WEBVTT 1 00:00:13.839 --> 00:00:16.120 Hello you guys, welcome back to another episode of the 2 00:00:16.120 --> 00:00:19.440 Hawkgirl Energy Podcast. I'm your host, Kayleie, and welcome back 3 00:00:19.480 --> 00:00:23.800 to another episode. I am so excited for today's episode 4 00:00:23.800 --> 00:00:27.440 because I feel like I'm in need of a spring refresh. 5 00:00:27.879 --> 00:00:30.079 I'm finally feeling like it feels like spring right now, 6 00:00:30.120 --> 00:00:33.920 like the weather's finally changing. We're finally seeing less snow, 7 00:00:33.960 --> 00:00:37.439 We're seeing more sunshine, which is literally the best feeling ever. 8 00:00:37.439 --> 00:00:39.280 I don't know if anyone else is currently feeling the 9 00:00:39.280 --> 00:00:43.560 same way, but I'm finally seeing summer ahead. I feel 10 00:00:43.560 --> 00:00:47.159 like it's been the longest winter ever and I'm just 11 00:00:47.280 --> 00:00:49.759 so ready for a new season and I'm so happy 12 00:00:49.759 --> 00:00:53.560 we're officially in spring and just seeing the warmer weather just. 13 00:00:53.520 --> 00:00:55.079 Makes things ten times better. 14 00:00:55.159 --> 00:00:57.799 Today's episode's really going to be focused on a hawk 15 00:00:57.840 --> 00:01:00.920 Girl spring refresh, so just kind of like the motivation 16 00:01:01.039 --> 00:01:04.079 to feeling yourself again because I'm currently in this phase 17 00:01:04.120 --> 00:01:07.799 in my life where I am finally starting to build 18 00:01:07.840 --> 00:01:11.000 a routine again and find myself again. Which if you 19 00:01:11.040 --> 00:01:13.000 guys have been following along for a while, then you 20 00:01:13.079 --> 00:01:15.760 know that I've been going through a pretty severe back 21 00:01:15.840 --> 00:01:19.120 injury for the past four to five months and I've 22 00:01:19.159 --> 00:01:23.079 officially been cleared to go back to reformer pilates and 23 00:01:23.159 --> 00:01:27.400 start to add strength back into my routine, which I 24 00:01:27.439 --> 00:01:30.560 honestly thought was never gonna happen. Like it just felt 25 00:01:31.519 --> 00:01:34.359 so hard to like picture my injury getting better because 26 00:01:34.359 --> 00:01:36.200 I felt like it was so bad for such a 27 00:01:36.239 --> 00:01:38.840 long time. And I've definitely opened up here a lot 28 00:01:38.840 --> 00:01:41.040 about it here on the podcast along with my social 29 00:01:41.079 --> 00:01:44.439 media platforms, and how it was just such a difficult 30 00:01:44.599 --> 00:01:48.280 journey for someone who's such an active person who really 31 00:01:48.319 --> 00:01:52.000 makes working out her biggest priority ever, Like I truly 32 00:01:52.079 --> 00:01:55.200 just like revolve my life around moving my body because 33 00:01:55.200 --> 00:01:58.000 for me personally, it just does so many benefits for me. 34 00:01:58.200 --> 00:02:01.239 It eases my anxiety, it helps my stress. I feel 35 00:02:01.239 --> 00:02:03.439 like it's the best way to get a bit of 36 00:02:03.439 --> 00:02:06.239 a social fix in because I do go to workout classes. 37 00:02:06.239 --> 00:02:07.840 It's not just like something I do in my house. 38 00:02:07.879 --> 00:02:10.479 I like to get out, you know, meet friends, go 39 00:02:10.560 --> 00:02:13.000 for a workout together. Like it's just like my perfect 40 00:02:13.479 --> 00:02:16.479 ideal situation. Like if someone were to ask me what's 41 00:02:16.520 --> 00:02:18.960 the perfect date, it would be come to a workout 42 00:02:18.960 --> 00:02:20.719 class with me and then let's go get a post 43 00:02:20.719 --> 00:02:24.280 workout smoothie after or a post coffee like something like that. 44 00:02:24.280 --> 00:02:25.800 That's my dream date. If I could do that with 45 00:02:25.840 --> 00:02:27.479 my husband every single day, I would love that. If 46 00:02:27.479 --> 00:02:29.159 I can do that with the girls every single day, 47 00:02:29.520 --> 00:02:31.879 that is my dream. I think everybody can agree that 48 00:02:31.960 --> 00:02:35.840 it's like the perfect ideal date. And so not being 49 00:02:35.840 --> 00:02:38.479 able to go to workout classes or do the workouts 50 00:02:38.479 --> 00:02:41.560 that I love was very, very hard on my mental health, 51 00:02:42.080 --> 00:02:44.879 and I'm finally seeing so much progress in my mental 52 00:02:44.879 --> 00:02:47.800 health how I've been feeling and my energy levels have 53 00:02:47.840 --> 00:02:49.560 been so much better, and I kind of just wanted 54 00:02:49.599 --> 00:02:51.879 to share things that I'm doing to feel like myself 55 00:02:51.919 --> 00:02:54.639 again and almost just like a spring refresh of how 56 00:02:54.680 --> 00:02:57.719 you can feel like yourself again by doing little things 57 00:02:57.759 --> 00:03:00.560 and little habits that can make yourself I just feel 58 00:03:00.599 --> 00:03:03.800 a little bit more motivated and want to make yourself 59 00:03:03.840 --> 00:03:05.639 feel like the person that you want to be. I 60 00:03:05.639 --> 00:03:08.280 also want to share some April goals because I always 61 00:03:08.319 --> 00:03:10.800 love to share the goals that I'm striving for each 62 00:03:10.879 --> 00:03:14.400 month because I want it to inspire you to make 63 00:03:14.439 --> 00:03:16.879 goals for yourself for each month. So we're also going 64 00:03:16.919 --> 00:03:19.199 to chat about that as well before we get into 65 00:03:19.319 --> 00:03:20.879 the episode. I did want to do a bit of 66 00:03:20.919 --> 00:03:24.080 a weekly recap because if you listen to my last episode, 67 00:03:24.120 --> 00:03:26.319 which if you haven't listened to it, I highly recommend 68 00:03:26.400 --> 00:03:28.520 listening to it. It is all about me talking with 69 00:03:28.560 --> 00:03:30.800 the lessons that I learned throughout my twenties. Because I'm 70 00:03:30.840 --> 00:03:34.879 officially thirty years old. Thirty years old, so wild it 71 00:03:34.919 --> 00:03:38.120 doesn't feel real yet. I still haven't had a conversation 72 00:03:38.199 --> 00:03:39.800 with someone saying like, oh, how old are you. It's 73 00:03:39.800 --> 00:03:41.199 like I haven't had that yet where I'm like, oh, 74 00:03:41.240 --> 00:03:43.639 I'm thirty. You know, I'm waiting for that day where 75 00:03:43.639 --> 00:03:46.080 I'm going to say twenty nine, but obviously I'm actually thirty. 76 00:03:46.120 --> 00:03:48.639 But I always like forget how old I am. Sometimes 77 00:03:48.639 --> 00:03:51.039 I don't know if anyone else is like that, but anyways, 78 00:03:51.120 --> 00:03:54.120 point is is that I had a big birthday party 79 00:03:54.120 --> 00:03:57.520 this weekend, which was so fun. I really wasn't sure 80 00:03:57.560 --> 00:04:00.000 if I was going to do something, and it's fun. 81 00:04:00.439 --> 00:04:03.400 Everybody that I saw the night before or on the 82 00:04:03.439 --> 00:04:04.240 Thursday night, they're like. 83 00:04:04.240 --> 00:04:05.680 Oh my god, are you excited for this weekend? 84 00:04:05.719 --> 00:04:07.879 Like it's your birthday party, you must be so excited, 85 00:04:08.199 --> 00:04:11.080 and like, I was excited, but I also was like 86 00:04:11.199 --> 00:04:13.560 low key kind of looking forward to it being over, 87 00:04:13.800 --> 00:04:16.160 if that makes sense, Like not in a sad way. 88 00:04:16.279 --> 00:04:20.319 I just think planning events is so stressful, and you 89 00:04:20.360 --> 00:04:21.879 guys know that I've been trying to like work on 90 00:04:21.920 --> 00:04:24.399 my stress and like remove stress from my lifestyle whatever, 91 00:04:24.680 --> 00:04:26.079 and obviously it's very hard. 92 00:04:25.879 --> 00:04:27.800 When you want to do these fun things and be 93 00:04:27.879 --> 00:04:28.759 busy and all that. 94 00:04:28.879 --> 00:04:31.680 Right, So definitely something that I was working on last month, 95 00:04:31.759 --> 00:04:33.519 which I did a really good job at. But the 96 00:04:33.560 --> 00:04:35.480 point is is that I think I just like wanted 97 00:04:35.480 --> 00:04:37.600 the party to happen and just like enjoy the time 98 00:04:37.600 --> 00:04:40.120 with my friends and my family, which I did. Enjoy 99 00:04:40.160 --> 00:04:42.519 every aspect of it, and I'm so happy I did 100 00:04:42.600 --> 00:04:44.560 do it. But I also was like low key kind 101 00:04:44.560 --> 00:04:46.040 of happy was over because I'm like, Okay, I can 102 00:04:46.120 --> 00:04:49.000 kind of like finally like not have to stress about 103 00:04:49.000 --> 00:04:51.319 anything and just kind of focus on really just the 104 00:04:51.360 --> 00:04:54.120 house now, which is us, you know, moving out of 105 00:04:54.120 --> 00:04:56.040 this house and moving into a new house and just 106 00:04:56.120 --> 00:04:59.240 kind of like prepping for a move because we move 107 00:04:59.279 --> 00:05:02.639 in like four which is really gonna fly by, like 108 00:05:02.680 --> 00:05:04.920 it really does go by so fast. So I'm really 109 00:05:04.920 --> 00:05:07.680 just trying to prep for that and understand that that's 110 00:05:07.680 --> 00:05:10.759 our main priority right now. And yeah, that's just like 111 00:05:10.839 --> 00:05:12.680 something that I really wanted to get out of the way. 112 00:05:12.879 --> 00:05:16.360 Was just my birthday, and yeah, we had literally the 113 00:05:16.399 --> 00:05:18.519 best time ever. If you guys didn't see on Instagram 114 00:05:18.639 --> 00:05:21.560 or TikTok, I ended up renting a barn because here 115 00:05:21.560 --> 00:05:23.319 in Ottawa, I feel like a lot of the wedding 116 00:05:23.360 --> 00:05:27.319 venues or just venues in general, are very like country 117 00:05:27.399 --> 00:05:30.759 western theme. There is the odd one that's a bit modern, 118 00:05:30.839 --> 00:05:32.879 but I wasn't really wanting to do a modern look. 119 00:05:32.920 --> 00:05:35.079 I don't know, I just kind of had this urge 120 00:05:35.120 --> 00:05:37.920 to do like a western theme party. And I've seen 121 00:05:37.959 --> 00:05:41.000 a lot of like Pinterest images of people doing like 122 00:05:41.120 --> 00:05:44.959 western theme like bacherettes or western theme engagement parties, and 123 00:05:44.959 --> 00:05:46.399 I'm like, you know what, I'm going to a Western 124 00:05:46.439 --> 00:05:50.600 theme for my thirtieth but make it like western elegance themes. 125 00:05:50.639 --> 00:05:53.319 So everyone dresses up. No one had any idea what 126 00:05:53.360 --> 00:05:55.399 the theme was when they showed up. I actually had 127 00:05:55.439 --> 00:05:58.480 cowboy hats that I ordered for everybody. Everyone got to 128 00:05:58.480 --> 00:06:01.000 pick up a cowboy hat. I had like cute little 129 00:06:01.040 --> 00:06:03.600 champagne glasses with cowboy hats on them. That way they 130 00:06:03.639 --> 00:06:05.839 can grab a glass of champagne, which kind of brings 131 00:06:05.839 --> 00:06:09.240 in the elegance aspect. And then obviously like the barn 132 00:06:09.399 --> 00:06:11.759 was very elevated. It wasn't like a rustic barn. It 133 00:06:11.800 --> 00:06:14.920 was very modernized. We had a cute photo back drop, 134 00:06:15.000 --> 00:06:17.519 we had a live band, we had casino tables, like. 135 00:06:17.600 --> 00:06:20.360 It was truly such a fun night. 136 00:06:20.639 --> 00:06:23.319 We had about fifty five people come, which was the 137 00:06:23.439 --> 00:06:26.879 perfect amount of people. The barn was actually quite small, 138 00:06:26.920 --> 00:06:29.959 like it wasn't like overly big. It was perfect for 139 00:06:30.040 --> 00:06:33.120 like a reception for a wedding basically right, so it 140 00:06:33.160 --> 00:06:35.480 was still big, but just like the perfect size for 141 00:06:35.519 --> 00:06:37.199 fifty five people, Like if there was one hundred people 142 00:06:37.199 --> 00:06:39.279 in there, it definitely would have felt very claustrophobic. 143 00:06:39.959 --> 00:06:41.160 We had a dance floor. 144 00:06:40.879 --> 00:06:43.560 Going, we had obviously a bar going, and we had 145 00:06:43.600 --> 00:06:45.279 like a little get ready room so I could get 146 00:06:45.319 --> 00:06:48.199 ready in there before people started. 147 00:06:47.839 --> 00:06:48.399 To show up. 148 00:06:48.439 --> 00:06:50.279 I hired a photographer because I didn't want to have 149 00:06:50.319 --> 00:06:53.040 to stress about photos throughout the night, So I had 150 00:06:53.079 --> 00:06:55.079 a photographer to take all my picks, which was great. 151 00:06:55.639 --> 00:06:58.120 And then one of my best friends, Laurie, she works 152 00:06:58.120 --> 00:07:00.680 for an agency and like manages social medi the accounts 153 00:07:00.680 --> 00:07:03.480 and help some like film content, and she offered to 154 00:07:03.519 --> 00:07:07.079 help me for my birthday, which was so so incredible 155 00:07:07.079 --> 00:07:09.399 to have her help throughout the night for content, just 156 00:07:09.439 --> 00:07:11.160 because again I didn't want to have to stress about that. 157 00:07:12.040 --> 00:07:14.959 And so we spent like twenty five minutes before people 158 00:07:15.000 --> 00:07:18.079 started to show up doing like solo photos content and 159 00:07:18.120 --> 00:07:20.399 then literally as we were done, a lot of people 160 00:07:20.399 --> 00:07:22.759 were showing up. But I'm like, okay, this is perfect, 161 00:07:22.800 --> 00:07:24.879 like literally the perfect timing. I didn't want to have 162 00:07:24.879 --> 00:07:26.879 to like film content with all my friends being there, 163 00:07:26.959 --> 00:07:29.319 even though they don't care, like they know obviously it's 164 00:07:29.319 --> 00:07:31.519 my job. But the point is is that everything kind 165 00:07:31.519 --> 00:07:33.959 of flowed with the perfect timing. And then the party 166 00:07:34.000 --> 00:07:37.079 went till like twelve thirty, I want to say, and 167 00:07:37.160 --> 00:07:39.399 by the time we like cleaned up the venue got home, 168 00:07:39.480 --> 00:07:42.439 it was like two thirty in the morning, which I 169 00:07:42.480 --> 00:07:44.560 never stay up that late, Like, oh my goodness, I 170 00:07:44.639 --> 00:07:47.160 was so tired. And of course Zach and I were 171 00:07:47.199 --> 00:07:49.600 like craving a and w at two o'clock in the morning, 172 00:07:50.160 --> 00:07:53.480 and we sat in the drive through for like forty 173 00:07:53.519 --> 00:07:55.759 five minutes because there was like a family of twelve 174 00:07:55.800 --> 00:07:58.399 in this minivan, and of course, no one's going to 175 00:07:59.240 --> 00:08:01.519 a drive through one am, so I'm sure there wasn't 176 00:08:01.560 --> 00:08:02.480 that much staff. 177 00:08:02.959 --> 00:08:04.319 Anyways, we like sat in that. 178 00:08:04.319 --> 00:08:06.079 Drive through for forty five minutes. We're like, oh my god, 179 00:08:06.120 --> 00:08:08.240 this was such a stupid idea. And then we got 180 00:08:08.240 --> 00:08:10.360 home and we ate the sweep ptato fries and burgers 181 00:08:10.360 --> 00:08:12.720 and we're like, okay, wait, this was worth it. Anyways, 182 00:08:13.160 --> 00:08:15.560 we just had a really fun night and I felt 183 00:08:15.600 --> 00:08:17.480 like it was hungover the next day, which I definitely 184 00:08:17.560 --> 00:08:19.319 wasn't because I only had like a few drinks. But 185 00:08:19.800 --> 00:08:22.160 I felt like I was more hungover from like being tired, 186 00:08:22.319 --> 00:08:23.759 you know what I mean, Like when you feel like 187 00:08:23.839 --> 00:08:26.920 you haven't gone enough sleep and you just feel exhausted. 188 00:08:27.120 --> 00:08:29.399 That's exactly how I felt on Sunday. And of course 189 00:08:29.439 --> 00:08:32.240 it was Easter and we had like Easter plans with family, 190 00:08:32.279 --> 00:08:34.519 and I'm like, I feel so hungover right now, even 191 00:08:34.519 --> 00:08:36.799 though I'm not, I'm just like hungover from being tired. 192 00:08:37.200 --> 00:08:38.720 And the last thing I wanted to do was like 193 00:08:38.720 --> 00:08:40.399 put makeup on my face and go to a dinner. 194 00:08:40.440 --> 00:08:41.200 But we did it. 195 00:08:41.320 --> 00:08:43.240 We showed up for family. We had the best time 196 00:08:43.399 --> 00:08:46.279 and a great Easter. Anyways, I think the greatest gift 197 00:08:46.320 --> 00:08:49.200 of all from that weekend was it was Easter weekend, 198 00:08:49.360 --> 00:08:51.559 and I honestly wasn't expecting a lot of people to 199 00:08:51.600 --> 00:08:53.799 come because of it being Easter. I assumed a lot 200 00:08:53.840 --> 00:08:57.120 of people had Easter plans with family, but I literally 201 00:08:57.120 --> 00:08:59.360 had basically everybody show up. I think I only had 202 00:08:59.399 --> 00:09:02.480 like six or seven guests that couldn't come, and that 203 00:09:02.639 --> 00:09:05.360 was it. Like everybody showed up, like after Easter dinner. 204 00:09:05.360 --> 00:09:07.039 It's like they would make the effort to come to 205 00:09:07.080 --> 00:09:09.960 the venue to you know, celebrate me, celebrate the night, 206 00:09:10.000 --> 00:09:11.799 and it just meant so much to me to like 207 00:09:11.840 --> 00:09:14.279 see all my friends actually like make the effort to come, 208 00:09:14.919 --> 00:09:17.480 And that was the greatest gift of all, just seeing 209 00:09:17.480 --> 00:09:20.639 all my friends there and being able to celebrate my 210 00:09:21.200 --> 00:09:24.919 thirtieth going into a new decade, and yeah, I'm just 211 00:09:25.080 --> 00:09:27.919 so excited to see what this year brings and what 212 00:09:28.000 --> 00:09:30.720 this new decade brings. So incredibly grateful to also do 213 00:09:30.799 --> 00:09:31.360 that with Zach. 214 00:09:31.480 --> 00:09:33.360 So I think it's going to be the. 215 00:09:33.279 --> 00:09:37.519 Best years yet and I can't wait to share more 216 00:09:38.080 --> 00:09:40.759 of my life with you guys throughout my thirties. Okay, 217 00:09:40.840 --> 00:09:43.840 so now let's get into today's episode, which is really 218 00:09:43.919 --> 00:09:47.039 just about feeling yourself again. And I wanted to share 219 00:09:47.080 --> 00:09:49.799 this journey of me getting back into a routine and 220 00:09:49.879 --> 00:09:51.519 just thought it'd be a good opportunity just to kind 221 00:09:51.559 --> 00:09:54.000 of really chat about things that I'm doing this spring 222 00:09:54.120 --> 00:09:58.039 to feel myself again and just find motivation again. So firstly, 223 00:09:58.120 --> 00:10:00.559 let's talk about April goals for a second, because I 224 00:10:00.600 --> 00:10:04.320 think writing down three goals each month is the best 225 00:10:04.320 --> 00:10:06.799 way to keep yourself motivated. In my opinion, I always 226 00:10:06.840 --> 00:10:09.440 give myself three goals each month because for me, that's 227 00:10:09.840 --> 00:10:12.759 what feeds my motivation. It's like something that I can 228 00:10:12.799 --> 00:10:15.240 look back at and reflect on, Okay, what was my 229 00:10:15.279 --> 00:10:17.399 goal this month? Like what do I want to be 230 00:10:17.480 --> 00:10:19.759 able to do for myself? And then I feel like 231 00:10:19.759 --> 00:10:22.399 it creates a consistent habit of doing something. And then 232 00:10:22.440 --> 00:10:26.159 obviously being consistent is better than just like having the 233 00:10:26.200 --> 00:10:28.600 odd motivation times, you know what I mean, Like, being 234 00:10:28.600 --> 00:10:32.120 consistent at something is really the key to success in 235 00:10:32.159 --> 00:10:33.039 life in my opinion. 236 00:10:33.200 --> 00:10:34.519 So last month, one. 237 00:10:34.480 --> 00:10:37.399 Of my biggest goals was to manage my stress, and 238 00:10:37.879 --> 00:10:40.240 I personally think I did a really good job at that. 239 00:10:41.159 --> 00:10:44.120 I personally had a really busy month with work. I 240 00:10:44.159 --> 00:10:46.600 had a lot of brand deals coming in, and I 241 00:10:46.679 --> 00:10:50.200 actually turned down a lot of work opportunities because I 242 00:10:50.240 --> 00:10:52.320 told myself that I was going to slow down this month. 243 00:10:52.360 --> 00:10:55.159 It wasn't something that I wanted to you know, over 244 00:10:55.200 --> 00:10:57.200 commit to things and then put myself in a very 245 00:10:57.200 --> 00:11:01.000 stressful situation again. So I was really proud of myself 246 00:11:01.000 --> 00:11:02.799 for that, because I am that kind of person where 247 00:11:02.799 --> 00:11:05.600 I don't like to say no to work opportunities, but 248 00:11:05.720 --> 00:11:08.120 I had to put my health first and you know, 249 00:11:08.240 --> 00:11:10.840 manage my stress levels. And you know, I was also 250 00:11:10.919 --> 00:11:13.759 figuring out ways to meditate. You know, I found like 251 00:11:13.799 --> 00:11:15.919 YouTube videos that were like ten minutes and I would 252 00:11:15.960 --> 00:11:18.399 do that like twice a week, just to really focus 253 00:11:18.480 --> 00:11:21.399 on my breathing. And one thing that I tend to 254 00:11:21.440 --> 00:11:23.200 do when I'm stressed, and I don't know if anyone 255 00:11:23.240 --> 00:11:25.679 else feels this way for themselves, is that my shoulders 256 00:11:25.799 --> 00:11:28.279 kind of creep up and then they get like really 257 00:11:28.320 --> 00:11:31.799 really tight, and I almost realize, like, you know, twenty 258 00:11:31.840 --> 00:11:33.360 minutes later, I'm like, oh my God, like why am 259 00:11:33.360 --> 00:11:35.000 I so tight? And then I realize, oh, my goodness, 260 00:11:35.000 --> 00:11:37.559 my shoulders are like up to my ears and I 261 00:11:37.600 --> 00:11:40.440 guess that is a sign of like stress, Like it's 262 00:11:40.440 --> 00:11:43.080 something that your body does when they feel this pressure 263 00:11:43.120 --> 00:11:45.440 of a lot of stress coming into your body. And 264 00:11:45.480 --> 00:11:47.559 so I've been trying to find ways to really just 265 00:11:47.600 --> 00:11:50.919 like relax my shoulders, relax my body, do things that 266 00:11:51.000 --> 00:11:54.360 make me feel more relaxed by like doing deep breathing, 267 00:11:54.639 --> 00:11:58.320 doing meditations, taking a step back from things that you know, 268 00:11:58.840 --> 00:12:01.519 kind of like make me feel really anxious. And so 269 00:12:01.840 --> 00:12:04.919 this month, my goal is to really manage my anxiety. 270 00:12:05.120 --> 00:12:07.519 So feel like I've definitely mastered the stress. 271 00:12:08.039 --> 00:12:10.519 Now I'm starting to focus on how can I manage 272 00:12:10.519 --> 00:12:14.240 my anxiety better because I feel like I've been really 273 00:12:14.279 --> 00:12:16.840 anxious lately. I don't know why. I don't know what 274 00:12:16.960 --> 00:12:19.720 has came. Maybe it's from turning thirty. I have no idea. 275 00:12:20.320 --> 00:12:22.039 But one thing that I've been doing to kind of 276 00:12:22.039 --> 00:12:25.320 like ease my anxiety is definitely reduce my caffeine intake. 277 00:12:25.399 --> 00:12:28.440 So I've actually been switching my coffees to decaf coffees 278 00:12:29.159 --> 00:12:31.039 just because that was something that I noticed that it 279 00:12:31.120 --> 00:12:35.120 really spiked when I was just finishing up my coffee 280 00:12:35.120 --> 00:12:36.679 and I'm like, hey, well, this is a sign that's 281 00:12:36.679 --> 00:12:39.879 like not making the anxiety better. So I switched to decaf, 282 00:12:39.960 --> 00:12:42.840 so that's been helping actually a lot these past few days. 283 00:12:42.919 --> 00:12:46.360 I also booked a acupuncture appointment, which have you been 284 00:12:46.360 --> 00:12:48.480 following me on TikTok and Instagram, then you know that 285 00:12:48.519 --> 00:12:52.320 I had a pretty bad experience a few weeks ago 286 00:12:52.440 --> 00:12:56.679 with a acupuncture clinic, and you know, the guy was 287 00:12:56.720 --> 00:12:58.320 just doing his thing, like It's not like what he 288 00:12:58.360 --> 00:13:00.519 did was bad. It was more so just wasn't something 289 00:13:00.519 --> 00:13:02.919 that I was expecting. I was expecting a very different 290 00:13:02.960 --> 00:13:05.600 experience than what I had, even though what I had 291 00:13:05.679 --> 00:13:09.720 was still a typical acupuncture experience, I just thought it 292 00:13:09.720 --> 00:13:12.159 would be a little different. So a bunch of girls 293 00:13:12.200 --> 00:13:15.679 in Ottawa actually dms me recommending this one spot called 294 00:13:15.720 --> 00:13:19.120 Refine I Believe and it's in the Glebe and they said, 295 00:13:19.120 --> 00:13:20.720 I need to go see this girl. So I actually 296 00:13:20.720 --> 00:13:22.559 booked in a point with her. So I will keep 297 00:13:22.600 --> 00:13:25.440 you guys posted on how that goes. But I know 298 00:13:25.840 --> 00:13:29.159 that's going to really help manage my stress and just 299 00:13:29.240 --> 00:13:33.480 help really relax my body. All about relaxing, I've also 300 00:13:33.519 --> 00:13:36.799 been trying to get massages once a month, more so 301 00:13:36.879 --> 00:13:39.679 for my back injury, but also another way to relax 302 00:13:39.759 --> 00:13:42.519 the body not feel his stress. So we're really just 303 00:13:42.559 --> 00:13:46.559 trying to go into April with a more chill mindset again, 304 00:13:46.639 --> 00:13:52.559 removing any anxiety stress that I've been feeling. Also kind 305 00:13:52.600 --> 00:13:55.120 of unfollowing people that maybe make me feel a little 306 00:13:55.120 --> 00:13:58.679 bit anxious. I kind of wanted to talk about that 307 00:13:58.720 --> 00:14:01.559 for the next goal, which is not putting too much 308 00:14:01.600 --> 00:14:04.480 pressure on myself to be perfect, because there's definitely a 309 00:14:04.480 --> 00:14:06.360 lot of influencers out there that I follow that like 310 00:14:06.480 --> 00:14:09.159 really portray their life as like this perfect life with 311 00:14:09.200 --> 00:14:13.480 the perfect house and the perfect partner, and like, you know, 312 00:14:13.679 --> 00:14:15.480 for all, I know, like some of you guys might 313 00:14:15.480 --> 00:14:17.919 feel that way about me and how I portray myself 314 00:14:17.960 --> 00:14:21.200 on social media. But I've been really trying to not 315 00:14:21.720 --> 00:14:24.519 always have the most perfect content. I've been trying to 316 00:14:25.039 --> 00:14:28.039 kind of branch out and also show the moments where 317 00:14:28.039 --> 00:14:31.240 I feel more real and I don't know, just like 318 00:14:31.320 --> 00:14:33.440 not have the pressure of like filming the most perfect 319 00:14:33.519 --> 00:14:35.840 video ever. I've been trying to do more like talking 320 00:14:35.879 --> 00:14:39.600 style videos, longer vlogs. I don't know, it's just something 321 00:14:39.600 --> 00:14:42.600 I've been like really gravitating towards. And it's kind of 322 00:14:42.600 --> 00:14:45.120 obviously a change in my content, which can sometimes be 323 00:14:45.200 --> 00:14:47.360 scary when you change things up a bit. I've also 324 00:14:47.440 --> 00:14:49.720 just been having this like urged to kind of change 325 00:14:49.759 --> 00:14:51.879 things up a little bit. And you know, on the 326 00:14:51.919 --> 00:14:53.759 days where maybe I don't feel like I want to film, 327 00:14:53.799 --> 00:14:56.320 I almost like want to push myself to film because 328 00:14:56.320 --> 00:14:59.600 it shows the real raw side to me of like 329 00:15:00.120 --> 00:15:02.879 still showing up and like not always being aesthetic. And 330 00:15:03.440 --> 00:15:06.279 I don't know, I want to be filming moments where 331 00:15:06.279 --> 00:15:09.159 like I feel off and like normalize that it's okay 332 00:15:09.200 --> 00:15:12.039 to feel off and that's just the reality. And so 333 00:15:12.039 --> 00:15:14.679 social media can obviously be a highlight reel where people 334 00:15:14.720 --> 00:15:17.080 really just show the best sides of themselves. But I 335 00:15:17.120 --> 00:15:19.720 really want to open up the opportunity of sharing both 336 00:15:19.759 --> 00:15:22.080 sides where I can still have days where I feel 337 00:15:22.120 --> 00:15:24.120 aesthetic and cute and have fun. 338 00:15:23.960 --> 00:15:27.879 But also like real raw, stressed. 339 00:15:27.480 --> 00:15:29.879 Anxious, you guys know what I mean. So I'm just 340 00:15:29.879 --> 00:15:31.919 trying to like not put too much pressure on myself. 341 00:15:32.120 --> 00:15:34.600 And I don't know, I've been kind of like muting 342 00:15:34.679 --> 00:15:36.960 people who I feel like really portray like the perfect 343 00:15:36.960 --> 00:15:38.960 life and all that, and it just kind of feels 344 00:15:39.000 --> 00:15:41.039 really good to like only follow people that I think 345 00:15:41.120 --> 00:15:44.840 are very authentic and very true, and I think it's 346 00:15:44.840 --> 00:15:48.240 okay to like, you know, unfollower mute people then maybe 347 00:15:48.279 --> 00:15:50.159 just don't feel right for you, if that makes sense. 348 00:15:50.200 --> 00:15:52.480 So I don't think there's anything wrong with that, And 349 00:15:52.759 --> 00:15:55.360 I think that's almost like a digital detalks and it's 350 00:15:55.399 --> 00:15:57.360 like never say never. Maybe you can follow them back 351 00:15:57.360 --> 00:15:59.559 again in the future if you're feeling a lot better 352 00:15:59.559 --> 00:16:01.960 with yourself. But sometimes it's okay to take a bit 353 00:16:02.000 --> 00:16:04.240 of a break and follow people that really bring you 354 00:16:04.360 --> 00:16:06.799 comfort and joy for someone that might make you feel 355 00:16:06.879 --> 00:16:10.000 anxious or stressed or this pressure that you have to 356 00:16:10.000 --> 00:16:12.320 be perfect. So that's kind of like my tie into 357 00:16:13.120 --> 00:16:16.519 social media and like how I want to portray myself, 358 00:16:16.799 --> 00:16:18.399 especially being in my thirties. I think it's like a 359 00:16:18.480 --> 00:16:20.720 nice way to kind of change things up, and it's 360 00:16:20.759 --> 00:16:23.240 always fun to do something different on social media. And 361 00:16:23.279 --> 00:16:26.039 then the last thing is walking outside more. I really 362 00:16:26.039 --> 00:16:28.799 want to get to that ten to fifteen thousand step 363 00:16:28.840 --> 00:16:30.759 count again. I felt like I made that a big 364 00:16:30.799 --> 00:16:34.159 priority last summer, where I was, you know, doing two 365 00:16:34.159 --> 00:16:36.279 to three walks a day, one in the morning, when 366 00:16:36.320 --> 00:16:38.480 at lunch, one in the evening, and. 367 00:16:38.480 --> 00:16:39.120 I loved it. 368 00:16:39.200 --> 00:16:42.000 I love being outside, I love moving my body, and 369 00:16:42.039 --> 00:16:45.399 obviously now that the weather's finally getting nicer, I just 370 00:16:45.559 --> 00:16:48.480 really want to make it a priority to get. 371 00:16:48.320 --> 00:16:49.159 That step count in. 372 00:16:49.240 --> 00:16:53.120 Again, we haven't had the most perfect spring yet, I 373 00:16:53.120 --> 00:16:55.399 would say, like I kind of said in the beginning, 374 00:16:55.399 --> 00:16:57.559 but we had a snow day yesterday, and then this 375 00:16:57.679 --> 00:17:00.960 morning all the snow melted because the web is getting warmer. 376 00:17:01.039 --> 00:17:02.879 It's just kind of like the odd day where it'll 377 00:17:02.919 --> 00:17:05.960 be really really nice and then really really shitty. So 378 00:17:06.000 --> 00:17:07.640 I'm just trying to like make it a priority where 379 00:17:07.680 --> 00:17:09.440 if it's like a really nice day, I need to 380 00:17:09.440 --> 00:17:12.559 like force myself to go outside walk get that sunlight in. 381 00:17:12.640 --> 00:17:13.400 And then the days that. 382 00:17:13.359 --> 00:17:16.400 Are like rainy or snowy, you know, I don't have 383 00:17:16.440 --> 00:17:18.960 to force myself. But anyways, I just really want to 384 00:17:19.440 --> 00:17:23.079 enjoy some sunlight, enjoy some walking, some movement, and just 385 00:17:23.119 --> 00:17:27.039 really prioritize that this month, because obviously April is one 386 00:17:27.079 --> 00:17:29.920 step closer to May, which to me, May is like 387 00:17:30.039 --> 00:17:32.319 the start of summer in my opinion, because the weather 388 00:17:32.400 --> 00:17:36.519 finally gets really nice out and more enjoyable, and April's 389 00:17:36.640 --> 00:17:39.599 just kind of like the small step towards that also 390 00:17:39.720 --> 00:17:42.000 super random. But I was at the grocery store this 391 00:17:42.039 --> 00:17:45.119 morning and they were setting up the greenhouse for all 392 00:17:45.319 --> 00:17:48.119 the flowers, and I was like, oh my gosh, this 393 00:17:48.160 --> 00:17:51.000 could not be more summer vibes. In my opinion, it 394 00:17:51.160 --> 00:17:54.039 just screamed excitement for me. I was like, oh my god, 395 00:17:54.079 --> 00:17:58.119 we're finally like over that hump of just the shitty winters. 396 00:17:58.160 --> 00:17:59.920 And anyways, it was like the best thing to see 397 00:17:59.920 --> 00:18:02.039 you today. It's funny because if you live in Texas 398 00:18:02.160 --> 00:18:05.000 or Australia or like anywhere that's like constantly warm, I 399 00:18:05.000 --> 00:18:07.839 feel like you don't get the high that US Canadians 400 00:18:07.880 --> 00:18:10.240 are feeling, or any Americans that might be living in 401 00:18:10.279 --> 00:18:11.319