WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.280 --> 00:00:01.040 I know that you have. 2 00:00:01.240 --> 00:00:03.759 I haven't wanted to do with any of any many interviews. 3 00:00:03.799 --> 00:00:06.160 So I feel blessed that you took the time to 4 00:00:06.200 --> 00:00:07.360 come on Private Talk and. 5 00:00:07.679 --> 00:00:09.320 Let us get to know you a little bit better. 6 00:00:09.439 --> 00:00:09.759 King Loos. 7 00:00:10.119 --> 00:00:12.720 Yeah, thank you. You have a good tone, you have 8 00:00:12.720 --> 00:00:16.280 a good we might have to do like a song 9 00:00:16.359 --> 00:00:18.359 or something like put you on a song or something like. 10 00:00:18.320 --> 00:00:20.719 My phone sex operator voice. It changes as soon as 11 00:00:20.719 --> 00:00:21.440 like it tops in. 12 00:00:21.719 --> 00:00:23.559 It changes as soon as you get on a mic, 13 00:00:23.960 --> 00:00:27.440 which is crazy because most people it's reversed, like people 14 00:00:27.480 --> 00:00:28.960 have a really good voice and then you get them 15 00:00:28.960 --> 00:00:30.280 on a mic and it's like nothing. 16 00:00:31.000 --> 00:00:31.640 Yeah, I don't know. 17 00:00:31.679 --> 00:00:33.640 I feel like it comes into my character. It's just 18 00:00:33.679 --> 00:00:35.840 like you know, it's part of Lexis Texas, is a part. 19 00:00:36.640 --> 00:00:39.960 Who I am, and so Talk wants to know who 20 00:00:40.039 --> 00:00:40.759 you are today. 21 00:00:41.000 --> 00:00:42.439 Let's find it out. Let's figure it out. 22 00:00:42.439 --> 00:00:43.560 I'll find it out. 23 00:00:43.640 --> 00:00:44.320 Who is this guy? 24 00:00:44.439 --> 00:00:47.840 Who is this guy on my couch? So you're a musician, 25 00:00:48.039 --> 00:00:50.759 a songwriter, you do it all. You've got your green juice. 26 00:00:50.759 --> 00:00:52.759 You've already were schooling me on some knowledge before we 27 00:00:52.799 --> 00:00:55.759 started rolling. I like the vibe, I like the energy. 28 00:00:55.840 --> 00:00:58.200 So I'm excited to get to know you a little 29 00:00:58.240 --> 00:01:01.280 bit better on my own terms on somebody else's potform. 30 00:01:01.359 --> 00:01:02.840 Let's cool, we're here, let's go. 31 00:01:03.240 --> 00:01:04.719 So what kind of projects do you have going on 32 00:01:04.840 --> 00:01:05.200 right now? 33 00:01:06.519 --> 00:01:09.359 Well, I'm working on what I like to call three 34 00:01:09.400 --> 00:01:15.560 three three, and I have three projects that I'm about 35 00:01:15.560 --> 00:01:19.719 to release this year because it's been three years since 36 00:01:19.760 --> 00:01:22.840 I put out music. So it's been three years since 37 00:01:22.879 --> 00:01:27.079 I put out music. I'm releasing three projects at three 38 00:01:27.120 --> 00:01:27.840 separate times. 39 00:01:28.079 --> 00:01:30.719 So now it is a significant based off of what 40 00:01:30.760 --> 00:01:32.000 we were speaking earlier about. 41 00:01:31.840 --> 00:01:34.359 The numbers, it's kind of happened that way, or. 42 00:01:34.359 --> 00:01:35.799 I was gonna say, or is it organic that it 43 00:01:35.840 --> 00:01:37.519 just kind of like manifested into that. 44 00:01:37.760 --> 00:01:42.000 It manifested into that, But it's it fits perfect with 45 00:01:42.079 --> 00:01:45.640 the narrative, right, So yeah, three three three, And the 46 00:01:45.719 --> 00:01:53.079 first project is called Internet Boyfriend, where I'm releasing that 47 00:01:53.239 --> 00:01:56.680 on Valentine's Day. Hi romantic, Yeah, it is, I mean 48 00:01:56.680 --> 00:01:59.120 it is some I get into some romantic shit. 49 00:02:00.000 --> 00:02:01.519 Internet boyfriends can be romantic. 50 00:02:02.079 --> 00:02:03.480 They are, though I've had a couple. 51 00:02:03.640 --> 00:02:05.719 I have Only fans they are. 52 00:02:05.760 --> 00:02:08.520 I have a song on it called only Fans. There's 53 00:02:08.560 --> 00:02:12.639 a song called Only Fans. And it's like my interpretation 54 00:02:12.919 --> 00:02:16.560 of it is like I'm your only fan, like my 55 00:02:17.039 --> 00:02:19.479 love for you or my admiration for you. It's so 56 00:02:19.599 --> 00:02:21.520 deep that I'm your only fan, Like of course you 57 00:02:21.599 --> 00:02:24.439 have a million fans, but I'm really your only fan, 58 00:02:24.560 --> 00:02:26.520 like I'm locking in like that, you know. So it's 59 00:02:26.560 --> 00:02:32.400 not just so facetious or you know, it's still that connection, 60 00:02:32.759 --> 00:02:35.479 you know what I mean. So it's like my twist 61 00:02:35.560 --> 00:02:38.840 on everything, and it's an R and B based project, 62 00:02:38.919 --> 00:02:44.439 which is out of my normal Is that your favor, Well, 63 00:02:44.439 --> 00:02:47.479 that's out of my normal element. So that's like my 64 00:02:47.759 --> 00:02:51.520 not only my breaking out of like expanding myself sonically 65 00:02:52.919 --> 00:02:56.240 and giving my fans something different. I'm also it's also 66 00:02:56.319 --> 00:03:01.400 my tribute to women in general, just the realization that 67 00:03:01.439 --> 00:03:04.879 I've come to with just the frequency of women and 68 00:03:04.960 --> 00:03:08.039 how much they mean to the happiness and importance of 69 00:03:08.400 --> 00:03:11.080 where we are in society. And I feel like when 70 00:03:11.080 --> 00:03:13.400 the Woman started, there was a time when the woman 71 00:03:13.479 --> 00:03:15.919 was really elated and every it seemed like everything was 72 00:03:15.960 --> 00:03:18.240 good right and the world was like so good, And 73 00:03:18.280 --> 00:03:21.319 then it got to this time where I feel like 74 00:03:21.479 --> 00:03:25.039 music overall just really was just disrespectful to women and 75 00:03:25.120 --> 00:03:28.400 women are the biggest consumers of music, right, And how 76 00:03:28.479 --> 00:03:30.240 what is it when you have to hear a song 77 00:03:30.719 --> 00:03:32.719 when you want to dance, right, you want to move 78 00:03:32.759 --> 00:03:35.439 your body, You just want to And then what you're 79 00:03:35.479 --> 00:03:36.719 moving to is like. 80 00:03:36.639 --> 00:03:39.280 You're saying the lyrics, but you're not really like under. 81 00:03:40.479 --> 00:03:43.280 At the same time, right, So it's almost like you're 82 00:03:43.319 --> 00:03:45.560 just getting the best of whatever you can get and 83 00:03:45.639 --> 00:03:48.039 your tak taking. And I feel like at that point 84 00:03:48.759 --> 00:03:52.639 everything changed because I'm from the era where before social media, 85 00:03:52.680 --> 00:03:55.000 where you had to have real rap game, like you, 86 00:03:55.039 --> 00:03:57.120 if you ran up on a girl, you had to 87 00:03:57.159 --> 00:04:00.719 have everything ready or be that spontane is in the 88 00:04:00.800 --> 00:04:04.639 moment right and get her attention, make her laugh, be 89 00:04:04.759 --> 00:04:09.439 engaging and then land the phone number right, call her later, 90 00:04:09.520 --> 00:04:10.840 have more conversation. 91 00:04:10.719 --> 00:04:12.840 Just slide on the DMS and say it, here's my number. 92 00:04:12.919 --> 00:04:15.199 Yeah. And it wasn't already this preconceived thing of like, oh, 93 00:04:15.319 --> 00:04:17.560 let me look at your page, Oh you're lit now 94 00:04:17.639 --> 00:04:20.399 automatically fuck with you right. No, it was like you 95 00:04:20.480 --> 00:04:22.800 had to be on the phone all night, convince her 96 00:04:22.800 --> 00:04:24.600 and oh, come on, let's link up. I missed the 97 00:04:24.600 --> 00:04:28.279 old days that was, but that process is so organic, right, 98 00:04:28.680 --> 00:04:29.560 and now it's like. 99 00:04:30.319 --> 00:04:32.360 But I feel like we're preconditioned to feel those But 100 00:04:32.439 --> 00:04:33.920 it's like you said, if it's the songs that you 101 00:04:33.959 --> 00:04:36.360 hear more like repetity over and over and over again, 102 00:04:36.399 --> 00:04:37.759 you start to believe those words. 103 00:04:37.800 --> 00:04:39.240 Unfortunately, that's just kind of how it is. 104 00:04:39.279 --> 00:04:41.480 It's the same thing about manifesting what you want to 105 00:04:41.519 --> 00:04:42.199 happen in life. 106 00:04:42.240 --> 00:04:42.399 You know. 107 00:04:42.439 --> 00:04:45.000 It's kind of how beaking spell twenty two you catch 108 00:04:45.000 --> 00:04:46.160 twenty two, right, we. 109 00:04:46.120 --> 00:04:49.319 Speak in spells. So my whole thing is about love 110 00:04:50.480 --> 00:04:54.439 on that particular project and just appreciating women and bringing 111 00:04:54.439 --> 00:04:57.360 more of the fantasy back like you know when dudes 112 00:04:57.439 --> 00:05:00.600 used to say shit like we call it corny now, 113 00:05:00.720 --> 00:05:02.639 but back when they say like I give you the 114 00:05:02.680 --> 00:05:04.720 moon and the stars, right, Like, you know you can't 115 00:05:04.759 --> 00:05:08.000 actually do that, but the notion in itself is so 116 00:05:08.199 --> 00:05:11.519 grand as a gesture like whoa really? You know, just 117 00:05:11.600 --> 00:05:13.680 that will open up a whole nother part to me 118 00:05:13.800 --> 00:05:16.560 of a woman where now you can explore something deeper 119 00:05:16.600 --> 00:05:20.040 in her than just the surface. And that's what I'm 120 00:05:20.040 --> 00:05:22.920 more so about. So that's what the project is about. 121 00:05:22.920 --> 00:05:24.839 And I feel like the music does that. 122 00:05:24.879 --> 00:05:27.079 Do you feel like that's kind of evolved, like where 123 00:05:27.079 --> 00:05:29.040 you are in your life that you felt like you 124 00:05:29.120 --> 00:05:31.319 kind of went through the disrespectful part with women, and 125 00:05:31.319 --> 00:05:33.839 now you maybe something kind of happened or you know, 126 00:05:33.879 --> 00:05:35.759 it's such a situation in your life and then made 127 00:05:35.800 --> 00:05:38.199 you kind of more soft and realize what the love 128 00:05:38.240 --> 00:05:40.920 of a woman could really be as beautiful as it 129 00:05:40.959 --> 00:05:41.279 could be. 130 00:05:42.199 --> 00:05:45.879 I've never been in the disrespectful part, but. 131 00:05:45.879 --> 00:05:49.439 Not maybe disrespectful as far as even I've never been 132 00:05:49.480 --> 00:05:49.720 in that. 133 00:05:50.079 --> 00:05:51.839 I've never been a part of that frequently not who 134 00:05:51.839 --> 00:05:53.480 you are, it's not who I am. But you know 135 00:05:53.519 --> 00:05:57.560 what I did, I did neglect though, because when I 136 00:05:57.600 --> 00:06:01.680 realized this shit, I was like, oh fuck. I realized 137 00:06:01.680 --> 00:06:04.000 that for all the years that I've been rapping, I've 138 00:06:04.040 --> 00:06:11.240 been catering to men. Like lyrics, punchlines, metaphors, all these 139 00:06:11.759 --> 00:06:17.279 intricate ass ways of expressing myself lyrically were for men, 140 00:06:17.759 --> 00:06:21.360 men's approval. For everywhere I'll go right now, there's not 141 00:06:21.439 --> 00:06:23.879 a place I can go without a man saying yo, 142 00:06:24.240 --> 00:06:27.519 yo yo, when you said such and such, and it's 143 00:06:27.560 --> 00:06:30.680 like everywhere I go it's men men men, And I'm like, 144 00:06:31.439 --> 00:06:34.199 but I'm an actual fly motherfucker. Like I'm supposed to 145 00:06:34.240 --> 00:06:37.839 be having conversations with women and I'm supposed to be 146 00:06:37.920 --> 00:06:41.199 engaging with women in my music, and I failed to 147 00:06:41.240 --> 00:06:45.800 do that for so many years. So I started picking 148 00:06:45.879 --> 00:06:50.480 up like being more melodic and like singing, and it 149 00:06:50.519 --> 00:06:52.800 turned into a whole thing. It just turned into like 150 00:06:53.480 --> 00:06:55.879 now I'm making full fledged love songs and shit. So 151 00:06:56.800 --> 00:06:58.560 it's part of my evolution for sure. 152 00:06:58.839 --> 00:07:04.040 Do you have sex to your own love songs? Have I? 153 00:07:04.120 --> 00:07:04.199 Have? 154 00:07:04.319 --> 00:07:05.439 I had sex to my own? 155 00:07:05.720 --> 00:07:07.800 Acquiring minds want to know because I feel like it's 156 00:07:07.800 --> 00:07:08.959 always like a question. 157 00:07:08.839 --> 00:07:10.600 The world will have sex to my new ship? 158 00:07:10.720 --> 00:07:12.959 Well that's hot, but it's like, you know, it's you're 159 00:07:13.000 --> 00:07:14.720 your own biggest fan in a sense you have to 160 00:07:14.720 --> 00:07:16.399 be to be an artist, you know, like to be 161 00:07:16.560 --> 00:07:18.439 into like the whole thing. So it's like, do you 162 00:07:18.480 --> 00:07:20.360 listen to your stuff on repeat and when you're having 163 00:07:21.120 --> 00:07:21.680 biggest fan? 164 00:07:21.879 --> 00:07:22.600 No? 165 00:07:22.600 --> 00:07:26.160 No, I don't think that there's anybody living that could 166 00:07:26.160 --> 00:07:28.800 fuck with me though, Like I think when it comes 167 00:07:28.879 --> 00:07:33.120 to lyrics, lyrics, not singing, but lyrics, like I'm the 168 00:07:33.160 --> 00:07:34.079 baddest motherfucker. 169 00:07:34.199 --> 00:07:36.680 But then how can you say those words and not 170 00:07:36.800 --> 00:07:39.120 think that you're your biggest fan. Like that's that that 171 00:07:39.199 --> 00:07:41.439 takes a lot of you know, career, courage and be 172 00:07:41.560 --> 00:07:42.000 all these things. 173 00:07:42.040 --> 00:07:43.160 There's a lot of people out there. 174 00:07:43.240 --> 00:07:44.759 There's a lot of people that you know do stuff, 175 00:07:44.759 --> 00:07:46.439 but it doesn't mean that they're the best. But how 176 00:07:46.480 --> 00:07:48.319 do you not say that you're your own biggest fans? 177 00:07:48.839 --> 00:07:51.680 To be honest with you, I'm still learning how to 178 00:07:51.720 --> 00:07:52.720 experience myself. 179 00:07:53.360 --> 00:07:55.319 So you're not good at taking compliments. 180 00:07:56.000 --> 00:07:58.279 I love them, I don't. I don't maybe like. 181 00:07:58.240 --> 00:08:00.920 A lot to like actually like meaning it so onether 182 00:08:00.920 --> 00:08:02.959 thing that's be like, okay, been nice and be polite 183 00:08:03.040 --> 00:08:04.360 or whatever, but feeling. 184 00:08:04.000 --> 00:08:04.360 What that is. 185 00:08:04.399 --> 00:08:06.319 I feel like for myself, people'd be like when I 186 00:08:06.360 --> 00:08:08.160 went to Aben in Vegas orre like you're a legend, 187 00:08:08.199 --> 00:08:10.319 I'm like, oh, that's weird, and not that it's because 188 00:08:10.360 --> 00:08:12.480 I don't feel that and in some sense, but to me, 189 00:08:12.519 --> 00:08:14.240 I'm not at that point yet because I haven't reached 190 00:08:14.240 --> 00:08:16.360 my fullest potential and not to me is you know, 191 00:08:16.480 --> 00:08:18.480 legend means different things to a lot of people. So 192 00:08:18.519 --> 00:08:21.079 it's like maybe it's just you don't feel that you're 193 00:08:21.120 --> 00:08:23.360 at your fullest potential of what it is, but doesn't 194 00:08:23.360 --> 00:08:24.399 mean that that's not true. 195 00:08:24.800 --> 00:08:27.759 Yeah, my take on it is just a little bit different. 196 00:08:28.240 --> 00:08:31.519 I know I've mastered a lot of the human element, 197 00:08:32.519 --> 00:08:36.080 so but I don't spend much time in a human capacity, 198 00:08:36.679 --> 00:08:39.600 like I'm always on like the ethereal realm. I'm always 199 00:08:39.679 --> 00:08:43.600 like I'm in the cosmo so much that I'll do 200 00:08:43.679 --> 00:08:46.159 some shit and not realize what I did. Like when 201 00:08:46.200 --> 00:08:49.799 I went on Sway in the morning, and I have 202 00:08:49.960 --> 00:08:52.879 been wanting to go there for forever, like, Yo, we're 203 00:08:52.879 --> 00:08:55.000 not going Sway in the morning. I'm gonna kill it. 204 00:08:55.480 --> 00:08:59.120 But my biggest element on the Internet, that my biggest 205 00:08:59.200 --> 00:09:01.559 draw is the fact that I can freestyle, Like I 206 00:09:01.600 --> 00:09:04.919 can just make it up on the spot right there, right. 207 00:09:05.000 --> 00:09:07.759 So of course I didn't prepare because I'm like, I 208 00:09:07.799 --> 00:09:09.759 don't have to prepare. I was going to freestyle. So 209 00:09:09.799 --> 00:09:13.519 I went to Sway and we did some things where 210 00:09:13.559 --> 00:09:15.080 he was like I asked him. I was like, yo, 211 00:09:15.159 --> 00:09:17.159 you want to just throw our words? You throw our 212 00:09:17.159 --> 00:09:19.399 words and I just run it right, so boom, we 213 00:09:19.440 --> 00:09:22.679 do that shit and I'm doing it. And when I left, 214 00:09:23.320 --> 00:09:27.639 I was massively underwhelmed with myself. Like when I was 215 00:09:27.720 --> 00:09:30.600 walking out, I was like, yeah, I didn't kill it. 216 00:09:31.159 --> 00:09:33.559 I didn't kill it, Like it's weird. 217 00:09:33.639 --> 00:09:35.799 I didn't kill it, and everyone else thought you killed them. 218 00:09:36.080 --> 00:09:38.720 The world thought I killed it, and I mean, what 219 00:09:38.879 --> 00:09:43.559 ten million viral, ten million years later everybody. That's everyone's 220 00:09:43.600 --> 00:09:46.240 reference point for me. Now yo, yo just sway in 221 00:09:46.240 --> 00:09:47.919 the morning, I show all my friends that, like, they 222 00:09:47.919 --> 00:09:50.279 skip all my work and they go to that moment. 223 00:09:50.519 --> 00:09:54.000 So when I'm saying I'm not my biggest fan, I'm not. 224 00:09:54.200 --> 00:09:56.200 That's not the first thing I would show people when 225 00:09:56.240 --> 00:09:57.639 people were like, yo, show me some stuff of you. 226 00:09:58.320 --> 00:10:00.320 But if someone else said, Yo, let me show you 227 00:10:00.360 --> 00:10:03.120 something of lows, they would show that. Right. So I'm 228 00:10:03.120 --> 00:10:06.360 not my biggest fan in that sense, you know, because 229 00:10:06.360 --> 00:10:09.919 I'm still experiencing what it is that people get from that. 230 00:10:10.440 --> 00:10:12.639 I have to go sit down and watch the reactions, 231 00:10:13.039 --> 00:10:15.639 watch people doing the you know, you know, they do 232 00:10:15.679 --> 00:10:19.360 the breakdowns, and I want to see what I'm learning, 233 00:10:19.480 --> 00:10:22.240 what it is that people actually receive from those moments 234 00:10:22.639 --> 00:10:26.080 that it makes it more elated than the things that 235 00:10:26.120 --> 00:10:29.120 I think is dope. But I'm on, like I said, 236 00:10:29.120 --> 00:10:30.279 I'm somewhere up there. 237 00:10:30.200 --> 00:10:32.600 That's some big, like bigger artistry type things. Because it's 238 00:10:32.679 --> 00:10:35.200 like it's your craft. It's something that you like, no 239 00:10:35.240 --> 00:10:37.159 one else could see the inside of your brain. 240 00:10:37.240 --> 00:10:39.240 But you I don't even like watching my like. 241 00:10:39.639 --> 00:10:41.600 You know, I'm the same way. I never watched anything 242 00:10:41.600 --> 00:10:43.600 I ever did. I'm like, if other people like it, 243 00:10:43.639 --> 00:10:46.120 then that I must be doing something right, because I'm not. 244 00:10:46.519 --> 00:10:49.200 I just critique myself to the point where it's like 245 00:10:49.679 --> 00:10:52.679 it's just like yourself. 246 00:10:51.720 --> 00:10:53.440 To the like, or it's like you get like I 247 00:10:53.440 --> 00:10:54.480 get annoyed with myself. 248 00:10:54.519 --> 00:10:55.600 I don't watch my interviews. 249 00:10:55.639 --> 00:10:57.600 I used to not even leave like voice messages because 250 00:10:57.600 --> 00:10:58.840 I'd be a note with my voice, which. 251 00:11:00.120 --> 00:11:03.240 Yeah, I would see like my interviews and not want 252 00:11:03.440 --> 00:11:05.200 like not watch them. Or like even when I did 253 00:11:05.240 --> 00:11:10.360 a Rhythm and Flow on Netflix, everybody was amped up 254 00:11:10.360 --> 00:11:12.559 when it was coming on, and I was like, I 255 00:11:12.559 --> 00:11:14.279 didn't even want to watch it, Like after I just 256 00:11:14.320 --> 00:11:16.320 filmed this whole season and I didn't even want to 257 00:11:16.360 --> 00:11:17.120 sit down and watch it. 258 00:11:17.919 --> 00:11:20.120 But there's that because of your critiqueness or is it 259 00:11:20.159 --> 00:11:21.960 because you're like I already lived it, like I already 260 00:11:22.000 --> 00:11:22.279 did it. 261 00:11:22.799 --> 00:11:25.159 I don't know what it is. I don't know what 262 00:11:25.240 --> 00:11:29.159 it is. Maybe it's some nervousness too maybe it's nervousness too. 263 00:11:29.639 --> 00:11:31.600 Maybe I feel like maybe the feedback whatever. 264 00:11:31.639 --> 00:11:33.279 But then it's like you're probably like you said, you're 265 00:11:33.320 --> 00:11:35.399 so like a into some things that you'll watch it 266 00:11:35.399 --> 00:11:37.559 from apart, like from a side or leant another feedback, 267 00:11:37.600 --> 00:11:38.919 but you don't want to watch it with nobody. 268 00:11:39.679 --> 00:11:44.039 You know what it is, man, I'm a perfectionist real 269 00:11:44.159 --> 00:11:48.519 and I'm always feeling like I could improve something. But 270 00:11:48.600 --> 00:11:53.440 maybe I'm too hard on myself because There's been times 271 00:11:53.480 --> 00:11:57.120 when I look back and I re listened to something 272 00:11:58.080 --> 00:12:00.799 and it was amazing, and I'm like, oh, I slept 273 00:12:00.879 --> 00:12:03.759 on that shit, Like I just did that with this 274 00:12:03.799 --> 00:12:07.000 other song I wrote called Runaway, and I slept on 275 00:12:07.039 --> 00:12:09.159 it when I first did it, and now I listened 276 00:12:09.159 --> 00:12:10.759 to it yesterday and I'm like, Yo, this shit is 277 00:12:10.799 --> 00:12:16.159 a masterpiece. So again, maybe because I'm trying to humanize 278 00:12:16.159 --> 00:12:19.919 myself a lot more to I wasn't really open to 279 00:12:21.039 --> 00:12:24.200 like feeling a lot, you know. And I think that's 280 00:12:24.240 --> 00:12:27.440 another reason why I missed the females early on, Because. 281 00:12:27.240 --> 00:12:29.240 Do you feel like we were suppressing it because of 282 00:12:29.279 --> 00:12:31.360 like earlier things on in life that you didn't want it, 283 00:12:31.399 --> 00:12:33.159 Like those feelings. 284 00:12:32.759 --> 00:12:38.639 When I was sixteen, my father was murdered. And when 285 00:12:38.639 --> 00:12:43.080 that happened, I started to express myself in writing and 286 00:12:43.120 --> 00:12:48.759 through literature. So I was reading you know, Robert Frost, 287 00:12:48.799 --> 00:12:53.759 Emily Dickinson, I got Allan Poe, Shakespeare, and I was 288 00:12:53.799 --> 00:12:58.440 studying all the nuances and mechanisms of writing. Like I 289 00:12:58.559 --> 00:13:03.159 just basically put myself into that whole scope of literature 290 00:13:03.200 --> 00:13:04.039 and writing. 291 00:13:03.759 --> 00:13:06.320 Because that's how you wanted to express yourself or how 292 00:13:06.360 --> 00:13:07.360 you could. 293 00:13:07.240 --> 00:13:11.480 Be latching onto something that I that I found interesting, 294 00:13:11.919 --> 00:13:14.679 and I just went deep, deep, deep into that and 295 00:13:14.720 --> 00:13:16.279 that turned into rap music. 296 00:13:16.559 --> 00:13:18.399 Right were you when you started rapping? 297 00:13:20.240 --> 00:13:22.480 Well, when I started writing, I was sixteen when my 298 00:13:22.559 --> 00:13:24.559 dad died, right, But when I started rapping, I was 299 00:13:24.559 --> 00:13:27.320 like around eighteen. It was like high school. And when 300 00:13:27.320 --> 00:13:31.240 I when I went to this high school, these kids was, 301 00:13:31.279 --> 00:13:37.399 you know, at the lunch table something. No, they was rapping. 302 00:13:37.480 --> 00:13:40.399 I was looking. I'm like, I could do that, you know, 303 00:13:40.440 --> 00:13:43.120 because I'm fast, I'm witty, I'm funny, I can make 304 00:13:43.159 --> 00:13:45.039 a joke. And it was more like like. 305 00:13:45.600 --> 00:13:47.919 Your timing was like way ahead of everybody else. 306 00:13:47.960 --> 00:13:51.360 It ended up being because when I when I first started, 307 00:13:51.399 --> 00:13:53.519 I didn't know I didn't know, right, But it was 308 00:13:53.519 --> 00:13:55.919 just more like snapping on each other, but with rhymes 309 00:13:55.919 --> 00:13:58.840 and stuff. Oh you wear glasses, you four eyes and whatever, right, 310 00:13:59.159 --> 00:14:00.960 and I'm like, oh, I got jokes and ship when 311 00:14:01.000 --> 00:14:03.159 I slid and did when everybody went crazy, I was 312 00:14:03.200 --> 00:14:03.960 kind of looking shit. 313 00:14:04.039 --> 00:14:06.360 They like it like I'm funny, right, I'm funny. 314 00:14:06.440 --> 00:14:07.960 And then I already knew I was funny though, because 315 00:14:07.960 --> 00:14:10.200 I always was class clown, always was you know, I'm 316 00:14:10.200 --> 00:14:13.120 that guy. So I just started adding. So what I 317 00:14:13.159 --> 00:14:16.799 would do is I would finish my work early and 318 00:14:16.840 --> 00:14:20.360 write a rap before lunch so. 319 00:14:20.320 --> 00:14:21.879 You could be ready to go. I'm a battle at 320 00:14:21.879 --> 00:14:24.799 the lunch so ready. 321 00:14:24.840 --> 00:14:26.960 It was a thing like I'm walking down the hallway. 322 00:14:27.000 --> 00:14:29.120 It's like the rocky theme music, you. 323 00:14:29.080 --> 00:14:33.519 Know, dum you go. You ready to get the lunch. 324 00:14:34.080 --> 00:14:35.559 Lunch time ain't change. 325 00:14:35.360 --> 00:14:38.480 Right now, man. And it was a thing. And that's 326 00:14:38.600 --> 00:14:42.000 that was the birth of that was the birth of 327 00:14:42.279 --> 00:14:46.200 me rapping and getting into this craft. And you know so, 328 00:14:47.159 --> 00:14:53.240 but I immediately went for astronomical. I skipped everything in 329 00:14:53.279 --> 00:14:57.679 the middle, like I went for like when I realized 330 00:14:57.720 --> 00:15:02.679 I had something, I went for like the greatest way 331 00:15:02.720 --> 00:15:03.559 you can express shit. 332 00:15:03.799 --> 00:15:04.600 Zero undred. 333 00:15:04.720 --> 00:15:06.240 I went from zero to one hundred. So I was 334 00:15:06.320 --> 00:15:11.120 like challenging the way I write shit. So I was like, yeah, 335 00:15:11.120 --> 00:15:15.559 I want to write a rhyme where it has straight a's, 336 00:15:15.600 --> 00:15:18.559 like every word starts with A in the entire rhyme, 337 00:15:18.679 --> 00:15:26.240 like just saying bizarre shit to she's fast, she's quick 338 00:15:26.840 --> 00:15:29.600 in part two you'll be in part two, right, right? 339 00:15:29.840 --> 00:15:34.519 But you know, but that's talent though, like going everything 340 00:15:34.559 --> 00:15:36.759 and like even not just as talented to do and 341 00:15:37.120 --> 00:15:40.159 actually master that, but even to think that idea, to 342 00:15:40.320 --> 00:15:43.039 do that, to make your mind because you're basically challenging 343 00:15:43.080 --> 00:15:43.399 your mind. 344 00:15:43.720 --> 00:15:45.799 You're making your share. You know what we share? What 345 00:15:46.000 --> 00:15:51.720 we share, we share audaciousness. It's the audacity, right, And 346 00:15:51.799 --> 00:15:56.120 I think that's the because the mind and body can't 347 00:15:56.159 --> 00:16:01.360 separate chemical reaction, Like, right, you don't know, the mind 348 00:16:01.399 --> 00:16:05.320 doesn't know, the body doesn't know crack cocaine from sugar. 349 00:16:06.320 --> 00:16:10.000 It's because it's a chemical reaction, same thing released in sex. 350 00:16:10.600 --> 00:16:14.279 So we're looking for this chemical because the biochemistry of 351 00:16:14.559 --> 00:16:20.120 who we are, right, So audacity, same thing. Kobe Bryant, 352 00:16:20.440 --> 00:16:24.120 Michael Jordan, Mike Tyson, this like, oh you want them? 353 00:16:24.200 --> 00:16:26.639 If there's three seconds left and you want to take 354 00:16:26.679 --> 00:16:27.360 the shot. 355 00:16:27.159 --> 00:16:29.039 Right, I'm going for it. 356 00:16:29.039 --> 00:16:32.720 It takes such so much audacity to do things. And 357 00:16:32.759 --> 00:16:37.200 when people can do that, like you notice sometimes right, 358 00:16:38.080 --> 00:16:42.360 the guys who have the most audacity is the ones 359 00:16:42.399 --> 00:16:46.639 the girls be like, hmm, it's mysterious, Like I wonder 360 00:16:46.679 --> 00:16:49.480 what makes you so fucking confident? What makes you think 361 00:16:49.519 --> 00:16:51.399 that you know? And I think that's one of the 362 00:16:51.480 --> 00:16:56.639 qualities that I have that we all share intrinsically. When 363 00:16:56.720 --> 00:16:59.399 people do stuff that's so daring that that you know, 364 00:16:59.480 --> 00:17:02.679 the public be like right, and you're like fuck that, 365 00:17:03.000 --> 00:17:07.559 like right, and that rebellious, that rebellious shit, And so 366 00:17:08.720 --> 00:17:11.240 that's what I That's what the inception of my thoughts are. 367 00:17:11.279 --> 00:17:13.200 I'm like, one day I was in my room. I 368 00:17:13.279 --> 00:17:16.720 was super poor, and I'm just in this little room. 369 00:17:16.799 --> 00:17:19.039 It was so small and I have posters of every 370 00:17:19.160 --> 00:17:22.640 rapper wrapped around the whole wall in the room was 371 00:17:22.680 --> 00:17:24.799 so small that my bed took up half the room 372 00:17:25.599 --> 00:17:28.160 and it was just so small as it's sneakers everywhere, 373 00:17:28.160 --> 00:17:30.599 and just like I remember this room like it was yesterday, 374 00:17:31.000 --> 00:17:34.640 and I was like, I'm going to be the best rapper, 375 00:17:35.960 --> 00:17:37.680 Like one day I'm going to be the best rapper. 376 00:17:38.000 --> 00:17:41.960 And at what age was this? 377 00:17:41.960 --> 00:17:47.480 This was like after high school, so maybe like nineteen twenty. 378 00:17:47.640 --> 00:17:50.039 Yeah, but that's I mean, for me, it was the 379 00:17:50.079 --> 00:17:52.599 sense where I was like, I don't know why or how, 380 00:17:52.680 --> 00:17:54.400 but people are going to have my name in their mouth. 381 00:17:55.000 --> 00:17:59.799 People are gonna know me. And that's just what it isn't. 382 00:17:58.880 --> 00:18:03.400 Know why your things in their mind. That's a bar 383 00:18:03.599 --> 00:18:04.839 that's that. 384 00:18:06.000 --> 00:18:08.359 But that's really like what it was. I'm from a 385 00:18:08.400 --> 00:18:09.839 small town, not knowing whatever. 386 00:18:09.880 --> 00:18:12.519 I didn't see are you from? I'm from a small 387 00:18:12.559 --> 00:18:13.839 town outside of San Antonio. 388 00:18:14.000 --> 00:18:14.599 What's it called. 389 00:18:14.599 --> 00:18:19.480 It's called Castroville, Texas. Castraville, Yes, very small, like twenty 390 00:18:19.480 --> 00:18:22.920 two hundred people. Yeah, so it was really small and 391 00:18:22.960 --> 00:18:24.880 it was like one of those things that no offense 392 00:18:24.920 --> 00:18:26.359 to any of the people that were there. But I 393 00:18:26.400 --> 00:18:31.160 didn't fit in there, like a really like white place. Yes, yes, 394 00:18:31.200 --> 00:18:34.160 predominantly white Mexican of race. But it's like, so I'm 395 00:18:34.240 --> 00:18:36.200 a military brat, so we were there. I was born in 396 00:18:36.200 --> 00:18:38.480 Panama and I was raised in Texas there and so 397 00:18:38.839 --> 00:18:41.920 for me, for whatever reason, I just didn't ever fit in. 398 00:18:42.119 --> 00:18:43.759 And I you know, I did all the things we 399 00:18:43.759 --> 00:18:45.559 were supposed to do. I went, you know, I graduated 400 00:18:45.559 --> 00:18:50.720 all that stuff, but I just didn't see myself dating, marrying, 401 00:18:50.920 --> 00:18:52.839