Speaker 1: What have you been up to? Miss lady?
Speaker 2: Hello, and thank you for having me here. I haven't
Speaker 2: seen you in so long. How many years has it been?
Speaker 3: I mean I have to throw out at least two,
Speaker 3: but I feel like even prior to that, because you know,
Speaker 3: I hadn't really shot anything in quite some time, and
Speaker 3: really the only time we really saw stuff was that
Speaker 3: at conventions, and then you stopped doing conventions, and.
Speaker 1: I don't really know, yeah, because then I did.
Speaker 3: I did go to your house You're, which was really
Speaker 3: cool because Lexi, but you weren't there, which I thought
Speaker 3: was so I kind of felt like I saw you,
Speaker 3: but I didn't really see you physically. But yeah, it
Speaker 3: was beautiful place. It was really cool. It is like
Speaker 3: a you're it's so you. I will say that, it's
Speaker 3: like very I was trying to describe it earlier. I
Speaker 3: was like, it's like you're like a fairy tale princess
Speaker 3: in your own fairy tale, which is cool to have
Speaker 3: that and preserve that like rareness and specialness. I think
Speaker 3: is like, you know, really kind of you take detail
Speaker 3: to a lot of things that people don't really kind
Speaker 3: of see.
Speaker 1: So I think it's cool to see you. Thanks for
Speaker 1: coming there. I forgot about that. That's so cool.
Speaker 3: Yeah, So what inspired you to do even like your
Speaker 3: house that way? I mean like as far as like
Speaker 3: you know, like I said, it's like the cottage style,
Speaker 3: Like you're like, did it come from you know, like
Speaker 3: your mom does design and stuff like that. Did you
Speaker 3: have like inspiration from her? Did you always want like
Speaker 3: that fairy tale kind of look or did just kind
Speaker 3: of like overtime just you just added your little touches
Speaker 3: here and it became this magical place because it is
Speaker 3: quite magical.
Speaker 1: It is magical. Yeah.
Speaker 2: I grew up in a house that was not as whimsical,
Speaker 2: but definitely like a cottage vibe. So when I saw
Speaker 2: that house, I was like, oh, reminds me of my childhood.
Speaker 1: And so.
Speaker 2: I actually originally got it just because the yard was
Speaker 2: big enough to house my pot bellied pigs.
Speaker 1: That you met.
Speaker 2: And uh, then it needed quite a bit of just
Speaker 2: like maintenance and work, and we wiited it all out
Speaker 2: and then I just kind of got carried.
Speaker 1: Away with the fairy tale theme.
Speaker 3: Carried away, I like how you tell on yourself. Da,
Speaker 3: But okay, awareness is here, Tasha, I.
Speaker 2: Laughed, Yeah, I mean it is themed, like I love
Speaker 2: a good theme, which I feel like makes sense because
Speaker 2: I love themes im porn too, but.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I know talking about that too. I can't wait.
Speaker 1: Yeah no, But I moved.
Speaker 2: Out of that house after I had moved in to
Speaker 2: live with an ex boyfriend, and then I started airbnbing
Speaker 2: it out, and that's kind of when I was like, Oh,
Speaker 2: it should be a theme. People will come here just
Speaker 2: to like be in a themed environment.
Speaker 1: How did that happen? Yes?
Speaker 2: And it was like really cool and lucrative. And then
Speaker 2: when I moved back in, I was like, well, I'm
Speaker 2: living in this now.
Speaker 3: So was it just as much like excitement for you
Speaker 3: to have other people experiment or experience that excitement too,
Speaker 3: because it seems like that's like the whole part of
Speaker 3: your theme. Like you know, you're doing Airbnb, they're reviewing it.
Speaker 3: Do you do you get that as much excitement from
Speaker 3: the other side as well?
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I really loved when people came to stay at the
Speaker 2: house and enjoyed themselves. And I still do like photo shoots.
Speaker 2: There somebody shooting a music video on Monday, which I'm
Speaker 2: excited about. I love other people being in a space
Speaker 2: that I created and enjoying themselves.
Speaker 3: So yeah, so you said themes and porn. What kind
Speaker 3: of porn themes do you like? And have you done
Speaker 3: for I'm sure you're only fans.
Speaker 1: What I feel like?
Speaker 2: I really just stop at my only fans game. I'm
Speaker 2: not gonna lie to you. It's like a lot of amateur.
Speaker 3: No no themes showing here at Antasha Rains.
Speaker 1: I mean, oh my god, where you talking about themes?
Speaker 3: Were you talking about more like the parody side of
Speaker 3: porn or just like what kind of theme?
Speaker 1: So like, are you speaking out? I don't like I
Speaker 1: don't like parodies personally. I don't know why.
Speaker 3: That was that because you played a bad character the
Speaker 3: one and got like a really bad wig, because I've
Speaker 3: had that happened to me. I had to play it
Speaker 3: was a Fraser parody and I was a Fraser's ex wife,
Speaker 3: which I don't even know, but like Phyllis or something
Speaker 3: like that. With the she gave me this crazy black hair,
Speaker 3: curly hair wig that was so awful that I was like,
Speaker 3: please don't ever hire me for something that I have
Speaker 3: to wear these Like No, I don't want to be
Speaker 3: painted blue. I don't want to do any of those things.
Speaker 3: So I didn't do a lot of.
Speaker 1: I didn't do a lot of parodies. I feel like
Speaker 1: I kind of doshed in a way. I mean I
Speaker 1: did feel like he said.
Speaker 3: I mean I did the generic ones, like I was
Speaker 3: Kelly from nine oh two one O parity. I did
Speaker 3: an office thing, but I was just like an office chick.
Speaker 3: I wasn't like everything was like the basic chick. I
Speaker 3: could do those things. I just didn't like doing those things.
Speaker 3: I think I was in some maybe like AI movie
Speaker 3: for Wicked at one point, but my role was very minor,
Speaker 3: was more sex driven, you know what I mean. So
Speaker 3: I didn't really have to do all that stuff. It
Speaker 3: was maybe a motorcycle thing again, a sexual like they
Speaker 3: knew what I was good at. They kept with what
Speaker 3: was going on. There was a pattern here, and I'm
Speaker 3: okay with it. Like I didn't really think, you know,
Speaker 3: I didn't. I didn't care so much about the acting.
Speaker 3: I just wanted to get straight down to the point.
Speaker 1: And oh having that, Yeah, that makes sense.
Speaker 2: So for me, it's I feel like a much deeper
Speaker 2: issue with parodies, like I okay, So I feel like
Speaker 2: parodies it's almost like you're making fun of either, Like
Speaker 2: what it is you're portraying or even of yourself, and
Speaker 2: it's like this kind of comedy routine that's involved. Even
Speaker 2: if the parody isn't funny, it's supposed to kind of be. Yeah,
Speaker 2: and I just like, I'm not a comedian, but we're acting.
Speaker 1: It's like, you know, it's porn. It's not all real there.
Speaker 3: You know you've been one hundred and second when you're
Speaker 3: watching movies in mainstream, it's not really it's portrayed as no.
Speaker 2: One hundred percent. But I actually think about this all
Speaker 2: the time. I'm always like, I wish there was another
Speaker 2: word for I've been performer.
Speaker 1: I feel like it's like a legit word.
Speaker 2: I like that, like there's not a lot of kind
Speaker 2: of stigma associated with the word performer. But I just
Speaker 2: feel like when when I think of porn that I
Speaker 2: like to do, it's just a little bit more not
Speaker 2: even vanilla, but just like just not comedy porn.
Speaker 1: It's just not what I like. So what do you like?
Speaker 1: Tell tell private talk? Which you like? Hmmm, Like what
Speaker 1: kind of porn I like to be in? Yeah?
Speaker 2: Oh okay, So I'm most comfortable in porn where it's pretty,
Speaker 2: you know, a pretty mainstream. I don't want to say vanilla,
Speaker 2: because I do like a little bit of S and M.
Speaker 2: But I like to feel glamorous and pretty and just
Speaker 2: kind of not pushing myself too much to too many extremes,
Speaker 2: like out of my comfort zone. So just kind of
Speaker 2: I guess it is kind of vanilla porn.
Speaker 1: I do enjoy that.
Speaker 2: I feel like I know what to expect. It's the
Speaker 2: same thing. You look pretty, you have sex.
Speaker 1: I like that. But when somebody paints you blue as
Speaker 1: an alien, you're like, I mean, I totally get.
Speaker 3: Like I said, I have never been painted blue ever
Speaker 3: I have You're wicked.
Speaker 1: No, Yeah, I was blue. It looked good. But was
Speaker 1: your vagina blue? You know what I could be?
Speaker 2: It could have just been my lips that were blue.
Speaker 2: And I'm thinking my whole alpha and my whole outpha was.
Speaker 3: How do you go from your whole body to your lips, Sashia,
Speaker 3: I just felt.
Speaker 1: Like it was going on here. You're right now.
Speaker 3: I know that there's no rose in you because you
Speaker 3: got a baby and oven over there, and so I
Speaker 3: know that you can't go from I was paying a
Speaker 3: completely blue to wait.
Speaker 1: It might have been just my lips and what lips
Speaker 1: are you talking about?
Speaker 3: Could you imagine you just get blue lips on the set,
Speaker 3: because blue lips are not fun for anybody.
Speaker 1: I hope you know what that is. I think it
Speaker 1: would be the opposite of a blue ball. There we go.
Speaker 1: Have you ever had that? Yes, it's the worst. I
Speaker 1: think I've had that too, Like.
Speaker 3: Men suck at doing that because I feel like and
Speaker 3: that's also why for me as a woman, and like
Speaker 3: being more communicative or like being a better communicator with
Speaker 3: my partner at the time, because like sometimes it'd be
Speaker 3: really great, but I wouldn't be saying like, oh, don't
Speaker 3: stop or whatever, and then they tell them like, what's
Speaker 3: wrong with you? I'm like, yeah, they can't really read
Speaker 3: my mind either. So you've gotten better at being vocal
Speaker 3: and demanding, not demanding, but saying what I like and
Speaker 3: in a non like cause it's also weird too, like
Speaker 3: being your personal life where it's like I don't want
Speaker 3: to be too porno. I'man like directing someone what to do.
Speaker 3: I don't want to teach you. I don't want to
Speaker 3: do anything. I just want it to be a great time.
Speaker 3: Why can't we just show up and just know what
Speaker 3: we want so talking about a great time.
Speaker 1: You definitely had a great time already. Care you had
Speaker 1: a good time, So tell us about this new adventure
Speaker 1: of yours. Oh, I'm so excited.
Speaker 3: So I know it's been something you've been wanting for
Speaker 3: a really long time. I followed, like, you know, like
Speaker 3: you said, your journey through everything that you've gone through,
Speaker 3: and you know, I think that it was really cool
Speaker 3: of you as well to be so open and like
Speaker 3: advocate for people like yourself, like you or adamant you
Speaker 3: wanted to have a child, like in your last relationship,
Speaker 3: you know that wasn't something that worked out, but he
Speaker 3: also was something that as an adult I thought was
Speaker 3: really good communication. If that's not what he wanted, you wanted,
Speaker 3: and it's you know, setting boundaries and standards for yourself
Speaker 3: and you know, letting yourself know that. Look with this
Speaker 3: beautiful chapter Mint, you know, and everything happens for a reason.
Speaker 3: So I think it's really cool of you and very
Speaker 3: honorable to see you kind of portray your life in
Speaker 3: the limelight that you have it but also give your
Speaker 3: own voice to it.
Speaker 1: And it's been a beautiful thing. Thank you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, the decision to like be so vocal on Instagram
Speaker 2: about my baby journey was like kind of difficult. I
Speaker 2: thought at first, like I'll just keep this private, and
Speaker 2: then I'm like, you know what other people are struggling
Speaker 2: with this and should know about like fertility and about
Speaker 2: procreation and all of this. And it was also just
Speaker 2: like a nice way to kind of vent, almost like
Speaker 2: your journaling.
Speaker 1: About what I was going through.
Speaker 2: But yeah, and I really have wanted to have children
Speaker 2: for like literally a decade, and I just didn't really
Speaker 2: feel like I was in either the right place or
Speaker 2: I felt like I had to have like the right
Speaker 2: partner honestly to have a family, and the partner I
Speaker 2: had just didn't want to have kids anytime soon, and
Speaker 2: I felt like, oh my gosh, I can't imagine like
Speaker 2: being one minute older and having kids like I want
Speaker 2: them now. It's like it was this very like urgent
Speaker 2: desire to do. So we broke up because of it,
Speaker 2: and I went to try to do.
Speaker 1: Ieis on my.
Speaker 2: Own, which is like this basically artificial insemination by myself
Speaker 2: and just become a mom. And it was like it
Speaker 2: was very draining because you have to like do a
Speaker 2: bunch of drugs and like nothing fun just drugs that
Speaker 2: they've pumped into your uterus and it's just extremely emotionally tolling.
Speaker 2: And eventually it actually it did work. I got pregnant.
Speaker 2: I was so excited, and I miscarried the pregnancy pretty
Speaker 2: early on, and I was like, oh my god, I
Speaker 2: have to keep going through this. And then magically my
Speaker 2: boyfriend stepped into my life and was like, oh, I
Speaker 2: want to have a family.
Speaker 1: So it just worked out.
Speaker 2: And now I'm here and I'm almost six months pregnant,
Speaker 2: and I'm like, thank you. I'm like, how did this happen?
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, It's like it feels like yesterday. So
Speaker 2: this definitely is my dream.
Speaker 3: That's awesome because I'm a believer of like you know,
Speaker 3: you manifesting and like speaking, eating things into existence, and
Speaker 3: sometimes as women, you know, we hold on to things
Speaker 3: because you know, it's our own insecurities, are things that
Speaker 3: we wanted something and we see you know, the like
Speaker 3: these red flags that come up in relationships that we
Speaker 3: want to make greens so bad because we want it
Speaker 3: to work. And it's like for you honoring yourself and
Speaker 3: just staying true on your path and finding again the
Speaker 3: next partner after of like knowing, wanting the same things
Speaker 3: with you, I feel like is the destiny of what
Speaker 3: it should happen.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think you're right. I think a lot of
Speaker 2: I mean, sometimes it works out, like women and mental
Speaker 2: stay relationships hoping that their partner will eventually kind of
Speaker 2: like compromise and do what they want to do.
Speaker 3: That to me, I feel it is settling. And I
Speaker 3: don't think that there's more people. And I feel like
Speaker 3: that's kind of why, especially we've been in this, you know,
Speaker 3: the pandemic world, where a lot of people we've been
Speaker 3: not woke for a long time because we didn't have
Speaker 3: time and all these things that we just kind of
Speaker 3: like didn't think about because we were so busy. Everyone's
Speaker 3: always so busy. Where when this came, the pandemic happened,
Speaker 3: it's like we had time to sit in our thoughts
Speaker 3: and sit like and now we don't we want to
Speaker 3: be woke, We want more and that shouldn't be a
Speaker 3: bad thing. I think people should more advocate for what
Speaker 3: their wants and needs are and not because somebody is
Speaker 3: giving you because someone likes you as an attraction. Like,
Speaker 3: really go down the list of what do you need
Speaker 3: as a former partner. What do you need somebody who
Speaker 3: wants to parent with you? You don't just want to co parent,
Speaker 3: you know, you want to do that journey together and
Speaker 3: do these things, you know, and there is a plan
Speaker 3: alter of course, it's life. We can't really you know,
Speaker 3: do some things different. But it's just cool to know
Speaker 3: that you're standing true to who you are and what
Speaker 3: you really wanted. And you know, your blessing came and
Speaker 3: you know now you have your baby.
Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, so was it?
Speaker 3: And then the dating, like how you said your boyfriend
Speaker 3: just came into your life. Was it difficult because being
Speaker 3: in porn and being a performer, was that difficult to
Speaker 3: just date in general? Like how did that all come about?
Speaker 1: As well? Yeah?
Speaker 2: I feel like dating and porn for me has definitely
Speaker 2: been challenging. I think honestly, some of the challenge, I
Speaker 2: think is in my own head. It's like you have
Speaker 2: this almost this vision of how other people see you,
Speaker 2: and then you go and you project that onto them.
Speaker 2: So I had to like really kind of come to terms.
Speaker 3: With that and like natural though, you know, yeah, and
Speaker 3: just like realize like okay, how I say, like it
Speaker 3: for me, it's like it's a me problem. I'm like,
Speaker 3: you may not know it all, but I'm like, I
Speaker 3: know it's me, but it still affects me that other
Speaker 3: people are around because you know, you're.
Speaker 1: Just a society type thing. Oh my thing is like.
Speaker 3: Integrating myself, like going to force as small as like
Speaker 3: going to a gym. I don't like to go because
Speaker 3: people are looking at me. Nobody's looking at me, but
Speaker 3: for me, I'm like, ever go. It's like when that
Speaker 3: whole thing when they're like when you're nervous thinking of
Speaker 3: everyone naked, I'm like, no, everyone's just looking at me
Speaker 3: like I'm naked and I'm not.
Speaker 1: But in my mind that's what I think.
Speaker 3: But the more times you go and you get familiar
Speaker 3: with getting uncomfortable, now, I'm like, nobody cares what you're doing, Lexis,
Speaker 3: everyone's in their own workout, everyone's doing whatever. But it
Speaker 3: just little things like that I had to myself to
Speaker 3: like integrate into like Okay, yeah, are these big problems
Speaker 3: or what is like this is? But like what's right
Speaker 3: for me and I just you just have to keep
Speaker 3: pushing down those doors.
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh. Yeah.
Speaker 2: No, it's like you're in a you're doing a vulnerable job.
Speaker 2: And then experiences happen where they change the lens you
Speaker 2: look through. So then you go out in public and
Speaker 2: you think everybody is looking at you, and maybe they are,
Speaker 2: maybe they aren't, whatever, but it's like you have to
Speaker 2: kind of like use psychological.
Speaker 3: Tricks to navigate through that, and like that's why everybody's
Speaker 3: experience is different, and everybody's like, you know, trauma from
Speaker 3: it or or lack thereof you know, yeah kind of thing.
Speaker 3: So did you find dating from dating apps or was
Speaker 3: it like a person that like you got, uh met
Speaker 3: somebody with your friends.
Speaker 2: Or well, I wish I could just say it was
Speaker 2: organic and through my friends, because I feel like that's
Speaker 2: such a great way to meet people. But for me,
Speaker 2: I just you know, kept putting myself on dating apps
Speaker 2: and trying.
Speaker 1: To be super thorough about like.
Speaker 2: Kind of who I matched with and who I entertained
Speaker 2: to talk to and what my profile looked like, and
Speaker 2: just you know, I put myself out there, but I
Speaker 2: was still like careful and thoughtful about who I matched with.
Speaker 1: So I met both of my.
Speaker 2: Well, my current partner and my ex on the Hinge app.
Speaker 2: Not promoting them.
Speaker 1: But they're a great app. I feel like they're legit, Like.
Speaker 3: I mean, never had an issue with like people thinking
Speaker 3: they're getting catfish because of who you are.
Speaker 2: So like, my profile that I put on there is
Speaker 2: like pretty mellow, like I don't use any photos me
Speaker 2: and I guess some of them are like can Yeah, sure,
Speaker 2: they're candid ones that I'll post on Instagram, but they're
Speaker 2: like they're not I feel like they're not very recognizable,
Speaker 2: Like they're very much like, yeah, but you have a.
Speaker 3: Face that's beautiful that people are gonna know who you are.
Speaker 3: It's not like you look drastically different even if you
Speaker 3: wore no makeup or not.
Speaker 1: Yeah. No, I think I think you're right.
Speaker 2: I think it's like kind of one of those weird
Speaker 2: predicaments where I was like, listen, I live in the
Speaker 2: middle of nowhere. It feels like, and how am I
Speaker 2: gonna meet people? I feel like, la, people don't just come.
Speaker 1: Up to you to ask you out, and if they
Speaker 1: do ask you out, you might not want to go out.
Speaker 3: I think in real life that happens. I think we're
Speaker 3: so conditioned to these fairy tales.
Speaker 1: We're like, where is this man?
Speaker 3: And we're like, oh, we're watching the movie. We're not
Speaker 3: outside to our life and exactly.
Speaker 2: So, I just I genuinely felt like I was like,
Speaker 2: where am I gonna meet my husband?
Speaker 1: Like? Am I gonna meet them on set? Maybe? But
Speaker 1: I had it happens, don't go that right, cra that way,
Speaker 1: do not do it? No, Yeah, I know.
Speaker 2: So basically, I just genuinely felt like there was nothing
Speaker 2: else I could do and to do it. Yes, I
Speaker 2: have like fear of meeting somebody and them being you know,
Speaker 2: awkward and weird. And that's why I said. I was
Speaker 2: like pretty thoughtful about the people I matched with. So,
Speaker 2: my baby daddy is an artist himself. I consider myself
Speaker 2: an artist, So I kind of felt.
Speaker 3: Like, okay, is his say his profile say, looking to
Speaker 3: be a baby daddy now looking to you said looking
Speaker 3: for my baby daddy.
Speaker 1: That would have been perfect instant match.
Speaker 2: No, but I just I figured out was like, Okay,
Speaker 2: this guy, he he does art, he lives in La
Speaker 2: you know he I don't know.
Speaker 1: I feel like he's gonna probably treat me like an artist.
Speaker 1: You just got a good feeling about, a good vibe
Speaker 1: about him.
Speaker 2: And then on our very first date, my job got
Speaker 2: brought up only because we had a mutual friend his friend.
Speaker 2: This friend is Yeah, it is a female who owns
Speaker 2: some company that like sells products basically from.
Speaker 1: Like vibrators, loub what are we talking about. No, basically
Speaker 1: she'll sell like lingerie lingerie from set. So she'll be like,
Speaker 1: you know, give me your lingerie from set, and then
Speaker 1: she'll like sell it to fans. That's weird.
Speaker 2: It is weird, and I had only like, I can understand.
Speaker 2: I can understand a performer doing that. It's sell your
Speaker 2: that is I mean, no, cap.
Speaker 3: I'm just saying, Pi, I can yet, if you did
Speaker 3: it and sold your lingerie all day, I understand it.
Speaker 3: But you are these people that go to set say hey, everybody,
Speaker 3: for half the fifty percent off, I will give you
Speaker 3: what you paid for those like No, you're being scammed, ma'am.
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm granted, I'm dressing. It's a lucative business,
Speaker 1: but you know, I mean entrepreneurship, but it's finest, right.
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't think this is her main job.
Speaker 1: I think this is well, no, it shouldn't be her
Speaker 1: main job. If that's her main job, I'm sorry.
Speaker 3: You know, everyone has one, but I just hate that
Speaker 3: people try to like Nickel and diamond like those are
Speaker 3: that's my laingerie. I'll sell it if I want to.
Speaker 3: Where are you fucking taking people's things?
Speaker 2: I mean, you know how you know how much work
Speaker 2: it is to freaking list stuff and go to girlfriend?
Speaker 1: That's how you? No, No, she like hits you up
Speaker 1: on Instagram and.
Speaker 2: That's a whole difference, Like you'll pick them up, box
Speaker 2: your stuff and she'll sell it.
Speaker 1: Was that how big your box? You're like the books?
Speaker 2: Honestly, I feel like I'm bad at like preserving where
Speaker 2: she had a upstairs? Fucking she got tubs of things
Speaker 2: and where is she at now?
Speaker 3: I'm now I'm thinking about this fifty fifties or what
Speaker 3: is this split fifty forty's comment watching? I'm sorry about
Speaker 3: the comment earlier. Let's talk about this. I'll forward you
Speaker 3: after all Right, So y'all had a mutual friend. So
Speaker 3: when you said when he said the name, because he
Speaker 3: obviously probably brought her up, it was are you like,
Speaker 3: oh I know her? Knew this person was like, Hey,
Speaker 3: we have a mutual friend and I know you're Tasha
Speaker 3: Rain Like, how do cause you don't go like you
Speaker 3: go buy.
Speaker 1: Your personal name? Right? No? Excuse me? Are you Tasha.
Speaker 2: He was like, I was asking about his art, which
Speaker 2: is like, you know, a cool conversation starter, and then
Speaker 2: he was like, yeah, like I actually saw your photo
Speaker 2: on my friend's Instagram feed.
Speaker 1: Fuck which one? They're like, yeah, what was I doing?
Speaker 1: What was I holding? What was in?
Speaker 2: Then I was like, well, okay, it's Instagram, so at
Speaker 2: least it's safe for work, but also like, was a
Speaker 2: good photo of me?
Speaker 1: What is he talking about? And then it like, oh,
Speaker 1: we're so different. You're like, was did my hairli grad?
Speaker 1: Yeah exactly, I'm like, did I look pretty? Like? Oh
Speaker 1: my gosh. So when I put the clues together, because
Speaker 1: like I said, was he was he teasing around the
Speaker 1: fact that he knew who you were?
Speaker 2: No, he's being straight up like I think he didn't
Speaker 2: know when he matched with me, but that he had
Speaker 2: just gone on his Instagram saw and saw like a
Speaker 2: picture of me posing in some panties that she's selling
Speaker 2: of mine, and like he connected the dots and he
Speaker 2: didn't seem like thrilled about it, but he didn't seem
Speaker 2: like pissed. He was kind of like the date he
Speaker 2: showed up for the date, he was open minded. I
Speaker 2: like it, Okay, baby daddy, open minded, but also like
Speaker 2: skeptical one hundred percent.
Speaker 1: I felt valid though, But.
Speaker 3: I mean because a lot of and I and I
Speaker 3: only say this for this and again it's a big
Speaker 3: I hate labels, whatever it is, but a lot of
Speaker 3: people when they when I have conversations, they're.
Speaker 1: Like, oh my god, you're so normal or oh my god,
Speaker 1: I'm like, what does that mean. I'm like, I hate that.
Speaker 3: Is there some kind of like test or whatever, like no,
Speaker 3: like I just like to have sex. I wanted to
Speaker 3: do porn. I was it was a safe place, That's
Speaker 3: what it is. But then you look at some other
Speaker 3: people where you hear stories, and then I'm like, okay,
Speaker 3: I can understand or if you know who like people
Speaker 3: they hang around or like no things are like, uh yeah,
Speaker 3: I can understand why you think we're.
Speaker 1: All like that.
Speaker 3: But you know, I'm actually pretty smart and I went
Speaker 3: to college and hey I've got a brain, and hey I've.
Speaker 1: Got a pot. So I talk about things about all
Speaker 1: the time. But in theory, most people at that time
Speaker 1: that they're kind of fishing for, like are you what
Speaker 1: spectrum of it are you still in? You've also been
Speaker 1: in the industry for a long time, Like, where do
Speaker 1: I fit in this? You know? And where your head's at?
Speaker 1: So I respect that well.
Speaker 2: I just want to say that, like, I genuinely feel
Speaker 2: like it is a misogynistic thing because before I got
Speaker 2: into porn, I went on a date with Scott Nails,
Speaker 2: the performer.
Speaker 1: Before even being in porn. I was twenty And how
Speaker 1: did you meet him on hinge? Scott's not on it? Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna speak for Scott. Where did you did your
Speaker 1: friend look you up with this date? Yeah? This is
Speaker 1: so good. Okay, So Scott, I haven't heard that name
Speaker 1: in forever. He was hot ten years ago. Dude, I mean,
Speaker 1: is he not anymore? I don't know what it looks like.
Speaker 2: Okay, I'm just kidding it, just kidding, but I haven't
Speaker 2: seen him recently just.
Speaker 1: On the ground. Okay, here's the truth. I just want
Speaker 1: to finish this comment. So I w a date was Scott.
Speaker 3: No.
Speaker 2: I was not always as open minded as I am now.
Speaker 2: And when I went on a date with Scott, I
Speaker 2: wasn't thinking, oh it's Scott smart, Oh it is Scott normal.
Speaker 2: I was like, Scott's hot, Scott? Did you know Scott
Speaker 2: was a porn performer when you were on the date.
Speaker 1: Hell, yes, I didn't. So that's why I'm saying. I
Speaker 1: feel like, now I know what he went on that date,
Speaker 1: and now you joined porn after it. DoD Scott help
Speaker 1: you get into porn? Scott tried to get me out
Speaker 1: of trying.
Speaker 2: To get into porn. Don't do it before we even
Speaker 2: hooked up.
Speaker 1: Why was he hating?
Speaker 2: So?
Speaker 1: Okay?
Speaker 2: So I had modeled for Playboy and the makeup artist
Speaker 2: on set overheard me saying I'm thinking of getting into
Speaker 2: like more hardcore stuff, and she was like, Okay, I'm
Speaker 2: gonna take you to a set and see if you
Speaker 2: really want to do it and introduce you to Robbie
Speaker 2: d I was like, oh ri ip, okay rip, and
Speaker 2: at the.
Speaker 1: Time I was like all right. So she took me
Speaker 1: to a Digital.
Speaker 2: Playground set where Scott Nails was banging Selena Rose in
Speaker 2: the room.
Speaker 1: Man, had you gone the day at this time? No? Okay.
Speaker 1: So I'm on the set and I'm looking around. I'm like,
Speaker 1: this seems legit.
Speaker 3: Now when you went on set, did they just say
Speaker 3: you were just gonna watch? Are you gonna participate or
Speaker 3: what were you going for?
Speaker 2: Was it like a field trip on a porn She
Speaker 2: was like trying to bring new talent to Robbi D
Speaker 2: because she knew I want to do it. I think
Speaker 2: she genuinely felt like Digital play Rose. No, she felt
Speaker 2: like Digital Playground was like probably out of all the companies,
Speaker 2: like one of the legitimate ones. So she was like,
Speaker 2: let me take you here, yeah, so you don't end
Speaker 2: up doing something maybe that you don't want to do.
Speaker 2: And so she's trying to introduce me, and Robbie D
Speaker 2: was like, yeah, we'll put you in a movie tomorrow.
Speaker 1: Go get tested now, but cheerleaders, let's go something. Yeah.
Speaker 1: But but I was like, yeah, I had.
Speaker 2: Questions, you know, like I wanted more info, and I
Speaker 2: also wanted more from it, not just like, oh movie.
Speaker 1: What were your questions that you wanted to know?
Speaker 2: Well? I wanted like straight straight off the bat. I
Speaker 2: wanted some sort of like a contract, a deal something.
Speaker 1: I didn't want to just do a random movie, okay,
Speaker 1: And I mean I did want to see like what
Speaker 1: actually happened on a set. That's why she brought me there.
Speaker 1: So did you when you saw Scott? Fuck saw Scott?
Speaker 1: Just like from the corner I wasn't like, you know,
Speaker 1: I wasn't in the room, Natasha.
Speaker 3: Scott, you don't know me, but I'm gonna fluff you, okay.
Speaker 3: So you saw from the corner of the room. You
Speaker 3: liked what you saw. I liked what I saw.
Speaker 1: It seemed like what I had.
Speaker 3: And they do and they do a very good job of, like,
Speaker 3: you know, making the woman like glamorous and doing a
Speaker 3: scene thing where it's like, it's very like.
Speaker 1: A movie with sex.
Speaker 2: It just looked like a movie set. And I had
Speaker 2: been watching porn, so I was like, it looks just
Speaker 2: like I mean, I recognize Scott.
Speaker 1: It looks like the movies that I see. So let
Speaker 1: me find out.
Speaker 3: You had to search Scott out. You're like, where could Scott?
Speaker 1: And you started dating scottails after this.
Speaker 2: He got my phone number, of course, what does the
Speaker 2: private talk? And he took me out to the Geisha
Speaker 2: house Romantic Romantic, and he was.
Speaker 1: Like, don't do this, do not ruin your life. Do
Speaker 1: not do this. How horrible. I know it's hard to
Speaker 1: even say it, but it's the truth. Don't do this.
Speaker 1: I know, like a savior of.
Speaker 2: Some and I don't even think he was trying to
Speaker 2: bang I think he literally but what but what okay,
Speaker 2: what's his motive?
Speaker 1: Exactly mean too, but what.
Speaker 3: Was he saying it with like a reason behind it
Speaker 3: and not just saying don't do it? So what was
Speaker 3: his reason behind it? Not only because you're gonna ruin
Speaker 3: your life?
Speaker 1: How am I? Because for me and you're asking questions already,
Speaker 1: how arem my life? My life's going to be? Was
Speaker 1: my first question, and he was like, you don't understand society.
Speaker 1: I love this la.
Speaker 2: Society's gonna shame you. I'm like, and of course at
Speaker 2: twenty you're like or twenty one.
Speaker 1: I'm like, who cares? You know? It's just like I
Speaker 1: don't care what other people think of me.
Speaker 2: And he was like, you have no idea, like has
Speaker 2: some severe consequences as will follow you for the rest
Speaker 2: of your life. And then he told me this anecdote
Speaker 2: about somebody he knew very well, a female that like
Speaker 2: people wrote things all over her establishment that she opened
Speaker 2: later on in life, just tried to really scare me
Speaker 2: out of it. I almost feel like maybe it was
Speaker 2: him feeling like he was doing something good. I don't
Speaker 2: really know what his real intention was, but it certainly
Speaker 2: didn't make me not want to do porn.
Speaker 3: It made you want to do it more. It made
Speaker 3: me think about it. And also I think after that,
Speaker 3: I was like, I want to date this guy, so
Speaker 3: maybe I won't do.
Speaker 2: It so that he'll still date me. Like, I have
Speaker 2: no idea what my I took a pause. I didn't
Speaker 2: go and get tested that night.
Speaker 1: You know, we went on a couple of dates. We
Speaker 1: hooked up a couple of times. I was like, I
Speaker 1: like this guy, like your sex talk.
Speaker 2: Yeah, and then Scott, I mean, he's a player, so
Speaker 2: he played me.
Speaker 1: He wasn't like trying trying, but how did he play you?
Speaker 3: Because I have like so did he try to, like
Speaker 3: say or in hopes for you to be like his
Speaker 3: girl or whatever or was it just a fucking thing?
Speaker 3: Because I don't think that's being played. That's you're right,
Speaker 3: that's not the right word.
Speaker 1: I think it's more of like I had high hopes
Speaker 1: for the sitek you.
Speaker 3: Had expectations, and he was like, hey, I'm moving on
Speaker 3: to the next new girl who's just turned eighteen, and
Speaker 3: I'm well that maybe he's been wrong to say too. Well,
Speaker 3: we went and went on dates, okay, and we hooked up.
Speaker 2: Yeah, he was not my boyfriend. I don't even know
Speaker 2: if I walked in the room if he would recognize me.
Speaker 2: That is like how minimal I think the relationship to
Speaker 2: him was. But we went on dates and we hooked up,
Speaker 2: and then he just kind of ghosted, yes, which is
Speaker 2: like fine, that's what people sometimes.
Speaker 1: That's not fine. I think that.
Speaker 3: I think, okay, maybe comment that is comment. I think
Speaker 3: maybe at the time frame too, it wasn't as talked
Speaker 3: about because people were just like, oh, what do you do?
Speaker 1: I mean, he's gone.
Speaker 3: And then I feel like social media, like other places
Speaker 3: where you couldn't really find them or you know, things
Speaker 3: like that, wasn't as accessible as we are now to
Speaker 3: those things. Yes, but I feel like now it's like
Speaker 3: I feel like and my personally because I've been ghosting
Speaker 3: things and I'm just like, just be a man, Like,
Speaker 3: just tell me what did ghost?
Speaker 1: Yeah? Who the fuck is ghost? You know it's hilarious,
Speaker 1: you know, it's really hilarious.
Speaker 3: So like a long time ago, I don't know, well, no,
Speaker 3: I was not gonna say it like that, but like
Speaker 3: I think about my so.
Speaker 1: A long time ago, I tried to date this person.
Speaker 3: I went out the box and I was like, okay,
Speaker 3: let me try it. So this person didn't live in
Speaker 3: town whatever, so he came in town for something whatever.
Speaker 3: I once saw him at an event whatever, blah blah blah.
Speaker 3: The next day, we were supposed to go and meet
Speaker 3: with my like he was gonna he was staying I
Speaker 3: think in Santa Monica. He's supposed to uber to us
Speaker 3: and we were gonna go bowling. He was on his way,
Speaker 3: never came, so I'm calling him and I'm like my
Speaker 3: friends are like waiting, so that we just ended up
Speaker 3: going whatever. So I was like, that's really fucked up,
Speaker 3: Like why, like where did you go? Then later that night,
Speaker 3: like he was like, oh, Like I didn't realize that
Speaker 3: I didn't have Like I saw how much the uber was,
Speaker 3: I didn't have that much money, so I didn't want
Speaker 3: to be embarrassed, so I just whatever and didn't talk
Speaker 3: to you. I'm like, okay, he blocked me, wouldn't talk
Speaker 3: to me because all because of his problem, he couldn't
Speaker 3: just be like honest with me, because I okay, at
Speaker 3: the time, I'm like I don't care, like as long
Speaker 3: as you're honest or like I'll go pick you up,
Speaker 3: whatever the case mean I really wouldn't have picked them up.
Speaker 3: But you know, if you're at least being honest enough
Speaker 3: for to share or whatever. But he just didn't think
Speaker 3: it was genuine. My thing was is like, why wouldn't
Speaker 3: you just be honest and let me have the option
Speaker 3: to say if I wanted to do that or been like, okay,
Speaker 3: you're right out. Maybe next time when you come on
Speaker 3: you in your situation is better, but at least be
Speaker 3: an adult if you want to have a situation, you
Speaker 3: want to try to fuck someone, but you can't have
Speaker 3: a communicate and tell you just being honest with someone.
Speaker 1: That's an issue with me.
Speaker 3: So I feel like, you know, and then you go
Speaker 3: because you can't be man enough to own up to it. Bye,
Speaker 3: you saved me, You saved me the damage what that
Speaker 3: would be. But I just feel like a lot of
Speaker 3: people do that because it's the their own insecurities. And
Speaker 3: sometimes when you find things wrong, you look in your
Speaker 3: own mirror and you're like, it's things that you emulate
Speaker 3: that you made it like yourself. Yeah, it's like you
Speaker 3: know and make it like addressing that's because like I
Speaker 3: wouldn't want I wouldn't want someone do that to me
Speaker 3: and I have done that before in the past, but
Speaker 3: I'm just like, hey, I got to own my own
Speaker 3: shit sometimes. Like so it's like maybe I should just
Speaker 3: answer it and say not gas like the situation just
Speaker 3: be like, hey, you know what, I'm busy or you know,
Speaker 3: I don't think you know, this is.
Speaker 1: Not interest Yeah, like you know, it's it's a struggle,
Speaker 1: you know.
Speaker 3: I feel like it's dating, especially regardless of what you do.
Speaker 3: I feel like it's it's difficult already because there's a
Speaker 3: lot of people in the world that don't really want
Speaker 3: to do the work and show up for themselves, so
Speaker 3: they just get in these like half relationships and then
Speaker 3: like take the trauma out on each other and it's
Speaker 3: just not fun for anybody.
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, right, fun. Good analysis of this is like this.
Speaker 3: Is like Doctor Texas with no PhD, you know what
Speaker 3: I mean. So it's like back in the day, it's
Speaker 3: dead doctor Ruth. You know she has but I'm doctor Texas.
Speaker 3: We talked about things here on this private talk couch,
Speaker 3: you know, private talk after dark, we get a little crazy,
Speaker 3: a little wild. You never know what's going to happen.
Speaker 3: Miss Tasha Rain, So are you enjoying you know your
Speaker 3: tie being missed, a new.
Speaker 1: Mommy to be. I am loving it.
Speaker 2: I'm also obsessed with the fact that I'm finally bumping
Speaker 2: and I have like this little pot belly because up
Speaker 2: until just like a couple of weeks ago, people just.
Speaker 1: Looked at me like, oh, she ate a lot, like
Speaker 1: not like, oh she's pretty sad. I promise you guys,
Speaker 1: I know it's such an enjoy you.
Speaker 3: Said now before you notice your six months and it's
Speaker 3: all those fun things. Yeah, So what is your plans
Speaker 3: for what's next after the baby? Are you going to
Speaker 3: still be shooting scenes? Are you doing your own website stuff?
Speaker 3: Do you even know yet? Have you thought about any
Speaker 3: of your plans for what's next? So it's kind of
Speaker 3: like top secret. But I am working on my book
Speaker 3: and it is, you know, do pretty soon. So that's
Speaker 3: like where my Yeah, that's like where my energy should
Speaker 3: be for the next you know, month, month and a.
Speaker 1: Half and that should be will be is, Yeah, that
Speaker 1: is where my energy is. There you go. And so
Speaker 1: that's like the project I'm most looking forward to, and
Speaker 1: I feel like it's very therapeutic as well, just to like.
Speaker 3: Put just about your life. Is it about your time
Speaker 3: in your career, Like, what is it? It's a memoir.
Speaker 2: Yeah, so it's like my whole life, and you know,
Speaker 2: it's pretty pretty entertaining and also like triggering because you're
Speaker 2: writing and you're like.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I didn't even remember this until and
Speaker 1: I had to think about it, you know. Yeah. So,
Speaker 1: and that's where my energy is right now. And I'm
Speaker 1: open to continuing my.
Speaker 2: Only fans and writing after becoming a mom. But I
Speaker 2: definitely feel, you know, like my big my big boy.
Speaker 1: Girl scenes are kind.
Speaker 2: Of I think the past since my current partner and
Speaker 2: I are, you know, pre monogamous.
Speaker 1: So y'all are official, y'all are doing this together? Yeah
Speaker 1: we are.
Speaker 2: We're official. So yeah, I don't know, I haven't. I
Speaker 2: haven't thought too much about the career in the future.
Speaker 2: I've really been thinking about just being a mom mostly.
Speaker 1: Yeah, good for you.
Speaker 3: I feel like, you know, this is like you said,
Speaker 3: and soak up the time while you can. You're a
Speaker 3: very smart lady. You have done so many great things.
Speaker 3: I'm very proud of you and where you are in
Speaker 3: you know, your career, how much of an advocate you
Speaker 3: are and stand just your ground and who you want
Speaker 3: to be And I feel like you know when things
Speaker 3: come and you know they happen for a reason. If
Speaker 3: it's the book of whatever you have coming next, I
Speaker 3: definitely think you know in timing is all the greatest
Speaker 3: part that you can have. So just take your time
Speaker 3: and enjoy it all. Thank you, enjoy it all. So
Speaker 3: what do you think is the best advice you've ever gotten?
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, that's such a serious question.
Speaker 1: The best advice I've ever gotten? It will be this
Speaker 1: for a while.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you blame it on like the pregnancy when they
Speaker 3: say pregnancy ran Oh my gosh, I think it's real.
Speaker 1: I really, I truly believe it's real. Okay.
Speaker 3: I don't know if this is advice or if it's
Speaker 3: a statement, but I'll give it to feel like I've
Speaker 3: taken it as advice.
Speaker 2: Is the way you do one thing is the way
Speaker 2: that you do everything, Okay, And I feel like it's
Speaker 2: important for me because oftentimes, like I'll rush through stuff,
Speaker 2: I won't take the time to be thoughtful about making
Speaker 2: choices and committing to things. So now because I have
Speaker 2: that bit of advice, I'm like, no, You've got to
Speaker 2: do everything really thoughtfully whatever it is, So that you know,
Speaker 2: you're always in a situation that you're like, I want
Speaker 2: to be here right now.
Speaker 3: That's awesome, and I mean, I definitely you know, I
Speaker 3: think you're very thoughtful. You brought me flowers. No, no
Speaker 3: guest has brought me flowers, and I love flowers.
Speaker 1: So I have help you too.
Speaker 3: So I feel like things when it's done selflessly. I
Speaker 3: think that that's what's showing up in exactly what you
Speaker 3: just said means, like you know what I mean, You're
Speaker 3: doing it because you want to do it, and I
Speaker 3: think that is very a thoughtful thing. So you said
Speaker 3: the whole earlier you're talking about you did some shoots
Speaker 3: for Playboy. You've mentioned before in the past that you
Speaker 3: used to go to Playboy Mansion parties. A whole documentary
Speaker 3: is coming out about my go What are your thoughts
Speaker 3: on or have you even watched any of those?
Speaker 1: You watched it? I have, I've watched two jobs. Is
Speaker 1: it episode so alarming? You know? Okay?
Speaker 3: So I never I never went to parties at the
Speaker 3: Playboy Mansion. I went, I hosted a party I think
Speaker 3: towards the end of my like adult career, but it
Speaker 3: was never It was like kind of like after everything
Speaker 3: kind of the heyday of the drugs and this and
Speaker 3: all of these whatever like no camera, phone and all
Speaker 3: the kind of lifestyle. So I don't think I really
Speaker 3: saw anything other than like it was a dinner. It
Speaker 3: was like a spot, like a it was a charity
Speaker 3: type event, tipping you know, got it.
Speaker 1: So, but you know, you're always curious and just like
Speaker 1: everybody is why you know, everyone's like on the edge
Speaker 1: of your seat, like, oh, what's going on? But you
Speaker 1: assume a lot of things.
Speaker 3: And then being in the adult industry and being around
Speaker 3: those things, you know that adult world. You know that
Speaker 3: it's like there's possibilities and capabilities of those things happening,
Speaker 3: but you don't realize it until you're either a victim
Speaker 3: of or put in those scenarios where like you know
Speaker 3: that person's not lying and in these you know what
Speaker 3: I mean and what it was portrayed. I believe it,
Speaker 3: and you know what I mean. Everybody's everybody's interaction and
Speaker 3: even like with porn my career, in your career very different.
Speaker 3: My performers that I may get along with and you
Speaker 3: get along with different all because we're uniquely different. The
Speaker 3: same thing with Layboy, you know what I mean, Like,
Speaker 3: each girl is different. They're there in a sense, they
Speaker 3: look similar, but everyone has their own personalities this that
Speaker 3: and the other. And a lot of the people that
Speaker 3: have been on the documentary of Late It was people
Speaker 3: that had either been girlfriends, so you know that they've
Speaker 3: seen more things, and then they're like, oh, the scorn woman.
Speaker 3: But there's only much that a woman could be scorned
Speaker 3: when there's other people around validating her story, you.
Speaker 1: Know what I mean, and being like, it's just that
Speaker 1: that's such a good name for a book, This scorned woman.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, probably was probably not out there.
Speaker 3: There's so many that's so good, but you know, and
Speaker 3: that's why so I feel like the stereotype of like Mary,
Speaker 3: like oh what'd she do? Like it's not always like
Speaker 3: the man's fault you kind of thing, but it just
Speaker 3: kind of really put a picture of I think, a
Speaker 3: different page, different picture of hef from my point of view,
Speaker 3: even is because until those things are talked about openly,
Speaker 3: nobody can even think that a person.
Speaker 1: Could be like that.
Speaker 3: So but when you hear it then you sometimes are like, Okay,
Speaker 3: well that's kind of believable, or Okay, this may not
Speaker 3: be or over embellished or this that or whatever, you
Speaker 3: know what I mean, and you know.
Speaker 1: For its own thing, but.
Speaker 3: I mean not for nothing, like there's there's live evidence,
Speaker 3: like any only person can have it.
Speaker 1: And plus he's not around her anymore.
Speaker 3: But everything apparently there was video cameras for everything, and
Speaker 3: he did it based on the fact to have things
Speaker 3: on people. So when you have store like when people
Speaker 3: like actors and you know, all these politicians, all these
Speaker 3: people who were partying in his house, well like okay,
Speaker 3: well something happened. Hey, I need you to fix this
Speaker 3: favor because hey, hey, you're these playbundy these bunnies over here,
Speaker 3: and y'all are doing cokem about them or whatever whatever
Speaker 3: it is.
Speaker 1: They don't specify.
Speaker 3: Collateral pretty much, and they make it paint him a
Speaker 3: picture like that like that he did all these things
Speaker 3: to fool the world because that's how he had his power,
Speaker 3: and that's how whatever.
Speaker 1: And again, at that time.
Speaker 3: Nobody really had polygamy, like was it a polyamorous relationship?
Speaker 3: So he glorified it and he but he never also
Speaker 3: straight away from it. He's like, I have these girlfriends,
Speaker 3: I like women, I like he made a whole business
Speaker 3: of it. So the way they broke it down was
Speaker 3: a different light. Again, it's based off other people's you
Speaker 3: know things, there's no it tells you, like, you know,
Speaker 3: the new Playboy doesn't you know, support you that they
Speaker 3: listen to all women and you know they don't think
Speaker 3: it's all allegations.
Speaker 1: No charges have been up been brought up.
Speaker 3: And then the second episode was Holly Madison talking about
Speaker 3: her encounter and then discussing like the book and like
Speaker 3: everything she did and how half was upset about it
Speaker 3: and like that that thing and for me, like even
Speaker 3: with someone like her, why would she lie about all that?
Speaker 1: You know what I mean? And so it's just like
Speaker 1: a dark.
Speaker 3: Picture of what everyone thought was so glamorous of those times.
Speaker 3: So how do you feel about it? You haven't watched
Speaker 3: it yet, do you plan on it or do you
Speaker 3: kind of want to stay in your bubble of my
Speaker 3: Playboy time was this? Because you know some people do
Speaker 3: as well. You know, sometimes, like we said earlier, when
Speaker 3: you hear it and see it, you can't unsee it.
Speaker 3: So it's like put something a damper on it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's a lot to unpack because I feel like
Speaker 2: I got into entertainment in general. Because of Playboy, I
Speaker 2: felt like it was like the most kind of normalized
Speaker 2: way to go into porn. I mean, even when I was,
Speaker 2: you know, friends with he, he never thought of himself
Speaker 2: as like a pornographer or Playboy even being really porn related.
Speaker 2: But coming from like a really conservative town in Orange County,
Speaker 2: I saw The Girl's next Door on television and I
Speaker 2: was just like, oh my gosh, that looks so dreamy,
Speaker 2: baby animals, hot girls everywhere I could model.
Speaker 1: And it's also Hollywood. This is a show.
Speaker 3: You see how production is now from being on the
Speaker 3: other side, so you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: I had no idea.
Speaker 2: I was just like seventeen, sixteen years old thinking like
Speaker 2: this is the coolest thing I have ever seen.
Speaker 1: Why I thought that was cool that like a whole
Speaker 1: other thing.
Speaker 3: Like we said earlier, it's glorified to make women look
Speaker 3: beautiful and like pretty, so this whole like there's just
Speaker 3: these dumb girl like it's this whole lifestyle. You know
Speaker 3: that it's a whole far into that facoughte of what
Speaker 3: you would want to do if you want like the
Speaker 3: attention and the pictures and especially from being in you know,
Speaker 3: a town in California.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I was so into it that I was like,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna manifest that next thing.
Speaker 1: I know it. I'm up in LA and I am like.
Speaker 2: Being introduced to Half and then I'm invited to spend
Speaker 2: every weekend there with Half, and I'm this is like
Speaker 2: my sorority and all these girls are my friends. And meanwhile,
Speaker 2: this is like towards the end of his life where
Speaker 2: he was so old already that he couldn't do whatever
Speaker 2: he was up to on this documentary because he.
Speaker 1: Could barely walk.
Speaker 3: I would say, like when they were going out in Hollywood,
Speaker 3: they'd have come home every night that they went out,
Speaker 3: they were expected to have sex. They'd all go in
Speaker 3: the room and have sex with him, and they'd have
Speaker 3: like and they would just go off of each other
Speaker 3: and like basically it was.
Speaker 1: A big orgy.
Speaker 3: Yeah, okay, So and it was everything that was done
Speaker 3: was all documented, and they were all fucked up on drugs,
Speaker 3: they were all in everything because there's thing but there
Speaker 3: was always cameras on.
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, and I totally believe it.
Speaker 2: It's just that in like, you know, two thousand and nine,
Speaker 2: twenty ten, he just like wasn't it was right at
Speaker 2: like the end of that because of his age, was
Speaker 2: he being a cuckold and just making them do things.
Speaker 2: He was literally decrepit, like not in a mean way,
Speaker 2: like he was aging and he wasn't doing well. He
Speaker 2: was like it was hard for him kind of just
Speaker 2: to even like.
Speaker 1: Be mobile and stuff.
Speaker 2: And so I'm not saying that sexy time didn't happen
Speaker 2: with other women upstairs in his room, but not he
Speaker 2: himself was more probably more of a boy year because
Speaker 2: he was so elderly, and so it wasn't really like, yes,
Speaker 2: there was, there were parties. Midsummer's Nights still happened. I
Speaker 2: was a painted girl. It was so much fun like
Speaker 2: it is. It was still alive, but it just wasn't
Speaker 2: like at all the height a playboy, which I think
Speaker 2: is where all of like this drama and negative stuff
Speaker 2: really happened because he was just like more lively.
Speaker 3: Yes and no, because but even like with Holly's you know,
Speaker 3: testimony of her doing that, you know that ye still right, Yeah,
Speaker 3: he was older than he was, more darker on the
Speaker 3: side of like the control, he was very y controlling.
Speaker 3: You know, there was curfews, there was things you wouldn't
Speaker 3: do there was like all these you know, things like
Speaker 3: that were yeah, but it's stemmed from that was first
Speaker 3: like the majority, but then there was other rules for
Speaker 3: other people.
Speaker 2: And I actually so I got kicked out by him
Speaker 2: because of his control issues. So basically what happened was
Speaker 2: I was up there all the time, and I definitely
Speaker 2: was on the edge of deciding, like should I ask
Speaker 2: to be a girlfriend because you just literally asked to
Speaker 2: be a girlfriend, or should I really just kind of
Speaker 2: not do that and just try to model because that
Speaker 2: is like what I actually wanted to be doing. And
Speaker 2: I had modeled for Playboy like a couple of times,
Speaker 2: but I really wanted to be a playmate. It was
Speaker 2: like my absolute dream, like that is literally all I want.
Speaker 2: And so I asked him can I be a playmate?
Speaker 2: And he was like, I'll go, you know, I'll set
Speaker 2: up a playmate test for you with Arnie Freytag, who
Speaker 2: was like the remain photographer down at Playboy Studios West
Speaker 2: in Santa Monica. So I got tested and I was
Speaker 2: later so happy. It was like literally the best day
Speaker 2: of my life. I was so excited, and I feel
Speaker 2: like I wasn't as grateful probably to him as I
Speaker 2: should have been like I should have been, or I
Speaker 2: should have acknowledged more that, like he obviously made.
Speaker 1: That happen because I asked him too.
Speaker 2: But then I got a phone call shortly after that
Speaker 2: was like, you know, half looked over your pictures and
Speaker 2: he actually just wants to us as a cybergirl pictorial.
Speaker 2: And I was devastated, Like my heart was literally broken.
Speaker 2: I felt like, gosh, I've invested so much time up here.
Speaker 2: But meanwhile, at the time, he was definitely not in
Speaker 2: the habit of making girlfriends or even just girls that
Speaker 2: hung out of the mansion playmates, because he didn't want
Speaker 2: to lose the control having them come up there just
Speaker 2: for fun in the sun and just to hang out,
Speaker 2: because I mean kind of it had been a pattern
Speaker 2: like once girls got playmate, then they just left because
Speaker 2: they kind of got what they wanted. And so I
Speaker 2: was devastated, but I was like, sure, fine, used the
Speaker 2: pictures for that pictorial because otherwise they're just gonna go
Speaker 2: to waste. And then I was like, fuck it, I'm
Speaker 2: too imporn. So then I went and I figured out,
Speaker 2: you know, okay, this is how I'm gonna get into
Speaker 2: porn through an agent and this is what.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do.
Speaker 2: And I just continued to kind of live my life
Speaker 2: and go up there on the weekends. And I just
Speaker 2: remember the last time I went up there, all of
Speaker 2: the girls were like gossiping, and I felt also like
Speaker 2: ashamed because I knew in my heart that if heff
Speaker 2: knew that I was doing porn, that he wouldn't want
Speaker 2: me there on Fridays and Saturdays and Sundays.
Speaker 1: And it was just like this taboo thing.
Speaker 2: He didn't want you being naked for anybody else but him,
Speaker 2: which is like part of the control. And then I
Speaker 2: got a letter in the mail from him that was like,
Speaker 2: you know, I've heard, I've seen what you've done, and
Speaker 2: you know that once you do poorn, you are no
Speaker 2: longer welcome here at the mansion. And I was just
Speaker 2: so beyond upset. So I wrote him back and I
Speaker 2: was like, oh my gosh, I had no idea, which
Speaker 2: isn't really the truth. And then I'm like so sorry
Speaker 2: that I really like love my family up there, because
Speaker 2: it really felt like family. It's kind of the only
Speaker 2: people I knew in La And he was like, I'm
Speaker 2: you know, you know the rules and you've been taken
Speaker 2: off the list and you're no longer welcome here. And
Speaker 2: then years later I finally did get like closure in
Speaker 2: knowing that his girlfriend at the time, who's now his widow, Crystal,
Speaker 2: who you know, was his wife when he died. She
Speaker 2: found out that, like, I started doing porn and then
Speaker 2: and then he had asked the staff to like gather
Speaker 2: my videos so that he could watch them. And then
Speaker 2: she was like very upset by that and disgusted and
Speaker 2: threw a big, big fit about it and basically made
Speaker 2: him kick me out. So it just gave me a
Speaker 2: little closure. It was like, oh, okay, Like.
Speaker 1: Wasn't him directly? Was it him directly?
Speaker 2: And I kind of understand now more how it went
Speaker 2: down because it was it was just a really hard
Speaker 2: time in my life, which now it sounds kind of
Speaker 2: seems a little bit silly, but at the time it
Speaker 2: was like.
Speaker 1: A major thing, earth shattering.
Speaker 3: So was there Did have ever do make sexual advances
Speaker 3: towards you? Did you have sexy time with Heff?
Speaker 2: So No, I never had sexy time with half. If
Speaker 2: I did, I would totally own it. He I think
Speaker 2: this is part of his manipulation. He it was really
Speaker 2: good at having women come to him. Women asked him
Speaker 2: if they could have sexy time with him, and he
Speaker 2: would approve it, sure, not with like a guarantee of
Speaker 2: what would come from it, But he had plenty of
Speaker 2: women that were readily writing him letters or even just
Speaker 2: up at the house asking Hey, can I come to
Speaker 2: the bedroom after movie night? Everybody knew what that meant,
Speaker 2: and not everybody, but I think if you dug enough,
Speaker 2: you could figure out how to become You're going to.
Speaker 1: Her bedroom at late at night hours.
Speaker 2: You're not just going to have I think some people
Speaker 2: might have not known that it was so. And I
Speaker 2: don want to say easy, no, I mean you could
Speaker 2: once you're up at the house and you're invited as
Speaker 2: a regular girl guest, asking to come up to the
Speaker 2: bedroom is something that is like a very almost like
Speaker 2: a simple ask.
Speaker 1: People.
Speaker 2: I don't think they knew how how common or easy
Speaker 2: it was. Like I think they felt like that would
Speaker 2: be a weird question. But if you found out that
Speaker 2: you could just ask that, maybe you could have the
Speaker 2: chance of that being a girlfriend.
Speaker 1: I don't think everybody knew that, if that.
Speaker 3: Makes sense, Okay, Yeah, so they kind of maybe were
Speaker 3: a little shy until they knew maybe like caught on
Speaker 3: and was like okay, and that's my turn to ask
Speaker 3: kind of thing.
Speaker 1: Yes, right, So he had a picking order exactly, he
Speaker 1: had enough. Well.
Speaker 3: That was also the dogment two is like he would
Speaker 3: plot or pinpoint girls against each other, so he would
Speaker 3: have the control of like not everybody being like a
Speaker 3: saw without him part of attached to it one.
Speaker 2: Hundred percent or just like had Yes, he had like
Speaker 2: my photo up in his room and his you know wife,
Speaker 2: but at.
Speaker 1: The time you never saw what his dick look like,
Speaker 1: never saw his deck, but he liked that kind of
Speaker 1: like they talked. Anybody in the house talk about it.
Speaker 1: Was it big? Was it long?
Speaker 2: Literally nobody talked about it because I think there was
Speaker 2: a shame in the fact.
Speaker 1: That everybody did it.
Speaker 2: They whoever was having sex with them was having sex
Speaker 2: with him. That's like a shame, like a shame thing.
Speaker 2: So they weren't like, oh, his cock looks like this,
Speaker 2: They're like, oh, I never hooked up with him, you know.
Speaker 1: Lied to the lie.
Speaker 3: Here you die private talk. We don't lie. I appreciate
Speaker 3: you being honest. We're gonna take a little bit of
Speaker 3: a break and then get to my favorite part, Truth
Speaker 3: with Texas.
Speaker 1: I hope you're ready.
Speaker 3: It's a it's a little fun game, but we'll get
Speaker 3: to know you a little bit more intimately. All right,
Speaker 3: Private talk. After dark, we are back and we have
Speaker 3: Tasha Rain still on the couch.
Speaker 1: Are you excited for Truth with Texas? I'm so excited.
Speaker 3: Do you know what you're even into? You know, it's
Speaker 3: always a game when this. So we're gonna go through
Speaker 3: all of the cards. Each is an ace, each each
Speaker 3: different suit is a different type of question.
Speaker 1: So what is your first card? Ace of Hearts? Wait?
Speaker 1: How did I know? Spades? Is it red? It's black?
Speaker 1: It's a spade. I'm sure, my god, have poker. All right,
Speaker 1: I'm okay, everybody forget that moment.
Speaker 3: That's our favorite here, Private talk, because that's a naughty question.
Speaker 3: Even though we're all a little naughty, We're gonna find
Speaker 3: out if you're really naughty. Okay, what's your biggest turn off?
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, hide bad hygiene.
Speaker 3: Like everything like teeth smelling like like what everything?
Speaker 1: Just the bad smells of the the bad smells like
Speaker 1: the loud out of a man.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just I want people to be clean shaven,
Speaker 2: doesn't mean they have to shave everything.
Speaker 1: If you experience I mean hell yeah yeah, not a yeah,
Speaker 1: just a hell yeah.
Speaker 2: Many many people don't know about hygiene, and so that
Speaker 2: can be unfortunate on set.
Speaker 1: Many people.
Speaker 3: What was the one time that stick out your head
Speaker 3: the most that was a bad hygiene problem?
Speaker 2: I mean multiple times where I have been asked to
Speaker 2: give a blowjob on camera and that person did not
Speaker 2: prep their penis well. And you know, it has just
Speaker 2: fucking been jarring. It's happened more than once. Okay, I'm
Speaker 2: not even afraid to name a name.
Speaker 3: Who's dick was jarring that he did not get upset
Speaker 3: ready show videll. Okay, one of the scariest moments of
Speaker 3: my life.
Speaker 1: Why because of what does dick look like? Okay, but
Speaker 1: no wait him.
Speaker 2: Because he threw a remote control at the wall behind
Speaker 2: my head and I was scared for my life after
Speaker 2: I said, O baby, wipe your fucking dick.
Speaker 1: Okay, oh my god, thank god I got that out.
Speaker 1: You should you should never hold anything. And you know,
Speaker 1: I just never told anybody that.
Speaker 3: I'm God you shared here with private talk because we
Speaker 3: like to hear these new things. But let's break it
Speaker 3: down Okay, So for those people out there for private
Speaker 3: after dog, what is for a man?
Speaker 1: What is that prepping your dick mean? Like? What does
Speaker 1: that mean? And what was on his dick? It? Why?
Speaker 3: Like I fucked not Cho before too and I made
Speaker 3: him tap out his dick was nothing was wrong with it.
Speaker 1: But I mean each day is different, We're each day
Speaker 1: is different.
Speaker 2: Each each person, like you said earlier, has a different relationship,
Speaker 2: but they're on.
Speaker 1: Sidekay, Let's get back to the that was not why.
Speaker 2: This Okay, Okay, I'm telling you there was a smell
Speaker 2: that's how I coming from his penis.
Speaker 3: I forget because it's been a long time since I
Speaker 3: he But is he circumcised or not?
Speaker 1: I'm gonna assume not.
Speaker 2: But I have absolutely no idea because that long Because
Speaker 2: there's That's why I'm like, I so like a man
Speaker 2: who would be uncircumcised, I feel like has more of
Speaker 2: a job to clean up before because there's foreskin involved
Speaker 2: and whatever you chose to do with your woman or
Speaker 2: whoever you're fucking in that morning, and then he chose
Speaker 2: to do at a set clean your business.
Speaker 3: So I get it on that, But was it something
Speaker 3: like that situation or like did he pull it back?
Speaker 3: And I'm not putting that in my mouth, Hommy.
Speaker 2: I love an uncircumcised penis because I feel like there's
Speaker 2: just more a cushion for the pushing. I just your
Speaker 2: as yes, just I just prefer it. I know, I
Speaker 2: just like it. I think it's like a natural thing.
Speaker 2: I just I mean, I married one, you know, I
Speaker 2: threw it away after a yeah, I guess. Yeah, So
Speaker 2: it's my preference. And no hate on the uncircumcised. We
Speaker 2: don't even know at this point if not sure is
Speaker 2: circumcised or uncircumcised.
Speaker 3: I'm sure in the comment somewhere below, will this research,
Speaker 3: I really don't. That's kind of sad that we both
Speaker 3: have fucked him and we don't know and didn't even
Speaker 3: fuck him at all.
Speaker 1: Because it is now Okay, No, I didn't. I didn't
Speaker 1: even know. I did.
Speaker 3: I made him tap out that with my greatest image. Okay, dirty,
Speaker 3: He's a legend. It's I'm not taking that away from him.
Speaker 3: He's a freaking legend. People talk about this guy, but again,
Speaker 3: each encounter is different. All I know, and honestly, okay, yeah,
Speaker 3: I still have a lot of questions.
Speaker 1: I can't let you finish your story.
Speaker 3: No, I know, gas or asking, but it's like were
Speaker 3: you like how did you say? Because for me too,
Speaker 3: it's like what you have said, Like your words may
Speaker 3: not be the poptist, but your delivery We're like, hey,
Speaker 3: like what you're like your dick is dirty? Or like
Speaker 3: what how do you even address that that he'd get
Speaker 3: that mad, because I also feel like it's his responsibility
Speaker 3: that if I have to tell you as a performer
Speaker 3: that's out of pocket, because you should know your dick
Speaker 3: is dirty.
Speaker 2: Okay, out of pocket is one hundred percent the term
Speaker 2: I would use. Because this was for our own website.
Speaker 1: I hope your cabula out of pocket you can still
Speaker 1: that one.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it was for our own websites. And he pulled
Speaker 2: down his pants and I, literally, I don't know why
Speaker 2: that sounds, got like a whiff of it, like and
Speaker 2: I was like, oh my, oh my god, no you
Speaker 2: need well.
Speaker 3: First of all, I don't think my reaction was like that.
Speaker 3: In my mind, I was like what the fuck.
Speaker 2: I was just like, can you please go baby, wipe
Speaker 2: your deck please so I can meet nice. I'm sure
Speaker 2: that I that it would have been offensive to a
Speaker 2: lot of people and so like, it's not that I
Speaker 2: have no empathy.
Speaker 1: I get it.
Speaker 2: That must have been a hard hit for his ego.
Speaker 2: But his reaction was just like shook it, pissed. He
Speaker 2: took that remote, he chucked it at the back wall.
Speaker 1: From it.
Speaker 2: We were at our director's house in his bedroom and
Speaker 2: there was like, hey me, and the remote was, I
Speaker 2: guess nearby, and it was so I just, honestly, I
Speaker 2: haven't had a lot of violent experiences with male talent.
Speaker 1: Because I feel like they're oftentimes kind of quiet.
Speaker 3: Did he throw it at you or he just threw
Speaker 3: it in the room at the back of like that
Speaker 3: my head where the wall would be, So I don't
Speaker 3: think it was at me.
Speaker 1: I think it was out of me.
Speaker 2: I was scared for my life because he's such a
Speaker 2: big guy and he's so just like full of testosterone.
Speaker 2: I mean, he has like this you know, presence and
Speaker 2: aura about him that obviously a lot of people do like.
Speaker 1: And I was just like, oh my god, what have
Speaker 1: I done? What have I done?
Speaker 2: And he just, like the director was like okay, all right.
Speaker 2: And then I went in the bathroom, which is like
Speaker 2: an open floor plan, so it's like connected bathroom to
Speaker 2: the bedroom and then he disappeared downstairs and he like
Speaker 2: messaged me later that day. I was like, don't tell
Speaker 2: anybody this happened. And I was like, okay, And that
Speaker 2: was like ten years ago. Yeah, and now we're here
Speaker 2: and we're chatting, and I'm not scared of you anymore, nacho,
Speaker 2: because honestly, where is he even?
Speaker 1: But yeah, no, so hygiene. I'm glad that you shared that.
Speaker 3: But I also think though too, is like a lot
Speaker 3: of people think that porn is so glorious sometimes where
Speaker 3: sometimes you have these encounters happen. I had an encounter
Speaker 3: happen where I didn't have a remote throne.
Speaker 1: But the guy was very offended.
Speaker 3: When I was like, I'm not putting that in my mouth,
Speaker 3: I stopped the scene or why didn't even start the scene?
Speaker 3: We're supposed to like obviously like obviously romantic, you know,
Speaker 3: porn of a time you do your teas, then you're
Speaker 3: gonna go do a blowjob whatever. So I'm not on
Speaker 3: my knees visuals private talk here we are. I'm on
Speaker 3: my knees And this was a digital packground set too,
Speaker 3: and I look up, I gotta take pictures and I
Speaker 3: pull his dick back and he he's got things on.
Speaker 1: It, and I'm like, I gott get a pee. I'm like,
Speaker 1: I gotta pee. I'm like, you gotta stop.
Speaker 3: So I go and I'm like, so, I don't know
Speaker 3: who the like whatever assistant person was there, and I
Speaker 3: was like, I'm not doing the scene. I'm so like,
Speaker 3: somebod needs to go out here and tell him that
Speaker 3: he's got something on his dick and I'm not doing it.
Speaker 3: And they went and told him I wasn't in the room.
Speaker 3: But then he's like, there's nothing wrong. This has been
Speaker 3: here my whole life. I said, well, then even something
Speaker 3: wrong with your whole life, Like I know what to
Speaker 3: tell you because that's not normal. Like I know that
Speaker 3: that he tried to say it was a skin tag. No,
Speaker 3: I mean it was not a lot of them, and
Speaker 3: that's not how it's supposed to look.
Speaker 1: So at that point, again was an.
Speaker 3: Uncomfortable one thousand and ten percent. But if I wouldn't
Speaker 3: have spoke up for myself because it's my body, my right,
Speaker 3: then I would have what am I supposed to do?
Speaker 3: Fuck him and then have something wrong with me, And
Speaker 3: like because I didn't want to say no, so and
Speaker 3: then after that working with him was not an option
Speaker 3: because he was already embarrassed because of whatever happened. So
Speaker 3: then it just becomes awkward when you see each other
Speaker 3: the party's like.
Speaker 1: Yeah, bye, I gotta go. I don't know what she
Speaker 1: wanted to say to you, but you know that's unfortunate.
Speaker 3: And I've had girls too, or like when especially uh
Speaker 3: like early or what is it called, like the girls
Speaker 3: who start in the beginning, they didn't know like how
Speaker 3: to take care of themselves. I'm like, uh, this is
Speaker 3: my bet, your best friend. You should know everything from
Speaker 3: smell to look to ever appear like everything, you know
Speaker 3: what I mean.
Speaker 1: So it's like you should probably kind of go look
Speaker 1: at yourself before you go and do pretty girls or
Speaker 1: do whatever. Again, uncomfortable situations with us.
Speaker 3: As sex workers, that's our right and our it should
Speaker 3: be like again, advocating for what's right and not just
Speaker 3: because oh, like your test says you're clear, like no,
Speaker 3: like if I you know what I mean, like no,
Speaker 3: my pussy my right, and I made The only person
Speaker 3: that I've ever that could say that they dislike me
Speaker 3: in the industry are all people who have been I'm
Speaker 3: a not list or all people that I like that
Speaker 3: I don't work with this because there are people only
Speaker 3: people that could say anything bad about me, because I've
Speaker 3: never done anything to anybody other than not want.
Speaker 1: To work with you. And again it's my choice.
Speaker 3: It's not because I don't like you as a person,
Speaker 3: but I don't like your dicker vagina around me.
Speaker 1: So no, thank you. I hear you spin or swallow?
Speaker 1: What time of day was to spin? It's a spit
Speaker 1: for me, sit for me. Have you ever made a
Speaker 1: woman squirt? I can't say that I have. Have you
Speaker 1: ever squirted? I have? What's your craziest booty call story?
Speaker 3: My gosh, let me just think one that did a
Speaker 3: hinge give you any booty stories or just all relationships?
Speaker 1: As they say, what is a booty call?
Speaker 2: Like a continuous that's not the same as a one
Speaker 2: night standing booty calls? Like somebody you continuously bang?
Speaker 1: Yeah, like they just called they called you over just
Speaker 1: for sex, and like, oh yes, yes, yes I had
Speaker 1: a booty call.
Speaker 3: Did you have ay, was any crazy like stories that
Speaker 3: happened with the booty call?
Speaker 1: Or was it just like late night sex normal stuff.
Speaker 2: I'm afraid it's just late night sex normal stuff he
Speaker 2: didn't ask for, like a girlfriend to come over with
Speaker 2: you or anything crazy.
Speaker 1: No, I gosh, I don't have it.
Speaker 2: I don't have like a real life wild bootoo call story.
Speaker 1: It's like consistent bootoy calls. Let's see, does size matter? Yes,
Speaker 1: this doesn't matter. What size is the right one for you?
Speaker 1: Tasha rain.
Speaker 2: My Man's I was gonna say, you're gonna say my
Speaker 2: baby daddy. Yeah, but in I mean, just just in general,
Speaker 2: I don't feel like I'm a huge, huge size queen.
Speaker 1: Like definitely, I feel like, you see, it's something.
Speaker 2: That, yeah, I like, I like a big dick, but
Speaker 2: it doesn't need to be the biggest in the world.
Speaker 1: Okay, that's fair.
Speaker 3: Do you think that your baby daddy would feel comfortable
Speaker 3: anytime putting his dick on.
Speaker 1: Your only fans? I don't know. I don't think so.
Speaker 2: Have you all ever had that conversation or do you
Speaker 2: just stray away from him? I haven't had the conversation.
Speaker 1: Well, we're going to it's for you. It's not for you.
Speaker 1: Are you loud or quiet when you orgasm? I am loud, oral, sex,
Speaker 1: slappy or clean?
Speaker 2: Oh like when I give it to somebody else, I
Speaker 2: feel like I'm in the middle, like, I'm not the
Speaker 2: sloppiest lady, but I'm also like drooling.
Speaker 1: So I'm not. You're wearing eyelashes, they're going to stay on. Yes, Yes,
Speaker 1: you're not going deep. You're not diving deep. You're not
Speaker 1: right not, you're not going all the way right right?
Speaker 1: Women are men both. Have you been in a relationship
Speaker 1: with the female? I think I have? How do you
Speaker 1: think you have? Were you? Is this where your ghosting
Speaker 1: came about?
Speaker 3: No?
Speaker 2: I no, I think yeah. I think it was a relation.
Speaker 2: It was a relationship where we didn't put a title
Speaker 2: on it.
Speaker 1: Is that what we're calling it these days? Yeah? Have
Speaker 1: you ever faked an orgasm? Yes? Have you ever worn
Speaker 1: leather or latex underwear?
Speaker 2: Leather or latex underwear in a photoshoot or in real life?
Speaker 1: Real life? In real life no Mile High club? Yes?
Speaker 1: Or no? No, My gosh, this is sounding so boring.
Speaker 1: That was cooler? Okay. Have you ever tried asking a
Speaker 1: partner for a threesome? Yes? Did it work out successfully? Yes?
Speaker 1: And not? The three someome happened? Did somebody's feelings get hurt? Mine? So?
Speaker 1: I don't know. Maybe you just like with more communication
Speaker 1: about my needs. So what made you upset about that situation.
Speaker 1: I just don't feel like he was like very attentative
Speaker 1: to me during the threesome. Okay, so it wasn't all
Speaker 1: equal people doing stuff, it was one more focused on
Speaker 1: other people one. Right.
Speaker 2: I feel like with on set performances where I've had threesomes,
Speaker 2: I've just assumed like the guy just usually usually will
Speaker 2: just know that he needs to pay attention to the
Speaker 2: both of the girls. And so I just assumed my
Speaker 2: partner just knew that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, he did not know why it's not your partner.
Speaker 3: Next card, This is fun Asa clovers.
Speaker 1: Oh, we're gonna go with kinky question. Favorite time of
Speaker 1: day to have sex? Evening? All right, you're night owl.
Speaker 1: Do you like bondage in your personal life? Yes? Do
Speaker 1: you have one of those dungeon rooms in that cottage
Speaker 1: of yours? Smiths? I didn't see. I sure don't. There's
Speaker 1: space for you.
Speaker 3: Know that one in the downstairs apartment. Cross we like,
Speaker 3: go down by the chicken and go to the right
Speaker 3: and to the left. You're gonna find a dungeon.
Speaker 1: You're gonna have all your sex men, just your baby
Speaker 1: daddy for now, he's gonna be tied up for play
Speaker 1: or sex? Which do you prefer?
Speaker 2: I mean, is sex part of like getting eaten out?
Speaker 1: That is sex? Right? That's for play? Is it? Yeah? Isn't?
Speaker 1: Is it oral sex? True? But I would consider it
Speaker 1: you okay, okay, like you know, even blown job like
Speaker 1: and like that stuff kissing, like touching. I like to
Speaker 1: get eaten out. So you're about four. I'm just about
Speaker 1: that very specific part of are you more horny now
Speaker 1: because you're pregnant or are you still the same?
Speaker 2: I feel like it comes in waves where I'm like
Speaker 2: way hornier than I've ever been, and then other times
Speaker 2: I'm just like.
Speaker 1: Not feeling it. Do you do you still have sex? Yes?
Speaker 1: It is definitely.
Speaker 2: It is an abnormal feeling to have like this belly
Speaker 2: in front of you when you're having sex and all
Speaker 2: the positions don't really like feel the same kind of
Speaker 2: like it. It's more painful almost, but I still do it.
Speaker 3: Do you think that you orgasm better or more intense
Speaker 3: because you are pregnant?
Speaker 1: I think you orgasm better when you're pregnant because there's
Speaker 1: like all this weight on you.
Speaker 3: Okay, I could see that maybe you're gonna find the
Speaker 3: right position and be like, hey, we're only doing this
Speaker 3: one exactly like one to two.
Speaker 1: You know what I mean? Like where I just like
Speaker 1: lay there and get eaten out? What's in my main position?
Speaker 3: Well that's not say something now, I am giving penetrative sex.
Speaker 1: Okay, you're not just giving blowjobs out. I'm not. I'm
Speaker 1: rarely giving a blowjob to anyone. Why are you giving
Speaker 1: regular blowjobs so much work? You know that back there?
Speaker 1: Joy blowjobs?
Speaker 3: I feel like blow jobs for me like turn me more,
Speaker 3: like turn me on more?
Speaker 1: Really? Yeah, I don't know. I mean, yeah, I have
Speaker 1: heard a lot I have heard. I've heard that. I've
Speaker 1: heard that from.
Speaker 3: I don't believe that ship puts up especially I mean
Speaker 3: the older I've gotten like, not that I didn't like
Speaker 3: it before, but I feel like I like it more.
Speaker 3: The last five years of my life interesting. But yeah,
Speaker 3: welcome I being thirty six.
Speaker 1: I don't I Dokay, let's.
Speaker 3: See, I've ever been caught masturbating by your baby daddy? No,
Speaker 3: most number of times you've had sex in one day?
Speaker 1: Three? Most number of times you masturbated and when? Five?
Speaker 1: What type of porn turns you on? Spanking porn? Last
Speaker 1: dirty dream that you had. Do you have dirty dreams?
Speaker 2: I have dirty dreams, and sometimes dreams are difficult to
Speaker 2: remember later on.
Speaker 1: Do you have wet dreams? I have had wet dreams before.
Speaker 1: I feel like.
Speaker 2: I feel like it was some sort of a boy
Speaker 2: boy girl fantasy and my last naughty dream, I just
Speaker 2: can't remember who the boys were.
Speaker 1: Not necessary? Not necessary. Have you ever pegged a man
Speaker 1: or been pegged yourself in movies? I have pegged men.
Speaker 1: Do you and women? Do you have any fetishes? Yeah,
Speaker 1: I feel like I have a couple. Definitely.
Speaker 2: The spanking thing is a fetish. But more specifically, I
Speaker 2: feel like I do google a lot of like weird
Speaker 2: spit it out.
Speaker 3: I feel like I'm fishing right now, or like like
Speaker 3: like stepdad dad porn, Like I know it's kind of
Speaker 3: it sounds just so gross, but I guess it's like
Speaker 3: the most popular kind of.
Speaker 1: Like stepdaddy porn. Yeah, I do. And you know, I
Speaker 1: don't know what. I don't know what that's about.
Speaker 3: Isn't just a recently, It's always been like like a
Speaker 3: taboo because it's taboo stuff gets people off, Like did
Speaker 3: you feel like did you have a hot step daddy?
Speaker 2: Like what I know, I don't think he I don't
Speaker 2: think he was very hot, but I definitely have like
Speaker 2: probably been into this for a while, but just more
Speaker 2: in like the last five years, I feel like I've
Speaker 2: maybe admitted to myself, Okay, this is clearly some sort
Speaker 2: of a fetish, and I haven't spent too much time
Speaker 2: like analyzing it, but I definitely will, like look that up.
Speaker 3: Do you think that you could actually come to being spanked?
Speaker 1: Oh, but I'm gonna try tonight. Maybe daddy almost sand out? Almost?
Speaker 2: Yes, very I mean, I don't know if I would
Speaker 2: actually orgasm that way, but it's definitely like an easy
Speaker 2: thing to do to like get me there.
Speaker 1: I like it stimulates you, all right? Next card Ace
Speaker 1: Diamonds Diamonds Spicy question anal sex? Love it or hate it?
Speaker 1: There's nothing in between? Nope, love it or hate it?
Speaker 1: Hate it? That's that's a crazy answer. Why, I mean,
Speaker 1: you can't I have maybe in love with anal sex.
Speaker 1: You either like it or you don't.
Speaker 2: I think you're right, but I've had an anal sex.
Speaker 2: Are you trying to like it as painful as other times?
Speaker 1: But that doesn't mean you enjoyed it? Wait?
Speaker 2: No, I do enjoy the orgasm when there's something in
Speaker 2: my asshole and.
Speaker 1: Your pussy double penetration. It doesn't even need to be
Speaker 1: in my.
Speaker 2: Egs, just like on my clit, but there's something in
Speaker 2: my ass at that time.
Speaker 1: What that's called anal I've been for a very long time,
Speaker 1: but I don't know if you know that category that
Speaker 1: Derek made to check off a long time ago. Ainal
Speaker 1: mean something is in your asshole. I know. I like
Speaker 1: the climax part of it so once and just like
Speaker 1: being like you can come from the anal penetration. No,
Speaker 1: I need clitoral stimulation.
Speaker 3: You need a hittachi on your pussy right while someone's
Speaker 3: fucking you in the or something or someone.
Speaker 1: Something is in my butt.
Speaker 2: I do'll know a human whatever it is is in
Speaker 2: my butt, and that orgasm is like amazing, Like I
Speaker 2: love that, but I don't always like the build up
Speaker 2: to that. The pain is like getting that huge dick,
Speaker 2: that porn dick in there or huma.
Speaker 1: Like shove my asshole, shove it.
Speaker 3: I mean, porn dick in your asshole is quite white.
Speaker 1: A big thing.
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna take anything away from that because it's true.
Speaker 3: Thank you, Thank you, for me, is why I didn't
Speaker 3: do a lot of anal in my and in my
Speaker 3: porn career was because I have a big ass.
Speaker 1: So to even be seen.
Speaker 3: Back there, you need a really really large member to
Speaker 3: be packing. And therefore that means I have to take
Speaker 3: that really large cock my ass. And it's not for everybody.
Speaker 3: I'm not an anal queen at all. I prefer just
Speaker 3: vaginal intercourse. Do I like to be played with here
Speaker 3: and there?
Speaker 1: And might ask? Yeah?
Speaker 3: But I'm not a big like if we didn't do anal,
Speaker 3: I'm not mad at that. I don't right call it
Speaker 3: a day, secret day called even if you're ass. But
Speaker 3: you know, I'm really sure about the anal.
Speaker 1: Thing for me. Celebrity hall pass, Do you have one? Oh?
Speaker 1: I don't put I can think of one right now.
Speaker 1: Let's do it. Chan Tatum Okay, so hot? He is hot.
Speaker 3: You definitely have sexually fantasized about him. I could see
Speaker 3: it in your eyes.
Speaker 2: I mean when I see his picture, I'm just immediately
Speaker 2: like that is a pretty got How.
Speaker 1: Many times did you go see Magic, Mike? Oh, I've
Speaker 1: seen it quite a bit. Is that your go to
Speaker 1: porn movie? That's what really is the parody about best
Speaker 1: move in the bedroom. If you had one move that
Speaker 1: you could tell everybody that to brag about. What is
Speaker 1: that one movie that I do to people? Oh? No,
Speaker 1: phon a friend PHONEO, baby daddy? Where is yeah? Is
Speaker 1: there anything? Is there anything else? There? Freaking better be something, Tasha?
Speaker 1: There a better be something You're like.
Speaker 3: The funny thing is they always say gonna be careful
Speaker 3: for the quiet ones. Not that you're very quiet, but
Speaker 3: I feel like you're shy on certain things, and like, bitch,
Speaker 3: who are you?
Speaker 1: You did?
Speaker 3: You're like I talked to him, I said, I was
Speaker 3: so sorry, but you're not in a se.
Speaker 1: Gosh. I really feel like it sounds conceited. It's just like,
Speaker 1: you know, be conceded.
Speaker 2: Just just my vagina is an honor pussy power.
Speaker 1: You got that wet wet. I got a great pussy.
Speaker 2: I got a great pretty it's pretty and it's tight,
Speaker 2: and you know, anybody that's in there is like.
Speaker 3: Can anybody people? Has people vouched for you and said that?
Speaker 3: Have you heard it at least two times?
Speaker 1: Oh a million? Okay?
Speaker 3: Then yeah, that it's validated, stamp of approved, validated stamp
Speaker 3: of approval of break it have you ever used food
Speaker 3: during intimacy?
Speaker 1: Have you ever put a great food out of guy's dick?
Speaker 1: Have you ever used I mean, whipcream is very cliche,
Speaker 1: and that doesn't really care. It doesn't count.
Speaker 3: No, I'd say, like, you know, cucumber, you fucked yourself
Speaker 3: with a cucumber, have you.
Speaker 1: I'd rather eat my food myself, but.
Speaker 2: You know, I mean, I'm not I don't love the
Speaker 2: idea of mixing the food in the bedroom. But I
Speaker 2: always make jokes about being a feeder. Have you ever
Speaker 2: seen those YouTube videos? No?
Speaker 1: Please? What happens?
Speaker 2: So it's like that it's sexual, Yeah, so people, and
Speaker 2: it's like about control too when people get off. Basically
Speaker 2: it's usually the dynamic that I've ever seen of a
Speaker 2: man feeding their heterosexual woman food until they get like
Speaker 2: literally eight hundred six seven hundred pounds, like the biggest,
Speaker 2: like they can't move immobile. Like abuse, absolutely without question,
Speaker 2: oh no. But it's also I mean with the abuse,
Speaker 2: there's like the sexual I guess I'm thinking that people
Speaker 2: wearing diapers or something like that, right, total totally out there,
Speaker 2: but it's it's out there.
Speaker 1: You would be a feeder, you wouldn't be the wiving.
Speaker 1: You don't want to eight hundred pounds. You just want
Speaker 1: to be the one. No, No, I love the food.
Speaker 2: So like today I made a joke because I got
Speaker 2: a bunch of donuts and I was like, you know, well,
Speaker 2: I think I was like feeding my man. I was like,
Speaker 2: I'm a feeder. I just think it's kind of like
Speaker 2: a funny.
Speaker 3: You should put the doughnut on his dick and then
Speaker 3: eat it.
Speaker 1: Ye, get creative.
Speaker 3: This is now you can answer that question if you
Speaker 3: ever come back, and then it'd be like, yeah, yes,
Speaker 3: after I'm going to try it out.
Speaker 1: That's why I put a donut on his dick. I'll
Speaker 1: try it. I'll try it. Put that donut on a dick,
Speaker 1: especially because it's like sweet and sugary like you that
Speaker 1: you want to eat.
Speaker 3: But like, hey, how can we incorporate to make this
Speaker 3: okay great for me?
Speaker 1: I'm into it. Like, and you're pregnant, I'm sure you
Speaker 1: have cravings. Put it on the deck, put it on
Speaker 1: the dick. It'll make you like blow jumps better.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, definitely a little trail. Put some peanut butter exactly. Okay,
Speaker 1: let's see.
Speaker 3: Hmmm, have you ever called some one the wrong name
Speaker 3: during sex. I don't think so, Okay, I'll believe you.
Speaker 1: I't you so.
Speaker 3: Last questions are going to be romantic questions, which is
Speaker 3: a heart and I feel like you were definitely a
Speaker 3: romantic Miss fairy Tale? What is your favorite Walt Disney
Speaker 3: princess sleeping beauty friends?
Speaker 1: Okay? Did you ever have a crush and a teacher?
Speaker 2: I have had a hot teacher in seventh grade social
Speaker 2: studies teacher.
Speaker 3: I think I did too at the same time, but
Speaker 3: later on one of my friends ended up hooking up
Speaker 3: with them when we graduated high school, which we still
Speaker 3: thought was weird. But seventh grade social studies, this guy
Speaker 3: got rolled for for underaged I guess it.
Speaker 1: Was the same person.
Speaker 2: The girl, a girl in high school on our water
Speaker 2: polo team, like somehow moved into his house because his
Speaker 2: wife advocated for that. It was like she had to
Speaker 2: because something with family. And then they started hooking up
Speaker 2: and then he went away to jail.
Speaker 1: He was hot.
Speaker 3: Were you sad that I wasn't you who got advocated
Speaker 3: to move into their house?
Speaker 1: I'm at the time, absolutely, you're like, damn it, my
Speaker 1: mom not advocating for me to lingerie or naked naked,
Speaker 1: just lazy, sometimes dumbest thing you've done to get somebody's attention.
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, yeah I want one of those.
Speaker 3: What has Tasha had done for someone that's not so far?
Speaker 1: Gosh?
Speaker 2: I just know there's something there. Can you give me,
Speaker 2: like an example so I can like brainstorm, maybe like
Speaker 2: lie that you like some kind of sport because you
Speaker 2: wanted to like they like this sport, or you lied
Speaker 2: about your profession because I mean that's kind of hard
Speaker 2: to do.
Speaker 1: That is hard to do. You're like, I mean, I'm
Speaker 1: always like I played it in a movie, it doesn't count.
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm.
Speaker 3: Yes, I always say a lot, like especially being like
Speaker 3: on the airplanes, like like I hate one of my
Speaker 3: pet peeves is like, why is it the when you
Speaker 3: meet someone they're like, oh, what's your name?
Speaker 1: And they're like, oh, what do you do? Well?
Speaker 3: Why does what you do have to define who you are?
Speaker 3: And especially sitting in a close proximity of somebody, So
Speaker 3: I'm always like, hmmm, are they ready to hear that
Speaker 3: I suck dick? Or am I just supposed to keep
Speaker 3: a peg for the flight? Some people, you know, don't
Speaker 3: even engage. I just feel like, yeah, so I've definitely lied.
Speaker 1: It's so weird when people are like, what have I said?
Speaker 1: What's your age?
Speaker 3: I'm always like, at first to be a student, and
Speaker 3: then I got too old to say I'm a student,
Speaker 3: so you know, I mean a student in life, you
Speaker 3: know what I mean? Now, I just don't even like
Speaker 3: I feel like sometimes I do it on purposes. I
Speaker 3: don't even try to be approachable in those settings because
Speaker 3: I don't like small talk for no reason.
Speaker 1: That sounds fucked up. No, no, I could see that.
Speaker 3: But as far as like I mean, have I had
Speaker 3: great conversations on airplanes, yes, and a lot and some
Speaker 3: people I feel like that you meet, it's one of
Speaker 3: those things. It's like like again destiny and whatever. And
Speaker 3: if you have the say of a personality where like
Speaker 3: you can indulge me in a conversation and I stay,
Speaker 3: I stay engaged. Great if not, you know, I'm always nice,
Speaker 3: but I always don't put myself and insert myself to
Speaker 3: be like, so, hey, you want to talk the whole
Speaker 3: five hours, abs fucking lily.
Speaker 1: Not.
Speaker 3: I don't want to talk to anybody for five hours
Speaker 3: that I don't know, because what is that doing for
Speaker 3: my life?
Speaker 1: Nothing? I probably have a million emails to look at
Speaker 1: sleep that I'm deprived, something that I need to do that.
Speaker 1: I'm just like, no, I'm cool, and that's why.
Speaker 3: I have private talk so I can have guests here
Speaker 3: and talk to you all about it all the time,
Speaker 3: because I do like to talk. It's just like, where
Speaker 3: does this conversation getting me nowhere? So you know you
Speaker 3: lie about them, you lie what you do because I
Speaker 3: just feel like it does it It's not really important.
Speaker 1: I feel you haven't like lied about that to some
Speaker 1: day you're dating.
Speaker 3: Dating, absolutely no, because I mean at this point in life,
Speaker 3: like you know what I do for myself now when
Speaker 3: I don't or I'm unsure of Like if I meet
Speaker 3: somebody somewhere, I'm like, here's my Instagram because at that
Speaker 3: point you know exactly who I am. There's no denying
Speaker 3: who I am on my Instagram. So I'm like letting
Speaker 3: it be known that this is who I am. If
Speaker 3: you want to engage and be like, oh hey, can
Speaker 3: I have your number whatever, then I'll proceed from there.
Speaker 3: But I don't definitely mind you. I don't dat a
Speaker 3: lot either, but the times that I have I definitely
Speaker 3: just put it out there because I feel like at
Speaker 3: this point in my career, I can't really hide who
Speaker 3: I am and you want to and not that everybody
Speaker 3: knows who I am or needs to know who I am,
Speaker 3: But as far as like this, there's just more to
Speaker 3: what I do. I don't shoot scenes anymore. You know,
Speaker 3: I'm known for being in the adult industry, but you
Speaker 3: know I have a podcast and more in like the
Speaker 3: media sides of things.
Speaker 2: But how will how will people know, like how will
Speaker 2: this man or woman I don't know know about the
Speaker 2: fact that you're not performing right now?
Speaker 3: Because on my on my Instagram, that's why I do
Speaker 3: is it's very heavily influenced about my ig.
Speaker 1: I mean, and it.
Speaker 3: Doesn't say that, it doesn't say it doesn't say we're tired. No,
Speaker 3: But that's all so a conversation that if we were
Speaker 3: to say follow up and be like, hey, what's your number?
Speaker 1: Do you what do you want to go on a date?
Speaker 1: And I felt, you know, obligated or not obligated, but
Speaker 1: I felt interested enough to go on that.
Speaker 3: Then throughout that first date, like you said yourself, well,
Speaker 3: you know him asking about whatever, how heavily are you
Speaker 3: in the industry?
Speaker 1: Are you doing.
Speaker 3: Are you active? Are you just having only fans? What
Speaker 3: do you do on your only fans? What do you
Speaker 3: feel comfortable so you.
Speaker 2: Want them to be I don't okay with the fact
Speaker 2: that like, this is you, this is your brand. If
Speaker 2: they want more and they want to know more, then
Speaker 2: you'll be able to unfold that.
Speaker 1: Until one thousand.
Speaker 3: I just feel at this point is I don't I
Speaker 3: can't shy, nor do I want to shy because I'm
Speaker 3: very proud of the accomplishments that i have made. And
Speaker 3: ask the woman that I am to day to where
Speaker 3: I've been and where I am going.
Speaker 1: That is just a matter.
Speaker 3: Of fact of how that that information is integrated to
Speaker 3: the next person that wants to be around me.
Speaker 2: You want to unpack the baggage whatever that may be
Speaker 2: in your life.
Speaker 3: Well, it's something that you can't hide from, you know
Speaker 3: why why waste time and like have all these feelings
Speaker 3: for someone.
Speaker 1: That can't get over what I do or what I've done.
Speaker 1: I get you know what I mean? Because then it's
Speaker 1: like I'm.
Speaker 3: Sorry, but I I can't take that away. I can't
Speaker 3: erase it. You know, I have a past just like
Speaker 3: everybody else. That's why I don't judge people and their's
Speaker 3: you know, I just take it accountable for how you treat.
Speaker 1: Me and show up. Now. I like that, Yes, ma'am.
Speaker 1: What's the most romantic thing you've ever done for a partner?
Speaker 3: Are you the one who gets things done romantic towards
Speaker 3: you or are you actually do outward Because you're very
Speaker 3: you know, detailed oriented, I could just see you doing
Speaker 3: some romantic things.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I mean I do romantic things all the time.
Speaker 2: I'm just trying to think, like, what's like the most
Speaker 2: romantic thing, the most overtop thing you've done all. I
Speaker 2: got my baby daddy recently a French bulldog puppy.
Speaker 1: I thought that was like pretty sweet. It was the
Speaker 1: one he really wanted and I surprised him. Do you
Speaker 1: pay attention to detail? Yeah, it's the cutest little dog.
Speaker 2: So I definitely am a big fan of gifts, Like
Speaker 2: I love receiving presents at your love language one of them,
Speaker 2: and I also love giving them to people. Also, if
Speaker 2: somebody tells me what they want, like want to give.
Speaker 1: That to them? Okay, yeah, I like that. I like it.
Speaker 3: Well, that is the rest of our game, that is,
Speaker 3: you've completed it with flaw, you know, with great colors.
Speaker 3: Is there anything that you want to ask Miss Taxes
Speaker 3: before we pack?
Speaker 2: Yes, So I want to ask you, like, what is
Speaker 2: your biggest.
Speaker 1: Goal or dream that you haven't accomplished yet? A good question.
Speaker 3: I feel like for me, I want to get my
Speaker 3: podcast that I have. I want to get it seen
Speaker 3: by more people. I want to get you know, more views,
Speaker 3: more sponsorships, more, you know, just more media attention from
Speaker 3: what I'm doing. I feel like a part of the
Speaker 3: beginning is kind of a stigma of like, oh, is
Speaker 3: it just porn related or is it this or whatever?
Speaker 1: But I really, you know, I'm advocating for that.
Speaker 3: There's so much more to me than just the fact
Speaker 3: that I've done adult business or adult in my business
Speaker 3: or adult in my time.
Speaker 1: But it's like one of the things.
Speaker 3: So I feel like, for me, it's just about pushing
Speaker 3: and pursuing my dreams. And right now the podcast is
Speaker 3: a really it's like my baby. It's something that you know,
Speaker 3: we created, and you know, I didn't know that I
Speaker 3: even wanted to do a podcast, and you know, it's
Speaker 3: been really fun and a really cool accomplishment just to
Speaker 3: see how far that my my voice has come, and
Speaker 3: being more vulnerable with my fans and guests and you know,
Speaker 3: viewers out there, and I just want to keep that
Speaker 3: momentum up and