go for your dreams, to go out
Speaker 1: in life and to communicate and connect with people and
Speaker 1: see things differently. It requires you to try, It requires
Speaker 1: you to fail, It requires you to trust. And again,
Speaker 1: the more times you operate from that place, that is
Speaker 1: where you start to create a new reality. Because you
Speaker 1: are coming in contact with new people, places, and things.
Speaker 1: You are opening doors for more abundance to come in
Speaker 1: and more light and more love. That's just what happens.
Speaker 1: But you can't do that if you're constantly focusing on
Speaker 1: the things that are distressing you and staying small. And
Speaker 1: it's understandable that you would focus on the things that
Speaker 1: distress you because you are convinced that if you just
Speaker 1: focus on it, you will be able to change it.
Speaker 1: But that's not fully true. Okay, It's not to live
Speaker 1: in delusion and pretend like things aren't happening in your
Speaker 1: reality that need to be tended to. But the way
Speaker 1: we tend to tend to them is obsession, is rumination,
Speaker 1: is thinking that you can even do it all yourself.
Speaker 1: You need help, you need faith, You need to remove
Speaker 1: your attention from those things sometimes. And this is huge
Speaker 1: for me, and it's hard, but I've been somebody who's
Speaker 1: just constantly just thought about and obsessed about a thing
Speaker 1: that I literally can't change. I can't change it, and
Speaker 1: the only thing that thing needs me to do is
Speaker 1: to actually just remove my attention for a second, because
Speaker 1: I'm actually making myself sick at this point. There's pain
Speaker 1: over here and now they're suffering, and I'm creating more
Speaker 1: suffering than I need in my own life and within
Speaker 1: my own body, and it's not needed. So I need
Speaker 1: to be strong, and I need to show up as
Speaker 1: much as I possibly can, and I do not need
Speaker 1: to be perfect, and I need to have faith in
Speaker 1: something that's bigger than myself. And I think for the
Speaker 1: most part, when you start to have more of a
Speaker 1: practice of connecting with God, connecting with the universe, releasing
Speaker 1: control and surrendering, you will find this is actually your
Speaker 1: natural state. Our natural states are to surrender. Our natural
Speaker 1: states are to move and flow and to act out
Speaker 1: of love and to go in the direction of what
Speaker 1: feels good. So if we can start moving more a
Speaker 1: little bit day by day in that direction, we will
Speaker 1: start to feel more sense of safety in that versus
Speaker 1: safety in this control that we think that we have
Speaker 1: over everything when we don't, and it feels so much
Speaker 1: better to give it to God. It feels so much
Speaker 1: better to not know the answer. And why that is
Speaker 1: is because you start to see how you do have
Speaker 1: a limited perspective on how life could be and how
Speaker 1: things could be, and there will be a lot more
Speaker 1: abundance than you even think. And I think that the
Speaker 1: more that you show yourself this is possible. By acting
Speaker 1: out of love and set of fear and connecting more
Speaker 1: to a higher sense of self or God, whatever you
Speaker 1: believe in, you'll start to manifest. You'll start to see
Speaker 1: things come in your life and be like, oh, okay,
Speaker 1: see things did work out here when I did release control,
Speaker 1: it did end up working out, and it actually worked
Speaker 1: out a lot better than I even thought. And I
Speaker 1: think some of the biggest things in your life, for
Speaker 1: the most part, you can look back and say, yeah,
Speaker 1: I co created. Like for me, I definitely co created,
Speaker 1: but it still turned out differently than I could have
Speaker 1: even written. And I think about this when it comes
Speaker 1: to how quickly I grew on my main channel on YouTube, yes,
Speaker 1: I co created. I put in that work, and I
Speaker 1: believed in myself and it got out of my own way,
Speaker 1: and I acted out of love versus fear, and I
Speaker 1: believed and I believed and I believed, and I knew
Speaker 1: it was going to happen, but I didn't know when.
Speaker 1: I didn't write down exactly when and where and how,
Speaker 1: and if I did that, I probably would have been
Speaker 1: limiting myself. I just trusted and I knew it was
Speaker 1: going to happen. And you know what, if you look
Speaker 1: at it from a very uh, I don't know, material based,
Speaker 1: logical analytic way. I grew exponentially quicker than typically people
Speaker 1: would assume you would grow on YouTube. I went from
Speaker 1: consistently posting one video from April to around end of
Speaker 1: October in a set year. I think I posted like
Speaker 1: two vlogs before that, and then consistently I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm going to post one video a week and I'm
Speaker 1: going to do the belief work. And I really trusted
Speaker 1: myself and I was on purpose and I just released
Speaker 1: and I surrendered. And then come end of October, my
Speaker 1: channel started blowing up. And I believe it's because of
Speaker 1: my belief and it's my co creation, and it's my
Speaker 1: showing up consistently, and it's my being on purpose. And
Speaker 1: from the end of October when I started shooting up
Speaker 1: to the end of the year basically into the new year.
Speaker 1: By like January February, I already had my one hundred
Speaker 1: k plaque. That was not that long. But do you
Speaker 1: think that I really thought that it was going to
Speaker 1: be that quick. No. Actually, if you were to ask
Speaker 1: me if I did have a timeline, and I was
Speaker 1: very detached from having a timeline because I knew this process,
Speaker 1: because I had already been more into my spirituality in
Speaker 1: that whole journey. But if I did, it probably would
Speaker 1: have been maybe like me, springs, maybe hopefully spring by
Speaker 1: then I'll have like a decent following this that. Nope,
Speaker 1: So in my opinion, the best way to continue to
Speaker 1: move through this life. And we're not perfect. I'm not perfect,
Speaker 1: you know. I still try and control things. I have
Speaker 1: to work on it. I have to take those glasses off.
Speaker 1: I have to remind myself every day, no, Okay, this
Speaker 1: is fear, this is love. How do we want to operate?
Speaker 1: Is this a test? I have to do all of
Speaker 1: those things. But the more times you do that, you
Speaker 1: realize I'm safe, I'm protected, and things are going to
Speaker 1: work out, and they do work out way better than
Speaker 1: I even think. But I have to be the one
Speaker 1: to remind myself that I'm even deserving of the things
Speaker 1: that I want, because at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: that is what we're constantly doing. We're constantly striving, we're
Speaker 1: constantly wanting more, we're constantly looking for safety. Understand that
Speaker 1: you are safe here, and remind yourself of all the
Speaker 1: cues of safety that you currently do have. And you're
Speaker 1: listening to somebody who has gone through a very not
Speaker 1: so easy life, lots of trauma, lots of unsafety, a
Speaker 1: lot of financial insecurity. I lost my father, I recently
Speaker 1: lost my mom. I've seen things that a child should
Speaker 1: not have seen, and it really primed my nervous system
Speaker 1: to constantly look for fear. And even when it comes
Speaker 1: to my health, lots of chronic illness, a lot of
Speaker 1: real things that made it so yeah, you should be afraid,
Speaker 1: but I tried my best and I always do to
Speaker 1: remind myself, no, no, no, no no no, this is not
Speaker 1: how my life is going to go. I'm going to
Speaker 1: move through this, and I'm going to work through this
Speaker 1: and I'm going to understand that this is life. Also,
Speaker 1: you know, we get handed a deck of cards and
Speaker 1: sometimes things don't work out exactly the way we need
Speaker 1: or want. But you know what, I still am deserving
Speaker 1: of this life. But there is going to need to
Speaker 1: be some release. I'm gonna need to And I think
Speaker 1: that this happens a lot when you do hit those
Speaker 1: rock bottoms in your life, and I've hit many of them.
Speaker 1: But I also do think that it happens when things
Speaker 1: out of your control are so big that you have
Speaker 1: no other option but to surrender. You know, I had
Speaker 1: no other option but to surrender when I lost my dad.
Speaker 1: I had to surrender when my mom was going through
Speaker 1: her addictions. And I really fought that, and that's understandable,
Speaker 1: and it's like, what else do you do other than
Speaker 1: fight that? But I created a lot of distress, and
Speaker 1: I give myself grace and compassion because you're a human being.
Speaker 1: Of course you're going to fight against the things you
Speaker 1: don't want in your life. But I realized me fighting
Speaker 1: against what was created so much stress that I didn't need,
Speaker 1: and so much illness and so much weight. Instead of
Speaker 1: and again I didn't know how, so it's a fine,
Speaker 1: it's okay, but I learned. But instead of releasing some
Speaker 1: control and understanding that there's things that happen in your
Speaker 1: life and even when it comes to the loss of
Speaker 1: my mom, I mean, that's the biggest surrender that I've
Speaker 1: had to have and come to right. And it doesn't
Speaker 1: mean that I'm not still experiencing grief. I have to
Speaker 1: feel it and we should. You know, there is a
Speaker 1: sense of having to fight against things, or allowing yourself
Speaker 1: at least the want to fight against things, and being
Speaker 1: like this is not fair. I don't want this. I
Speaker 1: don't want to feel this or just feeling things. You're
Speaker 1: human being in a physical human body. Allow yourself to
Speaker 1: do that. But after you feel and after you go
Speaker 1: through those waves, which will constantly happen, because this will
Speaker 1: happen until you die, there's a sense of coming back
Speaker 1: to the essence of who you are, and you have
Speaker 1: to remind yourself of who you are and where you
Speaker 1: came from, which is that higher sense of whatever you
Speaker 1: want to believe in God, the universe. And I think
Speaker 1: that that is what keeps you going and can carry
Speaker 1: you as well. Right, Like, it really helps when you're
Speaker 1: going through grief or you're going through loss or really
Speaker 1: hard times for you to feel those things, but also
Speaker 1: to know that God has you right. So you can
Speaker 1: feel your grief, you can feel sad, and you can
Speaker 1: feel lost, but it's this overarching sense of being held
Speaker 1: in a way and still protected even though it's scary here,
Speaker 1: because it is. Life can be really scary, and it
Speaker 1: can be more scary when you don't have this belief
Speaker 1: in something bigger than you. You don't have this belief
Speaker 1: that even though the mess is here, God is still
Speaker 1: moving that mountain from A to B and it's gonna
Speaker 1: be okay, and it's gonna all work out. So with
Speaker 1: that said, this is all I wanted to say. This
Speaker 1: is all I needed to say. I hope this maybe
Speaker 1: helped resonated with you. It helps me on the times
Speaker 1: that I'm feeling, you know, a sense of not trusting,
Speaker 1: a sense of seeing myself act out things that I
Speaker 1: know from a place of fear and control. I really
Speaker 1: try to have a practice of connecting to God every
Speaker 1: single day, especially now with the loss of my mom.
Speaker 1: I think heavily it's been deeply more I would say embodied,
Speaker 1: because I've always been spiritual, I've always connected to something
Speaker 1: that's bigger than myself. I've always believed in God. But
Speaker 1: I do think that coming from somebody who has had
Speaker 1: to constantly do everything herself and have had the weight
Speaker 1: of the world on me because nobody was doing it
Speaker 1: for me, nobody was saving me, nobody was being responsible
Speaker 1: for me. I had to be that. There comes a
Speaker 1: level of ease and release and healing when you learn
Speaker 1: to just give it to God. You don't have to
Speaker 1: know all the answers, you don't have to figure it
Speaker 1: all out. You can't even And this is the thing
Speaker 1: that like, I think at the end of my twenties,
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm still twenty nine, I'm turning thirty at
Speaker 1: the end of the year. But I think that you sometimes,
Speaker 1: and I'm not saying everyone gets here ever or at
Speaker 1: this age, but you kind of evolve from thinking that
Speaker 1: you could possibly know all the answers and you could
Speaker 1: possibly control everything, And it's really you evolving from your ego.
Speaker 1: Your ego is that fear part of you that thinks
Speaker 1: that if I just do this one thing, if I
Speaker 1: just have the best practice, if I just do things perfectly.
Speaker 1: Then then I will be healthy, and then I'll be happy,
Speaker 1: and then I'll be rich. In this D D D
Speaker 1: DA DA. It's not to say that you don't want
Speaker 1: to have belief in yourself and you don't want to
Speaker 1: act and you don't want to co create. It's not
Speaker 1: about that, But it's just realizing that you are enough.
Speaker 1: You don't have to be perfect, you don't have to
Speaker 1: take on everything on yourself in order to have the
Speaker 1: life that you're so desperately wanting. Let God, let the universe,
Speaker 1: let other people help you. Okay, And I'm talking to
Speaker 1: myself when I'm saying that, So anyways, I hope you enjoyed.
Speaker 1: Don't forget. We have a new series on the podcast.
Speaker 1: Every Sunday, we're doing the Soulful Sunday Reset, where we're
Speaker 1: gonna be talking about a bunch of different themes based
Speaker 1: off of the week that we've had, along with throwing
Speaker 1: out our intentions energetically for the week to come. It's
Speaker 1: just a chitty chat type of energy Sunday morning. I mean,
Speaker 1: you can listen to that episode whenever you want, but
Speaker 1: ideally Sundays we're gonna be doing a little reset, a
Speaker 1: little grab your coffee vibes, and the episode will go
Speaker 1: live on YouTube. I believe it's at eight am that
Speaker 1: I have it going live, and I also have the
Speaker 1: audio podcast version where it goes out a lot earlier,
Speaker 1: So make sure you're subscribed for that, and please let
Speaker 1: me know in the comments if you enjoyed this episode,
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Speaker 1: really want to hear what you guys are going through
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Speaker 1: to put me on the TV, and you want to
Speaker 1: do your Sunday reset or whatever you want to do.
Speaker 1: All right, I will see you guys in the next one.
Speaker 1: Bye