Speaker 1: Creativity is an addiction. We say yes to creativity because
we're that unplugged in our lives, totally endcut because we
make mistakes. So turn it into a tool. This is
arrow unplugged, hey zero, and this is vocal dfrag asking
the questions, questioning the answers, defragging.
Speaker 2: I do it in two different areas.
Speaker 1: One is in a handwritten journal, which I've been doing
since November of twenty seventeen, and the other is this.
Speaker 2: It's a walk.
Speaker 1: This is what I call a transition walk, where you're
transitioning throughout your day. We don't study our transitions. We
just you know, you know, get disgusted with the way
that we feel, and we do power drinks to kind
of liven things up a bit, or we drain so
much coffee into our gut that we get sick to
our stomachs. But we don't listen or study our transitions.
And so that's what this walk is about.
Speaker 2: It. It's a transition walk.
Speaker 1: And whatever's moving through the universe is moving through me,
is making its way toward you. Asking the questions, questioning
the answers. I was watching a program on Apple Plus TV.
I believe it's called open door. And what this does
is a machine. You lay your hands on it, and
then you find out what you're really supposed to be
doing in your real life. And when you think about it,
you wonder what am I supposed to be doing? Where
did things suddenly shift? And how did it shift? I mean,
I can openly talk thirty five forty fifty minutes here
about how things shifted in my radio career and suddenly
I couldn't even get back to the original path. And
yet that ten year old kid is still alive in
me wondering what gifts. If you can't achieve what it
is that I envisioned at this young age of ten,
then are you cheating on me? Being very truthful to yourself,
what do you think you were supposed to be doing
in life that other people's decisions suayed you away from
or took you away from in the way of bettering
their business. You needed to be there for them. It's
their money, you're their employee. Therefore your dreams really aren't
that important. But what do you think you were supposed
to be doing? And if you were to lay your
hands on this one particular machine, what do you think
your reaction would be? If you suddenly found out how
far off your dreams you really are. I'm blessed with
the opportunity to talk with a lot of creative people
in music, writing, actors. So many of these people will
share with you that, hey, I was doing this in life,
and suddenly I found myself doing this, which led to this.
Comedians who are given an opportunity to be on camera
because society has loved them, they keep going back, but
they never envisioned themselves being in that position of being
on that camera. Is that part of their dream or
are they far far far away from the galaxies of
where their dreams were supposed to grow. Asking the questions,
questioning the answers. That's what d FRAG is all about.
And you know, it's very tough to say and very
tough to write out what it is that you think
you were supposed to be doing because you don't have
the play by playbook, that book that said Okay, this
is where I need you, this is the time I
need you, and please please don't argue with me when
you get there. The turning points in your life where
suddenly you were going a different direction. A good example
would be I had it figured out that I would
be a master in martial arts a fourth dawn by
twenty twelve. Yeah, well that didn't happen. The reason why
is because in two thousand and nine, July eleventh, I
had a heart attack and that put me back a year,
year and a half. And then you know I got
the third dawn. The body was already old at that time.
Does that mean that, hey, look, you know you're a
little pansy, you could still be in class. Well, you
know what martial arts is not about that. You get
tired of breaking the boards, you get tired of trying
to do the high flying kicks, and when you're well
over your mid fifties, it's kind of hard to find
yourself in a dojong doing a jump turning hook kick.
Speaker 2: But it's the expectation.
Speaker 1: And then you start feeling guilty when the sobonym is
looking at you and you know you're not doing it right,
but he accepts your body's attempt. But it's not great
and it's not some of your best. Now, was I
supposed to be a master? I don't know what the
story is on that. I just know that I was
called into a room and I saw these guys doing
martial arts. This wasn't inspired by a movie. It was
just these guys doing martial arts. That's how I got
into it, and then I invested in it and really
became a hardcore martial artist mind, body and soul.
Speaker 2: The foot Fist Way.
Speaker 1: But the way it changed me though, was that it
removed me from having an on air radio ego. I
was able to look at my community, to participate with
my community, to grow with my community. That's how martial
arts played out. But getting back to you and getting
back to where you think you should be, what do
you think that is? And if you asked that question,
do you find yourself in a position of.
Speaker 2: What is my purpose?
Speaker 1: Well, you have to have a plan, you have to
have process, and through that there will be progress. But
we stop asking the questions, we stop dreaming at a
certain age because we think, well it's over. I'm forty
and by god, I should have had this at twenty five.
I'm done, when in reality, as long as you've got
air in your lungs, you continue growing. So you might
be asking, well, then why don't you go to the
dojong anymore? The foot fist way, The way is what
the schools don't teach, They don't teach you the way,
the journey, the inside thoughts, that the mental ability to
work your way through so many places of darkness, doubt, guilt, shame,
learning the power of the way and then sharing your knowledge,
teaching your knowledge, becoming a part of the community on
that level. Because hey, in the real world, when we
see somebody who is frumpy, who really looks like they're
angry all the time, or their emotions are unlimited when
it comes to having a keen sense of direction, you
reach in.
Speaker 2: You help them.
Speaker 1: You know, teachers right now are very weak because because
they don't have support, they're not getting paid enough and
number three teachers are tired. Therefore, the community has got
to take care of itself. The foot fist way. What
is your way? If you were to put your hands
on that machine and it shows you your true identity
of who you are really supposed to be, ask the
question question the answers, who would you be? And would
you be happy about that? Sure, we have a lot
of times in our lives that we don't feel comfortable
talking about, and we had challenges that stopped us along
the way. But we think the further we get away
from it, the more we don't have to talk about it,
when in fact that could be the roadblock, that could
be the stone in the creek. The flow of life
has stopped because of something that went wrong, or you
felt it went wrong, when in fact it could have
just been a test to find out how strong you
really are. When it comes to being with future broadcasters,
I always tell them, find the food that you do
not like and put it in your pantry or your refrigerator,
and I want you to be able to look at
that food every single day, because when you get hungry,
that food that you don't like could be the only
protein or carb that you have, and it's going to
require that for you to get through that storm. If
you could have been anything else other than what you
are right now putting your hands on that machine, what
would you be. I can't answer that question because all
of my memories and all of my ambitions are attached
to radio.
Speaker 2: The good, the bad, and the ugly.
Speaker 1: In other words, all this had to happen for me
to be where it is that I am right now.
But if I put my hands on there and learn
that I should have been a school teacher, I think
I would accept that. But if it told me a
different story, such as, well, you need to be at
a grocery store and you need to be managing people.
Not only that, you need to be making connections with
a community that walks into a grocery store completely blind.
People are running away from their personal lives to buy
food because it's an escape and they know that food
makes them feel good. Where would you be if you
were to find out the deeper truth of what you
were supposed to be? Who were the people that changed you?
Do you forgive them? Do you understand why they made
the decisions they did? Do you accept it as a
test and was the test victorious? Or did it put
you in a place of even deeper challenges and you've
held onto that grudge all this time? What's stopping you
from going back? What's stopping you from reaching out there
and becoming this, this, and this in order to be
what it is that you want to become. What's keeping
you from it? The price of an education. I talk
with a lot of people on NBC's The Voice, thirty
six year olds and older that say they put family first,
and then one day their spouse looked at him and said, hey, look,
you know what do it one more time.
Speaker 2: Just do it one more time. If it doesn't work out,
then you know.
Speaker 1: Being honest and open with yourself creates a connection to
the inner.
Speaker 2: Core of yourself.
Speaker 1: That side of your personality is usually only known by you,
and it usually tries to talk to you when you're
in the bathroom mirror, when you're sitting alone in the
front seat of the car, or when you're at work
and there's too much work to be done, and then
when it talks to you, it's often negative. Learning how
to silence that beast requires even more conversation. Ask the
question question the answers. If you were to put your
hands on that machine and it revealed to your soul
what it is that you were supposed to be doing,
how would you deal with it?
Speaker 2: Hi, Marin and that spoke Walde Frank