Speaker 1: I know that you have.
Speaker 2: I haven't wanted to do with any of any many interviews.
Speaker 2: So I feel blessed that you took the time to
Speaker 2: come on Private Talk and.
Speaker 1: Let us get to know you a little bit better.
Speaker 1: King Loos.
Speaker 3: Yeah, thank you. You have a good tone, you have
Speaker 3: a good we might have to do like a song
Speaker 3: or something like put you on a song or something like.
Speaker 2: My phone sex operator voice. It changes as soon as
Speaker 2: like it tops in.
Speaker 3: It changes as soon as you get on a mic,
Speaker 3: which is crazy because most people it's reversed, like people
Speaker 3: have a really good voice and then you get them
Speaker 3: on a mic and it's like nothing.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 2: I feel like it comes into my character. It's just
Speaker 2: like you know, it's part of Lexis Texas, is a part.
Speaker 1: Who I am, and so Talk wants to know who
Speaker 1: you are today.
Speaker 3: Let's find it out. Let's figure it out.
Speaker 1: I'll find it out.
Speaker 3: Who is this guy?
Speaker 2: Who is this guy on my couch? So you're a musician,
Speaker 2: a songwriter, you do it all. You've got your green juice.
Speaker 2: You've already were schooling me on some knowledge before we
Speaker 2: started rolling. I like the vibe, I like the energy.
Speaker 2: So I'm excited to get to know you a little
Speaker 2: bit better on my own terms on somebody else's potform.
Speaker 3: Let's cool, we're here, let's go.
Speaker 1: So what kind of projects do you have going on
Speaker 1: right now?
Speaker 3: Well, I'm working on what I like to call three
Speaker 3: three three, and I have three projects that I'm about
Speaker 3: to release this year because it's been three years since
Speaker 3: I put out music. So it's been three years since
Speaker 3: I put out music. I'm releasing three projects at three
Speaker 3: separate times.
Speaker 2: So now it is a significant based off of what
Speaker 2: we were speaking earlier about.
Speaker 3: The numbers, it's kind of happened that way, or.
Speaker 2: I was gonna say, or is it organic that it
Speaker 2: just kind of like manifested into that.
Speaker 3: It manifested into that, But it's it fits perfect with
Speaker 3: the narrative, right, So yeah, three three three, And the
Speaker 3: first project is called Internet Boyfriend, where I'm releasing that
Speaker 3: on Valentine's Day. Hi romantic, Yeah, it is, I mean
Speaker 3: it is some I get into some romantic shit.
Speaker 1: Internet boyfriends can be romantic.
Speaker 3: They are, though I've had a couple.
Speaker 1: I have Only fans they are.
Speaker 3: I have a song on it called only Fans. There's
Speaker 3: a song called Only Fans. And it's like my interpretation
Speaker 3: of it is like I'm your only fan, like my
Speaker 3: love for you or my admiration for you. It's so
Speaker 3: deep that I'm your only fan, Like of course you
Speaker 3: have a million fans, but I'm really your only fan,
Speaker 3: like I'm locking in like that, you know. So it's
Speaker 3: not just so facetious or you know, it's still that connection,
Speaker 3: you know what I mean. So it's like my twist
Speaker 3: on everything, and it's an R and B based project,
Speaker 3: which is out of my normal Is that your favor, Well,
Speaker 3: that's out of my normal element. So that's like my
Speaker 3: not only my breaking out of like expanding myself sonically
Speaker 3: and giving my fans something different. I'm also it's also
Speaker 3: my tribute to women in general, just the realization that
Speaker 3: I've come to with just the frequency of women and
Speaker 3: how much they mean to the happiness and importance of
Speaker 3: where we are in society. And I feel like when
Speaker 3: the Woman started, there was a time when the woman
Speaker 3: was really elated and every it seemed like everything was
Speaker 3: good right and the world was like so good, And
Speaker 3: then it got to this time where I feel like
Speaker 3: music overall just really was just disrespectful to women and
Speaker 3: women are the biggest consumers of music, right, And how
Speaker 3: what is it when you have to hear a song
Speaker 3: when you want to dance, right, you want to move
Speaker 3: your body, You just want to And then what you're
Speaker 3: moving to is like.
Speaker 1: You're saying the lyrics, but you're not really like under.
Speaker 3: At the same time, right, So it's almost like you're
Speaker 3: just getting the best of whatever you can get and
Speaker 3: your tak taking. And I feel like at that point
Speaker 3: everything changed because I'm from the era where before social media,
Speaker 3: where you had to have real rap game, like you,
Speaker 3: if you ran up on a girl, you had to
Speaker 3: have everything ready or be that spontane is in the
Speaker 3: moment right and get her attention, make her laugh, be
Speaker 3: engaging and then land the phone number right, call her later,
Speaker 3: have more conversation.
Speaker 1: Just slide on the DMS and say it, here's my number.
Speaker 3: Yeah. And it wasn't already this preconceived thing of like, oh,
Speaker 3: let me look at your page, Oh you're lit now
Speaker 3: automatically fuck with you right. No, it was like you
Speaker 3: had to be on the phone all night, convince her
Speaker 3: and oh, come on, let's link up. I missed the
Speaker 3: old days that was, but that process is so organic, right,
Speaker 3: and now it's like.
Speaker 2: But I feel like we're preconditioned to feel those But
Speaker 2: it's like you said, if it's the songs that you
Speaker 2: hear more like repetity over and over and over again,
Speaker 2: you start to believe those words.
Speaker 1: Unfortunately, that's just kind of how it is.
Speaker 2: It's the same thing about manifesting what you want to
Speaker 2: happen in life.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 2: It's kind of how beaking spell twenty two you catch
Speaker 2: twenty two, right, we.
Speaker 3: Speak in spells. So my whole thing is about love
Speaker 3: on that particular project and just appreciating women and bringing
Speaker 3: more of the fantasy back like you know when dudes
Speaker 3: used to say shit like we call it corny now,
Speaker 3: but back when they say like I give you the
Speaker 3: moon and the stars, right, Like, you know you can't
Speaker 3: actually do that, but the notion in itself is so
Speaker 3: grand as a gesture like whoa really? You know, just
Speaker 3: that will open up a whole nother part to me
Speaker 3: of a woman where now you can explore something deeper
Speaker 3: in her than just the surface. And that's what I'm
Speaker 3: more so about. So that's what the project is about.
Speaker 3: And I feel like the music does that.
Speaker 2: Do you feel like that's kind of evolved, like where
Speaker 2: you are in your life that you felt like you
Speaker 2: kind of went through the disrespectful part with women, and
Speaker 2: now you maybe something kind of happened or you know,
Speaker 2: it's such a situation in your life and then made
Speaker 2: you kind of more soft and realize what the love
Speaker 2: of a woman could really be as beautiful as it
Speaker 2: could be.
Speaker 3: I've never been in the disrespectful part, but.
Speaker 2: Not maybe disrespectful as far as even I've never been
Speaker 2: in that.
Speaker 3: I've never been a part of that frequently not who
Speaker 3: you are, it's not who I am. But you know
Speaker 3: what I did, I did neglect though, because when I
Speaker 3: realized this shit, I was like, oh fuck. I realized
Speaker 3: that for all the years that I've been rapping, I've
Speaker 3: been catering to men. Like lyrics, punchlines, metaphors, all these
Speaker 3: intricate ass ways of expressing myself lyrically were for men,
Speaker 3: men's approval. For everywhere I'll go right now, there's not
Speaker 3: a place I can go without a man saying yo,
Speaker 3: yo yo, when you said such and such, and it's
Speaker 3: like everywhere I go it's men men men, And I'm like,
Speaker 3: but I'm an actual fly motherfucker. Like I'm supposed to
Speaker 3: be having conversations with women and I'm supposed to be
Speaker 3: engaging with women in my music, and I failed to
Speaker 3: do that for so many years. So I started picking
Speaker 3: up like being more melodic and like singing, and it
Speaker 3: turned into a whole thing. It just turned into like
Speaker 3: now I'm making full fledged love songs and shit. So
Speaker 3: it's part of my evolution for sure.
Speaker 1: Do you have sex to your own love songs? Have I?
Speaker 2: Have?
Speaker 3: I had sex to my own?
Speaker 2: Acquiring minds want to know because I feel like it's
Speaker 2: always like a question.
Speaker 3: The world will have sex to my new ship?
Speaker 2: Well that's hot, but it's like, you know, it's you're
Speaker 2: your own biggest fan in a sense you have to
Speaker 2: be to be an artist, you know, like to be
Speaker 2: into like the whole thing. So it's like, do you
Speaker 2: listen to your stuff on repeat and when you're having
Speaker 2: biggest fan?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 3: No, I don't think that there's anybody living that could
Speaker 3: fuck with me though, Like I think when it comes
Speaker 3: to lyrics, lyrics, not singing, but lyrics, like I'm the
Speaker 3: baddest motherfucker.
Speaker 2: But then how can you say those words and not
Speaker 2: think that you're your biggest fan. Like that's that that
Speaker 2: takes a lot of you know, career, courage and be
Speaker 2: all these things.
Speaker 1: There's a lot of people out there.
Speaker 2: There's a lot of people that you know do stuff,
Speaker 2: but it doesn't mean that they're the best. But how
Speaker 2: do you not say that you're your own biggest fans?
Speaker 3: To be honest with you, I'm still learning how to
Speaker 3: experience myself.
Speaker 1: So you're not good at taking compliments.
Speaker 3: I love them, I don't. I don't maybe like.
Speaker 2: A lot to like actually like meaning it so onether
Speaker 2: thing that's be like, okay, been nice and be polite
Speaker 2: or whatever, but feeling.
Speaker 1: What that is.
Speaker 2: I feel like for myself, people'd be like when I
Speaker 2: went to Aben in Vegas orre like you're a legend,
Speaker 2: I'm like, oh, that's weird, and not that it's because
Speaker 2: I don't feel that and in some sense, but to me,
Speaker 2: I'm not at that point yet because I haven't reached
Speaker 2: my fullest potential and not to me is you know,
Speaker 2: legend means different things to a lot of people. So
Speaker 2: it's like maybe it's just you don't feel that you're
Speaker 2: at your fullest potential of what it is, but doesn't
Speaker 2: mean that that's not true.
Speaker 3: Yeah, my take on it is just a little bit different.
Speaker 3: I know I've mastered a lot of the human element,
Speaker 3: so but I don't spend much time in a human capacity,
Speaker 3: like I'm always on like the ethereal realm. I'm always
Speaker 3: like I'm in the cosmo so much that I'll do
Speaker 3: some shit and not realize what I did. Like when
Speaker 3: I went on Sway in the morning, and I have
Speaker 3: been wanting to go there for forever, like, Yo, we're
Speaker 3: not going Sway in the morning. I'm gonna kill it.
Speaker 3: But my biggest element on the Internet, that my biggest
Speaker 3: draw is the fact that I can freestyle, Like I
Speaker 3: can just make it up on the spot right there, right.
Speaker 3: So of course I didn't prepare because I'm like, I
Speaker 3: don't have to prepare. I was going to freestyle. So
Speaker 3: I went to Sway and we did some things where
Speaker 3: he was like I asked him. I was like, yo,
Speaker 3: you want to just throw our words? You throw our
Speaker 3: words and I just run it right, so boom, we
Speaker 3: do that shit and I'm doing it. And when I left,
Speaker 3: I was massively underwhelmed with myself. Like when I was
Speaker 3: walking out, I was like, yeah, I didn't kill it.
Speaker 3: I didn't kill it, Like it's weird.
Speaker 1: I didn't kill it, and everyone else thought you killed them.
Speaker 3: The world thought I killed it, and I mean, what
Speaker 3: ten million viral, ten million years later everybody. That's everyone's
Speaker 3: reference point for me. Now yo, yo just sway in
Speaker 3: the morning, I show all my friends that, like, they
Speaker 3: skip all my work and they go to that moment.
Speaker 3: So when I'm saying I'm not my biggest fan, I'm not.
Speaker 3: That's not the first thing I would show people when
Speaker 3: people were like, yo, show me some stuff of you.
Speaker 3: But if someone else said, Yo, let me show you
Speaker 3: something of lows, they would show that. Right. So I'm
Speaker 3: not my biggest fan in that sense, you know, because
Speaker 3: I'm still experiencing what it is that people get from that.
Speaker 3: I have to go sit down and watch the reactions,
Speaker 3: watch people doing the you know, you know, they do
Speaker 3: the breakdowns, and I want to see what I'm learning,
Speaker 3: what it is that people actually receive from those moments
Speaker 3: that it makes it more elated than the things that
Speaker 3: I think is dope. But I'm on, like I said,
Speaker 3: I'm somewhere up there.
Speaker 2: That's some big, like bigger artistry type things. Because it's
Speaker 2: like it's your craft. It's something that you like, no
Speaker 2: one else could see the inside of your brain.
Speaker 3: But you I don't even like watching my like.
Speaker 2: You know, I'm the same way. I never watched anything
Speaker 2: I ever did. I'm like, if other people like it,
Speaker 2: then that I must be doing something right, because I'm not.
Speaker 2: I just critique myself to the point where it's like
Speaker 2: it's just like yourself.
Speaker 1: To the like, or it's like you get like I
Speaker 1: get annoyed with myself.
Speaker 3: I don't watch my interviews.
Speaker 2: I used to not even leave like voice messages because
Speaker 2: I'd be a note with my voice, which.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I would see like my interviews and not want
Speaker 3: like not watch them. Or like even when I did
Speaker 3: a Rhythm and Flow on Netflix, everybody was amped up
Speaker 3: when it was coming on, and I was like, I
Speaker 3: didn't even want to watch it, Like after I just
Speaker 3: filmed this whole season and I didn't even want to
Speaker 3: sit down and watch it.
Speaker 2: But there's that because of your critiqueness or is it
Speaker 2: because you're like I already lived it, like I already
Speaker 2: did it.
Speaker 3: I don't know what it is. I don't know what
Speaker 3: it is. Maybe it's some nervousness too maybe it's nervousness too.
Speaker 1: Maybe I feel like maybe the feedback whatever.
Speaker 2: But then it's like you're probably like you said, you're
Speaker 2: so like a into some things that you'll watch it
Speaker 2: from apart, like from a side or leant another feedback,
Speaker 2: but you don't want to watch it with nobody.
Speaker 3: You know what it is, man, I'm a perfectionist real
Speaker 3: and I'm always feeling like I could improve something. But
Speaker 3: maybe I'm too hard on myself because There's been times
Speaker 3: when I look back and I re listened to something
Speaker 3: and it was amazing, and I'm like, oh, I slept
Speaker 3: on that shit, Like I just did that with this
Speaker 3: other song I wrote called Runaway, and I slept on
Speaker 3: it when I first did it, and now I listened
Speaker 3: to it yesterday and I'm like, Yo, this shit is
Speaker 3: a masterpiece. So again, maybe because I'm trying to humanize
Speaker 3: myself a lot more to I wasn't really open to
Speaker 3: like feeling a lot, you know. And I think that's
Speaker 3: another reason why I missed the females early on, Because.
Speaker 2: Do you feel like we were suppressing it because of
Speaker 2: like earlier things on in life that you didn't want it,
Speaker 2: Like those feelings.
Speaker 3: When I was sixteen, my father was murdered. And when
Speaker 3: that happened, I started to express myself in writing and
Speaker 3: through literature. So I was reading you know, Robert Frost,
Speaker 3: Emily Dickinson, I got Allan Poe, Shakespeare, and I was
Speaker 3: studying all the nuances and mechanisms of writing. Like I
Speaker 3: just basically put myself into that whole scope of literature
Speaker 3: and writing.
Speaker 2: Because that's how you wanted to express yourself or how
Speaker 2: you could.
Speaker 3: Be latching onto something that I that I found interesting,
Speaker 3: and I just went deep, deep, deep into that and
Speaker 3: that turned into rap music.
Speaker 1: Right were you when you started rapping?
Speaker 3: Well, when I started writing, I was sixteen when my
Speaker 3: dad died, right, But when I started rapping, I was
Speaker 3: like around eighteen. It was like high school. And when
Speaker 3: I when I went to this high school, these kids was,
Speaker 3: you know, at the lunch table something. No, they was rapping.
Speaker 3: I was looking. I'm like, I could do that, you know,
Speaker 3: because I'm fast, I'm witty, I'm funny, I can make
Speaker 3: a joke. And it was more like like.
Speaker 1: Your timing was like way ahead of everybody else.
Speaker 3: It ended up being because when I when I first started,
Speaker 3: I didn't know I didn't know, right, But it was
Speaker 3: just more like snapping on each other, but with rhymes
Speaker 3: and stuff. Oh you wear glasses, you four eyes and whatever, right,
Speaker 3: and I'm like, oh, I got jokes and ship when
Speaker 3: I slid and did when everybody went crazy, I was
Speaker 3: kind of looking shit.
Speaker 1: They like it like I'm funny, right, I'm funny.
Speaker 3: And then I already knew I was funny though, because
Speaker 3: I always was class clown, always was you know, I'm
Speaker 3: that guy. So I just started adding. So what I
Speaker 3: would do is I would finish my work early and
Speaker 3: write a rap before lunch so.
Speaker 2: You could be ready to go. I'm a battle at
Speaker 2: the lunch so ready.
Speaker 3: It was a thing like I'm walking down the hallway.
Speaker 3: It's like the rocky theme music, you.
Speaker 1: Know, dum you go. You ready to get the lunch.
Speaker 1: Lunch time ain't change.
Speaker 3: Right now, man. And it was a thing. And that's
Speaker 3: that was the birth of that was the birth of
Speaker 3: me rapping and getting into this craft. And you know so,
Speaker 3: but I immediately went for astronomical. I skipped everything in
Speaker 3: the middle, like I went for like when I realized
Speaker 3: I had something, I went for like the greatest way
Speaker 3: you can express shit.
Speaker 1: Zero undred.
Speaker 3: I went from zero to one hundred. So I was
Speaker 3: like challenging the way I write shit. So I was like, yeah,
Speaker 3: I want to write a rhyme where it has straight a's,
Speaker 3: like every word starts with A in the entire rhyme,
Speaker 3: like just saying bizarre shit to she's fast, she's quick
Speaker 3: in part two you'll be in part two, right, right?
Speaker 2: But you know, but that's talent though, like going everything
Speaker 2: and like even not just as talented to do and
Speaker 2: actually master that, but even to think that idea, to
Speaker 2: do that, to make your mind because you're basically challenging
Speaker 2: your mind.
Speaker 3: You're making your share. You know what we share? What
Speaker 3: we share, we share audaciousness. It's the audacity, right, And
Speaker 3: I think that's the because the mind and body can't
Speaker 3: separate chemical reaction, Like, right, you don't know, the mind
Speaker 3: doesn't know, the body doesn't know crack cocaine from sugar.
Speaker 3: It's because it's a chemical reaction, same thing released in sex.
Speaker 3: So we're looking for this chemical because the biochemistry of
Speaker 3: who we are, right, So audacity, same thing. Kobe Bryant,
Speaker 3: Michael Jordan, Mike Tyson, this like, oh you want them?
Speaker 3: If there's three seconds left and you want to take
Speaker 3: the shot.
Speaker 1: Right, I'm going for it.
Speaker 3: It takes such so much audacity to do things. And
Speaker 3: when people can do that, like you notice sometimes right,
Speaker 3: the guys who have the most audacity is the ones
Speaker 3: the girls be like, hmm, it's mysterious, Like I wonder
Speaker 3: what makes you so fucking confident? What makes you think
Speaker 3: that you know? And I think that's one of the
Speaker 3: qualities that I have that we all share intrinsically. When
Speaker 3: people do stuff that's so daring that that you know,
Speaker 3: the public be like right, and you're like fuck that,
Speaker 3: like right, and that rebellious, that rebellious shit, And so
Speaker 3: that's what I That's what the inception of my thoughts are.
Speaker 3: I'm like, one day I was in my room. I
Speaker 3: was super poor, and I'm just in this little room.
Speaker 3: It was so small and I have posters of every
Speaker 3: rapper wrapped around the whole wall in the room was
Speaker 3: so small that my bed took up half the room
Speaker 3: and it was just so small as it's sneakers everywhere,
Speaker 3: and just like I remember this room like it was yesterday,
Speaker 3: and I was like, I'm going to be the best rapper,
Speaker 3: Like one day I'm going to be the best rapper.
Speaker 1: And at what age was this?
Speaker 3: This was like after high school, so maybe like nineteen twenty.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but that's I mean, for me, it was the
Speaker 2: sense where I was like, I don't know why or how,
Speaker 2: but people are going to have my name in their mouth.
Speaker 2: People are gonna know me. And that's just what it isn't.
Speaker 3: Know why your things in their mind. That's a bar
Speaker 3: that's that.
Speaker 1: But that's really like what it was. I'm from a
Speaker 1: small town, not knowing whatever.
Speaker 2: I didn't see are you from? I'm from a small
Speaker 2: town outside of San Antonio.
Speaker 3: What's it called.
Speaker 2: It's called Castroville, Texas. Castraville, Yes, very small, like twenty
Speaker 2: two hundred people. Yeah, so it was really small and
Speaker 2: it was like one of those things that no offense
Speaker 2: to any of the people that were there. But I
Speaker 2: didn't fit in there, like a really like white place. Yes, yes,
Speaker 2: predominantly white Mexican of race. But it's like, so I'm
Speaker 2: a military brat, so we were there. I was born in
Speaker 2: Panama and I was raised in Texas there and so
Speaker 2: for me, for whatever reason, I just didn't ever fit in.
Speaker 2: And I you know, I did all the things we
Speaker 2: were supposed to do. I went, you know, I graduated
Speaker 2: all that stuff, but I just didn't see myself dating, marrying,
Speaker 2: fucking let alone any of the people that were in
Speaker 2: my town because it just I saw more.
Speaker 1: I didn't know what more was at the time.
Speaker 3: And you know, later on were you attracted to?
Speaker 1: What was I attracted too?
Speaker 2: I see For me, I've always feel like I'm a
Speaker 2: wandering soul of sorts, and so for me, I know
Speaker 2: that I have talents, but I don't like I have
Speaker 2: multiple talents. It's not just one thing that I focused
Speaker 2: on laser focus and was like, oh, I'm gonna do it.
Speaker 2: So I just feel like I kind of just stumbled
Speaker 2: upon into the adult industry. So I feel like it
Speaker 2: was like I got into it being it was a
Speaker 2: reality type thing that came over. I was twenty one,
Speaker 2: and I kind of went to the thing where they
Speaker 2: were trying to get girls that in college that had
Speaker 2: never done scenes before. It was college college amateur tour, YadA, YadA, YadA.
Speaker 2: Long story short, the guy came in, I was like,
Speaker 2: I told him no. He called me the next day
Speaker 2: and I was like, I didn't like rejection, and I
Speaker 2: was like, he didn't want me in.
Speaker 1: Your movie anyways?
Speaker 2: And he was like, oh my god, I didn't think
Speaker 2: you would want to ended up doing a movie.
Speaker 1: A couple of months later, I moved.
Speaker 2: He texted or he called me, and I went to
Speaker 2: Florida and then moved to LA a week later. Again,
Speaker 2: didn't know what that really was going to do, but
Speaker 2: it was something that I felt like he needed to
Speaker 2: be here. So I feel like it's kind of opened
Speaker 2: and spiraled part of why my name is in people's
Speaker 2: man now, why my name is in people's mouth. But yeah,
Speaker 2: so you know, but I didn't know.
Speaker 1: What that is.
Speaker 3: But I just knew those experiences.
Speaker 1: I definitely do.
Speaker 2: I feel like, you know, I've had nothing but a
Speaker 2: great career in the adult industry. It's done nothing but
Speaker 2: give things to me as far as knowing who I
Speaker 2: or realizing who I was as a woman, things that
Speaker 2: I liked. What I didn't like, being comfortable in my
Speaker 2: own skin, being a curvy girl, not really you know,
Speaker 2: super skinny, and even was getting in the industry at
Speaker 2: the time.
Speaker 1: It was everyone I didn't look like anybody. I was
Speaker 1: a curvy girl.
Speaker 2: Everyone had fake big boobs, bleach blonde hair like ninety
Speaker 2: pounds and that's never gonna be me. So it was
Speaker 2: just one of those things like man, do I fit
Speaker 2: in or not? But you know, for me, it wasn't
Speaker 2: about fitting in. It was like go big or go home,
Speaker 2: and I wasn't going home, and so I made Alexis
Speaker 2: tax associates.
Speaker 3: That's crazy.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: But even from all of that, you know, like you said,
Speaker 2: you being in your room, you having all these greatest
Speaker 2: rappers on there, and you're being like, I'm gonna make it.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna be the best.
Speaker 3: Right.
Speaker 1: Who are your top three rappers at that time?
Speaker 3: At that time? No, no, at that time, my top
Speaker 3: three rappers were Big l Nas and Cannabis at that
Speaker 3: time and currently currently my favorite rappers Andre three thousand.
Speaker 1: All right, I can see that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, he's the goat to me.
Speaker 1: Yourself, I don't put myself on it. If we're doing
Speaker 1: You're the greatest.
Speaker 3: No, no, if, because that's a different list, okay if. Yeah,
Speaker 3: I don't feel like nobody could fuck with me. I
Speaker 3: smoke everybody. But hmmm, I just tell you my three
Speaker 3: favorite artists because I don't know if I got three
Speaker 3: favorite rappers. Okay, Andre three thousand, Frank Ocean and The
Speaker 3: Weekend Nice like, those are my three favorite artists.
Speaker 1: Those are all equally Yeah, you.
Speaker 3: See that, you see that, you see that, though you
Speaker 3: see where that goes.
Speaker 1: I see them. You know what I'm saying, You're a thinker.
Speaker 1: I like that. It's like one of those things that
Speaker 1: you know.
Speaker 2: It's like you said, you're in like a different dimensional
Speaker 2: thinker you can do.
Speaker 3: I'm an interdimensional being for sure. I'm definitely I'm definitely
Speaker 3: not here, you know, I'm just this is my representative.
Speaker 2: Where do you think that that kind of like that
Speaker 2: kind of thinking, Where did that start in your life?
Speaker 2: And how did you unlock those things to get to
Speaker 2: where you are now?
Speaker 3: I feel like it comes from my ancestors, and I
Speaker 3: feel like I started tapping into them around thirty three
Speaker 3: and they started just giving me answers and telling me shit.
Speaker 3: And I haven't really like people. People ask me like, so,
Speaker 3: what what five books are you reading or and I'm like,
Speaker 3: I don't read books, you know. I feel like the
Speaker 3: best book you ever read is yourself, and the greatest
Speaker 3: story you ever write is your own. So yeah, I'm
Speaker 3: just in the cosmos constantly. I'm downloading, uploading, and I'm
Speaker 3: just existing, you know, not trying to do too too much,
Speaker 3: but just be me and have that self love and
Speaker 3: then you.
Speaker 1: Know, sit authentic.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean it has to be organic because we
Speaker 3: don't know what authentic isn't I don't really have a
Speaker 3: definition for that, but I'll say organic, right, because it
Speaker 3: could be someone's complete opposite idea.
Speaker 2: Right.
Speaker 3: But if it's organic and it's natural, that's the shit
Speaker 3: I fuck with.
Speaker 2: Well that's why I feel like for why I didn't
Speaker 2: ever watch my you know, anything I did or things
Speaker 2: like that, is because I'd rather just be me and
Speaker 2: like no regrets and no.
Speaker 3: Like their apologies, any shame.
Speaker 1: No, I didn't have any shame. I feel like I had.
Speaker 3: Like somewhere subconscious deep, was there any because we know
Speaker 3: life is duality, so was there any lingering? Maybe at
Speaker 3: one point did you think am I Am I doing
Speaker 3: the right thing?
Speaker 1: I don't think early on.
Speaker 2: I think later on, just because growing evolving and like
Speaker 2: having different people in your life and people shunning you
Speaker 2: for certain things and appraising you for others and things
Speaker 2: like that and kind of navigating your life through that,
Speaker 2: I think possibly the thought of but I like to
Speaker 2: this day, no, and there's nothing that I've done in
Speaker 2: my life or my career that I feel like has
Speaker 2: been like hasn't happened for a reason, Like things happen
Speaker 2: naturally for a reason. It got me to where I
Speaker 2: am today, if you know, the choices that I've made
Speaker 2: or whatever. But I feel like it's made me stronger
Speaker 2: and really realize who I am ner me, not just
Speaker 2: the outer part of me and what people want me
Speaker 2: to be for. And that's I think also with having
Speaker 2: my podcast, it's like the first time, like people know
Speaker 2: I'm good at adult movies, but nobody knows what I think,
Speaker 2: how I think, how I operate, how I speak, how
Speaker 2: if I'm funny, if I'm fucking boring as fuck, Like
Speaker 2: people don't know. So this was like a chance in
Speaker 2: a platform to meet new people and show and express
Speaker 2: my character that I'm not just one dimensional. There's so
Speaker 2: much more to me. And this was kind of like
Speaker 2: the way my way of bringing it out.
Speaker 3: What is your OnlyFans content?
Speaker 2: Like my OnlyFans content is like the only adult thing
Speaker 2: I do still, which is only solo stuff, but you
Speaker 2: can find a lot of different things from solo videos.
Speaker 1: I do a lot of custom videos.
Speaker 2: I do more the like editorial, like beautifulness of a
Speaker 2: woman from my perspective, and things that I do and
Speaker 2: like my everyday life. So for me, that's the only
Speaker 2: place that my fans can see any of my real
Speaker 2: life anywhere, like anywhere opening up, because I'm not a
Speaker 2: type of person like, yes, I have Instagram and I
Speaker 2: use it for branding and for marketing, but I don't
Speaker 2: show my not on there on my stories showing my
Speaker 2: whole life like this out of that. So that kind
Speaker 2: of gives that side of the Alexis Texas.
Speaker 3: So the other stuff is kind of your past at
Speaker 3: this point.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I haven't shot movies in over three years. Yeah,
Speaker 2: I always say three. I'm sure it's probably longer now,
Speaker 2: but three, Yeah, three is following. I believe in all
Speaker 2: those things. I feel like I we spoke earlier about.
Speaker 2: You know that you know that it's it's third. Is
Speaker 2: it three or thirty three or just three and three?
Speaker 3: It's three three three, and it's three six nine. My
Speaker 3: birthday is three two three, which is which is both
Speaker 3: of them three two three because three and the three
Speaker 3: is a six and the three and three is also
Speaker 3: a nine. So my birthday is three two three, which
Speaker 3: is actually three six nine, you know.
Speaker 2: So that's why for me right now, I'm in like
Speaker 2: the energy wise of like crystals and like healing elements
Speaker 2: and like things that are like factual, me go.
Speaker 3: Somewhere else, you finished, because you're gonna go into different
Speaker 3: realm for sure.
Speaker 2: And that's why I feel like I get what you're saying.
Speaker 2: I don't fully understand all of it at that potential
Speaker 2: right now because it's just green to me, but it's yeah,
Speaker 2: it's one of those things I truly believe in that.
Speaker 1: I feel like that it's real.
Speaker 3: You know what. The most powerful thing that you can
Speaker 3: say is I don't know that's true. That's what people
Speaker 3: struggle with. People struggle with the unknown and embracing it.
Speaker 3: When you embrace the unknown, that's when you open up
Speaker 3: the power of knowing. But when you pretend you know
Speaker 3: everything or you don't know it and now you just
Speaker 3: say I believe it, belief is corrosive to truth. Because
Speaker 3: let's say you believe that you're going to be a
Speaker 3: huge star one day. Right, we'll attribute that to something
Speaker 3: good because we believe positively, right, But what about the
Speaker 3: ten thousand people that believed you wouldn't never be shit.
Speaker 3: So now do we discount belief because they believed opposite,
Speaker 3: or do we just take belief in itself and say
Speaker 3: it's not even a necessity right facts, it's what you
Speaker 3: know and it's what you don't know, and when you
Speaker 3: can admit you don't know something.
Speaker 1: For sure.
Speaker 2: And that's where I feel like the work never stops
Speaker 2: and people think like, oh, like I healed.
Speaker 1: No, I feel like it's like a process.
Speaker 2: So that's why with me is like after you know,
Speaker 2: I was married and I got divorced over five years ago,
Speaker 2: but it's like since then it was a journey of healing,
Speaker 2: not just healing from that, but healing myself and why
Speaker 2: I got myself in the situations like that, And so
Speaker 2: that's why it's like and because of you know, COVID
Speaker 2: and everything now is it kind of gave me. Before
Speaker 2: I was like I was on the road all the time,
Speaker 2: so I didn't have time to sit and think with
Speaker 2: my thoughts. Now I had more time to be like, Okay,
Speaker 2: there's things that you need to work on still, or
Speaker 2: maybe you suppress this, you pushed it down so far
Speaker 2: like you really still have.
Speaker 1: An issue with it or not, And you know, a
Speaker 1: lot of it didn't have to do with him at all.
Speaker 2: It was all personal, you know, all journeys and things
Speaker 2: like that, and that was the thing. Is like not
Speaker 2: blaming someone other than yourself because we put ourselves into
Speaker 2: those positions.
Speaker 3: And educated, upgraded woman. Let's go. So a lot of
Speaker 3: the conversations that I'm having on Clubhouse and just in
Speaker 3: life are about accountability. And so I have this thing
Speaker 3: why I say, you're never supposed to be in love.
Speaker 3: Love is supposed to be in you. And I think
Speaker 3: the concept of falling in love is I think it's
Speaker 3: a false narrative, and I think the rhetoric of that
Speaker 3: is why we always get so hurt right as people,
Speaker 3: because it's like, if I feel some way about you,
Speaker 3: it's energy right, and we can call it love, right,
Speaker 3: But the only love you can really have is the
Speaker 3: love you have for yourself, and through the love that
Speaker 3: you have for self, you share that experience with whoever
Speaker 3: it is that you feel those ways about. So let's
Speaker 3: say I feel those ways about you, right, but I
Speaker 3: don't have self love.
Speaker 1: It's going to be miserable your first before you can love,
Speaker 1: it's going to.
Speaker 3: Be miserable for you that I'm putting this entitlement on
Speaker 3: you because of these feelings I have, but I can't
Speaker 3: even substantiate for self the things that I need to
Speaker 3: do for self, So I'll constantly be looking for you
Speaker 3: to fill the voids, and when you don't, that's when
Speaker 3: I'm unhappy. So that's when I'm this guy.
Speaker 1: Is this why your whole perception, like the whole fairy
Speaker 1: tale thing.
Speaker 3: Of why do you really want to get into that shit?
Speaker 3: I dim do you really want to get into this?
Speaker 2: Because for me, I feel like and you know, as
Speaker 2: a woman growing you know, growing up and whatever you're
Speaker 2: you're told, oh there's a like this is also why
Speaker 2: I feel like I left because it's like one man
Speaker 2: is for you? This is what is I don't believe that.
Speaker 2: I feel like you have journeys and you have soulmates
Speaker 2: throughout life and not necessarily having to be married or
Speaker 2: with you know, dating or whatever, but why you meet
Speaker 2: certain people energetically or not and kind of coexist that way.
Speaker 2: So for me, I didn't see a prince charming that
Speaker 2: I know what. I don't need to be saved. I
Speaker 2: can save myself and so you know what I mean,
Speaker 2: Like is the idea great and is it cool, yes,
Speaker 2: but if the perception is is like also for myself,
Speaker 2: is I have to do the work to.
Speaker 1: Love what you know, who I am, to allow.
Speaker 2: You to love me correctly because and if I don't
Speaker 2: communicate that with you, which is the problem I feel
Speaker 2: like a lot of times today is that you, like
Speaker 2: you said, you could want me to let or love
Speaker 2: me and fall in love with me whatever, but I
Speaker 2: don't know the reasons of why you need me to
Speaker 2: love you the same way, and then.
Speaker 3: What about the things you need in return? And then
Speaker 3: so here you are being someone's crutch, which we love
Speaker 3: people for, right where like you know, you were just
Speaker 3: there for me, and I mean and really that's not
Speaker 3: it though, because as grand of a gesture as it
Speaker 3: is to be there for someone, when you leave, they fall,
Speaker 3: They just fall, and so you're enabling them to be disabled.
Speaker 3: And I know we love to do that, right, But
Speaker 3: the thing is support. I'm here to support you. I'm
Speaker 3: not here to fix the things in your past because
Speaker 3: I could, that's my job I could do beautifully of like, honestly,
Speaker 3: I'm so eloquent with words and I'm so like I
Speaker 3: got so much love to give. I could honestly do
Speaker 3: that for somebody, but I wouldn't want to damage that journey.
Speaker 2: That this That's why I feel like it's not authentic
Speaker 2: or organic or in whatever situation is.
Speaker 1: Because you want to tell you.
Speaker 2: Want to You're telling me what I want to hear,
Speaker 2: what you think I want to hear, you're not doing
Speaker 2: Like so my perception of what my love story is
Speaker 2: and your love story and we're in the same relationship
Speaker 2: could completely be two different stories.
Speaker 3: What if we never know each other?
Speaker 1: Facts?
Speaker 3: What about the people? Right? Because I think far out
Speaker 3: shit all day? Right? So what about this? What about
Speaker 3: this pattern? This life pattern? I think this is a
Speaker 3: funny life pattern. I don't know you, I've never met you.
Speaker 3: I want to know you, I see you, I get
Speaker 3: to meet you. Now we're friends, then we fall in love,
Speaker 3: then I hate you. Then I wish I never knew you,
Speaker 3: which I never meant you, and now I don't know
Speaker 3: you anymore.
Speaker 1: Facts?
Speaker 3: What about that shit? So in the middle of that,
Speaker 3: were we supposed to uphold some unwritten law of you
Speaker 3: and meism that like it's not real.
Speaker 2: But that's why I feel like for certain things, you're
Speaker 2: meant to meet that person.
Speaker 1: But it's okay that they go away.
Speaker 3: It's okay that they go away. But what's this in
Speaker 3: the middle time when it's like, you didn't make me happy,
Speaker 3: you didn't do that, and it's like, hold on, you
Speaker 3: realize that one day we're gonna hate each other not
Speaker 3: know each other. Right, Like I'm just I'm being facetious,
Speaker 3: but I'm just saying, like all the people that meet, right,
Speaker 3: And here's my other philosophy, right, it's weird philosophy. Relationships
Speaker 3: are basically two people, basically right, basically right, The basic
Speaker 3: understanding of the principles and properties of a relationship are
Speaker 3: two people. Right. That makes the world already divided. Yeah,
Speaker 3: because even if those two people were happy in every case,
Speaker 3: which they aren't, now we've divided the entire world by
Speaker 3: fifty percent. That's just some math. That's just some quick math.
Speaker 3: But to look at that perception though, and of course
Speaker 3: I'm being facetious, but I'm just saying, it's kind of
Speaker 3: divisive the way we think pairing, and everyone's looking for
Speaker 3: their pair right, or my person to pair with, and
Speaker 3: that is kind of the reason why the entire world
Speaker 3: has this closed off space, you know, So to speak,
Speaker 3: not to mention, you.
Speaker 2: To speak say all of these things, but you're married,
Speaker 2: so how do you counter to like part with that
Speaker 2: being a relationship.
Speaker 3: I feel like my understanding of those things are will
Speaker 3: allow me to grow in those spaces because it's not
Speaker 3: like it's been just oh, perfection or this right, very
Speaker 3: little arguments ever, but then there's these we're in a
Speaker 3: vulnerable time when the world is vulnerable, right, So then
Speaker 3: when those vulnerabilities surface, how do you deal with those
Speaker 3: things and move forward? Well, if you're gonna move forward,
Speaker 3: there's gonna be a fight. And it's not like it's
Speaker 3: a bad fight, but you gotta fight.
Speaker 1: It has to.
Speaker 2: Happen or it's like that's why I feel like, if
Speaker 2: it has to happen, or it's gonna just stay under
Speaker 2: the carpets and it's gonna come up later on, bigger,
Speaker 2: later on.
Speaker 3: And a fight doesn't mean negativity. It just means there's
Speaker 3: a push somewhere, there's energy pushing and friction is a
Speaker 3: fight no matter what. Right, Sometimes you fight with just
Speaker 3: energies and things that you don't have to physically fight with,
Speaker 3: but you know you're upset, I'm not fuck, this is
Speaker 3: gonna be a fight because I'm not even mad, but
Speaker 3: you're obviously not saying shit to me walking all around
Speaker 3: this house. That's gonna be a fight. If I want
Speaker 3: to get to the point where we're act hugging and kissing,
Speaker 3: we gotta fight first, because now I got to find
Speaker 3: out what I magically fucking don't know I did that
Speaker 3: has you feeling this way, right nine times out of ten,
Speaker 3: has nothing to do with me. It has everything to
Speaker 3: do with the way you were raised, what you endured
Speaker 3: as a child, and the deficiencies or the neglects that
Speaker 3: took place in that moment that gave you sensitivity issues
Speaker 3: and you base certain emotions on that.
Speaker 2: Now, is it easy to have a conversation as well
Speaker 2: descripted like that to your partner as it is to
Speaker 2: someone who has no relationship involved with you at all.
Speaker 3: It's not easy to have a conversation with anyone because
Speaker 3: then accountability comes in. And overall, women hate accountability for
Speaker 3: their feelings. They don't want to be accountable for their
Speaker 3: own feelings. They're like, no, you made me feel this way,
Speaker 3: and I have to feel this way so I can establish.
Speaker 1: They want their feelings validated.
Speaker 3: They want them valid ate it, and I'm like, yo,
Speaker 3: there's been times when I said some shit that was
Speaker 3: like because I'm like, it's not my problem, right, And
Speaker 3: I'm like, no, it's not my problem. No, you go
Speaker 3: deal with it's not my problem.
Speaker 2: I have someone in my life that's done that to me,
Speaker 2: and it's the first time I feel like that made
Speaker 2: me check my feelings because I'm like a situation where
Speaker 2: I again, everyone's still doing work, you know what I mean,
Speaker 2: And it's like, I know that maybe not what I'm
Speaker 2: doing or saying is wrong and my feelings are valid
Speaker 2: because they're just my feelings, but I don't need you
Speaker 2: to tell me that I have to work on why whatever.
Speaker 2: And it made me feel really offended at first too,
Speaker 2: and then I'm like, oh, damn, it is me and
Speaker 2: it's not just me, Like you don't have no blame
Speaker 2: to anything, but it's not about a blame game. But
Speaker 2: I just feel like it's to the point where if
Speaker 2: you don't address the underlying issues from childhood, early relationships, whatever,
Speaker 2: it's shit that you don't resolve and talk about, then
Speaker 2: there's gonna be some kind of conflict.
Speaker 3: Yo. My life changed because I was really upset and
Speaker 3: somebody told me that I didn't have peace, and right
Speaker 3: when they told me that I didn't have peace, and
Speaker 3: I was really in an angry state of mind, and
Speaker 3: like I'm from Baltimore, so like our anger hit different,
Speaker 3: like you know, it's big, big gangster energy, right. I
Speaker 3: was feeling some kind of way and I was just like, yo,
Speaker 3: I need to just dip. I need to leave because
Speaker 3: my energy gets like this and it's too many men's
Speaker 3: male energy. We all yeah, right, And I felt so
Speaker 3: I'm like I need to dip. And I was mad
Speaker 3: and this person just stood in front of me and
Speaker 3: it was like you don't have peace and hugged me right,
Speaker 3: And initially the hug made me more angry because I'm like,
Speaker 3: first of all, my arms are down like this.
Speaker 2: This is uncomfortable me, right, like touch me.
Speaker 3: While I'm like this because you know, like are you
Speaker 3: trying to trigger it? Right? And I didn't know. I
Speaker 3: didn't know, but then I don't know if it was
Speaker 3: the shotakras or whatever it was. It was like be still,
Speaker 3: be peaceful, listen. And the person said, you don't have
Speaker 3: any peace, but you can have my piece because I
Speaker 3: have enough piece to give away. And I was like
Speaker 3: saw myself from above looking down on that situation, and
Speaker 3: a bunch of shit flashed in my mind. The first
Speaker 3: thing that flashed in my mind is that and this
Speaker 3: was a man, right, This was like a positive figure
Speaker 3: in my life, right, and older guy, And he said,
Speaker 3: the first thing I realized is that, damn, I hadn't
Speaker 3: been hugged by a man since my father was killed.
Speaker 3: That's the first thing that came, right, So it's like
Speaker 3: seventeen eighteen years without a fucking hug from a father figure.
Speaker 3: And that's the first thing to happen. And then the
Speaker 3: second thing was, man, I feel so stupid. Damn I
Speaker 3: just feel silly. Third thing was like, I'm not a
Speaker 3: silly person. Why am I using all these emotions on
Speaker 3: everybody else and wanting them to validate and feel No,
Speaker 3: I'm mad, but like everybody's else, like, we're not mad, dude,
Speaker 3: you're tripping, right. So when I came back into my body,
Speaker 3: I said, and if the hug was like a minute long, right,
Speaker 3: which is a long time for a hug, right, if
Speaker 3: you haven't really ever had like a real and I said,
Speaker 3: I'm never gonna be this guy again, Like I'm I
Speaker 3: changed my life that night, and I drove It was
Speaker 3: like a twenty minute drive home, and I just changed
Speaker 3: my on the way home, I said, I'm looking at
Speaker 3: the mountains. I'm on the four or five and shit,
Speaker 3: you know, coming from like Santa Monica, looking at the mountains,
Speaker 3: and I'm like, I'm never gonna be that guy again,
Speaker 3: and I'm gonna introduce peace into my life. So you
Speaker 3: have to have a conversation with peace. It doesn't matter
Speaker 3: what you do, because people only see what you do, right,
Speaker 3: They don't see who you are. Like you said, like
Speaker 3: people don't even know you. Right. People are probably chasing
Speaker 3: you down in public. Oh my god, Oh my god. Right,
Speaker 3: but they don't know you. Really, they don't know you.
Speaker 3: They think they know you because they're judging you, but
Speaker 3: they don't know you. And when you have your conversation
Speaker 3: with peace, that's when everything centers and you become self centered.
Speaker 3: That the one thing that they tell you not to be, right,
Speaker 3: They tell you, don't be self centered. That's bad, you're
Speaker 3: self centered. No, we should all be centered in self
Speaker 3: because that's the center point from which life comes. Life
Speaker 3: starts at a center point and spans outward. And when
Speaker 3: you check that center point. Now you're not only in
Speaker 3: control of your feelings, your thoughts, and your emotions, but
Speaker 3: your accountability. You don't look outward now, you look inward
Speaker 3: and say, hold on, i'm tripping. You can check yourself now,
Speaker 3: But you can't do that when you don't start from within. Right,
Speaker 3: So we kind of love to focused on other people.
Speaker 3: So we'll take that mate or that partner and we'll say, well,
Speaker 3: you know, I just want to tell you all the
Speaker 3: things that I didn't like about that, about what you did,
Speaker 3: and it's like, damn, that's kind of heavy. You got
Speaker 3: shit about what you didn't like about what I did.
Speaker 3: Even that idea is kind of like, what about the
Speaker 3: shit you do? Did you not like some of the
Speaker 3: shit you do too? Or is this only about see?
Speaker 3: So we got to start from the centerpoint because then
Speaker 3: you can realize that, oh, maybe I did some shit
Speaker 3: that made you do that shit, right, And we just
Speaker 3: check ourselves. And that's the key to being able to
Speaker 3: be in relationships, to be able to be in this world,
Speaker 3: which is weird as fuck with all these people's rules
Speaker 3: that will never mean shit in your life, right, but
Speaker 3: you got to live by these rules that existed before
Speaker 3: you even existed. And it's like, before I got hit,
Speaker 3: the shit was fucked up. You want me to keep
Speaker 3: doing what y'all the fucked up shit that y'all been doing.
Speaker 1: Obviously it wasn't working before. If you want to change it.
Speaker 3: It wasn't working before. And I feel like I'm the
Speaker 3: person I want to change the idea of that. I
Speaker 3: want to change what Walt Disney came and he gave
Speaker 3: this fairy tale Princess Cinderella, Prince Charming concept with the
Speaker 3: ugly step sisters that are just haters. That's what we
Speaker 3: look at that we see that every day, like people
Speaker 3: I think are projecting that reality. Now you know what
Speaker 3: I mean, And we don't have to live in that construct.
Speaker 3: So I have a thing called activating the Advanced Mechanisms
Speaker 3: that manipulate constructs, and I have a whole masterclass that
Speaker 3: I'm going to teach on people on how to no
Speaker 3: matter what your situation, no matter what your reality is
Speaker 3: right in reality, because right it could at any given
Speaker 3: moment if your mind changes, everything around you changes so
Speaker 3: or even in your perception, it could be one way,
Speaker 3: but everybody else thinks it's one way. So it's like
Speaker 3: what's reality really except for your your view from your
Speaker 3: perspective lens, that's reality. So if you think things are
Speaker 3: fucked up, I show people how you can just advance
Speaker 3: it in your mind and change everything. And it's really
Speaker 3: just some focus shit I think.
Speaker 2: I mean, that's probably one of the honest things that
Speaker 2: I've heard in a really long time. It's just you know,
Speaker 2: it's the truth, and that's a lot of more people.
Speaker 2: I feel like if we were educated on that aspect
Speaker 2: on something else, it's it just gives you a different perspective.
Speaker 3: She should be taught that from like when you're a
Speaker 3: little girl, but you're not.
Speaker 2: But that's what I'm saying, is what the whole like
Speaker 2: you said, it's especially the fairy tale thing of It's
Speaker 2: like it's it's a perception of what the world wants
Speaker 2: you to see, from reality TV to fake people, Instagram
Speaker 2: posts to all these things. It's like what you're conditioned too?
Speaker 2: What doesn't mean that correct?
Speaker 3: What about pretty girls feeling unpretty? It's the weirdest thing
Speaker 3: I've ever seen, right, Like, you're sitting there and you
Speaker 3: feel unpretty because of a concept, but you're actually.
Speaker 1: But I don't think pretty.
Speaker 2: I think that that's why again with the self work,
Speaker 2: it's like, I don't think pretty is like an outward thing.
Speaker 2: I think it's inward as well. And that's why for me,
Speaker 2: is why people either exuded or you don't. You can
Speaker 2: hear you know, and they could be the most beautiful person,
Speaker 2: but doesn't mean they're beautiful, yeah.
Speaker 3: Because it's definitely an energy thing, right, But I'm just saying, like, literally,
Speaker 3: you're you're looking at something that someone else's concept outside
Speaker 3: of yourself, and you're feeling down and there's like ten
Speaker 3: thousand dudes knocking on your door and you're just like,
Speaker 3: you're lonely, You're all these things, and it's like, no,
Speaker 3: just turn around and look at reality. Reality is there's
Speaker 3: eighty men chasing you, and you're rejecting them because you're
Speaker 3: chasing pretty. You're chasing society chasing right there. Like and
Speaker 3: if they're like, you know, I have women say men
Speaker 3: all men want is you know, a big booty girl
Speaker 3: with these big titties and this, And I'm like, that's
Speaker 3: not true. I got I got homeboys that only like
Speaker 3: skinny girls, like you know what I'm saying, and like,
Speaker 3: and these are dudes with options.
Speaker 1: With big boy girls. It doesn't make any sense.
Speaker 3: No no, no, no no no no no no, don't like,
Speaker 3: if they're gonna do it, they're gonna do it with
Speaker 3: a skinny girl. Like they literally don't like big booty girls,
Speaker 3: Like that's it. And it's not like they don't like them,
Speaker 3: that's just not their thing, right, And so what we
Speaker 3: do is we harp on what's being publicized to us
Speaker 3: and what's being you know, social media promotes, it's that's
Speaker 3: being promoted. But that ain't the like. First of all,
Speaker 3: big girls ain't got no problem getting men.
Speaker 2: And that's why for me, when I got had to
Speaker 2: the industry, it wasn't like that. So it was about
Speaker 2: when I became that was pop for sure. But when
Speaker 2: I became more popular people I would have people coming
Speaker 2: up to me like, thank you so much for making
Speaker 2: me feel good.
Speaker 1: You was my own skin. Two thousand and six, two
Speaker 1: thousand and six.
Speaker 3: So we're going back to the year of the zero
Speaker 3: waste model. Yes, right, when that whole thing was a thing, right,
Speaker 3: and that was ridiculous because when.
Speaker 2: Then you also were in la too, So that's even
Speaker 2: it became. It was a thing for a lot longer
Speaker 2: than a thing needed to be but for sure, but
Speaker 2: it made people unhealthy, game eating.
Speaker 1: Disiners, all kinds of thing because you're.
Speaker 2: Trying to conform themselves to something that's not realistic.
Speaker 3: And you don't even hear about that as much anymore
Speaker 3: because now this is the new like prototype now that
Speaker 3: people want, like people want now even see like I remember,
Speaker 3: white girls were just wanting to be skinny, and because
Speaker 3: it was like a Hollywood thing, right like, so all
Speaker 3: the supermodels were super skinny. Now you see white girls
Speaker 3: with booties everywhere, right like that that wasn't a thing before,
Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying, That was like the opposite.
Speaker 1: Now it was always a thing. Everything's bigger and better.
Speaker 3: And everything's bigger in the South for sure, but you
Speaker 3: know what I mean because Texas in LA.
Speaker 2: But what what is looked as far as like the
Speaker 2: lusting type of what people want to like see as
Speaker 2: are abspired to be quote unquote like the Kardashians of
Speaker 2: the world and all the surgeries that took place and
Speaker 2: all these things. Like that's why for me, I just
Speaker 2: always stayed in my own lane and then.
Speaker 3: Predates the Kardashians. It goes, it goes back to the
Speaker 3: black booty.
Speaker 2: The black booty I'm saying, as far as now is
Speaker 2: what made they approached.
Speaker 3: They appropriated the culture. But let's let's just give it
Speaker 3: to the queen. It's the black booty because I know
Speaker 3: that you've been referenced as, oh shit, you got a
Speaker 3: black girl booty. I definitely right, so that and that
Speaker 3: comes way before, you know, because you've always had yours.
Speaker 3: So that comes way before the Kardashians were even the
Speaker 3: popular thing because they didn't have black girl booties before
Speaker 3: they got their booties. So you know what I mean,
Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying, but you know, shout out
Speaker 3: to them. But I'm just saying, it is what it is.
Speaker 3: It's a beautiful culture and black women have been having
Speaker 3: booty since. Man, you could go all the way back
Speaker 3: to Pam Grier, Foxy Brown. You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 3: It's so it's a it's a cultural thing. And but
Speaker 3: hold on, you got some culture though in Puerto Rican.
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