WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.520 --> 00:00:03.799 This is not a lesson in optimism. It is a discipline, 2 00:00:04.360 --> 00:00:07.400 a way of thinking and acting that makes every moment 3 00:00:07.559 --> 00:00:11.480 worth repeating, even the ones that broke you. Most people 4 00:00:11.519 --> 00:00:15.400 hear the idea of eternal recurrence and imagine a cosmic loop, 5 00:00:15.679 --> 00:00:19.920 a fantasy of time repeating itself forever. But nietzscha never 6 00:00:20.039 --> 00:00:23.719 cared about physics. He cared about what this question does 7 00:00:23.760 --> 00:00:28.079 to your spine. The demon is not real. The question 8 00:00:28.320 --> 00:00:31.960 is because the moment you ask yourself, could I live 9 00:00:32.039 --> 00:00:35.799 this life again exactly as it is, you are forced 10 00:00:35.840 --> 00:00:38.560 to see how much of it you've built on lies 11 00:00:38.679 --> 00:00:42.840 you quietly tolerate. The test is not whether the world repeats, 12 00:00:43.280 --> 00:00:46.880 but whether you deserve it to. Nietzsche designed the question 13 00:00:47.240 --> 00:00:51.200 as a moral trap. It eliminates every comfort we borrow 14 00:00:51.240 --> 00:00:55.920 from religion, optimism, or the future. It leaves you naked 15 00:00:56.159 --> 00:00:59.240 in front of the present, stripped of every promise that 16 00:00:59.359 --> 00:01:03.240 something better will arrive. You can no longer hide behind 17 00:01:03.320 --> 00:01:08.000 next time. There is no next time. Eternal recurrence burns 18 00:01:08.120 --> 00:01:13.239 every illusion of progress until only one thing remains, your 19 00:01:13.439 --> 00:01:18.400 ability to justify your own existence. Here. Now, look at 20 00:01:18.400 --> 00:01:24.159 the average life forty years of repetition, disguised as stability, work, rest, 21 00:01:24.400 --> 00:01:29.400 repeat every week, identical to the last, every choice made 22 00:01:29.480 --> 00:01:33.040 to avoid discomfort, and at the end a man looks 23 00:01:33.040 --> 00:01:36.000 back and says, if I had the chance, I'd do 24 00:01:36.120 --> 00:01:39.719 it differently. Nietzsche's demon asks, what if you don't get 25 00:01:39.760 --> 00:01:44.879 that chance? Before every major decision, run the test, Write 26 00:01:44.879 --> 00:01:47.680 it down if you must. If I had to live 27 00:01:47.760 --> 00:01:51.319 this moment forever, would I still choose it. If the 28 00:01:51.359 --> 00:01:55.560 answer is no, you are already rehearsing regret, Fix it 29 00:01:55.640 --> 00:01:59.879 now before time makes the decision permanent. Nietzsche's test is 30 00:02:00.159 --> 00:02:04.079 not punishment, it is purification. The question is simple, but 31 00:02:04.159 --> 00:02:07.920 it is merciless, and that's why it works. Most people 32 00:02:07.959 --> 00:02:12.639 misunderstand amor fati. They think it means acceptance, a stoic 33 00:02:12.719 --> 00:02:16.199 shrug that says, I guess this is my fate. But 34 00:02:16.280 --> 00:02:20.199 Nietzsche meant something far more radical. To love your fate 35 00:02:20.400 --> 00:02:24.360 is to shape it, to treat every wound, every failure, 36 00:02:24.479 --> 00:02:29.639 as raw material for creation. The words themselves tell the story. 37 00:02:30.199 --> 00:02:35.280 Amor comes before fati, love comes before fate. It means 38 00:02:35.439 --> 00:02:38.520 you do not wait for life to make sense. You 39 00:02:38.599 --> 00:02:42.000 give it form, like an artist turning pain into design. 40 00:02:42.560 --> 00:02:46.719 Nietzsche saw amor fati as an act of strength, not surrender. 41 00:02:47.240 --> 00:02:51.960 The weak endure their circumstances, the strong transformed them. It 42 00:02:52.039 --> 00:02:55.080 is not enough to bear what happens. You must love 43 00:02:55.120 --> 00:02:58.400 it so completely that it becomes part of your authorship. 44 00:02:58.879 --> 00:03:01.680 In the Birth of Tragedy, he admired the Greeks for 45 00:03:01.759 --> 00:03:05.439 this power to turn suffering into beauty, to say yes 46 00:03:05.479 --> 00:03:08.919 to life even when it breaks them. That yes is 47 00:03:09.000 --> 00:03:12.560 the sound of power. Think about the moments you call failures, 48 00:03:12.680 --> 00:03:17.319 the job that ended, the relationship that collapsed, the version 49 00:03:17.360 --> 00:03:21.400 of you that didn't make it. Nietzsche would say, take 50 00:03:21.560 --> 00:03:25.319 them all, hammer them into something that can stand. You 51 00:03:25.400 --> 00:03:28.080 are not meant to escape pain. You are meant to 52 00:03:28.159 --> 00:03:32.400 mold it. Try this. Pick one event that still stings. 53 00:03:32.800 --> 00:03:36.080 Write down three ways it forced you to grow, new insight, 54 00:03:36.360 --> 00:03:39.919 new patience, new skill. Read it out loud each morning 55 00:03:40.039 --> 00:03:43.879 for seven days. This is not self help. It is training. 56 00:03:44.560 --> 00:03:47.960 You are teaching your mind to sculpt reality instead of 57 00:03:48.039 --> 00:03:51.879 resenting it. Nietzsche called that the highest art, to make 58 00:03:52.000 --> 00:03:56.159 every necessity beautiful, because when you can do that, regret 59 00:03:56.319 --> 00:04:00.639 becomes impossible. Everything that once broke you become a line 60 00:04:00.680 --> 00:04:04.560 in the masterpiece you are still creating. Most regret doesn't 61 00:04:04.599 --> 00:04:08.919 come from failure. It comes from obedience, from living under 62 00:04:09.039 --> 00:04:13.439 rules you never chose. Nietzsche called this the tragedy of 63 00:04:13.520 --> 00:04:17.639 inherited morality, the silent weight of laws written by men 64 00:04:17.720 --> 00:04:21.439 long dead, still whispering what a good life should look like. 65 00:04:21.959 --> 00:04:25.839 We wake up each day and serve those ghosts. Work hard, 66 00:04:26.079 --> 00:04:30.000 be humble, play safe, And when the years pass we 67 00:04:30.120 --> 00:04:34.240 wonder why our victories feel hollow. It's because the script 68 00:04:34.600 --> 00:04:38.879 was never yours. In on the Genealogy of morals, Nietzsche 69 00:04:39.040 --> 00:04:43.839 shows how moral codes are manufactured, not discovered. The virtues 70 00:04:43.879 --> 00:04:48.600 we worship, humility, sacrifice, diligence were tools created by the 71 00:04:48.639 --> 00:04:53.839 powerless to tame the powerful. It was revenge disguised as goodness. 72 00:04:54.439 --> 00:04:58.720 Over centuries, those values hardened into social law. So when 73 00:04:58.759 --> 00:05:03.759 you feel regretssk yourself, whose morality just judged me? If 74 00:05:03.759 --> 00:05:06.839 the answer is not your own, then the guilt you 75 00:05:06.920 --> 00:05:11.240 feel is just history speaking through you. Think about the 76 00:05:11.279 --> 00:05:15.920 slogans you repeat without thought. Work hard and you'll succeed. 77 00:05:16.439 --> 00:05:21.199 Be patient, good things come. Each of these promises served 78 00:05:21.319 --> 00:05:26.040 a master somewhere, a church, a factory, a government, none 79 00:05:26.040 --> 00:05:31.319 of them promised you freedom. They promised compliance. Nietzsche's genealogy 80 00:05:31.560 --> 00:05:36.000 was not cynicism. It was therapy, a way to amputate 81 00:05:36.079 --> 00:05:39.920 inherited commandments so you could finally walk on your own. 82 00:05:40.480 --> 00:05:43.879 Take a pen tonight, write down five rules you live by. 83 00:05:44.199 --> 00:05:49.000 For each one, Ask who profits from it, family, company, tradition, fear. 84 00:05:49.600 --> 00:05:53.639 If the answer isn't you erase it, then replace it 85 00:05:53.680 --> 00:05:56.839 with one line you can defend with your life. That 86 00:05:57.120 --> 00:06:01.040 is the beginning of self legislation, the only cure for 87 00:06:01.480 --> 00:06:05.560 moral regret, because the most dangerous prison is the one 88 00:06:05.639 --> 00:06:09.000 built out of virtues you never questioned. There is a 89 00:06:09.079 --> 00:06:14.319 quiet poison that seeps into modern life, resentment disguised as virtue. 90 00:06:14.720 --> 00:06:19.040 Nietzsche called it resentiment, a sickness that turns weakness into 91 00:06:19.120 --> 00:06:23.720 moral superiority. When a man cannot act, he justifies his 92 00:06:23.800 --> 00:06:27.879 inaction by declaring it righteous. He says, I could have, 93 00:06:28.600 --> 00:06:32.160 but I'm better than that. Over time, he builds a 94 00:06:32.199 --> 00:06:37.160 moral castle out of excuses. Inside that castle, regret grows 95 00:06:37.560 --> 00:06:42.240 like mold. In on the Genealogy of Morals, Nietzsche described 96 00:06:42.240 --> 00:06:47.240 how this poison built entire civilizations the powerless, unable to 97 00:06:47.279 --> 00:06:51.600 strike back, redefined strength as evil and weakness as good. 98 00:06:52.120 --> 00:06:56.279 They reversed the meaning of virtue to survive their own helplessness. 99 00:06:56.920 --> 00:07:01.120 The result is a culture that rewards compliance and shame's ambition. 100 00:07:01.720 --> 00:07:05.279 We praise modesty, we condemn will, and then we wonder 101 00:07:05.319 --> 00:07:10.319 why men rot from quiet bitterness. Resentiment doesn't just infect morality. 102 00:07:10.519 --> 00:07:14.639 It mass produces regret, because if your virtue comes from 103 00:07:14.639 --> 00:07:17.639 what you can't do, you will spend your life haunted 104 00:07:17.680 --> 00:07:20.319 by what you never did. Look at how it plays 105 00:07:20.319 --> 00:07:26.040 out now online outrage envy hidden behind moral critique. We 106 00:07:26.079 --> 00:07:32.360 call success greedy, confidence, arrogant, risk, immoral. Each accusation is 107 00:07:32.399 --> 00:07:36.600 a confession I wanted to but I couldn't, And instead 108 00:07:36.639 --> 00:07:40.560 of changing ourselves, we rewrite the rules to punish those 109 00:07:40.800 --> 00:07:45.480 who can. That's how resentiment feeds itself, by keeping the 110 00:07:45.519 --> 00:07:49.399 strong ashamed and the weak righteous. If you feel that 111 00:07:49.480 --> 00:07:55.000 bitterness rising, stop moralizing it. Flip it every time envy speaks, act, 112 00:07:55.319 --> 00:08:01.240 create something right, build, lift, learn anything that proves you 113 00:08:01.360 --> 00:08:04.519 still have. Will do it for seven days and you 114 00:08:04.560 --> 00:08:08.319 will feel the venom drain out. Nietzsche wasn't telling you 115 00:08:08.519 --> 00:08:12.199 to suppress resentment. He was telling you to transmute it, 116 00:08:12.600 --> 00:08:16.560 to turn poison into power. Because the instant you act 117 00:08:16.800 --> 00:08:20.120 regret loses its source, and that is what it means 118 00:08:20.160 --> 00:08:23.360 to be free from the morality of the defeated. The 119 00:08:23.439 --> 00:08:28.839 phrase will to power frightens people. They hear domination, conquest, ego, 120 00:08:29.439 --> 00:08:33.759 But Nietzsche meant something far deeper, the impulse to expand, 121 00:08:34.039 --> 00:08:38.679 to create, to give form to chaos. Every living thing 122 00:08:38.840 --> 00:08:43.840 has this will, and when it's suppressed, life decays into obedience. 123 00:08:44.799 --> 00:08:48.759 For Nietzsche, power was not control over others. It was 124 00:08:48.919 --> 00:08:52.960 authorship over one's own values. The moment you start creating 125 00:08:53.039 --> 00:08:56.600 instead of conforming, you stop living like a consumer of 126 00:08:56.720 --> 00:09:00.320 meaning and start living like its maker. In Beyond Good 127 00:09:00.320 --> 00:09:03.559 and Evil, he warns that the greatest danger of modern 128 00:09:03.600 --> 00:09:08.000 morality is mediocrity, the flattening of the soul until no 129 00:09:08.039 --> 00:09:12.039 one dares to define good and evil for themselves. We 130 00:09:12.120 --> 00:09:17.200 outsource value to corporations, to religions, to social approval. Then 131 00:09:17.240 --> 00:09:21.720 we wonder why our success feels empty. A life without 132 00:09:21.799 --> 00:09:26.440 creation becomes a life of silent service, and service repeated 133 00:09:26.480 --> 00:09:30.200 long enough becomes regret. Think about the men who build 134 00:09:30.240 --> 00:09:34.600 something that carries their signature, a book, a company, a movement. 135 00:09:35.279 --> 00:09:38.360 Even if it fails, it stands as proof they lived 136 00:09:38.399 --> 00:09:41.159 by their own rule. The man who spends his life 137 00:09:41.240 --> 00:09:46.360 chasing approval never leaves a trace, only receipts. Nietzsche's cure 138 00:09:46.519 --> 00:09:52.200 for regret is simple. Create the act itself redeems existence. 139 00:09:52.799 --> 00:09:56.200 This week, make one thing that outlives your attention span, 140 00:09:56.919 --> 00:10:00.879 a small artifact that bears your name. Don't make it perfect, 141 00:10:01.159 --> 00:10:05.000 make it yours, Publish it, show it, stand by it. 142 00:10:05.559 --> 00:10:09.480 Because every creation, no matter how small, is a rebellion 143 00:10:09.559 --> 00:10:13.519 against regret. Power is not the privilege of the few. 144 00:10:14.120 --> 00:10:16.759 It is the right of anyone willing to turn will 145 00:10:16.919 --> 00:10:20.960 into form. Nietzsche knew that even creation can turn into 146 00:10:21.000 --> 00:10:24.679 comfort if it's never challenged. That's why he called life 147 00:10:24.720 --> 00:10:28.440 a cycle of self overcoming, a constant shedding of the 148 00:10:28.480 --> 00:10:32.679 skins that once kept you safe. In Thus spoke Zarathustra. 149 00:10:33.080 --> 00:10:37.320 He described three metamorphoses of the spirit, the camel that 150 00:10:37.440 --> 00:10:40.960 bears its burdens, the lion that says no, and the 151 00:10:41.080 --> 00:10:45.639 child that creates without fear. It isn't myth, it's the 152 00:10:45.720 --> 00:10:49.440 rhythm of growth every strong man must live through again 153 00:10:49.679 --> 00:10:53.360 and again. The camel phase is duty you carry what 154 00:10:53.519 --> 00:10:57.799 must be carried. The lion phase is revolt. You destroy 155 00:10:57.960 --> 00:11:01.559 the old masters, even the ones inside you. The child 156 00:11:01.679 --> 00:11:06.159 phase is creation. You forget fear and build again. But 157 00:11:06.200 --> 00:11:10.159 then the circle restarts, because once the child grows comfortable, 158 00:11:10.399 --> 00:11:13.799 he becomes the camel once more. That is why Nietzsche's 159 00:11:13.919 --> 00:11:18.679 cure for regret is not a destination, its motion. The 160 00:11:18.720 --> 00:11:22.440 modern man stops changing the moment he's praised for stability. 161 00:11:22.879 --> 00:11:26.279 He calls it maturity, but Nietzsche would call it death. 162 00:11:26.799 --> 00:11:32.080 Stagnation is the slowest form of suicide. To live without regret, 163 00:11:32.360 --> 00:11:37.240 you must continually outgrow yourself, not by chasing new pleasures, 164 00:11:37.279 --> 00:11:41.039 but by daring to break your last identity. Start the 165 00:11:41.080 --> 00:11:44.360 twenty one day cycle for seven days, carry the weight 166 00:11:44.440 --> 00:11:49.000 you've avoided for seven destroy one rule you've outgrown for 167 00:11:49.120 --> 00:11:53.600 seven more, create something new, then repeat. This is how 168 00:11:53.639 --> 00:11:57.919 you keep life from hardening into what if. The man 169 00:11:57.960 --> 00:12:01.519 who never stops overcoming never runs out of reasons to live. 170 00:12:02.080 --> 00:12:07.120 Nietzsche ended where most philosophers begin, not with despair but 171 00:12:07.159 --> 00:12:10.720 with laughter. He believed that the highest wisdom is to 172 00:12:10.799 --> 00:12:14.120 say yes to life, even when it crushes you. In 173 00:12:14.200 --> 00:12:17.480 the Birth of Tragedy, he wrote that the Greeks understood 174 00:12:17.519 --> 00:12:21.919 something modern man has forgotten. Life is unbearable only when 175 00:12:21.960 --> 00:12:25.879 you refuse to dance with it. To affirm existence is 176 00:12:25.960 --> 00:12:28.960 not to deny its pain, but to give it rhythm, 177 00:12:29.159 --> 00:12:32.279 to turn it into art. The world tells you that 178 00:12:32.360 --> 00:12:37.639 happiness means avoiding suffering. Nietzsche calls that cowardice. Pain is 179 00:12:37.720 --> 00:12:41.360 not an interruption of life. It is life revealing itself. 180 00:12:41.919 --> 00:12:44.159 The question is not how to escape it, but how 181 00:12:44.200 --> 00:12:48.279 to shape it. Every tragedy can become beautiful once you 182 00:12:48.399 --> 00:12:51.879 decide to frame it. The artist and the free spirit 183 00:12:51.960 --> 00:12:55.720 share one secret. They both know how to suffer well. 184 00:12:56.360 --> 00:12:58.919 Look at the people who have turned their losses into 185 00:12:58.960 --> 00:13:04.360 stories perform Mins's wisdom. They are not saints, they are sculptors. 186 00:13:04.879 --> 00:13:07.480 They took the chaos that broke them and turned it 187 00:13:07.519 --> 00:13:11.039 into something worth looking at. That is why they do 188 00:13:11.120 --> 00:13:15.519 not envy the happy. They create their own kind of joy, 189 00:13:16.200 --> 00:13:20.639 tragic joy, the laughter that comes when you realize nothing 190 00:13:20.720 --> 00:13:25.279 can take away your ability to give meaning. Try this practice. 191 00:13:25.559 --> 00:13:29.279 Each day, take one painful memory and write it as 192 00:13:29.320 --> 00:13:34.559 a scene. No lesson, no message, Just describe it as art. 193 00:13:35.000 --> 00:13:37.399 At the end of the month, read them out loud, 194 00:13:37.759 --> 00:13:42.840 that laughter that comes through the tears, that is Dionysian freedom. 195 00:13:43.080 --> 00:13:46.440 The moment you can laugh at fate, it loses its teeth, 196 00:13:47.080 --> 00:13:50.399 because to laugh is to say yes, even to the 197 00:13:50.480 --> 00:13:53.919 things that once made you beg for no, And that 198 00:13:54.080 --> 00:13:56.840 yes is the sound of a man who will never 199 00:13:56.919 --> 00:14:01.360 regret his life again. Regret does not disappear by thinking. 200 00:14:02.120 --> 00:14:06.960 Nietzsche would say that reflection without transformation is just vanity 201 00:14:07.080 --> 00:14:10.799 disguised as growth. To escape regret, you must act in 202 00:14:10.840 --> 00:14:14.919 a way that could face eternity without shame. The next 203 00:14:15.039 --> 00:14:18.679 ninety days are not an experiment. They are proof that 204 00:14:18.720 --> 00:14:22.440 philosophy can move. For the first three days, do an 205 00:14:22.480 --> 00:14:26.360 audit of your life. Write down ten decisions that still 206 00:14:26.440 --> 00:14:30.440 haunt you. For each one, ask which voice made that choice. 207 00:14:30.879 --> 00:14:34.679 Was it fear? Was it duty? Was it the approval 208 00:14:34.720 --> 00:14:38.279 of others? Then at the bottom of the page, write 209 00:14:38.360 --> 00:14:41.799 a single line. If I must live this life forever, 210 00:14:42.320 --> 00:14:46.039 I vow to own every decision from this day forward, 211 00:14:46.559 --> 00:14:50.960 Sign it, place it somewhere you cannot ignore. This is 212 00:14:51.000 --> 00:14:55.360 your oath, the beginning of self ownership. From day four 213 00:14:55.559 --> 00:14:59.840 to day thirty, cut the borrowed scripts before every choice, 214 00:15:00.039 --> 00:15:04.679 pause and ask yourself the eternal question, would I do 215 00:15:04.799 --> 00:15:09.200 this again and again? If the answer is no, change it. 216 00:15:09.600 --> 00:15:13.440 Do not delay, Do not debate. Each hesitation is the 217 00:15:13.480 --> 00:15:17.960 seed of another regret. Then perform the law audit. Write 218 00:15:18.000 --> 00:15:21.879 five rules you obey without thinking. Choose one and break 219 00:15:21.919 --> 00:15:26.559 it consciously. Not for rebellion, but for authorship. A man 220 00:15:26.600 --> 00:15:29.720 cannot create a new life while living by the commandments 221 00:15:29.759 --> 00:15:33.600 of the dead. From day thirty one to sixty, build value. 222 00:15:33.799 --> 00:15:37.799 Create one thing that bears your signature, a project, a craft, 223 00:15:38.039 --> 00:15:40.759 a record of work that will exist when you are gone. 224 00:15:41.320 --> 00:15:44.559 Begin the twenty one day cycle that Nietzsche would call 225 00:15:45.039 --> 00:15:50.440 self overcoming. Seven days of bearing responsibility, seven days of 226 00:15:50.480 --> 00:15:53.879 saying no to what no longer serves you, Seven days 227 00:15:54.000 --> 00:15:57.799 of creating something new. The product does not matter, the 228 00:15:57.879 --> 00:16:02.799 proof does. From days sixty one to ninety, embody amor fati. 229 00:16:03.279 --> 00:16:06.360 Each morning, write down one event from the day before 230 00:16:06.399 --> 00:16:10.600 and three ways it strengthened you. Each week, turn one 231 00:16:10.720 --> 00:16:14.720 wound into form. Speak it, paint it, build it, give 232 00:16:14.759 --> 00:16:19.320 it shape. When you do this long enough, suffering becomes material, 233 00:16:19.440 --> 00:16:24.440 not memory. Every night, end with one question, if this 234 00:16:24.600 --> 00:16:28.519 day repeated forever, would I live it again? You will 235 00:16:28.559 --> 00:16:32.679 not always answer yes. That is not failure. That is 236 00:16:32.759 --> 00:16:36.200 the work, because the man who dares to face eternity, 237 00:16:36.440 --> 00:16:39.559 even in a single day, is already free from it. 238 00:16:40.039 --> 00:16:45.240 Nietzsche never promised comfort, He promised clarity. To live without 239 00:16:45.360 --> 00:16:48.720 regret is not to live without pain. It is to 240 00:16:48.799 --> 00:16:52.840 face pain without apology. Most people look for a meaning 241 00:16:52.919 --> 00:16:56.080 that will save them. Nietzsche wanted you to become the 242 00:16:56.159 --> 00:17:00.440 meaning itself. When you stop waiting for life to explain itself, 243 00:17:00.919 --> 00:17:05.119 you begin to write its language. Regret exists only in 244 00:17:05.200 --> 00:17:08.440 the mind that thinks it could have done otherwise. But 245 00:17:08.559 --> 00:17:12.759 the man who has claimed his fate knows better every moment, 246 00:17:12.920 --> 00:17:16.359 even the mistakes belong to him. They are part of 247 00:17:16.440 --> 00:17:20.880 the same composition. The question is no longer why things happened, 248 00:17:21.400 --> 00:17:23.839 but what you will make of them Now. There is 249 00:17:23.920 --> 00:17:27.559 no heaven of second chances. There is only this day, 250 00:17:27.799 --> 00:17:31.880 repeated forever. That is the weight and the gift of 251 00:17:31.920 --> 00:17:36.119 being alive. So live as if the demon is watching. Live, 252 00:17:36.240 --> 00:17:39.519 as if this life will echo for eternity, because in 253 00:17:39.599 --> 00:17:44.880 truth it already does. Tonight, test yourself, Take one decision 254 00:17:44.920 --> 00:17:47.920 you've been avoiding, and ask the question, if I had 255 00:17:47.960 --> 00:17:50.960 to live this moment forever, would I still choose it? 256 00:17:51.440 --> 00:17:55.359 Write your answer, say it out loud, then act on 257 00:17:55.480 --> 00:17:58.880 it before the day ends. When you do, you'll feel 258 00:17:58.880 --> 00:18:02.200 it the first taste of a life without regret.